http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:SpAzZnaticShuRIken&section=today deviantART RSS for by:SpAzZnaticShuRIken en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 00:06:17 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/21162900/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/21162900/ Sat, 25 Oct 2008 22:01:16 PDT
And I've come to realize... that not everyone is going to have my back as much as they used to back int he day and I'm going to have to start REALLY fending for myself here soon.

But the more this video gets put out, DOWNLOADED and thrown up on other websites, the better.

If any of you know people big in commercials, companies, anything that could help me start my career as a stunt man, martial artist, traceur, freerunner, w/e... please show them this video, this is making big part one... and i'm DREAMING BIG, AND I'M GOING TO GO BIG, otherwise... I'M GOING HOME TO START OVER.

Thanx for those who considered this and passed on the video to their friends or posted it in their journals... the following is the video message Ive been sending around.

NEW SAMPLER VIDEO IS UP!!! [link] DLsWMoRHAzA SPREAD IT AROUND! MY FUTURE DEPENDS ON IT

NOTE! on the link where it says ...watch?v= DLs... when u put that in the URL box, erase the space between for the real link tpo show, otherwise it'd just be a in the middle of a link.

OR JUST GO TO YOUTUBE.COM N SEARCH

Epic 2008 Sampler

Check out these people!!



]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/19638270/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/19638270/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 09:14:43 PDT KSDK News Channel 5 at 3PM & 10:30PM So check it out those of you in St. Louis, or close by.... and for thsoe of you far away... hit up KSDK.COM and find the article yourselves after 3PM tomorrow. ^_^ Hope yall watch n enjoy... I'm excited!

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/18413078/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/18413078/ Tue, 20 May 2008 10:29:29 PDT
The bolded items are the ones I want the most.

XBOX 360 Webcam [link]

A WIRELESS KEYBOARD (VIA USB) [link] (ALSO I DON'T WANT ONE WITH A MOUSE, JUST THE KEYBOARD WITH THE USB COMPATIBLE WIRELESS ANTENNAE) or A MESSENGER KIT for the xbox 360 [link]

2 or 3 Wireless XBOX 360 Controllers [link]

DragonBall Z: Burst Limit [link]

Ninja Gaiden 2 (Releases June 3rd) [XBOX 360] [link]

Halo 3 [[link]

Call of Duty 4 [XBOX 360] [link]

A laptop (WITH AS MUCH GB OF MEMORY U CARE TO BUY and preferrebly WINDOWS VISTA)

A CREATIVE ZEN VISION: W It's an MP3 player compatible with many files, and it's like a widescreen mp3 player as well. [link]roduct=15752 If you can't find this one when go ahead n search for the CREATIVE ZEN VISION: M [link]roduct=14331

I'd also like a new camera, one for pictures... easy to use, one where u can change the shutter speed, the lighting, and auto and manual focus on the lens, and digital with memory card and easy to import to a computer.

AND A KEYBOARD PIANO, MAYBE ONE AROUND THE $300-$500 DEAL, Cuz I love keyboards... piano is soo much fun.

If the links mess up, let me know and I'll try n find the link I used and send it to u, as for the ITEMS WITHOUT LINKS, THOSE ITEMS YOU CAN JUST FIND ON UR OWN USING THE TRAITS I GAVE U. ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/18124023/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/18124023/ Thu, 01 May 2008 20:02:03 PDT [link] TRICKset 7 IS OUT!!
CHECK US OUT!!



]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/17175801/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/17175801/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 06:48:37 PST
THIS SUMMER JUNE 26-29th there's the HURRICANE TRICKSTERS GATHERING...
Gathering Info

Date: June 26 - June 29

IMPORTANT INFO, WE WILL ONLY BE PICKING UP TRICKERZ FROM THE FORT LAUDERDALE AIRPORT THIS YEAR. AIRPORT CODE FLL AND PLEASE TRY TO ARRIVE NO LATER THAN 8PM AS WE HAVE AN EVENT PLANNED ALREADY THAT SAME EVENING AT 9PM!!


Gathering Cost is $150 which includes breakfast all 4 days, BBQ Lunch for 2 days, Session costs, T-shirt, and Gas

BRING YOUR OWN SLEEPING BAG AND PILLOW!!

Download this form:
[link]

Fill it out and either mail it to the address provided on the form, or e-mail the form to hurricane5tricksterz@yahoo.com!!


IF YOU MAIL THE FORM BY MAIL, YOU NEED TO INCLUDE A CHECK FOR $150 PAYABLE TO DANIEL GRAHAM

IF YOU CHOOSE TO E-MAIL THE FORM TO HURRICANE5TRICKSTERZ@YAHOO.COM, YOU MUST PAY THROUGH PAYPAL NOW, IF WE DO NOT RECEIVE YOUR PAYMENT WITHIN 10 DAYS OF RECEIVING YOUR REGISTRATION FORM, YOUR FORM WILL BE THROWN AWAY!!

PAY FOR THE GATHERING AT

[link]

YOU WILL SEE THE PAYPAL BUTTON

ITENERARY

Thursday, June 26 -
Arrival pick no later than 8 pm
9pm to 10pm - Registered Battles Pro and Amateur Divisions
PRIZE MONEY **$1000** TO THE WINNER OF THE PRO DIVISION
10pm to 1am Midnight Madness Session

Friday June 27 -
Wake up call 9am and breakfast provided.
10:30am leave to Quiet Waters Park -
Grass Session, BBQ (included), More Sessions, and Ski Rixen.
Ski Rixen is $18 for one hour and
$23 for two hours and so forth,.
For more information about what Ski Rixen is, visit: [link]

After Park Session Optional Seminars Session (included)
Hans - Creativity
Dan Perez - Both Sides
Sammy Vasquez - Power and Agility
Marc Canonizado - Flow
Daniel Graham - Kicks
Kyle McClean - Flips
Anis Chuefra - Spins and Twists
Open Gym Session

Saturday, June 28 -
Wake up call - 9am and Breakfast provided
10:30am SOUTH BEACH - Grass and Beach Session, Beach Fun, Chill, BBQ (provided)
Night - Chill, Las Olas/Miami Beach

Sunday, June 29 -
Photo ops and Goodbyes
Last Session, Puzzle Mats

More TBA and Itenerary is SUBJECT TO CHANGE WITHOUT NOTICE!!



