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]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/15418417/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/15418417/ Thu, 08 Nov 2007 10:11:27 PST
#1: They have once a week four hour classes. This means if you miss ONE class it's like missing a whole week at a regular school. That is a lot of pressure especially when considering that I work full time and sometimes it's nice to SLEEP!

#2: Being an interior designer isn't my main priority. I want to be a mom so I asked myself why am I spending 60,000 dollars on an education when I'm just doing this to have something to fall back on?

#3: I was starting to question whether it was really what I wanted to do and at 7,000 dollars a quarter, you better not be questioning yourself. You better know damn well.

So I withdrew.

My plan is I'm going to get a second part time job, and pay off the loan money that I owe to AIC. Then I'll quit that second job and go to ACC for general ed for a while until I figure out what I really want. I really am still inerested in Interior Design, but wierd as it sounds I'm also interested in teaching. High school social studies. So we'll see what is decided. But this is the plan for now.

Aside from that can of worms, life is good. I feel very relieved. A big weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I don't need school causing anxiety attacks. Work is going really well.

And on another note, my birthday was AWESOMESAUCE!!! I woke up and dyed my hair it's lovely cranberry red color. (It turned out amazing) Then Greg, who is my new boyfriend for those of you who don't know, came over and we went out for the day. Most of you know what I went and did. After that we came to my house and had dinner and cake with my family. Then we got a hotel room and I had nine bottles of booze. We had these chocolate raspberry martinis. They were good! All my friends came over and we all got drunk and had an awesome time. Almost everyone that I invited showed up, it was a great party. Guests in attendance were: Jon Jon, Kylie, Chris O, Greg and Greg, Alli, Joe, Kieth, Spencer, and myself of course We all tipped a few back, and ate Taco Bell because, really, what else do you eat when you're drunk? Greg was a complete sweetheart and gave me a dozen roses. They're beautiful. They're still on my dresser babe! I'm getting ready to hang them upside down to dry. So yeah, that was my birthday in a nutshell.

Let's see what else is new? I miss chilling with Victoria. Ho, I'm gonna come to New York! I wanna chill with you! Yeah, oh! I've been talking to Dayne again, so that's all cool. And....I think that's everything really. I haven't made a journal in such a long time. Now it's done. I'll catch you on the flip side. Peace.

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School starts a week from Monday! Holy cow I'm so psyched! I can't wait to meet all those new people!

And speaking of new people, I've been hanging out with this chick from my work named Valari. She is fucking awesome and a total sweetheart. And though I don't know her extremely well yet, I feel like she really understands me and she gives great advice, which is something I've kind of been looking for. Actually, I'm just looking to meet more cool people period. She and I and her girlfriend Melinda went to Chili's after work tonight. It was a good time. She's a little older than me and I'm pretty sure that's why we get along so well. I tend to have a really hard time with girls my own age.

I got a new cell phone! My dad gave it to me as a surprise this morning, but unfortunately he also got me a new sim chip so now I have a new phone number. But it's cool. It's a nokia and it's got a camera and an MP3 player, and a bunch of other features that I don't even know how to work yet, lol. My last phone was a base model piece of shit, so it's gonna take a while to get used to all this fanciness But I'm pretty damn excited about it since my last phone was ready to kick the bucket.

I think that's pretty much all my new news. Tune in next time Peace.

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I was hanging out with Kylie. We had been bowling and then we decided to go for a drive. We were cruising down Broadway and listening to Queen. Me singing along happily. Then completely out of nowhere I had this gut instinct like I needed to go to Dayne's house. Mind you, this was at 1 o'clock in the morning. This was not just a passing fancy, this was a pressing need. And the strange thing was, I hadn't been missing him, I had been perfectly content that day. I asked Kylie what I should do, whether I should just ignore it or if I should go. I don't know how all of your beliefs are, but I belief very much in energies and in instincts. I had never quite experienced a feeling like the one I was having. In the end, I decided to drop Kylie off and go to Dayne's house. I wasn't sure how it was going to work out, seeing as how it was 1 am, but I was prepared to climb through his window if necessary. Luckily, his step dad was still awake. I walked into Dayne's room, the lights were out and he was in bed, it was clear that he had been sleeping, but when I walked in, he was sitting there wide awake. I walked in and he said, "Whoa, I was just thinking about you, that was really wierd." I told him about how I had gotten this urge out of nowhere, like I needed to come to him. I knew he would understand because he really believes in energies too. He said that he had woken up about 10 minutes before I showed up, which would have been about the time I got that feeling.

We talked a lot, and I just felt like I was supposed to be there, with him. He had said that he had freaked out when he broke up with me, just feeling like he wasn't good enough, but after a couple of days he had thought it was a big mistake. I had been thinking, oh it'll be cool to go to college and meet new guys, but when I really stopped to think about it, that's not really what I want. At least not right now. Somewhere, deep inside of myself, I feel like Dayne and I's race is not yet run. I'm not saying we'll be together for all eternity, but right now, I feel like this is where I belong. You might all be thinking, oh she just got back with him because she was missing him and blah blah blah, and if it had been the first day after we broke up I would have agreed with you. But I was feeling perfectly fine, hadn't cried in a couple of days, or felt sad at all for that matter. This was a decision made on a mind not clouded with emotion. I feel happy now. I feel confident that I made the right decision. There's not a doubt in my mind.

I feel like this time, I need to be laid back. Me and Dayne are gonna have a young relationship, we're not gonna think and plan so far ahead that it becomes binding and overwhelming. We're gonna enjoy this time that we have, because when we're this young, it shouldn't be guaranteed that we're together forever. I feel like, in being with him, I'm not cutting myself short at all. I'm happy with him, and he's giving me what I need right now. And after talking to him, I was able to show him that. He had been overwhelmed at the idea of supporting me for the rest of my life. But he doesn't need to worry about that yet. If something doesn't work out in the future, it doesn't work out. But right now, it's working.

So you're all gonna think I'm nuts, or stupid, or whatever other choice adjectives. But I don't give a shit. Not that I don't love you all, not that I don't value your opinions, but my mind is made up. The deal is done, and I'm happy about it. And no one, NO ONE is going to rain on my parade. I am quite aware how it must look, going back and forth and back and forth. But we're young, we're figuring shit out. And this is what we've figured now. Maybe in few months, maybe in a few years we'll figure differently. I'm okay with that. Peace out.

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I cried a lot from the initial shock of it, and when I felt like I couldn't think about it anymore, I went for the bad habit that's always there to comfort me when I'm upset, I went shopping. I know that sounds totally ridiculous, but it takes my mind off of things. I bought a lot. I like my new stuff. I'm keeping it all. Then in the couple of days that followed I felt sort of numb, like the reality hadn't sunk in. Then one night I cried some more, really felt what had happened. Now I'm okay. Me and Dayne have been talking a bit via text message, and that's been good. Though it's been so hard and I've been missing him so much, I think I'm coming around a little at a time. I've been trying to think of the benefits of being single, though they've been hard to see. One thing I thought of is that I'm about to start college and meet some new people. I'm excited for that. Also, I'm trying to think of this as an opportunity to spend some time with myself. Figure out a few things. I think I've been doing okay, as far as staying positive. So that's the story.

In other news, work is great and I found out there's an opportunity to get some overtime this next week so I'm going for it. Time and half = hell yeah! I have orientation for school in about a week and I'm really excited for that. My friends have all been really supportive through this whole ordeal and I just want to say thank you. I really felt cared for. In particular, thank you Chris, Chris, Spencer, Kylie, and Victoria. My family has been really great too. My mom was the one who accompanied me on my shopping extravaganza. Today I'm dying my hair cranberry red again. I missed that color but quit dying it because I had that swimming class. I'm also getting my nails done today, both of these things with my mom The cool weather is wonderful. As fall approaches I always feel a sense of renewal. I'm not sure why, but it's my time of year. There's hope. The holidays are approaching as well as my birthday. It's a new beginning. Relief from the oppresive summer heat. I can't believe that in a few short weeks I'll be 18. That is so wierd. Thanks everyone for all your support and I hope everyone is well.

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So here are what I like to call my adjective updates:

School: Starts in less than a month, nervous, excited, afraid of losing what little time I have now. It's gonna be ok.

Work: Enjoyable, insanely busy, MONEY!!! YAY!

Car: Being paid for, ewww. NO MORE MONEY!!! BOO!

Family: Worsening heath, new hernia, getting along, they're missing me at work though.

Friends: Talking to Victoria again, just like the old days! AWESOME SAUCE! Hanging out with everyone, very limited spare time, sorry. Kind of feeling in a rut, need to meet new people, hence, YAY SCHOOL! I still love my old loyals though

Dayne: Taste of Colorado was fun!!! Considerate, loving, understanding so much it's scary, changing for the better everyday. Yay Bonnie Brae ice cream! Never apart.

Me: Happy, a bit stressed, loved and loving, on track for a good future, hence the happiness

So that's all the updates, woot! If you want an explanation of any of my abbreviations please message me and I'd be happy to oblige Cheers!

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Work continues to be amazing, I really love it. Though, I have to say I miss the people at Bed, Bath, and Beyond. My coworkers here aren't quite as enthusiastic about their work, but they are nice none the less. I'm pretty comfortable with just about every aspect of the job, except for the really wierd transactions like transfer sales. My first pay day is this friday, and I'm really psyched about that Especially since I need the money because my car is finally fixed!!! I picked it up this morning! It's running so great, and so smooth. The rattling and gear problems it's had for months are G-O-N-E!!!

I finally got my bank situation sorted out, I've opened an accoun with US Bank, cuz Wells Fargo can fucking shove it, and shove their fees. US Bank is pretty cool though. I opened a checking account and every time I spend money using my debit card, I get a percentage of what I spend as a kind of rebate back into my account. Depending on where I go, it can be any amount from 1 to 25 percent! It's really awesome.

Everything between work and family has balanced out. The first couple weeks were a little rough, but they've accepted the fact that I'm not gonna have much time with them, and that they all need to do more around the house because I'm not here to do everything anymore. My mom has been the greatest. She's helped me a lot around the house.

School starts in a little over a month, and I have orientation at the end of September. I'm so excited! But also really nervous! It's going to be so fucking hard to work full time AND go to school in what's classified as full time. Which I think will be one class a day. Somewhere between work and school there is going to have to be time for family and a social life. But as of November 2nd, curfew won't be in the way anymore as I'll be 18. WOOHOO! I'm excited for that one!

Speaking of time for a social life, there has been a new development in mine. Dayne and I have been dating for the past month or so. And yesterday, he finally brought us officially back together again. He gave me a beautiful ring and told me some really sweet things and asked me back out. The ring is a white gold band, with a marquee cut ruby in the middle, on each side of it there is a round cut sapphire, and on the side of each sapphire there are three tiny diamonds that make up a triangle. Right now it's being re-sized but I get it back on Saturday. It's so gorgeous. When we took it back to the jewelry shop we looked at the other jewelry for about an hour and Dayne was asking me all kinds of questions because he said buying this ring was really hard cuz he had no idea what I would like, lol. His mom told me it took him four hours to pick it Originally the ring had three sapphires, but Dayne had it customized by removing the middle stone and replacing it with the ruby. But it's cool cuz they let him keep the sapphire which he wants to put into a necklace to match He's so sweet, and I'm really happy to be back with him, it's going so well, we've been really happy while dating. All my friends are doing good. Kylie came over for a musical night, it was awesome! Les Miserables! YAY! She liked it which makes me happy. People our age don't usually find enjoyment in that kind of music.

Well I guess that's the update on every aspect of my life. Can't complain about a thing, this weeks started awesome, first the ring and Dayne, and now having my car back and friday is payday! I don't see how anything could go wrong, knock on wood Hope everyone else is happy! Thank you for reading, haha. Peace.

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I was a little intimidated at first because the store is 120,000 square feet. It's like 6 BBB's! SO MUCH MERCHANDISE TO LEARN! Not to mention that Great Indoors is like half Home Depot cuz they do kitchen and bathroom installations, and cabinet, countertop, and floor installations. They also have a design center, which is where I hope to move eventually. I want to work all over the store and learn as much as I can. I can't wait I can't wait I can't wait!!!

