http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:THISxTRAGICxGIRL&section=today deviantART RSS for by:THISxTRAGICxGIRL en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 14 Dec 2009 13:53:29 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/24358159/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/24358159/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 10:27:27 PDT Head on the ground and feeling what you've seen
I wanna scope you out
I wanna be your eyes and show you me

When are you coming back
When are you gonna burn that broken bed
When are you coming back
I wanna see you drifting overhead.





Im alive.

]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/16076956/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/16076956/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 12:32:41 PST
]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/14048805/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/14048805/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 18:57:23 PDT
Keyword: Trying.

I dont really feel like I do that anymore.

I dont go out of my way to plan things out. I dont manipulate like I used to.

I dont know if I really care anymore.


When I looked at Sydney through the view, I knew how uncomfortable she felt. How vulnerable she seemed. Every click of every photo she wanted to see and I could tell what she was thinking. Picking herself apart. Not seeing how beautiful the simplicity of her stature is.

Its disappointing, but endearing.


I think I am focusing more on the way people smile when you capture that look they want to see.


Im not saying that Im a different artist. Im not at all. Its just that a lot about me has evolved and left. I was one way, then I was another, and another. Im tired. I like taking pictures. I like seeing all kinds of photography. I hope to one day make a totally obscure coffee table book that no one will buy and will be discovered in a little downtown bookstore covered in dust. Someone will look at everything smashed between two matching boring black covers and think "wow, I wasn't expecting all of that."

That is me.

]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/12270557/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/12270557/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 11:44:48 PDT
I suck.

Im not attached to this place as I used to be and really Ive not done anything recently with the exception of self portraits bc Im a vain little slutbag.


Im trying. Just overwhelmed with life at the moment.. about to turn 23 years old and I cant get my shit together.

Such a fag.


I need sex.




]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/10991940/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/10991940/ Fri, 08 Dec 2006 07:11:15 PST
A lot has been going on lately.. I broke up with the girl from my last set of photos, that I wont go into... I moved, switched jobs, lost some friends, a friend commited suicide and last but not least I met a girl who is changing my life everyday.

She whispered in my ear that she was falling in love with me and her words touched every inch of my body and made my hairs stand on end.

I have been shooting some.. I have some shots that I was pleased with and Im working on an Asian themed series for my new roommates XMas present.

Im about to upload some of the portraits now..

I know Im not consistant and I dont really expect support or anyone to keep up with me but I still really enjoy being a part of this website.

I am on My Space everyday... I keep up with that journal and life updates there so if you would like to add me there, just message me.

[link]



-H.



]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/9129599/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/9129599/ Tue, 20 Jun 2006 18:08:31 PDT
Very different from my older style of work.. a little more raw and less doctored up.

Hope everyone likes the new change.


In case anyone is wondering, the beautiful new lady in most of my new work is Elyse, my girlfriend...

There will be much more coming soon but I more than likely wont be submitting again until next month.


-H.


]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/8923155/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/8923155/ Tue, 30 May 2006 17:54:40 PDT
So this is it for now kids.

I will most definately be working again so I dont intend on falling off the face of the earth as before.

I feel like I should get re-aquainted or let you know what Ive been up to.

In case you dont recall, my name is Heather.. Im 22 and I live in Lexington, Ky. My interests include being a homo <3, good music, shows, body modification, doing hair, photography, drinking... a lot... and spending time with my wonderful friends... drinking.

Ive got a My Space page if you want to get more personal, I use the blog there as well.
[link]

]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/8917360/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/8917360/ Tue, 30 May 2006 02:12:59 PDT
For those of you who already watch me. I dont care if you re-favorite.. or comment again. That was not my reasoning for deleting my work.

Im not nearly finished submitting but Im too tired to continue with this tonight.


Please be patient while my page is under construction.
<3


Msg me on My Space if you'd like.
My URL
[link] ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/8153607/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/8153607/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 20:17:51 PST
Im going to take some time tonight and tomorrow deciding whether or not I want to remain here on the site. I know that I never sign in and I never submit anything new anymore, but I have been working again... had some new work and it was all lost due to a laptop frying.

I am going to be thinking about resubmitting all of my work on here to work my way back in.

Fresh faces.


I hope if I should decide to remain on here that there is a warm welcome. ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/6302706/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/6302706/ Tue, 23 Aug 2005 00:56:13 PDT

I sent this to ........



...Hopefully it will be accepted, this is a smaller version.. its me and Crys just playin around, nothing special.




Play with Me!!




Check out this gallery...


Hes been around for a while... Ive admired him since I first saw his gallery, hes truley gifted and fucking incredible... Prints Available too!


Go check him out bitches..







]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/6202325/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/6202325/ Thu, 11 Aug 2005 21:32:17 PDT

To the coward who reported my piece and got it deleted for no god damn reason..

Fuck you.

<3





you won't stop me.




Play with Me!!




Check out this gallery...


Hes been around for a while... Ive admired him since I first saw his gallery, hes truley gifted and fucking incredible... Prints Available too!


Go check him out bitches..







]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/6161285/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/6161285/ Sun, 07 Aug 2005 18:21:21 PDT

Im still alive... but feeling bored. Im still the same old Heather. I can't bring myself to mass produce anymore... I will keep trying.

