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A few days ago I had a phone convo with my brother, and he was telling me how to do things, to support me...something a caring sibling would do. Then earlier today with the phone call between my mom and bro, instead of the convo stopping after a few sentences as I expected since I thought he would live up to that advice he gave me, it continued on for 20+ minutes.

Guess who just earned himself a spot on my hate list? 8'D Oh yah, he's not going to see any amicable attitude from me any time soon.

Right now I'm so livid that I can feel the blood pumping with each heart beat, to my head. My head also feels fuzzy. Mmm--yah..pulsating marshmallows...that's what it feels like.

It was a great way for ripping out my motivation to do my work. If my mom was aiming to nail me in some way intentionally, she succeeded.

But I'm sure you've experienced this too, with someone talking behind your back and then feeling angry about it after listening in on the conversation.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26672568/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26672568/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 13:48:53 PDT u<. ...*A* *loves cutting things with them* No joke..I'm addicted x'D. *wastes paper from all the cutting* *u*. Beautiful cookies and gingerbread men and and and..[/crazy]

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26660708/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26660708/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 22:16:56 PDT


On another note. The first site is a 'no go'. It pretty much comes down to the "pixel art is improving, but not quite there yet" and "there may be no need for design artists". So I felt I would probably be a thorn in their side, and other negative feelings towards how much I would hurt the team. I actually did like the comment about the 'improvements', which was what I was aiming for since I've been constantly switching methods on the pixel art process, with each one carrying different results...even though it wasn't quite there yet (improvements, yay! >u< That's a good sign <3). But she did say, in the nicest way possible I believe, that the answer is 'no'. So I was thankful that she didn't end up yelling at me. So I just stopped pursuing that site rather than continuing to press it on.

The second site, the person was actually willing to accept me as part of the team right after I showed her the examples, and that truly made me happy and excited. But I didn't have the samples they were looking for as far as pixel art goes since they're looking for hard pixels like roliana and mene, not the soft blended ones like gaia and solia that I had examples of. I honestly disliked the hard pixels on avi sites ever since mene...mostly because their avi bases made me want to gag and a lot of hard pixel avi sites seem to follow suit with the horrible bases (like they can't get their heads out of the box)...but recently I went around to see what doll editors were doing and I found a really epic looking one that made me drool *u* (gawd, drooling for pixels lolol x'D). All in all, I'll try joining them as a design artist, and if possible work up some examples of the types of pixel art after they've gotten the bases down (and I think I may even work on the bases <3 ---and thus would be the advantage of being the first pixel artist on the site eue).

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26617790/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26617790/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 21:18:47 PDT
So, I did a google search and lo and behold there is someone on DA looking for pixel artists <3. I am waiting on the current site to see if they want me in or not, but on the other hand I've been impressed with some of the site design work on the one person's DA account. So if my application fails on one site, I could clean up my portfolio and try again with another group <3.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26579292/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26579292/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 22:03:49 PDT
So I went to check the website to see how the results ended up, but my password expired so I have to wait 3-7 days for the new password to arrive.

I really want to know what the problem is before talking to anyone. But...this does scare me. If it's something serious that I'll die from, it's fine. But what I fear is how my parents will react to it, cuz most likely they're going to try to make me feel worse about it as if it's my fault for having whatever health issue I have.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26374845/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26374845/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 07:15:48 PDT
my parents think i need to have the toenail with the infected tissue around it removed. something i'm not looking forward to.

anyways, i got curious about how the toenail removal procedure was done.......and now i am freaked out more than i was before. in one of the vids, it showed the needle going right THROUGH the toe...you could even see the contents of the syringe squirting out the other end (the person pulled his foot back, also the surgeon stuck the needle in too deep too fast. put both of those together and...D; ). on top of that the needle seemed to be bending and the person handling it also probed the needle inside the toe. honestly, i've heard horror stories about that happening but i never thought i'd live to see something like that actually being done. if you're curious about it, here's the vid [link] . one of my fears is having one of those suckers snap off and lodged into the tissue X___x . another one of my fears is the surgeon performing his/her job recklessly.

oh yush...i'm so screwed for this... TxT

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26303097/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26303097/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 17:27:55 PDT
now...these fanfiction mary sues, as with all mary sues, think it's awesome and creative to make these characters (to be the best character in terms of power, putting their fan-type characters online for public display, etc.). while i admit that some fan-based stories or rp characters CAN be pulled off well, the majority of them just can't. lots of times, they're just something that just doesn't make sense or the chances of it happening are highly improbable.

though, i will applaud someone for making a DECENT one. eg a character that isn't exactly stupendous in some way, has a believable/probable way of being integrated with a story, etc.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26223396/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26223396/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 00:00:03 PDT u
so anyways, before yesterday i was doing something different in the rp and had my character do one of those random moments of evilness, got a friend into it too, and went back to where the other rpc's were to do their evil thing. but then one of the noobs comes by to face the threat. dude completely ignored my rpc lolol x'D ---so that's when i decided to see why it was taking so long for him to reply, looked at his profile comments, and saw this huge conversation happening between several people about the rp and his character. he was defending himself about the accusations that he godmods, saying that he doesn't. and this is collaboration of what he's said along with my experience of rp-ing with the guy. (if you don't know what a godmodder is, scroll down, there's a list. i've listed a huge chunk of godmoding characteristics.):

--his rpc can control all four elements plus electricity. earlier he said the rpc can't control them perfectly...and yet he has perfect control, and power to boot. i forgot what abilities he originally started off with, but i remember that electricity was one of the added ones, so the guy adds abilities (everyone who's seen him rp knows this). -----he didn't fail me today 8'D. i predicted this. he added some new abilities today x'D. i thought it was two but it's actually 3 (1-giant ice spikes that can slice through people [he said earlier his rpc can't use ice, and yet we see it here], 2-becoming somewhat of a spirit in order to purge darkness from a person's soul, 3-forcing people back into a solid state if they were in some sort of non-solid form).
--rpc has super speed, and thus can dodge almost anything. some people are pressured to godmod themselves in order to be able to hit this guy. watching this guy in battle sucks cuz i see auto-hitting left and right, from both him and the person he's rp-ing against.
--one of the people he was having a conversation with said to watch out for my character. then he replies with something along the lines of "i can zap that bug easily, whether he's in bug or human form---because he's mostly made up of water". and with that logic, it means he can instantly beat anyone with electricity---my rpc has the same water mass as an average person...or, whatever form he's in lolol x'D.
--he made another comment about his rpc being "stronger than anyone knows"
--also has some sort of healing elixir that he uses, and instantly heals him (he claims to use it only after the end of battles...i haven't seen him use it during battles...yet. i'm sure he would if he's pressured to...though i doubt it since his rpc seems to shrug off the godmoded damage quickly.)
--character is NOT supposed to have the ability to mind read, but his character still responds to people's thoughts and intentions.

*rubs her chin* and he thinks that isn't god-moding? wow, this guy has got his head stuck up somewhere lolol x'D. he's definitely frustrated more people than me, based on what he's said about his previous rp experience...and not surprisingly (since this is typical of a god-moder or mary sue), he hasn't learned anything from it.


the rp battle today was something i wouldn't completely agree to. yamiko godmoded, but i truly think that was because she was familiar with this guy's fighting style and was pressured into auto-hitting the guy just to put some damage in. then i had my character move in, only holding up the guns and trying to convince the guy's rpc to stop. i expected that the guy would have his rpc super speed or use electricity on my rpc, but he did something way worse than that: he used his ICE ability to slice off my rpc's arms, never giving my rpc a chance to react. ---at that point i lost it because i never godmoded against that guy, and also because that was permanent damage (my rpc has no regenerative abilities other than maybe growing back new skin in a few hours).

at the end i told him to list out every single damn ability his rpc has. i also offered to list my rpc's abilities in exchange.

i was also annoyed at the conversation between him and the thread owner. the thread owner even suggested to have my rpc's arms ripped off.

why the hell am i still in this rp? i think i am insane... this rp is insane! it's full of godmodders and mary sues! *sits down and sighs* =u= *pops her knuckles* there is one person in there i absolutely want to dish my anger out on, and i haven't gotten to her yet. i think she was out of the rp to avoid the fighting, possibly scared of yamiko.

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THE CHARACTERISTICS OF GODMODING:
-killing another person's rpc without their permission
-giving a character/weapon insanely... ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26058038/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26058038/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 04:02:36 PDT
when artists leave with a bang?
this, i think, is probably one of the lousiest ways for an artist to leave an art community~

so the story starts that this artist has joined an art site, new to the particular theme of the art site. after a few pictures, she starts uploading pictures that are meant to be teasers/advertisements to another site (which happens to be pay per view on the artwork). she gets bashed for starting to put more emphasis on advertising her site. but it all explodes when one of her uploaded works gets deleted (i haven't seen it, but from what i've read from some of the comments it went against the uploading rules of the site). she gets extremely upset over this and finally posts a picture announcing her departure from the art site (also attacks the community for being mean/unjust to her and makes herself look like the victim). so of course, everyone is on this person's butt and makes arguments against her. i read the comments and i have come to the conclusion that she is a slutty douche (eg making comments like "the majority of you making comments have NO talent and have to jerk off to something you will never obtain" and "i have to make a living too" (since she lost her second part time job...and i think still plays WoW despite that) and "i don't have to jerk off since i already have someone to f*ck"---yah, she actually did say it that crudely). i was appalled with the way this artist was reacting. she did dig her own hole in the first place, and inevitably pinned the blame on the community despite her own actions and even belittled the community, making herself look like a stuck up drama whore/slut.

i have no sympathy for her---absolutely none. she was one of the better artists on the site, but the way she acted and the things she uploaded makes it seemed like she deserved all of it, and more.

if an artist has to make a departure, then they should make a simple announcement like "i will be moving to..." or "i'm sorry but i'm going to stop", something simple and won't cause extreme amounts of drama. not something like "i'm leaving because i hate how you've bashed me *sobs, then throws sarcastic/insulting comments, and advertises all the sites i have*". seriously, the more drama you make when you exit, the worse the impression you leave on people and the more enemies and haters you'll earn. it's not worth it to make the drama. i'm sure that the majority of you have experienced an encounter with such a person before (eg *coughs* certain banned dtaay person *coughs*).

