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Who is this girl with the big smile and light heart? Where did the deep and confused girl go? What happened to the girl who would fight anyone, anytime, anywhere? And why is her replacement so placid and tender?

I want to know what happened to the bite in my voice when I spoke. My ambition to find all the unknown and misunderstood. I want to know where my determination and stubbornness went and when it plans on coming back.

Does anyone know?

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/26179499/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/26179499/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 21:38:22 PDT I'm waiting to see who will stay in my life and who will go.
I'm waiting to see how my life is going to change.

I'm waiting to see who will notice I'm different.
I'm waiting to see how long they will all stay blind.


I'm waiting to see who will notice I'm falling.
I'm waiting to see who will catch the fact that I need them.
I'm waiting to see who will come to my rescue.



I'm waiting to see how long it will take before I lose it completely.




I'm waiting to see when I'll be brave enough to ask for help.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/24899767/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/24899767/ Fri, 22 May 2009 23:59:22 PDT
My friends are leaving much to be desired, save for one. It's as if he's trying to make up for all the things the others are leaving in the dust. He also seems like the only genuine person I'm dealing with right now. 99% of everyone I know is currently hollow and fake. I appreciate him more than anyone really knows, and I think on some level I'm falling in love with him, but I haven't the slightest clue what that means yet.

I'm starting to look at schools, a future maybe. Shockingly enough, the school I want to go to happens to be a Catholic private college. I bet no one ever saw that one coming. I know I sure as hell didn't. As far as studies go, philosophy is my strong suit so I think I'll cater to that. I'm just waiting to see where it will take me.

My family life is shaky as usual, but this time in different ways than the past. Things with my mom are growing nicely, but my dad seems to want to halt progress. I understand his position, but he can't argue with the fact that everyone needs a mother, regardless of the father's opinion of her.

I can't seem to get him off of my mind. He's been buzzing around up there more than usual, which happens to be quite a bit. It may just be the summer atmosphere, he's warming up with the weather. He broke my heart though, not on purpose, and he really didn't even do it. But I had to watch him walk away the other night, that tore me to pieces. I hope I never have to do that again.

My body is exhausted but my mind is rearing to go. Unfortunately I have no one to talk to. Even if I did, my mind and mouth have recently lost contact with each other and that makes expressing myself rather difficult. Still, people are hollow right now, they wouldn't be interested anyway.

I'm sick of the superficiality right now. Everything seems so plastic and rehearsed, things aren't flowing like they're supposed to. I can't stand to be near people now because of it. They're blind to the fact though, of course. I'm usually the only one who sees it. That's how I end up on the outside looking in.

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*The relationship issues I was having are now worked out and we're happy again. He and I are supposed to discuss tomorrow, I'm only half sure as to what we're discussing.
*I'm going to do a photo shoot tomorrow of one of the prettiest girls I know, no word yet on whether or not the photos will be on here though, that's her choice.
*I'm going to Osceola on Thursday to spend four days with my best friend, that in general is one of the best things to happen to me in a while.
*Spring break is going to be brilliant, mainly for the reason that I just need and want the time away from school. That building gets a little overbearing after a while.
*There are only a few months until summer, two and a half really. I can't wait, I'm usually not even a summer fan, but I'm really looking forward to this one for some reason.

Anyway, those are my reasons for happy right now. Just thought I'd throw them out there.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/23476108/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/23476108/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 18:02:06 PST Clementine: This is it Joel, it's going to be gone soon.
Joel: I know.
Clementine: What do we do?
Joel: Enjoy it.
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Joel: I think we should go.
Clementine: Why? It's our house, just for tonight. We are.. David and Ruth Laskin. Which one do you want to be? I prefer to be Ruth, but, I'm flexible.
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Joel: I really should go... I gotta catch my ride.
Clementine: So go.
Joel: I did. I thought maybe you were a nut, but you were exciting.
Clementine: I wish you'd stayed.
Joel: I wish I'd stayed too. Now I wish I'd stayed. I wish I'd done a lot of things. I wish I had... I wish I'd stayed, I do.
Clementine: Well I came back downstairs and you were gone.
Joel: I walked out, I walked out the door.
Clementine: Why?
Joel: I don't know. I felt like a scared little kid. I was like... It was above my head, I don't know.
Clementine: You were scared?
Joel: Yeah. I thought you knew that about me? I ran back to the bonfire trying to outrun my humiliation I think.
Clementine: Was it something I said?
Joel: Yeah... You said “so go” with such disdain, y'know?
Clementine: Oh, I'm sorry.
Joel: It's ok.
Clementine: Joely? What if you stayed this time?
Joel: I walked out the door, there's no memory left.
Clementine: Come back and make up a goodbye at least. Let's pretend we had one... Bye Joel.
Joel: I love you.
Clementine: Meet me in Montauk.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/23333773/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/23333773/ Sat, 21 Feb 2009 22:58:19 PST
Today started out normal, I was bummed about the snow but other than that it was no different than any other Saturday. I went to pick up Jenni and we went to town for a while. On our way back to her house my world turned upside down, literally.