Attending:
Hans Wikkeling
Ryan Rempher
Stephen Renney
GDong
Kyle McClean
Dan Perez
Nick Vail
Anis Chuefra
Brahim A.
Sebastian C
Steve Miller
Sammy Vasquez
Marc Canonizado

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/16871005/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/16871005/ Wed, 13 Feb 2008 20:29:17 PST
[link] THERE'S THE LINK if that don't work hitup youtube.com and search TRICKset 6 and ull find it byt he user Epic1

But yeah through the years I been getting so much better looking back at some old videos, there's still some things I need work on but I've REALLY improved, and not jsut me but the ENTIRE TRICKset CREW!!! I'm hella hyped cuz of it all, I released 6 and within an HOUR it has 97 VIEWS! so we gettin' up there!!

I wanna thank my supporters and yall fans who been influencing me n motivating. Mom, you've always been the perfect fan, and grandma u come next, cuz as much as I never come out to see yall, aint never a day that goes by I don't think of yall.

ANyways, help promote us, we have t-shirts u can order if u want. Take good care everyone and for my FELLOW TRICKSTERS.... DREAM ON, TRICKON OR DON'T FUCKING TRICK AT ALL!!!!!

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/15750432/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/15750432/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 13:47:13 PST
Expensive Stuff

XBOX 360 Arcade (BEST BUY)
Creative ZEN Vision W (WAL MART)
HP - Special Edition Pavilion Laptop with Intel® Centrino® Duo - Ceramic White (BEST BUY)
Canon PowerShot S3 IS (BEST BUY)

Cheap stuff

Two pairs of SILVER XMA NUNCHAKUS (CENTURY MARTIAL ARTS)
3 Handcarved Burnt Spiral escrimas (CENTURY MARTIAL ARTS)
Muay Thai Shields (CENTURY MARTIAL ARTS)
XMA Bo staff (CENTURY MARTIAL ARTS)
NINJA STABI SHOES! (Not sure)

So yeah that's my XMAS list... if ur feeling into the season, and have some extra money and wouldnt mind... go for it. I'm happy with what I have now, so if u want, u can just send money if u can't figure out what to buy. Just don't expect anything in return cuz the money I get in my job is limited. Well, u SHOULDNT expect anything anyways... it's the GIVING season, and evne tho u GET WHAT U GIVE... -lol- At least I AM ABLE TO BE HAPPY EVEN IF I DON'T GET JACK POOPIE for xmas.-lol-

Take care everyone... love peace n chicken grease, and merry birthdays. ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/14443810/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/14443810/ Sat, 01 Sep 2007 16:05:28 PDT
Grr.

1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged.

*I can be upside dizzown in the midizzair!!!

*I fucking heart biscuits.

*I don't want a girlfriend even though I have one?

*I AM ASIAN IN THE PANTS!!! Or am I?

*I want to run away for a weekend, without a trace, and show up when the weekend's over. Just for the adventure and experience.

*I eat sausage and eggs with syrup.

*I play a funky game with the lines on the highway with my toes.

*I get mind orgasmic when I hear good music. (Mainly trance and salsa)

Unfortunate Ones:


SOoo yeeaaazum!!! How yall izm!?!?! hahah. It's been a while... good times, bad times, boring times, exciting times, hahaha its all the same... life is good. Can't believe its september and my last journal was 8 days before my last birthday! MY MY being 18 is a hassle. Nope... i"m not in college... they dont got a college for people like me unless I go into digital art, but I'll prob. just learnt he same shizm that I already know. So yeahh... uhh... I'm not gonna bore yall with ym life... I've met some real cool people lately, she knows who she is. LIBEREZ!!! ahaah Nicole and I are fine. Bacon is the new cheese... chinese food is so good it has its own category and dominoes has the best pizza... NO SHUT UR FUCKING MOUTH!!!! DOMINOES IS THE BEST... FUCK ALL U WHO OPPOSE ME!!! hahahaha. Anyways.... yeah ima head off ehre now cuz i only made an entry cuz my mom tagged me.... BAH!!! And now I gotta tag other pplz!!!! hahaha.... SO eyah if u wanna know more, dont be dumb.. all u gotta do is ask.


By everyone, LOVE PEACE AND CHICKEN GREASE.... NITEY NITE KEEP UR BUTTHOLE TIGHT.... and Ninjas are better than Pirates!!! HANDS DOWN GAME VOER DONT U FUCKING ARGUE WITH ME OR I WILL UNFRIEND U FOR BEING A PIRATE!!!!!

Poop on ur chest!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/13270882/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/13270882/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 21:24:01 PDT
Hahah anyways, things are good, but for starters I'd like to help give recognition to the following people.


All them are nifty ppl in my life, some I barely know but had good times with... hahaha some actually mean something, and others I think about here n there.-lol-

Life
Well this chapter has been pretty good so far....
PASSIONS
Photoshop: Well as u can see my photoshop is getting better a little bit... I haven't done much power stuff cuz, well... I haven't finished a comic that i've been working on... hahaha SO MANY FRAMES and I'm so close to finishing, I just gotta get off my ass. Hahahah.

Video Editing: This portion is new and fun, finally I'm learning how to use Adobe Premier Pro... and my newest video is coming out pretty well too!! ^_^ I'm excited to finish it...

TRICKING: OH YEAH TRICKING IS AWESOME, got a new video out... hellz yeah, comment this page asking me for the vid link n i'll find it for you. But yeah, talking to a celebrity tricker named HANS WIKKELING... cool character, def. look forward to meeting him sometime. He's givin' me some pointers to help get me where I wanna go. Also I've been tricking so much lately... kickin' it with friends, teaching experimenting and watching videos!!! ahhaha... BY THE WAY OPEN GYM OPENS UP AGAIN NEXT WEEK SO I GET TO GO ALLLL OUT!!!!

Romance: This era is fine... it's calm, steady easy going, lately Nicole and I have been real good... loyal, and trusting. She went to the movies tonight with a guy she's known for a long time and her mom wanted to go to the movies too with her dad and Nicole said NO U CAN'T GO TO THE SAME MOVIE THEATERS AS US!!! N it made me worry a bit cuz It's like... well what's the big deal even if they did??? She doesn't do that when her and I go to the movies. But anyways I trust her, and if she did do something wrong and I find out... then it's not my loss. Hhaha, but yeah the area has been good, we get through quarrels, we talk to each other and we spend time together. So yeah thing's are real good... real good. As for other girls.. haha I still have feelings lying deep inside for other girls, but I know where my loyalty stands and I'm not blind to my limits... I know how to act, and I don't lead them on but I stay true to them and myself.

Career
My career is good so far.... I'm teaching a tricks class for $100 a month per student and it's goin'... ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/13073182/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/13073182/ Thu, 24 May 2007 08:05:02 PDT Things that actually matter...

POI from homeofpoi.com and I want a pair of 26" poi and a staff poi.
A BIKE
More Sports Shorts
Breifs (wink)
Rollerblades
HAKAMA PANTS
A new chrome bo staff or 2 red wood bo staffs
3 Sectional Staff
A new better sword
Another pair of escrimas...So i can do drills with my friends
A better camera for pictures... I'm talking the good $1000 ones that u can change the amount of lighting that comes in and the shutter speed and watnots.
A new ZEN, with a damn good warranty.

