http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:SyrynLauncher&section=today deviantART RSS for by:SyrynLauncher en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 30 Dec 2009 11:23:42 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/29283840/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/29283840/ Tue, 29 Dec 2009 15:25:25 PST
Thanks to a burst of inspiration there's lots to look forward to:

Liquid Sugar -
Full set outfits from £15 - £20 including shipping, will be available soon
MSD waistcoats - £3/4 including shipping
SD trousers, many styles and fabrics
MSD dresses

Artwork wise
I WILL SOON BE LAUNCHING MY COMIC! Brace yourselves xD
<3

Cant wait for all my other friends to come back to Preston, miss you all <3

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/29124600/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/29124600/ Wed, 23 Dec 2009 08:25:50 PST I wish all of my friends and watchers the happiest of times and the best wishes for 2010.

Merry Christmas.
Be grateful for all you get, its the thought that counts after all.

All the best,
Peace & Love
Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/28972099/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/28972099/ Tue, 15 Dec 2009 23:15:17 PST
I'm sorry if my journals are rather sad at the moment, I'm just going through alot and every one keeps piling things ontop of me its just one thing after another. I know, I know its life. But, I'd just like some breathing space every now and then.

Well, I could sit here and ramble on about the bad things, but truth is I don't want to. I had a fucking two hour break down to Mayu the other night and I'm trying to sort out from there.
There's so many things to deal with all at once that I get confused and overwhelmed and just want to shut off.

Thankfully, I have some amazing friends to help me pull through, as well as Mayu. And yes, I'm going to mention them because these people have been here for me <3
Adz, Sora, Emma, Andie, Jack and Elmo. And no they aren't in order lol.

I've been hiding on and off whats going on and whats wrong but also been talking to them at the same time just in different bits so all together they're helping me through.
Some have gone home for Christmas already and I truely do wish them the best of times for the holidays.

So. Good things.
Without going into detail a bad thing turned good and with a bit of luck I'll be able to buy Lily's body.

Emma has left her Euclase with me so I have been able to make custom trousers for the clawed god <3 (I'm going to miss him when he goes lol) and will be selling them shortly on Liquid Sugar.

Not so good is my routine didn't last long, but I printed off an inspirational message to myself (in short, get the fuck up) so I try and adhere to it. And yes, its gone 7am so I'm sure you're thinking it must be working but no. I've been up since half five.

I've done alot of work on Ongaku there are tons of updates buzzing around the forums. If you like J Rock its really worth a look!
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I've been sewing dungarees.

I okayed it with Sora to give her, her Christmas pressies in January when I'm finally going down to her house! I need to start saving for that and for going to see Annie for her 21st <3

Mayu and I finally joined facebook, only Mayu's addicted to the games.

I got two new games for my birthday and I'm officially addicted to them both.

After I've finished writing this I'm going to go downstairs, make some tea come back up and carry on playing Star Ocean Second Evolution, Kath bought it me for my PSP I also bought myself (out of birthday money cause Mayu made me) Tales of the world, its great <3

Later today Mayu and I are going to Borders as its closing down forever I still have a gift card with money on it I want to spend. We may also go food shopping, we dont need to get much but still. Cant live on air.

I'm due to go to Wales for Christmas and I'm taking Mayu with me, you'd think this would be a good thing and in a sense it really is. I'm just concerned as to how my mum will be : / She doesn't approve of me being happy it would seem.

Anyway, tea is calling and I'm actually feeling positive despite the really early start. Typing all this out helps me feel like I'm happier, so yes I know, keep focusing on the positives and not the negatives.

Hopefully I'll be in the mood to try drawing today. I want to draw Adz his Winter pressie <333


Take care every one ^^
Have a lovely Christmas :3

Peace and love
Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/28840217/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/28840217/ Wed, 09 Dec 2009 07:34:02 PST
Things are for sale on Liquid Sugar, new kitty hats are now for sale. I hope they sell soon. I really need to save up the money to pay some things off.

Feel free to comission me.

Nothing further to report except for this weekend blows : /

Take care all.
Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/28470615/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/28470615/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 15:01:09 PST
It takes the piss. Emma and I have many, many deep conversations.

The blank pages in the back of books are for you to write your own ending should you find the ending unfair.

Bad things that happen to you, wait in groups behind rocks to attack you so that it is never just one thing thats a problem, its everything.

I am determined to sew tomorrow.
Everything, short of my machine breaking down (which will probably happen tomorrow) has gone wrong. To the point where fleeing home to Wales and giving up is looking mighty tempting.

But if the Funguar Queen can hold in there through everything she's struggling, bless her funguary socks, then I can too.

Anyway, hope every one else is alright.
Thankyou to the FF Monster Troupe. Ochu, Blo-bra's and especially Funguar Queen's. You know who you are...<3 Oh and a Thankyou you to Stitches and Sora's too ^^

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/28239921/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/28239921/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 12:50:57 PST
for those of you who care, things are pretty damn shitty.
But me and Nicky are just doing are best to get through them right now and I'd like to thank every one who stands by me for all their lovely support and their comments here and there and being there, even if its just messing around.
They help cheer me up, make me smile and help Nicky to keep me going.
Of course, being as I'm ill right now everythings like Shitty x2.

So...Thankyou <3
You know who you are :3

Currently playing through Final Fantasy VIII with Nicky. Me and Dissida aren't talking right now. *Glares at it.* We moved the front room round, its lovely and cosy right now, we got a proper little gaming square going on.

But I'm off to draw or play DS which ever I feel like the most. Either way both of them involving curling up in bed next to my love so <3

Take care every one, I truely hope you're all okay.
Love
Sef

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/28162886/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/28162886/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 14:50:30 PST
Expect Dorrie photography soon.

Um, yeah nothing new I guess. Well lots new just. Not good.
Glad I got to see Adz and then Le Dodd, that cheered me up. Thanks you guys
<3333333333333333333333333333333333333

Will update better tomorrow.

Sef

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/27633265/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/27633265/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 13:22:00 PDT Check out the main website or the forums to read!

This is my report from Miyavi.

It’s Tuesday the 6th of October 2009 and outside O2 Academy in Islington, dedicated fans have been queuing since Sunday. There are fans of all ages, from many different countries, some I had spoke to had travelled from Ireland, even as far as Greece and they were all here to see one man, one man whose name was being muttered across the lips of fans up and down the queue. Miyavi.
People talking about when they had seen him last, if they had gone as far as Germany in 2008, or if they were down in London at the Astoria 2 last time and then the nervous confessions of the fans that it was there first time, their first gig, being reassured by other fans, they were in for one hell of a show. They all swapped their stories, talking about their most memorable moments or gifts they had brought for him. Everyone seemed happy, if not a little nervous, all eager for the doors to open and for the show to start, no one is sure what to expect.
Doors open and O2 starts to fill, the balconies are opened up and the place is packed out, every one rushing in to find the perfect spot to watch the show or hurrying to buy merchandise from the stands, posters, programs and of course tee shirts were all up for sale. The whole placed is filled, or at least you thought it was as a first wave of chants for Miyavi breaks out but dies down after a few rounds, but then around ten minutes later there’s another wave of chanting, louder and you realise just how many people are here and just how many voices are calling out for him, the chanting starts at the beginning and reaches the balconies, to the back of the room every fan is ready to see him come out, so desperate for the show to start after all the queuing. An announcer steps forward, asks that no photographs are taken, otherwise the show will be stopped, I’m sure most the crowd understand, this is a special night after all, just for the fans and Miyavi, the crowd are chanting so loudly that even the staff struggle to do the microphone checks.
But then its time and the stage clears, the chanting continues as Miyavi’s support walk on stage, they seem just as eager as the fans are to start playing. Then the crowd spot him and an already loud cheer gets even louder as Miyavi struts on stage partly hiding behind a parasol and dancing his way to centre stage. I’m sure fans who attended Miyavi last year would recognise the parasol. His style is changed, of course suited to the name of Miyavi’s second world tour, ‘Neo Tokyo Samurai Black’.
‘Hello London!’ he calls out only to get straight into the first song (The Way a Wolf Lives With Love) which really gets an already excited crowd bouncing away and just like Miyavi as he plays with such passion. The bass is heavy and vibrating the floor but of course, nothing is as strong as Miyavi’s vocals. Miyavi starts to show what a showman he can be and what a talented musician he is as he plays his guitar in style, that style is carried on as he goes into the next song, I’m sure a crowd favourite as every one had their hands in the air, dancing to ‘Boom Huh Boom Huh Huh.’
It’s only the second song in and Miyavi is already putting his all into the songs and the way he plays, showing off just what he is capable of as he plays his guitar behind his head and still in perfect tune. Of course he plays seductively for the crowd and gestures to them, he wants every hand in the air and his showing of a little skin, showing off his collar bones and his shoulder gets a scream, no doubt the loudest from the first two rows, being the closest of course, especially as he plans and leans over his guitar to the crowd. The next song, ‘21st Century Tokyo Blues’ has Miyavi dancing with the crowd and the crowd dancing back just as much, even his support are dancing away playing with the crowd and Miyavi gestures to different parts of the crowd to cheer as he points to them, naturally every one in that section cheer as loudly as they can.
The music slows down and Miyavi earns a round of applause from near enough every one in the room, though it dies off and Miyavi starts to talk with the crowd. He talks about how it is second world tour and his second time in London, which he is here to rock the hell out of London. Then he plays somewhat, asking the crowd who are they here for and if he’s cool, it gets a laugh and a smile out the fans and out of Miyavi as they cheer to reassure him, they truly are here for him. He asks everyone to stay until the end, but then he wanted the crowd, to show him what they had, and believe me, they really did.
Next up was slower song, and the fans clap in rhythm to the bass and Miyavi sings, his voice is much more subtler and even drops down to a whisper into the microphone as they listen intently on, his voice echoes... ]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/27524652/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/27524652/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 16:01:24 PDT <3

Limited items ready to ship next day first class!