We were driving south on highway 51 going past the car dealership when my truck began to fishtail. I was speeding up for a speed limit change and doing nothing out of the ordinary. The roads must have been just slippery enough with wet snow and my truck must have had just the right amount of traction loss for that to happen. My initial reaction was to correct the fishtailing so I let off the gas and turned the steering wheel a bit, nothing. The back of my truck went from the left, where it had started, to the right when my front left corner almost hit the car driving in the lane next to me. Lucky for them they were far enough ahead of me to avoid being hit. After my back end went to the right, I let go of the wheel entirely and my foot was still off the gas, I knew there was no fixing it. I figured I'd just let it correct itself. Well it didn't. My truck fishtailed again to the left except this time turning us almost completely around so we were facing northwest when we hit a snowbank. The driver's side of my cab hit the bank and the side of the truck bed followed. All I remember after that point on was silence and a light from the windshield while I flew out of my seat. The next thing I remember is having Jenni on top of me while my truck was on its side. The rear view mirror was sitting broken in my lap and the driver's window was underneath my feet. She tried stepping on the windshield but I knew any weight put on it would make it break and cut her leg so I told her not to push on it. A guy was running up to the truck asking if we were okay and if we could get out. We told him we were okay but we needed help. I grabbed my iPod and Jenni told me to get out first. Well we couldn't open the door by ourselves, it was too heavy so that same guy held it open while I crawled up. A man standing below my truck caught me as I slid out of the open door. Jenni followed me after turning off the engine. When I got out I saw what was left of my truck. A side mirror was laying 5 feet away in the snow and one of the back windows was completely broken out. I didn't walk around to see more damage, I was in too much shock. All I could do to keep myself from breaking down completely was latch onto the man who had held the door. I cried a bit and he didn't seem to mind that he was holding a crying young girl who just crawled out of a car wreck that should have killed her, he was just happy we were safe. Someone had already called the police and they were on their way. I called my manager and told him I wasn't going to be in work tonight, I rolled my truck - he said that was fine. I called my boyfriend and told him what happened, I didn't get to say nearly as much as I wanted to. He was worried but glad we were okay. After the police showed up it was mainly just a blur of questions and sirens. Two ambulances showed up and Jenni and I were taken to the emergency room.

According to the guy driving behind me, after we hit the snowbank the truck flew about 12 feet in the air, rolled one and a half times and crashed down on my side. He thought we were both done for.

I only remember silence from the moment when we hit the bank to when I realized Jenni was laying on me. I suppose remembering the screams would be too traumatic and my mind just blocked those out. The sound of shattering glass isn't something I want to remember. I don't remember rolling, I do remember hitting my head on the ceiling but I thought I had just bounced. I don't want to know the details of what happened in that truck, it's not something I want to remember. I put my friend's life in danger and if I had any recollection of those screams I would never be able to forgive myself. Her tears were bad enough.

It all took a matter of seconds, maybe 20 at the most. We weren't wearing our seatbelts.

Once we got to the emergency room they transferred us to real beds instead of the ambulance beds and nurses checked our vitals. My neck brace was removed relatively soon because my head didn't hurt, but Jenni had to keep hers on.I got x-rays and a cat scan of my pelvis and upper leg to make sure I hadn't broken anything. I hadn't. Jenni had a cat scan and a few x-rays of her head and knee. Her head was fine and so was her knee. My dad was the first to show up at the hospital, I'm pretty sure he beat the ambulance there. Jenni's parents were snowmobiling so he played the "calm cool and collected" parent to both of us. Jenni was really scared but I was pretty calm, I'd been through the whole ER procedure before, just not for a car wreck. Jenni's mom showed up while I was getting my c... ]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/23297065/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/23297065/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 21:00:01 PST
I haven't been able to sleep recently. I'm kinda upset about not being home and problems I'm having with those close to me. I haven't been able to stay asleep at all recently and I've taken to catching up in my "nap time" aka Film Study, my 7th hour class. It's fine though, we're watching Psycho and I've seen it already so I'm not too concerned about sleeping through class. Although, waking up two days in a row to screaming people isn't as pleasant as some may think. My lack of sleep has made me crabby and my body wants to collapse at all times. I'm barely walking through the days, just sort of floating there. I realized this afternoon that I'm simply going through the motions of my every day life and it's really a hollow time right now. No meaning in anything. It's all just there to fill the time with something, it's all just there to paint pretty pictures to look at, It's all just there to occupy space in this vast hole we call life. Any way you look at it, I'm not getting anything from life at the moment, let's just hope this gets better with time.

"I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down, I wanna come too."

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/22952380/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/22952380/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 20:14:43 PST "No matter how much she has damaged me. No matter how flawed she is. I know my mother loves me."

Two years.

That statement means nothing to many. Few know what it refers to. Even less realize its power. Barely any are affected by it.

For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, ignorance is bliss.
For those of you who know what it refers to, don't try comprehending the whole thing.
For those of you who realize its power, thank you for taking the time to understand.
For those of you who are affected by it, I'm right there with you.

The quote is from White Oleander, one of my favorite movies. It hits close to home, even though it has nothing in common with my life. It just reminds me of her, in good and bad ways. Mostly good. I don't see her in a negative light anymore. I'm past my anger, I was a long time ago. There's still a lot of fixing to be done, we're working on it.

Two years.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/22813130/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/22813130/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 21:20:18 PST
Sorry to disappoint you.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/22263352/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/22263352/ Mon, 29 Dec 2008 15:16:12 PST
1 - What is your view on dreadlocks?
2 - Do you think I could pull off dreadlocks?
3 - Why or why not?

Think it over before you answer these questions. Look at a few of my pictures and possibly determine it from that. Anyway, try to give me a thorough answer so I can give credit to your opinion.

Just so you know, I'm not doing this to determine whether or not I should get them, I've already decided that I am. I plan to dread my hair hopefully late this spring or in the early summer depending on how long my hair is and how angry my dad will be. We'll see what happens with that, but I know I'm getting it done sooner rather than later.

For: 10

Against: 4

Unsure: 1

People who've been counted: Jeremiah, Emilio, Mary, Chris, Joe, Tyler, Hooch, Madeline, Josh, Claire, Moose, Danny, vacio-oscuro, Contrastique, DeviantDrafter

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/22235477/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/22235477/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 23:59:17 PST Saving me.
Exciting me.
Calming me.
Feeding me.
Starving me.
Lifting me.
And dropping me.

