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Pessimism sucks, even though it might help when investing, don't be pessimistic normally.

]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/16731919/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/16731919/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 23:15:38 PST /
I really like my job, and things are slowly moving along.
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I found I still really miss my father, I guess that'll never change, everyday that I do my best at whatever I did that day I feel a personal pride, but that all came from him. He never wanted anything from me, just to grow up happy, and to do what I thought was the right thing.
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I need to learn how to pat myself on the back.

]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/15299809/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/15299809/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 10:22:51 PDT
I am still trying to find a place that will develop my black and white film and scan it at a decent resolution for cheap. I've found a bunch of places but they are all for professionals and it's like 20$+ a roll ... Nuts to that. I've got 9 rolls of undeveloped film, so I don't feel like dropping 200$ :-/

Ohh and Kudos to everyone out there that makes me smile. You know who you are

]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/14672394/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/14672394/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 11:23:40 PDT Time to get organized kick my ass into second gear and like get shit done.
I hopefully will be drawing more neat pencil drawings in the near future but I need to fix two sinks, a bath tub seal , and clean the garage, move stuff from a room into that garage , and then move my friend into that room. all by like Tuesday.. I should always paint the bathroom ceiling as its majorly chipping.. :-/

300 the movie is a visual experience unparalleled in its magnitude so far. I finally saw it, and I think it was the square root of awesome.

]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/13908695/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/13908695/ Sat, 28 Jul 2007 00:07:22 PDT I'm down right now, because a year ago I was trying to make sure I wouldn't be in the same position I was then, a year later. I still am in the same position a year later. The things that saddens me is that I'm lacking this drive, I haven't a true reason to do anything it seems, I'm just surviving from day to day keeping myself entertained until I pass out and bring about the next day. I resent this existence, but can not will myself to want more, because I can't see what it is that I want out of life. I have everything I could want out of life right now, a loving family, good friends, and no stress. I'm living a continual vacation with the ever nagging knowledge that my time is ticking away and eventually all of it will come to an end. Almost all my self respect is gone. I seem that I have no urge to attend college anymore, but I love being in the classes. I feel I've given up on myself and as much as I want to succeed, that montage of progressive good things that leads to my personal success just isn't starting. Each day I wake up it's the same.

It's not my father's fault, as he had no decision in his untimely demise, but as my father passed I lost a large part of my heart and soul. It wasn't his death that ravaged me though.. it was the long time I spent with him before his death. his fight against cancer spanned years, and each day I was there watching him get weaker and weaker, and not being able to do anything about it. I'm a very caring, empathetic, and loving man and as he was wasting away before me I couldn't help but feel miserable. I was told it's allright and it's the natural way etc, and so I never felt bad particularly that he died, but each day he was alive and living with me but yet not being able to be my father, the man I grew looking up to and never saw the weak side of, was a day that I had shut my heart off a little more. I would not bear the fact that he was this weak shell of his former self. I could not bear the responsibility thrust upon me. I was not ready.

I have not regained the dreaming self I once was. I lost a big part of myself with my father. I lost the aspirations, I lost the desire, the drive, the passion... The days have turned to a collection of grays now. I'm not bitter, hate, resent,or have other harsh feelings. But I can't dream or wish, or desire something better. I'm stuck in a pit of indifference. It's like my father died, and I am touring purgatory.

This Birthday, I had not one thing to request from anyone. Well I wish I could still dream, I wish I could still hope, I wish I could still desire, I wish I could... find someone to make me want to be a better person again.

I wonder if this tops the other journal entry in making me sound emo or something. I'm just typing it out as I discover out why I feel like crud, via introspecting.

And if you want to blame anyone for the long journal entry, let it be the 7-11 guy who dropped the last taquito as I ordered it. Honestly if you have tongs specifically designed for holding something and still manage to drop it when just standing there... uggh fuckin retard

]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/13297940/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/13297940/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 01:56:12 PDT
I think I'm finally ready to try Drawing those people that have requested a portrait of themselves
that means you Circleoflight and Deaths-discomfort.

