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                <title>Panic Stations</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 30 Oct 2009 01:55:50 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ "A commander about to go into battle asked his cabin boy to fetch his red coat and when asked why he needed the red coat, the commander explained that if he were to be wounded in battle, he did not want his men to be disheartened by the blood. <br />One day the entire British armada appeared on the horizon and the commander turned to his cabin boy and said 'fetch me my brown trousers'"<br /><br />Relevance? That's how I feel right now lol. I've got a narrative to hand in for Monday but I want to hand it in today because it needs to be in by 10am on Monday and since I am also working at 12:30, I will be stuck in Edinburgh for 3 hours! Of course before I can hand anything in, I need to finish my storyboards for the script which is 40 something pages long.<br /><br />Panic Stations!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>You win this round Taort Cards</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 22 Oct 2009 01:45:00 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well I've been in University for about 6 weeks and it's been great. Although the course is a little bit challenging. I wrote a really long treatment for a narrative for my course work and I just found out on Friday that not only do I need to script it, but I also need to storyboard it as well! So I've had to cut it down a bit in order to finish it so I can hand it in in two weeks. <br /><br />It also turns out that I'm only in Uni for two days and I'm in work for two days which means I can still spend time with my man, Chris ^_^<br /><br />I've seen Up! Which was a really serious film and it did have its funny moments. I want a talking dog and it's nothing to do with Dug the talking dog in UP. I also went to see District 9 which I loved. <br /><br />Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days came out and I'll be getting it soon, but I'm more looking forward to Birth by Sleep on the PSP. Here's hoping it comes out here.<br /><br />One can hope ^_^<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Haven't posted in ages!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 08 Sep 2009 14:20:54 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Wow, one year ago yesterday was the last time I posted lol<br /><br />A lot has happened in the past year that I haven't posted a single thing. My college course was a complete shambles because for the first nine weeks, the programs were not working. I got the work done but the trouble did not end there, I never got my certificate until a couple of weeks ago because of some screw up with the course. Yesterday was my first day at University and in true newb fashion, I got lost trying to find the damn place, but eventually I stumbled across a taxi who took me to where I need to go for Â£3 lol<br /><br />I made a few new friends (I think - hope) one who shares the same last name and notebook incidentally. So hopefully that will turn into an actual friendship *fingers crossed*<br /><br />I finished the first draft and it's fucking terrible lol I've got so much to edit, alot of which is grammar, I've got storylines to fix, backgrounds to create and mannerisms to alter. 265 pages though ^_^<br /><br />Work has been absolutely terrible - I got a really shit score on my straight talking - and I am currently under scrutiny until my score improves. Hopefully because I am doing shorter hours, this will improve. I need to wait until this Thursday before I can get my timetable which I really hope is going to leave me with one day free, the same can be hoped for work if the former is hopeless. <br /><br />My relationship with my boyfriend has strayed on new and wonderful ground - 2 years, 4 months, 3 weeks and 1 day together so far! - we've been seeing each more often with the summer but I fear that is soon coming to an end. Tomorrow he's coming here for a day that will probably be our last for a long while. See, University is all week apparently 9-5 which leaves me an hour to get to work to do a 6-8 which is 2 hours a day. Even if I was to do this for the full week, that still leaves 3 hours of contracted work which probably means I will have to do a Saturday - I'm contracted to do 2 Saturdays out of every month - So unless Uni ends an hour or so early on certain days, my week is pretty much booked. And Sunday, as depressing a fact as it is to admit, is my only free day as my department isn't open on a Sunday nor does Uni run on this day. Sunday of course is the only fucking day that the trains don't run to Glasgow. So needless to say I'm going to be a little depressed at not seeing my boyfriend <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /><br /><br />But hey, we've been through worse, and there's always the holidays to see each other and it's not as if we are phone shy. The longest we've ever been a part is 5 weeks and I have a sneaking suspicion that we are about to break to record. *sigh* No point in getting upset about something I don't have all the information about. Thursday will be the decider...and by extension Friday since thats when I have to agree my shifts. Here's hoping that goes well.<br /><br />Apparently though - according to the Tarot cards - University is meant to be a fun experience for me and everything's going to be fine. Funnily enough they also said I'd be in my work for another six months and despite all the crap that has happened; I'm still there! I was actually disappointed when I didn't get fired...how strange is that, you would think that in this time of recession, I'd be glad but I was a little disappointed...