Click here - [link]
To go to the Den of Angels thread or
Go to 's Gallery to see all her boys modeling my limited ranges!!

Got new fabric and jackets on the way.

Also made Reyes and Ruka a one of a kind outfit.

All sales go towards bringing my new and LAST boy home.
So please, go ahead buy anything you fancy. XD

I'd really appericate it!

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/26938926/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/26938926/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 15:00:32 PDT
So I guess its like my diary to them.

Updates

IN ONGAKUSHOCK WORLD
New competetions launched, others ended!
New interviews being arranged.
New partnerships in the works.
Breaking news :3

IN THE DOLL WORLD....<3
Every one is tired at the moment because I'm working so hard. Though Lily is utterly thrilled about two things, firstly her and Remy traded wigs to find that Remy is a blonde and Lily is a devilishly hot Red xD Also her son is on his way home, just slowly with Layaway. Infact my Liquid Sugar comissions go towards paying him off.

IN THE LIQUID SUGAR WORLD
A little slow with business at the moment, seems every one is strapped for cash and no one is buying yet and I'm dying for a good few days off to get my new clothing range drawn up, sewn up, photographed and released for sale >.<

IN THE REAL WORLD
God doesnt everything happen at once. I miss my friends dearly and have recently gotten back in the to the world of Yu Gi Oh with my beloved ^_^ I could do with more hours at work, but the more hours I work I just dont seem to make as much money as hours I'm working if that makes sense?

I really, really REALLY WANT TO DRAW but everything is against me doing so right now :/

I'm sure things will work out soon.

I really want a dollmeet still,especially with Sora and Annie.

Oh, and I've already started saving/making/finding Christmas presents for every one..


Well,thats it I guess.
Peace out every one, take care of yourselves

love
Sefie

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/26419111/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/26419111/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 08:47:29 PDT
How are you, hope the journal finds you well <3

I missing every one but I picked up more hours at work which is a blessing. I need the money after all. I've uploaded all my Liquid Sugar and Ongaku news here. I'll be using this as the main hub of my life!
Keeping in touch with friends and running work lol ^_^

I'm really hungering for a doll meet at the moment, but there isn't one close being arranged yet. : (

I've got two new pen pals, and Lex has one too ^_^ I'm really excited.

Apart from the OngakuSHOCK D'espairs Ray and Heavens Basement exclusives there's not alot more to tell. I'm working on a lot of new designs for Liquid Sugar,

Oh and I'll be away from the 14th till the 23rd of August, I'm taking my beautiful away for her birthday ^_^

Hope I can catch up with you all soon.

I'm starting to save up for Christmas presents and starting to put them together. :3

Take care every one I miss you all

Love
Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/26078989/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/26078989/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 02:43:46 PDT
I can't believe I actually did it, but Mayu, Kai and myself went along to Universal Music Studios and interviewed D'espairs Ray.

omfg.

Exclusive interview;
[link]

Go check it out <33333

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/25466553/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/25466553/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 04:31:43 PDT

Go see her!


And support her nao!

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]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/25342278/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/25342278/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 01:17:44 PDT (As my graphics pen is now AWOL : /)

Anyway for any one who's interested you can now find my thread of sales on DoA and the website will be up soon.

[link]

Wish me luck <3

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/25252617/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/25252617/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 11:08:45 PDT
So.

I has finished University now. And I know I've passed I just don't know what mark.

I have a job. Nothing major just some part time work to cover rent and dig me out my over draft.

I've started learning Japanese again with Mayu this time:3

I'm seeing my lovely Hiri tomorrow.Hoping I can make it to the doll meet on the 25th but I'm not sure when i'm moving house yet.

But if i'm not moving or i'm not in work, i'll gladly go :3

Going to open Liquid sugar in the next few weeks. My BJD Illustration and Fashion and Face ups Company ^^

Really looking forward to it as Lily needs a body.

Only one female body and a new MSD to go and my doll collection is complete.

I've redone Roxy's face up and Prophets and Kammie's.

Ummmm thats about it all.

Take care all much love and I miss all my friends.

Peace
Sefie

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/25082290/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/25082290/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 03:46:43 PDT Mayu came with me and I was looking forward to a good weekend away with my gal, at home in Wales.
Saturday was average, shame I couldn't see my Dad much, but he couldn't help that.

Sunday...Well. Mayu and I went for a walk down the docks and the tide on the River Dee was out so we went for a walk to collect shells. On the beach was a Dad, three kids, a pregnant woman and another guy. They were sunbathing and fishing having fun. While we were collecting shells I looked over and the boys were paddling splashing about having a water fight, it was hot they were cooling down I turned to Mayu and said "They shouldn't be in the water. Its dangerous. I hate this river. Its dangerous"
After a little while we decided to leave and the boys and the man were wading across to the other side as the tide was low (River Dee is an Estuary) they waded back to our side then waded out again. By now Mayu and I are at the top of the beach climbing over the gate ready to go home when we heard the man shout for help, we thought they were just joking and playing around till we realised they were in trouble. A local guy I vaguely know called Nic was on the further down the beach got involved, a family who were called the ambulance and she was panicking she didn't know where they were so I stayed telling them where we were.
Mayu's already down the beach and Nic has managed to get one of the kids out of the water, he was throwing up, but he was standing and walking, Nic dived back in.

By now I'm at the shore line and I'm screaming at the dad who was holding this unconscious lad, his lips were blue and I'm screaming at him near enough, bring him over here I know CPR. Bring him over here.
The man kept crying out, "I've lost me Jordan" I was shouting back you haven't bring him here I know CPR. He was near enough dropping the kid back in the river and some more guys brought the guy out the water.(I'd like to point out I'm terrified of water and can't swim) He was laid out infront of me but his lips were blue he wasn't breathing. A man put him in the recover position, but wasn't breathing. I dropped to my knees and lay him on his back. I checked his air ways, pumped his chest got the water out of his lungs, got him breathing again.

I was every where, on the phone to the ambulance checking the kid over. Getting the towel to keep him warm. Telling the police and the RNLI all I could as was Mayu we'd seen it all.

The third little boy was found dead three hours later.

Every one is saying I should be proud, I've done something amazing etc. But in truth I just feel like I've done what any one else would do. Turns out I was the only one on the beach who knew CPR. I just want to know if the kids okay. I know he's in hospital. The police have phoned me may want me to give a statement when the identified me as the the woman unnamed in the paper who lay the kid out, the woman who got the kid breathing again. My dad thinks they'll tell the family and that they may want to meet me. If they do I will.

In other news. I'm sewing epic amounts.
There's a preston doll meet on the 25th of June. There's a post on DoA I'm hoping to be there but we might be moving around then I'm not sure, need to arrange it closer to the time.

:3

Cant go out tonight don't have the money sadly. I'm alright lol, just a bit broke a little stirred by all this and I'm going back to sewing. Oh and I'm job hunting had one interview so far and will just keep going and hunting.


Peace out all.
Wish I could swim
Love
Sef

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/24671571/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/24671571/ Sat, 09 May 2009 15:43:57 PDT
I know I havent updated in a while, short of posting up pictures. But well, not much has happened in truth. I just have a hell of alot of work on, but in good news just two more weeks.
I dont intend to do my the exhibition. I just want to move out now and get on with things. Really looking forward to starting my own company.

I owe so much time to people. A good catch up with Hiri and Adz and Amy is over due, a visit to my family, a visit to Sora a visit to my Wifey.

I'm apprehensive sure but I'm looking forward to finally being out of uni at long last.

There will be a proper update when its all over. I'm hoping to finish early so I can chill out for a while.

Oh I have my final fantasy tattoo finished at last! Once its healed I'll get Mayu to take some photographs.

Thats about all really.

I hope every one is doing well :3 Take care of yourselves and I hope we can all have a bloody good catch up soon.

Luffles

Sefie

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/24512641/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/24512641/ Thu, 30 Apr 2009 11:56:09 PDT Thought I'd try and help out, spread the link around. If you could do the same. Much appericated.

[link]

In other news. Just four weeks left in University which is why no one has heard virtually nothing from me.
I've been to busy.

And also.

D'ESPAIRS RAY AND MIYAVI ARE TO RETURN TO THE UK. And yes. Yes I'm going.

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/24304289/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/24304289/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 08:41:07 PDT
Thought I'd spread the word for any one who is interested <3

[link]age=2

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/24025967/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/24025967/ Sat, 04 Apr 2009 12:38:21 PDT ((Oh and this isnt a link scam thing, this is my own competition))
[link]


Dir en grey - DST - Competetion!

To celebrate Dir en grey joining the Download Festival, OngakuSHOCK are holding the first ever competition. (Yes. With Prizes!)
The lucky winner has a choice of one of 3 CD's. You may already have these songs downloaded, but wouldn't it be nice to own the official CDs and support the band?If you do already own these CDs and you are the winner another will be sorted out for you!
Up For Grabs!

