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]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/28338590/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/28338590/ Fri, 13 Nov 2009 18:07:27 PST send me a thumb of something red and i'll feature the first 40!

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because fall is my favorite season.










cause it's a sweet ass.









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I've reduced the amount of winners in the sub categories since there were so few entries. The judging was carried out by and myself; there was difficulty reaching so he did not participate in the judging.



Grand Prize Winners!!!!!

1st place displayed the best use of creativity and mixed media.

2nd place displayed great technical ability.

3rd place displayed great use of concept.



in the category for Most Delicious!!!




in the category for Best Use of Medium!!!




in the category for Most Bizarre!!!




Hmm... won in three categories... something's not right here.well, he did make multiple submissions. i'll award the subscriptions as soon as possible and the features possibly by weekends time. everyone who participated will receive a one week feature, while the contest winner's feature will run for a month or until my subscription runs out.

To claim your free work of art, note one of the three judges and they will carry it out for you; however, be wary of what they can and can't do. it doesn't hurt to ask!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/27059532/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/27059532/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 17:53:10 PDT i should have the results up in a few days. i've also decided, that because so few people participated they all get a feature!

in the meantime time though, i'd like some feedback on the contest. what worked? what didn't? how would you improve it? any suggestions... i'm thinking for next year i'll open it up to photography and i could award a premium prints accounts to the top winner in that category. i've also got a $200 budget in mind so that i can go all out with prizes and stuff... i mean, it's only once a year.. why not?!

but yeah, feedback would be great!

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My friends and and I are proud to bring you the ‘Draw Some Food Dammit!’ Contest!!!! We encourage everyone to participate! The goal and intent of the project is to have you, the would be participant, explore a new media or idea revolving around the imagery of food, and to have some fun, of course! The contest is open to anyone, regardless of skill. This isn’t a contest of technicality, it’s one of creativity! The contest is open media/material.. including traditional and digital, all are valid; except for the use of Photography and Photo manipulation. This would make it much to easy for you as well as swamp us with submissions. Mixed or multi media use is encouraged. As well as originality, creative use of food idea, and exploration of a new media. We want you to experiment! We want you to try something you never have! Be outrageous! Be bizarre!! Though you don’t have to be… you can be as traditional or not as you’d like.. But you really should try something new! ^_^

The contest will run from the 20th of July to the 2nd of September. That should give you all enough time to create something and submit it. Submit your entry by either linking it to this journal in a comment or sending me http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/26023575/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 10:18:53 PDT everyone! get one!!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/25041359/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/25041359/ Sat, 30 May 2009 21:57:23 PDT it was so great seeing all of my friends and my professors at the gallery reception. and then all those hand shakes and congratulations for receiving that award for my work. it was incredible!!! i was one of 6 award recipients ^_^ and i'm so glad that i got such positive feedback on my work, too. ugh.. just a night unlike any other. and then i got Juice it up with my best friend Lorry--thanks Lor, for sticking with me for everything eee!... i've still got a sorta natural high going on there, heh.



and check out this awesome icon--> i looove top hats!

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watch the video*

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/24898350/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/24898350/ Fri, 22 May 2009 21:36:20 PDT ...i was in the Kellog Gallery earlier today 'helping' a friend install her senior project.. (i wasn't really helping more like watching heh) and thought i'd sneak a peek at what's in the 2d 3d show--some really interesting stuff. i also noticed one of my pieces was hung upside down.. ^^' it was kinda funny, but you can't really tell there's something up with it.. and i kinda like it that way now. so yeah. haha.

eee! only about two weeks left of school... soo much to do in so little a time. egh! ..oh well. that means i actually have to like 'study' and stuff.. ahhhh :/

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in other news, i got some silly little award for some of my encaustic paintings. every year there's a student art show featuring the best of the best (supposedly) that the art department has to offer. i think that's pretty standard for most schools. anyway, ours is known as the 2D/3D show and it runs in line with the senior show. it's pretty selective in terms of what gets in and what doesn't--i say it's all bullshit. but eh, not every piece of art is gonna appeal to every artist. what's pretty sad though is that some of my friends were completely rejected and they happen to be amazing artists! ugh... also, when i went to pick up my stuff one of my drawing--which i really cared for--was missing. they were suppose to have had this new system which was suppose to insure the loss of work; yeah right! BULLSHIT!! xD anyway... where was i.. ah right. it's my second year in the show and this year i won something. pretty cool i guess. i'm not that overly excited about it though. i mean, i am proud but eh... i don't know. oh, one of the pieces which is in the show is here in my DA gallery--> [link] the other two which are a series, i've yet to get pictures of. i'll get them up soon though.

so how are you guys doing? been a while since i updated.