It's amazing in every way possible and it's so incredibly hard to describe. It's so full of everything. Happiness, sadness, beauty and darkness. It's just so incredibly perfect in a way that could never be right. It's 104% contradictary and it doesn't seem to care. It just floats on with nothing being able to touch it, above the clouds into a place in the sky that no one knows of or thinks about. A place that happens to also be the place in the back of your mind where ideas and thoughts form. Where the biggest epiphanies of your life linger, waiting for the moment to spring to life. It rests there, waiting until it needs to be brought to life again then leaks out throught your skin and radiates leaving a vintage golden glow around you, like the glow of a family photo of your parents in the 70's. Full of peace and opportunity. Chance and planning. It's beautiful in that way that nothing can ever really come to match or comprehend. An abstract thought that will forever be just out of the reach of your mind.

Song to the Siren[link]
On the floating, shapeless oceans
I did all my best to smile
til your singing eyes and fingers
drew me loving into your eyes.

And you sang "Sail to me, sail to me;
Let me enfold you."

Here I am, here I am waiting to hold you.
Did I dream you dreamed about me?
Were you here when I was full sail?

Now my foolish boat is leaning, broken love lost on your rocks.
For you sang, "Touch me not, touch me not, come back tomorrow."
Oh my heart, oh my heart shies from the sorrow.
I'm as puzzled as a newborn child.
I'm as riddled as the tide.
Should I stand amid the breakers?
Or shall I lie with death my bride?

Hear me sing: "Swim to me, swim to me, let me enfold you."
"Here I am. Here I am, waiting to hold you."

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/22219945/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/22219945/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 02:30:49 PST
There are times in life when you really wish you didn't know anyone at all. When living out in the middle of fucking nowhere with no one but yourself for company would be the greatest thing imaginable. Now is one of those times. I really wish that certain people would just learn to grow the fuck up for 5 minutes and act like the adults they are supposedly becoming. It's really fucking irritating when people jerk you around just for their own childish antics when they know damn well that you're not in the fucking mood and that all they are going to do is add to the frustration and anger.

In all honesty, I really couldn't give a fuck less about what the content of the conversation was, I'm mainly just pissed about the delivery. It wasn't hidden that I was irritated and you still chose to be a pain. I have every right to be angry at the moment.

It's 4 fucking am and I'm tired and cranky, don't fuck with me right now.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21820129/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21820129/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 17:41:35 PST This whole time I'm begging got be left alone. To be separated from everyone around me. I don't want to be touched. I don't want to be talked to. I don't want people to act like I even exist. I just want to float by, unnoticed, and let everything just happen around me. Let all the pieces fall into place and not touch a single one to guide them. I don't want anyone else touching them either. I just want things to happen the way they were meant to happen and let that be it. Nothing to help things along. I want to be left completely alone.

At the same time, I want someone to reach out. I want someone to touch my arm and say that things are going to be ok. I want someone to tell me that I'm not an invisible puppet following a routine that I can never get out of. I want someone to hold me and make me feel safe again. I want someone to tell me where to put the pieces of my life so the puzzle isn't jumbled anymore. I want someone to fill the void that's been swallowing me whole. I want someone to take care of me. I want someone to just BE something to me, for once in my life. I want to be able to get close to people again, instead of keeping them at bay while I secretly ruin my relationship with them. I want to be able to trust someone with my heart and have them not shatter it. I want to be able to hope that someday I'll be able to go outside and see the sunshine as it is, not as it could be.

This knot in my throat is only getting bigger and my isolation is only growing. The problem is though, I don't know who I can turn to. Who I can connect with. Everyone seems to be too preoccupied with other people and other things to notice that I'm still alive. We're all just going through the motions now, no one's really interested in what I have to say. No one could care any less if I just disappeared for months. They'd never know the difference, they don't see me now anyway, not really. Yes, they look at me, but looking and seeing are two different things. People look at things all the time and never pay any attention to what's being registered in their mind. But seeing something requires thought and consideration. Seeing something means recognizing that it exists and giving credit to said existence. No one has been seeing me lately. I've just been wallpaper to them.

I really don't want to be wallpaper anymore.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21754419/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21754419/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 18:15:59 PST

1. You are walking in the woods. You are not alone.

Who's with you?

Shawnna would be the only one.


2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal.

What kind of animal?

A deer.


3.

What interaction takes place between you and the animal?

Not much, it's just standing a few feet away, then runs.


4. You walk deeper in the woods.

You enter a clearing, and before you is your dream house.

How big is it?

Big, but not monstrous, a simple two story.


5.

Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?

No fence in sight.


6. You enter the house.

You walk into the dining room and see the dining table is covered with?

A vase with dark red flowers (not roses).


7.

You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?

A champagne glass, only silver instead of glass.



8.

What do you do with the cup?

Carry it with me.


9.

You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at a body of water, what kind is it?

A small lake.


10.

How do you cross that body of water?

I don't.

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The ANSWERS;

1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important to you.


2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.


3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.


4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition.


5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You'd prefer people not drop by unannounced.


6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.


7. The durability of the material with the cup is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.


8. What you did with the cup is representative of your attitude.


9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your relationships.


10. The way you cross the water is representative to how easy or hard you expect your life to be.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21460393/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21460393/ Wed, 12 Nov 2008 19:29:32 PST
Oh, and by the way, just in case you were wondering, my birthday is next Tuesday, the 18th.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21223323/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21223323/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 19:33:58 PDT
Actually, no, I kinda feel like I should though.


2 - Whats​ your curre​nt mood?​​​​

I'm pretty run down, tired, and maybe even a little sad.


3 - When was the last time you cried​?​​​​

Last night would be the answer to that.


4 - Are you datin​g anyon​e right​ now?

No, I'm not, right now I'm in my house, on the computer, filling out a survey.


5 - Are you happy​ right​ now?

I'm about as happy as a vegetarian in an Outback Steakhouse

6 - Ever had your heart​ broke​n?​​​​

My heart's never actually been broken, I've had my emotions broken, but my heart's never been broken.