Things that don't really matter but interest me...

A cell phone
Laptop
Skateboard
More black fabric and thread
underarmor shirt
XBOX 360 with 3 extra controllers
MY DAD TO LET ME GET XBOX LIVE! AND STOP BEING SUCH A BYTCH ABOUT CREDIT CARDS WHEN 2847R230RHFOI7Y43H7T07Y3HO7HTOH7YTO PEOPLE
AROUND THE WORLD HAVE IT!!!
My cat, Rascal to die of old age so I can get a dog
My dad to get a house or a better job
My permit?
And the last thing I can think of is....
NOTHING FROM NO ONE!!!!! ^_^

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12892837/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12892837/ Tue, 08 May 2007 20:12:40 PDT [link] There's the link... the talkingw as gay, they didn't really drescribe PARKOUR RIGHT, but they GOT ME FLIPPING!!!

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12757810/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12757810/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 17:55:46 PDT --DNamif4k"New Music Vid or go to YOUTUBE.COM and search EPIC AND HIS PASSION and it's the first video you see.... SHOW IT TO ALL UR FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND PEOPLE U BARELY KNOW.... just send it all over and watch it a buncha times... I want a buncha views....


NOW FOR THE CONTEST I want to test you all... JUST TO SEE IF ANY OF YOU HAVE BETTER IDEAS... but I'm wanting to make a TRICKset logo... for my XMA, Cpaoeira, Breakdancing, Gymnastics, Parkour, Freerunning, tricking team. I posted my first original logo under scraps, so check it out... but... if you all want to, feel free to make a better logo than I... it's gotta be simple, but have flash to it... u can use pictures from my gallery for certain things of the logo.... and once ur done NOTE ME and let me know what u did and I'll check it out... this contest will last until MAY 18th!!

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12567789/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12567789/ Thu, 12 Apr 2007 14:10:57 PDT [link] okay go there, and type NEW YORK, NEW YORK TO PARIS, FRANCE and then whent he page loads, read line 23!!! LMFAO!!!!

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]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12450329/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12450329/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 21:54:20 PDT
One part... the weaker part, wants to stay with Nicole. That part loves her, it likes the time I spend with her, it enjoys the cuddling, the talks, the moments, the teasing and the games, and the puzzles, and the movies, etc. It enjoys having someone there for you always, that one person who knows you just as well as you do them. This part is more about LOVE.

The other part... is more the loner... kinda like the guy who needs no one by his side... who does things better by hisself. I keep listening to the song PIECES by SUM41 and in the chorus he sings;
"I tried to be perfect, but nothi' was worth it,
I don't believe it makes me real.
I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me.
I'm not all the things I said.
If you believe it's in my soul,
I'd say all the words that I know.
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm tryin' to let you know,
That I'm BETTER OFF ON MY OWN."

And when it comes to being single, thats where I stand. This is the 3rd time Nicole and I have dated... and I know three's a charm, and I know that if we work through it we'll be fine, and that if we break up this time, it should be goodbye forever, etc. But this emotional conflict, is hard to make a solid decision. I'm trying to just flow with life, and not make any solid decisions. I don't wanna do anything rash.

I don't wanna be single to fool around with other girls... I could care less about them, I think of them no diff. than I did when I first saw nicole... I remember seeing her from the other side of the pool watching my every move and every flip and dive and twist i did off the diving board, and I thought to myself, just another pretty face. That's all most girls are. Just cuz they're OH SO PRETTY... doesn't mean it would work out. Sure couples can look cute together, but doesn't always last does it? Looks isn't everything, it's the deeper meaning, the thought, the CRITICAL THINKING part.-lol-

But anyways back to the other part... this part thinks of relationships as a distraction... thinks of it as a barron. And believe it or not... this is the side that's winning. Nicole is testing me, she's been soo sad lately, she's noticed my actions, her mom too. And Nicole is a strong girl... she's a gorgeous girl, hell you've all seen the pictures I've posted. She has guys wanting her left and right... some are after sex, some actually like her n treat her right, others just want to look good cuz they'd have a pretty face with them... but Nicole isn't stupid, she knows their intentions, and she's very good at letting them know how loyal she is. I trust Nicole I do. I know she's loyal.

Another reason the side is winning which is prob. the most logical to me is cuz of the fact that there are more fish in the sea... not that that's what I'm about. But the idea of knowing that if one girl can't make me happy, many others can. Now I'm not talking about sex, or suckface-lol-, or things like that, I'm talking about... plain conversations, good times, doing something new, going to dinner, taking walks, CLICHE HANG OUTS, things like that! And if my feelings grow stronger for someone, then so be it, that's how I'd rather flow with life if I were single.

But that's not why I want to be single... I want to be single because I VALUE MY FREEDOM. I like to be able to live without limits... to do w/e. To be free. and I know you can still be free in a relationship with someone... which is totally cool, I'm down for that... but Nicole, doesn't stand up to all the things I like about a girl. She's a wonderful girl, she's a sweetie, she really is, she's cute, she's as goofy as I am, but sometimes there's just things about her that I don't approve of. Like how she isn't very imaginative, I'm sorry, but I NEED imagination otherwise, u get the awkward moments where u and ur girl r sitting in ur room, and not doing anything except thinking of something to do or watching tv or doing a puzzle or drawing. And that's not too much fun after uve already done everything or most of that in one day. And I'm not about to change Nicole, I've done enough things to her to make her want to change to make me happy... that's not what I want... sure it'd be nice if she changed... but I want her to do it for herslef... like how she's wanting to learn martial arts from a friend. She said she's doing... ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12264651/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12264651/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 21:09:51 PDT [link]
Enjoy

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12099577/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/12099577/ Wed, 07 Mar 2007 22:00:20 PST
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^_^ I'm one MORE step closer to braking a bone... itz a bad weak, hahaha
Yesterdya I end up kneeing nicole in the face cuz she tried to tickle my feet and I feel HORRBILE by the way not to mention I had my zen taken away until next week. Today I dislocate my finger, tomorrow's open gym... tomorrow I hope I get beat up or jumped or sumthin, n then thursday I hope I get kicked outta my house, n then friday... I lose everyone, n then saturday... death by suicide.


haha works out perfectly, jkjkjk but anyways this week's been insane. -lol- But yeah I am typing, I just aint movin my fingers much. hahaha And to think I was supposed to do some tricking and sparring today.

by the way mom, call me, I have an idea for this weekend, 300 comes out friday and my friends and I are going to see it, and I wanna invite YOU!!! Cuz i mean come on mom, u, me, and my friends... = mad fun and very memorable experience. If u dont wanna join us then here my alternative plan...