My benefits are really awesome too. After six months I'll have health and dental insurance, and long and short term disability. After 90 days I can start a 401K. After one year, I accumulate vacation time, and I get two weeks paid vacation a year. I get four paid personal days a year, I get paid for Christmas and Thanksgiving even though the store is closed. They're also closed on Easter, but that one's not paid. There are four national holidays that the store is open and if I work them I get time and half, plus one paid day off for each holiday that I work as kind of a thank you. I get a 10% discount at Great Indoors, and the Starbucks inside the store (not that I can afford it lol) and my discount may also be good at Sears and KMart but we're looking into that. It's not for sure.

So yeah, that's my job in a very big nutshell. As you can see I'm ecstatic I don't even have cleaning duties here like at BBB. They have a cleaning crew. The store closes at 9 and I'm out by 9:30 because all I have to do is count my drawer. The department people do all the stocking and orginization. I'm just so relieved to have started. I was so goddamn restless I didn't know what to do with myself. AND NOW I'M HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

Now I've typed a lot so I'll just say, family is fine, friends are great, and Dayne is wonderful. School stuff is well underway, almost done with the paperwork, and my broken car goes into the shop this week. I've been so stressed but everything is coming together. It's amazing what having a purpose will do to your morale Hope everyone is well. Goodbye!

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College is ever closing in on me, I'm really excited to start classes, really nervous to pay for them, and really concerned about working full time AND going to school. I know I can do it, I will be okay, lol. I've been talking to Frankie, who ever so kindly reassured me that her financial aid worked out fine, and that her classes are a blast and that she even likes the homework. She also gave me some comfort that the scheduling there is great, and easy to change, and I could take classes from 7:30 to 11:30 am if I need to, which I will as I will be working 1-9 pm on a few weekdays, and I could be scheduled anytime on the weekends. I think it'll be okay. I know my school will work with me and I think the job will too, at least a little bit

Speaking of the job, that's been a complete pain in the ass. I have the job, I went to the offer interview and filled out the paperwork. Then, the next day I took a drug test, and got the results to the store. THEN they have to do a background check, which apparently takes ages, so now I'm just waiting for them to call me on that. Then when they call me I'll be scheduled for orientation. Who knows how long that will take. So yeah, all in all, I interviewed for this like a month ago, and I haven't even started working yet, and I'm getting anxious because I REALLY REALLY REALLY need money!!! I was hoping to work full time the whole summer and save a lot, and that kind of went out the window. As soon as I start work I'll feel much better.

For the time being, I just kinda hang out at home, keep the house clean. Then in the evenings I head out with my buddies All of us have jobs now, well, Dayne has a job, but he's looking for something more stable. It kinda makes it hard to see people, all of us having different schedules. It's cool though, friends stick together! Haha, that was incredibly cheesy, but you'll live. Been hanging out with Kylie and Spencer a little bit, but not as much as I should. Been seeing Chris, the Ju, a lot, he's like a brother to me. It's funny because even if we don't talk for a while I can go hang out with him and it's like we never missed a beat. Seen Greg a bit too. Still hanging out with Chris, thy god, haha. But it's hard cuz he works so fucking late We always have good times though. Just last Saturday we had a little get together at Kylie's because her family was out of town Me, Chris, Kylie, Spencer, and Chris's friend Andrew all got together and consumed some alcohol. It was good times, talking about the cockmobile And the pirates of the metropolitan area. Spencer and I also jumped on a trampoline! WEEE! Lets see...what else have I been up to? I've seen a bunch of movies lately. With my family and then Dayne has been taking me too. The new Harry Potter kicks ass. I highly recommend it.

So yeah, as I'm sure you all saw coming long before I did, and I'm sure you all had bets on it, Dayne and I are dating. We're aren't quite back together, but I'm sure it will happen before too long. Over a very long and arduous process, we worked through our problems, and honestly, I don't even remember how he used to be, he has changed so much. I'm extremely proud of him, because I know it was hard. Everything that I wanted, and that was missing before, I have now and I am so happy. I can be completely myself and completely open with him, and he can do the same with me. We've been having a really good time. We hang out almost every day. A couple weeks ago we went to Casa Bonita, which yeah the food is crap, but it's such a cool place We've gone and seen a couple movies, sometimes we just watch movies at home. We went overnight camping last week with some friends. Although it was easy camping cuz this campground had bathrooms and showers, it had it's own grocery store for christ's sake! But it was fun anyway. A couple nights ago we stayed up till 4:30 am to go to the Doughnut Hut, so we could get fresh doughnuts, lol. That place has bomb doughnuts and you've gotta get there early. When we got there at 4:30 there were 4 other people there besides us, at 4 in the morning on a weekend! But god that was all worth it ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/13677624/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/13677624/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 22:22:52 PDT
On another note, my car broke down today. I'm taking it in this week for a much needed clutch, and to fix whatever the hell else is wrong with it. Luckily Dayne was with me and he has AAA so it was towed to my house for free Thanks Dayne! It just sucked big time cuz we were on the way to Elitchs with my friend Chris and his girlfriend to celebrate her birthday. But instead we went swimming this evening and went to Chris's house where his mom prepared an amazing dinner and we had cake! MMMM! CAKE! So all in all it was a good day I suppose. Well that's what's going on pretty much. Peace out everyone!

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In other news, the new White Stripes album is the shit! It came out June 19 and I thought it came out the 18 so I went to go buy it, and they had it in the back, not out on shelves yet, but they let me buy it anyway! So I was one of the first people to have it! I thought that was pretty cool. Icky Thump is incredible, I'm hooked on that song, and several others, I think there's one song on the cd that I don't like. So yeah, it's cool.

I find out whether I'm working at Linens N Things or Great Indoors tomorrow. Im really praying and crossing my fingers for Great Indoors at $10.50 an hour. I hope I hope I hope!!!

What else? Erm, my cousin Nathan just moved here from CA so that's cool. He's a chill guy to hang out with and it's nice to finally have family in state. I'm going to a BBQ at Chris's work on Sunday, it's like a pot luck thing and we're bringing banana chocolate chip cookies YUM! Then on the 14 of July I'm going to a party for the Ju cuz he's leaving for the military. It's gonna be way cool to see all the old crew again, I talked to Greg for like an hour and a half on the phone the other day. And! I'm talking to Frankie again! We always have these weird falling outs for no reason in particular, but we went for coffee the other day, and it's so cool because we both kind of have been wanting a girly friend and now we both have one Manicures ahoy! And as it turns out, she's going to the same college as me so right on! I'll actually know someone hahaha.

I think that's pretty much all that's been going on lately. I'll give an update on the job thing tomorrow. Peace out.

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I finally have money again! No more lingering between twenty and forty dollars in my account, yay! My parents owed me some cash and I finally got it back. I'm on the hunt for employment cuz workin for my dad wasn't gonna work out. I picked up 8 apps yesterday, and like 6 of those places were hiring so it looks way good. I'm filling them out today and returning them tomorrow. I can't wait to have a job again, hey don't look at me weird, I actually enjoy being employed. And more work means more money!

I got a new kitten! Originally, I had Jasper, and he was living with Dayne's family until he and moved out and could take him. Well that didn't work out for obvious reasons and Jasper was already extremely skittish and it wouldn't have been good to move him into yet another home, so they kept him. I went to the Dumb Friends League and adopted a 3 month old male brown tabby cat. He is sooo sweet! He purrs constantly, is really playful, and just a little shy. A real sweetheart. His name is Rummy. I love him to pieces and he hasn't destroyed anything yet

I've been hanging out with Chris, Kylie, Dayne, and Spencer a lot. Dayne and I are getting along really well and I'm so glad. We've finally worked through all the issues and now we're just enjoying each other's company as friends. He's really been very good to me lately, and I see him trying to change his life around, and I'm really happy for him. Kylie, now she's just fucking awesome, plain and simple. That girl kicks so much ass, and we always have a good time, she sings with me when we drink, and it's always nice to not be the only one singing Spencer I haven't seen too much, he works quite a bit, but I hung out with him last night, and it's always good times. He's decided to drink again, and I'm glad because you shouldn't let one bad experience ruin your fun, you can do it buddy! And then there's Chris, like Kylie, he pretty much kicks ass all the time. Well, no, I guess sometimes he smacks it, and sometimes he grabs it, but he kicks quite a lot of it too We've been going on all these random late night walking adventures, and cool shit always happens. Like two nights ago we were walking around Main St. and we managed to pick up a detour and an arrow sign, and then we were walking by this apartment complex and there were all these people on the balcony and they were obviously all very trashed, and this one guy's all like, HEY WHO ARE YOU? YOU GUYS WANNA COME PARTY? OKAY COME UP I'LL LET YOU IN! Hahaha, you gotta love occurences like that. So we went in, it was me, Chris, and Spencer, and it turns out we all knew someone there. I ran into this girl Sam Smallfoot that I went to middle school with and I hadn't seen her since eighth grade! That night was fucking bomb. So yeah, you can pretty much see how my summer's been going, crazy unexpected shit, but that's the best, we also ran into Sam Baldwin down by the flumes and that kid is the shit. We were all drunk and went back to his house and had a dance party, he has Queen on vinyl! It was so much fun! I've been thoroughly enjoying all of the spontaneity, and all of Chris and I's late night rendezvous IT'S FUCKING AWESOME!

As if my life wasn't awesome enough right now, I have no curfew anymore! It was lifted! Now, I just set my own time and the only rule is that I need to be home at the time I set myself, home at the time I tell them. It is so badass! I'm not quite sure how things could get much better, and honestly, I don't think they need to. Everything is perfect right now. I'm so fucking happy! I hope everyone else's summer is going as swimmingly as mine

]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/13061883/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/13061883/ Wed, 23 May 2007 10:52:54 PDT It was pretty funny though. My family and Dayne were there. That was one of the happiest moments in my life.

Dayne and I have talked a lot since the split, and it seems that we've come to an understanding. I told him that I always want him in my life, but right now, I have no idea how that's going to be, whether as a friend or one day something more. I am so proud of him because he has made so much progress just in the last few days. He told me that he feels the split was his fault because he never communicated his feelings to me or others, and that he pushed me away. I've been trying to show him that I also take blame, and I think he's gotten away from beating himself up about it. The good thing is, he's trying to change, according to him, for himself and for me. I've seen him acting differently already. He's been so open with me and we talk so freely about the whole situation and the good old days. We went yesterday after graduation and shot pool for a couple hours. We also went to lunch with my family and though my dad had it covered, Dayne paid for mine anyway, and was very quick to open doors for me. It made me so happy because not only is he growing into a better person, but because I'm glad if something positive has come from all this mess. He said so many beautiful things to me yesterday, and I'm so glad that I'm not going to lose him from my life.

After Dayne and I were through with pool, I met up with Chris, Kylie and Jon Jon. We had a GREAT night We bought some rum, goldschlager (my favorite) and Chris of course had to have his Jack. We hung out at this naturey area called the flumes, actually on this bridge thing, which Chris and I have been favoring a lot lately. Now I've been pretty drunk in my time, but never as trashed as I was last night. But I still am very good about pacing myself, as I have never thrown up drunk, yay me! Kylie and Jon Jon are funny as fuck when they're drunk, and Kylie and I took to singing the Oscar Meyer bologna song, hehehe, that was hilarious. My uncle called in the middle of it all, and very perceptively, the first question he asked was, so whatcha drinkin? Though I guess it wouldn't have been hard to tell After a while Chris took Kylie and Jon Jon home, and we sat in his car and talked, it was really nice. Then he started getting really tired but I still wasn't quite good to drive so we went back to his house and I crashed with him a little while which, again, was nice I came home and slept until now pretty much so basically yesterday was fucking awesome!

Now I'm off to lunch with my Grandma Jill and my mom, and then we gotta get Grandma Jill onto a plane. I want Applebees! Yum! *rubs tummy* I'm starving! Well another blog another day, peace out.

]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/13015971/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/13015971/ Sat, 19 May 2007 17:06:14 PDT get it, a toast? haha. Okay that was lame. Peace out.

