deviantART: by:Seppo-Ilmarien http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Seppo-Ilmarien&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Seppo-Ilmarien en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 07:48:08 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Little Landon Comes Home http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28680390/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28680390/ Mon, 30 Nov 2009 20:19:40 PST
Big things will come soon,
Regardless of how good or bad they may be,
Big things are coming.

Take care.
-Daniel.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Read Me? http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28634286/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28634286/ Sat, 28 Nov 2009 16:31:01 PST [link]
Tell me what you think.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien A Title With No Substance http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28549012/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28549012/ Tue, 24 Nov 2009 13:57:57 PST Mostly just a bit of a plug, for a band started by one of the creators of the intensely amazing "The Venture Brothers".

[link]

FTW.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien The Sea Of Names http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28396192/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28396192/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 14:27:27 PST
[link]

That's a buddy of mine, who plays the guitar.
Comment, rate, critique, all that good jazz.

[link]

That's a complete download of all the stuff he's done. Please feel free to distribute and spread the link/files around to all those you know.

I'm doing okay, could be better, but I'm far from depressed.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Immersion http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28373415/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28373415/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 11:41:42 PST So am I.

Chance and change.
Reason's range.

What do you say,
Shall we roll the dice?

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Sans Fear http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28287374/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/28287374/ Wed, 11 Nov 2009 08:16:23 PST You can't follow.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Kalevala http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/27443992/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/27443992/ Sun, 27 Sep 2009 08:34:39 PDT Everything in my little corner of the universe is strangely okay...Better.
All my ducks are getting in a row now, I'll be an adult soon; I've finally had someone tell me I need to get up and actually try and work to make a life for myself, friends are joining other friends on the sun-warmed-precipice known as relationships, and my own has taken a better turn because of it.

Not too mention the best season of all; fall, is finally waking from it's grumpy slumber.

Optimism is really nice, once you experience it.
Take care.
-Daniel

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Relationships And Other Dreary Things http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/26861482/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/26861482/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 17:16:24 PDT
I bought a 3 month subscription, so expect a lot of useless stuff as I start to meddle in the dark art known better as "Premium Membership".

Hope you're all doing good.
-Seppo

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 14 - Passenger http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/26315078/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/26315078/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 09:47:23 PDT


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My love for you is like a truck,
Speeding into the misty distorted edges of the humid night air.
Casting cacophonous crashes into the thick and heavy plaster of the city.

Were I something more, I'd take you out of this place, and away from the
Ghouls and ghosts that seem perfectly content to keep you here, as the last
Bastion of their chance to live their live vicariously through you, a small
Pale vessel that stands ever defiant against the stifling prison of which you
Have never flown from.

O' love of mine:
What hangs around the bend in our path, where the neatly trimmed grass and plants erupt into wild overgrowth, entwining fingers ever deepening into the cobblestones that line out way?

[link]

This journal was coded by =brgtt - graphics by *xyphid
]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Bury The Hatchet (and remember WHERE you bury it). http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/25763475/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/25763475/ Sun, 05 Jul 2009 22:20:16 PDT
Writing has become like therapy to me. The notepad that stares blankly, asking "how do you feel today?" keeps me sane when I need it to, and I always walk away feeling accomplished, even if I just mash keys and type dirty words for twenty or so minutes. Perhaps, if there is demand; I'll post the logs sometime so anyone who checks my little corner in the sea of fodder that is the world wide web can read it.

Love is still in the air for me. And the scent is growing larger by the day. She continues to amaze me, by doing nothing more than caring about me. Miracles may not occur around the world every day, prayers are not always answered. But every time I hear the words, every time I get my daily three-syllables;

I feel like God is in the room.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien We Don't Want This http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/24974944/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/24974944/ Wed, 27 May 2009 07:29:33 PDT
I'm writing again, though at a much more reduced pace.
Most of the time I have is with either mein female', or mein friends.

Also; on a side note.
Everyone check out Amorphis: Skyforger.
It's damn good music; and it also tells the story of a Character in the Kalevala called Seppo Ilmarien. (sound a bit familiar?)

Take care people.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Carving A Giant In His Name http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/22435665/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/22435665/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 14:48:58 PST
Anyways!

My life has changed a good deal in the three or four days (a bad pun, savvy?) it's been since I last updated this thing, and I don't really know where to begin.

I don't live with my parent's anymore. They moved to a quaint little town about an hour away from me, and I'm staying with the closest friend I have (Outside of Gabby and Seth) in the town they have so recently moved from. However; due to complications with my sister; they are soon moving back to said town, and much MUCH closer to my love's home than before. (Perhaps god does exist?)

The bond I share with my significant other is progressively growing stronger with each passing day. We're engaged now, to all those who care...If I haven't mentioned it already that is >>;

Oh! I got suspended for three days. Some guy kept pointing a laser at us at lunch, and when we asked him to stop, said something unsavory about my love.
So I chucked a bottle of Nos Energy Drink his way, he stands up, and comes over. Headbutts me repeatedly and ends up hurting himself. Oh, and Gabby hurt her hand punching him in the side of the head D;

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien The Wheels Below. http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/19943806/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/19943806/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 22:55:57 PDT ) on Gaia.

Sorry I've been away for soooooo long ;_;
I'll try to be on here more often...
-raises hand-
Scouts honor! (even though I wouldn't be caught dead in the scouts.)I've missed DA..just haven't had alot to post as of lately. All I've really worked on this summer is a long ass fanfic for a game I played as a lad (a year ago D: )

Eh...maybe I'l post it ^^

How're all of you?

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Know http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/18437665/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/18437665/ Wed, 21 May 2008 19:49:41 PDT
This has been a roller-coaster of a week. Highs (lots and LOTS of highs) and only one low thus far. (thought it was a major low...;-;)

I've been really busy lately. And I've not written anything new in about four days...All that stuff I've posted was stuff I edited recently; and threw on here to avoid seeming like a lazy bastard. (which I must confess; I am)

Life is actually going pretty well for me right now. (minus one large inconvenience...)