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watermarks and original works
there was also another issue in there about leaving watermarks to prevent theft, though i don't feel it was as much of an issue with her case compared to the use of a free art site to advertise for a pay-to-view art site. watermarks.

tons of people hate having their art stolen and displayed somewhere else. honestly, i don't mind people using my work so long as they don't take the credit for creating it, or use it in a way that is hateful, insulting, etc. ---i would consider it a sort of compliment if someone displayed my art.

but there is one thing that i will utterly butcher people for if they even use it, and those are my pictures on tezu. even the avatar, unless it's for fun (eg cloning lolz x'D). i think i may be overly attached to the character/avatar, but i think that some of you might feel the same way towards a certain character you've created, that you've poured a bit of yourself into. you probably wouldn't like it if someone used your character's image or story for themselves.

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tl;dr and skipped to the last section lolol x'D~~~~soooo, some questions for you *0*
-do you think it's wrong to advertise for free on a site dedicated for displaying art? (eg uploading ad pictures to DA for the sole purpose of advertising a pay-to-view art site)
-how do you feel about watermarks on artwork?
-how would you feel if someone used your artwork? ..while giving you credit? ..while giving you no credit? ..while claiming the work as their own?
-what would your reaction be if someone took your personal character? (eg a character that represents you, has lots of similar characteristics to you, something you've put a lot of effort into creating and thus you're attached to it, etc.)

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26013755/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/26013755/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 19:52:05 PDT
Name: princess angelica serenity uchiha hotohori *insert all the bishounens' names here...they're so fabulously delicious*
Age: 8593 (even though she looks 16)
Race: wolf/cat/bird/unicorn/dragon/griffin/lemur/super saiyan/etc. demon, also royal goddess of the highest caliber, part angel, vampire, powerful sorceress, avatar (like from the last airbender teeheehee <3), and other species she has yet to discover but they're all very pretty and super powerful and rare and smart and all the above.
History/Bio: born by the creator of earth (sasuke uchiha) and the goddess who created the sun (bella swan), they both tragically died and with their last bit of strength sent their daughter to live on earth, bestowing on her more powers than she was born with and thus caused her to be a part of many different beings. she was raised as royalty in a palace and everyone loved her dearly and wanted to be friends with her. even animals couldn't help but be drawn to her and become her friends/pets. she is super duper pretty and smart, and has solved and helped every single one of their problems effortlessly. oh how they adored her. she was perfect in every way imaginable and so utterly flawless, the most envied being in the universe. one day, she lost her memories and vanished from her kingdom. her lover, the powerful demon prince inu yasha, goes to search for his beloved, never resting during his search. meanwhile, she has learned to become a doctor, a lawyer, a scientist, a movie star, a teacher, the president, etc.
Hobbies: flying, dancing, swimming, soccer, traveling, hunting for treasure, building castles, creating forests, making new friends/pets, singing with a magical voice, cooking, helping others, solving mysteries, creating new technology, turning people into magical pets to adore her, acting, making movies, turning people into magical pets to adore her (i just wanted to say that again because it's so awesome! *squee's* she's the best character ever!!! and her story can totally be made into an anime and it will be the bestest best best anime ever made! and and and i don't care what you think about her because my opinion is the only one that matters- teehee! <3 and don't steal her, she can't be played by anyone else but me! okay? now GTFO you losers unless you're here to adore me and my creation <3)



roflmao x'DDDD...actually a ton of that was inspired by the mary sue in that very same rp, especially the last portion there.

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heck...another mary sue popped up in the rp! this guy has an rpc who is a sephiroth clone who was sent into space and trained as a jedi and is supposed to be a nice guy. and he wants aerith to visit his rpc so that his rpc can carry on aerith's will to save the planet blah blah blah x'D. i think this is the same guy who has used tails (with white wings) from sonic the hedgehog....and...hrmmm...guess he WAS a mary sue since the beginning x'DDDD.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25956183/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25956183/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 03:28:40 PDT
*smacks j upside the head for thinking weird things* x'D

(don't read further on if you get grossed out easily)

a few weeks ago i accidentally trimmed one of my toenails way too short (kinda dazed while trimming orz...). so i knew that eventually i'd get an ingrown toenail some days or weeks later, and those are normally easy to handle if you make sure the nail doesn't grown under the skin. two days ago i accidentally stubbed my toe, and walked off thinking that it wouldn't do anything. i was wrong. earlier yesterday when i was going to get up to leave my room (normally i sit on the ground and most of my work stuff is on the floor or on the low korean table), i noticed a dot of white...ooze...peeking out from the side of my toenail. when i looked more closely (cuz it ...farscinarted meh---derp derp OuO...lolol x'D), i noticed the infection had filled the skin on the side of the toe, and partially under the toenail---gotten to the point where it had filled up enough to pop through the skin on its own (aaaww...kids bacteria grow up so fast ;u;. i'd hate to part with them ;n;...*secretly plotting to burn them*). so i get to work on trying to pry out the tiny bit of nail from under the skin and also squeezed out the pus to relieve the pressure, using hand sanitizer every now and then cuz i couldn't find the rubbing alcohol (figured it was eloping with the peroxide *A*...so...much...HAAAATTEEE).

and, later on in the day there was pain (kids bacteria didn't want to leave me ;u;....*A*). found out the thing had filled up again. so this time i tried soaking the toe in hot salt water and repeated the same process from earlier, but used the salt water instead of hand sanitizer (stings like a cooked hotdog). aaaannndddd....accidentally popped the skin off there the infection was *0* (...oooooo <3). that was a good several layers of skin, but not enough skin was pulled off to cause it to bleed, but enough of it where it always looks wet. the pus is still under the toenail since i can't get to it unless i probe and poke under the toenail and partially detach the toenail from the skin. ---normally playing around with an infection is bad, but when you're in pain...squeezing it does wonders OuO. out flows the gooey white stoof 8'DDDD. who wants to lick my toe? i've salted it enough so it should be flavorful lolz x'D. TASTY TOE! rofl x'DDDD



and why the heck did i just post a journal on something like that? because i enjoy grossing people out lolol x'D

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25932736/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25932736/ Tue, 14 Jul 2009 00:09:20 PDT [link] read from that post on. you can see what i've done to my avatar and my signature content x'DDDD (inspired by battery, who changed her avatar right in the middle of the time i was making a freebie sketch for her. frustrated and somewhat amused, i decided i wanted to do something epic with my avatar in response to battery's changes). the reactions for it are absolutely priceless x'DDDD

though i agree with the people there. the avatar does make me want to gag and the sig art was probably one of the most disgusting things i've ever drawn......but it was all worth it for the laughs i got from the responses x'DDDD

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25872754/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25872754/ Sat, 11 Jul 2009 02:31:08 PDT
so basically she started with a character with these traits and background:
--part flying wolf demon with control of fire, part mythical song bird, part cat demon with control over ice, and part vampire
--has the ability to heal
--lives in the poorer part of the city and lives like a person in poverty
--hates rich people
--was abandoned at 3 years old, raised by a pack of wolves, and became the healer in one city
--physically weak

here are the add-ons that happened throughout the course of the rp from what i've read thus far (i can't remember all of them ^^"):
--usually happens to be in the right place at the right time (shows up wherever the action is and tries to be a main part in it)
--had the 'only' hospital in the downtown area and that hospital was destroyed by evil rich people
--is friends with most of the people in the downtown city and all are demon (even though in the guild the demons are 'supposed' to be in hiding and most of the people around are human)
--somehow became my rpc's savior because she said he was 'meant' to die at one battle (so her character has the ability to 'know' when people are meant to die)
--somehow 'knows' when something is not right with a person
--is the most powerful mixed-demon in the world
--age is over 7k years
--has money hidden in various cities
--constantly has to shop for a new wardrobe
--somehow also has friends in other places and can get along well with the residents
--used to live in a mansion that her parents own, but her parents don't give her any money
--has servants
--tried to separate all the rpc's away from this one guy's rpc so her rpc could travel with his rpc to a different area (cuz..she she has a crush on this guy from what i've analyzed ~ both in rp and ooc). but she especially tried to be mean to my rpc and tried to get him away 'even' when he practically saved both of their lives and would have continued trying to protect them.
--(i have about 7 more pages to catch up on in that rp thread...but i'm sure the list will grow after reading those pages)(there's more---i finished the rest this morning---more illogical stuff to explode your mind~i couldn't help but make comments on these x'D)
--parents gone missing (conveniently) so now she has inherited all the wealth to herself
--servants are pure blood demons (also explaining that mixed breeds are looked down upon by pure bloods...wtf? o_o...servants are pure blood...PURE BLOOD). later introduced two more servants who are based off the twins from ouran, also very PURE BLOOD. (but that's ok cuz the servants love their mutt master anyways OuO)
--servants act like she makes frequent visits back to the estate
--story was she ran away 'after' her brother was killed (and no one bothered to go look for her...mmhmm)
--previously her rpc needed to look for a pure blood demon to form a blood contract with in order to keep her demon council happy (pure blood SERVANTS D8...could have taken with her to get a blood contract done and over with)
--add-on from earlier (i just remembered this x'D): she wants to protect her friends, but she wanted to make a blood contract with a character that wanted to destroy the city with her friends in it (and actually this other character DID destroy that city after the group left). later dumping the idea of blood contracts and getting on with other stuff until my rpc mentions that city-destroying rpc again. (i suspect the whole blood contract thing was spurred so she could be with the guild captain's rpc and he wouldn't be able to shake her off so easily---and i think she had a tiny crush on him at the time)
--servant leading one of the other rpc's to a room with herbs, and suddenly mentions "it's a room that only SHE knows about"...it's super secret (wtf? how does the servant know then?)
--mansion is so ridiculously huge it's got everything...there's even a room with HUNDREDS of dolls in it...(yikes! D; ) .......i forgot what else she had in there...she was listing out a number of expensive type rooms somewhere (how do the four servants take care of this place? D... ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25674544/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25674544/ Thu, 02 Jul 2009 00:35:39 PDT
then today, i looked into the guild that we're in and saw that one of the threads was updated with new posts, so i went and skimmed through it. i didn't expect anything special, but i was a bit shocked with what i saw. basically she was talking to one other person, and she said she wouldn't talk or rp with me unless i read what she sent. on the other hand, she said she wouldn't use the same threat on the other person she was talking to so they're still cool with each other.

so where does that leave me standing? i know she likes that guy (almost as a crush), but to treat her other friends by threatening them into doing things in order for them to remain friends with her is just horrendous in my opinion. i'm a doormat? if i don't do what she wants she'll wipe crap on me?

eeeyaaaahhh...i don't think i'm going to stay friends with this person if i'm just going to get threatened into doing things in order to keep the relationship.



currently, me and my bf are fighting over who's going to pay for what when we meet. he wants to pay for my stuff when i visit (eg movies, parks, etc.). but i'm opposed to it and i'm saying i should pay for it. we're cool, other than fighting about money issues lolol x'D. we are odd...lolz x'D. i think a normal couple, they would 'want' the other person to pay for them, not the other way around.

