http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:SonOfDamascus&section=today deviantART RSS for by:SonOfDamascus en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 03:07:17 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/28411393/ http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/28411393/ Tue, 17 Nov 2009 10:30:54 PST But either way I’ve got to
Wake up to face another day tomorrow morning
You could love me or not
But either way I’ve got the sunrise looking in my eyes
And i know i could love you or not
But either way you’ve got to
Wake up to face another day tomorrow morning

I’m not getting used to my new solitude
I’ve still got a photo in my wallet of you
I’ve got to stop my self
From picking up the phone and just calling you
I’ve got to keep my emotions together and forever
So don’t be afraid
I can’t erase memories with the actions i seize
And I can not erase your smiles and your eyes
With your hair in the breeze
And the only way for me to move on
Is to write it in a song that life goes on
And I’m kicked off this earth
With no one to hold its getting cold and my chest hurts
You could love me or not…
What will the world bring?

You’ve got to be strong
Your story goes on and on
Even though our page is gone
Cos theirs a world out there
And even though it aint fair
You’ve got to not be scared cos i swear
I’ll always be true to you
Forgetting your smiles and eyes i could never do
Your love is skin deep with me
You could never be replaced
Even though you know my heart is free
Don’t be afraid….

By: DubFx
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Well, i'm back.
basic training didn't go as it planned.

but i'm back either way.
living at home again
but working on getting a job and moving out soon.

apparently life has decided to pull a 180.
because for weeks after being back, girls didn't pay attention to me at all.
but now i have like almost 8 different dates planned.
and i have no idea where it's all gonna go but like i said in my last journal.

im just going with the flow.
whatever happens, happens.
i don't expect much out of life other than for it to be there when i wake up.
but hey, as depressing as that sounds its a good feeling.

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apparently while i was gone i reached 7000+ views.
so that's pretty bad ass.

either way, im glad to be back.
and i will definitely be working on getting some more photos up.
i did a skate shoot the other day, so you might see some of those soon.
provided i stop being lazy and sort through them.


~Colton S. Cairns~

]]> ~SonOfDamascus http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/24452766/ http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/24452766/ Sun, 26 Apr 2009 19:42:16 PDT
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That is the premise i live by,
its a stupid movie quote, i know.
but it works for me.
i have given up trying.
i have stopped trying to be what everyone wants me to be.
and i have begun to just go with the flow.
choose what works for me,
as i go along.

a friend has once told me that i was tyler durden.
in a way, she was right.
and in others, she was wrong.
it's up to everyone else to figure out which is what.

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i am an odd teenager,
i lack an identity crisis.

you know why?
because now, i just don't give a fuck.
i intend on putting as much effort and heart.
into anything i do.
but what happens to it from there.
i could care less.

right now i'm one of those people
that will paint a masterpiece.
and then when i'm done.
burn it.

that's where i am.

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i've spent too much time worrying about my love life.
there's that one person, that i'll always wonder about.
and i'm coming to the realization. that i'll only ever get to wonder.
because she doesn't really want it anymore.
she says it, but i know her unlike any other.
and she's losing what she had.
my stupid clairvoyance couldn't see that this would happen.
and yet it could.

whatever.
maybe i've been spending too much of my time toked lately.
i'm going to finish what needs to be done here.
and move on.

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Dom

]]> ~SonOfDamascus http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/23855667/ http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/23855667/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 19:04:07 PDT The void that cries through you
Relive the pictures that have come to pass
For now we stand alone
The world is lost and blown
And we are flesh and blood disintegrate
With no more to hate

Is it bright where you are
And Have the people changed
Does it make you happy you're so strange
And in your darkest hour
I hold secrets flame
We can watch the world devoured in its pain

Delivered from the blast
The last of a line of lasts
The pale princess of a palace cracked
And now the kingdom comes
Crashing down undone
And I am a master of a nothing place
Of recoil and grace

Is it bright where you are
And Have the people changed
Does it make you happy you're so strange
And in your darkest hour
I hold secrets flame
We can watch the world devoured in its pain

Time has stopped before us
The sky cannot ignore us
No one can separate us
For we are all that is left
The echo bounces off me
The shadow lost beside me
There's no more need to pretend
Cause now I can begin again

Is it bright where you are
And Have the people changed
Does it make you happy you're so strange
And in your darkest hour
I hold secrets flame
We can watch the world devoured in its pain
Strange
Strange
Strange
(strange)
(strange)

By; Smashing Pumpkins

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So, My 18th birthday was february 25th.

and instantly, i have underage girls flocking to me.
all wanting to date me.

where as a month or two before hand.
i didn't even exist.

although one girl does stand out in the crowd.
we won't get into that.

fuck my life.