7 - What was the first​ thing​ you did when you woke up this morni​ng?​​​​

I'm pretty sure the first thing I did was open my eyes, then slam my hand down on the "snooze" button of my alarm clock.


8 - Who was last in the car with you?

Luke when we were driving back from Perkins.


9 - Do you like to read?​​​​

I do indeed, I just don't do it all that often anymore.


10 - Are any of your frien​ds talle​r than you?

A few of them are, most of them are my height or shorter, there are a lot of short people where I live.


11- Do you miss anyon​e?​​​​

I always do, just some days it's more obvious than others.


12 - Do you get emoti​onal easil​y?​​​​

I'm 104% sure that my emotions are always present, but yes, there are times when they affect me more than others.


13 - Can you sleep​ witho​ut blank​ets cover​ing you?

I can, but I tend to wake up freezing and pull the blankets over me.


14 - Do you still​ talk to your most recen​t ex?

I don't know how to answer that really, I don't really talk to him, and I think I like it that way.


15 - Ever lost someo​ne impor​tant to you?

The only person I've ever "lost" was my mom in the grocery store when I was six. That scared the crap out of me.


16 - Marke​rs or crayo​ns or color​ed penci​ls?​​​​

Crayons, even though they make me feel like I'm back in first grade, I like that feeling.


17 - Are looks​ impor​tant?​​​​

Just as important and hears, smells, touches and tastes.


18 - Will you be in a relat​ionsh​ip in 1 month​?​​​​

Maybe yes, maybe know, who will ever know?

19 - Do you hate when peopl​e smoke​ aroun​d you?

I've never seen a person just start smoking... unless they were about to spontaneously combust, then I'd probably cheer them on.


20 - Who was the last perso​n to call YOU?

That would be Nate, and I should call him back.


21 - Does the last perso​n you held hands​ with mean anyth​ing to you?

I don't really know who that was, so sure!

22 - Where​ are you right​ now?

Earth, North America, USA, Wisconsin, Lake Tomahawk, my house.


23 - Have you ever felt repla​ced?​​​​

I have, but I don't think I ever have been.


24 - Do you sleep​ with the close​t doors​ open or close​d?​​​​

I can't sleep with doors open, people can see me if I do that, and people seeing me while I'm sleeping is one awkward thought for me.


25 - Anyon​e in posse​ssion​ of your cloth​ing right​ now?

I don't believe so, if they are I want my damn clothes back.


26 - Is your best frien​d a girl or guy?

Specify which best friend and I'll tell you.


27 - Who was the last perso​n to smoke​ a cigar​ette in your prese​nce?​​​​

Some guy in the Perkins parking lot.


28 - What are you excit​ed about​?​​​​

I'm excited about going to sleep.


29 - Would​ you be able to tell someo​ne you love them,​​​​ even if you didn'​​​​t feel it?

Would I be able to tell that to someone, yes, would I be comfortable with it, no.


30 - Do you wear your seatb​elt in the car?

Usually, unless I forget or just don't feel like it at that moment.


31 - What were you doing​ at midni​ght last night​?​​​​

Falling asleep to this amazing mix of music I made some time ago.


32 - Do you want to get marri​ed & have child​ren some day?

I'm considering it, I may adopt though.


33 - Would​ you date some one 20 years​ older​ th... ]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21194511/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21194511/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 21:32:10 PDT Somewhere not snowy like it is here.
Somewhere that's not full of rednecks and losers.
Somewhere big and loud.

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I need to talk to a few people.
They've been missing for far too long.
I don't want them gone anymore.
Hopefully they'll talk to me tonight.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21118083/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21118083/ Wed, 22 Oct 2008 21:22:09 PDT
For the past two years I've been saying I was bisexual, well I'm not.
At the same time I'm not straight.
And no, I'm not a lesbian either.

I don't really know what the term would be, but I love everyone in their own way. I don't really think there is an actual term for this, and I don't know if I really want a term for it. All I know is I'm happy with my sexual orientation, even if it doesn't have a name and I'm still trying to come to terms with it.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21085791/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/21085791/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 19:31:44 PDT
---

How do we forgive our Fathers?
Maybe in a dream
Do we forgive our Fathers for leaving us too often, or forever
When we were little?

Maybe for scaring us with unexpected rage,
Or making us nervous,
Because there never seemed to be any rage there at all.

Do we forgive our Fathers for marrying, or not marrying our Mothers?
For divorcing, or not divorcing our Mothers?

And shall we forgive them for their excesses of warmth or coldness?
Shall we forgive them for pushing or leaning
For shutting doors
For speaking through walls
Or never speaking
Or never being silent?

Do we forgive our Fathers in our age or in theirs
Or in their deaths saying it to them, or not saying it?

If we forgive our Fathers, what is left?

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20960223/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20960223/ Sun, 12 Oct 2008 20:26:43 PDT It shouldn't smell so sweet.
The taste in my mouth should be bitter.

Your voice seems farther away than it should be.
Colder than it's supposed to.
Hollow like a dead willow tree.

My body feels empty and longing.
But I don't know what it longs for.
My skin misses that electric touch.

I'm a physical being living in a literary world.
Words fly around my heart.
But I'm still lonelier than ever.

I need to hear the sounds of a city.
Smell the exhaust and cigarette smoke.
Feel the brilliance of its night sky.

I need to be somewhere I can't.
Having a conversation that won't happen.
With someone who will never love me again.

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"When the rain comes, when the wind blows, when the storms are all around, don't you worry, I am right beside you, so please don't cry for me now."

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20865548/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20865548/ Mon, 06 Oct 2008 20:17:48 PDT
Emilio's gone, it sucks. Now there's no one to talk to on MSN. Well, I take that back, there are people, just not that many.

