http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Spencers13&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Spencers13 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 27 Nov 2009 09:52:27 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/27169334/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/27169334/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 11:59:56 PDT
Following, is a nice, easy-to-follow bulleted list of things that will have a nice home on the OC Site:

ART — Any art of your BJ OC or someone else's BJ OC or anything related to a BJ OC is welcome. MULTIPLE SUBMISSIONS ENCOURAGED!!

STORIES — Any story containing your BJ OC or someone else's BJ OC or any story related to a BJ OC is welcome. The story can have just a mention of your OC or be all about your OC. Any format welcome, be it story, script, lists, RPG, or other format. MULTIPLE SUBMISSIONS ENCOURAGED!!

YOUR BEETLEJUICE ORIGINAL CHARACTER(S) — Whoever you came up with to add to the BJ universe is most welcome. They could be a child of BJ's, a Neitherworldian you made up, a new human friend for Lydia, a monster, or even a pet. ANYONE. And, of course, MULTIPLE SUBMISSIONS ENCOURAGED!!

WALLPAPERS & ICONS — If you have made wallpapers or icons containing your BJ OC, they can have a nice home on the site. I already have places for AIM, MSN & LiveJournal icons, but if you've made icons for a different application, a spot can easily be crated for them. — Standard sizes for the icons are : AIM - 50x50 pixels / MSN & LJ 100x100 pixels. Wallpaper sizes vary, and any of those sizes are welcome. MULTIPLE SUBMISSIONS ENCOURAGED!!

LINKS — If you have a link that you think will be helpful to others for creating OCs or writing, it will be added to the site with much thanks. Or if you have a link to a BJ website, that could also be added.

CONTACT INFORMATION — If you have or are going to submit something to the BJ OC site, please also send in your contact information. Email address, personal website URL, dA URL, FanFicion.net profile URL, or any blog or online journal URLs would be helpful for others to be able to contact you about your OCs. All of that is of course OPTIONAL. Though an email address would be at least preferred so I can contact you myself if the need ever arose.

ANYTHING ELSE NOT MENTIONED HERE — If you have anything else pertaining to your BJ OC that I haven't mentioned above, send it in anyway! Stuff like videos or anything at all. The site is still under construction, so new pages and sections can still easily be created to fit with what folks send in.

I'm building this site for the creativity in all of us BJ fans!


A MESSAGE ABOUT CONTENT — There are no restrictions when it comes to content in any submission. Anything from G to a Mature rating is just fine. Only a couple things are generally discouraged like underage sexual situations.

HOW TO SUBMIT MATERIALS — I'm flexible when it comes to sending your materials in. In general, I can be reached by email at Spencers13@yahoo.com. — Other ways are by sending things in textual form to me here on dA through notes or comments (most people have been using notes). — Art can be sent to my email or by providing links to me for art already posted to dA or any other art site. — Stories can be emailed, sent to me in notes; or you can provide a link to your story if it's already posted online on FanFicion.net, here on dA, or anywhere else.

I don't mind doing a little work to collect materials for my site. Like I said, I'm flexible, so just about anyone can have an opportunity to participate in my sites.


BJ OC... ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/27094268/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/27094268/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 12:57:44 PDT
Anyway, I want to thank everyone that left me a comment on my last journal. Each one gave me a smile and made me realize that I wasn't really alone. All of my watchers are such wonderful people. I love you guys!

But to those who don't know, I constantly second guess myself when it comes to creative works like writing and art. I know I'm not the best or the worst, and that the things I do are uniquely mine, but that doesn't' stop the worries and insecurities that I have about my works.

I used to draw for fun. Now I don't have fun at all when I draw. Same goes for writing. And I don't know where I lost it.

But all that aside, I have to know if the things I AM doing are worth it. Do you guys LIKE it? Do you get excited when I announce new things or post up something new? My esteem is kaput anymore, to be brutally honest with myself...and again it has to do with that certain person that I feel I must impress. But are YOU GUYS impressed with my works?

I want to list out the projects I am currently working on or never finished. Could you please tell me if any of them are worth it? Do you look forward to any of them being completed? Which would you want to see done first? I know I'm asking a lot, but I really need this. I need to get myself organized and my priorities straight. And I need help to do it.

I am rewriting my Beetlejuice Afterlife series, starting with "A New Beginning", then "Dark Shadows".

I am also working on a third story in the BJA series, which I will finally reveal the title of here: "Knights of Ragnarok".

I started a short story yesterday which is about a legendary human that came over to the Neitherworld thousands of years ago and became immortal.

I have the Beetlejuice Original Character site to work on.

There is also my BJ Fan Site to work on.

The redesign of Kyle is still not completed.

I never did finish that "Ky-chan & 'Dri Adventures" comic.

I have a picture I started of Endri and Kyle pixel art, but it's far from finished.

The "Extreme Ways" comic is not finished. The pages are drawn out, but not "fixed up" like the first two pages.

The Beetlejuice and Lydia wedding picture that I did a while back that dA deleted because it had a Mucha stained glass window in the background, remember that one? I had been planning on replacing the picture in the window with something else so I could repost it.

I started a picture for a friend of mine's story "Love After Death", but I never completed it.

I started a colored version of this picture [link] but never finished it.

http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/27008463/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 03:34:25 PDT
I can't draw anymore. (like I could draw before)
I can't write anymore. (like I could write before)
My web design is mediocre and too simple for this day and age.

I'm worthless at everything I do.

And I'm pretty sure I know what killed my desire to do those things anymore, crappily as I did them. Being told over and over and over again that I lack creativity.

There's a certain someone that I somehow feel I must impress with SOMETHING because they are so "creative" themselves. But every time I come up with an idea that I think will FINALLY impress them or at least make them say "Nice, I like that.", they tell me "why didn't you say it like this?" or "why don't you do it like that instead?" NOTHING I say or do is good enough. And over time, that has eaten away at me. Until I don't think there's a single good idea left in me. Like I had any in the first place. I just keep kidding myself.

So I ended up laying in bed for hours on end tonight, staring at the ceiling and reminding myself over and over how much of a waste I really am. And being told that I'm like a 6 year-old and that my husband should "leave that bitch" just keeps spinning around in my empty head.

I completely hate myself.

What decent person can't cook, dislikes to clean house, dislikes children even though she has one, and sits around playing games or watching TV or working on her fan sites or other misc fandom stuff? Well, that is me.

I am a selfish bitch.

Hey, case in point, this entire journal entry! I've just been rambling about me me ME. Selfish, lazy bitch. But what are journals for right? I guess I brought my shit here so I'd have at least one little outlet so I wouldn't want to kill myself or something.

I don't normally do this, people. I don't normally bring my BS here to the "public eye" and rant and rave and be all emo all over the place because my life sucks and everyone hates or doesn't understand me. I try to remain positive to all my friends and people who watch me. But after a while, when in the background I'm being cut down and realizing how pathetic I really am, I can't keep up the happy smile forever.

So to the 198 people that watch me, and the 10-15 people that watch my journal, and the 5-8 that actually read it, and the 2-4 people that actually give a shit enough to comment on it....I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I'm such a pathetic waste of a human being.

And the sad part is, I don't know if anything is even going to change. I don't know if I'll ever draw again. I don't know if I'll ever write again, and I don't know if I'll continue working on my fan sites or not.

Indecisive, selfish, lazy bitch. That's me.

To anyone that read this far, I apologize for being stupid and emo. But like I said...say it here or hold it in till I literally can't live with myself anymore. But you know, I probably couldn't even kill myself, I'm such a coward and pathetic. Oh well. I apologize again for being stupid and emo and showing my problems to whoever cares enough to read this.

I can't fucking sleep.

]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/26645716/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/26645716/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 08:54:35 PDT
You do NOT have to fill out every single answer. If you don't have an answer for something or don't wish to answer, just leave it blank. All blank answers will be omitted from the page so there will be no empty spots. Just info on your character.

You can send your answers in through replies to this journal, a note to me here on dA, or an email to Spencers13@yahoo.com. I'm flexible.

Please fill this out for each of your OCs that you want on my site. I look very forward to seeing what everyone has!!


Character Name :
Created By :
Date Created :
Premiered (where they were first seen., ex: in "story title", in "picture title"):
Inspired By (ex: real life person, movie / cartoon characters) :

Profile

Full Name :
Nickname :
Gender :
Living / Dead :
Date of Birth :
Date of Death (if applicable) :
Current Age :
Occupation :

Physical Appearance

Eye Color :
Glasses or Contacts?
Hair Color, Length and Style :
Weight and Height :
Type of Body (build) :
Skin Tone and Type (i.e., hairy, slimy, scaly, oily, fair, burns easily) :
Distinguishing Marks (dimples, moles, scars, birthmarks, etc.) :
Predominant Feature :

Likes / Dislikes

Color :
Music :
Food :
Season :
Animal :
Drink :
Other :

Personality

Are they a Hero or a Villain?
Habits :
Greatest Strength :
Greatest Weakness (ex: soap for BJ because he weakens when he's being cleaned with it) :
Biggest Vulnerability (ex: Lydia would be BJ's b/c her safety could be used against him) :
Fears :

Family

Mother :
Father :
Siblings, how many :
Children of Siblings :
Other Extended Family :
Wife / Husband / Lover :
Children, how many :

Miscellaneous

Jewelry :
Other Accessories :
Hobbies :
Talents :
Where do they live :
Most Prized Possession :
How do they spend a rainy day?
If granted one wish what would it be?

Additional comments (optional) :

]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/26106523/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/26106523/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 11:11:12 PDT
Here's what I have planned :

The main page will have news & updates, along with a mini profile of a "Featured OC", recently added artwork and fiction. The "Featured OC" will have a 100x100 pixel image of the character (if there is one) and stats such as Creator, Name, Gender, Age, Status, Favorite Color, Enjoys, and Dislikes.

There will be pages for character profiles, so every character can be treated equally. There will be places for several pictures of the character on their page, and I will provide statistical questions that can be filled out to provide plenty of info about the character.

Of course, there will be an art section for folks who love to draw their OCs. And the more art the better.

There will also be a section for stories. The stories can be your Beetlejuice story that has OCs in it, or a story just about your BJ OC. As long as an OC is involved, it will be accepted.

As with my BJ's Fan Site, there will be a Freebies page for the BJ OC site. It will include AIM, MSN & LiveJournal icons, as well as wallpapers. Anyone is encouraged to make icons or wallpapers with their OC or even someone else's OC. The standard AIM icon size is 50x50 pixels and they can be animated (but not necessary). For MSN/LJ it's 100x100 standard. And if you're making wallpapers, I'm sure you already know those size standards.

I will also be providing a Links page with several helpful links for writing and character development as well as regular links for Beetlejuice.

So I have all these plans (and several mock-up pages done), but I only have my own OCs to work with! So if you have a Beetlejuice original character, I encourage you to let me know if you want them on this new site. Please tell me the character's name and if you have art and/or stories to add to the site. Multiple characters are greatly encouraged!! I know there are several people out there with original BJ characters, so join in! This site can't be completed without participation from you guys!

I will provide the character profile questions at a later time. Right now, I just need to know if I can get the support and participation from everyone I possibly can.

Remember, let me know all your character's names and if you have art and/or fiction to add to the site. And thank you!

