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<sub>a new journal after a very long time


so, what's new?


My fiance and me spent wonderful 4 weeks with eachother this summer <3

I've gotten myself a tablet (a Bamboo by Wacom) and I it!

I've started a novel and I am hoping to find a publisher (more about this later)

Have I mentioned my cute tablet yet?



Art
You are gonna see more art from me again! (prepare! D: ) I have soooo many ideas! You sure gonna see a drawing of my fiance and me soon, I've gotten the doodle already

If you like we can do ArtTrades, just pm me!


Writing
Yes, I am writing again, thanks to this Harry Potter RPG I've started to write at to train my writing again - and it worked!

So now I revived Kataang 2009 (in german only!) Please pm me if you wanna read it!


I've also started a novel, which means: I am tossing around ideas and writing down scenes. I am at the research at the moment and I still have so many questions.

All I can say now: It's gonna be about Baldwin IV, the so called leper king and the crusaders and all that.

If you speak Arabian or know someone, who does, please pm me!



Thanks for reading!

~ Suzume</sub>




]]> ~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/24581443/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/24581443/ Mon, 04 May 2009 10:22:23 PDT

We celebrated our 1 years anniversary last thursday (30th of April <3 ) One year already... wow And many more years to come <3


We bought a laptop on sunday *-* Its awesooooooome We were all over it haha

I still need a name for it But I'll see!


Frank left this morning though I miss him already, but in 2 1/2 weeks I will come to Holland!

Can't wait!


Hope everyone's doing well!

~ Suzume




]]> ~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/22498951/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/22498951/ Sat, 10 Jan 2009 02:43:24 PST Whoops no update for a loooooong time I see

Private life
I am still very happy with my fiance Frank. He was here over Christmas and we had the most wonderful time <3
It was the best Christmas I ever had ^^ Too bad he had to leave before New Years and we, again, couldn't celebrate our anniversary - this time our 8 months anniversary on the 30th of December

We're gonna meet up again this februrary when everything goes right and I am really looking forward to that!

Frank makes my life good


My work goes fine as well! We just moved into a new surgery (which was rather stressful) and started to work normaly again this wednesday!
We had loads to do and it's a bit hard to get back into the daily routine after the moving, but oh well, I will manage!
In februrary I will start with school and my real job training and I am really looking forward to it. Especially to school because I really miss school *weirdo*

My friend is doing the same job training as I do and she said, her school would be easy and so I hope I will do very well, so I can end my job training after 2 1/2 years and go to Holland to be with Frank!


Art
I haven't really submitted any because I didn't feel much like drawing lately. Though I actually would like to draw something for my new fanfiction.. But I really have to be in the mood for that


Fanfiction
Kataang 2006 has ended. At least the german version of it! I am trying to make some time to translate it into English BUT I've decided to make an alternate ending in the english version so it in fact ends!
Because in german the story goes on in Kataang 2009 with partually new characters.

But I am too lazy to write all that in English xD


I have a new idea for a story, but actually I am planning to write it down carefully and let many people check it and then send it to a publisher, hoping it may be published as a real book.
(Though I really doubt this could happen)



Books
I love to read Terry Pratchett lately! I bought me the first book of the Wee free Men in Holland in Rotterdam (amazing bookstore they got there!) and I got addicted and just bought me the second and third book (cos inbetween I was too busy with other stuff, I couldn't make it and then I forgot ._. )





Now, that was some long journal... xD



~ Suzume

http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/20756058/ Tue, 30 Sep 2008 08:46:34 PDT Finaly!

I've gotten the job today! I am so happy about it! Not only cos it was the job I wanted to have, but also because this not knowing what comes next is finaly over!

Plus I know for sure now that I can visit my fiance! I am soooo happy about this ^.^

Now everything has to be planned, but that is done quickly!

Before I will take off, I am gonna take some nice pics in the big park nearby <3


5 months today

I love you so much Frank, thank you for being there and the way you are <3



~ Suzume




http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/20716228/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 03:09:54 PDT Hello everyone

So I had 2 job interviews in the last weeks. Both went well.. I will be called.

My favourite is kinda the childrens doc, but I am not sure anymore, I've found a way closer thing today I am going to apply to.

So I kinda wish both say no to me xD haha


Would be kinda, handy too, because I am so stubborn like that and wanna see my fiance before next year february.. >.<

We are together for 5 months on tuesday! He's so great <3


I am going around a bit tomorrow and see if I can take some nice pictures. I really have to do something before I die of boredom and become totaly grumpy >.<

Plus my gallery wasn't updated for a long time!


Take care everyone!

~ Suzume





http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/20389643/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 01:29:31 PDT Just in case you wonder if the large hadron collider has destroyed the world yet,
here

is an update every hour what happens there!





lolz

http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/20271678/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 12:33:49 PDT
Wow, life is hard lately.. lol

I had my fiance over last week and it was really great! But now he's back home again and I miss him like crazy and I am not sure if I can see him soon again.. Which really sucks..

Plus my parents (more: my Mom) is like pressuring me into finding a job and so on.. Meh, I really want to find out what I want to do first, please?

Oh well, I am trying something with a kidsdoc now, maybe will be fun.. I could take blood samples from little children! muhahahahaha

xD

Now my parents want to go visit my Grannies.. agh, no internet.. I will die.. don't wanna go there.. -.-

Suzume home alone? A good idea?

Oh well... everything's the first time, right?


Not much more to tell.. Life can be a b**** >.<

~ Suz




http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/19807373/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 11:19:50 PDT

Gahhhh, hide me!


I am so scared to turn 20... Really, I mean, you are no teenager anymore. And 20 just sounds so fregging old.
I mean, people ask me how old I am and when I say 19 they always react like *twitching* already... >.>

Or maybe that's cos I don't look like 19... or 20..

Anyway, tomorrow, 7th of August, I will turn twenty.. it looks even worse when you write it xD


Oh well, better news..

My fiance will visit me soon <3 He will stay at my place at the end of August <3

I am sooooo looking forward to that! lol


I will try and actually DRAW something soon again

~ Suzume





~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/19692325/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/19692325/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 02:25:02 PDT
I am back in germany since yesterday

The time at my boyfriends was the most amazing and great time in my whole life <3 We had loads of fun and had crazy times ^^

We are engaged since the 17.07.2008 <3 I love him so much ^^

He gave me a really, really pretty bracelett <3 It was a gift for our 1 months anniversary but he didn't want to send it per post ofc ^^

btw, yesterday was our 3rd month <3 Many months and years to come <3

You can find fotos here: [link]




http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/19326226/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 06:48:50 PDT
Yes, I am going to meet my boyfriend tomorrow. Yes, we've met online.

I know him for over a year now and he walked at my side all the time and he caught me when I was about to fall.

He's my everything and he saved me and my life so often, I can't count.

When everything was dark he brought me light - and he always made me smile, even through the tears of which I've cried many last year.

I am so happy and so excited to meet him tomorrow

This will be great <3


He makes my life good:






http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/19198996/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 09:13:48 PDT
I survived my prom... yay me xD

It was okay... but like every big event rather boring (in my opinion, I am just not made for them)...

I found the music very interesing, or the DJ's work I must say. How he mixed the music together.. did sound really cool and I was really interested into the tricks... but to shy to ask

Oh well, no Djane Suzume haha

I am going to write some applies for University, hope for the best and the gooooooo to visit my boyfriend ^^

7 days... I am dying of excitement *runs in circles*



But it will be great, I am sure I will post a journal or at least a few words from his place, promise and some pics ofc!

Talking of pics:

[link]
^------ me at the prom I was so amazed my hairdo hold! D:


~ Suz


COUNTDOWNS

Highlight:

2 Days and I will see my wonderful boyfriend <3 I can't wait ^^


http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/19093874/ Tue, 01 Jul 2008 08:19:49 PDT [link]

Okay... this guy is the male and the female voice: [link]

xD


OMG you gotta watch this! It doesn't matter if you don't get it cos of the language.. it's still funny xD

I couldn't stop laughing: [link]

but don't worry, apparently this is "just" a comedy



My boyfriend are together for 2 months today! I still can't believe it to have such an amazing, cute and wonderful boyfriend ^^

He was and will be always at my side... and he makes every day and every coming day way brighter <3

I can't wait till we be together at last

I love him forever <3



-----

Hello~


As some may noticed I've changed my art lately o.O I made these stamps and such photo manips lately...

I just thought I should try something new ^^ But don't worry, I will still do drawn art.

I am actually having a new "project" lying on my desk, but it's nerve-racking me a bit so it will take me a bit to finish it xD

It's a drawing of Wolverine and my OC Lelia from my X-Men Fanfic I've written once.. long ago.. tehee~ <3

I want to keep it in the X-Men comicstyle.. and that is hard o.O So I am still trying xD



COUNTDOWNS


0 Day till my Prom... On the one hand I am curious to see all my friends being dressed up.. and I wanna shock the others being totaly dressed up (hehehe xD ) but on the other hand I will miss my boyfriend this eve ._.

Highlight:

9 Days and I will see my wonderful boyfriend <3 I can't wait ^^


http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/19076292/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 13:24:19 PDT

I've gotten my school leaving diploma yesterday (and two cool shirts xD ). I just disliked being parted so long from my boyfriend during that >.<

2 weeks and we'll be together! *angels choires* <333

He's sooo amazing and cute and wonderful... Me can't wait ^^

And it's so cool to watch him game his new game and read his funny comments xD - I could do millions of stamps with them xD

[link]
[link]




On an other note:

and me founded a club! And it's not just.. a club.. it is THE CLUB!

>>>><<<<

JOIN US! We have Stroopwafels! - Which are dutch waffles with syrup inbetween

Unresistible as you can clearly notice!

So General Plumey and.... errr.. Plumey and me would like to have you, yes youuuu *stares* in our club!


Join us.. we will find you! That maybe sounds stalkerish, but one: We are stalkers; and two: we're desperate xDD (quote by Plumey-chan)

Hope to welcome you soon


~ Suz


http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18961113/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 05:57:33 PDT
Same in other Journals, I've tried... Someone having the same problem?


