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Resubmitting old works. Because I like them so much more than my new stuff.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/28174684/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/28174684/ Fri, 06 Nov 2009 08:04:03 PST But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

_{really wish I could feel relaxed and free without being drunk}

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/28116136/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/28116136/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 21:37:37 PST

Mitarowa: Eatting raw vegetables
Diadra: I like carrots and yogurt dip >.>
Diadra: or celery, that works too
Mitarowa: hmmm, I have carrots, celery, and broccoli
Mitarowa: and hommus
Mitarowa: also, some corn thins
Mitarowa: and tomato soup too
Diadra: you a vegetarian?
Mitarowa: lol
Mitarowa: fuck no
Diadra: well, eatting pattern says otherwise >.o
Mitarowa: -.- trying to clean up my diet cause I'm gradually expanding
Diadra: like the universe
Diadra: well probably not as fast >.o
Mitarowa: xDDD
Mitarowa: that is probably
Mitarowa: the best thing I've heard... er... read in a long time xDD
Diadra: xD

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I just LOVE considerate people.

Suggestions on good internet servers? Getting my own now pl0x

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/27660182/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/27660182/ Thu, 08 Oct 2009 22:56:48 PDT
someone feed me please.. my insides hurt.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/27461700/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/27461700/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 16:00:07 PDT
that was the sound of my patience finally snapping....

_____

I figure I'm going to update this randomly all day like facebook, cause I can.

___

8:50am. Omg my dog just stole my toast, and is now eyeing off my chewy <.<

I also had a lovely walk into town, starting back at curves again and have been having inspiration! wewt!

also need new bathers.

And am posting on fapchan now. ask for more info. IF YOU DARE...

_____

Am having one of those. Jesus-christ-I'm-so-fucking-bored-I'm-not-sure-I-can-handle-it-moments.

To writing!

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/27119566/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/27119566/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 17:41:04 PDT
Updateupdate update..
Ah.. new tv's here.. pretty thing she is. tis nice to watch tv without the masses of disturbance on analog.. well.. watching digital now... It's still not perfect but it's very fucking nice.
The wonders a peaceful smoke will bring you, sitting out the front in my pj's and jacket, bare feet in the soggy grass.. pewpew don't care.
Less drama please.
I've had a big boost in confidence, which, unfortunatly has made me even more needy. Urg. what a touch of love/lust will do too you.
Meaning I had my first slow dance. Taken 21 years and a wedding but there it is. Best part I was asked to dance in such a gentlemanly manner by an attractive tall partial stranger. Okay, so it was nicki's brother, but mreeeh. Hawt times, stroking my arm and blowing gently on me, that boy is walking himself into getting raped next time I see him. Oh and saying I'm hot too.. yum.
Running out of alchohol, not good, but then again I just can't be arsed getting drunk these days.
Still taking life day by day, which is fucking up everything, but I can't take thinking about the future, or trying too.
I need to start talking to some institutions. Meaning Melbourne University and the Australian Army.
Trying to take a positive outlook but I'm stressing about how much I'll be stressing.
And then there's thinking about just how much schooling I'm going to have to do. At the least, I've come up with a much better idea when it comes to going through university... it's just that it's going to suck like all hell cause I'm going to have to work my wasy through.
But. Hopefully. I'll have my cert 4, meaning I can work part time in nursing while I study for my bachelor of nursing.
Then again because I want to become a field medic in the army, so I'm going to have to talk to them about what I need to do to become one.
On that note, hurrah for them considering bringing females into the front line. Let's be honest. We should have the same right or opportunity to fight and die just like the men.
If I can become a field medic, I could see the front line with the others. To stand for my country and prove my worth.
How patriotic.
In the mean time. I'm killing time, wondering what to do. And what I need to do. I'll need to condition myself and lose weight, bulk up muscle and stamina, and most of all the traits.. endurance. Also considering lasic surgery for my eyes. To remove the pain that would be, and are, glasses.
Wow I smell of cigarette's. Blerg.
However, in the short future that is today, I should shower and get dressed, finally got a doctor's appointment to pick up painkillers and my other drugs. Also going to have a chat about getting something to help me sleep better.
So. Xeno and Nicki got married, it was a beautiul wedding. Truly the best I've seen. Congratulations again guys. Though I'm not sure if you'll see this. Hmm.
Thinking about dragging my arse into the city on the up and coming Melbournites DevMeet. I've told them I'll come if they promise eye candy of the mid-to-late twenties and early thirties. In turn, I shall bring cupcakes. In fact. that is what I'll do today. Cupcakes. I shall make them.
Talk like yoda I shall.
Anyway, I'm off, I need to shower and what not.
Ciao my lovlies.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/26828392/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/26828392/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 01:18:58 PDT
Random update.
kek.
thinking of posting some of my more... adventurous shots on fapchan. Comments?
Dinner is cooking and I want to have dinner parties this spring and summer
despite a massive lack of sleep recently my creative juices are flowing and I want to get technical with my art. no photography, no painting, I want mosiac and metal working.
I'm fed up with how shitty our entertaining area has gotten, particularly the pond, going to clean it up, and get more fish for it, but at the same time I need to create a mesh screen for the fishpond to save the little fishies from kookaburra's and kitties and the like. Which is where some of my metalworking idea's have come in. Bless'ed that I know how to solder, need to learn how to weld too.

Soooo dad's 'retiring' soon, which'll be good for him, hopefully then we'll spend more time together, as my day's are free and he'll be bored. Once again, I'm the son that he passes his knowledge and wisdom too. Makes me feel good.
Hopefully we'll be able to finish the decking too, and get it all covered. Then I just have to save for entertaining and yay.

can't think of much else to type, though my headaches are back with force and I can't sleep.
Wooo...

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/26392136/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/26392136/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 23:21:55 PDT to hear the world as silent
to feel the world as gone
to breathe out the long held breath
She wants the tears to turn into the problems and pain,
the heartache and doubt.
Cassie wants them to fall down her cheeks,
to land on her hands
her legs
her feet.
She wants the tears to dry
to fade and vanish
to leave.
Cassie sleeps long hours.
to try and make the hurting go away
to put it off for another time
She has so much trouble sleeping now
touchless hands shake her awake
and nightmares hiding in dreams
scream at her
Cassie is so tired of feeling nothing
and everything
She tires of having the whole world stare at her from a distance
she hurts
it hurts
Cassie is confused
full of
hate
anger
rage
agression
sadness
depression
lost times and memories
innocence that she never knew she had
has vanished, gone, forever
Cassie cannot sleep.
The hands awaken her.
They're pushing
Taunting
Causing fear and doubt.
Cassie wants to go
grow
She wants to turn away from what she knows,
wave casually over her shoulder
and BREATHE
that long held breath.
Cassie wants to curl up in a ball.
to reach a place of no place
no time
space is irrelevant
mass and being do not exhist
She wants to walk where the faceless walk
and discover the paths they took
Cassie wants to sleep.
A long sleep
With no hands
or voices
or places with faces
She wants to wake
in the faceless land
without hands voices faces
Cassie needs to rest
to leave the faces
the hands
voices

And breathe that long held breath.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/25914241/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/25914241/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 07:02:25 PDT
she's pretty big actually.