]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/24238769/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/24238769/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 21:15:16 PDT

So anyway, I have a few projects in the works here. Since I now have a Wacom tablet (yes, I finally fell in line with most of the artists here on dA!) I plan on getting used to it by drawing/coloring some new art. When I get around to it. *snortlaugh*

I'm also working on re-writes for my Beetlejuice Afterlife series. Don't look for those to be released anytime soon, but do expect the stories to be pretty different from the originals. And, (I hope) all the differences will be improvements to the originals as well. You can read those stories (and more) here : [link]

The redesign for Kyle is still in the works. I go back and work on coloring him occasionally. It's hard for me to find the time between other projects and home life to work on it. But I'll get it done eventually and post it up here. It will be similar to the redesign of Endri. So look out for that.


I'd also like to call attention to a Beetlejuice story a friend of mine is writing called "Love After Death". She is basing her story on my BJ Afterlife series, and using several of my original characters—quite well, I might add! I'm very much enjoying reading it, so please take a look if you can. The story can be found in ~Labyrinthgirl17's gallery, here : [link] I've already done a fanart piece for it, seen here : [link] Thank you for supporting my friend, and her lovely creative work!


I know I'm not very active here on dA, posting-wise. But I hope that will someday change. And until it does, I just want to let everyone know how much I appreciate your comments and the watchers of my art. Having support from your peers is very important to one's creativity. And I appreciate all of my watcher's support. Thank you.



]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/21982471/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/21982471/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 14:35:43 PST
It took me months to nitpick through the pages and fix everything up to my standards. I hope it's now more pleasant for folks to look at, and that it's easy to navigate to find what you're looking for.

Thank you to everyone who was so patient with me until I got everything working again. I'm hoping that this time, my site will not suddenly vanish from the net, without even my knowledge.

So please enjoy the updates!
BJ's Fan Site

]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/19436750/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/19436750/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 22:18:44 PDT

And the lists are growing since I have Netflix now, and can watch lots of DVDs and not be afraid of buying it and wasting money on something that sucked.


Anime

Samurai Champloo, Cowboy Bebop, Dragonball, Dragonball Z, Dragonball GT, Godannar, Puni Puni Poemy, Excel Saga, Goldenboy, Happy Lesson, All Purpose Cultural Cat Girl Nuku Nuku, Trigun, Tenchi Muyo, Tenchi in Tokyo, Tenchi Universe, Tenchi Muyo GXP, Tenchi Muyo Ryo Ohki, Yumeria, Wolf's Rain, Midori Days, Miami Guns, Mouse, Mezzo, Azumanga Daioh, Kyo Kara Maoh!, Animation Runner Kuromi, Labyrinth of Flames


TV Shows

The X-Files, Knight Rider, Team Knight Rider (yes, as bad as it was, I liked it), Most Extreme Elimination Challenge (MXC), Mythbusters, Red vs. Blue (internet show/on DVD), The Muppet Show, Stargate SG-1, Stargate Atlantis, Ghost Hunters, Ghost Hunters International, Firefly, Star Trek the Next Generation, Star Trek Voyager, How It's Made, Monster Quest, Deadliest Catch, People's Court, Judge Judy, Judge Mathis, Liquid Television, The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galexy (BBC), Fraggle Rock


Cartoons

Family Guy, The Littles, Ren & Stimpy, The Batman, Batman the Animated Series, Clerks, Darkwing Duck, Inspector Gadget, Beetlejuice, Spongebob Squarepants, Sealab 2021, Looney Tunes, ReBoot, The Real Adventures of Jonny Quest, Aladdin, Pirates of Dark Water, Cadillacs and Dinosaurs, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (the old one), Peter Pan and the Pirates, The Maxx, Aeon Flux, X-Men, Thundercats, The Tick, Avatar the Last Air Bender


Movies

The Fifth Element, Princess Bride, Conan the Barbarian, Balls of Fury, Shaolin Soccer, Kung Fu Hustle, Baseketball, Stargate, The X-Files - Fight the Future, Drop Dead Fred, any Monty Python movie, i Robot, Splash, Kung Pow!, Reign of Fire, Spaceballs, Spaced Invaders, Serenity, Van Helsing, all Austin Powers movies, Beverly Hills Cop 1-2-3, Smokey and the Bandit, Jurassic Park, all 6 Thumb movie shorts (Bat Thumb, The Blair Thumb, Thumb Wars, Thumbtanic, Frankenthumb, The Godthumb), Nightmare Before Christmas, Cool World, The Dark Crystal, Labyrinth, Spiderman 1-2-3, Die Hard, Die Harder, Die Hard With a Vengeance, Live Free or Die Hard, Highlander, Batman, Batman Returns, Batman Begins, Edward Scissorhands, Crocodile Dundee 1-2, Short Circuit 1-2, Without a Paddle, Three Amigos, Johnny English, Liar Liar, Who Framed Roger Rabbit, Meatballs, X-Men 1-2-3, Terminator 2-3, Dude Where's My Car



Anybody else have any favs that I did or did not list? This is just what I can remember while I sit here and make the list. I'm sure there are tons more in each category that I can't remember, so tell me what you folks like/liked to watch. I'd love to know everybody's favorites or good memories you have while watching a favorite. Share your stories!

]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/17031876/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/17031876/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 23:34:59 PST EDIT I updated this meme a little to include character changes made to both of my OC's. I also added a question asked by Monkey's and my character's answers. Again, I encourage anyone to ask questions of my characters. Thanks!



I've been tagged by to do this meme. I have to thank her, 'cause I think this'll be pretty fun! I don't have too many high-profile original characters, so I guess I'll stick with my main two guys. But if there's a character of mine you want to see answer these questions (they don't have to be related to the Beetlejuice universe), let me know!

And as Monkeys said, I REALLY encourage anyone who wants to know more about the characters to ask them questions. My guys love answering posers.

Here's Monkeys' Meme : [link]

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1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!

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1. Endri (ghost)
2. Kyle (human)

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A. Are you a boy or a girl?
1. Endri : I am male. Though since I am not a human, I am not a "man". So I am just male.
2. Kyle : Uh...I'm a guy.

B. How old are you?
1. Endri : I am 645 as of November 2008.
2. Kyle : Uhh...I'm 42, I think. Yeah, 42.

C. YOU WANT A HUG?? XD
1. Endri : *recoils slightly* Ah...that's all right. I'm fine.
2. Kyle : Commere and gimme a big ol' huggerooni!!

D. You got any bad habits?
1. Endri : I repress a lot of the things that bother me. So I have about 645 years of baggage I drag around. As you could tell...that doesn't make me a pleasant person or someone easy to get along with. I also tend to express anger first and foremost.
2. Kyle : I have no bad habits. I'm a good little boy. Except for maybe the occasional drink. Oh, and I tend to jump the gun sometimes. I used to smoke, but Endri made me quit 'cause he hated the smell. Now I play Mah Jongg on my laptop to calm my nerves.

E. Favourite food?
1. Endri : I like teriyaki chicken and fried rice. It's sweet and spicy.
2. Kyle : Oh, baby, medium-well steak and country-fried potatoes with green beans on the side, and don't forget that country gravy! Mm-mm!!

F. Favo... ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/17000332/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/17000332/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 20:46:45 PST
I've literally moved. I'm back in my hometown in Bedford County, PA. I like it here much better than York, PA. I was always more of a country girl than a city girl. This move has taken a lot out of me and my hubby and my daughter. But we're scraping by. We bought a mobile home very very close to where I grew up. So we have much more space to live than a tight apartment, and more yard too! 3/4 an acre. Now my little girl will have a place to play outside and she can quite literally run down to Grammy and Pappy's to visit.

Geney's growing very well. She's pulling herself up to stand and scooting along edges. Crawling up a strom. And she has two teeth on the bottom. She says mama a lot, and loves to crawl all over me when I'm trying to change her clothes or diaper. She's the sweetest, cutest little bugger.

So that's the big update. I would've posted it sooner, but we didn't have interent for a while during the move and set-up of the new house.

I have a huge backup of art I have to view, and it's going to take me a long time to look through all of it. So please be patient with me if I haven't gotten to any of your art in a while.

Thanks everybody!

]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/12905047/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/12905047/ Wed, 09 May 2007 20:50:54 PDT

As many of you know, I'm a mother now (and looking forward to my first Mother's Day celebration! ). Motherhood has been good so far. I've only gotten really frustrated with my little one a couple times so far, and I consider that pretty good. She's getting all chubby with the fat rolls around her chin, arms, and legs. And when she's making "presents" (I'm sure you know what that means ) she makes this little "oo" face that is so adorable!

I love my little girl.

[picture of my daughter, Geney Evelynn]

She'll grow up watching so many old school shows, that she'll think it's still 1985. Knight Rider, The Real Adventures of Jonny Quest, Inspector Gadget, Super Mario Super Show, A-Team, Dragonball/Z/GT, Spongebob Squarepants, The Batman, Batman the Animated Series, Stargate SG1 & Atlantis, The Littles (when it comes out in October), Beetlejuice, The Tick, The Muppet Show, Pirates of Dark Water, Darkwing Duck, ReBoot, Transformers, EEK the Cat, Bonkers, Fostsers Home for Imaginary Friends, The "original" Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, MythBusters, TONS of stuff. And that list is just naming a few. She'll never watch current TV, it'll all be DVDs and tapes. Which works out anyway, because all we have is an antenna which gets like 4 channels, and nothing's ever really on. Especially nothing for young children.


Other than being very busy taking care of my daughter every day, I haven't been doing much else. I just now got caught up with viewing the art from everyone I've been watching. There were over 300 images backed up! Sorry if I didn't comment on some of your art this time around, but there was just too much to go through to comment on everyone.

Eventually, I plan to get the rest of my ol' school Beetlejuice art up to archive, a new desktop shot, maybe a new ID too. Other than that, I don't really have much planned for dA. Just keep up with people I'm watching.


And I want to thank all the folks who watch me and put up with me. You guys are great!





http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/12119230/ Fri, 09 Mar 2007 14:16:48 PST This journal is to let folks who read it (and care) know what's happenend and what will happen with me. Bear with me, please.

Okay... Saturday, February 17 was my first baby shower. That was pretty fun, and I got lots of clothes for my baby. LOTS of clothes...and an overload of pink. I hate pink now more than before. It's so annoying how people associate having a girl with the color pink, and so they go overboard and give gifts of nothing BUT pink. Ick. But still, I'm very grateful for every gift. We received lots of items we couldn't afford on our own.

One week later, Saturday, Feb 24, my hubby's mom's side of the family gave us a baby shower too. They gave us some of the larger items that we needed, like a car seat/stroller combo and a play yard. Very useful items. Again, we were very grateful for everything we got.

That same evening, when we returned home, I was checking eBay because we'd been selling a few things to make some extra money. One person hadn't gotten their package yet, and was flipping out. They accused me of credit card fraud and was going to report me. Just because the postal system hadn't delivered their package yet. They should have contacted their post office about that and not me, because it wasn't MY fault that the package hadn't gotten there in time. I emailed the person a copy of the receipt of when I mailed their package and (grudgingly) gave them a refund, just to get them to shut up and not ruin my 100% postitive feedback record. I blocked them too, under the advice of my neighbor who is very good with situations like those. That person was either new to eBay or just there to cause problems because they only had 2 pieces of feedback, and one was from me. I was very upset about it. Cried a little. I mean, who wants to have their credibility questioned and threatened for doing nothing wrong? Since then, I haven't heard anything from that person, and I hope I never do again. Good riddance.