Dir en grey - GAUZE - KISOU - MACABRE -

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(If any one would like to donate prizes for this and future competitions, please PM me!)


What's The Competition?

Simply put, fan art. Draw or Photo manipulate a piece of fan art of Dir en grey, it can either be of a single member, the whole band or a few select members. It can be of just about any scene. back stage, mini comic, on stage, tour bus etc (Nothing pornographic please, try to keep it tasteful.)

Deadline - May 15th, that gives you well over a month to try and get something together. (If there aren't enough entries by that time, we will consider extending the deadline.)

Judging will be done by myself and a secret panel of three others so that its fair.

Once the winner is decided they will be contacted to find out which prize they would like and announced and celebrated here on the forums!

Everyone is invited to join, apart from myself obviously.

You may enter as many times as you like.

All fan art in any medium along with photo manipulations is acceptable.(Sadly we wont be able to accept fan fiction)

Please note, this is an unofficial competition and the prize is funded personally by OngakuSHOCK ourselves, so please, join in, play nice and have fun. Feel free to post up any questions. The second post will be reserved for entries.

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/23910673/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/23910673/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 02:20:37 PDT
Set up for 12th of April!

Any one interested

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/23288069/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/23288069/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 12:13:56 PST
Firstly, let me tell you the bad news. University is destorying me. Not just my bank balance but my mental state as well. Shit feedback was so negative its gotten me really really down lately. To the point where I can't find it in my to fight any more, I just don't have the will to draw or to do anything, not really.

Probably going to upload a few WIPs soon. Just to try and boost my creative juices.
Feel free to comission me. <3

As for the good news.

Well, where to start. I was planning on proposing to Mayu on the 22nd but then Andie-pie and I realised we had company and we'd be hung over, there's no way I'd be able to get Mayu out the house.

So Andie and I snuck off to spar, discussing secret plans. We return with Rose Wine and pie and kick Nicki up into her room, tell her to get some purdy clothes on (though everything she wears I find beautiful) put some make up on (thankfully not her Kyo style make up. I'd of been doomed). She gets a little jumpy because she thinks somethings wrong but I have poor Andie reassuring her.

Then its straight into action! Sofa's were moved, tents were set out. Andie and I had rose together and discussed OMG WHAT AM I GOING TO SAY. She asked me I were a flower what would Mayu be to me. I told her that sounded like something off friends. We have more wine. We bring the dorries down, they are importent to us and with Andie's suggestion I felt they needed to be there. I gave the most romantic of our resin crew the ring box to hold, Ruka sat there looking all importent, well he is.

Andie and I run around like blue ass flies getting the place set up. Wine check. Silk rose petals scattered every where. Check. Candles check. Pop up tent to give us seclusion and privacy and because I cant take her to a castle. Check.
Right then, make up time, dressing time and I let Andie do my hair. A truly Asagi styled piece of hair styling went on and I wish she'd do it more often. I really liked it xD

Then we get Mayu after nervously making a play list after I spazz out cause she wasn't ready yet, with alot of 'Just shut up and get engaged' from Andie.
I set the playlist up just right, knowing at which song I was planning on proposing. Mayu comes down looking stunning with her Itou-esque make up and gems. Took my breath away I know she always looks perfect.

By now I'm nervous wondering what am I going to say, how long have i got to say it in. I confess I'm scared, when we got together I was scared. Frightened we were nothing but a rebound, two lonely girls experimenting.

How she's made me complete. How she keeps me safe and sets me free all at the same time. How she lets me be me. How every one can finally see the true me and how happy I am.

Then I hear it kick in,' I miss you' by Blink 182. By now I've asked Mayu to leave our secluded little pop up tent filled with rose petals and rose wine and chocolate pie I've been feeding her. We're both on our knees and I straighten up.

We've been through so much in such a short amount of time. I've learned so much about myself about her. How I knew that I never want to let her go, how I love her and how I finally feel ready for something a few months ago I wouldn't even talk about.

I leant back, swiping the box from Ruka and open it. Sat inside is a white gold sky blue sapphire ring and I ask her, 'Will you marry me?' She damn near knocks me off balance as she glomps me in tears.

I always get scared when she cries. I was scared she was going to say no and she was crying because she was going to have to say no and thus hurt me, but she just sobbed out a yes and clung to me all the more. And I clung back. Eventually breaking the hold to lean back, placing a slightly too big going to be resized tomorrow ring on her finger, which is now safely on a necklace.

We spent the rest of the night coiled up in a tent, in our front room by candle light and rose petals.

I've never been happier.

Thankyou my love, my fiancée
I had to resist all urges to propose on Valentines day, it was to clichee for my liking even if i did give her a candle lit dinner.

So there you have it ladies and gents. I'm engaged and happy.
Even got a engagement party on Monday at Hime Naos. (Please come everyone!)
Kick's off at 7 and its all in her flat which is kindly loaning to us xD



Title: Blink-182 - I Miss You

(I miss you miss you)
Hello there the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never end

Wh... ]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/23152988/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/23152988/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 09:23:14 PST
LM.C was just, god it was so amazing. I met Maya twice <3 Aiji now owns my swirly goggles which is way cool. The gig was just fantastic had lots of eye contact with the bassist and Maya, he even pulled a tongue back at me <3 Mayu, Metzli and I were dancing about like spazzes as you do to LM.C xD

It was a great show and thanks again to Mayu for helping get them here, helping arrange it, and getting me to see them <3

Um. Uni is...Well I'm having to move to the afternoon class for money reasons.

I'm going to take face up comissions soon to try and help get funds together. Mayu and I are moving in together properly at the end of university, just the two of us and I'm some what paranoid about funds :/

Anyway, just a brief up date.

Laters

Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22940790/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22940790/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 10:50:05 PST [link]

Get your butts in gear and get with it. Finally what you have been waiting for is here.

ONGAKU SHOCK.
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Bringing together all the news for all the bands in one handy and friendly forum.

We need you to get this up off the ground and help show the J Rock fandom even more that the bands always have a welcome home right here in the UK.

This is your chance to show the bands your support.

Make sure you never miss a gig, a release date or even a blog from your favourite bands now by becoming a member of this up and coming forum.

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Join up now <3 its simple and free and you'll never miss a J Rock beat again!

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Oh and if you join and let me know.

I'll try and do you some free artwork too...

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22835262/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22835262/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 00:23:25 PST
Can you believe it?


A very talented and lovely artist did me a bloody gorgeous pictures! As a request! I was so stunned. I want to go through money at her. XD



It's so amazing capturing the spirit of my Remy and Roxy just, Nf! I squeed so much. I even cried a little.

Thankyou so much my dear.

And every one. Go look at her gallery ITS IMMENSE and she deserves much more recognition!

Several Shades of Epic win I tell you.

Thankyou so much hun! <33333333333333333

Thankyou Mayu, for letting me be me. For Loving me. ]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22776398/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22776398/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 07:37:04 PST
Oh. Fuck.

I'm going to warn you now. I don't want any lame ass negative comments spoiling this for me. Click back. I'm not forcing you to read this. If you do so out of your own choice.

Secondly. I'd like to address all your elitist cunts of Jrocker fans out there. Yeah? You know who you are. Yeah. I got in on guest list. Do you know why? Because of Mayu. Do you know why Mayu gets in early and gets shit like?

BECAUSE SHE FUCKING WORKS FOR IT. She doesn't just waltz in because she can. She isn't best friends with the owners of the venue. She works for it. And if it wasn't for her, the fucking bands wouldn't be here in the first damn cunting place and she doesn't do it for herself, so she can see them, no she does it so we can see them. So if you wana que up fan, we are all going to the same place to do the same damn thing and celebrate and enjoy the music that a band have come to create.

So what if you're not the front row, you know people have worked to get it, do you not expect them to take a little something back. Not once has she taken all access pass and met them backstage or any of that shit. No, she just stands infront of them, enjoys the show. LIKE EVERY OTHER FUCKING FAN SHOULD BE.

CAMPING OUT FOR DAYS ON END DOES NOT MAKE YOU ANY MORE OF A FAN OR ANY LESS OF ONE IF YOU DONT.

You should be there to enjoy the music, to support the band not claim you're so and sos number one fucking fan.

Oh, and if you think "Oh you're only with Mayu for the free stuff." Who the hell do you think keeps her going when all the bastard fans are hating her, despite the fucking fact they are there queing for a band she got over here and promoted.
CONTRADICTION MUCH YOU MAN CUNTS?!

Now. Now I've got that off my chest onto the best fucking half hour of my life.

That man acknowledged me again and my tattoo, gave me that nod that smirk that approval that I have his name permantely engraved on my wrist. Toshiya was just bufff as hell molesting the shit out of his bass.
Watching sweat beads run down Kyo's chest, let my eyes come across his erection and the oh so famous vein. I was second row so damn close to him again. (Second indirect kiss for the win lololol at fan girl moments xD)

Even if it was only half an hour and the three bands before were wank. It was amazing to see him again, to see the whole band again to be so inspired by them. But best of all was to be stood next to Mayu throughout the whole gig knowing I was there soley because of her. They were here because of her and she allows me to openly admit I love them, I love Kyo. And not in the fan girl of OHMYGODIWANTHISBABIES though I do say it. Frankyl Kyo is the hottest man on the planet. Ever. (NexttoreyesandrukaxD)

It was amazing and outside I couldn;t speak for fear of crying. I was just clutching my tee shirts and Kerrang mag for dear life.

