http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Tarrf-The-Black-One&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Tarrf-The-Black-One en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 13:05:07 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/21411042/ http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/21411042/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 19:13:51 PST i hate liven out each day i just wanna gat out of this place but the door to heavens been slammed in my face

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]]> ~Tarrf-The-Black-One http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/19191615/ http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/19191615/ Thu, 03 Jul 2008 20:49:15 PDT but may our poetry forever intertwine us.
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i have let go. they say the best way to show your love for someone is to let go and if they come back they were allways your but if they dont they never were.
well that stands true amongst friends. ant truly if the end is now let me end it in a frindly way than you with an unkind work. plese forgive me father for giving up. i did not give up i let go of a thing that was holding me back i now have wings to soar. and father i will soar i will make the best relationship i have stronger at the cost of another but if that must be that must be. i love all my friends and i cry at night for each and every one of them but it feels so good to finnaly fly. so i will soar thru the gates of heaven and land in the hands of your love my father. for i am nolonger alone in my fight.

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our prayers and hopes have been answered

shes back shes at my house right now and i will show her all her love

from tarrf-the-black-one

plese if you reposted my other journal plese repost this one

thank you god and thank you every one else

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yana needs us all now more than ever
we all need to pray for her with every free breath
we need our prayers to be herd so we must all pray

yana attemped suicide

she took pills
and she needs everything weve got to get her out this time
shes in the hospital
shes doing better now they pumped her stomach and calmed the seizures some
after she gets out of the hospital her parents are trying to get her in te best tretment center
but she needs a support group and a big one
even if she wont read this journal she needs to know through our prayers that she is loved and people do care about her

if you care at all about her and want to help plese repost this in your journal to spread the news
plese plese plese

]]> ~Tarrf-The-Black-One http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/18169903/ http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/18169903/ Sun, 04 May 2008 18:17:33 PDT TO ANY ONE WHO IS CLOSE TO ME GENNY WRIGHT
PLESE READ I NEED HELP MY LIFE IS IN DANGER AND I CAN NO LONGER SAVE MYSELF

IM NOT LIENG IM NOT KIDDING IM NOT EXAGERATING THIS IS THE TRUTH THE HOLE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH SO HELP ME GOD


all my life well as long as ive had depression problemns (which is a long time) ive been fighting a battle which then escilated in to a full scale war

well its getting worse
i can no longer fight this war alone
i am seriously afraid because i have had serious thoughts of trying to kill myself
i have been fighting with the voices and i used to keep them secret so noone would think i was insain
i used to allways win
but now the voices are winning and they tell me thinks
they tell me i am retarted and that im pathetic and ussless
they tell me all im cappable of diong is hurting people and that im a curse
they tell me i dont deserve to live anymore
i fight with my mind and my hate for myself
i really hate myself but i dont want to lose my future
i just cant keep fighting this war alone
i need to tell my parents but i nevar seem to be able to because i dont want to hurt them
i used to lie about my mentil state because i thought i could handle it
my grades are slipping (which my grades mean the world to me)
i keep having anxiety attatct im afraid of myself
i want to kill my self
but i dont want to die
i never used too be so scared
but i am scared now because im no longer afrid to die and that scares me because im afraid im going to do somthing rasg and irriversible one day in my anger and i cant =do that because if i die it will hurt others more than it will hurt mee and i dont want to hurt people
im really scared
i cry every night
i hate myself every day
i want to kill me self
im scared
im really scared
theres something wrong with me
and i need help
plese if you care about anything plese help me
dont just say itt will be ok and that ill get through it because at this point i wont
accually physsicly do something
im not afraid to be addmitted to an assylum anymore
i know thats where i need to be
i think thats the only way im gonna live through this
im dying inside and i cant stopit
i can no longer fight this wart alone

ONLY YOU CAN SAVE MY LIFE

]]> ~Tarrf-The-Black-One http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/17816535/ http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/17816535/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 15:34:48 PDT i love you my gimpster
you will allways be my gimpster piimpster
because gimsta is so gangsta
no matter how maney times we called you stupid ir idiot or dumb we never ment it
you were the sweetist dog that ever lived
yu never bit anyone you never growled
you gave the best kisses and nomatter what your love was unconditional
you will be missed allwys and you will be in my heart
in my life i want to replace you but in my heart you are irreplicble
you were in so much pain and now you are at rest but still the tears flow and land on my emptie chest
you were my shoulder to cry on now i cry and your not there
you were very special and never made e feel lone till now
i love you gimili i cant stop crying
this is a eulogie of love and companionship of a brother from a sister

]]> ~Tarrf-The-Black-One http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/17752460/ http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/17752460/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 17:49:32 PDT i fell like im dieing but nobodys there
i keep telling myperents just how i feel
but i dont think they get it nomatter what i reveil
i keep saying i hate myself thati think i shoul die
but i dont think they hear me though im not quite sure why
i feel like ive noone to talk to these days
cause nomatter who i talk to they dont seem to say
they dont say the right words they think its a joke
thats why im dieing im going to choke

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]]> ~Tarrf-The-Black-One http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/17487801/ http://Tarrf-The-Black-One.deviantart.com/journal/17487801/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 07:21:18 PDT i had my officalk meetibng at schookl today and guss what

there gonna let me go back to school starting tommorow yea

yea

(bouncing off walls)

yea

yea

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