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In other gay marriage related news the australian Senate committee rejected marriage equality for same sex couples today id say i was sad and ashamed but this is the opinion of a board who is clearly not in tune with the australian peoples views. Polls show 60% of australians belive marriage should be for all people no matter what sexual preference.

dear all i know i'm harping on this point alot but its a point i feel very strongly about.

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in other news. if you can sign the petition below to help legalize same sex marriage is australia that would be super awesome. this isn't one of those 'email' petitions either this is a real rick-to-life version of a petition that will be sent to the government organized by the same people who are organising a same-sex marriage ralley in the city this weekend (of which i will be attending along with thousands of others). if you live in melbourne and your free this sat please come along -

[link]

the only decent bandom marrige i have ever had the pleasure of reading - [link]
it is poinant, bitter sweet and entirely beautiful. peterick fans hollar to the max (its the third story down from the top, also this is a side fic of the best peterick ever and i suppose it kind of ruins the ending *headdesk* but it will mention stuff from the original fic so if you see something and go 'i don't remember that' it's cool just from the other fic and most of the time you don't need the other fic to understand it anyway. it's fairly stand alone)

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check it -

[link]

*has victory parade* this is brilliant!!!!!!!!!! Now you guys HAVE to sign the petition!

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Needless to say, like many many others, I was furious. I ranted about how wrong it was to my parents and friends only to have my dad turn around and say ‘well you can’t place all the blame on California, gay marriage isn’t legal in a lot of places, it’s not legal here’. This truth hit home hard. I can’t remember if i already knew or if i naively assumed that in a place like Melbourne with the kind of culture we have that something as bitchfacedly wrong as denying people their rights was still going on. I remember asking my mum how one would go about changing such a thing. She told me you’d have to do much like Harvey in Milk and take things bit by bit (local gov, petitions, meetings etcs). I’m ashamed to say...i don’t have the fortitude, money, time or know how to begin that kind of movement. So like most people i suppose i sat back and stewed on how wrong it was. About a month ago i saw posters begin to pop up everywhere for a rally called Onelove that would be held nationally for the sake of same sex marriage in our country. There was one in our city. I almost felt like shouting and pointing it out to the people walking by and say ‘here! Here it is! This is our chance to get educated! This is our chance to stand up for what we believe in and find out how to change the injustice going on’ but i didn’t cause bus stop strangers can be scary sometimes. I just wrote it down in my ipod and made a note to invite everyone i knew.

My friends, it is this weekend on Sat (Sat nov 28th) at the State Library on the corner of Swanston and La Trobe st at 1pm that the rally will be held. Anyone in Melbourne with the time, and it is time spent for the better, please come and stand up for what is right!

if you want more info here is the website - [link]

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the worst kind of fail
is losing the hair


tomorrow morning is going to be interesting

fingers crossed i haven't lost

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Sexy clad in new leathers, hair styles and yes even a tan for the lead singer MMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYY CCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEMMMMMMMMIIIII IIIIICCCCCCCAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLL RRRRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMAAAAAAAA AAANNNNNNNNNNNCCCCCCCCCCEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

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*crowd bursts into masses of cheers* Yes ladies and Gentlemen yesssssssssssssss not long and i will be seeing the real deal, the live show, the new music, it's all happening and i am SO happy about it.

My Chem! My Chem! My Chem! My Chem!

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We moved again, I went to high school, my grandma died, my parents broke up and somewhere in the mix my childhood was lost. I made new friends in my new school and drifted through adolescence personality quashed by uniforms and rules. My 19th year alive was a brilliant one. I graduated well, I fell in love with rock, I put red streaks through my hair and for one glorious turning of the earth I was the teenager I hadn’t ever been before.

The future seems scary and large and though I study animation I’m not sure if it is what I want and I fear undiscovering my true calling. Nevertheless this time is all we have and I intend to forge further and find adventures to remember. I am 21. Thus far this is my story.

Bio is such a small word.