I could cry now.

But even after all the cunting crowd suffers, protecting Mayu and the poor lasses infront of us, it got even better.

I have Shinya's autograph and it makes me so happy. I shook his hand, bowed my head and said thankyou very much in formal Japanese. I got a small smile and a bow of his head.

I know he signed loads of other peoples shit so dont start with that.

It was all just so amazing.

And it was all down to Mayu...

Oh yeah and the amazing ball of energy that was there Metlzi, fucking hell I love that girl. I hope I can see more of her, she is so amazing.
And I wore my steel corset throughout the whole day, Mayu looked so buff I wanted to molest her lots but I had to behave. Plus with all her gear on she only had to glare at me and I was a puddle of pleasedomenaos in the corner.

I had the longest bath ever to let my body recover from it and seeing Dir en grey again was the best way to inspire me back into uni, back into drawing and the best way to chill me the fuck out.

Bring on LM.C it'll be immense I'm sure, just not as good as Dir en grey. Nothing'll ever beat them. Not even Miyavi.

Thankyou baby.

Just so damn immense I still can't get over it. Not really.
I'm just sat here going.
I saw them again.
He acknowledged me. Shit loads of eye contact. Bastard fucking crowd surfers.

And I have Shinya's signature.

*shudder*

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22689467/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22689467/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 08:55:16 PST
I'm really sorry I cant remember exactly who it was.

But some one I watch wanted thigh high red boots like Miku from An Cafe

Told you I'd find them for you!!

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And remember.

Preston meet 31st of January.

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22463835/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22463835/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 03:12:18 PST
Hi every one just an update here. There's a meet due on the 31st January in Preston.
Any one else fancy going?

Threads up on DoA. If you want more Info just let me know ^^

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22346513/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22346513/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 03:20:41 PST
Did that get your attention my lovelies!

Its Preston Meet time.
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Who's up for coming then?

No date settled yet as we try and figure out the best for everyone so that the most people can pop along!


And of course, Happy New Year ^^

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22154711/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22154711/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 01:55:21 PST
Well. Its too late now. If I had any doubts or ill feelings about staying away from Wales for Christmas. It's too late.

In a few hours, my dad parks the car and it doesn't move then till the day after Boxing Day.

All in all, I kind of have mixed feelings. I'm worried our housemate will do something attention seeking or throw a fit and thus spoil everything. I'm worried my mind will become fixated on this is my first Christmas without my Nana as she passed away earlier this year. Just like that bothered me on my birthday. I'm worried I'll get upset and ruin Mayu's Christmas.

But this is, well it's a big step for me. Despite how independant I am and how long I've lived away from home, I've always gone home from Christmas. Never ever considering not being at home for Christmas when I was with my ex. No fucking chance. Gave me a break from him. I know i'm kinda looking forward to it. Christmas eve is tradtionally the day of the big clean! Everything gets scrubbed from top to bottom! I got my Christmas CD..And my Christmas Rabbit. XD (Dont ask lol )

So everything should be okay.


Merry Christmas to all my Deviant watchers and friends. Thankyou to those of you who have supported me and cared. Thankyou to those of you who favourite and comment on my work.

...Hm. Yes. Work. I should get back to it.

Merry Christmas Every one.

All the best.

Love
Sef
xxxx

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22044375/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/22044375/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 06:24:00 PST
Well I've two comissions to do. A shit load of uni work. No job. I had to miss going to see my Ninja lovers because of some personal shit.

Ack, I dont know I'm just really low of late. Mainly because my mind keeps wandering back to my Nana and stuff like that.

Just brought Kamui some sexy leopard print pants. Because I felt like a little spurge on my main boy <3

I have some guests for the holidays, Midori and Anna, who belong to Hiri are currently sat in my room;. Midori is on the chair on my bed, looking dare I say, some what smug and impressed.
Anna is clinging to a polar bear teddy bear. Soon Luna will be joining her. OMG I KNOW LUNA IS COMING OVER TO PLAY! I'm so excited about it, i love Lun to bits. Roxy's out at the moment, she's with Hiri till they all come over. Later tonight probably. Its really kind of Hiri to let them stay over mine while she goes home.So expect some spamage of them too. (Dont worry Hiri & Emel they are all nice and safe)

Ummmmmmm as for anything else?

Nowt much to tell really.


I really do wish the best Christmas to you all I hope you get whatever your hearts desire is, be happy every one. Love and Peace and all that.

Thankyou to every one this past year who has helped me out, kept me together. You lovers know who you are.

It was great meeting Emel this year. I hope I get to see her again too. Really do miss the cyber bat XD

<3

Miss Kath something rotten, still I go home tomorrow for a few days. To drop off Christmas presents.

Speaking of which I should get wrapping.

Take care every one
<333333333

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/21691511/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/21691511/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 02:14:53 PST
Oh happy day :3 They are coming back if i wasn't in uni and was strapped for cash I'd follow the tour around the UK.

So, so, who's going?

Oh.

My Cosplay is more then likely canceled now, seems like it's just going to be my housemates and a few friends around Preston and my snow ninja now.

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/21431688/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/21431688/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 02:25:40 PST
Yes, yes its finally happened but I don't have pictures yet.

He'll be going to the meet for me. I think anyway.

did it. With a little bit of help XD And they both did an amazing job and prophet is just perfect now.

Thankyou so much!

Yes hope this background is better now...


Erm..

Later lovelys!

OH THEIR NEW ALBUM! MAYU PREORDERED IT ME *TWITCHES AROUND* Will be going on full blast me thinks!

He's been finished just in time and is currently tormenting Kammie,

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/21226729/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/21226729/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 02:58:59 PDT
So..How are you all? How have things been? Sorry if I'm missing alot but I don't have alot of free time. I'm actually typing this up in one of my classes. I have three classes a week, which means traveling three times a week and it also means I have three different projects going on each with different requirements work loads and deadlines. Ontop of that I have my supervisors job still at Centro. Where I've been having to go in a little early because the morning staff can't pull their weight. Throw in some problems I've been having with Nix, then my family and you have the result of a Sefie. With very little time.

It sucks, but I work through it and please don;t sit there and say 'You have to make free time for yourself,' or 'its your own fault you work to hard' But I have to its a simple as that. I have to support myself no one else is going to and I have to do my work because no one else is going to do that either. I want a decent grade so I have to work hard at it, pull my finger out and not procrastinate.

I miss my photography alot. I have 3 BJD's, new to the resin crew - Roxy, Prophet and Remy. Yet I have no pictures of them up yet. Luckily I'm going to a dorrie meets on Monday so I'll take some then. It'll be Kamui's 'birthday' soon. Meaning I will of officially been in the hobby a year. Annie always said most the doll owners she knew ended up buying 5 in their first year. I said I'd be fine with just one. Oh how wrong was I.

Sigh, I barely have time for myself any more let alone anything or any one else. So, we add guilt into our little mixture. I'm really home sick at the moment. There's alot going on with my family. I got off the phone from Kath on Monday and went down stairs and cried a bit.
Then had tea.

Tea is the resolution of everything right now and boy am I going through alot of it. I had a scare with my side the other week, just started hurting again and every one went " ITS STRESS STOP WORKING SO HARD" Stop fucking stressing me out then by telling me I'll have to go back into hospital!! I don't like them, I'm pretty much terrified off them they are nothing more then houses of death and having to spend two nights in them, where they fucked so much up? You really think I want to go back. Really now? No. My point exactly.

I'm spending Christmas in Preston this year, not with my family which will be a huge change to be honest, in an odd way I'm looking forward to it. Mind I always do I adore buying people presents and I'm going to make sure certain people get spoilt this year <3

As for uni work in general. I'm really enjoying it, its pretty much 'here's the brief now show me what you can do in your own style.' My own style, which is ironic considering one of my brief I'm completely redoing my style and techniques so hence why you should see big changes soon.
I might be going to the cinema's tonight. To see Saw V then again I might not I'm pretty undecided.

Oh, but I am going for the next part of my tattoo. It's Cloud lowering Aerith into the water infront of forgotten city. Half of its done I get the other half today and hopefully my XIII as well. I really want that done. Vincent's eyes are now red so I feel a little better about that.

I've lost a little weight but I'm still feeling orgreishly over weight and huge. Though I intend to lose even more weight. Or at least try to. I'd like to be confident.

I'll post up some recent shots of my tattoo when its been done later. Appointments at 2.30 before then I'm seeing Magz. Its kinda a Thursday thing, we catch up on the weeks event yeah yeah I know we aren't together any more we've both moved on but we both are still friends. It's nice to catch up and just know well, what's going on in his life now I'm not in it any more its a promise we made each other. Probably the only one I think we can both keep now. That we'd always stay friends.

Like the prat I am I've probably prattled on about nothing for a while tee hee. For those of you coming to the meet I'll see you on Monday.

Annoying little Geko. I love you. <3

For those of you on the intranets. Enjoy yourselves I hope you are all well ^^

Peace & Love

Sef

PS - Happy Halloween for tomorrow!

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/21124212/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/21124212/ Thu, 23 Oct 2008 11:27:02 PDT
Still I have to keep this short, I have work to do.

