http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:SvenHoek&section=today deviantART RSS for by:SvenHoek en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 05:19:41 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/20248875/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/20248875/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 08:15:51 PDT
uh... hey... hi guys... you don't have to comment or anything like that, this is just a message... kinda half n' half for myself, and to others...

There's really no need to say anything about my *cough* previous journal or things from back then... but, i just want to say this...

in my previous journal entry, i was very... negative...
and i felt really stupid some time after putting it up... because i felt like i just should have kept my mouth shut.
so i got rid of the journal...

i admit now, that some of the things were just my negative emotions taking me over... like saying that "there's no future for me..." and shit like that...
but i swear, the others where i mentioned being hurt by others close to me, being put down, betrayed, etc. all of that was real...

(moving on)
over the time that i was gone I've been doing a lot of... well, "soul searching"... and dealing with other hardships in life... and doing some things...

i feel better now... things have calmed down... I've become more comfortable with myself and who i am... I also feel like I've changed in some ways...

*sigh* now that that's out of my system, (and if your still reading)
I was thinking about coming back... and if i did, i told myself that i wouldn't be on this account... cause to be honest, i don't like all the things i did on here... i think most of it is complete and utter crap...

sooo, i made this account quite a while ago...

Just in case...

so from now on, I will be on that account... I'll still mostly be a silent spectator... but I'll pop in now n' then for a comment here and there... when i finish some new things, I'll submit again...
see ya later...

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/12588752/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/12588752/ Sat, 14 Apr 2007 02:33:57 PDT
]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/12239432/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/12239432/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 23:29:53 PDT
I'm thinking of removing my "attempted" Christmas comic for a while.... cause it clearly wasn't ready, and I was foolish to get so hyped up and anxious for people to see it, it ended up not being funny. The writing is awful, and the jokes are stale... a possible result of my stress and issues... so I may be removing the current pages until I fix the humor, and possibly a tune up for the appearances in it, if my drawing skills ever got any better... (though I seriously doubt it... I have little faith right now)... so yeah....
we'll just see what happens... sorry... *sigh*...

(P.S.)
(Josh C. ... I'm going to kill you...)
(testing... disregard)

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/12125978/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/12125978/ Sat, 10 Mar 2007 02:30:08 PST
right now im still trying to resurrect my old Christmas comic... so far... nothing....
but who says you cant make a christmas comic in the later year?

so yea i put up some stuff i havent been able to for awhile... and a new sculpture.

i'll see ya when i get better from the art block... oh, and i finally got a Wii a week ago... its alot of fun.

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11827683/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11827683/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 10:08:23 PST things just keep getting worse, yet another art block and more shit... i keep trying to draw, and i cant even doodle...
and a couple of friends left DA... im so very ill and uninspired to do even anything... this seems to be happening to me alot lately... im not leaving though... im sticking it out...
im not leaving anytime soon... i just keep getting buried in shit by almost everyone i know... id rather not talk about it...

in the meantime, im trying to draw again, theres just alot of shit to get through... its so stressful... sorry... ill get through it though sometime...

in more news, i may make another account like alot of people do...
this account will be just NiGHTS stuff, and my other account will be my original drawings with my own characters... i tried putting some of my characters up on here but, it just felt too awkward... so i deleted them... so im reeeeaaaly leaning towards making a new account for my characters...

so yeah.... thats about it... im not being emo or shit like that, im just going through a ton of shit that id prefer not going into detail... so, again im sorry, (its like this happens alot huh?) and ill try to get some stuff up... (like my comic, that i will NOT give up on...)
in the meantime please just bear with me. (good god, i think i mispelled "bear or bare" ah, who cares... my god that does rhyme...) later...

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11634125/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11634125/ Wed, 31 Jan 2007 11:28:38 PST
so when i figure out how to replace my wretched writing with typing, i'll fix my curent pages so they'll be more understandable, and i'l do this for future pages as well...

(note to self... take time making the jokes so theyre not so shitty... >_<;;; )

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11456630/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11456630/ Tue, 16 Jan 2007 06:41:53 PST
i have a few page of my christmas nights comic, and now i cant even put them up...
sorry...

right now thoughts are asking me wether i should make a new account with all my personal drawing and characters, or just stay on this one, and try to mix them,.... i dont know what i want to do... any suggestions?...

now im trying to figure out whats up with the scanner and everything else right now...

