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]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/24032715/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/24032715/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 22:45:24 PDT
The woman I loved is no longer in my life. We broke up. It was inevitable I suppose, but it doesn't help. I want to wake up from this dream.

So ... badly.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/17404280/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/17404280/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 01:08:35 PDT That's the story of my life for the past few weeks. I feel like I'm rarely tired, and when I am I often would rather distract myself by watching TV and playing World of Warcraft, of course at the same time, since I can't seem to do anything BUT multitask. Sometimes I think that I am not even really living right now, but I then again what else would I be doing? Sleeping? Writing? Getting high? Partying? What? Really... there's no point but to do what you feel like doing in life. Yeah this sounds pretty hollow, guess that's the word, but so what? If you can't do what you feel like doing, when you want to, then are you living life to the fullest? Even if doing so means you are gluing yourself to a screen and consciously developing carpal tunnel? I seriously don't think that doing homework early, reading for class, being social (whatever the fuck that means, I play fucking computer games for god's sake) makes you any more alive than sitting at a keyboard talking to people you've never met about topics that, believe it or not, you actually like talking about. You fly airplanes and don't work every week? You have HOW MANY children and you play WoW? You actually like System of a Down too? You don't think they're too pretentious? Wow... and I mean WoW... life is weird. Yes so I am not really spending my time being productive, playing guitar, writing applications for all the jobs I will get rejected from by May in time for my graduation... so what else is there to do? Play video games and not sleep of course.

Wall of Text Crits you for 999999999

Win

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/16451530/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/16451530/ Thu, 17 Jan 2008 19:56:20 PST
I'm here in Miami... editing my songs constantly and I gotta tell ya... drum programming is NOT easy. I constantly feel like I need to strip everything further down. Get simple. Sometimes I over complicate things. "This song DOES NOT need to have a galloping rhythm!" for example.

I am about to start a project with a guitarist and his drummer friend in Springfield, MA and I wonder how it'll turn out. I hope we can get some gigs and some good songs lined up so I can finally get a little more experience. That's what I need right now, some stage time. It'll help me understand how a crowd will react to certain kinds of music.

I also discovered that adapting previously written lyrics to music is HARD, especially when it's metal or some other alternative hard music. Very hard.

So anyway, just thought I'd let you all know what I was up to. Music mostly, so that's why you haven't seen any poems posted.

Much love.
\m/

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/15888562/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/15888562/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 11:43:29 PST
I'm debating (again...) whether or not to keep my beard that I've grown out. It's not that different from the pics you guys saw from earlier on when I was in Turkey. I am not sure I like it or not, makes me look older for sure, but I can't decide whether or not I like that older look. Clean-shaven (as you've seen) I think makes me look pretty young, so I don't know if that's the vibe I want.

What do you all think? Random, but I'm curious.

EDIT - So it's done, I shaved it. So far I'm happy with it, but we'll see how long this lasts

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/15500805/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/15500805/ Tue, 13 Nov 2007 22:55:05 PST Nationality: American
Religion: Agnostic
Ideology: Socialist
Issues: Full Citizenship/Pluralism
Militancy: 5 (+0.20)
Consciousness: 10 (+0.50)

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/15272207/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/15272207/ Mon, 29 Oct 2007 12:48:17 PDT [link]

Impeachment? Straight-jackets? Fuck that.

How about a good old fashioned hanging for the most powerful war criminals of our modern times?

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/15190926/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/15190926/ Tue, 23 Oct 2007 16:36:48 PDT
The UNITED STATES OF AMERICA is an aggressive nation. We need to recognize our failings, and reform our foreign policies, and make a serious change in the nature of our government. Elections do not make functioning democracies.


Korea - By North Korea invading South Korea they were risking World War Three, true, but us getting involved made the risk worse. Defending South Korea, yes we were, but not out of the goodness of our hearts. Defending the US, barely, that was a war of political paranoia stemming from fear of the Soviets and the Chinese, who wanted a war less than we did and were much less prepared. Nevertheless, three bloody years later, we ended on a stalemate. America was not threatened, just our perceived "interests" in protecting South Korea.