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Preston Meet. It'd be great if every one could attend because for the last two I've been in working or in hospital.

So I hope you can make it.

I really need to take some recent pictures of my resin crew.

Its grown and changed so damn much lol xD

PEace and love

Syryn

Hope to see you there

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/20980023/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/20980023/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 02:57:10 PDT
One of my briefs is twelve weeks long.

There will be a change in my artwork.

See you soon.

((So isnt abusing the net in class. Real update soon.))

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/20596090/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/20596090/ Sun, 21 Sep 2008 05:17:10 PDT
I've been in hospital, just a few days, my appendix and shit. Scared as fuck, lots of pain. Not a happy bunny.

Got released and my family have taken me home to Wales to make me rest up.

Would of gone mental if it werent for Mayu and Hiri. Bless 'em stayed at my bedside all through the night and looked after me as they fucked up my drip. I was in and out of consciousness.

Um.
Yeah.

Sucks.

Anyways, I'm on these painkillers so i'm a bit, er thick right now. Seems kinda fuzzy.

I'm okay now, kinda.

Miss my guardians lol.

Loves to all.

Sef

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/19770026/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/19770026/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 11:43:42 PDT
Got promoted to supervisor <3 Got my girlfriend a job there. (Hey I get to be Seme for 6 hours at a time, I'm not complaining) Hard work but I love it.

Roxy is home, but is out for a face up and so is Prophet. Miss them lots because I want to do some photostories :3

Now things are more settled I can start working on a routine better me thinks. Which means I can do more studying ^_^

We had a mini dollfie meet today. It was really fun :3

Looking forward to the main big meet in September. For those of you who don't like dollfies or don't understand them, thats fine, thats your opinion and I have no problem with that. Just don't try and be a cunt and force your opinions on me. End of the day. Its my money.

Apart from that, money's back on track. Things are funky. But I am really missing my family at the moment. I've gotten used to my room at last, my little nest of doom.

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18838263/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18838263/ Mon, 30 Jun 2008 09:55:06 PDT


+ Meeve was epic.
+ Meeve was ineffable.
+ Meeve was perfect.
+ He walked past me and waved <3
+ He took my picture out of my hand and molested it across his chest. Then took Mayu's shirt.
+ He smirked, winked, made so much eye contact it was unbelieaveable.
+ He blew kisses at my final fantasy sleeve.
+ He loved the UK
+ A Kabuki boy personally brought me water. Actually came off stage to just give me some water.
+ It hurt. But it was worth it.

And thats all I'm going to say on it. Expect for I might some amazing people. Staying in hostels in fun. And I love you Mayu for bringing that man here.
Ohoho yes she did <3.

Working on:
- Military Mayu
- Edge
- Female
- I'll see you on the other side.

Othernews. Bought two new dollfies, well, one and a head. Kid Delf Ani, she will be known as Roxy and a Kyo minimee who my lovely wifey will be doing a face up on and Rivers will be doing another face up on Ani.

Take care all.
Love
Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18724561/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18724561/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 04:15:55 PDT
I'm looking at selling off some of my animes, some of my mangas and some of my DVDS.
Couple of reasons, for the money, obviously, and because I tend to horde things and there are dvds that I'm never going to watch, or bought on spur of the moment and never got around to and as I'm moving house again, I thought a good clear out might be a good way to raise some cash!

So, obviously, I'm away at the moment, as in, not at my house to see exactly what I'll be offering up, but is any one interested at all?

If not, I'll just shove it all on ebay!

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18541221/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18541221/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 02:13:28 PDT

So its still raining. Though we've had a few nice days. We went to Southhampton, not to watch a film, to shop this time and I ended up spending far more then I should of done on books! Study books though, a Kisshimotot artbook that just HAD to be bought.
At least thats what I tell myself.

Anyway, Mayu's still asleep, and I'm wide awake its a Sunday bless, she has every right to lay in and I want her to catch up on all the sleep she's been missing! I have been catching up to, but I couldn't sleep any more this morning. I was just lain awake. Thinking.

I think far to much. Yesterday I sat down and devised a whole huge ass list of all the things I'm going to study. Here's the short version of things I need to improve on.
Everything

I'm trying not to be disheartened by it. But it does suck to realise that there's not a single area that I'm just okay with. But in my genius mind of thinking, I thought I'd share this with you, this list of mine. That way, if you think you know something you can help me, you can chip it in right? Two minds are better then one kind of thing.

So. You ready?

- Colour Theory
- Anatomy
- Colouring Tutorials, preferably for Corel Painter
- Backgrounds - studying buildings, cities etc, to improve the overall quality of my image and not just stick it on a random mess of colours.
- Hair - Hair style variations, line variations and line weights.
- Clothes - folds and dynamics, different fashions and styles
- Shading and highlights
- Perspective
- Being able to make a drawing more detailed without it being cluttered


so thats my attack plan. To work on them, one by one, in no particular order, when I get to frustrated with one, move onto another and so on.
According to one of my new books, Mangaka America with a foreward by
the majority of artists have their biggest improvement spike in their twenties, and can improve some what dramatically over night! He even lists Masamune Shirow as one of the artists that did so.

Anyways.
I'm going to scan in some sketches I've been doing, I don't normally ink or anything but without being near my laptop I can't do it digitally or colour. XD

And I need to start work on my picture for Miyavi

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18449360/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18449360/ Thu, 22 May 2008 15:08:25 PDT Chat to you all soon.

Those of you who have commissions outstanding, please dont worry.

I will be online a little bit and there will be updates and new work...

Chat soon. I need a break <3

Love
Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18333290/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18333290/ Thu, 15 May 2008 08:54:16 PDT Kath with Grandad and Uncle Arthur, the ones who were the closest. Joe with Allun. Thankfully my mum stayed with Allun and my Dad looked after me, its strange, I'm 21 but I held my dads hand like I was six again. I kept my focus on the light above the coffin until my name was called. I muttered the Lords Prayer and stood for the hyms but I didn't know them. I thought to myself while the vicar was speaking, that his words were only comforting for those with faith. Funerals are for the living to say good bye, not for the dead.
I decided a long time ago if anything ever happened to Nana I wanted to read at her Funeral. I hope I did her proud, because I stood right infront of her coffin, infront of every one, I didn't show any weakness. I didn't cry once. Not until afterwards anyway. I walked back to my seat, head held high, my mother, my uncle Dave, sobbing their hearts out was I walked past, took my hand in comfort. My mum very nearly didn't let go. We followed the coffin out, and every one said how brave I was for doing it. How beautiful my words had been, how they meant the most. How they were proud of me and how my Nana would be proud. I simply stood there with tears streaming down my face thanking them all. Returning to the car we followed the hearse all the way to the crematorium. It was evil to think the body of a loved one was in that box. I cried all the way there.
We got there and I tried to pull myself together. Holding my breath so I wouldn't cry. But my Nana was carried into the crematorium. A family member is an undertaker and they arranged it was one final honour. I can't tell you what was said there. I didn't listen. My eyes were focused on the coffin infront of me and I felt my knees go weak as the curtains were closing I I felt myself breaking. I didn't cry I sobbed and we all walked out. I had already seen my Nana at the chapel of rest. I thought that was the hardest thing I'd do. But knowing that as I'm typing this they are burning her body. Leaving that "the crem" leaving her there. In the words of the vicar we were committing her to God. I hate being so realistic to have my head tell me what was really happening. I was shaking going in, I told myself I couldn't do this, but I made myself do it. I've never seen my family in such a state before. Then again nearly every one there. I met for the first time in my life and they are family. They all say its terrible that its only funerals they get together and I know it wont be until the next one that they are seen again. I have a killer headache from this whole mess. At the wake, I was spoken too. I was on my best behaviour, all my tattoo's were covered, my nana wouldn't of liked them and I made the decision by myself that out of respect I'd cover them.
Every one seems so relieved now, so they say anyway.

I'm just really grateful that Nicky was around. Thats the only reason I didn't get home, shoot off upstairs, coil up on my bed and not come out for hours on end. Admittedly, yeah I'm in my room now, infact, she's on my bed on her laptop, but its the comfort of her being her you know?

Yesterday we had such a lovely day. We went up to Wepre, a wood with a castle and stuff by me. We took out dollfies and shit loads of junk food. It was lovely and sunny, I took lots of pictures and for a couple of hours I got away from it all. Every one says I'll heal, I'll get over it, in time I know I will, but it will take time. For a while you forget about it all and you relax into the comfort of normal things. But then you remember and it all comes pouring in making you numb. Making you feel sick.

We're having chinese later. Infact I think we'll go get it now.

Sorry to have ranted to you all, but I have trouble managing to talk about things, sometimes it just helps. Makes me feel like I've got it out my system ne?

Thanks to all.

Love

A fragile Syryn.

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18198050/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18198050/ Thu, 08 May 2008 05:45:46 PDT Miyavi is coming to the UK. June 25th
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I'm going. Are You? Spread The Word.

All Thanks to

Uni is done and dusted.
- All work now handed in can do personal work from here on in.
- Photography account and this account will be merged together. Any work related to Dollfies will say so in the titled
- Yes I draw Yaoi. Yes you will be seeing more of it.

Sadly my Nana passed away early this afternoon as I predicted she would. Thanks to all for there support. Especially Nicky & Annie. And big thanks to Mike for a beautiful piece.
Don't expect much of a response for some time.