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other than that, not much has happened.

i actually just spend the last while.
looking through my old journals.
the ones i kept.

and it's funny how your priorities shift so drastically.

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it sucks, because everyone in my life lately.
has been moving on, without me.
even my best friend, and ex-(whatever we were).
has moved on.
and basically isn't sure if she loves me anymore.

i mean, we were so in love.
but i've gone from thought #1 to barely there at all.
and i know that it's life.
but it still fuckin sucks.
considering that it's happening to me.
with every one of my friends.
simultaneously.

i'm being left behind for whatever life they want to live.
and so be it i guess.
not like i'll really be able to see them all the time.
considering the army and all.

im not even sure if i'd want some of them at my funeral if i die overseas.
because its basically every day that i think about what i've left to do before i go.
and before i die.
and before i leave.

i just don't have enough time really.
not enough at all.

i have no idea why i'm spilling all this crap.
but i need to i guess.
before i just fucking disappear into the nothingness.

whatever tho.

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Oh, and i finally reached 6000 Views.

woot.

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Colton.

]]> ~SonOfDamascus http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/23047615/ http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/23047615/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 19:23:40 PST But you can make it up next time
I know she knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying
Maybe she thinks I know something
Maybe maybe she thinks its fine
Maybe she knows something I don't
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one NO not no one
Likes to be let down

I know she loves the sunrise
No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes
And I know that when she said she's gonna try
Well it might not work because of other ties and
I know she usually has some other ties
And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em
Maybe she'll help me to untie this but
Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie to you.

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down
It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go

The harder that you try baby, the further you'll fall
Even with all the money in the whole wide world
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me by

Everything you know about me now baby you gonna have to change
You gonna have to call it by a brand new name
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Just like a tree down by the water baby I shall not move
Even after all the silly things you do
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

By; Jack Johnson.
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so. my finger wasn't broken.
just sprained.
still hurt like a bitch tho.


Ive posted some new stuff.
check it out.
especially the writing.
i wannna know what you think about them.

so. i'm single.
i don't want to be.
but i am.
and every possible/potential.
doesn't work out.

i'm at the point of desperation.
and the funny thing is.
i never... ever. had to work at getting a girlfriend.
never. and now, it's the hardest thing ever.
harder than my senior research paper.

but it's whatever i guess.
i'm meant to be single right now.
i just want to have someone to say goodbye to
when i leave for boot camp.
know what i mean?

__________________
~Colton S. Cairns~
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]]> ~SonOfDamascus http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/19937899/ http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/19937899/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 16:10:54 PDT Sometimes I never want to see you again
But I want you to know, after all these years
You're still the one I want whisperin' in my ear

You're still the one -- I want to talk to in bed
Still the one -- that turns my head
We're still having fun, and you're still the one

I looked at your face every day
But I never saw it 'til I went away
When winter came, I just wanted to go (wanted to go)
Deep in the desert, I longed for the snow

You're still the one -- that makes me laugh
Still the one -- that's my better half
We're still having fun, and you're still the one
You're still the one -- that makes me strong
Still the one -- I want to take along
We're still having fun, and you're still the one (yes you are)

Changing, our love is going gold
Even though we grow old, it grows new

You're still the one -- that I love to touch
Still the one -- and I can't get enough
We're still having fun, and you're still the one

You're still the one -- who can scratch my itch
Still the one -- and I wouldn't switch
We're still having fun, and you're still the one
You are still the one -- that makes me shout
Still the one -- that I dream about
We're still having fun, and you're still the one
You're still the one, yeah still the one
We're still having fun, and you're still the one

"Still The One" ~Orleans~

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So, i get back and have like 400 deviations waiting for me. so thats fun.

i also have news that my ex is starting to do drugs.

and my best friend got hurt.

so yeah. i leave, and in two weeks, my world goes to hell.

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So Now i have to fly around the country, kick some peoples ass. give my friend a huge hug. stay with her for a while. (i already intended on doing this, just not the kicking ass part, thats new :smile: )

I have to make sure my ex doesn't destroy her life. but apparently she is going to stop, but i'm not entirely sure i believe her. so i have to keep an eye and ear out for that.

and my best guy friend, is completely lost with nothing to do, but feel sorry for himself, because he misses his girl, who he hasn't seen in like over a week. (i know that isn't much, but it is for these two) so he's trying to pass the time. and im gonna help him out.

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Also, im considering joining the army. and going into military intelligence (oxymoron i know). so there's that.

and senior pictures are tomorrow.

