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it's been a while

I've changed, duh...

that and I am really at my wits end with the end of the world O.o

I love my sammi corpse BFFL!!! my biffle, and I love Kat....and you...I love you too

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From First To Last, didn't die, it just got weaker......Sonny left, and that kind of makes me sad, but he left to go solo.....so it's better than if he just dissappeared. Hmm....

I feel fat and full and I'd be killed by my friends and familyif I said that.... my ears hurt... I wanna listen to my music....what about tickling??? ARGH my eardrums!!!

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90. First off, what is your name?
Lorelei

89. What did you do last night?
ummm watched labyrinth and pink floyds the wall DUR!

88. Do you have a same sex best friend that you can talk to 24/7?
Kat, and Brittany

87. Do you have any siblings?
a fewish

86. Where are you exactly?
the chair in my room!

85. Favorite color(s)?
black and white...I like colors really O.o

84. What does the 7th message in your [cell] text inbox say?
WHAT CELL PHONE XD

83. Who sits beside you in math?
in what school?

82. Who sits to the left?
*sigh*

81. Where is your mom right now?
asleep in the living room

80. Do you have any kids?
yeah sure *rolls eyes* nooope

79. Who is the 5th person you got a missed call from?
urrr nobody O.o

78. Closest black object?
the keyboard in my lap!

77. Closest silver object?
my rings, on my hands!

76. Have you ever jumped a fence for any reason?
all the time!

75. Do you sing in the shower?
every damn time!

74. Do you own any pets?
a dog in virginia and my kitten

73. How does your hair look right now?
red/orange and black and straight, like always...

72. Last time you listened to country music?
ick, last time my neighbor came home >.<

70. If you could kill someone, who would it be?
*ninja moves* if i tell you, i'll have to kill YOU too!

69. What are your fears?
clowns *dies, heights, and open water, and never meeting him...

67. How many drugs are in your system right now?
vitamins!!! and and and...that's it...surprising really O.o

65. What are you wearing?
a happy bunny shirt and froggy undies! yay!

64. Who was the last person to comment you?
on myspace, twas, my sister XD

63. Do you sing?
all the damn time! i love it! i wanna make it a career

62. Screamo or Country?
i live/eat/breather screamo <3

61. Rock or Rap?
teh rock!!!! it always wins!

60. Chocolate or vanilla?
meh depends on what i'm eating!

59. Who did you last call?
shit, ummm my mom like 3 days ago, i never call people, they call me

58 Who last called you?
My gramma!

57. What jewelry do you wear daily?
my rings <3

56. What are you doing now?
isn't that obvious, doing this survey and listening to MCR...

55. Who was the last person you said I love you to?
my kitten!!!!!

54. Would you die for someone?
depends on who and why

53. If so, who?
onyl those i love with all my heart.

52. Are you cold right now?
nooope

51. What do you smell right now?
air....O.o

50. Do you have to pee right now?
nooooo...UIGH PERV!

49. What did you dream about last night?
wierd things....that i have no clue about >.<

48. What are you doing tomorrow?
hangin with chris and walking to publiiiixxxxxxx

47. If an ex asked you back out, what would you say?
i have no ex's, don't you need ex's for that?

44. Bed sheet color?
buhlack

42. Carpet or wood in your room?
tile O.o

41. Bad rumor about yourself that you've heard?
there are rumors?!?!? YES!!!!

40. Do you have makeup on right now?
yep, the same amount i always rly wear out...

38. Can you do a cartwheel?
luff to!

37. What's your favorite candle scent?
cotton <3333 and APPLE!!!!!!!!!!

36. Ever gone a whole day without eating?
yush

35. America or Canada?
who cares?

34. What makes you mad?
lots of things, including mean people and posers!

33. What if you found out you were adopted?
that'd explain alot....o.o

32. Jeans or Sweatpants?
sweatpants make me feel fat, jeans!

29. Do you have socks on?
fuzzy pink ones!

28. Do you own any big sunglasses?
noooo but my sister does!

27. Have you ever cried so hard you puked?
almost, i almost broke a rib once i think too

23. Have you recently talked to an ex?
WHAT EX?!?!?!?

22. Person who posted... ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/11806799/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/11806799/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 23:50:34 PST
mmmm Labyrinth

So here it is, my obligatory valentines day blog. I have a new short story I was gonna submit soon, it needs to be edited and then I'll do that. hmmm who cares? say aye! *who am I kidding?*

It's already valentines day now. And my mom is mad at me, because I got her something, that's depressing. I don't mean "oh you shouldn't have" mad I mean genuinely mad. We're hard up on money right now, and to cheer her up i spent all of 3 dollars of a 10 she'd given me to go get cat food....