Merging my dollfie account and this one because I cant be bothered running nearly 3 accounts. Will be alot of photography updated, I do apologise in advance for that, please don't bitch at me right now. I don't want o lose any of my watchers, you know I'm grateful for all of you. Please just unchecj deviations over the next couple of days or if you don't like dollfies, avoid anything thats got the photography icon, or is labeled up as Kamui. Thankyou in advance for you patient and understanding

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18174664/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18174664/ Mon, 05 May 2008 03:17:45 PDT Just to take out yesterdays entry. Keep playing this song over and over, this and 'The Final' by Dir en grey. Pretty much tell you how I feel right now. Thankyou to everyone who gave their support, for your sakes I'll tell you this, my Nana's state is deteriorating, its just a matter of time before she stops breathing.

Flyleaf Lyrics to "I'm So Sick" Remixed T Virus Version from the Resident Evil Extinction OST. Shit film. Great Soundtrack.

I will break into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now

Hear it! I'm screaming it!
You tremble at this sound

You sink into my clothes
And this invasion
Makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so
I'm so sick
I'm so
I'm so sick

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18158321/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/18158321/ Sun, 04 May 2008 02:43:31 PDT I need to rant, to pour my heart out to something while I'm in the house by myself, every ones either asleep or busy and I don't want to trouble them, so Journal you just became it.
In truth my life hit the fan in August. Long story short I found out Magz had been lying to me, over so many things, for so long. I couldn't handle it though I tried. I started getting really fucking cold and nasty to him, pushing him further and further away. This went on until 2 weeks before Christmas and I broke then, I had enough. Magz and I split up. At 2 in the morning Ninja was driving me around fuck knows where with Dir en grey playing, clinging to Kammie and sobbing my heart out. God my dollfie has seen me break so many times over the past few months. Problem is people are too, and they aren't supposed to.
So, despite being seperated, Magz and I carrying on living together, fuck me that was even harder. OH did I mention we worked in the same place too. Then some shit happens in my lovely house. Long story short there. I had to move, nothing to do with the people in it I guess, it was down to the land lord being a dick. But because of certain events I didn't want to carry on living with Luke and it devasted me to have to leave my triforce. Because I need them. (Oh yes. I'm admitting I need people. Its bad)
So, I'm forced to return to Wales, back to Connahs Quay cause I have no where else to live. Back in this tiny little box room, back to where I was bullied pretty much all my life, back to where all my depression started all by myself. No friends. THere's no one here and this place never changes, its still full of backwards people, who call me a goff despite wearing a bright fucking orange hoodie.
I hate it hear. Mentally I've broken down four times, I've only been here since Easter. This has all had a massive impact on my uni work and for nearly a month I didn't do a thing. But hey, I'm Syryn the under dog right? So I pick myself up as best I can and keep fighting right? Sounds simple. I managed to do my work. FUCK YEAH I GOT IT ALL IN ON TIME, I was so proud of myself.
In this time. my nephews came down, my brother has broken up with their mother, she fucked off and took the kids with her, so perhaps her who broke up with him. They come down, claiming they dont even know who I am. THey dont know me. Go away. I fucking wept, I know full well if Nicky hadn't of been there (God bless her) I would of done something stupid. But I just collasped on her, literally. Coiled up and sobbed. She picked me up, let me sob it out. (You know how i fucking hate crying anyway) and it was a big thing for me to let some one see me in that state. I dont think any one ever has done before. No, sorry, Chulray has, but not to the extent of the mess I was in that Friday night.
So life goes on and I keep trying. I finally did all the work for my second year, before the deadline, can get it in on time. I'm trying so hard to keep fighting, keep thinking to myself, just a bit longer Sef and we're out of this hell hole. Things'll be different, you can think straight. LOL want to know why I bought myself a new dollfie when I can barely afford it, fuck knows I need something to look forward to.
While I was in uni, my Nana got sick again, was taking into hosptial, they thought it was the end for her. She, who hadnt spoken in nearly a year was begging for god to take her. Begging for the pain to stop. She started to recover though,s he started to fight and when I came home, Nana was moved into a nursing home. My family made the heart breaking decsion that given she has senile demensia, should anything happen, nature should take its course. Nana wouldn't be going back into hospital.
But back to 2.30 this morning. I was having a real fucking nasty nightmare when the phone rang, and I heard it and I realised, thats our phone and I pulled myself awake. The upstairs phone is just outside my box room door and as I opened the door to get it my grandad picks it up. I thought, if this is for me now i am in so much trouble. But it wasn't. I heard grandad say about being the son in law then Kath gets up and the phones handed over and I have no idea whats going on. Then Kath needs to call her brother...Then after that she comes to see me. She's going to see my Nana. Somethings wrong, something had happened. I was made to stay. So I crawl back in bed praying some one was awake. Be glad I didn't make this journal entry then.
Kath came back, I dont know what time, I... ]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17953829/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17953829/ Thu, 01 May 2008 04:38:33 PDT
've been taged by
I have to say 8 things about myself, along with the rules.
* 1. Post these rules.
* 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
* 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
* 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
* 5. No tag-backs

1- I'm ill at the moment, which makes me bad tempered. Cause I hates it.

2- I don't have alot of confidence in my artwork or myself, but I'm trying to improve that.

3- I drink a hell of alot of tea. Seriously. A LOT.

4- Music is pretty much the vein of my existence, hence why my alias is Syryn

5- (Cause this is where yours was) Mayu say she loves me. But I love more : P <3

6- I have a busy summer planned that consists of study. Sewing and learning.

7- I'm number blind.

8- I wouldn't be here today, if it weren't for my girlfriend, my wifey, my friends and music.

I tag...Do I even have 8 friends XD




Good news!
I got featured in a news article! [link]

<3

Shop Has Necklace Sell On :


: [link] : <3 Dir en grey Street team UK

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17834525/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17834525/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 15:11:22 PDT )

And me and my lovely loves discovered this weekend, while waiting for her lovely boy Itou to arrive that we have some skill in making things.

So, pretty much we're opening a shop together, online of course. Selling things for Dollfie, trinkets, bags and jewellery and the like.
Its not fully up and running yet, just thought I'd let you know, here's hoping we get some where with it, to be honest, its also really fun and therapeutic to sew xD

You can check out the shop if you like, but it still is under construction, I just thought I'd fill you all in on what I'm up to at the moment.


Take care everyone <3

Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17646626/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17646626/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 06:18:43 PDT
Whats kept me going, my music, hence the name Syryn ne? Also my Mayu, a million and one thanks to her and my Triforce and Magz, keeping me going, keeping what little bit of sanity left and attatched to this brain of mine ^^ Also to Sora and Mike for all the notes, that I should reply to a little more often ne!

I'm sorry if any of you were worried, but I'm safe now I promise. I'm getting back to normal, well as normal as I can get xD I'm recharging myself, I'm starting to get my spark back, I've got alot more time to get into my artwork now which is good.

I went to my first dollfie meet ever while I've been away. With the lovely Annie <3 I probably scared alot of people eheheheh....Oh well, as always the pictures of my Kamui dont get put here, they go on my side account.

Well everyone, take care of yourselves, feel free to contact me I will reply now I'm getting better, some good news for you all ^^

Thankyou again everyone, for watching and for your comments and friendship <3


Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17335408/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17335408/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 17:34:26 PDT
Anyways, the point of this plea my lovelies is I need some final fantasy screen shots, from Advent Children Offffffffffffffff:
Reno.
The Forgotten City - Cloud putting Aerith in the water
Midgar - With the buster sword in front of it
Any pretty scenery stuffs like that.
Reno <3

Its just so I can start planning out the next part of my tattoo. That and I watched Advent Children again at Mayu's and really want it finished.


Thanks to any one who helps. I'm sure I'll throw a free something your way :3

Peace all
Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17158530/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17158530/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 02:28:42 PST Any one interested just head over to her page [link]




Also my lovely Mayu has taken yet more shots of Kammie, so please go visit her. Thanks hun, Ily and thankyou for keeping me going right now


Thankyou to every one for their on going support to.

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17148115/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/17148115/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 11:44:46 PST <3


So hey everyone. How are you all? I'm shit at the moment, have been for a couple of months now. I'm down in my pit. There are some good times don't get me wrong, but I really am starting to feel I can't fight much more.

In good news. Ily Mayu she did an amazing photo shoot with Kamui, my dollfie, I'm sure she'll do more as he's with her for the week. I go over at the weekend though I am worried about the amount of work I have to do. Between everything I have to do, places I plan on going and need to do...Things aint looking good for me and sleep.

But I'm not here to moan, just thought I'd let you know I'm still about will be submitting only uni work for a while.


Go visit great with graphics and a better dollfie photographer then me. Between her, triforce and wifey. (And of course you too Kammie.) I'm pulling through.
Thank fuck for music though! *And surround sound speakers:3*

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/16600965/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/16600965/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 17:01:17 PST
Rules: Put your music player (iPOD, winamp etc.) on shuffle, click on forward for each question, the song title that shows up will be your answer. NO CHEATING.

1. What’s your theme song?
I Want You - Savage Garden.
(...*Shrug* Duno, I'm a sweet like a chica cherry cola )

2. From your point of view, life is currently...
Bloody Marry - D'espairs Ray
(Kinda right )


3. Your driving song is...
Yami ni furu kiseki - D'espairs Ray
(I don't drive but hey. XP)

4. Your parents think of you as...
Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apartus.
(This song makes me cry at the moment. Makes sense with my parents though.)