Other thing is... since this week I so totaly have the feeling that I finaly fought down things that happened to me in the past. I am happy ^^


17 days to go <3



(and 6 days to go and we'll be together for 2 months )

------------

hehe, I caught my bunny sleeping xD Look, he's the cute <3 [link]

------------

Please comment in this journal and I will...

a) Tell you why I friended you
b) Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, et cetera
c) Tell you something I like about you
d) Tell you a memory I have of you
e) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you
f) In return, you must post this in your journal.


~ Suz


http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18839573/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 14:23:53 PDT
1. What is your DeviantArt name and what does it mean?
suzume means sparrow and cos I am obsessed with captain Jack Sparrow and japan (when I chose it back 4 years ago for the first time)
star is cos of my name, Stefanie and my last name that starts with Ar

2. Why did you join this site?
mmm.... I think made me

3. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined?
AVATAR, PotC

4. How many watchers are currently watching now?
mmm... some I hope

5. Your first gift ever was to?
My Parents.. I think o.O

6. List five things you are a fan of?
- Avatar
- PotC
- Kingdom of Heaven
- LotR
-

7. Have you ever slept in the back of the car?
Yep, thousands of times

8. List four people you look up to the most?
- People who risk their life to help others
- Firemen
- People who don't have much but give much
- Frank, cos He's everything inside of you
that you wish you could be

9. How many pets do you own?
One, a bunny *.*

10. Who is your most played character?
atm one of my Flyff-Characters

11. What do you prefer, white or black?
Black <3

12. Name 3 aspects of your personality?
~ sarcasmn
~ naive
~ pirate

13. If you could have a power what would it be?
Airbending


14. Who was the last person you talked to?


15. Who was the last person you said "i love you" to?


16. Write the first five things that pop into your head?
- Frank
- Lor of the Rings
- Summerrain
- Kisses
- Ice-Cream

17. What are the things you wish you could do better?
Trust, but I am working on it

18. Do you like who you are?
Yeah

19. Summer or winter?
Summer for a picknick and Winter for cuddling up cos it's cold.

20. Rain or sun?
Rain <3 Love the sound and smell

21. List 2 odd things about yourself?
~ I can tend to be a stalker
~ I start to act like someone outta my fandom, e.g. I sometimes still walk like Captain Sparrow

22. Now tag 6 other people.
Everyone who feels like it <3



http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18815575/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 07:16:15 PDT
I kinda buy too much lately I fear lol

I bought my ticket to my boyfriend ( omg, 28 days to go and then... *___* ), I will live 4 days at the hotel then (hehehe, after living at his place xD ) and I wanna buy him a present and there something (he knows what <3 )


And I need a new webcam! And I bought a bikini and.. and... *hyperventilates*


Wheeee, he's online! [/random]

Uhm, anyway, I think I need a job ._. Not only cos money comes in handy but also cos I get so bored in the mornings when my hunny is at school >.<

- You know how many bad shows out there? I saw them all


The most horrible shows are most likely shown in the mornings... oh wait.. the shows in the afternoon aren't very great either...


But yes... a job is wanted I dunno what to do yet... I wanna try waitress or what my boyfriend does :3 Me sees.


But yay, just 28 more days!!! *.* SOOOO going to glomp him at the trainstation

~ Suz




http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18561163/ Thu, 29 May 2008 14:09:02 PDT cookies and a loveletter for our anniversary, being together for 1 month!

It would be tomorrow, but my package arrived today already and I made him to open it (okay, I think I wouldn't had have to force him much )

Anyway, apparently he really like my cookies! I am soooo happy he does!!!

Here you can see them:
[link]
[link]


He made me some really, really cute pic!! I love it! You can find it on his page!


I love him SO much



http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18539019/ Wed, 28 May 2008 06:28:14 PDT
I had my oral exam in biology today.. and I actually I prepared to go down like the titanic did after hitting the ice-berg >.<

I knew it would be my fault though cos I am just a goddarn lazy person xD I didn't study very good... actually I've started one day before the exam and just skipping the texts... I am helpless xD

I studied really hard this morning then before having to go there and when I went my heart was beating like a drum-roll and I was shaking and I felt horrible...

I am very well with exams normally and even with giving a talk I have no problems at all... but I was so very scared that I would be watched from 3 teachers...

BUT it went all amazing and very great My teachers were sooo nice and kind and they gave me feedback how they liked what I was saying... that was very good ^.^ Last time my teachers had a pokerface D: That was mean >.<

When I came home I've found a really cute text message from my boyfriend on my mobile! Totaly made my day!

YAY I am done with all exams now!!!! *jumps around* xD

Feels really great Next things are selling cakes (to get moooooney for our ball), receiving my Abitur diploma, going on this ball (shoot my boyfriend can't be here... I will call him for at least 30 minutes on this evening! ) and then I am going to visit him in july

Life is good!



-----------• × • TWILIGHT and NEW MOON • × •--------------

(may contains spoilers || sure contains my own opinion. when you can't stand opinions, don't read )

I've read "Twilight" and "New Moon" again - I have to buy me the third book soon - and this time, already knowing the rough outline of what would happen, I noticed lots and lots of logical mistakes while reading and apparently what I had found romantic when I read it for the first time, I just found rather weird this time o.O

Especially Bella drove me mad while reading - all her "omg I can't breath, there is such a black hole in my chest, omg noeeees" and over-dramatic acting.. it nerve-racked me much actually

Especially when they met up again I was like "WTF". I know, I have read the books before, but... uhm... hello? Bella? xD

I am in love so you can't say that I have to be in love to understand this and to like all this over-dramatic and uber-romantic stuff... Still I find Bella stupid...

She meets him again and what is the first thing she does? Oh right, hugging him. Right after he killed her life, said those mean things to her and leaving her?

I would have at least slapped him before hugging him Though slapping a Vampire isn't a very good idea maybe... with the cold and hard skin? xD

That's another point I noticed while reading "Twilight"... Edward... our Vampire-Boy and Bellas better half What does she like about him?

Here's my listing:

- he's handsome
- he smells so good, omg! = D
- he's handsome
- he has got great hair!
- he's handsome
- his eyes are so pretty!
- he's handsome

See a pattern there? lol

Honestly... read through book 1 and watch our for things describing Edward. You will notice that he's only defined about his looks.
Poor Edward

But what is Stephenie Meyer trying to te... ]]> ~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18457050/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18457050/ Fri, 23 May 2008 02:27:18 PDT
I am going to book my ticket to visit my wonderful boyfriend today!

I am soooo excited! Cos it means that everythings becomes concrete now and very, very soon we'll be together

I can't wait to see him ^^ He's so amazing and cute and hot.. I can't believe he's my boyfriend
*hugs Halfie* <33

I am going to visit him from the 12th of July to the 30th of July! Awww, more than 2 weeks of total fluff and love! lol


When I am thinking about this visit I am just angsty about the part with the train xD Like I could get lost on the station or anything @___@

I could do something like that >.< I am helpless when I am excited xD


But awwwww, really, I am so looking forward to finally seeing and hugging and kissing and whatnoting my cute boyfriend


I LOVE him to death






http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18321604/ Wed, 14 May 2008 14:04:10 PDT
- Name: Stefanie
- Single or taken: taken
- Gender: female
- Birthday: August 7th
- Sign: Leo
- Hair color: brown
- Eye color: brown
- Height: 163cm | 5'4"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: totally straight


-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------

- favourite place to shop for clothes?: Esprit
- Favorite designer?: /
- What is your sexiest outfit?: A skirt and a blouse.. or my black dress
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: Skirt and shirt
- What do you usually wear?: Jeans and a Shirt


--------------• × • S P E C I F I C S • × • -------------------

- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Body: Lime Shampoo ; Hair: Some Shampoo created for my kind of cut xD From Lóreal
- What are you listening to right now?: msn sounds ^^
- Who is the last person that called you?: my boyfriend <333
- How many buddies are online right now?: Here? Not sure


------------• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •-----------------

- Food: Italian or Chinese <3
- Girls names: Lilly, Scarlett,
- Boys names: Johannes, Finn, Jack, Orlando (it just sounds great) and Frank ofc
- Subjects in school: english/german
- Animals: rabbits or cats <3


----------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------

- Given anyone a bath?: My cousin. I was like 7 and he was a baby.. we both hated it xD
- Smoked?: never
- Bungee jumped?: Heartattack? No >.<
- Made yourself throw up?: ewww, no o.O
- Skinny dipped?: Nope
- Ever been in love?: Yes, I am in love
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: yeah, once in math xD
- Pictured your crush naked?:
- Actually seen your crush naked?: just halfly
- Cried when someone died?: Yes
- Lied: Sometimes
- Fallen for your best friend?: Oh yes <3 Madly, insanely. I love you
- Rejected someone?: Yes
- Used someone?: Once, but I will never do this again.. Felt horrible after that.
- Done something you regret?: A thousand things.