*shrugs* oh well<br /><br />I'll be sure to update the journal about the outcome of the timetable.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Ten Reasons Why Gay Marriage is Wrong</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 07 Sep 2008 03:02:59 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ 1)  Being gay is not natural. (Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.)<br /><br />2)  Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay. (Much in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.)<br /><br />3)  Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior.  People may even wish to marry their pets (because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract).<br /><br />4)  Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasnÂt changed at all. (Women are still property, blacks still canÂt marry white, and divorce is still illegal.)<br /><br />5)  Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed. (The sanctity of Britney SpearsÂ fifty-five-hour, just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.)<br /><br />6)  Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. (Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldnÂt be allowed to marry because our orphanages arenÂt full yet, and the world needs more children.)<br /><br />7)  Obviously, gay parents will raise gay children (since straight parents only raise straight children).<br /><br />8)  Gay marriage is not supported by religion. (In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed upon the whole country, which is why we only have one religion here in America.)<br /><br />9)  Children can never succeed without a male and female role model at home (which is why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children).<br /><br />10)  Gay marriage will change the foundation of our society. (We could never adapt to new social norms.  Just like we havenÂt adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.)<br /><br />To the person who came up with this, this piece of writing is so cool! The sentences in brackets are meant to be the sarchastic part of the sentence ^_^<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>The Avatar Finale!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 20 Jul 2008 04:04:45 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ OMG The Avatar Finale was f**king amazing! If you've been following Avatar and you haven't seen it yet...Watch it! It will blow your mind! *sigh* And now that it's over there is a void that needs to be filled...This sounds like a job for Chris! Bwhahahahaha!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>For You</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 28 Jun 2008 13:25:18 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I've grown to live<br />to love and laugh<br />I'm quite the man<br />to know and have<br /><br />struggle and fight<br />is to sacrifice<br />let's have the right<br />to have suffice<br /><br />to marry the one you love<br />initiates a bond till death<br />married or not<br />I'm there till your final breath<br /><br />a crime it is to love someone<br />what a twisted world this is<br />they could never bring us down<br />for love will always exist<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Almost free!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 01 Jun 2008 04:08:07 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I've finally done my exam and there's only a few more things e.g. website design and such like to finish. But for today I'm just enjoying my Sunday writing and or drawing (Haven't decided yet) But anyhoo, hope you all enjoy your sunday as well ^_^<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>When Ric found out </title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 20 Mar 2008 09:36:37 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ The funniest and somehow annoying thing happened today. About three weeks ago one of my college mates asked me if I was Gay, and was surprised when I told them I was. I said to one of my friends that "I bet when Ric finds out, he'll say words to the effect of 'I always knew'"<br />Today I was drawing at the computer and only started listening to the conversation going on behind me when I heard Ric say "Yeah Callum only came out this year" or something like that (I only started listening when my name was mentioned lol) Anyway, I turned around to contribute to the convo. As I thought would happen Ric said "I had an incline that he was"<br />But what annoyed me the most was the fact that he started saying things like "Where you that ashamed of it that you didn't tell me" and Blah, blah, blah. I pointed out to him that he had never once asked me if I was and so found no reason to tell him, not because I was ashamed but because it never came up in conversation and it would be so random for me to say it. Besides I'd already told David, Stephen, Jamie and Craig and they were the only ones I really wanted to tell. I felt like asking Ric who the fuck he thought he was to lecture me about telling people. Again, I'm not ashamed I just don't broadcast it randomly, if people bring it up in conversation or ask me, I tell them. In fact when I made friends with people in my second year in college, I told them almost instantly because I wanted to be sure they'd still be friends with me even though I'm Gay. <br />Which brings me to the final point and bottom line reason I wait till asked. Most people are pre judge mental, how are they supposed to get to know me if all they see is my sexuality? For a number of months the friends I have now were complete assholes to me when I told them, but now their fine with it. So forgive me if I don't broadcast it, sometimes I just like to avoid the agro if I can<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Fair?