http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:TheOrdained&section=today deviantART RSS for by:TheOrdained en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 13:36:57 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/21305496/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/21305496/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 17:50:19 PST she is so amazing.

Blogging ins't really my thing as you can tell by my rare journal updates he he.

Err, crazy about the boy I'm seeing but if i get too much into detail in my blog then it'll just be jynxed.

I'm working at the theatres right now, and I pretty much LOVE it, most of the time.

other than that still living at home.
THE HILLS IS ON TONIGHT!!! I LOVE IT!!!

<3 Lexie
P.S. My daddy makes the best soup ever

]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/19732658/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/19732658/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 09:09:53 PDT
My brother and his wife just had a beautiful little girl! Mackenziey (can you believe the spelling? EWWW)! Let me telly ou she is the most perfect looking new born ever. Mine was very skinny and sick looking.

Maddy is getting so big! Crawling now, getting into everything! Pain in my but, but a cute pain in my but!

School is in a month. Wewt.

I remember havign somethign interesting ot talk abotu when I started doing this.. but i forgot it!

PEACE!
xoxo Alexis

]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/19192168/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/19192168/ Thu, 03 Jul 2008 21:30:22 PDT
The baby is commando crawling.

i still havent written anything decent in forever. Scratch that I havent written anything in forever, I could really stand to try.

I'm working a lot.

I'm kind of upset some good poems i'd managed to salvage went missing again... after my sister cleaned my room for me so i hope thye're not gone

Boys? i don't really wanna get into all that. Enjoying my time being single, in a way. Sort of seeing a couple of guys. Not exactly ready to pursue anything so I'm doing my best not to get too , ya know, fond of eithe rof them. Not too sure it's wokring though.

anyway nothign special going on, like always.

]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/17933028/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/17933028/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 19:15:14 PDT
The guy I've been seeing hasn't spoken to me since monday. We hang out with the same group of friends, and I've tried to start convorsation, but nothing. I'm not incredablly broken up about it, if he coninues not to talk to me, I'll just consider it a break up. It turns out I don't like him as much as I thought I did. I'm a little boy crazy, and went out with him RIGHT after the guy that i was totally hungup on, started seeing another girl. and Now that thye're not together anymore, and now I'm not really that into my boyfriend. What does that say about me? Well it says I only went out with this guy in spite of things. I'm liek that, although I'll be more careful not to use anyone in the process next time. I'll never tell him though, that it was in spite. Yay ANGST! lol

I'm in a really good mood lately though, although I have a headache EVERY DAY, but it's fine. I just did the thirty hour famine yesterday, we finished this morning. It felt sooo good to eat. I don't feel liek we truely get a taste of what it feels like to be starving in that thirty hours. I'm trying to come up with ways to raise more awerness.

for any one who reads this, [link] -- it's a website wehre they ask you word definitions (it's multiple choice) and every word you get right they send 20 grains of rice to starving fmilies. The rice is paid for by the advertisements ont he website. Seriously, go there, SAVE A LIFE!

I'll probably put a jar in the youth room, with a sign that says "This Jar is hungry for change" and get them to put change in it all year until the next famine. Then we'll roll it all up and take it to the bank and donate that.

Anyway, I don't have much else to update on. Except that the weather has been sooooo nice lately. nice and war. mmm NATRUAL LITHIUM, yay sunlight!

]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/17712023/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/17712023/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 08:52:31 PDT
Thats right I have a daughter who is now almost Seven months old.

That sad thing is I've pretty much got writers block. I could dig out my ol poetry book and post some old ones I guess.

I'm aware no one cares to read these, but it's fun for me to look back at ya know?

Well anyways I'm back in school and doing very well.

I've been doing a lot of photo minipulation but then again wh doesn't these days?

]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/10087515/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/10087515/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 04:49:06 PDT
I'm getting my ring soon I'm so excited. It's gonna take onger tog et because they switched companies but I'll be getting real stones! yay!

There is a dance coming up, I probably won't go, but people are begging me to. I might, I'm just not sure if I'd enjoy myself.

I'm having a little bit of trouble writing anything decent right now. I'm working on a story that my friends and I were witing. I'm tryin to redo it.

Love xoxo Lexie!!<3 ]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9963372/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9963372/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 11:01:21 PDT

I'm dreading tomorrow. I've got to wake up early, so that I can walk across the street and climb onto a yellow bus full of people I don't know or trust. From there the other passangers and I will be shippied off to a prison. By now I'm pretty sure you'fe figured out I'm talking about school. Every one will load off of the bus and float off to their groups of friends until class starts, excoet me. I'll walk slowly through the hallways trying to find some office. When I go into this office I'll be waiting hours to actually get in, meaning I'll miss a class or two, which is totally fine. At this time I'll be dragged into an office to speak to a scary councelor, he'll then question me and assign my courses. From here I'll be given confusing directions to my next class where i'll sit and slouch in fear of all the people in the room and do my work quietly. And so my day will continue.

I'm not good at being the new kid. I'm afriad of people. I don't make friends very quickly. ]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9688424/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9688424/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 08:51:20 PDT
Tomorrow I'm gonna be jumpingon a bus and goign home to miramichi. Here I get to walk from someplace, and I really have no clue where it is, until I find my home. To be honest, I'm not quite sure where it is, but I'll find it. I'll see Adam again, and I'm glad, sort of. This relationship stuff is starting to scare the crap outta me, maybe because my self worth/esteem have both been demolished. I'm not sure. Becoming attatched to anything is difficult for me. I'd rather have no one, tha way no one can hurt me.