All I can really say is look how fuckin cool I am.

Yeah I cut off all my hair.

<3<3<3
you all fuckin love me.




Play with Me!!




Check out this gallery...


Hes been around for a while... Ive admired him since I first saw his gallery, hes truley gifted and fucking incredible... Prints Available too!


Go check him out bitches..







]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/5295566/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/5295566/ Sat, 07 May 2005 17:31:39 PDT

So Im back from Chicago. I got back late last night, and Im already dying to go back... I had such a great time up there with Suz and leaving was terribly sad. I was in such a bizarre mood the enire time up there lots of ups and downs.. and I was so tired.. theres only an hour difference but it really wore me out. We mainly went up there to see Garbage at the Metro, and to run around in the smog and traffic... The concert was most definately the best I have ever been to and Shirly was just absolutely stunning... we met with her afterwards, I grabbed some shots of her and creamed over her beautiful accent... So this is for any Garbage/Shirly Manson fans..


These were taken as of 5/4 around 10pm..

I also did some really random shots in Chitown, just simple shots. I just really enjoyed the city scape and I took pretty much an entire roll on the Chicago skyline and street scenes, which I don't think Ill be posting all that Id like bc Im sure you'd all get bored with post card shots. I love them though... maybe thats just my love for the city itself..?

Whatever it may be I hope everyone appreciates what Im posting tonight, I still have 24 more to sort through but im thinking tonight is just not going to be spent like that. By the way this is my first time picking up my Nikon manual in months.. so Im prettypleased about that. Anywho.. I'll get around to the other photos eventually.. for now I leave you with these..

Suzanne and I...

Moi in Chinatown.

enjoy!




Play with Me!!




Check out this gallery...


Hes been around for a while... Ive admired him since I first saw his gallery, hes truley gifted and fucking incredible... Prints Available too!


Go check him out bitches..







]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/5178925/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/5178925/ Sun, 24 Apr 2005 17:57:24 PDT

So I made plans to get with Miss Suzacle to do some shots... Im pretty excited, I just know Im going to get all nostalgic working with her.

She and I have been spending a lot of time together recently and I really enjoy it. I feel like I can safely say shes a solid person in my life that no matter what will always be there for me, and I for her. I thought I wouldn't miss her when she left but I did, and I have and I still do.. achingly so, but seeing her on pretty much an every other day basis is definately a good start at fixing those yearning feelings. Im just glad to have her back, even if its not totally.

I love you Suzanne.

I submitted a little something I was playing around with today.. I liked it enough to put up on here..mainly like the dirty grain feel to it.

I went through my gallery and deleted quite a few pieces, then removed a bunch into my scraps folder... I don't even know what the fuck that is for.. Scraps... Why???

Oh and before anyone asks yea the clover on my chest is a new tat... the start of my chest piece..

Theres a better picture from right after I got it done for your viewing pleasure...

Okay I just wanted to pop in an update... much love kids!

Heather




Play with Me!!




Check out this gallery...


Hes been around for a while... Ive admired him since I first saw his gallery, hes truley gifted and fucking incredible... Prints Available too!


Go check him out bitches..







]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/5006190/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/5006190/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 10:46:36 PDT

Well.. Here I am. I can't say for sure that Im going to around as much as I used to but Im certainly trying. I have things worked out and things in line... Im trying.

I have made some minor submitions.. Just things I have been workinf with for a while.. they are actually really personal, but I won't go the drab details of my life.

Seems like when I told her to go she really did take a huge chunk of me.. a piece that I really did not think Id lose.. its been 3 months and the wound still feels fresh and I still can't pull my shit together. Im really working on it and trying though. She and I are still very close and I will continue to shoot her..

Right now Im real fuckin sick, the flu/stomach bug something or other- Ive been working up the nerve to post these pieces since last night when I was making my new ID... but hopefully I will start feeling better soon and I will get back on my feet to start acting like my old self again.

I went to Cleveland this past weekend for a Tsunami Bomb show, and it was fucking great, Ive never been to Cleveland before.. I saw the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame which was just fucking awesome... I was glued to the London-Punk wall and couldn't move... Yeah Cleveland was pretty interesting..Had sone interesting little shops..

Yeah...really, They even have fucking layaway.

My birthday is in 12 days... 21, and Im just not excited at all... somebody make me something for my birthday. I fucking deserve it.

I really miss this place a lot... I especially miss all of you, I really fucking do.

xoxo





Play with Me!!




Check out this gallery...


Hes been around for a while... Ive admired him since I first saw his gallery, hes truley gifted and fucking incredible... Prints Available too!


Go check him out bitches..







]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/4567257/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/4567257/ Sun, 13 Feb 2005 02:53:30 PST






Enough said.




Play with Me!!




Check out this gallery...




Go check him out bitches..







]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/4379889/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/4379889/ Fri, 21 Jan 2005 19:21:11 PST

I know I promised updates and to be back and I haven't and I guess its because I have lost myself in these past few weeks. I totalled my car this past monday, dealing with injuries and being carless- fighting the flu and aches..