</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 16 Mar 2008 13:32:06 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Yesterday I went down to the shopping center to get my hair cut and I was reminded by my Sister that I had to get an Easter egg for Mum because she had gotten one for Dad. I haven't got a lot of money in my bank but I spare a few pound and get an Easter egg for my mum. "What else are you getting her?" she asks. When I tell her that I'm only getting the egg, she notes in a bitchy way "That's not very fair" in my usual manner I dismiss the comment and proceed to the check out thinking 'Not very fair?' <br />So whilst at the checkout my mind was in overdrive thinking it over. Not that I'm complaining but I have had to pay out a lot this month. I had to pay for digs, glasses, my dads birthday present and card, a Mothers Day present, the deposit for the holiday. But of course, it's not fair that mum gets a Â£2 Easter egg even though I'm leaving myself with hardly any money for work lunch and it's not fair that mum doesn't get anything else for Easter? Even though she got a DVD for mothers day? Even though she invited my boyfriend to my Dad's birthday dinner and then said he couldn't come because she wanted to 'relax' at the dinner and she wouldn't feel 'comfortable' with him being there. <br />At this rate, she's lucky she got anything for Easter. And personally I'd rather spend my money on the more important things like paying train fairs to work so I can make more money. Ironically I could have spared more money if mum had let Chris come to the dinner. Thanks to her I had to go see Chris in Glasgow (Which is better than not seeing him at all) But I would have rather he had been allowed to stay over.<br />Don't know about you, but I think that what I managed to buy with my limited supply of money was as fair as it could have been. And in all fairness it is better than no egg at all. I swear, I can't wait to get out of this house because I am so sick and tired of Homophobic bullshit from my family, if I wanted all of that, I'd go to a Nazi camp. I doubt there'd be a difference.<br /><br />That's it for now, I've had my rant<br /><br />Love you Chris x x x x x x<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Valentines Day</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 14 Feb 2008 07:14:08 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I want to wish everyone a happy Valentines day, particularly my Boyfriend Chris (Fuschia-Foxx) Today we have officially been going out for 10 Months <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /> <br />Instead of buying a card, I decided to create a picture for him instead. Hope you like it hunni. <br /><br /><br />Love you hunni!!!!! x x x x x x x x x x x x x :3<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>The Resolve</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 06 Feb 2008 12:20:30 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I decided to update my deviant page with new images as I'm finding them. I'll probably add more characters tomorrow because I'll need to pull them off of the laptop. I have a few new images kicking around somewhere...<br />I want to say thanks to all the kind comments that have been made so far. THANK YOU EVERYONE!!! This smiley face <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /> is for all of you. <br />To my boyfriend, I love you very much!!!! The following kisses are for you; x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x you'll get those in person later *grin* and as it is almost Valentines day I'll have something for you then as well ^_^<br />Can't wait to see you on Friday!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>The Aftermath</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 03 Feb 2008 09:49:13 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It was only a couple of days ago, the night before Chris came over to stay that my mum wanted to talk to me. No prizes for guessing what it could be about...To cut a long story short with a brief summary, the conversation was about how "She didn't understand how to men could feel that way about each other" and that "She would never be jumping for joy about it" and perhaps the best part of all was the denial of saying that she "Wouldn't care if my Sister and I were Gay or Lesbian as long as we were happy" Not even a second went by after me stating this that she denied it point blank. <br /><br />I've been reminded so many times by my sister that I need to give them time and that mum was only being honest with me. And said that "You wanted them to know" Which is her way of saying that I that I have no right to bitch and moan about it. Don't get me wrong, I didn't expect them to be ok with it to begin with, it's just the idea that they are NEVER going to be ok with it that bothers me. And all my sister can say is "You can't expect them to be ok" why the hell not? What is wrong with having a boyfriend? I'll let you in on the secret; It's because she's never getting a Grandchild from me and it's how she is going to look.