http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Tatteredheartxx&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Tatteredheartxx en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 09:44:43 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/25384445/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/25384445/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 23:42:16 PDT In all the standard sizes, including the Macbook pro size! woo!

If anyone wants any specific images that I don't upload, let me know and ill fix it

xx

Megan

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/23401428/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/23401428/ Wed, 25 Feb 2009 15:30:15 PST [link]
All you have to do is follow the link and give me lots of love.
I would really appreciate it!!!

Thankyou
Megan

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/23090307/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/23090307/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 19:16:39 PST [link]
Don't know how long it will last but what the heck.

On another note.
Saw valkyrie last night.
It was fantastic, the cinematography was amazing, let alone the story behind it.
I fully recommend going to see it.
Greater union has $9 movies until the end of march for cinebuzz members if you book online.
Seriously do it.
Soo worth it.

Borrow my card if you need to haha!!!

On the other hand, its 2 o'clock here.
Im still in my pj's.

The death toll in Victoria has risen to above 100, It makes me feel sick thinking about it.
The worst part is that the fires are still raging, and there are towns that have been burnt that they can't even get into yet.
Its horrible.

Then in queensland, there is flooding!
This really says something about the effects of global warming.
Something needs to be done.

Anyway, sorry to end on a depressing note lol.

love you all.

xoxox

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/22904681/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/22904681/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 13:28:15 PST Its so freaking amazing.
I don't even know what to do with it yet, But its gonna be awesome!
Still getting used to the command key, instead of control and the whole, no left click thing.
Very Confusing, But im sure I'll get used to it!!

Love you all!!

xoxox

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/22518162/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/22518162/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 04:13:54 PST But I am about 3 or so months behind in Editing + Uploading Photos.
Lucky for you I've been too busy to be creative

So there aren't THAT many,
Are there?

xxx

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/21987832/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/21987832/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 20:06:36 PST So I'm going to try and do alot of photo shopping to build up my skills again.

I'm looking for some inspiration
Hopefully I'll just be able to play around with images until I get an idea.
I'm thinking atm, something with clocks. *shrugs*

I'm also feeling a little down on the world at the moment.
Every little thing just seems to be affecting me.

Hopefully the photo shopping will help

On the other hand I am really really excited about Christmas this year.

I can't wait to give everyone their presents!!!
Maybe ill make a christmas image on photoshop!

I hope that everyone has a great christmas!!

xoxoxoxox

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/21917542/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/21917542/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 15:52:39 PST Even sorted through all my deviations so far.
It was amazing.
I might upload some photos. I didn't take that many creative shots though.
I didn't get sick whilst I was over there.
But the day after I got back I did.
And still am!
I've missed a three day intensive course at uni
Got all the way to North Sydney Yesterday spent an hour in the toilets a 5 min walk from the uni and then caught a train back home
It sucks.
I have quite bad luck.

The good news though is that I got $500 in an award from the Defense force that the school nominated me for.
So that will help pay a small fraction of everything that needs to be paid for uni.

Hope everyone else is just as much fun as i am!

xoxox

Megan

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/21463553/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/21463553/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 01:34:35 PST [link]
Absolutely freaking fantastic idea!!

I love it!!

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/21056515/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/21056515/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 01:57:01 PDT
Check this guy out:
[link]
I love his stuff!

Anyway thought I'd drop by and give you guys an update.
Photoshop and I have decided to take a break from each other for a while.

Just until i stop feeling sick at the sight of it lol.
Hence the lack of uploads
I have three gb worth of photos to sort through and upload. But no photoshop so no uploads.

Currently in the middle of the HSC.
I've already had IT, and Half of english.
The second part of English tomorrow
Then Modern History, Physics and Art.

Thinking about joining a gym!
Freaky hey

Im back at work!
Chipmunks has officially reopened, and I've started painting the party rooms with animals and trees and presents and such.

It good to have money again!

I can't wait until Thailand!
Its just over a month now until I leave.
Its going to be amazing.

Because I havent got photoshop for a while I've been going creative crazy.

I've sewn one top, in the middle of 2 skirts, I painted a background for my fish tank and now am thinking about painting my desk!
Its been insane!

