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I've found that when I'm struggling with something, the best thing to do is share it with as many people as I can; 'cause I'm a little slow and the more viewpoints I can get on something, the better. So I'll share with you where I stand right now on vore and it's place in God's plan.

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I'm a little socially maladjusted so I tend to say whatever is on my mind and share experiences that may be offensive to other people. Not to mention I rant and rave like a lunatic once I get going, so... I suggest you don't sit down to read this unless you got some serious time. <.<
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Someone once told me "You'll be hard pressed finding any scriptural basis to to give it up. In fact you'll find none, however you will find information alluding to the fact that things of perverse nature are sinful to begin with. So can vore even be considered perverse? I don't see it that way,"

Indeed, the Bible never mentions vore specifically, but it's the portions that pertain to lust that I scrutinize closely. As you probably well know, Jesus interprets the Old Testament for the Jews in Matthew 5:28 (NIV) "But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart."

Some people take this literally and believe that even to be sexually attracted to a woman in passing is a sin. I think they're missing the point. My eldest sister studies Greek and Hebrew and tells me that the NIV does a poor job of translating this passage and that a more accurate way to say it would be "Anyone who looks at a woman IN ORDER to lust after her commits adultery with her in his heart." So Jesus is NOT condemning the unintentional lusts of my wandering eyes. I mean, how would the human species propagate itself if not for the attraction between male and female?

I believe it especially foolish to take that passage literally because that is exactly what Jesus is telling them not to do. He establishes that instead of the physical act of sex, it is rather the devotion of our hearts that is important.
I had to learn this one the hard way. It's a long story, but essentially I was working down in the Philippines where prostitution is rampant. My peers are not Christian and frequent the whore-houses and expected me to do the same. Because our outfit relies on complete trust between one another I went out with two goals in mind: Sex with a woman I don't intend to marry is wrong and I am just as much a sinner as any whore I meet.
I achieved both of these goals, I'm still a virgin today, but I fell in love with a working girl down there. I shared as much of my life with her as I could in the short time I was there and she wanted to spend the rest of hers with me. Unfortunately, there are a lot of reasons why it wouldn't work out, so I ended up leaving her broken-hearted.
Now if I do ever do get married, part of my heart is still devoted to this girl I met in the Philippines. How sad is that? I will never be owned entirely by one woman unless it's that one girl I met in Angeles City.
That is the perversion of the heart that Jesus speaks of; a distortion of God's intent: one man and one woman. (Matthew 19:4-6)

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that everyone should avoid kissing and getting close to anyone else until they're sure that she's/he's the only one for them (Mainly because I think both are impossible... >.>; ) but it's not perfect like God wants for us.


So what does any of this have to do with vore? To me, vore is a great many things. Not the least of which a release of pent up sexual tensions. Like I said before, I'm still a virgin, so I've gotta do something about the pressure that builds or it'll eventually cause me to do something I'll regret.

I don't think I'll ever will overcome my innate sexual drive; I will always see some women in a lustful fashion. And there is nothing wrong with that; God made me that way. However, to give in to nature and start actively looking for sexual gratification from any and every girl is wrong.

Paul writes in 1 Corinthians 7:9 "But if they cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion." saying that devotion to God should be foremost in your mind, but if you deny yourself "for God" to the point that your passions consume you, you've achieved nothing!



So then; I believe we shouldn't attach ourselves to people whom we don't intend to devote ourselves entirely and allowing passion to build up within us is unhealthy.



In this sense, we may be better off than "normal" people thanks to vore. Let me first admit that I'm not a true... ]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/15001018/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/15001018/ Wed, 10 Oct 2007 13:53:42 PDT
Do not waste your breath trying to convince me to consider otherwise:

Last night it was made painfully clear to me that my primary motivation for being in vore groups online has become nothing more than a porn addiction.
It's not like I shouldn't have seen this coming either; there have been times when I questioned the necessity of my indulging in such activities, but I've always managed to persuade myself to continue going just a little longer...