<br /><br />When I was younger I would get moaned at because my hair was a mess and like a typical teenager I couldn't care less what my hair was like or what I wore. As it was explained to me, it's how she is going to look as a mother. So basically her and Dad are not happy because people will see me and Chris holding hands in public and for some reason will automatically think "What bad parents they must have" or perhaps its the embarrassment I will bring them because of course (Sarchasm) Everyone knows who my mother is and the moment they see me they know who my mother is.<br /><br />I know alot of deviants will disagree with me but personally I don't think it's alot to ask for your parents eventual acception of who you are. My sister for example just broke up with her boyfriend after a 3 year relationship and is still taking to him. Mum and Dad aren't happy about it, but I was there for her when she needed me, I didn't pass judgement, I didn't imply that she had no right to bitch because in my opinion it's her life and she can't help how she feels. Apart from the fact that she hasn't been there for me when I need her, the point is that eventually Mum and Dad will be happy because she'll find someone else, but for me as Mum has stated, they will never be happy with me.<br /><br />lol Parents huh?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>The Telling</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 25 Jan 2008 06:27:41 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I had always wondered how my parents would react when I finally had the guts to tell them about Chris and me. Two weeks ago this humble curiosity was satisfied when I told my mum one night. She cried for about 3 or 4 days after that lol I was so pissed off at her. My sister kept saying that I shouldn't be angry at her and that it was a big change for her. To which I told her that the reason I was angry was because she was acting as if I was dying. A while ago she said that she "Wouldn't care if my Sister and I were Gay or Lesbian as long as we were happy"<br /><br />Curiously enough, having the best boyfriend in the world makes me pretty frickin happy. I even told her I was happier, and yet what followed was crying. She eventually told me that she was upset because she felt it was going to be a hard life for me and she seemed to be under the impression that this had been a decision I had only just recently made. She's only human, she gets upset and I know I make her sound terrible with what I've written, but she's actually a good person all and all. <br /><br />As per usual, there's a point in time where alot of bad things happen and I don't deal with them. What basically happens then is I let all the bad stuff get on top of me and basically I end up hurting myself. I know there's alot of things that I could handle alot better, things that I wish I could have handled alot better, but the unfortuante thing is that its easier said than done. <br /><br />I have an old friend who, lets just say went too far and I no longer want his company. He's the sort that needs an explanation and if he doesn't get it, he'll keep asking and asking etc. And even then, if he doesn't like the answer, he keep asking. Needless to say I got tired of explaining myself and the next time he called I told him to piss off. Ever since he's been called and shouting stuff over to me in the shopping center. Now there's something I could have handled alot better. See the problem is that he can never admit when he's wrong, it's always someone else's fault. So how do you deal with someone like that? Here's hoping that the solution will present itself soon. <br /><br />As for college, the course is mostly stuff I can't be arsed with doing. Seems to be the main theme of every single course I have ever done. Just recently though, an old friend got in touch and has asked me to desing a character for, so here's hoping I can do a decent job *fingers crossed* Other than that life has been...well, kind, for lack of a better word. <br /><br />Oh well, enough writing for now, I'll try and post more characters later.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Merry Christmas</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 26 Dec 2007 13:08:13 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I know it's a day or so late but, Merry Christmas everyone!!!!!!!(Also Happy Birthday Jesus!) And also to get a jump on thigs, Happy New Year!!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Being Gay</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 03 Dec 2007 11:33:57 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I had another random thought today that made me think about my past life. My sister knows that I'm Gay, but I still haven't come out to my parents yet. It's actually alot harder to tell them than what I first thought. On one hand, my parents have always said that they didn't care whether or not me and my Sister were Gay, as long as we were happy. But on the other hand my mum got really freaked out when she found certain things in my bin. I know what you're going to say 'I should be more discrete' but in my defence my mum has never emptied my bin before, so I wouldn't have given it much though to empty it. <br />
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It's not just my parents, it's my entire family tree. Guaranteed that there will be at least one of them that doesn't like the idea. Which brought me to the next though of one of my Grans closest friends. She has a daughter who is married and they have three kids, the oldest being a boy. We used to hang out when we were younger, but eventually (I imagine his dad had something to do with this) My Grans friend would make up stories that basically meant that her Grandson couldn't come out to hang about. I understand her concern, after all I was much older than him, but I considered him like a cousin and me being the youngest in my family tree, I understood what it was like to feel alone. Anyway, back to my point, my Gran's friend doesn't seem to be the type of person who is alright with Gay people, I guess I would feel really hurt if she felt that her Grandson even talking to me, would turn him Gay as well. <br />