Vietnam - Not our war, should never have been our war, and many Americans and Vietnamese died for what was another war of political/ideological paranoia. The Vietnamese as a whole were supportive of uniting under Ho Chi Minh's socialist government, and we could not stomach the idea of another "red" country. Again, fears of the communists drove us to a war we lost for many reasons (McNamara, as you said, as well as the rest of the idiocy that was the Johnson administration)

Grenada - Reagan flexing his muscles to protect about a few hundred students against Cuban-backed guerrillas, hardly a war really.

Central America - So training right-wing death squads to overthrow democratically-elected psuedo-socialist governments is protecting America? Hardly, more like protecting America's financial interests with the United Fruit Company and resulting in massive loss of life.

With regards to militaries in general, yes many are there to protect their country. Ours does that, but none of these wars involved protecting ourselves, they were to protect our financial and political "interests". No country we have gone to war with in the past fifty years has been a threat to our existence as a country.

We are the Rome of today, and that should scare everyone.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/14979004/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/14979004/ Mon, 08 Oct 2007 23:31:50 PDT
I primarily play rhythm guitar and compose (mostly) experimental hard rock and metal music. I have some experience in lead techniques and can pull off some mean harmonics and tremolo picking with my unique guitar style. I am a lyricist and poet as well, with a book of poetry in the works.
[link]

I can play bass, and sing either backup or lead reasonably well. I have some experience growling for those of you death metal and metalcore types.

I am influenced by System of a Down, Rage Against the Machine, Black Sabbath, and Slayer, as well as many many other great bands.

I've been playing for almost two years, but have progressed fast and am looking for a band with an edge that emphasizes an awesome live show with quality music and lyrics. I want more than just a band, I'd like to find a group of people who are honest and friendly, and are good, fun people.

[link]

Peace,
Nick

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/14861908/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/14861908/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 19:42:05 PDT -Lostinthewhirlwind


Now THAT'S a review

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/14660384/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/14660384/ Sun, 16 Sep 2007 13:34:06 PDT
I'm working on a new song, Nightfalls. This time I'm getting the music down from the beginning. If you want to hear the song (in MIDI format) as it is progressing, I can send you the song via email. So let me know if you're interested. I've never posted music up from my poems before, so I'm curious as to what you think.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/14336207/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/14336207/ Sat, 25 Aug 2007 15:14:18 PDT
2. I am a singer... though no one will ever hear it

3. I play World of Warcraft whenever I have nothing else to do... which is always.

4. I watch Gene Simmon's Family Jewels religiously.

5. I speak Turkish... somewhat.

6. I want to own my own company, a small hookah bar that serves coffee from around the world, pizza, and has tons of video games and wifi for everyone.

7. If I could transplant Amsterdam's legal code to the US I'd be in heaven.

8. Spongebob is on my TV almost non-stop during the day.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/14097211/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/14097211/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 21:32:20 PDT

And I'm now a guild master for a soon-to-be endgame guild.

I love life right now.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/13920643/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/13920643/ Sat, 28 Jul 2007 22:52:29 PDT
I need a new guitar badly. And a new amp... it would cost well over $1000 to upgrade.

I want to get an IC400 or an EX-400... maybe a Vox 60 watt amp or a Roland Cube... I just can't play on my Squier Fat Strat and Frontman 15G amp... it hurts my ears.

Guess that's how I know I should upgrade.

But I've asked dad for so much so far, this year, traveling... bah.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/13893829/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/13893829/ Thu, 26 Jul 2007 22:50:48 PDT
Really, but I do have the occasional attraction to certain men. No big deal.

But I thought, hey, here's an idea, let me mention this minuscule fact to my conservative father whose worst nightmare would be for me to be gay. It'll be fine, he'll get that it's just a passing thing, that I am only really attracted to women 90% of the time, and that's it.

Wrong.

So now I have an awkward house to live in, and the relationship I've had with my dad which was finally getting better is now weird and possibly hostile again.

Great way to fuck it up right?

Over something that I hardly ever think about and really doesn't matter.