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/20610745/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/20610745/ Sun, 21 Sep 2008 22:26:45 PDT So I went for my interview to uni today and i was accepted on the spot
Billy blue here I come!

Only problem is that I don't start until February
(And I still have to do the hsc )

Check it out
[link]

Xo!

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/19761921/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/19761921/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 23:40:24 PDT One year's worth of work later, and I'm finally here.
So I would really love some feedback.

I Need to think of a name, for the entire series, and also for each individual piece.

But I'm getting the works printed on wednesday, so feedback on any mistakes you can see in them, off colours etc, would really really be appriciated!

I actually feel quite empty now :S
Don't know what to do with myself lol.
Oh yea thats right, study.

Anyway would love some feedback!

x!

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/19082035/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/19082035/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 19:39:04 PDT Finally.

I've decided I'm only going to do 5 works, not because ill run out of time, but because it seems like a better amount than 7 and then i can keep improving on the works I already Have.
Im working on my 5th piece for it (which it actually the 4th in the series)
Hoping its going to be awesome
Ive ditched a few of the works i have already done, such as the nuclear takeover. Mainly because they just weren't working for me, and giving off the message I wanted it to.

So I would really love some feedback on each individual work, and also the series as a whole, because these works are pretty much my life atm. And the basis of my portfolio to get into the uni i want to!

So please please please give me some feedback, I dont care if you know nothing about art, anyone can comment!

Here's the series, keep in mind the one im working on atm is missing

[link]

I'll love you forever!!

xoxoxoxoxoxo

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/18905311/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/18905311/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 04:59:45 PDT Canon 450D.
Its amazing.

Like,
seriously.
Its my first DSLR, so I can't really compare it to anything else.
BUT
It just feels so good in my hands.

I'm in love,
and we were meant for each other,
And im never letting it go!

x!

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/18850115/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/18850115/ Sun, 15 Jun 2008 07:00:51 PDT
Expect submissions.

x

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/18621268/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/18621268/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 04:44:37 PDT
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]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/18408406/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/18408406/ Tue, 20 May 2008 00:29:35 PDT I've got so much inside of me, I just can't get it out.
I need some mind blowing metaphors,
Some interesting words to inspire.
Yet I reach inside of me, and find nothing.

It seems like so long since I've written poetry just because I've chosen to, and not because I need to.

Once upon a time i couldn't go a day without writing.
I guess it could be a good thing.

x

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/17244959/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/17244959/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 18:29:14 PST Instead of my rents getting me the whatever it is, pearls or something pointless like that, they are going to get me a DSLR.
I was looking at buying the canon 400D but now in April there is a 450D coming out which looks a whole lot better for not that much more.
It comes with EFS 18-55mm Image Stabiliser Zoom and Canon EFS55-250mm Image Stabiliser Zoom. For $1,599.95 AUS.
But being me, I also want to get a macro lens, and don't know which one to get.
I would love to hear about macro photographers, lens they recommend etc. And anyone who has a canon camera

[link]
Thats the deal im looking at

So I'd love to hear from you guys.

xo

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/17027678/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/17027678/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 15:17:44 PST Missed alot of stuff i would have liked to have been doing.
But its helped me.
For some reason, laying in bed wishing i wasn't, gave me a better outlook on life.
I feel refreshed and ready to live again.

Keep creating everyone!
Inspire me.

xo



]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/16716631/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/16716631/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 00:32:56 PST


And I'm so fucking mad.

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/16265084/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/16265084/ Sat, 05 Jan 2008 04:01:35 PST But I have a myspace, dedicated entirely to my photography.
As a tester, to see how well it goes etc.

So please please check it out.
[link]

lovelove.

x

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/15871341/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/15871341/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 01:54:19 PST But I just cleared my entire devwatch
And I am hoping that my creativity kicks in again soon.

I'm going to the country for my cousins wedding.
I Plan on taking LOTS of photos.
So i hope that inspires me
To paint some more,
Write some more,
Live some more

I hope you all have a Merry Christmas,
If you don't celebrate christmas, I hope you have a lovely holidays.

xo!