Nicole goes with me n my buddies friday night, she crashes at my house and since my dad cant bring me saturday, nicole and/or her mom bring me to meet you at like noon, 1pm, or 2pm... sound good? let me kno mom. ^_^

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11992603/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11992603/ Tue, 27 Feb 2007 19:18:38 PST Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Vi är på klubben å dricker skumpa
Alla brudar vill ta på min rumpa

Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Å i baren shottar vi Jäger
För att visa vem som äger

Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Vi är på klubben å dricker skumpa
Alla brudar vill ta på min rumpa

Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Har du svårt att sitta still
Då är det dags att ta en till


Det här är en sång x4

Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Vi är på klubben å dricker skumpa
Alla brudar vill ta på min rumpa

Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Å i baren shottar vi jäger
För att visa vem som äger

Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Vi är på klubben å dricker skumpa
Alla brudar vill ta på min rumpa


Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Har du svårt att sitta still
Då är det dags att ta en till

Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så att alla kan hoppa omkring
Gå till baren ta en jäger
Och visa att du äger
Har någon svårt att sitta still
Då är det dags att ta en till


Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Vi är på klubben å dricker skumpa
Alla brudar vill ta på min rumpa

Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Å i baren shottar vi jäger
För att visa vem som äger

Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Vi är på klubben å dricker skumpa
Alla brudar vill ta på min rumpa


Det här är en sång om ingenting
Så alla Bratz kan hoppa omkring
Har du svårt att sitta still
Då är det dags att ta en till

SWEDISH TRANSLATION


This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
We are on klubben on drinks bubbly
All brides want to take on my rumpa

This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
On in the bar shottar we Jäger
In order to sensible who as may

This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
We are on klubben on drinks bubbly
All brides want to take on my rumpa

This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
Has you difficult to sit still
Then, the day's is to take a to

This is a song x4

This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
We are on klubben on drinks bubbly
All brides want to take on my rumpa

This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
On in the bar shottar we jäger
In order to sensible who as may

This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
We are on klubben on drinks bubbly
All brides want to take on my rumpa


This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
Has you difficult to sit still
Then, the day's is to take a to

This is a song about nothing
So that all can jump about
Go to the bar to take a jäger
And sensible that you may
Has some difficult to sit still
Then, the day's is to take a to

This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
We are on klubben on drinks bubbly
All brides want to take on my rumpa

This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
On in the bar shottar we jäger
In order to sensible who as may

This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
We are on klubben on drinks bubbly
All brides want to take on my rumpa


This is a song about nothing
Sows all Bratz can jump about
Has you difficult to sit still
Then, the day's is to take a to

Thanks to YOU KNOW WHO U ARE... I finally got off my ass n ate some pizza n found the english translation. lmfao.

FOR THOSE OF U WHO DONT KNOW WAT THIS IS.. .DOWNLOAD THE SONG... N READ THE ENGLISH LYRICS, lmfao its goofy.

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By the way for my le fans, I LOVE U ALL CUZ... I dunno, u comment my stuff?

Life is amd good, if I remember, when I get home, ima post a journal n then sew a couple things... ^_^ Yall take care now... LOVE PEACE N CHICKEN GREASE.

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11404616/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11404616/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 22:48:27 PST
Life is awesome now tho, I got new people's in my life and they're all some real cool kats, no joke. Im hangin with tempest's girlfriend lately, n yeah she's attractive n she interests me but thats not why I like hangin with her, I like it cuz I always make her laugh... and its even more fun when she picks up her friends n im in the backseat cracking everyone up. I iz love it...

Epinephrin is my new kyrptonite, he's hellaz good and real great at combos, he's going to test me... cuz of him ill be pushing myself, he beats me at height but, he says I beat him at control...

But besides that, I got my corkscrew down and i need to get my b twist, and im hangin with my boy gerry, him n I iz best niggaz for real, and I finally realized, that most the friends i hang with are some part black... hahah Ghost, Negritude, Epinephrin, Kahuna, De'Vion, Gabe, Deandre, Thabo, and more pplz... hahaha life is great right now, thats all im bout to say... not to mention.... I got my sensei cathy waiting for some replies of some ppl high up in business about my talents n watnot.

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11339241/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11339241/ Sat, 06 Jan 2007 15:49:56 PST
I met the winner of the show FINAL FU... name was Daniel, he was mad excellent, he did a kama demo, my fav. weapons and a few nifty techniques, he did a raiz which was pretty cool, and a roundoff backflip, a basic demonstration... the MAIN FLASH WEAPONS DEMO I guess.. hahah and then little later afterwards I did mine... it was all fun, got it on video, and I'm getting my ilink cable soon and tryinna hang with pplz tonight... and tomorrow i go again and tomorrow i get more time so im prob., gonna pull some people up n do some of the stuff, it's a lotta fun, real mad excellent, no joke... ^_^

WISH ME LUCK FOR TOMORROW, ILL TRY N MAKE A MUSIC VIDEO FOR YALL SOON.

Oh yeah and I just stuffed my face to the max with some mad excellent asian food!!! CHINESE BUFFETS RULE!!!!

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11301707/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11301707/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 13:55:47 PST A little thing I put in my ABOUT MEs on all my little sites such as myspace n facebook n watnot... this isn't directed towards anyone in particular but to everyone in particular

First thing about me, I am not the next of THEM, I am the FIRST of ME!!! I act on how i truly feel, I'm not a fan at all of lying and taking things for granted... I may hurt you feelings, and I may weird you out, but one thing, I don't own you and you don't own me... so u've not much of a reason to be upset, besides... i respect how someone feels so if sumthin's wrong with me n them or you, i try n make up for it, if ur gonna be stubborn, then fuck you until u chill.

I'm not a fucking player, I'm not a goddamn pimp, I am who I am, sure I hang with a lotta girls, but I also hang with guys two... doesn't mean I like them, doesn't mean i'm after sex, doesn't mean I'm trying to earn respect or props... I like hanging with ppl, I grew up being left in the dark n am now an only child, so I've been lonely a lot of my life.

Sex, girls, and relationships... the whole b/f g/f thing, meh not for me right now, all my relationships obviously haven't worked out so far... besides I think i'll focus on that later on in life, like when i have mine together... so the whole love thing, it's not important, sure sex is wonderful, i could care less about it, when I'm in the mood its importance does increase but, I WILL take "No." for an answer... and if I keep trying, you should know how to handle that, n if not, then here's ur first lesson, SMACK THE FUCK OUT OF ME!!! AND IF I GET PISSED, SO BE IT, I'LL BE FINE LATER ON IN LIFE N SO WILL YOU!! I'm afraid of commitment cuz i've never been introduced to it, all my life, so far the only person who is on the verge of doing so is my best friend Negritude, and Edge is slowly making his way up the chain but I will never truly call him a friend until he starts being happier.