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11283350/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11283350/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 03:32:55 PST and besides its only the second day in the new year! HAPPY (belated) NEW YEAR everyone! yay (clap clap clap)

I saw the ball drop in New York! it was epic.... there was so many people you couldnt even move! cops were everywere, we couldnt even leave the place when we wanted to! *cough* so yea, no bathroom breaks = pain... T 3 T (ouch)... but other than the tight ass security, it was all fun. im still currently in new york, and i was lucky enough to find a lobby computer at the hotel were staying at. i dont have alot of time on it though...

so i should be back home and back to work on my (long overdue) comic i was working on, in.... about 2 days. i cant wait to get back and finish my comic. im trying to figure out what NiGHTS looks like as.... something he morphs into in my comic..... hhmmm...

Oh, i saw my grandpa again (activate joy button), he's near 85... i learned he went legally blind in one eye over the year we havent seen him, poor gramps... but it was great to see him again... and for his age, hes really healthy and strong! i really underestimated his physical capabilities. he beat the crap out of a guy who tried to mug him one time, and he even got run over from some guy before we got here, and he was still able to walk over to gt medical attention. hes tough for an old man. i luvs him...
hes funny when he talks... he just has a funny new yorker accent.

well my time grows short and i must leave for now. again happy new year everyone! ill be back!
OH! and a late "thank you all" for the 1000 page views! (happy 'splosion)

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11157658/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11157658/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 03:02:24 PST i cant just stay here, ive got to see him... hes not dying or anything, but hes very old now... anything can happen at his age... and im sorta scared for him... were leaving shortly after Christmas day....

Thats part one of the bad news... part 2 is that i wont be able to finish my comic at the deadline i assumed... that was before i found out we were going to new york, i cant say no to my gramps... ... i m sorry to say that the comic wont be done till sometime in Jan. ... sorry everyone... ... ill try to at the very least get 2 pages up before i leave for New York... I hope you all understand ...

Merry Christmas everyone ! ... (at least i hope...)

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11012092/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/11012092/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 00:39:58 PST

hopefully ill be able to upload the first page soon... and i guess ill put up a couple of my more better characters... (hopefully...) sorry 'bout all this....

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/10773004/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/10773004/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 02:11:36 PST
lately ive been practicing, and also trying to revive the inspiration for my old comic of reala and jackles revenge.... so far nothing is going so well... i dont really want to end it like that cause it was starting to get good, but then i got worried about certain parts not coming out right... so i stopped. and now its like all the inspiration for my old and somewhat cruddy idea of a comic is being transfered to all my other newer ideas... so im stuck right now.... what should i do? should i try to continue my old comic, or move on to new ideas.... i really dont know.... now im confused.... what should i do?

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/10450907/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/10450907/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 23:08:12 PDT maybe i should STOP LEAVING THOSE DAMN "......." after every sentance!

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/10386475/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/10386475/ Sat, 14 Oct 2006 02:19:36 PDT im trying to catch up on all the shit i missed out on... uh yea... as i said im taking it one step at a time so things dont get overwhelming like before...
so yea. trying to draw again, trying to look at all the stuffs in my messages, and tryin to.... i dont know.... im tryin to think of another thing to imitate, but im afraid to cause my voice sounds different when recorded... so yea.
see ya later.

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/10242534/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/10242534/ Sat, 30 Sep 2006 23:41:11 PDT _<; im sorry... im just stuck right now... im trying to get myself to draw the way i want again. ill try to put up something soon. k? im just taking it one step at a time.

by the way... did i mention that i do impersonations of people, cartoons, and etc.? well i do, in fact i hope to become a great voice actor some day.

to start off, here is an imperssonation of gollum from LOTR.

[link]

... yes yes, i know i sound pretty stupid at some parts. thats because i never know what say when i do voices.

]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/10007418/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/10007418/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 09:43:18 PDT

its like a bunch of bombs just circled me and exploded in my mind ... im so fucked up, i have to talk to myself as if im a different person to get even the slightest comfort. Lana or Vinx88 provides some comfort to... but its hard for me to trust her sometimes... almos t everyone is treacherous in this house... you cant trust anyone here. so please, please, PLEASE understand the stress and pressure im going through. it may not seem like alot to others who may have gone through worse, but im different... and right now i dont know how to fix any of this, and i dont know where or how to start. cause nobody taught me how... i know sometimes thats life, and you got to deal with it, but it seems like its just too much to handle at once... im beginning to think i need therapy to help...

im so tired... both physicaly and mentally... but things are getting better... bit by bit... and very slowly my blockage is coming undone... im starting to draw again, and im starting to get a little better... i cant do anything right now... but ill try later when things calm down a bit more...
i think i can stay on DA for a while so i can catch up on things... and yea....

again please understand, and im sorry... ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9838472/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9838472/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 11:43:37 PDT
My brother is going through alot of stress and in the process has developed a very bad mental blockage... its more than just depression...