-----------• × • C U R R E N T • × •--------------

- Clothes: Jeans and a top
- Desktop picture: My boyfriend ^^
- CD in player: "Study Dutch in 4 weeks"
- DVD in player: PotC 2


----------------• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •----------------------

- You touched: irl?
- You IMed: huh?
- Talk to online:
- Sex it up with:


---------------• × • A R E | Y O U • × •---------------------

- Understanding: I most likely understand to much... too nice
- Open-minded: Yes
- Arrogant: Hope not
- Insecure?: Often
- Random?: Depends on the guy I am talking to
- Hungry: Sometimes
- Smart: I wish xD
- Moody: Sometimes
- Organized: I can organize stuff.. but not my own ;D
- Shy: Very, ask my bf
- Difficult: Can be, yeah
- Bored easily: Nope
- Obsessed: With many things
- Angry: Seldom but if... you should better hide
- Sad: I used to be before I got together with ~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18208326/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18208326/ Thu, 08 May 2008 08:00:38 PDT EDIT 2: OMG, check her out! D: She's got amazing Avatarstuff *.*

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Hello guys <3

If you'll meet me on the streets you'll meet some BIGGG grin with a very happy girl attached to it! lol

Normally I am more the serious person, buuut since I am with my lovely boyfriend I am grinning and smiling all day

He's really amazing - also are his works, so, go and check him out

We used to be friends for a loooong time and now we became lovers <3 hehe

He was always there for me and is just everything I've ever searched in a boy I could bite myself for not seeing that earlier >.<

I feel really good being with him - and miss him like hell whenever he's gone

Good that he accepts my clingyness and me just how I am

I LOVE you, sweetie ^,^


I'm soooo looking forward to July because we're going to meet up then <3 I am very exited, he's so freaking cute xD

It's so long till July T____T

But we have skype <3 and our mobiles <3 and us ^.^


*spready love and happyness*

Last exam tomorrow Going to update my gallery after that.. Had such an amazing idea for some pic <3 - I just think it will take me very long, because it has to be good

~ Suzume

http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18192456/ Tue, 06 May 2008 07:25:46 PDT 2. Nicknames: Steffi | Suz or Suzu (I prefer the first one xD)
3. Birthday: 7th of August 1988
4. Place of Birth: Berlin
5. Zodiac Sign: Leo
6. Male or Female: female
7. Grade: Yr 13
8. School: Paulsen Gym
9. Occupation: Being crazy (in love)
10. Residence: Berlin

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: brown
13. Hair Length: shoulder length
14. Eye color: brown
15. Weight: you can't ask a girl something like that D:
16. Height: 5 ' 4 "
17. Braces?: had them
18. Glasses?: no
19. Piercings: just ears
20. Tattoos: no
21. Right or Left: right handed

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: Jenny L. First friend ever - got to know her when we were 1
23. First Award: best handwriting in elementary school xD
24. First Sport You Joined: ballet, then judo, then horseback riding
25. First pet: Schnuffi, a hamster
26. First Real Vacation: Southern France
27. First School: Dunant Elementary School
28. First Love: Shattered

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: PotC, LotR, KoH
30. TV programme: everything I like isn’t out in germany T____T e.g. Kenshin
31. Colour: black or yellow
32. Rapper: *pukes*
33. Band: Many
34. Song Right Now: Early Winter - Gwen Stefani
35. Friends: are great
36. Sweet: crisps? xD
37. Sport: horseback riding
38. Restaurant: uhm... italian or chinese
39. Favorite world cup team: Australia
40. Store: Esprit
41. School: Paulsen Gym
42. Animal: my Bunny; Cats
43. Book: Kenshin
44. Magazine: o.o
45. Shoes: Boots

___Currently___

46. Feeling: tired and lazy
47. Single or Taken: taken
48. Have a crush: yes
49. Eating: nothing
50. Drinking: nothing
51. Typing: funny xD
52. Online: apparently
53. Listening To: look 34 xD
54. Thinking About: my boyfriend <3
55. Wanting: to be with my boyfriend >.<
56. Watching: This
57. Wearing: Casual Clothing

___Your Future___

58. Want Kids?: Maybe
59. Want to be Married?: Think so ^^
60. Careers in Mind: Director
61. Where do you want to live: Where I am happy
62. Car: VW Beetle <3

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

63. Hair color: dark
64. Hair length: has to fit the persons face o.O
65. Eye color: light, or at least interesting
66. Cheeky or Lairy: WTH is Lairy? xD
67. Cute or Sexy: both
68. Lips or Eyes: eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: both
70. Short or Tall: middle height
71. Easygoing or serious: he should be both, depending on situation we are in
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Spontanious
73. Fatty or Skinny: Somewhere inbetween.. but more lean.
74. Sensitive or Loud: Depends.. at least not too sensitive, please o.o
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Hook-up never works for me cos I start disliking the person then xD I am weird, I know
76. Sweet or Caring: Erm... Caring?
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: Trouble Maker

___Have you ever______

78. Kissed a Stranger: no
79. Had Alcohol: no
81. Ran Away From Home: yes
82. Broken a bone: no
83. Got an X-ray: a few
84. Been with someone: yes
85. Someones Heart: I don’t get this xD
86. Broke Up With Someone: You can call it that, yes
87. Cried When Someone Died: yes
88. Cried At School: Yup, my mathteacher tortured me and made me nervous ---> emotion overload

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: not really
90. Miracles: yes
91. Love At First sight: not anymore
92. Ghosts: I saw some, so yes >.>
93. Aliens: no
94. Soul Mates: could exist
95. Heaven: would be nice
96. Hell: would be even nicer
97. Angels: yeah
98. Kissing on The First Date: never
99. Horoscopes: sometimes

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't Have? Have him <3


~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18097856/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/18097856/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 07:31:56 PDT


On an other note:
I had my friend staying over night at mines and we had loads of fun ^^ I hope she can come for a sleep over very soon again, cos it was so much fun and we haven't watched as many Movies/Avatar eppies as we wished to do so xD

Most fun was us not daring to switch out the lights cos we were so afraid of the darkness and what may would be behind that xDDD - Yes, we're both 20 (me almost) now xD
After building us a fort outta blankets we felt better though and could go to sleep

In the afternoon we took so funny pics xDDD We dressed up as Pirates and posed with my sword
The best pic we photoshopped lots and lots and drooled a bit over Will xDDD - and the Captain of course

But yeah, we couldn't help it xD

Anyway, it was fun and I sure wanna do that again!!!


On another note - again:
I am almost done with all my exams! Yay me! I just need to write my Social Knowledge now and then having my oral in Biology. Then I am set ^^

Gonna do some traveling after that most likely

cya guys ^^

~ Suzume

~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17912048/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17912048/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 13:16:42 PDT
So much exitement for my troubled soul! D:

Today my camera arrived! And I just totally love it! It's black and tiny and.. awwww <33

Its really sweet! Here's a pic of it: [link]

And the pics it takes are fregging great *___* I'm in heaven <3

I had a short photoshoot whatever with.. myself xP I may upload some of the pics... >.> People who got me on their msn will have a good chance of getting all of them xD

I wanted to take serious photos of myself for some project I'm planning (gahhh, girl, you need to study!!!!), but suddenly I found myself goofing around o.O

Anyway, you may see some of my mad facial expression on here... soon.. I just wanna warn you xD

I hate it when my hair hurt cos I had them up T____T

errr... what else to say?! I luv my bunny and I'm fregging hyper right now.. and I should read Werther >.<

But it's boring.. and pointles.. cos he's killing himself anyways xD

Apparently my bunny likes the PotC Soundtrack... *watches*

Yeaha, I'm back on my PotC trip again.. D: Oh noes, what became of the world, Suzume is fancying her old fandoms again! D: - Have they ever been "old fandoms"?!

It's even more enjoyable to watch PotC when drooling on TWO guys *.*

Never expected myself liking Will Turner (as the character.. not Orlando Bloom.. Orlando Bloom is.. well.. he is just Orlando Bloom and you just can't can't like him D: )
I have the weird idea lately to draw a pic of Jack and Will.. in.. a.. errrr.. rather slashy style

I just like the idea of them xD I can't help it D:

Uhhh.. Will and Legolas would be hot as well but.. it would be Orli paired up with himself.. what would be REALLY weird now xD

Anyway, I need to go on reading now... -.-

Have I ever mentioned how much I hate Goethe? No? Okay, then I'm gonna do it now: I HATE GOETHE!!!

Many say that he was one of the best german authors and is something like Shakespeare for the british people.. but he is fregging not.. he just sucks, in my opinion... I enjoy reading Schiller way more.. plus I liked his house better.. but that's another story



Anywayyyyy, I really should read this emo-boys letters again.. (talking of Werther).
Guess he was the first emo ever.. o.O

You see I really don't wanna read.. >.> But I will have to.. *sigh* Making your Abitur sucks...

Oh yes, something more to tell: It was my last day of school today!!

I still can't believe it and I'm very, very... I dunno.. I feel rather empty atm...

I will return to school on Monday to get my first certification and to write my exams ofc. But there will be no more lessons and stuff...

And I'm really looking forward to my.. well, new life.


Best part of it is, is that my bunny's at home now <3 I my room. We get on really well.. never expected that cos I'm rather sensible for noises when I'm trying to sleep... >.>


Anyway... Studying.. now.. gahhhh


Oh yes, check her out.. she helped me to lengthen my break cos I had to check out all her cool stuff!!!


Now I'm gonna get myself biscuits


Baiiiiii, much luv and hugs to whoever wants those (yeah, Frank, to you <3 less than 3 u D: )


STELLA AND TOBI

Chapter One: Ashes
Chapter Two: Resurrection
Chapter Three: Phoenix
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http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17826644/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 06:45:39 PDT 1) Full name?
Stefanie Amandil (that will do). Pseudonym is Stella Archer

2) Male/Female?
Girl :3

3) Were you named after anyone?
Nope, my parents just liked the name.. God knows why D:
On the other hand, yes, I’m actually named after one of the first martyrs: Stefan o.o

4) Does your name mean anything?
It’s from the greek name Stephanos which means „to be crowned“ (yay me, I’m a princess xD )

5) Nickname(s)?
Steffi or Suz or Suzu

6) What do you think you look like?
Human?

7) Date of birth?
7th of August

8) Place of birth and current location?
Berlin

9) Nationality?
German

10) Astrology sign?
Leo

11) Chinese astrology sign?
Dragon

12) Religion?
None

13) What's your favorite smell?
The air after a rainfall

14) Political position?
None o.o

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Milk

16) Hair + eye color?
Brown + Brown (wow, boring!)

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
Anna Paquin *___*

18) What do you look like?
Like me

19) Any unusual talents?
They call me Paranoia Girl.. guess that clears it up

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?
Righty

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?
Straight

22) What do you do for a living?
Daydreaming, writing and breathing

23) What do you do for fun?
Drawing, listening to music, watching movies

24) Materials to work with?
Imagination and life

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
Uhm..? xD

26) Have you met your grandparents?
Yes o.o

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
mmm

28) Crush?
mmm

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
Orlando Bloom, cos I think we’d have the most hilarious date

30) Current worries?
My Bunny’s health

31) Favorite online guy/girl(s)?
Frank and Susi

34) Do you burn or tan?
Tan

35) Ever break a bone?
Nay

36) What is your favorite cereal?
Little children.