Why do I try *sigh*

being alone on v-day isn't so bad. It's knowing that, it's my own fault that I'm alone. I don't have to be. I just kind of am. Ech, I feel dirtyyyyyyyy... I need a shower but doing my hair is such a trifle....but if i don't do it, I feel sad, and mopey. I suppose it's because, society sucks but I can deal with that.

My heart feels like it's going to explode in my chest as I float over a man with no face playing the piano....interesting image O.o

oh well, happy kiss day...

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I figured, that maybe, there is something in that big sky we all look to so desperately for a sign that this isn't meaningless. Why, do you think, we never recieve such a sign. Because, in essence, this is meaningless. You don't have to believe that to make it true, because it is....Of course, you don't have to care either. I don't, I don't care what's out there, maybe I'll never see it, never touch it, or be near it. But there is something, maybe not one thing, maybe it's all things. All I know is, I'm grateful, most days, to be alive, no matter how depressed or upset I am, I know it'll all go on, because time stops for no man (or woman). It's a hard thing to believe in but as long as I believe in it, it shall be as this I know, you think this is dumb, ignorant, anti-religion, and self important maybe. I'll get hate mail, well...I'm not famous like that, but if I were, I'd have inboxes full of hate. I'd smile, and delete it, and love whoever sent it, I love to see people with opinions. It's proof that the mass media hasn't poisoned us all yet >w< so go ahead be mean, it'll be funny, and almost insulting, I'm sure. sarcasm is fun, and angst is a joy. So please please please, give me a reason to be sarcastic and angsty! My teen angst bullshit doesn't have a body count, it has it's own morgue, and 3 seperate coroners. One on morning shift, one on evening shift, and the other I keep with me at all times. He makes sure, that the bodies are never found. He collects those souls that would be so brash to insult people that they don't, and probably never will, understand. He's also a fuzzy grey kitten with a motorcycle. oh, and he's a girl!

P.S. did you know, Anna Nicole Smith died, she was found dead in a casino in hollywood, florida. How unexpectedly expected...

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ok ok, so I come off as a self imporant ignoramus most of the time, but i'm not. You can try to judge me, you can speak your mouth words all you want. but words, are just letters strung into a half-assed sentence. said sentences are probably intended for insulting others, but they rarely suceed, because most of the time the people stringing together these sentences have never even read a book in their life without being told to. Honestly, people can say whatever they want, that part isn't so annoying, it's the fact that most people HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT! So, it's easier to just scream at them, til they leave. I don't mean scream as in, "fuck you!" I mean "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!" until they leave. it works, in many situations.

I'm a fucking princess some days, the other 360 days out of the year, I'm the pauper. Humble, and maybe even quiet. Don't get me wrong, I'm not the life of the party, but i'm the heart. Catch me on an off day, i'll still be nice as anything to you. because that's the type of person i am. walk up to me, start a conversation, odds are, I'll respond kindly, because i love you til you give me a reason to wanna rip your fucking throat out with my bare hands and a spork. I wish I were more awake, this would be a better blog for it....but i have something in my eye, so i really could care less right now. and wether you think it or not, I'm fucking beautiful, and if you don't think so, congrats, you can have thoughts of your own, it's actually a quite wonderful thing. face it, you're most likely a trend with a name and a face, and some stolen hair and a lie on your lips. I'll be here watching you make a complete ass/trendwhore of yourself, hell sometimes i might join in, to see what all the fucking fuss is aboot(that was on purpose!). and then I'll leave again, and forget you ever existed, and make you look like the boring fake you are when i talk to all your friends. then they'll leave you, and become who they really are, and embrace who they really wanna be, and become people, not hangers with bodies, not everyone else, but somebody. I live to make everyone else look like the boring people they really are, and I succeed.

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/11640536/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/11640536/ Wed, 31 Jan 2007 20:11:54 PST cause it's easier to talk about it, the internet is a lie <3

I met all the bands, they loved me, my mom, and my sis, we were dancing around and having fun, everyone wasn't like us. My goal in life is to make everyone else look boring, I succeed so u can be
my PS2 is working again, I beat it up. But my KH disc is too scratched to work
I don't like makeup anywhere but my eyes, keep it simple whore, it comes off when you sweat, and masks only ever hide ugly things. I'm angsty and forbidden. Psychotic and unfit. Anorexic and Bulimic, all at once. I'm not like anyone else, because I wear yellow with white fishnets and matching wrist cuffs. I'm different, and I don't likr to Lie, I'm Lorelei, and you wish you were as amazing as me.