There are quite a few good points to being part of the vore community: I've never been part of a community that as a whole has been as welcoming and open to complete strangers before. Not even with my fellow Christians.
Within the vore community, there are people of AMAZING talents from whom I could learn volumes! Not to mention the people whose interests snych almost seamlessly with mine! I can't find the words to express how exhillarating it is to share such bizzare and rare characterstics with someone that knows exactly how you feel!

In addition, there are the excuses that I've made for myself that I've got to overcome. Things like, "Well, a lot of terrible things have happened in my life recently, so I've gotta make up for it somehow." and "Well, all of my peers in the Army wouldn't care one bit if I told them how much porn I surf. Most of them would laugh as they're far worse." Or even "I'm only drawing this to please other people." (Which is never true. XP)

But that's all I'm doing: just barely convincing myself that the fleeting thrill is worth the time and dedication I put into it. I've noticed that it's a growing beast too: it's been eating up more and more of my time and the longer I let it go on, the more extreme my fetish seems to become.

So, I've gotta put a stop to it. I'm severing all ties with vore as of today. Even since yesterday without spending time drawing vore and surfing for images and articles has made me realize just how much of me my fetish was consuming. (No pun intended)

Let me close saying that I'm very grateful for all of you that do enjoy my work and the kind words of encouragement that you've given me from time to time; you've been like a family to me. If you really do want the best for me, rebuke me harshly if I ever start to slide back toward my addiction. Thanks again, guys; it's been fun. ^.^


(I wil no longer be using this account. If you need to reach me, you can find me here:
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Needless to say, it will contain no vore artwork.)

]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/14975193/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/14975193/ Mon, 08 Oct 2007 17:50:34 PDT
Tagged by Mukat KiKaarn

The rules are
1.Post these rules
2.Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3.Tags should write a journal/blog of these facts
4.Tag 8 people who must also do this tag
5.Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they are tagged

1. I "stole" candy from the candy jar and my siblings didn't tell on me when they found out. ( I suspect it was because they did the same. )
2. The longest I ever "ran away from home" was about an hour and the farthest I ever got was a couple blocks. ( I walked my dogs farther than that!XD )
3. I was about to go to AP English Language when I saw the World Trade Towers hit with planes. I went to class anyway.
4. I was the Northern League champion of Pole-Vaulting for three years in a row, ranking 14th in the City of Los Angeles.
5. I have driven a 32-ton vehicle without a license.
6. I was only allowed to play video games on the weekends so I would get up at 2358 hrs (11:58 p.m.) on Friday to maximize playing time.
7. I am 23 and a virgin by choice.
8. I will never know for sure how many people I've killed.


I'm not gonna tag other people because (as I already mentioned) I don't like the obligatory feeling they give. However, I will suggest that some of you try it because it ended up being kinda fun anyway.

Just say that I tagged you, or ask me to tag you if you want a tag. Remember: I'm only allowed 8! (As if anybody's gonna ask! XD)

]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/14610595/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/14610595/ Wed, 12 Sep 2007 22:16:42 PDT
I am now counted among your numbers, for better or worse. What I would like to know is: What drawing programs are available for a Mac? Which ones do YOU like?

Lemme know so's I can get a winner and start drawring agains, meeeeow! ^ ^

]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/14544825/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/14544825/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 11:41:57 PDT
Thank you for your prayers! They played no small part in our success.

]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/12189684/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/12189684/ Thu, 15 Mar 2007 05:02:21 PDT
Probably won't see anything new from me for a while so... I'll be seein' you guys around. Kiyoskete!

-Lucky

]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/10511039/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/10511039/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 20:14:41 PDT
If anyone screencaptures my homepage at 10,000 hits, I'll do a request from you! Yay! Isn't that a fun and shameless way to promote hits to my page? :sweat:

But seriously; my intent is not to attract massive crowds of views... I've given up on being famous long ago. (At least, that's what I keep telling myself. : P) I just want to do something nice for the people that actually enjoy my work.

So the next time you visit my page, PAY ATTENTION to the visitor-counter-thingy, meow! ^ ^

]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/8888236/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/8888236/ Fri, 26 May 2006 22:32:35 PDT
I started sketching up a little idea the other day call "Natural Pred Jitters" but now I'm stuck. Cats don't have all that many natural predators. Do they have any?