Errr... dunno, random flakes with rosins.

37) Person you cry with?
Uhm o.O My best Friend I think.

38) Any sisters?
Nope

39) Any brothers?
Nope

40) Any pets?
A Bunny called Merlin and a few fishies o.o

41) An illness?
iron deficiency

42) A pager?
WT---?! No xD

43) A personal phone line?
Yeah

44) A cell phone?
Aye

45) A visible birthmark?
No o.o

46) A pool or hot tub?
That’s hard... atm I’d prefer a hot tub

47) A car?
I’d like to have one

48) Personality?
Calm but very able to explode. Dreamy and sensitive but also ironic.

49) Driving?
No, I can’t

50) Your clothing style?
No style, I wear what I like

51) Room?
Yeah, I have one

Err.. big and cosy. And very yellow.

52) What’s missing?
Jack.. still

53) School?
Yeah, but last year! Yay me!

54) Bed?
Cosy <3

55) Relationship with your parents?
Good

56) Do you believe in yourself?
Yeah, I think I do exist

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?
It’s sure possible but never meant to hold.

58) Consider yourself a good listener?
Probably, at least I know more about other people than myself I fear.

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?
No ^.^ That’s my dream.

60) Get along with your parents?
Yup

61) Save your e-mail conversations?
No, just if it was something really important.

62) Pray?
Nope

63) Belie... ]]> ~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17780312/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17780312/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 13:45:42 PDT
I'm very happy and content today I got my last exam back (maths) and I was really surprised about my rather good grade o.O - I mean.. I normally suck at maths xD

Anyway, all my fears are like killed now and I feel very relaxed. Just 3 more exams and 1 oral.
Funnily enough my best exam was in my most behated subject (next to maths): biology. I achieved 12 Points out of 15 o.O Yay me xD


Sooo, I'm very looking forward to getting my Abitur and leaving school! Sooo looking forward to that!
Though it feels really weird on the other hand... It will be.. weird... I think.


Anyway.. I'm gonna get some really great new things after finishing school! - Okay, the on thing I'm gonna get this month xD

I'm getting my own camera! I'm so very happy! Muhaha

Aaaand... I want to get to know a new family member of mine.. Well, he will be soon...

This is Henry and I love him already: [link]



I want him nooooow D: But I'm gonna get him soon enough I think!


Ahh, oh yes, I've started a new fanfic! But I'm gonna finish Tobi and Stella first before submitting the other one here!

~ Suzu


STELLA AND TOBI

Chapter One: Ashes
Chapter Two: Resurrection
Chapter Three: Phoenix
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~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17648609/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17648609/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 09:28:07 PDT EDIT Thanks for the 4000 pageviews! o.o

Hello~

I'm soooo relieved, I'm finally done with my presentation >.<

It was stealing my sleep in the last 3 weeks.. but not cos I was afraid I could fail... just because I haven't started it yet *lazy*
So I actually did it in the last 3 days I had xDDD But oh well xD

Topic was (I hope I can translate this correctly): "the characterisation of a battlepainting compared to reality"

I had 15 minutes to tell my 3 examiners what I think and what I've found out and my thesis and so on and then there were 15 minutes in which I was asked questions about my topic and background knowledge.
The question-thing sucked but the rest went very well


I have a free day tomorrow while some of my friends need to do their project.. I hope they'll do fine

I just have to visit my special course on my other school, but my mate will be there so it'll rock - Though he's got strange ideas about taking me out and giving me alcoholic drinks or watching Pirates of the Caribbean with me (even in english - though he hates it), though he stopped having this idea after I've asked him if he'd mind me being all over the tv then seeing Johnny Depp aka Captain Jack Sparrow (arrrr) and Orlando Bloom aka Will Turner (hmmmm) then xD


Well, I have to study a lot in the next weeks and I'm really motivated because I know now what to studyyyyy!

Tv- and Filmdirector <3

There is everything combined I love to do ^.^


Anyway, I need to relax now.. I'm so effing tired o.o


STELLA AND TOBI

Chapter One: Ashes
Chapter Two: Resurrection
Chapter Three: Phoenix
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~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17555925/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17555925/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 11:21:29 PDT
I dunno why I'm posting that here, but it made me feel better though it's almost 2 years ago I wrote this.

I show you the original (for my german friends) and my poor translation afterwards.

May it make you feel better a bit. - Or give you a good laugh at least

(german)
Du weißt, dass man in dieser Welt nicht leben kann, ohne anzuecken, Luv? Lebst du, wenn du vor allem davonläufst? Ist es das was du willst: für das Ende deines Lebens in diesem Käfig sitzen, zum Horizont starren, ihn aber nie erreichen? Sieh mich an, Luv. Ich segle frei wie der Wind dem Horizont hinterher. Kein Käfig könnte mich je halten. Du musst Rückschläge erleiden um zu wachsen. Das Glück ist so wertvoll, weil man es nicht geschenkt bekommt, sondern weil man um es kämpfen muss. Ich weiß, dass du das kannst. Du würdest eher bis zum Ende kämpfen als von Anfang an die Waffen zu strecken und deinen Kopf dem Henker hinzuhalten. Du bist Pirat, Luv, und mein Mädchen noch dazu. Da erwarte ich ein wenig Kampfgeist!

(poor english)
You know that you can't exist in this world without to rub somebody up the wrong way, Luv? Are you living when running away from everything? Is it that what you want: Sitting in this cage till the end of your life and staring to the horizon but never reaching it? Look at me, Luv. I sail free like the wind towards the horizon. There's no cage that could hold me. You need to to suffer a setback to prosper. Luck is so precious because it's not easily given to you, but you have to fight for it. I know that you can do it. You'd rather fight till the end than grounding your arms and giving your life to the hangman. You are a Pirate, Luv, and my girl as well. I'm expecting some fighting spirit!

I hope the translation didn't suck too much >.<



New Stuff from Tobi and Stella - very soon

STELLA AND TOBI

Chapter One: Ashes
Chapter Two: Resurrection
Chapter Three: Phoenix
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~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17490545/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17490545/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 10:52:57 PDT
Yesterday was truly awesome Have been on a concert with my friend to stay over the night at hers after that <3

For us both it was the first time we ever went to a concert, so we were like rock-concert-virgins (xD) and didn't really know what to expect... though my friend was obsessed with the idea to hook me up to one of the guys we would probably meet there...

When we arrived there we noticed that all guys there were as attractive as garden hoses xD
My friend felt really bad about that and that her "hook up my mate" idea didn't work out. (Phew for me )

Friend: "Man that sucks... no handsome guys here for you.. oh wait, look, how about that one?"
Me: "Uhm... no.. honestly. I'm not much for blondes >.> "
Friend: "Oh well..."
Me: "Eh, but what about you getting me this bassist there! "
Friend: "o.O He looks great, yeah, but.. he's part of the band.. I mean.. come on, pick someone we can talk to xD"
Me: "Awww *3* But he looks hot xD"
Friend: "Okay, I'm gonna throw my mobile against his head so he'll fall from the stage.. all you need to do is boxing yourself through the people and catch him!"
Me: "... Okay, just take a photo."
Friend:


We are crazy.. but that's what makes us stick together xD

Anyway, everything was really great and I especially enjoyed the bands Mothers little Helpers (well, I enjoyed their bassist mostly xDDD) and Itchy Poopzkid <3


It went really weird (and horrible) when the last band came on stage.. some old men (xD) and my friend and me had gone right in front of the stage in the break...
I dunno if you ever stood right in front of the stage... and if you ever had a 60 year old, 10 000 pound lady in your back, trying to get to the stage, crying hysterically... you've seen death.

Honestly.

My friend and my were about to... get crushed! We thought we must die there! And it wasn't only this lady but also some 40 year old guy... squealing...
He was squealing into my ear and reaching out his hand, trying to touch the singer.. o.O

I know that sounds hilarious now, but being there.. I just tried to get some air into my lungs after the old lady knocked me outta it and I hoped that my ribs would be strong enough to hold in this deadly embrace -.-

My last thought was: Now you're going to die without squealing this bassists name cos you were too shy... damn it xD

My friend and me decided to fled... As fast as we could... somehow it worked and I think, though I didn't look back, the old lady and the squealing man were fighting for the place in the front row now >.>


Though we had planned going to some dancing afterwards... my friend and me were just too shocked to do something else than going to her and watch The Lord of the Rings and me being all over her cat again xD (Man, I love her cats <3)


Then we fell asleep (when the fellowship was entering Moria xD) and it was very late >.<


And we had to kick the cats outta the room cos they were too much amazed of our glasses xD And we wanted to shower in the morning not lying in bed



All in all I think it was an amazing evening though the end... or the one part in the end of it had sucked hell... but oh well, we know now how such stuff works and I think that I'm definetly gonna go the the next Concert from Mothers little Helpers again


~ Suzume


STELLA AND TOBI

Chapter One: Ashes
Chapter Two: Resurrection
Chapter Three: Phoenix
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http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17446486/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 17:15:57 PDT Watching the movies... well, my favourite parts of them the last 3 days now... I still can speak the lines ._.
I wished I could remember my maths that well

I'm pretty much all over Legolas while watching the movie just cos I totally fell for him a few years ago after recognising a few things:

a) he was just the best character in my game cos it was imposible for him to die having two swords!
b) all movies I really, really enjoyed.... had Orlando Bloom in it o.O
c) I was starting to take over a british accent
d) in a horse-special Orlando kissed a horse. I kiss horses (and my bunny) on their nose... and he does... omg, another crazy one!

So I was telling myself: You can't ignore it any longer and just hate him cos everyone else loves him... Give in and drool on Orli.
So I did so xDDD (and I am so very glad he probably can't read that cos he hates the internet and everything which has to do with electronic stuff).


Anyways.... I may restart this old fanfic I've found... >.> I dunno yet.
I at least gonna try and get some time to draw a pic of Legolas and my OC who makes his cool elvish skin feel a bit hot around his cheeks
She's human and from Rohan and Theódens daughter I like her a lot though she's probably rather Mary-Sue'ish and a tomboy.