: /

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/13880821/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/13880821/ Wed, 25 Jul 2007 22:43:46 PDT
They rocked.

I also saw Bleeding Through and Marilyn Manson.

They also rocked. (less)

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/13138572/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/13138572/ Tue, 29 May 2007 13:26:02 PDT
I'm going from Istanbul to Basel, to Rome, to London, to Amsterdam, and then home!

It's gonna take a few days, but I'll get to travel a bit and see Europe before I get back to shitty Florida. I can't stand the heat... it's gonna suck. But besides that, life is good and although there are problems here at the host family's house, I'm glad to be practically done with school. I can't wait to use the summer to get better at guitar and write more. It's gonna rock.



]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/12620486/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/12620486/ Mon, 16 Apr 2007 15:02:37 PDT
Then the system fucked her. Hard. She can't afford her medications, so the government paperwork delays payments and she suffers. She can't go to school, but thankfully her loans went through (with heavy interest of course). She gets fired for taking sickdays after working double-digit hours most of the week and going to school the rest of the time. She made 3 dollars an hour (3 below the MINIMUM WAGE) on top of tips (she's a waitress).
AND THEY FIRED HER.

FUCK the cocksucking dick sipping his martini in the Mediterranean while his employees work day and night for his yacht. FUCK HIM. FUCK THEM ALL.

FUCK THE SYSTEM.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/12562107/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/12562107/ Thu, 12 Apr 2007 02:47:34 PDT
And so it goes...

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/12458229/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/12458229/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 14:49:54 PDT
If someone has more money than you, he has power over you. It's that simple. Money is power in modern capitalist-countries. If he has more, he can buy your labor from you, he can apply to the state for privileges you may not get, he can make his firm be considered a legal person, and buy political power. When he has that much power over you, and consistently applies this power for his own personal gain, that IS oppression.

Goods and services will be provided by communes and cooperatives, as well as individual artisans and workers who will provide their work for the common good, in return for access to everyone else's labor. No one person will control any other person's labor, and no state will exist to protect the person who wishes to have his power increased at the expense of others. All this must be maintained by a direct-democracy system where every single person is involved in the daily life of the society and works for the community's benefit.

By freeing the worker, the worker can spend more time at home, with family, working with the community, taking hobbies, and doing much more than he can in modern society.

Of course, theory is theory. But that's the idea.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/12024325/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/12024325/ Fri, 02 Mar 2007 09:14:24 PST [ x] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[ ] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[ ] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] Its football...not soccer.
Total: 1

Australian
[x ] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.
[x] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an australian something
Total: 5

Italian
[ x] The Sopranos is a great show.
[x ] Your last name ends in a vowel. (nesbitte? hah)
[x] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[x] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[] You know Italian songs.
[x ] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some italian.
[ x] You are under 5'10'' =
[] You know what a italian horn is
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world! =
[ x] You talk with your hands.
Total: 8

Spanish
[] You say member instead of Remember.
[x] You speak spanish or some.
[] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[x] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[ ] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[x] You know what platanos are.
Total: 4

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[ ] You get short tempered.
[ ] You know of somebody named natasha.
[] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather. (contradiction with number 4 on this?)
Total: 2

Irish
[] You think alcohol is the best.
[ ] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[x] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[x] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 3

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ x] You like rap. (depends... a lot)
[ x] You know how to shoot a gun
[ x] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[x] You like chicken.
[] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can dance.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 4

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from asia.
[ ] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 1

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[x] You Speak some German.
[] You know what Schnitzel is.
[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2
Total: 5

Canadian
[] You like/play/played hockey.
[x] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[] You know what poutine is.
[] You speak some french.
[] You love Tim Horton's.
[x] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi.
Total: 3

American
[ ] You hate foriegners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians.
[x] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[] You hate abortion.
[ ] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[] You shop at walmart.
[x] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 2

In hindsight, this was a very retarded test... yet I'm posting it anyway.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11962058/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11962058/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 13:53:39 PST
Lobbyists and their CEO employers run government, as well as the various interest groups that garner votes for their favored party. It's all about currying favor with votes, which equal donations, which equal favorable laws for business interests, which placate the otherwise unaware voters, which creates money for those in power. The politicians may individual care about how well-off or happy some people are, but in the end it's the cash and the votes that control them, despite some of the more morally-acceptable candidates like Obama and others. The Democrats have sold out just as much as the Republicans, but at least they aren't nearly as idiotic as a group... at least not as catastrophically so in my opinion.