]]> ~Seraph5 http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/28443143/ http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/28443143/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 23:51:10 PST [link] i read it on the train today and was taken by the way it was worded and the images it made in my mind, beautiful!

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a) Marilyn Monroe

b) Nirvana

c) Jeff Buckley

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"watch us until we blur (maybe a Marilyn Monroe shot that fades),

walk off into the sunset (maybe a cowboy, may have to resort to gone with the wind 'ill never go hungry again' scene).

tell rock n' roll i'm alone again, i wanna put the mid-west home again (pretty much blank. i'm thinking jack white shots from the trailer for It Might Get Loud but there wouldn't really be a lot of significance to his presence and this clip is about significance).

we must have the best coach (my original plans for this line where completely thrown off because i thought they where 'we must have the best coats' don't laugh, it fits. and now i have shots of fob flaunting coats and no use for them)

tell the best jokes (i was thinking of showing a quick montage of fob making interviewers laugh)

we must make it hard to look so easy doing something so hard (this line itself has always hurt my brain just a little bit. like "there's nothing you can do that can't be done, there's nothing you can sing that can't be sung, there's nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game". it's those weird backwards lyrics that screw with me to this day. can anyone rephrase it so i get it?)

you must see my way (total blank)"

any ideas people? they would be much appreciated

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[link]

[link]

he's singing a song i've always loved, in a way i really love, dressed like...one would think i'd love to see him dressed, acting like a singer, walking about the stage and such. i dunno.......it's so strange it doesn't feel like patrick to me. i know it is and yeah i dig it but.....he's different or at least he seems different, his stage presence is different he's singing better but some of that comfortableness and heart seems to be lacking a little....whatever. gotta get used to the new patrick. the hot one. i'm gonna be seeing more of him.

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The rules.

The no-no's and definitely do's.

The assurance that you will be a failure without them and that it is indeed a failure to be without the ultimate prize.

It makes me feel like i wanna be a nothing.

I hate it when guys leer and beep horns.

I hate it when pink magazines scream they know the secret.

Their ever precious secret is simply this: dress the way you don't want to. act the way you don't want to. lie the way you don't want to.

Fuck them and fuck that.

I'd rather be a nothing then a lie.

And i hate that those girls are 'hot'.

And i hate that it's considered a positive thing that they stumble through the streets.

I hate that being who i am isn't enough and that it gets harder all the time to be myself because of this 'image'.

I love hate going out because i love hate the attention. Mostly love till i have to say goodbye and goodnight because that me is a lie.

Or it's the truth but no one wants the truth when it's like that.

They want the truth falling over, making out in the gutter, flashing privates and lace for cars driving by.

They don't want the truth saying 'no sorry, that's just not me'

Does anyone want the truth?

Nothing is so much easier then this.

Floating through life being a non event in the romantic sense without feeling any desires would be nice. would be fine. like a holiday.

Being on an island alone, or just with girls.

Nothing to fall in love with, to want, need or pine after.

Alone and nothing.

better than to hate so much.

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First of all the cities/ landscapes/ backgrounds are completely perfect and 'rince of persia'esq. They could not be more right. I'm a bit bummed the princes love interest isn't farah. Farah was what made the prince so very dynamic and brought about growth within his personality. However this chick doesn't look too bad and she seems kind of farah-esq. i am also a bit pissed that they didn't make her indian. cause she was indian and i'm SURE there where indian actors out there who could have done farah but WHATEVS. I'm a bit bummed there are no sand creatures but i knew that was coming. I'm pissed that what is driving the prince on his mission is Armageddon when in the game it was the sand monsters slowly infecting the world. i felt the games version was far more dynamic, original, cooler and not what seems to be soooooo popular these days (the Armageddon films i loath so much). I think i might be able to see my way around that too.