Man, 1 am again... I wanted to go to bed 2 hours ago o.o Just to get some sleep becauuuuuse I'm going on a concert on Sunday!!!!
Soooo totally looking forward to that! My friend asked me in some sweet little letter if I wanna go there (that was really sweet, could have ask me, but no, wrote me a little letter).
Only problem was my dad cos he was already a bit grumpy cos I came home against 12:10 am yesterday after being out with my friends >.>
But I can stay overnight at my friends and so it's fine and he doesn't know that I'm coming home against 4 am or something like that xDDD

I was staying up rather long in the last nights as well... watching The Lord of the Rings mainly.. or chatting xDDD

Heh, best chat ever I had a few days ago with xD Talking about the names of bones (don't ask) and the names of our furthers kids (don't ask!) and in the end about good looking parts at guys (don't ask!!!) xD
Man, wish you'd live here.... you rock!


I need to do my project soon... Found many websites already... Just need to put all that together and sound very intelligent when telling that my teachers xD


oh, btw, I was looking through photobucket searching for good Legolas avys and pics... and many gifs for my webcam here... and gosh... after page 60 it gets weird... but I went on.. and on... and you know when the gifs came I was looking for?

Page 100


I luv you guys, take care!


~ Lúthien Amandil (my elvish name xD)


STELLA AND TOBI

Chapter One: Ashes
Chapter Two: Resurrection
Chapter Three: Phoenix
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~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17411722/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17411722/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 14:28:19 PDT Yesssss I wanna become a Rangerrr with my character Aangg (xD) after I'm already a Ringmaster with... Kattara xDDD


Anyway... I need to study for school soon -.- and colour pics... and huggle Tobi... okay, last thing isn't that bad


Too tired to write more.. stiff fingers ;(


STELLA AND TOBI

Chapter One: Ashes
Chapter Two: Resurrection
Chapter Three: Phoenix
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****~ Clubs: ~****




****~ Friends: ~****

AP Mateys

http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17318031/ Thu, 13 Mar 2008 15:18:26 PDT

Soooo, I did it! I've posted first chappie of my "Stella and Tobi" fanfiction.. It's partly unwritten yet, but I've got ideas for many plots already
It's a rather personal fanfic and you will find many incidents which happened to me or the people around me.
So please be kind and easy on me.

I was wondering if I should really submit it for it being so personal... but on the other hand I just think this lovestory is something I need to share because it's so special and wonderful... - I'm may a bit prejudiced

I really hope you like my story and my characters... Yes, Stella is pretty much based on me... therefore she's around 18.
Tobi is, still, based on this guy from my school I have some special bonding with.. he's around 14/15.


If you think that sounds corny, don't read it. But for love age doesn't matter


Bye, hope you all do very well


STELLA AND TOBI

Chapter One: Ashes
Chapter Two: Resurrection
Chapter Three: Phoenix
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http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17270747/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 14:30:24 PDT L'Edit:

I should study Biology... in a second I will! lol - I loved this topic so there won't be much to recapitulate ^.^ Evolution ftw!!! (I'm sorry if someone feels disturbed by that topic though >.< I at least heard that it's forbidden to be taught in some american schools because it's not telling the same story as the holy bible did. So I'm sorry if you go for the Genesis >.< )

Anyway... totally lost track of what I wanted to say... Aye, Ratfeed xD

I'm SO bursting with ideas for little short comics about giving that guy I like the ratfeed just to get to talk to him (I'm weiiiird! I know! Tell me! lol)
I'm gonna start with drawing them tomorrow! - Need to study now, remember?

Anyways: I'm sooo going to do this "IDEA OF DOOM" (I like it to call it that xD).

Funnily enough this boy and me go a bit crazy in the last days... Last week I had some gaming night (till 3 am I had to do these 15 levels >.< ) and the next day I was telling that my friend - while he was next to us!
He did an u-turn and followed us then xDDD

Today he was talking to his friends and when I was walking on the way of our schoolgarden he was leaning himself right against the wall that devides it from the yard, facing me, his friends in his back and saying: "You can unlock the Quests one after another!"

LMAO xD

I so totally think we fit eachother


Meh, I just likey him alot Mah sweet Tobi <3 xD

- And I wanna know what HE's gaming so we can game together!
I'm already adding every fregging Tobi from Flyff to my messenger xD It's getting nerve-racking xD lol
Especially when you are a Level 67 Ringmaster... "Buff meeee" "Come support meeee" "Lvl meeeee" xDDD


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Hello~

Since my speakers are working again I can enjoy the randomness and amazingness of youtube again!!!

Sadly I use to enjoy it before an exam! lol


Soooo, here you go, my ultimate linklist with my favourite youtube videos!

Favie Vids of my favie game FLYff
[link]
[link]
[link]

Amazing Vid my friend showed me and I learned to love xD
[link]
and
[link]

My favie animal vid!
(some of my friends hate it though xD
[link]

Vids to laugh your butt off xD
[link]
[link]
[link]

Favourite Commercials
[link]
[link]
[link]
^--- german, so some explanation: It's about goyellow, some telephone book. And you can call a baker so he brings you buns in the morning. The guys chinese so he can't speak the "r" so he says instead of "Brötchen"(=buns) "BLötchen"(="Blödchen" which means "stupid" xDDD)
[link]
^---- again german: IKEA commercial. - Guess you all know IKEA? o.O - Well, his wife's telling him to wear the hedgehog sweater for her mom >.>
He sho... ]]> ~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17257380/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17257380/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 14:20:37 PDT
I'm so very happy, so very content lately I wasn't feeling like that for a year now.. Why? Well, I've kinda wasted my time to someone. A whole year... wow. It's funny cos he wasn't worth it at all ^^ All he could do was lying to me about everything and not being able to feel at least something for an other person.
I really wanted to be his friend and more... but let's say he kicked himself pretty much in his own butt by losing track of his own lies, telling my friend the one thing and me the other one and I decided to forget him because I don't need any of these people in my life ^^ Plus I don't need people who go for words and don't mean them.

And now I'm totally over all this crap which happened to me ^.^ I'm pretty much sure such crap will never happen to me again because it had something good: I won't overlook little logical mistakes in peoples storys so fast again
Love makes blind, eh?

Pluuuus my reallife friends had been sooo great in this time and my online-friend was there for me as well


Anyway, I have great plans! First I want to reinstall my Photoshop! - I didn't do it this friday because I was gaming all day

Second great plan... I call it Idea of Doom has got something to do with ratfeed and my last journal You may gonna see what I mean very, very soon

Something new? Ney ^.^

baiiii <3


~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17195524/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17195524/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 11:34:41 PST EDIT
First: Thank you all very, very much for crossing your fingers and thinking of me and stuff! You're so great!

And I was really, really going to do this today. I was ready, went to the certain place after school... - and it was closed... though.. my goal is normally there... but it wasn't today.. for an exception...

*sigh* -.-

Next week everybody? xD

Love ya all!

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Hello~

Okay, frankly said: I really, really need all your crossed fingers tomorrow.. I'm gonna do something I never did before and it freaks me out and I feel sick by thinking of it >.<

But I told myself that I had to do it.. because if I wouldn't I'd hate myself for not trying it.. and all my friends are counting on me that I'm finally able to risk something, almost everything to get what I want.


Plus I told myself: You do it.. and if you don't there will be no Gary for 5 days!

I'm hard on myself, I know But I'll be even harder if I won't try...


Cross your fingers for me please... I never did something like that and I am scared. And I feel sick... and I'm talking to too many people on msn right now -.-

I should sit down on my bed now and think about what to do tomorrow... I have to do it... or I never ever will risk something... And I think it is worth it.

Though it's so very hard to trust after all the crap that happened to me. But I will. And it'll be worth it.



That's cryptical, I know and I am sorry, but it needed to be out somewhere but is too private to be described in detail...

It's something important for me and first time I ever gonna do that.. and it's scary... but yes, I need to do it. For myself. To see that I can do it and that it's worth it to risk something and to trust... at least one more time.

Yay me...


Wahhhhhh, mami T3T


~ Suzume

http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17116494/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 11:59:19 PST
As you may noticed I submitted a bunch of new pics... sadly they aren't coloured yet >.<

I need to reinstall my Photoshop first - and I really need my mate for that xD

Anyway, every pic will be coloured soon ^.^ - Even the Stella+Tobi one, because I think it looks better in colour than in black and white.

Oh yes, btw, I really wanted to thank a bunch of guys who were so very sweet to fave the pics I've submitted here yesterday!!!

Thank you
for faving "For Ladywinter"
for faving "Sleep my Darling" and "Boredom at it's best"
for faving "Thinking about you...2"
for faving "Boredom at it's best" and "Sunset over Berlin"
for faving "Boredom at it's best", "For Ladywinter" and "Thinking about you...2"
for faving "Sleep my Darling"
for faving "Boredom at it's best" and "Thinking about you...2"

Thanks!


http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/17089340/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 13:35:26 PST

My sweet Gary is back to life *huggles to.. oh no, better not*

I want to thank the wonderful and sweet guys from Dell here They were so amazing and phoned us (they.phoned.us!!!) and asked if everything went okay with reinstalling it (and it didn't cos my Dad seemed to like the idea of me staying away from the computer... but on the other hand I fear he was afraid of being killed by a amount of paper.. hey, I was bored.. I drew a lot )

Anyway, thank you Dell!!! I'm sooo amazed that these guys actually called us back! - Hey, I live in germany.. here is service = 0, okay? lol

Anyway, I'm glad because I really missed it to be able to use my computer... I still miss some... things but they can't be repaired like Gary I think...
It makes me sad and feeling sick but.. sometimes things end and new have to start again.

Something new seems to start for me... but I stick to the past a lot. It's nothing I just can forget. I invested.. and still do.. to many feelings there.

Anyway.. can't be repaired. I fear.



I'm pretty much nerve-racked about having to reinstall every freaking programme I've gotten before.. my new design sucks and the Firefox sucks and my dad did something to my chair...
Gahhhh!

lol

Man, I'm like happy/sad/angry all the time lately.

Only nice thing is: My new msn looks pretty cool! <3 Me likes it!