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and take a peek at my friend's page if you haven't -->

also he's single, but straight... so if you flirt with him that's even better

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/23973832/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/23973832/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 18:06:58 PDT a fabulous and very talented artist. he's new to DA so make em' feel welcomed. thanks!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/23922707/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/23922707/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 18:58:36 PDT [link] thank you!

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Tiny Feature (just for fun)

THE FIRST NINE (i wonder why only nine) PEOPLE to reply to this journal will have three of my favorite pieces from their gallery featured here. But, in return, you MUST make a similar journal, and feature the first 9 people that comment to it and with me being in first position! (you don't have too)



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THE FIRST NINE (i wonder why only nine) PEOPLE to reply to this journal will have three of my favorite pieces from their gallery featured here. But, in return, you MUST make a similar journal, and feature the first 9 people that comment to it and with me being in first position! (you don't have too)



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k. will update when i can. can't reply to stuff now. *is using neighbor's pc*

take care guys.

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will write longer more extensive journal tomorrow. as for now, back to drawing and happy bubbly thoughts.

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i can't believe i ever changed... it's disgusting.

but fuck it! i'm not doing the same with these new drawings... she can fucking think what she fucking wants. i'm doing my own thing. FUCK! XD

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/21720682/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/21720682/ Fri, 28 Nov 2008 19:54:51 PST
now i know, i know... maybe i'm just bitching, but those things she said about my drawing really did hurt

*and i quote*

"you're forms are amorphous, you're compositions are too centralized, you're not considering negative space, there's not enough drawing..."

at first,i was like "WTF?" O_O and got all depressed, but then i was just bitch'n angry!

soo yeah, been up for?--a very long time... work'in on this stuff. and on top of that i've got four more drawing to do--that i'm simultaneously working on--twice the size of the smaller drawings. and you know what?--scaling up is tricky.

but yeah, go see my new and 'improved' drawings. i'm about done with three.. so i'll submit maybe, two? please tell me what you think--when i do submit them that is.

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]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/21314448/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/21314448/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 09:04:30 PST don't be a lazy American.

*edit*

Omgods!!! he won, Obama won!!!!!!!!! we have a new president!!!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/21215476/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/21215476/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 11:10:16 PDT

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Prop 8 only wants to take away basic rights from Gays and lesbians that every other couple is allowed to have when they are in love and want to share a life together. Let's not take a step back in our society....we're supposed to be a country of equal opportunities well then lets allow everyone to have equal rights, after all we say that all men (and women) are created equal that means equal rights for all
If we take away the right for homosexuals to marry then let's reverse Loving v Virginia and not allow interracial couples to marry, or take it a step further and not allow women or blacks to vote anymore

So here is a little something that has been going around about this proposition and this gave me a good laugh but i hope you take something good out of it and VOTE NO ON 8!!

its about equal right FOR EVERYONE and nothing else


10 Reasons Why Gay Marriage is "Wrong"


1) Being gay is not natural.










--And real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning, tattoos, piercings and silicon breasts.










2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay.










--In the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.











3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior.










--People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract. Lamps are next.










4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all


-- thats why women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal


5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriages were allowed

--And we can't let the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage be destroyed.










6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children.









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--So therefore, gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our population isn't out of control, our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.










7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children

--Since, of course, straight parents only raise straight children.










8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion.










--In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country.







That's why we have only one religion in America, right?


9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home.









--Which is exactly why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.









10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms.










--Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.













**Whether or not you AGREE with gay marriage, Prop 8 takes away fundamental rights and that is simply not right. And by the way, Prop 8 has absolutely nothing to do with what children are taught in schools. Schools are not required to teach about marriage. They never have. It's just a scare tactic. Don't buy into it.














​Re-post this if you believe love makes a marriage.