He has asked me to write this in his journal, since said he feels HORRIBLE after not updating for a few weeks

He just can't find how to draw again...sad really

He left his comics unfinished, forgot how to draw some of his characters...I wish I could help
but alas, I don't know what to do

He says he's VERY sorry if he left anyone hanging around here with no results with no idea what's going on

he says if he ever gets out of his mental blockage he'll let you know via journal

again, he sincerely appologizes for his mental block thing....he promises he'll catch up on everything if he gets out of it

And he also says he'll share some of his characters he created if he gets out of it

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The best of hopeful wishes to you Curtis

-Vinx88

Wuh you! ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9338434/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9338434/ Tue, 11 Jul 2006 00:24:35 PDT i dont know what to do to get my motivation back. every now and then, it comes, then as quickly as it comes, it goes. and it saddens me greatly to know that all this time goes by, and i aint doing jack shit... so im angry with myself also...

i dont know what to do for the time being... but ill try to get out of it... any ideas on how to?

i want to post up my other stuff, but... i dont know... im afraid to... and i dont know why....
again, im sorry... ill try to do what i can to get back into it.... ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9278005/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9278005/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 05:17:48 PDT we also had a fun time at the beach... aside from all the dead fishes... there were strong waves the day before, and there were literally hundreds of dead fishes afterwards... i got all squeamish just looking at their frozen expressions... ugh... then my so called "friends" started asking why i got freaked out with them, i didnt know why... i just get freaked out with things like that, and other wierd things. so then they started throwing them at me, acting like they were alive.... and one dead fish actually landed in my mouth............. they all started laughing hysterically, and i started to throw up.... assholes.....

but overall we had fun, we played some video games all night at the campsite, so it was cool.

and we went to see fireworks for fourth of July! it was beautiful. and there was a fair there too! i got some marionettes... i like marionettes.

i got back on tuesday, but i couldnt get on here, because we had to go to the fireworks.

but im here now! and im TRYING to continue my long-overdue work! ill see if i can get something in tomorrow! im glad to be back! (goes to work making characters and continueing comics) ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9213314/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9213314/ Wed, 28 Jun 2006 18:03:59 PDT
anyway this friday im going on a camping trip, wich also happens to be a family reunion, since im native amaerican, i go to a family reuonion every year to get together with everyone whos apart of it.
so yeah, well be hanging out, playing games, and stuff, maybe ill be burried again at the beach...
at the reunion, theres gonna be tons of fooooods... so you can imagine I'LL have fun! cause my stomach is the closest thing on earth to a black hole.... as i like to say.... what? i eat alot...and im a hungry man. this year is our turn to provide stuffs for the reunion. so you can imagine how busy i am helping.

so we should be back on monday or tuesday... depending on the mood.
ill try to update at least SOMETHING before i leave... heh, maybe ill bring some pictures from the reunion. well i gotta go pack and try to finish something for tomorrow, and im reeeeaaally sorry if, by chance, i dont get to finish something... so ill see you all soon!

heres an early good-bye since i dont update my journals much either. (im either not talkative, or rarely know what to say.)

so, good-bye for now friends! (< i dont know why that is there.....) ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9117556/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9117556/ Mon, 19 Jun 2006 16:20:44 PDT oh well, at least ill be paid, and i can get stuff, and hang out, and save it for the future.

oh and i changed my avatar cause i got sick of looking at myself makin that face....
so i changed it to president roosevelt's laughing face... i just thought it was funny. and it kinda reminds me of myself... in some way.

yay work....*sigh* ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9092893/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9092893/ Sat, 17 Jun 2006 02:58:00 PDT -winkwink-
hehehe! later! ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9007654/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/9007654/ Thu, 08 Jun 2006 10:15:58 PDT ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8951184/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8951184/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 14:42:21 PDT
oh! and uh the B-day party was fun! we went to a resturaunt, and got a free dessert! it was fun, and i got some prettycool presents!