(*too lazy to change the mood emote on the journal*)

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edit: here's the convo thus far (previously she was talking about a guy who was standing outside her window and she sent her pack of dogs on the guy, one of them bit the guy---and she was also talking about that story she sent me to read. so this is where it picks up)~

her: No I recalled him with the clicker.
DAMN!!! this story is REALLY good

him: uh-huh
because someone got eaten?

her: you'd have to read it to know what I mean. I'm MAKING Te read it. if she doesn't i'll never forgive her and i'll never talk to or rp with her again. v.v

him: owh
thats er...threatening..
-runs-
>.<

her: Not to you. I'll still talk to you Ki-chan

him: geh.
huh
wad?
@.@

her: lol never mind *hugs you and smiles*

me: wow..that's just... =__=...

do you normally threaten your friends like this? =A=

her: yes I do hun. So don't feel bad have you read them yet? *has finished already*

me: *moves away from ai* =____=

soooooo ~ what's ki up to today? OuO


---so i'm pretty much not responding to her, and she keeps asking me if i read that thing. the more she asks, the more i feel like i shouldn't read it.

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another edit! 8'D: well she kept pestering me about it and the guy finally caved in and told me to go read it as well. after staring at the thing for a few more minutes, i decided to make my exit. this is what i actually typed into the thread:

@ai: you know, i would have read it after today if you had left the topic alone, since i've been busy the last few days trying to cram-watch these class videos before they expire, and that stuff you sent me would have taken out a huge chunk of my time since i'm a slow reader. so i was saving it for when i had a schedule that was more flexible. but then i saw that threat you posted...that didn't sit too well with me.

honestly, i refuse to accept that type of shit from anyone, even my friends, unless they were joking about it. so yes, i got pissed. and now i'm even more pissed cuz you're still pestering me about it.

so flip fuck, and screw you---oh, btw, this is for independence day and my birthday as well, also done for those other people that dislike the way you treat your friends too *sets off some fireworks early and then gives a 'screw you' salute before exiting*

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25235967/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25235967/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 13:02:12 PDT
me: yah, it seems to be going slow enough now for you to jump in.
him: trying to say something? fine i will not post randomly finding you guys are anything, later.

wtfbbq? so he pretty much took that the wrong way and that's why he was trying to anger me in the thread. i meant to tell him it was good that the rp was slowing up so he wouldn't have to feel like he's getting left behind.

but..yah...i think that's the first time since we've gotten together as a couple and we've angered each other. somehow i feel we aren't going to make it past 6 months.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25141528/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25141528/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 10:59:42 PDT
seriously...i was thinking why the heck people like stuff like this to the point they'd hurt people for it? the audience has no exposure to better stories? it's sort of like...how should i say...there's box, and inside the box are stick figure drawings and outside the box has masterpieces, but the audience is trapped inside the box so they only like the stick figure art. i find it frustrating that such a poorly played out story gets more publicity over other works that are way better than twilight.

now i can officially say i dislike twilight and not just base it on the fact that i dislike how vampires were ruined with the whole 'sparkly bishi moodswing vampire' thing.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25041580/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/25041580/ Sat, 30 May 2009 22:16:42 PDT
so here's this creamed salmon with no onions... it tasted so plain i just sat there wondering what i could put in it to make up for the missing ingredient. so what did i do? i stuck potato chips in there. that's right: potato chips x'DDDD. and it tasted like a salmon noodle casserole after that so it wasn't as bad. it's not fantastic but it's more pleasant than the version without the onions ^w^

i don't know if i'm going to be doing anymore cooking adventures before tuesday when my parents get back... >w>"""

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edit:
so i made some muffins and i boiled some eggs before my parents came back. at least those didn't flop as horribly as the salmon stuff lolol x'DDDD.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/24998666/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/24998666/ Thu, 28 May 2009 14:17:17 PDT
from what i can observe, she hasn't developed a very good way of handling these situations nor does she have the skills to prevent them. i still (very much) believe that it's because of how she treats people and acts towards them. the people don't like it, and they get pissed at her, she refuses to fix the issue because she believes that those people are the ones who are wrong, and then she moves on to another group of people and believe that things would be different.

definition of insanity: "doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."

---the whole thing still amuses me, though not as much as it used to.



anyhooooo! my parents are gone until tuesday. being alone in the house gives me the opportunity to cook new things <3333. when my parents are at home i dislike doing any 'real' cooking in front of them. when they're gone i try all sorts of different recipes <3 (most of them end up as failures but who cares---the process is still fun x3). kimchi soup for day one, probably will have leftovers tomorrow x3 (kimchi soup is better as leftovers since the tofu absorbs more of the flavor <3). i used olive oil instead of vegetable oil, and anchovy sauce instead of regular fish sauce---and came up with an unusual tasting batch of soup. kimchi soup: kimchi, some kimchi liquid, water, vegetable oil, tofu, fish sauce (or dried anchovies), meat (spam works unusually well here). easy to make and yummy. eat with rice and enjoy <3

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/24696002/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/24696002/ Sun, 10 May 2009 23:50:52 PDT


anyhoo, that whole ordeal that happened last time with that one person, it feels like it's fading, almost like it never happened. and, the atmosphere of the gaia guild has definitely become less hostile and things seem to be proceeding smoothly. the guild seems to be more fun, now that the source of the problems is no longer there. though i feel i've scared some of my friends and they don't want to talk to me as much anymore. i guess i tried to get a little too close to them for their comfort ^^". but that's not going to hinder me from doing art and tormenting sinjin 83



i also talked to my bf a bit. he said he'd visit the guild after he gets his laptop fixed, since his brother keeps screwing up the computers. seriously, if i were there i would most likely smack his brother over the head for repeating the same mistake twice. that kid downloads things off of limewire and then 'BAM!', computer gets annihilated with a virus. of course i also heard that they don't use anti-virus *sits back*... it's funny---i prefer being inside and surrounded by tech, and my bf prefers the outdoors. i don't know how we're going to make it when we finally see each other. he's probably going to want to travel outside a lot. ..if it's going to be every day i'm going to die D;

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/24658471/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/24658471/ Fri, 08 May 2009 20:17:40 PDT
[this is in pst]
(5/8 @10:15 pm)
lolol she doesn't pay attention or just has a very poor memory. i was skimming through a pm conversation (not between me and her), and she's making accusations against me when i already clarified earlier. i 'used' to be christian. i told her that way earlier in the thread, back when we had that religious talk. she got upset at me because she thinks i don't know god *pulls up pants*---i have had 13+ years of bible study, along with being in a private school, and being surrounded by a religious community 8'D. she says that god forgives all, and i say no *points to revelations*---heck, even in the old testament, there were cases where god did NOT forgive. *slap #1* 8'D ~.

and she says i imitate my male avi. there was never a time since i've been in dtaay where i've claimed that i'm a guy. you can ask anyone in dtaay. i did post a link earlier to a discussion, and i did point out that i will admit that i'm female, but the male avi is a male in the comic. and even more specifically, the male version in the comic does have my personality if i'm set on hyper-mode, which i'm obviously not all the time. the comic version only has a few of my personality traits that have been tweaked for entertainment purposes. so, comic version of my avi is based off of me, but not purely reflecting me. i think that's the same way with the others. the comic characters look like the avatars, but do not entirely reflect the person behind the avatar. *slap #2* 8'D

there was a heck of a lot more in there that she kept contradicting herself, and there were even points in there that made her look like a bigger asshole than she already is (eg "i don't care what they feel, i did it for me" arguments). though the pm discussion seemed to make her ooze a little more on her true intentions for her actions, and her biased mindset *multi slap* 8'D

evidence doesn't lie---GIRLY. roflmao x'DDDD. by now, her mudpit has grown to at least the size of a football stadium x'DDDDDDDD

(5/8 @ 8:16 pm)
new gaia status message from her:
"it doesn't matter now what happens. i'll never give up the fight."
wtfbbq? oxymoron much? x'DDDD. she did say that she was going to let it go, if i recall. now she's not only trying to sound like a saint, she's trying to sound heroic. i feel sorry for her mother for having such a silly child x'D...actually, i think her mother would probably be upset at her daughter if she ever actually read all the stuff that her daughter posted.

i remember we were having a discussion on religions. she did say something along the lines "i respect other religions. but god is the truth." ---she got emo after i got pissed at it and i wanted to bash her down for it so badly. i believe in tolerance for other religions, but not when the other religions try to force their beliefs on others. it's like standing in a group with people of different religions, and there's one person there who keeps yelling "my religion is the sole truth". it's just disrespectful to the other people. ---if you're going to talk about religion in a forum or a chat, be sure that the other participants are ok with you talking about it.