I broke up with Suzanne. She is gone. I live in what was our new apt alone now.

I feel "okay", I know I made the right choice for once... I did what had to be done. She wouldn't believe it but... I had to and did.

Now its all finished and I guess my lack of interest from here is due to her beautiful face being smeared all over every page of my gallery. It hurts. I would never do away with my images containing her and her stunning appeal, I just can't look too hard.

Ive been working so hard at this...the blue in her eyes is fading.

So please forgive me for the lack of effort into this page. I have been very busy. Keeping occupied with people and
moving along in work.

I have met someone who has started changing me. He is really incredible and I love spending time with him. He went through a break up with his girlfriend at the sametime of Suzanne and I and we just became close. I am very grateful to have him around, he wants to leave... and Im thinking about going with him. Washington. So fucking far away but its my kind of scene and its not here. Sounds like a chance.


......




Play with Me!!




Check out this gallery...




Go check him out bitches..







]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/4221440/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/4221440/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 14:23:42 PST

I didn't die.... I swear.

So Im finished moving and everything. Ive missed everyone so much!

Miss me?

I am finished painting the rooms that matter in my new apartment... painted my room crimson red with black trim and doors for romantic inspiration. Now Im going to hermit myself and start working again. Im excited!

My internet connection gets re-established this Thursday, right now Im pirating off some frat boy next door. MUWAHAHA.

I trust everyone had a wonderful X-Mas and New years? Mine wasn't so interesting, too much to do... but I shall make up for it with my up and coming party..

Pants down and panties off kids..

Im set to start working again ASAP... I promise.

Luff to all my minions.





Play with Me!!




Check out this gallery...




Go check him out bitches..







]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/4041807/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/4041807/ Sat, 11 Dec 2004 11:09:12 PST

Its snowing today...

...I was supposed to be trying to move.

Fucking weather... WHY MUST YOU DEFY ME!?

Oh well Ill just go and spend the day with Adam. Thats always nice.

I submitted a piece last night, Fruchtfleisch. Means Flesh of Fruit in german. I felt like doing a self portrait a little different that my usual caked makeup and trashy hair. Something more personal.

Please check it out and give me some feed back.


I recently broke 6,000 page views..Yey for me.

Ive still got a note pad full of concepts but I guess until I get this moving thing taken care of Im going to be distant towards the submitting aspect of DA..

No worries I won't fully leave my little meat puppets..

xoxo
Heather




Play with Me!!




Check out this gallery...




While browsing I found him, his gallery isn't very large but everything in it is fucking incredible. He must have talent leaking from his ears. He is a darkroom and manipulation genius. His style is that of erotic dark mechanical shock imagery. I decided to make him my featured artist.


Go check him out bitches..








]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3978495/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3978495/ Fri, 03 Dec 2004 08:58:09 PST

I had an AMAZING shoot last night. I used my old Nikon, manual. Since I bought my Digital, lazyness and convienence took over and thats all Ive used. I came up with the concept and decided it should be something like a series and I should use my Nikon for the detail.

I will be working on them tonight after work.. they may get posted by Saturday.

Im just really exctied about them, and some of the other ideas I have.

Ive found that I just randomly get sparked with ideas while talking to people. Mainly Adam, he and I will be talking and he will say something and I just have to quote it. I run off to write it down or save it to my laptop somewhere. The things he says are just too great sometimes, I never noticed it or cared until recently. I can look at Suzanne and imagery comes to mind.... its interesting. I am usually alone when anything involving me comes up.. where the muse is then I couldn't tell you.

I ME!

The only problem with my production for up and coming work, is that I am moving all this month. I HATE moving. We just started packing and this Sunday Adam and I should be moving some of it.. so hopefully I can get settled by the end of the first week of January. Then I can start working on all of my goodies again!

Yea I just hate the back breaking process and and to un-pack and re-establish everything. Glad I have the boys to help.

MUWAHAHAHA.


Play with Me!!

Check out this gallery...

While browsing I found him, his gallery isn't very large but everything in it is fucking incredible. He must have talent leaking from his ears. He is a darkroom and manipulation genius. His style is that of erotic dark mechanical shock imagery. I decided to make him my featured artist.
Go check him out bitches..







]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3922369/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3922369/ Fri, 26 Nov 2004 06:44:49 PST

WOW. A MASSIVE AMOUNT OF PROGRESS!!!

2 submitions. There will be more, Im still working with some images in the shop so hopefully by Monday I will have some more to submit. I was just going to save it all and submit a few things at once but my page has had little to no activity for a month and I couldn't wait anymore.

Ive turned my focus to my new website. Which is now up and online, its just not fully active yet. I bought my domain name earlier this week and all thats left is linking all the thumbs up to the actual images..LAME.

Big thanks to Adam for helping me out with the html though. Im so pleased with how it turned out.

[link]

I will post a little journal entry here when its completed.. I'll be changing the website button for Deviant Art to that page, since it is currently my friends only journal. I just need to make a new one of those.

Okay kiddies I believe that is all.

xoxo
Miss Heather



Play with Me!!


I just want everyone to check out this gallery...