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/15182475/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/15182475/ Tue, 23 Oct 2007 03:11:01 PDT
The Advantages of Being a Woman Artist:


Working without the pressure of success.

Not having to be in shows with men.

Having an escape from the art world in your 4 free-lance jobs.

Knowing your career might pick up after you're eighty.

Being reassured that whatever kind of art you make it will be labeled feminine.

Not being stuck in a tenured teaching position.

Seeing your ideas live on in the work of others.

Having the opportunity to choose between career and motherhood.

Not having to choke on those big cigars or paint in Italian suits.

Having more time to work when your mate dumps you for someone younger.

Being included in revised versions of art history.

Not having to undergo the embarrassment of being called a genius.

Getting your picture in the art magazines wearing a gorilla suit.

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14935005/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14935005/ Sat, 06 Oct 2007 01:11:08 PDT [link]
This is my photography assingment
Thought you might like to see it.

x!

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14626491/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14626491/ Fri, 14 Sep 2007 05:21:23 PDT I can wash away my mistakes.

Maybe...

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14555883/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14555883/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 05:38:48 PDT

Rules

1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

8 Facts About Me

1. I don't trust People easily. There are very few people I would say I trust completly.

2. I'm afraid of commitment, working on it though

3. Poetry, photo's, painting. It's my life. Its what gets me through and one of the reasons I'm still here today.

4. I'm a vegetarian. Because I don't believe that the way animals are treated before they are slaughtered is right. If you want to eat meat, I believe its ok as long as you kill the animal yourself and don't waste any.

5. I want to go to a beach when it's snowing.

6. I hate loose hair and walking on tiles barefoot.

7. There are times when I just keep sinking into depression, and can't get myself out. There are other times when I love life, and everything in it.

8. I'm more of myself now, than I have ever been before.

People I've Tagged


]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14375305/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14375305/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 04:44:44 PDT
]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14099614/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14099614/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 02:24:48 PDT [link]

Please please please.
I'll love you forever

xo!

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14086101/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/14086101/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 06:57:07 PDT
I just redid it.
So add me

[link]

x.

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13896946/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13896946/ Fri, 27 Jul 2007 06:50:11 PDT
And this is it lol.

Sorry to dissapoint,
But no depressing stuff tonight.

339 Deviations to get through.
And I haven't even glanced at them.

Working 10-6 Tomorrow, then going to Jesse's till late.
Working 10:45-3:45 sunday.
Then driving practise.
And English homework!

Three essays on Sylvia's Plaths poetry.
Easy enough because I love her stuff.

"Dying
Is an art, like everything else,
I do it exceptionally well."

-Lady Lazarus

Hope everyone is well!

xo

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13765713/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13765713/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 04:30:41 PDT Yet again I want it all to end.

I'm sick of this.

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13752261/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13752261/ Mon, 16 Jul 2007 03:32:46 PDT [link]

I love it.
I want it.
I almost need it.

sighs.

If anyone has any spare cash laying around.
Feel free to buy it for me

I sure don't,
Considering today I found out that to fix the oil leak in my car will cost me about 3000 dollars.
Because they have to pull the whole engine apart.
I only paid 4000 for the car!
So she's just going to leak
Its not that bad anyway.

And yea..
Thats about my day.
It wasn't as good as I expected it to be.

Also the fact that school starts again tomorrow doesnt help.
And that I have mountain loads of stuff to do.

Send me some lovin
Please?

xo

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13737087/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13737087/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 20:20:15 PDT
-Tracey Frugoli

[link]

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13703039/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13703039/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 01:57:47 PDT Whatever I see I swallow immediately
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike.
I am not cruel, only truthful ‚
The eye of a little god, four-cornered.
Most of the time I meditate on the opposite wall.
It is pink, with speckles. I have looked at it so long
I think it is part of my heart. But it flickers.
Faces and darkness separate us over and over.

Now I am a lake. A woman bends over me,
Searching my reaches for what she really is.
Then she turns to those liars, the candles or the moon.
I see her back, and reflect it faithfully.
She rewards me with tears and an agitation of hands.
I am important to her. She comes and goes.
Each morning it is her face that replaces the darkness.
In me she has drowned a young girl, and in me an old woman
Rises toward her day after day, like a terrible fish.