I miss Nate. I know he's a bit of a loser and definitely a little more than offensive, but I love the guy and miss him. Stupid college taking my friends away. College sucks, let's boycott it. Oh well, I suppose I could call him, but that takes effort that I don't have. I know, I know, you're telling me to get off my lazy butt and call the kid, but it just won't happen. He'll call me eventually.

Just a random quote from a good song:
"I realized that I need you and I wondered if I could come home..."

I'm really frigging tired. Thanks Josh for keeping me up until 2 in the morning. I totally needed that. HAH. Nah, it's all good, I think I'll go to bed early tonight. I kinda wish he'd text me the Hell back though, loser.

I've become another person's shoulder to cry on, I'm okay with it. He really needs it, and I care about the kid so I'm not gonna let him fall to pieces. Everyone needs a stable piece in their life and I just happen to be one that a lot of people choose. Curse my good listening skills, ability to give advice and sincere compassion! Haha, just kidding, I love being the one who helps keep my friends on their feet.

Okay well I'm done. This was about nothing and I don't believe you should have read it. Don't you have any better things to be doing?

Sarah

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20539923/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20539923/ Wed, 17 Sep 2008 15:42:31 PDT
The Truth About Sarah Palin
Top Facts Everyone Must Know
[link]

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20382452/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20382452/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 20:24:58 PDT
Friday - I put myself emotionally at risk, and got hurt. I should have known it was coming. The rest of the day wasn't working out as I'd hoped.
Saturday - I broke the passenger side mirror on my car. It's in about 100 pieces now. My dad yelled for about an hour and I, being who I am, broke down. Later I went off on one of my friends, over almost nothing. I don't know if he wants to talk to me again.
Sunday - It rained so I couldn't hang out with Mary and go horseback riding. That was to be expected after my past few days. I also got in a fight with my dad, but that's nothing new.

It seems that I'm just not able to function without something going wrong lately. I'm losing things, my temper's on a short fuse and I don't know what caused all this. I suppose there's nothing to blame for all the things that brought me down, but my mentality is heading for the worse. I'm hoping school will be able to keep my mind off the little things, but who knows. School might just end up causing more problems and thus, adding insult to injury, bring me another anxiety attack. I've been good with those though, I haven't had one in a long time. Not since last spring, but who's to say they won't come back. I suppose I'll go back to my psychologist, talk to him, and try to figure stuff out. That hasn't done much in the past, but it's done a bit. The medication idea I was harboring is gone, I don't think I need it as badly as I did back in August. It may still be helpful, but I'm managing much better now. Regardless of recent bad days. Let's just hope I keep up and out of the depression for a long period of time. If I were to guess by the weather, I'll be rather introverted, but not depressed, so that's a good thing.

I quit my job yesterday. Well, I didn't go in and say "I quit!" I just didn't show up for work. Don't think me a coward, it was just simpler that way. And the last time I tried to quit my manager talked me into staying, so I wasn't about to let that happen again. I'll go in and drop off my shirts and apron this week sometime. They're probably all mad at me, but I'm okay with that. That job was more drama in two months than my entire high school experience so far. I'm amazed the building hasn't fallen in on them just out of spite. Truly though, I'm glad to be rid of that atmosphere, it caused me a lot of stress and depression, so I'm happy to be free. I don't need that anymore, and with my school work, I won't be able to handle it.

I wish it were October, I really do. October seems to be the greatest time of year for me, and my favorite. The whole cold and dreary atmosphere of it makes me happy, there's a paradox in that. (And yes, I do use words I hear in English class.) There's something about the spooky essence of the month that comforts me. The whole Halloween idea is the one that makes me happiest out of all holidays. Oddly enough, the things that are devised to make people uneasy during that month, are the very things that make me the most comfortable. It's weird though, my October's haven't been the same since I moved. Maybe it's because my dad hates anything less than slightly positive (that means all things Halloween-y). Or maybe it's because October was when I was closest to my mom. She loved the same things about it as I do. I wish I could share them with her again, but we all know that will never happen. Things have been too stirred up between her and I, the water too muddied. To those who say "she'll come to her senses," you don't know my mother, so, in turn, you don't know anything about the situation. Stop telling me she'll come to her senses, she won't. I don't want to be built up anymore. Aside from that, I'm hoping this October was better than the last. Last year I let it slip by without even the slightest acknowledgment that it was there. I hope to enjoy myself more this year. A lot more.

So that's it. That's my life as of recent. Maybe I'll update sooner rather than later, but I doubt it. I haven't been in much of a mood to spill my innermost feelings out recently, I'm happy being a closed book for a while.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20226579/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20226579/ Fri, 29 Aug 2008 21:22:07 PDT
the art of being mother Mate -- a traves de las escamas -- Smokey sunset -- Falling Apart - Playing God -- . what I saw - . feel me -- Shrimp -- Rothenburg XL -- bowling over, simply -- Scrabble -- skerry -- I feel - Nevermind the bollox - A New Beginning -- louis kisses louis -- So can i have that hug now pls -- Raspberry Delight - Listening To The Story -- A flower for God. - http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20175340/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 21:23:59 PDT
Here it is:

First - World Literature
Second - Chemistry
Third - Phy. Ed.
Fourth - Choir
Fifth - Psychology
Sixth - Advanced Algebra
Seventh - Advanced Grammar
Eighth - International Studies

Nope, no study halls. Crazy? No, not really, just something I do. I feel like I'm wasting my time in them anyway, so why take them?

I'm thinking of going to bed now, but I haven't decided yet...

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20050619/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/20050619/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 22:21:05 PDT A vacation.
A holiday.

Something.

Can I stay on your couch?

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19690345/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19690345/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 22:43:48 PDT
I’m scared.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19599069/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19599069/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 22:46:09 PDT Guess what I did today!!!!

I made pancakes all by myself, and guess what!