Please tell me what eats a cat. Thanks, meow! ^_^ ]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/8888215/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/8888215/ Fri, 26 May 2006 22:29:33 PDT ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/8127681/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/8127681/ Sat, 11 Mar 2006 04:51:17 PST

Now I just need to get use to using it... after that, all my art will probably go digital Wheee! ]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/8118209/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/8118209/ Fri, 10 Mar 2006 04:14:29 PST My intent is that after reading this you'll be a bit more tolerant towards the vore community in general. I mean, that's all anybody ever wants, is to be understood.

Okay then! Let's begin! My premise is this: that vorists are simply offshoots/mutations of the norm. To support this idea, here are some parallels between vore and sex:

1. Man enters woman. (Plain and simple)
2. He goes in hard, he comes out soft.
3. The peristalic movements of a woman's stomach are identical in nature to those of her vaginal canal.
4. She puts him in her mouth.

There are probably some others that I haven't thought of yet, but you get the idea. One way to put it is to imagine that the male is simply his member.
This also gives birth (no pun intended) to the sister-fetish "Unbirthing". Of course, then that leads into fascination with large bellies. Which, when you think about it, kinda makes sense. Let's take a look at what defines sexy: it's what people perceive as advantageous qualities for child-bearing.

For instance, women with large breasts are considered sexy. The underlying idea is that they will be better breast-feeders. So for a woman that can easily fit a person inside her birth canal it should be that much that much easier to give birth without pain or complications.

Which brings me to the last sister fetish; scat. If a woman that has such overwhelming control of her vagina, then similar control over her rectum (being a comparable process) holds a similar appeal. What's that you say? Those processes are entirely different? Well, let me put it this way: I know a man who was born into a toilet by accident. (I won't say who because that's kinda embarrassing) but you get my point.

Well, I hope that cleared things up a bit. Of course, this doesn't explain male on male vore unless those involved are homosexuals. -.-' Please lemme know what you think; give a shout! ]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/7672702/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/7672702/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 04:25:30 PST
Some of you may have noticed that I don't respond to anything anyone ever says. That's not because I don't care but that I'm just not here. I'll never be around enough to really get to know anyone...

>Sigh< I'm really not trying to get sympathy, though. I chose the life I'm going into and it would just be hypocrytical to do that. I do feel kinda bad to the few that actually like my art though.

I owe you at least a "thank you" but I really can't get them out. So, here's my apology and thanks in advance for anyone who reads this.
Suimasen! Doomo arigatoo gozaimasu! ]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/7539035/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/7539035/ Sat, 07 Jan 2006 20:07:52 PST
Most all my free-time is devoted to learning the language. Needless to say, it's not coming very quickly. If only I didn't need sleep... ]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/7110286/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/7110286/ Mon, 21 Nov 2005 23:27:16 PST
Now I have. Sheesh! At least I have Thanksgiving to look forward to!

Too bad my scanner is probably in Japan by now, otherwise I'd have some neato sketches for 'yall.

Now, to enjoy the rest of my time. Take it easy! ]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/6923793/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/6923793/ Tue, 01 Nov 2005 08:04:48 PST
I realize now the folly and arrogance of such thinking now; for such an answer aknowledges that this work is mine and that my skills are what brought this idea to paper. The reality is that this work does not come from my hand, but that of God. He has given me the talents I have, the paper on which I draw, the ink and lead I use, life of another day when all I deserve is death.

I have earned none of what I make. It belongs not to me, but God. And so I thank you, mighty God, for all these things. I am truly blessed. This leads me to wonder though... does He approve of that which I draw? -.-' ]]> ~Su-Zaku http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/6572318/ http://Su-Zaku.deviantart.com/journal/6572318/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 11:59:36 PDT My pack holds line and bait,
Some iodine,
And rain gear.
Soon I will begin my climb.
What awaits me there I fear.
I am cursed with knowledge
Of a fate I cannot change.
I'll slide across the sharp, sharp edge
And suffer bleeding pain.
Though you may think it strange,
From this I will gain;
Tempered by the slege
And fire, my mind will go insane
To reach a higher ledge,
Transcending human bane. ]]> ~Su-Zaku