Again, that same night, not 20 minutes after THAT fiasco, I'm talking to my mom on the phone. She informs me that my grandmother on my dad's side had passed away that same day. What a kick in the face. I was devistated. (Wow, it's really hard to write this part...) ... So um, anyway, my parents came to pick me up the next day so I could attend the viewing on Monday and the funeral on Tuesday. My hubby couldn't come right away, but he was there for the funeral. His arm around my back was a real help.

My grandma was 96. I loved her so very much. This is going to hurt me for a while...

Tuesday night, we came back home.

Wednesday morning, the next day, at 11 in the morning, the first house on my block (I'm the 4th house of 5...so there are 2 houses between me and the first house)...the house...well, exploded. Literally. BOOM! My entire house shook back and forth and up and down, cabinet doors popped open, dishes rattled, a few things fell off of shelves. I screamed, thinking someone ran into the front of my house with their car! I ran outside panicked, only to see wood and debris all over the road and what was once a house, a pile of rubble with a roof laying on top. People were smelling gas and made everyone get back. I ran back in the house and tried to gather some valuables just in case my house was in line to blow up! All I could think to grab was photo albums and the cordless phone. I didn't even take my purse. I called my hubby at work and told him what happened. He was just happy I was okay and not in labor. So I took everything outside and watched the exploded house burn from my back yard. I could feel the heat, the fire was so hot. Then a cop made me (and others) get back and walk over to the little stip mall parking lot about 20 or 30 feet away. I watched firefighters battle the fire, listened to people talking about what happened, watched police tape off the entire block. I wasn't allowed back into my own house. Firefighters even broke down 2 of my downstairs neighbor's doors, trying to see if anyone was home. My neighbor was pissed when he found out! Oh, and a front window of my house blew out from the explosion too...he wasn't happy about that either.

So there I was, a 9-m... ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/11710599/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/11710599/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 13:44:44 PST

So we got this new toilet because the old one was leaking or something, right? The new one is shaped different and I can't get comfortable on it to...ya know. And now it growls at me when I flush it. Aie. Guess I need to call the landlord about it now. The things an adult has to put up with!

Six weeks... Just six more weeks until my baby is due. March 22 is the official due date, so the baby could be born anytime around then. I just want it to be over. I thought expecting a baby was supposed to be a happy and exiting time in a woman's life...but in my life it's only been agonizing.

I was in the hospital again last week, this time for kidney stones. (I hear they're more common in pregant women.) That was the most painful experience of my life. And I hear giving birth is just about the same. The joys I have to look forward to. It hurt so much I was throwing up, shivering, writhing, nearly passing out over and over, getting periods of hot and cold flashes, and unable to focus on anything. Ever have that much pain? Then don't tell me you know what it's like. You don't.

The waiting was the worst part...waiting for the nurses to come in and help me, put an IV line in (which they blew one of my veins doing, freaking me out further because a huge lump formed on my hand...it's still black and blue), and give me medication for the pain and to stop me from throwing up. I got this huge syringe of morphine that put a slow constant feed into my IV line to keep the pain at bay. And I got a button to push every 10 minutes (so I couldn't OD) when the pain got more severe.

And then it got nice because the pain went away and I was all high and giggly while watching America's Funniest Home Videos and COPS. My hubby thought it was hilarious, the way I laughed with this stoner laugh all the time. Heehee.

I passed one stone while in the hospital, but there's still another in my left kidney...waiting to cause me the same pain when it decides to come out. Who knows when that could be. It's also making it hard to pee, and I feel like I have to go very often. But when I do, not much happens, and it's really frustrating. I think that's why my toilet is growling at me now. It's mad because I flush it so much.

Oh, and if one more person tells me "it'll all be worth it" one more time, I'm going to break something. I'm tired of hearing that, and it's not really helping with anything. Nor is asking me if I'm excited about the baby coming soon. I'll be excited when I'm not uncomfortable 24/7.

My baby is fine though. It's going to be a girl (so we discovered), and she's very healthy and kicking me in the ribs often, just to let me know. I can't wait for her to be born; 1, so I can hold her, and 2, so my body can finally heal competely. (I'm sore, every day, all day.) Think I'll rustle up and post maybe 4 3D ultrasound pictures that we had done of her to show you just how precious she is. Baby pictures before the baby is even born! What's the world coming to?!

If you read this far, thank you for taking the time to do so. This is really the only place I have to freely vent my frustrations, and it feels better to "say" something and know that maybe someone out there is listening.



Also, my husband and I are in some financial difficulty due to excessive hospital bills that our insurance won't cover...not to mention buying things our new baby needs. If you feel you can, we would be grateful to anyone who could donate some money to us. Please follow this link : P%2dDonationsBF&char... ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/10800954/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/10800954/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 14:23:00 PST sometime since I still want to do it. It's just a matter of when.

I'd kind of like to start drawing again because I'm being very inspired by *furan-san's yummy buff guy art, but...I've got "performance" issues. Like, I'm afraid to draw anything basically because it's been a long time since I put pencil to paper, and I'm worried it'll suck horribly and further degrade my will to draw. And if I did go to draw something, I have no idea what it would be. I can't just start drawing and not know what it'll turn out to be. I have to know beforehand so I have a goal to reach, if that makes sense. I'd appreciate some advice on these matters.

So now I'm 22 weeks pregnant, and at the end of my 5th month (as of this journal). Still no real food cravings. I have to remind myself to eat, and that sucks. (I should be eating right now, but I don't feel like it.) I haven't gained any weight either, and if I don't by my next doctor visit, they're going to order another ultrasound to see if everything is okay. Oh, and my unborn child likes to dance on my bladder and spin circles in my gut. GUH it feels weird.

ADVICE TO ANYONE WHO HAS NEVER HAD A BABY: Don't get pregnant unless you REALLY want it. Because if you're anything like me, it might suck.

And yesterday was my birthday.






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]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/10444305/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/10444305/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 11:20:55 PDT blue bullets.

Here's a quick bulleted rundown on the not-so-great stuff that's been happening to me due to my pregnancy. *ahem*

Hospitalized 3 times for a total of 8 days.
Not barfing anymore.
Spitting about a gallon a day. (not kidding there)
Not taking meds to keep from throwing up anymore.
Reduced to chewing Flintstones Gummy vitamins b/c all other prenatal vitamins make me sick. (Oh, and they are like Heaven's vitamins! )
Doctor no longer seems concerned with my weight, so I have to go in every 4 weeks instead of every 2.
Taking tests out the wazoo.
Feel icky pretty much all day long, but it seems to be getting better. I have more energy now, but I'm still not back to normal.
Have problems with appetite and eating. Water is pretty much my staple diet.


Some good points!

I feel the baby moving quite a bit lately. It likes to play vollyball and do summersaults. ^_^

I am about 17-18 weeks pregnant currently. The tummy is starting to distend there. *pokes it*



In other news, I'm planning on uploading some old Beetlejuice art to my gallery. I'd like some of my better older drawings to be archived somewhere for folks to see, and I've decided to put them here. Look for that sometime soon here.




http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/10213822/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 10:53:54 PDT
Hospitalized twice for a total of 5 days.
Barfing like you would not believe.
Spitting about a gallon a day. (not kidding there)
Taking meds to keep from throwing up.
Reduced to chewing Flintstones Gummy vitamins b/c all other prenatal vitamins make me sick.
Doctor is concerned with my weight, so I have to go in every 2 weeks instead of every 6.
Taking tests out the wazoo.
Feel miserable pretty much all day long.

Well, there you have it. So far, I'm not too happy being pregnant. But, I must say, it is getting slowly better. I'm not totally bed-ridden anymore, and I have a bit more energy. I just can't wait for the part where everyone says I'll be wanting to eat everything in sight, and I'll feel great. Boy I wish that would happen!

I am about 14-15 weeks pregnant currently. Not showing as of yet, but I'm sure the tummy will pop out sometime. *snortlaugh* I have ultrasounds that I will post soon. My baby so precious!!






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The night before last (9-8/9-06), I had to be hospitalized for severe dehydration and being unable to stop throwing up. It was horrible. Absolutely wretched. Brandon took me to the emergency room where I was given 1 small bag of saline and made to wait in the waiting room (appropriate name btw) from a little after 2 AM until past 6 AM. It was only after breaking down and crying after throwing up AGAIN that someone came out and wheeled me back to a crappy bed in a hallway. There, I was given at least 4 more bags of liquid, all of which were doing nothing to really HELP the dehydration, just make me pee a lot.

Finally, after 7 PM (PM people), they took me up the the labor ward where they took more specific care of me, and I got an actual bed. (The bed in the hallway kept sliding apart b/c it was sectional or something.) Brandon finally went home to eat and get rest after they got me situated, and not long after my parents came in (God bless them for driving 3 hours to see me for maybe about 2, and then going home again). Mom was a real help, especially after they gave me some anti-nausea medication that made me totally flip out. I thought I was going to die. It made me hot, scared, and I felt like I had to jump out of bed and run away. Total panic attack. Mom had to cradle me as tight as she could and keep telling me to breathe slow and deep. That feeling was how I imagine it might feel to die. It was absolutely horrible. I told the nurse that came in afterward to never give that stuff to me again, and she said okay and what it was called. R-something. Then later the doctor came in, and I was a little more calmed, but I could still feel it, I told her the same thing, don't give it to me again. They put in my records to not give me that medicine anymore. Whew.

Well, they finally got me to relax and go to sleep. Mom and Dad left around 10 PM and I was by myself until they let me go around 11 the next morning. I'm still weak, can't hardly eat much. Last night I started throwing up again, but Mom came back down again to stay the night this time, and she made me some homemade ginger tea (cold) and I kept sipping that and it made me feel better. Now I'm to the point of eating crackers and jello. But I'm still shuffling around the house like a 90-year-old woman since I'm so weak. Tomorrow I see my obstetrician (however you spell it) since that was the earliest they could get me in to check on me after all that.

Well, I'm feeling a little dizzy, so I guess it's time for bed. Thanks for reading my woes and problems. It was just tonight that I was able to actually get onto the computer and do this. We'll see how tomorrow goes now.

Oh, I also have scans of my first sonogram (I think is what it's called), and you can see my baby! I saw it's little heart beating and everything! It was moving all around and all wiggly! When I get to feeling better, I'll upload them here.


NOTE: To folks I watch, forgive me for not viewing, let alone commenting on your newer deviations. I just haven't been feeling well enough to go through them all. I will when I get better though. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/9700845/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/9700845/ Sat, 12 Aug 2006 10:11:38 PDT It's so horrible, it's not funny.

Pregnant women get food aversions and cravings right? Well I don't want to eat ANYTHING, and I'm hardly craving anything either. Though this morning, raisins sounded good...

What's worse, is my sense of smell has increased, and there is something in the kitchen sink that I just can't get near because it makes me sick to smell it. In the kitchen trash can too.

And what's WORSE is that my husband, Brandon, can't help me, because last Saturday, he fell down the stairs and broke his ankle!!! Now I not only have to try to take care of myself, the house, and everything else, but I have to take care of him too because his ankle is in a cast and it hurts so much for him. (He broke all three bones at the top of his ankle, pretty much separating it from his leg. He had surgery and they put metal plates and screws in there to hold the bones together. They'll be in for life now, the poor guy. ) I was so upset when it happend...I've never heard him scream like that ever. I don't think I'll ever forget that sound.