I didn't burn them!!!!!

Don't laugh at me!

I'm proud of myself.

Very, very proud of myself.




"Fuck you I'm drunk! And I'm going to be drunk 'til the next time I'm drunk!"

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19318699/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19318699/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 20:36:18 PDT

My series still isn't up, but I'm working on it. Again, I'll say it should be up soon. Who knows how long soon is though.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19258409/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19258409/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 16:22:37 PDT
Stupid sickness.

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I worked 12 to 4:30 today. I was supposed to work until 8 but I felt horrible so I convinced them to let me leave early.

I still feel like crap right now. I don't know if I'm going in tomorrow. Hopefully it will pass sooner rather than later.

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Good news, I can now change my mood.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19243459/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19243459/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 21:23:16 PDT
"I look forward to reading people's secrets every week and it makes me feel less lonely. Especially when I get to the bottom of the page and refresh and re-read stat counter to find that over 2400 people spent the last 4 minutes with ME!

...(152,903,926 - 152,906,332)"

I didn't write that, I saw it on the page, but I know exactly how they feel.

PostSecrets: [link]

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And by the way, my mood isn't "Yearning." I can't change it. My mood should be "Lonely."

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19125669/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19125669/ Mon, 30 Jun 2008 10:49:37 PDT
I worked for 5 hours yesterday instead of 10. That made me happy. Three people quit Pizza Hut yesterday, that didn't make me happy. Two of them were servers, like me. I made close to $40 in tips last night though. That was dandy.

I work again tonight. It should be fun. I work on the 4th, that sucks because its 5 to midnight. Hopefully we'll get to close early and I won't have to be there that late.

I'm missing snowshoe baseball tonight. I'm kinda sad about it, I wanted to see Billy play. Oh well, I'll go see him some other time if he plays another game this summer.

I'm working on a new series. I really love it. It should be up sometime soon.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19083642/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19083642/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 21:34:22 PDT
But he asked, and that makes all the difference.

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I spent practically all day avoiding the fact that he's leaving. Trying to ignore it the best I could. It worked, for a while. Then I realized I couldn't ignore it when he drives away tomorrow. I couldn't ignore it when I fought tears when I said goodbye tonight. I can't ignore it at all.

Regardless of what I want, I'm still going to be heartbroken when he leaves. Just like all the other times he's left. I'm still going to break down at some point after he's gone. Just like all the other times.

This is no different than before, but it hurts worse than it ever has.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19076695/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19076695/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 13:48:26 PDT Like he's not leaving.
Like he's not going back to Utah for who knows how long.
Like I won't cry when he drives away.
Like we'll talk after he leaves.
Like I won't think about that plane.
Like I'm not going to miss him.
Like I'll see him every day.

Because it hurts to much to know...
That he is leaving.
That he will go back to Utah and rarely visit.
That I'm going to bawl my eyes out when he leaves.
That we won't talk, even if we say we will. We never do.
That he is going to be on that plane.
That missing him is going to kill me.
That I won't see him for months.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19028552/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/19028552/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 21:16:44 PDT
I only worked 4 1/2 hours but I'm tired as Hell. I wonder how I'm going to make it tomorrow when I work noon to 10.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18991124/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18991124/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 21:30:17 PDT

[link]

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18957494/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18957494/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 21:08:18 PDT
COMMENT ME (on this journal), and I'll...

1)tell you why I befriended you; (if I remember)
2) associate you with something - a song, a color, a photo, etc;
3) tell you something I like about you;
4) tell you a memory I have of you;
5) ask something I've always wanted to know about you;
6) tell you my favorite devID/Photograph of yours;
7) in return, you must post this in your journal. (not really but you can)

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18845908/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18845908/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 22:05:47 PDT Violets are blue
All my base are belong to you


The geek love poem. It's cute.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18720574/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18720574/ Sat, 07 Jun 2008 20:19:52 PDT is or isn't a god out there. Don't think just because I'm not religious that means I know nothing of religion, I know quite a bit for rarely having gone to a church. I've grown up in a religious family and it's been a common spot of discussion as to whether or not I should go to church. They're not going to get me in one.

Why do we sleep in school? Because we find it boring and most kids don't want to be there. We don't see it as something we're going to need in the future so we simply tune it out. Who's gonna need the formula for the area of a circle when they're working in McDonald's for the rest of their life?

But stay awake through a 2 hour movie? Because we find it interesting and we just paid $8 to watch it. Paying money to take a nap in a really uncomfortable chair just doesn't seem to make sense. Plus there's the whole "I need popcorn" dilemma and if you fall asleep, who's going to eat the butter and salt slathered fat-fest that's sitting in your lap?

Why is it so hard to talk about GOD? It's not, most people just don't know enough to have the conversation, and the people who do probably don't feel like sitting down someone to talk about it. You don't need to know much about God to talk about Him, you just need to have an equally intelligent counterpart to converse with.

But so easy to talk about sex? Because sex has become such a socially accepted thing that for $4.95 you can watch it on tv. It's no longer a sacred thing between a couple who loves each other so it's become devalued to the point of being a cheap form of entertainment and a reason for guys who can't get any to sit in their basement and jerk-it while they could be trying to get some.

Why are we so bored when we look at a Christian magazine? Because it states a lot of the same things multiple times. Don't you know, repetition gets boring. It also just doesn't appeal to the masses. A lot of people want to spend their time thinking about God in a church, not in the dentist's office waiting for their 6 year old to get a cavity filled because they didn't stop the poor kid from eating that whole bag of Halloween candy.

But find it easy to read playboy? Because exploiting women is so much more interesting than anything else a teenage boy can find. Say hello to hormones my friends. It's too common of a thing nowadays but I'm sorry to say you're going to have to get used to it. The world is strictly materialistic now.