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/21088310/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/21088310/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 23:37:44 PDT
[link] i borrowed a few from her

the Perfect Guy:

yes, should be a complete dork

must smile constantly...

like to jump in rain puddles

eat whip cream as an entree'

have a very cute chest and waist so i can wrap my arms around

think yellow is awesome ^_^

like to paint with his fingers

have a liberal ideology

shouldn't take the world too seriously

should feel more than he thinks

should not be realistic*

but very optimistic....

always have food for me *and chocolate*

have the most amazing eyes, that make me forget why i was even mad in the first place

support me in whatever i do, no matter how crazy xD

be taller than me

have bigger feet than me

be able to carry me, at least on his back


like kittens ^_^

understand that life is meant to be lived...

and know, that the world is a beautiful place, if you so choose to see it that way.

.....

so what's my reason for posting this... well, i've come to a realization; that people are to darn afraid.

people are too darn cautious! what i mean to say is, you're gonna get hurt, yeah... but that's life. and you have to accept it. you have to be willing to make yourself vulnerable... to really experience it. does this sound familiar... well, it should. i only blabbed on about it in my previous journal... which i don't think many of you really bothered with it's okay. anyway.

you have to stop thinking so logically all the time, or in terms of whether your plans are gonna work out.

start being spontaneous, and a bit more optimistic, if you normally aren't. life is meant to be lived... not thought out. so do something you wouldn't normally do. do something different!
and don't take offense in the trivial things of life... don't get mad cause that guy cut you off... you know what, wave to guy and blow em' a kiss! whatever...

just don't think in terms of whether this is gonna work out in the future; stop being safe! and just start feeling more!!

so i'm proposing a challenge again, this is to get you to stop being so darn safe! XD i want you to do something, try something... doesn't matter what. as long as it's different and it shifts your awareness or sense of consciousness... i want you to break your routine and try something new. i don't care if it's brushing your teeth with your left hand when you'd normally do it with you right.. or spontaneously hugging a complete stranger. it doesn't matter. just try something new! and stop being sooo safe!!!!!!

soo.. yeah. i'm starting to think i'm never gonna find that perfect guy.

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/20545282/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/20545282/ Wed, 17 Sep 2008 21:23:32 PDT Anyway, I’ve been doing some thinking, reflecting, really. On how I’m not so much of a kid anymore… well that’s probably questionable. What I mean to say is, I’m not really sure when that transition happened. When did I stop believing in the angst of the world or the thought that no one understood me? Or of my fall out with trendy pop bands and manga? When did I start thinking of others before myself? Or knowing when to walk away or hold my tongue--when did I learn that? I realize that experience has changed me, sensitized me, made me more fluid.

I’ve wondered though, if maybe I was to haste in choosing to shed my cocoon of infancy. Certain experience you see, have the tendency to propel or force us to grow. What’s important though is not to forget. Choosing consciously to forget, in a sense is an act of mutilation. Experience is what shapes us, what creates us, to deny any such is to deny a part of yourself. Every mistake you’ve made, every tear you’ve shed is a part of you… I’ve denied parts of myself with little to no avail, except maybe some insight on how I never should have.

I feel it all comes down to a sense of vulnerability, really. Hardly, do we realize that there is strength in our vulnerability--as my cyber bullying episode has taught me. Walking away from an experience and choosing to forget does not make you strong. Choosing to admit that you are hurt and that you’re only human does. This is how we grow, and this is how we come to learn about ourselves. It’s an act of acceptance, not defeat--surely, no one can stifle our heart and soul. It’s how I’ve come to understand that I’m not perfect and likely, that I can’t always be right. In seeing that, my attitudes toward the world have changed. I have my convictions and prejudices and yes, they do clout me and obscure my vision. But I try what I may, to see things openly, and not simply from my perspective--though that openness may not always win out.

I understand that I am very young and to some respect, yeah, still a kid. But I’d like to think that I’m not the same person I was, two years ago, that I’ve grown, and learned from the mistakes I’ve made, and the pain I’ve felt, and equally the happiness I’ve experienced. I’d like to keep growing, keep experiencing and learning new things. Without having to forget, with out having to deny any part of me. I’d like to be able to drape that shawl of life over my shoulder and marvel at the beauty of my collective experiences. See how each individual thread is a part me, how each is me. And stand erect to the stars, glowing and brilliant. And say, yes, I'm that kid that liked Simple Plan and that got up at six am to watch Digimon.

*****

Now then, I would like to propose a challenge. When you’re done reading this I want you to leave as a comment something that makes you feel vulnerable, a secret, an experience or something you’ve never really bothered to confront. I want you to admit to something you’ve denied. I want you to not only say it, but to scream it out loud for all to hear. Then reflect upon it, and understand that you are valuable. That other’s do not and cannot define who you are. And that though you’ve made mistakes, you are beautiful because of it! But what sort of a challenge would this be if I didn’t challenge myself? So, I’ll go first.



