deviantART: by:SearchMyHeart http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:SearchMyHeart&section=today deviantART RSS for by:SearchMyHeart en-us Copyright 2010, deviantART.com Tue, 05 Jan 2010 19:51:56 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Im a walking disaster! http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/26036905/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/26036905/ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 01:27:23 PDT

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Please can someone explain to me why such things happen to me!!!
Ive tried but failed.

You see yesterday i decided to go shopping after work so im waitting at the bus stop minding my own business, quite happy that the work shift is over.
When suddenly this guy loses control of his bike.Mounts the pavement and sends me flying into some railings......He continues on his very drunken way weaving in and out of the road,leaving me in a painful mess on the floor.

I rang the police straight away as he was sure to cause a major road accident soon.
I picked myself up off the floor and still decided to go shopping lol. I couldnt let a guy like that ruin my day,certainly not when i want to buy some sexy underwear lol.even with some bruised ribs lol

But i just wish i could make sense as to why such things always happen to me.If anyone can enlighten me i will be eternally grateful.

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]]> ~SearchMyHeart Legless http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/23534457/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/23534457/ Thu, 05 Mar 2009 02:33:34 PST
Well once again ive had a slight incident lol.
Im sure im a magnet for bad things to happen to me.

Ive been really enjoying my work up until lately, and then a new resident arrives.
This resident is unlike all the others as this one gets violent. Its not there fault as it is because of a mental illness, but it still affects all us staff.

The first time it affected me was last wednesday evening when i went to stop them stripping off in the middle of the lounge. Well they didnt like that and decided to start hitting me. Then again in the same night they stripping right in front of another resident. I go to stop them again, this time they scratched and hit my neck. I had had enough at that point so called for some more help.
This incident though slight still really shook me up and i didnt want to deal with them again. Lucky for me i had that weekend off.:)

Alas monday morning comes and i set of for work quite happy but sleepy. I get to work to find we are understaffed so i had to do the job of two! SO im running around trying to get all the work done ,which i did im proud to say lol. Until i got to bring down the last resident from upstairs. I have them on the stairlift all ready and set to go when i notice that other resident has climbed up the stairs. So i head down to where they are on the stairs and try to get them to come down. Well they werent having any of it. There hands start flying ready to hit me again, i put up my arms to protect me and next minute im falling backwards downstairs.

I was hurt quite bad as i ended up badly twisted on the stairs. SO im taken off to hospital where im told ive torn the ligament in my ankle, bruised my ribs and done soft tissue damage to my back and neck. And some other damage i rather not mention at this time.So now im all strapped up ,Hence i have to be signed off work for some time.

I cant even make a cup of tea myself now as i make it full in the kitchen and by time ive hopped to my bed its empty again lol!!!Im pitiful!lol

SO thats the bad news, the good news is im now able to do some art while im laid up!
SO be prepared for more art coming your way from little old me.

End of story lol

]]> ~SearchMyHeart Tagged http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/22888095/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/22888095/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 15:26:31 PST :iconlaurenisdreaming: told me to do this! lol I just cant beleive the answers it gave!

Rules:
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first 4 definitions it gives you.
Tag 3 people.

Your name: Rachel

results

1.The most edible female name
Rachel is sooo edible - especially with cream

2.Hebrew name meaning 'an ewe', or 'little lamb'. Symbolizes purity.
( me pure?!!!!)

3.rachel's are usually cute and pretty. have a good body and are smart. they also tend to be popular and silly and like to fool around
damn that girl is hot she's probably a rachel.
(Crazy!)

4.a purehearted, kind, and compassionate woman; a good listener and a leader with the love of many .
(aww if only! lol)

for the next one ask yourself what you should be doing right now!my answer is:sleeping

1.a mystical kind of magic which sends u to an alternate plane of existence in which the magical gremlins give u pro plus

2.GET OUT GRANDMA! I was sleeping.
Those were sleeping noises grandma.

3.Gaining one's confidence and luring them into a desired area to kill or beat them because of something they have done.