-Sylvia Pleth




]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13702721/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13702721/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 01:02:27 PDT I would be a confessional poet.
[link]

Sounds like what I write.
Its spontaneous
Emotional
And I don't spend alot of time on it.

Me.

Just take out the poet.
And use confessional.

I write confessional poetry

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13679529/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13679529/ Tue, 10 Jul 2007 03:37:59 PDT
x

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13573771/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13573771/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 05:59:01 PDT
I wish I could write like this.

"I remember when I was told of story of crushed velvet,
candle wax, and dried up flowers
The figure on the bed all dressed up in roses, calling
Beckoning to sleep,
Offering a dream

words were as mystical as purring animals
The circle of rage
The ghosts on the stage appeared
The time was so tangible, I'll never let it go
Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below
No one could see me

I fell into yesterday
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy

The words were as mystical as purring animals
The circle of rage
The ghosts on the stage appeared
The time was so tangible, I'll never let it go
Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below
No one could see me

I fell into yesterday.
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay.
I fell into fantasy

The girl on the wall always waited for me,
And she was always smiling
The teenage death boys
The teenage death girls
And everyone was dancing
Nothing could touch us then
No one could change us then
Everyone was dancing
Nothing could hurt us then
No one could see us then
Everyone was dancing
Everyone was dancing

No one could see me

I fell into yesterday
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy

Our dreams seemed not far away
Our dreams seemed not far away
Our dreams seemed not far away

I fell into fantasy"

AFI-The days of the phoenix.

They are my idols.
I adore them.

I wish writing could help me like it used to.
I used to be able to write everything out and then the problem wouldn't seem as bad.
That doesn't seem to work very well anymore.

I wish I could get my message across in a few simple lines,
But still leave the reader guessing and coming up with thier own conclusions.

I wish everything was alright.

I wish I could ignore this feeling,
Know that depression is just around the corner.

I wish I didnt feel like cutting.

I wish the world would just stop for awhile,
and Let me catch up to it.

I wish I could just give up.

I wish everyone I love and care about is happy,
but they arent.

I wish I could have just one night,
Of dreamless sleep.

I wish the bags under my eyes weren't getting darker,
And weren't so hard to cover up.

I wish to be numb,
Like I used to be.
Before I decided to ditch all my masks that I was hiding behind.
But now they are gone, I can't get them back.

I wish I didn't know it was the right thing to do.

I wish I wasn't so afraid of commitment.

I wish I didn't feel like I have to throw up or starve to get skinnier.

I wish I didn't feel like I should be skinnier.

I wish my heart didn't stop beating when someone signs in to msn,
Just hoping it's him.

I wish I didn't always make mistakes that I regret.

I wish I had more control over my life.

I wish I felt better.

I wish I wasn't pouring these wishes into some stupid deviantart journal.

I wish I wasn't rambling and that some good could actually come out of this.

I wish I could let go of my past.

I wish I was dead.

I wish someone understood.


I wish you don't read these.
And think I just need to put into a mental institution.

I wish I didn't think that about myself.


I wish he understood how much I love him.

I wish for help.
I'm going to get it.

I wish I had the guts to finally get it.



I'm going. ]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13554158/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13554158/ Sat, 30 Jun 2007 16:42:04 PDT I'm feeling a bit better now.
But this week,
I'm working 9-5:30 everyday except the weekend.
Then I'm having driving lessons and going to a 5 year old's birthday party.
Sooo
I'm not going to have much time to go on DA.
But I'm itching to take some photos lol.

Also.
I'm going to be tired.
And not seeing the one person I need very much.
So I'll probally be grumpy and down

But other than that!
Everyone have a nice week!
I'll talk to you all..
Some time in the not so distant future!


xoxo

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13478984/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13478984/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 00:06:26 PDT




I need help.

x

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13389062/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13389062/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 03:49:23 PDT
I wish I had comfort in some vodka.

I'll have to settle for a Modern assingment.


sighs.