It's not about Republicans being power-hungry warmonging religious-literalists, or Democrats being weak on national security *rolls eyes* or being far left socially, it's about money and power. If you don't make six or seven or *gasp* eight or nine digits in your paychecks every year, you really can't influence the big two parties. You're a vote, a pawn, a piece in their game. Our only chance to affect real change is from the ground up, third parties and non-parties, organizations and ngos, activism and speaking out. We can't simply vote every two (four... eight... never) years and expect anything to change.

It's time we move on.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11824345/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11824345/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 02:25:31 PST
]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11747606/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11747606/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 13:22:57 PST
So what to do? Write music on GP5, make a myspace, practice guitar, and whine about it to people I want to read this if they feel like it. I posted some of my songs online for critique, the first one got good reviews, and the second got blasted. I can't change the song without totally messing with it, and I don't want to redo it now. I write my music for me, not for anyone else. It's still a real bummer when something you put so much effort into gets slammed. I fucking hate other guitarists so much. I take it all with a grain of salt, but when it's universal and totally negative, it's hard. It's part of being a musician, or a performer, or any kind of artist, writer, and so on.

I don't care that it makes me look like a whiner or like I'm vulnerable, fuck it right? Normally I'm pretty cool headed, things don't bother me, but whatever. I don't need to pretend for anyone. If you know me, then all this whining won't matter to you, and if it does, then you're as shallow as I am, or everyone else. Humanity is surprisingly similar everywhere in the world.

Tis life. I miss home, I miss family, I miss American food, I miss friends, I miss Amherst, I DON'T miss Miami, I miss Lorena and am afraid to tell her that I fell for her last weekend, and I miss being with people that actually care about me. The few people I suspect that do, I can barely count on one hand. So if you were tagged in this note (if you're on Facebook), consider yourself a friend of mine.

Really.

/end whining

Peace

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11621156/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11621156/ Tue, 30 Jan 2007 09:09:52 PST
Enjoy

[link]

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]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11315594/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11315594/ Thu, 04 Jan 2007 16:12:45 PST
Finally, I am actually writing songs. I think I finally got over that plateau after beginning to learn guitar... about time too

The song, if you want to know, is the one I just posted, Nightshade. If you want the tabs so far (key words: so far) then ask and I can post. I may use this song eventually on a demo tape, so please do not copy or use or all that other legal crap.

Cheers!

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11163607/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11163607/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 14:57:40 PST
An Islamic politician was elected to Congress for the first time this election, and plans to use a Qur'an to swear in his private ceremony. He converted to Islam after college.

So these two Virginian Congressmen (I believe it was two, not sure) said that the Bible is the only legitimate religious text in the country and that it was dangerous and emboldening to the terrorists (...) for him to swear on his oath on the Qur'an. They think this is why we need stricter immigration (the man in question is not an immigrant) and they think this is a victory for terrorists because we have more Islamic influence in government.



What a bunch of fucking idiots... this is why I hate our government... and some of the idiots who elect these racist fascist sons of bitches. Fuck them and the people who elected them.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11121328/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11121328/ Tue, 19 Dec 2006 21:09:17 PST
The problem as I see it, is that Turks feel like Europeans are out to get them. If you pay attention to the EU-Turkey talks, Cyprus, the genocide allegations, Turks may have a point. It's for these reasons they are so stubborn about giving up some of their nationalist tendencies. They still feel under-attack, culturally and politically, by the Europeans.

As for freedom of speech, we know the French parliament passed a law making it ILLEGAL to deny the Armenian Genocide. This is just as bad as Turkey's law, and I'm surprised no one has talked about it.