My ex-boyfriend, Donovan, broke my heart.
He was 16 and I 18.
It’s because of him that I’ve had prejudices toward manga and anthro art in the past (key word--past, i'm more tolerant of it now, knowing that it’s unfair to judge it or the people that do it because of him).
He draws manga and anthro.




Alright, now it’s your turn. So are you up for the challenge?

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Cure Hatred-->[link]

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/20315471/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/20315471/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 20:31:01 PDT
so i had my first sculpture class mm.. Tuesday. right, didn't tell you guys. anyway, yes i'm taking a sculpture class at a community college. it was um... interesting. i dunno.. maybe it's just me, and it was just the first day of class so i really shouldn't be drawing any conclusions. but usually you can get a feel for the class that very first day, yuh know? except i didn't really get a feel for anything... something was missing. which had me thinking about Cal Poly... *which i miss* and how i've gotten used to the people there and faculty and stuff. and at this community college the energies and vibes are just so different. that first day, no one seemed to be excited or jazzed or really anything of the sort. even the instructor came off as a bit mm... boring. the whole thing was eh-kinda dull. and yes, yes, i know.. first day-yeah. but i dunno. i think it's that whole difference of interest. at Cal Poly you have the actual fine art major and so you've got all these uber art nuts that are just completely jazzed about art 24/7-me being one of em and so, for any art class really, they're likely to be crazily excited, even that very first day. and well, at the community college it's not like that. i think the only thing offered there that the sculpture class is required for is a certificate in animation which i doubt everyone is there for. and so the rest of the people are probably there for an easy grade or something, with probably a tiny minuscule amount showing any genuine interest. *there's a lot of old people to... i mean really, really oold people, including the instructor* lol

i did consider dropping the class--see, that's how serious this is. don't think i'll go through it though. i guess i'll just have to get used to it. give it some time; i'm sure it'll get better. i had some high hopes and expectation, but maybe that's where i went wrong. maybe i shouldn't have expected anything! ...hmm, that sounded better in my head*

anyway, how are you guys?











Cure Hatred-->[link]

angry comments here-->[link]

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/20253976/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/20253976/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 13:51:03 PDT it might be a while before you get your b-day gift, sorry about that. for the meantime think i'll hang out online, might try drawing or painting something later on tonight.

check this out.. okay, you probably already know about it but i just discoverd it, and it's been stuck in my head for the past two days. 'Vincent' Don Mclean-->[link]

Chloe Agnew and Josh Groban do some nice renditions of it though. it's pretty and sad.













angry comments here-->[link]

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/19835377/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/19835377/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 21:17:52 PDT
angry comments here-->[link]












]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/19395526/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/19395526/ Mon, 14 Jul 2008 17:35:38 PDT
Fuck!!! XD
i'm soo fucking pissed off right now...

of course, the act still has to be approved by Congress... but dammit! can he really be that much of a fucktard! XD ahhh...

this isn't the solution to high gas prices!!! i mean, really-can this guy even fathom the devastating effect this would have on the California coast? and it's not like those reserves will last forever-10yrs. max, claims Bush at current consumption rates. but what then. we'll just move onto some other reserve until we've sucked it dry too? this is bullshit! drilling here and now for "cheaper" won't ease us out of our dependence on fossil fuel.



“Even if new offshore drilling were allowed off the coast of California and along the Outer Continental Shelf — which I wholly and resolutely oppose — it won’t produce oil in time to solve the gas price emergency American consumers are facing right now,” Senator Feinstein said.




gahh!... we have to wake up and understand this is our planet we're talking about, our one and only home. and that keeping our wallets nice and thick clearly isn't the priority. there are alternatives: conserve, drive less.. air and solar power. these are the steps and forms of energy we should be pushing.

don't be a selfish American!

~edi

(sorry about this guys. had to vent.)

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/18836272/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/18836272/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 10:43:45 PDT thanks again.

