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let's just say i wasn't on campus and the like and have gone through a thing were i haven't written anything and the like now i am back hopefully better than ever


the girl i liked doesn't like me and didn't tell me which is a suck fest of sucks


i wasn't allowed on campus so i was home and it wasn't that bad i played guitar hero 3 all weekend for my wii, pwnd n00bs online


back at school and writing a cd now for my stuff and stuff

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i am failing class enough as it is, why? because of the fact that i just can't focus. i am sad and miserable with life and it all makes me want to just down a few bottles of pills and just end it

every night just leads to a new nightmare, last night for some reason the ex was involved now that i think about it and it hurts me to know that it is still bothering me somehow. i forget what the context was of the dream but her face was paralyzing my body, i remember waking up screaming

while on the subject of girls, yeah i like this one girl but my friend likes her too, fine, i let him win, [not me thinking that it is a game but he is] it sucks because he is treating me like shit because of it, why not i deserve it! and this girl doesn't seem to notice me that much so why bother, i don't care anymore

mental breakdowns are so much fun, esp when you felt so confident in everything and all you just fall into a million pieces!


woo hooray for me

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i am scared to death

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everyone is forcing me to go to the hospital but i don't wanna bc of some incident that happened years ago and it has scarred me since, so i have decided to fold and go but now i am scared bc of what it could be and if it is something terrible i don't know what i will do

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/14749450/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/14749450/ Sat, 22 Sep 2007 21:03:04 PDT

ok

week of two weeks ago
things are going fine, this girl Katie and i are hanging out a lot. For some reason i am being really flirty and so is she. Damn. Things start to get ugly by the end of the week. I tell her i won't date her but she thinks it is all bc she smokes [which is a big reason to be honest] and she flips. life starts to suck for me and well she makes me feel all guilty on teh inside

this week
Katie has been making my life a living hell, having all the staff in the building turn against me which isn't right at all. Everyone but my friends have been siding with me. We finally talk and things seem fine but when i start hanging out with Sarah a lot she gets all jealous and things get bad again. It went worse when me and Sarah decided to date and she hasn't let me live it down by sending me twenty texts saying things that shouldn't be said and leaving facebook comments that would later delete...argh

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/14619361/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/14619361/ Thu, 13 Sep 2007 15:45:08 PDT
In September 2007, My Chemical Romance went on a "recording hiatus", announced they have no plans to record a new album for a long time, with the soonest possibility being 2009 if they're lucky. This is said to be due to Gerard's recent marriage, along with Frank and other members wishing to spend less time on the road and more time with their families

how horrible...i am prolly gonna cry tonite, shed a few tears for my fallen heroes...


and for those of you who think that they prolly will get back [which i hope they do] it most likely won't happen


proof?
blink 182

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i feel so glad to be with my friends again but it doesn't seem to help me at all...i guess maybe i failed everyone in every aspect...i mean she destroyed the very fabric of me, i don't even feel like breathing anymore...i know how lame that sounds and how pathetic it makes me come off as but i really don't want to hold on to this life anymore...so i have become suicidal again...doesn't that suck a lot...back into cutting myself to feel and i really don't like what i have become, i cry when i am left alone and i really don't want to be left alone...it's funny the second semester was so cool last year i fell in love and everything and not a single sad blog now all i have been writing since may are sad blogs...i look back every night when i go to bed and she appears, why can't i get rid of her? is this the way i have to live until i fill that void? i don't know or want to know anymore, sometimes it's like giving up on life is the most logical excuse, like everyone else seems to be at their happiest when i am miserable, being depressed is so much fucking fun! woo! i hate myself...so maybe i am saying goodbye here maybe i am just going to do nothing sometimes i wonder what i am going to do with this life or anything, no one seems to want to play for the band anymore and i really really hate it all....i tore myself up the day before i came back to skool like literally my arm was cut bc i was tired of it all, everyone seems so happy from up here

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/14278593/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/14278593/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 20:13:30 PDT
the sad thing is we have fourteen year old kids who think they are cool trying to fit in, i don't know which is worse them or the wiggers [pardon my language] i think people need to see this, the problem with the "emo" shit is that they don't realize how good they have it compared to other people. i mean yeah humans are selfish beings and we think about ourselves before others and i won't lie i do that all the time, which is why i hate myself so much, there are starving children in Darfur and here i am whining about a girl who broke up with me, how fucked up is that? right like i don't know that is there ya know? i try to tell myself that my problems pale in those comparisons but human nature kicks in which creates this "emo" shit but these people as compared to normal people here could have it worse. it's not like they don't have a home or have parents who beat them or a spouse who abuses them physically and sexually.