So thats my life.

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oh... btw... WOOT!!! 5k!!

Love
~Dom

]]> ~SonOfDamascus http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/17231702/ http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/17231702/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 21:26:01 PST Tell me, when it's over

Hey you, big mood
Guide me, to shelter
'cause i'm through
When the two
Hits the six
And it's summer (cloud)

Come - shove it, shove it, shove it
Shove - shove it, shove it, shove it
The sun - shove it, shove it, shove it
Aside - shove it aside

I think god is moving its tongue
There's no crowds in the streets, and no sun

(in my own summer)

The shade, is a tool
A device, a saviour
See i try, and look up
To the sky, but my eyes burn (cloud)

Come - shove it, shove it, shove it
Shove - shove it, shove it, shove it
The sun - shove it, shove it, shove it
Aside - shove it aside

Come - shove it, shove it, shove it
Shove - shove it, shove it, shove it
The sun - shove it, shove it, shove it
Aside - shove it aside

I think god is moving its tongue
There's no crowds in the streets, and no sun

In my, own, summer

Come - shove it, shove it, shove it
Shove - shove it, shove it, shove it
The sun - shove it, shove it, shove it
Aside - shove it aside

My Own Summer - Deftones

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So March 16 Marks My 1 Year Mark!!!
Annnnnndddddd
The Other Day I Hit 4K!!!

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So At my school i have quite a few fans of my work, and possibly a couple models...

but i have yet to hear from them, so whatever.
i would like to get my portrait work in.
but its alright.

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So the whole deal of my girlfriend cheating on me is over, if you didn't know, im still with her, (not that you guys entirely care but im letting you know anyways) i would like to get my photography outh there more, but i really dont have many ways.

im thinking about applying to a skating magazine. but im not sure if any of them would take me. at all.
considering im only 17, but maybe when i move to Cali or Florida, i will be able to.

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I'd love to talk more, but i really don't want to bore you with the tiring banter of my life.

"I GOT BLISTERS ON ME FINGERS!!"

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With Love
~Cole~ A.K.A. 'SOD'

]]> ~SonOfDamascus http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/15879221/ http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/15879221/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 15:35:35 PST all the way across town
You've been searching for that someone,
and it's me out on the prowl
As you sit around feeling sorry for yourself
Well, don't get lonely now
And dry your whining eyes
I'm just roaming for the moment
Sleazin' my back yard so don't get so uptight
you been thinking about ditching me

No time to search the world around
Cause you know where I'll be found
When I come around

I heard it all before
So don't knock down my door
I'm a loser and a user so I don't need no accuser
to try and slag me down because I know you're right
So go do what you like
Make sure you do it wise
You may find out that your self-doubt means nothing
was ever there

You can't go forcing something if it's just
not right

No time to search the world around
Cause you know where I'll be found
When I come around
When I come around

No time to search the world around
Cause you know where I'll be found
When I come around
When I come around
When I come around
When I come around

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So I Just Looked and Im A 3k Views, holy crap, i think im either getting popular. or people just feel pity on me XD.

Either Way.

One Good Thing That Has Happened To Me At Least.

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Christmas is only 15 Days Away, and thats not too far. but its going to be a long 15 days. considering my recent luck. or Anti-Luck.

I Really Hope Things Get Better.

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Thank You All For Your Support So Far.

]]> ~SonOfDamascus http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/14860844/ http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/14860844/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 18:21:55 PDT And you made your lonely calls
You just might wear your welcome out
If you don’t let it go
There’s nothing that you couldn’t say
Cuz you’ve said it all before
I think it’s time you walked this lonely road
all on your own
It’s your cold day in the sun
Looks like your bleeding heart has already won
I wish I could take it away
And save you from yourself
You get so lost inside your head Like no one
else Are you looking for someone to blame?
Did you blame me all along?
You’ll take the heat
But you would never take the fall

It’s your cold day in the sun
Looks like your bleeding heart has already won

You’re so afraid that you are the only one
You are the only one
You know

Don’t be afraid cuz you’re not the only one
You’re not the only one
I know

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2K VIEWS, THIS IS CRAZY!!

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am i really that good?

]]> ~SonOfDamascus http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/13380793/ http://SonOfDamascus.deviantart.com/journal/13380793/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 12:32:27 PDT
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Im too ecited and busy to put a song theme along with this one...

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Take that Ii-chan, took me only a few months to get 1k views...

how long did it take you?
lol

just messin with you..

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thanks to those who got me all my 1000 views!!!

]]> ~SonOfDamascus