*yawn* yargghh.... slipping away.... 'k... 'night... ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8938816/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8938816/ Thu, 01 Jun 2006 09:34:56 PDT tonight at 10:38 p.m. (u.s. eastern time) il be 19! yay! ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8928477/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8928477/ Wed, 31 May 2006 08:40:14 PDT and yet... i dont know why... but with each passing year it becomes less of a thrill, and even less of an excitement... sad huh? im still happy though! and somewhat sad and scared... cause i have to move on even further, and its only a matter of time before im comepletely on my own....(cringes, slaps self.)
oh well nows not the time to worry about that!

instead of celebrating on the day i was born, i always celebrate my b-day at the time i was born. i still have a party and stuff throughout the day, but i blow out the candles the very minute i was born, wich, is 10:38 p.m. so yeah i'll spend those last few minutes enjoying being 18, then blow out the candles right when im 19. WHEEE! happy birthday to me!
ill put up some stuff, either today or tomorrow. ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8892656/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8892656/ Sat, 27 May 2006 12:12:49 PDT finally became a deviant! shes so talented, and has some of the most potential to be a cartoonist ive seen! (< so far...) shes makes some of the most hilarios comics ive ever seen! (even funnier than mine...)

when she puts up more of her stuff, i insist you all go see her stuff! ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8852572/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8852572/ Tue, 23 May 2006 08:24:16 PDT
OH! my sister turning sweet 16 today! weee!! im gonna make her something special... maybe ill post it up when its done!
ill post SOMETHING up very soon! k? promise!

(remembers something...) ARRRGHH!! WHY do i always forget to fav things!? i only recently remembered! ack! its that friggin save button! it always in that one little area right next to the picture! and while im distracted by the pic, faving it totally slips my mind! that, and the button isnt very noticable... well, in my opinion. im gonna try to fix that too! ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8650124/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8650124/ Tue, 02 May 2006 08:49:55 PDT
i just thought id update the journal as well so i can get that other one off, because its somewhat negative... ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8607007/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8607007/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 22:26:19 PDT ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8268260/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8268260/ Sat, 25 Mar 2006 19:12:01 PST bah! dammit! ive only made one picture so far! but it NEEDS to be colored, i dont have the right colors, so i need to buy them, cause i cant color good with my computer. and after that, i havent been able to do N.E. THING! (< wow that was lame) and the worst part is that i actually have SOME free time!!! RGRGRGHHH! ahhh shitballs! IM SORRY! IM SO SORRY! (slaps self and forces self to draw, or at least practice...).......OH MY GOD!!! i JUST realized after the many times i drew jackle, that i draw his head wierd, and his hat horns are too small and not as erect!! FECKING ASSCRACKERS!! (slaps self again, and fixes jackle, and practices drawings.) (forces self to work...) ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8187092/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8187092/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 10:26:08 PST working on abunch of shit and homework! and trying to maintain my art!
ugh... but ther is a bit of good news! im currently working on something... something that im certain youll all love when its finished! so yeah, i have to devote even more time to THAT, than my other arts, and ideas! (im sorry other arts and ideas!) its so time consuming! SO now my deviations are gonna come a little slow now until the THING im working on is comeplete.... so yeah, im trying to get SOMETHNG done, and get all the shit out of the way, so i have more time! ill try to send something soon!


P.S. my sister mentioned that all i ever draw is NiGHTS these days... I would just like to point out that thats not true... i also draw some of my own characters that i made up (non-NiGHTS related)... im just not sure if i want to post them up. im afraid...i think... for some sort of strange reason. and i dont know why im afraid, or what im afraid of... 1 side of me says DO IT! DO IT! and the other is just afraid of doing it, for reasons i dont really know how to say.(i dont even know if i can say it!) ... im confused now. ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8113814/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8113814/ Thu, 09 Mar 2006 15:35:52 PST yay! i got some new scraps and deviations in! go check them out!

note to self: ... if laziness phase sets in... break out... ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8097906/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8097906/ Tue, 07 Mar 2006 20:53:18 PST all the records and things i done on all my games are gone.. all gone... *sigh* does anyone know if theres a memory card of some type for the saturn so this doesnt happen again?