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Tomorrow is my last day of school! And after today, I never have to go to fucking econ. or fucking swimming again! YEAH BABY! Then on Friday there's this thing called Senior Scram and basically the school rents all this carnival type equipment and there's BBQ and we get to dunk teachers in the tank and all that good stuff. We also pick up caps and gowns. Then Tues. is my graduation! Family is on the drive in as we speak. So I'm sure there'll be a BBQ at my house right after graduation and then I'll party so hard that night cuz I'm pretty sure I'll be able to do whatever pretty much. Can you say OVERNIGHTER?!?! Oh hells yes Good times with good people...the youth gone wild summer will commence!

CUZ WE ARE THE YOUTH GONE WILD!

So Chris and Chris are gonna go in on season passes for Elitches with me this summer, problem solved!

I've got so much cleaning to do around this house before guests arrive...ewwww, bathrooms. Tonight I'm going to buy stuff for my kitty cat and find a graduation dress and I think some nice shorts would also be beneficial as I would like to tan this summer, especially since I'll be at Elitches so much

I don't know why I'm putting all these random spaces in my journal, I suppose I just think it makes them easier to read without losing your place.

I am so goddamn happy right now I feel like I could fucking burst at the seems into an explosion of little yellow smileys like this one Everything is going just swimmingly. I'm overwhelmed with excitement for graduation and I'm so happy with the fun I've been having before summer has even started! The last few weeks have been fucking great. I'm about to make some crazy ass changes in my life like this new job I talked about last time, and another big change. Which I will disclose as soon as it has been made. All I know is, I think it may make me a better, happier, more independent person. A few of you already know what I'm talking about but let's keep it on the DL shall we? Thanks. Anyways, I don't even know what's going on but I can't wipe this stupid smile off my face to save my life. Which means I'm gonna die, and that could be bad because I'm just positive that I'm going to hell But it's alright. Like Chris said, we'll chill in a room between Metallica and AC/DC it'll be a fucking party! Anyone wanna join? haha just kidding, VIPs only...hehehe

]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/12911648/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/12911648/ Thu, 10 May 2007 14:12:13 PDT I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait! School is going well as it winds down, I've gotten in all my final projects and all that remains is to study for a few finals. Particularly Economy, as I have a D in that class and it's required to graduate....uh oh I have absolutely no clue what to do for my graduation party, or who to invite, etc, etc, etc. Any ideas would be greatly appreciated. I think it needs to be low budge. And that's kind of a bummer. My ideal would be to rent a classy hotel room for a night and just chill with friends there and go swimming and have some drinks. In the end, it really probably won't be anything major. Probably a couple friends, some pizza and some booze. I'm really pretty tired right now, just from pushing myself so hard the past couple months, and there's been a whole lot of drama going on. I'm just worn out and really don't feel like I have it in me to throw a huge bash. That's a lot of work.

Speaking of work, I've decided to work for my dad after all. I start June 4. It's really a well-matched job for me because A. I can make bank B. If I want to take a vacation I don't have to ask for it off months in advance, I just go, and C. My dad will allow me to be perfectly flexible around my class schedule come fall. I don't know why I didn't think of all those benefits before, it'll be marvelous.

I can't wait for summer! I've got so many things I want to do. I think I'll make a list in my room and cross them off as I do them. It would go something like this:
1. Go to Elitch's at least 10 times (I need to get a season pass, and they're cheaper in a pack so I have to get a couple people to go in on that with me)
2. Go horseback riding
3. Go fishing
4. Go camping
5. Go on a road trip
6. Go to the Renaissance Festival every weekend that it's here
7. See cool landmarks of Colorado
8. Go to concerts
9. Whatever other random crap comes up, and just have a good time in general

Speaking of concerts, the Killers are coming the 17th which incidentally happens to be my last day of classes! And, I just found out that because Dayne works in the restaraunt underneath the ampitheatre, he may be able to get me in for free!! But I don't want to go alone, so I'm gonna start looking for someone to go with. That would be so bomb!

There's been so much drama lately, but it's starting to subside thank god. There have been so many things with so many people circling my head lately. I have a plan for what I'm going to do about each issue, so at least it's not so confusing, but going through these plans has been somewhat stressful. I don't really feel at liberty to go into each private issue, especially because one of them is known to no one but myself. I just hope I can be strong and do what is best for me in my life, even though sometimes tough desicions have to be made. Someone told me the other night, and it's so simple a concept, though it hadn't really crossed my mind before, you have to take care of yourself first. No one matters but you. You're the one you have to live with in the long run and you need to surround yourself with people that do you good and that you can do good for them. If you have to let people go you can't spend all your time thinking about how it will affect them. Not saying you should be completely insensitive, but, you've gotta take care of yourself. That is so true, and sometimes so hard to follow, but I'm trying.

I have been having a great time lately though despite all that's going on now, and all that lies ahead that makes me nervous. Dayne has been working a lot, which makes it hard to see him. But I am so proud of him for holding that job. I've been hanging out with him on days that he has off, which isn't many, because on the days that he works he's too tired to do anything but be cranky Been hanging out with Chris and Chris a lot. We have some good times. Just driving around and going on random adventures. Sometimes Spencer's along for the ride too. I think that may be the case tonight if both of them get off work early enough That would be sweet. Me and Chris and Chris drove up to Colorado Springs a couple weeks ago and ate at this really crappy Chipotle, and then we drove up this really cool dirt mountain road that Chris C. found by typing in "Haunted Places in Colorado" into Google. It was so scary and steep. A lot of people have died there for... ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/12682136/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/12682136/ Sat, 21 Apr 2007 15:27:14 PDT
Graduation is ever approaching, about 20 days away now. I can't wait to get out and never go back. I'm extremely excited I'm doing pretty good in all my classes, but I think some last minute grade tugging is definitely in order. I get so scared of failing and not graduating. But it's funny because I'm pretty sure that's not really going to happen. I just worry about it. It's a weird paranoia. There's been a lot of drama about graduation lately though. I was talking to my grandma Betty on the phone about graduation, and I made it explicitly clear that of course she's invited. We were even talking about what was appropriate to wear! But then, the next day, she called my dad all pissed off with some idea that I said she wasn't invited. This pissed me off to no end because the only reason she thought this was because she was drunk the day before and it was her own delusion. It was really insulting that she thought I would screw her out of a family event like that, and on top of it all, she acted like nothing was going on to me, and just bitched at my dad about this and a bunch of other petty shit that I don't even remember doing. It's my choice alone who comes to my graduation and I should be the one she's talking to, not my dad. If she wants to call and apologize then that's great and she can come but if not, then fuck her. The good news is I'll still have a lot of people who care about me to celebrate with. I'll have my mom, dad, and brother, Dayne and some friends, my grandma on my mom's side, who I'm also not much of a fan of, but I don't think she really realizes when she's screwing people over, I think she's just naive. And my uncle Layne might come, which would be really cool. He just got out of prison and he's my favorite uncle. Don't worry, he wasn't in there for anything too questionable, all he did was run over some guy's legs with his truck. But it was only fair, they ran over his legs first...fucking Utah, hahaha.

I had to quit my job at Bed, Bath, and Beyond. I was supposed to be getting 25 hours a week and they cut all the part time employees down to 5 hours a week because sales are low this year. They're all like, oh it's only for April. But I quit anyway because everytime they say hour cuts are just for a little while, we'll get regular hours back for like 2 weeks at best and then they're cutting again. It's not even worth the gas money to drive out there for 5 hours a week. I was bummed though. I really liked that job but I didn't have much choice. But now I'm on the hunt again. I've been applying to hotels to work as a receptionist. They make good money and I really like doing customer service stuff. It makes my day helping people.

Dayne and I are doing pretty well. We had a fight a couple weeks ago, but we worked through it, and are better off now. I've started smoking hookah, and I really like that, because it has a really mild effect and tastes good and stuff. Ever since I quit pot I really did miss smoking, not for the effect, but I just like the action, I like to smoke but I wouldn't touch cigarettes so this is kind of a nice alternative and it's nice smoking with Dayne. He found a job at a restaraunt at Red Rocks Ampitheatre. He's making fairly decent wages and he seems to like work, except for having to stay later than scheduled a lot of the time. I'm just really glad he found stable work.

Not having a job has left me with a lot of free time which I'm enjoying while it lasts, as soon I will be employed again. I've been hanging out with firends a lot and it's great. I've been hanging out with Spencer, we go out to eat and stuff. And lately Chris has been back in the picture, he didn't fall off the face of the planet after all! It's really cool hanging out with him again. That guy is funny as fuck. We all go swimming and adventuring, it's pretty cool. Just hanging around and doing whatever. We got Spencer tipsy the other night. We didn't have time to get him full blown drunk, but he'd never had alcohol before and Chris and I talked him into it. That was an experience. I know now never to be with someone drunk unless you're drunk too. They will annoy the piss out of you, haha. But it was pretty funny anyway. Spencer next time you're goin all the way! We're gonna be shitfaced! http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/11610580/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 11:34:26 PST
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There's information about the disease and other ways to help on the website. Thanks for your time Oh and D, I would really appreciate it if you would please post for this on your page and on your myspace blog or bulletin. I just really feel strong conviction that I need to do more. Help me out please Will you do the M.S. walk and bike ride with me this summer?

~Heather The Feather

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dA does NOT support the starving artist.

My friend, ~cobaine has no money, she and her mom are barely making it right now. So naturally, she doesn't have the hunreds of dollars required to buy an expensive camera and lots of equipment. Over the summer, we took some tasteful artistic nudes, for example, of my back. However, the fascist dA administrators moved them all to scraps claiming that they were too low quality, and therefore they are snapshots with no artistic value. So basically, if you can't afford a nice camera, you're not artistic, because, as everyone knows, artistic value is something you can buy and automatically comes with buying an expsensive camera. And even aside from that "fact" of course it's acceptable for some complete stranger to have control of your art, limiting your views by shoving your photos in the backracks of scarps. Even though, the way I've always heard it, art is subjective, and everyone's opinions on what is artistic is different, but we can't have people with differing opinions, I mean, that just wouldn't be fascist enough. But of course, I guess this is after all, she and I's fault because we didn't make the photos into DD material. Had I turned around for the camera so that my front side was showing I'm sure that the photos would have been very popular. After all, a good majority of the DD's are "artistic nudes". Nevermind the fact that half of these pictures look like they should be in a porn magazine, it's art, and everyone will it a lot because they get to see some beaver. It makes me angrier than hell. And hey admins! FUCKING BAN ME! It doesn't really matter, because I already took out all my art save two pieces anyway! So for those of you visiting my page and wondering where my 30ish deviations went, now you know. This site sucks, that what. I will no longer even journal here, because the main person that reads them is a girl I hang out with in person anyway. There is no point. This will be the last journal, explaining where my art went, and how dA is a bunch of fascism. If this journal doesn't get me banned, all I will do is comment on the work of others here. That is the extent of my involvement, henceforward.

Signed,

Heather The Feather

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Dayne: Hey guess what...
Me: What?
Dayne: I love you
Me: I love you too
Dayne: I love you more
Me: Nuh uh
Dayne: Yes huh!

*Insert tickle fight*

Dayne: What did I do to deserve you....Especially after yesterday
Me: Yeah you were kind of being a jerkus maximus
Dayne: You're right, I'm sorry
Me: It's ok, I forgive you, I know you get tired and carried away. It happens
Dayne: Yeah I really have to work on that more, I've been trying to at least make up for it and apologize when it does happen
Me: I've noticed that, I'm proud of you honey.
Dayne: I love you Heather
Me: I love you too sweetie

And then there was talk about what our future children will look like It was a GREAT day

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Last night was really fun. I hung out with Dayne, Drew and Bryce, and we had some Kahlua and some Malibu coconut rum, it was yummy. I took them from my house We drove around and drank, and played pididle. I got down to just one last piece of clothing on the bottom half, Bryce lost, and Dayne was topless. Drew didn't even miss once! I was amazed, lol. It was a lot of fun, a great time, driving in the snow with the boys, I wish it happened more often. Completely carefree. What a wonderful day.

]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/11308050/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/11308050/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 23:48:46 PST
Christmas break has been simply splendid. Everyone loved what I got them for Christmas. Except that I am still crocheting Dayne's blanket, lol. It's ok, he's being very patient. I made out like a bandit, which I did not expect, but was very pleased with none the less, I hope everyone's new year's was simply amazing. Mine was pretty awesome, I went sledding with my friends Spencer and Delaney, and then Delaney spent the night, and we played board games and hung out, it was a lot of fun.