i won't lie i haven't had a pretty life but i try so hard to cover it all up. i got sexually assaulted in school for starters, something that i feel uncomfortable with even three years after it happens, it is a scar that caused me to lose a relationship partially. i had an emotionally abusive girlfriend two years ago, she would call me up every night and tell me she was going to kill herself, she went anorexic on me. then she went out and cheated on me, bitch!


to make matters worse ok i have parents who don't love me, or at least they act that way, they will hit me or tell me what a horrible son i am, it's not like i am doing all this to fit in.

the so called scene is where i feel comfortable, the music speaks out to me, so many times i wanted to quit, so many times i wanted to just give up on life and end it all. i was a cutter i won't lie but here it goes the music saved me, i know so cliche right? My Chemical Romance was my personal jesus christ. lame as it sounds he [gerard] has become sort of like god to me, i feel like sometimes that people don't know why there is a scene they prolly think it is to be cool

sorry about the rant

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/14141485/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/14141485/ Sun, 12 Aug 2007 23:37:58 PDT
life has so many ups and downs i can't tell you where it goes anymore ya know?

i miss her more and more with each second i spend alone at night, i dread going back to skool but can't wait, there is something wrong, the books, the movies they never tell you how to deal with this, it's always happy endings for everyone except the bad guy, am i the bad guy?

maybe i am really the bad guy and that could explain a lot of what is wrong with my life, love is terrible whoever said it wasn't is full of shit, i really do feel like that is true, when they say better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all was prolly some ole cocker who married the girl of his dreams

you think you find that one special person and every time you try to go somewhere with them or someone else it all goes wrong, it creates this horrible thought process i have sadly man sadly

i have to say though so many things have been happening
an injury and work all the time have not made things so sweet

i went to the warped tour and met a band...Mayday Parade and they are gonna come on the nightwatch so that is really really cool

i am gonna go to bed i guess
for i am tired but just keep on checking out my new works the band should be well interesting i have to say based upon what i focus on a lot

bye

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/14141481/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/14141481/ Sun, 12 Aug 2007 23:37:36 PDT
life has so many ups and downs i can't tell you where it goes anymore ya know?

i miss her more and more with each second i spend alone at night, i dread going back to skool but can't wait, there is something wrong, the books, the movies they never tell you how to deal with this, it's always happy endings for everyone except the bad guy, am i the bad guy?

maybe i am really the bad guy and that could explain a lot of what is wrong with my life, love is terrible whoever said it wasn't is full of shit, i really do feel like that is true, when they say better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all was prolly some ole cocker who married the girl of his dreams

you think you find that one special person and every time you try to go somewhere with them or someone else it all goes wrong, it creates this horrible thought process i have sadly man sadly

i have to say though so many things have been happening
an injury and work all the time have not made things so sweet

i went to the warped tour and met a band...Mayday Parade and they are gonna come on the nightwatch so that is really really cool

i am gonna go to bed i guess
for i am tired but just keep on checking out my new works the band should be well interesting i have to say based upon what i focus on a lot

bye

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/13780188/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/13780188/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 09:50:35 PDT

as for my life it seems like things aren't really getting any better, with all the shit i have to go through over and over again everyday it makes some choices seem all to clear...

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Between you and me
It's hard to ever really know
Who to trust
How to think
What to believe
Between me and you
It's hard to ever really know
Who to choose
How to feel
What to do
[Bloodflowers]

i'm running out of time i'm out of step and
closing down and never sleep for wanting hours
the empty hours of greed and uselessly always
the need to feel again the real belief of
something more than mockery if only i could
fill my heart with love
[Closedown]


sometimes you make me feel like i'm living at
the edge of the world like i'm living at the edge
of the world "it's just the way i smile" you said
[Plainsong]

And I feel like I'm being eaten
By a thousand million shivering furry holes
And I know that in the morning I will wake up
In the shivering cold
[Lullaby]

there was nothing in the world that i ever
wanted more than to feel you deep in my heart
there was nothing in the world that i ever
wanted more than to never feel the breaking
apart all my pictures of you
[Pictures of You]

