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                <title>the workings of my inner mind.</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 15 Dec 2009 06:58:07 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ its funny.<br /><br />Im actually excited to get married. <br /><br />im not engaged or anything, but the whole "marriage" thing excites me.<br />the whole planing side of it; the venue, the flowers, the jewellery, the dress, the suits, the tables, the music.. ahh. <br />so yeah. <br /><br />but also i'm excited to be pregnant, once again i'm not pregnant, but my "mommy" side seems to be coming out, i'm excited for the experience, the attention, the belly. its going to be awesome one day.<br />i just hope it happens one day, is all.<br />hopefully someone will want to marry/impregnate me. haha, that sounded so crude. <br /><br />but i think i'm thinking too far ahead in life, i'm barley out of high school.<br />which makes me think to my career options.<br /><br />im good at art and music, i got early acceptance into uni to do art. <br />but when i think about it,  i don't think art would be the best option for me. i don't think i would be happy, i think id be too stresed.<br /><br />when i think about what would make me happy/makes me happy, i think of music and travelling, i often use to think that i wanted to be a rock star, travel around and have thousands of kids scream back lyrics to me while i rock out. <br /><br />i still dream of it, but i just think, i don't think i would be cut out for it. <br />what would make me truly happy would be to be behind the scenes for these great bands.<br /><br />i want to be a lighting technician, a sound technician, anything like that.<br />i want to be a major part of the crew.<br /><br />thats the dream.<br /><br />so im looking for uni courses that entail those kind of opportunities.<br />i found one. and it includes graphics design and music as well.<br />my kind of course.<br /><br />now that i have been accepted into uni, is it easy to change into this course?<br />its at the same uni.<br /><br />ah well.<br />i dunno.<br /><br />signing off.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>never the 'something better'</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 08 Dec 2009 01:38:31 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ its like im wearing a giant sign that says 'use me' sometimes.<br />'use me, im not important, im just an object, i dont have feelings, just brush me aside'<br /><br />im very bitter right now.<br />and sad and upset.<br /><br />it seems like everyone has what i want at the moment.<br />the question is: do i always want what i cant have?<br />i like to think no.<br />because this is the first time that its ever happened.<br />or maybe the second, im not sure.<br /><br />what the hell am i saying?<br />it happens so goddamn much.<br /><br />it just seems like everyone uses me and then when something better comes along, im no longer needed. i wish i was one of the lucky people, i wish i was the 'something better'.<br />but thats life i guess, but goddamit, cut me some slack.<br /><br />i can never be with someone i have feelings for, because they never return them, i always put my heart on the line, every time and its always a mistake. <br /><br />why do i never have feelings for the people that actually have them for me?<br />life is so goddamn fucked. or my mind is.<br /><br />god.<br />i dont even know anymore.<br />i dont know if i can put up with another 50 years of this, if thats how long im gonna live.<br />i just need to be with someone that i feel for, that makes my heart jump, makes me get butterflies in my stomach, makes me smile and makes me happy.<br />im sick of fucking crying over something so goddamn small.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~TheVampirexxx</author>
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                <title>bass</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 29 Nov 2009 00:31:18 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ bass bass bass bass bass bass bass bass.<br /><br />woo.<br />and im better than you, bitchez!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~TheVampirexxx</author>