4.When u close your eyes and think of perverted things, which will never actually happen. (LOL)

next question , whats your favourite colour? Blue

1.The feeling when u wake up at 7 in the morning and remembering it's a monday.

2. sad
3. a color, as in the sky or oceans
4.Material, used by a stand-up comedian, that is considered crude or obscene

Next question, month of birth: May

1.cool; sexy; hot
2.may is the month where teachers think that they can control a classroom but really nothing gets done and no one cares about their grades anymore. usually this happens because summer break is only 30 days away
3. the fifth month in the year.
4. marijuana sprayed with a household aerosol chemical to enhance the Psychoactive effects of the dankness.

Next question, who was the last person you talked to? work collegue Denise.

1.A cute girl.
2.A gun.
3.A skilled person.
4.A bird.

Next question, one of your nicknames? "oh great!" Booboo.

1.A minor injury. Usually kissed if it is on a young child
2.A BooBoo is a buzzy and loveable bear who adores you no matter what and makes you feel like your life is just beginning
3.used as a ridiculous pet name for anyone you may or may not know. more free flowing when alcohol is involved.
4.booboo meaning boobilicously

so there you go i did it! Now its your turn!

]]> ~SearchMyHeart YES YES YES!!! http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/22407856/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/22407856/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 05:05:55 PST
I just had a job interview and I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!
OH what a beautiful year this is going to be!!!!
Yippee!!


mmm i will calm down soon dont worry lol

But for now im singing!!! Im so Happy!

]]> ~SearchMyHeart Well heres a surprise! http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/21848504/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/21848504/ Sat, 06 Dec 2008 13:22:32 PST
Well i been in hospital again, and thankfull just got out. Stupid body is playing up on me again!
Got a blood clot on my lung or so they say.
And some various other strange things are going on with my blood!So now im very bruised from all the needles they wanted to put in me.Hence i wont be painting for a little time

Im sure my body does this just to tease me when everything just seems to be going ok for once.

Oh well at least im alive......i think!




LOVE YOU ALL!!!

]]> ~SearchMyHeart Can You help! http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/21342803/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/21342803/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 15:17:26 PST My good friend :icondsantiag: suggested i put it in my journal.
I ask that as many people as possible please add this to your journal so that it can be seen by the whole world!

Eddie Gibson
Eddie Gibson has not been heard from since October 24th 2004
when he emailed his mother to say he was planning to return to UK from Cambodia
on a flight due to leave Bangkok, Thailand on 1st November.
'We love him and we miss him. We want him home.'

eddie gibson

Latest News : August 2008
Investigations are still ongoing with the British Police and the Cambodian Police.
Eddie's parents say "We will never give up until we know what has happened to Eddie or until he returns".
Eddie has not been heard of since he sent an email from Phnom Penh saying he was setting off to return home to the UK. That email was dated October 24, 2004.
BBC Radio and Television carry the story. See BBC From Our Own Correspondent and Southern Counties radio
Can You Help?
If you have any information that can help us to find Eddie there are various ways you can make contact:

Email: joclark17@yahoo.co.uk
or go to [link] for further information
Cambodia Hotline:
from inside Cambodia 0128 01589,
from outside Cambodia +855 128 01589

British Embassy in Phnom Penh:
email BRITEMB@online.com.kh or
telephone +855 23 427124

Sussex Police Hotline: 0845 6070 999

Press Enquiries: telephone 0775 388512 ]]> ~SearchMyHeart IM SO HAPPY!!! http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/20247809/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/20247809/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 06:37:48 PDT
I just have to share this news with you all!
On Friday i recieved a very surprising mail.
This is what it said!

