:3

Yus the title is true!!! I've got a jooooooob!!!
I had an interview a few days ago and since my mom works there
He told my mom that he wants to hire me 8D
*jumps up and down*
I'm a working woman! xD
And I's gettin moneh! >:3

*dances around*


MMFWCL to all my homies out there <3


~Signing off~
~SleeplessOne

~SleeplessOne~TheDemonicJoker13


Pit Bull Petition(save them): [link]

RIP JD
And
Will

dA Family:
Lover: Jester

Twin:

Wives:

Sisters:

Brothers:

Mommy http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/25468536/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 07:52:53 PDT WARNING:: This IS long..
~~My mood isn't neutral, the thing wont load for me to change it I'm Shocked~~

Well...
I don't know how to even put this..
I'm in shock, but yet.. I'm not if that makes sense..

Well.. I never mentioned this person before..
His name is Ben. I've known Ben for a ... sorta long time.
I met him though a friend of mine, her name is Laureli.
We never really talked, all we ever said was - -
"Hey whats up?"
&
"Alright see you later mmfwcl."

Well, Ben I saw him live one day on BlogTV.com and went into his room, and we hit it off in a way..
Thennnnn.... After a while, things happened, and nothing good either.. T_T

I was told after almost a month of being like this with him, I was told from some anonymous person that he was using me to get back at his ex-girlfriend.
*shrugs* Whatelse is new.. >.>" I'm use to that stuff, I usually see it coming too... But I didn't this time. Which is what got to me the most, I usually see when I'm being lied to, or cheated on.. etc.
But this time I didn't see it, I saw part of it, but the whole using me part I never saw.
I found out why...

After months of not talking with eachother because of that whole drama bullshit stuff, he IMed me at 3:46AM (June 22, 09).
Well, after a little, he had to reboot his laptop.
I sought it as an excuse to just stop talking to me, I was wrong.
He came back a little over an hour later, I think..
Well I just HAD to find out the truth.. So, he asked me what was wrong cause I was planning on going to bed, then he IMed me and all the memories and feelings came flooding back, every time ANYONE brought up him, all the memories and feelings came back and it killed me from the inside out.
He told me that he lied to me because he didn't know how to tell me the truth, that when he told me he loved me, he meant it. *sigh*
I don't know wether to really believe him or not..
Well, he came into my LIVE room on BlogTV while I was still talking to him on MSN.
Everything was settled between us, but a few people arn't happy he's talking to me again, I don't care what they think honestly..
I tried so hard to try to just talk to him to just sort out things and get the record straight.
Finally I was able to talk to him, we talked for a while, till about... 7:something in the morning, then he had to go to school.
Which I'm happy for him that he's going to school, really happy. :3

Well, it's another fact of something like this for example:
'What if I fall into this trap again..?'
'What if he's lying to me all over again just to hurt me.. Bring me up again and drop me like he did before?'
All these things are running though my head, but I should just be happy I'm talking to him again damnit! Right?
*sigh* I don't know what to really think right now..
10:48AM at the moment and I haven't slept all night.. ._."

Oh if you read all though this, expect new photos ;D
MMFWCL to all my homies out there <3


~Signing off~
~SleeplessOne

~SleeplessOne~TheDemonicJoker13


Pit Bull Petition(save them): [link]

RIP JD
And
Will

dA Family:
Lover: Jester

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/25078456/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 20:38:30 PDT Yeah, been forever since I've been on here...
Yeah, yeah yeah, I know..
For those of you that are watching me, I'm sorry I was gone so long. D:<
I've moved way to much again, and finally in a place again and I hope to stay here... for good!
*sigh* I'll be uploading some good photos, and some random ones, haha.


As for the MTV Movie Awards..
F**K YOU TWILIGHT!
Stupid people voted Twilight as Best Movie.
THE DARK KNIGHT IS WAY BETTER!
IT'S NOT FULL OF SPARKELY VAMPIRES!

But at least Heath Ledger won Best Villain.
RIP man, you where awesome.

~Signing off~
~SleeplessOne

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/20368374/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/20368374/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 03:26:59 PDT
YAAAAAAAAAY! I've got new Photos of SOMETHING finally! There will be more on the way of things around where I live and ect. I probably wont be going really anywhere, something is wrong with my mom's car. Its like WTF... ><

Oh well. Enjoy my photos.
OH! BY THE WAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!
The Sky View photos.
The mountain's in the background are Mass.

If any of you have any idea's of what I can do, lemme know
LOVES YOUUUU!


~Signing off~
~SleeplessOne

~SleeplessOne~TheDemonicJoker13


Pit Bull Petition(save them): [link]

RIP JD
And
Will

dA Family:
Lover: Jester

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters:

Brothers: ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/19922027/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/19922027/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 18:55:35 PDT STRONG LANGUAGE

As you can see, this is long.
But hey, hes a fucking loser anyway.
Name is Kolby
aim name is
kolbysdisturbed

PS: I'm Vanity The Clown
And Jester is Jester The Clown
Kolby is *|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life

Have fun!

*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: *cough * wussy* cough*
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life:
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: who you fuckin callin a wuss?!
.J4L. JesterTheClown13ҒŦĞ: uh oh
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life:
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: ummmm you
.J4L. JesterTheClown13ҒŦĞ: *hides behind a tree*
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: thats it mother fer
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: LOL
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: jester XD
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: *full blown hatchet attack*
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: Moves*
.J4L. JesterTheClown13ҒŦĞ: ooh
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: *grabs your shirt* whatcha gonna do no
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: now*
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: pulls out my hatchet saber
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: *chops*
Ichey: hacket hurricane
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: hanf off*
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: RUNDS*
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: bish please! that doesn't work
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: see! *grabs shirt again with SAME HAND*
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: i cut off your hand
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: nope, its holdin you
.J4L. JesterTheClown13ҒŦĞ: dont tessle with a down ninjette
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: tussle*
.J4L. JesterTheClown13ҒŦĞ: my bad
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: *LOL
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: Don't ever mess with this one Kolby, you already got a taste of what you got before
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: remember that phone call?
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: it wasnt that bad >>>
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: i just hung up
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: not right away
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: i was going to
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: but
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: who cares
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: you want full blown... come too me and you'll get it
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: this is why i dont even talk to you anymore
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: emo much?
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: don't even
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: you shouldnt talk about your self like that
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: peace out
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: Yeah sure
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: landy
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: emo bitch
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: awww your just mad that i aint talking to you ever again
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: you don't even consider yourself a juggalo dude
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: you said that before
.J4L. JesterTheClown13ҒŦĞ: I would say something but I think vanity got it
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: yeah, he blocked me on aim
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: i never said that
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: yes you did
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: oh okay
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: you called yourself an emo fat loser.
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: a while ago
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: LOL
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: I'd remember
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: wow
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: you wouldn't
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: you tried killing yourself too
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: so don't even
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: good picture of your self
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: picture of what
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: the loser part
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: you're just jealous cause Jester has me, and you don't
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: so fucking back off!
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: i dont care about you anymore
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: good for you
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: my life is moved on
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: good for you
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: I don't care
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: as for you and jester
.J4L.VanityTheClown.{ҒŦĞ}: Jester and I don't care.
*|Insenaiti|*juggalo-life: you can just go fall off a cliff and i wont care ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/18311386/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/18311386/ Tue, 13 May 2008 19:29:29 PDT
[link]

I went to this place May 2nd 2008, and it was a field trip with my school, I went last year and again this year. (dA is being slow, this it had taken at least 10 or more minutes to just type this! dA you better fix this!)
Anyway.
Well, I was with my friend Bryanna this year and we walked around and took photos.
Poor Cameron on the bus. HAHAHA!!!!!!! Snap shot, Scrapbook it!

there is like 135 or so photos. So yeah, it'll take me a few days to upload it all, and when dA isn't being so slow! (it froze again, 15 minutes later)

Anyway... 15 minutes later to type this.



This is an amazing place to take kids, Young kids, if you have any, it is in the southern part of my state in Conn. Mystic, CT

Uhm, I'm ending this, cause this is 30 minutes later to type this. WTF DeviantART!!!!!

~Signing off~
~SleeplessOne

~SleeplessOne~TheDemonicJoker13


Pit Bull Petition(save them): [link]

RIP JD
And
Will

dA Family:
Lover: Jester

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters:

Brothers: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/17654508/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 18:11:12 PDT
Who knows what tomorrow is?????????
Its my....*whispers* birthday.
*normal voice* OH JOY!
More punching at school tomorrow.
T^T
I don't wanna deal with that. I did last year and I got bruises on my arm. But oh well. Someone who did last year, isn't there anymore! YAY! xD
That hurt man, when he did that. 15 punches, now 16 this year. PLUS ONE FOR GOOD LUCK! NO THAAAAAANKSSSS.....

So who is gonna make me something for my birthday?
Cause if you do, you'll get a picture from me. ( I can't draw right now, cause my scanner wont work T^T) So, you'll get a photo. And you choose what type of photo. NO NUDITY!
I'll make a photo sign, or somethin. But nooooo nuuudityyyy.
Got it? cool.
So yeah, I'm 16 tomorrow. Yeah I know I don't look it, but I really am going to be 16. O_O;;;; haha... One of my good friends Kevyn is planning on beating the sh*t outta me. ><;; GREAAAT! I know he wont though, cause he knows he'll get payback. Its call. NUT SHOT!
ha, mess with a juggalette, hahaa. You'll lose.
But yeah.
Happy Early Birthday to me. X_X;
PS: I'll be writing a journal about my best friend who isn't alive anymore. That'll be later on.
edit: send me a note if you make me something
~Signing off~
~SleeplessOne

~SleeplessOne~TheDemonicJoker13


Pit Bull Petition(save them): [link]

RIP JD
And
Will

dA Family:
Lover: Jester

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters:

Brothers: ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/17465268/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/17465268/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 20:58:26 PDT Note: Remember this SIGN! The Pit Bulls.
[link]


<sup>Tagged by no one. Just did it cause I'm bored.
Stolen from my twin

1. What is your one FLAWLESS talent?:
Flawless Talent?
Err....Being Emo? hahahah JUST KIDDING. I don't think I have one, do I?

2. A new food/ tasty thing you have recently discovered:
Nothing. T^T

3. Name a few guilty pleasures you have:
haha, wouldn't you like to know..... And how many is a few to you?
Techno.

4.Something that has been bothering you lately:
A lot, and I can't talk about them

5. Something that made you happy recently:
Jester and nekoinvader

6. What are you listening to now, in terms of music? (if there is no music what did you listen to last?)
Draft Punk - Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger *techno*

7. On the subject of music, what kind of music seems to have peaked your interest lately:
Everything.

8. How often do use Japanese phrases?
Depends. Aishiteru... XD

9. What do you plan on doing with your life:
I want to defiantly do something with art, photography ect.

10. A burning passion you have:
meh, why you askinnnnnnnn? XD

11. Cutest couple you know here on DA!
Me and Jester. xD

12. Did you ever own a Neopets account, and if so what was your user name?
LotusQueen

Gotta rock my juggalette pride.