my confidence is so high right now, and no matter what anyone says, it'll stay up here, in the clouds with my head. because I've changed. I don't wait to risk it, I risk it every damn day, everytime I leave the house I sing at the top of my lungs, and you look at me from across the street and say, "FUCKIN WIERDO" and I smile, and take it as a compliment, as meana s you think you're being you're jealous and I fucking love it. Haters, make me happy, haters give me life, Haters....they make me famous so go on, give me a name, get my name onto the lips of everyone you know, I do so love the attention <3

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1. all my dreams involve sex and supernatural things for no reason at all!
2. I feel like a failure if i eat a full meal at all, so i keep to a diet of basically diet sodas and marshmallows, which have very few calories in them!
3. I sing in my sleep, i also scream
4. I've had 2 Out of Body experiences, the second one was so wierd and brought on by a song, and ivolved someone famous
5. sometimes i speak to myself in a shaky british accent using the name Mr.Beads, the british bunny, he's my other half O.<
6. I love boobs! is that wierd XD

i are teh tag,
Pircan
PheonixSage
KojiHeroOfTime
frozen-beauty89
nomadic-entity
brokenyoyo

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/11501742/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/11501742/ Sat, 20 Jan 2007 04:39:18 PST
Sonny is on top of my computer, JonoKitty is sorawled out on my bed and pressing against my hip, DerekButt is on the lying "desk", and MattFace just left....those are all nicknames i gave the cats except sonny, that's her real name....

ya know i had the wierdest dream lastnight, it's not long so don't worry about having to read...god forbid x]

ok so I was in a band and we were on the taste of chaos '07 tour, and of course so was FFTL, and I guess Sonny and I were dating so we were in my tour bus, which was giant lol, anyways, so one of my band members had a camera and decided to tape me n sonny makin out on the couch...O.0 and then my friend brittney walked in with my dairy queen ice cream (i went to bed hungry i guess @w@) so we stopped kissing and the 'camera man' went to film some fans or something, and i asked sonny, while stradling him, what he'd eaten that day and he said "well you made me breakfast, so i had that and you were with me all day so you know i kept it all down." and he smiled, i kissed him quickly and then he asked me "what have YOU eaten today?" and i giggled O.< and said "well....i made breakfast and i had 2 pieces of toast...so 2 pieces of toast and some marshmallows...." and he smiled a little before saying "hey...wait!!! You went into the bathroom for a while earlier, did you throw it up" and he looked sadly up at me and i smiled softly and said "no" then i asked if he was gonna have some ice cream and he asked what kind I had gotten so i said "vanilla with rainbow spinkles!!!" (yes spinkles XD) and he said yeah all excited-like so I got up and got the ice cream from the little kitchen thingy thing, and i came back, me n sonny layed down on the couch and watched tv while we had ice cream...

ok maybe it was a little long O.< WHO CARES! it's not like you read it anyways...so i could like insult ur momma down here and youuuu'd never know!!!!!! YOUR MOM'S LIKE A TV! EVERYONE WATCHES HER!!!!!! XD i said that earlier and decided it was one of the WORST insults like ever Ow0
.......
..............
"ICH FA! OMNIBUS!"
"I COULD BE PURPLE! I COULD BE ANYTHIN YA LIKE!"

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hey hey hey hey hey hey heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ......

"what kind of video?"
"...A! F! EXXXXXX!!!!!"

XD....my god...i really am a loser...i hate the internet.....

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the only good thing about today was that i got to dance around like i always do, I ended my period, and i feel thin today!, even tho i ate 2 pieces of pizza, a piece of apple, and the small half of an english muffin wif butter on it, way too much i said! so it's said hi to the alligators by now i'm sure x]

now forgive me for i must ignore the fact that 6+1=7 and add 2000 to that and you get, just another year, another number, with no meaning besides what people give it, fuck holidays, everydayd's a holiday to me, and I hate holidays >w<

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1. Where is your dad right now?
Dead...thanks for that right there x)

2. Last time you kissed someone?
about 2 weeks ago, and now she likes me too much O.O

3. Name five things you did today.
-peed
-showered
-changed my period blood damming device
- got dressed
-straightened my hair

4. what color is your watch?
invisible!

5. what kind of phone do you have?
drug dealer phonomatic

7. Where does your best friend work?
ya know what i don't know, lol she quit Pac Sun...hey kat u still get free bagels?!?1?!

8. What are you listening to right now?
Little Mermaaaiiid muuusiiiic, part of yourrrrrr woooooooorrrrllld!!!

9. What do you smell like?
ermmm, ellis perfume, roses, and conditioner ^.^ gewwwwd!

10.What color are your eyes?
brown, sometimes they're black! i think they sparkle!

11. Have you ever done a chinese fire drill?
i wish!

12. What color is your bedroom floor?
grey n white tile, well actually it's sheets of stuff that looks like tile >.< wooo ghetto!!!