Still have to name her.

Otherwise. Shit sucks and I want to kill retarded children.

But then again, what's new?

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/25792061/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/25792061/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 09:10:35 PDT realised it's been a year since I killed my gallery, and I'm still umming and ahhing about when to put work up, or what work to place up. There are some classic photo's that I want to put up. And I want to venture into nudes but that means I have to teach aaron how to use my camera and I cannot be fucked in the slightest.
Otherwise there are BIG ideas I have for some photo's, I just don't know how to pull them off, again I want a model/photographer to do them with. The hardest part is finding somewhere that I can do the shoots, I've not got many places I could do them -_- Curse living where I live.
Met up with darth (the for mentioned guildie from wow.) Good times where had, and things where pierced. He's a hun, but DRAMA. Ugh. No thanks -_- no drama for me, or atleast to a minimum. To say the least, he and aaron wanted to kill each other. Not sure, aaron doesn't want too anymore, darth may. Eng. Boys. Flattering however to have two males fight over me.

Hmm.

Looks like I need a new I.D. Picture, and I spose this can be the easiest A little play of make up and I can have one done tonight. Yes, I think so.. inspired.

Awesome other news.
I DO own my very own DSLR, it's a canon 1000D and it rocks
It's not OFFICIAL yet, but everything is going in motion, but soon I will be the owner of my very own car It's an awesome 1998 Toyota Rav4. ^-^ I've looked at a couple of other cars, most of which, because I'm looking for a mid size or small car, are too small and awkward. The rav4 is awesome however. Perfect car for me.
Ahhh... what else. Yes, I got my lip done again, and my eyebrow re-pierced.. although it was on the opposite side. In time more will come, yes, in time.
I'm on the chuffo's now. Smoking that is. Cigars and cigarello's. Heh. Expensive things. Though I don't smoke them often. Haven't had a smoke in about a week and a half, thanks to this cold of mine.
Spending about 30$ every fortnight. Reminds me, I'm almost out of cigars. Then again, I've been 'almost' out of them for a week and a half.
Drinking + Pain Killers is wonderful. I had an epic bad night the other night, so I checked the lethal dose of codeine, then popped a few, under the limit, fucking thank you. I couldn't keep my eye's closed because everything was moving. Moving way too much.
Facebook is being taken further than I thought. I've now got a whole bunch of wow players on there. Very cute.
Nothing much else to say really stuff is stuff and I've come to the realisation that the spice girls can't sing. Still catchy music.

Yes Gibah and Jen, no invite to my birthday, I was keeping it family. Then again it's never too late to celebrate again

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/25468863/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/25468863/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 08:15:01 PDT realised I haven't updated in about three months.
Had my 21st. The only people to show where Aaron's family, my family had other things going on, apparently.
playing wow alot. making friends ^_^ going to go meet one in the city this sunday mebbe.
not much else to say really.

same old same.

apart from now I've got prescription painkillers to try and nerf my headaches.
w00t

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/23962808/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/23962808/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 04:54:33 PDT long time, no update, have facebook, please don't add me, I'm there to keep in contact with people whom I have little contact with.
I seriously DO NOT FUCKING WANT YOU TO ADD ME.
Kay?

Long night the last night on wow, didn't get to sleep until 5:30 pm this evening (obviously not 5:30pm this morning) slept for two hours and then I'm back the fuck up again. so I've had about.... six hours total sleep in the past 36 hours. Which hey! normal people can do! I'm asleep and awake 50% to 50% each, seriously.
So fucked if I know what happened last night, ran my guild leaders seconardy (though I think it's like his fifth or sixth) through SFK then dicked about, kicked up to 38 (from 19 about two weeks ago). Got my new bracers, waiting to get up to 39 so I can get my kickin new shield.

spent the weekend away, angie's then Chris's (unt Nicole's?) fun, slept not too bad there, up at 9.30, then slept for like an hour and a half on the couch after that, had the nap last night for about two-three hours, got up at like 8 or something and then wass up from then onwards.

Way too perky.

Spent a long time in the Battleground, kicking some major arse, which is awesome, now I can survive and get multiple kills.
Got the Grim Reaper achievment (this means nothing to non-WoW players)

Aaron done fuck up agian >< thanks sweety, still bitter.

Fuck all else to say really, 21st is coming up, bit under two weeks away.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/23373437/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/23373437/ Mon, 23 Feb 2009 22:38:00 PST
Okie dokie.
In short, things got a bit thicker last night.
Things started to calm down around 6 last night, heard that the fire was calming down. Still on high Alert, still packed and ready.
Watching Top Gear of course.

At about eight o'clock mum came in the house, told us we're leaving, Police had been going through the streets on the mega phone telling people to evacuate and GTFO. Grabbed at hand stuff (The last of the bags, the dogs) popped in the car and drove around and under the fire, couldn't make it out on the main roads, so headed to emerald then to narre warren, endevourhills, clayton, then to Our nan's house in East Bentleigh. Toffee was going batshit insane in the car. Driving me and everyone else mad.

Spent a tense night there, called Angie, she was coming to pick us up in the morning, just incase we did need to be re-homed for a while. Slept pretty poorly (me anyway, Aaron was snoring his head off). Was up this morning at 6.22, breakfasted and waited for dad to call the CFA to find out what was happening.

The state things where in the night before was that a shed and a house(?) had been destroyed in Belgrave heights, the blaze was 70 (then to 150) hectares in size, and was a scrub and grass fire.
Things hadn't changed much by morning, except that the fire was now under containment, they where blacking out in the burnt area (putting out smouldering stumps and such) and residents where allowed to come back to their homes.

Called Angie at 7.15 to let her know that we where going home, and things where well.

I think we left a little after eight, headed home in peek-hour traffic, stopped into macca's for a drink unt breakfast for myself >.> Jaydee stole most of my strawberry thickshake, is cool, she needed it.

Got home after nine, everything was fine and well. Aaron got back on the computer and I collapsed asleep.

Found out this arvo after I woke up that the fire has breached containment lines in the north (fine for us, upwey and west tecoma, not so good.) Firies are battling that one back in at the moment, spot fire has broken out souh of the main fire in a reserve, northerly near of a 'transfer station' (Fancy talk for a tip) they're not too worried and they're taking control of the situation.
So last night around seven o'clock the fire was two kilometres south west of our location pushing at us. It was about three kilometres wide, two or so kilometres tall.
So we're okay at the moment. I know alot of other people aren't. Spent most of my time waiting at macca's digging out all the spare change I had and dropping it into a collection box for the Bushfire Appeal.

I will say now, I do encourage everyone to give what money they can. You can donate by going online to [link] and making a donation online, otherwise locals can drop into coles, safeways, many banks, macca's, shit, almost everywhere.
That same webpage also provides information for locals to donate as well.