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                <title>no more facebook.</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 18 Nov 2009 05:43:13 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ facebook just isn't cutting it for me anymore.<br />although i dont know if it ever did.<br /><br />ill just stick to twitter and here to post my stuff.<br /><br />im sick everything and everyone on there.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>hmm, i post alot of journals..</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 15 Nov 2009 08:51:30 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i feel neutral again.<br /><br />i did something.<br />well i dont think it was all me.<br /><br />and it made me feel content and happy.<br />but its over now.<br />and something else happened.<br /><br />and now im back to the neutralness.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>a tale of two.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 15 Nov 2009 02:53:47 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ÂIÂm sorryÂ I said ÂI want to help you, but I cantÂ<br /><br />With that his eye's darkened with anger, veins pulsating on his neck and arms, breathing heavily, looking straight into my eyes, he began to stand up.<br /><br />The smoking gun fell to the ground out of my shaking arms onto the ground, lines of crimson trailing towards it. I raised my head to look at the blood spattered wall directly in front of me, his corpse in a slump under it.<br /><br />Silence.<br /><br />My eyes stung but not from the tears, I raised my hands up to my face and rubbed at them, heart racing. I looked at my fingers, stained with blood, I wiped at my face, it was splattered with blood from the gunshot. Infected blood.<br /><br />I leaned down to the corpse. I told him I loved him and would be with him soon.<br /><br />I ran up the stairs and down the hall, out the front door into the city streets straight into the swarming masses. I ran with them as they chased down prey and ripped apart their bodies. I felt my heart pump as I felt my veins fill with disease; I raised my hands to my face as blood now flowed freely from my eyes, tinted black. I began to contort slowly to the ground; dark blurs swarms around me like fire.<br /><br />I twisted as my ears filled with moans and screams and the sound of tearing flesh.<br /><br />I thrashed as I clawed at my body involuntarily, feeling panic well up inside my chest.<br /><br />I lay still as the blades whirled overhead, slicing through the air.<br /><br /><br />---<br /><br />ill post the actual story in my deviant art.<br />i wrote it ages ago tho. so dont hate it.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>define romance.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 14 Nov 2009 07:32:42 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Romance is when someone important to you, <br />or a stranger, or a lover makes you feel significant in their life. <br />Makes you feel loved, or appreciated.<br />ItÂs the fluttering feeling that you get inside when chivalry gets the best of you <br />and that goofy smile comes out from hiding. <br />Romance is when that goofy smile is complemented with flowers, <br />the flowers from their favourite garden and they take you their too <br />just so you can experience it too. <br />With them. <br />Romance cannot be summarized in one action, <br />itÂs a combination, <br />a concoction that makes you blush <br />and makes your heart beat that little bit faster.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>i feel like i've missed my chance.</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 11 Nov 2009 08:25:24 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ (Suggested listening: Indian Summer - Jonsi and Alex, or NÃ½ BatterÃ½ - Sigur RÃ³s)<br /><br />I just had a big moment, epiphany.<br />Or maybe not.<br />IÂm not sure.<br /><br />I was reading a story, like I always do around 12 every night. <br /><br />It was about a young couple, they were carefree, and they did what they wanted.<br /><br />They decided to sneak into someoneÂs backyard and swim in their pool, they jumped in fully clothed. They shared jokes and splashed each other. They were really happy.<br /><br />It made me think of night time, well almost night time, more dusk. <br />A warm night, not humid, just warm. <br />I imagined myself sitting on a curb, watching a road.<br />In the distance thereÂs a city, and treeÂs, weÂre not that far away from the city lights. <br /><br />I imagined I was sitting next to a person. I felt different. Maybe it was love.<br />Or something else.<br /><br />But I felt content I the warm air. Then I thought about being hugged and being carefree. Not lonely.<br />It has made me feel regretful, again.<br />I feel like IÂm not young anymore. <br />I feel bitter.<br /><br />ItÂs really pathetic, now that I think about it. That IÂm lonely. <br />It made me think; where can I find someone that will hold my hand? Or sit with me in an un-awkward silence?<br /><br />I need to be more social, but IÂve forgotten how to be social.