aight, recap on the party I was talking about. It's Tuesday, four days past 'mayhem' and the school is still buzzing. Can't blame us, we made national news with it.
Housy has now hired another three cops to work for the school on top of the one we had before.
Every car in the parking lot was checked today by them, even teacher cars. It was outrageous.

Here's a new article on it. [link]
Although it was a good 200 kids. [It stopped being a high school party a couple months before it happened.] the three kids sent to the hospital [Dylan, Jed and Roger, all friends of mine.] didn't have alcohol poisoning. Dylan threw up in front of the cops, Jed [the 15 yr old that "was so drunk on Sunday morning that he was incoherent and couldn’t respond to any stimulus." which is complete bullshit.] didn't run when the cops got there and Roger was simply passed out in the back of his truck after drinking 3 large cups of vodka in an hour. He was fine though.
Robert has a knife pulled on him during a fight with some kids that don't go to our school that showed up.
Yesterday we had an assembly that started with the principle saying "Some of you made bad choices this weekend." working her way into telling us she was disappointed and blah blah blah trying to make kids feel bad.
We just burst into cheers.

In a few weeks a picnic is being hosted for Nick's father, who was arrested to help pay the 2.5k

That party was Max's baby. He must be proud.

I'm pretty proud myself.
Housy is regarded as one of the top party school now :]

ANOTHER CARTER ROAD PARTY THIS WEEKEND, WHO'S IN?!

_{Time for updates; even though I understand no one reallyy cares haha.
I'm not going to go through everything so try to keep up.
[Although you might need to know; Ethan is my boyfriend and Dylan is the guy who I cheated on him with.]}

We're three days into spring break and it hasn't stopped raining.
Yesterday wasn't so bad; but I spent the whole day inside at the mall. I LOVE HOLISTER. shhh.
This break hasn't been promising; Dylan's car doesn't have a starter, Trevor is still angry with my for cheating on his brother and Chris hasn't stopped working in the past like 10 years. I'm not going anywhere :\

Ethan got banned from my house for the next two weeks, and when he comes here is when we don't do anything. And right now I don't want to do anything, if i go there I know it'll happen. We just get so caught up.

Hmm, anddd.
Sometimes I still wish I had picked Dylan over Ethan; I still have the chance. But Ethan NEEDS me.
:\ Dramaaa.

Ohh I started getting back into drawing; i still owe people commissions and to ship Lina that apple!! But I'm moving slowlyyy.

In other news, uhh idk nothing I guess haha :]

Oh, I have a question for girls.
Go away boys :[
Where do you buy your thongs, if you wear em?
Right now I only like the ones at Arie and medium seems to be the only size they don't have.
That is all, thank you :]

What do you personally think about children around the ages of 14 and 15 [freshman and sophomores in high school.] having sex with their partners or hooking up for a night?

I don't need a lengthy answer.
Yes/No?


Also, where is the crazy place you have had sex or would want to have sex?


Me:
Yes; if you are ready.
Darkroom and on a pool table. :]

Out of my 7 classes I'm taking I am honestly passing 3.



oops.

An almost friend of mine has gotten his now ex-girlfriend pregnant.

I can't believe he might be a father.
If he lets the fetus live.

She's 14 he's 17 as of yesterday.





_{P.S. You better not get me pregnant, Puppy.}

My life is a mess.

Academically I'm falling apart.
Physically I've let myself go.
Mentally I'm playing twister [and losing.]

The only thing going right for me right now is my love life.
And it's taking so much I have nothing left to give to the rest of me.


So art.
has come.
To a
Screeching
HALT.

I'm sorry.

I need some advise pleaseee :[
By now I'm guess we all know what I look like haha.
Paler, blonde hair blue eyes.
I'm ready to change that.
i want to know how youthink I would look if I was to dye my hair brunette.
likeee this color. [link]
Oh I dont know, what color do you think I should do?


[Oh. For more photos of me go to ~xRainyTuesdays]

I would like to wish you a happy Valentines day :]
I personally do not like this day; but by chance I just had the best one ever.
We both agreed that we wouldn't do it for St Valie's day seeing as we both hate it.
Oh god it was still so good.
I'm sorry to the many of you who are heart broken love sick teenagers. I love you all, but I have NOT got the energy left after today to comfort you.

It's jsut another day babies, ignore it :]


What a change from last year, haha: [link]

I want to be that girl that makes guys stumble into walls.







I'm so insecure, yet I'm so vain.
Could you stop complementing me, it's going to me head.
<sub>[But it doesn't help that my gym class fights a bit over me. p.s. And I suck at all things sport.]