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/18775055/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/18775055/ Tue, 10 Jun 2008 21:47:22 PDT
there's this online social site called myyearbook, don't know if you guys have heard of it. anyway, they have these things called battles which are pretty much contests between two people, like best looking or most artistic, etc. and you pretty much vote for who ever and leave a comment. so i left a comment on a battle saying "screw green, go blue" and that was it. but that battle was being watched by this group of role playing vampire/witches-i'm not sure. anyway, this group took such offense to it that well.. they essentially made it their sole intention to terrorize me. i even apologized to the head of the group saying i was sorry and that i had no idea my comment had been so harmful. but they insisted i was a trash talker and that i had a nasty mouth. they sought out one of my own battles and started voting for my opponent then littered it with comments saying i was getting what i deserved and again, that i was a nasty mouthed trash talker. i simply couldn't take it anymore... i tried defending myself, saying they're behavior was a kin to cyber bullying but they're comments only got worse... one of them even argued i should have known this was coming-the law of three, since i claimed to be wiccca... now i don't claim to be anything, but yes, i am wiccan... and even so they should understand that deliverance of karmic retribution does not rest on the individual. it's not up to you to punish the guilty (the person even spelled wicca wrong). even so, wicca teaches forgiveness and compassion above retribution..

so i'm not sure what to think right now.. i'm not sure what to feel either. i feel scared, exposed.. too vulnerable. and i don't like it. it's completely destroyed my faith in humanity and what trust i could confer in people. right now, every one feels questionable. gods, almighty, help me.. their actions have forced me to close my account and leave the site. what made it even worse though, is that no one would speak for me. no one. i posted a bulletin explaining why i was leaving, and no one replied, no one cared too. it's incredibly frightening, being all alone, having no one to help you. even though this is based online, i understand... but you don't really know until you experience it.

what i want now is solace. i want my sense of security and trust in people restored.. i want to be vindicated. so won't someone.. please???

edit: i feel a little better now. thanks for your attention guys, it's nice to know someone cares!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/18695089/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/18695089/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 10:27:53 PDT ... it's over! it's finally.. o-hu-uh ver!!! good bye spring quarter, i'll miss you! but i sure as hell won't miss those stupid GE's! i fuc**ing stayed up for 35hrs. cause i had stuff to do for one of my GE classes... do you know how fucking hard that is?! i had so much caffeine in me i thought i'd die if i fell asleep... and this was just yesterday. but it's over now! oh gods it's over! woo-hoo! forty units down and only a hundred and forty to go! lol i'm not in a hurry. it's just those awful general ed classes i don't wanna deal with. so next quarter in the fall i'm only taking art classes! yeah! two studios-intermediate drawing and crafts design; an art history lecture-tribal art; and an independent study for painting. yes, should be a fun quarter! alright then, i just got like fifteen hours of much needed sleep, so i feel great. how's everyone doing?!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/18333260/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/18333260/ Thu, 15 May 2008 08:51:54 PDT anyway. so yeah, i'll try--key word 'TRY'--to get to some of those deviations and stuff.

in other news... i think i've got about three weeks left in the quarter. kinda crazy really O_O a whole year of college already gone by! wow!

also, i've taken a recent interest in The Looking Glass Wars... never read any of the series, but the arwork and stuff is pretty kick-ass. makes me wanna draw my own fantasy characters >.<



]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/17934005/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/17934005/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 20:24:13 PDT kindly visit her page, if you'd like. she's fairly new to DeviantART and she could use a warm welcome and maybe a comment or two on one of her drawings. i got her a small pastel kit for her birthday, and she's been trying it out. she seems to have really taken a liking to it.

anyway, thank you*



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I am legend had a point. I wish that I could give this idea a life. And make it the world that I live in and that I can be happy to call my home. You can cure hate and one man can change the world. All it takes is love. Music is the best thing ever and through music we can learn to love each other. Anyone can get along with another person no matter who they are, how they act and even what they believe. Because sure someone may not share an opinion about music with you but everyone can except that that is what you love. And as far as loving other people. Jesus, Gandi, Bob Marley, they had the right idea to love everyone no matter who they are. It doesn’t matter what kind of person they are or how much you may dislike who they are. Love them anyways. The reason there is so much hate and anger to one another is because we have all forgotten how to just love everyone. I have come to love every person on the planet no matter how much harm they bring me. I will still love them because it is through that power given to you by love that gives you the strength to change the world. If you just show people that you don’t care about their past or what they have done and just love them like a brother or sister or mother or friend. Just truly love them and I can garentee that you will get through to them because it is that kind of action that gives people the desire to show what has been shown to them. If a man ever mugs you. Just pray that he needs it and that he is alright. Bob had it right and I would give my very life to bring his world to life. A place where we had no war or hate and nothing but love and peace ruled. That is what I think. If you disagree I am sorry. If you think I have the right idea then maybe you can help me. Show each person you meet kindness and love no matter how evil they may seem or be. Show the world what it is to love again. And post this in your journal to help spread the idea.


i am helping support -->Cure Hatred! and thanks to for the journal and link


i forgive the people that have hurt me*

love is the law.