(5/8 @ 8:53 am)
lolol i didn't think about this before, but one of the other people made a point in an MSN chat late last night about the deletion of the thread x'D :
Person A: she deleted it becasue she claimed that there was too much chat
Person A: and drama
Person B: that
Person B: is
Person B: bull
Person B: shit
Person B: if i could go back to that thread
Person B: it would show
Person B: she is the one who started
Person B: most of the conversations
Person B: she is the one with the most posts
Person B: and then she is gonna claim it is too much
Person B: ..

yah, i did say that earlier about the reasoning. you want proof for her reasoning on the deletion and how she tries to cover herself? here ya go ;D --- [link] ...though you have to bear in mind she still thinks that we're ganging on her for not telling her gender. she could have kept anonymous, but instead she did something like this: [link] (note: she did put an edit in there AFTER we nailed her for it---the argument i copied/pasted has the unedited version of those posts). clear difference between not wanting to say what they are and 'claiming' to be something they're not even when asked about it. there were other issues we came at her for, tho... ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/24632802/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/24632802/ Thu, 07 May 2009 10:16:52 PDT [link] . let the rainbows make your eyes explodeth! lolz x'D ... actually i need to update that...i have a few new arts to post in there.

latter part is drama, lolol x'D ---you don't have to read it if you don't want to since i know some people hate reading drama posts:

so anyways, still gaia-ing, and going to solia, dealing with drama in both places. most of the drama over on solia seems to have quieted down. the drama is still going strong on gaia. basically went and fought against this person in a guild. it's amazing how persistent she is. i'm sure if you read the argument, you'd probably be feeling the same way that me and many other people do. and yes, i have copied the argument for lolz, cuz i can't help but laugh at it's silliness x3. anyhoo, after yesterday morning when we tried to make our exit out of the thread, the one person (who's a vice captain in this guild) went ahead and deleted the thread (basically the thread was like an rp-in-comic-form type of thread), even though i did suggest at the end to avoid doing it because it had everyone's work in it and history, and her reasoning for deleting it was that there was too much chat and drama in there---while it's true it was a lot of chat, there was also a lot of work. we still have the archive of the comic pages luckily, but the history, and all the page descriptions that went with those pages are all gone. she still tries to act innocent and just (and of course for people who try to force her to see the facts---she blocks them by putting them on her ignore list---no joke). i think the thread deletion pretty much made everyone shoot their hate for that one person by at least 20 times higher (from both people within the guild and outside the guild). if she had left it as is, or had just deleted the posts for the argument as i suggested, then it wouldn't have turned into such a monster as it is now. this thing literally inflated dramatically after she deleted that thread.

the amazing thing is...she's still in the guild. like i said, she's persistent. out of all the active people there: one who doesn't know what's going on, one who does seem to know what's going on and is trying to be nice to that one person, one of her friends who suddenly revived in activity out of the blue right after the argument ended, and the rest dislike her. i'd have left the guild if i were in her position. her being there is like her trying to stay in a pit filled with hungry raptors and expecting them to 'not' view her as food.

oh! i couldn't help but pull this one up from an old encounter with a noob on gaia x'D (this was a copy/paste of that convo, no words edited x'D---not quite the same as the argument i talked about earlier in the journal entry, but i did get a very similar response as the last line when i offered to take the discussion into pm and tell her what she needs to do to avoid having people hate her, and also when i kept slamming her with things that she didn't want to hear.):
Beggar: CAN I HAVE ONE OF UR Devil Imp Plushie BECUASE YOU HAVE ALLOT OF THEM!
Me: ...just a bit of a heads up look at the rules in a vendor's store before pm-ing them or commenting on their profile for donations. there are some vendors who will actually snap at you if you ignore the rules they've set up.
Beggar: i know i read urs but i dont really care its worth trying becuae a girl gave me a magical girl wand for free and that thing cost 9 k and she had rules too
Me: that's a bit disrespectful and rude, you do realize that, don't you? O_o
Beggar: no not really leave me alone stop talking to me!!!!!




and my response to that... 8'DDDDD *tears*. it's actually quite entertaining. it's like watching a spoiled child hitting their hand with a plastic hammer and they hurt themselves, but they repeat the same process over and over and they expect something good will happen for them.




and---i admit i actually used to like this person, but that was before i got a chance to interact with her for at least a week.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/18408183/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/18408183/ Mon, 19 May 2008 23:51:53 PDT about making a new account, and also using this one at the same time, but...competing against myself, lol xDDDD

I don't know if I'm going to make an announcement about it. I like to make it somewhat anonymous until the right time for a big bang, lol xD

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/17834464/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/17834464/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 15:07:40 PDT [link]

Listen to the interview. All of your artworks will be up for grabs, people can steal your work and earn money off of it, all your ideas will no longer be yours.

Greed and corruption are working against us artists.

If you want to help fight against this upcoming catastrophe, please spread the word.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/17685082/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/17685082/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 15:03:07 PDT
Anyways, there was a contest on there where gaians could create a torso related item [link] . So I entered it with my ookami armor. And lo and behold, it made it into the top 12 finalists. Is that good? Possibly, considering there were probably several hundred entries for the contest.

Now the bad part: my item was the only one that got a big bash thread on it. Why? Because they think it's from WoW. I dislike the artwork from WoW (no offense to WoW fans, it's just my taste---I'm sure you guys have an art style or two that you don't like). Can you imagine being accused for copying an art style you don't like? They also think I've copied from Okami---ookami is wolf in Japanese...everyone there thinks the name is taken from the game title (so of course these people don't know what ookami means). Tell me, what sounds better to you: wolf armor or ookami armor? They both mean the same thing, just in different languages. I've also been accused from taking the idea from digimon. True that I like digimon, but wolves with markings is hardly an original concept. I didn't even think about any of those three (WoW, Okami, Digimon) when I made the armor. And these people who are accusing me are so sure of themselves.

Luckily, the last time I saw, that bash thread got killed because of the overwhelming amount of threads related to the evolving items.

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Anyways, besides that I was thinking of creating a new DA account. I feel it's time for a fresh start. I just don't know when I'll do it though.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/13631473/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/13631473/ Fri, 06 Jul 2007 08:22:30 PDT
My top five fears (no particular order):
-malfunctioning theme park rides (especially roller coasters and ferris wheels)
-spiders
-getting into a car accident
-sudden changes in atmosphere at night (that time where there's a little silence and it feels like someone's right in the room with you >A< )
-ANNDDD....seeing the employees of a restaurant sing to me for a birthday OAO

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/13613227/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/13613227/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 21:32:24 PDT
You don't have to hurt your eyes by reading the rest of this >w>

Day 0:
We got lost trying to find our way off the freeway, but at least we got ourselves familiar with the roads over there quick, for that particular area 9w9 . When we arrived, we were within the first few 100 in line to get our badges, which is good because the line turned gigantic afterwards. Oh! And I finally met and XD

Day 1:
After the long wait in the AA line, we got our table, and me and my friend dashed off to the S.K.I.N. concert line. We got tickets for a very awesome spot, pretty close to the action XD . But we stood forever in line for the actual seating, which caused me to get massive sunburns on my arms. We had no clue wanted to go walk around during that time. The conversation kinda blew up on my cell phone. So I felt bad about it. But the concert was absolutely awesome XD . Miyavi was literally the focal point on that stage. He was dancing and jumping everywhere XDDDDD (got his hair stuck in the guitar---oops XP . But he recovered gracefully, as expected X3 ). At the end they winded up smashing up their instruments, which was tight X3 . And Gackt, I love him forever! I love his voice, and he managed to do a better performance than any of the music videos he's ever done.

Day 2:
Sales are a little better. Actually, a LOT better. I had so many commissions I almost flipped XD . I want to thank everyone for buying my stuff and commissions. Of course I got excited when my KH print sold. I was expecting only to sell two or three prints. So that was a pleasant surprise X3 .


Day 3:
Someone pulled a ninja on us. Some guy dressed up as a ninja was crawling in front of the tables so the artists couldn't see them, then he would pop up and scream at the artist. It was so hilarious! XDDDD Of course the one he was after was 9w9

I was graced by the popular OAO! OMG she bought a commission from me!! XDDDDDD *rolls around*. Her commission piece was actually one of the better ones I did because I was afraid of messing up and disappointing her. But I think it went well X3

Day 4:
By this time, we were completely wiped out. The stairs!! OMG the STAIRS!!! D8 if we ever wanted to go somewhere we were always winding up going through stairs. I was almost going to collapse, partially from lack of sleep, so my coordination was shot.

And the weird thing is, unlike last year, the commissions I did this year actually were better at the beginning than they were at the end O0o! And that one person forgot to pick up her commission >w> ...so...I got $5 for free I guess 9w9 .

I also got this awesome Bleach wrist band as a birthday present from my friend . I love it to pieces!! *wears it everyday* XDDDD

And everyone seemed to forget their badges O0o! So we kept switching the badges between each other >w< . And honestly, I didn't go through the entire exhibition hall because the layout just confused the heck out of me OAO . I forgot to look for a S.K.I.N. wristband, but that's ok. At least I have the pin X3

After we got out, we went over to the Macaroni Grill, had some ecchi conversation shmoo, and dropped off http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/12538979/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 12:15:04 PDT
---ryumaho: she's my highschool buddy. Most of her work isn't on her site, but if you saw her work now, you can see that she's improved quite a bit compared to the stuff she has on her site.

---naruru: one of my online buddies and I steal her artwork often >3 . She has a unique style that just grows on you until you want to eat it X3 ...or in my case anyways >w> . she has uber art, and I especially enjoy her fan-artwork X3 (keep the bishies coming, naruru XD )

---silver chan: one heck of an awesome artist who has a wide collection of fantastic art work. I'm happy that she's going to be joining us for this year, and I'm sure that you will be happy that she is at this year's AA.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11778600/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11778600/ Sun, 11 Feb 2007 20:05:51 PST A
*dies from shock* X_X

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11764656/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11764656/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 19:24:54 PST w<

things to do! *w*

first priorita:
all the doujins X3 (digimon, avatar)

second priorita (sorry guys, but i actually have due dates on the top ones):
snowfox's kiriban
gaia commission
that drawing i was working over at my friend's house
OURAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AX shmoozies
...other stuff that i can't think of at the moment >_>

other random stuff to do (no set priority--they're done randomly whenever i feel like it):
streak--messin with the main page again, and working on different animation style
the clump--got new script >w<
08--those charas don't play fair! messin with the script
omg---collab comic with @w@ *is excited*

doujins come first --rawr!!--

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11761249/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11761249/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 14:10:32 PST
I am feeling pretty depressed...I can't attract a guy, but I can attract a lesbian...WHY?!!!! Dx!!!!! ....I'm straight!! *shoos off lesbians following her* >A
Anyhoo!!! Got a new printer to replace our dead one (not a printer by Dell because they suck), and got a new pen tablet. the new pen tablet is 10x better and easier to use. I was wondering why everyone with pen tablets can draw on their comps so easily, and now I know why: my old one just stinks. I'll probably sell the old one for $20-$30 or something like that ... it's still better than using a mouse *nods*.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11505304/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11505304/ Sat, 20 Jan 2007 12:05:46 PST

We are team...uh...well, we made a team, no name though ^^" . Please come visit us at the expo >w< , even though only two of us are allowed behind the table at any given time.

Don't ask for a space from us, four peeps is the max that was settled on, gomen.