Now I'm gonna update my firefox again (need to get my style back )
Then I need to download my other chatprogrammes like x-fire and icq again... - Though it's a bit senseless cos I'm just downloading them for my VIP's (that's how I call them )

ICQ for my co-mods from the german Avatarforum.
X-Fire for my "ex-boyfriend" (we refer to eachother like that xD We're just friends now. Had no real relationship anyways xD - lasted like... a month? It was fun mainly and long ago ^.^)


Gonna submit all the stuff I've done soon.. maybe in scraps first... too much to colour


Love ya all

Suzume

ps: all my stuff could be saved, btw


http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16988466/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 06:08:08 PST
My sweet, beloved Gary (PC) died on me yesterday! D:
I'm still shocked T___T

I'm not sure what exactly the problem is... my mate (and my dad) guessed it's my hard-drive... -.-
Great, a millions of fanfics (no published ones ) and music, videos, blahblah is probably gone then o.O Crap.

Oh well... On the other hand I don't mind much Reallife is so good to me lately

Don't ask Someone's happeh <3

Anyways... some of my art I haven't submitted yet is.. probably.. well, most likely gone then...

But my mate should be over in a few mins soooo.. cross your fingers, I really hope he can fix it ^^

Man, he did too much for me in the last weeks... >.> I need to find a way to say "Thank you" to him very soon...
Or I could try to hook him up as well

Well, I'm gonna use my time to write more of my "Stella+Tobi" fanfic (that really needs a name...) Ideas would be appreciated!
I just dunno really yet IF I should submit it.. and IF.. here or at fanfiction.net?

Would you guys even like to read it? o.O Just my best friends (reallife) and read it so far >.<

Oh well, I'm gonna try to enjoy my "Gary-less" time Today comes my matey and he tries to fix him.. if that doesn't work we're gonna go and may do some photoshooting or just walking around o.O Dunno yet.
He's weird, but really great

Tomorrow... I may go out with my girlfriends.. cinema... café... something like that.
Will include a lot of chattering about guys

I really need to draw a pic of four girls rather soon.. for girls who deserve it to get something for their amazing friendship, all their hugging and being there for me.

And my mate needs to get something as well for cheering me up, hugging me and being just there. - Plus doing the most amazing action for me getting the sweetest friend I could ever think of <3
This friend needs something as well.. though almost every of the last pics I've submitted are his ^.^

I may will be on from time to time here to comment your stuff, but I can't submit anything because my dad has got not scanner D:

I'm really, really, really sorry, that it will took me even longer now to submit your pic
It was almost done but if my hard-disk is really ready for the bin.. I need to restart everything plus getting my photoshop back xD

Gahhh, computer...

Anyway, gtg, my mates here to fix the mess <3

bye, bye

http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16922692/ Sun, 17 Feb 2008 01:07:38 PST Name: Suzume / reallife: Stefanie
Birthdate: August 7th
Birthplace: Berlin, Germany
Current Location: My room
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: brown
Height: 163 cm / 5'4"
Weight: 58 kg
Piercings: for earrings, one each side
Tatoos: none... yet
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: none.... yet ;D
Overused Phrase(s): "oh god -.-" ; "nya :3 "

Favourites
Food: pizza; potatoes in all variations
Candy: yoghurt-chocolate
Number: 15
Color: yellow, blue, green
Animal: horses, cats, rats and ofc bunnies
Drink: water, pepsi
Alcohol Drink: I don't drink alcohol
Bagel: with sesame or papaver
Letter: A, T, S, O.... I'm a writer, I like all of them
Body part on the Opposite sex: shoulders, hair and eyes

This or That

Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi, cokes too sweet o.O
McDonalds or BurgerKing: McDonalds: For the Chicken McNuggets | Burger King: For the fries
Strawberry or Watermelon: Watermelon
Hot tea or Ice tea: Depends
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: Hot Chocolate.. once upon a time
Kiss or Hug: Hug
Dog or Cat: Cats
Summer or Winter: Winter
Scary Movies or Funny Movies: Funny movies

Your...

Bedtime: 11 pm
Most Missed Memory: how can I remember it when it's missed? o.O
Best phyiscal feature: uhm.... eyes?
First Thought Waking Up: "Oh no... Not agaiiin... -.-"
Goal for this year: getting my Abitur and a traineeship at my school
Best Friends: too many
Weakness: too naive and trusting and friendly and too helpful
Fears: loss
Heritage: german... I know that I'm boring xD
Longest relationship: uhm... 11 months? xD

Have You ...?
Ever Drank: Nope
Ever been beaten up: yes, but I hit him back
Ever beaten someone up: yeah, just look one line above and you know who
Ever Skinny Dipped: lol, noooo xD - Though there's a swimming bath next to my housing and... I may try it - at night, at night ofc! xD
Ever Kissed Opposite sex: why the stress on opposite btw? xD
Been Dumped Lately: not really though it felt like it

In A Guy/Girl

Favorite Eye Color: blue or at least pretty eyes
Favorite Hair Color: dark pls
Short or Long: uhm.. middle is fine so they stick out when you go through them <3
Style: his own
Looks or Personality: Personality
Hot or Cute: Cute <3


I tagg...:


http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16907925/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 01:39:07 PST
Funnily enough for me Valentines Day has been on the 15th of February and will be today!

First I'm gonna have a date with this guy from my school in the afternoon today (cos on thursday I didn't feel like going after having 9 lessons and yesterday he had his training)
It's gonna be great for sure... And I'm gonna get so many ideas for my Stella + Tobi Fanfic and pictures!

- And no it isn't my classmate Tobi but the boy Tobi my OC Tobias is actually based on I asked him out last week and luckily he said yes <3

Anyways,

yesterday in the evening I had "a date" with my best friend at the Avatar Portal!
It was so much fun! Thank you Frank <3 This really cheered me up and was definitely better than last year! - Sorry Tyler

I kinda guess we're gonna be shipped now, but oh well It was just too much fun idc

Thanks again, Frank, for being my best friend ever and for going through thick and thin with me!


Now about Stella and Tobi! - Not my classmate
During this week I translated the first chappie I wrote into english! I wrote it back in December already but yeah... in german and just for myself
But my friend saw me writing and demanded to read it - and she actually liked it so she (and my other friends) got the other chappies, too.

Because they told me I should do so, I'm translating it into english now so I can submit it here or on fanfic net and link you here... I dunno yet o.O

Tell me what you think would be better


Oh yes and wish me luck for my date xD


byeeeee, Suzume

http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16843993/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 06:44:37 PST
They just love them and want me to draw more from them - and finally start the fanfic I'm planning / I've started just for myself.

My one friend even feels like drawing them herself

Plus everyone expects me to cush on my classmate called Tobias lolz
It's just a name guys ^^

I really do hope that some of my real life friends get an account on here soon <3 That would rock!
They're so much better in drawing then me ^^

Anywayssss, Stella and Tobi aren't done yet (well.. actually it's starting with them ) and you're gonna see much more from them <3
Because everytime I'm doodeling in the lessons... I notice that I drew Tobi xD He's just sooo easy to draw and so very sweet


Other great news is that my shirt from came in today! I soooo totally love it! - Need to take a photo of me wearing it soon <3

It's so pwetty and total love and just awwww


yours (crazy) Suzu

EDIT: And pleaseeeee someone screenshot my 3000, okay?





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http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16751520/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 09:15:25 PST

Deleting files at 4 a.m.
This morning against 4 a.m. I woke up with a start.
I've had a rather horrible dream about the police coming to my house - one of them looked a lot like my maths teacher - wanting to arrest me for running a certain programme on my computer.

SCARY!

Well, after waking up I was staring in the dark, my heart beating like a drum-roll, and I wondered how long it would be till morning and if my goldfishbrain™ would be able to recall my desperate decision: To deinstall this file of doom!
I've decided to took a look at my watch.
4 a.m.

You can't turn on Gary now... He's to shiny™ and your Dad would wake up and give you hell. (and for everyone who didn't know yet: Gary's my pc, no good looking guy I feel like flirting at 4 a.m.... I guess I'm not rather flirty at this time anyways.)

So I've turned on the other side and tried to go back to sleep...

One minute later I've jumped out of my bed and started Gary (after placing a pillow in front of his desktop)... icq, ps, msn, virus scanner, I just love all this windows popping up (-.-)

CTRL+ALT+Dlt FTW

I've deleted the file... yay! Relived!

- Funnily enough the next day one part of the fregging programme reinstalled itself again -.-
But meh, at least I could enable it to work

But enough with that ranting! (oh come on, there'll be some more...)


My OC's Stella et Tobi
Because I was asked about them a lot ^^

They've kinda popped into my head due to certain circumstances and a rather boring freetime lesson.

Anyways... Stella and Tobi met at school because they're in the same clubs... or at least their clubs lie rather near to eachother.
Tobi started to like Stella back in april when she was still in her relationship - which ended rather badly during the summer holidays though

First time she ever noticed Tobi was because he was blocking the door to her club-room, chatting to some girls from his class... She asked him to move a bit aside, but he didn't seem to listen... The girls of his class heard it though and told him to move a bit aside.. but yeah, he was like frozen... So Stella was pushing him aside in a very soft way - which made his knees go weak and his ears turn red.

One day Stella was on her way to some club meeting when she stumbled over Tobi who was accidentally at the same place to visit his own club. She greeted him with a cheerfull "hello!" (not really understanding why she went all fuzzy and happy inside when seeing him) which he replied with staring at his feet and some light nodding.

Very soon after Stella noticed: She was in love - and he, too, apparently.
At least she guessed that after he stalked her all the way over the yard to her classroom xD

Sadly both were too shy to have a talk... untill some little incident happened...

Finally they had a first talk... and one day Tobi was boldly enough to ask her out.

They go out with eachother since then.

Character Sheets

Name: Tobias
Nickname: Tobi
Age: 14
Height: 1,80 m / 5 ' 11 "
Haircolour: brown
Eyecolour: brown
Character: shy, calm, interested in biology, animals and gaming


Name: Stella
Nickname: /
Height: 1,63 m / 5 ' 4 "
Haircolour: brown-reddish
Eyecolour: brown-golden
Character: dreamy, headstrong, shy, caring, childish

http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16689781/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 11:55:35 PST
Thought it would be time for some new journal

Though I dunno really what to.... wth.. my cursor is just.. wandering over the screen though I'm not touching the mouse at all... *watches*

Erm.. my lifes so interesting, I know!