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/17796160/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/17796160/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 13:37:59 PDT

i am helping support -->Cure Hatred! and thanks to for the journal and link


i forgive the people that have hurt me*

love is the law.

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/17590039/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/17590039/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 13:05:12 PDT 1. tag 10 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all taggees on their profile that they have been tagged, and link to your journal


[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars. (how many is many??!^^)
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color. (heck no!)
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.((yeah.. Sometimes))
[ ]I have/I've had braces. (nope, need em badly though : / except they'd cost as much as a year of college)
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
[ ] I hate my dad ((we don't speak much though))
[ ] I hate my mom
[x] I have a brother((I have two))
[ ] I have a sister (has two of em' too ^^)
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday. (adopt-its all the same!)
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job. ( i needs one uh those : /)
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year. (if you mean quarter, then yes)
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing. ((yes, very embarassing))
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something. (each other)
[x] I've had my pants rip in public. (ugh - -'
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed!
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I was born in a different country.
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (what?! ^_^-->wish i could kick my ex-boyfriend)
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping. (sure would like to!)
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace. (ugh... big mistake)
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken. ??!
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (ohmehgosh yesh!!!!)
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[x] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper. (i'm always the dumpee - -' )
[ ] I miss someone right now. (no, just wanna get out! badly... )
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. (unfortunately)
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex. (well, duh!... )
[ ] I'm bi
[x] I'm gay
[ ] I've had sex
[ ] I've had phone sex
[x] I've... ]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/17400080/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/17400080/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 18:10:47 PDT Just something interesting i read<--

courtesy of ~mr_pennyworth [link]


Every day, there are more and more Craigs List posts seeking “artists” for everything from auto graphics to comic books to corporate logo designs. More people are finding themselves in need of some form of illustrative service.

But what they’re NOT doing, unfortunately, is realizing how rare someone with these particular talents can be.

To those who are “seeking artists”, let me ask you; How many people do you know, personally, with the talent and skill to perform the services you need? A dozen? Five? One? …none?

More than likely, you don’t know any. Otherwise, you wouldn’t be posting on craigslist to find them.

And this is not really a surprise.

In this country, there are almost twice as many neurosurgeons as there are professional illustrators. There are eleven times as many certified mechanics. There are SEVENTY times as many people in the IT field.

So, given that they are less rare, and therefore less in demand, would it make sense to ask your mechanic to work on your car for free? Would you look him in the eye, with a straight face, and tell him that his compensation would be the ability to have his work shown to others as you drive down the street?

Would you offer a neurosurgeon the “opportunity” to add your name to his resume as payment for removing that pesky tumor? (Maybe you could offer him “a few bucks” for “materials”. What a deal!)

Would you be able to seriously even CONSIDER offering your web hosting service the chance to have people see their work, by viewing your website, as their payment for hosting you?

If you answered “yes” to ANY of the above, you’re obviously insane. If you answered “no”, then kudos to you for living in the real world.

But then tell me… why would you think it is okay to live out the same, delusional, ridiculous fantasy when seeking someone whose abilities are even less in supply than these folks?

Graphic artists, illustrators, painters, etc., are skilled tradesmen. As such, to consider them as, or deal with them as, anything less than professionals fully deserving of your respect is both insulting and a bad reflection on you as a sane, reasonable person. In short, it makes you look like a twit.

A few things you need to know;

1. It is not a “great opportunity” for an artist to have his work seen on your car/’zine/website/bedroom wall, etc. It IS a “great opportunity” for YOU to have their work there.

2. It is not clever to seek a “student” or “beginner” in an attempt to get work for free. It’s ignorant and insulting. They may be “students”, but that does not mean they don’t deserve to be paid for their hard work. You were a “student” once, too. Would you have taken that job at McDonalds with no pay, because you were learning essential job skills for the real world? Yes, your proposition it JUST as stupid.

