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Our palms and fingers got tinctured a dirty yellow colour from cheap tobacco...
It's... Autumn.
Nature works its deadly ways. All I can do now is watch and sigh.
I quietly bring my hand to the yellow tree leafs. It is faintly visible... like the rest of me.
And so I stand there, back turned to the ones I once believed in, to the ones I once trusted, to the ones I still, unfortunately, care for and love... –Fingerless, handless. Heartless perhaps ?

A feeling, as if I would be pierced by an invisible needle overwhelms me.
A strangely heavy, yet warm thought takes over everything in my thoughtful head -
I’ll fly away into the sky with the melancholic melody of Autumn and watch you from above, watching me unknowingly, gazing up at my cloud; a cloud as light and grey as the melody of Autumn itself.


Org.- 18th / 28th September, 2007
Redone – 18th August, 2009 – preparing for Autumn.

]]> ~SustojesLaikas http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/24389624/ http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/24389624/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 06:55:27 PDT You mustn’t make a sound!
The book.. It’s your life, still unfinished, yet.. Strangely, only a few blank pages left as it seems.
Shut up! Just stare at the page as the crimson blood engraves your unspoken words…
Society won’t let you talk, you have no such right.
You have a right to turn the yellow pages, and an obligation to stay silent.
Don’t think, don’t blink, don’t even breath loudly ! Just stay quiet!
Soon your book will be finished.
But… Do you naively think any narrow-minded, tamed erudite will bother reading it ?
No.

So stay quiet, don’t even think – your book will be finished soon anyways.
Just... stay silent.

]]> ~SustojesLaikas http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/22448098/ http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/22448098/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 08:29:56 PST Medžiai pabarstyti cukraus pudra...
Kiekviena šaka ir šakelė saldžiai nubalinta.
O tamsiame nakties mėlinume, žibinto šviesoje vėjas tą cukraus pudrą skraidina...
Taip lengvai, gracingai, sukdamas kiekvieną baltą žvaigždelę ore valso žingsniu..
Ir atsargiai tupdo jas ant mūsų blakstienų..

]]> ~SustojesLaikas http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/17422485/ http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/17422485/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 08:10:50 PDT Anyways

Blonde-test. If I get 19 or more I'm a blonde.

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks. (this happens ALL THE TIME XD )
[] You have ran into a tree.
[] It IS possible to lick your elbow
[x] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm. (OMG!! They have the same rhythm!! )
[x] You just tried to sing them.
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.
[ ] You have seen the the Matrix and still don’t get it.
[x] You didn’t notice that in the last question “the” was spelled twice
[x] You just looked at it.
[ ] Your hair is blonde/dirty blonde.
[ ] People have called you slow.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire ( ; XD )
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes/cheek.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.
[x] You’ve fallen asleep in class (every week XD)
[ ] If someone says “fart” you laugh.
[x] You just laughed.
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking
[x] You tell a story and forget what you were talking about
[] People are often shaking their heads and walking away from you
[x] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.
[x] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[ ] You have eaten a bug.
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something important
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it
[x] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand or pocket (oh boy... )
[] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t even when you know it won’t happen to you.
[x] You break a lot of things.
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you
[ ] You sometimes tilt your head when you’re confused
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before
[x] When you’re laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling

30...great
XDDD
WOOOOOOT
GAYWAY TO GO KARII !!!!!!! <3

]]> ~SustojesLaikas http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/17051712/ http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/17051712/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 03:04:16 PST Atleisk man, meile mano, bet dids buvo mano skausmas.
O juk tiesa- tai vėjo vaikymas… Aklas tas, kuris nepamato akivaizdžių apgaulių ir pasileidžia levandų migla bristi.
Negalėjai gyventi veidrodžių karalystėje - gyvenimo taip niekada ir nepamatysi.
(Tyla, Tyla,… Tyla… )
(Padėk mums mielas Tėve, ak padėk.. )
Tebūnie mes dvi beribės amžinybės, susijungiančios į vieną, trumpą dieną.
O mūsų apsurdiški laiko tarpai tarp širdies dūžių krutinėje - nesibaigiantis pragaras be liepsnų..