<br /><br />Sometimes I wish I had an amazing best friend. A person I could tell everything and they would as well. A person I could call every day, see everyday. Feel content in knowing I had a best friend.<br /><br />IÂm not sure.<br /><br />I just want to know where the people met each other?<br />How did they come about being in someoneÂs backyard, swimming in heated pool, the steam rising around them while they stared into each others eyes?<br /><br />Did they meet through a friend? While walking? At their work? At school?<br /><br />I see so many people in relationships and thereÂs always one question that pops into my mind: where did they meet?<br /><br />When I find the answer to that question, maybe my life wonÂt seem so regretful.<br />Or something. <br />IÂm not sure.<br />IÂm looking back at my life and seeing missed opportunities. <br />I look at my mentors, and their lives and I see so many differences.<br />I have so many dreams and goals. <br />But I donÂt know if IÂll ever achieve them.<br /><br />I wish I was swimming. <br />Maybe thatÂs why itÂs a story. Moments like that arenÂt real.<br />The moment in time I imagined is just another dream I can add to the imaginary pile.<br />There is no curb, or pool. Or other person.<br />IÂm just sitting at my computer in a room full of stuff, by myself.<br /><br />IÂm not sure what IÂm feeling.<br />ThereÂs so much I want to say, but no way to say it.<br /><br />ThereÂs so much I want to do in life, but I feel like my times run out, like IÂve missed my chance.<br />And IÂm only 17. <br />How fucked up is that?<br /><br /><br />(end of broadcast)<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>09 leaver</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 23 Oct 2009 09:05:48 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I just officially graduated from Governor Stirling Senior High School.Â <br /><br />I cant think of the right word to express what i'm feeling right now.<br />It's the end of an era, 12 years of schooling.<br />It feels like its gone so fast.<br />With all the friend, the people, the teachers, the books and pens, the writing, the running and the laughing, It flew by, I spent so much time focussing on the bad things in school, there was a alot, but there was alot of positives too. Â <br />I've learnt so much, I put in the hours, the days and weekends and I feel like I've come away with so much knowledge.<br />And there's no way that the teachers were the only ones teaching me, I learnt from the students I spent each and every day with, they all helped me through this long path, I tried to be the best friend I could be and be there for anyone who needed me because they did the same for me<br />I'm gonna miss the people watching, seeing students run and play, I'm gonna miss running and playing just because I could.<br />I'm gonna miss laughing at every opportunity I had and spending time with the people I care about, I'm not going to see them every day anymore and I dont think thats set in yet.Â <br /><br />I'm holding in the tears as I'm writing this.<br />To the teachers, thank you, you were my guides, my leaders and my friends. You made learning fun, you've prepared me for life, I know understand that everything you put me through wasn't just so I would graduate and be ready for my exams, it was so I could be independent and strong. You made me feel safe and smart.<br />School is such a wonderous place, full of surprises, sure there were people that made me feel crap at some point, but thats a part of life.<br />I'm ready to take on the world, and discover new friends and places, but I'm never going to forget my time in school, and I cant belive im going to say this but im going to miss my uniform. It was comfy and it let me blend in as much as possible.Â <br /><br />I feel like we all came together as students as the year came to an end and it makes me smile.Â <br /><br />I regret not having a leavers book or a shirt to sign:<br />mass-convulsions@hotmail.com<br />I hope that we don't lose touch,Â <br /><br />You all inspire me so much,<br />You made my life interesting, made me feel alive.<br />Your all so diverse and individual, thank you for being my fellow students, you all taught me so much and I hope that I have influenced you positively in some way, like you all have.<br />As soon as my TEE exams are over, I'm going to be doing a lot of reflection, I know theres going to be regrets and sadness, but thats okay.<br /><br />Goodbye Governor Strliing class of 09 Leavers, this is just the beginning of our lives, its scary I know, the world seems so big.<br />But I want you all to know that I'm thinking of you and i think that all of you will go far,<br />I want you to just live life, experience all you can, learn all you can.<br />Dont forget your time at govo, I sure wont.