Though, he does want known how manly he was during it all. He didn't cry or swear or anything. Just sweated bullets and panted. My parents were there at the time, and my mom kept telling him to calm down or he'd hyperventillate. He was carrying a computer monitor down the stairs when he fell.

It's all just so sucky because he's in pain nearly all the time, and I'm sick as a dog all the time, yet I still have to jump up and help him do things like get out of bed and bring him his medicine and bathe him.... Well, the bathing part isn't so bad.

I guess this is all just something to prepare me for taking care of a baby? If it is, I just wish it wouldn't have cost Brandon his ankle.






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http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/9483073/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 20:07:08 PDT
Blarg, so I was checking out some of my stories that I had written, reading over them, you know. I remembered how I took a "Universal Mary-Sue Litmous Test" a few months ago, testing if my character, Endri, was a male version of a Mary-Sue. Back then, oh, baby, I had a high score, like 80-some when a non-Mary-Sue score is ideally 15 or less. Blasted me down.

So I took him and reworked some of his traits, etc. I don't want a Mary-Sue character. I want to have a genuinely GOOD character that doesn't save the day, doesn't hog all the attention (unless the story is specifically involving him), isn't the absolute best at everything he does/touches, etc.

Today, I remembered that test again, and went back to take it again, remembering the new traits I worked out for Endri. He still has a high score 46. But that's better than 80!! Even still, the score table says "Fanfic authors, you might just want to toss this one into the rubbish bin." Is he that bad? Damn.

So, disregarding all the stories I wrote with him in (all the official BJ fanfic stories, and even the side stories that aren't necessarily fanfics), I'd like to rebuild my character from the ground up. I went through the quiz again (which I believe is a good way to gauge how good of a character you've got) and reduced the final score to 14, setting boundaries for myself, but not in a negative way.

Here is the basis of Endri's new character design:

1. His name is Endriði "The Viking" Timbürland (Nikúlason). Nikúlason is Endri's last name from birth. It means literally, Son of Nikúlas (BJ's made-up human name). Timbürland is the last name Endri uses even after he discovered his true name. Timbürland was the village of his origin (named literally "timber land"), a common way to name people back then. The Viking is what people called him in the past when he wasn't such a savory fellow.

2. He knows 4 other languages besides his native language, which is Norse. They are: Japanese, English, Spanish, & ___? I don't know what choose to make the last one. Any ideas?

3. Endri is the long-lost son of Beetlejuice. Because of this, he is involved in the past of a canon character (which does cost points). Also, because he is a lost child, a family that is not his own raised him (which also costs points).

4. He inhereited BJ's special "juice" or his "powers" after he died. So Endri has powers like BJ, but his powers do not exceed BJ's.

5. Eventually, Endri ends up living with Beetlejuice in the Roadhouse. Though I don't know about how long he stays there. It won't be permanent.

6. Because of his unsavory actions in the past, Endri carries guilt with him. ... He killed people, basically.

So those are his base traits that can be built upon but not exceeded. If anyone wants to help out, I've got an ear and mind open.




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]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/9329856/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/9329856/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 08:00:45 PDT WitchyWanda's birthday. And my one ID.

I think I should say something to them about it, since I DID have "used with permission" on each of the pictures...but I just don't feel like messing with it, and still being told I'm wrong for some reason.

Being on dA anymore is just pissing me off.






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Guess I'll say something more intelligent when I think of it later.

One thing though...when I finally get a Trans-Am and beef it up like Kitt from Knight Rider, there will be rules while riding/driving it.... Main rule : Only music from 1992 and earlier will be played in the vehicle at any time. (My Kitt will be my time machine to the '80s.)






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1. Spell your first name backwards: Yecal...if only Mel were here...
2. Story behind your DEVIANTART name: I used to work at Spencers Gifts in the Galleria Mall while attending college (along with another job at the same time...ugh 2 jobs and college killed me), so that's where the "Spencers" came from. The 13 is there because I used to think 13 was a lucky-ish number, not an unlucky number like most folks think. But anymore, I just think it's a plain ol' number. Plus, it distinguishes me from the other 10,000 Spencers out there.
3. What month were you born in? November
4. Where do you live: Pennsylvania. Never moved out of state, fortunately. Looks like I'll be here forever, but you never know.


DESCRIBE YOUR:

5. Wallet: Purple with Sailor Moon on the front. HEY! It was a birthday gift!
6. Car: Purple '99 Dodge Neon, plush confetti seats, power locks (back right door doesn't work anymore), power windows on front doors (driver's window sticks on door frame and has torn a piece of plastic off), sun roof (doesn't work), keyless entry and remote start-up (doesn't work), CD player/AM/FM (backlighting blown, can't see the readout). Click Here to see my car. There's a nice rusting dent on the front right fender, next to the headlight where I hit it at the car wash. She's showing her wear and tear now, but we OWN it! YES. BOUGHT and PAID for!
7. Toothbrush: It's poiple and grey. (Dang...I have a lot of purple stuff!)
8. Jewelry worn daily: Class ring from HS (class of '99 baby) and my wedding bands
9. Pillow Case: Oh, baby, it's white! *freaks out*
11. Underwear: *ahem!* Who's the pervert that made this thing! White...
12. Sunglasses: Don't wear any, I need perscription
14. Favorite shirt: Don't have one
15. Cologne/Perfume: I sometimes use body spray, it's called "Warm Vanilla Sugar"
16. CD in stereo: The only stereo we really have is the one in the car, and it has a burned CD in it that my hubby made at work.
17. Piercings: Just once in both ears. I got them when I was 8 or something, and they have NEVER closed up! No lie! Sometimes I go for a year or more without putting in earrings, and when next I do, it goes right in! I think I'm lucky for that.


WHAT ARE YOU:

18. Wearing now: Striped tank top and grey athletic shorts. Man, it's hot here...
19. Wishing: Uhhh...I wish...my Neopets account hadn't been frozen... -_-; (but I got a new one)
20. Wanting: This nasty house to be clean without my having to touch it. But I went on a spree yesterday cleaning it, so it's better, but still not done.
26. The last thing you ate: A turkey pot pie last night
27. Something you are afraid of: Falling. That sensation you get when you fall, the tingling hands and feet, then they sweat, then your stomach gets all tingly and floaty? I can't stand that. Don't hate it, but can't stand it. It's not hights I fear, it's falling from them. Even when I watch movies where they show a shot from really high up looking down? I get that feeling. *shivers*


DO YOU:

28. Do you like candles: Love 'em! I like cinnamon, apple, strawberry, and peach the best.
30. Do you like the taste of blood: Eh, sorta. Just small, small ammounts, a... ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/8734585/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/8734585/ Wed, 10 May 2006 20:24:55 PDT Update on the kitty situation with me :

I can't keep her. She's not sick with anything, but her thyroid is...bad? I dunno what scale they use for it, but they said she was at 7, and that isn't too good. Medication will help, but must be administered 2-3x a day.

I can't stay at my parent's forever and take care of the cat. My parent's can't take care of her because my mom works all day, and my dad works all night. Other relatives have been asked, but they can't take her in. I even called my landlord and cried over the phone, asking if I could keep her at the apartment and nurse her back to health, but he said no.

My last course of hope before having to take her to the SPCA is asking my neighbor, the folks that found her originally anyway, if they know of anyone who could take the kitty in and take care of her. I'm calling them in the morning.

It just hurts so badly because I already love her to death, and knowing that I can't keep her because of so many technicalties just hurts. She has the sweetest personality, is lovable, likes to ride in cars, doesn't claw anything...she's just perfect. I love her so much already, but I can't keep her.

At the same time though...I do realize it would cost a lot of money to nurse an already old cat like that. She's already stayed overnight at the vet 2 nights in a row, so they can monitor her and give her meds and stuff. If she gets better, they'd have to operate on her teeth because they're hurting her. I guess...a cat with so many medical problems isn't what we need right now.

But I love her.

And it hurts to say goodbye.






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Her 12-year-old (I think) son and his friend found a stray cat lying in the middle of the road, picked it up and brought it home with them! My neighbor then brought me into her apartment and showed me the poor thing. They had given her a bath, so she was pretty damp still, and SO bony scrawny it was heartbreaking! I LOVE cats, and to see one in such a shape was hard to witness.

Now, neither of us can have pets in the house we live in (I live upstairs, she lives downstairs in a 2 story farm house) since we're renting and the lease says no pets. And my neighbor didn't know what to do with the poor thing. The cat obviously was malnurished, would hardly eat or drink at all, and was almost terrified to be outside! (When put outside, she immediately wants back in. The darndest thing I ever saw in a cat.) My neighbor also didn't want to take the cat to the shelter, because she was afraid they'd put it down, and she loves cats too. She's been searching for the owners, but neither of us really think they will be found.

Long story short, my parents agreed to house the cat until either the original owners can be found, or my hubby and I get a place that will allow pets. So I've been staying here with my parents for a while, giving the kitty we have named Vikouri antibiotics we got when we went to the vet, and feeding her until her tummy is all round and full. It took her a while to really start eating, but now when she's hungry, she lets everyone know! MROW MROW MROW!

The vet said her heart was strong, and her kidneys were okay. She was dehydrated, and they gave her fluids, dewormed her, and perscribed liquid antibiotics that I have to administer 2x a day. She kind of has a breathing problem, where she breathes loudly (best I can describe it), but that's what the antibiotics are for. I go back to the vet in about a week to get a feline leucaemia test done on her. If it's positive...well...that isn't good, I'll just say. But if that's negative, she could very well get back to being a normal cat again! Here's hoping! But she's so alert, eating so much, and doesn't seem to have any other problems, that I'm pretty sure she doesn't have it.

I have been wanting and wanting and wanting a cat again, and now I have one! And she's so beautiful! Orange and white. When I'm able, I'll upload pics of her. She's really thin right now, but we're going to fatten her up! Only problem is she won't use the litter pan. I've resorted to sticking her in the bathroom with her pan, food, and a place to lay at night, hoping to train her to use it. But with older cats, it's more difficult. We'll see how it goes. (All advice on litter training, especially for older cats, is welcome!)

I guess all I have left to say is : I GOT A KITTY!!!

(for now anyway )



http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/8494033/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 21:23:51 PDT
1. I chew my fingernails a lot, especially while watching TV/movies because my hands have nothing to do.

2. My newest hobby is model cars. I've already built one, a '94 Camaro Z/28 convertible my brother got me for Christmas. Next in line is the Back to the Future Time Machine, the Delorean.

3. I used to collect comic books such as X-Men, Catwoman, X-Files, and some other various X-Men groups like X-Factor, and ExCalibur to name a few. I have over 4 boxes full of them.

4. When I eat, I hate it when my food touches each other. Each pile of food has to not touch, or I won't eat what was touching. I've always been that way, and my parents don't know why.

5. I love to organize things. Occasionally, I'll go through my computer and organize all the files, putting them into folders and subfolders in groups and whatnot.

6. I like repetition, not chaotic order. I like when things go form A to B to C in that order, not you can get from A to C in 3 different ways. So if something needs done, I like being told exactly how to do it, not be given 10 different options on how to do it.


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PS. I just got back from a 2 week trip/getaway from home, in case any of you cared about where I've been. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/8298854/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/8298854/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 20:03:39 PST
I never could really take criticism well, this I knew for years and years, but I've always tried to see it from others POVs and try to understand. But the last few years, with my having hardly any outside contact with other human beings by being a stay-at-home wife, I've noticed that I can take criticism less and less because my personal opinions have hardened to the point where I don't like others contradicting me.