13. What do you think of when you look at a sunset?
Oooooo purdy.

14. What is one thing you have really been itching to do lately?
Leave this state.

15. What element would you consider yourself?
Lithium

16. Something that has made you very sad/ nervous:
Sad? A lot.
Nervous? A lot.

17. What is one thing you ALWAYS keep track of?
Nothing

18. Favorite number EVER!!!!
23

19. Do you consider yourself to be a genius in any field?
Err.... Idiot Field? Orrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....... Uh... yeah, idiot field.

20. A hobby you have that not everyone knows:
what don't people know?

21. The ideal age of a person is:
18 I CAN GET OUTTA HEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

22. Your room is...
Cluttered.
I love knick-knacks
Can't help it D<
And I'm a junky.

23. Describe your mood, now, in one word:
........

24. What do you think of fangirls?
Highly annoying.
If I see one more person named "InuyashaIsMyBabysDaddy" I swear. I'll pull out my hatchet.

25. Your favorite word/phrase:
Word? OWNED!
Phrase? We'll never die alone, juggalos will carry on, swing our hatchets if we must, each and everyone of us.

26. Your ideal place to be...?
Where my home is in IL.

27. What is your favorite reality TV show?
Something. The Hills are okay-ish-y

28. Something you have always hated with a fiery passion:
Overly Religious idiots, people that force things on you, people with no common sense. Anyone that treat animals like they are different than people *hence the pit bulls journal noted at top* D<

29. Any last words before you tag 3 people?
Boogie Woogie Waits Under Your Bed. o.o;

Tag time:
1.
2.

3.




And... YOU! Ha if you read it, you do it.


Quote: TECHNOLOGIC!
~Signing off~
~SleeplessOne

~SleeplessOne~TheDemonicJoker13

RIP JD http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/17401703/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 11:14:10 PDT
Go here to see photos. Help it make your mind.
[link]

Also, sign the petition you don't need to have your last name or address, just your first name, email and city you live in.

>>>> [link] <<<<

If you can't see the photo's let me know, my boyfriend made a video about this. I'll send you the link to that.

This is totally WRONG..

This is about California legislation being passed to exterminate pit bulls. If it passes in California, it could be on it's way to other states. Someone has to try to make a difference...what if it were your pet? It would be great if Myspace, YouTube, ect. could be used for something good other than getting dates. Please pass the word along and post this so as many people can see this as possible.

Please help this stop, it NEEDS to be stopped before it goes though..
Say NO to SB 861.



RIP JD

dA Family:
Lover: Jester

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters:

Brothers:

Mommy http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/17384683/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 18:12:53 PDT
Apparently I'm a freak. SWEEEEEET! Alright here is why I'm apparently a freak.

Before I start this journal, I have a chatroom.

[link]
And now to ranting
~~

Well, last night (march 16, 08) on fubar.com there is a lounge that is for people with dark thoughts or something... I don't remember, well, actually I don't care. Well, I got banned from the room. Why? Because I started defending my Juggalo Family. They started talkin shit in the room, so I defended. That is how I naturally am, I can't help it. Well, I get banned because of that. They don't like people who are down with the clown for life. Oh well, that is what my life is about. DOWN WITH THE CLOWN! And also on stickam.com (I have mentioned that before in a previous journal.) and what happened was when I was in this guys room, MatthewMatisfaction (yes that is what it is) There was someone in there who doesn't like Juggalo's or Juggalette's. Man, you wanna talk about already being defensive, I got to a whole new level with defensiveness. Me and my juggalo told that person off... XColorfulCrayonx. WTF IS THAT!? That is the person's name. Like WTF MAN! Are you gay or something. (not that I am a hater on gays and ect) BUT WTF! You're gonna talk shit with that type of name, comon dude, get a better name to talk shit with, seriously.

Then I was already live, and someone came in there and said. "You down with the clown?" I said "Yes, Yes I am." he said. "Gayyyyyy!" I went right to his name and banned him from my room, this guy doesn't even know me and yet he disses me. WTF IS THAT?!
Really.

That is pretty much my rant. I was getting so pissed off last night it wasn't funny. I swear if you could die from being really mad. I would've been dead already!

And since I'm a TRUE JUGGALETTE
You might see that my song is Boo Clan - The Juggalette Song.

I love it soooo much. <3 Why, cause they say in the song. "This song goes out to all of you Psychopathic Juggalette's" Thats why I love it.

There is something behind this song, where they told me I would be apart of the song.

Here is the song<3
[link]

Also if you go to their profile, you'll be able too see High In July video. It is... AWESOME!<3

But yeah. Over and out

VanityTheClown
aka
SleeplessOne

RIP JD

dA Family:
Lover: Jester

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters: ... ]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/17152909/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/17152909/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 16:53:25 PST
A fish?
No.

Barak Obama?
HELL NO!

Ummm...
Comon THINK!

OH I KNOW! A PUFFBALL!
NO!!!!!!!

MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

~~~~

YES TIS I! I AM BAAAAAAAAACK!

Yeah, I'm alive, don't worry about it now.
Don't worry about not showing up at the funeral, I'm alive.
..

I have changed a lot over the few months I've been gone. I moved so yeah, thats why I was gone. I'm not explaining the reason why. Personal stuff.

But yeah, because I've been gone for so long. Has anyone missed me?
Family have better missed me.
I know Alex aka My Twin aka *rinchan100 .. so yeah. When I got back online too MSN and AIM. Maaaaaaaaaaaan... I swear I had 50 IM's on both messengers.

....

But yeah, there is no new news really.
But there is something I'd love for you all too check out.

The person's name is Megan McCauley. She has this most awesome gothic outlook but she doesn't sound like it at all. But she is the shizznat!

Megan McCauley's album Better Than Blood is awesome, you should check her out.
<3
If you do, I'll love you forever. <3

Out for now.

OMG BEFORE I FORGET!!!!!

I got ahold of one of my friends from 2005!!!! He is on dA also. (I believe) I've been trying too find him since '05. And I finally did! I've talked too him a lot for the past few days since he called me. I've got the biggest smile on me face. I'm soooooo happy.

Now that I've found him again, I'm not ever gonna lose contact with him. It took me forever too find him again. Thank god for MSN on cellphones!...

Okay, now I'm done
Peace Out.
Homie Love,

SleeplessOne

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Quote:
Midnight workings, weather down the storyline
I try to find the truth between all the lies
When Bleeding is feeling and feeling ain't real
Will I see you when I open my eyes?
Will I see you when I open my eyes?
When Breathing's a burden we all have to bear
And trust is one thing we're taught never to share
Somehow you just seem to shine
When loving means breaking and saying goodbye

RIP JD

dA Family:
Lover: Jester

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/15305917/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 17:26:54 PDT Profanity in journal
Yes, it tis Halloween!!!

For all the creatures too roam the streets razorblades in candy bars and apples.

I was SUPPOSE TOO HAVE PICTURES... But nooooo..... Teacher wouldn't let me use his camera. T^T

Oh well.

Just too let you all know, my internet will be going out sometime soon, so I'm really sorry if I don't respond.

Man I've been listening too Forever by Papa Roach like.... for 5 or more hours. It reminds me of things and some people.

~~

School:

I got too school at like 7:20AM.... I AM NEVER THERE THAT EARLY!.... It sucked too get up so early.
Whatever, it was....sorta worth it.

I had that dress on as some of you know from my deviations you see me in that red lookin dress. I had that on, with my hoodie and face paint of a Juggalette. Talk about getting called a Poser today at school... Whatever, let them say what they wanna say. I don't care. I know what I am, and I'm proud of it.

There was mainly 5 people who thought it, maybe more -- but they never said anything. Someone tried too do that cough thing and say poser, like I CAN'T hear you... Fuckin idiot... Whatever, you're not a true friend, if any of us are posers in that school, its them. I know what I am. I can agree with a friend of mine and say that someone we both know IS a poser.

Why?

Because, since last year, she is dating this guy, and he is all gothic and stuff. Her style changed, her attitude changed. Everything about her did. All of a sudden she's like.... "Fuck you." Too a lot of people, accept certain people in her eyes.

I don't give a fuck anymore about what people say. It really pisses me off more then anything too hear the word "Poser". It's a stupid word in my opinion. The only reason why I had face paint on today was cause my guidance counselor wanted too see what I'd look like. So thats another reason I was at school early as hell.

I was going too take it off, but I said no and decided too keep it on all day at school till I got home. Talk about ITCHY!!!!

And the remarks I got all day, getting made fun of. My response was "I took off my mask for Halloween for you."

No one said anything after that, cause they knew it wasn't getting too me, but getting called a poser did. I wanted too leave the class, or beat them too a bloody pulp.
I shut up and did my work and waited for the end of class. I avoided them for the rest of the day. COULDN'T WAIT too get back home.

Right now it isn't bothering me, because I'm talking/typing about this and its getting out a lot of anger I guess you could say.

[I'm getting mad even typing this... stupid poser crap.]

In my lightest hours but in my darkest days -- things always happen the way they want too. Things will go bad or good. Depends? Ha!
No.

Because you've gotta think positive about things and more positive things will happen too you.

I've been doing that... Well, trying. It Isn't WORKING... Never has for a while for me. Maybe cause I'm afraid of things going wrong?
Maybe thats it. Oh well....

Anyway... I can't also wait too get out of this state I'm in. It sucks -- its like Hells Pit has arrived for like.. YEARS.... The only good things are -- nothing -- only good things out there are all in different states.
Justin is in Oregon
Jester is in Illinois
Mathew is in North Carolina
Matthew aka Princess Goat is in Florida
Alex aka My TWIIIN is also in Florida
Paul is in New York
Mike is in New Jersey
Barry is also in New Jersey
Juner is in Washington [[the state for you idiots out there]]
James is moving too Florida
Eb is in NH
James F is in NH
Rob is in California
Lexi my wife is in California [[hope you're okay from the fire if it was/is near you]]
Zach is in South Carolina
And there is like... A TON others.....

Every one of them, loves me for WHO I AM. Not WHAT I AM.
Oh well -- I don't care anymore.
I think I should end this.

See ya around
~SleeplessOne
Your .BeautifulNightmare.
[JuggaletteQueen]

Quote:
Because Days Come And Go, But Me Feelings For You Are Forever

RIP JD http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/15136783/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 23:36:27 PDT
Right now, I don't even care if you get his AIM
I'm Sliver he is d0nkey

I don't care what you do, but I've got plans for this mofoer.

PS: There Is Profanity In This Journal

Anywayyyyyyy Here is the convo on AIM;

d0nkeyshow: Actually. I've been a jackass and playing with you. I frankly don't like you. It was a joke that me and chelsea started and it got outta control. I'm gay I have a boyfriend and I don't like you. In any way shape or form. So whatever. I guess I won't talk to you later.
d0nkeyshow: Peace.
XSliverBullet0X: I figured as much. I knew it was a joke from all along, why do you think it didn't bother me
XSliverBullet0X: Right now
XSliverBullet0X: I'm happy you told the truth, that way I can get on with my life
XSliverBullet0X: Peace. Loserrrrrrrrrrr
d0nkeyshow: yea alright bye.
d0nkeyshow signed off at 2:01:25 AM.

I hit the warning button and blocked his stupid ass.
He has a lot coming too him, what goes around, comes back around baby.
Thats all I gotta say.
Just wait John... Just wait, your turn is coming around too bite you in the ass and it's gonna huuuurt.

Now, I know Jason and Kayla are reading this.[Remember them?]
So I might as well say "Hi, how are ya?"
Anyway. Right now, I've got no feelings in my body, nor can I see straight. Also its 2:18 in the damn morning.

And I'm watching Most Haunted and they are in the Sarah Winchester house. Apparently it is haunted. Been watching it since 9PM right now, its 2:20..ahh shit its 2:20.. can't look at clock for 2 minutes....

I got a problem with the numbers 21 and 22, and yet I type them. Don't even ask people. Don't.
Anyway this goes for 7 hours. So I got about 40somethin minutes left.

Anyway in other news. I'm moving by Nov-- 2:21. WTF!
Anyway--

Yeah, I'm moving by November 9th and I'll be closer too my friend Mathew that lives in Hickory, NC. -- 2:22. WTF MAN!
Writing journals doesn't help that much when time is on your hands.
God....Help me. XD

Anyway -- I'll also be closer too my friend Jason who lives in Kentucky. Annnnnnnnnd. I'll be closer too my twin Alex and our friend Matt aka Princess aka Princess Goat AKA.... Someone who never turns off their phone or TV when he is on the phone..

HAHA, I love you Matt. Call me sometime! XD JK, you've already called me a lot and I'm happy too talk too you again.
Okay, if any of you are confused. Here is a long story short with a lot missing.
Matt's mother is all forbidding us too talk. Cause he left someone for me.
That is understandable, but comon now. Matt's mom. Let the kid have a life, really. He is only 15! Hell, even I am 15 and I got a normal -- well. No one can ever say Normal, cause Normal isn't what you think it means.

Look it up people.
Anyway. With his mom, I was really furious with her. Cause of the whole thing where we couldn't talk. I finally got the damn idea and told him that he should call me with Alex on the phone, so if she wanted too know who he was talking too and didn't believe him, and wanted too know for herself. I'd shut up and let Alex talk. <3

Anyway. Well, we have started talking again. And it's awesome. <3 POINT BLANK IS IT TEH AWESOMENESSSSSSSSS.

Anyway, back too being sane, wait, since when am I sane?

haha, if you are people I talk too you know how I am. I'm never sane. I'm more.. Insane then anything XD.

To Jester:
BABY BOOOOOOOY!
To Juner:
Love ya hun, I'm always there for ya. And you know that
To Stoud:
haha, what would I do without ya babe? Really.
To Mathew[nc]: I loves yous my fuzzy wuzzy bear.
haha FIN.

Anyway -- I think I'll wrap this up, its kinda long. Long for me anywa its 2:34PM and I'm getting distracted.

Love you all <3

Quote:
"Popcorn pop's if you didn't know."

[Yes I know random]

~SleeplessOne
Your .BeautifulNightmare.
[JuggaletteQueen]

Quote:
"WC! Live Together! Die Together!"

RIP JD

dA Family:
Lover: -

Twin:

WIFE: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/15022063/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 21:40:40 PDT
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I gots love for my homies, members of the Lotus
United we stand, squashing all deadly forces
Been to hell, could of spent eternity there
All the bad shit I've done, I should still be there
Juggalos can ya feel me, feel me, worldwide, worldwide
Running with the hatchet straight out the Lotus Pod
Always got your back till end screaming juggalos
Dark lotus, psychopathic that's the way you go
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

So as the title may seem too be. "Juggalette Life?"
I don't have a Juggalo/lette family[yet]. Pretty much, mess with me. You mess with them.

Now I ask my friend Jester; "Why do you want me too be a Juggalette?"

This is what I got back.
~
R.I.P J.D-.Beautiful.Nightmare. says:
Why do you want me too be a Juggalette?
Jester says:
its up to u
~

Now, wtf.

Now I ask diffrent.
R.I.P J.D-.Beautiful.Nightmare. says:
But why are you training me.
R.I.P J.D-.Beautiful.Nightmare. says:
Well, so called "training me"
Jester says:
I dunno
Jester says:
do u want me to
R.I.P J.D-.Beautiful.Nightmare. says:
Is the only reason why you love me cause of how I act because all of this?
Jester says:
no
R.I.P J.D-.Beautiful.Nightmare. says:
Then seriously, why
Jester says:
why do I love u
Jester says:
bc ur personality
~~

Yes - that got off topic, but I can't seem too get it out of him about the whole thing with him wanting me too be a Juggalette.
Course, I know well enough about ICP/Dark Lotus to be one, I think.. I guess... o.O;;

And again
~
R.I.P J.D-.Beautiful.Nightmare. says:
Jester, I don't have a family. I probably wont even be adopted into one. How could that even be possible.
Jester says:
if u feel the power of the dark carnvil and if u understand it u are in the family
R.I.P J.D-.Beautiful.Nightmare. says:
What IS there too understand?
Jester says:
I cant explain it
~

Good enough for me I guess, right?
Ha, no.
I'll end up getting more out of him anyway.

As for the "And more" part

In 18 or so days, we lose the house and in we have till the 31st of Oct. then, we lose elecrticty. It sucks.
All I know is.

"I'll always have Juggalo/lette family"
MMFWCL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <33333333333
XD
Anyway, I'm ending this.
I'm tired and I'm gonna listen too some ICP/Dark Lotus before heading off too bed.

Every night before I go too bed. I listen too "Boogie Woogie Wu" by ICP. ha, I love that song. I could fall asleep too it. <3

Any of you out there a Juggalo/lette. This is for you.
"I pledge of allegiance to the hatchet of the Underground Juggalo Society and to the Ninjas for which it stands, One family under Clowns full of Freaks, with Faygo and Neden for all."
MMFWCL!!!!!!!!!

~SleeplessOne
Your .BeautifulNightmare.
[JuggaletteQueen]

Quote:
"WC! Live Together! Die Together!"

RIP JD

dA Family:
Lover: -

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/14829340/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 15:48:10 PDT
I just got back from the hospital around 5:30 - 6:00
and here it is 6:43PM

Man, I hate this. I can't walk right or sit. HA.
2 shots in the butt, 1 in the thigh, and one in the arm, causes me not too walk or sit.
Cat might have has rabies so, we didn't chance it cause we can't find the cat.
I started the shots today.
I got 5 more times too show up at the hospital too get one in the arm each time...
Ya know, I should be blonde. What I did was well... STUPID... Stupid enough too try and help a stray cat.

Riiight, not doing that again.
They made me wait 30 minutes after the shots... for a reaction

I'll keep you updated too all who care. <3

Quote:
"Still waiting for the rain too fall, pour real life down on me!"

~SleeplessOne~
RIP JD

dA Family:
Lover: -

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters:

Brothers:

Mommy

Daddy:

Uncle: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/14792275/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 20:08:18 PDT
Cat....

My friend and I got attacked by a cat she found and wanted to show me. So I take it into my arms, and got the shit scratched outta me It bit me and blood drew blood fucking cat, I got the worse of it, she only got a few scratches, I can't type right cause my arm and hand is wrapped up, got 8 scratches, there not like.. even that, there.. GASHES....


I got bit on the top of my hand (this all happened on my right hand/arm) Where the pinky knuckle is and the one where it'd be the ring finger on your left hand.

~~

And in other news......

Nothing really..

My NEW theam song is Daughtry - Over You
Cause of Brian...

He said he still loves me and ect.
BULLLLLLLSHNITTTTTTTTTT..

This other girl that he wanted to date asked him out, and I asked him if he was gonna date her. He's gonna.

I love this boy with everything I have. But I guess I shouldn't. Should I give up? Or keep fighting? Tell me.. Please... SOMEONE TELL ME.. PLEASE

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
How I feel right now..... T_T
.I.Can't.Believe.You.Where.The.One.Who.Walked.Away.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I got nothing really left too say, if you havn't heard the song, go look it up, I love it <3
~SleeplessOne~
RIP JD

dA Family:
Lover: -

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters:

Brothers: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/14717710/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 16:31:38 PDT
RIP JD - I Will Miss You <3

Story~
JD was going too California for his Aunt Kacey's furneral, she had died I believe in a head on crash. Wasn't her fault, the dude was drunk.

Anyway - JD got to Turlock, CA and the furneral wasn't for atleast a few days. So he was gonna be out late and stuff being around his friends. Being stupid sometimes. Like the normal stuff ya know?

Well, around 2:00AM there time, 5:00AM my time... I think.. o.o;

Anyway

Well, he was walking home from a friends house and someone ended up shooting him in the back, one shot, one kill.
T^T
We don't know if it was a drive by yet, because there was not marks on JD accept the gunshot.

JD was the best friend I could have ever had. I loved that kid with all my heart... He was always there for me, no matter what it was.

He was my crying shoulder. He only lived a few towns over or somethin and he would walk if he had too...
Just too make sure I was going too be alright.


Name: Jayden
Nickname: JD, JJ, Jay
D.O.B: October 20th, 1990
Age: 16 (when died)
D.O.D: September 19th, 2007
Favorite thing: (as he always puts on everything, even myself under Heros) My best friend ever, Samantha who lives near me, and loves me for who I am.
Eye Color: Blue-ish Hazel.
Hair Color: Black
Hair Style: Mohawk <3
Favorite Food: pepporni and meat pizza
Favorite Snack: Cookies, brownies, pretty much anything sweet
Favorite Music Styles: Metal, Death Metal, Rock, Alt., Alt Rock, Oldies [Woodstock type of music], Some Rap.
Favorite Songs: Tupac - Changes, LoveHateHero - Red Dress, These Silhouettes - London Bridges AND A TON MORE...

There is a lot more to tell about him, but it'll take like.. 3 hours worth of reading. HAHA, Don't think you'll want that.

In Memory of JD - I am making a character that has his name, DOB, ect.
I will find who killed him and kill that effer myself if I have too.
No one do they get away with murder when I'm around. I think I know who did it anyway.

JD's family asked me too pick a song for the furneral.
Tupac - Changes
[link]

~~~
Other things:
I'm loseing the internet ...AGAIN... FTW MAN. I only had it for like.. A few months, but that wasn't long enough... Meh.
~~~

~SleeplessOne~
RIP JD

dA Family:
Lover: -

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/14675113/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 14:56:12 PDT
Hey everyone. Not in such a good mood anymore ---
Brian left me
9-13-07 to 9-17-07

Didn't even last a week, and normally that doesn't hurt, but this time it does, this is someone I truly cared about, but now I do give up. I know where I'm moving and its official..

North Carolina.
Thats where Mathew is. I'm not going to Maine anymore... Why? Because if you dont remember Brian lives there.
And his name isn't even Brian, its Anthony Brian (last name)

I give up now. Why should I spent all my time dealing with people who are always gonna hurt me.