I suppose my liking or hating the film hinges largely on Jake and his ability to pull off the Prince (i am also mad they actually named the prince. that was a running gag/ tradition in all the games that the prince was nameless but once again WHATEVS). From what i've seen...he seems to have a bit of the princeness about him...he has the right accent (thank god) he seems to have good chemistry with the chick, some of that awkwardness that made the prince so endearing seems to still be there. All in all i watched him closest of everything else in the trailer and i wasn't immediately enraged/disappointed/pissed at him in any way. As far as i stand right now i'm kind of middle-ground with him. Which is better then what i expected, i honestly expected to be all 'WELL THAT'S IT! MIGHT AS WELL JUST LOOSE FAITH IN GAME TO CINEMA TRANSLATIONS ALL TOGETHER AND SHUNN JERRY BRUCHIEMER FOREVER" but instead i was *narrowed eyes* "....yes....yes i see your point Jake...very well. you have my attention. i will be there on opening night with slightly less skeptical eyes"

oh and it's PG. i seriously think something more along the lines of M would be better cause this way they're going to pull punches (literally)

[link]

the trailer leaves me kind of excited but I'm trying to force myself not to be cause..........i just have this deep and abiding feeling that i'm going to be disappointed so if i keep my expectations low it may actually be passable for me. it might even blow me away.

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Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby you're sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
('Cause I'm a freak bitch baby!)
And you know that I need you
I want a bad, bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
I'm a freak bitch, baby

I want your love and
I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ton revenge
J'veux ton amour
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don’t wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

if only there was a rock n roll version of this song. *cough*sungbygerard*cough*

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i love it. it's cool cause even though it's kind of reminicent it doesn't make me sad. it actually makes me really happy and hopeful. like if the first 7 years of thier career where this good and they love all the bits of it this much there's so much hope and happiness in the future for them and us. I got this link from pete's journal by the way so this is probably the real deal.

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is that so much to ask?

(only an hour of burning pain and $80 of which i have no money)

i want his hair.

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i'm actually of two or three minds about it myself.

one part of me loves it and thinks its funny and fun.

another part of me (the big fat party pooper prudish is obviously never going to have fun part) thinks it's probably not a good example to be showing the legions of young girls out there who love cobra starship and are easily begiled by gabes wiles and ways. The clip is basicaly saying it's good to be a slutty drunk off your face falling over in the street and probably unsafe chic. Not cool. Being like that and wondering the steets is very dangerous, i mean look how easily cobra stole them in reality what if something bad happened to them. bad things happen when your that beautiful and completely off your face. Bad example to be setting. I mean sure other bands have trashed stuff in thier videos the thing about that is most girls and guys can afford to be in expensive hotel rooms or casions but nearly everyone can afford to be that shitfaced.

the third part of me (which is apparently a giant hipocrit) thinks i really badly want to go out now cause i havent been out (like proper out out, with the hot outfit, the no wake up call, no work the next day, awesome blow out out) in like 7 or 9 months. i've wanted to go out for ages but i've been either broke, having to work early the next day or busy. now i wanna go out super badly. or at least be pretty. i think i'll try dress up pretty today. meh curse you cobra and your banging videos XD

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las mas sabrosas

el mas caliente

la banda más dulce

en su última actuación antes de sus vacaciones de

Fall Out Boy!!!!!!

[link]

p.s. Hola! Patrick: You go boy!!!!!!!

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]]> ~Seraph5 http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/28148683/ http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/28148683/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 18:09:55 PST Why i was afraid (pete wrote this on his journal a while back and reduced me to tears) -

dear friend.

im going to miss you.

i left everything on that stage and it still isnt enough to explain what you mean to me.

every single person and every single voice you have given me a life beyond my dreams. a place to run around and sweat. a place to be completely honest. a place that is only ours.

if i could say thank you in words i would. i cant find them. they escape me. thank you.

peter.

Pete wrote this more recently and made me let out that breath i've been holding -

EW: So you guys recently announced Fall Out Boy is going on indefinite hiatus. Might you do any side projects?