Hes someone I stumbled across and just fell in love with his work. Very interesting, and uniquely erotic experimental b/w photographer, who works with a darkroom multiple exposure technique, very saucy! He recently purchased a prints account so you people can spend your money on him. Hes going to be really big around here, so everyone should go look at his gallery because I fucking said so!

...bitches.

]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3832212/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3832212/ Sun, 14 Nov 2004 10:39:37 PST

Feeling inspired....



A close friend of mine asked me a few days ago if everything thats been going on lately has efected my work any. I thought about it for a second and realized it has. I haven't done anything with her in it. I havent even attempted creating anything remotely beautiful, or heart warming. Not that I ever actually tried to or did...hahaha.

I guess Im doomed.

I have decided if I have some free time today im going to out scouting for some places to shoot.. I haven't done that in a while, but I really want to do something.

I also have to make a x-mas list. Per order of my mum. I just really don't know what to ask for beside butt plugs and LOTS of lube.

Im going to bathe grab my camera and tripod and head over to my mums to see her and then im out like a fat kid in dodge ball.



Play with Me!!


I just want everyone to check out this gallery...


Hes someone I stumbled across and just fell in love with his work. Very interesting, and uniquely erotic experimental b/w photographer, who works with a darkroom multiple exposure technique, very saucy! He recently purchased a prints account so you people can spend your money on him. Hes going to be really big around here, so everyone should go look at his gallery because I fucking said so!

...bitches.

]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3751124/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3751124/ Thu, 04 Nov 2004 09:48:26 PST

I haven't done much lately, been preoccupied with other things. I plan on it though. So no worries kiddies. Im in the neverending process of packing to move again, and it fucking sucks. I keep thinking Im finished in one room and then I realize I need MORE boxes.

Mainly writting this to get the last journal entry off of there, it depresses me to see it everytime I visit my page.

Lacy's lova Michelle is in town and Im sure they are elbow deep in coochie as we speak.. HI MICHELLE!!

This is specially directed towards 2 individuals so everyone else can just move on, but in case you guys didn't know there is a box at the end of my page that shows all recent visitors. So I know when you 2 come to my page, considering the circumstances I don't know why you would be here, or why you'd want to be here, because you aren't welcomed so you really have no reason to be looking at my stuff... you don't like me and I don't like you so theres no reason to check on updates or to try and pump my journal entries for information. Just wanted you to know, I know your coming.

Moving right along...

Im not packing up my cameras and equipment in hope Ill find time to do some work. More than likely Ill be out working on some stuff this weekend..I need to relieve some stress.



Play with Me!!


I just want everyone to check out this gallery...


Hes someone I stumbled across and just fell in love with his work. Very interesting, and uniquely erotic experimental b/w photographer, who works with a darkroom multiple exposure technique, very saucy! He recently purchased a prints account so you people can spend your money on him. Hes going to be really big around here, so everyone should go look at his gallery because I fucking said so!

...bitches.

]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3741694/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3741694/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 10:24:54 PST

THIS FUCKING COUNTRY MAKES ME SICK

Yesterday in general was totally fucked for me. I didn't go to work. I had to admit a friend into the hospital. I voted though. I had my say in MY future...and it was all just a waste of time. The country will once again be handed over to this money hungry war crazed tyrant.

I left the hospital, and went to another one to see a friend who just had a baby. The hope of lifting my spirits from the unescapable joy every human being feels when seeing a new baby. It seemes to work until I came home and got online to check the polls...Bush leading Kerry, Kerry needing every last remaining states electoral vote to merely tie the polls up.... AND the marriage amendment passed in 11 states.

I left the room to use the bathroom and when I returned Suzanne was sitting at the laptop crying. I sat next to her and read the information posted about the marriage amendment and just burst into tears. I tried so hard to not get upset but I was throwing shit around and I called my mom sobbing. Just so helpless. Suzanne looked at me and cleared her throat and asked me how they could decide to tell her who she was allowed to love.

At that moment everything seemed to clear away and we just sat there on the couch with our arms around each other crying.

The bible DOES run America kids.... and now no one is safe.



Play with Me!!


I just want everyone to check out this gallery...


Hes someone I stumbled across and just fell in love with his work. Very interesting, and uniquely erotic experimental b/w photographer, who works with a darkroom multiple exposure technique, very saucy! He recently purchased a prints account so you people can spend your money on him. Hes going to be really big around here, so everyone should go look at his gallery because I fucking said so!

...bitches.

]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3700515/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3700515/ Fri, 29 Oct 2004 09:55:56 PDT

Mood: Someone take me away
Listening to: The Faint
Watching: black screen

I don't dedicate enough time or effort into this little journal on here. I guess I don't dedicate enough time to anything anymore really though.

I was just sitting here, trying to feel something, anything in general. All Im feeling is this over whelming emptyness. Its like running around in a bright room and having all light suddenly shut off. I have stars before my eyes and Im reaching out feeling everything I can until I adjust but nothings there.

I don't know if she and I will make it.

Im terrified.

At the same time Im okay. I know what is going on with me. I no longer choose to say theres something "wrong" with me, because I think I understand what Im feeling and its normal. I just hate that I had to do this to her. I can't function with her and I don't know what it would be like to function without her, so where do I go from there? I can only sit here and daze dreamily at everything within our apartment and wonder "hrmm will she take that when she goes?" I hate that I feel like I cant escape certain thoughts because its not making things any better.