~~~~~~~

Me+Sam=Bebbies : P says:
Hey...
[P.O.Brian]-I.Turn.My.Tears.To.Roses says:
What happened too you
Me+Sam=Bebbies : P says:
I have to talk
Me+Sam=Bebbies : P says:
we have to talk
[P.O.Brian]-I.Turn.My.Tears.To.Roses says:
alright, I know where this is going... Your leaving me, blah blah blah...
Me+Sam=Bebbies : P says:
= /
[P.O.Brian]-I.Turn.My.Tears.To.Roses says:
why
Me+Sam=Bebbies : P says:
I just dont see us being together for much longer, I love you but the relationship just doesnt seem like its going anywhere, I cant joke around with you or just play with you. I just dont want to be in this relationship anymore.

~~~~~~~

I ended up telling him "If you did love me, you would try and stick though it."

I don't plan on talking too him, like I've probably said to many here before. I'm getting rid of whats hurting me...
So goodbye Brian. And hello to being single again... Which sucks, cause I hate the feeling of not having someone who loves me, be around.

Whatever
This is all I gotta say right now, I'm too pissed then anything. Haven't even cried yet. So whatever. For real..............

Quote: I Turn My Tears To Black Roses.
~SleeplessOne~

dA Family:
Lover: -

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters:

Brothers: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/14642069/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 09:10:57 PDT
~
Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is just waiting
To turn your tears to roses
~
Yes, the title IS right. I have met a new love. In which I am very happy to be with, he is the light of my day, no matter how I feel, he's always there for me. Hell, he has to get off the computer at 9PM for school, he stays on until I have to get off. Dedication. Big. Time. lol

But I love him for who he is.
Somethings about him.
Name: Brian
Age: 17
Birthday: August 9
Location: South Portland, ME (Maine)

As for me, for Mathew. Screw him.
I gave up on him, for the simple fact that he is still the same ass has he was before.
Oh well, I found someone who makes me a lot happier then Mathew EVER did...

Anyway.....

I'm still in the process of moving, I'm convincing my mom to go to Maine. AND YOU ALL KNOW WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY... lol

If that happens, haha. You might not even hear from me for a looooong time, but its okay. I will still be a deviant of deviantART.
I will still be posting art.
Ect ect ect....

But yea.
Brian

Quote:
Its Not The Size Of The Dog In The Fight, Its The Size Of The Fight In The Dog.

~~SleeplessOne~~
~
I will be the one that's gonna hold you
I will be the one that you run to
My love is a burning, consuming fire
~
PS: The random song verses in this journal is from the song I'm listening too.
dA Family:
Lover: Brian

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters:

Brothers: ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/14457326/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/14457326/ Sun, 02 Sep 2007 14:19:33 PDT To make a long story short..

I've known Mathew for about a year now, about a few months into knowing him, he fell for me. Don't know why. -- Well, I started to talk to him on the phone and he always told me the whole I Love You thing. and he was with another girl too, never told me. Once I found out, I literally got sick. Not Cool....
Once she left him - he came back too me - then not even a few days later he got with someone from stickam named Tasha. She just left him about Sunday [Aug 26] I think. While he went back too his home town, people who thought he was dead, saw him alive and went to finish the job, he tired to come where I am to get away, and he couldn't. So he is mad at his parents and everyone in his hometown. So now - I get the blunt end of things. His friend Todd got killed A few nights ago. And he was upset about it and took it pretty much out on me. Well, it sure as hell seems like it. So.. Whatever I guess. When I was in his live room just to make sure he was okay. I heard gun shots. T^T;;;

I typed in.
"I pray your playing a game."
About 10 or so minutes later - I guess. He replied with.
"Would be nice if it was a game, wouldn't it be."

Well, later on about 45 minutes later, Tasha came into the room, and kicked me. Like WTF man! I asked him why she did. He apparently had nothing too do with it.
He told me. "Its cause she doesn't like you and I don't know why."
Yeah yeah yeah, I've heard it all before. -- WHATEVER!

Right now. I know this for one thing.
I'm not planning on talking too him, he can't stand it if he doesn't talk too me, apparently... From what I've heard anyway.
Well, Its kinda hard for me not to talk to him. I always did, but hell. I'm damn well not gonna talk too him. My 3 friends Rob, Juner, and James. All told me not to talk to him anymore. Or at least for a while. They all said. "There is an 80% chance he will come crawling back too you."

So lets see if that happens... If he doesn't try to talk too me for about a week.. Or so, I don't think I will talk to him again.
He tries to talk to him. I might not even respond. Make him feel what he made me feel when he wouldn't ever talk too me.

Hell, this boy who is only 18 drinks till he passes out. His cousin Adam is there, what I believe is that Adam is old enough to buy it, and got it for the both of them, not too long ago.
Adam is only there for the rest of this week then he is moving to Las Vagas.
WHOO! Finally, no more I'm-Not-Going-To-Switch-Over-On-The-Other-Line-For-Whoever-
Is-Calling-Screw-You. Idiot either.

Well, thats pretty much my rant I guess you could say.

My saying:
I'm.Just.The.Lost.Empty.Silhouette.In.His.Window.
~~SleeplessOne~~
dA Family:
Lover: -

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/14326220/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 21:54:39 PDT
Ever hurt? Ever cry? Ever lost something or someone? ........
......
.....
....
.....
.
Ever cut/self harm?
....
If you ever have please listen to this song - link to video/song at end.

[link]

Please try and get help. I am here for you. I myself did, and it became an addiction. Depression is the leading cause..

Read some facts supported by TWLOHA (To Write Love On Her Arms)

It is estimated that 15% or roughly 17 million Americans suffer from depression.

It affects rich and poor, young and old, black and white.

2/3 are never treated.

They do not recognize the illness, and see it as a weakness or personality flaw.

Untreated depression is the most common cause of suicide.

In Australia, New Zealand and Japan, there are more suicides than murders.

Suicide is the third leading cause of death among young people.

Depression is treatable.

Cutting was very much a mystery until 1996 when Princess Diana admitted that she had struggled with it.

Self Injurers use physical pain as an attempt to calm or numb the psychological pain or stress. They injure the outside in an attempt to release the pain on the inside.

Self Injury is an attempt to stop the hurting, an attempt to be clean.

Self injurers and addicts seek the familiar, even if its pain. This is completely foreign to most people.

Self injurers believe pain is their only option, using greater external pain as a relief from the pain inside.

There is hope.


~Song~

[link]

Shes upset
Bad day
Heads for the dresser drawer to
drive her pain away
Nothing good can come of this.
She opens it theres nothing there
is only left over tears
Mom and dad had no right she screams
as the anger runs down both of her cheeks.

Then she closed her eyes
and found relief in a knife
the blood flows as she cries

All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Bite the lip just forget the bleeding

Curled up shes on the floor
relief left her she had hoped for something more
from it
He leans down to comfort her
She is weeping and He
wraps His arms around
and around and around and...
The deeper you cut
the deeper I hurt
The deeper you cut
it only gets worse

Now shes slowly opening...
new eyes...

Then she opened her eyes
and found relief through His life
and put down her knives

Then she opened her life
and found relief through His eyes
and put down
she put down her life.
~Between The Trees - The Way She Feels

dA Family:
Lover: -

Twin:

WIFE:

Sisters: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/14279439/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 21:22:04 PDT
Father's a name you haven't earned yet
You're just a child with a temper
Haven't you heard "Don't hit a lady"?
Kickin' your ass would be a pleasure
~Nickelback - Never Again


Hey everyone!!! Guess what?!? I've got the internet baaack! God, I missed everyone!

New News:
I am moving to North Carolina either in Asheville or Hickory.

Mathew lives in Hickory, so if I live there. I'll be around him a lot. Maybe... >.<

I have been writing a lot of poems. So I should be posting some soon - Maybe.

Nickelback - Never Again Awesome song -- LISTEN!


dA Family:
Lover: -

WIFE:

Sisters:

Brothers:

Mommy

Daddy:

Uncle: ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/13614398/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/13614398/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 23:29:47 PDT Just so you'd open it. It says that

Anyway...

I'm not going to be with Matt cause he never told me about this girl he was with for 3 months and found out a few days ago... I flipped out on him, I was like.. Half with him and didn't know about her. How rude right? xD

Whatever, I started talking to my friend John again from Ala-Teen here in CT.
And he wants me to call him later on. He apparently still has feelings for me, I have with him for a while, but lost them everytime I was with someone, Dont know why they would come back when I would become single.

Strange eh?
Anyway...

I shall be moving to another town or state..
Rockville, CT
[I'm only 30 minute drive from there]
Or Orlando, FL.. I wanna go to Florida, so I can see my buddie Bryan<3. Love that nerd. He's my nerd too. lol
I shouted it one day on stickam in YTC. lol
He turned red. It was cute!
Everyone was all "AWWWWW" in the room.

But anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy whenever I move I will make sure to make another journal and let you all know. My lovers you are. <3 lol. But not a few who watch me, who will remain unknown. =]

~Samantha~

dA Family:
Lover: -

WIFE:

Sisters:

Brothers:

Mommy http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/13261667/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 06:29:39 PDT
Hey everyone, long time no see. I guess you could say.
Anyone remember Jason? Remeber how I useto talk about him? Yea.... You all are gonna love this.

-
I was only with him for 5 months and out of the 3 he was with another girl. I had lost internet April 5. And since then, apparently, he thought I wasn't ever going to find out he was cheating on me. The idiot was stupid enough to post pictures of that ugly bitch Kayla. God, I feel sick everytime I gotta talk about this. Or even THEM... In general.... >>;; *shudder*
Anyway.........
Well, I was at my friend Elisa's house on April 30. And Some weird feeling told me to go to his myspace. So I did, looked at the top friends. This girl Kayla. Meh, had to problem cause I was dealing with cops with the relationship [if you really even wanna call it that] I had with him.