My body is cut and broken
It's shattered and sore
My body is cut wide open
I can't stand anymore
It tortures me to move my hands
To try to move at all
And pulled
My skin so tight screams
And screams and screams
And screams some more
[Torture]

Kiss me kiss me kiss me
Your tongue is like poison
So swollen it fills up my mouth

Love me love me love me
You nail me to the floor
And push my guts all inside out

Get it out get it out get it out
Get your fucking voice
Out of my head

I never wanted this
I never wanted any of this
I wish you were dead
I wish you were dead

I never wanted any of this
I wish you were dead
Dead
Dead
Dead
[The Kiss]

I want to smash you to pieces
I want to smash you up and screaming
I want to smash you helpless
Down on the floor
Smash you until you're not here anymore
[Shiver and Shake]

If only tonight we could sleep
In a bed made of flowers
If only tonight we could fall
In a deathless spell
[If Only Tonight We Could Sleep]

And sometimes we would spend the night
Just rolling about on a floor
And I remember
Even though it felt soft at the time
I always used to wake up sore

You know I even think that she smiled like you
She used to just stand there and smile
And her eyes would go all sort of far away
And stay like that for quite a while
[Catch]


Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me
[Just Like Heaven]

've waited hours for this
i've made myself so sick
i wish i'd stayed
asleep today

i never thought this day would end
i never thought tonight could ever be
this close to me

just try to see in the dark
just try to make it work
to feel the fear before you're here
i make the shapes come much too close
i pull my eyes out
hold my breath
and wait until i shake...

but if i had your faith
then i could make it safe and clean
if only i was sure
that my head on the door was a dream

i've waited hours for this
i've made myself so sick
i wish i'd stayed asleep today
i never thought this day would end
i never thought tonight could ever be
this close to me

but if i had your face
then i could make it safe and clean
if only i was surethat my head on the door was a dream to
[Close To Me]

A shallow grave
A monument to the ruined age
Ice in my eyes
And eyes like ice don't move
Screaming at the moon
Another past time
Your name
Like ice into my heart
[Cold]

It doesn't matter if we all die
Ambition in the back of a black car
In a high building there is so much to do
Going home time
A story on the radio
[One Hundred Years]

One more day like today and I'll kill you
A desire for flesh
And real blood
I'll watch you drown in the shower
Pushing my life through your open eyes
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can someone hold me close to them and tell me it will all work out that it is someone's plan and i will be ok in the end, but there is nothing in the world that can heal this gaping wound...

i have bad news for all of you who actually read this, more than just one piece but i will only share one piece: i am still in love with her, do you know how much this sucks


it gets worse

i can't write anymore...i am sorry people

she was more than just a muse to me, she was my life and everything in it, so maybe i am done for good i guess...

goodbye

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she said some shit to me today and i don't know if i can forgive her for that, it makes me want to do things that i shouldn't want to do or do at all


someone has to save me please

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it hurts a lot and i really hate thinking of it in that sense bc i can't afford to lose her bc i still
love
her. i know that i have been a jerk recently with me being sick all the time and stress from class but i didn't mean any of it, so what can i do

we talk a lot but recently it has dumbed down quiet a bit and it makes me exceedingly sad

there is that chance of us getting back together and then there is that chance it won't, and i know deep down inside if it doesn't i will be a wreck, more so than ever before, how am i to feel right now? seriously tell me!

work sucks it really does, two days back and i want to quit so badly

with recent events it has become harder to finish the concept album but i did, i think it is weak and crap but that doesn't matter now does it, i have to start the other one....

i just want to fix everything, and not loser her, she is my world...