In other news;

After three and a half months,

I am no longer single. I've never been happier than I am right now. And the future looks bright. So here in-front of all of you, I proclaim my love:

I love you Huntar. With all my heart.
I never want to be without you ever again.

Goodbye to you all.
~Have a good day.

Daniel

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 13 - The Insanity http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/18289886/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/18289886/ Mon, 12 May 2008 13:40:59 PDT
Let’s say you are the principal at a medium-sized high school in a medium-sized town. Your school has a pretty good rating, your students’ test scores are high, and you feel accomplished. Your daughter, let’s call her Debbie, goes to the very same school. Debbie is fairly popular, fairly attractive, liked by all, you know the type. She’s got her friends, you’ve got your big desk, and everyone is happy.

Well, one day Debbie comes into your office crying about how some boy named Ted, or Todd, or something knocked her up and now he won’t foot half the bill for the abortion. Naturally, your blood boils. You start thinking violent thoughts. You begin to want to act irrationally. This is the moment you should use to quickly seize your emotions and use them to mentally draft your agenda. Let us step back for a moment to discuss some of your preliminary options.

You have to begin already knowing what kind of lunatic you want to be. This is a personal choice that should be determined well before the decision to go mad is made. There are several types of madmen. They range from reclusive, murder-you-in-the-dark types, to brazen, machine-gun-you-in-the-mall types. Yours should fit your personality. Don’t try to operate outside your mental means or your physical abilities. If you’re not a super-genius, you’re not, and it goes the same if you’re not a brutish, strangle-happy oaf. No matter what type you choose, your actions must be quick, and it is imperative that you find your perfect niche so you can execute your plan as ruthlessly as possible.

Now, consider your daughter. Debbie may be your own flesh and blood, but she’s on the verge of dishonoring you and ending your career. You’ve got to make a decision; kill her or kill yourself. Since a true madman is prohibited from self-elimination, the correct choice should be obvious. Pick your method and strike with confidence. Be sure to hide the body away in a place that only you can access. You will need it later. The basement in your own house will do. Now that your hands are dirty, there’s no going back. You must see your plot to the end at all costs. Do not falter from the path to your real goal: revenge against the one that did this to you and Debbie.

You’ll need to eliminate any people who Debbie may have told. Start at the center of her circle of friends and work your way out. Take them out alone, one by one. Never confront them in groups. Take great care in transporting and hiding their bodies with Debbie’s so you don’t alert the others to what is going on. After you’ve finished with Debbie’s friends, you’ll need to collect any adults she may have confided in. Counselors, ministers, doctors, nurses, and other teachers are all potential candidates. Use caution in selecting them. Accuracy should be your greatest concern. You don’t want to off the wrong person and furthermore, you don’t want to let any guilty parties escape. These are circumstances that can get you caught before you’re ready.

After you have completed the first half of your plan, you should have a nice collection of bodies stashed in some secret location only known to you. It is now time to plan the revenge portion of your plot. You’ll need to do something convincingly demented. Here is where your skills as an artist will be tested.

Acquire some old church pews or park benches. Set them up in a row in the room where you hide your bodies. Arrange the decomposing corpses on the benches, sitting and facing the same direction. Put Debbie at the front of the room clothed in a bridal dress and veil. Place an empty chair next to her. Dress the other “guests” in nice clothes if you have them available. Set up the rest of the room to look like a church, complete with alter and décor. Don’t spend a lot of money. A few candles and white cloths placed about will do the trick. Remember, the real centerpiece is the group of rotten mummies staring blankly forward, well, and Debbie. It is her big day after all.

The next step is getting Ted, Todd, whatever his name is, to your secret lair. Send out an invitation. You may need to entice him somehow. You may need to trick him. Find out what his vices and weaknesses are and use them to your advantage. Your method is unimportant, just get him there.

Once he is inside your house, you must somehow overpower Ted and drag him downstairs. Knock him unconscious if you have to. Tie him to the empty chair beside Debbie but face him toward the wall. After he wakes up, you can explain your diabolical plot to him. It will help to br... ]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Grindhouse http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/18178229/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/18178229/ Mon, 05 May 2008 09:52:29 PDT ---

It's been alot harder to write DA-worthy pieces here lately. I find it more and more difficult to put words to paper (or a blank text document for that matter), and when I do, they usually end up in the trash heap.

It's not as though I have a reason to be like this either. Nothing is really out of place, or out of order. My life has actually been more than fair lately. My parents aren't being as hard on me lately; and school is near it's end. (not to mention I've missed 4 days of school straight) Maybe it's because I come from a very superstitious family. I think I'm worried that, in light of things going so well right now, something major is about to occur to counteract them.

I may not know a whole lot about the way the world works, but there is one thing I do know:
My luck doesn't last very long.

But aside from this completely baseless anxiety, and being a bit distanced from a certain someone, I suppose I'm doing ok. I've been sick for 6 days now, and I'm sure my schoolwork is piled all the way up to Bum-fuck, Egypt. I don't care though; I'm bound for summer-school already :'D

Thanks to everyone who has kept reading what I throw on here, and thanks for the kind words. You may not realize it, but you guys keep me going. I truly appreciate it.

- Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Tag! http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17923335/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17923335/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 07:05:50 PDT
1. tag 10 people (not the one who sent it to you!) (trev, shrimp, brandon, Bootchild) [only 4 people, but eh; fuck it.]
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all taggees on their profile that they have been tagged,
and link to your journal
5: Put an "x" in the box for yes, leave it blank for no.
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[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
[x] I hate my dad.
[x] I hate my mom.
[x] I have a brother.
[x] I have (a) sister(s).
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[xxxxxx] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox
[ ] I was born in a different country.
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[someday] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[want!] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[ I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x]I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi. [DISGUSTING]
[ ]I've been snowboarding.
[ ]I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x]I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I'm bi.
[ ] I'm gay.
[ ] I've had sex.
[x] I've had phone sex.
[x]'ve cybered.
[ ] I've had sex in public.
[ ]I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ]I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x]I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red li... ]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Insignificant http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17883608/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17883608/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 16:17:01 PDT Well; as normal as my "normal" gets anways.