I shouldn't need to say that there are much more concerning fires at hand, ones that have already claimed the lives of over 200 people. Seriously guys, do what you can.
I'll be going to extract money sometime soon to be able to donate more.

[link] <--- PDF map of the fire as of last night. You can see in the top left corner of the map the road that the fire was started on.
Yes I say started, we have ourselves a fire bug in the area. It's gonna be FUN when they name him.

_DEATH

Further Reading;

"Nixons Road fire - Upwey'

[link]

[link] <-- Direct link to the current Incident Updates and Advice Alert Message for Nixons Road Upwey Fire


[link] Anything near Upwey, Belgrave, Tecoma, Belgrave heights, Belgrave south. That area



I'll keep you guys posted as much as I can.
Sorry if I don't reply much

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/23353782/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/23353782/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 22:16:16 PST gah
few streets away movingtowards us
stupid parents are sitting around with thier thumbs up their fucking arses
idiots
for anyone who's interested
[link]

"nixon Road fire - upwey'

[link]

anything near upwey, belgrave, tecoma, belgrave heights, belgrave south. that area

yyarrr

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/23207124/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/23207124/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 23:38:04 PST So far we've managed to bypass the fire.
Well,.. now, tecoma, and belgrave, are on fire, moving north-west (away) (thankfully)
I've taken some photo's so far, might post them later
Belgrave CFA and Upwey CFA are getting a cake for this.
Oh yeah, we have water bombers flying over the house.
totally cool.
except for the fire
not cool
rather hot

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/22957370/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/22957370/ Wed, 04 Feb 2009 01:22:36 PST Hot weather is cooling down, spent four or so days in the mid forties (that Celsius, not Fahrenheit) in short the hottest day we had was 45c (113F) which sucked.
and, of course, my body took full advantage and stuck me down sick.
Became ill on thursday, dizzy spells, lights in my eyes, massive headaches.
So I spent the weekend suffering hard with numerous migraines, headaches, nausea, shakes, general and rly rly bad distress.
Went to the doctors today and got meds, anti-biotics, anti-nausea, pee test, and if things don't look up soon, have to go to get my blood tested on wednesday.
She's (mai doctor) rather puzzled at what it is, but it's most likely a combination of the heat, infection, dehydration and something else.
hopefully something will get figured out soon, cause this shit sucks like you would not believe.

no
really.


Mai update
Had blood tests first thing this morning, lotsa blood taken out.
went to the doctors this afternoon, found out I have a kick-arse roaring virus going plate-o through my body So nothing too serious, just that it could take some time before I start feeling better. That and of course, medically, there's nothing they can do for me D=


_{Does however remind me that I need to update here, like submitting things and all... which I figure I'll get round to submitting old pretty photo's of me >< Just cause it's something nice to look at.}

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/22707049/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/22707049/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 04:08:42 PST Got new computer.
Quad core processor.
4 gig RAM
500 gig hard drive.
Gigabyte 9800 GTX graphics card.
CoD 4 heaven

Taking anti-depressants again.

Apart from making me tired, they're going well...
How's everyone else going?

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/22405904/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/22405904/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 00:39:45 PST ipsssed was fun
FUCKING KEYBOARD
I'm atctually hitting the right lettersm but not had enough
or correctgy enough
seddb

fuck
secind secod second night in a row that I've gotten pissed.
lul
z
fizzy good maekssses you eel oo
good
my yeballs are ubnumb
I cant ve or for te fellig of falling
OMG WaLLE you are so cute
got moorning se x this morning yey
eeeEEEVEEE-a
That's bout a boootle of wine in tenty minues
has everyone elsse seens walle? fusging cute
eed more boooze

okay i'm going
just got Magic Dance By David Bowie


awesome

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/22386880/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/22386880/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 04:00:16 PST cool thing was when we got there, he showed us around, turned to us,and asked, 'so how long you want to say, just saying I'm going back to wor on monday' lol
I think he was lonely
cute though! MADE ME (US) breakfast! woot!
I haven't been made breakfast like that i n aes without having to pay for it
giggle
got new games ans stuff
gad dAMN keyboatd
board
hshit
ARARN
AARON
mex?
smex/?
Yah?
Meh
yay or neigh?
YAYAAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY
gAh half an hour on my download
bugger bum bu bumbubbubmbubmbmbmbfksglkjtlkm

hehehehehehehehe
I goota get drunk more often
though at the moment I'm kinda...like.... how do you say.. happy
Huh... jut had a good idea for my borthday
dinner in te cityt
then pub crawl/ bakery crawl
lololololl
then bac to hotel for Psss upPp

yeah
Loveyougyseventhoughit'sonlytowoguysthesedaysandonesachick
Alright!! Love you two1
you too aaron

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/22173050/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/22173050/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 17:56:57 PST In short, a very good haul.
Lots and lots of stuff.
Many hours cooking yesterday, like many.
And the day before too
Oh this is going to take some getting used too

got one of those crazy silicon, roll up keyboards. Crazy stuff.
Weirds me out, rather awkward to type on. you HAVE to hit the key right on Seriously.
Heh... Got new speakers for the computer. Vary nice. not amazing, but you get the idea.
Need to put something under the subbie to raise it and make it work more!!!!!!

Gah!!! Keyboard...




_{Centrelink is a fag, but if I get dsp, i'm going to get so much back pay its wrong.}

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/21841447/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/21841447/ Sat, 06 Dec 2008 02:24:46 PST
Been a while since I last updated.
Quality of health is declining! Hooray.
On the high note I'm not pregnant, bit of a wonder there.
No Christmas time abortions for me!
Dodged the bullet again!
W00t!
Busy busy busy!!! Should be aquiring disablity support pension soon. Means money coming in. Might be able to start having a life.
Get to kick my own head in trying to figure out everything these days. Sad thing is I know people used to give the slightest of fucks... and now... nothing.
Mreh.
Hitting bipolar!! (w00t again for mental illness)
I'm beginning to form plans of attack against self hate and the discrimintaion against fat people. Think I'm an idiot. Remember this guy? [link]
Fighting for right and against discrimination?
No, I'm not compairing myself to him. Shit no. I'm just saying. Before you think it's some batshit insane idea. Try being FAT.

I'll get more on this subject when I get my gear together. Against... dsp will help.
Well, no one gives a toss So I'll see you prats later!