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13307747/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13307747/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 19:06:46 PDT Hence the amount of pictures I uploaded.
Its pretty awesome out there.
At time I was past my ankles in water,
And I could have gone in to at least up to my knees.
I guess this is one good thing about the flash flooding and storms we've had.
Good photo oppertunitys

On the other hand, I have five assingments to do,
So i shouldn't be editing photos,
Or going for walks

And I won't be looking at deviations for a while.
Too much to do

Sorry!


x

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13146188/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/13146188/ Wed, 30 May 2007 02:24:02 PDT -Sir John Lubbock

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12893433/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12893433/ Tue, 08 May 2007 21:33:14 PDT That I have no desire to live.
It's days like these.
Where I just want to slip into sleep,
And not wake up.

These days,
I haven't painted,
Written,
Drawn,
Beyond what is nessercary.

School seems pointless,
Sleep seems pointless.
Life, seems pointless.



I wish it would end.

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12650286/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12650286/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 03:11:21 PDT So the past week or so,
I've been thinking.
And I've come to a few conclusions.
If you don't care, or have something better to be doing,
I suggest that is where you depart.



I refuse to name names.



1. I hate people in general.
2. Some people just seem to hate me for no reason. (The death stares, bitching etc gave it away)
3. Sometimes, I just don't feel the desire to live, but I'm going to keep living just so that I can spill my guts in a counselling session with my journal on DeviantArt. I know you all love it when you see a journal entry from tatteredheartxx in your messages, and that you all must rush to read it.
4. I'm not as afraid of commitment as I used to be. Still do not want to get married.
But who knows, I never thought that I would stay in a relationship for Nine months. So things are changing.
5. I'm more of myself now that ever before. Not just around certain people,
But around everyone. Deal with it.
The masks are fading, and most days, I like it this way.
6. I don't care what you think.
7. I'm sick of the screaming and yelling and crying and fighting. But I'm going to put up with it, because no ones life is perfect, and there are people worse off than me in the world.
8. I'm going to aim to write a poem every day, Even if I don't upload them everyday, I'm going to write one. I hate the times where I can't write, its like torture. There is something that eats away the inside of me that needs to come out in prose.
9. I hate dreaming. I can't sleep properly, and I haven't in so long because of these little suckers. It seems as if I can't sleep for five minutes straight without waking up shaking or sobbing. My dreams usually tell me stuff that I don't want to know. Things I've blocked out.
10. I am not going to block anything out anymore. This is a big one for me but I want to stop. It's not healthy, Especially at times when I get depressed, and can't even think of a reason why. I am not going to try especially hard to try and get back those memories and times that I have blocked from my concious mind, but I believe they are still there and hope that they will come back to me in time.
11. I now refuse to drink all energy drinks, but I'm still drinking weak mocha's occasionally as my caffiene hit.
12. I'm eating (regular healthy meals!), trying to drink plenty of water and looking after myself. I'm sick of being sick basically. I want my immune system to come back Even half a one would do me.
13. There are some things that I hate about myself, but I'm not going to dwell on them. I'm trying to actually appriciate who i am, not try and forget things, or pretend to be something I'm not.
14. I'm going to try and listen to the half of me that makes sensible descions. The half that doesn't tell me to throw up, or cut, or make friends with people that are only out to hurt me.
15. There is one particular boy who once, i considered my best friend. At one stage I thought I loved him, but I have come to the conclusion that I only loved that I was more of my true self when talking to him, that when around anyone else. Now, I love the fact that I am myself around all people. Not just one. I am nearly over the fact that he lied to me, used me, Told everyone what I told him in confidence and practically hurt me alot. The fact that I have deleted his number, msn and email has helped as well. What hurt me the most is, that after saying goodbye to him. He hasn't even tried to contact me. At all.
16. I'm going to dance, and sing and laugh now, whenever I want. I don't care what you think of me or what anyone else thinks of me. I'll do what I like thankyou.
17. I have a right to be happy, and I'm no longer going to get myself in situations that will hurt me or do things with the intended result of causing pain to myself.
18. I won't make promises I can't keep.
19. I'm not going to cut anymore and I don't feel the need to. Turn away and shake your head in disgust if you didn't know. Then get over it. Yea, I did. I don't now, and won't. I once promised myself that I wouldn't, 7 months I went then one day I snapped. Now I've realised that it was a distraction, and just another problem. Not the solution I thought it was. With the help of a loved one, I've realised that I needed to stop. It wasn't only hurting me physically but more so emotionally. It also hurt those I care about, And I have not been forced to do so, but on my own free will, I've promised not to anymore.
20. I feel that I can't thank that one person that means the world to me enough. He deserves to be thanked for everything, I just hope that my petty words and my heart are enough. I owe him the world. It amazes me that he n... ]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12611661/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12611661/ Sun, 15 Apr 2007 21:13:41 PDT Absolutly,