<br />I love you all.Â <br /><br />- Alexandria Wilson.Â <br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>held in someones arms. or hoping. wishing</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 18 Oct 2009 10:03:23 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I feel like times running out.<br /><br />I keep looking into the future and all I see is more repetitiveness, more cycles. and I donÂt know if I can take that. <br /><br />I keep making myself promises that I know I wont keep, I keep saying things will be different. But in the back of my mind I know that I never keep them, I make excuses.<br /><br />Its been 17 years and I regret almost everything. <br /><br />I feel like as schools coming to an end, I'm slowing down. Ive been dreaming of this moment for years.<br />12 years.<br />I remember when I was in year 9 and watching as the year 12 put on there blue and yellow robes for their pictures, watching as they slowly disappeared year after year until finally I'm one of them.<br /><br />Ive been picturing the moment for years, and I regret alot. <br /><br />I wish i stood up for myself alot more.<br />I wish i didnt let people push me around.<br />I wish i kept in touch with certain friends.<br />I wish i didnt lose some of my friends.<br /><br />thereÂs so much I'd do differently now that i think about it, know that ive conquered high schoolÂs social horrors, i know what to expect and i would change so much.<br /><br />I guess ive learnt alot from the 12 years. but i remember the most from years 11 and 12, not because there the recent years, because i experienced alot more emotions through these years, ive felt alot more, seen more.<br /><br />I need a change.<br />any change is good.<br />with me, the changes that have happened have been so gradual, that i barely notice them. and i donÂt want that anymore. i want an abrupt. change.<br /><br />i want to move house.<br /><br />or move away. i want to take stock of my life.<br />i need one of those life defining moments where everything is right, and you know your purpose in life, because right now i feel very un inspired and useless.<br /><br />i feel very neutral, like the worlds moving around me, and im not moving with it.<br />im lazy like that.<br /><br />I recently got asked what makes you happy.<br />and i could hardly answer.<br />my answer was when im alone, and relaxed.<br />but that dosnt answer the question, because when im alone and relaxed, im neutral. i cant honestly say the last time i was truly happy, let alone what was making me happy.<br /><br />if i had to answer truthfully, it would be when im living in my head, imagining im somebody else, in another place. <br />i find if i do feel even the slightest bit happy, i always remember something that turns me unhappy, or pissed off. it happens every second of every day.<br /><br />so when i live in my head, i dont have my problems, im somebody else, far away from myself.<br /><br />I wish I was famous, a famous artist or musician.<br /><br /><br />It might happen.<br /><br /><br />it feels like im coming to a complete stop, IÂll be up against a barrier when school finished, and the exams. And I just need to push through, find my place in society.<br /><br />I want to live in New York, be part of the buzz.<br />Be famous there, or not famous, just be important in peoples lives, be wanted and needed would be enough.<br /><br />for people to wonder where I am, what im doing, how im feeling would make me die happy.<br />I just want people to like me,<br />to think about me.<br />to ask me if im ok.<br /><br />i feel so alone and pathetic sometimes. like right now.<br /><br />im talking to a computer.<br />no ones going to read this, but i just want to talk.<br /><br />i always imagine im somehwere where im loved and important.<br />that im being held in someones arms, well im wishing.<br />hoping.<br /><br />im looking into the horizon and hoping that someday ill find someone or something that will make me forget all my regrets and make me happy.<br /><br />cause i feel like times running out.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Blah blah blah</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 14 Feb 2009 23:55:48 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Dear blah,<br /><br /><br />Blah blah blah blag, blah blah blah blah. Blah blah blah<br />blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah , blah blah blah blah.<br />Blah blah blah blah blah BLAH BLAH.<br /><br />Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah!!<br />Blah blah BLAH.<br /><br />Blah blah blah blah blah?