If you've read this far... I love you, really, I do... I give u mad props... not everyone will take this much time from their day to read all this shyt....

I am a showoff, but I'm still learning how to act when someone says I am "GODLY" or "IT'S BECAUSE EPIC ROCKS EVERY BIT OF THIS WORLD!" I dont like being vain but sometimes i might just be like, YEAH! If I'm in my true mood, I won't say shyt.

I am only a show off because I want to get known by some college, movie place, producers, or some agent looking for a client or sumthin.... thats one of my new yrs resolutions. And if you would put forth enough effort to help me get known... I would reward you greatly.

I have my moods, I have good days and I have bad day... and nights too.. but the main thing I ask from all of you, is not to be a fuckass and criticize who the fuck I am... u just give me more of a reason to use the quote "U LAUGH AT ME CUZ IM DIFFERENT, I LAUGH CUZ UR ALL THE SAME" From my point of view, none of u are the same, but you all fall into ur own little categories... I can get pissed easily but I can also be a really peaceful person... If u wanna help, TELL ME SUMTHIN I DONT KNOW!

& Finally to top this off, I AM NOT THE NEXT OF THEM, I AM THE FIRST OF ME!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11094600/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11094600/ Sun, 17 Dec 2006 12:59:04 PST [link]

that video, those lyrics, that feeling, these tears, this line... i'm going in blind in life, i have no direction, i feel as if i'm simply just, living... like every decision is wrong... the people whom I adore so much, yet can't stand to be around. I can't ever commit because I've never experienced commitment, no one's commited theirselves to me, therefore, I will never be able to commit to... anything, not even love, unless someone can change that, by commiting... bnut thats just about relationships. I have open doors in front of me, yet i fear to take neither of the doors and make my own pathway.. i'm not the next of them, I am the first of me, I am but an avatar in this world. Treat me well, for I am alone.

Me in these times of frustration and what most get confused with by calling it "Stress" This is me letting it go... only, this is just the beginning, the first wave, the starting pulse of energy... the beginning of my.............


although i am very aware of the fact that this is but a phase in life... and that i will be fine later on in life... but hey, for those who care, this is where i stand in life as of now.

although i am very aware of the fact that this is but a phase in life... and that i will be fine later on in life... but hey, for those who care, this is where i stand in life as of now.

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11029606/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11029606/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 14:43:59 PST
It's like for me, the only way I can truly let out what's bottled up inside is by crying, one tear equals a moment where my self esteem was shot down one time after another... So for me, one thing even if it doens't help my frustration or what most ppl get confused with by calling it "Stress"... I would still, like to know how to cry.... I just wanna break down again, I want to weep. I haven't done it since ever...

REPLY NOT NEEDED

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11022897/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/11022897/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 21:57:13 PST I'd like to dedicate this song, and these lyrics to my mom like I have many times in the past. I LOVE U MOM!

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It takes a lot to know what is love
It's not the big things, but the little things
That can mean enough
A lot of prayers to get me through
And there is never a day that passes by
I don't think of you
You were always there for me
Pushing me and guiding me
Always to succeed

Chorus:
You showed me
When I was young just how to grow
You showed me
Everything that I should know
You showed me
Just how to walk without your hands
'Cause mom you always were
The perfect fan

God has been so good (ohh)
Blessing me with a family
Who did all they could (ohhh)
And I've had many years of grace
And it flatters me when I see the smile on your face
I wanna thank you for what you've done
In hopes I can give back to you
And be the perfect son

Chrous:
You showed me
When I was young just how to grow
You showed me
Everything that I should know
You showed me
Just how to walk without your hands
'Cause mom you always were
The perfect fan

Bridge:
You showed me how to love (you showed me how to love)
You showed me how to care (showed me how to care)
And you showed me that you would
Always be there (always be there)
I wanna thank you for that time
And I'm proud to say you're mine

Chrous:
You showed me (you showed me)
When I was young just how to grow
You showed me
Everything that I should know
You showed me
Just how to walk without your hands
'Cause mom you always were
The perfect fan

'Cause mom you always were
Mom you always were
Mom you always were
You know you always were
'Cause mom you always were
The perfect fan

I love you mom


I was on the phone with Leigh and we got to talking and something reminded me of this song and how the first time I let my mom hear it, she broke down and thanked me... thinking back, I remember going to miami that next summer, and everynnight before I went to sleep, I would listen to this song, over n over n cry about it, missing my mom and wishing she could be with me in miami with everoyne else... and thinking about it now, I truly feel I could cry one more time, I MISS U MOM, and I know I may not always show it, but believe it or not, I do think about you, I do miss the good times we had, I wish I could go back in time, and enjoy growing up with you all over again... I couldn't have asked for a better mom or a worse mom, I like the way you raised me, and wouldn't have had it any other way. I love you mom. Take care. I will soon one day, call the Delilah show, and have her play this song for you so that over 700,000 people maybe more will get to hear about and know how much this young little athlete, appreciates the support his mother gives him... you truly are, the perfect fan.

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10956521/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10956521/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 05:01:04 PST Sounds like a great idea and I know some of you draw very well.

OK PEOPLE. ITS TIME.

TELL THE WORLD!

TELL YOUR PARENTS!

TELL YOUR POODLE!

TELL ANYONE WHO DRAWS, WRITES, PHOTOGRAPHS, INKS, SKETCHES, PAINTS, PRINTS, COLLECTS, COLLAGES, SCULPTURES, MOULDS, DESIGNS...... (basically anyone who can art on an A4 page)

I, Annalise, am hoping to gather about 20 or 30 people from ALL OVER THE WORLD possibly to start The Great Book Exchange! This is a GREAT way to gain original beautiful artworks and writings from all over the globe! Some of the people in the book may even get famous! How cool would that be? To own an early original from a hot artist and writer?!

WHAT THIS IS:
EVERYONE has to buy their own A4 drawing book (NO LINES PLEASE) which has more than 30 drawing pages, (most have more anyway) AND THEY SEND IT AROUND THE COUNTRY AND the other people who participate in this DRAW IN A PAGE OF YOUR BOOK and send it on to the next person to draw or write or stick flyers in and on and on it goes until eventually, everyone on the list has added to your book or artistic love!

YOU have to be willing to pay for the book, what you need to art with, mailings and overseas mailings as this is an international thing (well, I hope it will be.)

YOU have you be willing to give me your real name and address we can't mail our books to each other without them! And don't worry, only one other person and myself shall receive yer personal info. Sherbet Honour.



