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Yep. Still single, living at (relatively) new place by myself, decided to stick with college major because I'm too poor to change. I am still working the same two jobs, though at one my title has been upgraded to "the head of graphics" as opposed to just "the graphics".

Some of you may have noticed the occasional comic pages I've posted. They're from my webcomic, "Sandstorm Conscience". Specifically, excerpts from the second volume, "Anel Jogo", because I am incapable of drawing the first volume.

Still updating my personal website, though it's dropped to once a week to make time for the webcomic.

See you guys in about another year.

]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/18993374/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/18993374/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 01:02:41 PDT
Oh wait. Yeah I can.

Long story short, I've been staying crazy busy. Things have changed (read: broke up with only girlfriend thus far, ended up moving, thinking about switching majors, etc). I'm still burning the midnight oil as a web developer, focusing more and more on the flash and photoshop side of things. Starting a company with two other folks and I'm the graphics nerd, blah blah... nobody cares.

Still can't draw worth crap. Gotten much better at vector drawings recently though. Decided that it might be a good idea to clean up this gallery, considering that it's mostly filled with stuff from high school. Ouch, some of it's dang ugly.

I'm kind of looking for a skilled lineartist right now. I've got a short graphic novel that I've scripted, and have almost gotten the whole thing drafted (with panel layouts, camera angles, everything). The only problem is that it's way beyond my ability to draw. I'm hoping that I can find a person willing to do the linework, and then I can apply coloring (unless we decide to go b-w) and do the other post production stuff. It's not the best of stories, but I'm very attached to it,and I'd love to see it published.

Anyhow, I'm still updating my personal site twice a week. Check it out if you haven't, it's snazzy in several ways. Can't stop the signal.

]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/15471496/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/15471496/ Sun, 11 Nov 2007 22:30:03 PST
Last time I posted (april) I had made a major breakthrough personally- I had finally started using and understanding Javascript. Since then I taught myself how CSS actually works, and in the past week I have (with the advice of my roommate) set up a webserver and moved the site to it. Exciting times.

I have also gotten a real job as a webdesigner, working for a local art store. Interesting work, and loads more fun than any of my previous jobs. Shows how much self-teaching can pay off.

That's about it. If you're ever interested, go check out tsholden.com, it's showing my increasingly worthwhile work. I update at least twice a week, and have several other people contributing as well.

]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/12728933/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/12728933/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 10:45:30 PDT
As always, I must pimp my site [link] because that's where I post new art, articles, and other stuff. Now updating thrice a week.

]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/12356769/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/12356769/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 22:34:25 PDT
<_<

All I've really got to say is that I have a website [link] that I update twice a week with art or writings. Check it out, 'tis good stuff.

]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/11208499/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/11208499/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 05:20:49 PST
The main reason for failure (aside from quitting my job, exams, and then family) is my development of a new website (complete with domain name). You can visit it at "tentusonline DOT com", or here's a [link]

]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/10862767/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/10862767/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 23:18:32 PST
All of which is very true. I am a struggling college student (absentminded and lazy would be more accurate), I worked all of Thanksgiving break (and TG day, but that's an emo rant for later), and my girlfriend has been wearing me to the ground (she's fragile, to be polite).

But the real reason is much more fun to consider. I am losing my artistic side. It's being crushed out of me, not unlike a grape being run over by a 18 wheeler. Over and over. Steadily, the events of my life have conspired to kill my ability to produce art.

I've never been a good artist, and claiming to be original is a lie from just about anybody. So as I am thrust into communities of artists, I am always the odd guys out. Even when I am put in communities of non-artists, there's always someone better than me. Usually many people.

I've been trying to start a webcomic repeatedly over time, but I've never been able. And this mocks me all the time, because I save webcomics as I read them (and I read many many webcomics), and every time I do I see the mostly empty folder that should be filling up with my webcomic.