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11500809/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11500809/ Sat, 20 Jan 2007 08:51:40 PST
We had to compete, we got frustrated several times on the way, and those who were dedicated enough to stay up until 12:30 got a table. That pretty much sums it up =3

Although I feel sorry for because she tried last year and couldn't make it. And then again this year. I'm willing to help out, but I should go ask my friends first *ponders*

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things to do! *eyes glint with determination* *w*
snowfox's kiriban (*blinks* wow...this one has to get done this year *swordie's new year's resolution...even though it's already been over a year* -w-" )
gaia commission ( *W*!!!! goldgoldgoldgoldlolmyshoesflipped)
...rawr1!!! that drawing i was working over at my friend's house OAO ...one more person to draw X_X *shivers*
OURAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I KEEP FORGETTING THAT CONTEST NARURU HAD!!! it got canceled...but i'm still doing a pic >w<
AX shmoozies... O0o! the list is getting longer and nothing's getting done!! >0<
...uh...*scratches her head* -_-" i think i may have missed some things--- (MORE THINGS SHOULD BE HERE!!! *pokes memory minions* >D )

other random stuff to do:
comic pages everywhere @w@ (streak, the clump, 08, any other ones that might breeze by in my direction >w< )

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11368428/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11368428/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 21:07:11 PST W
hmm...what else? oh yah! after the first three things in the "to do" list are done i'll be posting an "answer this one question" journal. and instead of a sketch it will be cg. howza bout dat >w<

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things to do! *eyes glint with determination* *w*
snowfox's kiriban (*blinks* wow...this one has to get done this year *swordie's new year's resolution...even though it's already been over a year* -w-" )
gaia commission ( *W*!!!! goldgoldgoldgoldlolmyshoesflipped)
...rawr1!!! that drawing i was working over at my friend's house OAO ...one more person to draw X_X *shivers*
...uh...*scratches her head* -_-" i think i may have missed some things--- (MORE THINGS SHOULD BE HERE!!! *pokes memory minions* >D )

other random stuff to do:
comic pages everywhere @w@ (streak, the clump, 08, any other ones that might breeze by in my direction >w< )

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11275378/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/11275378/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 13:25:49 PST A< ....they botched it up... *sighs* . basically, we were supposed to register for a table at 10 am today and the server couldn't handle us. and there were absolutely zero forms around for the tables---hahaha..heh... nyuu... -_- . and sometime after 1 pm, they informed everyone that it's been moved to the 3rd (edit: now the 10th). i wonder if they'll be smart enough to spiff up their servers Owo

and i drank sake this morning---the most disgusting thing i've ever had, rofl XD . i'm probably still drunk as a skunk---but damn... it's like drinking rubbing alcohol mixed in with sugar O_o . SPEE-EEEEWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i did it for the experience ( swordie = minus 30 HP ) X_X

O0o!!! and last year, lol---actually in december, i went over to 's place out of state OWO!! that was the most awesome christmas vacation ever! we did caroling, sleding, exploring, partying, being lazy and sipping tea---lol, the works X3 . but then she got sick shortly after i came and i felt bad about it. i think her immune system suffered from the stress of taking care of me (i'm a hand full ^^" ). and i find it surprising that it's a lot colder in my house than in her house---and the clothes i wore outside kept me warmer than i am in the room i'm sitting in right now (scary!). so i think the fact that i'm used to my house being so cold and the fact that i brought really warm clothing saved me from coming down with anything while i was over there.

lessee...my bro ate the stuff that i brought for my parents...he was just stuffing himself so we can cook him later >=3 . he's just one giant turkey! XD

O0o! and the sleding--- there was one part i flew off this bump in the hill and landed really hard. my butt bones were aching for over a week (>w<" butt bones, lol). that was the first strike. second strike was my bro kneeing me in that area. third strike was me being stupid and dashing through the garage (over 1/2 hour of excruciating pain---second only to the pain i went through with my wisdom teeth being pulled). but apparently, the aggravation to that area actually helped it (yay natural pain killers >w< ), and it felt normal afterwards---no pain whatsoever. stupidity saved my butt...literally XP

um...lessee---i'll do sketches for anyone who can give me gaia-online gold OWO!!! and uh...what else? i'll think about something for the next post -w-

<3 ducks love you <3

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/10633288/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/10633288/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 06:45:28 PST
Ugh...getting a C+ in one class...I'm not all too happy about that so I'm cranking up my efforts (but that's because the quizzes and tests are the only part of the grading system that he doesn't grade based off his favoritism of the students). THE TEACHER IS TERRIBLE--- He's so bad, that he makes saints out of all the teachers I've had before him that I thought were horrible *applauds previous-bad-teachers who now look really good* X3

And then there's that issue about some of my friends posing a strike against me. lol, not quite a strike---actually they just won't talk to me. was it something that i said to them? *shrugs* @x@ I think it had to do with asking them questions about airlines (for a group project...my entire team forgot about this part of the assignment X_X ). None of my friends that I've asked responded, so I winded up talking to my dad (last resort) who had this humongous prejudice against Continental -_- . I am confused with my friends at the moment @A@ . Or maybe it's not about the airlines and it's something they just don't like about me... *sighs* why do I always worry about silly things like that? >_>"

Oh! My mood's actually going back up despite all that. I'm climbing back up. My drawing motivation is increasing. It went from nothing, to several minutes every few days, and now it's happening more frequently. Well, I have an email bud who is attempting to draw comics. It's been a while since I've seen anyone who was so eager to jump into something and I think that seeing him motivated like that helped me out. I guess I just needed to see the right spark. And then the general good feeling. Life is a little brighter today ^_^ --- *is blinded* X_X ahhh!!! *puts sunglasses on* >w<

busy, and happy for the most part =3

*hugs everyone* I <3 j00 all! X3

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/10553036/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/10553036/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 20:25:10 PST
Anyhoo, some things that are happening: I'm getting a C in one of my classes and studying for a test I'm sure that I will fail, um...haven't drawn or doodled anything in a long time (blargh! >A< ), got a new pen-pal who I'm teaching how to download things off the internet (kinda stumbling a bit), parents are vacationing (AGAIN!! every six months damnit), purchased a 17 inch wide laptop that I'm hardly using (it's a requirement for one of my majors...A REQUIREMENT!! ...my school has knuckleheads making the decisions -w- ), Internet acces has been non-existant in my room since Friday (only on my floor in the apartments), the school unplugged our ddr machine for building upgrades (*cries* meesh needs my ddr fix!!! now!!! >A< ), currently have $160+ that my dad threw at me and nothing good on campus to spend it on (so cruel! >_< *stabs*...I want to buy socks...I am in dire need of socks... *feet freeze*), been harrassing the dust bunnies that have been hiding behind my desk.... I think my life is pretty emo... -_- . It's been happening for far too long...and I don't like it.

But one strange thing that's been happening lately. Those of you who are familiar with me know I'm anti-social in real life (*avoids people irl as much as possible*). Now I'm just lonely...previously I just wanted to hang out with other artists on my campus but now I just want to see my friends again, and I want to talk to other people but...having a hard time. It makes me sad ;_; . THIS IS ABNORMAL!!! Go watch that tickle-me-elmo vid on youtube! He torments dogs---it's hilarious! X3

*coughs* so anyhoo, at least I'll be able to see some of you during AX 2007. I do hope that you come by. Bring pie!! OWO!!! Cheesecake works too -w- ...or pocky. I'm happy with getting pocky for my b-day...if you get me green tea pocky I will love you forever TwT . Actually, if you come by I will love you forever anyways ^w^

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/10287702/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/10287702/ Wed, 04 Oct 2006 21:35:32 PDT
So far, at school, I feel like I'm swamped in these accounting courses I'm taking. And I do feel lonely because I want to be able to talk to other artists face to face at school, and that's not happening. So that's been a bummer.

And I also feel like my artwork is lagging. The more I draw, the more I think I shouldn't be doing it. So everything that I need to draw/color is going at a snail's pace. I just feel like I'm being sucked into a state of regression. This shouldn't be happening...it should be the other way around. My art is just starting to get more crappy than usual...

And I'm not too happy with my parents at the moment (actually, I'm rarely ever happy with them). I finally had a chance to decorate one of my rooms with some artwork and wall scrolls and my dad called me an "inferior decorator"...not interior, but inferior, and he made sure that I knew what he meant. And then my mom took his side, as usual (and I know I shouldn't be saying this...but she can be a real b sometimes). And of course they also made subtle remarks that they hated the art, which is the part that got me upset the most---there's not a single piece of artwork on the wall that is mine. Everything, except the wall scrolls, are from you guys and some other DA artists. It's bad enough they insulted me, but I think it's just evil insulting my friends as well. I felt like smacking them but instead I just told them to leave. Most people would say that you should listen to your parents, but sometimes I feel like I'm the one who should be giving them the advice about how to treat people. And what they did was unnexceptable. It's funny...they wonder why I have a distant relationship with them. We live on completely different worlds where we have different levels of respect for others.

There's some other things that totally pissed me off, but basically to sum them all up in one tiny nutshell: my mom is a hypocrite and a biased b.

So that's pretty much my life right now, which is why you haven't seen much of me on DA lately...I'm just dealing with all this crazy shmoo and generally being bummed out.

But at least the rest of you have better lives. So long as you guys are okay, it gives me some light in my life to see my friends happy =3

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/10062145/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/10062145/ Wed, 13 Sep 2006 16:17:40 PDT
So in order to say goodbye and thanks, they took me out to lunch over at the Olive Garden and gave me a beautiful picture frame and a T-shirt that says, "I survived HS auditing" @w@. That, and a whole load of Olive Garden chocolate mints...I have never seen that many Olive Garden chocolate mints in my life...lol X3

I will miss seeing everyone...I better make the best of tomorrow since that will be my last day...

...and then, the following week---dun dun duuuuun!! school O[]O!!!!! NYOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! This upcoming school quarter is going to be HARD >A< . I know everyone is trying to get through college with an easy A, but I'm trying to prep myself up for the CPA exam, even if it kills me. So I winded up picking the hardest accounting classes because they're subjects that are required for you to know on the CPA exam. And believe me, there are trash accounting courses that most people will probably never use in life. In my opinion, it's better to pick a class that prepares you for an important exam than one that gives you an A but you will never use in life. I like to think about the practicality of the courses ^^

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art trade pic for pinkshoujo (95%-final version OWO!!! almost there! almost there! *can't wait to finish it* @w@ )
snowfox's kiriban (20%--final version *coughs* niiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!! OAO )
more sketchy for lydia (...wow...*wonders if she still needs these* O.o" )
ryumaho's art request (5%-being redone)
comic pages for Streak....I think I'm going to finish the stuff up top before getting to this >_> ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/10033126/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/10033126/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 20:39:22 PDT

O0o!!!

6 random facts about me....