---

My life's been up and down here lately. I've had days where I couldn't wait to get going, and days where I almost wanted to die. Alot has happened in the week since I last posted in this journal. I've done alot of growing as a person, and discovered alot about myself and my significant other. (whom without, I would've broken down a few times in the past seven days.)

I've never been much for religion; but I do believe in the concept of ebb and flow. For every good, there is an equal and opposite bad. I've hit a stretch of bad here lately, and I'm stuck wondering where the good is going to come back into play. Bad for both me, and for those I care about.

I'll remain optimistic.
And hope that my turn of luck runs just above the bend in my horizon.

Take care
~Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 12 - Bloodletter http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17734422/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17734422/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 15:51:07 PDT And to The Child Of The Rose; for carrying on inspite of said person. :heart:
Enjoy~
---
Your obituary and all of the sad refrains will be rife with terrible clichés (the final curtain call, the silver screen up in the sky) and tired, regurgitated lines from your long and illustrious career.

You will, no doubt, receive a very long and musically-challenged farewell at some fully tuxedoed and designer-laden affair where actors and actresses, alike, can practice their pained expressions and share wistful stories about how close they were to sucking your old and shriveled tits*. Because you were... old and shriveled, well past your prime. Bent over and hobbling. All of those years of over-acting can take their toll, even on a demi-god such as yourself.

*This is, of course, after they have presented themselves, in all of their finery, for the rest of the world to ogle

So, Hellspawn, the day has come. The curtain has closed and you will be sunk into the earth to begin your final career. A career of decomposition; of the slow and tedious breakdown of your flesh and tendons, hair and teeth, bones and fingernails. The last thing to go is the memory of you. It may last hundreds, thousands of years even, but it will eventually be food for the worms.

It is time, old gal, to pry that false smile, and all the facade of caring from your cold dead form.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien I Was Tagged! :B http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17595174/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17595174/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 18:34:19 PDT Daniel Ryan Petrie. Yes...like the Land Before Time Character. D:<

2) Male/Female?
Male >.>

3) Were you named after anyone?
Nah.

4) Does your name mean anything?
Iono.

5) Nickname(s)?
Olin, Danny, Teddy-Bear (the last being seldom used >.<;)

6) What do you think you look like?
Ugly.

7) Date of birth?
October 8th, 1991

8) Place of birth and current location?
A small town in Florida.

9) Nationality?
Native American/Irish/French

10) Astrology sign?
Libra (easily answered through #7)

11) Chinese astrology sign?
F--k if I know. :/

12) Religion?
I worship a bombshell :3

13) What's your favorite smell?
The smell of a certain someone's hair. >///<

14) Political Position?
Fuck Em All :D

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Cold soda

16) Hair + eye color?
Dark Brown. And blue/green. (I've been told I have very pretty eyes :3)

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
No.

18) What do you look like?
Better than you do ^^ (I'm smexeh xD)

19) Any unusual talents?
I play a bass...Not exactly unusual, but uncommon P;

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?
Righty.

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?
Straight as an arrow.

22) What do you do for a living?
Sell orphans on the black market.

23) What do you do for fun?
Cause trouble in my neighborhood.

24) Materials to work with?
My mind, and my bass. :D

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
A Wal Bass. :heart:

26) Have you met your grandparents?
Nope. All dead. (thank god....)

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
Girlfriend.

28) Crush?
Only one.

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
None.

30) Current worries?
People.

31) Favorite online guy/girl(s)?
Rave.

32) Favorite place to be?
With a certain someone.

33) Least favorite place to be?
My house.

34) Do you burn or tan?
Tan. I never burn :B

35) Ever break a bone?
Not yet.

36) What is your favorite cereal?
Trix \m/ \m/

37) Person you cry with?
Nope.

38) Any sisters?
One. And she's a whore. ^^

39) Any brothers?
One. Younger. Autistic.

40) Any pets?
A dog named Buster, and a cat named Simon.

41) An illness?
Depends; mental or physical? :3

42) A pager?
No.

43) A personal phone line?
No.

44) A cell phone?
Same as 43?

45) A visible birthmark?
Nope.

46) A pool or hot tub?
Both.

47) A car?
I own a shopping cart... >.>

48) Personality?
Easy-going.

49) Driving?
Note as of now.

50) Your clothing style?
Dark shirt. Blue jeans. Combat boots.

51) Room?
Disarray.

52) What’s missing?
My fucking mansion.

53) School?
High school...

54) Bed?
A mattress sitting on my floor.

55) Relationship with your parent(s)?
Eh...they're both hornier than schoolchildren...and they're asses most of the time. :/

56) Do you believe in yourself?
No.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?
I'm on the fence

58) Consider yourself a good listener?
I like to think I am.

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?
I wanna be in a band. -headbang-

60) Get along with your parents?
Nope,

61) Save your e-mail conversations?
Sometimes.

62) Pray?
No.

63) Believe in reincarnation?
No.

64) Brush your teeth twice a day?
Thrice. :\

65) Like to talk on the phone?
Depends on the person.

66) Like to eat?
Not really.

67) Like to exercise?
Didn't used to. But I've become more active.

68) Like to watch sports?
Nope.

69) Sing in the car?
I sing everywhere ^^

70) What is a dream that you have all the time?
From a particular day of school earlier this year.

71) Dream in color?
Most of the time.

7... ]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien A "Blue" Prius... http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17259038/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17259038/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 16:11:24 PDT :iconsystem-transit:'s help. (thank you for listening to me ramble D; :hug:)

I'm honestly just waiting to go back to school at this point. I have been since I got home Friday afternoon. I'd rather sit with my friends than sit home alone. >.<

How are all of you?

-Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Plaugelands http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17229711/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17229711/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 18:49:05 PST
My parents accused me today of both being a drug addict, and an anorexic. Joy. :\

And as always, I remain unstable emotionally. (Nothing new there eh?)