13. Do you have a chair in your room?
the one i'm sitting on!

15. Do you know anyone who is engaged?
Savannah she rushed maybe >.<

16. What's your favorite number(s)?
13 i think, sheeeyittt anything even!

17. Do you know someone named Betsy?
nope i donut!

18. What color is your mom's hair?
red and black! black mostly tho

19. Do you have a dog?
in virginia...thanks again for that lovely reminder!

20. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid?
fxkin yes, anything i could think of anywhere i wanted to! no matter how bad/good i sound still do that, hooray for freaks like me in walgreens!

22. When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
5am when she went to bed @w@

23. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
i wouldn't go

24. Do you play an instrument?
well???? prolly not, but do i yes; guitar <3, keyboard, piano, my voice , xylophooone,actually i'll play anything i can get my hands on!

25. Do you like bon fires?
BIGGUNS!

26. Are you allergic to anything?
grass, pollen, people, cats (and yet we have 5 >.<, and stupidity, and wiggers, and lactose!

27. When was the last time you cried?
ummm 2 days ago cause my hair is curly >w<

29. Have you ever been to a spa?
in one, sure, but my grandparents were there for rehab

30. Did you take science all four years of high school?
i never even finished my 3rd XD

31. Do you like butterflies?
luff em!

34. Have you ever seen your school counselor?
too many times.....bitch still has my agenda >.<

35. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
Hells no.

36. What is one thing you've learned about life?
life is what you make it, and i like waffles!

38. Is anyone jealous of you?
my sister, alot of people, according to my mom >.< cause i'm "pretty"

39. Ever been stuck in an elevator?
fxking no, i'd be in a hole right now if i had been

40. What does your mom call you?
She did call me Kat which is my name. And Kitten or Angel.

41.What do your friends call you?
Lee, Lee-chan, that's iiiit

42. What does you hair look like right now?
red bangs, black back lol (pink n black stripes eventually!)

43. Has a friend ever used you?
probably

44. Has anyone told you that they like you more than a friend?
not really, that i can recall....

45. What have you eaten today?
don't remind me ummmm a chefs salad, and 2 chocoalte covered cherries, i dun want no more today http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/11239213/ Fri, 29 Dec 2006 22:46:27 PST

“6 Weird Habits/Things About Yourself"

Rules:
The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 Weird Habits/Things About Yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 Weird Habits/Things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment stating, "You are tagged," in their DevPage comments and tell them to read yours.

1. I have Social Anxiety Disorder

2. I'm Emosexual

3. For some reason "scene kids" hate me and hit mne and call me emo kid for not jumping around like i care at shows....

4. i'm 50% man 50% woman i sware! IN MY HEAD NOOB!

5. I hate eating...O.o

6. I'm almost certifiably insane!

now for the tagged! (don't kill me!)

gunsgoxBANGG

GravititicalGhost

joshned

nomadic-entity

tomcas1

RequiemForNeurosis

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now I ask you do you prefer straight or curly hair on girls?

and should I really relax my hair???? or keep the curl....and if i keep them, what THE HELL AM I GONNA STYLE MY HAIR LIKE?!?!?!?!? or i could wear a wig in the mosh pits XD

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and my grampa is dying and I know it and I hate it and If i could give him some of my life and vigor i'd gladly do it...well...i'd have to think about it actually.....

i don't wanna die tomorrow O.<

my gramma offered to let me move back in with her but i couldn't do that to my mom and sistert, i could never, even though it's getting to where i really can't do anything anymore, all i do is lay around all night and day, because i'm too sad to do anything else

but anyways, i guess if the net rly does get turned off, I'll see anyone who cares when i get back....

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good song get it now! Karma Police by radiohead! WOOT!


i hate christmas, and what it stands for, but mostly i hate being alone in a room full of ppl on christmas, I want love, i want the inspiration and insecurity it brings with the joy, that's what joy should be, love, not a box full of superficial things that no one can have enuff of >.<

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/11045274/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/11045274/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 21:19:39 PST
I love this song...and that is all i want!

with Kat

well I also want to be in a band and sing my heart to millions of people who'll appreciate what i do and love me for it

ya know what i have 666 messages right now XD

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"So, cheer up!" she said to herself

And, she went off to play 'Pokemon Snap' on her dirty old N64 while her cat got his nuts chopped off and tapeworms removed at the humane society!

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10867644/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10867644/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 12:15:14 PST
what I do now is that I can't get "it" on ebay O.o

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10810986/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10810986/ Wed, 22 Nov 2006 12:14:20 PST
"gramma eat some bran muffinnnn"

wow I haven't heard this in so long...

well I hope my halloween series of pics n stuff is at least mediocre enuff to tide the almost nonexistant public over >w<

i have NO clue what I'll be doin next....

i'll keep you posted....