Why is it so easy to ignore a GODLY bulletin? Because not enough people like to support their faith for the sole reason that they don't want to be made fun of for thinking there is a god out there. Sadly it's become a point of weakness or arrogance in society's eye to say that you have faith in something bigger than a ham sandwich.

Yet we repost the nasty ones? Because if you really look at the ages of people reposting bulletins, they're mostly teenagers. Teenagers find humor and pleasure in the sometimes not appropriate subjects. It's the same reason we laugh at sex jokes.

Why are churches getting smaller? They're getting less money because their supporters are getting less money because jobs aren't paying as much because the world market has gone to shit. Blame the guy who put us a few billion dollars in debt. But no, you can't do that, George Bush is a Christian. Take a reality check, not everyone's a good guy.

But bars and clubs are expanding? Because the world is becoming more and more full of people who are in the mindset that drinking is a good activity. And then there are the people who become dependent on alcohol so their best friend is a bar. There's also the club scene that's all about getting a one night stand that will leave you with some unbearable STD that has no cure. Fun, eh?

Why is it so easy to purchase beer and drugs? Because they're cheap and easy to find. And if you won't buy it for yourself I'm betting out of 10 people you could find one to buy you drugs and one to buy you beer. The new fad is all about how fecked up you can get and how much of your hurt you can forget. It's a too widely accepted emotional crutch. Just get some balls and deal with your own damn problems, don't make the cocaine do it for you.

But so hard to donate 25 cents to a charity? Because people have lost trust in charities, who knows who's trying to scam you now. There's too much deception and lying being done to make people comfortable enough to give their money to a box titled "St Mary's Children's Hospital: Help find a cure for leukemia." I mean, who wants to help a death sentenced 6... ]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18652905/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18652905/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 20:51:37 PDT
As far as college goes, I'm still up in the air on that. I used to know what I wanted to do. Of course, I changed it about every year or so, but now I have no idea. I've given up every dream of a career I've ever had in my life and now, the one industry that I used to love appeals to me about as much as a rotten banana. I've considered going to school for business. That's now a no. I've considered going for music. That's now a no. I've considered going for psychology. That's another no. I've considered going for philosophy. That's slowly becoming another no. To make it short, I'm screwed.

In terms of life plans, well, they're nonexistent. I don't really mind not having a clue, actually. I've always kinda lived that way and I suppose this is just keeping on with my tradition. I would like to figure it out sometime. It might be handy to know at one point or another. Getting a job would probably help that whole situation too. It'd give me something to work for and towards so I'm not totally blind. Plus it would help me with that whole money dilemma that I seem to be experiencing. I need to fix my car and pay for a phone bill. I'm still yet to get a job, but I'm working on it. A little encouragement would be nice though. *ahem!*

To all of you who didn't already know, I do plan on moving to Europe. I don't know where I'll be going and I don't know when, but it is going to happen. If you want to come with, feel free, but it really depends on the person. There's really only about two people who I'd take over there with me, but you can dream if you want to. I'm working on getting to know people over there. So far I've met two, in two different countries and that should probably help with the whole moving thing. Moving to a new country would suck if I didn't know anybody there. Hopefully I'll be able to get over there as soon as possible and with as little trouble as possible. Wish me luck.

This was a tad longer than I expected...

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18567238/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/18567238/ Thu, 29 May 2008 20:23:06 PDT
2: She needs international calling because she maybe, just maybe, could be charging a lot on her phone bill.

3: She needs a damn job. This is getting ridiculous.

4: Daniel should get online because it's boring without him.

5: You need to get more minutes on your phone because she talks a lot and she likes hearing your voice. You know who you are.

6: She really needs to go see Jason and Shawnna because they're amazing.

7: It didn't mean anything and she wishes she could take it back.

8: She might have to retake Biology because it was ridiculously hard.

9: The icon that keeps telling her to restart is about to get stabbed in the kidney for being annoying.

10: She really wants to talk to Mr. Eckardt but she can't seem to bring herself to do it.




She's run out of things to say.

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]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/17387905/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/17387905/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 22:21:32 PDT a-Kaufman-character.

He's absolutely amazing and he's one of my favorite artists on here.

So go look you homeless whales, it will do your brain tissue good to see some art.


Click the icon, you know you want to.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/17277686/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/17277686/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 19:43:40 PDT
A Hebrew word meaning Princess



Woohoo! I'm a princessy! :]

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/17231904/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/17231904/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 21:44:07 PST


Your mom.

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I know it's a bad joke. The original punch like was "ground Chuck" but I liked the whole overused "your mom" thing better. Plus, it makes it that much more personal.

And now I've fulfilled your daily dose of sick jokes. Glad I could help.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16983424/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16983424/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 19:17:06 PST somebody could send me something, that would be splendiforous.

Please and thankyou to you all.

<3

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16983140/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16983140/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 19:00:00 PST

Interesting way to spread your browsing habits on dA

RULES:
1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you


1. The age you will be on your next birthday: 16

[link]

2. A place you'd like to travel: London

[link]

3. Your favorite place: in the woods

[link]

4. Your favorite object: pens

[link]

5. Favorite food: chili

[link]

6. Your favorite animal: dogs

[link]

7. Your favorite color: purple

[link]

8. The town/state/etc in which you live: Lake Tomahawk

[link]

9. Name of past pet: Reggie

[link]

10. A dream come true: my voice

[link]

11. Your nickname/screenname: Phylix

haha that's me in that pic [link]

12. Middle name: Anne

[link]

13. Favorite Smell: fresh rain

[link]

14. Bad habit of yours: talking too much

[link]

15. Your first job: fast food place

[link]

16. Favourite Movie: Juno

[link]

17. What are you doing right now? nothing

[link]

18. Whats The Weather Like? too cold

[link]

19. Favourite Sport: golf

[link]

20. Favourite Music/Style/Band: indie

[link]

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16884883/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16884883/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 16:00:19 PST
Bummers about this trip: a bus ride for a few hours with a ton of people, absolutely has to be dresswear (that means I'm gonna be uncomfortable), possible waiting in line for a LONG time to get in, crowded college gymnasium, no guarantee of food water or bathrooms, and a long bus ride back

Pros about this trip: listening to Obama speak, and I get to miss school

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16777003/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16777003/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 20:59:53 PST
2 tough questions....
very interesting



Question 1:

If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally retarded, and she had syphilis, would you recommend that she have an abortion?