I saw within his pictures, holding on to some girl. I wasn't too happy about that. I knew he was hiding something from me anyway. I always know when guys are hiding something from me, but I ignor it everytime it happens. Just incase, you know?
Anyway... Elisa flipped out and yelled out
"CALL HIM NOW!"
So I did and she picked up the phone, I asked to speak to him and she asked who I was.
"His friend Sam, I'd like to speak to him please."
She replyed with "Well, he doesn't wanna talk to you."
Me: "And who are you?"
Her: "His girlfriend."
Me: "Girlfriend eh?"
Elisa: *grabs phone* "Your his girlfriend, no I'M his girlfriend!!!"

I busted out laughing and she told me to call back. So I did. No one picked up this time, I yelled into that idiot's voice mail, the only thing I can remember from that damn message is "You f*ck with me I f*ck with everything of yours!"

But yea, later that day before I went home. The mother called [her mother - what joy right?]
Well, one thing she didn't know about Jason was that he has hemophilia - [link]
And that he has Hep-C. That it one mistake you don't ever tell your girls mother, she flipped out and replyed with. "So my daughter has Hep-C now!?"
I said. "Yes ma'am." I wanted with laugh like... SOOOO BAD!!!!!!!!!! haha, I still laugh about it till this day.
Anyway...
I asked her how long they where together. "For three months." I thought back at the time 'April... March.... Febuary!' He was up here in Febuary. Remeber me talking about that? Yeah well... She also told me. "Shes 3 months pregnant with his child also."
Talk about wanting to laugh and get sick at the same time! XD

Well, I had his stuff that he gave too me. Its gone!!!!! So if your reading this. STOP CALLING ME ASKING FOR IT BACK... ITS GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God.... *sigh* So, anyway.

This guy Matt.... In North Carolina is moving up here soon. Why? Me. lol. Atleast I have someone I can truely TRUST. Unlink the others, I never really did.
We aren't together, but it seems like we are. There are always. 'I love you''s getting thrown around a lot.


But other then that. I'm doing good. Sorry this is so long... So much to type, there are probably things I left out. But hell, I don't care right now. XD

More might be added later on.
~Sam~
PS: My teacher got fired and there is only 2 weeks of school left. XD

dA Family:
Lover: Matt in NC

Sisters: ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/12339542/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/12339542/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 16:55:26 PDT How Retarded Are You?

Stolen from ~danyonkdazyuandy4b

[] I have walked into a glass/screen door.

[ ] I have tripped on my shoelace and fallen on my face. (No, but I have tripped on my shoelace XD)

[x] I have choked on my own spit.

[ ] I've seen the Matrix a bunch of times and still don't get it.

[ ] I type only with my pointer fingers.

[x ] I have accidentally caught something on fire. ( )

[ x] I attempted to sip out of a straw but it accidentally went into my nose, rather than my mouth. (Strange things happen when you are talking to someone XD)

[x] Sometimes when i think of something funny, i laugh out loud and people look at me weird.

[] I've caught myself drooling.

[] I've accidentally caused an explosion. ( I WIIIIISH!!!)

[ ] If someone says the word "fart", i cant help but laugh.

[ ] I've turned into a "do not enter" one way road plenty of times

[x] Sometimes i just. . . stop thinking & zone out. (You don't know the half of it, I have A.D.D)

[ ] It is POSSIBLE to lick your elbow.

[ ] I just tried to lick my elbow.

[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from me.

[ ] People often tell me to use my "inside voice". (I have one though )

[ x] Gum has fallen out of my mouth while talking.

[x] I've used my fingers to do simple math. (Who doesn't? XD)

[ ] I've jumped off a moving vehicle.

[ ] I ate a bug for $5 or less.

[ ] I'm taking this test when i should be doing something more important.

[ ] I repost chain letters because I'm scared of what they threaten will happen if i don't. (I ignore them >.> )

[ ] I've peed my pants when i was drunk.

[ ] I've ran around naked when i was drunk.

[ ] I've ran into a golf cart tire when i was drunk

[ x] I've searched all over the place for something, and then realized it was in my hand the whole time. (Agh! I despise those days >.< )

[ x] I accidentally break a lot of things. ( - a few people will not be named)

[ ] My friends know not to use big words around me. (I use big words around them XD It is fun to watch them say, What? Oo or Huh? Oo Mwahahaha! >8D)

[ ] My friends like me because im fun to laugh at.

[ x] I move my head to the side when im confused.

[x ] Sometimes i start telling a story and suddenly forget what im talking about.

[x ] I've fallen out of my chair before.

[ ] When im laying in bed, i sometimes stare at the ceiling and try to find pictures and words in the texture.

Total: 12

Once you get your answer multiply by three.

36% Retarded.

*signs off*
~SleeplessOnegen2teg~

dA Family:
Lover:

Sisters: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/12017434/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 17:52:50 PST Yup. I got that now. I can finally do some work I've been dying to do!

I have 28 trys left o.O okaaaaay...

As in the title. I have a stock account now.



Have fun!

I need to get pictures up. I know [[ifyoulooked]]

If you love me, you'll watch me there too
XD

Nothing else is really new...
Accept. Jason has a new car
Finally lol
Pretty much 2 months without a car. >>;;;

Sucks? Yes!

Erm, if you have any ideas what you would like to see in my stock.
ANYTHING..
One thing I wont do is nudity! If your looking for it, use another stock lol
Erm.
Anything but that.
Tell me, and I shall make a stock of it.
Erm... Try anyway.

*signs off*
~SleeplessOnegen2teg~

dA Family:
Lover:

Sisters:

Brothers:

Mommy

Daddy:

Uncle:

Nephew: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11931865/ Fri, 23 Feb 2007 08:07:54 PST Well...
There was only 1 entry for my contest. Everyone else... Backed out.

I seriously... GIVE UP. On either being here, or making contests....
The Only Entry
~Asamoya's Entry: [link]

I thank you for actually sticking though this and atleast making something. Everyone else. Never did...
Apparently, it seems to me, everyone is wanting to get my hopes up.
I shall never make another contest again. Last time I did. NO ONE entered. Who cares? No one. I do, cause I wasted my damn time waiting and waiting for someone to atleast enter.

Who gives a damn?
*.................*
Thought so...

Seriously... I might leave dA for a while or something. I give up.
I have NO IDEAS for anything anymore. I don't have a digital camera to do my photography that I LOVE to do....

Things I need... I can never have.

The only thing good lately... Is that Jason is still here till tommarrow.. (saturday) Then he is going to be going back home in Florida.
T______T
I WANT HIM TO STAAAAAAAAY!
I havn't been this happy before. I want to stay like this.
FRIIIIIICK!

*signs off*
~Sam</sup>

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11842703/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11842703/ Fri, 16 Feb 2007 13:26:19 PST If you havn't submitted your entrys yet, I suggest you do it. Tomarrow [Feb 17] Is the last day.

AND MAKE SURE YOU SEND ME A NOTE WITH YOUR ENTRY... Otherwise I wont get it.

I dont look at the deviations anymore, I end up with like... 1000 a day. So... I can't look though all of them just to find yours.
Mmk? Thanks

FIRST ENTRY! >;3
shweeeeet.
~Asamoya's Entry: [link]

ONE MORE DAAAAAAAAY!... For... Jason to be here.


dA Family:
Lover:

Sisters:

Brothers:

Mommy

Daddy:

Uncle:

Nephew:

Neice:

RIP Whitefeather [link]

Clubs I'm In:
http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11750683/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 17:48:04 PST FIRST ENTRY! >;3
shweeeeet.
~Asamoya's Entry: [link]

Comon guys. Not much longer. But like I said before. You need more time -- NOTE ME BEFORE THE CLOSEING DATE!!!!

Not to much time left. But there will be some extra time on it. Maybe about 9 or 8 days or so. Note me ahead of time before the ending date
Feb 17.
That you need extra time.
And remember its not THAT late to enter.
Info [link]


UNEASY!

<sup>Man... Things better start getting worked out with Jason and his "family" he has. He was adopted. My mom, Jason, and myself -- Cannot stand his mother. GOD FORBID SOMETHING DOESN'T GO HER WAAAAAAAAY!...
>>;;
Makes me sick to hear Jason get yelled at all the time.
Really... It does.
I'm uneasy cause I don't know whats going on with the rides from point A to point B... and so on and so forth... >>;
God forbid, I don't see Jason. I'll... DIE!
Really. I need my Jason-baby. LOL

No, but really. I need him here with me. I want him to live on his own cause I'm tired of his "mother" yelling at him all the god-forsaken-frickin-time!.... T^T Why In The WORLD Did He End Up With THEM!...
There not even a THEM.. There...a...uh... ><;;;;...
What are they!?... NOT EVEN HUMAN!...
I swear. Shes not even REAL.. She's this robotic mother that is programmed to frickin YELL all the god-forsaken-time!.....
His "father" doesn't seem.. that bad.
His brother Danny or Daniel. I don't really know him. But he seems to be okay.
I just HATE.. [[and you know how people say. "Hate is such a STRONG WOOOOORD!", well.. I HATE HER..]] his mother..... mother of all effers! WHY DOES HE NEED TO END UP LIVING THERE!
I can't wait until Jason has enough money to stay in an apartment for a while. Or atleast move up where I am in the town on Manchester, in the state of Connecticut!.. Least he would be faaaaaaaaar away from "them"...
I just keep on ranting.
The point:
I'm uneasy..worried.. whatever I can be to feel sick to my stomach. WORRIED... I dont know whats gonna happen. You guys will be kept posted. For all those who care.
~gen2teg~SleeplessOne</sup>

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11722715/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11722715/ Wed, 07 Feb 2007 13:16:31 PST GAH! Jason is gonna be here in 9 days!!!!
I want him here like... NOW.

ZOMG NO WAII IT IS ALMOST TIME!

just letting you all know I might not be on much cause of that

And I'm dying my hair....RED! VERY VERY VERY SOOOON!

Jason and I's songs:
Kill Hannah- Lips Like Morphine
Boys Like Girls - Thunder Acoustic
Britney Spears - Someday and Before The Goodbye
Within Temptation - Somewhere

And there is a toooooooooooon moooooooore.
But Lips Like Morphine is the #1 cause he dedicated the song too me.

And Someday makes him cry, and its to him cause I mean every word I sing.

CONTEST STUFF!
Not to much time left. But there will be some extra time on it. Maybe about 5 days or so. Note me ahead of time before the ending date
Feb 17.
That you need extra time.
And remember its not THAT late to enter.
Info [link]

~SamanthaJason~
gen2teg'sbabyforever.


PS: I want a kid. ><;;

Lyrics to the song.

Thunder Acoustic

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Yeah Im walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder


dA Family:
Lover: Jason

Sisters: http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11423959/ Mon, 05 Feb 2007 12:28:52 PST Edit: Comon people... Dont you actually read these things... I got only 2 people. >>; you all suck.