I'm hungry...that's a good thing though, I feel thin when I'm hungry...is that a bad thing?

"coocoo fo cocoa puffffsss"

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my left eye is swollen and puffy, I can still see out of it and I can blink and things like that but it hurts when I blink and looks a little smaller than my right eye, this won't really ruin my weekend, as I had no real plans to do anything at all, I was going to go to a party but I dunno about that now, it would mean using the phone to call Derik and as awesome as he is, I still hate phones >.<

more art to come eventually, when I don't feel so blah and when inspiration so strikes me to create, care to inspire me? : p

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10684498/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10684498/ Fri, 10 Nov 2006 22:11:34 PST
I am so drained....

and tired...

and completely at a loss for anything right now...

recovery comes quickly, usually......I guess it's just a funk type dealy thing

I was thinking, maybe the reason I don't get much praise for my artwork, save from my family and friends, is because I'm not trying hard enough, or something....

I have had a load of praise in the past, lately it's slowed down, it just seems that when I look around everyone is better than me, which could be due to the fact that my self-confidence is low, and honestly, i'm fine with that....

maybe I'm whining but i don't care, what else can I do really, people say "don't hold it all in or you'll explode."
but when you let it out they say "shutup" or "No use crying over spilled milk, so get over it..."

hypocrisy, americas muse....

but i do agree, there is no use crying over spilled milk, you'll only make the puddle bigger

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10642486/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10642486/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 22:18:22 PST
I been sittin on a coule ideas for some art lately

I apologize for my lack of it

I have no camera, no motivation, and no energy....

although, it doesn't seem right cause I sleep all day and all night basically....

-_- I need money, bad....

but without a car, it's not really fathomable right now...

because I'm a weak person, with a weak soul and i can't get up to get out cause I'm too chickenshit, I have a poem to submit tonight....

i have to finish a pic first, but I will...

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she's freakin out over here....

she's all playin with her mouse, flippin all over my bed...O.o

O GOD IT'S CONTAGIOUS!!!

BINX IS CLAWING RANDOM STUFF!!! NOOOO MY NOTEBOOOOK -_-

silly boy kitty...

OMG WE GOT 2 KITTENS THEY'RE LIKE TWINS!!!

when I get my camera Imma take so many pics of them it'll steal more than their souls!!!!

they're names are Skyler and Baby.....(i didn't name them...i actually kinda hate their names.....)

O JESUS! SONNY JUST FLUNG HER MOUSE AT MY LEG!!!

SHE'S LIKE A ACROBAT!!!!!

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10597398/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10597398/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 19:33:41 PST
I'll be doin lots of photos this week i hope,m if I don't sleep all day, and play around with my geetar too much <3

I love you KAT!

: p

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10570673/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10570673/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 12:29:05 PST
I wanna hear what everyone did!! TELL ME TELL MEEEE!!!!

right now, I'm off to do dishes then meet Sam at her bus stop <3

and then CANDY!

maybe I'll take pics <3 with sam's camera

because I lack one of my own!!!!

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10553912/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10553912/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 22:29:49 PST
anyways ummm, so I'll be puttin up some new drawings soon I suppose, I already have a pic i'm putting up tonight, IT'S A JACK PUMPKIN!!!! I drew it and my friend Sam, she carved it, it looks amazing <333 (right!!!!)

Halloween this year'll be fun I think....I hope.....I wish I knew @w@

anyways, ummm....

ummmmm.....

I miss Kat......TwT

she knows that >w<

and really I wonder, why can I never live up to my own expectations.....I suppose because....I expect too much

like a parent, who wishes their son/daughter would get A's knowing that he/she's only ever going to be capable of B's....

I'm glad I never have to deal with higschool grading systems again....or the kids...

I need a car, so I can get to college, so I can study photography, it's what I want...need....to do....to feel whole, and hell, if I get praise along the way, I'll be grateful, and sometimes unsure, but mostly grateful <3

isn't that what everyone wants?

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10533791/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10533791/ Sat, 28 Oct 2006 03:10:34 PDT
but enough of that, I have tons of base photos and if the mood so strike I'll end up manipulating, or just submitting them as is, I'm excited for this one <3 I'M SO READY TO DO IT! my idea is great >w<

"Turn it up, it's five minutes to midnight"

oooooooooooooh yeah, and I been drawin lately, look out world here come some mediochre drawings drawn by another run-of-the-mill teenage dropout with dreams for more than this life can ever give....

oh...the rain is stopping

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10522835/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10522835/ Fri, 27 Oct 2006 00:05:16 PDT
yay random quotes!!!!!