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I know; I have way too much time to think about this stuff, but when you're stuck in work on the late shift, you're mind tends to wander. As my boyfriend described it, I am a latteral thinker. Basically thinking about all the angles of a situation. Sometimes a good thing, sometimes bad. <br />
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Then the though brought me back to when I was in school. I feel so sad and angry about the Sex Ed class because not once did they say that it was possible for a man to be with another man and a woman being with another woman. I was angry because adults always pass on their predjudges onto their kids. A baby doesn't know right from wrong, the point is that the parents help teach the baby what is right and what is wrong. Not one person here can tell me that a baby would find a gay couple to be wrong. They might find it strange, but when they grow up and are a teenager, if they were allowed to make up their own minds, I doubt they would be so hostile against Gay people. It is the fact that the adults have to tell them that in their opinion, homosexuality is disgusting. <br />
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It's sad that kids grow up in a world where most of the time, they can't make decisions for themselves. They grow up into a world thinking that they HAVE to be with a member of the opposite sex, that they HAVE to get married, that they HAVE to have sex and produce a screaming bag of chemicals that will one day grow up into an adult and the cycle will start over again.<br />
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Someone me and my lover thought of was that; did anyone ever consider that Homosexuality is natures natural way of solving the over population problem? If most people were Gay there might not be as many children. If it's not Global warming, it's over population that the Government is moaning about. Yet there are still people who complain about it? My reasoning is that if animals are doing it then Gayness must be natural. After all animals are more in tune with nature than we are. <br />
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Finally in this random thought, I came back to the present. I don't want to make a big deal out of it because it's not a big deal. I'm going out with guy, a guy who has made me more happy than I have been in a while. I don't mean to say that the other relationships I had were terrible, but the point is they ended. I got hurt. And so far my boyfriend hasn't done that. There were times when I got got hurt during the previous relationships. My point is, if I'm happy with my life, with whomever I chose to spend the rest of my life with...who is anyone to tell me that it's wrong? What's so wrong with wanting to be happy? <br />
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It's that reason that keeps me going, that helps me go to work and face the snide remarks, that helps me go to college and shrugg of the Gay jokes that the others say with so much Venom in them. What is so great about striking fear into people just because of their choices? What is so fantastic about making someone feel like they're wrong, that they're something on the bottom of a shoe? I just don't see what the appeal is of making another person, who doesn't deserve it, feel as if they are entirely alone in the world. I'm so sick and tired; I've heard every snidey Gay joke they're is, I've heard the insults when those who have told them think that I can't hear them, I've seen other Gay couples crying because passers by can't stop themselves from saying something just for the sake of saying it. I'm sick and tired... ]]></description>
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                <title>Animation</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 01 Dec 2007 14:11:16 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ This time around in my course I am determined to create an animation from the story I'm writing. I've been dying to do this animation for years, I have the song, the characters and the moves all planned out. This time around I want to create this animation just so I can prove that I could have done it last year had I not had the sceptical teacher and students telling me that "it's too advanced" It's the HNC for God Dammit! Short of a university how more f*$king advanced could it be? I must not listen to what the other students say, but I can't wait till I animate this thing because as Deviant Art as my witness, I will rub it in their faces if I actually manage to create this animation! Bwhahahahaha!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Right or Wrong?</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 13 Nov 2007 02:39:20 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It's wierd, but lately I've been feeling different, and not in good way kind of different. It's so confusing in fact that, when three of the people I hang out with a college decided to ditch me, in some ways I feel as if they were right to do it, but I don't why. I feel as if I've some how come off the rails, strayed off the path and I'm not who I used to be, in fact I'm a worse version. People used to, and probably still do, take the piss out of me. And somewhere along the way I just stopped caring and turned into a sarchastic, cynic person. Even as I'm typing this, I feel sick to my stomach, as I have been for the past few weeks and that usually means that something bad is on the way. But maybe this time, it's my body's way of telling me that something about me, isn't right. <br />