I thought I might have a chance.
Until I remember my unattractive legs.
Having legs a mile long means nothing if they aren't gorgeous nude.</sub>

Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.

*1.) Your name?
- Rachel

A smart, sassy and sexy young woman who knows things from fashion to film to literature, from Manolo Blahniks to Mahatma Gandhi.
“She impressed everybody in the meeting. She's such a Rachel.”

*2.) Your age?
- 15

As seen on How I Met Your Mother, used in reference to your cards in a game of blackjack, but about the bang-ability rating of a girl. In blackjack, a player says "hit" if he wants another card. Trying not to go over 21, 15 can be a bad hand, because the blackjack player isn't sure if he wants to hit or not.
"Man, did you see that girl that just walked by, she was fine"
"Ya, I guess. She was a 15"
"What?"
"'Cus I am not sure if I would hit that or not"


*3.) One of your friends?
- Frankie

usually an extremely good looking person with a huge penis.
Woman 1: "wow, did you see that guy over there, he was hot!"

Woman 2: "Yeh, I bet his name was Frankie"

*4.) What should you be doing?
- Homework.

You go to school for fucking 6 1/2 hours, constantly taking it up the ass (figuratively) from dickhead students and fucktard teachers. Then you go home, which SHOULD be time that doesn't involve learning shit you don't care about. But no, these cunt-ass teachers will not accept only 6 1/2 hours of torturing you. They crave more. So they unload a huge amount of this ass discharge they call homework on you. It can range from a simple math worksheet with joke you must fill in when you're done (no biggie) to a fucking ton of work containing bookwork, projects, unfinished classwork, studying for a test you know you're going to fail either way, and book reports on a book you didn't care to read. And these teachers are clever too. If you spent fucking hours on this shit and ended up going to sleep at 4 in the motherfucking morning, these assrammers won't even check the damn homework the next day. Oh, but if you forgot to note down the homework, did the wrong page, or just didn't give two shits about it and didn't do it, the assholes will ask you turn it in. All in all, school sucks, classwork sucks, teachers suck, students suck, and homework is the fucking scum of the earth.
I'm supposed to be doing my homework right now, which is a research paper on a book I didn't have the time to read (assigned by old bitch Goodman) and to study for a math test I'm probably going to bomb anyway (given by fat slut Preston). Except I don't give two shits about it, so I'm writing a definition for Urban Dictionary. What? You think I should be doing my homework instead of writing this wordy definition that probably no one will read? Well fuck you then, you can kiss my ass.

*5.) Favorite color?
- Orange

The colour which vain assholes turn after a session in the tanning salon; Often confused with Hepatitis.
"Hey, nice tan... in the middle of winter, you sick fucking pumpkin monster." [HAHA SUCKERS I DON'T TURN ORANGE]

*6.) Birthplace?
-Connecticut

According to U.S. News and World Report 2003 - Connecticut is THE RICHEST STATE in the nation and always has been by per capita new worth, average income, and cost of living. It's amazing how uneducated someone is to say New Jersey (which most everyone would agree is the nation's asshole) would be richer. Have fun peasant, New Jersey is 6th. Get castrated before you reproduce and your uneducated middle-low class spawn infect any more of the planet.
Nice Prada shoes. Are you from Connecticut?

Why yes, where are you from?

New Jersey.

Well, that explains the smell. [HAHA NEW JERSEY. Losers. Uhhurhur we’re poor]


*7.) Month of your birth?
- July

A month when mostly the hottest girls are born
That girls so hot she must be born in July [Stick that in your juice box and suck it, bitches.]

*8.) Last person you talked to?
- Krissy

a word that can be used to substitute the word sexy
wow did u see that krissy ass earlier


*9.) One of your nicknames?
- Boo

1. Boyfriend or girlfriend
2. Word used to scare people
1. Can you handle me? If you can't you ain't gonna be my boo.

2. Guy: BOO!
Guy 2: Holy sh*t!

How many of you read the [New York Times Best Seller btw.] book before seeing the movie Marley and Me?


because if you haven't, it really wasn't worth it.

They cut BEAUTIFUL parts out of the book.

This was a real family, take the time to really know what happened.

Such as the weeks of fighting over what Marley's name.
And how they came to it.
During the fighting, Jenny put on Bob Marley and it was the one thing that calmed the couple down.

Marley was also featured in a movie that went straight to video.

The scene when Jon finds the stabbed girl was so much more intense then they showed; and Marley such a larger part.