I've been sick, it started with an unbearable migraine 3 days ago, and then it wa another headache and sinuses, and lack of sleep.....I'm starting to get tired......of here....the weather is lovely, when it comes to florida weather that is. I've never seen it this cool in florida ever....

then again, I never wanted to, I never wanted to come back, but somehow it's where I always end up.....because nobody wants me....nobody but Kat, and you're so far away, I need my license so I can drive my way to youuuu TwT

i'm dying.....slow as you can possibly fathom.....fading away with all the leaves, in the beginning of this autumn.....

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10482307/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10482307/ Mon, 23 Oct 2006 00:44:32 PDT
I been workin on some....odd, drawings lately, and I have bunches of writing, maybe sometime when I feel more productive.....I'll make loads of art and load it up ^.^

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]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10375177/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10375177/ Thu, 12 Oct 2006 23:39:18 PDT .<

As far as bein straight edge, so far I've done so good cause I never go anywhere so it's all easy fer me....

this girl that my sister knows n shit Mackenzie had the nerve to say "She doesn't even know what straight edge is!"

Well, I'm sorry you little 12 year old knowitall poser princess. It just so happens that I do know, and I have known for about3 years now, and I wouldn't be pursuing this if I didn't understand it. She says that bein edge includes "no sexual touching" me and my mother (who knows more than ms.kenzie ever will) disagree, cause never have I heard that, and I know many people who are in fact straight edge, some kids think they're soo awesome!

poser=kenzie....i don't say that often either....

She goes around saying "my nickname is nemo!" "ZOMG ppl think I'm emo wtf everrrrr" and she also goes around sayin she's emo.....honestly I don't think she should be talking about me and if she has something to say she can say it TO ME! not to everyone else, because not only can it be classified as slander it's also rude...the nerve of some children -_- some people will never succeed and she may be one of them, I can only hope for her to find herself so she can stop picking on people who already have themselves figured out, I'm 17 not 12 and I don't plan on dealing with a 12 years olds crap, I don't need her so next thing I'm prolly gonna do after this is tell her that I do know what it is and that she can say what she wants cause in the end, I'm still not gonna care....

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10334966/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10334966/ Mon, 09 Oct 2006 10:01:11 PDT
And I'm goin edge....

we'll see how long I last....

I'm considering veganism too actually.....

*sigh*

"Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good"

"A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame"

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10306890/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10306890/ Fri, 06 Oct 2006 18:06:03 PDT
and my cat is eating my pizza....

I'll let her think that's ok for now.....she deserves that much....she is only eating all the cheese off....and the pepperoni...and...oh damnit who am I kidding "BAD KITTY!!!"

edit: oh god why isn't anyone up, I need a shoulder to lean on, mine is tired from letting so many rest there, but where is the one i need now, probably sleeping -_-

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10272090/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10272090/ Tue, 03 Oct 2006 14:21:05 PDT .<, I'm cold, I'm disgusted, I haven't slept since yesterday....I been up all night and day, I'm lonely, and to top it all off, I have no ice cream....but things....have been worse.....believe it!

]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10137501/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10137501/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 21:38:59 PDT ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10078243/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10078243/ Fri, 15 Sep 2006 08:00:36 PDT I decided to try and use as much japanese this journal that I can fit. (or remember ) GAH! GERO-GEROOOOOOOO buggy >.< they're everywhere, it's tiny moths season er sumthin, and their dead bodies litter my computer screen. I'm sittin here all like "ZAKENNAYO!!! BAKA KAAA!!!!! *smash* NAN DAYO OMAE-WA?!?!?!?! *smush* ITAIME-NI?!?!?!?! *squash* TOTTOTE DETE IKE?!!?!??!? *kill*" and that's how it basically went.....want a translation, just ask lol ^.- I call these little moth bugs....Baka Bugs....because they're stoopidsorz >.< Atashi wa baka ja nai O.<......honto ni......I'm not....or maybe I am....like I said before......IIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!111!!!ONEONE!!! ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10065116/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10065116/ Wed, 13 Sep 2006 21:33:09 PDT ok it's not that amazing...buuuuut I really see promise in it...it's a love story OF COURSE!!! Lee must have her tales of Ai! I'm wearing a winter coat right now....I am that freakin cold. I'll start posting my story tomorrow sometime if I can......now you'll have to bear with me of course cause I only have 3 chapters written and i dunno how many there'll be, and the thing is if I'm not in a certain mood I just can't seem to add on to it, it just doesn't feel right. So this could take a while to finish maybe I'll write more tomorrow yes? yes maybe I will! ^.^

did you ever notice that worship and warship are only one letter apart XD ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10005729/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/10005729/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 04:44:37 PDT .< i reeealllllly gotta get out this weekend. and good news I have interweb at my home so i can start to put up deviations more often now...i have tons of randomness on my comp @w@ ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9903037/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9903037/ Wed, 30 Aug 2006 01:36:43 PDT <


oh yeah and for my b-day, my mom is takin me to get my snakebites. FINALLY THE DAY OF MY SEXY LIP PIERCINGS IS AT HAND!!!!!!!! ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9433641/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9433641/ Thu, 20 Jul 2006 04:19:59 PDT 0<

oh yeah I'm still moving to ormond, Fl this sunday i'm leaving......