Read the next question before looking at the response for this one.



Question 2:

It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts. Here are the facts about the three candidates. Who would you vote for?

Candidate A.

Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologist. He's had two mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.

Candidate B.

He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.

Candidate C

He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and never cheated on his wife.

Which of these candidates would be our choice?

Decide first...no peeking, then scroll down for the response.



Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt.

Candidate B is Winston Churchill.

Candidate C is Adolph Hitler.

And, by the way, on your answer to the abortion question: If you said YES, you just killed Beethoven.

Pretty interesting isn't it? Makes a person think before judging someone.



Wait till you see the end of this note! Keep reading..



Never be afraid to try something new.

Remember: Amateurs...built the ark.

Professionals...built the Titanic



And Finally, can you imagine working for a company that has a little more than 500 employees and has the following statistics:

* 29 have been accused of spousal abuse

* 7 have been arrested for fraud

* 19 have been accused of writing bad checks

* 117 have directly or indirectly bankrupted at least 2 businesses

* 3 have done time for assault

* 71 cannot get a credit card due to bad credit

* 14 have been arrested on drug-related charges

* 8 have been arrested for shoplifting

* 21 are currently defendants in lawsuits

* 84 have been arrested for drunk driving in the last year...

Can you guess which organization this is?

Give up yet?

It's the 535 members of the United States Congress.

The same group that crank out hundreds of new laws each year designed to keep the rest of us in line.

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16742463/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16742463/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 16:54:37 PST -----
Things I learned in school today:
1. Cherios can be the most distracting thing in the world.
2. Mr. Mestelle is walking the line of pleasantly strange and oddly insane.
3. Shakespeare had a strange, and dirty, sense of humor.
4. No one pays attention to you when you ask for help studying Greek and Roman gods.
5. Macaroni and cheese is better than fajitas at LUHS.
6. My paper in Am Lit wasn't as good as I thought it was.
7. I still blush and smile a lot when he talks to me even though I know he doesn't think of me in a romantic way.
8. Kemo will sing through any conversation.
9. He also takes some pride in the fact that he doesn't look his age. (He doesn't act it either.)
10. Substitute teachers make history class hell.
11. Mrs. Olson is really entertained by my idea of Rhursday.
12. College classes sound more interesting than high school ones.
13. I'm further along in credits than I thought I was.
14. Gothic Literature is actually a class.

Those are some valuable lessons right there.

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]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16292044/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16292044/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 19:11:38 PST 1. Post these rules
2. Each tagged person should post 8 facts of themselves
3. Tagged people should write a journal\blog about these facts
4. In the end tag and name 8 people
5. Go to their DA pages and comment saying that they are tagged and hugged

1. I named my sock monkey Mortimer
2. I take pictures of everything
3. I jump without looking
4. I listen to music in the shower
5. I run across streets without checking for cars
6. I find caffeine pills to be amazing
7. I can be really adult-like but I prefer being immature
8. I tend to own a lot of music

1 . YOUR REAL NAME:
Sarah

2 . YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Sarizzle

3 . YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Purple Rabbit

4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Ashsa

5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Red Coke

6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Ahanahhby

7.YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)
Anne Raymond

8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Cleo >.>


I tag
zeldaconnetion, billxmaster, and Grim-Trick [even though she probably won't do it]

]]> ~TheSarahBearrr http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16231184/ http://TheSarahBearrr.deviantart.com/journal/16231184/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 20:44:59 PST Mostly it was a mess of small children ransacking my aunt's house. I got to hang out with a few friends though, and I made some new ones. I became friends with a guy who's best friend is someone I hate. Odd circumstances, but hey, we get along. I got a little more into him than I should have though, at least thats how it seems. We met one night and got along famously. And I'm not going to lie, I felt a little something for him at that time. I'd seen him before and thought he was cute, but I never had the guts to talk to him. I guess I just kinda conquered that enough to talk to him, and he kinda took it from there. By the end of the night I was pretty sure that I liked the guy in general. How can you not like a person with a smile that makes you giggle, hugs that make you never want to let go, and kisses that make you feel likes you're the only person on earth. The next time I saw him it was the same, but there was more flirting involved by the both of us. As that night went by my feelings for him grew even more. And what do you know, by the fourth time I'd seen him he asked me out. I'd been thinking about the whole 'do I want to get into a relationship again' thing and I didn't know for sure what I thought about it. I'd been hurt pretty recently and I wasn't completely sure that I wanted to put myself out there and risk it again. But, all I knew was that he was the first person in a year that's made me happy, really happy. And I guess we just jumped the gun. We started dating and it went fine. There weren't any problems. I loved being with him even if I was only there for a few minutes. It may have all been an infatuation, but I don't think so. Sure, the feelings developed fast but I know they were sincere. And he seemed to feel the same way, but I guess what seems to be true and what is true are two different things. He was still pretty hung up on his ex, and that made him doubt his boyfriend abilities. So I found out today, that he didn't think he coulda date me anymore. Needless to say I was crushed. I spent the better part of five hours crying. But in the end we decided we can still be friends, why lose a friendship with someone you know would be worth your time? I hurt, a lot right now. And I keep going over in my head 'what if this, and what if that' but no matter how many times I go over it. I can't get him back. The only thing I can do right now is be his friend, and hope that someday we get another chance at what we could have been.

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