I'm sitting on some new pic.. It's supposed to be for my best friend <3 so I can't really tell here what it's about cos he's a member here as well!
Its cos he's really great for some reason I don't feel like explaining futher. But he is ^^

What else to say? Nothing really... I'm in a great mood and feel like hugging a lot

Life's finally nice to me lately! Thanks!


And baiii guys! <3 Luv ya!


ps: Wahhh, gonna get my shirt from soooooon! (She's sooo nice, we email all the time cos I was too stupid with paypal and whatnot But she's really cool and nice! Check her stuff out!)




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http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16610490/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 10:20:20 PST
Tenjewberrymuds

Room-Service (RS): "Morrin. Roon sirbees."
Guest (G): "Sorry, I thougt I dialed room-service."
RS: "Rye... Roon sirbees... morrin! Jewish to oddor sunteen??"
G: "Uh... yes... I'd like some bacon and eggs."
RS: "Ow July den?"
G: "What??"
RS: "Ow July den? ... Pryed, boyud, poochd?"
G: "Oh, the eggs! How do I like them? Sorry, scrambled please."
RS: "Ow July dee baykem? Crease?"
G: "Crisp will be fine."
RS: "Hokay. An Sahn toes?"
G: "What?"
RS: "An toes. July San toes?"
G: "I don't think so."
RS: "No? Judo wan Sahn toes??"
G: "I feel really bad about this, but I don't know what 'judo wan sahn toes' means."
RS: "Toes! Toes! ... Why jew don juan toes? Ow bow Anglish moppin we bodder?"
G: "English Muffin!! I've got it! You were saying 'toast'. Fine. Yes, an English Muffin will be fine."
RS: "We bodder?"
G: "No... just put the bodder on the side."
RS: "Wad?"
G: "I mean butter... just put it on the side."
RS: "Copy?"
G: "Excuse me?"
RS: "Copy... tea... meel?"
G: "Yes. Coffee, please, and that's all."
RS: "One Minnie. Scramah egg, crease baykem, Anglish moppin, we bodder on sigh and copy. ... Rye??"
G: "Whatever you say."
RS: "Tenjewberrymuds."
G: "You're very welcome."


I just love this Makes me laugh everytime I read it ^^ It's so sweet when he's so happy about understanding her xD - And when he's saying "bodder" himself


Just wanted to share this with you, it makes me smile everytime ^^

Man, I'm tired Z___Z Today has been a mixture of happyness, laughter, sadness and melancholy.

Tomorrow will be better... I can at least try...


On a happier note: I'm going to get my shirt from very soon <33 Really looking forward to that!

http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16577787/ Sat, 26 Jan 2008 08:01:26 PST Meh
There is some art in I really don't like anymore with colouring or posing or whatnot.

Hmm, I really think I'm no artist x__x At least I'm not pretty good at drawing, especially posing, proportions, hands, animals, etc. (the list goes on xD)

So I think I'm gonna concentrate on something I really like to do since I'm able told hold a camera: photography!

I was really inspired by (check him out, he's amazing! ) because his stuff's really great! \(*.*)/ *fangirl*

Anyways, I'm gonna try it to start my old hobby again ^.^ I hope I'm doing alright... you're gonna see it very soon, I'm sure ^^

I'm gonna make me a new DA-ID I think... Probably a photo showing myself (whoa, hide before you'll go blind! >.< )
'Cos I have this cool coat and I really need to show off with it somewhere xD It's a really sweet coat in my opinion! It's dark blue and has golden buttons and looks a bit military-style like *___*

Yay, I've dyed my hair again, yesterday. Brooown *___*
I've always wanted to have black hair (and green eyes actually) but I have to go with brown because black would be too harsh T3T

Whee, I've ordered me a shirt from - I love her stuff <3 Check her out (and order a shirt as well xD ).
She's really pwetty *___* I'd like to dress up like her!

What else is new? Suzume wants to buy herself a skirt *3* - but she doesn't find any (maybe cos she has no clue what she's looking for xD)

And I've eaten to much lollipops, so I'm on sugarrrr and a bit hyper ^.^

Now I'm gonna go and lookie after my dads cam. He said I can use it if I like to! o.o - It's a really, really good cam, so ofc I like to xD

I've still got a pic here I haven't coloured (or submitted in scraps) yet... I like it, it turned out well...

So you may gonna see it before I start my DA Photographer career xD

Luv you guys <3

~ Suzume

http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16560369/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 01:43:13 PST
I wanna more j-Pop / j-Rock songs T__T
I only have one and I really enjoy it (it's called "Oh my Juliett" and I can't remember the band right now and I'm too lazy to check my mp3), but I want more music from that gernre o.O

I'm just a total noobie to this so I dunno which bands are good.
Plus I don't feel that much comfortable with the thought to listen to a song of a language I totally don't understand and I dunno really if I'm singing along to a song in which the singer is maybe swearing like theres no morning xD
Nah, joking, japanese people should be too polite for something like that ^__~

Anywaysssss: If someone knows this genre better than me (*thinks of a certain person*) please gimme some tipps which bands are cool!

I normally listen to rock, so everything wild and loud is goooood!

I dunno if I'd like "enka" or however this is called °__°"

yours, Suzume





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http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16534270/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 10:23:00 PST EDIT
I've just heard that Heath Legder died... He was one of my most favourite actors and I'm really sad about his death...
He died yesterday afternoon with only 28 years...

I'm still pretty shocked... He was always wearing this really big grin that made you smile as well... I can't really imagine that he should have killed himself..

But maybe he was just smiling all the time so no one could see him being crying on his inside...

Movies he was playing in: Brokeback Mountain, A Knights Tale, Casanova...

I'm gonna miss him in the movies.. he was an amazing actor...


RANT

Had the idea to make me a better account... On the other hand I'd have to pay for it...

Dunno how much. And how it'll work, cos I'm in germany o.O - Plus I dunno if I can make me Mom helping me with this (cos I guess I have to use their account to pay it, because I have non

- Does anyone know how this works? Where I can change it to a payment account? And how much I have to pay - and if I have to pay it once or every month?

- Better account: Yes / No?

Tell me




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... ]]> ~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16515805/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16515805/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 10:17:58 PST 's journal because it looked like fun

OST of my Life ~ Now even with the songs linked Ignore the vids... I just took what I've found xD

Opening Credits:
I'm a believer - Smash Mouth

Waking Up:
Mr Es Beautiful Blues - The Eels

First Day At School:
I stand alone - Godsmack

Falling In Love:
Best years of our lifes - Baha Men

Fight Song:
Bad reputation - Halfcocked

Breaking Up:
I'm on my Way - Rich Prise

Prom night:
You're so true - Joseph Arthur

Life:
Fool - The Rasmus (sooo true )

Mental Breakdown:
Standard Opening - Avatar - The Legend of Ang

Driving:
All Star - Smash Mouth

Flashback:
Little Drop of Poison - Tom Waits

Getting back together:
Hallelujah - Rufus Waynwright ()

Wedding:
Colours of the Wind - Disneys Pocahontas ()

Birth of Child:
The jetset life is gonna kill you - My Chemical Romance (o.O)

Final Battle:
I never told you what I do for a living - My Chemical Romance

Funeral Song:
Diary of Jane - Breaking Benjamin (oh hell, yeah rock out on my funeral )

Final Credits:

Romeo and Juliet - Dire Straits

Tagged is everyone, who feels like doing this

~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16484257/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16484257/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 03:25:51 PST

HERE ARE 8 CRAZY FACTS!

1. The patterns in my eyes look like a flower when sun's shining in o.O

2. I'm obsessed with films about great adventures

3. I've got more than 400 books

4. My pc's called Gary

5. Now... bring me that horizon is painted in red letters on the wall next to my bed

6. My first "Book" I've wrote was when I've been 8 - and it was 5 pages long

7. I love languages and tried to learn, Spanish, Finnish and Japanese in my freetime so far (But I'm not very good in them )

8. I'm a real child and all guys I've fallen in love with so far have been younger than me


I'm gonna tagg:






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http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16388414/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 13:24:29 PST

IMPORTANT: I finally managed it to publish the first Issue of AP Times! It can be found here: [link]


~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16314181/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16314181/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 04:00:41 PST IMPORTANT: I finally managed it to publish the first Issue of AP Times! It can be found here: [link]





Wheeeee, after the amazing film Kingdom of Heaven has been shown on tv at christmas day (hahaha riiiiight, such a.. er, peaceful film it is ) I'm, again, totally into it...

Call me crazy and insane (you already do that, don't you?) but I really love this film! - Shame on you if you haven't seen it yet!

It's about Jerusalem and how the Crusaders tried to make it all christian and the mohameds under Saladin tried to get their Jerusalem back..
In the end there is an amazing battle (after 4 other amazing ones before) and it's pretty much realistic, the bloods splattering everywhere and such... - well yeah, I'm a weirdo, I know

But the plot it really great and I really, really love the setting (Jerusalem, all these places, this culture...) and sometimes the film is really.. well, long. My mom always get's bored, but I really like this long moments which don't really seem to mean something.. Like one scene where Orlando Bloom (gawd, I'm so totally into his freaking sweet accent http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/16146644/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 00:33:15 PST

Hello everyone

I hope you all had a Merry Christmas just as me. It has been a bit stressful as always for me but all in all it has been really nice and great, especially because my cousin had a baby on the 8th of December (a girl called Cara ) and she came on the 25th to my gran and all the girls and women in the room have been all over the poor baby
But she's so cute, I could huggle her all the time. I'm gonna link a pic of her in here pretty soon ^^ She's just too amazing to be hidden.