Case in point, tonight (and the past two weeks, really). I'm attempting to flesh out a new story, this one in the Knight Rider genre. Yes, laugh, ha ha. But I'm trying to make it more technical, more serious, cooler than KR had been. My husband was willingly talking with me about it, sending ideas my way, giving opinions, and helping me to develop some technical gadgetry, something I know I lack the creativity for. When I tried to add my 2 cents to the gadgets, he tells me my ideas lack creativity. And when I finally found the motivation to write the opening to the story this evening and read it back to him, he tells me it's worded nicely and sounds poetic, but I'm making it sound like I'm talking about the people and their cute little pet cars and making it "girly" and not all techy and macho as it is "apparently" supposed to be written.

SOR-RY. I'm a GIRL. I DO things like that. That and my extreme lack of outside stimulation really staunches my motivation and creativity. So apparently, nothing I do in this case is good enough. I tried to listen and understand, but it just got to me this evening. I thought I had finally found something we both could talk avidly about (since he hates Beetlejuice and doesn't like when I go on about any of it), but no, I was wrong yet again. He doesn't really like Knight Rider either, and was only talking to me about it to be nice and attempt to be supportive.

Oh, yes, so supportive, especially when he says to everything I come up with that it lacks creativity. Maybe it does. But how am I to know that? Well, I guess I'm figuring it out that apparently I have NO creativity anymore, and probably never had.

So I told him that I won't even talk to him about my story anymore, won't ask for his help or opinions or anything. All he said was "fine". That's support for you. Really gives me motivation to jump right back in where I left off and continue writing it! Because you know, I'm just BURSTING with lack of creativity! And I just have to let my lameness show!

Oh, and by the way, my desire to draw has finally hit rock bottom. I'm not even going to try to say that all I need are ideas and positive encouragement. I HAVE ideas. But I just CANNOT pick up a pencil anymore and draw them. It's gone. Withered away. I'm not drawing anymore. It's been getting steadily worse and worse over the past 3 years, and now I can't deny it any longer. I WANT to draw. But it's just not THERE anymore. So, whatever I have lying on the back burners that I hadn't posted for some reason or another, I'm going to post, and then that's probably going to be it for a long time.

Sorry to disappoint folks who watch me, and sorry to disappoint friends. But if the fire's out, then nothings going to get cooked. My fires have been out for a long time now, and forcing myself to draw isn't working. It's only making it worse.

I'm still keeping my account here because I have lots of people I watch, and I love looking at other's art and commenting. But don't expect much new stuff from me. Sorry.

Now I'll take my creatively lacking ass and go to bed or something. Because there's nothing else better to do apparently. (Oh, look, he just stormed out of the room all pissy like and slammed the door for no reason. I just love spending quality time with my husband. Thank God I'm leaving for a week to Oklahoma on Saturday.)

— LG ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/8223335/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/8223335/ Tue, 21 Mar 2006 02:44:28 PST made me do it. Blame her. That, and this is an intresting twist to those normal surveys that float around. This will be up for just awhile, then I get on to normal business.




1. Grab the book nearest you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

The closest "book" to me is a printout of a Knight Rider story called "Justice" by Birgit Stäbler. Pg 18, line 4 : "I think it went better than I would have thought. Something's going on and everyone's trying not to be the one to spill it. Anything from Nick?"

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?

The computer desk that now serves as our entertainment center.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

Ummm...if I recall...it was the Harry Potter Goblet of Fire movie that my mom had just bought. She wanted me to see it and all I was intersted in was the special effects. The whole HP thing doesn't interest me. Though I did cry when the boy got killed. That was sad.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is.

5:15 am

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?

5:10 am

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

Does music from the computer not count? If not, then I'm listening to my video game music remixes and soundtracks playlist on iTunes, and I can also hear the fish tank running, and my little space heater under the desk is buzzing too.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

Last I was outside was early, early Monday morning, around 3 am. My hubby and I had arrived home from visiting my parents for the weekend (and doing laundry), and we were getting out of the car and unloading it of baskets and bags.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?

Uhhh...Wanda's journal? I dunno. Neopets, maybe too.

9. What are you wearing?

A green T-shirt, grey polyester/rayon pants, a pair of old cut-off black stretch pants under those, black socks, and a black sweater. Oh, and my computer glasses.

10. Did you dream last night?

Yes I did. It was long and detailed, but the only part I remember now was the part where my hubby had cheated on me with someone, and I was pregnant. I KNOW he would never do that...and I'm not preggy either.

11. When did you last laugh?

Tonight. Brandon and I were trying to exercise together before he went to bed. It was silly. ^_^

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in.

White paint and a few holes where the paint tore off when I tried to hang some pictures (because whoever lived here before painted over the wallpaper instead of taking it down first).

13. Seen anything weird lately?

My husband? He's such a goof.

14. What do you think of this quiz?

It's different, I'll give it that. But I'm also glad for it. Breaks up the norm.

15. What is the last film you saw?

Again, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.

16. If you became a multi-millionare overnight, what would you buy?

Hmmm...I'd invest first and foremost. Make that million turn into 10 million. THEN I'd go buy stuff. Like a house and a Jeep. And I'd get my Kitt replica car and drive it around with the scanner running and pushing Turbo Boost and pretening it's jumping. Yes, I'm strange. (Kitt is the car from Knight Rider for those who have no clue what I'm talking about.)

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.

Well...thinking, give me a minute...*elevator music*...well, okay, how's this? Brandon and I will be trying for a baby this summer. ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6995560/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6995560/ Fri, 03 Mar 2006 11:27:10 PST
I'm thinking of doing at least 1 piece of new fan art for everything I had once loved while growing up till now. That includes everything from TV shows (live action & cartoon) to video games/computer games that I used to play and love. Examples would be Inspector Gadget, Ren & Stimpy, Knight Rider, Stargate SG-1, Legend of Kyrandia 1-3, Roger Wilco, Kings Quest, Sonic the Hedgehog, Super Mario Bros, etc.

Sound cool? I think it would be neat, not only to revisit some of my favorites and do some fan art for stuff I never have before, but it would also be a bit refreshing to you guys and my gallery, not to mention myself. I'm hoping to kick this ongoing project off by Monday, depending on if I can get myself motivated to put pencil to paper. (It's so hard nowadays to do so...so so hard.)




I'd like to take a moment to thank everyone who's ever done art or fics for me. Mostly, those gracious folks draw or include in their fics my original Beetlejuice characters, Endri and Kyle. And I love that because I'm very fond of my boys myself. And to know others like them as well is just such an awesome feeling.

So I'd like to take a moment and thank everyone I can who's done art or fics for me by listing their names and what they drew/wrote. Check out what they have done and also continue to browse their galleries. They all deserve my immense thanks and highest reccomendations.

= Art
= Fiction


~Cricketjuice
Endri

~deityofchaos
Glompage Cubed, AKA: Thank You

http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6771010/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 23:43:48 PDT
2 AM, I get out of bed to go to the bathroom and stay up for a while because I'm not really tired anymore. I pick up my bottle of Dr. Pepper from the nightstand and carry it with me, intent on drinking the last little bit left in there.

I get to the end of the bed, right at the corner.

Right in front of me, INCHES from my FACE, a bright white ball of light flashes and scares the living crap out of me.

I screamed. I dropped my bottle, spilling some pop on the carpet. My husband wakes up and screams along with me because I scared him. I end up plastered against the window, arms spread out along the wall to either side, trying so hard to get away from that spot.

My husband turns on the bedside light, and of course, there's nothing there.

I shook for 5 minutes afterward, and now I'm wiiiiiiiiide awake.

Thank goodness I didn't pee myself in freight. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6690102/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6690102/ Wed, 05 Oct 2005 19:40:50 PDT BJ's Fan Site is back!

Special, special thanks go to everyone who suggested, looked, and asked around for servers to move the site to. I couldn't have done it without you guys!

So please head on over to www.BJsFanSite.net.tf and check out the updates. I...kinda need 10 unique hits to my site per day now, or I might lose it...so hopefully, that won't happen.



In a short while, I will be going through my gallery (the parts still hidden too). Since we (my husband and I) are kinda financially in need, I will again be selling prints of my art. A later journal entry will disclose my asking prices and any other information necessary.

I don't pretend I'm the best artist around, but I also don't pretend I suck either. I'm just hoping for some assistance from a few of you fine folks willing and able to lend a hand and also get a nice print out of it too. ^_^

I'm also considering comissions.

Till then, thanks for being here! ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6431916/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6431916/ Wed, 07 Sep 2005 11:33:14 PDT BJ's Fan Site, once a nice stop to check out Beetlejuice the cartoon, is now, sadly, gone. I've been in contact with my web host, and it is now known to me that I must pay to continue using his services. What once was free, unlimited storage space, must now be paid for. And I can understand and respect that, because nothing can be free forever.

This does, however, leave me in a bind. I can't afford to pay for web hosting. More and more, it gets harder and harder to find decent web hosting for free that allows unlimited storage space and FTP. And currently, I have no time to search for such a rarity. It must still be out there somewhere, but I don't have the time to look for it.

I could ask for donations be sent in so I can afford montly payments upwards of $20.00. But for just a fan site about Beetlejuice? I don't think I have the right to ask for money for something that many would see as trivial.

I could also ask for someone to do some searching FOR me. Find me a good, free web host with 1-2 GB storage, or better yet, unlimited storage, FTP, with good bandwith allowances and PHP and CGI capabilities. But I feel that would be asking too much.

I've put a lot, a LOT of work into my website. It is completely original, from the banners to the images on the main page, to the images and written information in the Character BIOS, to even the background images in each section of the site. EVERYTHING is original, EVERYTHING has been tailored and fitted and coded to the very best of my ability since September 2001.

And I wanted to add more. A feedback form at the end of each chapter in the stories I had hosted, so people could write up a comment or review and send it in. A secition for official magazine articles and ads that feature Beetlejuice from the cartoon, compiled from my own collection. Not to mention the fan art and fan fiction several people had sent in that I didn't get to post yet.

I'm incredibly sad to say, my website is now history. It's grown much too large to move back to Yahoo Geocities where it was first brought online. I don't have the patience to have part of my site hosted at one free place, and part of it hosted at another, making me have to use massive links to make sure when you click to see a picture, you'll see that picture. It's too much, and I have too little time and patience to do that again (yes, I had done that before).

If you are a visitor of my site (I hesitate to say "fan" because I don't feel confident enough with that term as of yet), and do not wish to see it wither and vanish, I will accept VOLUNTARY help. Help in any way you see fit. I really hesitate to accept money for this. Because if I get a few bucks to buy some server space, what will happen next month when I need to keep paying for it? I can't keep asking people for money to keep my fan site running. But if anyone can find a good web host for me, I will be most joyously grateful.

EDIT For those of you wanting to help with the search, let me clairify a few things so you can better understand what I'm looking for and need. BJ's Fan Site's current size is about 200 MB. And it's growing, even now. A 500 MB web host does not provide much room to grow. So anything 1 GB or more if possible would provide pleny of room. So, just to make it easier:

1+ GB Storage space
20+ GB Bandwidth
Unlimited FTP Access (I dislike web-based uploading, please avoid if possible)
PHP
CGI
90+% Uptime (if possible)
No Ads (if possible)

If anyone can provide me with some VOLUNTARY help, please comment on this journal, send me a note, or send me an email at this email address. I will also post this journal at the Beetlejuice Forum on Yahoo.