Tai va, seniai jau šita ..umm.. monologą (??) rašiau savo puslapyje, o dabar sergu, nuotaika, kaip suprantat, nekokia, o ir seną journal'ą būtų ne prošal pasikeist.
Tikiuosi lietuviškas šriftas čia veiks, arba reikės perrašyėt su didejančiu galvos skausmu.. -__-
Arba, negražiai pasakius, ant visko PADĖSIU ir eisiu vėl gult į lovą(nors gulėti trečią dieną tokiai kaip aš didžiausias pragaras... bet ką jau padarysi, kai temperatūra vos ne 40 ir nelabai jau kaip atsistosi, nekalbant apie visokius šokinėjimus ir t.t. ... ). xD

]]> ~SustojesLaikas http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/17009900/ http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/17009900/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 13:50:40 PST I’ll rip your chest open and drown itself there, sucking into your heart slowly and pleasurably, enjoying your pain, feeding from that miserable feeling.
From your heart it’ll conquer your whole world – it will circulate all over your body, running through your veins and make sure you couldn’t just chew them open and make it leave.
No…
Sorrow will drown your last beam of light in darkness inside your head, letting out the beasts hidden in the back of your mind.
And when it takes over you completely and take everything it could from your fragile body it will leave, like a gentle wind leaves a soulless cemetery, like the golden autumn leaves the cold lands, letting winter take over to finish up the last trees and plants.
Sorrow will chew through your guts, through your skin, leaving such a worthless, rotten apple.
It’ll escape through every gash and cut on your porcelain skin like crimson juice.
It’ll tear loose from your body and run down from your nose, like a warm wine river, and color your pale lips red.
It’ll find an exit in your eyes and fall down like crystal rain.
Oh my, it will seem like you’ll soon vomit with sorrow !
But the most horrible and agonizing will be the quit voice in your head, who will open your eyes and make you believe that you’ve fallen in love with Sorrow

]]> ~SustojesLaikas http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/16030570/ http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/16030570/ Fri, 21 Dec 2007 14:27:39 PST As the sound of the old, oak clock echoed twelve through the dark halls of the house and the alarm clock by the bed changed to 00:00 in disturbing neon green numbers… The time froze.

It stopped. Took a breath. Escaped the world for a minute..

I sighed, lightening up yet another cheap cigarette and watched the smoke change into tinselly fog.
The time froze.
There was no sound of drunk teenagers coming from the yard. The neighbors didn’t seem to be fucking or screaming at each other anymore. No dogs were barking at homeless cats that were crying and mewing all night on the other side of the wooden fence and no cars or buses passed the house, which was built near an always busy road, full of dirty cars and other worthless self-destruct machines. Even the stars didn’t dance around the full moon anymore.
Everything stopped.

I guess it’s a good thing…
It’s a magical moment. A minute when your heart stops beating and you breath no more, yet no one will ever notice.
And why should we ?
It’s the last diamond of freedom we have. Otherwise, it’ll be a tirening everyday function in our mindless, indulgent heads…

]]> ~SustojesLaikas http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/15574880/ http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/15574880/ Mon, 19 Nov 2007 10:24:33 PST
[despite the fact karii is so not in a mood to write journals right now >.> ]

I see people like the two photos I took of my wonderful ice-cube model Sylvia ! ^___^
We’re both thankful guys, really ! ^^
*bows again and again, picks up all the red roses from the stage and leave to the sound of a loud “bravisimo” in the audience*
^////^
I feel so loved! *tear* ;__;

SOOOO !!!
Ne-ways
I turned up at Sylvia’s place and we both waited for her parents to leave the house so we could get ready and go to the little forest/swap not far from her house.
Since her and mine [oohhh what would I do without MY parents ?! XDD ] told us not to
So she borrowed her dad’s big pretty camera and we tried to figure out how do you get the flash mode on xD
It was until I [accidentally, I may add ] noticed the tinny black disk is placed on the wrong side.
SO when we finally fixed everything and opened the flash it was pretty fun.
Then her mate and neighbor Auste came and she got dressed up as well
[inner voice: I wonder if she knew she’ll have a hell of a photo session in the cold with the summer clothes ….. ? XD THE THINGS WE DO FOR ART! O_O ]
Well we grabbed some stuff [including a Halloween witch hat, some materials and tw little Olimpus cams just in case xD ] and set off to the forest ! [hiding Sylvia’s dad’s big camera from her neighbors who gave us odd looks the way we were all dressed in odd, black clothes from head to toe. Plus Auste had her hair ‘done’ XD ]

To the point…
(( I’m getting bored with myself now XP “cause my memory isn’t too good and damn it’s painful to move the lil’ beans in my had to remember yesterday ))

In the forest we saw some little useless bridge and took off our coats one after another, not even experienced either modeling OR working with people in photo session xD

So by the end we were butt-cold Oo
SERIOUSLY.
I’m amazed I didn’t get a cold, I’m not coughing and my voice is rather normal after yesterday ^^
When it was starting to get dark and the wind got stronger and [maybe, if it’s possible to say ‘we felt ] it was getting colder we got dressed and went back to the house.
[all the time Sylvia was paranoid about every car sound, since she thought it might be her parents XDD ]

At home I got dressed into my WARM clothes and tadam ! ^_^

I uploaded the pics from her PC ^___^
Well, technically I uploaded only one picture, I left her place and she finished to work on the second one ^^

Maybe this weekend we’ll go on a photo-session again 
It was fun anyways !