On their second child; Jenny went into premature labor.
That was crazy.

The book brings you to tears so many more times then the movie.

Just freaking read it.

I love you.
And you know how I know I love you?
Because we just spent five minutes promising each other we won't get cancer.
And that's what best friends do :]


This year will be better.
I know it.
You know it.
We know it.

<sub>IN 2008 I:
[x] stayed single
[x] got kissed
[x] kissed someone new
[x] made out
[ ] made out in a car

[ ] kissed in the snow
[x] kissed in the rain
[x] fell in love
[x] fell in love with a fool
[x] had my heart broken

[x] broke someone else's heart
[ ] had a stalker
[ ] lost a friend
[x] had a good relationship with someone
[ ] questioned my sexual orientation

[ ] came out of my closet
[ ] got pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce

[ ] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[x] did something I regret
[x] lost my true love
[x] lost faith in love for awhile [And I certainly question it thoroughly.]

[ ] kissed under mistletoe
[ ] got a promotion
[x] got a pay raise
[ ] changed jobs
[x] lost my job

[x] quit my job
[ ] dated a co-worker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[ ] got fired from my job

[ ] got straight A's
[ ] almost got straight A's
[x] failed a class
[x] cut class
[ ] skipped school


[x] did something I was proud of
[x] proved myself an idiot
[x] embarrassed myself in front of the class
[ ] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget

[x] painted a picture
[x] wrote a poem
[x] ran a mile
[x] listened to music I couldn't stand
[x] double dipped
[ ] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover
[x] went to camp/Camping
[ ] threw a surprise party
[x] laughed till I cried

[ ] laughed till I peed my pants
[x] flirted shamelessly
[ ] visited a foreign country
[ ] visited a foreign state/province
[ ] cooked a disastrous meal

[x] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[x] realized something new about myself
[ ] tried to gain weight
[x] dyed my hair

[ ] came close to losing my life...
[ ] someone close to me died
[ ] went to a wild party
[ ] got arrested
[x] read a great book(s)

[x] saw a great movie
[ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[x] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new

[x] made new friends
[x] found out who your real friends are
[x] lied to your parents
[ ] snuck out
[ ] got in trouble with police [I've been a good kid this year.]

[ ] kissed in a pool
[ ] kissed under the stars
[ ] did an illegal drug
[x] went to a party
[x] had the time of your life

[x] danced
[x] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone
[ ] changed your sexual preference
[x] swam in a pool

[ ] made a snowman
[ ] went snowboarding [CFGHKDFJ.]
[x] went sledding
[ ] slept in past 2pm
[x] held someones hand

[x] held someones hand that you care about
[ ] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[x] gone on vacation
[x] gone on vacation with a friend
[x] driven a car

[] played strip poker
[x] danced in the rain
[ ] seen someone get in a car accident
[/] got in a fist fight [My friends and I wrestle all the time.]
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe

[ ] had an amazing year
[x] missed someone
[ ] got hit by car
[ ] sent someone to the hospital
[ ] got a new pet (lucyyy! c: )
[ ] enjoyed this year overall</sub>

I hate doing this.
I hate asking for stuff like this.
But I'm going to try to do stuff for other people this year.
So... uh here we go.



THE BASICS: write a Christmas/Holiday wish list. It can be any 10 wishes you'd like to have granted, no matter what they are. Possible or seemingly impossible. People look and grant the wishes if they can. It's not about "OMFG PRESENTS", it's about making someone else's holiday a little brighter by giving. Personally, I get more out of giving than receiving sometimes. It's just a good feeling to give.

STEP ONE

** Make a post in your journal. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fun ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

** If you wish for real possible things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

** Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your journal, so that others can join in and participate to spread the holiday joy!


STEP TWO

** Surf around your friend list to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

** If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

** You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

NOW LET'S SEE IT!

--

1. I would like Tyler to come over and spend the day with me and watch House and go skating. That o

2. I'd love for a hand written letter. Or even a typed one. It doesn't have to say anything important; even if it is a generic Christmas card. I would just love it... I ADORE getting things in the mail.

3. Little jewlary things. Like cheap string stuff. Or hemp necklesses, braslets. Also bold, silly plastic rings. Grand stuff c:

4. Scarves. I love scarves. All scarves.

5. Mix CDs, or CDs OR A GIFT CARD TO FYE OMG LOVE.

6. DA subscription maybe? Thats not high on my list.

7. A link to a Australian shepherd puppy for sale in the new england area. That would be amazing...

8. A donation to your local shelter. Or for you to adopt an animal this holiday season. As long as you can care for and love it for the rest of their lives.