I am sort of excited for school to start because it's my last semester and the beginning of the rest of my life, I am nervous, but ready at the same time.

Work is going o.k. but they cut my hours durastically, I could understand a small cut just because all the seasonals are working right now and it's the beginning of a new quarter, but they cut me by 16 hours! So I have to talk to my manager about that this weekend. Hopefully it will work out because I really like that job and I don't want to have to find a new one. Especially because I am paid so well there, well, at least when I'm scheduled

Dayne and I are being very close and I am loving it, and it's weird because my family is too! He's been over so much lately and been so helpful and sweet. In addition to being the best guy ever to me. My dad gave him a fucking computer last night! Dayne and I were both shocked to our foundations, lol. It's not completely finished, it's half built, but what it has is all top of the line and very expensive. I don't know what inspired my father and brother to do such a thing, but it made me so happy, and of course Dayne was elated!

Today I went to get a massage, and it was heaven, and I have decided that I will start going once a month, because my muscles really need the extra help, so there is that in addition to seeing my chiropractor and trying to improve my posture. I have also decided to talk to my doctor about what type of nutrition supplements would be useful to my health. I feel like I really need to start taking it more seriously, especially with my family history. It's never to early to start.

I feel ready for the year, I have rested, and accomplished a lot this break. I have a few things left to do, and I am ready to finish high school, and start my life!

Wish you all the best,
Heather The Feather

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Sometimes I feel so much love I feel I could burst. How is it that all I have to do is sit there with no signs on the face, and he knows exactly what to do, because my heart is so sad. I love my family so much, and I worry so much about what is happening to them and to me. I know there is something bigger than me in control, and all I can do is my best. For the most part I am able to let the burden run off my shoulders, but sometimes I can't help but think of it, and it drags me down so far, that the only way I can get back up is by grabbing for a helping hand. And he is always there to offer it. God in heaven I am so grateful for my loving family and my loving friends, you all are so supportive and there are no words to describe such wonderful people. But him, he is all of these things and more. He wakes me up, and I never knew it was possible to connect with another human being like that until I met him. When I hold on to him, I feel swift relief pouring into every muscle of my body, and when he kisses me, exactly how I need to be kissed, I feel my heart healing and my troubled mind resting. It is so beautiful that I want to cry. Because I feel so free, all of my bondage separate from me. There is no greater gift.

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I went to a party with Dayne in the mountains last night, it was ever so much fun. His friend has a cabin up there, well, actually a house, but it's all log and one of the most beautiful homes I've ever seen with a private drive and gate, and a teepee and everything! But we didn't get to go in the teepee because the storm we had damaged it and there was snow inside. I got nice and tipsy on this yummy ice cold beer, and was tripping over things, it was fun. But I'm not a stupid obnoxious drunk so it's okay. I get cute and cuddly and horny

Lots of Monty Python was watched, and Mortal Kombat was played, and there was lots of pistachios and cheese dip...mmmmm...cheese dip...and then Dayne and I crashed together on the sofa. There is nothing better than falling asleep and waking up with the person you love. And beer flavored kisses make it even better. Dayne kept teasing me, like, yah drink more beer, hey everyone looks like we're going to see a drunk Heather! And I was like, oh no! And I hid. And then I went outside and for no particular reason other than that it seemed like a good idea at the time, I jumped into a snow bank It was rather cold, but really fun. I trudged around in it for a while, but it got difficult because it was up to my thigh, hehehe, yeah, good times. So yeah that's what I did last night.

Today it's Christmas shopping with the whole family and wrapping and getting hair dye. Then tomorrow it's grocery shopping for Christmas dinner, and preparing the house, then Christmas is here! YAY! Well, Merry Christmas to all, unless of course you celebrate something else Talk to you later!

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Dayne has aksed me to go back out with him. I had to think for a bit, because it was so unexpected. Looking back on it, with my desicion in mind, I'm having a hard time comprehending why I didn't jump into his arms when he asked. I feel now like I could. But it's probably good I didn't as he was driving at the time

I can't get over it. I didn't expect that to happen for a long while. In the meantime, I am tying up the loose ends of being single, and Dayne and I hope to start anew with one another. I feel my soul bubbling over and I would be lying to myself and to him if I said this isn't what I want the most. More than anything. All I've been able to think about is how even though we've stayed close, it's not the same. I told him. I want to be with you because I miss being your girl. He said it made him feel like he should be driving a '54 Chevy when I said it like that But that's how I feel. It reminds me of Jenny and Forrest in Forrest Gump, when she says, "I'll always be your girl."

Every moment with him is laughter and happiness and understanding. His heart recognized mine. He has been so understanding and helpful to my family and that speaks a million words to me. He can care for my family, and by doing so he lifts a burden from my shoulders and cares for me. I want to write so badly write now but I do not know the strength nor the words to put such magnitude on a page. I only know the strength to feel this at the depths of my being.

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Finals are next week, and I had so many projects to do, but I've finished most. I only have one paper left and a computer project. School is almost over and I can't wait to feel the rush of relief when it is.

Home life has been kind of crazy. I got all my Christmas lights up this weekend. It was cute because Dayne was actually pissed that I didn't call and ask him for help. It made me feel special. He came over Tuesday and we made cookies and he took out my trash Banana Chocolate Chip Cookies are the bomb, just so everyone knows. Delaney concurs also. OHHH YEAH! I got to hang out with her yesterday, and it was fun fun fun, we sung Dead Milkmen. I love them.

I still have lots of Christmas shopping to do. But it's ok, I'm excited, I get paid tomorrow, but I'm nervous about how much I'll be getting because I missed work this weekend. I had an anxiety attack. It's no wonder with how much stuff has been going on, slowly but surely I'm picking away at my to do list, and starting to feel better. Not to mention I've been making sure I get plenty of sleep and that has helped immensely.

The subject of my last journal has begun to work out. Ian called me and we had a good talk about how I was feeling because of what that other asshole did. I explained that I'm going to need to take things extremely slowly and I'll let him know when and if I want to go further. He apologized for putting me in that situation and being so insensitive and I could tell he was sincere, it was very nice of him. I like him, I'm just taking it easy for a while. We'll see what happens. That's all my love life has been lately, just a bunch of wait and see, especially now that there are so many people trying to be involved, I just need to back out and be careful. The only thing I'm ever sure about is how I feel about Dayne. And that never changes, I thoroughly appreciate the stability I find in him, and the comfort and help and love. I am blessed to be surrounded by so many people who care. Including these guys, my friends, and my family.

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My Thanksgiving was really amazing, probably the best one I can ever remember having. Dayne and my dad's friend David joined us for dinner. I cooked the dinner myself and the whole day Dayne followed me from room to room, anxious to help, it was very sweet. He helped me make the mashed potatoes Everything turned out perfectly beautiful and everything came out of the oven hot at the same time. I was really proud. Over dinner, we went around the table saying what we were thankful for, and a lot of other interesting questions. My family was getting along really well with Dayne and it really melted my heart because I could tell my dad was really genuinely enjoying his company and wanted him to be there. My dad actually told him over dinner in front of everyone that Dayne is like a son to him. That made Dayne and I very happy. So that was Thanksgiving at my home. Good food and good company. Dayne and I have been very close lately, and that is also a blessing. We always talk about the future and being together for it, loving each other even though we're apart right now. It's a very good situation.

What else did I do over break? I went shopping on Black Friday with my mom because by some miracle of god I wasn't scheduled to work RETAIL!!! It was awesome. We went to an outlet mall and to Old Navy, I got lots of cute stuff. I saw Nightmare Before Christmas 3D and it was really cool, they even let you keep the glasses, lol. I also saw the new James Bond flick, Casino Royale, I love this new Bond, I think he is the best I have seen, I like how he's more of a hard ass than a suave playboy. Pierce Brosnan was great, don't get me wrong, but he always seemed suave to the point of being a scumbag. It always bothered me. And he's not attractive! This one is, with his ice blue eyes. I love my extremes, you better either be icy cold or fiery hot. Show me that desire!

I have finally finished and presented my Interior Design project, it went extremely well. It's a great load off of my shoulders having it finished. All that remains is a quick presentation of my Government case brief, and a couple of papers to write on 1984, which I'm looking forward to writing anyway. I would love to analyze that book. About three weeks till the end of the semester, I can't wait. And then glorious break, and glorious Christmas. I love Christmas an I am so eager for it. I checked my grades today and they are all really a lot better than I expected, I'm glad I didn't slack off much this semester.

The situation with Ian and he who shall not be named has resolved itself. That is another wieght lifted. He who shall not be named and I have decided for the time being to remain the best of friends, because I really am not attracted to him at this point. I also don't want to ruin our friendship. Ian and I have talked on the phone a lot lately, I was on the phone with him two hours on Sunday night, and he called again last night, but I missed it because I was already asleep. I like him, I do I do.

I got in a car accident on Friday, my first offense ever. I rear-ended someone but it was under 10 mph, and there was 0 damage to my car and theirs, so I doubt my insurance will even go up or anything. They were really nice people though. They actually asked me for directions after I hit them haha.

At work on Sunday I got asked out by a complete stranger and I blushed so bad. He appeared to be in his mid 20s and he was like, are you available to go on a date sometime? And I told him I was 17 and not to be embarrassed because I know I look older, and he was like oh god I'm so sorry, lol. I told him I was flattered anyway, it was pretty interesting. It's weird because a lot of stuff like that has happened in the past week or two and before it's never happened to me in my life. I don't know what's going on...maybe it's the new hair color, oh wait, I didn't mention that!

I have dyed my hair like cranberries, and I love it, it's a beautiful color. I even look good in blue now because of the blue/red contrast. It's awesome.

Hmm, I think that's pretty much it. It's freakin freezing outside, it's supposedly going to snow tonight but I never trust the weather man/woman. (<-----me being politically correct, a rarity) I'm supposed to makeup a rock climbing class after school and directly after I am going to a viewing night for my astronomy class. Dayne is accompanying me, but it might be cancelled if it's too cloudy which it might be by how it looks outside.

I'm just wasting time now because class gets out in 4 minutes. Dum Dum Da Dum, the people in this class are fucking obnoxious, I never fail to walk out of here pissed off. Oh well... ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10800220/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10800220/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 13:15:58 PST
How are you all? Well I hope. Especially you Delaney, as I haven't really talked to you in 2 and a half weeks. I would really like to hang out soon if you can. Are you doing anything tonight? I will give you a call, I get out of class in like 35 min. Woot! THEN IT'S THANKSGIVING BREAK!

I love Thanksgiving soooo much! I cook everything myself and I probably cook enough for like 10 people, we usually can't even fit all the food on the table, it's amazing. I get so into the winter holidays. I already feel Christmas spirit, which is good because I had a hard time with that last year. Dayne is coming over for Thanksgiving dinner, which is awesome because I know he'll eat a lot, and we always have way too much leftovers. My house is all clean and decorated and ready for the holidays, I go grocery shopping tomorrow, and have some prep cooking to do, like the pies and drying the bread for stuffing and taking the turkey out to thaw. It will be sooo much fun!

School is starting to lighten up again, thank god. I finished my government case brief today, and that was a load off of my shoulders.

My interior design project is almost complete, I just have to do one elevation drawing and write a two-three page paper explaining my design. But that proect really doesn't seem like work because I love doing it so much. My presentation board is already complete.

In Sociology and English Communications I am reading the same book, 1984. In sociology I explain the social theories in the book, and in English Communications I write a basic book report, about the plot and themes and all that good stuff. I am actually kind of stoked about both these projects because I love this book, and anything that makes me think in depth about it and understand it better, I am eager to do. I want to understand the inner workings of 1984. It is astounding.

I love my classes, I love my teachers. But I really hate school. Every chance I get, I leave. Sometimes I just feel so lonely. I look around me and I feel old. I think, don't these people ever think about their own mortality? Don't they think about or even care about the future? Their future, the future of the world, and the future of this country? These are things that cross my mind almost on a daily basis, I can have fun and be young, of course, but sometimes you really need to think about important things like that and what you can do about those issues. I just see so much ignorance and apathy. Maybe they will start thinking about these things when they're older, but because I see no one around me who I feel thinks about things like I do, I feel very separated and alone. Also, just utterly frightened that these are the people that will be running the nation in a few short years. Do you guys ever think about that? Everyone needs to take things more seriously sometimes. It's ok to be young and have a good time, but what is at your core?