But I have been a good cousin and huggled my sweet cousin (he's 12) as well - Nah, I didn't really huggle him, he's a bit boyish and doesn't really like it to be hugged and kissed But I watched him building his Lego Robot and gaming with it.
When I'm ever gonna make a film about Avatar with real life persons, I'm gonna use my cousin, he's a lot like Aang. He's his age, his character and his stature. He has even got grey eyes
We'd just had to train him to be kissed on the cheek by the actress from Katara


Anyway, I really hope you all gonna have a Happy New Year! Be careful with the fireworks though

yours, Suzume


http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15987233/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 13:43:32 PST RANT
I wrote 12 letters today, visited the doctor (no, he couldn't help me with my madness ) and yeah... that was pretty much it.

I had some Flyff gaming, took a sweet photo of me and my boyfriend, but yeah, I've kinda forgot to paste it into paint

Tomorrow I'm gonna see him again, just gonna take a new pic then ^^ - It's so funny, he started a new character and asked me what it should be. I decided for Merc and wondered why I could chose.
He was so sweet and let me chose his class because my Mercenary-Girl is gonna be his girlfriend

We stick together like clue and honey - Nah, I really like this guy He's always buying me stuff o.O I don't want him to spend that much penya on me >.<


PROJECTS
DONE
* Red Riding Hood
* Avatar Calendar Pic
* Lea revised
* I don't see anything!

TO DO
* Kataang - scrap
* Can't reach you - sketch
* Avatar Meme - sketches
* Alidiah - Fighting Gal - idea


Oh yeah, and here! is some little sketch I did in my notebook today


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http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15939732/ Sat, 15 Dec 2007 07:54:48 PST

I'm really amazed that so many guys have been on my site so far and I want to thank you


So... yeah, that all I've wanted to say - Oh yes, thanks for all these comments on my old journal



DONE
* Red Riding Hood
* Avatar Calendar Pic


TO DO
* Lea revised - scrap
* Can't reach you - scrap
* Avatar Meme - scrap
* Alidiah - Fighting Gal - idea
* I don't see anything! - idea

Yup, a new Project I gonna start is called I don't see anything! and I think it'll be fun, though I dunno how it'll turn out
I have a rough idea in my head and try to scrap it today (draw it and put it in scraps). If I really did that I'm gonna make an edit with the linkie in here

EDIT 1:
Alrighty somehow I started to draw a girl... and it turned out to be a Waterbender O.o
This never happened to me with drawing, just with writing: I start something and something completely different will come outta it
Anyway, I decided to let her be Lea, my own Fanfic character - the revised version. Can be found in my scraps, but will be coloured soon
Lea



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http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15901250/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 10:25:52 PST RANT
I'm listening to this song all the time and it doesn't make it better or make me feel better... but yeah, I like P!nk a lot... she's the only idol I ever had. Makes me feel better that she seems to know what I'm going through.

I have to write 12 postcards till Friday for school, because it'll be our beloved "Christmaspost" again
You can write your friends letters with this. Just writing the name, the class and teacher on it and done ^^ I like this tradition and I'm sad that I can't write my one friend anymore because she left school last year after her Abitur

My one friends that crazy to force me to write my crush a card I won't! lol
That would be just too embarassing... for me and for him. I mean, he's already going all shy when I just say hello to him >_>
I found someone being even more shy than me! - Okay, he's younger


Anyway, I'm alright and a bit crazy, happy, sad and meh at the same time. It's weird and depends of whom I'm thinking at the moment...

But let's stop this and talk about my nice...

PROJECTS

DONE
* Red Riding Hood
* Avatar Calendar Pic


TO DO
* Can't reach you - scrap
* Avatar Meme - scrap
* Alidiah - Fighting Gal - idea

Yup, it's true, I'm done with my Avatar Calendar Pic I decided to draw Yue and I think it turned out really well
Funny enough the colouring took me only like 3 hours - not that bad after colouring nothing for a long, long time (on computer).

I need a graphic tablet >_< - Though my mouse is alright and I've got really calm hands

Anyway, check it out, if you feel like it


MY GRADES
Because I've kinda promised Wushj

I've got all my exams back by now and I want to (?) share my grades with you. But first I need to explain the grade-system over here, ofc

Highest you can gain are 15 points or a 1+
Lowest you can gain are 0 point or a 6

15 - 1+
14 - 1
13 - 1-
12 - 2+
11 - 2
10 - 2-

You've got it Just six ist only six (or zero). We have no 6+ or 6-. Only 6 is bad enough

I've got 5 base courses and 2 special courses (german and social knowledge). In the special courses we write 2 exams per term. One was 3 lessons and the other one 5 +_+

Okay, my exam grades now, but don't laugh... and yeah, I just hate maths and biology

German - 12 points ; 12 points
Social Knowledge - 12 points ; 12 points
English - 10 points [gaaah, I was so mad at me for that >_<]
Art - 13 points
History - 10 points
Biology - 5 points
Maths - 1 point >_<


Yeah, that's it - Don't laugh at me for my maths grade please, I'm just stupid at it http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15862076/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 11:52:11 PST - But just because I have to reach it in tomo

I'm really, really, really unhappy with this one anyway. I couldn't paint in on pc, but used acryl and (after I gave up on them) watercolours.

And yeah I totally suck at that >_<

Anyway I try to scan it (stupid format) or to took a photo to put it on here so you can point and laugh at me

Next project will be an Avatar Calendar Pic I'm gonna do for the german Avatarsite. First I wanted to do Aang and Katara under an umbrella in a rainstorm or summit like that but I decided against it (because everyone was whining: Oh no, why Aang again? - Psh, cos he's sweet, alright? ) and I'm gonna draw Yue in front of the moon with a few leaves.
Yeah, I am that uncreative

Then I'm gonna finish the pic Can't reach you which is a bit rl related, but you're gonna see what I mean pretty soon (I hope )

After that the Avatar Meme I've already started will be finished

In the end I may gonna do a pic of my fanfic character Alidiah, an elven girl during a fight


PROJECTS
* Red Riding Hood - !DONE!
* Avatar Calendar Pic - scrap
* Can't reach you - scrap
* Avatar Meme - scrap
* Alidiah - Fighting Gal - idea




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~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15818481/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15818481/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 08:53:52 PST RANT

Don't ask, I'm just happy ^^ Ignore my journal from yesterday, that's old... really old.

Today started really... yeah, crappy. I went to school in a real bad mood, was about to go home again after 3 lessons, because I was so tensed and ready to ripp anyone's head of, it was annoying

But yeah, my day brightened in Art where I had a nice talk with my classmate (the girl who made me to game Flyff) about said game and everyone gave us this "Geeks..."-look. I don't mind at all, cos Geeks rock. Really.

Anyway, I gotta go and get someone else hooked to Flyff >_> lol

And then have a game myself


PROJCTS
* Red Riding Hood - scrap
* Can't reach you - scrap
* Avatar Meme - scrap
* Avatar Calendar Pic - scrap
* Alidiah - Fighting Gals - idea




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http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15808282/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 14:01:37 PST RANT

Hey everyone!

I dunno what could describe better my momentary situation than this artwork my mate did.


Love and feelings can be a real pain in the you-know-what-I-mean Lately I'm just pretty much confused... or let's say my feelings are.

I still like this one guy I used to have a crush on for months now.. though I dunno at the moment. He did something I don't understand yet... and I hope to understand soon... or sometime. I think I still like him a lot, but I dunno if it's really having a crush or something else.
I'm a bit confused about my feelings for him for a while now, but it reached his peak a few weeks ago.

Meh.

It's sad, because you often say: It'll be forever... my feelings won't die etc.

Or maybe it's just me

All I can think of at the moment in context with him is this one sentence I've read a few months ago and that's on my mind a lot lately (it was in german, so my translation will suck and be pretty poor):

The worst kind of missing someone is sitting next to them and knowing that you can't reach them



Next confusing thing is this situation with this guy at my school. He likes me, I like him. Great.

Yeah, but age gap.

And when I say age gap, I actually mean age gap, if you know what I mean I mean... I don't mind an age gap like he's 2 years younger or older than me. Really. But... he's... younger than me lol


Oh well, don't worry about my lovelife It's messed up from the beginning and doomed to stay like that.


PROJECTS
I started many projects lately but I couldn't finish one of them really... First I need to do this picture for school... I'm gonna paint Red Riding Hood Already started it.. I try to submit it here - if I can scan this format somehow >_> lol

* Red Riding Hood - scrap
* Can't reach you - scrap
* Avatar Meme - scrap
* Avatar Calendar Pic - scrap



cyaaaaa


Oh yeah, check this out, my Assist in Flyff has got a bf now O.o lol



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~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15720923/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15720923/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 03:30:10 PST
6 of my banners have been deleted today, apparently due to violencing the copyright... hello? I wrote the fregging firm under every single one...

Plus I noticed that other peoples banners aren't deleted... funny enough they actually have an account for which they pay... - See a pattern there?



Because DA apparently dislikes my banners and I don't feel like getting some account for which I need to pay, I'm gonna start drawing again..
I've already got something in my mind, which is illustrating some well known situation really well...

cya soon (if my account won't be deleted as well.. who knows...),

Suzume

EDIT: So please check my scraps regularly, because some of my stuff goes there, thanks to DA


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~Suzumes-Star http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15707403/ http://Suzumes-Star.deviantart.com/journal/15707403/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 13:09:41 PST


I think I'm in a kinda life crisis.

It's like... everything's messed up... my life... thoughts... and yes, feelings.

It's all a mess...

Meh, really need to sort that out. Can't stay this way. Just to confusing.

It just kinda hit me after I was done with my exams. Like I was occupied with other things and when they all were gone.. *bam* .. you know. "In your face" like the guys at school like to say

I just can't put it into words... and I honestly don't feel like writing it in here... sorry for making you curious or worry, but I needed some place to write that down.

Just to get at least some thoughts in an order. Though it's almost impossible lol

At the moment I feel like some sick person ( >_< ) who's encouraged by friends.

Though I really dunno if they should encourage me in that case, because it just feels wroooong... on the other hand...

I can't get... it outta my head.



Maybe I turned crazy now... oh well, you won't notice the difference anyway




I better head off now... Have a talk with my friends. Maybe they can help me a bit... At least they didn't cruzify or threw stones at me yet.

I'm a bit relieved...



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