PW: Well I want to say that first of all I think we totally confused everyone, made everybody think we were breaking up. We’re on indefinite hiatus: we’re not breaking up. We’ve been together for seven years straight and Fall Out Boy is my main thing. I think the thing that scares everybody is we don’t have a definite… there’s no definitive date where we’ll get back together, but that’s part of being in a band. I’m open to doing other types of things, but I’ve got a lot of things going on. I’ve got my label, I’ve got my son, so there’s a lot of other things that keep me busy.

EW: So Fall Out Boy will return?

PW: Yeah, I hope, man, it’s just gotta be when everybody’s ready.

it's ok people, i can wait as long as i know i'm waiting for something that will eventually retern

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And tell me it's not true.

]]> ~Seraph5 http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/28126204/ http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/28126204/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 14:09:49 PST I found the three winning pics to be
Cool - [link]
Awesome - [link]
and wtfmate - [link]

despite not winning i had a lot of fun and still really love the photo's that came out of it. it felt like a real photoshoot. i felt all stary-eyed (which is silly cause it was just me and my mum running around the house standing, sitting and lying on things to get the right shots XD). I definetly gonna enter again next year ^_^

]]> ~Seraph5 http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/28119462/ http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/28119462/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 05:48:52 PST just do it cara just get up and go to bed, you're so tired, take off the headphones, that's it, put away the pencils, shut the books, try not to think about fotw or the MCR halloween contest, the winner will be announced eventually weather you are awake or not, the world will keep spinning weather you like it or not and staying up late isn't putting off tomorrow, you know that it's just making it more painful, collect your thing, pack your bag, you're so late already, go to bed, go to bed, please go to bed, fine, charge your ipod while you brush your teeth, THEN go to bed, ok turn off the lights, go to bed, go to bed, FINE check MCR ONE more time and then go. to. bed.

GAHHH no word yet.

*Next Day*

It is not the next day and i'm feeling pretty shocking. damn near hung over even though i can't remember the last time i had a drink. I was wondering to myself this morning in the deep thick haze of sleepiness that is still upon me; why do i do this? Cause it's not something where i sit around 'how long can i stay up, or gee i really don't want to go to bed or i just want to surf all night' most of the time what keeps me up is this want. even though i'm tired and i know i should go to bed there's this, almost kind of anxiety feeling i feel like i should stay awake till it's completely gone or till i can't stand it anymore. Then this morning when i was at school, trying to see through this 'i didn't have enough sleep last night' headache (aka i will be a zombie till 3pm) i thought 'you know what? i'm not stressed. i'm damn tired and i feel pretty shocking but i'm not stressed. belive you me this week and the next week are tyically stressful weeks (end of term/uni for this year). maybe it's a weird ass self defence mechanisum. like 'i'll stay up late, kill time and tommorow so that when i get up i won't be stressed from the whole next day'.

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I'm caught up falling down. Tripping on hope tangling up my legs and around my body till it's in my heart. Poster boy fans, they're our whole scene.

And then there's music still wearing black and carrying a rose. It cried the day he died. And everyday since. You can still hear him singing in the streets. echoing. Like joker's long gone.



this is not poetry.

fans fascinate me sometimes.

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I watched 'This Is It' today with my mum and experience was so humbling, strange, sad, uplifting and awe-inspiring. So many out of the ordinary things happened. Me and my mum where in our seats quietly singing and bopping along to the tasty beat's MJ and his crew where laying down and i looked to our left and there was an old couple next to us singing away with us and then i looked to our right and it was a whole different story. People had looks of sadness and tears in their eyes. Never have i seen or heard an audience so captivated and moved by a movie. I'd never seen such raw emotion. Such true emotion. At the end these kids ran up onto the stage and started dancing of their own accord while Heal The World was playing. It was so strange but so apt and beautiful. It made me so happy to see michael jackson so alive, so vibrant and so happy. When he passed away one of the reasons why i was so sad (out of several) is that i thought he hadn't really gotten a chance recently to see the fierce support of his fans close to the end but when you see the movie you see fans and dancers cheer. You see that he knows they support him and are behind him all the way and he has this astounding positive presence bursting from him.