I'm honestly just waiting till I can go back to school.
Wonderfuly busy life I have eh? :P

Hope you're all fairing well.
-Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Subterfuge http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17134023/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17134023/ Sat, 01 Mar 2008 14:11:17 PST Though slightly longer, and alot more rambleous. =D

I've come to realise I never loved the one I just recently gave up pursuing. She was merely a distraction, a way to cope with the loss of who I was with before. I have realised this too late, and wasn't able to stop myself from telling said gal how I "felt" about her.

I don't ever believe we fully let go of our first love. Nor do I believe anyone ever gets closer to us, than said first love. Once one has loved and lost, one is hesitant to give oneself fully to another. This is due to the fear of losing. We become afraid of losing what we love. Some never truly love again after losing their first. Some never experience the first.

Why is it that moments that define who we are as a person are one's steeped in sorrow and misery? Is it because we become our most irrational when pain is inflicted upon our fragile selves? Why can't moments of contentness and peace be our definition?

And further more:
Why do I continue to love what I can't have?

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Of Mice And Men http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17092275/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17092275/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 16:41:29 PST
The person I have been pining after has rejected me. I will not find comfort or solace in the arms of said person. Now, or ever.
This is actually quite expected. And doesn't honestly affect me in the least.

Now for the bad news:
My sister and all of her children (Ages: 9,8,4,3,2,6-months) plus her "current" boyfriend, are moving into my two bedroom housetrailer.

Life's a bowl of fucking Cheerios.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 11 - Caterwaul http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17075503/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17075503/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 15:09:37 PST
What I choose to focus on however is the later emotion. Why is it anxiety I feel? It's as though I'm waiting for something to arrive, and it's unseasonably late. What exactly am I waiting for? Do I know of what's to come on some suconcious level? Will I ever know what I know, but don't know?

As most people do, I have someone to pine away after. I have something to pursue I guess. I've always had the notion that if one isn't pursuing another person, one isn't doing all that one is supposed to. I've always seen loving someone (and attempting to get them to do the same) as one of life's nessecsities. Why? I don't know.

Perhaps it stems from my own relationship with my parents. Which is shall we say, artificial? I don't feel it the right word, but it's as close as I'll come. Love was never a big part of my home life. Perhaps it is this, that causes me to reach out to all those around me the way I do.

An even greater question than those above:
If I value love so much, why am I afraid to pursue it? Is it fear of rejection? No value or self-worth? I think not. I think I may be afraid that if the one I love says no, that I will have failed at one of life's greatest purposes. That if she turns me away, I will have no one to pursue.

Do I wish she would say yes, agree to be with me?
Yes.

Will I work up the courage to risk all, throw caution, and what is basicaly my reason for existance at this point out the window, on the off chance that she might say yes to a question such as this, to a person such as me?

Maybe.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Umbra's War Drums http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17052297/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17052297/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 04:43:27 PST
I've begun having deja vu alot more often. It used to pop up occasionally, now it's happening (*does math*) 6 times a day on average. I've begun having extremely vivid nightmares. And when I awake, I'm usually in a deep state of sleep paralysis. (I say usually, because one time last week, I was able to move my hands right off.)

So to counter-act both the deja vu, (which is starting to give me migranes when it occurs.) and the nightmares/sleep paralysis, I've stopped sleeping. Not all together; that's impossible. I've decided to sleep in short bursts. 30 minutes at most. Then I wake up for two minutes, and go back. This takes care of the nightmares and sleep paralysis, and keeps me tired enough to ward off the deja vu.

Once I get something off my chest to someone, I have no doubt I'll be fine. But right now, I'm far from it.

-Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 10 - The Postman's Divide http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17008778/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/17008778/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 12:37:31 PST

But what about the ones that have come to find acceptance, relief, happiness and contentment etcetera? How I experience my life is that my state of mind seems very much out of reach or control to me. Maybe it isn't that simple maybe my life, my body and my mind is't to be manipulated under purely my will and intentions. Buddhists say that enlightenment comes through suffering. I know for a fact that there is a core of truth in this statement. But to change this into a whole belief system based on suffering seems exaggerated to me but this is beside the point. If I had the choice to suffer or not to suffer my intuition would tell me to choose for the most pleasant. Possibilities and how the individual chooses them or gets lead by them.


I believe I am a person that isn't lead as much by emotions as others are. The reason I believe this is because of the communication and Human other interactions I see on a day to day basis. I believe I can distance myself more than others on the topics of conversations because I'm usually prepared to finish the interaction of thoughts about a certain topic. I see a lot of withdrawal from conversation and experience it during some conversations.

I believe I suffer less from, which I see as a flaw, the overcoming of the abstract theory of a topic onto the individual.
I know I'm still young and maybe when I'm older I will act more in the ways of which I'm trying to describe but on the other hand I see these ';phenomena' occur among my younger peers.
Where's the point? Why do I feel forced to make a point so quickly. I'm writing this and still haven't finished a page but feel obliged to have something to offer.

This is probably one of the reasons I talk so fast in day to day life I'm not comfortable with an audience that's quietly listening with no way for me to measure of if they are interested or entertained. Maybe it's because of the short attention span that people have now a days. Maybe it's due to the fact that people like to read between lines and over interpret. I guarantee you that If you give these writings to all the people you know and make them believe you wrote it at least one person will think that you are writing about hidden grudges towards them or an issue you are dealing with.

So I'll tell you this. This is directed to no one I know. Or it is directed to my subconscious. Or it is due to that hunger of writing down what is in my mind. An urge. An itch. Whatever.
The story has not begun and it will be filled with possibilities for the readers to find. But no matter what can be said this is personal. This is written be me and read by you. Books sometimes have open endings but this as a whole is open. For there is no hero or bad guy in this. There is no murder to be solved. No belief to be propagated. These words are the words I have written down, no more no less. The reasons may be known to me or may not be. But they will never truly be known by the reader. These words are like the life of another person which is in a way the same as a book with an open ending. Only the main character has enough information on how it felt and the thoughts that were internally processed.