I know it sounds strange but I take any signs I can get and since this stomach ache began on the Monday on which I was ditched, I can only imagine that it has something to do with me. Maybe it's because I let myself get so angry at what they did, but in the end I was too much of a coward to ask them why they did it, even if I did, they would probably say it was a joke, and I know it wasn't. I just came to the compromise that I would act like nothing happened, as they did, and just not hang out with them at lunch, but even yesterday me and my friend hung out with them for a little while. <br />
I just don't understand alot of what's happening to me and I'm afraid of turning into someone who I'm not. I've got to go to work now and have more customers shout at me over the phones. I guess that reason that all of this bothers me so much is because I feel as if I'm losing friends because of it. I feel as if some of them have giving up and me and some are on the verge of giving up as well. And somewhere down the line, am I going to lose the person who means the most to me?  Have I really become the kind of person who does the wrong thing but believes it to be right? Have I become the kind of person whom people used to be alright with, to the kind that peole despise but they never say it? <br />
Enough self pity, I've got alot to do this week, so I might as well make the most of the free time I have ^_^<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Happy Days!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 28 Oct 2007 04:35:55 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm finally managing to start a comic! YAY!!!! Just rough for now until I get the characters designed but here's hoping I finish what I start for once ^_^<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>For Chris</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 27 Jul 2007 10:26:17 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I heard this song that I haven't heard in a long time so I decided to write down the lyrics. It sort of applies to the way I feel about chris. That as long as he'll have me, I'll be there for him. Hopefully Chris might agree about the song. Sorry in advance if you don't xxx<br />
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IÂll be your candle on the water<br />
My love for you will always burn<br />
I know youÂre lost and drifting,<br />
But the clouds are lifting,<br />
DonÂt give up; you have somewhere to turn,<br />
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IÂll be your candle on the water<br />
Till every wave is warm and bright<br />
My soul is there beside you<br />
Let this candle guide you<br />
Soon youÂll see a Golden stream of light<br />
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A cold and friendless time has found you<br />
DonÂt let this stormy darkness hold you down<br />
IÂll paint a ray of hope around you<br />
Circling in the air<br />
Lighted by a prayer<br />
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IÂll be your candle on the water<br />
This flame inside of me will grow<br />
Keep holding on, youÂll make it<br />
HereÂs my hand so take<br />
Look for me reaching out to show<br />
As sure as rivers flow<br />
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IÂll never let you go<br />
I'll never let you go<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Old Friends</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 03 Jul 2007 11:28:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well this month is a month of change. I have a new hair cut and it's way shorter than my last hairstyle. I'll be training for Collections soon in my work place (whatever the hell Collections is, I have no idea lol). I finally logged onto MSN, I haven't been on it since April so I've got a few things to catch up on with my friends. Right now I'm talking to my friend in Canada. It's wierd telling him what's happened in the two years since I last saw him, which ironically enough is only taking five minutes to explain. So basically I'm trying to stretch out the information, it's wierd.<br />
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Other than that I'm still writing Spider man and so far I'm on chapter 8. I know if I told the guy in Canada about it he'd start babbling on about copyright and all that crap. I'm only writing it for fun and whenever someone does a fanfiction about a film or series, I don't hear anyone complain about them. I'm just writing it for fun, which surprisingly enough, people think it's wierd that I write for fun. It's just a point of view, which I try to explain to them. I don't understand how they couldn't understand different points of view. For me, I hate football and I don't like the races either, they seem pointless to me. But for other people they enjoy that sort of stuff and I understand. It just bugs me when they don't understand why I don't like the same things that they do, as if there's something wrong with me. It's f@~king bizarre. ]]></description>