BIENNALE INTERNAZIONALE DELL’ARTE CONTEMPORANEA FIRENZE - FORTEZZA DA BASSO - 5/13 december 2009
Dear Artist,
We would like to invite you to exhibit your artwork in the next edition of the Florence Biennale. After reviewing your artwork present in internet, the Internal Committee has expressed favourable opinion for your participation. The seventh edition of the Biennale will be held from 5 to 13 December 2009.
Gilbert & George in 2007, Christo and Jeanne-Claude and Richard Anuskiewicz in 2007 and David Hockney in 2003 were awarded with the maximum recognition, the Lorenzo il Magnifico award for their career. The Biennale attracted an impressive number of enthusiasts, artists and visitors. Each day of the fifth edition was studded with collateral events and conferences, such as that of Gregorio Luke, Former Director of the MOLAA at Long Beach, digital art was also featured with the participation of the Ars Electronica Center of Linz, among others that can be seen in our website [link] The exhibition doesn’t receive any public neither private financial assistance. The exhibition is entirely funded by artists, that can search for sponsors independently in their own country. To those possible sponsors indicated by artists, Arte Studio will provide to send a formal request. Sponsors will be published both in the general catalogue and the website, as you can see by visiting the sponsor’s page present in our website, that helped some artists in the past biennales.You will find all the necessary information in the participation documents that we will send you, to the address you will send us to the following e-mail info@artestudio.net Now available the DVD of the Florence Biennale 2007. Click Bookshop [link]
Best Regards,
Internal Committee of the Biennale
I really cant beleive it!
I never applied for it! But hey im going to Florence!!
It says i can find sponsors too to sponsor me:)

Now only thing is i can only exhibit 3 of my pieces!!
So i thought i would get you all to help me choose.
I will be making a poll and i want you to vote which one of my current ones should go:)
I look forward to seeing which ones you pick:)

Thank you my friends:)
:hug::glomp::smooch: ]]> ~SearchMyHeart Just to say a big..... http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/20181992/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/20181992/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 10:14:56 PDT
You have all shown me so much support since i arrived on the Deviant art Scene back in April 2008.
Since that time i have made some truely wonderful friends and i think you deserve to be reconised
SO i wish to thank
:icondsantiag:

:iconpainstains:

:iconyoshidaime:

:iconquietlyinsane:

:iconkekejefferis:



I hope to be back to my normal sel... ]]> ~SearchMyHeart The light ahead. http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/20036950/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/20036950/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 07:50:05 PDT America was amazing but i had something happen on my lastnight there.I wont go into details. But it really shook me up.
And now that im back im at a point in my life when i dont know which path to take.
I think my paintings lately have been showing alittle of how im feeling.
I will try to paint some more light ones soon i hope.
Anybody got any ideas of what i can paint as my mind is blank right now.


I have nothing left holding me to this place,so i think i may try to travel more. See new lands make a new life.
I been accepted for a working visa for canada so that is one idea. But who knows where life will take me.
I will just let it flow and see where i end up i think

But i want to thank you all for being here for me, for being such good friends. I send big hugs to you all:):hug:

]]> ~SearchMyHeart Im Back! http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/19981846/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/19981846/ Sat, 16 Aug 2008 04:19:01 PDT Utah, Nevada, Colorado, Arizona, New mexico, California and Mexico!
I will be posting up more pictures soon! Once i got over the jet lag lol! Thank you all for keeping in touch while i was way:)

]]> ~SearchMyHeart I cant believe this happened to me:( http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/19438408/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/19438408/ Thu, 17 Jul 2008 01:22:01 PDT At gone 2am there is loud banging and scrapeing noise.Then the lights went out. Zeus is barking crazy.
Im scared to death as someone tries to get into my house. I phone police and while i wait i grab a big bread knife. I was so scared i couldnt see a thing.I expected to see at any moment somebody in my house. Then i hear screeching of tyres as a car out side pulls off.
The police arrive to late.The person had already gone. They search around outside anyway.there is marks on the garage door and one on the main door to my home.
The police help me to get the lights back on,but the fusebox is in the garage and my friend's bmw is in the way (hes left it at mine while going to germany) So the police man trys to push it,but its on gravel and he cant do it. SO i hand him the keys and he goes to reverse it away from the garage.BUT he didnt have it in reverse! He crashed it into the garage!!!!
I couldnt believe it im in shock with fear and now this.
Still he finally gets it in reverse and helps get my lights back on.
He tells me not to sleep in my bed room tonight as that is the first place a intruder will go.so here i am lying on the sofa completely shattered but unable to sleep im so scared.