OH YEA! and uh i got some new drawings and ideas in progress! BUT, my scanner is being evil, once again... THIS time, it wont even scan... crap... BUT I WONT GIVE UP!!!

by the way i had a dream that went to a nightmare last night... i was all excited cause i was gonna go to the U.K. (i think) to meet Trippy! and when i got there! i was all happy, but then she killed me... and ate my brains... hand to god! im serious! i was like "hi how are you? lets be friends!" and she said " i despise you"
and took a bite out of my head....(shudders) now i know this isnt real, but it looked reall in my eyes... im scared to ever visit the U.K. now..( as if i ever had) ( that was a little bit of sarcasm for those couldnt sense it.)
oh well, it doesnt matter... ill still find a way to get up there someday...

and for the record, im seriously not joking about the dream, i really did have it. i know that the dream will never happen though.... OR WILL IT!? (plays dramatic music)

and i seriously do not know why i dreamt of that... my mind is partially corrupted, and some of it cannot be controlled. ( i think) ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8066219/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8066219/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 14:54:47 PST
but we all later talked about annette. how great and caring she was... how funny she was.
we even shared some memories. mine was when she was drunk on 2006 new years day , she was really funny, she was like "hey curtis how are ya doin? oh god i love you." then she hugged and kissed me on the cheek, and although i was a little disturbed, i cracked up a bit. i liked her... she was a sweet old woman. she was in alot of pain all the time. from surgery and stuff. but now she doesnt have to suffer any more. she died from heart failure.
and before, my friend was going through a tough time, cause shes only 15, and already lost her mother. shes doing a bit better now though.

EDIT: annette has been cremated and will be spread across the Macinac Bridge.
sigh... still trying to get back my inspiration to draw again... ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8050087/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/8050087/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 18:47:52 PST
when i heard he was a secret character i freaked out. iwas like, "i cant believe it..." after i learned about it. i spent two sleepless nights trying to get him. god it was annoying, i was beginning to wonder if it was all worth it. because you have to do a bunch of annoying shit, you know, the typical "get gold" this and comeplete all this, and that. and ya feel like, "what!? all that!? just for a couple of characters!?" but in the end it was totally worth it! NiGHTS is freakin sweet, and all the others too! and nights has a new picture of himself in the same style as the others do, you know, when you select the characters, it shows there picture. and also the sega carnival/sega illusion level is awsome. (squeals) there's so many cameos!!! GYAH! ( by the way, i heard that if you jump through one of the high rings in sega illusion, you get to fly like NiGHTS through the rings. i tried it and its fun, but short...)

By the way, i know ive not done anything... again...for a while... but i have good reason, no.1: my friends mother just died, and we have to get ready for a funeral. And no.2: ive been getting boatloads of tests for units that i NEED to study for, OR ELSE... ... SO yeah, ive had almost NO time to work on drawings, but i'll try to have some soon. ..i only just finished most of my tests when i got sonic riders. ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/7955319/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/7955319/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 17:22:46 PST MUST...MAINTAIN... JJOOYYY!!! ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/7936366/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/7936366/ Sat, 18 Feb 2006 17:18:58 PST

god!!! I CANT FFFFFOCCUUUSSSSSSSS!!! on anytttthing!!! god! ive had NOTHING on my mind for... I DONT KNOW HOW LONG!!! DAMMIT!! MY HAND will not cooperate with the signals my brain is sending!! it just wont DRAW, or SCULPT like it USED to!!! IM ABOUT READY TO CUT IT OFFFFFF!!!
RRRGRRGRGRAEAGRGRGHHHH!!! sonof a mother.... i WILL do something soon EVEN if it KILLS me...

TROUSELLBARF!!!

p.s. as ive said before... i cant focus... this one journal took 20 min to think out, before actually typing it... ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/7855164/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/7855164/ Fri, 10 Feb 2006 11:17:40 PST ... ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/7759697/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/7759697/ Tue, 31 Jan 2006 09:46:48 PST
lately ive been feeling very depressed... i feel like my drawings are crap compared to others... i just look at other peoples art, then look at mine, than depression seeps in... *sigh* i feel like i suck at drawing like my drawings are a waste and my sculptures are the only good thing i can do... ROAR! okay! sorrow time is over! joy is back!! must... think.. positive... rrgghh! ]]> ~SvenHoek http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/7733833/ http://SvenHoek.deviantart.com/journal/7733833/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 16:42:32 PST lately ive been having problems with the internet, and im trying to start ideas for a Reala sculpture...
yay! but im sorta stumped on what pose i can have him in... i was thinking about having him in a flying pose like my nights sculpture so i could do a paraloop battle with them, but then the thought of that not being as creative seeps in... ugh, confusion...
oh well! we'll see what happens now wont we?

tanks for lookins! ]]> ~SvenHoek