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                <title>Remembering</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 29 Jun 2007 14:27:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I bought a diary type thing on Wednesday with the money I slaved away in the salt mines for. But I won't be able to write anything in the days yet because the first page is for the first of July, which is my Cousins wedding Anniversary, My cousin Jacob and my new cousin Stacey have been married for a year! Jacobs been having a joke with Stacey about having four kids lol. Anyway, I decided to write a few paragraphs of things that had happened to me over the past seven years as far as I can remember, so that by the time I write something on the first day in July, it will be up to date. I know it seems a bit strange to some people why I'd write down my thoughts and stuff down on paper. but I guess I just don't want to forget too much from my past. <br />
The past always has the greatest influence on the future, I don't want to forget the lessons I've already learned and the friends I had and lost. Also the origins of the stories I'm writing. There are things in life, be they good or bad, should never be forgotten. People will say that hurts should be forgotten and anger should be let go. In my experience when I hate someone, there's been an occasion where I forgot why I hated them. My friends bitched and moaned, telling me that I shouldn't hate someone for no reason. So like an idiot, I gave this person a chance, and what they'd done before, happaned again. I'm all for letting by gones be by gones, but that doesn't mean we should completely forget what a person has done. If someone made fun of you in school, and they suddenly come back into your life, wanting to be your friend, personally I'd tell them where to go. But for some people who forget, they allow this person back into their lives and the same thing happens all over again. Granted someone who is fully aware of what this person did to them before lets them back into their life, they can see the tell tale signs if this person is turning back to the way they used to be.<br />
*sigh* some people are just poison. You're glad when they're gone but like a disease they come back and you have to do everything in your power to get rid of them again. And it doesn't help when everyone is on their side. The hardest part is trying to control myself so that I don't say "I told you so" when they realise what kind of person this poison really is. And by then they've screwed over everyone and they're all filled with hatred of this person. Which is a poison all to itself. I still hate this one guy, and I hate to see him happy after all the sadness he caused. Why am I talking about this you ask? Because these people exist and like idiots, no one should put up with them. Instead they should cursh them into the dust and then buried in a metal jar.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I'm all alone...</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 26 Jun 2007 08:30:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It's really funny how you can come to Scotland and experience every single Season that excists in one day. One minute you're sweating from all the layers you have on because a minutre prior to that it was snowing, then the next minute it starts raining just as you take off all the layers you had on. I wish we had cool clothes that change with the weather *sigh*<br />
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Anyway, this weekend was amazing!!! I had the house to myself and when I say to myself, I mean just me and my boyfriend ^_^ But now he's gone home!!!! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /> And I'm all alone with only the memories of Pina colada *wink, wink* he knows what I mean lol. I only have to wait 3 days to see him again, even if it's only for one day in Glasgow <br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /> I miss him so much.<br />
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Love you hunni XXX<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Missing You</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 20 Jun 2007 03:28:54 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Sorry I haven't posted anything on DeviantART for a while, but I've just been sketching things so far. I promise that when I have something to post, I'll post it ^_^ Right now I'm working on drawings for a comic I'm doing for "Mister Monday" the first part in the "Keys to the Kingdom Series"<br />
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I haven't been on the internet for a while because the best thing happened over a four day weekend, my boyfriend came over to stay!!!! It's the most time we've ever spent together which is probably the reason it hurt so much when he had to leave. Wow, it was such a wierd feeling. I guess it's a good thing though, because it shows how much I love him. The upside to all of this is that I only have to wait a few days to see him again, except this time, we'll have the whole house to ourselves Bwahahahahahahaha!<br />
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*Rubs hands together* <br />
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But, I still have to wait, I'd wait for him for thousands of years, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't miss him.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>A Special Day</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 07 Jun 2007 14:20:15 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ This day is a special one, because two months ago today I first set eyes on the most beautiful human being. *sigh* I'm still kicking myself that I didn't kiss him on the bus<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Changes</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 04 Jun 2007 10:50:06 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It's funny how change can be both good and bad yet always scary. One of my firends whom I used to have feelings for (but are long since dead) has changed for the worse. We used to go to the cinema and hang out at each others houses, then change came along. Again, change is a funny thing, because both good and bad things came out of that change. My friend and I have fallen out and ever since that fall out, he's been doing all of these things out of spite. He even went as far as to wish death upon me, threaten to get my ex involved and he even told me that he cuts himself now. Am I the only the one that thinks he's taking a load of guff?<br />
