So this is the situation so far. I finally got out of that hell, but just to fall into another one.


I've graduated and I am now out on my own, sorta.
I had made plans to get a job and find an apartment "with help"
But I was unable to contact such persons. So I ended up going back to my shithole apartment. Even worse, all my belongings are gone, my laptop with all my art and music and programs. my 360 is gone the games too. my ps2 and my countless and hard to find games gone...

I left that place to my supposed refuge to find out that I am not welcome, I am given 3 days when out of the blue my mother calls and asks, "want to come to Florida?" I instantly reply yes and I am on a plane in 12 hours. I arrive to find out She didn't want to go to Florida, so I stay the night. Then the next morning she comes to me and in a run away theme we leave the house and her husband in Kentucky. Destination Florida, Mission, find a job.

Within a Day She finds a job and meanwhile I am stricken and in shock still from the change in environment, dealing with my things being stolen all my plans falling apart and deep depression from constant negative energy directed at me for the past 7 months.

My life seems to be improving but having to start from scratch is kinda tough since I am only 21. I will be spending the entire day tomorrow against my will out on the street to look for a job from 0700 to 1700 looking for a job. I believe that event though I may be applying for jobs in every place that is there, I will not find a single job, because I live a cursed life. The Devil himself is out for me, everything I do ends in failure. Speaking from experience.

Anyways yay for me. Such a positive life I'm so positive because my life is awesome, so awesome I'd rather bury my head in sand than be positive ever again.

I sit here now on my bunk looking at all that has happened now. I took a step into the world and fell to my knees. I looked for refuge in the Army by joining and most of my troubles were remedied. I eventually went through the trials and challenges and passed every one, as difficult as they were for my weak heart.

I lived allot while here at AIT, I've experienced the nature of human social life. But it is not what I desire so I am grateful to say that I am done.


I did have a problem though, today was graduation but I had a dentist appointment and now I'm on Quarters, so I cannot go anywhere. Getting 3 wisdom teeth and 2 broken to shit teeth takes allot out of you.

The numbness of the pain killers they gave me are working well. But I know too well the pain that I must endure when they ware off. So hopefully the medication get's to me in time.

I also have a new prediciment. I recently accidentally ripped off 1/4th of my pinky toe nail. it wasn't too much but a pain at the time, it later got swollen so I work bigger boots, but then Capstone, 5 days on the feild. I did nor get a chance to look at my feet the entire time, so I decided to check on the progress of my toe since it nolonger hurt as bad, and to my surprise it is worse. There is blood built up under the skin on the edge where the nail is no longer present. Fortunately I am getting antibiotics for my mouth so I just hope that fixes this problem, if not then I must got to a doctor.