I appreciate anything anyone can do. Thank you so much for making BJ's Fan Site just a little popular, and thank you for making me feel so good in the process.

Lacey G. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6367846/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6367846/ Tue, 30 Aug 2005 10:03:59 PDT


In other news...

Lately, I'm hard-pressed to find the motivation to get online at all, let alone check my dA account. All apologies to those who I watch that have submitted deviations to which I have not commented yet. My deviantWatch list is getting longer and longer, and I just don't have the patience to load over 150 images every other day to view and comment on half of them. My dial-up takes a while to load everything, and it's starting to get bothersome. And frankly, we don't have enough money to get a faster connection like DSL or Cable (preferrably Cable). So I'll do my best to get to each one on my watch list, but don't be offended if I take my time.

I have some new art to post myself, but they aren't completed yet. I'll get them up when I can, but again, expect me to take my time.

A new idea I've had recently was to listen to some of my favorite songs, or songs that really move me, and draw a "Music Video Comic" to go with the song. I already did it once with the song "But Not Tonight" by Scott Weiland where Endri's bathing in the rain. I was very proud of that work, so I think to do it again with another song might be successful. I'll try not to pick obscure songs no one knows either. But know that I'm not a "mainstream" chick, so all this depressing crap coming out nowadays will be off the list of candidates. Should someone have a suggestion for a song that they think would make a good Video Comic, let me know what it is and who it's by, and I'll take a look! ^_^ (I like mostly '80's and '90's music, but you don't have to be confined to that. )


Thank you for everyone's time. Thank you for everyone's patience. Thank you for all the watches, favorites, and comments I've recieved from everyone. I read them all, and even though I may not respond to some of them, I'm thrilled someone took their time to say something to me.

Oh, and one more thing...taking a break from the internet entirely and getting back to "life" can really do wonders for one's motivation and lack of ideas.




Important links to see:

The Truth about the Alien
The Truth - @ t52.org
Lack of Trust Will Ruin Us - Journal by `justthorne
Justthorne's Journal - A senior member getting the ball rolling on many issues, especially the Submission Agreement revisions. Stay posted to what's going on by reading his journals.
Our Response; A Big Ass List - This journal by *killjoy documents EVERYTHING in an organized manner. Worth digging into to stay in touch with what's happened/is happening.

Stay informed of the current state of affairs!
http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6200176/ Thu, 11 Aug 2005 17:07:18 PDT
`justthorne has laid out a plan in his latest journal and I suggest that you please read this plan because it makes sense and is worth at least TRYING. So for one week as of today, my gallery will be put into storage.

It is my suggestion that others also partake in this plan to restore TRUST to deviantART, because right now, can we all really say that we trust the current administration after everything that has been flying around here lately? I don't even know if I'm willing to give them the benefit of the doubt anymore, myself. And if hiding my gallery is one more step in the direction of getting things resolved in this art community, then I will do so. It's just a week after all.


And still, I will not be uploading any works until I'm satisfied things are settling back down. I do have things I want to post, and I WANT to post them, but when I think about the tumoil on the site, I hesitate yet again.

I want this site to be as it was when I joined, better even. This place is a wonderful place to be, and I detest the thought of leaving and not being a part of such a wonderful community. And I hope that the steps I'm taking are ones that are added to thousands of others to get back what we so desire...TRUST in OUR website, deviantART.



Important links to see:

The Truth about the Alien
The Truth - @ t52.org
Lack of Trust Will Ruin Us - Journal by `justthorne
History in the Making - A suggestion worth trying to restore TRUST in deviantART!
Our Response; A Big Ass List - This journal by *killjoy documents EVERYTHING in an organized manner. Worth digging into to stay in touch with what's happened/is happening.

Stay informed of the current state of affairs!
]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6123685/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6123685/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 21:24:23 PDT EDIT: In hopes that TRUST will be restored to deviantART, I will be partaking in the plan that `justthorne has laid out in his latest journal. Please read this plan because it makes sense and is worth at least TRYING. So for one week, my gallery will be put into remission save for one deviation that I'll choose later to leave out.

It is my suggestion that others also partake in this plan to restore TRUST to deviantART, because right now, can we all really say that we trust the current administration after everything that has been flying around here lately? I don't even know if I'm willing to give them the benefit of the doubt anymore, myself. And if hiding my gallery is one more step in the direction of getting things resolved in this art community, then I will do so. It's just a week after all.



Since things could escalate into a legal dispute (if it hasn't already), and since I'm questioning the future of deviantART at the moment, I've decided that I will not post any art until I'm satisfied that a conclusion has been made regarding recent events. I'll still offer up comments and things of the like, but no art. (Not that I've been posting much lately anyway. ) I will however, post any art supportive of deviantART and/or °jark if I so choose.

Co-founder °jark has been wronged in some way IMO, and I do support him.

The rest of my opinions are to remain unannounced. Things keep going back and forth, and I'm not sure what to think anymore as I read deeper and deeper. I just suggest everyone take interest in what's happening, because whether you support one or the other or no one, it will affect you because it affects deviantART as a whole. I'm not saying jump on any bandwagons, just take an interest in what's going on, and don't be left in the dark.

I myself am keeping records, screenshots of things I've seen, saving webpages with information...just in case. Because you never know.



Important links to see:

The Truth about the Alien
The Truth - @ t52.org
Lack of Trust Will Ruin Us - Journal by `justthorne
History in the Making - A suggestion worth trying to restore TRUST in deviantART!
Our Response; A Big Ass List - This journal by *killjoy documents EVERYTHING in an organized manner. Worth digging into to stay in touch with what's happened/is happening.

Stay informed of the current state of affairs!
http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6062546/ Thu, 28 Jul 2005 22:27:36 PDT
In other news, just to move onward, I've got a toothache in two teeth, and my dentist appointment isn't until next Friday. Needless to say, I've been taking Ibuprofen all week, and it still hurts like a mother. That first night, I couldn't even sleep. Had to use a hot compress on my cheek to soothe the pain. And if the Ibuprofen won't cut it, I have some "special" pills the hospital gave me for that stomach pain a while back. It'll stop the pain dead and put me into a nice drowsy stupor. Yeaaaah. But I'm holding out for last resorts on that one.

All I'm hoping is that I make it until my appointment and not die of sheer torture that is the throbbing in my mouth.

Special note to all you yungin's out there: BRUSH YOUR TEETH EVERY DAY, TWICE A DAY.

Even though I was predisposed with soft, cavity-prone teeth, I was still not as dilligent as I should have been with tooth brushing and flossing. Kids, learn from my mistakes. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6053047/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/6053047/ Wed, 27 Jul 2005 23:52:57 PDT
What the hell?! I've been informed by the devART staff that I've committed a policy violation on my most popular pice of art, Happily Ever After. The picture of Beetlejuice and Lydia's wedding with the curtains and bridesmaids and ushers and stained glass window. WHAT POLICY VIOLATION?! Here's what I've been told via Note:


Spencers13,

Your deviation, listed below, has been removed from deviantART due to a violation of our policies:

URL: [link]
Title: Happily Ever After
Submitted: 2005-06-02 12:26:44 am

Your deviation was removed because it violated one of the following policies:

1. Deviants are responsible for securing the necessary third-party arrangements which allow the submissions to deviantART that are derivative works based on that artists works. Without that arrangement made prior to submission then the deviation is not legally allowed to be submitted.

2. deviantART does not allow the submission of copywritten material without the securing of the necessary third-part arrangements. This means that if a deviant submits the work of another artist, without first obtaining permission, and displaying that permission on deviantART, then the submission is considered a rip.

deviantART enforces a zero tolerance policy in regards to violations of our submission policy and therefore will take the actions that we deem necessary on a case by case basis. There is a possibility that you will be banned from interactivity on deviantART therefore it is suggested that you visit your user page to see if this is in fact the case.

If you feel that you are receiving this in error, or have questions regarding it, then visit the deviantART Help Desk in order to submit an inquiry. It should be noted that replies to this note will go unanswered and your only course of action is the deviantART Help Desk!

--
deviantART Staff


WTF?! What was wrong with it?! There was no third party for me to obtain permission to post my own art! I gave credits, didn't I?! It's fanart for cryin' out freakin' loud!

There was nothing wrong with that picture, and it was my original work and style except for the Mucha glass window which I ALSO credited in my description. I spent literally MONTHS on that picture for them to delete it and all the comments I got on it?! Hell no! I. AM. PISSED!!

That "Help Desk" has been contacted already. We'll see about this.

*********

I got a reply from the "Help Desk". It WAS the Mucha window that got my pic deleted. Great. I'd better go ask his grave if I can use that image on my fanart.

If I want to post that picture again, I'll have to change the window. Don't expect that too soon, if at all. This whole ordeal has put me in a foul mood, so I won't be touching that picture for a while.

So tempted to just leave. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/5833580/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/5833580/ Sun, 03 Jul 2005 23:39:10 PDT Don't spill Pepsi on your keyboard, folks! It sucks and costs money!


And in more important news, I've gone through my gallery and deleted several deviations that are of "Adult" material that contained nudity or expressed sexual innuendoes or anything sexal in nature, as I saw them.

I've realized that a good deal of the folks watching me and/or viewing my art are under 18 years old. In my experience, and also as a factual statement, minors are impressionable people. So I will no longer, to the best of my ability, display any of my personal art that is sexual in nature.

I've also changed a few of my pics to display "Mature Content"--for the few that I don't think are bad enough to delete, but not exactly clean either.

I just want everyone to know, that the comments and favs I recieved on those pictures I removed were very much appreciated and loved! And I saved a copy of each one so your reviews weren't lost. Thank you! ^_^


For any kids under 18 reading this and take offense...I'm not sorry. If you want to see adult content that I don't believe you should be seeing, then go find it elsewhere. But I won't be held accountable for "corrupting minors". And every single one of you should be utilzing the "Adult Content Filter" that dA offers if you are not already.

Feel what you will about my decision, but it is my decision.

I would thank everyone for understanding.

]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/5805255/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/5805255/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 19:33:40 PDT -Obviously,the.spacebar.doesn't.work.since.I'm.using.periods.to.separate.my.words.
-I.can't.comment.or.upload.anything.like.this.nor.work.much.on.my.own.projects.until.it's.fixed.
-So,I'm.sorry.for.not.being.around.for.a.few.days.
-Hopefully,this.weekend.I'll.be.able.to.get.it.fixed.

.I.have.some.things.to.submit.but.I.obvioulsy.can't.at.the.moment.
.But.when.I.get.this.problem.fixed,I'll.be.a-uploadin'...^_^

.Thank.you.for.being.patient!







Jobs

I design websites for the following:

www.freedomthrujesus.org [ 100% completed & ongoing ]
www.truckerschapel.org [ 91% completed & ongoing ]


Current Artwork & Projects

http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/5661656/ Thu, 16 Jun 2005 01:14:04 PDT Each pic also has a description of what was fixed up in case you wanted to know.