3. The chance to have their name on something that is going to be seen by other people, whether it’s one or one million, is NOT a valid enticement. Neither is the right to add that work to their “ortfolio”. They get to do those things ANYWAY, after being paid as they should. It’s not compensation. It’s their right, and it’s a given.

4. Stop thinking that you’re giving them some great chance to work. Once they skip over your silly ad, as they should, the next ad is usually for someone who lives in the real world, and as such, will pay them. There are far more jobs needing these skills than there are people who possess these skills.

5. Students DO need “experience”. But they do NOT need to get it by giving their work away. In fact, this does not even offer them the experience they need. Anyone who will not/can not pay them is obviously the type of person or business they should be ashamed to have on their resume anyway. Do you think professional contractors list the “experience” they got while nailing down a loose step at their grandmother’s house when they were seventeen?

If you your company or gig was worth listing as desired experience, it would be able to pay for the services it received. The only experience they will get doing free work for you is a lesson learned in what kinds of scrubs they should not lower themselves to deal with.

6. (This one is FOR the artists out there, please pay attention.) Some will ask you to “submit work for consideration”. They may even be posing as some sort of “contest”. These are almost always scams. They will take the work submitted by many artists seeking to win the “contest”, or be “chosen” for the gig, and... ]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/16762455/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/16762455/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 10:23:22 PST shame on me --scolds self*

there's tons uh stuff i needs to do... for one:

there's some illustrations of some poems of some poet peoples i needs to do... but hey, i have the sketches, they're just gathering dust somewhere ^^' so yeah, think i'll post those tomorrow. and i told some people, one person in particular really, that i'd submit some new poetry real soon which like the sketches, is poetry i've started and just need to pick up. which reminds... there's quite a few of you whom i said i'd write some poems for----gods! does my procrastination know no bound?!

anyway... i'll try to get to some of that stuff real soon

oh and also, because i've been so negligent... the deviations in my dev watch have accumulated to over 7 hundred, and well, you see... in a fit of frustration i deleted every deviation up until the first of February. so umm i apologize if there was something really good that i didn't get a chance to look at, and comment, and fav and stuff ... sorry! ^^'

Clubs


Potential-Poets

Writers-Club

Writers-Ink

DA-Mentors [link]

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/15439940/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/15439940/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 19:51:13 PST
Introverts are more concerned with the inner world of the mind. They enjoy thinking, exploring their thoughts and feelings. They often avoid social situations because being around people drains their energy. This is true even if they have good social skills. After being with people for any length of time, such as at a party, they need time alone to "recharge."

When introverts want to be alone, it is not, by itself, a sign of depression.

It means that they either need to regain their energy from being around people or that they simply want the time to be with their own thoughts. Being with people, even people they like and are comfortable with, can prevent them from their desire to be quietly introspective.

Being introspective, though, does not mean that an introvert never has conversations. However, those conversations are generally about ideas and concepts, not about what they consider the trivial matters of social small talk.

Introverts make up about 60% of the gifted population but only about 25-40% of the general population.

follow the linky and take the test! [link]

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/15303206/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/15303206/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 14:19:20 PDT ... hope it's goin well for you!

eeee-yaY! Candy!!! ^^ n-yum! don't eat to much of it though. infact, just give it to me Buah-haha!

Harvest Blessing to One and All!!! sigh*... tis the last harvest festival-still, a time of celebration. Goddess and God bless too!

Take Care,

Edi.

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/15103554/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/15103554/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 15:18:21 PDT woot!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/14855592/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/14855592/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 12:12:26 PDT
1) well, i started college about a week and some ago.. it was scary at first, but i think i'm starting to adjust, sorta.

2) i was snuggling with one of my many cats the other day, but then he left me when he heard the sound of the fridge opening : l ...opportunist cat! >_<

3) i'm feeling kinda iffy right now.. not sure why. could be i'm just lonely.

4) i'm in denial.

5) i need someone to hug.

6) i need to find a job soon, else my first quarter of college will be my last.

7) i feel the sense to run away, i'm frustrated and i don't know why. i want to leave and not look back.. is feelin' trapped*

8) i dont know right now : l

errr... i'm whinny aren't i? O_O

Here are the rules:
1. Post all the rules
2. Every person who was tagged must write 8 things about themselves
3. You must write all these things in your journal
4. After it, tag 8 people/friends
5. Finally, go to their galleries and tell them about it.

and i will tag: no one, for this 'taggie' thing has annoyed enough people and i wish to annoy no one else.