Feeling like shit.
I'm sick,
of everything.
Of working,
Relaxing,
Painting,
Writing,
Everything,
Just seems monotonus.
Ready to give up.

Sick of living.

But I'll get there.

Just bear with me while i try to paint/write/draw this out.
Pre-warning of mass submissions of shit art.

x

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12515487/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12515487/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 19:27:15 PDT So I'm a bit behind on the submitting a poem a day thing.
I'm going to catch up,
Like right now.
Its hard to submit a poem every day when I haven't even been on the net!
Soo busy lol.

Right now,
I'm looking out my bedroom window,
At three bottlebrush trees.
All completly adorned in bright red flowers,
The branches drooping with rainbow lorikeets.
Adorable.

Anyway,
So just here to say that im submitting poems.
A bit late.
But they will still get submitted.


Hope everyone had a good easter.
I am already sick of chocolate

xoxo

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12453440/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12453440/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 06:59:20 PDT For taking these feelings that im experiancing.
Out om Deviant art.
Out on the unlucky people who watch me.
Sorry for the shit loads of senseless crap poetry that will be in your devwatch.
Sorry for everything basically.

Peace bruz.

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12426284/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12426284/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 05:24:09 PDT I just had one of those.
Where i just write.
And write.
And write.
And don't stop until something disturbs me.
It was brilliant.
It had been too long.
The think that stopped me was having too many word docs open to fit on the task bar
Lost my spur of the momentness.
Sorry about the mass uploads.
Deal with it.
Or Delete all
No idea if they were any good or not.
But Im writing,
Which is good enough for me lately.
Because.
I felt as if i had fully lost my wordyness.
Quite relieved that I havent
In fact.
Over joyed.

Ill stop rambling now.
(I do that often when Im tired)

Life in a nutshell?
Still hate that guy.
Still in love
Sick of school,
Work,
And Life in general.
Am now the proud owner of a Moss Green Volkswagen 1972 Super bug.
(Check it at [link]/blacklashes)
Still can't decide whether to go to the easter show or not.
Laptop still sitting over there >>
Waiting for everything to be reloaded.
Still not sleeping.
But eating

Mosquitos are annoying.

Peace out.


]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12410954/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12410954/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 03:55:47 PDT Check it out: [link]

x

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12266669/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12266669/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 02:56:10 PDT Mass uploads to come

Other than that.
I started drawing againg today.
Mainly out of the need to express the anger inside of me
Ill upload them when I can be bothered

Talk to you all soon?

x

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12214616/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12214616/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 03:24:39 PDT I had a spurt of creativity before.
Wrote some poems.
Took some photos.

Now of course,
Its gone.

Once again I feel as if writers block is punching me in the gut.
And I said goodbye to my inspiration a long time ago.

Farewell dear friends.
Hope you are all well.

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12151600/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12151600/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 02:44:55 PDT Im warning you, im angry.
But I can't do a fucking thing.

xo

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12087875/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12087875/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 23:10:06 PST

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12048438/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/12048438/ Sun, 04 Mar 2007 02:39:26 PST Lately, I havent been able to write, or paint.
Or felt any inspiration at all.
And no matter what, I can't fix it!
I can't hold an interest in music.
Nothing is as it used to be.
I just dont..
I dunno.
Arrgghhh
I need something.
There is like a hunger deep inside me,
That I just can't sate.
*sighs*
Just kill me.
Nothing seems to matter much anymore,
Maybe this is the way its meant to be?