Kirstie says I need somebody, and that I need more help than I'll allow. I'm not sure I believe that. The truth is getting attatched is scary, needing someone hurts too much, and losing them will be the death of you. It's the truth, and the truth is Shit Happens, and it happens to everyone.

I have to have a talk with my mother and beg her to give me consent for welfare. I can't work in miramichi, they have a very short demand for employment, it's a small town. Finding a job would be a miracle. The question is, can i got o school and make enough money to live? probly not.

Things look like they're gonna be pretty good when I get back home, but, for me things always seem to crash and burn after i get a sip of a goood life. I'll be back ont he streets with nothing.

Anyways thats enough o my selfish ranting about my "horrible" life. So many people have it so much worse, so I should just shut up.

Lexie xoxo ]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9679218/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9679218/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 14:31:57 PDT
Well I'm incredably miserable. Thats the bottom line here. I've been in Saint John for the past two weeks and other than the few days I got out of the house, it's been hell. I've spent every single day heairng that I'm a slut, cruel, stupid, foolish, selfish, passive agressive (whatever the hell that means), possesive, that i'm gonna ruin everyone's lives including my own, that no one will ever wanna be with me cuz I'm unattractive and malicious. Don't you just love my parents.

TOMORROW I'm getting out of this wreched place! Thankgod. I gotta go to moncton for a day or two, to see my Mother. She's ok, but she's gotten really uptight after the robery. She used to be so free spirited and understanding, now she's just a bitch with a stick in her ass. Anyways I'm not aloud to live there, cuz I pawned some of our stuff to pay for rent, ya know so we could live, and she wasn't happy about that, labelled it stealing and kicked me out. She's alright when she doesn't get emotional, and when I'm not living with her. I acctually don't hate her now that I don't live there. Maybe we;ve said a lotta shitty things to each other but she's my mom, and that means she's family. Family has always got familys back, no matter what. She just needs to know everything is cool with us, and they are.

Well on the 12th or 13th I go back to Home Sweet Home Miramichi. I finally found a place, seems like you find something, before you die on the streets. Trust me the streets of Miramichi aren't very interesting. I get to see Adam, even though I'm still not so sure he really wants to be with me. I mean the fact thats he's a whole 6th grader older than I, seems to be bothering him now. Well, now that we're talking about me going back to school and stuff. I think now that it's clicked thats he's dating someone in highschool, he's kinda uncomfortable. It kinda hurts, but I shoulda known better. I just really don't wanna fuck this up. To be honest this is the only ACTUAL relationship I've ever been in. It's not just that though, I really care about him, and right now I need him, and if I don't have him, I really have no one.

The last few days I've done nothing but sit here and stare blankly at nothing, or cry, or be in a blind rage. Right now, I'm just so mad and depressed that I'm clam, and almost feel nothing. I've lost one of the two people in my entire life that I can trust.

Anyways, I guess thats all the ranting I have for now.

Lexie xoxo

P.S.
Thigns seems to go downt he shitter real fast, but it all seems to work out eventually. ]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9641624/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9641624/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 06:56:58 PDT

Lexie xoxo ]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9626529/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9626529/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 09:05:24 PDT . I'm waiting for my Dad to uplaod some photos so I can actually upload them. I have some REALLY good ones I took.

lol i'm listening to I Am The Walrus - Beatles

BEST SONG EVER!

Anwyays y'all have a nice day. I got some more poems for ya here, I dunno wen the photos will be out we'll just have to wait and see.

Lexie xoxo ]]> ~TheOrdained http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9607146/ http://TheOrdained.deviantart.com/journal/9607146/ Sat, 05 Aug 2006 11:17:23 PDT
I miss Kirstie she should be coming home soon! Either today or tomorrow she'll be back. I'm gonna be able to spend as much time with her as I had planned. I hope she's not mad.

I get to see Adam in like a week. He'll love my new hair, especially sense I'm going back to blonde! he really wanted me to. But of course it's not gonna be completely blonde, but mostly. I'm colournig it blondeish for me btw, not him. I like my hair red, buti t's just getting old.

For all you out there who may be reading this, you're probably wondering who the hell I am or what the hell I'm talking about. So here's the run down.

My name is Lexie. I spent most of my life living in Saint John, New Brunswick, Canada. After I left This past January I experianced a lot of things most people my age won't experiance for another few years, if ever. I had to grow up fast. I left my best friend for 11 years behind. I left Saint John to go to Moncton, New Brunswick, where I thought i would be meeting loads of opertunities. This is where I developed a few different "bad habbits". I left my home, and went to live with a couple who decided to take me in. Here I lived a non stop party for four months. A lady who had moved in with the couple a few months after I had decided to take care of me and help me clean my life up. She took me out of that house, and to Miramichi, New Brunswick. This is where I met my boy friend Adam, he's my Muse . That's where I am Currently living, and I'm cleaning up and going back to school and such. So now you know who I am.

My life is inspiration for my art.

Lexie xoxo ]]> ~TheOrdained