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/14750333/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/14750333/ Sat, 22 Sep 2007 22:25:58 PDT it's such a big place and there's so many people, 20,000 of em'! and some of them are just so intimidating.. and they smoke a lot : l but the professors seem nice.. i like my western art history teacher and meh dance one too.. they seem very genial, not intimidating at all. so that's good.

on the second day i kinda got lost and all panic-y and stuff.. cause my intro to US Gov. got moved so i ran around trying to find it with only like 10 minutes of time. and then i wasn't sure how to use the elevator? but i found it.. i was late though.. and it's in a tall building thingy with a nice view and a nice breeze so it made me feel relaxed.

so yeah.. that's about it.. so sCaRy!

oh, but my bestest friend, Lorry, being there makes it all better.. so i guess i'm not completely alone. and it's nice to know she'll be there when i need her!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/14550502/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/14550502/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 19:02:27 PDT
1.) Post these rules
2.) Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about them self
3.) Tags should write journal/blog post about these facts
4.) At end of post 8 more people are tagged and named
5.) Go to there page and comment telling them they’re tagged

------- Eight Random Facts -------

1) my kitties don't love me, they're just using me for food!

2) recently the thought of being in a relationship really turns me off.. 'is callous about'

3) i'm a procrastinator, i procrastinate to darn much.. and often i find i brake promises by doing so

4) i start college this fall.. imma fine arts major-woot! ^^

5) i'd like to work as an illustrator, that way i combine my love of literature with my love of art

6) i'm still depressed

7) i'm to cheap to afford a laptop, but i really want one

8) i often have suicidal dreams that include drowning and self-mutilation

and i will tag:

GreenVixxen
AltoidAddict1517
IvanChanStudio
iammymothersdaughter
XandarX2
siamru-san
Cyove
jellyz-rule

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/14470992/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/14470992/ Mon, 03 Sep 2007 11:49:32 PDT
they have you buy a copy of your own poem in some silly anthology!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/14109831/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/14109831/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 18:45:50 PDT
]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/12531979/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/12531979/ Mon, 09 Apr 2007 21:42:15 PDT
The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a free poem from me.
I'll also feature what I consider your best three deviations here. Free publicity.

If you decide to participate, leave your request and your comment in this journal.


...............................

the following people have requested that i compose an original poem for them. woo-hoo!


~ [link]

~ [link]

~L3th3 [link]

~ [link]

~needywriter [link]

~ [link] [link]

~ [link]

also i've a fanart drawing to do for ~ [link] not a commission, but purely out of admiration. just thought i'd throw that in. he's probably forgotten all about it.. hehe!

cursed be my procrastination!!

as for when they'll be ready.. hmm?? now that i don't know but i'll make sure to keep you all updated. and i'll make sure not to be too idle!

alright, that's about it


edi



[link]


[link]


[link]


[link]

meh myspace! [link] what? O_O

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/12323118/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/12323118/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 12:53:59 PDT
The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a free poem from me.
I'll also feature what I consider your best three deviations here. Free publicity.

If you decide to participate, leave your request and your comment in this journal.



WRITERS' CLUB
[link]


also, follow this link.. [link] i hate it when snobby 'artists' critique DA.

i love this place, and yeah, there's a bunch of jerky people (mmm.. jerky!) but where aren't there?! and i'll make this argument: just because it's not as 'fine' as a classic portrait, or an elegiac ballad, does not constitute it as poor, senseless dribble. if it's done with intent and some thread of passion, then it's art. even if it's a stick figure etched on notebook paper or a heart loosely brushed on a napkin ..it's a thought, it's a feeling, ..it's art!


thank you!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/11909983/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/11909983/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 15:06:16 PST
[link]

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/11587608/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/11587608/ Sat, 27 Jan 2007 12:20:01 PST new poem (first of the new year!)...check it out. please. (note: i'm not to proud to beg.)

hmm...i just realized i could use this new poem for the 100 art theme challenge thing, since really it's main theme IS rejection..hmm??



[link]
WRITER'S-CLUB

]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/11565650/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/11565650/ Thu, 25 Jan 2007 14:21:40 PST
]]> *ShadowFalcon89 http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/11511595/ http://ShadowFalcon89.deviantart.com/journal/11511595/ Sat, 20 Jan 2007 22:41:08 PST
either way...eh-i really don't feel like caring.

woo!

]]> *ShadowFalcon89