]]> ~SustojesLaikas http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/15201407/ http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/15201407/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 12:22:35 PDT Have you ever held your chin up high and then clutched your hair painfully in a little, dark room, where you were all alone with yourself ?
Have you ever wanted to scream and let all the pain inside of you, all the hurt and all the truth escape your mouth, flying away in the speed of light into the sky, leaving you alone?
Or maybe,… you wanted to scream into someone’s face, let the sharp pain and hurt inside of you escape and stab the person with unbearable sufferings that you held inside of you ?

Have you ever closed the door behind you and let the tears of pain, or either anger fall freely, running down your hot cheeks, onto your trembling lips?

Or , have you ever possessed a gift that is truly rare ??

What gift, you ask me ?
Hah

A gift….

A voice that would come on the hardest of times and softly whisper into your ear
“It’s oh-kay. I’m here. “

You say I’m a madman?
Maybe.
But a madman that you can and will be jealous of.

You all wish you had it
You all dream and think about it every time you feel the world’s pressure on your shoulders
You want me to choke with the warmth it brings me.
But if I will choke, who’s going to stuff your hand down my tight throat and steal it from me ?

No One

That’s why I haven’t choked every since it chose me, to be the blessed madman.

]]> ~SustojesLaikas http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/14823804/ http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/14823804/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 07:21:10 PDT It's... Autumn.
Nature works its ways. All I can do now is watch.
I quietly bring my hand to the yellow tree leafs. It is faintly visible...
Therefore, we stand there, backs turned to each other... -armless.

The park is soulless,... empty,
Wind is flailing around the naked trees, raving angrily, grabbing bunches of leafs and lifting them up in the air violently, then running off with a smirk as he watches them fall down on the cold stones, away from the other leafs, - alone.

The moulding fountain seems abandoned, forgotten... dead even.
Only wet, brown and yellow leafs fill him up, leaving a slight putrescent smell, yet still the fountain stands there out of place, in the middle of an empty autumn park..

A small yellow leaf falls silently, dancing its way down from the tree branch.
I spins a little in the air and get’s stuck in these wild, black spider-webs, - my hair.
The wind plays roughly with it, pulling it painfully and throwing it on my face, but I stand there quietly, not moving, not pulling my invisible hand away from the yellow leafs..
Simply ignoring.

My ears catch a quiet sound of your breath, weeping in the dismal air.
The dirty puddle reflects two dark figures standing near each other, back to back, yet a cold space between them….
So close, yet so far away.

I glance at it sadly, looking at your reflection near a brown leaf, putrefactioning in the water.
You’re hair is ruffled by the wind while your pale face is looking up to the grey sky…
I wonder if it reflects us in bright gleams, unlike the puddle.

I hear you moving slightly…
The male figure from the dirty reflection pulls something out of his pocket and stared at it emotionlessly .
After a moment a hear a loud ‘click’ and a soft melody spreads all around us, penetrating into every tree, the moulding fountain, every lonely bench and up to the sky, carried away by the wind…

A feeling, as if I would be pierced by an invisible needle, overwhelms me.
I smile slightly and close my eyes –
I’ll fly away into the sky with the melody and watch you from above, looking back at me with your icy silver eyes.

]]> ~SustojesLaikas http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/13414881/ http://SustojesLaikas.deviantart.com/journal/13414881/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 03:58:18 PDT XD
Now I'm starting to understand things... slooowwwllllyyyy
AND I got my best friend here too !!!!
Go check out her beautiful drawings and awesome poems on Huna-Chan!!

Not sure why I joined devaintart. I don't really like people looking at my work, but I guess it's fair since I get to keep my favourite drawings for myself and upload old and childish ones here.

Maybe if I'll feel like it, I'll do some quick still life sketch or even painting and update the picture on deviant.
I don't have any big plans on here...yet.

I pretty much like rough criticism. I think it's a big part of the work.
So feel free to get your anger out by commenting my work. Apart from other people, I don't b!tch back or go all emo and depressed about it. But please be honest!

Peace !

Karii-chan
-HUH

aka

Karine S.

]]> ~SustojesLaikas