<br /><br /><br />singed,<br />Blah. <br />xoxo<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>people just keep getting thinner - skool</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 28 Jan 2009 05:09:55 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ man, i swear to god, how do some people lose weight so goddamn fast.<br />its pissing me off, everyones gonna get back to skool all thin and pritty and im gonna be like the odd one out. and i dont want to be the fat one, again.<br /><br />im annoyed that skool is starting again aswell, because its embarrasing, people everywhere, everytime one of them laughs, or points or whispers i feel like its about me, like their mocking me or teasing me, and its killing me. <br /><br />but im sad that its my last year, that means no more social experiments i conduct on randoms. <br /><br />but anyway, when new year rolled around, my resolution waaasss gonna be lose weight and rock up to skool like 'oh yer, im one of the beautiful people now'<br /> but that seems to get farther and farther away with each meal i eat.<br /><br />oh well, one day ill be awsumly thin<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>What makes you happy?</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 21 Dec 2008 12:33:32 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ tell me what makes you happy! i need the answer for an art project, im creating a giant collage based on what makes people happy.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Sneakart.</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 27 Aug 2008 06:45:48 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i read an article about the site sneakart.com. its a site where u can buy stickers to put on ur sneakers. <br /><br />and they said u can create ur own, send it in, they judge it, then put it on the site if they like it.<br /><br />and mine got in!!!<br /><br />SO BUY IT. or it gets taken off... <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /><br /><br />pleaseee! <br /><br /><a href="http://www.sneakart.com/bin/WebObjects/SneakArt.woa/wa/viewProduct?productCode=60029">[link]</a><br /><br />its named colour-splat_pistol.<br /><br />..buy it.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>BLACK PARADE IS DEAD</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 14 Jul 2008 01:41:35 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ okay, just received the limited edition black parade is dead box set. all the way from america.<br /><br />it took ages and cost me 80$, <br /><br />and i was sooo happy when it arrived,<br />i opened it annnnddd....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />THE MASK WAS BROKEN, IN HALF, SMASHED.<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /><br /><br />heads are gonna roll<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>formeandmymonsterousbody</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 18 Jun 2008 23:39:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Im over it.<br /><br />I hate being alone.<br /><br /><br />I've tried so hard to change myself so someone, ANYONE would take notice of me. But obviously i'm still not 'dateable' or whatever. <br /><br />I hate everything as of this point. <br />I hate when people walk around holding hands, hugging, kissing, saying how much they mean to eachother, because quite frankly, it makes me sick. i dont get to do any of that.<br /><br />I just want someone to tell me that i mean something to them, that they care about me, love me, anything. i want a girl that i can just hold, hug, hold hands. <br /><br />Im alone in this world, and its hard. I dont have anyone. <br />i know i'm not desirable, pretty or thin. But I am me. I'm alex.<br /><br />I dont care if you read this, but if you do, i am so alone, it makes me sick.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>no one ever does these, well atleast not mine</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 14 May 2008 05:09:33 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ +WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I...+<br />I committed suicide:<br />I said I liked you:<br />I kissed you:<br />I lived next door to you:<br />I started smoking:<br />I stole something:<br />I was hospitalized:<br />I ran away from home:<br />I got into a fight and you weren't there:<br /><br />+WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY...+<br />Personality:<br />Eyes:<br />Hair:<br />Family:<br /><br />+WOULD YOU...+<br />Be my friend?:<br />Keep a secret if I told you one?:<br />Hold my hand?:<br />Take a bullet for me?:<br />Keep in touch?:<br />Try and solve my problems?:<br />Love me?:<br />Date me?:<br /><br />+HAVE YOU EVER...+<br />Lied to make me feel better?:<br />Wanted to kiss me?:<br />Wanted to kill me?:<br />Broke my heart?:<br />Kept something important from me?:<br />Thought I was unbearably annoying?:<br /><br />+AND MORE...+<br />1. Who are you?:<br />2. Are we friends?:<br />3. When and how did we meet?:<br />6. Describe me in one word.:<br />7. What was your first impression?:<br />8. Do you still think that way about me now?:<br />9. What reminds you of me?:<br />10. If you could give me anything what would it be?:<br />11. How well do you know me?:<br />12. When's the last time you saw me?:<br />13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:<br />14. Are you gonna paste this to your journal see what I say about you?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~TheVampirexxx</author>