5. Last night you dreamed of...
Calm Envy - The GazettE
(Cant tell you what hotness I dreamed of but that does actually fit really well)


7. For you, the meaning of life is...
Ryoujoku No Ame - Dir en grey.
(Well, they are pretty much the meaning of my life XD)

8. You will get ______ for Christmas
Merciless Cult - Dir en grey.
(...*sigh*. ...)


9. What do you feel like doing right now?
Pink Spider - hide
(Again. About right.)

10. If you were to be stranded on an island, you'd bring...
The Boys of Summer - The Ataris.
( LMFAO, I'M STRANDED ON AN ISLAND AND I BRING BOYS. LOL XD)

11. The thing you want but can't have is...
Sora - LM. C
(Thats cool. I don't like Kingdom Hearts xD)

12. You get easily amused by...
Smothered - Spineshank.
(Lol xD)


13. You feel...
Conceived Sorrow - Dir en grey.
(Correct. iTunes you know me so well xD)

14. What are you doing right now?
Unfinished - X Japan.


15. You'll work as a ______ in the future.(Lol I'm dreading this one xD)
Animal Mania - D'espairs Ray.
(I'm just not guna ask!!)

16. Your best feature is...
The Fatal Believer - Dir en grey.
(Again true, how much faith and trust I put in others. Often at my own downfall.)


17.You enjoy...
Oresama Shikou - Miyavi
(Well...>Who doesn't enjoy a bit of Miyavi )


18. Your friends think of you as...
Like Sweet Vanilla - GHOST
(Aw lovelies, how kind xD)


19. This song will be played on your birthday...
Zetsubuo Romance - D'espairs Ray.


20. The best way to kill someone is by/with a...
The Deeper Vileness - Dir en grey.


21. You believe in...
Valentine - D'espairs Ray.
(Well, I do belive in love xD)


22. Your worst nightmare is...
If You Steal My Sunshine - Len.
(That made me aw. )

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/16454703/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/16454703/ Mon, 12 May 2008 00:23:02 PDT
Would you like to commission me? Because I'd like you to! *CoughHintmuchne?Cough*

+ Want to help? +

Thankyou, if you'd like to help I'd be honoured and will definately give journal features to all those who help me. (I'm also on Gaiaonline.com so I would donate to you aswell)
If you can help me spread the word, or even comission me that would help me immensely!
If Some one would kindly donate a subscription, I'd be very grateful and feature you in my journal. It would be nice to make my journal pretty! Especially as I've just fav'd alot of stamps abd would like to show them off!
You could....
+ Put my banner/link to gallery in your signature/journal (Especially if you're on Gaiaonline.com)
+ Commission me
+ Just spreading the word in general, that's a great help!

+ Prices. +
Now I know this is the make or break point, so allow me to first say that I am only just starting so my prices arent going to be sky high. Also all my prices ARE negotiable so they're up for discussion and possibly subject to change too. So, here we go.

+ Chibi Character (normally round 3 heads high) fully coloured with a simplistic graphic background - £3

+ Black and white inked lineart, one character £5
- Extra characters, £1

+ Coloured with simple background (Full Render) - £8
- Extra characters £1

+ Stamps - Just incase you want one? £1

These prices are for full body sketches, (Head to toe and bar the Chibis) if you wanted torso shots, just contact me, either a note or email for discussion of prices. As explained these are negotiable, I am starting small! If you're interested in a commission, please please contact me, feel free to add me to MSN, I'll be happy to draw most things for you. (Infact there's very little I wont draw!) So just let me know!
Email - soul_reaver_skl@hotmail.com
Gaia - soul_Syryn

+ Payment +
Payment is to be sent through Paypal. Details will be given as and when needed. If you need to send money through the post, note me to discuss this.

+ Posting +
It is entirely up to you if you want your comission posting to you. I will add what the charge of posting it is. I will go to the post office that morning to find out and let you know. I will NOT charge more then the post office does. Lets face it, their screwing up the mail enough after all.
This is optional afterall.


Miyavi. UK. 25th June.
For further information & Fanbook

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/15996381/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/15996381/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 06:15:21 PST For those of you who are interested I've pulled my work up a whole grade and I don't think I could of done it without all my friends here on Deviant, as well as those around me in the offline world. (But hey, you get to see me and get thanked and glomped in person) I truly an grateful to each and every one of my friends and watchers.

I'll be away from the 21st. I return home for Christmas and I'll be back by the new year. Not really sure when and I'm always grumpy at new year, you know I hate it with a passion. I'll be returning with drawn gifts for many people. Hopefully a few suprises.
Though some of them will have to go on my Y! Gallery.

So, I wish you all a very very Merry Christmas, I hope Santa brings you every thing you wish for. I hope you all have a lovely New Year and all the best for 2008.

Take care everyone, all the best and see you soon. (With new artworks!)

Love
Syryn

]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/15881036/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/15881036/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 17:35:53 PST

If you're not interested, don't bother going it is for my Dollfie after all. Pictures will be slow to upload, will have a few up there by now, but as I got a Digi cam for my 21st I'm still learning to use it XD

Thanks for listening lovelies!!


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Commissions

Would you like to commission me? Because I'd like you to! *CoughHintmuchne?Cough*

+ Why? +
I'm a University student, currently studing animation and illustration, yes I have a job, but I'm doing my best to save for my Wedding ! Thats right, I'm engaged to be wed, and I trying to put together money for a savings account for the whole thing. I really am trying hard to put the money together for our perfect wedding! You're help is greatly appericated! (Along with my Final Fantasy Tattoo Sleeve that needs finishing and stuff for my Dollfie)
That and any one who watches my journal or cares to read back will see that I was broken at the begining of the year, where alot of expensive equipment was stolen (And no, university wouldn't help me out, despite applying for some help) My wedding funds had to go on replacing these items. I've actually ended up putting the wedding back.
Funds: £ 0.00

+ Want to help? +

Thankyou, if you'd like to help I'd be honoured and will definately give journal features to all those who help me. (I'm also on Gaiaonline.com so I would donate to you aswell)
If you can help me spread the word, or even comission me that would help me immensely!
If Some one would kindly donate a subscription, I'd be very grateful and feature you in my journal. It would be nice to make my journal pretty! Especially as I've just fav'd alot of stamps abd would like to show them off!
You could....
+ Put my banner/link to gallery in your signature/journal (Especially if you're on Gaiaonline.com)
+ Commission me
+ Just spreading the word in general, that's a great help!

+ Prices. +
Now I know this is the make or break point, so allow me to first say that I am only just starting so my prices arent going to be sky high. Also all my prices ARE negotiable so they're up for discussion and possibly subject to change too. So, here we go.

+ Chibi Character (normally round 3 heads high) fully coloured with a simplistic graphic background - £3

+ Black and white inked sketch £5
- Extra characters, £1

+ Coloured with simple background (Full Render) - £8
- Extra characters £1

These prices are for full body sketches, (Head to toe and bar the Chibis) if you wanted torso shots, just contact me, either a note or email for discussion of prices. As explained these are negotiable, I am starting small! If you're interested in a commission, please please contact me, feel free to add me to MSN, I'll be happy to draw most things for you. (Infact there's very little I wont draw!) So just let me know!
Email - soul_reaver_skl@hotmail.com
Gaia - soul_Syryn

+ Payment +
Payment is to be sent through Paypal. Details will be given as and when needed. If you need to send money through the post, note me to discuss this.

+ Posting +
It is entirely up to you if you want your comission posting to you. I will add what the charge of posting it is. I will go to the post office that morning to find out and let you know. I will NOT charge more then the post office does. Lets face it, their screwing up the mail enough after all.
This is optional afterall.


The Team!
- - - - http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/15518669/ Thu, 15 Nov 2007 09:55:30 PST Ladies and gents, if you're interested, I am writing about seeing Dir En Grey for the 3rd time. Sadly, it was the last gig in Europe and they return home now, to go play gigs with Linkin Park supporting them!
(Before any one thinks of spoiling this, and saying how many times he must of locked eyes with some one else, just dont. If you dont have something nice to say dont bother.)

Firstly, I mourned, my wifey Annie couldn't make it with me. So I had my body guard, Magz, he pretty much let me do what I please! He told me too, so major Kudos on that.
Well, I arrived at the back of the corporation around 1. And took my first chance to jump a Diru crew member and give him my letter. We were all skulling around the tour bus. I was prompty informed I had missed Kyo, Toshiya and Kaoru, but still had the chance to see Shinya and Die. I caught another dire crew member going onto the bus and handed her another one of my thankyou letters to Diru. (Ohoho yes, I took more then one, I was prepared!) A little letter on, we saw Diru's manager, a lovely blonde lady. I went to hand her my note and she actually said "Oh no, its okay. Die and Shinya have already read it." FUCK YES PEOPLE! DIE AND SHINYA READ MY THANKYOU NOTE! (It was in Japanese people) So I was hyper about that for ages. Then Shinya came out and he was so close to me I just froze and blushed, smiling and waving as he went in. About half an hour later, Die came out and I was stood a little bit away from the crowd, close to were they were going to go in, all by my lonesome self! I offered my paper and Die looked up, smiled at me, and said "Later" then just as he was about to go inside, he stopped looked as his manager spoke to her and she said "Die asked aren't you cold?" I WAS FUCKING FREEZING IN A GOD DAMN MINI SKIRT MY TIGHTS RIPPED (Thanks Doomboots) so I had taken them off. I answered "Yes, but I'm just that dedicated." Die smiled at me and went inside. WOOT PEOPLE DIE SPOKE TO ME!