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/21258694/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/21258694/ Sat, 01 Nov 2008 03:39:00 PDT Cpt. Price!
(unt Gaz)
(adorable)
The real question is... Cod2 version, or Cod4? I think both. They're both awesome in their own adorable way.
Internet is fixed, although still shit. Thanks Telstra! _{(I'm coming for you while you sleep)}
Oh my god, good music... or atleast danceable too. Chair Danceable.
Ever seen a Head-Crab dance to techno music?
I have.
My rose is much bigger than yours.
Have spent the last week away. Got home last night at 9.30.
Am tired, and not sure if I'm glad to be home.
Doubt that anyone really cares.
<33333 Captain Price, and Gaz, and Griggs is adorable too, and so is Captain MacMillan. ^_^ Numnumnumsoadorable.
Okay, so I have problems.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/20946774/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/20946774/ Sun, 12 Oct 2008 02:23:53 PDT I've got four games on it. All which frustrate the fuck out of me. And all of which run poorly. Well. There's having a shit computer for you.
Looking forward to spending the week away soon. Then again. Not looking forward to it. Conflicting issues. Piss it.
Either way. CodCodCodCodCodCodCod.
Yay.
Closing down more! Great fun. Going back to states I haven't been in in years. Jenni helps but doesn't. Shit sucks. That's that. Tell me I'm an emo or anything like it and I'll rape the heads of your family members with a brick.
I haven't listened to Jonestown Tea in ages. Shame. It's such a damn good song.
Three features in the local newspapers recently, second time they included everyone else's portrait's of themselves with their work, and discarded mine. Rather. Fucking. Offended.
I think I'll kill them for that.
Atleast that little 'Amy' shit.
"=E Durr.... you mean like cars?"
Naomi's been shitting me recently. It's getting difficult not to just cut my face into a big smile to spite her. Should have done it before the exhibition.
Been reading alot of books that I haven't read in a long time. I'm most surprised at how amazingly.... Ignorant they are. Cops working in homocide, being surprised by someone beating in the skull of two nuns.
Fuck me. I'd do it. They're still only people.
I've had 13 tablets (night seperated) on one of the most 'effective' sleep tablets available. About five of those nights have been satisfying... the other nights are the same. Shit. Disturbed. Dreams (nightmares? Even though I don't think I've had an actual nightmare' since I was a child.) all the time. Waking up every 2-3 hours... sometimes less. Sometimes more. And now not am I only having trouble staying asleep. But I've been having a bit of trouble getting to sleep. That amazing fucking circle of life.
Stress = No sleep. No sleep = More stress. More stress = Even less sleep.
Well... you can see where I'm going with this.
Back onto the subject of not talking to people. I just don't think I can handle it anymore. I've stopped talking to alot of people.. some purposeful, some not. Some people I just couldn't stand talking to anymore.. or seeing them. Listening to the broken fucking record of shit that they'd spill at me. I got sick of fucking cleaning up after people.
Thing is. People are having to do that alot for me these days too. Having to clean up after me. Take my tantrums. Wipe away tears and coo me into calm. Of course the only person that is doing that is Aaron. I don't want anyone else getting close to me. They expect answers. Demand them. They expect too much. They always have. And now I'm giving less than I ever have.
Easing off the cutting alot... infact I was off it for months, before a five cut...cut. I've mostly taken to punching myself, and tearing my hair out. No bald patches yet. But I've had my fair share of black eyes and swollen faces.
Got my hair cut back a few weeks ago. Damn short again. Great. But I look like a dyke. Dark purple hair and a fucking bad attitude. Grand.
Going to get a tattoo for my birthday. What yet I don't know. But I'll figure it out.
I really need codecs for media player... Fucking thing can't play anything now. Shits me.
The dog's looking at me funny.
I hate lots and lots of people. Lots and lots of them.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/20657888/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/20657888/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 18:54:06 PDT Got my implant done a week ago, was interesting to watch getting a matchstick sized implant shived into my upper arm... Causing me discomfort and pain when it decides to stab into me.
Computer's fucked itself finally, which has caused me to get very fucking angry. (topping it off >.> This keyboard shits me)
Don't know when the computer will be fixed. Paininthearsefuckingpieceofshitthatitis.
Have to go out to lilydale with some prat pats kid, the damn overly happy bastards. For media for the upcoming exhibition.
Fucking hate those pats kids!! FUCKING HATE.

Goodbye. cruel world lol

shutup aaron

no!

Alliance players can lick my arse while I shit!

...fair enough

Most of all, the donors. They can do it while I have the runs.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/20483277/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/20483277/ Sun, 14 Sep 2008 05:17:01 PDT Still can't find work. Getting really fed up with it. And in saying that, I don't think I'll actually be able to work, what with my stress/anxiety issues and the fact that I hate people in general makes it rather hard to find the right employment.
Further frustrations along the lines of self.
I'm getting really really tired of trying to find a bra that fits. Went to myers on... thursday, tried finding bras there that will fit me and look decent. AKA don't look like something my great grandmother wears. Of course that one is impossible. The lady there was actually HELPFUL (omgnew) and said that she can get me the G cup, she can get me the 20 round the back, just not together. Gave me some business cards for some specialty bra sellers, that have cup sizes up to L and round the back to 26 I think, one of them had back sizes to 30? 40? I think? Checked out their websites on a whim today, and what would happen? Same fucking shit that happens everywhere else, attractive bra's up to a 18G That's right! one size off in the back. And I am aware that I can get an 18 and wear that, but the 20 fits perfectly. Still haven't heard back from berlei, sent them a message the other week asking why they are either too stupid to realize that there are women out there that NEED big, attractive bras, and I mean big! Not their idea of big (coughbullshitcough). I also asked them if they where just ignorant, or if they were too high and mighty to service women of that size. I'm picking on them for their bullshit ads about "uplifting the women of australia" (grr... some women)

Either way, I'm irrate and short of temper.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/20264986/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/20264986/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 05:03:40 PDT
So me and Aaron had our first date.
Yep, been together 20 months, and we've only now had our first date.
So here's a wrap of it.
Starting out in Falconwing Village, where we ate and drank stew and berry champagne, we then strolled along, skinny dipped in a pond, swam under waterfalls, and jumped five meters from the cliffs into the water, ran onto the inn, where we sat and chat, before running into the bazaar and throwing snowballs at each other and setting off fireworks. We ran around getting steadily drunker, Aaron without pants, me only wearing them and a bra, having a weird blood elf run around after us, only to get naked and friendly. We hearthstoned to mulgore, where we watched the sun rise, then ran around bloodhoof, trying to find the fishing trainer. Couldn't find him, so we ran to thunderbluff and dicked about. I declared my love for Aaron. Then someguy wanted us to sign his guild charter. I nearly closed it, scept he was going to give us 1k gold each to sign. we did. laughing. and then he came back to us once it had gone through. and gave us another 5k gold each. we laughed hard. (and hysterically) then went to bed.
Might have been on WoW may not have been.
lol
great night.
And I'm getting happily drunk. On $12 delicious stuff.

Within Me - Lacuna Coil

<sub>Something about you
That makes me feel bad.
I wasn't there when a thin line
Destroyed your soul.
I search every corner,
There's nowhere to hide
How I feel.
(Ignorant Sacrifice.)
Somdays it's harder,
Let's face it,
It's all about me.
(Deeply into your own)

Deep within me,
Life's crawling away
And wasting my days
Another night gone
And I know there will
Be another way
I'm leading myself to be free
In this eternal goodbye.

Something about you
Will make me stronger.
Now, I'm aware when a man falls,
Rebound, my fault.
I search every corner,
There's nowhere to hide
How I feel.
(Ignorant Sacrifice.)
Somdays it's harder,
Let's face it,
It's all about me.
(Deeply into your own)

Deep within me,
Life's crawling away
And wasting my days
Another night gone
And I know there will
Be another way
I'm leading myself to be free
In this eternal goodbye, goodbye.