Getting along with my family very well right now, but still am very worried about my father's condition and his indifference towards it. I wish he would do something to help himself. But I know it's out of my hands. He has to do it himself. So all I can do is support him. Luckily, I've had a lot of time to spend with them lately especially my mom, we went shopping and to the salon together, it was a lot of fun. My mom is such a sweetheart, and a trooper, she is such an amazingly strong women, all the cards that life has dealt her, she seems to take in stride. I have so much admiration for her.

Dayne and I are still getting along very well, which is good. I just really really wish he would get a job, I'm not sure if he's been looking, but I hope so. I worry about his future, he has all the ambition in the world, but he just needs a shove out the door I think. Oh well, again, it's out of my hands, all I can do is show support, he has to come to conclusions on his own.

There has been some crazy stuff going on in the love life department lately. I can't name too many names, because that wouldn't be polite. Ian and I have started talking more, like on the phone, and that is really cool. I do like him quite well. And still I would like to date him and see where it goes. We're still just kind of poking around it though. We'll see what happens I guess. But in talking to him, I have found his intelligent side, as before I had only seen him being playful, never serious. He is very sharp, and I really like that. He was able to give me some interesting advice about something. As for the confusion, there is another person, and I have just found out some very surprising information that this person wants to date me also, but the problem is, I just really don't know at this point if I feel the same way. I have felt hints of that feeling before, but nothing to definite. So I told him I need to just think about it a while... ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10695214/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10695214/ Sat, 11 Nov 2006 22:31:18 PST
Work is well, getting very busy as the holidays approach.

Family is very well, cleaned the whole house today in preparation for the holidays and entertaining, which is good, I feel much better. We also got the vacuum fixed.

School makes me proud because this semester I haven't slacked off at all yet, and I have three different projects going on right now, two of which I am very excited about. I just really love all my classes, and between work school, family, and friends I am kept busy, but just the right amount of busy, it's more like balance, and I'm loving it. But not in a McDonald's way.

Getting along with Dayne famously. I've been hanging out with him for the past three days. I helped him clean his room yesterday, and it continues because it is a several day project. We cleaned for 9 hours and managed to find his entire floor, organize his dresser and entertainment center, and rearrange his furniture. I go back tuesday for the organization of the bookshelf and wall shelves, and possibly closet if we dare to venture. I feel completely at ease with my love life right now. I know exactly where I stand with Dayne, and with myself. Which is the best feeling of all.

P.S. Dayne and I had the most incredible conversation about the ways of humanity it relation to George Orwell's 1984. I can't explain it because it's all very complex, but the conversation fed my soul.

I've also been hanging out with Spencer a lot, which is cool because he's an awesome kid. And extremely good company and conversation, we also discussed 1984, but not in as much depth as Dayne and I, as that conversation had lasted two and a half hours. I haven't seen Ian in a while, and at this point I'm thinking nothing is going to come of that, because we've been flirting and kissing occasionally for like a month now and nothing has changed and I'm like, ok, shit or get off the pot man, for lack of better words. I don't know, I just hate indesiciveness. I have been exposed to it way too much in my life. It just pisses me the fuck off. Not Ian necessarily, just the indesicive part. But it's ok. Life goes on, I'm not brokenhearted about it.

Yup, so that's pretty much all that's going on with me. Talk to you all later. Peace.

~Heather The Feather

]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10602374/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10602374/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 10:12:50 PST WOOT! Thanks to Delaney! I am so excited for school to be out! Yay! But anyways...

Yesterday was amazing. EVERYBODY wished me a happy birthday. It was cool because everyone remembered and that made me feel really special. I got special calls from a ton of people, and it was just the little things that really made my day. First of all, I got a good parking spot, lol. And my hair turned out the way I wanted it too. Like I said, the little things

Thanks to everyone who went out of their way to wish me happy birthday:

My parents and brother
Both of my grandmas
Dayne
Delaney
Rachel
Chelsea
Jon
Katie
Kyle
Kevin
Keith
Ian
Spencer
Dayne's mom, Lori
Dayne's stepdad, Bill
Jason
The guys at the bowling alley
Jen
Heidi
And I'm really sorry if I didn't put you on here but it means just as much to me!

Thanks you guys!

So a recap of the day:

I hung out with Chelsea third hour and she gave me a handful of Hershey's minis, just finding something to give me for my birthday, it was so sweet of her. Little things! Little things! Then fifth hour Rachel bought me lunch at Noodles and Company. I swear to god I could eat there everyday! hahaha, but she is sooo awesome and I heart her. After school, I went to Dayne's house. He bought me a huge and beautiful Heather plant which now hangs by my window in my room. He's getting me something else the next time we hang out because I guess he couldn't find it yet, so I can't wait! That was such a sweet thought though, and the flowers are gorgeous, tiny delicate purple blooms, but the green is so vivid and the plant looks so vivacious. I love it. And I swear on pain of death to take good care of it

After Dayne's I went home, and my mom had cleaned the whole house (a blessing, because usually I'm the only one who cares or has time) and there were these gorgeous pink daisies on the table, right next to a few presents and a carrot cake! MY FAVORITE! YUM! hehe. So I went bowling with my family, we played three games. And we went up at the end to pay. This really cute guy was working. And he was like, it's your birthday right? And he said since it was he gave us every game for a dollar a person, and then I was like, oh my god you're sooo nice! And then he was like, here. And he handed me a huge stack of buy one get one free game coupons!!! I freaked out! It was incredible, I love nice people, especially cute ones

So we went home and did birthday cake, though we didn't eat it until this morning cuz we were full and it was late. And we opened presents. I got three new Sims 2 expansion packs! I thought I was only getting one so I was really excited because I love Sims and I'm a dork like that. I now have all of them!!! WOOT! I got Pets, Glamour Stuff, and Nightlife I also got a $15 gift card to Target which is awesome, and I got a chocolate bar And all day my phone was off the hook with people calling to wish me happy birthday, including Ian And Keith, who I hadn't talked to in a while called, and I just felt so touched that everyone remembered Thanks you guys! So tonight I hang out with Delaney and Spencer and Ian and I can't wait! I'll tell you what happens. Even though Delaney who is the main one who reads this will already know, lol. Bye!

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Halloween was last night, and it was quite a lot of fun, except for being very tiring as well. We put on a really big display at my house every year and it is a lot of work, though well worth it. Yesterday though it was especially hectic, as we were running out of daylight and discovered that our fog machines weren't working, and I was getting frustrated because I couldn't get Samara's head to hang out of the television correctly and make the strobe shine on it right. And our damn fishing line was too loose across the yard so when I tried to hang our Vampires from it, it sagged and would have clobbered people in the face, so instead we hung them from the tree, which looked okay but it's not as cool as having them across the yard. Oh well, what can you do?

Delaney and Spencer came over to help me which was greatly appreciated, thanks guys! Although it was a bummer because Spencer had to leave early because his mom was freaking out at home I guess. But it was ok, Delaney and I still had a great time. Although, all night all of this really lame stuff kept happening, but not bad lame, just funny lame.

The first thing was that when we went to Home Depot to get dirt for the graves we put them in my trunk and then one of them sort of burst and now I have a ton of potting soil in my trunk, lol. Which I have yet to vacuum, I'll do it tonight. And then we went trick-or-treating which can be construed as lame because we are "too old" which I think is bogus but whatever. People kept looking at us all funny. And then at this one house this 8th grade girl answered the door, she wasn't even out trick-or-treating and she was only in 8th grade! And here we are, all like, seniors in high school...hahaha, well you get the idea. We felt RETARDED! lol. So then we got in the car and drove over to Dayne's neighborhood and it really sucked because almost all lights were out over there, but we trick-or-treated Dayne's house and his mom gave us like 5 hand fulls each, haha.

So after that we went trick-or-treating over in this guy Eric's neighborhood. And we went to his door and his dad isn't used to seeing me except in the context of standing next to Dayne as his girlfriend because I never went to Eric's alone, so he didn't recognize me, not to mention the fact that I was wearing makeup, but that was kind of embarassing, lol, because I think secretly Delaney and I were hoping that we would get invited in to hang out with Eric, but since his dad didn't recognize me...well...yeah. lol, it was just lame. Then we went to this one house and this stupid little kid decoration was the only thing that scared me all night because it was motion censored, and it started singing when I walked by it and it was loud and I jumped like ten feet, so there's some more lameness. And then, because we had nothing else to do, we were like, hey lets go see if Dayne is over at Mike's just out of curiosity. And it's dumb because it's not like I actually wanted to talk to him if I saw him, it just seemed like something to do to see if he was there, so we drove by and DAYNE WAS JUST PULLING IN! So I all sped off (he didn't see me) but I felt sooooo retarded! lol. It was just stupid. And Delaney was laughing her ass off, and it really was rather funny now that I think about it. Thank God he didn't see me, lol. Oh my god. I'm not a psycho stalker I swear to god, we just had some time to kill, haha.

So yes, all in all, this Halloween was very bad for my self esteem, lol. No not really, I'm just kidding, it was one of the funnest ever in all of it's lameness, hahaha.

My birthday is tomorrow!!! YAY! 17! Woot! I'm hanging out with Dayne for a couple of hours and then going home and my family has something planned, though I don't know what. I've decided not to have anymore parties, not after 16. But I know tomorrow involves carrot cake, YUM!!! *rubs tummy* And then on Friday I'm getting together with Delaney and Spencer and Ian, and they are taking me shopping for presents, then to dinner, then to see Nightmare Before Christmas 3D! I'm so excited!!! It will be fun.

So yeah, I like Ian, he's hot, lol. And he's really fun to be around. I don't know. We're not dating yet, but I think it would be really cool if we did. He's also a really good kisser

I don't have much homework tonight and that makes me happy. I am doing a project for my Interior Design class and I'm doing it really well because if I take it to the Art Institute, I could get a scholarship. But this project makes me really happy because when I do it, I get so excited for my career. I have so much fun doing it. Doing the floor plans, and picking colors and fabrics. Oh my god it's so much fun and I just know I'm in the right place http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10517162/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 13:03:50 PDT
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Pepperoni and Sausage Pizza with Orange Juice, Pulp Fiction, Long Underwear, Black Fleece Blankets, Star Wars, and Checkerboard.
Maybe some Aerosal Cans and Duct Tape for good measure. And definitely with some Dead Kennedys and Eskimo Kisses in the mix.

Joy Joy.

]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10302276/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10302276/ Fri, 06 Oct 2006 09:46:17 PDT
Alright, so two weeks ago Dayne and I broke up. It was mutual, we are just going different places in life. We are still friends, and we were both on the same page with everything, so that's good, I knew it would probably have to end at some point, and I'm glad it ended this way, not bitterly. In a way, I feel kind of relieved because towards the last couple months of our relationship, I was under a lot of stress because I was always dreading the day our relationship would end. But now it's past, and it's kind of a relief not to have to worry about when we're going to do it anymore.

But this presents me with the next problem, which is, I miss the hell out of him. Especially at night, everything always seems worse at night. "I didn't feel so bad till the sun went down, then I come home, no one to wrap my arms around" - Dead Leaves and the Dirty Ground, White Stripes. It's very frustrating to me to be sad and melancholy because I am so used to being happy that when I am sad for even like one or two days straight, I can't fucking stand it. I do not know how to cope with it because it is so foreign to me to be unhappy for long periods of time.

I mean, I have problems with my family and stuff, my family life is kind of screwed, as far as health goes, I am always worried about my parents and taking on extra emotional stress because of it. I don't blame them, and I have a good relationship with them, but they are so unhealthy mentally, emotionally, and physically, that everyone comes to me for help because I'm the sanest. So who do I go to? My family problems usually only leave me down for like half a day though, I'm so used to it, that I've learned to go on normally despite it. But still, things with my family just kind of add to the pile.

