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]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/17671225/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/17671225/ Thu, 03 Apr 2008 17:11:46 PDT FUCK THE FACISTS

]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/16894812/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/16894812/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 07:25:36 PST

and i'll try to be less whiny...

]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/10675773/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/10675773/ Fri, 10 Nov 2006 04:04:35 PST
"oh you can definately hear the Sex pistols and the Ramones in that song"

No you fucking can't! There is only one of my songs that reminds me of the sex pistols, and thats the one that i cant help but sing with an accent for, alright. how bout ya shut the fuck up and just listen, then ASK me bout my influences, instead of tellin me, okay?

For the record, my Influences are (and i know i cant spell worth shit):

John Lennon, Ozzy Osbourne, Jonathin Davis, Munky, Wayne Static, Little Jimmy Urine, Steve, Righ?, Rush, Disturbed, Red Hot Chili Peppers, System of a Down (hypnotize/mezmerize era), James Marshal Hendrix, Papa Roach, Marilyn Manson and others that I'm too lazy to think up.

Now having said this i would also like to point out that i have developed a style all of my own, and that where i might be inspired to make music by the above mentioned artists, I dont take their style. I always strive to be my own self, and while i learned how to play guitar listening to them, they define me neither as an indavidual nor as a musician.

I am completely my own. elements that you hear from them in my music are not intentional. so please, next time, avoid telling ME what influenced the song, and let me tell you. most of the time its raw fucking emotion and shit thats happening in my life. Thanks.

]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/8248109/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/8248109/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 16:37:32 PST just express your intrest and i shall send you pictures...
got one person drawin me already


any takers? ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/7921241/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/7921241/ Thu, 16 Feb 2006 23:15:35 PST havent been on here in ages

workin on my cd,
poetry not so much... ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/5716891/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/5716891/ Tue, 21 Jun 2005 18:33:00 PDT feel like shit.
partying it up on friday
exams suck mooseballs ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/4000510/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/4000510/ Mon, 06 Dec 2004 05:56:16 PST finally got a full 3 piece band goin...no name as of yet, and we're doin a lot of old school rock, like led zepplin, neil young, and that kinda stuff, even some classic ozzy and the beatles!
it just feels good to have a band again... ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2933469/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2933469/ Wed, 21 Jul 2004 11:30:53 PDT does this not kick serious ass!!!

woot!
if i lived closer to toronto, I'd be seein it multiple times!!!!
but i dont live close to the T. dot, so I'll only be seing it once in thearters, if at all....
________________
09.11.2004 ^
Toronto, Canada ^
________________^

thats the date ity opens....
wait a tick, isnt that the date of something else....

oh well

So much Inu-yashaness!!!!
too much antisipation!!!!!!
wee!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2824444/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2824444/ Wed, 07 Jul 2004 10:21:02 PDT back into my same old rutt after Kate suddenly left me...
this proves the theory that even when i dont screw up, i screw up big. Some how, some way, it always happens, usually without my knowledge. Oh well.

Sorry to everyone who watches me for not being on a lot, well im on, but i never really post anything anymore, however i feel a wave of inspiration coming on.
im working on a novel that won't be posted here, im working on one that will be and im also working on a few songs too!

so, all and all, the universe shall return to a state of normality. a state of normality in which No one will die in a fiery death because the apocolypse has just occured due to my having a relationship, because that line of events has ceaced to exist!

anyways, look forward(if you dare) to new stories and new songs!!!!