I've also found that my classes are not at all helpful towards art- I've been hating my Graphic Design class, and I can't get into a new one next semester. My parents are pressuring me to reconsider my major. My own computer fights me by refusing to run as well as it should and doing weird things to 3D stuff.

...

But I'm going to try and fight this, because I will _not_ be a wuss about my dreams. I am going to start posting a sketch every day for the next month, along with mini-rants to accompany each one. If I miss a day, I'll make it up the next day, or the next, until I come up with a full month of not only images but rants to help me vent and give people a look into my oftentimes abnormal mind.

That or I'll keel over useless.

To view go here: [link]

]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/9745320/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/9745320/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 07:38:09 PDT Life.

I wish one did not consume the other.

That is all.

Edit: Ha ha, now I have a moment before work to type a bit more.

My lady friend is back in town, which fills me with warm fuzzy feelings. Actually, wait, that might be my beard. Hmm.

I am brought to great awareness just how odd my possessions are. An eclectic mix of books, PC components, ragged clothes and camping gear, I am a nerd that likes being outdoors. Weird. Unusual to see someone playing a DS while arguing whether or not to bring the stove on the next trip.

I just got back from a beach trip. Huzzah! It was great, we kidnapped/ assisted-in-the-running-away-of a friend of ours, took him at the way to the beach with us and spent four days riding waves in a little raft. Twas awesome.

This is the first time in my relatively sunny life that I've ever been sunburnt. Even now the symptoms aren't quite in line with normal sunburn- the constitution of my skin is unique indeed. My skin on my shoulders is just coming off though (freaked me out before someone explained to me what was going on).

Yeah. Life has been crazy, and I think I'm finally ready for it. ]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/9318556/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/9318556/ Sun, 09 Jul 2006 06:34:55 PDT
Actually, I just hate it. ]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/9166400/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/9166400/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 06:33:13 PDT
My lady friend is moving tomorrow morning, moving way off the mountain (as in, 5 hours hard drive away). I'm very sad about that, but I'll see her once college starts up and she moves back to my hometown. Too bad that's like two months from now *cry*

It's been hectic around here and I want it to stop. On the bright side, I got a DS Lite, and have already given it my distinctive smudges around the D-pad and L trigger (i've played maybe half of Metroid Prime: Hunters in the past two days, it's crazy fun). ]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/9105656/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/9105656/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 13:10:51 PDT
How many of us really take a break during the summer? We swap from one kind of work o another, one which we don't get paid for, to one that we do but usually hate even more. For those with kids, life becomes tenfold as messy and complex. For those in website administration, things pick up like hell (see the ZLFF Calendars to see just how active my job has become [link]) and we find ourselves confounded by straining friendships.

I dunno, I'm feeling kind of down about my lot right now. Maybe I'm falling sick, or maybe because I've been reviewing my past accomplishments (Cube Legends) and current schedule. ]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/9061405/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/9061405/ Tue, 13 Jun 2006 22:25:39 PDT
Lots has happened. I've graduated, I've fallen more in love with my girlfriend (due to a currious collection of events that don't really make sense, even to me), my job has intensified, and life as a whole has shifted without tangibly changing. Somehow I have managed to flip my life over without really making a difference.

I am still keeping idiotic hours, despite it being summer break- amazing how work manages to find you despite your so-called "vacation". I am always lagging behind in the things I would like to do, ranging from fanfiction (writing and admining) to artistic stuff to game developement. I've been meaning for some time to help out with Sauerbraten, but it hasn't worked out at all.

About my girlfriend. It's kind of odd talking about this, because it's so personal in nature, but more importantly, it doesn't really fit together. Stuff doesn't add up, even in my head. We've been dating for well over a year and a season (about 16 months now I believe), and we're still pretty restained physically. Virgins would be the appropriate term, I believe. This makes us markedly different from our peers. And somehow (despite my male frustration that I am trying so valiantly to suppress) this has made me love her more.

