http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ShadoeShaft&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ShadoeShaft en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 11:17:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/23382269/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/23382269/ Tue, 24 Feb 2009 13:58:14 PST I love art and seeing others express it as well soo..I just do check ups here but seeing journals makes me want to submit one again.
WELL. This will be short but I'm going another one soon with a giant update but basically for now the dealio is
today, after deligently working on my 8 page term paper on artificial intelligence, we had to do a speech.
Wrote it yesterday, presented it today and let me tell you dears it was AWESOME. Introduction, transitions, and conclusion flowed perfectly and wen't full circle (in writing I think that's neat). And well, my writing generally has a nice flow to it (not egotistical). It's just how I write. I like things to flow nicely and pretty-full.
SO thing to know about me
Public speaking= kills me
I am SOO shy I get shaky, nervous and jittery and hyperventilate-y .
So I start my speech and all is going well, and I hit my awesome conclusion which caps it off with a bang...
AND
Of course I freeze. FROZEN SOLID!
Then I started breathing hard cause I was trying to breathe and calm down but I just kept taking in air and yeah...
I missed the last two words of my speech and was just like "decades of determination...----DECADES OF DETERMINATION!!" Threw up my arms for effect and walked off. Tried to end it like that.
Oh dear the end was a TRAIN WRECK, with fire, and explosives and alien creatures and yeah...
it was bad and I'm angry at myself because I had the chance to do really good if I didn't screw up.
FML


Going to go run now. Hopefully it'll help me blow some steam.

Cheers.
amanda

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/22026680/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/22026680/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 04:39:15 PST ANYWHO. Update on my back.
Today after I take my exams..(this week is FINALS week. Omg. I want it to be over so I can go hibernate for two weeks xD lmao)
I'm going to the docs and they're going to check up on it.
I was supposed to get my results of my full body scan last tuesday but they just got back to me...Yesterday. SOo. My dad answered the phone and didn't tell me what they said until I asked, which is they think it's an active spot (VERY GOOD!), so I might have a chance of healing :3
I don't know why my dad didn't tell me right away I mean. Don't you think I have a RIGHT to know? It's my frickin back -grumble-
Sometimes no no. ALWAYS he annoys me. I'll spare you the rant ;]

So wish me luck today guys *thumbs up* I'll prolly get some x-rays then be all sad when I get home. lmao.
LOVE YOU ALL! And an early Happy Christmas <3
amanda.

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/21747123/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/21747123/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 11:22:34 PST Well. So I get an oblique view done of my spine and he comes in and is like "This is suspicious. really suspicious."
So. The verdict loves...
Either I have Spondylyosis which you can read on what it is here --> [link]

Or its a stress fracture. Pretty much on my 3rd cervical vertebrae you can see this dark line where there's a fracture in the vertebrae.
Hopefully its just a stress fracture or something...I'm hoping for the better of outcomes (I don't know which one I'm better with. The doctor was kinda bad. He wasn't explaining things very clearly. )
He did say though that I have to get bone testing done (with like IV things -shudder-) and an MRI to see if this thing is a hot spot, or if its old. If its New (hotspot) then they can heal it...If its not..Well then I'm stuck with the pain.
He said I should stay off sports but -cackle- like a little pain ever stopped me from being active. lmao.
I DO have to wear a soft back brace though...No worries I don't look like that girl from Mean girls lmao! Just like...It's like a girdle or a corset. so not to bad. haha. My friends joke around like "Does at least make you skiiner!?!?" lmao. Ah I love my friends. They put light on any dark situation.

If I'm stuck with this, I think I just might blame my mom for not listening to me. I have a really good tolerance to keeping pain to myself and dealing with it. If I WAS saying ANYTHING she should KNOW that this was serious. What ever...I hope this turns out good.

I'm a very adventurous person and I'm not letting this get in the way of my goals. lol.
This might postpone my backpacking trip in new mexico though...-tear-

I hope this gets better loves. Hopefully this won't discourage me in anything. I don't want to get depressed again... Like after I got back from sailing.
Gawd damn I miss the sea. Its like homesickness being away from it..Like a piece of me is missing..