Dreeft 's request is barely done.

Visshet still hasn't requested something, or did and I didn't write it down?

Shell4art 's request is a tough one and I've got little to show so far.

Blackice 's request is basicly complete

Joker-vincent-tailor 's request turned into me drawing a girl at the beach instead of a girl at the pond dancing.

Ryu-mithril 's request is a complicated one involving a story being completed and then hopefully I'll do an awesome fan fiction pic from it

Gazoogleheimer 's request I honestly believe is out of my capabilities.

Cryolysis requested a pineapple, and about halfway through sketching it I noticed the little spinies were facing the wrong direction.. that's what I get for never using a reference for anything I do..

Other then those requests I've gotten a few that didn't seem to be so serious, or were of subjects I thought were taboo.

I've drawn some random other stuff, but I don't think I'm putting it up on DA as it's boring stuff like a vitamin water bottle and a guy with an afro shooting out of a car and other stuff of the sort.

Rawhide84 is out on her road trip trucking across the US once again, but I didn't get to say farewell one last time before she left. Well she knows I wish her the best so no biggie.

Cut up a pair of old really baggy pants with holes in them and am goign to make a curtain out of them for my basement window. Yes I'm aware that sounds stupid but regular curtains are to long, and the smaller ones don't have the width. Plus I want the pants material so I can just throw in the washing machine when it gets dirty, because that area gets dirty farily fast *well it's more that I just don't ever clean the window sill.

I wish you guys would bug me to hurry up on your requests or something to get me really going on them.. but I guess you weren't expecting much from me in the first place and didn't actually think it would ever happen.

I wish I could find someone in New York city that wanted to bike ride with me.. just going around seeing new places or something.

]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/13067960/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/13067960/ Wed, 23 May 2007 19:24:37 PDT
First off I never checked around for a new college to transfer to after I obtained my Associates from LaGuardia Community college until recently, and even so I did a half assed job, I'm hoping I can go for a bachelors in graphic design, or something of the sort that would allow me to utilize my passion in art. Other then being what I want to do, I really can't see me working in another field, I can't see me doing anything but sales, but my overly huge heart with my stupid morals makes me feel bad whenever selling someone something they don't need.

The most major problem I have is my job situation. I'm unemployed and this is due to my own lack of motivation. I live with my mother and sister in the family house and since my mother’s income is so low she can't afford the mortgage on the house and all the other bills and everything at once. My sister contributes a little, but it is by far not enough. This means with each month we accumulate a bit more debt. I go through the days spending no money, because I have none and this means I get to learn how to cook foods out of what is available, which I'm grateful for because my culinary skill is vastly better then a year ago. I previously was looking online for jobs about 3 times a week and sent out a bunch of resumes and cover letters. Recently I've stopped doing even that, I've replace my time on Craigslist and hotjobs and other sites with thumbsshare and talking with my friends. So now I'm completely self defeated. I have no problems against working which is the weird part, I just have no determination to get out of the house and search for a job. I honestly don't even feel part of my society.

I'm an outcast of the social network. I've detached myself from popular culture long ago and I don't really have anything in particular that I can associate myself with, like music, or a TV show, or anything. I guess you can say I'm an artist, but everything I do comes just as easily to me as anything else I do. I don't try extra hard to do anything. I like trying everything in art from photography, vector, photomaniping, drawing, painting it's all the same to me. I don't have a preference other then the time it takes me to do something and its material availability. I feel like I have a passion for art, but just art undefined, because I can't say I particularly want to be a great pencil artist, or a great photographer. In today's specialized world though, being a jack of all trades doesn't mean anything, because employers want one person who can do a specific job really good, and they'll get another person to do a different job.