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                <title>Heroine.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 27 Apr 2008 04:34:47 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds<br /><br /><br />IF SOMEONE SAYS "YOU'RE HOT" you says?<br />Mockingbird.<br /><br />WHEN YOU GET DUMPED YOU SAY?<br />The Guillotine.<br /><br />HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?<br />I Miss You.<br /><br />WHAT IS YOUR LIFE LONG GOAL?<br />Sleep.<br /><br />WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?<br />Right where it belongs.<br /><br />WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?<br />Impossible.<br /><br />WHAT DO YOU OFTEN THINK ABOUT?<br />Breaking The Habbit.<br /><br />WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON WHO LIKES YOU?<br />Aliens Exist.<br /><br />WHAT DOES YOUR BEST FRIEND ALWAYS SAY TO YOU?<br />Fat and Alone.<br /><br />WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?<br />Miss Murder.<br /><br />WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?<br />The Winner Is.<br /><br />WHAT WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR FUNERAL?<br />Welcome To The Black Parade!!!!! hell yes<br /><br />WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?<br />Act One, Scene One.<br /><br />WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?<br />I Never Told You What I Do For A Living.<br /><br />WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR HOUSE?<br />Moving For The Sake Of Motion.<br /><br />WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR CRUSH?<br />Cute Without The 'E'.<br /><br />WHAT DO THE BOYS THINK OF YOU?<br />Blinding Tears Will Break The Skies.<br /><br />WHAT DO THE GIRLS THINK OF YOU?<br />Hold My Hand.<br /><br />WHEN YOU DUMP SOMEONE THEY SAY?<br />I Am The Wind, You Are The Feather.<br /><br />WHATS YOUR LIFE MOTTO?<br />Sorry Dosn't Cut It. <br /><br />WHAT WILL YOU NAME THIS BULLETIN?<br />Heroine.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~TheVampirexxx</author>
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                <title>we will remember the silence of our friends.</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 16 Apr 2008 04:47:33 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ some day, this day, we kept falling down, never alone. We had eachother. <br />"I love you."<br /><br />You opened my eyes to your beauty as we fell, together, as far as we could. <br />We said one day we would run away far from faults and tears. <br /><br />tears that were  brought upon by hate from my mind and ignorance from ex friends.<br /><br />as for my friends they are no more, they fade as i run and as for my loved one, so does she. her will to think for herself crumples under the weight of her own desire to live like a socialite. she has fallen from me, from my eyes, from my heart. i waved goodbye with<br />my cut wrists, my bloodied hands. <br /><br />But she turned, momentarily, away from her socialite friends(?) and looked at me<br />through burning eyes, clouded by her future and her will to please many. she saw my<br />hurt but did not faulter, nor blink. she only laughed and walked away. and i was left alone.<br /><br />surrounded by taunting and sharp words, stinging my body. i drowned in their laughter,<br />but soon realised that it was just one voice, barking away into emptyness.  her voice. she<br />watched from the heavens at my torture. the words of hate were pouring from my own<br />lips, but they were brought upon by enimies, no, by friends?<br /><br />You never really know your friends from your enemies until the ice breaks.<br /><br />as i  fall my last words not bringing hope to myself, but but terror. i miss her already. i see her in my clouding eyes, she stands with her own people, all of them mocking me, and she just stands and watches.<br /><br />In the end, we will remember, not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~TheVampirexxx</author>