We like to sit and play video games together. She'll play and I'll watch (currently working our way thru FF9), or maybe she'll kick my arse in SSBM. It's very peaceful. Every so often I'll talk her into playing paintball with me and the guys- I'm hoping to teach her how to shoot a real gun before college comes.

She's moving soon. It'll be a full month before I get to see her again. It worries me that I won't be around to watch her, to menace people away from her. She's a strikingly pretty and *cough* racked girl, to put it bluntly, and there have been a few times where I've tapped people on the shoulder and told them to walk away. It's never gotten ugly yet, but I still worry, and carry a blade with me at all times for that very purpose.

Maybe I'm just jealous. But being someone who has come to believe in love the hard way, I take it not for granted. I care for my girl more than I have words for, and I may be somewhat tense and irrate the next month, because I'm not around to defend her, and she's not to good at defending herself. ]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8766024/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8766024/ Sun, 14 May 2006 07:27:25 PDT
I have this lingering suspicion that deep down inside I am a nudist, just because me and clothes get along so poorly. The only clothes I have ever wanted to wear have been hand-me-downs from hike leaders or such, you know, the shirts and shorts that were worn for an entire summer without being washed until being handed to me (which means they still didn't get washed).

So needless to say, dressing up "nice" and standing in a crowd of babbling pinheads who think that (gyrating pelvis) x 2 == ((dancing)), and feeling my ears go numb does not exactly make me happy. Add on the fact that I had to give up 16 hours of work this weekend so I could attend, rise from the depths of an engaging project, and (naturally) pay WAY more money than makes any sense.

But I love my lady friend and it made her happy, so I guess that's what counts. (Next time we better be doing something I can enjoy, or I will die. My tetnus shot hurts like hell.)

]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8625662/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8625662/ Sat, 29 Apr 2006 21:56:34 PDT
I have been very, very sick and tired. When I am both of these, I get dumb. Like, so dumb that I wonder if me and someone else just swapped bodies for a time- I do things that wouldn't even begin to occur to me elsewhen.

For example, hold a peice of ice and some salt in my hand until it hurts, not realizing that "Oh yeah, I'm too sick to have much feeling in my appendages!" When I let go i had a mark in my left palm very much like the kiss scar from Fight Club. It hurts like hell, and there's nothing I can do about it.

On the plus side, I have begun purchasing and re-reading all the Sword of Truth novels, which is a genuinely gigantic endeavor which is keeping me from sleeping all that much. Oddly enough, it's keeping me sane too. I have an AP test and vocats starting next week, and I am _NOT_ ready.

bleh bleh bleh ]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8507495/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8507495/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 06:07:15 PDT
I would probably entitle it "Of Rats and Runners", making a pun off "Of Mice and Men", with the prefix "The Greatest Plans" to complete the pun and emphasis how absurd some of my endeavors are. Artistically, I'd probably use flash to position and render my characters and background gradients, to give me a consistent and cartoony appearance (and save me tons of work in the future). It'd be realistic, probably not Ctrl-Alt-Del or Megatokyo level, but more than say Order of the Stick.

I'll post some rough versions up to see what reactions are like. If the response is positive, I'll start working on making a library I can use to start a site. Hopefully I could build up half a dozen for a launch, plus two ahead so that I never have to be behind schedule. That's pretty irritating, especially when the artist is like me and only plans to do one a week. ]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8449760/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8449760/ Wed, 12 Apr 2006 14:41:57 PDT
Basically, Monday evening, we Technical Computer Applications people were supposed to take a test on Technical Computer Applications. Did we? No. Instead we took some crap on marketing.

Tuesday morning they give us the real Technical Computer Applications test, which still wasn't a very good test. The last 20 questions or so relied one pictures of Microsoft applications, but the pictures were so awful that I thought they were supposed to be really bad bendai art. No joke, that's how awful they were.

And then our contest administrator didn't show up, so they told us to come back at 11:00. We did, and they told us to make a flyer in MS Publisher (WTF?!?) Naturally, we didn't all have MS Publisher, so they changed their minds, and told us all to do it in Word instead. So, our contest was making a flyer in Word? Cool, let me tell you.