1) love to experiment with weird food combinations -w- *pocky frosting and potato chips* OwO

2) used to have imaginary friends...some cool and others not so nice OAO

3) <3 reptiles X3

4) used to dislike the pen tool in photoshop, but now i lurve it X3 *hugs*

5) i do not taste like fruit. do not lick me. lick him oxo *points at trix rabbit*

6) right now, i feel like saying, "genetically enhanced corn will eat your goats"

now the fun part! lesseeeeeeee...hmmmmmmmmmmm.......I TAG----
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art trade pic for pinkshoujo (80%-final version @w@--fwoosh!)
snowfox's kiriban (20%--final version *coughs* niiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!! OAO )
more sketchy for lydia (...wow...*wonders if she still needs these* O.o" )
ryumaho's art request (5%-being redone)
comic pages for Streak....I think I'm going to finish the stuff up top before getting to this >_> ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9992075/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9992075/ Wed, 06 Sep 2006 18:55:38 PDT
peeps: *hiss* party pooper!!! D<
me: OAO but...but...where the heck is my flamethrower when I need it?! >A<

---peeps I wanted to get sketchies from @w@...but didn't X_X ---I still <3 you guys!!! nyuuu!!! ;A; :


---peeps who are/were doing it for "free" OWO *bows*:


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art trade pic for pinkshoujo (20%-final version @w@--fwoosh!)
snowfox's kiriban (15%--final version *coughs* niiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!! OAO )
more sketchy for lydia (...wow...*wonders if she still needs these* O.o" )
ryumaho's art request (5%-being redone)
comic pages for Streak....I think I'm going to finish the stuff up top before getting to this >_> ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9976377/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9976377/ Tue, 05 Sep 2006 12:12:04 PDT A< . And I winded up eating it too...but that was before I found out. *sighs* That wasn't the only time I accidently ate bugs. Back in my old house, we had a horrible moth problem. The larvae attacked all the dry food and...well...cereal for breakfast... and I found out when I actually found something moving in there. And my parents wondered why I didn't eat any of the food from home during that time....yah...I didn't need that type of protein, thankyou... TT_TT

Besides that, I think the art shmoozies are coming out nicely OwO, even though I winded up re-doing some of them /@0@/

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art trade pic for pinkshoujo (20%-final version @w@--fwoosh!)
snowfox's kiriban (15%--final version *coughs* niiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!! OAO )
more sketchy for lydia (...wow...*wonders if she still needs these* O.o" )
ryumaho's art request (5%-being redone)
comic pages for Streak....I think I'm going to finish the stuff up top before getting to this >_> ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9885596/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9885596/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 07:52:20 PDT
...I think I may have spotted an art thief on DA and I can't do anything about it until I get to my school comp >x<, since my school comp has the url where the pic was originally from. I want to tell the original artist first, because I think that he/she deserves to see what's going on and have the say in what should be done.

Anyhoo, I am utterly pissed at this particular person for taking all the credit for something that they did not produce themselves. It makes me sick watching this person reply to every single compliment and deceiving everyone. On one side, I think it's a great compliment for the original artist, that someone would want to take the pic. On the other side, I think it's despicable and shameful to steal it without giving credit where it rightfully belongs...and then taking all the glory.

*pops her knuckles* when I get that url to the original art site and make contact, that thief will be in the deepest shit imaginable...from me, the original artist, and the DA community... D=<

Or if someone gets to it before I do, bravo. Fellow artists need to watch each other's backs from dishonest people.

Anyhoosh, that is all for now. I won't be able to contact the artist until tomorrow morning....

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8/29

Actually, I didn't have the page bookmarked like I thought I did, but I did have the url of the link page I found the site on. Unfortunately it's in Japanese so *shrugs and sighs*. DA will hopefully do something about it since there were some peeps who already had the url in hand *thumbs up*. In the meantime, go support the original artist =3 [link] ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9839820/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9839820/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 13:54:46 PDT
"How many letters are in the alphabet?"

(hint: the answer isn't as simple as it seems) ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9838770/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9838770/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 12:16:07 PDT
I'm crazy...I went out yesterday trying to find the rest of my friend's b-day present. I put it together and was proud about the way the presentation of the gift looked. Then I realized my left hand was feeling icky and I looked down, and found half of it was covered in blood. Then I investigated the present and discovered that the present was covered in blood too >[]
me: *sends it over to her friend* happy...b-day...!!!! @w< *in a hoarse voice*
friend: NYO!!! O[]O!!
me: clone me bebe!!! *dances* Owo

lol, j/k =3

Anyhoo, turned out I cut one of my fingers on one of the contents of the gift, over a scar I already had (and I thought that was really cool---I'll have a scar on top of a scar OWO! *shows it off* -w-). And I cleaned up the majority of the present. But the bad thing is: that was my soda can opener finger, and I don't have a bandaid. *dehydrates*...either that or open up a can very painfully. Or I could shake it up and hope it explodes open @w@ . Then again...I could always go to the good side and drink water...*pokes a water bottle* O.O *the water bottle wobbles over* O[]O *is horrified*

WE NEED A VENDING MACHINE WITH "CHEAP" BOTTLED SODA!!!!!!! >[]<

my dad: she already knows it!
me: wha...? I know what? @x@
my dad: that lucky charms are magically delicious!! \OwO/
me: *falls over* /xAx/
(and that was an actual conversation we had this morning) ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9809485/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9809485/ Mon, 21 Aug 2006 21:11:04 PDT
Quiz
How emo are you?

[ ]You hate the world.
[x]You hate society. (they're here! they'll eat j00 O0o!!)
[x]You think vampires are cool. (politicians don't count)
[ ]You write poetry.
[ ]You have colored your hair black Hallowe'en
[ ]You wear black/blue eyeliner At times.
[ ]You write poetry that's not for school.
[ ]You are freakishly obsessed with darkness. (wha? Now why would I be obsessed with Cheney?)
[ ]You think love is a waste of time. (sometimes...@x@)
[ ]You've given up on the world.

Total = 3

[x]You've shopped at Hot Topic (they have the coolest things over there!)
[ ]You've spent over $100 at Hot Topic. (...i rarely spend $100 on anything O.o")
[ ]You wear more bracelets than a Russian
[ ]You own a dog collar, that's not for your dog
[x]You're extremely pale. (i like my comp!! *straps herself to her comp* D=< no sunlight!! HISS!!!)
[ ]You are a member of a poetry site.
[ ]Your screen name has been an oxymoron.
[ ]You are an atheist or agnostic.
[ ]You don't believe in god.
[x]Your screen name has/had X's in it. (@A@)

Total = 3

[x]You have been referred to as scary. (my friend's bf is scared of me >=3 )
[x]You have been referred to as demented. (I take it as a compliment XP)
[x]You have been referred to as weird. (what's wrong with "weird"?)
[x]You have been known to hate teachers. (you have no idea)
[x]You have been known to cause trouble. (for teachers >=3 )
[x]Your hair has been dyed a color that was not natural. (do highlights count?)
[x]You have at least one photoshopped picture on myspace. (...I really don't think that's an emo question. I think all of us at DA edit our pics O.o")
[x]You think pictures look better in greyscale or sepia tone. (a lot of pics do..especially the line-arts look well in sepia =3 )
[x]You are scared of yourself sometimes. (hahaha!! moo!!!)

Total = 9

[x] Suicide has crossed your mind (I want a monkeh =3)
[x]you have screamed before (O.o" that's a retarded question...who the heck came up with that?)
[ ]You use big words that no one has ever heard before on occasion.
[ ]you've seen The Exorcist.
[ ]You liked The Exorcist.
[ ]You've seen Saw.
[ ]You liked Saw.
[ ]You've done voodoo.
[ ]You hate sports.
[ ]You dress up as the most morbid thing posssible on Halloween.

Total = 2

[x]Halloween is one of your favorite holidays. (you can dress up and get away with it, duh @x@)
[x]You have an obsession with fire. (it is fun!!! there's a bit of a pyromaniac in me)
[ ]You have only a couple of actual friends. (I'm guessing they mean by very few---but actually, I do have lots of friends, including those of you who've read down this far XP )
[ ]You're not afraid of spiders.
[x]You have had a conversation about how you want to die. ("HAD")
[x]You've painted your nails black (...well, I used a sharpy *shrugs*. but that was out of boredom)
[x]One or more of your myspace pics had writing on them. (again, another non-emo question)
[ ]You have had the word "...." in your display name.
[x]You love art. (non-emo's like art @x@)
[x]You like art with negative meanings

Total = 7

Now add up your total and multiply by two

24 x 2 = 48% omg...that's almost a 50/50!! O0o!!!


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SEVEN THINGS YOU WANT TO DO:
1. learn 3d CG and make a short movie
2. enter RSOM
3. remember to take pictures of my friends ;_;
4. karaoke with my friends
5. learn to play an electric guitar
6. make a torture chamber out of my bro's room so when he comes back I can punish him XD
7. learn to hijack your comp > ---j/k

SEVEN THINGS I CAN'T (OR WON'T) DO:
1. being lesbian... >A<
2. *nods* definitely collecting hentai---ish evil and sick
3. swimming without a shirt...
4. eat a live baby octopus
5. poking a tarantula with my finger
6. doing one of those kindergarten songs where they make you hit the sticks together
7. shower you in a thousand dollars @x@

SEVEN THINGS I SAY THE MOST:

1. NYUUU!!!
2. Anyhoosh
3. Alrighty!!
4. OMG!!!
5. BAKA
6. awesome
... ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9802975/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9802975/ Mon, 21 Aug 2006 15:32:04 PDT
???

I think that she meant that she got a reply and not the actual fix for the problem we were having....but she shot the gun too early *falls over* X_X

So here's my dilemma: I was present at the site waiting for the work, but I spent all day Thursday playing around on my comp until I could get the project that she promised to give me. So then...

1) should I count the hours and get paid for it? I mean, I "did wait" for the project, honestly believing that I'd get it on that day.
"OR"
2) should I delete the hours I goofed off from my time sheet? What I did can't really be counted as work since I used my time going around DA.

I was pretty sure I knew the answer last week but now I'm not sure...OXO

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[edit]
Thanks guys for the opinions OWO. That did pull off a lot of stress. But I was talking to the person who was going to approve the hours and we discussed what to do with it. I didn't spend the entire day completely goofing off on DA, but I also played around with the county programs on my comp, going around and trying to figure out a few things (and one I'm going to send the programmers a complaint about cuz it's a retarded glitch). But I seriously didn't think that could be counted as hours since that was just goofing off too...it seriously felt like I spent more time on DA though O.o".