TO APPLY FOR THESE 20-30 SPACES, EMAIL ME AT aricamahwen@hotmail.com WITH THE HEADING "G. A. B. E." and link to the 5 best works in your gallery! ONLY THE BEST WILL BE ACCEPTED, AS WE ALL WANT QUALITY WITH THIS PROJECT! I know I do!
REMEMBER: Any form of art can be accepted!

Drawings, paintings, sketches, poems, short stories, photos, photos of scuptures spefically made! ANYTHING!"

AND TELL EVERYONE!


APPLICATIONS WILL BE ACCEPTED UNTIL THE 31ST DECEMBER, 2006. WE WILL INFORM THOSE WHO GOT IN ON THE 1ST OF JANUARY, 2007!

Good luck! And hope to hear from you!

Questions? ask me! I'll post a F.A.Q. up here!

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10929153/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10929153/ Sat, 02 Dec 2006 19:59:02 PST AWESOME or COOL.

Also XMAS LIST
Grandma/Grandpa/Mom -- Good sewing machine/Ninja Mask/Ninja Tabi Shoes(or boots)/XBOX 360

DAD -- Creative MP3 Player

FRIENDS -- XBOX 360!!! jkjkjkjk but If yall dont mind buying me some candles, that would be really cool... or incense. That's be cool too.


P.S. I just spilled a couple drops of milk on myself.

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1. MP3 PLayer, nt iPod, but CREATIVE... 30 GB should be about $250 at best buy. [link]roduct&roductCategoryIdcmcat104200050020&id=1134700863114
2. Dirtsurf board WHAT IS IT?? ([link] here)
3. Sewing machine, here's the link to the model I want. [link]
4. An XBOX 360 with a couple games... I'M BEGINNING TO DISCOVER I HAVEN'T A LIFE....

Also, those of you who can help, I'm looking for a stunt school, college, mainly in LA and california... So if u can help me find some colleges or stunt school, some popular ones, like a 5 star hotel school for stunts... please let me know... IT WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED... if u kno of one, please let me know, if u don't... either try searching for one or two and let me know or don't even apologize cuz it's not too big of a deal... but only do this if u got extra time-lol- HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE

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I would prefer you not reply to this especially if it's like Good luck or have fun, or enjoy ur time, or we'll miss you... I don't need it, I'm just taking a break, it's not goodbye, and I'll be back... so if u wanna say sumthin, plz make it worth reading... some of u noticed that I answered here n there from my last break, but this time... I won't be signing on at all... so... I will basically brb for a long time... not too long, but long enough to satisfy myself... ill tlak to u all later.. bye bye now.

P.S. If you want to contact me, you can call me 314-968-2529

CHARTER CABLE USERS!!! This Friday, Midnight Central Time. Channel 18. WATCH THE BIG BROTHER AND ITCHY SHOW... I'M ON THE SHOW!!!

In the mean time please check out some people for me

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10639157/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10639157/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 16:55:35 PST
OH YEAH... I HAVE TWO NEW MUSIC VIDEOS.... HERE'S PART ONE
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Here's part two!!
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ALSO HERE'S A MUSIC VIDEO THAT'S BADASS... WATCH THE SHYT THEY DO IN IT.. THAT'S ME IN LE FUTURE!!
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okay now look i found this video of this cute hhaah its mad cute he does the seals and then like just haha fakes death hahaha n his face during it is priceless he's like

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10489209/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10489209/ Mon, 23 Oct 2006 16:21:50 PDT [link]

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The teachers don't pay as much attention to me, maybe it's because I'm different... I stand out from the school no joke.... and no doubt, ask anyone who knows me if I stand out... I guarantee the reactions and answers will show that I'm different from everyone.

But I'm being taken out of my academic lab class to go to in school or the next 3 days or so... kind of retarded but it's w/e not going to change much. The principal, thinks that the gloves I wear and the wrist bands and arm bands and the way I dress can attract the wrong kind of attention... he thinks I'm trying to start something with the school, thinks I'm supposed to be like everyone else and a set a fucking example, fuck his ass... I'm tired of all this b/s...

M ac. lab teacher is a bytch, you know, teachers can make things so much more simpler if they weren't so, GODDAMN strict and up fucking tight. I'm ready to rebel against the school if it gets bad enough, I can't express myself, and I'm NOT going to stop... fuck that, I had my boom box taken away because, "NOT EVEROYNE LIKES THE KIND OF MUSIC THAT I LIKE AND IT COULD TRY N START CONFLICTS BETWEEN CERTAIN TYPES OF PEOPLE." I am truly tired of it, I don't care how far it goes, I'm going to stand up for what I believe is right... this country is only proving itself that IT'S NOT AS FREE, AS IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE.

Even though lots of this is bullshyt, I still know I'll be fine later on in life, it just pisses me off to know that they have all this "CONTROL" over me when they're just as human as I am... I could care less if I stand out, I see myself on everyone elses level, no, wait... I see them, on MY LEVEL.

It's like I'm fighting a long hard war... Not to mention the cold weather kicking in, my dad trying to start shyt with me, and my teachers giving me crap, my legs still hurt yeserday from mondays leg wieght training, and i had open gym last night so now I'm suffering still... and now it's thursday and it's leg workout day in weight lifting again... *deep sigh* Alright... I'm mellow enough as is, whateverr......

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I've reached a critical phase in my life and it sucks... just got through the ACCEPTANCE era of my life and now entering CHOICE... and it's a bytch because everywhere u look something changes or confuses you, and the more n more I try to fix my issues, the more n more tangled I get. IT IS NOT FUCKING FUN!!

Fucking issues dealing with girls, one girls likes me but I'm not sure I really like her, I want an active girl, I like one girl n she likes me but she's a gemeni and i've been told two gemenis are not compatible, and I also like a few others but they don't acknowledge me like the used to.

I keep pushing Edge away by stupid shyt and I know I need to stop, I keep pushing everyone away and I know I need to stop, there is so much work to be done this week, and I am ready to fight anyrthing thats on its way... and if I am to be held down... then so be it... I will take all hits, all punishment, If I die, I die...

I got so tangled in all my issues that I couldn't even express how I felt, If I had super powers. I would be screaming one second, with energly pulsing and the next all the energy will just fade away as I lose control of my powers falling to my knees, drowning myself in tears.... Ugh when will this phase end, I have no guidance, I have no conciense. I'm all alone now...

Someone please help me... tell me something I don't know... someone whose been here before, please... help me... I'm in desperate need of something... I am making everything worse and they're crumbling on top of me. I fear no one will reach out a hand so, I am preparing to take this all out on my own... I guess... this beginns the era of CHOICE.