I don't need things clogging up my brain right now. I need time and space and an opportunity. All of which I feel like I don't have. I wish it were that easy, but its not.

I love you Suzanne.

I was going through my gallery and I began to notice how weird it looks. In the beginning its all b/w then some sketches and watercolours and a few photos here and there... then as the clicking continues you can see me grow. Not only as an artist but as a open individual person. Its amazing to me so see the transformation. I almost feel like deleting all my deviations and re submitting them all to mix it up. I probably won't though because Im a lazy fuck.





Play with Me!!


I just want everyone to check out this gallery...


Hes someone I stumbled across and just fell in love with his work. Very interesting, and uniquely erotic experimental b/w photographer, who works with a darkroom multiple exposure technique, very saucy! He recently purchased a prints account so you people can spend your money on him. Hes going to be really big around here, so everyone should go look at his gallery because I fucking said so!

...bitches.

]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3602309/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3602309/ Sat, 16 Oct 2004 09:29:20 PDT

Mood: ready to fuck!
Watching: Weather Channel

So.. Ive been stocking up on ideas here recently. Ive created a little notebook thats getting pretty plump with juicey possibilities. I was just hit with this explosion of ideas, I had a fucking hard on from it all. Unfortunatly I haven't had time to do ANYTHING.

I have submitted but one image from the ideas, that day I had planned on working on as many of the ideas as I could but then the batteries died in my camera. I was pissed. So instead I laid around all day scratching myself.

I FINALLY got around to getting a good tripod. Im pretty excited about that, no more ghetto rigging them. So Im anxious to get to using that. I know its lame but Im awesome and I am easily amused.

I went out the other night to buy goodies for props, I never realized how much fun it is to go out and buy shit for pictures specifically. Felt like a little kid. For me thats what its all about... I love doing what I do and it makes me feel so happy.

I submitted a new image to my stock account that was from the same shoot as ::c Om a t Os e::, and while teaching Adam some Photoshop basics I ended up kinda liking what it became in a bizarre Im desperate to make something kinda way.
[link]

Let me know what you think..

So I captured myself a student, more like trade off. Adam and I will be working together more.. Im going to teach him photoshop techniques and help him with photographs and hes going to teach me html and help me get my website up and running. Pretty excited about that.

So yea I promise I will get on the ball and there will be new stuff up here asap.

So get off my back Lacy!




Play with Me!!


I just want everyone to check out this gallery...


Hes someone I stumbled across and just fell in love with his work. Very interesting, and uniquely erotic experimental b/w photographer, who works with a darkroom multiple exposure technique, very saucy! He recently purchased a prints account so you people can spend your money on him. Hes going to be really big around here, so everyone should go look at his gallery because I fucking said so!

...bitches.

]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3502373/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3502373/ Sun, 03 Oct 2004 11:31:40 PDT

Mood: Oh fucking well..
Watching: The Sopranos

Im still getting sick and still having tummy problems, but certain aspects of the cause of my problems have been eliminated. Which is very very good. No more worrying about other people and dealing with the drama going on around me.

Ive even had time to let some ideas sit and stew. I have new toys and new things I want to experiment with..

Im actually really fucking happy right now, Im such a chick, I know mood swings like crazy. I just need to be loved..

So yeah, hopefully expect some new juicy things very soon.. Im pretty anxious myself. Maybe thats just the blue balls...Oh Yeah, I got em bad.

I feel so great right now. I love you all.



Play with Me!!


I just want everyone to check out this gallery...


Hes someone I stumbled across and just fell in love with his work. Very interesting, and uniquely erotic experimental b/w photographer, who works with a darkroom multiple exposure technique, very saucy! He recently purchased a prints account so you people can spend your money on him. Hes going to be really big around here, so everyone should go look at his gallery because I fucking said so!

...bitches.

]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3464008/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3464008/ Tue, 28 Sep 2004 07:57:31 PDT

Mood: fuck you.

Im feeling much less than up to par recently. Im constantly unhappy and I believe Im devloping an ulcer. I eat once a day and I want to throw that up afterwards and my stomach feel constantly unsettled. Everything makes me cringe and I believe my stomach is actually trying to implode into itself.

Maybe Im just unhappy and depressed?

I don't know, I think Im putting too much on myself. Its all my fault. I just care about people too much. More and more everyday though, I don't care.... not one god damned bit.

I barely have time to get on here anymore... that makes me sick. This stupid little page is like the biggest pick-me-up and now even it has lost its luster.

I can't create... everything I try to make or compose feels like complete and utter shit. Its all violently bad. I just want it all to stop. I want to feel something again, something other that just terrible discomfort.

I feel like I can't even talk to anyone anymore... Im beginning to close myself off from everyone around me. I guess its a defense mechanism.. it doesn't even hurt.

Im such a shitty friend and such a whiney little cunt...

I can't even fucking stand myself anymore.



Play with Me!!


I just want everyone to check out this gallery...