Yes, you may believe things like the Armenian Genocide happened, and that's fine, or you may deny it, fine, but neither side should silence the other. It's not political, it's historical, and everyone needs to be able to discuss it. It's got nothing to do with national security, despite what some people seem to believe.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11071835/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/11071835/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 10:45:19 PST
Thank you so much.

If any of you know how to link other people's work on a journal (cough cough, Lostinthewhirlwind) then please let me know so I can post some of my favorite artists's work here in my journal.

I'm going to post my favorites of my own, as well as those of all the people who watch my page, as a show of gratitude.

Thank you all.

Peace

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/10960135/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/10960135/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 12:43:46 PST
I've gone back and edited a few of my songs/poems, and I think you'll be very happy, since the early ones were sonically challenged.

And I added four more today, and eight this month.

I should really be writing my Turkish homework.

Love you all, peace,

Nick

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/10627212/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/10627212/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 16:01:59 PST
Life is good. Why are you reading this? Read my songs damn it!

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That made my day. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9817741/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9817741/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 15:40:00 PDT
What about State Terror? Mass bombing of civilian targets in WW2? Rolling Tanks through neighborhoods?

War is terrorism. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9805855/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9805855/ Mon, 21 Aug 2006 15:15:27 PDT
My favorite political test, get's down to moral values rather than issues.


1. System: Socialism
2. Variation: Extreme Socialism
3. Ideologies: International Socialism, Activism, Libertarian Socialism (aka Anarchism)
4. US Parties: No match.
5. Presidents: Jimmy Carter (70.35%)
6. 2004 Election Candidates: Ralph Nader (77.47%), John Kerry (60.47%), George W. Bush (28.06%) ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9625859/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9625859/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 07:47:05 PDT
Uncanny understanding of the motivation of others. Life is an adventure.



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Pretty accurate ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9553184/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9553184/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 10:59:14 PDT
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I was at the Hartford show last night, and last afternoon, and last morning... etc...

The whole show was pretty damn awesome. Nothing like moshing and circle pits and all that during BLS.

Sex drugs and rock and roll ftw!

I'll cut to System now... since I could go on forever...

The first two songs were a bit off vocally... it didn't feel right (I couldn't stand Serj and Daron's vocals at first... WAY too high-pitched, but it got better). They opened with the Soldier Side Intro, which was ok but considering it was Ozzfest, Suite-Pee would've been a better opener. They kept switching from fast to slow and some people got up and left. Too bad really, because half-way through it got awesome.

They played nearly all the big ones: Aerials, Chop Suey, Toxicity, Sugar... and their finale was insane. The crowd was on its feet and the banging started. True... no pit, but a lot of people were going wild.

My grading -

Ozzfest = A
SYSTEM = A- (for awkward intro, strange setlist, but still awesomely rocking ending)
Disturbed= A
BLS = A+

Other first stage bands = B (sitting down during a day-time playing of Dragonforce and Lacuna Coil was sad... they should've played at night... not like Hatebreed *gags*)

Other second stage bands= B+ (maybe all the moshing made me like it more?) ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9536639/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9536639/ Sat, 29 Jul 2006 19:42:37 PDT
Israel should not have been created in the first place, but it's here now.

The Palestinians deserve their own country.

Israelis should not have to live in fear of violence.


So my opinion =

The Palestinians do not have tanks, airplanes, nukes, or the support of the USA. So it's no surprise they resort to assymetrical warfare.

Are they right to do so? Yes, if they feel that is the only real solution to the problem and the stakes are high enough.

Does it make it right to kill innocent people for politics? No.

But say that to Israel... ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9533307/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9533307/ Sat, 29 Jul 2006 12:53:41 PDT
:hangbang:

That is all. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9514553/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9514553/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 18:05:14 PDT
But come Tuesday when my boss's boss gets back... I may be in a world of shit.

At least my boss stuck her neck out a little... but she still is being a total pain about it. I don't understand why people lose their human decency when they become employers... ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9508526/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9508526/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 07:00:41 PDT
I was late rather often the first month or so of my employment, I got put on probation, which says if I'm late ONCE more I'm fired.