Deep within me,
Life's crawling away
And wasting my days
Another night gone
And I know there will
Be another way
I'm leading myself to be free
In this eternal goodbye, goodbye.</sub>

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/20179148/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/20179148/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 05:49:53 PDT Was at a funeral on friday, Aaron's grandfather had died, and apart from the general boredom that comes with a funeral, it was also a catholic funeral. Hence %80 of the thing was shitting on about how great jesus is and how he's amazing.
One of the bible readings that I particularly had a hard time listening too...

1 Corinthians 13:1-8 and John 14:1-6,27

"If I could speak in any language in heaven or on earth but didn't love others, I would only be making meaningless noise like a loud gong or a clanging cymbal.
If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I knew all the mysteries of the future and knew everything about everything, but didn't love others, what good would I be? And if I had the gift of faith so that I could speak to a mountain and make it move, without love I would be no good to anybody.
If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn't love others, I would be of no value whatsoever.
Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand it's own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged.
It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
Love will last forever, but prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will all disappear.
There are three things that will endure - Faith, hope, and love - and the greatest of these is love."

The key points I will now be making are amusing... to me.

- Words spoken out of love always have a meaning. Lets face it. It's the opinions of people we don't know/hardly know/once knew that stick with us the most.
- "... if I didn't love others, I would be of no value whatsoever." If you don't love people, for whatever reason, you are now worthless! Completely worthless! Yes! Throw in your job and reside in a cardboard box! You are now worthless!

(This bit pisses me off so fucking much)
- "Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand it's own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged.
It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance."

Love is patient and kind. - Yes, I'll agree with that one..

Love is not boastful or proud. - That's right. Be ashamed of the people you love, do not tell others, or yourself, of their accomplishment, of why they are great. That's right. Never show your love of them to others

Love does not demand it's own way - Are you fucking shitting me? Love is all about giving and receiving, if you both give, and not take, your love is worthless. You are providing what is not wanted, desired, or being used, for whatever reasons. Love is about demanding it's own way. Except it involves back rubs and cold beers served.

Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. - HOLY SHITTING DICK NIPPLES REALLY?!! I suppose all those wives can forget going to the police for getting beaten, or those kids for being raped, or girlfriends leaving boyfriends, and vice versa, because their other cheated on them. NOPE! You'll never remember being beaten, raped, molested, cheated on, or having your heart broken if you have LOVE.

- Love will last forever, but prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will all disappear.
There are three things that will endure - Faith, hope, and love - and the greatest of these is love. - Hey preacher tell that to all the gay couples out there, that are abused by YOUR faith, by YOUR beliefs, because YOUR FAITH doesn't like them, and cause you have spread, in YOUR FAITH, that their love IS NOT LOVE.

_Fuckers

Off that, it's been a usual week of up and down-ness, still trying to find work, though I'm starting to give up on it. Tired of trying. Really tired.

Was painfully sick the other day. From monday night til this morning. sucks.
Massive bruise on my arm. Looks like I've been shooting up. Stupid blood tests.
Jenni thinks I'll be able to handle motherhood standing on my head.
Lundie is beautiful!
Dyed my hair again.
God that bruise is big.... o.O
Bought a nu dress. I don't care that it doesn't fit me, it's GRAND.
Parents going away soon, hopefully we can get Aaron's PC connected to the internet and we can wow

yes that's right, I've been playing WoW
not retail. this. [link]
Not bad, not so many players. It is bugged, alot, though not that much more...
just some npcs don't say... ]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19866758/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19866758/ Sat, 09 Aug 2008 18:02:35 PDT
It be sorta snowing here! Was snowing harder about ten minutes ago!!
TOTALLY AWESOME(S)
Oh, and I've found out how to bring the establishment down

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19819418/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19819418/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 01:21:23 PDT hurray! My photo's actually look right now!

Oh and I have a job interview at 8 pm tonight.

Unt if I get it and I want it, I'll be moving out of home.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19802462/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19802462/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 04:33:29 PDT You heard me.
Getting really sick of everything at the moment.
I'm so squeezed for space at home, me and Aaron are living in the smallest bedroom in the house, and it's the only room we have.
Mum has a study along with her bedroom.
Dad has a caravan, and a shed, plus about ten square meters of space otherwise up there for storage.
Brother has a room under the house that he can put all his stuffs.
And I have a small bedroom. For two people's things. One small arse room cramped with furniture and clothes.
I really want to get out of here.
Argued with mum the other night about the fact that we have no room. And while I'm searching for work everyday, I'm getting pissed and moaned at. While my brother, whom is content to do fuck all except spend his life savings on shit, gets off free.
I'm sick of it. I'm the one who cooks dinners at night for everyone, and while my brothers board is washing dishes daily. I get no credit for cooking their meals.
Which is usually three different ones anyway, cause most of the household are fussy fucking eaters and won't eat the same thing.
Seeing Jenni on a weekly basis now. Which is good. Now I can walk to go see her, instead of having to get someone to take me up to see her.
I'm still looking for work. I'm applying for a job tomorrow with Aaron, it pays nothing, but they supply you accommodation rent free and no bills.
So all I'll need is about thirty dollars a week for cheap arse food and I'll be out of here.
Which hopefully mum will kick in ten-fifteen dollars a week, and Aaron's mum will do the same. It's a hell of alot less than they'd be paying otherwise.
And it still leaves us free time to continue searching for more work.
Rather disappointed with some work of a.. well... a once was favorite artist, she used to do more big girl shots, not many, but more. And now days they're all taunt skin stretched sickeningly over bone.
Getting really, really tired of everyone's complete love for being thin, bony, pro-ana, "slim", "petite" all this rubbish that I'm sick of. There are so many fucked up things at the moment to do with this "fad", and there's nothing I can do.
Yet.
I suppose.
(On the point of ownage. Saw a randoms license plate on monday that simply stated PWNAGE.
Very awesome.)
Getting really pissed off about trying to find work.
And listening to this song makes me want to play Far-Cry... but my computer's to shitty to run it well enough
Though I might be getting a new graphics card from (weird, this bit) Jenni, she's got a spare that might be better, she's going to check, but otherwise she might be able to hunt me up one. That is so cool. Best therapeutic person I've ever met.
Gut's no longer fucking up so much.. tablets I had seem to have done their work.
Going on to Implanon soon... well.. September.
Have to get to getting blood tests soon, Doctor wants to check my blood for my B12 and folate levels before doing anything further about my fucked head, and the weird things that have come from it.
Atleast appreciate that I still come here to rant.
Might be getting work with Myer soon. Christmas rush is coming and they're looking.
Have been short listed for... dun dun dun... group interviews.
Fucking ew, I can just see the type of people they'll be getting in.
But I need money. Desperately.
Got big plans for my birthday next year. Big plans.
It being my 21st and all.
Need to call jobs, and check into bendigo bank.
That's it for the little while I spose.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19691523/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19691523/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 00:40:47 PDT

Another teen kills himself

"bitches don't know 'bout my bad day!"