Shes brilliant and awesome, her work reflects the life of a young lesbian looking for love. Shes a must see for anyone who is into b/w emotive photography..or anyone who just loves hot dykes.

Shes wonderful..
]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3381010/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3381010/ Fri, 17 Sep 2004 11:20:05 PDT

Mood: do me.
Watching: Aqua Teen Hunger Force..BOOYAH

Hopefully this won't become a trend, but I submitted a piece of work and it was taken down from Deviant Art for being "obscene"... so this little area Im going to provide links to any and all of my work that gets taken down from violations...
[PiNK]


This is now located in my "shout board" on my journal for anyone who cares... getting better at this whole new way of doing things with the Dev. Art Subscription fun.

Just wanted everyone to know..

If you would like to comment on anything linked or just say "hey your a sexy bitch" then leave it in my shout box..

fuck yeah.



I just want everyone to check out this gallery...

Shes brilliant and awesome, her work reflects the life of a young lesbian looking for love. Shes a must see for anyone who is into b/w emotive photography..or anyone who just loves hot dykes.

Shes wonderful..
]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3366509/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3366509/ Wed, 15 Sep 2004 00:00:10 PDT

Mood: ARGH!
Watching: Freeway

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GAY

Yeah, I totally subscribed...hooray for me I rock. Been wanting to for a while now.

I got a new digital camera, its really great. The options and quality is great. Its HOT SEX, fucking seriously.

I played around with it for a bit...submitted a couple things. Im really happy with this camera... sadly enough it was more expensive than my lovely manual Nikon...Oh well..

Hooray for Suzannadamage for being my wonderful HOT SEX girlfriend!

Heather

Play with me!




I just want eeryone to check out this gallery...

Shes brilliant and awesome, her work reflects the life of a young lesbian looking for love. Shes a must see for anyone who is into b/w emotive photography..

Shes wonderful..
]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3251313/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3251313/ Mon, 30 Aug 2004 22:33:07 PDT NOTHING... I really need to get my shit together. Seems like Im failing at my own life right now. I hate it.

Everyone and everything is crazy my heart aches and burns with a lust and passion that can't seem to be answered..

Im trapped inside a glass house watching everyone go about they're lives...all I want is a fucking stone.

Forgive me... I know this is pointless but that ever hopeless drowning feeling is starting to choke my lungs.

Life is:worksleepeatshitworkfuckpainworksleep eatfuckshitstressworkworkwork

heather

Play with me!


Member of:


Galleries that rock my socks off:
http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3161252/ Thu, 19 Aug 2004 01:24:42 PDT
Im very very pleased with the outcome of this large chunk of submitions.. very very pleased..yay!

Everyone check them out and comment, I want to know what everyone thinks about my new stuff...

Also check out my stock within the next couple days I will have all the stuff up, well at least until I have more new stock available... Yeah Im tired and stuff so it will more than likely make it up there tomorrow sometime..
Play with me!

Member of:


Galleries that rock my socks off:
http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3143923/ Tue, 17 Aug 2004 00:51:31 PDT

I have but a few pictures still left..Im feeling pressured to get them finished... I have such high hopes for these pictures..

I also submitted a picture I did a while back as an experiment that I didn't like but began to grow on me...check it out..

So very anxious..

Okay Im tired so off to bed I go..

Member of:


Galleries that rock my socks off:
http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3127647/ Mon, 16 Aug 2004 08:35:55 PDT
I plan on waking early, getting ready, wearing something comfortable...grabbing girlfriend and staying out all day shooting and creating something beautiful, something to be proud of...paper pretties...I have a feeling it will be varied..

Ahhh inspiration feels sexy..

Im off to watch The L Word with girlfriend, then... well you know..

Member of:


Galleries that rock my socks off:
http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3098894/ Thu, 12 Aug 2004 21:46:46 PDT
I have been painting a bit lately...I seem to have strayed away from it, when in highschool it was all I did...I painted and doodled little pen and ink designs constantly...rarely was a camera ever in my hand...I was just content with those 2 ways of making my little ideas and thoughts.... Now it seems I only work with my beautiful camera and rarely ever do anything involving paint or a ink pen.

I finished an obscure little painting 2 days ago, its to be given as a gift... and a month before that I finished a larger painting titled Through the Keyhole. I laid on the couch last night and drew out 3 new ideas for paintings, and I still have a pride project under way that I seem to have given up on.

Id really like to post some of my paintings but Im not exactly sure how to go about getting them on here... I can't seem to take decent pictures of them. Any suggestions?

Other than that Ive still got a set to do with Lacy, and I found a possibly fruitful warehouse last night...still need to check it out though. Just some minor ideas for new shoots..

So yea everyone else seems to do this..

Member of:


Galleries that rock my socks off:
http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/3007177/ Fri, 30 Jul 2004 21:26:48 PDT
I think Im gonna take a small break from doing My own shots, Charles burned me a cd compiled of his work he would like for me to work on, and Ive looked at it a few times and I think I may have some ideas...not to mention his work is SO suggestive, it will take me to a whole new level of Perversion and photographic GENIUS...hahahaha..I kid Charles you know I love you.