The external factors although maybe more significant but from a human perspective less important. Or better said from my perspective, and I would feel flattered that from the 6 billion people who live now who are offspring of the 10,000 humans that survived the bottle neck I would be the only one to see it this way. This perspective is more in connection with the mixture of conscious and sub conscious reality that is the life of a sentient being. The constant death of who we where onto the person we are now. The life we lead now with debts to the person we were yesterday.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 09 - Big Oorta http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16995218/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16995218/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 15:14:06 PST
reflective
stars on water on stars on water
and a deep, tangible blue to hold them all together.

symbiotic
orchid on tree on orchid on tree
and on and on and on until stars fall from the sky.

symmetry
tachyon, graviton, fermion
and immaculate conception in the belly of a tiger star.

juxtaposed
shadow on shadow on shadow
and a frozen moment filled with light and purpose

12:21

I could see her smile a mile away
It seemed so safe to look at her face
She seemed like she really cared
And that no matter what my life could be spared,
Who would've thought I'd find an angel
At the end of this failed road, this failed danger
I thought was the way to live life.
How I can taste the spirit that brightens
My heart the face that cause me to tighten
My grip on reality, that opens my eyes to the insanity
How could I've been so crazy? In my suicidal vanity
I thought I saw genius, but it was only banality
And childish imitation of the brutality that fills
Our bored minds in hours of wasted monotony.
She approaches and the crowd hushes,
The executioner frees the coil and blood rushes
To my head as I close my eyes on that sweet face
Those lips I wish I could taste...

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Love conquers all.
-Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 08 - Parallel http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16968270/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16968270/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 19:38:48 PST
I've come to think of love as a card game. (explanation to follow)

We're at the "table". (the table being the game of life)
You can chose to play your hand alone. Or you can chose partner up, and combine your cards together. The cards inter-mingle, getting mixed, shuffle, unorganized. You can get alot further ahead, working and playing with eachothers hands. (the life you are given).

Then there comes a crossroads. Where you have to decide wether or not you want to work with the other person in an attempt to get ahead. Should you chose to part, and take your hand away, the results vary greatly.

Poor communication and bad teamwork, will leave the cards scattered. You'll likely lose quite a few of your cards (feelings, thoughts, etc) in the process. As well the other person.

Should you chose to stay together, the game will only become easier. Your cards will become one hand,instead of two seperate stacks put together. Eventualy you will think and act as one. And nobody will be able to stand in your way.

I'm searching for my partner. I may have found her;
Only time will tell.

-Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Faux. http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16920626/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16920626/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 21:04:25 PST -----
It was daylight when you woke up in your ditch.
You looked up at your sky then.
That made blue be your color.
You had your knife there with you too.
When you stood up there was goo all over your clothes.
Your hands were sticky.
You wiped them on your grass, so now your color was green.
Oh Lord, why did everything always have to keep changing like this.
You were already getting nervous again.
Your head hurt and it rang when you stood up.
Your head was almost empty.
It always hurt you when you woke up like this.
You crawled up out of your ditch onto your gravel road and began to walk,
waiting for the rest of your mind to come back to you.
You can see the car parked far down the road and you walked toward it.
"If God is our Father," you thought, "then Satan must be our cousin.
" Why didn't anyone else understand these important things?
You got to your car and tried all the doors.
They were locked.
It was a red car and it was new.
There was an expensive leather camera case laying on the seat.
Out across your field, you could see two tiny people walking by your woods.
You began to walk towards them.
Now red was your color and, of course, those little people out there were yours too

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Journal. http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16883894/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16883894/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 15:11:23 PST EDIT
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I'm a little bit down still, but it's nothing serious.

Also:
[link]

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Carppagio Paints His Severed Head. http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16866375/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16866375/ Wed, 13 Feb 2008 15:35:47 PST
I'm in an odd musical mood. All I want to listen to is old metal (Iron Maiden and the like) or classic (Guns N' Roses, Led Zeppelin, etc). I've been in an overly happy mood here latelyd I have no dammed clue why.

I've just found it hard to be pissed off for any length of time. Perhaps that stems from the fact that I've also been sleeping less and less. (Out of choice, no insomnia this time.) I decided against over-sleeping due to the fact that I find it harder to get up in the morning iI go to sleep before 12 or 1 AM.

No matter what the cause, I'm in a good mood. (hell, a GREAT mood.)
And despite the churning in my stomach (nervousness is a bitch, ya know?) I've never been happier.

On a side note: (Mr. Sharpton, may want to look away if you're reading this entry.)

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I hope those of you who are fortunate enough to have found someone to be with on valentines day have a wonderful time. Love is a rarity in this world, it's something to be treasured. If you've found someone who makes you happy, take extra care to make those people happy tommorow. Not just you're boy/girl-friend, but all those that make your day better. Spread the love, and drive back the hate.

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Tommorow will be good, no matter what the outcome.
For me, and for all of you.

Take Care
-Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 07 - Hush http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16848739/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16848739/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 13:30:21 PST I have "put all my chips in", as the saying goes.

For the first time in my life I have put myself out on a limb. I have exposed myself and made myself vulnurable. All that remains to be seen is wether or not I profit from it.

Reguardless of wether I get the answers I seek,
I was able to tell someone how I felt about them. And I've never felt more accomplished.

I will go to school tommorow, to my doom or salvation, depending on what she says in response.

But; to quote Mr. Sharpton:
Things will be interesting atleast.

I leave you with a bit of poetry.
-Olin
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To tell a lie as good as mine,
just clear your mind and close your eyes.
Try to feel this message deliver
into your imagination; shiver.

Freeze to the sight of the ' pistol' at my side,
or freeze to the rotten weather as it rides away
the tides.

To tell a truth as good as you,
I'll fill my mind with all I've been through.
Indulged in what my sight has shown to me
while sweeping for my angel upon the snow
bittersweetly.

Fallen may it be, drawn upon the ground,
here comes the reign,
to wash it all away-
an attempt to remind us all
how the human can be tamed;
how the human can fall yet
rise from the shame of
mistake?

No.

Subside both sides, mindless monsters.
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]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 06 - Come Ye Children, One And All. http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16838267/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16838267/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 18:41:13 PST
How many universes have there been? How many more are to come? God is all and in every particle because God is the pool of life. Baptize yourself in the water of God and feel your soul submerged in empathy.