From all the reports and what not i'd pictured him tired and health wise run down but nothing seemed further from the truth. His voice was incredible, his dancing was incredible and his personality which i have not really seen in such candid terms was incredible. It brought a powerful message that things need to be done to save the world before it's too late. He preached love to all his crew and you could feel it. He said in some ways people had lost love and that was one of the points of the show - to bring love back and my god what a show it would have been. The warm ups had me and my mum gasping with amazement. It wasn't till the end that i cried, cause for that little while it was like he was alive again and i got that terrible feeling you get when something horrible happens where you feel like if you just wish enough you can change it. Like 'if i just go back quickly enough i can change it, it doesn't have to be this way'. And i cried because this amazing show, this vision, this work, this excellence and this final goodbye that could have let michael sail out on a high is never going to happen beyond a cinema release. It confirmed that sadness in me to see what this could have been. I cried because he really is gone.

It's strange that one man and his music could effect so many people in so many different times and places. Strange but wonderful. Hopefully his message will get through to all the people who are watching This Is It. I don't wanna end on a sad note cause it's halloween and generally i've had a pretty good time of it today so here's a song:

Turnaround, every now and then i get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round, turn around bright eyes, every now and then i fall apart, and i need you more tonight, and i need you more then ever and you'll only be making it right cause we'll be holding on forever

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Then i lost my job.

I greeted this development with tears and distain and tossed the thought of Halloween aside along with a lot of other important and precious things i was looking foreward to. However in the last few days fate has smiled on me in some ways. Friends have helped me out, invited me to patries and cheered me back to hoping. This afternoon i aquired tickets to Michael Jackson's 'This Is It' and will be going to see it with my mum. Once i had the tickets in my hand i decided i would go in costume. It wasn't candy and patries but it was mingling with the outside world in costume and that's better then nothing at all. I'm thinking i might try to go and to my friend Alfe's house too. I'll see how the evening pans out. None the less halloween isn't ruined yet. XD

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ISN'T HE BEAUTIFUL!?!?!?!?!? OH MY GOD!!!!!

it's not me is it? he has lost a bunch of weight and is a billion kinds of gorgous yeah? i'm weak at the knees. i need a cold shower and then i need to bash my head against a wall for a while and hopefully pass out so i can stop thinking about how totally gorgous he is!!!!!

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The employee says to her father, in a dazed voice, 'i think i've just been fired'

After a time they sit at a table, he kindaly orders a drink and passes her some water.

'here, put back what the tears took'

]]> ~Seraph5 http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/27972092/ http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/27972092/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 04:51:17 PDT Blink through the sleepiness.
Breathe through the suckiness.
Check the digital letters and notes.
Prepare for tommorows onslaght and re-entry into fast paced life.
To beg, to find, to ask, to call, to pray for a little more..a little more....just a little more time.
Wonder if you'll step back into the ring to entertain for attention or throw your batons down like the primadonna you are.
Oh yeah.
Hope in the back of your mind and buried as low as you can dig and cover up: don't let my heroes fall.

smile

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GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHH

]]> ~Seraph5 http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/27772181/ http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/27772181/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 22:16:24 PDT rove my worth'. If they don't realize what a good worker i am after tonight that's it, i'mna start looking for a job again cause i'm working my ass off every time for an ambivilent 'eh..spose that's good maybe well keep you' i don't know how i'm going to muster enthusiasum but apparently 'today' is it. 'today' is my last test. it would have to be today wouldn't it.

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One time at work I convinced my boss to give me ‘music breaks’. I contested that listening to a song took as long as smoking a cigarette and it wasn’t fair that other people could have a smoko break when I who was just as addicted to music wasn’t allowed to have a ‘song break’. After a moment or two of consideration he let me have music breaks. I had two or three over a few shifts before the novelty wore off for him.