I'm gonna kill myself.......fucking paris hilton....her songwriting skills......suck.....asss......i don't mean a cute little porn star ass.....I mean a big fat hairy 40 year old beer drinkers pimple havin ass XD ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9360278/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9360278/ Thu, 13 Jul 2006 01:07:13 PDT
"Sweet blazin' chronic, I'm down playa'!"

....P.S..........my butt hurts.... ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9252364/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9252364/ Sun, 02 Jul 2006 15:23:30 PDT .< my cavity fell out a helluva long time ago...I was thinkin of drawing lots this week, it seems like a good idea, I just have to find the right place to do it...there's nuthin better than being in a place that's cozy and warm while you draw....I want brittneys kitten, she treats it like crap....she throws it, kicks it, hits it, and she's just plain mean to it...I wanna take it home because I love it and it loves me too, everytime I'm here she comes running and she plays wif me it's so cute.....one of the dogs is barking at the iguana.....O.< crazy dogs....and there are guitars fucking blaring right fucking next to me......too much noise.....I like quiet....well to a certain degree...I like music....oh yeah I wrote something really good yesterday about my friends great gma I have to submit that later tho ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9164650/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9164650/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 23:35:38 PDT
"dude......you....are so...player hating....right now.....step off....my grill...." ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9082029/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9082029/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 22:16:49 PDT

'for the first time
in my forever dreams
I'm having
the best night of my life
all right here
in the place I once forgot
because the memory was too much
I love you so much!'

"I don like ghetto food!" ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9050638/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9050638/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 19:51:21 PDT .< seriously the last thought to cross my mind before now was
"i just wanna cut so deep the scars will never form"

buuuuuut it's ok, I'll live, yeah I will, if not for myself then for all the people I love and for all I can still do with my life.....grrrrrr damn you hereditary socially crippling mind numbing mental diseases

"this kitten is vibrating" ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9049380/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9049380/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 17:26:28 PDT

I'm not so happy anymore now DAMN YOU RING POOOOOOP....XD poop!!!!

"fill me with your sweet escapism and drown me in your soda pop dreams. Kill me in the candy shop."

and now a random convo between me and my gramma whileI waited to get more medicine from the nice clinic doctor....it was for a cold I sware..... :

"Gramma- is that gum in that lollipop?
Me- no...I pooped and put it in a lollipop to make candy coated poo nuggets! XD O.<" ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9041515/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/9041515/ Sun, 11 Jun 2006 21:57:12 PDT ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8908103/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8908103/ Mon, 29 May 2006 04:16:02 PDT If anyone wants I can do a preview type deal where I upload what's done so far, just tells me and if the demand is high enough to meet my standards (meaning it'll only take one person to convince me to put it up lol) then I'll totally upload it, it's too big to go on the scanner so I'll end up laboring my way throughout the house attempting to find any double a batteries I can for the camera lolz. oh and in more good news, I started showering regularly again, i went 3 days last week....uiiiiiiiiiiigh aaaaaaaaaand I made lotsa yummy food too!!! it was restaraunt quality seriously it was so good I was really surprised, i think I'm starting to find my way through things now, I may even be finally finding what I'm reaaly really good at, cause it sure as hell aint playin the guitar, and my sister says I can sing but, I disagree, ost of the time, I love to sing don't get me wrong, but I find alot of problems with my voice. sometimes though when I listen to myself I always think my voice sounds as if it once belonged to a siren or something....but that's just me getting all carried away again.....and it's ironic cause my name, Lorelei, is german name coming from a siren who, in legend, once sat on a tall cliff on the Rhine river in germany and lured sailors to their doom.....I'm startin to really like my name! ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8596168/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8596168/ Wed, 26 Apr 2006 20:10:12 PDT but yeah it'll give me more time to be artistic tho, i suppose....whatever. I WANT ADVENT CHILDREN NOWWWWWWWW!!!! O.< ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8571093/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8571093/ Mon, 24 Apr 2006 12:50:05 PDT

"Breathing is the hardest thing I do,
I'm not the only person in the room.
It's hard for me,
to feel like I'm perfect"