The best change that ever happened in my life was the day I knew that I was Gay, becuase if that had never happened, then I wouldn't be with Chris. It's a shame that the English language is so primative, I can't describe how much I love him in the way it deserves to be said. No matter how crappy I feel, all I have to do is hear his voice again and all those feelings turn to dust. I spent the weekend with him and he'd only been gone a few seconds before I started to miss him. <br />
I guess that's probably why I hate the world sometimes. Ned couples who wear clothes that show their butt clevage, who practially grope each other in public, have more of a right to public affection than gay couples. There was this french couple who gave me and my boyfriend the snake eye, just because we were hugging. I mean come on! A mistake some people make when I tell them this is that they think I expect people to like seeing me and my boyfriend showing public affection. <br />
I don't expect people to like it, I just expect them to get over themselves and except it. <br />
Instead of acting the hard man (or woman) acting like it's such a great achievement to hurt another human being, I just wish they could come to a simple agreement of leaving people alone. In public, I don't really care about kissing my boyfriend in front of people because I love him and I don't see why I should have to hide that fact just because some idiots "Don't like to see that sort of thing". Personally I don't like seeing couples tongue wrestling and pulling clothes down in public (And that does happen, i've seen it *shudder*) But I don't beat the Â£$*! out of them because of it. <br />
Yeah i'm rambling now, this whole thing started out about change and now it's about human beings beating up other human beings because they can't find a shred of acceptance. Oh well, one can only hope that one day all will be equal and leprecons will frollic in the flowers distributing gold coins and fairys will fly around killing Neds with their awesome fairyness.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Wrapping things up</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 30 May 2007 10:31:12 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It has been a great year at college doing graphic design and illustration was fun, but now it seems that all of that is coming to an end. In three weeks time my course will be over and I'll be free to roam the earth and best of all, I'll get to stay with my boyfriend for a longer period of time. *sigh* I miss him alot when we're apart, but he's definetaly worth the wait. I'm looking forward to seeing him this weekend - it's been a very stressful week, all of which disappears whenever I hear his voice.<br />
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The project I've been working on for the past few months is almost over and done with. It's actually got to be handed in next week so I probably should get that done. And the media stuff as well - I've only done a poster and I need to get a ticket and pamflet done as well. Not to mention I've got a talk to do for comms as well, looks as if I'm going to be busy over the next few days. Last minute panic seems to be the only time I do alot of work lol. <br />
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Anyway, I think that's enough for now, hope you all have a good week, it's almost the summer holidays!!!! YAY!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>And on the Second Day....</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 26 May 2007 14:17:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I had so much fun today! Met my boyfriend in Glasgow and we went shopping holding hands and hugging recieving funny looks from the people around us hehehe. I bought a bandana and I'm still trying to figure out how to ware the Â£@#!ing thing. Anyway the most important thing is I got to spend a day with the person who makes my life worth while. <br />
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On another note, I've done 6 chapters of the spiderman story and I'm currently working on the 7th one which features the Green Goblin. I managed to get a comic with him in it for research and I got more ideas for the entire storyline, not just the chapter. YAY!!!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>First Day</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 25 May 2007 14:07:37 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ There's nothing like working at Lloyds TSB to put me in the mood for stabbing people. One of my managers is evil and I swear I'd kill myself if I didn't think she'd be waiting in hell for me. But enough about slavery I'm free!!!!!! For now. I can wait to see my boyfriend, I love him so much!!!<br />
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Also "Spiderman Legend of the Spider Clan" is going on like a house on fire. I've got ALOT of images to do and characters to design, but it'll be worth it when it's done.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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