My deepest apologies to those whom I've affected recently... please excuse me for being... ... ... .. . . .

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10298795/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10298795/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 22:10:06 PDT If we're so young and free, why do you pressure me? Why are you pushing me away? For all I've done for you, For all you've put me through. There's nothing left for me to say but I... PROMISE YOU PROMISE YOU THAT! PROMISE I'LL NEVER CHANGE! PROMISE YOU PROMISE YOU THAT, That your heart will break. PROMISE YOU PROMISE YOU THAT! PROMISE I'LL NEVER CHANGE!!

We live in a lonely life. Die hard searching out the light. Wondering if I'll live my life without you. These days keep on passing by, fun girl wasting all my time. But it's cool knowing I'll be fine without you . If you're so young and free, why do you follow me? I keep on pushing you away. For all the time we shared, I know you never cared. There's nothing left for me to say and I... PROMISE YOU PROMISE YOU THAT! PROMISE I'LL NEVER CHANGE! PROMISE YOU PROMISE YOU THAT, That your heart will break. PROMISE YOU PROMISE YOU THAT! PROMISE I'LL NEVER CHANGE!!

We are all just waiting for our time. We are all just waiting for our time.
PROMISE YOU PROMISE YOU THAT! PROMISE I'LL NEVER CHANGE! PROMISE YOU PROMISE YOU THAT, That your heart will break.

]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10279859/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10279859/ Wed, 04 Oct 2006 08:22:08 PDT A tough decision
Listen to my voice
Should I give in
To temptation, admiration
One leads to myself
The other someone else
Just an empty shell
Just an empty shell

It's harder than it seems
When you're told that
All your hopes and dreams
Are yours to hold if
You just give them
What's expected
Something they can sell
Put upon a shelf
But I am not for sale
I am not for sale

I hear a voice inside
It's grown into a scream
I'm not the next of them
I am the first of me
'Cause I can't live the lie
I am just what you see
I'm not the next of them
I am the first of me

If I can't refuse
The price they offer
I am sure to lose
And I will suffer
Sell my soul to make a profit
All I have to do
Is make believe it's true
That's something I can't do
That's something I can't do

I hear a voice inside
It's grown into a scream
I'm not the next of them
I am the first of me
'Cause I can't live the lie
I am just what you see
I'm not the next of them
I am the first of me
Ah oooo
I am the first of me
Ah oooo
I am the first of me

So when the waiting's done
And it's time to face the truth
You know your good enough
Deep down inside of you
You've finally woken up
If only just to prove
You were born to lead the way
And be the first of you

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[link] ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10033901/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10033901/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 22:18:29 PDT and my boy and and my mom and my grandma !!! ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10026960/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10026960/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 10:28:55 PDT I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[HOOK]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[HOOK]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh [4x]
Do you hear me crying?

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

To Nicole


HAHA MY EMO SELF, LOOK AT ME, Damn passionate Mars gliding into my House of Romance!! Stupid signal to take the initiative in relationships! *Sigh* I guess all good things really do come to an end. ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10014668/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/10014668/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 23:11:43 PDT To the patient star
Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
Let her die never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue .

To my current star
Hello Hello
I bring you pictures from the man you used to know
Give in let go
To the words that made you feel you weren't alone
Now it's funny how we find out
Time can solve the mystery but love is only temporary

Hello Hello
The smile on your face is just
For show
Inside you screaming let me go

Hello Hello
Loneliness doesn't make a sound
Till I heaad back underground

Hello Hello
I bring you pictures from the man you used to know
Give in let go
To the images that made you feel at home
Now it's funny how we find out
How age can change a man
Confused but now I understand

Hello Hello
You're swimming faster than you know
But you can't fight the undertow

Hello Hello
Maybe I'll Just say goodbye

Back to the patient star

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of Hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything, but I won't give up

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
But you know,
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go.

Just a story on kind of what's going on in my life right now, only... there is no PATIENT STAR, the Current star reps. Nicole, who in which, we might split up due to differences, and problems, but it's okay... I'm almost ready... I just like getting out a lot more, and I always wanted to be free... so, I'm almost ready to be, FREE!!!.-lol- As for the patient star, I guess that could go for, felicia, or the next girl whom get under my skin and witnesses my true feelings... but since Nicole and I are most likely going to split up, I'm starting to believe that love really is only temporary. ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9969997/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9969997/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 20:13:39 PDT - [link] - , your prize will be a featured winner in this journal, the journal of Edge, the journal of HolyDak and the journal of Epic formerly known as Spazz

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these 3 peopel have put out 3 devs that the judgesss thoguht were the top of the pic, and so there they are, check out their submissions, their gallereis, etc, do what ever you want lol, this is a comunity so lets gather, share and grow!!! ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9938354/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9938354/ Sat, 02 Sep 2006 08:19:59 PDT

You hurt me so much when all I ever did was love you.

Whats meant to be will always find it's way.

If I had to choose between loving you and breathing, I would use my last breath to say I love you.

One day down, the rest of our lives to go.
never make somebody your everything cuz when they're gone, you've got nothing.

The worst thing about loving you is watching you love someone else.

Dear Heart, I met a girl, prepare to shatter.

If you can't get someone out of your head, then maybe they're supposed to be there. ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9748302/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9748302/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 12:51:23 PDT Put an x on all the things you can do and find out how old you act

[] I know how to make a pot of coffee
[X] I can do my own laundry
[X] I can cook for myself
[] i always do my homework/work
[] i actually enjoy intellectual conversations
[] I think politics are exciting
[X] My parents and grand-parents have better things to say than my peers
total: 3

[X] I show up for school/work every day unless I'm sick
[] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse
[] I've never gotten a detention
[] I watch talk shows and point out the credibility of it all
[] I know what credibility means without looking it up
[] I drink coffee at least once a week
total: 1 **shyt im on a roll already hahaha**

[x] I know how to run the dish washer and/or do the dishes
[x] I can count to 10 in spanish
[x] When I say I'm going to do something I do it
[] I mow the lawn
[x] I can wash a car
[] I can make adults laugh... without being stupid
[] I remember to water my plants
[] I study when I have to
[x] I pay attention at school/work (HAHA THIS IS KINDA A HALF POINT BUT I GUESS A LITTLE IS ENOUGH AHHAHA)
[x] I remember to feed my pets
[] I'm generally organized
total: 6

[x] I can spell experience without looking it up
[x] I clean up my own mess (ON RARE OCCASSIONS hahah)
[] The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee
[] I can go to the store with out getting something I don't need
[] I understand jokes the first time they are said
[] I listen to my elders
[x] I can type fast
total:3

[x] sometimes my choice in clothing is acceptable in an office or something
[] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[x] I can look at someone hot without thinking of sex
[x] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[] I can read a book and actually finish it
[x] People have said that I act older than I am
total: 4

Now add up how many X's you have and put "I act __ years old" in the subject!