woot woot!l

I'm out fer now!
later, Y'all ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2677912/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2677912/ Wed, 16 Jun 2004 20:37:43 PDT ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2367947/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2367947/ Wed, 05 May 2004 18:38:41 PDT i dont want to doubt Michelle, We're in a band together which is like a sacred trust... So I do trust her, And i do hope she can get brooke to go but...
i dunno im rambling on now so this journal is done ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2313238/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2313238/ Tue, 27 Apr 2004 21:37:54 PDT Now aside from the above mentioned problems, he also has another problem...the fact that he allows his heart to overrule the directions from his brain.You see, he has a habit of falling for the wrong girls.Basically any girl. and its not that they are wrong for him, it is that he doesnt deserve them.And what could a loser like him offer? Hell he can hardly keep from killing himself right now, his wrists are all cut up and he cant even count the number of scars he has of his own doing. The only thing left for him to do, is to say his final good-byes to everyone because there is nothing left in this life worth living for.
He will never be able to keep a job, he's to irratic. A 'Love life' is completely out of the question. He's struggeling to keep the friends he's got, and figure out the false ones. He wont be able to afford univercity, Collage,or other, and would never be eligable for a scholarship to anywhere. So he's got two choices: Live on the street, or take his own life.
And with such a dismal future facing him, he's going to take the only option that seems reasonable. Suiside. How? he doesnt know yet. When? probably sooner than later, unless he keeps chickening out.

And why shouldnt i commit suiside! i have nothing here now, or in the future! screw all this "he" bullshit. I am talking about myself. hell, i wanted to be a professional actor, technically i already am, because i havent shown anyone what is on the inside yet, how i really feel, but now im coming clean. If im gunna die, might as well have a clean concience! I have kept almost everyone at arms lenght my entire life because i was afraid of getting hurt. So, In essence, I am a Coward, because i've let my fear of being hurt run my life since my dad walked out. and my future, well my would have been future, i see nothing. I cant finish anything so why even bother trying anymore. I was born and 17.5years later i finished what was started. I know when i go i'll leave a mess and i apologize to who ever has to clean it all up.

I think im a bout done here, so here's one last piece of advice....

Nothing is ever harder than it is made out to be, life is a mind over matter game. and just because my mind was weak, and i was selfish and took the cowards way out, doesnt mean you cant make it yourself. Just keep on fighting and give em hell fer me. ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2313101/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2313101/ Tue, 27 Apr 2004 21:10:22 PDT It's not like this doesnt happen to me all the time, i mean, when you look the way i do, which is ugly, you get used to getting shot down, but that doesnt mean that it doesnt hurt any less. and she wasnt going to tell me that it was off either, i had to ask her about it. Why do i get the feeling that I'm being played for a fool by someone. Well i know a few people i wont be going out of my way to interact with for a while, and who i will probably be going out of my way to avoid for a long while. even if she does consider me a 'good friend' and wouldnt want to 'screw that up'...And she's not the one who said this, someone who i trust told me thats how the 2nd one felt, so...
Well im done here.... ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2139172/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2139172/ Fri, 02 Apr 2004 18:05:41 PST one of mah good friends tried to kill herself with advil,
and things went downhill from there...
i just feel so helpless, like im gunna loose her the same way i lost josh... i dont think i can stand to bury another friend...
i hate this feeling, like i cant do anything but watch as she does it...
this just stirs up so many bad memories...
hopefully she shows up not only to macbeth but to poker night aswell, to let me know she's okay...
i just...I'm just so scared thats she's trying to kill herself again right now...
i'm gunna stop thinking about this... ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2110902/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2110902/ Mon, 29 Mar 2004 18:16:34 PST i am now only beggining to come to terms with what exactly happened, and what the implacations of all that is...
this means i am single again, well i never wasnt if you look at it literally...Sometimes i just want to pretend that the whole thing never happened, that jackie didnt just lure me into an ambush, that she did care about me but that would be a step in the wrong direction... i have decided that the best course of action is to just push it out of my mind and move on...

and also to download a ton of Inu-yasha stuffs as soon as i get my highspeed Internet!

Well im gunna run, preperations to be made and such... ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2072550/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/2072550/ Tue, 23 Mar 2004 21:25:29 PST get this,
i finally got a girlfriend!
i know
i did a little dance too
the only downside is she's 23...
but... she's gunna let me drive her mustang,
so the fact that im 17 i guess is overlooked...
well, anywho, my shouts out to my loverly Jackie!

cant wait till thursday babe!
im just hoping its an automatic tranny... me and standard dont get along the greatest, but i can still drive one...
figure that one out! ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1988803/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1988803/ Wed, 10 Mar 2004 17:54:53 PST oh wait, I was dancing and singing!