Then I met this guy online, and I decided to go meet him and see how it would go. And that was just completely fucked. He seemed really cool, like on the phone and everything. But I couldn't get him to put a full fucking sentence together to save my life. He wouldn't talk to me! So at the end of the night I told him, I'm sorry but I don't think I can date you, we just don't have any chemistry. And then I went home. When I got there I spent almost an hour and a half IMing this guy explaining why I wasn't going to date him. He was acting like I had just divorced him after 20 years of marriage. He was like begging me to go out with him! Clingy people freak me the fuck out. I try to be really kind when I reject someone, because I know how bad it sucks, firsthand, but this asshole did not fucking get it! He pushed me to it, and I had to cuss at him to get him to fucking understand that I wasn't going to go out with him. He tried everything, he tried laying a guilt trip on me, he tried saying it was my fault we didn't click, he tried making me feel bad about myself, it was fucking ridiculous. So I gave him what for and blocked him. I am not going to take that bullshit. But it made me so goddamn angry. What a great way to re-enter the dating world huh? Jesus Christ, if a guy can't stand on his own two feet how the fuck am I supposed to lean on him? Fuck that.

In addition to him being kind of stalker-esque, I have decided that I am not ready to date yet anyway. I hung out with Dayne on Wed. for a little while, and as expected, I had kind of an emotional relapse. I missed him all over again. When you don't see someone for two weeks, you kind of forget about them and therefore you don't miss them as hard, but seeing him and remembering what it was I missed has made the past couple of days hard. I have re-evaluated myself and figured out that I need more time before I date anyone. It is too soon. But I have determination and I am resilient. I know I can be Dayne's friend, and I'm also always open to the possibility that one day things might change and we could end up back together in a few years, but I'm also not going to sit waiting around for it to happen. It's okay, even if it doesn't happen, we can form a good friendship, because I really enjoy his company.

I've just been going with the flow, if I feel angry, I'm angry, If I feel like crying, I cry. If I feel happy, I just go with it. It's hard, but time heals all things. I just try to concentrate on the fact that one day I will be with the right guy, whether it's Dayne or someone else.

School and work is good, I have really good grades, which makes me proud of myself My relationship with my family is great, and I try to help them as much as I can and do my best in all things. Rough tim... ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10146658/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10146658/ Thu, 21 Sep 2006 19:50:14 PDT ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10131216/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10131216/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 10:34:09 PDT
An update on the anxiety attack, it was found to be purely mental, with no physical cause. Consequentley, I have dropped one shift at work, and feel much better.

Work is going well, and I think The Lady D may be joining me at Bed, Bath, and Beyond because we are in DESPARATE need of help and she simply can't let me suffer any longer, lol.

School is also good, I have managed to not ditch a single class, and I've only missed one assignment, which I am handing in late tomorrow. YAY ME!

My grandma on my mom's side comes in Thurs. - Sun. This week, which means movies and shopping cuz that's how she rolls...HAHAHA!

I am going to The Killers concert in Oct. and I am so goddamn excited!

Dayne and I are doing alright, and everything is great with my family.

So that's the quick update!

Peace homies! HA! ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10049831/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/10049831/ Tue, 12 Sep 2006 12:52:00 PDT
I have also been instructed by a doctor to drop one of my shifts at work. I have a doctor's note to do it. That's good though because I work 30 hours a week and am a full time student, I think it is just a little too much. In addition to trying to make time for friends, family, and my boyfriend.

Speaking of my boyfriend, yesterday was our 3 year anniversary, woot woot! I will hopefully be hanging out with him today, but he has a lot of studying for school so I might not. I think I may be giving Delaney a ring, she also sounds like fun to hang out with

Right now I am sitting in my English Communications class preparing to write a current events speech on stem cell research. I need to research it some more and form an opinion. Bleh. I hate writing papers. But whatever. The worst part is that I have to present in front of the class. I HATE doing that. Hate hate hate. Oh well. What can you do?

Talk to you guys later. Oh you know what? I wanna go see The Killers with Delaney very badly. They are coming October 15 to the Fillmore. I wanna go sooo fucking bad. But if she can't, I won't be. Shit we need to find out on that soon. I need to get tickets lady! lol, talk to you later! ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/9870535/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/9870535/ Sun, 27 Aug 2006 08:09:38 PDT
School just started, last tuesday. I got all of the classes I wanted and the only teacher I have that I don't like is Ghallager, (CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT!!!) God I was pissed to see that name on my schedule. Urg. But anyway, I'm taking government, sociology, rock climbing, astronomy, computer applications 1, interior design, greek mythology (SWEET!), and english communications, which is like business letters and stuff like that, for which I have the dreaded G-man!!! AHH! Moving on, the docks is in a very sad state of affairs this year. There are like 4 people at the school to hang out with now, everyone is either graduated, dropped out, or at Options.

The cool thing is that Kevin is a 5th year senior (lol) and he just happened to get English Communications with me! So that's awesome.

Another thing, I have astronomy with Rachel, who has changed a lot over the summer, I had a really hard time getting along with her last year because she smoked so much pot and was really arrogant. I don't mind pot, but when it's your entire life and all you talk about, it's pathetic, kind of like ICP. Fuck that shit. ICP is taking over everything.

But! Back to Rachel...she has cut back on pot a lot, doesn't even smoke at school anymore, doesn't do any hard drugs or drink anymore, and she has been seeing the same guy for a year, which I think has calmed her down a lot and had a very good effect on her. I like hanging out with her, she is cool again.

Work at Bed, Bath, and Beyond is really cool. I love it because usually we are really busy, and my shifts just go by so fast, whereas at Marie Callander's, it seemed like an eternity, lol.

I got my car fixed finally, all that remains is the air conditioner needs fixing. Delaney I can drive stick!!!! I want to take you for a spin, it's so fun! I love the sunroof It's so cute and red, I love it.

Dayne and I are nearing our 3 year mark in September, so that's exciting. He is really sweet to me, always supporting me and driving me to work and picking me up at 10:30 even though I could drive myself, he just wants to He is really considerate of my feelings, which I appreciate to no end. He's like "well I don't see how I support you that much, all I do is listen...." Silly boy! That's the most vital thing to me, you listen, compared to my family, you listen, and above all, you ask in the first place. I hope we have many good times to come. I think we will. We always make it through.

Delaney I haven't talked to you since your birthday! I feel so shitty, but I guess we are both kind of to blame, lol. I will try to call you today after work. Talk to you later. Bye everyone! (If anyone else reads this, lol) ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/9505301/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/9505301/ Wed, 26 Jul 2006 20:34:15 PDT
School starts in a couple weeks, I'll finally be a senior this year and I'm extremely excited, yay! <---(me being excited) I made an appointment to get my senior photos taken next week, and I'm also doing a shoot tomorrow with Delaney and that will be awesome. Maybe I can even get some ideas for my senior pics from our shoot It's just so weird for me to think that senior year is already here. I'm not used to the thought at all. High school went by really fast for me. Which isn't either good or bad, just strange.

Dayne and I are getting along famously, we had a bit of a rough patch last week but it was overcome and now things are back their normal wonderful selves I brought him over a pan of mashed yams with marshmallow today. He loves yams a lot, which I find funny because I almost vomit of the smell when I make them for him. Oh the things we do for love, hahaha, just kidding. I think I will finally get to have him over for Thanksgiving this year which really excites me. I make Easter, Thanksgiving, and Christmas dinner all by myself every year, and I cook enough for like 10 people and I have a family of 4. We, without fail, have way too much leftovers every year, so now I will bring the human vaccum to put it away Plus, my mom is the only one who likes Yams, but if there are 2 people who like yams, I will have more of a reason to make them I'm sure you're all just thrilled at this great story, haha. Oh well, it's probably only Delaney reading it anyway, lol. In Elvis voice: "Yes I'd like to dedicate this journal to an audience of one, Miss Delaney Keaten"

I had an interview at Bed, Bath and Beyond yesterday, which went so well that I got through two interviews with two different managers in one day! They are supposed to call me, but if I don't hear from them, I will be calling them on Monday I think. I really want that job. I'm being black-balled at Marie Callander's. No one will cover shifts for me and then they get all pissed off if I say no just once to them because they call me like one hour before the shift they want covered and I already have plans. Fuck that. Also, every Tues. night that I work my drawer is short, and here's a newsflash, I'M NOT STEALING THE MONEY! I think that maybe one of the servers is getting into the register which they aren't supposed to because they have their own. The manager said she doesn't think it's me, but on the other hand, she does, by code, HAVE to do something about it (who knows what that means) So hopefully I can get to Bed, Bath and Beyond before they have a chance to fire me, EEK!

I guess that's pretty much all I have to say. So I'm off to do my crossword puzzle! Peace!

Heather The Feather ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/9131720/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/9131720/ Tue, 20 Jun 2006 22:28:19 PDT
Eye Colour: Brown with green, so...hazel? lol

Hair Colour: Golden, hint of red

Height: 5"11

Favourite Colour: Any shade of green, it's so natural and lovely

Screen Name: Heather_Feather321@hotmail.com, but it says "When I kiss your lips I want to sink down to the bottom of the sea...I want to love you madly. *Cake*"

Favourite Band: White Stripes, Black Sabbath, Cradle of Filth, anything with musical or lyrical inspiration

Favourite Movie: I have several: Little Women, Nightmare Before Christmas, Braveheart, anything with Depp, Ledger, or Gibson

Favourite Show: I don't watch T.V. except for the home and garden network

Your Car: A '99 Red Wolfsburg Edition Jetta, but it's out of commision at the moment so I borrow my mom's green Scion XB

Your Hometown: SLC, Utah

Your Present Town: Littleton

Your Crushes First Name: Haha Delaney, not your first crushes' name, your crushes' FIRST name, lol, but anyway, I have a major crush on Dayne, lol, I also will have an eternal crush on Eric, and Jose is kind of cute.

Your Grade: A's and B's with like one C

Your Style: The Heather Feather original, it changes with my daily mood, sometimes twice daily! lol

* . . Have You Ever . . *

Sat on your rooftop? I have no screen so I'm out there quite a bit

Kissed someone in the rain? I made out with Dayne in the rain for like 10 minutes straight and it was POURING! That was so fucking sexy.

Danced in a public place? Yes, when Dayne takes me swing dancing, when I frolic in the park, but mostly I sing in public

Smiled for no reason? I smile because sometimes I feel so in love that it all bubbles out and I can't keep it inside, but then again, I guess that is the BEST reason to smile See, like that!

Laughed so hard you cried? Yes I have actually

Peed your pants after age 8? I don't believe so.

Written a song? Yes, several, but not since like 8th grade, and they were all pathetic.

Sang to someone for no reason? All the time, usually with Delaney

Performed on a stage? Yes, but I get stage fright.

Talked to someone you don't know? Yes, I'm blunt as a sledge hammer, if I have something to say, you can count on me saying it. But then again, that's how I met Dayne. I straight up gave him my number, hahaha

Gone out of your way to befriend someone? Yes

Made out in a theatre? Yes but it's been a very long time

Gone roller skating since 8th grade? Yes, and I love it, but only when they play good music which is never.

Been in love? Yes

* . . Who was the last person to . . *

Say HI to you? Probably my dad when I came home from work

Tell you, I love you? My mom

Kiss you? Dayne

Hug you? My mom

Tell you BYE? The dishwasher at Marie Callander's when I left work

Write you a note? Hmmm, that's tough, probably like Delaney, yeah, because she signed my yearbook and that was the last "note' I got, lol.

Take your photo? Delaney

Call your cell phone? Delaney, this is funny because on her's all of her answers were Heather, hahaha

Buy you something? My mom bought me dinner tonight, lol. She ate with me on break

Go with you to the movies? That's hard, wait no, I went to see DaVinci Code with my family

Sing to you? Dayne

Write a poem about you? I don't know, people might do that without my knowledge, but TO my knowledge, it would be...well, probably me, and that's really saying something because I haven't written FOREVER!!!

Text message you? Jose

Touch you? In the good way? Dayne for sure, yesterday, god that was hot.

* . . What's the last . . *

Time you laughed? Reading some of Delaney's answers

Time you cried? This morning

Movie you watched? Little Women

Joke you told? I don't know, I made fun of one of the servers at Marie's tonight, and Beth found it pretty amusing (another server)

Song you've sang? Somebody T... ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/9069768/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/9069768/ Wed, 14 Jun 2006 18:31:45 PDT
HA!