So... almost two months later, not one day of tardiness... and I press the wrong button on my cellphone that instead of snoozing, turns off the alarm.

I'm late for work, my supervisor calls me in, tells me there's "nothing" she can do... which is total bullshit since she only wants to follow the rules rather than understand the full situation...

She says I've got till Tuesday when the boss comes in to work. That day I'll have to explain my situation, and not get fired somehow.

If I'm fired... I get to be sent back to either my poor grandparents, who can't afford me, or my dad, whose wife's family hates me.

Life is grand. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9351947/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9351947/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 08:14:20 PDT

On top of all that... OZZFEST in Hartford in less than 3 weeks!!!

DRAGONFORCE, LACUNA COIL, SYSTEM OF A DOWN, DISTURBED, BLACK LABEL SOCIETY, HATEBREED, AVENGED SEVENFOLD, ATREYU.....

I'm going to fucking explode out of sheer joy. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9342650/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9342650/ Tue, 11 Jul 2006 11:34:51 PDT ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9340397/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9340397/ Tue, 11 Jul 2006 07:16:21 PDT
Some days = Awesome
Some days = not-so-Awesome

I guess the trick is to harness the feelings and the ups and downs and use them for something creative or beneficial. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9330111/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9330111/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 08:32:03 PDT
I'm having an existential crisis, and I have no clue why, what caused it, or how to deal with it.

Writing right now is my escape. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9312412/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9312412/ Sat, 08 Jul 2006 13:53:58 PDT
I prefer being mildly patriotic at best, and would rather be detached from the silly game of international politics. It's all a game the rich play to gain advantage over eachother. They use us for their own gain, it's plainly obvious. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9310337/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9310337/ Sat, 08 Jul 2006 09:33:41 PDT 2) consumed alcohol.. yes
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.. yes
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.. yes
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex.. yes
6) made out with someone of the same sex.. no
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex.. yes
8) watched porn.. yes
9) bought porn no
10) done drugs.. yes
TOTAL: 8

11) taken pain killers... yes
12) taken someone elses prescription medicine. yes
13) lied to your parents.. yes
14) lied to a friend.. yes
15) snuck out of the house.. no
16) done something illegal.. yes
17) cut yourself.. no
18) hurt someone... yes
19) wished someone to die.. yes
20) seen someone die.. yes
TOTAL: 8

21) missed curfew.. yes
22) stayed out all night.. yes
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.. no
24) been to a therapist.. yes
25) been to rehab.. no
26) dyed your hair.. no
27) recieved a ticket.. no
28) been in a wreck.. yes
29) been to a club.. no
TOTAL: 4

31) been to a wild party.. yes
32) seen the Mardi Gras.. no
34) had a summer break in Florida.. yes.. I live there
35) sniffed anything.. no
36) wore black nail polish.. yes
37) wore arm bands.. yes
38) wore t-shirts with band names.. yes
39) listened to rap.. yes
40) own a 50 cent cd.. no
TOTAL: 6

41) dressed gothic.. yes
42) dressed prep.. yes
43) dressed punk.. no
44) dressed grunge.. yes
45) stole something.. yes
46) been too drunk to remember anything. no
47) blacked out.. no
48) fainted.. no
49) had a crush on your neighbor.. yes
50) had someone sneak into your room.. yes
TOTAL: 6

51) snuck into someone else's room..yes
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex.. yes
53) been to a concert.. yes
54) dry humped someone.. yes
55) been called a slut.. no
56) called someone a slut... yes
57) installed speakers in your car.. no
58) broke a mirror.. no
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.. yes
60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush.. yes
TOTAL: 7

61) consider ludacris your favorite rapper.. no
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters.. yes
63) cruised the mall.. yes
64) skipped school... yes
65) had an eating disorder.. no
66) had an injury.. yes (stupid things I did... like jumping off a two story building for fun)
67) gone to court.. yes
68) walked out of a resteraunt without paying.. no
69) caught something on fire.. yes
70) lied about your age.. yes
TOTAL: 7

