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Ryuu was not to blame....at all. Whenever she lied, she lied to protect my heart. There were things she didn't want me to know, that I had eventually found out. Nothing like cheating, or something like that, but....just the truth. Lol. I won't say more than that about lieing, because that would be then reacing out to her bsieness as well.

She's not a bad person....at all. She's very kind and loving, just...I had pushed her away. She sais that we pushed eachother away, but I am to blame for it regardless. I had wanted to date her...so bad...because my heart could not accept the fact that she had wanted to stay as friends for the time being. And even if sh didn't come back do date me, still be her friend. Work on trust. She still doesn't trust me, and she doesn't forgive herself for what she has done...but...she didn'tdo anything wrong.

All women should agree with me I think, and I won't say all men for most men wouldn't give a shit. I'm not most men...though I am 16, and barely fit to BE a man, I think as if I am 10 years older...just...living my life as I should. Hard to explain that one.

She's now dating someone whom I know will take care of her heart. I trust her decision. She's very protective of her heart....(trust me...i know) and would not place her trust wrongly. Someone wanted me to stop her from dating her...for she could be raped....or....worse....but I know her. She wouldn't listen to me. She would listen to me say "He'll hurt you. Please don't do this" and hear "I love you, I want you back, and I'm really jealous of him"

Am I jealous? Yes. Will I try to stop her? No. Did I want to? Surprisingly...no. This will give me and her the time we needed as friends. She's no cheater. Lol.

All in the end...there's a quote that reminds me off this.

"Relationships -of all kinds- are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you clso your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold on to some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it it likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possesively, and the relationship slips away and is lost."

-Kaleel Jamison, The Nibble Theory

I found that quote in a book. "Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul"

It's a quote that reminded me so much of Ryuu-san, but, sadly, I got it a few days too late. Hell, maybe even a few months. All I know is, with the words that ryuu uses, I will learn from my mistakes, dust my shoulders of the wrong, forgive myself, and move ahead, and If I choose to try again, do it diffrently. Well Ryuu, if you're reading this, I am. I have. And I will.

Besides, I'm still your friend. And for once, I want to be.

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-Tekozuru Mottomo

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My name is Daniel Alexander G., and I am a sophmore at Tioga High. I am 16 and have a handful of actual friends. I have blonde hair, blue/yellow/red/grey/green eyes, I write poety and draw pictures only when I am inspired by somehting or someone. I play hundreds of video games and I am fairly good at chess. No, I am not butt-ugly, but I am not considered a sexy guy by any menas. I play piano as well, but even when I a in chiour and I am sight reading (reading music by just looking at it and singing), I cannot read piano music to save my life, thus, I can only play by ear.

I won't go into much detail for this is the second time I've tried to write out everything, and last tim was about 4 days ago, so I'm still alittle ticked that I pressed the excape button while reaching over my keyboard to get a Sprite can and drink what's left of it, deleting over half an hour's work that I had typed.

Fwi, it's only been 5 minutes. I type fast. Though I type fast, I look at the keyboard half of the time, so whenever I make a typo, i rarely feel like fixing it b4 Ifinish what I was trying to say.

I am a romantic kind of guy, but I'm no Mr.Perfect. I hold doors open for omen, I respect women, I do not try and steal women from another guy(which is compeltely wrong) or even cuss them out fo hit them. It's all sickly wrong.

And I ust go for I have company. I shall continue another chapter of my life I guess. For now, this is the prelude, and I am the author. C ya!

-Tekozuru Mottomo

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