So what's new with me? I'm still working at Marie Callander's, but I plan to leave at the end of the summer. I want to work at Bed, Bath, and Beyond, or a store of that sort because I plan to go into Interior Design. It's hard to get employed this time of year though so I plan to wait until school is back in session.

Dayne and I are doing better than ever, things are simply marvelous, bleh I hate that word, lol He is planning on being an Architectural Engineer which is cool because then he can build the buildings and I will decorate them He is trying to find employment right now so that he can move out. He's trying Home Depot because it starts at $10 an hour and has to do with his career field. I'm very proud of him. He's going to install my living room ceiling fan, isn't that sweet? He also wants to help me re-caulk my shower I love that kid to pieces

GUESS WHAT ELSE! He's taking me to the Renaissance Festival in two weeks! YAY! I'm SO excited. I used to go every year with my family until my dad's health got bad. But now I have someone new to go with

My dad got an appointment in Cleveland, Ohio on the 17th of July at one of the best heart centers in the world so hopefully they can fix him because his health is putting us in the poor house Pray for him or wish for him or do whatever you do for him please

I'm addicted to Battlefront II THAT GAME ROCKS! Who hears me?

I'm so psyched that school is out, and now I'm finally a SENIOR WOOT WOOT! I'm so god damn excited to graduate I can't even tell you! ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/8662667/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/8662667/ Fri, 19 May 2006 19:47:54 PDT
Hello all. That was weird, it just tried to make me submit an empty journal, you all probably have it in your inbox...oh well I just haven't made a journal in a while (as usual) and so I thought I'd hop on and give you guys the update.

Work is going well, I'm finally moved up to $8.00 an hour now, I'm working three days a week, but I manage to cram 22 hours into those three days, I work ten hours on Sundays, lol. I am thinking of picking up a second summer job, and it would go like this: Tuesdays I work 4-10 pm, so if I got a second job, I could work mornings there on Tues, then go to Marie's. Then Saturdays I work 5-11 pm, so again, I could work mornings elsewhere. Then maybe like one additional day like Wednesday or something. So that's like forty hours crammed into four days a week. But I like that better, I like it condensed instead of taking up my entire week with these tiny shifts. Whichever pays more is the one I'll keep at the end of the summer.

My family is doing alright. My dad's health is still shit, but he's looking into new doctors, and a lawyer!

I have a college entry interview at the Art Institute of Colorado today, for Interior Design, their program is incredible. I really hope I get in, I'm kind of nervous, but really excited. I have to pay a $150 fee for application processing out of my own pocket, but oh well...

It looks like I will be getting a car very soon. My dad got approved for some more credit, so he's going to tow it and fix it at this place. He pays up front, then I pay him back with as much as I can from every check, until the entire cost is paid off. But the nice thing is, I only have to pay the repair back, and beyond that, he is giving me the car, but I have to pay for insurance and gas of course I'm SOOO excited and ready to finally have a car! WOOT!

Dayne and I are doing very well, and I'm very proud of him because he's doing extrememly well in all of his courses. He just designed a computer program that will show you on the neck of a guitar how to play any chord you choose. He has every single chord in there too! OVER A THOUSAND! All programmed in code by my amazing boyfriend and in less than TWO DAYS no less! HA! Put that in your pipe and smoke it! lol. Sorry, I can't help but be prideful in him. We are coming on to our 2 year 8 month anniversary this month YAY!

On another note, Banana Split pie is FUCKING RIGHTEOUS!!! I love getting pies half off at work! It's like a layer of bananas, with vanilla filling, then a layer of chocolate filling, topped with whipped cream, chocolate drizzle, and cherries!!! It's my new favorite, but it sucks because it's seasonal and we only have it this month, and after that who knows if it will ever be back again...*tear* or as Delaney would say, *le sigh* lol.

I'm really excited about where my friendships are at this point. I stopped hanging out with almost everyone except Dayne in the past two years, because everyone started hating each other and there was drama and really nasty drugs got involved. I don't mind pot and alcohol, but beyond that, I don't really want to hang out with anyone that does anything worse because for me, shit always seems to follow when I do. I completely cleansed my life of people that I don't want to hang out with, and now I am FINALLY to the stage where I am meeting new people, and making new friends that suit me better, and I've even picked up three old friends along the way, because one of them quit drinking, and consequently, is no longer an asshole, another I had simply lost contact with, and another just moved back in state!!! WOOT! I'm so excited for how many great people I am surrounded with right now.

Another thing, my mom has said yes, and is helping me to convince my dad (which is going well) to let me go....ON A ROAD TRIP THIS SUMMER!!! FUCK YEAH! With Dayne, his friend Eric, and Eric's girlfriend, Melissa. It's going to fucking rock! We are going to go stay with Dayne's grandparents in the Grand Canyon fo... ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/8523653/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/8523653/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 17:38:47 PDT It's a fill in the blank journal entry! It looked like fun so I wanted to try one. You have to fill in what you think the word is supposed to be Have fun!

So I've decided I want two summer jobs. I'm working at Marie Callander's right now, but I also just applied at the ______ Store. I love it there! AND I get 40-50% off all merchandise, my house will be clean and flawlessly organized from now on

I have to go put away ______. I don't want to, I don't think it will even all fit because everything is clean at once this time. I'm wearing a tank top Delaney gave me, it's so cute It's blue!

I think my new across the street neighbors are _________ or something. They have this wierd witchcraft looking banner in their window, lol. They'll fit in wonderful with all the _________ __________ on this street Fucking ______

I get ________ tomorrow!!! YAY! I'm going to go get my nails done, but then I have to save the rest because I'm trying to get my _______ running, hopefully before summer. But my dad isn't really making an effort to help me get the money together like he said he would, so who knows if that'll happen.

The _________ is lovely here. I am SOOOO ready and excited for summer, then I'm a _________!!! YES FUCKING FINALLY!!!

I've been thinking about it a lot and I've made my final descision that the Culinary field is not for me. I enjoy cooking for my family in small scale, but after seeing it in a restauant I realize that it is a long, hard, hot, physically and mentally intensive career, that hardly anyone can keep up with till retirement, because it's too intense, also, I have a bad back, and it's hard for me to be on my feet for a long time. I've decided to go into my much contemplated and researched choice, __________. I'm always watching the ________ channel, I love it and have a passion for it, and it is something I can do to a ripe old age I can still go to the _________ of Colorado, so that is no problem. I'm going to an open house there on Saturday. Well, time to go put away that _________. Have fun filling in the _________. ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/8305354/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/8305354/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 13:57:33 PST HAHA! Delaney and I are also doing well. We've been managing to hang out a lot more, so that is very pleasing, but we still need to get together for some damn ovaltine! I also want to play more Monopoly, that was fun sweets Work at Marie Callander's is going well, it beats the shit out of Fazoli's SO YAY! It's spring break right now, the weather is lovely. And I've been watching tons of movies. Saw II sucks! The first was SOOO much better. I was disapointed. Walk the Line was really good though, great acting on Pheonix's part. Reese Witherspoon was okay, but not spectacular. She kind of lingers in Pheonix's shadow I think. So don't ask where my series went. I've just been way busy with this independent author study and work and boyfriend and girlfriend, and my computer is almost always taken my my little brother and his annoying dumbshit games. So yeah...I just really haven't been to involved in anything having to do with computers lately. I'm on spring hiatus, lol. Well...yeah. Talk to you all later! ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/8022966/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/8022966/ Fri, 03 Mar 2006 08:59:28 PST COMMENT YOUR HEARTS OUT!!! I would love to hear anything you have to say, even if you're just hitting on me, HAHA! But now before I leave you, I would like to make one recognition. This entire series I would like to dedicate to Delaney as she has made me a very happy girl on this day She worships Nirvana. And I worship her, so this is all for her. I love you sweetheart! Peace!

~H. Heather

Edit: GUESS WHAT! I'm taking the most gorgeous girl to prom guys!!! I love you hunni bunni I want it to be April 15, I'm SOOO excited she said yes!!! WOOHOO! Go look at her, she's wonderful! ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/8012516/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/8012516/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 20:03:57 PST 01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [x] on their hands or fingers.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] of the opposite sex.
07. [x] of the same sex
08. [x] a little younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [x] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [x] with red hair
14. [x] with straight hair.
15. [x] shorter than me.
16. [] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who i truly love/loved.
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [x] who was high.
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [x] who i had just met
25. [x] who I really didn't want to kiss.
26. [x] just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [x] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall.
31. [x] at a show.
32. [] at the beach.
33. [x]at a concert.
34. [x] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [x] in the rain.
37. [x] with an std.
38. [x] in the shower
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [x] in the movies.
41. [x] in a bathroom/laundry room
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [] on a roof top.
44. [] under water
45. [] while driving
46. [] a stranger
47. [x] more than one person at once. (triple kiss)
48. [x] crying
49. [] goodbye forever
50. [x] when i was drunk.
51. [] who didn't speak english
52. [x] in a hot tub ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7910759/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7910759/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 20:36:59 PST It will draw suspense...and hopefully readers, because only two people comment on my journal it seems, haha.

So I just got home from work, and I got on to check my various accounts. I realized it's been a while since I posted a journal, so here goes:

So today I got assigned this mega-uber-huge project in my American Lit. class. It's worth 315 points! THAT IS A LOT!!! It's an independent author study, of a post-1900 american author. I think I might do Louisa May Alcott, Little Women. That sounds good to me. I dig the movie, and I hear the book is better. So that's due in April. Now I'm a huge procrastinator, so I hope I can keep my ass in gear, because quite frankly, this project scares the shit out of me. But I am finally caught up with all my other work. Except for one problem. This cunt of a teacher has an unknown vendetta against me because I don't look and act like all the other brainless dumbasses in that class. Now some of you might dismiss that as teen angst, and trust me, I considered that. But after receiving the wrong grade time and time again, even in group projects, and having assignments turn up missing. Like yesterday, for example, she called my mom saying I have a D because I didn't have such and such assignments turned in. I went up to her today, and told her I DID hand them in, SHE graded them and handed them back to me just mon. afternoon! She asked if I had them to show her. But wouldn't you know it, I threw them away when she handed them back, because at least I try to stay organized. So now I have to go have a fucking meeting with her. WHEN IT'S HER FUCKING FAULT! Plus there's all those small side annoyances, that aren't really a big deal, but they do add up to piss me off. Such as telling me I have to wait to go to the bathroom and then letting the other girls who came up after me go first. And then she kept on glancing over at me to see if I had noticed that she let them go first. YOU'RE DAMN RIGHT I FUCKING NOTICED STUPID WHORE! GOD! Sorry, I am just sick and tired of this bullshit. Not to mention the fact that they stuck me with her for two semesters straight. Fuckin a.

Anyways...hmm. What else is new? What's going on with you guys? GIVE ME INFO! lol. What did you all do for V-day? Anything? Dayne and I went to dinner and ate pasta out of the same bowl, it was fun, we also cuddled and played Star Wars Battlefront (the first one) it was a sweet day. It's funny because up until this point we've never celebrated the greeting card holiday. But we just decided to go to dinner this year. We swang it for 5 bucks, haha, it was awesome. Bottomless Bowls (free, unlimited refills) ROCK! So he and I are doing awesome. We've been getting really close and bonding a lot lately, and that makes me really happy.

Also, I have another new person in my life, well, not new exactly, she's been around a while, but her form to me has changed. I won't say her by name. If you don't know who it is, there's a reason Although I love you all, some things are secret and I won't tell until she gives me permission. I'm not sure how open she wants to be about the whole ordeal. Especially since we aren't "official" lol. But just so you know hunni, any time you're ready, I am too She's amazing and pretty much rocks my world. Wow aren't I sappy? If she was a president she'd be Baberaham Lincoln

My family is doing okay. It looks like my dad will go in for a third open heart surgery and have his heart sac removed. He's had so many surgeries and waiting for him to come out alive is the worst experience that I've had to relive so often. He'll go in for this in the near future. I'm pretty happy overall because I don't really focus on it. But every now and then I think about it and get really sad. But on another side I feel very blessed that I have such wonderful friends and such an amazing boyfriend to help me and my family through this. Dayne said he will come to the hospital with me and support me and my family, which is such a great burden off of my shoulders because every time it has been me shouldering the weight and trying to be strong for my mom and brother, but now he will be there to be strong for me. That really touches my heart.