[link]

SEE!! Natural selection is still working

P.S. On that note, Cod4 doesn't work on my computer

On a completely different note, a thrilling email I just sent.
This was after atleast half an hour of trying to get yahoo to attach a single 2 meg rar.
Yeah, I know.
Nevermind that one~~
ONline Drama! Join in the fun!
[link]

On another note, I'm finally getting a new monitor... sometime... soonish...
I think.


Another spate of awesome news recently.
[link] - Teen pussy kills himself
[link] Man gets stabbed, gutted, and decapitated on bus in canada
There's more, but I can't be fucked finding it.
One there about a guy decapitating someone and playing around with the head like a puppet.

I'd like to personally thank society, ^_^ They're so good at making people just fucking snap.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19627575/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19627575/ Sun, 27 Jul 2008 17:29:08 PDT Been at Aarons mum's place since friday, am enjoying a day without industrial work going on in the next room. Aaron's playing Metal Gear Solid... not sure which one, too lazy to ask.
Nicking off with a hand full of new games too (bless my external hard drive). We finished playing Call of Duty; Modern Warfare, yesterday, lots of fun, though not nearly enough levels! Top fun indeed. I do love to sniper.
I've been playing The Movies as well, yes yes, stop cursing at the screen. Is fun, basic, but fun. Got a number of other games as well. Which reminds me to play some games here. The processor is crappier than mine, but the graphics card wins out D: We're pretty sure anyway.
In fact, I'll go test it out now.
bai bai

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19455697/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19455697/ Thu, 17 Jul 2008 23:14:00 PDT
]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19026597/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/19026597/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 19:09:31 PDT
Ah fuck I can really love 'being a bitch'.
In reality, I'm just telling the truth.
Fuck me, I love being me sometimes.

Mood is not shitty... dA is just being a cunt-rag when it comes to loading.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/18886926/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/18886926/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 23:08:24 PDT Artworks, some that I adored, where refused for a State Gallery showing, for mentally-ill people's art. With the obvious chance to sell. Was a pretty hard blow considering the current mindset. Dipping leg deep into the waters of self hatred again, I can't find any reason to be happy about the person that I am, or the body that I'm in.
Have been spending weeks now, looking for work for myself and Aaron. Hopeless fucking search in all honesty, and I just want to give up, and beg and plead to be put on disability. Get Aaron on the dole.
Then some of my trouble will be gone.
I'm now down one piercing, my eyebrow usually flared up every now and again, but now, it's gotten rather infected, slathered it with antiseptic cream last night and covered it to soak, woke up this morning and took it off before heading back to bed, when I woke up properly, I discovered that my left eye had been swollen almost shut.
So now I've got anti-biotics, and no brow-bar, which is severely pissing me off.
Mum is still on my back about finding a job, which doesn't help the stress, the only work I'll actually be able to do is junior work. Piss ant pay, fucked hours. Not the best thing for me.
Am finding employment agencies are pissing me off. Application for a few jobs are gained by emailing/writing/phoning the agency, but when you do, they ignore you, and not send one.
Am finding myself drawing more and more away from friends, I can't help but stare at all the stupid things they've done and are doing, and loose faith in them.
The most I am able to post at the moment.
Can feel the cracks wearing larger and larger holes into them selves.


So I've now retired my camera, probably for good, atleast in it's life, it's worn out to the stage that the photo's are getting shittier and shittier, the camera's dying, poor thing. That and I have no way to be able to put my ideas in to reality. Certainly not with my camera.
Cleaning out my gallery, it's amusing to see how much shit I've accumulated over the years. It's taking for-fucking-ever.
I hadn't even submitted anything in months anyway. Including that and the fact that no one gives a fuck about what I'm doing.


By the way. Hannibal the Rising the movie raped the shit out of the book. If you want a good movie to watch. Don't watch that movie.
I ran out of things to throw at the screen within 30 minutes of it starting.
One thing for everything that they did wrong.
Believe me, it was alot of fucking things wrong.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/18725042/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/18725042/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 05:21:51 PDT Fuck you for making Windows Media Player 10 and for me suffering it.
And Thank you for making it easy enough to un-install and get my baby Windows Media Player 9 back!!
In other news, Warcraft time ran out... someone! buy me game time! If so, I'll post a boobage picture. Provided it's a decent amount of game time.
Hey I'm not that easy.
And Aaron said I should totally do it
Not much other news apart from that... been sorting out my music, got rid of alot of it.. and found a few new loves.
All in all, I've been rather bored, okay.. so mostly today I've been bored.. and irratable..
No WoW does this too me...
but still... I'm not an addict...
.... I swear!

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/18368516/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/18368516/ Sat, 17 May 2008 15:07:33 PDT Okay so I've been sick for the past... I'm not sure, four days or so, just getting progressively worse, should be going to the doctors on Monday. Now sticking myself on a regime, every six hours downing my cough medicine, and slugging down some codeine, sometimes with a cup of tea.
Atleast Aaron's been taking care of me, though he made me bawl my eyes out last night, I was so emotional, sensitive and tired, and now I'm up and listening to music, after about three hours of chopped up sleep. Though the best sleep I got was about twenty minutes sleeping cuddled onto Aaron's chest. He woke me up one time to tell me to shut up my moaning/whining, which I managed to do in my sleep for about ten minutes. After a couple of days I've started to cough up the occasional bit of phlegm, a real nice pastel green and sometimes brown.
Listening to a strange array of music, Turmion Kätilöt, one Manson song.. and then The Creeps -- Fedde Le Grand Vs. Camille Jones. Oh well. Considering going to go play Quake 4... I have no idea where that desire came from...
Reminds me, I'm going to teach my self Stroggish. Fucking nerding it out.
Now I just want to sleep. Curses.
I've noted that I haven't submitted anything in a while... I'm kind of dry about ideas... although my biggest issue is my camera... It's really... not... good anymore..

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/18191372/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/18191372/ Tue, 06 May 2008 05:08:07 PDT
Stupid sack of crap dA
Bowels.. are... dying!
Bonella is made of win, and is a level 11 shaman!!
/Nerd
Latency issues can suck my clit
Constant negative dreams are effecting my day less.
To an extent
I LIEK YUR HAIR
Fucking.. lag...
powerful farts..... powerful
bowel cancer?
Braids! Everywhere
Screw your area spell thing!!
Undercity water makes fur fun fishy times
Thunder bluff is high, stop falling off it.
Nerds amuse me
Oil paints are FUN
Namoni - 'nough said
cold..cold..cold fingers
tired tired feet
Fight
Nails in my throat
Bruising his flesh
Crying and feeling it properly
Forgiveness and kisses
A White Flower For Me, From Me
More Crying
Talking
Crying
Sickness
Letting Go
Happiness
Calm
sleepless nights
So much laughter
fun
aching
Sleep
Lots of sleep
And the Cold
COLD