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/12830213/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/12830213/ Thu, 03 May 2007 16:23:37 PDT
wow

what a ride it has been, going from extreme depression to eternal happiness. all this happened within a matter of months, scary no?

thinking on it, it makes me sad to see it all come to an end, i am going to miss everyone here at kutztown university, i mean everyone i have met and gotten close to means so much to me, but there are some that i am going to miss more than others, it is a shame to be quite honest...actually not at all...hah

so here it goes the list

Holly: you were my first true love, and i will never stop thinking about you, i hate the fact that i have to go almost three months before i most likely will see you again, going that long without seeing your beautiful face is like a crime, not kissing those lips will surely kill me if not drive me insane, and not holding you close will tear out my insides, she is the one i am going to miss the most because i am so terribly in love with her that well you know how it goes when your in love what happens ya know, so Holly, I love you

now here it goes the rest of the list is going to be hard to put everybody in this list so i guess i will just have to keep it short for everybody

Dan the Man: your my roommate next year and it is going to be bitching, you are like an ally and a brother, always there for me, Metal Gear would never stand a chance against us at all, your wired up like a mother fucker and don't ever let anyone change that

Tim: fuck you...<3 no homo

Black Guy: Matt, your such a BAMF it is scary when you're just sitting there and a big black guy walks up behind you and well just says boo, it is almost considered rape lol. you too are like a bro to me, from the scuba steveing joke to the flying V to all the remarks about what not you rock the sock

Evans: ...

Specks: your a perv, that is ok, it is you, your wit and sexual innuendo (in your end-o) was classic, shame the band never got off

Sventor and Hair Dan: you guys are too quiet but when you open your mouths more than shit comes out...

oh shit! i have so many more ppl, time for just one sentence per person, sorry1

Courtney: fuck you, seriously, stop hugging me

Mindy: you need to stop driving like a..MANIAC MANIAC and she's driving like she never has before

Paul Hank: donkey kong cuntry 2: diddy's koquest, lolz, you and your shit damn i will miss it

John Life: keep making fun of people disadvantaged it is funny...SHIT!

Steph: you edit my papers, thank you! and oh by the way sorry about having you have to knock on your own door whenever you want to come in whenever i am in there with holly

Rachel Demko: keep mispronouncing my name

Justin: dude you rock, your castlevaina determination was sick as fuck, can't wait till you actually live in berks lol

anyone i forgot, sorry

peace nigs!

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/12695190/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/12695190/ Sun, 22 Apr 2007 17:34:10 PDT
it just seemed awkward going through the whole getting to know someone phase, i was still a little lacking in trust with relationships, it was because of what happened last time, the mental abuse. so i decided to give it a try, before we were dating holly came up and spent the night with me and at that moment i was shocked and totally lost in thought, it happened twice before it hit me that i need this and will try it, things have changed so much

it has been approaching three months with her and these three months have been almost perfect. when i was sick she took care of me or was going to, when i was in the ER she was worried about me

we spent so much time together that i sit here and think what i would do without her or where i would be without her and i don't know the answer, what was it like before her, i never want to know what that is ever again

recently we have had a rough time, i wont lie i have been an asshat to her recently and it eats at me all the time, she threatened to break up with me if i didn't change and that sent me into a deep thought process, she was right there was something wrong with me at the time, too much stress, i was taking anger out at the wrong person and it wasn't fair to her, it wasn't, i said i loved her yet i was yelling at her for not spending time with me. yet it was true she wasn't spending time with me

things are now hopefully fixed and i hope for the best

the end of the semester is coming and finals are rearing their ugly ass mother fucking heads and it scares me sometimes.

next year will be interesting, rooming with da number one stunner aka my best bro here DTM and we got two classes together one of which is dinosaurs, BAMF-tastic

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/12591341/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/12591341/ Sat, 14 Apr 2007 09:45:46 PDT
what has been happening?

well i turned twenty not too long ago, kinda scary no?

well i also have been continuously falling in love with Holly, more and more i find myself finding her more and more like the soulmate that i have always wanted to find and spend my life with, she is perfection wrapped in human flesh [sounds eerie]

school is going, but who knows what will happen, this semester will see grades fall ever so slightly, not like they have that much to fall

i can't ever seem to be healthy, lol
my legs recently lost feeling in them so the other nite i had to spend at the ER, it sux ballz that shit like that had to happen to me, no?

i have writer's block so it sux ballz

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/12130897/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/12130897/ Sat, 10 Mar 2007 12:24:23 PST well i don't see how that pertains to me at all but i just felt like saying that.

