http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Shattered-Faith&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Shattered-Faith en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 15 Dec 2009 02:06:38 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/9692701/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/9692701/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 15:42:57 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/8581071/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/8581071/ Tue, 25 Apr 2006 12:31:28 PDT The money will be going toward a trip to visit my marine!! hehe. Thank you for the support!


-Yuri Kuro ]]> ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/7886783/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/7886783/ Mon, 13 Feb 2006 18:26:27 PST
It sucks....so much....

Otherwise. Life is fairly regular. I day dream far too much. I try and keep my fav barried in a book. Whether its a coloring book or my Anita Blake book. Been spending time with Sami which is nice. I had kinda forgotton the fun we have together. So its nice to be close to her again. Another friend of mine has been very nice...but i haven't been able to get together with him goin on a month now.
-shrugs- School is going good. And art is constant. I suppose that comes with the pain aspect of my life. A new painting, a drawing (have yet to get it back from being graded) and a new photoshoot. Those are all good things.

I keep thinking about drivin off somewhere. Im taking my road test on the 21st. I hope i pass. I would love to just go out and drive. Dispite gas prices. I feel like getting away. Going on a road trip. Going....camping....-teary eyed- Im sorry we never got to do that.... UGH!! I try and keep in mind that not all is bad...but i feel very out of balance without this person...why did i do what i did? The reasons seem to have faded away.

well i just felt like writing to maybe help me feel better. But it didn't do a whole lot....i guess i just have to wait....time heals all pain....right??? ]]> ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/7698484/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/7698484/ Tue, 24 Jan 2006 19:07:42 PST ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/7057417/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/7057417/ Tue, 15 Nov 2005 18:10:18 PST It could be the PMS talking...maybe...but i feel restless, and i don't even know what i would do if i had the choice of whatever i want. UGH. Im ready for the long weekend. I just need some time with out school and without stupidity and just being on my own, able to sleep in and spend time with those i want to and choose to spend time with. BLAH....-curls up in a little ball and sighs- ]]> ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/6341528/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/6341528/ Sat, 27 Aug 2005 10:32:11 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/5908863/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/5908863/ Mon, 11 Jul 2005 22:05:00 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3898632/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3898632/ Tue, 23 Nov 2004 05:04:54 PST ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3788802/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3788802/ Mon, 08 Nov 2004 19:53:16 PST [link]
Check it ]]> ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3739824/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3739824/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 05:25:53 PST ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3711882/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3711882/ Sat, 30 Oct 2004 22:02:14 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3664093/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3664093/ Sun, 24 Oct 2004 15:08:39 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3664089/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3664089/ Sun, 24 Oct 2004 15:05:06 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3624379/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3624379/ Tue, 19 Oct 2004 04:19:03 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3604703/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3604703/ Sat, 16 Oct 2004 15:58:10 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3570707/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3570707/ Tue, 12 Oct 2004 04:50:12 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3438453/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3438453/ Fri, 24 Sep 2004 19:09:39 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3433825/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3433825/ Fri, 24 Sep 2004 04:53:15 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3338717/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3338717/ Sat, 11 Sep 2004 10:06:01 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3327834/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3327834/ Thu, 09 Sep 2004 19:54:01 PDT Then my mom, who doesn't really know me at all or the things i have been through, or even the boyfriend part of the trip, came up to me tonight. "Still worried about the colorado thing?" i reply "Yeah, i am". "well jill," she gets all stern, almost mad,"don't let it distract you from school! Thats all i care about. That is the only thing that matters to me. Grades and school." She gets on my case about how it better not effect my school work. She says she will take me if my dad fucks up completely and i don't win the battle, but that means...no boyfriend visit. It just won't happen. And believe me, my good friend means sooo much to me. I will be glad to see him and spend time with him! But i am in love with my boyfriend...and i need to be with him. This issue is so complex and i don't expect many of you to understand what this all means to me, what i veiw this as. But...bluntly and literally. This trip is whats been keeping me alive this past month, and driving me through school. Its been my light at the end of the tunnel. And if that light goes out...i'm back in the fuckin dark and i "Fade to Black". I am scared shitless...
If my dad fucks this up for me. There will be no forgiving him. I will never be on good terms with him again. I dono if i will ever talk to him again. If my good friend, gets shipped off, dies! and i never even got to meet him after five years of knowing him...i don't know what the fuck i will do with myself. I have waited to get to this state for fuckin long enough. I feel like i have fuckin family out there. These two guys know me more then most of my blood relitives!! I just pray that this doesn't get fucked over! ]]> ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3269558/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3269558/ Thu, 02 Sep 2004 10:33:49 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3227178/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3227178/ Fri, 27 Aug 2004 19:33:57 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3176518/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3176518/ Fri, 20 Aug 2004 22:40:54 PDT On a better note i am trying to take controle of some things in my life, to try and feel more IN controle. I am really going to focus on my Karate. I think it is one of the only things i do, that when i do it, i feel completly at peace. I get out my anger and i feel like i am doing something worth while. I feel apart of something. Stronger and better. Also i am really going to concentrate on school this year. I have fucked up so far and i really...need to step it up and do it for myself. Look ahead and get through high school. There is no question that i need to do it and do it well. I also plan on being more self expressive. Fuck being miss "socially exceptable" not that i am most of the time anyways. The religious people in my school can go fuck themselves long and hard. At least i am not weak minded.
So i have set some goals and plan to try and live my life and keep going for no one else but me. I have myself and thats all i need. I hope.... ]]> ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3086246/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3086246/ Mon, 09 Aug 2004 21:10:38 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3058276/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3058276/ Fri, 06 Aug 2004 13:59:40 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3035002/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3035002/ Tue, 03 Aug 2004 14:55:14 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3030761/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/3030761/ Mon, 02 Aug 2004 22:38:25 PDT I WANNA FUCKIN DIE IS THAT TOO MUCH TO FUCKIN WANT!! MOTHER FUCKER!!! ]]> ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2974837/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2974837/ Mon, 26 Jul 2004 20:08:33 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2960877/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2960877/ Sat, 24 Jul 2004 23:16:06 PDT
As for an update on my slow decline mentally (as you may have picked up from my last journal) the battle still rages with in. Depression something so many go through, and other then this short statement...i am choosing to go through it alone and as silently as i can. I just have to learn to bare then pain or get rid of it...simple as that. I can't put this on others, too much too late, i am smart enough to realise we all have our own pain...and that is enough with out having to deal with others. So that is all i have to say about it.

See you all later. ]]> ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2855374/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2855374/ Sun, 11 Jul 2004 10:52:02 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2766235/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2766235/ Tue, 29 Jun 2004 19:12:41 PDT ,< Although when i get back i may have some good photos to post. Well....see ya all in 8 days!! *waves* ]]> ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2751320/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2751320/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 22:17:38 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2703244/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2703244/ Sun, 20 Jun 2004 10:35:39 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2583184/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2583184/ Fri, 04 Jun 2004 15:27:01 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2561258/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2561258/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 19:29:37 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2542970/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2542970/ Sun, 30 May 2004 13:16:32 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2534552/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2534552/ Sat, 29 May 2004 09:07:36 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2505106/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2505106/ Tue, 25 May 2004 11:20:43 PDT ~Shattered-Faith http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2493254/ http://Shattered-Faith.deviantart.com/journal/2493254/ Sun, 23 May 2004 19:53:09 PDT ~Shattered-Faith