~~~~~~~~~~Edit2: BIIIIG EDIT!!!!
There has been a change, since Ive gotton a lot of people saying they can't draw anime. You can draw, whatever you'd like to.~~~~~~~~~~~

<sup>Its a contest to make an anime picture or whatever you'd like of your favorite character or characters from a show or more.

The most you can submit is 3 pictures if you'd like. Yes 3
So... In otherwords. You can make a picture, then make another, and another. But they HAVE TO be diffrent from the other(s) you've already made.

example:
Picture one: Inuyasha in a mirror looking back.
Picture two: Inuyasha looking into a mirror with a tear.
Picture three: Inuyasha breaking a mirror.

that sucked. But you get the point. Right? Yeah, thought so.

Any picture can be from any Anime show. Wether it be Inuyasha, FMA, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Futureama, Family Guy -- ANYTHING pretty much. HAHA, You get my point. I've made my point across already, as you know.
And it can be 1 or more characters
And 1 to 3 pictures.

Let me know if you are interested by sending me a note with the title "Contest".
Thank you for reading.
Deviantart is getting a little boring for me.

Starting: January 13, 07
Ending: Febuary 17, 07

So.. You pretty much have a month. There WILL be extra time if you need it.

I will keep making journals about this. So keep reading my journals.
I will be putting whoever is going to enter the contest here:
1.</sup>
2.
3.
4.

You will be added once you send me a note.
So. SEND SEND SEND!!!!

Mmk?
Alright. Well. This. Concludes. My. Contest. Journal. Entry. .
~SleeplessOne aka gen2teg'sbaby aka Samantha~
Samantha&Jason

dA Family:
Lover: Jason

Sisters:

Brothers: ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11411609/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11411609/ Fri, 12 Jan 2007 15:20:09 PST I...Found A New Band!
Band Name: Boys Like Girls
like...zomg! ><;;

THERE AWESOME!

here is the song I'm listening to;
It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside
Then you need to get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And its so so real
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie

You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart all locked down
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded.

this is like, teh awesomeness.


Here is the link to where there songs are.
[link]
LISTEN TO HERO/HEROINE!
Dance Hall Drug is good too. ^_^.
ZOMG!
Jason is coming up here Feb. 17th. O___O;;
I never made a journal about that.
Well. he. is. and. I'm. happy. don't. down. me. please.
~gen2teg'sbaby~

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11379583/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11379583/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 19:31:20 PST FreakAnthony: sam
Samantha AKA Vanity: you ok?
FreakAnthony: im fine
Samantha AKA Vanity: you sure?
FreakAnthony: yes
Samantha AKA Vanity: we havn't talked in a while
FreakAnthony: i just cant handle the drama
FreakAnthony: so im out
Samantha AKA Vanity: wait, what do you mean?
FreakAnthony: im out sam
FreakAnthony: i had enough
Samantha AKA Vanity: what are you talking about?
FreakAnthony: us\
FreakAnthony: im over it
Samantha AKA Vanity: what the hell did I do?
FreakAnthony: nothing
Samantha AKA Vanity: and your leaveing me cause I did nothing?
FreakAnthony: its just the stress it brings me
FreakAnthony: no1 did anything
FreakAnthony: its just over
Samantha AKA Vanity: fine
FreakAnthony: if you wanna hate me thats your desition
Samantha AKA Vanity: I did nothing to you, for you to act like this
FreakAnthony: act like this?
Samantha AKA Vanity: What drama?

then he left

I don't care that he left me, I have a better person then he'd ever be. Anthony was just this Canadian boy who wanted to fuck me, Jason on the other hand isn't like that at all. I could love Jason more then I could ever Anthony.
I don't care anymore. Good-bye Anthony HELLO Jason

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11273345/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11273345/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 11:04:26 PST [link]
IF YOU LIVE IN THE BRANDON/TAMPA FLORIDA AREA LOOK FOR THAT CAR! EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW IS IN THAT FORUM!!!!!

PLEASE LOOK FOR MY FRIEND JASON'S CAR! IF YOU ARE IN THAT AREA, OR IN THE STATE OF FLORIDA!
Missing time: 10:30PM ish to now

And in other news.. Happy New Year!




~`~Sam~`~

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11186239/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11186239/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 09:12:19 PST
Caaaaaaaaaaaaause................

I opened everything last night, cause of Kita, she would have torn everything, maybe. She tired last year. ><
xD

I FIANLLY got, Halo for Xbox!!!
gaaah! I can't get though The Silent Cartographer... >< T_T I WANNA GET PAST IT!!!! xDD
Edit: I GOT THOUGH!!!!!

But yeah, what happen with you this Christmas? Or whatever you celebrate.
Tell me what you got, what you wanted and didn't get and maybe getting for your birthday or next Christmas. Keeeeeeeeeeeeeeep Hopeing! XD

~SleeplessOne

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11143475/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11143475/ Thu, 21 Dec 2006 20:33:41 PST Anthony...
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
do you want to be with me?
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
You know I do
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
then where together
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
Do you want that
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
yes
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
i love you
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
I love you too
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
good night
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
night
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
where do you live?
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
as in address? or state or what?
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
everything
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
*********
Manchester, CT
*********
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
ct?
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
CT = Connecticut
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
ok
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
yup
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
ill dream of you
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
night
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
Night
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
start writing poa on you hand again
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
okay
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
put it on your stickam
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
and msn
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:

Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
ok
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
does that bother you?
Vanity-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
no
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
do you like it?
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
What? the POA thing?
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
yea
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
I always do it
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
I love it
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
to*
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:
good
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vains, you know my name says:


Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-I Know I'll Die For You, But Will You Die For Me? says:
hehe
FreakAnthony- he wants to kill you, are you willing to die? the coldest blood runs threw my vain... ]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11116864/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11116864/ Tue, 19 Dec 2006 13:41:16 PST
I talked to Anthony and he says he still loves me, I sorta don't believe it, cause what the hell posessed him to leave me and yet say he still loves me. It doesn't work that way... As far as I'm consurned, yes.

And Anthony had also told me that it might be a good idea to go to rehab, I need help for this, I know I do. I'm tired of having this pain I've got to deal with until I heal.

There has been so much going on though my life, my alter ego is back. It was forever since I last cut until this happened to me.

One of my guidence councelors (sp?) I trusted her, thats why I always went to her if something was wrong, now I dont trust her, nor the other one at the school. They are both going to hear it from me if I even GO TO school tommarrow. I can no longer trust anyone in my school. They both are making things worse for me, I've now got to deal with both my parents knowing. I HATE this.... I've delt with so much, now I gotta deal with it more, and more.. and MORE!

Why the HELL does this have to happen to me and not some other person in the world, WHY ME?! Really... why... the....hell...me!

~SleeplessOne.
PS: If you see that I havn't been on dA for a long time, it's probably because I have either;
1. Gone to rehab
2. Not on the computer cause of my mom
or
3. Both of the things together.

~SleeplessOne

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11097395/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11097395/ Sun, 17 Dec 2006 17:46:10 PST cya
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
oh sure, now you talk
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
why arnt you talking I told you last night this isn't fair to me
FreakAnthony says:
i know
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
do you know how long we've been together
FreakAnthony says:
i hear you think im useing you
FreakAnthony says:
is that true?
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
No
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
When you were watching porn it made me think that
FreakAnthony says:
did you ever say that?
FreakAnthony says:
that im useing you
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
I always said "I feel like I'm being used"
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
let me guess, your in Red's room, right
FreakAnthony says:
yes
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
And thats also old news
FreakAnthony says:
shes my friend
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
your point
FreakAnthony says:
baby
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
I know she is
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
baby what?
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
what were you gonna say
FreakAnthony says:
its too much now
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
Anthony.
FreakAnthony says:
no sam
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
What are you talking about
FreakAnthony says:
i need a break up its killing me on the inside
FreakAnthony says:
dont you feel it too?
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
I dont want to talk to you again
FreakAnthony says:
then dont
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
Wtf have I done
FreakAnthony says:
but alweays remember
FreakAnthony says:
i still like you
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
If you did, you wouldn't do this
FreakAnthony says:
it was just too much
FreakAnthony says:
if you dont wanna talk to me then dont
FreakAnthony says:
but that your disition
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
Anthony, listen to me
FreakAnthony says:
what?
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
This is why... I want you to talk to me about things, then this wouldn't happen
Vanity-[[P.O.A]]-3YearsToWait says:
I'm sorry for ruining your life
FreakAnthony says:
im sorry for ruinning yours'
FreakAnthony says:
because is untouched
Vanity says:
you didn't ruin mine
FreakAnthony says:
then no 1 ruinned anyones
FreakAnthony says:
good bye sam
Vanity says:
Red made you do this, didn't she
FreakAnthony says:
no
Vanity says:
Anthony, what really made you do this
FreakAnthony says:
sam
FreakAnthony says:
argh
FreakAnthony says:
its me
Vanity says:
what?
Vanity says:
No
Vanity says:
How is it you
FreakAnthony says:
cause i cant take this enymore
FreakAnthony says:
its over sam
Vanity says:
Metal was right, I was going to regret doing what I did
FreakAnthony says:
regret?
Vanity says:
do you know what it means?
FreakAnthony says:
what ever
FreakAnthony says:
dont wanna talk to me
Vanity says:
I was just asking a question, dont get all mad
FreakAnthony says:
then i dont wanna talk to you



I think I'm gonna not be on here again, my life, is over. I am now gone..