Also I will be lending my camera off to Suzanne, not really sure whether or not she will get around to doing anything but she wants to try it out..maybe you will be seeing some of her work soon.

Yea so Im sick and Im gonna go be sick somewhere else..
Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2963473/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2963473/ Sun, 25 Jul 2004 10:29:55 PDT
Recently some friends came over Mr. and Miss, I got all purdied up and had some photos done...just a random 3 sittings, I would consider it more of a test drive, Im not totally comfortable with being someone elses subject yet, nor did I know how things could go with him behind the camera...but I was really impressed and satisfied and hopefully he and I can expand and work together some more.. Anywho there were over 100 photos and Id like to do something with each set, last night/this morning I submitted one..

RED LIGHT SPECIAL

Go look at it if you already haven't, it will need a full view..

I suppose thats all for now kids...I will have more updates soon..there may be a possible trip up to cinci next month in which I will try and do my shtuff...if not Im sure I will be working with THE CHARLES... ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2931797/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2931797/ Wed, 21 Jul 2004 06:56:36 PDT
I recently submitted a pretty cool photo called Die Rote Maskerade, for those of you who haven't seen it you should check it out..

I really haven't had time to do much of anything, trying to work as much as possible, then girlfriend and everything else with life, its just been really hectic..I did get some film last night though..hopefully I can find time to do something with the people Ive been wanting to work with..but for now I will just continue to do random manips until I get around to really trying at something special..

I suppose thats all for now..

Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2868552/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2868552/ Mon, 12 Jul 2004 23:40:58 PDT
Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2860308/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2860308/ Sun, 11 Jul 2004 23:23:24 PDT
Being a working class lesbian photographer is so much harder than it looks...haha..I kid.

Hopefully I will be doing some more work tomorrow or within the next few days with Mr. , he really does some excellent work, and Im hoping he can do something with Suzanne and I together.... considering we have no "REAL" photographs of us together, Im just a little skeptical with letting other people photograph me...I always feel like Im not going to be captured in a flattering way, or at the right angle, just not by my eye...although Im very confident in Charles, and Im sure everything would be fine.

I guess thats all for now...be prepared for updates I suppose..
Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2775723/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2775723/ Wed, 30 Jun 2004 22:13:58 PDT
Ive never done a dedication piece before...or a piece for someone, I can just say I hope she likes it.

Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2754823/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2754823/ Mon, 28 Jun 2004 11:08:16 PDT
So, I am ditching the internet for a while, its $45 dollars a month out of my pocket that I don't even really need. Im wasting my money and not even using this anymore. So yea...bye bye.

I will still update this as well as my DeadJournal, but thats pretty much it...and I will just do it from friends or the library on campus here. So I won't be leaving totally there will just be much more random updates in chunks and thats all till my life calms down.

I guess thats all I have to say, I hope to see some beautiful work from the people I watch, and watch me..

Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2609611/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2609611/ Thu, 10 Jun 2004 21:12:37 PDT on this one..she will be my next model..Im guessing they will be completed within a week and sometime this month I am to go meet up with Suzannes brother Stephen and work with him on a location. Im pretty excited.. he saw my gallery for the first time a few days ago and he was dumbstruck..I guess he just didn't know..
No such luck on my portfolio as of yet...I'm being lazy and honestly can't find the time to make it out.. its been hard enough to spend time with Suz with her new position at work...Lacy has been staying with me while shes gone and I guess my idea just hit me..
So hopefully there will be some new stuff coming around soon, and I was thinking about modeling for something myself soon..I guess just letting everyone know Im keeping busy and will come back with something to show.
Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2516136/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2516136/ Wed, 26 May 2004 18:59:19 PDT
I think Im going to take a minor break from Deviant Art...Ive had a lot of things going on here lately and sadly enough my health has been fading as of late...so Im going to focus on getting better and starting at my new job, and possibly searching for a new apartment/house...

With all of this I am also planning on creating a portfolio... not so much for reference in jobs or future photographic reference but just for sentimental value. Ive become so very proud of my work and very protective..yet I only have a few of my prints...so with that said Im going to be placing more of my concentration on the development of my book...I have already begun by getting a nice album-esq book that I fell in love with at first glance...very basic large and black with a rubbery cover, embossed horizontal lines give it basic texture and a plain yet bold typewriter font that reads "photos." its not anything terribly special or unique but I felt it suited me well. I just want something that holds my work, that I can carry around anywhere..

So this may be my last post for a while..I will still keep the ideas churning and check up on those of you who I watch, and comment on my page...

Auf Wiedersehen!
Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2487513/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2487513/ Sun, 23 May 2004 00:01:21 PDT
I was very pleased with the 3 pieces tonight, having trouble picking a favorite..

I think Im gonna go crawl into bed with girlfriend now..

...Night Night..

Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2467963/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2467963/ Thu, 20 May 2004 07:25:00 PDT ..they are just hoping its not mono...yea well Im hoping too. Suzanne isn't sick at all, shes like feeing perfectly healthy, which I don't get..between our kissing, eating and drinking after each other, and the general fact she never leaves my side I don't understand how shes avoided symptoms.

Anywho, I should be feeling like myself again in 4 days, but I HAVE to pull my ass out of bed to go finish off development of prints and get some mailed out to people who have already paid....maybe I'll just make Suzanne do it since shes okay..