Today i realized, very suddenly, that i have feelings for someone who i have to work closely to, especially during the play for drama class...
it was eerie because we were face to face and about 5 inches apart....
so um yeah...

i am in a really good mood!!!! ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1912602/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1912602/ Thu, 26 Feb 2004 21:11:58 PST today was hell.
thanks to some emails(one had to have gotten through) tommorow will be even worse and i dont even care that tomorrow is spelt wrong.

I had told myself that i wasnt going to quit the play cause everything was all happy now but that was just a dillusion,
nothing's ever fine!
remember that and remind me nextime i sound optamistic about anything! please!

when falling off a stage, a blunt sword can be as leathal as a
sharp one...
yay, sword choriography on saturday...
coinsodence that i brought those two things up togther,

i dont even know anymore


later days(if you're gunna have 'em) ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1661088/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1661088/ Sat, 10 Jan 2004 23:13:31 PST im back to my old self
As soon as i get a job so i can take up somking again, i be right back to where i started
a socially insecure, pathetic freak of nature that will barely pass off as human.

My old suisidal tendancies are back and i cant stop thinkin 'bout masochisim and takin a nice ole razor blade, pair of scizzors, hunting knife or any other sharp object and tearing into the soft and nicely healed up skin on my arm and makin some red blood bleed!

this is the best depression ever
im not even depressed

im really pissed off
which is makin me like this

I'm also serioulsy considering bailing on the macbeth play,
im haveing some issues with some people involved at the moment...i assume she just enjoys tormenting me

while we're ont the subject of the razorblade confessional,
i havent repented anything yet cause i signed a goddamn contract that im seriously about to break all over my keyboard.

but other than that im happy! ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1660552/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1660552/ Sat, 10 Jan 2004 21:08:11 PST great news!

Once again i have entered a state of a brooding deep and dar deppression...
this means im back in bussiness writing and lyricising!
of couse this also means i could wake up dead cause of an O.D.
but consern yourself not with that
but the deep dark and hate filled ciphers, poems and songs that will once again fill my cite! ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1302911/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1302911/ Mon, 20 Oct 2003 17:47:12 PDT
friday is not only a day off school but its my 17th!
woo hoo!
a day full of fun and frollicing!
sendin shouts out to everyone...
you know who you are!

later vader haters! ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1281851/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1281851/ Wed, 15 Oct 2003 17:59:50 PDT
but kat, kittie, if I EVER find out That You were writing stuff on my Deviant art cite again...And you wont live to see the asile.

All who were affected by the falsehood that was posted...
i have sinseer apologies...
however.
i am changing all my passwords, and maybe even the cite itself...
it has come to my attention that people who are monitoring this cite are using it for Ill purposes.

and even tho i would just love to have a cessation of hostilities, they have denied the opportunity.
by the way, kat.

I am never telling you anything Ever again. ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1243783/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1243783/ Mon, 06 Oct 2003 17:52:33 PDT good and horrible news

i'll start with the horrid news first

my beloved dog blue,14, was put down yesterday.
he was bleeding internally and it was for the best.....

and now the good news....

you're lookin at macduff in the EESS rendition of Macbeth!

so im in a medium-bad mood....
meh ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1177295/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1177295/ Thu, 18 Sep 2003 18:00:16 PDT
im still shakey tho

i got an audition for a school play tommorow, Macbeth, im goin for the lead role and well, wish me luck,

the girl i was talkin bout last journal has almost no clue i was talken bout her!
lol!!!

she knows now, i told her, she should know she's my one and only and that no one else matters
see ya'll later

where the hell are you Val? ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1173572/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1173572/ Wed, 17 Sep 2003 18:08:05 PDT I found love,
this could be possibly why i havent been writing my stuff lately.
i Havent felt the darkness that usually drives me to write.
i have my lighter werx on the way tho feel free to critisize
i need positive and negative anything that should be changed tell me, or else i cant improve

c yall on the flipside! ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1159012/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1159012/ Sat, 13 Sep 2003 20:23:12 PDT the darkness has lefted me!
oh why!