WELL WADDAYA KNOW I ACT 17 HAHAHA AND GUESS WAT, I AM 17 OHH WHAT BYTCHEZZ... SUKKEN MAII NATSEN!! HAHA YEEUH IN ALL UR FACES WHO TELL ME IM IMMATURE!!! WHAT WHAT!!! DO SUMTHIN BOUT IT, GET OUTTA MY HOUSE!!!!!!!! ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9582900/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9582900/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 23:43:37 PDT Me: Tell me Oliver Bot, how does one suck a fuck.

OliverBot: There is not much I can say about Oliver Bot how does one suck a fuck . I have to reach into the Web for that knowledge.
Um, I don't have a how does one suck a fuck Bot how does one suck a fuck does one suck a fuck Bot how does one suck a fuck parameter. ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9581730/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9581730/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 21:18:17 PDT and I but it is about an emotional crisis, or maybe semi... I dunno but here's what's on my mind...

I haven't been in any actual martial arts classes in maybe half a year ... but lately with my tricking and flipping, sure I've gotten better and learned new tricks but I can never fully do what I see in my head ... which is normally what I do, I see it in my head n attempt it... but... lately, I'm not as strong as I used to be... my endurance is horribly low ... I've got the endurance of a drunk bum stoner from the allies of chicago.

I used to get so high when I flipped but now... well, 1. I hurt my back real bad at the last open gym session and I hurt it again tonight in the same spot. 2. I can't land the moves I used to be able to land. 3. I have no control of my martial arts skills.

Another nifty thing about my life though... is I owe Edge a lot... he has done so much for me lately, I mean goddamn it he cooks , he makes me laugh n he gives me hope when I'm bummed out , and he's always down for watever and he's not afraid to try new things around me and he's always got a sense of humor.

My photoshop skills are getting better... thanx to edge... I kinda know more about wtf I'm doing now... hahaha... but I'm having a good time with Edge down here... I owe him so much, he's opened my eyes to a lot and I'm definitely gonna miss him. happycry:

Nicole is making me feel better n better .. she's keeping her promise by not talking to cameron which makes me feel so much better... she doesn't go to the phoenix which is a dance club for ppl my age and I don't worry as much as I used to with her now and I feel happy with her again, I can be more of who I am , when I'm with her, I don't always have to worry about her flirting with another guy. Today she said such comforting words... they actually sounded like they were from the heart, n yea they were basic words but still.. knowing that she actually said it JUST LIKE THAT... made me feel wonderful, and I sure hope she does it more in the future.. ill feel like http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9527908/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 22:07:14 PDT ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9509271/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9509271/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 08:41:37 PDT
As for Nicole, she can get an energetic boost from the Moon's contact with aggressive Mars in her sign. Even if she's been experiencing resistance, now she's ready to overcome the obstacles in her path. But she should beware of putting too much confidence into a plan that is a bit shaky. However, thinking through her actions can assure better odds for success.

I just hope we can get through this phase... I want everything to be alright... I want her to be the one... but if she isnt the one... then I want it to end soon without me feeling regret, or sorrow, or going through the BREAK UP phase where I sulk... I wanna just take that extra step n keep going...

I will let you all know what happens if we do... if I don't write a journal entry... It means we made it through. ^_^ I really love you all because today....

I was able to shed tears... and you've no ideas how good it felt to cry... I was able to drench my face in tears... I'm learning to breath, I'm learning to cry... But I don't wanna elarn to let go... I care about Nicole... she's in my heart... she touched me in ways I thought could heal anything... And well, I love her... and I say that because Ive never felt this strong about a girl before.

I love you all and appreciate those of u who try to help me through... Thanx Edge, ShadowFox, Dakkie, Mom, Grandma, and Kohl, and everyone else whom I trust to tell these things to. ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9337397/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9337397/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 21:45:14 PDT ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9334143/ http://SpAzZnaticShuRIken.deviantart.com/journal/9334143/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 16:45:51 PDT
And now I feel like I’ve
reached my limits and
can no longer tell
if people are joking
or if they’re serious
I can’t understand
most things
anymore.
I told nicole that.... and all I got in reply was a simple “I’m sry.” or
a “Hm.” I felt alone... I feel nicole and I drifting apart so fast...
We’re so alike yet we’re so different. Deep down we love each
other so very much, even tho we’re so onery to each other at
other times.

But lately I get worried, like in alabama.I got jealous a lot. She’d have this guy call her late, and she’d talk to him like she was flirting and I talked to her about it n she says “It’s the way I TALK.” N that upsets me. And well I feel like... Like she’s been hiding things.

N after a bunch of recent thinking.... I wondered, what should I do?
I decided to log into her account on one of her websites and read a
few messages, and found out she invited some guy to tan naked with her sometime, and god knows if they did it or not... n other guys invite her to hang out, n she says ALRIGHT JUST PICK A TIME!

Then there it was a message that broke my heart, the guy she called a lot while in alabama... they wrote to each other, and there I
read... “I love you!” N my heart... dropped... it was that feeling you get when something bad just happens, n it really does feel like ur heart drops.... and I don’t know if she was saying them to be curteous but it hurt so bad especially after the way she talks to him.... the way it was to him... and not me. I wanted to cry.

Love..... I’m starting to believe that love is really
only temporary. I understand that me logging
into her name and everything proves that I
don’t trust her and that trust is a big thing in
a relationship.... but after finding those things
especially after checking
the date to find that the
messages were all send
while her n i were dating.
I’m finding out that I
had a good reason
for not trusting.

So here I am thinking... should I throw her away... Do I really want
her to mess up like this deep down inside? Is that what I’m doing?
Also if I break it off, who will I become? Will I still be the person i
am? Will i still be the two-personalitied epic/kyle boy that I am? I
have little hope now... and visions have become blurry, my mind is
clouded and my tears will now flow. I need guidance yes... I also know that I’ll be fine later on in life.... but I.... I wish..... I wish that i.... I wish that I could suffer in some other way.... *sigh*
What do I do?

I wonder to myself now.... does he make you high? Does he make you real? Does he make you cry? Does he know the way you feel? Or wait. Should I turn that around instead? And say “You make me high. You make me real. You make me cry... now you know the way I feel. Love is all around you, your universe is full, but in my world.... there is only you.”

N now I have just one question to ask her... AM I NOT ENOUGH???

n Mary if ur reading this... please talk to me about it...



Still I wonder if she’d say I’m sry or give me a hm. ]]> ~SpAzZnaticShuRIken