Good bye

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11083132/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/11083132/ Sat, 16 Dec 2006 11:19:31 PST I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

*sighs* I dont know what to do. I'm afraid that Anthony and I wont last long. He's been ignoring me, doing 'other stuff' around the house. We never get to talk anymore, whenever something is bothering him, I ask for him to talk about it with me, that I can help him. Pretty much not to long ago [[few days]] he told me to get the fuck outta his face.
My friend Sam in the UK he has told me not to cut, just to hold an icecub in your hand, the ice melts and so does the pain. That doesn't work to well for me. So I went back to Mr. Razorblade, and Anthony knows it's cause of him, and the way everything is between us, is the reason, I have started up again. I don't want to, but there is nothing I can do, there is pretty much NO ONE I can talk to. I got my friend Eric, but he's not around 27/7/365 so, I try to hold out. Doesn't work, he is afraid that I will get to hurt and die. I believe that Anthony is afraid of that too, but.......... He's gonna end up saying it's his fault why I'd be gone.
The thing is, it's not going to be. It'll be my fault, I was the one who went back to cutting myself open again, I am the one letting everything get to me... Again...
I just wish, everything was the way it was before when we first went out. Him talking to me, telling me if something was bothering him.
Now it's like 'now that I got her, I'm not gonna lose her by ignoring her and ect' or SOMETHING like that.
I dont know what to do anymore, I'm lost inside and numb all over. I'm scared that I'll go to far, and die. Thats something I DON'T want/need to be in the hospital for, or be in a mental house and never be home again.
Eric, is helping me a lot, and I'm greatful for that. I love him for that, I'm glad I met him, I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have him to talk too.
The song I am listening to Plumb - Cut is a song about cutting [hence the name of the song]
here is a link to the video:
[link]

Enjoy.

~~
On a brighter note, I made a YT video!!!!
You can find it here:
[link]
Its a One World video, if there was anything you could write on your hand, what would it be. There doesn't need to be a reason why.
I need ideas to make more YT videos! GAH! Help me!
~~
I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10961289/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10961289/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 14:25:49 PST

1: Favorite game that's considered import?
Import?

2: Favorite NON-Imported game?
o.O

3: NEXT game to get is...?
HALO

4: Next SYSTEM to get is...?
>>;

5: What's gonna be your favorite Wii game?
I'm not getting a Wii... so shot me.

6: Favorite PC game?
Runescape

7: Favorite polygonal-graphics PC game?
O.o?

8: How many games do you currently own?
a ton

9: What's your favorite system?
Xbox

10: Can you read the imports (assuming the import is from Japan)?
Nope

11: Do you have any pre-game playing rituals?
Nope

12: What about online games? You play ANY of those?
Runescape

13: Do you record your video game playing?
Nope, dont know how ;-;

14: We're almost done, okay?
almost? xD

I tag--Whoever read this

DONT FORGET [link] [sXePhil.com] and [link] [Protect-A-Dog.com]



]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10924232/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10924232/ Sat, 02 Dec 2006 11:21:25 PST Me and Phil would love it if you went to:
[link] (sXePhil.com) and clicked on the 4 ad's below to help raise money to help my friend Phil, get his new camera! Hes up over $100.00's right now not much over but somewhat. He is trying to reach his money too $300.00's.

Everyday go there and click the 4 ad's
Thanks
Samantha And Phil [he would love it]


~~On ANOTHER note again~~
Every police doesn't want there dog to die, now do they? No? Didn't think so.
PLEASE donate if you can to [link] (Protect-A-Dog.com)

Everyone in my school is helping to raise money to buy a lot of 400$ bullet proof vests for the dogs.
PLEASE donate if you can, every dog and policeman is counting on you.

I dont think YOU want too see them die. --If you do then your stupid and don't belong in this world.--

~SamanthaAnthony~

PS: DOOOONATEEEEEE [link] (Protect-A-Dog.com)

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10912851/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10912851/ Fri, 01 Dec 2006 12:16:37 PST Every police doesn't want there dog to die, now do they? No? Didn't think so.
PLEASE donate if you can to [link] (Protect-A-Dog.com)

Everyone in my school is helping to raise money to buy a lot of 400$ bullet proof vests for the dogs.
PLEASE donate if you can, every dog and policeman is counting on you.

I dont think YOU want too see them die. If you do -- Then your stupid and don't belong in this world.--

Now on another note.
Everything is great between me and Anthony.
Hes a TON better then any other guy I've had.


~SamanthaAnthony~

PS: DOOOONATEEEEEE [link] (Protect-A-Dog.com)

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10884480/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10884480/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 21:15:43 PST WARNING: This journal contains a lot of bad language, you have been warned.


This is fucking stupid My now "so called" friend Ashe from stickam.com has a problem with Anthony. Now me and Anthony where in YouTubeChat, and it turned into "lets trash talk about Ashe." Well... His little bitch he has wrapped around his finger called Emo. (go figure) I know told him what was said and shit. I don't give a fuck. God damnit, she doesn't know anything about me nor Anthony.... She shouldn't say jack shit about it.
Now..... For the worst part.
The stuff I sent to Anthony.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


Before you go and read this. Ashe sent me an inbox message. Now, I don't want you doing anything about this. JUST LEAVE IT. Please, I dont need this to become a bigger thing. For my sake, I deal with this enough.


Ashe wrote:

"Are you and "Freak Anthony" have an issue with me then you can tell me i know that lil bitch has an issue and to be honest i dont care that he does but ill be damned if i am going to be talked about because that lil coward hasn't got the guts.Whatever your issue is with me then do your self the favor and just say it....Dont be a hypocrit."





Now..... This is with me and Nikki.

Before you read this, let me explain something.

The "was he talking to you?" was to me, cause he called you a little bitch.

I KNOW she agrees with me, atleast I think she does. It seems like it.



YouTubeCh...: was he talking to you?
Samantha AKA Biohazard: yea
Samantha AKA Biohazard: This is stupid Nikki. Since he hates Anthony so much, he doesn't need to say anything about him,
YouTubeChat: I know.... I about to SNAP
Samantha AKA Biohazard: Are you mad at me?
Samantha AKA Biohazard: about anything with this?
YouTubeChat: I'm fucking mad at Ashe
Samantha AKA Biohazard: Cause of whats going on
Samantha AKA Biohazard: I'm pissed off cause if he hates him so much, why talk about him
Samantha AKA Biohazard: Am I right or wrong?
YouTubeChat: I'm not getting into this.
YouTubeChat: not one bit
Samantha AKA Biohazard: I'm just asking a question is all
YouTubeChat: I'm sorry I can't comment
Samantha AKA Biohazard: Thats all I wanted to know. Thanks

Samantha AKA Biohazard: Thats all I need to know.


Anthony, I love you.... Please..PLEASE don't get into this, I dont need a fight between the one I love and a "so called" friend I have

If he hates you like he says he does. He wouldn't be saying anything to you.

I love you,
Samantha.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Now, I know you all think this is as stupid as I think.
Honestly, if Ashe hates him soooo much, why talk about him? Am I right or wrong? TELL ME.
-->Ashe<--me.
THATS SAD... I want to kill him I hate him so much right now. Stupid dumbshit god damn mother fucker

BTW, The movie Armageddon, is AWESOME.
Here are some links to watch from the movie.

[link]
[link]
[link]

ENJOY!
~ILoveAnthony~~Samantha~~

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10871970/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10871970/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 19:03:03 PST

Hes the only one who isn't an asshole to me, who isn't a stalker. Annnnnnnd, whatever else there is out there.

Hes someone who cares about me. More then the others hes like... 200% the others.. 50%...... HOW SAD IS THAT!?

Sad.. I know.. oh well. Sooo... I havn't been on dA a lot cause I'm on [link] sooo... I havn't been on here much.

my profile there: [link]

If it says privite, it's cause I'm talking to Anthony.

Soooooo.. Yea, also if its not on. I'm in YouTubeChat
link: [link]

But yea..

FreakAnthony

See yas around.
PEACE!

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10822575/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10822575/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 11:42:36 PST

Sisters:

Brothers:

Mommy

Daddy:

Uncle:

RIP Whitefeather [link]

Clubs I'm In:


[[All for now]]

Also, HAPPY THANKSGIVING to all who celebrate it. ^_^
I wont be doing much for Thanksgiving, I'll probably be talking to my friend Ashe that lives in Ohio. I feel bad for him... His "signifagent" (sp?) other is leaving him home alone on Thanksgiving so she can see her family. Her family doesn't seem to like him very much. Sooo, I had asked.
"Why dont you go to NJ to see your family Ashe. I know you want to."
he replyed
"I wish I could hun, but theres stuff that you need to remind me to tell you once your live again. So we can talk about it."

I honestly feel like going to his house for Thanksgiving, but I know I can't and if I could. It'd be to late.

I hope EVERYONE has a great Thanksgiving and is thankful for what they have in life.
I'll be spending mine getting yelled at probably, and talking to Ashe.



]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10802610/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10802610/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 16:55:34 PST
LOS ANGELES - A camera phone captured a UCLA student being shot with a stun gun by a police officer after he allegedly refused repeated requests to show his student identification and would not leave a campus library, university police said Wednesday.

The incident occurred about 11 p.m. Tuesday after police did a routine check of student ID at the Powell Library computer lab.

"This is a long-standing library policy to ensure the safety of students during the late-night hours," said UCLA Police Department spokeswoman Nancy Greenstein.

She said police tried to escort Mostafa Tabatabainejad, 23, out of the library after he refused to provide ID and would not leave.

Tabatabainejad, who was arrested for resisting and obstructing a police officer, was later released on his own recognizance.

"As the officers attempted to escort him out, he went limp and continued to refuse to cooperate with officers or leave the building," Greenstein said.

Instead, Greenstein said, Tabatabainejad encouraged others at the library to join his resistance. When a crowd began to gather the police used the stun gun on him.

The arrest was captured on another student's camera phone and showed Tabatabainejad screaming while on the floor of the computer lab. The video also showed the student shouting, "Here's your Patriot Act, here's your ... abuse of power," according to the campus newspaper, the Daily Bruin.

There is no phone listing for Tabatabainejad and neither he nor his attorney could be located for comment.

Video Of Proof: [link]

My friend Geolie made a discussion about it.
Here is the link to that.
Video: [link]

That is a must watch to understand why the kid could not stand up.

This all happened on November 16. 06

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10761936/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10761936/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 00:41:47 PST No..
"A mexican?"
"No.."
"A cat?"
"No... Getting warmer."
"A fish?"
"God no.."
"A...A......Uh....."
"COMON!! THINK!!!"
"Kita?"
"HELL YES!"
GAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!! Shes back!!!!!!!! OMFG You dont know how happy I am right now.
I am crying cause I'm so happy to have her back in this house and in my sight! GAH!!!
Thank you to anyone who gave prayers....
God.. Thank you!


How she came home:
My dad went outside said.
"Kita Comon Girl.."
AND SHE WALKED RIGHT IN THE FREAKING HOUSE!!!!!!

OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG!!!
I couldn't believe it when I saw her..... I was all.
"OMFG NO WAII!!!"......"KITA?!?!?!"

Well.. I'm out. I'm gonna sleep and Kita is already crashed after 5 1/2 hours outside... Alone...

Ttyl Byeeeeee
Kita

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10761393/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10761393/ Fri, 17 Nov 2006 22:56:01 PST
We have tried EVERYTHING to get her back in this house.
Nothing is working.

Shes getting closer and closer eachtime... T_T

NOTHING IS WORKING


Pray for me. Even if you dont know me... Even if you hate me.... NO MATTER WHAT pray for Kita to come back

Kita: [link]

PS: My mood wont change... Damn thing... its gonna be
or any other REALLY sad emoticon there is.

~PRAY~

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10695221/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10695221/ Sat, 11 Nov 2006 22:31:58 PST
I love my buddies there like[[starting witht he guys]]:
Ashe
Stoud
Bryan
Euchre
Iceflow
Geolie
Ben
Matt
Demonickal
Jerome
Jay
Colt
Brock
Jason
Marphous
Nate
Migg

[[Girls]]
Vanilla
Krys
Kitty Queen
Dee
Gemma

Now I know there is name that don't make scence... Thats cause its there names on stickam.com...SOOO...DEAL!

Also, I know there isn't a lot of girls, its cause since i'm so called "hot" and what have you on stickam guys come in more and more.. >_>
oh well
I love them! There awesome!

Everyone there is awesome

PS: I love no one.

]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10661372/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10661372/ Wed, 08 Nov 2006 17:02:15 PST Gah! Donnie is the best! I wanna meet him, he's so cool!

link to the ending of the movie: [link]

PS: 28.06.42.12
PSS: If you dont know what that means its means this.
28 days, 06 hours, 42 minutes, 12 seconds until the worlds end.
[[its in the movie]]

PSSS: I love him


]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10628090/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10628090/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 17:33:53 PST Ah, it's that what you hurts, which you'll have to live with...
Ah, this tight embrace, and this burning, unchanged heart.
In this ever changing time, love will never change.

Will you hold my heart? Stop flowing tears.
Again, all of my heart is broken....

Forever love, forever dream
Only flowing emotions,bury this intense,
trying, meaningless times.
Oh tell me why ... all I see is blue in my heart.

Will you stay with me? Wait until after the wind passes,
all my tears are still flowing...

Forever love, forever dream Stay with me like this.
Hold my trembling heart in the dawn.
Oh stay with me...

Ah, everything good seems to be ending,
in this unending night.
Ah, what else would you lose if nothing at all matters.

Forever love, forever dream, stay with me like this.
Hold my trembling heart in the dawn.

Oh will you stay with me... Until the wind passes,
stay with me again.

Forever love, forever dream, I'll never walk this path.
Oh tell me why, tell me true, teach me how to live.
Forever love, forever dream, within flowing tears
Bright seasons will forever change again and again ....
forever love...
~X Japan - Forever Love

hide [[pronounced - hee-dee]]
Hideto Matsumoto was born December 13, 1964 in Yokosuka, Japan) he was a Visual Kei / J-Rock musician.
After achieving stardom as a guitarist in the influential japanese group X Japan, hide also took part in the mainly American populated collaboration Zilch. Hide enjoyed additional success as a solo artist, in which he provided his own vocals in addition to songwriting and playing guitar. He also organized and creatively managed the group hide with Spread Beaver.

Hide died on May 2, 1998. After a night of drinking, hide was found the next day strangled by a towel hanging from a doorknob. Although police declared his death to be suicide, friends and fans alike have openly disputed this claim.

The hide museum in Yokosuka was posthumously constructed in hide’s honor. It opened on the second anniversary of his death on May 2, 2000. The museum featured many of his costumes, guitars, and personal possessions. The hide museum closed on September 25, 2005 due to the lack of funds.

Background information
Birth name Hideto Matsumoto
Born: December 13, 1964
Origin: Yokosuka, Japan
Genre(s): J-Pop
J-Rock
Visual kei
Punk rock
Rock
Occupation(s): Singer-songwriter, guitarist
Instrument(s): Vocals
Chorus
Guitar
Years active: 1980 - 1998
Label(s): Sony Records
Associated
acts: X Japan
hide with Spread Beaver
Zilch
Saver Tiger
Hes name also doesn't have an "H" its "h"
R.I.P hide.

Website: [link]
The song Forever Love: [link]
hide died a year after this gig.
Hes the one with the pink hair. BTW.
Picture of hide: [link]
[link]
[link] < He loved his pink hair.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
But.................. Other then that, here is what my list is for the future for the "when I get a job and have money" list. XD

1. Save up for - A plane ticket to see Lex.
2. ------------- - A hotel in the Netherlands to stay in.
3. ------------- - An iPOD.
4. ------------- - A Laptop.
5. ------------- - Avenged Sevenfold and Zacky Vengeance Merchandice.
6. ------------- - Subscription on dA.
7. ------------- - Concert tickets to see A7X!
8. ------------- - A digital camera
9. -------------- - Pink Hair Dye. [[12.99]]

PS: I love him


]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10595030/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10595030/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 15:40:42 PST w< Anywho that's all for now.

List, list: >w<
1. Wrath
2. Pride
3. Envy
4. Greed
5. Gluttony
6. Lust
7. Sloth
8. Hope
9. Faith
10. Charity
11. Fortitude
12. Justice
13. Temperance
14. Prudence
15. Sleep
16. Sadness
17. Two minds
18. Hazy shades of winter
19. Fly me to the moon
20. Heaven
21. Hell
22. Love
23. Hate
24. Evil
25. Happiness
26. In the storm
27. Alone
28. Can you see me?
29. Sorry
30. Cry
31. Drugs
32. Truth
33. Bleed
34. Alive
35. Loser
36. Reincarnation
37. Rebirth
38. Odds
39. Lady Luck
40. Soul
41. Support
42. Karma
43. Summer Rain
44. Dance
45. Gift
46. Iris
47. Fact of life
48. Touch
49. In the heat of the night
50. Madly
51. Life
52. Heart
53. Leaving
54. Fading Like a flower
55. Trance
56. Hero
57. Empty
58. Nothing matters
59. Eye
60. Take me or leave me
61. Clearly
62. Falling
63. Eclipse
64. Miracle
65. Flame
66. Candy
67. In my head
68. Losing my religion
69. Imposable
70. Dawn
71. Death
72. Waters
73. Tears
74. Family
75. Pretend
76. Song
77. Kitten
78. Night
79. Day
80. Garden
81. Broken hearted
82. Believe
83. Supernatural
84. Lost
85. Purgatory
86. Light
87. Dark
88. Home
89. Delicious
90. Revenge
91. Reaper
92. Solitude
93. Overdoes
94. Friends
95. Freeze
96. Can’t stand the sound
97. Nightlight
98. Cute
99. Dream
100. Under-Construction

I'mma try it. Let's see how far I get.

But.................. Other then that, here is what my list is for the future for the "when I get a job and have money" list. XD

1. Save up for - A plane ticket to see Lex.
2. ------------- - A hotel in the Netherlands to stay in.
3. ------------- - An iPOD.
4. ------------- - A Laptop.
5. ------------- - Avenged Sevenfold and Zacky Vengeance Merchandice.
6. ------------- - Subscription on dA.
7. ------------- - Concert tickets to see A7X!
8. ------------- - A digital camera
9. -------------- - Pink Hair Dye. [[12.99]]

PS:
I love him


]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10585617/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10585617/ Wed, 01 Nov 2006 18:12:11 PST
Eb BETTER love me for this, I'm doing it for my sake and mine, cause I wanna be able to do that for once, and be diffrent

But.................. Other then that, here is what my list is for the future for the "when I get a job and have money" list. XD

1. Save up for - A plane ticket to see Lex.
2. ------------- - A hotel in the Netherlands to stay in.
3. ------------- - An iPOD.
4. ------------- - A Laptop.
5. ------------- - Avenged Sevenfold and Zacky Vengeance Merchandice.
6. ------------- - Subscription on dA.
7. ------------- - Concert tickets to see A7X!
8. ------------- - A digital camera
9. -------------- - Pink Hair Dye. [[12.99]]



]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10550936/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10550936/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 16:57:31 PST
DO YOU LIKE WAFFLES?
YEA WE LIKE WAFFLES!

DO YOU LIKE PANCAKES?
YEA WE LIKE PANCAKES!

DO YOU LIKE FRENCH TOAST?
YEA WE LIKE FRENCH TOAST

DO DO DO DO DO DO DO
CAN'T GET ENOUGH WAFFLES!!!!!

.....


Anyway, I was actually drunk/high earlier.. just ask I was on mic and cam with him. XD He hasn't laughed that hard in forever! I LOVE IT! HAHAHHA........... I'm guessing if I dont take my meds for my jaw, I get all high/drunk... >_< oh well

But.................. Other then that, here is what my list is for the future for the "when I get a job and have money" list. XD

1. Save up for - A plane ticket to see Lex.
2. ------------- - A hotel in the Netherlands to stay in.
3. ------------- - An iPOD.
4. ------------- - A Laptop.
5. ------------- - Avenged Sevenfold and Zacky Vengeance Merchandice.
6. ------------- - Subscription on dA.
7. ------------- - Concert tickets to see A7X!
8. ------------- - A digital camera


~SleeplessOne~


]]> ~SleeplessOne http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10541814/ http://SleeplessOne.deviantart.com/journal/10541814/ Sat, 28 Oct 2006 20:59:51 PDT gotta take it. So I can't feel pain or it be tight. GUESS WHAT... It makes my jaw feel all painy and tight like.. >< ... and I gotta take it every 8 hours.. I dont I do when I wake up and when I go to bed.

Cause when I wake up it hurts, so when I take it then, it goes away a little then at night before I go to bed it hurts sooooooooo bad >< >< >< I feel like taken a chainsaw and putting it to my jaw.. Wait.. No.. NEVER, I dont wanna die and not live with my baby Lex <3 =]|[= So... Yea......

But I thank everyone who is watching me, thank you all for the support on my artwork and ect.



I'm bored right now, I might as well go play RuneScape.. Or somethin, I'm THAT bored, course when I play that there is nothing to do. Ahh.. screw it, I'm not playing. I will tomarrow.. When I talk to Lex <3...

*sigh* Its almost time for school again, and the clocks go back an hour! OMFG! NOOOOO, I lose an hour of sleep. ><

So... Yeah, I will still keep you updated on my jaw, for thoes of you who care.

LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!

~Samantha™



lookit my song. >< lol

]]> ~SleeplessOne