Today of all fucking days when I put Alpha Dog on my ipod last night and have only listened to it twice AND was saving it to listen to it a bazillion times today. Alone. Properly. Cause last night there was noise and talking and family hustling and bustling around. When i went to bed and everything was quiet i was like 'i can listen to it now' but then i knew i would end up being too excited and it would take me ages to fall asleep. So i waited! and for what? more waiting! grrrr!

cant wait though XD

EDIT: ok i couldn't wait, i've been listening to it from the website on loop for the last half an hour curisty of simplyrains and her headphones XD glahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I LOVE 'We must have the best coats, tell the best jokes, we must make it hard but look so easy doing something so hard etc' and well actually all the verses i LOVE and and well the chorus is banging as well...man i dig it all to the absolute maximum

]]> ~Seraph5 http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/27736860/ http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/27736860/ Mon, 12 Oct 2009 23:41:14 PDT [link] WHY DON'T I HAVE ANY GOD DAMNED MONEY!? THE FIRST THNG I'M GOING TO DO WHEN I GET BACK FROM HOLS IS START SAVING FOR THE BELIVERS NEVER DIES SPESH EDITION!

and she's back.

Alpha Dog = AWESOMENESS ON ICE!

p.s. i actually have and have had both growing up and yule shoot your eye out *ysyeo being one of my fave christmas carols now along with my chems rendition of all i want for christmas is you* for AAAAAGES so yeah apparently my fanitude is such in it's awesomeness that those 'so hard to get songs' are already got and memorized

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Dear fate, please don't take the boy away.

Maybe i'll write some Monroeville.

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Do you even know if this is your truth? Will it still be when the hour glass has emptied?

Will i still be standing? I like to think i will, i like to think i'll be at the front, ready.

I hate looking over the edge of chasms. Especially the ones in my mind.

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This afternoon i was on the train coming home, i was tired and i was reading the paper. There where more interesting articles then usual and when i got off the train i didn't look back at my seat because i was reading. I nearly always look back at my seat, i nearly always have someone with me and today i was alone and distracted. I went to get my sketch pad out of my room tonight, about 5 minutes passed before i realized i'd left my sketch pad on the train. I put it behind my bag so it wouldn't fall, picked up my bag and left it there. That was my art, it wasn't for anyone else and it belonged to me. I created it for myself. My heart for me.

I cried for about half an hour maybe more. Its stupid, but they where my creations, my heart. I've never lost a sketch pad before, came close a few times but never did. I pray to god someone handed it in. i pray to god someone didn't throw it out, i pray to god someone didn't make it their own, because it's not theirs to take from me, it's not supposed to be lost.

]]> ~Seraph5 http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/27591574/ http://Seraph5.deviantart.com/journal/27591574/ Mon, 05 Oct 2009 05:52:22 PDT
feeling down in the dumps though i was over the moon 5 minutes ago, must've fallen over the other side harder then i thought but don't worry i'll probably be back up again soon. Psyched that the bitch has been put in her place, mega bummed that i have no money and don't know how i'm going to go during the next month or so (while it may only be my social life and entertainment on the line looking at an outlook as bleak as i am it's no upper), weirded out by the animation someone made of Patrick's face over the singing scarecrows in wiz o oz (it just looks freaky, like zombie freaky), stoked that the next fall out toy works begins winging it's way around the world in only two days time (it might get here in time for me to take it on my trip to byron bay), bummed that i'm running out of time on my project, bummed that i didn't get to finish something for chris (was gonna leave him a drawing at the bar he was going to speak out and pray the manager remember to pass it on, but he seemed like a well cool guy when i was hanging out there last time), fucked up the animation of patrick i was trying to do (yes i did this amazing badass animation of patrick turning his head but i tried to fineline it the other day and killed the majority of the stills. i am still reeling from how i feel about this, it's like everytime i think about it gravity of the situation heightens. i was going to finish that these holidays, now i don't even know if i'll finish at all let alone in time for the moustachette premier. that's what those weird journals where about by the way technically i now know i am capable of making pete and patrick kiss for fangirls all around the world to see now....jeez i can barely get motivated to try and save my current version let alone slave over that). bad mindset, hope i can sleep tonight (bad sleep for some inexplicable reason last night).

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