9. I want to say it again because I really love them. Even if you just email them to me. Letters.

10. For all of you to live large and love. And not to be hung on the little things or little people


Note me for address?




[i love him too much.]

Yes it has.
It's been a wonderful day.
I feel alive for once.
It's been the best day ever.

I'm sitting right now in our now cleaned out garage.
It was a ransacked mess before. Boxes piled ceiling high and about 20 square feet to move.
Now it's all cleaned out and I can get around just great.
My dog Lexi lives in the garage and she's loving it too.
We had a full on game of tennis ball chacing just in here.
It's nice.

Oh yeah. i can be siting out here because we have wonderful wifi+half wonderful laptop c':
I'm just feeling grand about everything.

Let me run you through the happenings.

FIRST I woke up at 7:30 and it was FREEZING out.
That kinda sucked, but it was nice. Because I got on the computer and got to talk to ~cidite for 3 whole hours
Since it was so cold too I got to cuddle up under my down quilt and be cozy.
I love doing that.

11:30 I rolled out of bed and took a nice shower and rummaged through my clothing and found quite the sexy outfit to hide my allergenic... rash thing for the fair and played dress up with myself.
Have i ever told you I look damn good in heels 8D
fjghskfj Well I didn't know either!

[And in between here and there I took a nice nap outside on the hammock]

I don't know, maybe that took a really long time. But around 12 I turned the TV on and A HAUNTING WAS ON YAY I LVOE THAT SHOW.
And there was a wiccan chick on it, which reminded me of my good ol' wicca days.
I mean, my life sucked. I had like 3 friends and everyone else was scared of me or hated me.
But I was haivng fun; dressed in black with my magic book practically glued to my hip.
By then it had warmed up so I wondered on out doors.

And somewhere in there I ate gooood food.

It must have been about.. after 12 and I choice to get off my ass and embrace the glorious outdoor world that had given me every reason to live that I need.
I went out to the front of the back feild and a furry little thing shot under out shed that we kept hay in. It's balenced on some rocks [it's like 50 years old.] so there is space under it.
It's litle head popped back out and it was GROUND HOG AWW.
THe family moved back in almost a year after Lexi had killed my man of the group 8'D
Well She had scared the shit out of me so I went and got Lexi so she could protect me just in case it was rabid and wanted to bite me.

I got to the top of the hill amidst bee balm and butterflies to where Panic is buried; and were I will way too soon bury Lexi.
And wind tore through the area.
It felt so good against my skin.
It's the one thing that has escaped me finger tips.
The one thing artists cant grab and share with the world.
The one wild thing left.
Wind.
It kissed and caressed me and it was amazing.

HUMM THEN III sauntered back down the hill with Lexi by my heel and we settled down on the lawn and I brushed her for a good long time.
Got a lot of winter fur off that hair ball.

huh... then I went back to my witchy skills and saged the house and lit some candles and what not.

And I just got a card from Sars.
It might have just made my year c:
it says "I saw this card and thought I might send it to you for no reason at all"
-some wonderful words of Sars wisdom that makes everything seem alright.- "Because I live on the edge like that"

Thank you for reading this.

I have to go brush Lexi more; America's Greatest Dog is on tonight and we always watch it together. And mommy and daddy get mad when she sheds everywhere and stuff.

My mom thinks all the candles are lit and doors and widows open and sage burning because I'm scared.
Why does no one believe I am alive?

I feel so grand c:
And kind of not like an artist anymore.
Or... what I have been doing just isn't me.
I don't know. I'll work it out.
I hope this alive feeling doesn't go away.

Leave a comment, and I will...
a) tell you why I friended you
b) associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
c) tell you something I like about you
d) tell you a memory I have of you
e) ask something I've always wanted to know about you

Then you gotta do it.

I'm taking some free icons?
1. *Araktugage [link]
2. ~Oo-Cry-WOLF-oO Anyone.
3. ~cidite Sin.
and a free drawing.
1. ~PsychoticError [link]

Then I'll get things done, kay?

I'm failing 3 classes.

One- I hate the teacher, I don't understand anything. He teaches mostly collage so he isn't used to teens. Freshman none the less.
Two- I can't remember any thing.
Three- I hate that teacher, so i don't do the homework. It makes him yell and he sounds like a little girl. It's really funny.

Hum...
What now?











_{Maybe I'll just drop out.}

Silver; Over and OUT.