God now I'm almost crying typing this crap, lol. Please keep my little family in your thoughts and... ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7775466/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7775466/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 20:41:20 PST That made me happy, I feel like me being a good kid is paying off, he's actually noticing! That's a great feeling. So I should have a car in about a month and a half, I need like 3 more checks to cover repair. What else...OH! My hair is the longest it's ever been and I can ACTUALLY have braided pigtails! I'M SO EXCITED! I've always wanted to be able to do that. They are adorable! Delaney is coming back to Heritage which has had a major impact on my mood, I'm so happy she'll be there again! Just like old times! lol. I love her to pieces, check her out, she's also an amazing artist. Read her Lola series, I am in it in like the 4th installment now! I am Miss Suzy Lee, which is my FAVORITE girl name, so thanks for that Delaney! She rocks my world! (And Jordan's) Hmmm...What else what else? I don't know...I still have a damned cough, my sickness moved from my head to my chest, bummer, but I would rather have it there, so I guess it's better than nothing. Well, I should probably be off now. I have to get up early tomorrow. Well, everyday. Peace!

~H. Heather ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7675227/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7675227/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 11:21:09 PST
~H. Heather ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7578293/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7578293/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 21:04:45 PST
~H. Heather ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7503192/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7503192/ Tue, 03 Jan 2006 21:06:05 PST Angels and Demons, Dan Brown: The driver looked up. "Well I'll be." He turned and gave Langdon an omi-

sorry, the line ends there

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Ouch! It hit the wall. lol.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?:
This movie called "How Stella Got Her Groove Back"

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
10:00 pm

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
9:51 pm

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
My family watching Star Trek in the other room

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Earlier today. I was getting out of the car and walking inside from my Chiropractor appointment.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
A journal by Delaney tagging me to do this shit.

9. What are you wearing?
A red bra with white polka dots, a skimpy white tank top, white socks (the footie style, oh look, I used the word "footie" haha) and these black satin pajama pants with red and white candy canes on them

10. Did you dream last night?
Yeah, but I don't remember of what.

11. When did you last laugh?
Earlier today while watching that movie on tv.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Everything except the wall. lol. You can't see them at all! HA I RHYMED!

13. Seen anything weird lately?
I see something weird everyday. Today I was on ebaumsworld.com so I saw a lot of weird things.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
At least it has some different questions

15. What is the last film you saw?
Like in theatres? hmm...Chronicles of Narnia, The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. About the majestic land of Spare Oom and the magical city of War Drobe. haha. I love that shit.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Hmm...I'd pay off my parents debt, then get them a new house, then a house for me and Dayne, then whatever I wanted, and something nice for everyone I know. And I'd put the rest away so that I would never have to work unless I wanted to.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
Definitely not happy Delaney! WITH WHOM??? ME??!! lol, just joking, but seriously, I wanna know Ich liebe dich! Hmm, well I'm a really open person so if there's something I don't say to others its for good reason. So fuck you I'm not saying anything.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
AMEN DELANEY! You're preaching to the choir there sista! lol. I would also dethrone king bush. Notice that it's not capitalized. Not an ounce of respect from this little girl Also...to make money and power into something that won't be the root of all evil anymore.

19. Do you like to dance?
Yeah, but not like actual good dancing because I don't know how to dance well, lol.

20. George Bush:
Don't even get me started.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Suzy Lee (with many middle names attatched)

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
I have so many cool names. I like Slayden a whole lot. I also like Wolfgang, and many others (also with many middle names attatched)

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I would love to. Especially in France.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?:
Welcome. Everyone is welcome here.

25. 4 people who must also do this in THEIR journal:
I don't care. Whoever wants to. Delaney is the only one I would ask, but she's already done it anyway. ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7482921/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7482921/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 20:21:02 PST And we just hung out in my room and ate a lot and had tons of good conversation, and just basically had a girls night. It was really cool. So happy new year everyone! Isn't it weird that it's 2006 now? Weird...here's my countdown:

10 Bands you've been listening a lot to lately:
1. Simon and Garfunkel
2. Cake
3. Misfits
4. MXPX
5. Carly Simon
6. Nekromantix
7. Eagles
8. Green Day
9. Brand New
10. AFI


9 Things you look forward to:
1. Getting Married
2. Having kids
3. Moving out
4. Getting my own car
5. Seeing Dayne tomorrow, seeing Laney soon
6. Watching another version of Chronicles of Narnia in a few minutes
7. Getting my clock fixed
8. Traveling
9. Reading more of Angels and Demons


8 Things you like to wear:
1. My rainbow thigh high socks
2. Any pair of butt jeans
3. my combat boots
4. new stuff
5. my cute brown skirt
6. My cute brown, red, pink, cream striped skirt, from Fossil
7. Band/Nightmare Before Christmas stuff
8. Anything I deem stylish, especially stuff in the rockabilly genre


7 Things that anger you:
1. sexism, racism, well, pretty much any type of prejudice
2. Bush, and the government
3. people who are fake, manipulative, ridiculous, cruel to people who don't deserve it, stupid in general (there's a lot of ways to be stupid), judgemental, condescending, compulsive liars, etc. etc. etc.
4. Being patronized
5. People that don't even know me extremely well that try to tell me they know more about me than I do, or who give me advice when I don't ask for it, or when I tell them not to give me advice
6. Lazyness, Selfishness, people who complain and do nothing about it
7. Muderers, Rapists, Pedophiles, people who commit inexcusable crimes against humanity

6 Things you say most days:
1. bad words
2. Dayne
3. huh?
4. "yeah" in the tone Dayne says I always use (the one where I'm trying to sound innocent and demure when he's just asked me something really dirty, cuz he's the only person that can make me blush and I don't know how else to react, lol)
5. no worries (lately)
6. fucking awesome

5 Things you do everyday:
1. listen to music
2. think of Dayne/ talk about him
3. sing
4. sleep
5. eat

4 People you want to spend more time with:
1. Delaney
2. Jelly
3. Kelly
4. a new girlfriend if I could find one

3 Movies you could watch over and over again:
1. None really, if I'm sick of it, I'm sick of it. I have to have variety with movies.
2.
3.

2 Of your favourite songs at the moment:
1. The Boxer - Simon and Garfunkel
2. I Don't Know Why - Norah Jones

1 Person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. Dayne - shhh ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7440043/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7440043/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 12:57:50 PST 01. Dayne
02. My Friends
03. Love
04. Sex
05. Getting new stuff
06. Feeling connected with someone, whether it be through good conversation, being drunk together, being in love, having sex, or best of all, just being intimate (cuddling, playing, eye contact, etc.)
07. Freedom

Seven important things in your house
01. Movies
02. Music/ stereo
03. My family
04. Computer/ Xbox and Playstation
05. Yummy food, and my cookbooks
06. My room in general, my own private space, with my journals
07. Musical Instruments


Seven random facts about you
01. Sometimes I try to dance like Michael Jackson in secret
02. I love to sing...anywhere
03. Sometimes I need rain so badly that I sit in my cold shower with my clothes on...and sing to myself
04. I love every kind of music except techno and polka
05. I love to clean, cook, and organize things
06. I am very maternal
07. I collect Nightmare Before Christmas things (haha, doesn't everyone nowadays?)

Seven things you plan to do before you die
01. Go to Scotland and go horseback riding (preferably with Dayne in his kilt )
02. Get married and have two children, and name them with super long names, and have Delaney be their godmother
03. Travel extensively
04. Take a roadtrip with Dayne, Victoria, Delaney, and maybe two more people we decide to take along, and the only planned stop we have so far is Salt Lake City to fuck with the Mormons and to see Dark Side of the Moon in the planetarium, because it's amazing., and beacuse I can give a guided tour of that state, I've been there soo many times
05. Do a few completely pointless things at the complete spur of the moment. Such as driving all the way to boulder just for a slice of pizza. Or, this one I like better, drive to Utah to get a cup of coffee at Salt Lake Roasting Company, who, by the way, has the best cup of joe you will ever drink Come on, it's coffee in rebellion
06. Go somewhere that I can wake up early on a Saturday morning and go visit a quaint market with a melon stand and a man selling fresh fish from the coast, and wear a sunhat and carry a wicker basket for the things I buy. And where a white flowing sundress.
07. I would like to own some kind of vintage car

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex
01. Lankyness
02. Unique personality
03. Having a connection with them on a primal instinctual level
05. Mysteriousness, let me figure things out about them, but not so mysterious that they're like a vault
06. Playful, immature and mature at the right times. Knowing when is the right time for different moods, being able to read my mood and act accordingly
07. Last, because it's only a bonus, physical attractiveness (at least to me ), and skills in the sack, lol, knowing what kind of fooling around I'm in the mood for, knowing several varieties of skills.

Seven things you say the most
01. jesus christ
02. huh?
03. various cuss words in various sentences
04. Dayne...in various sentences
05. oh my god
06. *sarcastic comment*
07. "yeah" in the tone Dayne says I always use... ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7407136/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7407136/ Sat, 24 Dec 2005 20:13:23 PST We had some friends of the family over for Christmas Eve dinner today, which was a little stressful because I did all the cooking, but it was nice. Everything turned out well and went according to plan. I got my driver's liscence on Tuesday, which rocks. I have no car yet, because the car I was going to use as a trade in won't drive now...I let an amatuer (sp?) fix it. The higher your down payment on a new car, the lower your monthly payment...so now that I've lost my 4,000 trade in, I can't afford my monthly payment, therefore don't know when or if I will be getting a car...sigh. I got hired at Fazoli's on Wed. and I start this coming wed. which is good, the first interview and I already got a job, lol. Lucky me! I start at 6.75 an hour which isn't too bad. And the management seems really nice. And they seem to be really flexible with scheduling which is awesome. So basically the car stuff is the only bum news right now. Even though I don't always have the availibility of a car, it's nice to have a little more freedom of a liscence, when my mom isn't too busy and lets me borrow her car, lol. And I look forward to the extreme freedom of having my own car! WOOT! haha. Yeah, so they delivered my mom's major christmas present today, a fridge! She was so excited and happy that she cried tears of joy, it was the coolest. I love people that react like that So yeah, that's just an update of what's going on with me. I don't know when I'll get to give another one because Monday and Tuesday I'm with Dayne and then the Lady D. Then Wednesday I start work Wow! Talk to you all later, Merry Christmas, Happy Hannukah (sp?), Happy Kwanza, Ramadan, winter solstice, etc, etc, etc, GOOD BYE! for all ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7358595/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7358595/ Mon, 19 Dec 2005 21:00:29 PST Without even turning in my applications yet! I have them at Fazoli's, Fatburger, and Tokyo Joe's. I'm pretty psyched. The Culinary Arts program I'm in looks really good on those food service applications, so that's the type of joints I've been applying at the most. Wish me luck for my driver tests and my interviews! Peace.

~H. Heather ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7259739/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7259739/ Thu, 08 Dec 2005 20:33:13 PST I LOVE CHRISTMAS!! Time to bake more cookies soon! I give out a lot of food as presents, particularly to Dayne. Because that is the kind of present he seems to appreciate and enjoy the most. I will make him peanut butter cookies with chocolate swirls in them, because he loves peanut butter combined with chocolate (who doesn't right?) I'm sooooo excited! Our treee is lovely and there's already almost all the presents under it. I CAN'T wait to see the looks on my family's faces. That's my favorite part, I'd rather give than receive gifts. It's so fun because I always pick presents that I know are JUST PERFECT for the person. And I love watching their little faces light up HEZAH! ]]> ~TheBrokenOne http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7213917/ http://TheBrokenOne.deviantart.com/journal/7213917/ Sat, 03 Dec 2005 17:10:29 PST My brother is getting two light sabers for christmas, lol. They are cool. We got them at sharper image. The even make the crashing noise when you hit them on something LOL. Cool. What will they think of next? My dad is getting a wallet and I'm going to get him a mug because I get him a new one every year. And my mom is getting a Gone With the Wind music box. It will be awesome Bye!

~H. Heather ]]> ~TheBrokenOne