Anyhoosh, the update on the situation is I had the hours approved for the time that I played around "with" the county programs. O0o!!!! omg...she was nice to me ;A; . I need to do something for her ;w; *praises her* /-w-/

That really does help me get the money I need to pay for the extra room rent. Oh! I forgot to mention that. They jacked up the prices for my apartment room to 400+ every three months because they turned my room into a "super singles" (what is that supposed to mean?! >0< ). Anyhoo, that just means I can't spend the money I earn on anything else other than the room now. boo... ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9786155/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9786155/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 19:52:53 PDT
He was way easier to fight in the second KH game than he was in the first KH *nods*. I never could beat him in the first game because the controls sucked and Sora didn't move fast enough imo. The second game, all you had to do was make sure you stayed healthy and beat him to a pulp once you run out of MP and shave off his life bars like a hungry kid on a candy bar >=3 . OWO And there was a very cool fight scene afterwards!! What a treat! XD It was worth all the trouble *super Cloud-fangirl yayness -w-*, and you get this powerful sword right afterwards that looks like it's a bunch of scrap metal slapped together. *shrugs* so long as it works, I'm okay with it =3 . wooo!!! *runs off and bats the bushes to death with the sword* XD

Of course, all of you can watch it on youtube---but it's more satisfying watching it after pulverizing Sephi *kicks his butt all day*

Did you know he likes s? ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9750048/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/9750048/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 15:23:34 PDT
Anyhoo, sold my stuff at the AX. I had lots of fun participating in it. And I got a commission piece from on my b-day *needs to scan teh piccie* O0o. Go give emoxic a visit >w< . And also visit who had really good endurance for sitting next to someone like me >=3 . And of course my buds, who I shared a table with, and , both of them also stayed over at my house which I thought was extremely awesome.

And after the expo, I think I had one heck of an artist's burn-out because I did not draw anything for the rest of July...except for one doodle I did over at my internship, which I'm currently at right at this very moment---I'm waiting for my next assignment but I still have yet to receive it. My internship devours 12 hours a day of my life, and that includes the driving by the way @x@.

And then...my bro played this stupid prank on me. Basically he found out that I was planning on playing some of his vid games. He told me that he was going to take all of them over to the East Coast (he's going to school there), and I didn't really want to buy these games for myself when he already had them (wouldn't it be weird for one family to have two sets of one game? -x-). So I panicked and used all my spare time to rush through as many games as I could. Finally, a day before he left he told me that he was going to leave all the games with me---->A_<

OwO and thanks again to the peeps who have me in their watch list. It makes me and my pet dust bunny happy =3 ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/8691668/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/8691668/ Sat, 06 May 2006 13:37:44 PDT X3

Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

(1) talking to inanimate objects from time to time
(2) sometimes i enjoy coloring my nails with my pencil, or drawing on myself with a pen oxo
(3) at night sometimes i pretend i'm in a big glowing sphere XD lol---it prevents the closet gnomes from stealing my socks ^_^
(4) running my finger across my lower lips when i'm fidgety
(5) not majoring in art
(6) i'm scared of going into the bathroom in my apartment ;x;

now then, here are ze 6 victims >=3 :
]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/8148784/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/8148784/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 11:52:10 PST
anyhoo, here's a funny photo---at least they smiled well for the camera:
click here

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Pics that I absolutely need to finish. All artwork, at this point is on a hold *coughs darnit* until these get done (except for Streak pages and Zero Eight pages...possibly working on another comic ^^")

and will be getting back to working on these sometime during spring break, which should start around the 27th:

ryumaho's art request (10%)
art trade pic for pinkshoujo (20%)
snowfox's kiriban (10%)
more sketchy for lydia (have yet to start the rest) ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/8144181/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/8144181/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 21:56:48 PST
bro: that guy's shining his brights at us...
me: then why don't you use the mirror and give him a taste of his own medicine?
bro: >=3 *adjusts the mirror to reflect the lights back in the guy's face*

There's another case where this one guy actually made giant flashcards and puts them up against his window whenever he drove past someone he thought was being a jerk. I thought that was pretty innovative. It's an effective method. Psychologically, we tend to look at billboards because we know they have some sort of significant message---so it's the same thing with the flashcards =3 . Unless the person happens to be someone who can't read English....

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This is an exam I picked up from . It's a fantasy novelist quiz (I'm doing it for one of my *cough* many manga stories, which already has a working script so nyu OwO). If you answer yes to one you fail...and stuff >_>

1. Does nothing happen in the first fifty pages? N
2. Is your main character a young farmhand with mysterious parentage? N
3. Is your main character the heir to the throne but doesn't know it? N
4. Is your story about a young character who comes of age, gains great power, and defeats the supreme badguy? N
5. Is your story about a quest for a magical artifact that will save the world? N
6. How about one that will destroy it? N
7. Does your story revolve around an ancient prophecy about "The One" who will save the world and everybody and all the forces of good? N
8. Does your novel contain a character whose sole purpose is to show up at random plot points and dispense information? N
9. Does your novel contain a character that is really a god in disguise? N
10. Is the evil supreme badguy secretly the father of your main character? N
11. Is the king of your world a kindly king duped by an evil magician? N
12. Does "a forgetful wizard" describe any of the characters in your novel? N
13. How about "a powerful but slow and kind-hearted warrior"? N
14. How about "a wise, mystical sage who refuses to give away plot details for his own personal, mysterious reasons"? N
15. Do the female characters in your novel spend a lot of time worrying about how they look, especially when the male main character is around? N
16. Do any of your female characters exist solely to be captured and rescued? that's just ghetto...N
17. Do any of your female characters exist solely to embody feminist ideals? interesting...but N
18. Would "a clumsy cooking wench more comfortable with a frying pan than a sword" aptly describe any of your female characters? ....omg....N
19. Would "a fearless warrioress more comfortable with a sword than a frying pan" aptly describe any of your female characters? N
20. Is any character in your novel best described as "a dour dwarf"? lol!! N
21. How about "a half-elf torn between his human and elven heritage"? N
22. Did you make the elves and the dwarves great friends, just to be different? N
23. Does everybody under four feet tall exist solely for comic relief? it has comic relief, but he's not vertically challenged =3
24. Do you think that the only two uses for ships are fishing and piracy? YES!! LOL, there are no ships in the story >_> . Plus if there were, they'd just use it for traveling.
25. Do you not know when the hay baler was invented? XDDDDD actually, N...
26. Did you draw a map for your novel which includes places named things like "The Blasted Lands" or "The Forest of Fear" or "The Desert of Desolation" or absolutely anything "of Doom"? wha...? lmao!! X3 N
27. Does your novel contain a prologue that is impossible to understand until you've read the entire book, if even then? not this story...
28. Is this the first book in a planned trilogy? \OWO/ a trilogy!!! N
29. How about a quintet or a decalogue? *coughs* now that's just asking for trouble---N
30. Is your novel thicker than a New York City phone book? O.o...I think it barely constitutes a full manga
31. Did absolutely nothing happen in the previous book you wrote, yet you figure you're still many sequels away from finishing your "story"? meh...N
32. Are you writing prequels to your as-yet-unfinished series of books? N
33. Is your name Robert Jordan and you lied like a dog to get this far? N
34.... ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/7997767/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/7997767/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 09:42:38 PST did it *points at her* XD

10 Things of my liking/love
~ anime and manga
~ drawing---"what?! that's preposterous!"
~ DDR
~ fake fur
~ asian-pop, techno, trance, stuff
~ pistachio icecream
~ other peeps artworks/photos from DA or other art sites (I have all these folders dedicated to all my fav pics on my comp)
~ photoshop, art supplies, etc.
~ really good anime figurines
~ singing...in ze shower X3 ---sometimes. but i just like singing anywhere <3

10 Things of my dislike/hate
~ my art...why does it have to be so crap-tastic?
~ bell peppers (except for the ones that have been chopped up really small and placed on pizza)---so picky ;_;
~ my toes...too long >x<
~ the smart people who use their talents for absolute evil---(ie Chaney)
~ my bro sending me garbage/H through AIM, and being too lazy to burn his junk off my comp (I don't have any CD-Rs ;_; )
~ my mom going through my room...
~ my dad calling my work "Japanese crap"
~ the newer crappy cartoons...they're getting so desperate to earn money off of the cartoon that they're not putting any meaningful effort into them, and then they expect us to "like" it
~ people bugging me when I'm trying to concentrate on my school work
~ my roomie amping up the volume on the country music station she listens too while I'm busy

3 Facts 'bout my name
~ I'm not related to Avril >x<
~ It's a French name because of my dad...I was born in S. Korea and look Korean...why can't I have a name that actually fits me?
~ not much else on my real name...uh...Swordie/Sword Chan---I got that from Devil & Devil (it's a manga...it's so funny XD). I just like the sound of that name---Sword X3

10 Facts 'bout myself
~ I don't speak Korean...
~ I'm working on a Shoujo manga! O0o!! Swordie should not even be into Shoujo!! (more progress in this manga than 08)
~ I have a completely different personality online...normally I tend to act dazed and stick to a very limited vocabulary irl ^^"
~ I collect coins...yes, those wheat pennies, the state quarters, nickels, um...I'm trying to look for a double die 1972 (I have one but I'm not sure if it's a double die >x< )
~ I'm terrified of spiders and I absolutely hate them. If I see one, I'll give it the most horrible death anyone can give to an arachnid
~ addicted to hi-chews
~ determined to stay single
~ out of all the guys I know, I abuse the most >=3 . you should watch us, we're funny X3
~ Outside...it's hazardous to my health! I'm an indoor person ;x; . the sun will kill me
~ I listen to music whenever I can...I'd die without music

5 Of my many wishes
~ actually having my manga in a graphic novel
~ getting more people to read Streak and actually keeping that audience ;x;
~ want to have a career far far away from my dad, but still in CA (CA has all the cool Asian stores...especially Irvine, which caters to the Asian community)
~ I want to bump into someone irl who makes comics as well X3
~ meesh be a 3d animator! for games! XD

I taggeth

*gets a seizure from looking at * ..blinking icon...aahh..*twitches* X_X ...I want a blinking icon too XDDDD

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Pics that I ab... ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/7944789/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/7944789/ Sun, 19 Feb 2006 15:42:30 PST x<. There's some pretty convincing pictures of it, but whether or not they're official is still in question.