That is the gain of faith guided by truth guided by unity. Of linking yourself to that ever infinite and expanding pool…the mind can know no equal joy, meaning or place. We are either to swim in God’s love or drown in our own misguided and self-centric sorrows.

Even in death we decompose in to essence and feed life eternal. Could there be a greater gift?

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Exponential Growth. http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16821647/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16821647/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 17:43:24 PST
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reshuffle
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I'm feeling alot better. Both physically and otherwise. Most of my weekend was spent with a friend, playing le' bass. My fingers have suffered as a result (my ring finger has atleast three layers of skin gone. -.- ). It hurts to type. D:

On another note, spring is on the way soon. Hopefuly the new season will have more to offer than warmer weather. Spring is the precursor to summer. In that when the spring is prosperous, the summer usually follows in suit.

It is my fondest wish that all of you have a spectacular spring, and summer. Make time for those close to you, and make time for those you wish you were closer to. (Spring is the season where love is most happily bred after all).

I leave you all with words that, when first read, had no meaning at all. In the past few days, this incospicuous line of speech has given me comfort, and the will to move foward. Hopefully it helps someone out there as it has me.

'Things are meant to change."

I love you all.
-Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Machine Spirit, Accept My Gift. http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16803324/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16803324/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 15:55:28 PST
It's been a long of a week. Not a helluva lot to say....

I've recently took to writing songs (both tonal and lyrical).
And I've found I enjoy it quite well. ^^.

Look for some (craptastical) forrays into the musical realm by myself and fellow "garage rocker" [link] , in the coming weeks. \m/ \m/

They didn't find anything wrong with me at the hospital. Though I half-knew already that what ailed me wasn't physical. On the flip side, sitting in a room full of sick people watching CNN ( a report on the Louisiana school shooting), gave me time to reflect. which is a good thing mind you.)

I'm progressing, one step at a time.
I'll keep on trucking.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Spiral Out http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16780686/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16780686/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 06:42:09 PST I havsomething for all of you. It's below this entry. Have fun with it. ^^

Wish me luck on the road ahead.
I love you all.

-Olin

I want to introduce you to Fibonacci poems.

The sequence is as follows:
1-word or syllable
1-word or syllable
2-words or syllables
3-words or syllables
5-words or syllables
8-words or syllables

The author can use either syllables or words but it must follow the pattern. This pattern signifies a spiral, and was used in Lateralus by Tool.

These are my 13 Fibs. The first six are syllabically correct. Can you guess which three poems have a twin, aside from the first two.
Feel free to post any Fibs you have as well! ^^


13 Fibs

1.
They
were
killers
Jan-ja-weed
Burnt our villages
Unnoticed we are suffering

2.
Rice
drops
from planes
The starving
only seek a meal
Our belly full of filth and death

3.
All
men
disown
Lay to waste
Forfeit honor
Pretentious souls consumed by lies

4.
Keep
clear
Endings
do begin
Stop pride for friendship
Before love is locked in the well

5.
Hold
tight
young child
Pale new skin
darkens over time
To teach and guide my only wish

6.
You
left
me here
to scavenge
For remnants of hope
Ripped apart by a foolish world

7.
King
Saudi
whose people
are simple commodities
Choke on oil and blood
With human rights drowning in a whitewashed stranglehold

8.
Presidential
hypocrisy!
Suicide tactics
table for two
Time to listen shut up!
Washington Post polls show the problem is you

9.
Hebrew
and
Muslim rage
Pointless as ego
Eventually someone must let go
Before the planet is consumed by desperate flames

10.
Distraught
Sandra
walks into
the gun store
A middle aged Jewish woman
Puts the gun in her mouth, waves goodbye

11.
Held
tightly
youthful son
Light skinned infant
your color deepens with age
Follow and learn, the journey strengthens our minds

12.
Stay
open
the end's
never quite clear
Through each door tread softly
The stones we throw trap us down inside

13.
Every
person
is flawed
Regret compounds disdain
Foregoing integrity to relentlessly consume
Mankind's thoughts border absurdity while dancing on graves

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Answers for 'twin' poems: 3-13 / 4-12 / 5-11

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Cold Knife http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16769272/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16769272/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 12:27:01 PST EDIT
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I am fine. Sorry to those I worried. ^^;

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 05 - Dreams In Noir http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16742712/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16742712/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 02:01:36 PST )

Sick as I am, I've had time to sleep, to sleep deep. I've been having a recurring dream for the longest time. I think it mirrors my situation the real world quite well. It's recurred enough that I was able to write the passage below, in a Nyquil/Tylenol/Alka-Selter stupor.

Quite a few of you have someone you care deeply for. Someone with whom you can sit idle, and still be fully engaged with. Someone you love.

I can say the same, though my situation is a little different. I only have a few places, where I can openly show affection for my love, without threat to well-being. (I could be well...shot). And even then I find it difficult to reveal my true self infront of others; aside from the obvious person to whom the passage below is directed.

What does it mean to truly "open up" anyway? What defines a relationship as open? And even better to ask, why is an open relationship something so many desire, yet so few ever really obtain?
I think the answer lies in that humans are constantly masking themselves, and contorting their own views to make themselves blend in with society alot easier. This becomes tiresome, and we begin looking for someone with whom we can reveal, and be our true selves. And what do we expect to get when we've revealed our true nature to someone? What is the result for "takingthe mask off"? More often then not, the person we reveal ourselves to becomes afraid of what we really are. Or they haven't come to terms with who they are, and lash out at you thusly. Opening oneself to someone one loves is an almost impossible feat. Because to truly open up is to share one's inner-most feelings, one's true self. For those who brave the path and find salvation on the other end, it's a infinte reward in and of itself.

I have found that person. I have found someone who has helped me accept who I am as a person. Someone who has gotten me over my own self-inflicted inferiority psychosis. And for that, I am forever in her debt. Without her to greet me each day, I wouldv'e lost the motivation to get out of bed in the morning. I wouldn't be here right now, writing this entry, if my saviour had not arrived. Someone to be the shining guide (the divine white light of home) and drive back the black that covers my soul.