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                <title>..hErE iT gOeS aGaIn..</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 08 Apr 2008 08:46:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Fill in:<br />- I _____ Alex.<br />- Alex is _____.<br />- Alex likes to _____.<br />- I want to _____ Alex.<br />- Alex can _____.<br />- Someday Alex will _____.<br />- Alex. reminds me of _____.<br />- Without Alex., it will be _____.<br />- Right now, I bet Alex is thinking about _____.<br />- Alex makes me want to _____.<br />- If I could spend the day with Alex, I'd _____.<br />- Alex is made of _____.<br />- If I could be Alex for a day, I'd _____.<br />- Alex's alter-ego is _____.<br />- I want to give Alex _____.<br />- If I could set Alex up with someone it'd be _____.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~TheVampirexxx</author>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 26 Mar 2008 07:09:13 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i had a missed call on my fone today, and they left a voice message whoever called.<br /><br />message:<br />"AHAHHHHHHHHHHHAHA HAHA FAT C*NT"<br /><br />-.- <br /><br />come on people! who ever it is leave me the fuck alone, my life's shit enough, i dont need fuckings assholes reminding me about my weight problems. SO BACK THE FUCK OFF<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~TheVampirexxx</author>
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                <title>monstermyandmefor//</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 14 Mar 2008 22:48:21 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ misplacedandforgedphonecallscloudmymindlonggonebutstillhoveraboveeverydecisionimak<br />einmylifetheyhurtmeandicriedandtheboywhomadethemshoulddiebuthestillhovers<br />ieatlikeanyotherdaybuthestilllingersteasingmewithhiswillpowerandsuch<br /><br />ilookdownatmyselfandseeamonsterstaringbackatmecallingitselfmybody<br />icriedforitlongingforthechangepeoplespeakofbutistillcantseeallof<br /><br />everyminuteofeverydayicryforthewantofwillpowerthatwillgrantmebonesandpaleness<br />thatwillgrantmethepowertostandquicklyandthenplummetintomyownworldofdarknessonthew<br />oodenfloorsoflife<br />butnothatwillneverhappenformywillpowerisnowheretobefound<br /><br />misplacedbutstillmeantphonecallsdonthauntmeanymorebutistillwaitforthempatiently<br />forthemtomockmeinhopesofthembeingthebeginingsofwillpowerformeandmymonster.<br />monstermyandmefor//<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~TheVampirexxx</author>
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                <title>translation.effect.solution.to.me</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 14 Mar 2008 22:19:46 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ .some day...this day...we kept falling...and i love you...we'll go so far...as far as we can...one day we'll run away...<br /><br />.hoppÃ­ polla tames glÃ³sÃ³li<br />as sÃ¦glÃ³ pur fell too far<br /><br />.watched from away..deteriorating|once what was.skeletal<br />rained down.towered.jolted.enchased<br /><br />.entirelyexclusivelysolelyiamalonealone(predicate)lone(prenominal)lonely(prenominal)<br /><br />.somedaythisdaywekeptfallingdownintodarknessaloneandiloveyouforitiopenedmyeyesas<br />wefallasfaraswecouldwecanwesaidonedaywewillrunawayrunawayfarawayfromfaultandtears<br />broughuaponbyhatefrom mindandignorancefrom friends<br /><br />.maybepushingtoofariranwithitneveryieldingwetfromeyesstingingasifellaloneasifnoonecares<br />butheydontsorememberthatreadingwillhurtthemsotakeitslowandwittyasifallmylastwordsnotb<br />ringinghopebutterroramongthoselostlikemewishingfor love<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~TheVampirexxx</author>
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                <title>| ZOMBIE WARNING |</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 11 Mar 2008 04:29:18 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ | ZOMBIE WARNING |<br /><br />_________________________________________________________________<br />CITIZENS:<br />It has come to our attention that there has been a dramatic increase in the number of life-impaired (zombies) among us. The life-impaired pose a serious health-risk to the general populace by spreading disease and feasting upon the brains of tax-paying citizens. All citizens should acqaint themselves with the identification and behaviour of the life-impaired.<br />________________________________________________________________<br /><br />lol. im reading my new book:<br /><br />THE ZOMBIE SURVIVAL GUIDE<br /><br />complete protection from the living dead.<br />its awsum.<br /><br />xoxo<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~TheVampirexxx</author>
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