Images I have improved and re-uploaded:
Forest Folly - Title Pic : [link]
Genki Uzu : [link]
Genki Uzu - Kyle Close-up : [link]
Genki Uzu - Endri Close-up : [link]
But Not Tonight pg 1 : [link]
But Not Tonight pg 2 : [link]
But Not Tonight pg 3 : [link]
But Not Tonight pg 4 : [link]

Also, I'll say something again about my having uploaded a lot of videos to my scraps so those who don't watch that section can see them.

Animated Logo : [link]
Flowers Inc : [link]
Liquid Plumr Commercial : [link]
PSA for MADD : [link]
News Opener : [link]
Duracell Promo : [link]
Scream Play : [link]


~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/5646185/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/5646185/ Tue, 14 Jun 2005 12:10:31 PDT
Anyway, sorry everyone for that depressive stint I was in last week and earlier this week. I just felt weighed down and totally morose for some reason. But things have picked up, so I won't subject you to my wayward feelings for a while again. I also want to thank those who gave me supporting comments and encouragement. It really means a lot to me.

I recently uploaded a lot of video clips to my scraps section, and for those who don't view my scraps, I'll post links here. I was really proud of those videos which is why I'm doing this. I at least suggest watchers view the PSA for MADD, the News Opener, and Scream Play. Those are the best.

Animated Logo : [link]
Flowers Inc : [link]
Liquid Plumr Commercial : [link]
PSA for MADD : [link]
News Opener : [link]
Duracell Promo : [link]
Scream Play : [link]





Jobs

I design websites for the following:

www.freedomthrujesus.org [ 100% completed & ongoing ]
www.truckerschapel.org [ ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/5590014/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/5590014/ Wed, 08 Jun 2005 14:26:40 PDT
I'm getting tired of a lot of things happening in my life. As it is, I have no friends. No one I can call on the phone and talk to without it being a long-distance number at least. I have no one to hang out with, go for a walk with, talk to, laugh with, no one to physically BE there with me. All I have is my husband. I love him so, so much, but while he's gone for 8-10 hours a day for work, I'm sitting at home alone. I can see why housewives would cheat on their husbands to get a little excitement in their life. But don't get me wrong on that, there is no way I'd ever do that to Brandon. I love him too much to hurt him. Instead, I will be the good little girl and stay home and be all bouncy and happy for when he gets back.

I do have friends on the internet. But they are where? Across the country? Across the WORLD? They're just words on a screen, with no voice, no image, no inflexion. What does the silence between their posts or messages or emails mean? That they're thinking of something to say? That they're angry at me for something I don't know I did? That they're just too busy at the moment? Who knows until they say something. I'm getting tired of the uncertanties. Not the people, mind you. The uncertainties.

Now, I'm not attacking or blaming anyone. Actually, this has been building in the background for a long time now. And now it's just too much to ignore. I hurt, and I don't know why. I have no ambition. I have nothing at all to look forward to except for a long life with my husband and possibly children.

I do art because I force myself to. I write because I force myself to. That isn't right is it?

I feel lost and alone and like no one understands. It's like I'm in a lone spotlight, asking for help, directions, anything, but I'm either being ignored, told something that doesn't apply, or given someone else's life story of how it's all so bad for them--and I shouldn't feel so bad because they have it worse. I feel like I'm just an annoying little bug that people want to swat at to get rid of. Insignificant and unimportant.

I don't want people to say they're sorry for me. What good does pity do? Oh, they feel for me for the few minutes it takes them to read this, then forget as they move on to the next journal entry from another person they watch. So if you feel compelled to say something to me, just don't offer me pity. And if you've rolled your eyes at all through reading this, don't even bother to comment because obviously, you're not the kind of person to be a little empathic. Sorry if that comment offended anyone.

Well...I'm sorry I annoy.
I'm sorry I frustrate.
I'm sorry I give out so much and harldy get anything back in return.
And I apologize to having a one-track mind.
You'll have to excuse me. I don't get out much anymore.

I'm stuck in a downward spiral with no handholds that I can see.

So I'll not be here for a while now. I uploaded a couple things today; that should last for a while. I may lurk and still comment once or twice, but otherwise, good-bye for now.


To my friends: Sorry for leaving so abruptly. I guess I just can't handle anything. I love you guys. Take care. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/4538676/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/4538676/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 21:38:20 PDT
An example of my lag? I've been trying to write the sequel to my story "BJA - Dark Shadows" since May of 2004, and I've only got about 70-some pages. I would call that writer's block? Artistic lag? SOMETHING's wrong, I'll tell you that!

Whatever the problem is, it doesn't seem to be going away any time soon. So maybe expect me to have large gaps between any art I post up for a while.

Also, thanks to everyone for all the wonderful comments and favs for my BJ wedding picture. They really mean so much to someone as small as I consider myself to be.

I'd like some suggestions now please. I think I feel like I want to draw somehing, but I'm not sure what. So I'll let you folks decide. Tell me what you want to see me come out with next in the art category. Anything, I don't care. What is it you want to see from me?

Thanks, everyone.






I need to prioritize.... I got too much to do and I'm getting lost. This journal entry will serve as a reminder list and also to let others know what I'm working on at the moment.


Jobs

I design websites for the following:

www.freedomthrujesus.org [ 100% completed & ongoing ]
www.truckerschapel.org [ 90% completed & ongoing ]


Artwork & Projects http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/4485275/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 02:25:41 PST
If anyone remembers a comic I made a while back that went along with a scene from one of my stories "BJA - A New Beginning". I think it was called Space Battle or something. It had 12 or 13 pages, and I did one remake of the first page. Yeah. They're all GONE. Every single Photoshop and Illustrator file that made each and every one of those pages...missing. I can't find them anywhere. And I've since upgraded and wiped my HD and everything else, pretty much making sure that no copies remain anywhere. I thought I had them backed up...I guess not.

Even the more recent remake page's files are missing, even the final image itself!! I had to log onto dA and search through my gallery to find a copy of it!

It just really depresses me. This same thing also happened to another pic of mine, the one of Endri sitting in the forest that I had for my ID for a while. That entire Photoshop file, gone. And I didn't even notice until I wanted to use it for something. Now the only copies I have are the JPG files I saved from it. There were even more variations of that pic that I didn't save, so those are gone too. So much detail was lost...I worked so hard on that pic...

This absolutely sucks. I feel like such crap right now. There go my plans to print off really nice, glossy comic pages sometime. *deep depressive sigh* Anyone got happy pills? I need a couple. -_-


On a more lighter note, I guess I could mention that I'm working on a short 4 page comic which is in it's final stages...depending if I can keep the detail down so it won't take forever. It's not looking that way though. But I guess it'll look better in the long run.

I was listening to a song called "But Not Tonight" by Scott Weiland yesterday, I think it was. That song had always inspired me, and always made me think about a character of mine. The song really spoke to me about my character--they fit so well together. So I drew a sort of "music video" comic. Took me most of the day to draw 4 pages, and when I read the comic along with the song...wow...it REALLY goes together! O_O And it felt SO good to be able to draw something after literally MONTHS of hardly being able to draw a thing. I'm really hoping this will be the start of more art from me, but we'll see how it goes. I've been very unmotivated to pick up my pencil for a long time, and when I have, I've forced myself to.

I struggled a long time on the first page of the comic, just staring at it, knowing what I wanted to put down on the paper, but my hand just would not move. And after listening to the song on repeat for 50 some times, I finally forced myself to keep going...after that, it just kinda flowed. There are some crappy pics here and there on the pages... I still suck at hands and whatnot... but I am VERY pleased with what I've done. When I post, I hope you'll be pleased too. ^_^

Well, I'll go back to sulking now. Thanks for reading my woes. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/4002038/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/4002038/ Fri, 28 Jan 2005 07:35:12 PST
On another note, I got a job! I'm now the designer for my husband's grandfather's ministry site! Yay! Finally, a paying job! So that site ( www.freedomthrujesus.org) will always be the first thing I work on if something needs done on it--my artwork and fics are second to it now.

A second paying job!! I now work for one Mr. Carden, designing his site www.truckerschapel.org! Yay! Maybe now I can afford some of the things I would like to have!

On with the list:

THE Wedding! -- That's all I'll say about that one. -- for Wanda and Ashley & the whole BJ fanbase

Color Forest Folly pic for fic

Draw a picture for each chapter:
-- Ch 1 - Cover pic of Kyle stuck on the tree
-- Ch 2 - Endri yelling at Kyle to drink, canteen in hand
-- Ch 3 - Endri and Kyle on the 4-wheeler, side shot, torsos only
-- Ch 4 - Endri looking wet and on edge, hands in messy hair, sitting on the floor
-- Ch 5 - Endri sitting by the fire (already in gallery)
-- Ch 6 - A pair of fingers digging into Kyle's wound, lots o' blood, Kyle screaminig, etc
-- Ch 7 - ??
-- Ch 8 - Kyle in a hospital bed, oxygen mask on, IV, bandaged up, reaching out for something
-- Ch 9 - Kyle answering his door, Endri on the doorstep

BJ & baby Batty making a snowman -- for Wanda

Morgan character design

Endri and Claire kissing -- for Ashley

BJ playing with action figures...chibi? -- for ME!

Endri eating ramen & chicken w/ chopsticks

Me in a BJ boat, pulling up treasure a la Windwaker

Me & Brandon as Inspector Gadget & Penny

Me & Wanda as nekos cuddling

Legend of Zelda - series of pics. What if ALL the masks from Majora's Mask transformed Link? What would he look like as:
- Keaton
- Great Fairy
- Blast (bomb mask)
- Bremen
- Kafei
- Bunny
- Scents (pig mask *snort*)
- Kamaro
- Don Gero
- Stone
- All-Night (iron gremlin-looking thing)
- Postman
- Garo
- Romani (a cow!! )
- Truth (mask of truth--one-eye thing)
- Captain
- Gibdo
- Circus Leader
- Couple (this one might be hard-possibly skip)
- Giant


http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/3876799/ Sat, 20 Nov 2004 07:43:59 PST

It must be my birthday!! O_O Oh, wait...it is! Haha! I normally don't broadcast it, but I'm really happy right now cuz my hubby didn't complain about leaving for an errand, and he got me the Dragonball vol 7 - Tienshinhan Saga, Dragonball GT movie - A Hero's Legacy, and the entire first season of Knight Rider on DVD!!!! *freaks out* WAIIIIII!!! *explodes*

Oh, yeah. I turn 24 today. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/3842347/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/3842347/ Mon, 15 Nov 2004 15:09:03 PST

Lessee...

Hope some of you are Jonny Quest fans because I have some more to upload here...when I get around to it. I even have a comic, for those of you who like reading comics. The art at the beginning sucks, but toward the end, it gets much better. I'm trying to spruce it up with a little color, but all attempts so far have turned rather...crappy. I'm really close to saying screw it and posting the black & whites.

I would like to officially start taking requests from folks. My inspiration is rather lacking lately, and I need a little boost. Anything will do: Beetlejuice, Jonny Quest, something original maybe? It doesn't really matter. I just need to start drawing again. So please, take a moment or two and think of something you'd like to see me draw for you or in general. I do reserve the right to refuse certain requests that I find unsuitable. Other than that, throw them at me, please!! I need help!!

Well, guess I'm done...if I think of anything else, I'll just tack it on here later. So yeah, if anyone can lend me a hand with my artistic funk, I'd be grateful. s for everyone. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/3671678/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/3671678/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 14:21:49 PDT

Got a few things while I was away...some cool paper to do projects with--handmade stuff that you can see the fibers in and everything. It's really cool.