Small update, some of it's just random things, and some of it's stuff that's actually been happening.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17906317/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17906317/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 04:07:32 PDT need to remember to bring my camera, so we can go for walks, and take photos

^_^

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17889563/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17889563/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 04:57:56 PDT Maybe I should just start drinking...
Been feeling empty, alone, insulted, and pissed off recently.
My fucking camera is a PIECE OF SHITE... absolute SHITE SHITE SHITE SHITE
Ahh sigh.... Still looking for work... no one seems to give much of a shit about hiring... every cunt wants experience
FUCK AARON GET YOUR SHIT MUSIC OUT OF MY DAMN MEDIA PLAYER
Crawling through images that Aaron saved to take with him, as usual he's fucked up.
HOO-FUCKING-RAY for disrespect!!
It's so fucking cold here, so fucking cold! my hands are turning blue and it's not even evening yet! fuck that. shit.
I fucking hate word.
fucking hate it.
stressing, feel like shit... simplest things are making me cry.
I'm going to fucking slaughter Aarons stupid fucking father.
I can't stand all this stress, just everything building up inside me, my paranoia taking over me, and I've got no way of getting out of it. No way to fight back.
Fucking shit god damnit .

Edit
All praise =Gibah! For searching up a contactable phone number for my butthead!!
now I just have to wait til someone actually answers it! D:

Edit #2
Always so nice to know you're not wanted, I speak to him and he just wants to be alone.
Man I am having a GREAT FUCKING DAY

Edit #3
That fucking phone just RINGS AND RINGS AND RINGS, and it's either that or it has an engaged tone.
Motherfucker! MOTHERFUCKER! MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!

JUST ADDS TO MY MASSES OF FUCKING STRESS
SHIT CUNT FUCK MOTHERFUCKER

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17842936/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17842936/ Mon, 14 Apr 2008 04:31:12 PDT It won't load for me.
dag nammit!! Just when I needed that link!!

_{reminds me, is anyone else in love with Howls Moving Castle as much as I am?}

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17783889/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17783889/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 17:26:00 PDT ^_^ And the weirdest part about it, is the fact that I'm now 20!
It feels weird, cause I'm no longer a teen.
and even weirder cause some of my friends only recently turned 18
Oh well!! I'm not sure what I'm going to be doing, apart from the fact that Aaron's going to be my slave boy for today.
But I do know that I'm going to be getting drunk tonight! Hooray for alcohol!

Probably have some pictures up sometime today. Cam-whored the shit out of my self and the corset last night, much goodness.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17726535/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17726535/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 05:37:04 PDT Gibah. WHERE'S MUH MONEY MAN? WHERE'S MAH MONEY?! DON'T YOU GO DUCKING ME MAN, GETTIN REALLY TIRED OF YOU DUCKIN ME MAN.

capslockcapslockcapslock

looks like I'll be spending my birthday alone.
hooray *sarcasmsarcasmsarcasm*


.... Haven't got the bastardlyness required to finish this.
meh
fuck it.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17485635/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17485635/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 02:44:07 PDT Been really up and down lately. Seriously up and down. We're talking almost bipolar.
I've got problems now that I can't even explain, shit that's eating me inside out, and fucking up every perception I have.
I hate being like this, I haven't been this torn for so long. My face is still tender and hurting from many nights ago, punching myself constantly on my right cheekbone and temple.
Mums leaving tomorrow morning, going to New Zealand for three weeks, not entirely sure if I'm going to be able to handle her being away. She's one of the only people I'll go to in an emergency, It's hard to explain, but with her away I'm going to end up feeling trapped and isolated. It's hard to explain like I said. But that's the way it is. And it sucks.
I feel really wrecked at the moment, nothing is really going right. Things are getting worse and worse. They've been the same things that have been wrong for ages, but now they're so much worse. So very much worse.
I can't even feel good for more than a couple of hours a day now, 75% of my time is spent in sadness/depression or feeling miserable in general.
Don't give me this 'you're a fucking emo, cassie' because none of you cunt rags actually know what in fuck I'm feeling or what's causing.
And any time I try to talk to someone about it. They don't listen. They throw up huge walls at me and ignore me.
Fucked basically.

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[link]

Massive thanks to ~darkfullmoon for the feature.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17356927/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17356927/ Sun, 16 Mar 2008 03:17:26 PDT sorta

Us (me, Aaron, and SARAE!) being the middle three.
[link]

You can see us walking to the Scifags at minutes 2.11 and 2.36
[link]

Far right group
[link]

yeah I'm lazy, and that's all I can find at the moment

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Will talk more when Aaron's not paying attention.

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Going off to Morwell tonight, should be back in about a week or so! See if I can last that long, lol.
Fuck shit I'm hungry and I need to hunt down a bra!

Took less than 60 seconds. Made of win I am.

Need to deliver Gibah's commission painting.

Really really hungry.

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lulzy pie


Oh yes, I finished my corset, the one I started on about two years ago and never got round to making, until the last couple of days, surprisingly easier than I thought, though still alot of work.
Sky blue silk with antique looking trims, it's pretty.
You'll see it sometime after Aaron does.
I think it's taken about... 18 hours or more of work over about four days.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17012995/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/17012995/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 17:00:12 PST 500 Gb External Hard drive... the computer is going to be so happy with me!

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<sub>The rules:

- You must quote the person who tagged you
- You must copy-paste the rules in your journal
- You must mention six facts or habits of no real importance to you
- You must tag six people at the end

Seeings as Aaron tagged me ... "You have a pack mule following you around carrying all your hate for you don't you Cassie"


- Whores, male or female, disgust me, people who sleep around, or can/will casually fuck people disgust me. So sue me, I have morals. I'm very touchy about loyalty and I have a thin line on which people can walk to make me satisfied about morals and loyalty.

- The medication I'm taking at the moment tastes fucking disgusting. I'd rather the hives.

- I'm a radio channel flicker, I scroll through music alot, I can hardly settle on a song to listen too, and when I do usually it's only half of it that I listen too. Although I settle on TV channels easily and I'll sit through ad breaks without channel surfing.

- I stress incredibly easily, I get frustrated and tired fast, I don't sleep well, I rocket through emotions, being so depressed one minute then bouncing off the wall happy, I only am ever really happy for a few hours on end.. there's never really a day that everything goes really well, there's always something bad/shit happening.

- If I could, I'd actually say whats on my mind to different people, I'd tell them what they're fucking up, and what they need to do and stop doing to make things better. But I don't, because I know the people I'd talk to about these things would just shit crack and make excuses. So I just don't bother anymore.

- I'm very maternal, but only to certain people, I want a very large family, and I do love taking care of some people. I can't stand other people's children, but this hasn't put me off having my own, because I know I can raise them the way I want them to be raised. If all goes to plan, people would think I was a bitch mother who was a sadist, but my children would be perfect in my eyes... just not in other people's.

Those facts/Habits have real importance to me. Yeah, that's right, I broke the rules.

*Apophis906
~Kanzenryuu
~rebel-Lucer
=shadowed-angel

And two more people can tag themselves. Mreh</sub>

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NOT FUCKING FUNNY













_{D: I have hives}

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16858245/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16858245/ Wed, 13 Feb 2008 03:30:29 PST
lulz.