I promise I will get right on the development for those of you that need prints, and I will submit something new for those of you who care..
Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2412314/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2412314/ Wed, 12 May 2004 08:32:50 PDT
Im so sick of people taking random uninteresting pictures of other people (friends and such) and posting them on here..as if they need a place to debut their photoalbum....seriously..Im sure no one here cares to look at them, they are not in any way shape or form interesting to look at or pleasing to the eye..and that does not make you an artist. Put them somewhere else and spare us all. I am fully aware theres no real label on what is art and what isn't and I don't think Im better than you...but COME ON... get fucking real. Last week some girl took a picture of her mallrat bestfriend who was supposed to be some strange form of spooky and she slapped it in the fetish genre...how about no. It bothered me so much I questioned how it was fetish, her reply what she has pretty eyes..NO PEOPLE...NO...this is why there are certain specific genres for your shit...Oh and taking the picture of your pals and doctoring it up in photoshop REALLY doesn't improve the content...

Yea so I felt like a rant was needed..

To everyone requesting prints..im done with my vacation and I will be getting my ass in gear for you people.. ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2376098/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2376098/ Fri, 07 May 2004 00:58:41 PDT Tonight I submitted 3 new pieces...and tomorrow (actually today) I will submit my newest series..Im pretty pleased with them..I just have to weed some out to make it smaller..The stuff I submitted tonight seems to be doing well though..
Right now Miss Lacifer...

Is slapping some animation onto my new avatar...thankfully..I decided to make a new one more ME and shes makin it pop!
Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2355887/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2355887/ Tue, 04 May 2004 03:23:35 PDT
The following are prints available-
-The Entire "Cold as Stone Series 1-10"/ 8x10,5x7,4x6
-The Entire "Warehouse Series 1-5"/ 8x10,5x7,4x6
-White Rows/ 8x10,5x7,4x6
-Still Waiting/ 5x7,4x6
-Colored Theatre/ 8x10,5x7,4x6
-Meeting in a Hotel Room 1 & 2/ 8x10,5x7,4x6
-Dream House/ 8x10,5x7,4x6
-Industrial Series 1/ 8x10,5x7,4x6
-Untitled/ 5x7,4x6
-Orgasm/ 5x7,4x6
-Say You Love Me/ 5x7,4x6
-The Artist/ 4x6
-Tree/ 8x10,5x7,4x6
-Use Me/ 6x6 ($7.50 usd)
-Vulnerable Sleep/ 7x8 ($8.50 usd)

Okay now for my price key which will also be included in every up and coming print available...
-8x10-$11.00 usd
-5x7-$9.00 usd
-4x6-$5.00 usd
Anything with demensions other than that I will post and determine. Im really sorry to be repeating myself so much everyone...this will be the last entry like this. Again if you would like a print...send me a note via Deviant Art or Email me at ThisTragicGirl@insightbb.com. Thanks.
Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2343588/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2343588/ Sun, 02 May 2004 12:19:06 PDT Also Ive decided pretty much on set prices for my stuff..Im going to sell every print at a starting price of $11.00, and depending on size it will vary from there, but nothing will be over $11.00. I looked at some other pages to compare and they are selling them for double that and I guess charging $25.00 for a photograph I did really didn't appeal to me nor did I think it was appealing to anyones pocket. I would rather people have and enjoy my work than to pay an arm and a leg for one of my photographs. So there.
Im going to go through today and post on each of my pieces in the descriptions whether or not there is a print available and the price...I hope everyone will take the time to look and maybe want to take a little piece of me.
Thanks..
Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2330316/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2330316/ Fri, 30 Apr 2004 11:16:10 PDT
So until I figure that out Im going to keep the option open, they requested 5 of my prints last night..I could have cried I was so touched..So now I have to get some cash and get my ass in gear and get them back into print form and onto photo paper to make sure they look good, and set prices.
I refuse to over charge..I don't think the work I do is worth what some people around here charge for their work...I dunno, perhaps Im selling myself short.
Over all Im just really surprised, and I guess if anyone else is interested in any of my prints, leave me a message here or Email me at ThisTragicGirl@insightbb.com
Oh and I should be doing some Film Noir, 30's esq stuff today just hope it all comes out.
Thanks!
Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2323782/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2323782/ Thu, 29 Apr 2004 15:48:18 PDT Heather
Oh BTW I submitted 2 new pieces..and they are decent. ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2319261/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2319261/ Wed, 28 Apr 2004 18:33:09 PDT Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2289163/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2289163/ Sat, 24 Apr 2004 13:25:13 PDT Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2239727/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2239727/ Sat, 17 Apr 2004 01:23:56 PDT Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2228278/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2228278/ Thu, 15 Apr 2004 10:23:04 PDT Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2199818/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2199818/ Sun, 11 Apr 2004 12:57:51 PDT Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2156991/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2156991/ Mon, 05 Apr 2004 11:38:08 PDT Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2058484/ http://THISxTRAGICxGIRL.deviantart.com/journal/2058484/ Sun, 21 Mar 2004 20:18:35 PST Heather ]]> ~THISxTRAGICxGIRL