Anyhoo, thus far in the manga, Naruto has gone all fuzz-butt loco. And Sasuke has yet to make his appearance after joining up with Orochimaru---but secretly, Sasuke's just putting on his make-up, and you know how long that takes (3+ years XD)

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Pics that I absolutely need to finish. All artwork, at this point is on a hold until these get done (except for Streak pages and Zero Eight pages):

-ryumaho's art request (10%)
-art trade pic for pinkshoujo (20%)
-snowfox's kiriban (10%)

(I have completed the next page in Streak, but too lazy to stick it up on the website... [link] ... I know it's sketchy bad because I'm doing it in pencil, but I promise to switch back to inking once I get back to the main story *nods*) ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/7921261/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/7921261/ Thu, 16 Feb 2006 23:19:46 PST
"We are developing technology to make things easier for us. One day, technology will be so advanced that you won't even have to lift a finger for anything, even wiping your butt." And I heard that from someone in class a while back. Personally, I do like a little independence and privacy >_> . But seriously, I think we're becoming way too dependent on technology. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy technology, but can you just imagine if every single bit of technology malfunctions and we can't use it anymore. All technology dependent countries are going to perish.

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Pics that I absolutely need to finish. All artwork, at this point is on a hold until these get done (except for Streak pages and Zero Eight pages):

-ryumaho's art request (10%)
-art trade pic for pinkshoujo (20%)
-snowfox's kiriban (10%)

( O[]O!!! wow, I finished three and added one (I forgot to add it to the list last time)---but the list is shrinking, and I'm glad that there is some progress going on ^_^ ) ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/7832028/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/7832028/ Tue, 07 Feb 2006 19:06:29 PST
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that i've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal

O0o!!! did me!

1. Monkey is awsome X3
2. Um one of the Naruto songs...6th openin? 8th openin? It has guys screaming at the beginning xD
3. Oh gosh, STRAWBERRY
4. We should sell our artworks @ AX and Anime Banzai \OwO/
5. MEETING THE FIRST TIME @ THE AX ;0; It was so cool~~
6. Monkey *v*
7. Do you secretly worship Yaoi? *v*

*laughs* XD it's good fun! you know you want it >=3

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Pics that I absolutely need to finish. All artwork, at this point is on a hold until these get done (except for Streak pages and Zero Eight pages):

-kiriban for Sessu1 (75%)
-art trade pic for pinkshoujo (20%)
-snowfox's kiriban (10%)
-orion's piccie (20%)
-sketch for lydia (.... >_> err...should get started ^^")

the percentages indicate how much has been completed. ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/7776759/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/7776759/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 00:46:44 PST
(You can read all of this if you want, but it is overly long and I'm not expecting you to read the whole thing):

1) "Anime is not an art form! And it sucks!"
---that is wrong. Anime is a unique and stylized form of art (or form of creativity/imagination). Its style has characteristics/qualities that differentiate it from other art forms, which is why it's called anime. And if you think it sucks, I'm not going to hold a grudge against you. That is your opinion. But don't go flaming it in other people's faces. It is rude, and you'll get enemies that way. However, if you are one of those people who have only seen the crappier styles of anime then I would suggest diversification in the anime you expose yourself to.

The only person I know in real-life who has called anime "crap" is my dad. My dad calls it "Japanese crap". I love drawing in anime style, and I'm not going to let this opinion about that style stop me.

2) "You're a friggin wannabe. You're not Japanese, so you can't possibly create any form of quality anime artwork."
---anime is a style derived from Japan. That doesn't mean you have to be Japanese to create anime-styled artwork. Heck, there are some non-Japanese artists who can do anime-style better than some Japanese peeps can.

Now, there are pseudo-anime/manga that try to immitate the style but you can still tell that it was non-Japanese produced. I would consider those forms of art "anime-style in progress", since these artists are sincere in trying to obtain the same quality and I congratulate those people on their efforts. They are trying their best at perfecting a form of art. I do enjoy seeing how these peeps improve throughout the course of time. Then there are those that draw pseudo-style on purpose, and I believe that it must inherit a name that distinguishes it away from the original style without being derogatory. Kind of like the Korean version of manga being called "manwha". Koreans do derive their manwha style from manga, but you can still tell it's Korean produced, and the name is not derogatory.

I consider myself far from making my artwork look like authentic anime/manga, and I'm still pushing myself to make it better. My bro categorizes me in the pseudo-mangaka category in a very negative way, but I still draw anime style, and I still draw my mangas. It's a hobby. Like with my comic, Streak, I already know that the artwork is crappy, and sometimes that bogs me down just thinking about it. But then again it's something I do for fun, I know that I can improve it, and there are still people who read it. I don't know why. Do they like the artwork? Is it the story? Both? Or are they just reading it because we're friends? Something else? What is it? Preferably, I would like to have peeps read it because of the story, even though the story is just barely at the tip of the iceberg. Seriously...it's one of those stories that will get complicated enough to make your head hurt. Bleh...I know I talk about the comic too much so I'll just move along ^^

3) "Being an artist won't get you anywhere."
---there are plenty of peeps who make their living as an artist. One of my relatives manages her own art studio and sells her work throughout the East Coast. She makes more money off of her artwork than a nurse can with their job =3 (and I know cuz my mom's a nurse and even my relative has told me about the statistics).

My dad has told me that I can't get a job as an artist and I'm just laughing my arse off. Even though I'm either going to take accounting or some sort of information management job, I'm still going to be doing the artwork. And this will be so! I am self-teaching myself 3D animation, and hopefully I might be able to work somewhere in the gaming industry *sparkles*. I would consider that a feat.

4) "You shouldn't do art because you're a Korean."
--- X_X That's just evil right there. People shouldn't be told what they can or cannot do simply because of what they are. In America, Koreans aren't as discriminated against because we consist of a very small portion of the total population. Over in Asia, the Japanese do not like Koreans. I haven't been told this directly but I feel like some of the Japanese people here are disgusted with me and what I do when they find out that I'm Korean (I usually never tell peeps I'm Korean in a face-to-face conversation unless I'm asked to tell). Actually, I'm only part Korean, but I do feel like I am more closely tied the Asian ethnicity. People think that I'm Asian when they see me, and they'll only notice that I'm not fully Asian when they see me standing next to my dad.

5) "You...just suck at drawing."
---heheheh...those of you... ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/6916181/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/6916181/ Mon, 31 Oct 2005 12:57:57 PST
Anyhoo! click the link---it's a real dog... O0o!!! *eyes burn* >0< [link] ---I think it would be a great dog to have for halloween OwO

And lastly, here's a flash optical illusion, which i think you'll absolutely love [link] ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/6838219/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/6838219/ Sun, 23 Oct 2005 10:37:37 PDT
----Aulophobia- Fear of flutes (they are scared of big metal stick shaped objects >=3)
----Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth (have you ever seen the commercial where this kid made a golden retriever lick this huge glob of peanut butter off a spoon? I think he had milk with him---got milk? XD)
----Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting (you can tell who has this, they have small buttocks Owo--lol!)
----Coulrophobia- Fear of clowns (O0o!! there's an actual term for it!!!)
----Geumaphobia or Geumophobia- Fear of taste (but food ish yummy... -w-)
----Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words (whoever came up with this word is evil X3)
----Lutraphobia- Fear of otters (fear teh otters, they will probe you while you're sleeping >=3)
----Panophobia or Pantophobia- Fear of everything (...wow...sucks to be in this category O_O")
----Phobophobia- Fear of phobias (silly people!! fear phobias?)
----Zemmiphobia- Fear of the great mole rat (<_<...>_>...O_O)
----there's also a list of color phobias and nationality phobias @0@

nyahaha!

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anyhoosh, here are some peeps in my stalk...err...friends list who have online comics (I might have missed someone...*has a huge list of peeps* if I left ya out please tell me! ;0; )

---edited---
well, I got notes concerning the links to their comics. So, I've taken the links to their comics out, but just to let you know they have worked or still are working on making comics. Go visit them anyways X3. They are all very cool peeps:

]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/6830052/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/6830052/ Fri, 21 Oct 2005 17:16:13 PDT 's journal and saw a link to 's. got tagged and what not.

Anyhoo, my turn to tag peeps---anyone reading this is tagged >=3

20 Things About Me You'd Never Guess (or maybe you would, just pretend you didn't know):

1) I have long feet ;0;
2) I'm an accounting and info management major *stabbidies*
3) I lurv fake fur
4) hi-chew crazed ---they are soooo good!! OwO *is looking forward to trying the kiwi one* XD ---*points at * she got me hooked! OwO
5) weird music rox my sox X3, my top fav weird song right now is "Ninja of the Night", then second is "Great to be a Nerd", third is "Cartoon Heroes*
6) I'm not affiliated with any major religion (used to be SDA). I have beliefs from various religions now, so it's a mix and match =3
7) I have Korean ancestory and French ancestory. I consider myself more Korean, but I hardly know anything about my family in Korea ;0;
8) No...I do not speak Korean or French >0<
9) I have three brothers...oh brother!! Although most people who know me think I only have one since my other two bro's are in different states ^^ *will corrupt her nephews and nieces with anime* bwahahaha!!
10) nobody knows all the websites I maintain, nor will I ever tell anyone---it's a secret ^_~
11) I have arachnophobia ;0;
12) I have a fear of showing my bare back ^^"
13) I sing every day, but rarely in the shower
14) I <3 red-haired bishies. Then the ones with white, then black <3 <3 <3
15) double jointed. When I try to stretch out my arms straight they always have a weird bend in the wrong direction.
16) out of all the guys I know on the Internet, I abuse the most >
17) I do not wish to live beyond 60...I don't like the idea of being that old...
18) I used to eat crayons and paper---nyahaha! It just drove me insane how all the crayons never tasted how I expected them to. Then I discovered--oopsie! not meant for eating! Good thing they were all non-toxic >3>
19) I used to love Pokemon and didn't care about Digimon, now I like Digimon and am not a fan with Pokemon, although I can tolerate it---but I still wuv my pikachu snowy *tackles him* >w<
20) I daydream about being a shinobi, I don't care which village it is cuz I think they're all cool. I used my Chinese star to pick the locks and steal your car! Rock and Roll! XD ]]> ~Swordie http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/6530675/ http://Swordie.deviantart.com/journal/6530675/ Sat, 17 Sep 2005 17:24:49 PDT w
*must watch it again and again, etc.* X3

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And I have been slowly and steadily been doing pictures. Kiribans are top priority as of now. ]]> ~Swordie