I'm an ocean baby though xp I can't help it. I've been by it my whole life and being ON it. Threw me off the edge. =[


PREVIEW! This was the before for a masqeurade ball I went to saturday. I'll make another journal on that later ;] haha.
When I get the pics FROM it developed I'll post them up.
FOr now, Muah

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p.s. I fucking HEART Edward CULLEN/ ROB PATTINSON -swoonorgasm-

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/21424193/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/21424193/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 15:58:42 PST If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars."

I Fear…

[] the dark (typically when I'm by myself or someone else that's terrified of the dark)
[x] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 3

[ ] being touched
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

Total so far: 4

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ x ] dolls
[x ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes

Total so far: 10

[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[x] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up

Total so far: 16

[X] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets

Final Total: 18. WOO NORMAL! lmao. Everyone knows I'm not though haha. It was actually a surprise! I'm just adventurous and believe in fate so that balances everything out xp

... if you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of _ out of 72 common fears...

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OMG WOLFIE I LOVE YOU AND WILL MISS YOU!!! DXXXXXXXXXXXXXX


If you get on at like.... 1am-3am, you might catch me before I leave <33333333333333


I'll send you some sketches I did too, lasting memory of me should I die =/




-HUGGLESREAPPSSALLLZZZ-



-off to sailing with the bonny boys ;] ohhh. hehehehehehehehehhe.- *seckkks*

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/17261681/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/17261681/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 19:07:26 PDT
ANd our NEW poem of the week..Which a lot of my friends seem to like =/
Lot of emotion in this one kind of. From the heart.


-Dedicated to Heath Ledger <3 Written on his death day.
Heath, We love you <3


Title: .:Truth of World:.

Tears not fallen,
Tears not shed.
Brimming eyes
Of Rain and Wet.
Pressure building
In my throat.
Visions waver,
And I quote.
The young die too innocent,
The old too sinful.
If only the world were perfect.

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/17078934/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/17078934/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 18:40:32 PST Too much hacking and coughing X[
Hopefully it'll pass by the weekend. rawr.
Anywho, Just a random snippet of poetry for some to enjoy. I think I might add one to each journal entry I make. haha.
Might put up some new art soon. Heaven knows I have like stock piles of scribbles waiting to be lined xp


ciao <3

=3


----

With words we collide
such worlds collide
In shattered peace
and shattered dreams.
Things we thought of times before,
Of days that wrought such laughs and woe.
Of times long past, memories adrift,
remember now, remember this
With Words and Worlds,
Colliding Bliss.

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/17045268/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/17045268/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 16:20:38 PST Got a writer's job on runicpets. kind of old news but yeah...
First kiss was last night, yum. haha.
He likes me, I like him a lil', but my friend likes him too.
bleh, drama! no?


well that's it in a nutshell. I don't feel like elaboratly telling the tale of my long overdue journal xp I'm sick, and I have soccer, which is putting a damper on it. Midfield=MOST running.
hell


Bye luffs.

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/15464023/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/15464023/ Sun, 11 Nov 2007 12:49:08 PST By those who hope for ruin.
Jealousy, ostensibly planning my demise.
Heavy hearts blinded with greed and want, never stop to think.
What heavy spikes, metal spikes drive beneath their feet.
One hard façade never to efface, through the pains of time.
Yet even of the hardest steel, rust and break, and rot must I.
Break and snap, to the point of where not light will shine.
Hidden under laughs and beams, a crushed broken truth.
Within the mirror, within the soul, one can only see.
The true façade by pain was wrought, broken soul indeed.

I’m sick of it, plain sick of it.
A caged bird longed to be free.
Yet clipped my wings, and eyes forced down, the sky never seen.
Hope is strong, hope was strong, forever in my heart.
Yet forever seemed, forever seems a hopeless trek indeed.
When I break free, I will break free, How far I will soar.
The Heights! The limits, limitless, barred door felled and gone.
I’ll be my own, form my own, and forever show you lot.
This hard soft bird, without those wings, will soar higher, highest, heights.






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F the world. Fucking friends are stupid. So the story.

Okay, SO I like this one guy. Suposedly I flirt like a lot. yet. Big deal. He's single, why not, right? and I don't do it that much. I'm sort of a shy person so I'll like just bring up conversationsometime and that's it.
so this girl IM's yesterday like. "I heard you liked Conor (the guy) and I asked him if he liked you and he said only as a friend. Only. SO stop flirting with him okay."