Dunno when I'll get to anything since the house is messy again... It's amazing, I leave, and it's just fine, but I come back 2 weeks later, and there's mess everywhere. You don't think it coulda been my hubby, do ya?.... NAWWW!

]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/3598219/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/3598219/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 17:50:55 PDT Yes, I'm visting my brother and neice for about a week. Come next Monday (10/25) I will be back home. Aie...all that driving... And my brother loves his air conditioner, therefore keeping it below 40 degrees all year round. *icicle hangs from nose*

I'll TRY to draw some...hopefully I'll get some inspiration soon. Maybe one or two requests might help? Who knows. I can also attempt comissions. If anyone's interested, let me know. ^_^

Bye for now! ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/3422915/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/3422915/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 16:17:23 PDT
I know some of you (some = 1 or 2) are probably wondering about lack of new art on my behalf. Well, it's cause I've had a serious lack of motivation to draw. I had to force myself to draw and color that last pic I posted (the furry me). It really sucks, cause I WANT to draw...but I can't get going on it. I keep telling myself it's going to suck, so why even bother. Motivation goes down the toilet. -_- UGH.

So that's why I haven't drawn much lately. I have plans for pictures, though. I'd like to do a few pictures of Link from Legend of Zelda. I've never drawn him before, so I'm wondering how it'll turn out...if I ever get around to it. *groan* Here we go again. By the way, this also pertains to why I haven't written much lately as well.

I'd better stop before this becomes a depress-fest. If you read this and gave half a care, then thanks. Later. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2868446/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2868446/ Mon, 12 Jul 2004 23:19:07 PDT
But I want no pity. I want nothing. I guess I just need to get this out somewhere. And this is as good a place as any, right?

Well, I'm down because my angelfish, Boss, is sick/dying as I write this. I haven't checked on him in a while, but I'm sure he's still spazzing. He's been pretty torn up for about a month now, and he's gotten so bad, that my hubby and I decided to put him out of his misery. Salt water in a small container. It didn't kill him for the three hours we had him in there, and my hubby put a LOT of salt in that water. We put him back in his tank, thinking maybe he wouldn't die, but he was spazzing a bit, so he might die now. It just hurts to see him like that, floating on his side with torn up fins and a bleached out side because he can't keep it down in the water anymore. And we thought the saltwater would put him out of his misery quicker, but...it didn't. I can harldy stand to walk through that room where he's in, even if I have to go to the bathroom. I guess we could have done something that woulda killed him faster, like alcohol or something, but we thought salt would do it fine. I don't know.

I'm also down because we have 4 fish tanks (yes 4), and it's really hard to keep up with maintenance on all of them. Every time we go away for a weekend, we come home to find some new problem in at least one of the tanks. This past weekend, we came home to see my favorite little plecco with orange-tipped fins, lying on the bottom of the 55 gallon tank, eaten clear to the bone. I blamed it on that little bitch of a fiddler crab my hubby brought home from work because it killed the other two crabs in HIS tank. So now, I believe she's killing stuff in MY tank. It peeves me to no end. AND we also came home to see our oldest fish, Cereal (an all white Comet), had some red sores on his body. Oh, just great. Strangely enough, however, they have all but disappeared now. I'm still scratching my head over that.

I love fish, but enough about them for now.

My new OS is also giving me problems. It was just fine and dandy until I messed it up. Yes, I take full blame. I don't care. I was trying to install Mac Classic. Any of you Mac people out there know what I'm talking about. I did as the instructions in my Help told me. But it wouldn't install, saying I had a newer OS and the old one wouldn't install over that. Okay, fine. So I figured, Classic needs a folder to use (where the older OS is), so I dragged the System Folder onto my HD. I restarted, but it kept me in the older OS this time. I felt like I was gonna die. So, then I figured, delete the System Folder I copied, and it should restart with OS X again. No such luck. It restarted, but left me with a grey screen and a little folder icon with a blinking quesion mark. Out of panic, I threw in the the OS X install disk again, and it went through that whole install procedure again. LUCKILY, all of my prefrences and files and programs were still there afterward. BUT...now Dreamweaver MX and Freehand MX, both Macromedia programs, refuse to open. Everything else, I managed to fix (there were a few other problems, but I worked those out myself), but those two refuse to be fixed. I uninstalled, reinstalled, deleted, reinstalled, threw out prefrences...nothing works. I've decided to call Macromedia tomorow (well, today to be technical 7-13).

It all just makes me feel like crap. Not to mention frequent headaches, loss of appetite, sleepiness...etc. I haven't been able to draw or write a thing in WEEKS. Can I curl up somewhere and not come out until next year? Cuz that's what I feel like doing.

I know. Lots of mundane problems for a simple girl right? Well, they're not mundane to me. But, if you actually read all that, I really do thank you for listening to me. I know a lot of people are probably... ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2812932/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2812932/ Mon, 05 Jul 2004 21:26:29 PDT
1. I can't play any of my old games because I don't have a previous version of Mac OS 9 for OS X to bounce back to and use. So, I had to order some new games. But what am I gonna do with my old ones? I wanna play them...but I can't.
2. My scanner doesn't work anymore because there are no drivers for OS X. So, I had to order a new scanner.
3. I had a lot, and I mean a LOT of Adobe Illustrator files from before...but I don't have Illustrator anymore. And I used them a lot as well, mainly for making my website. So...I'm hoping this other program I got from Macromedia will open my old .AI files. Freehand MX. --- I just checked, and they open! Okay! Scratch that from the list...only now I have to learn how Freehand works... *head thumps to desk*
4. Oh, and I haven't checked yet, but I doubt my CD burner will work anymore either. Just a thought.

But aside from those things and a few others I most likely forgot about, I'm loving this new change! Next time I post a desktop pic, you can see what I've got! My new OS makes me happy.


Also, I just got back from a 4 day "vacation" to Deleware over the 4th. It was okay staying with my inlaws, I guess. My hubby's parents have been divorced for years, so it's really a pain to go see one, and then the other who lives just about an hour away. The only thing I'll really say is that...I wish the towels, washcloths, bedsheets, blankets, pillows, carpet, couches, chairs...well EVERYTHING...wasn't covered with pet hair. I just find that...gross. I know they have monetary problems, but...well, I won't say anything else. It's just an irritant...the pet hair and all. They're really very wonderful people. A little strange!... But then, who's inlaws arent?

I'll stop now. If you read this far, thanks. I just needed to get some stuff out. Love all of you for your interest! ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2696305/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2696305/ Sat, 19 Jun 2004 10:07:25 PDT is in need of a little help. She needs moolah for a trip, but doesn't have it, so she's begun to take up comissions. I HIGHLY reccomend her work! She's an excellent artist, and whatever she draws is well worth it! Please take a look at her stuff, and email her with a request! She'd love to hear from you! Her journal entry also explains what to do if you'd like to request a comission.

Help her out! She's awesome! ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2476452/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2476452/ Fri, 21 May 2004 11:12:39 PDT Mania. Any comments left about it would be greatly appreciated! Leave one on FF.net or here, it doesn't matter.

Links:
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4 NEW! ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2400331/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2400331/ Mon, 10 May 2004 15:31:20 PDT

I tried uploading the first chapter to a story I wrote. Beetlejuice fan-fiction. I went through the whole deal: made sure the html was correct first, then went to submit it, went through all the categories and selected them just right, typed out a nice description with emotiocons and everything...and then when I tried to copy and paste the chapter into the window...it wouldn't. Know why? Because that little text box only allowed SO many characters before it wouldn't take anymore. My chapter, in essence, was too long to post. I'm mad.

I realize dA is mostly a visual arts website...but if they allow fiction to be posted, they'd better expect that some chapters / stories are going to be longer than their little dinky text boxes, and therefore I, and anyone else with this same problem, wouldn't be so mad. They need to fixt this promptly. Anybody know how I can tell them they suck and need to get it fixed?

Here you go, dA...just for you:
]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2371600/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2371600/ Thu, 06 May 2004 12:36:10 PDT
Thank you. ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2262877/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2262877/ Tue, 20 Apr 2004 13:51:42 PDT
While I was down there, we went to the Oklahoma Aquarium and the Tulsa Air and Space Museum. All the pictures I took at the Air and Space place sucked because of lighting. But the ones from the OK Aquarium turned out nice...unless they were blurry. So, I'll be posting some of those better ones here for all to enjoy like I did. (Just to let all know, I'm into fish. I like fish. They're pretty. (·~)<

I've also just updated my story today! If you'd like to read chapter three of Mania at Fanfiction.net, please click this: [link] Hope you enjoy!

Thank all of you for your continued interest in me and my work! <-- for everyone! ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2137778/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2137778/ Fri, 02 Apr 2004 14:14:38 PST

Yeah, I'm leaving for two weeks to visit my brother in Oklahoma. Which means...no new pics till I get back. BUT...HOPEFULLY...when I return, I'll have some new pics to post that I drew while away. I should really catch up on the ones I promised to draw others... >_> ;

Anyway, for those who care, I posted the second chapter to my newest story "Mania" today. If you'd like to read it, please head to: Mania - Chapter 2 @ Fanfiction.net If you haven't read chapter 1, then it's a simple click on the pulldown menu for the chapters. And a review left on FF.net would be appreciated as well. Thanks!

Thanks so much for everyone's continued interest in me and what I do! 's everyone!

Bye!! ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2072672/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/2072672/ Thu, 25 Mar 2004 23:01:45 PST
I'll tell ya right now, it isn't one of my run-of-the-mill stories, nor is it like any BJ story that I've read so far...well, I would HOPE not at least. It's very deep, emotional (at least I hope so), and angsty, so if you wanna read it, prepare for that. It also has a high rating (R) due to language and content, so you youngins out there, steer clear. Following is a little snip from the description:

A story about life, love, courage, and testing ultimate friendship. What happens to Beetlejuice and his friends when one of their own falls into despair and changes completely? Nothing will ever be the same. This story is an Alternate Universe set five years after Dark Shadows.

Intriguing? Hope so! If you'd like to check it out, please head along to the link below. A review left on the FF.net site--anonymously or not--would be much appreciated.

"Mania" @ Fanfiction.net ]]> ~Spencers13 http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/1867081/ http://Spencers13.deviantart.com/journal/1867081/ Wed, 18 Feb 2004 14:31:44 PST
Most of my Beetlejuice art comes from my twisted little imagination-turned-stories, or sometimes, just my twisted little imagination I draw almost all of my recent BJ art using my own style of anime design, not the original cartoon designs. (Recent being from the year 2000-present.) Not that I don't love the original cartoon! But my stories/ideas are too adult-oriented for such a goofy, child-appealing look. Hense, that's why my BJ doesn't look like the BJ everyone else remembers. It's just the way I draw him and the other characters. I can still do the old style, and I do love it a lot, but I draw the characters how I do because I like it a little more and it's also easy for me.

I also made up some original characters whom I love dearly, so expect to see lots of pictures of them. Hopefully, you'll like them too.

Oh, and since this is a journal entry thing, I suppose I should make it sound like one.... Life is good. I'm RPing with my one friend, and that's fun. I'm going to visit my parents this weekend and mooch their laudry facilities off of them...ie, I'm doing laundry at Mom's. I need to defrost my freezer but am too lazy to get around to it. Aaaaand...my fish tank needs cleaned again. Okay, that should do it.

See everyone who gave a crap to read this far later! ]]> ~Spencers13