Im also worried.
I was throwing up yesterday, and the night before.
But noone I know is sick!
This has happened before... but...
I was quite stressed and upset at the time.
I was forced to go to the doctors (Mum)
And he told me that it wasnt self induced vomitting as such,
But that it was my fault.
Not a virus or anything.
Im scared thats happening again.

I think I need help.
Help me?

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/10728572/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/10728572/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 21:51:54 PST
The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist. After 100 pics who wouldn’t be better?

The rules

1.) Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.

2.) No time limit so have fun

3.) The main picture should be digital or tradional art. For all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photo shop to create the pic.

3a.) Pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the DA etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A.)You are in the challenge
B.)What you have completed

5.) Make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic

6.) In the comments for your art work, note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

Now the good part. CHALLENGE YOUR FRIENDS!

THE LIST….................
1. Introduction
2. Love [link]
3. Light [link]
4. Dark [link]
5. Seeking Solace [link]
6. Break Away [link]
7. Heaven [link]
8. Innocence [link]
9. Drive [link]
10. Breathe Again [link]
11. Memory [link]
12. Insanity [link]
13. Misfortune [link]
14. Smile [link]
15. Silence [link]
16. Questioning
17. Blood [link]
18. Rainbow [link]
19. Gray [link]
20. Fortitude [link]
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears [link]
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow [link]
29. Happiness [link]
30. Under the Rain [link]
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations [link]
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure [link]
37. Eyes [link]
38. Abandoned [link]
39. Dreams [link]
40. Rated [link]
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads [link]
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation [link]
48. Childhood
49. Stripes [link]
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting [link]
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out [link]
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale [link]
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb [link]
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/10676112/ Fri, 10 Nov 2006 05:19:18 PST It is unlikely i will sleep though
But I shall try.
While I am sleeping.
Comment some of my stuff!
Im so bored right now.
And I should be studying for the exams, But im just so over it.


Hope you all have a lovely night.

x

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/10630890/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/10630890/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 22:21:51 PST Im sick of this place,
I want to leave


And my journal needed an update



]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/10397042/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/10397042/ Sun, 15 Oct 2006 03:22:45 PDT It seems that all I have been doing lately is studying and working.
I haven't been using my creativity as much as I should and I was starting to feel really.... Dead inside. lol.
No I'm serious.
I hadn't written anything good in a while, hadn't drawn or painted in ages,
I hadn't even taken any photos.
So last night, I had a massive creative explosion.
I wrote like 5 poems.
Painted two massive pages.
And then i looked at the end result, and i was like wow.
Haven't done that in a while.

I swear studying has taken over my life :s
I'm so over it.

I give up lol.
Im going to spend monday and tuesday afternoon reading over stuff and other than that.
Im not doing anymore.

*sighs*

Ah well now that I have had my little rant and rave
im going to study some more!
Lol.

xx

]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/9995406/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/9995406/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 04:57:54 PDT You see, I have been looking for a signature that I could put on all my artworks for a while now, but nothing really fit.
Then the other day on the bus, I was looking at my bind rune that Keiron made me, and thought that the symbol on it would be an awesome signature to use.
So I asked keiron, and the bind rune means protection and love.
I used it for the first time tonight and i think that it looks pretty good.
Tell me what you think.
You can see it on [link]
Its the Green thing in the bottom right hand corner.

xx ]]> ~Tatteredheartxx http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/9914419/ http://Tatteredheartxx.deviantart.com/journal/9914419/ Thu, 31 Aug 2006 02:41:53 PDT Well, I officially got out my camera again this arvo, dusted it off and took some more photos.
I was pretty angry when I took them though, so I was shaking, and most of them came out blurry.
I haven't really had time to paint, take photos or satisfy my photoshop addiction because I have been so busy.
I have writers block as well.
Which MAJORY SUCKS.
But Cameron, I listened to you today when you told me to put some more stuff on DA so i took some photos lol.
Finally i got my artbook back as well! I left it at work on Sunday and have been in withdrawl for 4 days!
Anyways I Had better go
And stop talking to a computer

xx

Megan ]]> ~Tatteredheartxx