anyway spring break has begun, and no offense to anyone who i have seen so far, but i am not enjoying it in the wholest. i love my friends and i did have a good time last nite, it is just well, she isn't there, sry guys

when you fall in love it kinda hurts coz ur falling and then they catch you and prevent that pain, it is how i feel, but last nite and this week she isn't going to be there, so if i write something my songs may take a dark turn. oh god

so thursday it became official, there exists a band...we are named Blue Screen of Death, i get to do lyrics and vocals, we shall see how this goes, we are drummerless and our bassist is learning, oh snap

so yesterday, friday, it was so hard

woke up with her next to me

i left but not by choice, no, i went finished a paper printed it and ate took a test, turned in the paper and what not

i was longing for something
her

i had to say goodbye

it is only a week

maybe more, a few days too

damn



i just wanted to hold her and tell her don't go
but i couldn't
all i did was hold her and told her i loved her and will miss her

oh the things i want to say

the sad thing is she left, now i am alone, just thinking about her if she ever could know how much i cared, i can't express it at all, it has to be via song but i can't do that, a masterpiece. i always doubt myself, it is how i am, make myself better

i need to come clean
this may sound crazy but
i think she is the one, the one i may spend my life with

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/12077510/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/12077510/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 07:06:50 PST
don't know how
don't know why
but finally i have fallen...in love, that is a scary thought, as the scent is in the air, everything seems so right now-a-days

how did this happen? that is a good question, one month you may say that is such a short time, yes it can be a short time frame, i understand that

you don't know how i work

the thing we have here is something that i have never had before, it feels so good, and yet so right i can't begin to explain

we spend so much time together, more than the amount a normal couple would have spent together in a month, that could be why, maybe, i get this feeling, this special feeling

is she the one?
the one that i have been waiting for my whole life?
i get that feeling, am i crazy?
who knows, i know for sure i never want to lose her
ever!
that is what i feel
or trying to define how i feel
sadly it is undefinable but that is the best i can do

for those of you who haven't noticed every week i am on the air live, i play a song for her, the first one was
Lovesong by the Cure
this past week was
Inevitable by Anberlin and Thunder by Boys Like Girls

this is something that you should fear, a me who is happily in love
just maybe i will never have to worry about my heart being broken, that would be wonderful!

anyway here is the acoustic play list
1. Bullet For My Valentine: Tears Don't Fall
2. Rise Against: Everchanging
3. HIM: Funeral of Hearts
4. Red Jumpsuit Apparatus: Your Guardian Angel
5. Dashboard Confessional: Screaming Infidelities
6. Breaking Benjamin: Diary of Jane
7. Spill Canvas: Self-Conclusion
8. Silverstein: My Heroine
9. Death Cab For Cutie: I Will Follow You Into The Dark
10. The Used: Lunacy Fringe
11. The Academy Is...: The Phrase That Pays
12. Taking Back Sunday: Cute Without The 'E' (Cut From The Team)
13. Cute Is What We Aim For: Lyrical Lies
14. (+44): Weatherman
15. the cure: Lovesong
16 Johnny Cash: Hurt
17. Senses Fail: The Ground Folds
18. Coheed & Cambria: Welcome Home
19. Brand New: Me Vs Madonna Vs Elvis
20. Bayside: Masterpiece
21. Hawthorne Heights: Silver Bullet
22. Aiden: Silent Eyes
23. Jet: Are You Going To Be My Girl
24. AFI: Girl's Not Grey
25. 30 Seconds To Mars: The Kill (Bury Me)
26. The Fray: How To Save A Life
27. Anberlin: Inevitable
28. Plain White T's: Hey There Delilah
29. Saosin: Bury Your Head
30. My Chemical Romance: Desert Song
31. Nirvana: Where Did You Sleep Last Night
32. Jack's Mannequin: Bruised
33. Halifax: Sydney
34. From First To Last: Emily

i loves her

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/11972856/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/11972856/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 10:31:16 PST
set one
1. The End
2. Dead!
3. This Is How I Disappear
4. The Sharpest Lives
5. Welcome To The Black Parade
6. I Don't Love You
7. House of Wolves
8. Cancer
9. Mama
10. Sleep
11. Teenagers
12. Disenchanted
13. Famous Last Words

set two [in no order]
1. I'm Not Okay [I Promise]
2. It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Deathwish
3. Cemetery Drive
4. Helena
5. Give 'Em Hell Kid
6. Ghost of You
7. Thank You For The Venom
8. You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison

they missed all the good stuff off the first album and off the second album they missed two amazing songs, oh well it was the shit

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/11958268/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/11958268/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 08:18:10 PST
sadly i haven't seen her since friday and well i miss her like crazy, i wont be seeing her till monday which is sad but i have to make my sacrifices. and she is the biggest one i have to make, the truth is i am falling for her, like the angels from the sky when michael cast them out, and i cant help it if u understand where i am coming from ya know.