I hate bein bipolar >.< ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8458880/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8458880/ Thu, 13 Apr 2006 12:26:17 PDT ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8434886/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8434886/ Tue, 11 Apr 2006 05:17:51 PDT I gots my braces off!!!!!! The ortho said that it'd be pointless for her to replace the brackets if I'm gonna be movin anyways so all I have to do now is wear a retainer at night!! IT'S PERFECT!!!! and on top of that, I get to see the Misfits on the 21st!!!! my mouth hurts but I DON'T CARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRE!!!! and tmrw is the last day I have to be bedridden!!!!! YAY!!!! ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8424199/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8424199/ Mon, 10 Apr 2006 04:47:24 PDT imma kill my orthodontist O.<

"And I'm here to sing this anthem, on my dying day." ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8398106/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8398106/ Fri, 07 Apr 2006 13:31:04 PDT I thought I was gonna die >.< But I didn't, they gave me a nebulizer for an hour to clear out my bronchial tubes, and I had to get an IV I FRIKIN HATE NEEDLES!!!!! and when the nurse put mine in she goes "oh, she's a gusher!" .......bitch........and now the place where it was is all purple...if that's what you'd call this hodgepodge of yellow, green, purple, and a mystery color O.o So they've got me on 5 different meds now cause they think I have walking pneumonia or sumthin like that. I get to be on steroids too....I asked the doctor and she said I wasn't gonna turn into a man....but I dunno.....I reeeeeeeeeeeeeally don't want a moustache or nuthin like that >w< But anyways, I feel much better now, I can breathe, and I still have no idea where the hell I got this from O.o...I really hate doctors....stupid doctors and with all these meds I think I'm gonna lose my mind ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8382408/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8382408/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 09:04:51 PDT DOMO ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU LAAKUUUUUU!!!!

"Are you feeling fine?
Nemurenai yoruniwa kimino maboroshiga...
She said "Lovin you made me happy every day"
Anokoroto onajisa mujyakina kaode hanashikakenaide."
Feeling Fine- L'arc-en-ciel ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8335810/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8335810/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 16:15:37 PST


Oh and yay for 600 pageviews!!!!!

I are been tagged by [link]

Ok, Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird
habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....


ok umm....
1. I talk to myself in the supermarket
2. I swear I have OCD cause I freak out at my gramma when she doesn't so things right...or maybe I just hate my gramma....
3. I say odd things at odd times for no reason at all
4. sometimes I stand still for a really long time and stare into a whole bunch of nuthin!
5. I like to eat steak with sour cream (pork too) don't knock it til u trys it!
6. I have a crippling addiction to cappuccinos O.o

Peoples I wish to be tagged ed are: [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8328891/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8328891/ Fri, 31 Mar 2006 23:53:36 PST anyways, I got the digital camera workin again so I'll probly be puttin up more photos than anything for the next couple days until I get some inspiration for a drawing.....*falls asleep* -.- ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZ ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8299550/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8299550/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 02:24:34 PST
I realize something now, I'm terrified of the word Father...I can type it fine but every time I try to say it, I can't hold back the torrents of emotion in liquid form, and I can't hear it either.....I'm listening to a song with these lyrics:

"oh sea you shelter
you dance between my toes
when I feel like I can't move forward
you carry me like a father"

I'm fine til he sings the words "you carry me like a father".....damn you Sonny Moore....damn you for putting the word father in this beautiful song, I have no choice but to hear it cause I can't bring myself to change the song, it's too alluring >w<

'Once again I'm struck by,
how much I feel this.
Once again I'm struck by,
how much it hurts me.
Did you ever get the feeling,
that maybe I love you?
Did you ever get the feeling,
that maybe you love me too?'

'my vision is always blurred by these little crys for help. I'm sure they mean well, but I can't help but hate them.' ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8289548/ http://SunsetPhoenix.deviantart.com/journal/8289548/ Mon, 27 Mar 2006 21:51:17 PST so he started without me.
and, in a fashion I can't escape,
I was left behind.'

'I'm falling victim to your aesthetically pleasing teasing. Oh be still my lusting heart, the way you move in front of me, it's irresistable.'

'sometimes I say I love you, just to know how it feels.'

baaaaaaaaaaaaaah my foots asleep, and I have to peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........maybe I should pee.......I don't feel like getting up -_-'
WAFFLES!!!!!! oh yeah, I'm currently workin on my coloring skills with photoshop so some of the deviations I may put up in the near future may or may not have been drawn by me ....hehehe.....is that legal??????

"Wasurenaide hitori ja nai. Hanarete mo te wo tsunaide iru, hajimete no koi hajimete shiita konno kanashimi ga aru koto."
no I have no I dea what that means but I like this song.....O.o ]]> ~SunsetPhoenix