71) owned an apartment.. no
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend.. no
73) been cheated on.. yes
74) got in trouble with the police.. no
75) talked to a stranger.. yes
76) hugged a stranger.. no
77) kissed a stranger.. no
78) rode in the car with a stranger.. yes
79) been sexually harrassed.. no
80) been verbally harrassed.. yes
TOTAL: 4

81) met face to face with someone you met online.. yes
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight.. yes
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight. yes
84) watched tv for 12 hours straight.. yes
85) been to a fair.. yes
86) been called a bad influence. no
87) cursed... yes
88) prank called someone.. yes
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex..yes
90) cheated on a test.. yes
TOTAL: 9

91) cheated on homework... yes
92) recieved/given a handjob... yes
93) been pushed into a pool.. yes
94) played pool.. yes
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight... yes
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you.. no
97) had a crush on someone younger than you.. yes
98) wear eyeliner.. no
99) skinny dipped.. yes
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt.. yes
TOTAL: 8

TOTAL: 58

10-20= goodie good
21-30= a little rebelious
31-40= getting hot baby
41-50= rebel
51-60= total bad girl/boy
61-70= bitch
71-80= cant believe you made it this far
81-90= bad ass
91-100= see you in hell

hehe, ok then ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9197095/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/9197095/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 08:05:50 PDT
That being said, musically, I'm feeling inspired. I may put a song or two to music, at least on guitar.

Life is good. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8958948/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8958948/ Sat, 03 Jun 2006 11:44:28 PDT
The few "revolutionary" types are largely one-track minded lunatics. The minority of that minority are actually thinkers who would know how to reshape a society.

But again, it's America so I'm almost more afraid of post-revolutionary America than today's country... as superficial and retarded as it is.

Ironically enough, I consider myself somewhat of a patriot ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8852379/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8852379/ Tue, 23 May 2006 07:52:57 PDT
Fuck them for all the times they fucked us in the ass.

Fuck the paperpushers and directors

Fuck the Deans and Administrators

Fuck the faceless machine ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8691058/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8691058/ Sat, 06 May 2006 12:23:44 PDT
5 Essays, 1 Test, 0 Life. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8192940/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8192940/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 21:59:52 PST
]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8183912/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8183912/ Thu, 16 Mar 2006 23:57:25 PST
It's here on the site if you want to see it. But damn it hurts to write about dodos and some dead philosopher that no one has heard of.

Sleep... and still I've yet to do Arabic... and it's tomorrow morning...

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8178313/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8178313/ Thu, 16 Mar 2006 12:46:18 PST
I need to start doing work and stop playing video games... no really. I can't believe I started World of Warcraft again. At least I'm not addicted like my roomies, but still it's bad and I should know better. No more buying things while high... bad call... unless it's munchies. Point is... yeah.

I've spent 4 hours singing and listening to music instead of doing homework... and I still kinda sorta got into the London School of Economics General Course... I don't deserve it really.

Whatever, Spring Break is coming and I'll get to practice my music more. Thankfully I've found something that makes me really happy and lets me get out my stress and such.

System of a Down rocks by the way, just letting you know.

]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8155020/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/8155020/ Tue, 14 Mar 2006 00:29:27 PST
Testicles... that is all. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/1568001/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/1568001/ Mon, 22 Dec 2003 10:39:14 PST Miami is actually cool this time...its about time i have a cold X-mas!
Got lots of new toys to mess with...aka video games.
not much going on really...oh well i figured id update this once in awhile.
ill post something new soon i hope. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/1524327/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/1524327/ Fri, 12 Dec 2003 06:17:59 PST
Yeah life is very very good right now. I might get a job at Starbucks, and that would be awesome...I love coffee...java java java java!

Life .... is good. ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/1458445/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/1458445/ Thu, 27 Nov 2003 12:08:02 PST
Ok I feel better now. Ignore previous venting ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013 http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/1455543/ http://Shadowwalker1013.deviantart.com/journal/1455543/ Wed, 26 Nov 2003 18:22:30 PST
Now you can't bother me anymore! ]]> ~Shadowwalker1013