I guess you could say i had a crap night.
But at least im still alive

What really freaks me out is i got a email a week or so ago,it was really horrible,saying how i was going to be killed and that my throat would be cut sometime after midnight:(
RIght now im seriously scared to pieces.Im just so glad i got zeus.

Apart from that not much is happening.
Im going to Vegas next week And after tonights happenings i really cant wait to be away from here.

I hope to get lots of photos and paintings done while away so hopefully i will be posting new things soon.

]]> ~SearchMyHeart Coming and going! http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/18649003/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/18649003/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 16:48:06 PDT This move just seems never ending! I have been up to scotland and down 350 miles to england 4 times now!
Now im here for the very last time the house is now empty and i have just finished cleaning it from top to bottom. Tomorrow morning i will travel back down. Unfortunately i have no internet connection at the place im going as i am in temporary accomodation until the 18th june. Then hopefully i will be back:)
But who knows by time i get back maybe i will have lots of new paintings to put up:)

Will miss you all my friends:) You all mean so much to me.
Cant wait to be back with you all again soon!
Be good now but if you cant be good be careful!!!lol

Love you all!:heart:

]]> ~SearchMyHeart Where life takes me http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/18424809/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/18424809/ Wed, 21 May 2008 03:12:46 PDT It is a good question..........
To be honest i just dont know ,i am just flowing with the ebb and flow in the tide of life.

Tomorrow i head down into England to a new home. Not what i really wish to do as i love this country. But after searching endlessly for weeks it has come to his.
Better to have a roof over ones head then a cardboard box.

So i will be away for some time. SO no more deviations for awhile
But i plan to work on my latest painting while i have no internet so hopefully it will be ready for when i finally do get reconnected.:)

So it is not good bye my friends just see you soon i hope:)

Take care and my thoughts are with you all!

]]> ~SearchMyHeart From Bad to worse! http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/18115562/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/18115562/ Thu, 01 May 2008 10:35:14 PDT However...............
Just after we had packed our furniture in the van and sent it on its way to the new house,i get a phone call from the new landlord.He coldheartedly told me he had changed his mind so not to bother signing the new lease!

So again i have no home and on monday i was supposed to leave here! Have not got any idea what to do!!!!
Then after getting off the phone to him i went to feed the baby bunny only to find him in distress and he shortly died in my hands aged 14 days.
I dont think i have cried so much in a very long time.

Im sat here now after having search everywhere for a new home and i have no idea what to do. I must leave this place, and on wednesday i have to face going back into hospital.
I guess u can say im very sad right now.
Some people would say i must be a wicked person for so much bad things to happen, or just that i have no luck.
I know i do my best, treat others as kindly as possible but it seems life just likes to kick me when im down.

Maybe one day i will rise above all this!
I guess we will just have to wait and see

]]> ~SearchMyHeart One down one to go! http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/17972569/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/17972569/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 08:34:16 PDT
So now all i have to do is beat this illness!Which i will do my best to do.

On a different note i have now become surrogate mum to two cute little baby bunnies, who are 7 days old. I will put up some pictures of them for you to see:) Unfortunately the 3 other brothers and sisters were killed and there mum was attacked by some horrible rats!
As i sit here writing this the two little one are under my laptop on my lap,keeping themselves warm after i have just feed them.
They are so sweet. I just hope they will make it! I will do all i can to help them survive.

Well i guess i better get back to work! I have lots of packing to do!lol:)

]]> ~SearchMyHeart Life so far. http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/17762634/ http://SearchMyHeart.deviantart.com/journal/17762634/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 11:40:52 PDT
Sad to say i may not be able to update with any more of my work for a while. Life is full of twists and turns, ups and downs. Unfortunately mine is on a downward curve at the moment. In the next month i have to have one operation and i also have to leave my home due to my oh so horrible landlord, and find a new one:( So as you may see my art is not on my list of priorities just right now.

But hey it can only get better! I will find my new home and it will be better then the one i have now. And i will beat this illness i have!

I just got to keep on beleiving!

But for now i thank you all.

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