Reminder... never let Aaron near this computer or my things.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16732400/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16732400/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 00:40:40 PST
lovelovelovelove
lol, I know gibah, it was a yes, then no, then yes while I was in the shwaa

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16678815/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16678815/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 17:47:19 PST I feel uneasy. Paranoid. Worried. Nervous. Sick. Bored. Irritable. Frustrated. Dis-trustful. Depressed. Stressed. Tired. Sore.
And worst of all.
I feel lonely.
I hate feeling like this.
My sleep was so fucked up this morning because of it.
Even harder because there's no landline phone at Aaron's new place, so I can only talk to him for a couple of minutes once a day maybe.

Yeah... sounds emo-ish, shut up, I'm sad.

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16653057/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16653057/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 02:20:49 PST ... I'm really sad now kthnxbai.
someone cheer me up.
I miss Aaron


<sub>Standing at the limit of an endless ocean
stranded like a runaway, lost at sea
city on a rainy day down in the harbour
watching as the grey clouds shadow the bay
looking everywhere 'cause I had to find you
this is not the way that i remember it here
anyone will tell you its a prisoner island
hidden in the summer for a million years

Great Southern Land, burned you black

so you look into the land and it will tell you a story
story 'bout a journey ended long ago
if you listen to the motion of the wind in the mountains
maybe you can hear them talking like I do
". . they're gonna betray, they're gonna forget you
are you gonna let them take you over this way . ."

Great Southern Land, Great Southern Land
you walk alone like a primitive man
and they make it work with sticks and bones
see their hungry eyes, its a hungry home
I hear the sound of the stranger's voices
I see their hungry eyes, their hungry eyes
Great Southern Land, Great Southern Land
they burned you black, black against the ground

Great Southern Land, in the sleeping sun
you walk alone with the ghost of time
they burned you black, black against the ground
and they make it work with rocks and sand
I hear the sound of the stanger's voices
I see their hungry eyes, their hungry eyes
Great Southern Land, Great Southern Land
you walk alone, like a primitive man
you walk alone with the ghost of time
and they burned you black
yeah, they burned you black
Great Southern Land</sub>

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16606919/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16606919/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 03:44:55 PST So I'm in a freaking good mood at the moment, get some plan old free time on the computer without Aaron hanging around, which sounds bad but it's not, just means I get to have my headphones on. Hooray for that!
Is everyone who's not on a subbie as fucking sick of the ads reloading on here as I am?
I'd buy a subbie, but that just means I'd be giving into the dA corporate evils.
????
Gaggin in wait of my 21st, want/need a better camera, going to get myself a serious digital SLR with a bunch of different lenses, particularly a fish eye or probably better a 10 mill one >< so I can finally get photo's that show alot more not forgetting a good macro lens Not that I need a crazy one, but a much better one would be nice 0.0 The one I have now only goes down to 10 cm, which is basically standard for basic digital camera's. Infact I might take a look see at a few camera websites. And yeah, I'm getting a proper, well known brand that I've known about since I was a little kid.. none of this hukataschi or whatever the fuck else unknown gonna-fuck-up-real-soon brand >.> so yeah, camera that comes with a serious warranty and can handle some knocks and bumps would be good, really good, I would almost pay someone in sex for the camera I found. Almost.
Hmm... that and I'm going to get a nice little 'snapshot' camera to keep in my bag at all times >< been waaaayyy too many times that I've seen this amazing photo op and have missed it because there's no camera/takes too long to start up.
Hmm... just found one that almost made me cry, both in what the camera was like, and what the price was. [link] Huzzah!

Otherwise, not too much to report, will be going to Galactic Circus on wednesday, Aaron will however be leaving wednesday night, and then back down for valentines day, which we will hopefully be going out to dinner (hooray, proper date!) And having freaky sex afterwards.

And before you ask, Aaron used too/sometimes calls me nigger bitch tits, so no being pissy at me.

For your pleasure.

Prayer (The Real One) -- Disturbed.

Another dream that will never come true
Just to compliment your sorrow
Another life that I've taken from you
A gift to add on to your pain and suffering
Another truth you can never believe
Has crippled you completely
All the cries you're beginning to hear
Trapped in your mind, and the sound is deafening

Let me enlighten you
This is the way I pray

heaven just isn't hot enough
Burn me alive inside
Living my life's not hard enough
Take everything away

Another nightmare about to come true
Will manifest tomorrow
Another love that I've taken from you
Lost in time, on the edge of suffering
Another taste of the evil I breed
Will level you completely
Bring to life everything that you fear
Live in the dark, and the world is threatening
Let me enlighten you This is the way I pray

heaven just isn't hot enough
Burn me alive inside
Living my life's not hard enough
Take everything away

Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, leave me no one
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, cast aside
Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, leave me no one
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, you've made me turn away

heaven just isn't hot enough
Burn me alive inside
Living my life's not hard enough,
They take everything from you

heaven just isn't hot enough
Burn me alive inside
Living my life's not hard enough,
Take everything away

]]> ~TheSlitWrists http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16561562/ http://TheSlitWrists.deviantart.com/journal/16561562/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 05:20:33 PST First of all..
since I left =Gibah's place, I admit I've been thinking about playing FF12 alot.. yes, I know, Final Fantasy.. Cassie what the fucking hell... but still, it amused me hunting for a rogue tomato.
Been wanting to game alot more in general actually, just with Aaron here I feel guilty about spending more than an hour or so gaming and just leaving him to his own devices, which usually involve reading.
I spose I'll be able to get in more gaming once he goes back to Morwell.
Hmm..
Been cooking/eating alot of junky food recently and I think it's catching up with me, enjoying creamy/fatty/sweet things alot less and feeling off put by them actually.
Sexually frustrated recently but nothing to stress about.
Mind fucked with Aaron for hours the other night, was great.
I love the fact that I can talk to him about just about everything, and go-over and discover new and old things, it's cool.
Looking at (hopefully) going camping with Jen and Gibah for my birthday, as well as the normal family dinner, which I'll probably do when mum comes back from New Zealand.
Want to get to know Jen and Gibah better, mostly want to get to know Jen better, I think I know more than enough about Gibah.
o.o
Well not really.
Either way, a week in the scrub on my families property in the country would be awesome.
None of that under the stars shit though... I needs me a tent and a sleeping bag..
but I will happily roast marshmellows.
Trying to talk Aaron into staying here atleast until after wednesday, so we can both go to Galactic Circus together with Traction, lets face it, I'm not going on my own.
Atleast not alone with half the mind fucks that go there.
I'm going to try and finally start turning my dreams into stories, particularly the one I had about a week ago, I dreamed it after waking up and falling back asleep several times, as to say, it was a persistent one.
I should wrap this up, I'm probably keeping mum awake.
Parents are going out with Sam tomorrow, couple of hours alone with Aaron will be good.
Means I get to be on top.
Goodnight all.
Also, I miss shade.

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