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P.S.: It could be real yet a fantasy of my own.


Chapter I:

I don’t know where to start or where to end, I’ve tried to commit suicide more than I tried to live. Every time I’m one step away from death someone comes and saves me from my hell. Now when she’s gone, I’m not there, death is a certain pace in my life. Every time I tried after I left, a message from God appears to save me again. I wonder what this life is for not having someone by my side, other than God, but God knows more than I do and surely knows what’s coming into my life. I kept looking for answers hoping to find an answer or two but the answer seem nowhere to be found. I dedicated my life to help others hoping I’ll find the answer in them but for years and years I lost faith in everything. No more signs, no more hope and no more faith; I lived my life according to my rules, the seven deadly sins. Didn’t matter if I broke a one or two, there was still time for me to atone. Met her after a while not knowing how I feel or how to feel, lost my sense of living or feeling alive again. One day sitting on the concrete floor looking into the deep eyes of that creature, an angel for I have said. I’ve seen the world in colors of faith for the first time in many years. Her touch made me realize that I have sinned, but according to my life this how it meant to be. Written on a paper above in the seventh sky, heaven shall not wait for us for we shall create ours. Her wine, our wine, is what keeps us alive and strong to battle all sins. In love and sorrow a new agreement for me to stay in life, to love her with all my heart or at least what’s left of it. I cut my chest wide open ripped out my heart, placed her there for she’s the one who keeps me alive. If I lose her I’ll be losing this blessed life, blessed for she’s with me, a part of me, she is me at some kind of life. I’ll live with her forever if God allows, but till then I’ll pray the God to give me power to make it right. I sent her my vows and I crossed my heart and hoped to die that if I break one vow I shall burn in the seventh circle of hell. She’s the one who inspires me on wanting to live more and more, waking up in bed watching opening her eyes every single dawn, watching her fall asleep every night. If I were granted a power it’d be is to love her right. She means the world to me although this world is not meant to be for her and I. but we’ll live it for we were born here for a purpose or a reason. My purpose in this life was to love her with all my heart. If you can hear me out there, this for you, you know who you are.

Chapter II:

Back to the start again, a new life born with her, I wonder how life would be without her. When I look into her eyes I see everything at ease, no more pain no more sorrow, I see pain and misery in a sweeter way, a way that brings me back alive and keeps me alive and feeling alive. Her touch takes my stress away with the soft skin on skin I feel her breath taking mine away to a new level of love, the love that consumes me with every blood drop into my heart. Her skin reflects a mirror image of me for it so pure, so true, and so smooth that I can feel her heart beating with love. Her hair covering my face, covering my body that it gives me warmth of love, it is slowly becoming a part of me. Her lips, is a razorblade that keeps cutting me with a passionate cut that remains for hours and days. Her body over mine, her lips hooked up with mine, the whole world stops spinning and time stops ticking for us for every second now seems to be a decade. Every time we meet we live a new life of passion and love, feelings that we don’t want to forget or lose. She makes me what I am today, a better person, a person who loves this life for she is in it, a person with manners, a person of passion with no lust in need. I wish I can do her the same; yet, she tells me I give her more than she needs. Every night before I close my eyes and sleep, I close my eyes and listen to her voice for she lays me to rest with her serenaded symphonic melodic soothing voice, a voice that bears the outstanding surroundings in this world, a voice that goes through the heart and stays there for an everlasting love. Yet I keep wondering where I would be without her in this world, would I be the same or someone else, would I be a better person or a worse one. But again I say, I don’t care for this state I’m in is where I always wanted to be, a person to make her happy, safe, calm and whole again. If you can hear me out there, you know who you are.

Chapter III:

Back to life, back from the dead. Found the only... ]]> ~ThePhenomNemesis http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/11941544/ http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/11941544/ Fri, 23 Feb 2007 23:31:23 PST Its Been A While Since I Updated Anything And I Would Like To Start With This One
I Finally Found The Love Of My Life And We're So In Love and We're Planning To Get Married And Live Together Forever More
Take Care All
Keep Up The good Work

]]> ~ThePhenomNemesis http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/11277069/ http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/11277069/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 15:32:01 PST One Rule Or Lets Say A Prophecy:
2007 Sucks From Now

]]> ~ThePhenomNemesis http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/10993757/ http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/10993757/ Fri, 08 Dec 2006 10:54:14 PST Respecting and Trusting Someone = Pushing Someone To Talk To Me
Talking To Alot Of Girl While She Talks To Alot Of Guys = Player For Me And Normal For Her
Lying = A Nice Game To Play On People For Fun

I Learnt That I Have To Trust No One, Specialy Girls (Sorry Girls, i know that DA girls r the best, i'm only talking about girls from outside)

]]> ~ThePhenomNemesis http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/10955503/ http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/10955503/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 01:14:57 PST here is a funny story
here is a new rule found by one of the girls i talk to which stopped talking to me, i was honest with her and she thought i was threatening her
so basically
Being Honest is the same as Threatening Someone
so becareful
Long Live Old School

]]> ~ThePhenomNemesis http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/10653513/ http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/10653513/ Tue, 07 Nov 2006 22:49:53 PST hope fully by the next couple of day some of my work will be posted up
take care DAs

]]> ~ThePhenomNemesis http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/9870980/ http://ThePhenomNemesis.deviantart.com/journal/9870980/ Sun, 27 Aug 2006 09:02:29 PDT But I Still Dont Know
Some People Say I Just Hate Life Cuz I'm Just A Wierdo And That Metal Music Dirves Me To Anger
I Tell Them That When I'm In Anger I Listen To Metal To Calm Down
I Just Wish I Can Live For Ever But At The Same Time I Just Wanna Die




can anyone help me? plz... ]]> ~ThePhenomNemesis