Ten, on Wednesday, the icing on the cake, of the top 5 winners, only 3 should have been up there (from talking to the others I would have put myself 4th or 5th). One of the two guys that shouldn't have been up there pulled the plug on half the competitors while the rest of us were saving and shutting down. What a doosh.

So ja, wasted a LOT of money and time and effort on something that has done nothing but irritate me and point out just how classist and disciminatory the rednecks at my school are.

Music: Snow Patrol, How To Be Dead ]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8338607/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8338607/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 22:44:05 PST
But, on the plus side, I'm almost done with the weekend (what a terrbily sad and pathetic plus side). It's been pretty rough, what with Ice Age coming out, our theatre network dying on us so that I'm the only one with a register still even remotely functioning (w00t for network know how, AKA lusky bastard ((unlucky bastard who got stuck with ALL the consession duty?)), but nonetheless the Gods of Fate chose to spare my register to live on). If you got through that whole sentence in one go I am impressed.

I'm doing better on my CET tests. Right now we're doing a long series of practice online tests, which actually count towards our grade, and not passing them was worrying me. But now it's OK, and things are going better. Also, WinXp is reinstalled on my developement PC (as opposed to my Family PC, AKA the internet machine). Or at least, XP better be on my machine, I had to let my little brother finish the install while I left for work. Bleh.

Getting sick from exhaustion. Not at all surprised (it's currently 1:42 AM where I live).

]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8318770/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8318770/ Thu, 30 Mar 2006 22:21:58 PST
I keep a journal of sorts. More correctly, I keep a log. No, it's more of a matrix.

You see, I have a peice of paper (now a bundle of papers), on which I write down the date, when I go to bed, when I got home, and how many hours I work. Also, I have a variable for whether or I saw a movie (I work at a theatre, movies are free for me.)

This, as you can imagine, is very bizarre. Every month I bring my papers into school with in the morning, and calculate up what my averages where. This usually alarms my friends considerably, which amuses me every time (otherwise I would just do it at home).

But now, tomorrow being April, I feel that I should institute a new form of log. Rather than just having a matrix of times, I think I'll upgrade and start adding in a single sentence (maybe two) to summarize the happenings of the day, much in the fashion of the Very Secret Diaries [link]

We'll see how this turns out ^^ ]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8304935/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/8304935/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 13:09:45 PST
Last journal entry (and first entry) was made about this time of month, in September. Wow. I be lazy. Actually, no it's quite the inverse- I work too much and haven't had the time, energy, or impulse to post a new journal.

In a nutshell, I'm a full time student, a full time employee at a theatre, and I'm one of the admins for a very large site, zeldalegends. I have a lovely lady friend, I coach middle school track, and I assist with the developement of the Sauerbraten game engine. My life is full.

But today I had some time in between assignments, and no track coaching today, so I decided to upload some things. It feels good to do so again, it's been half a year. Bleh.

Very tired right now. This 4 hours of sleep every night is killing me. ]]> ~Tentus http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/6594898/ http://Tentus.deviantart.com/journal/6594898/ Sun, 25 Sep 2005 00:46:58 PDT
I suppose i should rant about something, as a starting place for... whatever comes from all this. Hmm. I run, there's a good place to start. I do cross country as long as i can, and track whenever i can't. I was supposed to have a meet today, but couldn't run in it, because i've been under the weather for the last few days. Bleh. Pity too, it seemed like a good course.

Did you know that Gatorade + Goldfish make one of the worst aftertastes ever? Bleeghehrg. Anyhow, mving beyond my dietary distractions, I usually run in the low 18s or high 17s (for the 5k). I'm 4/5th on my team, which is nice, but it means that i really catch flak when i'm doing so hot. Oh well, that's how life is.

I still can't get past that taste. You'd think the two would go together. ]]> ~Tentus