I'm going back to bed now, I would like to say thank you to those who've taken the time to read my journals and entries here on DA, and not attempted to kill me thus far for uploading such abominations upon the unsusspecting inter-public.

Wash your hands, the sickness is spreading
-Olin.

***
That night, from the back door, escaping all trust
In tune with the fables your father pleads.
The chain-length fence I climbed chalked my hands in rust
Collapsed within where all my senses feed.
I could have sworn you would have seen me first
The freshly mown grass, soaked by the rain
Yearning a smile that could capsize or burst
Expectations you've had will soon seem plain.
The balance of Libra and stinger of Scorpio
Sleep on my arm as stars fly across
I stroke your hair while crickets sing the chorus:
"Can't learn to throw not knowing how to toss"
Soon I will leave you until another day
Through the back door, escape the exact way.
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]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 04 - Pulsar 3C273 http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16698601/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16698601/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 22:47:40 PST
What motivates me, or you? Chatting with the cute girl you just met in school? Your job? Guitar? Your girlfriend? College? (fluffy cabbits named Fuku?)

And why do I judge others, and why you do? Whether on an online forum like DA, or in real life, in school, at work, wherever. I realized that I am and perhaps that you are, insecure with this society we're living in. We judge others, so that they will start to examine their own flaws, and thus it would keep them from judging us. Well, just for a little while.

So why do we live? Reproduction, sex, money, power, food? Well I think it's bogus. I know some people live just to ^$#@, or they work just for another pair of jewelry. So why is that?

I've known that I am living in a world that hates intelligence. Where people who can read a book, write a paragraph, write a poem, solve a rubik's cube, are hated. In a world of hatred, people either turn the intellectuals to dumbasses. who are interested in celebrity gossips, who are interested in what Britney Spear's doing; or they just simple get rid of you from the society. Just to make themselves look good.

So why do you live? If you laugh at me, mock me, or if you can't even finish reading this entry, well, I really don't give a damn.

People Who've Responded To This Entry
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]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien The Sixth Extinction http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16686166/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16686166/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 07:09:33 PST
After a almost sleepless (and...foodless Oo) week; I finaly slept (and ate)
I feel soooooo much better. :D

This was a long, hellish week. Friends going away...coming back...*shudder*
It's all over now though. (hopefuly)

On another note; I discovered a new band; Ayreon.
They do story albums. Which are (lengthy) releases where the tracks all follow a specific order, and create a story (duh...).

I'm listening to 01011001 (story follows)

On Planet Y, the seafaring 'Forever' have long ago forgone their emotions as well as becoming dependent on machines, in order to become immortal. Longing to rediscover emotions, Forever sends their DNA to planet Earth using a comet as vessel. The vessel reaches earth seeding humanity, but not before causing the extinction of the dinosaurs. Human rise and through them, Forever is able to relive lost emotions. However, Forever's continued meddling with humanity in order to make them evolve faster have disastrous consequence when their physical and mental evolution goes faster than their moral development : humanity starts becoming dependent on machines, they start slowly losing their emotions and worst of all heads toward the path to their own extinction. Forever must then orchestrate a way to help humanity save themselves, or should they even bother...is the experiment over?[2]

Forever chooses to try to help by altering the time streams to giving humanity the technology to perform the Time Telepathy Experiment (as explained in Ayreon's debut album, The Final Experiment), which would broadcast their inevitable doom to those before them in attempt to save themselves. However, the Experiment is a failure and humanity's self-destruction occurs despite Forever's desperate attempts. Forever leaves Earth, crushed by their failures, but the Migrator (from The Universal Migrator), the last man alive, leaves with them
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It's like a sci-fi epic, without the pictures. 'Tis good stuff indeed :D

I love you all :heart:
-olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Follow Me To The Laughing City http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16649062/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16649062/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 18:36:53 PST
I seem to have hit a dry spell in my writing. I find it hard to put pen to paper, and compose anything coherent. Perhaps The well has been used up, the soil drained of it's nutrients, .

Or it could be my recent insomnia fit...which is still active. -.-

I got a 30gb Zune (it's black! :D) which is good, since I haven't had one in ages. ^^

Hope you guys who look at my page are doing ok. (all 3 of you :P)

-Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 03 - Beneath The Kissing Moon http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16585724/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16585724/ Sat, 26 Jan 2008 18:20:07 PST
1) a simple machine
to collect life's perspectives
into a symmetrical
crystal lattice;

2) a variable hertz device
for extracting these
snapshots and making
them phosphoresce;

3) an lcd display,
linked to these two,
that will broadcast
once-living memories;

4) &, finally, a power source
built on blood & bone
with fission at its inner core
to echo these fallacies

Once done with this invention, set it down at your feet. Power it on with trepidation, bathed in the crystal's heat. Do not shove it down, do not turn it off. Beleaguered by its humming truths, it is the candle, you are the moth. Invent what you can to show these things and bring your life around. Inventive mind that saves itself can only hope to drown - drown in visions of crystallinity and all the little wrongs, drown beneath the choppy waves and an undertow so strong. Invent with fury and a fiery intent so that when your work's complete, each system will have enough energy to guarantee the elite, guarantee their defeat. and leave you obsolete.
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" True love, like any other strong and addicting drug, is boring -- once the tale of encounter and discovery is told, kisses quickly grow stale and caresses tiresome... except, of course, to those who share the kisses, who give and take the caresses while every sound and color of the world seems to deepen and brighten around them. As with any other strong drug, true first love is really only interesting to those who have become its prisoners " - S. King - Wizard And The Glass
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Is it so strange that I see no point in trying to do anything when you're away? Strange that without you around my body becomes a numb shell I'm dimly aware of? To feel is only possible when cradled in your soft, loving arms.

When we are apart, I feel as if I'm slowly falling away. I look back and wonder how I got through all those years without you, how I trudged through each monotonous day. How did I cope with the horrors of life in our blindsighted society, without your loving embrace to wash away the pain like waves caressing a beach shore? I can't say how I did it, but I can say I couldn't do it again.