wait?
dont that mean im happy?

ah shit!
one fer the other!
i dont do happy poems!
i could try...
but id fail!
i'll install a moody switchy thing!
good werk ppl!


lol ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1155132/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1155132/ Fri, 12 Sep 2003 18:02:15 PDT
I need some help but dont know to whom to turn for it
just kill me now! ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1152509/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1152509/ Thu, 11 Sep 2003 20:50:36 PDT
i need help overcoming 3 addictions.

moral support is welcome as well as inspirational stuff

to help me get back on my poetic feet again, ive been down and out lately and quitting everything cold turkey style aint helping that none too much.
any art, poetry, ect would be much abliged!

tah tah fer now

P.S. im wailing on my guitar and sax fer you tommorow Jenn,
and you too Dana ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1152491/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1152491/ Thu, 11 Sep 2003 20:44:36 PDT no mre ciggarettes, pot, ect,(kellen knows what),cold turkey

noithing but these two rubber bands and a burnt wrist to give em a 'lil bite so i dont take a drag.

Im also head over heels with this brunette from school. She's nice, sweet and a real looker too!
but i dont think she wants me tho...
but im at least moving on with my life,
which is a good thing, all things considered.

Still, ive never needed a ciggarette more in my life, than i do now, or a lil pot to dull the edge on the knife of reality.

spliting headache, gotta play guitar in english class tommorow, hooray, the blues. Fits in with the unit on tragedy.
weirdly ironic, eh?
(insider thing)

Jon's gunna owe me some booze if i can go this month and next month without pot or ciggarettes, cold turkey style.
its a childish bet but it works,
i dont think i can win

trying not to think about her, the old one, well anyof them,
maybe jenn, but well she's STILL freindly. Now im focusing on the Brunette

wish me luck!

]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1145742/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1145742/ Tue, 09 Sep 2003 20:38:40 PDT
like purple, for example,none of the things i wrote were true, yet in my mind i saw a conspiracy and now i might lose a friend because of my running "hot and cold" all of the time.

All who read this shall serve as my witnesses as i swear to run luke warm from now on!

Im SOOOOOOO sorry purple!

Fergive? ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1139188/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1139188/ Sun, 07 Sep 2003 22:16:48 PDT

Ever have one of those days where you wake up and your head feels like someone stuck a fork in your forehead and you take your hand off your forehead and there's blood on your hand and then you wake up again only screaming this time and your head still hurts?

well that was me this morning!

i feel like shit now too!

well actually techinically that was me yesterday morning cause its monday now....
son of a bitch i have a project due and a german test!!!!

im a Dead man!

veiw recent deviations by the ppl im stalking!
theyre good!
lol! ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1132574/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1132574/ Fri, 05 Sep 2003 22:20:24 PDT


However, a friemd of mine who i care deeply about is now down and blue and i dont knwo what to do. I cant help but feel somewhat responceible of it.


To you, Purple I wish a speedy and complete recovery cause life wouldn't be the same without your upbeat tempo and your amazing personality...

Just so ya'll know im new here and if you're wanting inside my head, my journals are located at [link] my username is Stratty.

oh and to those who know kellen
hope you solve that puzzle of who really throws his shoe without becoming the target!

see yall later

sing my xanga guestbook! ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45 http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1132523/ http://Shadow-Stratty45.deviantart.com/journal/1132523/ Fri, 05 Sep 2003 22:02:35 PDT this past week alone, I have observed Mitch(the body if you can call it that) get trampled on, abused phisically, and disrespected and I've had Enough. Im Back From My trip to being pushed aside by the counsience of this little brat.

quite frankly, If You FUCK WITH ME ANY MORE I'LL FUCK BACK.

thats about it ]]> ~Shadow-Stratty45