"your my heaven in life and death" finally those words have meaning, and it is great that they do

my show for this week for anyone who listens is still on even though i am not there, it is prerecorded so tune in anyway, it is a special program dedicated to the band that saved my life, My Chemical Romance, i forgot to play a few songs but oh well, it is solid and will stay that way, but if it isnt u then just tune in next week when i return live, i got a playlist already mapped out including a special song for her, very special song, but aside from that, i got the new used track as well as the academy is...track for future playing so...yeah

i am jamming out to Rise Against's album Siren Song of the Counter Culture here is the track listing

1. State of the Union
2. The First Drop
3. Life Less Frightening
4. Paper Wings
5. Blood To Bleed
6. To Them These Streets Belong
7. Tip The Scales
8. Anywhere But Here
9. Give It All
10. Dancing For Rain
11. Swing Life Away
12. Rumors of My Demise Have Been Greatly Exaggerated

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/11878054/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/11878054/ Mon, 19 Feb 2007 07:23:42 PST
so this weekend coming i get to finally accomplish my life long goal of seeing my chemical romance, and possibly meeting them with much thnx to a friend, and then i can finally thank gerard and the rest of them for saving my life all those times that they did with their music, it will be amazing plus i am going with two amazing pplz

for those of u who rly know me they would know that i prefer the heavy screaming music of the likes of MCR, AFI, pretty much heavy stuff right, well i still love them and all but recently it has gone lighter
take a look at what i have dl'd recently

Bedlight For Blue Eyes: The Dawn
Cartel: Chroma
The Cure about nine of their albums
Dashboard Confessional: Dusk and Summer
Death Cab For Cutie: Plans
Jack's Mannequin: Everything In Transit

that is right i have been dl'ing lighter albums and i love it

it is all because of her, and u know what i dont know how to describe her in words, bc if i do they lose their meaning and then i just dont know how to feel, i have never felt this before ever!

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/11731591/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/11731591/ Thu, 08 Feb 2007 06:26:24 PST
my show went swimmingly amazing [if only i could swim] i can't help but walk around with a smile on my face the past two or three days it is such a scary thing to everyone to see me with a smile, tehheee, what? i dont know but here is a little hint
"i'm a sucker for anything acoustic"

that is right listening to a strange mix and here it is

1. Dashboard Confessional: Screaming Infidelities
2. Brand New: Jude Law and a Semester Abroad [Acoustic]
3. Plain White T's: Hey There Delilah
4. HIM: Gone With The Sin [Acoustic]
5. My Chemical Romance: Demolition Lovers
6. 3 Doors Down: Here Without You [Acoustic]
7. Halifax: Sydney [Acoustic]
8. Smashing Pumpkins: 1979
9. Motion City Soundtrack: Make Out Kids
10. AFI: Endlessly She Said [Acoustic]
11. (+44): When Your Heart Stops Beating
12. The Ataris: My Reply
13. Chiodos: The Lover And The Liar
14. Flyleaf: There For You
15. From First To Last: Note To Self
16. Killswitch Engage: Arms of Sorrow
17. Spill Canvas: Self-Conclusion
18. The Postal Service: Brand New Colony
19. Rise Against: Roadside
20. Coheed And Cambria: Wake Up [Acoustic]

damn there is so many

lolz smilez

]]> ~SexualJudas http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/11598375/ http://SexualJudas.deviantart.com/journal/11598375/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 10:49:31 PST
Sunday Nites 10 PM-12AM tune in for the Suicide Unit, for all your emo/goth/screamo and depressing needs, is gonna rock! dont be afraid to let the rainbows out...

how to listen!

if your at Kutztown:
88.3 FM
1670 AM
Serivce Electric Channel 24 [the cable channel lolz]
[link]
visions/studentservices/de
partments/radioservices/
or there just click on on campus, if your off campus click the one that says off campus, it will open in ur media player and you can jam to all the hits or non hits that i play lolz
i start Super Bowl Sunday so everyone better tune in~~~

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