And I ask myself:

Am I a horrible person, for hoping you feel the same way when you aren't around me? Is it so immoral to know you matter to someone? To know that you've touched someone so deeply?

Do you lie awake at night wishing somehow that I will come to your side, as I do? Does your heart cry out for me, as mine does for you?

What is the last thing running through your enigmatic mind before you close your beautiful blue eyes? Do you call out my name? Do you half-cry, half-plea my name, before you sleep?
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Tonight I will go to bed, knowing your far away from me. Tonight I will sleep, knowing that you're mind is in the same place as mine. Knowing your heart feels as lonely as mine. But I know also, that I am not entirely alone.

When you go, know that you take a part of me with you. Let it protect and comfort you. Let it's loving warmth overwhelm you, and wash away the hurt. Let me be with you, love me as I love you.

I will lay my head down tonight, still swirling with the images of your bright and radiant face. I will panic momentairily, until I find the fading scent of your hair and skin on my own. I will smile wide. I will call out your name. I will cry for you. I will say three magic words, the most meaning full words I have ever know; perhaps the only words that have ever had meaning: "I love you", and know that on the other end of this spectrum you'll hear these three words, and I'll hope with all my heart that it comforts you, and helps you to sleep.

Know that even when we're seperated by well over a hundred miles, I am safely at home within your loving forgiving heart. Each beat supplying vital lifeforce to your etheral bodily visage. Every time you breathe every time your heart beats, know that I follow in complete unision.

You are my lifeforce. You are my reason to be. You are me.

Matter now, and matter to me.

I love you.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 02 - Disgustipated http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16557573/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16557573/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 19:50:15 PST )

Anger turns to hatred consuming life. Not able to find the cure the glass has broken. Shattered pieces catch the light revealing a path of faded memories gone by.

Erase them I must and you with them. I want to shatter you; running my knife through your stone cold heart. No love and understanding did you give. Your heart unused I will tear it out of you and present it to the world. All to see now a blackened stone crushed to dust; you will return from that with which you came.

The devil will welcome you at his side. May the fires of hell re-forge this glass. My cure has now been found.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Ramble 01 - The Ghostship http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16528108/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16528108/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 19:50:28 PST
You`re not crazy, what elevates you from being crazy is your ability to accept that which is out of the normality and the ability to cope. Trying to understand these events or words which will happen to you keeps you dynamic.

Ignoring the reality of these things destroys the possibility of gaining something positive from the experience. If you remain inquisitive and get past the uncomfortable things then you can grow without fear or restriction.

This is what true maturity is yet so few posses just that, even the elderly.
When you believe something is true you've built a boundary against accepting new thoughts or beliefs, thus destroying the learning process.
So always explore and never stop, always see and never go blind, always hear and never forget, just keep dynamic.

Thus is this world we live in. You will thrive.

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien How Long Is The Night? http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16263187/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16263187/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 23:00:07 PST :heart:

Ahem.
With that out of the way, let's continue.

I'm once again in a stable emotional state. And I feel my creativity (what slivers of it I posses) returning to me. Expect a few new entries in the future. :D
I'm feeling alot better than I did a few days ago, (I caught a cold -.-'' ) and am finaly able to go back outside. "OMFG THE SUN BURNS!!!!"

Not alot more to say :\

On another note:

WELCOME HOME CRIM!
I missed you alot, and can't describe how happy I am to have you back.
Never leave again. :heart:

(The things in the little mood panel are jokes, im actually quite well >^^> )
-Mr. Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Mouths Like Sidewinder Missles. http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16214803/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16214803/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 21:23:14 PST
It hasn't been easy to keep going lately, and if something doesn't come along soon, I'm not gonna be able to get outta bed. Hopefuly this time tommorow, my love will have returned, and my emotional state will have re-constructed into a solid foundation.

As it stands though, I cannot function efficently as a person.

Sorry for the short entry, but I have nothing else to say.

-Mr. Olin

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Tick. http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16173888/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16173888/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 21:46:15 PST
I've never been happier than at this point in time. I have a wonderful group of friends who all care about me (as I do them). I also have the love (and the right to love) the most amazing person I've ever met. For the first time in my life, I can honestly say I envy no man. I cannot ask for more than what I have at this point in my life.

On another note, I'm going to give mucho praise to WaffleWrath He's a very close friend, and happens to have a novel in the works entitled Wolves Calling. He's an extremely talented writer, so be sure to give it a read and look for updates to it in the coming weeks. ^^

I've discovered a new band! The Fall Of Troy. Very good band, unique style aswell. Anyone who's a fan of heavy rock should take a listen. \m/

Not alot more to say. Oo

Happy new year fellow deviants! :D

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien Shotgun Concerto http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16120929/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16120929/ Thu, 27 Dec 2007 09:03:14 PST
Hope the holidays went ok for all of you. It could have went worse on my end. (although it could have been alot better too T.T)
I GOT GUITAR HERO 3! -dies-

Bleh, I'm in a really hypertastical mood today. So I'm gonna cut this entry short, and go burn things in my yard.

-1011101?-

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien All is not silent in the halls of the dead. http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16082836/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16082836/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 19:08:29 PST
Hope the holidays go good for all of you who've been kind enough to view my page. I love you all.:hug:

PS: Sorry for the short entry, but I can't think of anything else at the moment. :|

-DRP

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien :x http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16049369/ http://Seppo-Ilmarien.deviantart.com/journal/16049369/ Sat, 22 Dec 2007 20:09:25 PST
Thanks to those who have viewed my page, and didn't send me any scary death threats. Oo

The last few days have been really rocky. Someone very near and dear to me went into the hospital Thursday, and didn't get out until 4:00 this afternoon. Needless to say; I was a little on the nervous side. (IV's are from hell...*shudder*)

I'm in an overly cheery (yet extremely exhausted) mood at the moment. Which means my inner child wants to run around in circles babbling gibberish; despite the fact that my physical being has reached it's limit. (sounds fun right??)

I plan to start learning Photoshop (seriously learning it this time).
So look for some half-assed attempts in the near future.

Hope the holidays go good for all of you! :)

]]> ~Seppo-Ilmarien