Now that girl's friends with this girl that likes him too. This girl Jessica. In my opinion, I don't like her. Her voice is annoying, hair is poofy, and like, Tomboyish. I just don't like her. ( I know stereotypical, I just don't like her) So like. TOday, we were supposed to go to the movies with everyone, conor too, he's like in our big group of friends.

And my friend calls it off, last minute, like, WHEN I'm almost done getting ready. saying they're ALL going to Jessica's house now, and of course, in my predicament, I'm not invited.

its just....Everyone thinks I'm always the jovial one you know? Always charming, will take a joke with a laugh. Yet if I take enough hits, I just kind of crack, you know?

Just speaking my mind. I can't get a hold of any of my friends on the phone so...yeah.

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/13460567/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/13460567/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 13:56:20 PDT

an extremely weak,

~Shadow

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/13255874/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/13255874/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 17:56:05 PDT
Game from


The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a free sketch.


(using her rules which she copied, too lazy to write my own)

RULES
|1|. Don't complain if you don't like it --;; ITS A SKETCH YO~
|2|. Request only ONE character! OR I SHOOT YOU
|3|. You must have a reference of your char/detailed explanation
|4|. Fanarts are allowed, just nothing too formal [depends, tho... I'm not too good with fanart, mind you]
|5|. No hardcore stuffs D8< (i WISH but ;_; yeah.)
|6|. Doesn't matter if you did this already, you have to do it again!
|7|. If you don't post this up in your journal, I won't accept your request!
|8|. It takes me a while so :0 Hate me all you wants I am a brick wall LOL
|9|. If I can't draw the character you requested, I'll note you and tell you to request a different character.
|10|. Don't whine/cry to me, just because you didn't get a chance to request a sketch, maybe next time! ^^

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. To have your request done, you must put this game in your journal as well! D:< Spread the love ~

LIST:
1)
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3)
4)
5)
6)
7)
8)
9)
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]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/13179847/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/13179847/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 17:47:28 PDT

~Shadow

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/12719286/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/12719286/ Tue, 24 Apr 2007 15:02:55 PDT
I have some new art as you see, Have A LOT more, yet it is not scanned yet. I still stink at lineart in photoshop. I got Contacts! SQUEE! and this year I'm graduating 8th grade *Oh the irony of shadow's youth XP*

I'm opening up my rp site the beginning of June, so remember Literate Inheritence roleplayer Fans, Join up 83

Your loyal little bat,

~Shadow

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/11648275/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/11648275/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 14:01:57 PST [link]"[/img]

Well to first start things off, I'm a happy person xD Hanging out with friends, Nothing bad in me life ^____^ But, strangly I've had these dreams about a man, I think he lost someone he loved, a woman. And His wrists always start to bleed X___X

The most recent one I had started in a dark room, a strange light filtering into the dark space like starlight. He's sitting in chair, head cast down with his hands tied behind him with thick cords. He lifts up his head and screams "Where are you! When!?" and just screams, then he falls into a silent sob, whispering "Where are you?"....

Then the image changes, focusing on the hands tied with the dark cords. His wrists start to bleed and he screams something inaudible into the air, I think he said "Where!" and as the blood drips onto the cords, you see a sort of reflection of a face of a woman. Pale, with dark eyes and thick brown hair. As I focus on the reflection in the blood drip, It suddenly flashes her whole face...


And that, Is where the dream ends and I wake up...
I know tis a bit freaky xD and sad...Just getting it off me mind X____X

A little freaked out,

~Shadoe

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/11600718/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/11600718/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 14:32:30 PST

A VERY happy Bat,

~Shadow/Arry

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/11521762/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/11521762/ Sun, 21 Jan 2007 18:34:02 PST
Oh yeah, Happy ^^


Edit & Paste Link --> [link]

Hope to see ya there. Remember, It's aiming more to the Literate and Higher community =3

~Arry

]]> ~ShadoeShaft http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/11233305/ http://ShadoeShaft.deviantart.com/journal/11233305/ Fri, 29 Dec 2006 11:21:10 PST
I finally found FEATHER! here, yet how she found me first, I am still left clueless XD I have found dear wolfie as well! And more friends I am meeting ^_^'

My eating is all messed up, and so is my sleeping. I wake up at 1 pm and fall asleep at 4 a.m.--I eat once at like 2 pm and I'm not hungry for the rest of the day, And all I had was a sandwich....I manage to fit something in me at like 12 at night but....Yeah, tis strange X_X


~Shadoe OUT

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