In the queue met some AWESOME, SERIOUSLY AWESOME PEOPLE! Who I want to know for the rest of my life! They are funky cool. Me and Emma bonded all night. Nikki is fucking amazing. Kimi is so beautiful. Danielle also calls herself Sephy. And Jack was so cool. Jakey was shy and quiet and SHIBBLES! So cute!. BUT THEY WERE SO AWESOME! Spent the whole gig with them. Even the train home.

Then, I was second row in. I had perfect view of the stage, when they came out I was so close to them it was unreal. But. Kyo took a mouthful of water and spat it out over the crowd. More to the point. All over me. (Indirect Kiss. Yes please!) Yeah yeah, that might sound gross to you, but meh. Meant everything to me. He did it twice and I caught most of the second wave too. But I locked eyes with Kyo and he gave me one of his oh so sullen looks. Then his eyes wandered to my wrist (Hands in the air ladies and gents) and he spotted my tattoo. HE THEN ACTUALLY ACKNOWLEDGED ME! (My thankyou note said about my tattoo by the way). I locked eyes with him 4/5 times throughout the gig. Kyo cut himself again which made me shed tears he loves the Uk fans that much. Toshiya locked eyes with me a couple of times too. They were so interactive with the crowd. More so then they have ever been. This is the best Diru gig I've ever been too.
I had perfect view for the whole damn thing, the pit wasn't too bad, Magz kept me a little less crushed bless him.
At the end of the gig. Kyo spat water over me again. Oh but wait. SO DID KAORU TOSHIYA AND DIE! Toshiya plays bass in such a sexy way. Fufufufufu. It was amazing, honestly. I don't have enough words to describe it. It was orgasmic. (I know, I didn't get an autograph)
I left with Nicki and everyone. Bonded really well with Emma, and Shibbles! *Glee* But then. Nicki gave me the best present ever. She'd caught herself a pleck purely by chance. As we were talking to the Bolton train she started playing with her necklace. Halfway down the stairs....She give me her Toshiya pleck from around her neck. I got down the stairs and glomped her. Seriously glomped her big time. Then spent my short journey to Bolton worshipping her. Stood at the train pawing at the window and saving they left me. BUT OH NOES! I WILL GO VISIT THEM! MWA HAHAH!
They study an amazing Japanese course. *Considering doing after my degree*
Then I lost my cool calm composure and span around jumping in a circle. Oh I didn't get home to 4.45am. I was wrecked. Nearly 24 hours in my doom boots. Pain. My feet hurt and it still hurts to walk!
But anyway, thats my run down for Dir En Grey. Some of my Dollfie's things have arrived. But I had a truly fucking awesome amazing blessed time. Thankyou to everyone and thankyou Dir En Grey.

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Commissions

Would you like to... ]]> *SyrynLauncher http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/15444197/ http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/15444197/ Sat, 10 Nov 2007 05:33:11 PST
Would you like to commission me? Because I'd like you to! *CoughHintmuchne?Cough*

+ Why? +
I'm a University student, currently studing animation and illustration, yes I have a job, but I'm doing my best to save for my Wedding ! Thats right, I'm engaged to be wed, and I trying to put together money for a savings account for the whole thing. I really am trying hard to put the money together for our perfect wedding! You're help is greatly appericated! (Along with my Final Fantasy Tattoo Sleeve that needs finishing and stuff for my Dollfie)
That and any one who watches my journal or cares to read back will see that I was broken at the begining of the year, where alot of expensive equipment was stolen (And no, university wouldn't help me out, despite applying for some help) My wedding funds had to go on replacing these items. I've actually ended up putting the wedding back.
Funds: £ 0.00

+ Want to help? +

Thankyou, if you'd like to help I'd be honoured and will definately give journal features to all those who help me. (I'm also on Gaiaonline.com so I would donate to you aswell)
If you can help me spread the word, or even comission me that would help me immensely!
If Some one would kindly donate a subscription, I'd be very grateful and feature you in my journal. It would be nice to make my journal pretty! Especially as I've just fav'd alot of stamps abd would like to show them off!
You could....
+ Put my banner/link to gallery in your signature/journal (Especially if you're on Gaiaonline.com)
+ Commission me
+ Just spreading the word in general, that's a great help!

+ Prices. +
Now I know this is the make or break point, so allow me to first say that I am only just starting so my prices arent going to be sky high. Also all my prices ARE negotiable so they're up for discussion and possibly subject to change too. So, here we go.

+ Chibi Character (normally round 3 heads high) fully coloured with a simplistic graphic background - £3

+ Black and white inked sketch £5
- Extra characters, £1

+ Coloured with simple background (Full Render) - £8
- Extra characters £1

These prices are for full body sketches, (Head to toe and bar the Chibis) if you wanted torso shots, just contact me, either a note or email for discussion of prices. As explained these are negotiable, I am starting small! If you're interested in a commission, please please contact me, feel free to add me to MSN, I'll be happy to draw most things for you. (Infact there's very little I wont draw!) So just let me know!
Email - soul_reaver_skl@hotmail.com
Gaia - soul_Syryn

+ Payment +
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Clubs!
http://SyrynLauncher.deviantart.com/journal/15346515/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 13:10:10 PDT Well, I came down to Annies on Thursday...I decided to bite the bullet and bought my very first Dollfie. (Elfdoll Red for any ones who interested) So Annie;s going to make me some clothes, I decided to get some little things for him.

Then friday, we traveled down to London, qued up for Diru. IT WAS A FUCKING GAMES FESTIVAL WHICH WE HAD TO STAND AND WAIT 4 AND A HALF HOURS WATCHING FPS GAMES. DONT DO IT PEOPLE JUST DONT. With some half assed bands inbetween, but finally, finally Diru came on, I was in the mosh pit and I got fucking crushed. Annie left the pitt and I was all alone. After four and a half hours of standing we were all knackered. Seriously. But the crowd was all wound up it got a bit nasty. to the point I was so crushed I couldnt move, just be swayed and barely breathe. Though I found breathe to sing, sing my heart out to The Final. After that I made my way from the pitt, though I could barely see. Once out of the pitt I could see Diru perfectly. Oh hoh so perfectly. Though, no I didn't managed to get anything this time, there is always Sheffield. I got 2 singles and some badges, and Annie bought me a tee shirt. She got me some videos too. Oh my lord I am so happy.It was amazing. They played all the awesome songs, including their new single Dozing Green. IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME PEOPLE SERIOUSLY! Screamed my lungs out to every song boys and girls!
We didn;t hang about after the gig, we were totalled (Will have a chance at Sheffiled). But because we were down in London, I got my photos from Diru in August, so I'll be uploading them.

Then today, Annie took me to Camden. London is bad when you dont have money, but I found a Diru CD I didn't have (Or could buy from the net) In a lolita shop. (Seriously need to lose weight boys and girls.) Then we went to Picadilly Circus and we went to the Japan Center and I had a starbucks for the first time. ( I live a sheltered life okay?!) Then we chilled out in Waterstones with SIX FLOORS. I was like. Omg books! (Hence the Yaoi part. Yes I found more. Yes I've spent so much money this weekend its wrong XD)

Diru have sparked up my inspirtation so much once again. Not just to draw, but to study. Ohohoh yes. Theres uber more details I assure you, but I'm too hyper. Lets just say the pit was filled with a mix of fans like me there to see diru cause they love them. We were all so pissed for waiting so long. The elitists and the rabid fan girls. And I was alone in the middle of them. God damn I got crushed, nearly pushed and fell to get crushed under people so many times and some fucker ripped my dreads out my head. That hurt. Hurt so much

So, I'm off to enjoy the rest of the weekend only one thing left to say:
Demon, Ninja, Chulray and Wing. I miss you loads guys,
BUT ITS TIME FOR HEADCRABS AND CROWBARS!

(Annie + Halflife + Headcrabs + Crowbar = hours of entertainment)

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On a lighter note. I've got yet another tattoo. Yes, that's number six. I've got Kyo's name tattoo'd to my wrist. I've had work done to Cloud and Sephiroth as well. I think they took some serious damage when I went to Rock Night at the SU because they're still hurting me and I know they shouldn't.

Going back to see Diru in a few days. Down to Selby to see my Annie, then onto London. Cant wait, this time I will be in the mosh pitts! And this time I will scream XD. I've decided I'd like a Dollfie. Expensive as they are, I truly do only want one. Though I'm not sure which one just yet, I'm still deciding. There are literally hundreds off them, I want to make sure I get the right one!

Please don't forget Ladies and Gents! I'm still available for Commission. All money earned through commissions will go towards my very first Dollfie! You can even donate towards the fund if you love me that much!

Oh on an updated note for those who are interested. New work in my Y Gallery ; )

My next part of my final fantasy tattoo will be done in January. So I more then likely wont have any more until then, just alot of designs I'll keep you informed about that too.
No, I haven't posted up my pictures of Smackdown, I kept them to myself, makes me smile. Oh and I bought my cosplay outfit too. Decided on Tifa!

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