I spend almost my entire day at the computer if I'm not taken away by my friends to do something with them. They come over often enough and go outside, play video games, and go out smoking hookah. It allows me to keep my mind off being a complete degenerate, but as happy as I feel I still feel utterly empty at the end of the day. Sometimes the better I feel hanging out the worse I feel afterwards because I punish myself for enjoying the day when I really shouldn't be. I think another reason I feel so miserable is the fact that I don't have a person in my life loving me. Having a girlfriend for 3+ years made me real comfortable with the feeling of companionship and since we've broken up however many months ago I have been on a roller coaster of different feelings.

Initially I was cool with her and just decided to part our ways and still be friends which was working out quite fine. It seemed like she was dating this friend of ours and I said I was ok with it to both of them, I just wanted to know if they were, because they were both coming over to my house to hang out. They both lied to me and I wound up finding out via Instant message logs. So I confront my ex on it and said they were both banned from my house. Months afterwards I relived the ban and was in decent terms with my ex but still never had her over. When I requested she come over to pick up all the stuff that she left here it seemed she was avoiding me. This angered me, and I eventually wound up blowing up on her and blocking her on instant messenger and etcetera, but after realizing that that doesn't solve anything I unblocked her once again and invited her over once again. To this day her stuff remains at my... ]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/12970169/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/12970169/ Tue, 15 May 2007 19:35:21 PDT --
I didn't want that emo journal entry up there anymore so I decided to put this up. For I lack any real news

]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/12935098/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/12935098/ Sat, 12 May 2007 21:53:37 PDT my resiliance to depression.
The will to do better is undoubtivly
long gone, replaced by indifference.
Each day I go on with no change
everything remains the same.
Any visit by the few friends,
brings enjoyment for the moment.
Only a time to glance away,
From the void that fills me daily
Lie to yourself about aspirations,
soon you don't even want to fight.
Feeling down is pointless,
but if you've headed no where,
it's hard to reflect and be happy.
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I still need a job.
I still miss my father.
I still miss companionship
I still am rambling about crap
Sorry for being so Emo everyone

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Any three, no matter how personal, private, or random.

I have to answer them honestly

In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal and you have to answer the questions that are asked to you ...

So ask away ...

And you might win, a BRAND NEW WINNEBAEGO!

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]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/12007794/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/12007794/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 23:47:57 PST
Learning how to use Adobe Illustrator at the moment and it's fairly frustrating. It seems like the program was designed to annoy me or something but I am getting results and am getting more used to the way things work and will start branching off into completing various tutorials soon after completing my first all vector picture.

Bit lonely now, hurt from my ex girlfriend, things at home aren't as peachy as one would like, wish my mother was doing better seems like everyday she gets something wrong with her i guess that's just old age.

I miss my father

]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/9754818/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/9754818/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 00:01:31 PDT It seems I draw for pleasure alone but then why do I post the drawings on the internet and feel saddened when so very few people acknoledge it. I don't want to go out seeking useless pageviews just to say I have a certain number. I guess I'm more looking for someone to care in my improvements and more over just care about me. The thoughts I house are disticnt and only I have them, for me I hold them to high reguard and wish someone out there would also. In class I may run free with likewise intelectualy stimulated individuals but when the class is done the nessity of thought is gone and most resume thier lives as do I. I do perfer being in the state of the minds activity sometimes, just as I perfer to be in a drunken stupor sometimes. Moderation and such.

I figure this is enough rambling for now. ]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/3594984/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/3594984/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 09:18:22 PDT
It's of stuff I havn't touched yet becuse of my laziness.. heh .. lazy ..

Some of it is just the origianl non colored pencil version .

Ok most of it is... well enjoy.








]]> ~TheNiceGuy http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/3576752/ http://TheNiceGuy.deviantart.com/journal/3576752/ Tue, 12 Oct 2004 20:31:42 PDT
I have a bunch of different stuff that I drew,
but I got into this little fit of only scanning and
editting my samus pics.

So I'll start throwing in some regular drawings. ]]> ~TheNiceGuy