http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ThiefKingsSuccesor&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ThiefKingsSuccesor en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 19:43:14 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/28946028/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/28946028/ Mon, 14 Dec 2009 16:23:19 PST Unfortunately NONE of the stupid bastards believe that my theory could be even remotely correct. Really, that's just stupid. My theory is the ONLY one that makes sense. Thus, I bet my porn collection-and I NEVER risk my porn.

What will I win once proven right? Bragging rights of coarse, I need nothing more.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/28749304/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/28749304/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 15:46:33 PST
It's obvious that no one, not my so called 'friends' give a shit.

Yesterday the most amazing thing happened. Words I never even imagine I would hear from my Grandmother. With such significance that it actually destroyed a good chunk of my reason for being angry with people.
I felt so happy, so great. Until I decided to tell my friends. I should have known better. I REALLY should have. None of them could even take two seconds to say " I'm happy for you" and then the anger returned.
Don't EVER ask me why I'm "so pissed off' again, unless you truly want to know.
Kuchi de Jigokuda. Temetachi.

But this is the reaction ( or lack there of) I always get from EVERYONE yet when they have something insignificant to say everyone drops what they're saying and listens.

Good god what I wouldn't pay for someone to explain just what the hell it is about me that turns people into such dick wads. I really would.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/28673620/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/28673620/ Mon, 30 Nov 2009 15:06:01 PST about how I will never ever be able to have enough money, no matter what I do. About how it's inevitable that I'll eventually have to move back in with my Mother like some lazy and unambitious nerd, where I wont be able to see my so called 'friends' or go to school anymore.
About the fact that as much I'd like to I can't just keep ignoring certain health-issues. I either chance-fixing it now and have 50% chance of making it worse and being unable to walk at all or ignoring it and having a 100% chance of the same later.
I decided that if I was indeed going to die by 40 or so that I'd just run myself into the ground and allow my injuries to pile up to the point that they couldn't be fixed by that time when it matter, (rather than consistently patching up wounds that it'd be re-injured later) But no, you bastards wont even let me to do that.
-About having the mother fucking government in my business all the fucking time. The fact that if I want the medication I need to uh LIVE I have to kiss ass to a bunch of ass-holic researchers who don't give a flying fuck about anything but their fuckng grant money, About how no matter how fucking hard I try to 'suck it up' my Grandmother calls every fucking day to remind me how bad things are-and that I'm 'weak' and 'don't understand that I'm gonna die if I keep being so reckless ect ect"
I WISH I had so few problems in my life that I could waste energy 'flailing' over having to have my cosplay costumes finished. Or hell, that I COULD work on my own cosplay shit, rather than relying on the unreliable people because they wont fucking TEACH me how to do it myself. Either because they're too lazy or think IM to fucking stupid to learn.
I wish that I HAD an outlet when I need one.
Most of all about my fucking self-absorbed 'friends' don't give two shits when I finally want to say something. ( Usually I just shove it all down where it can fester like a mental illness-Fiturama FTW)

I swear to God that if I have to hear Panda's bitching about how he's 'so stressed and needs to heat things with sticks" I'm going to lose it. And you know what? My 'friends' still will not take me seriously. They'll just look at me like I'm a fucking child and ask " What the hell is YOUR problem? It isn't like you have to do deal with all MY stress"
(Of having to chose whether to buy the Wii or a new Xbox game?)

What? Do I have to fucking cry about it for people to understand? I wont. As much as I hate 50's musicals "...that's the worst thing I could do"


...I Honestly have no idea what to do anymore. I can't FORCE people to understand, and I'll just keep getting angrier and angrier. Unfortunately, I'm too weak will to just stop hanging out with them, even if I did, it wont solve anything and probably be the same with any new friends I make. *Siiiiiiigh*

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/28537497/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/28537497/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 20:19:20 PST
But I really do enjoy it. I wish I could focus all of my attention on this class, it's really the only way to study History.

*Pouts* Everybody go away! *locks self in large closet* I'm not coming out till I've completed my Major!!
...umm could someone bring me my books??


FYI- right now were discussing a painting from Heronimous Bosch with people being cut open, and crucified on harps and the oh so happy people having flowers growing out of thier asses.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/28014872/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/28014872/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 15:49:32 PDT
Paul told me my grandmother had called him but he didn't answer it ( Cuz he's a jackass)

I called her back and she flipped out " We were soo worried about you! We were gonna the police! We called your friends and the apartment office!"

Jaime told her that she HAD MY PHONE ( Hi 2+2?) but she argued that I usually use a payphone in that case.

Okay, that is true. I didn't this time because very single-goddamned time I have spoken to her in the past three months all shes done is remind me how badly life sucks right now.

Shortly after I got home my friend came buy telling me that Jaime called looking for me. Then pointed out " Oh there's a note in the door" Sure enough, it was from the office ladies telling me my grandmothers was looking for me!

Jeesus-tap dancing-Christ! Do they actually think I'm THAT weak that they need to keep checking on me!? I am a grown woman with my own LIFE GODDAMNIT!!

In a VERY surprising turn of event's the only good news came from Lisa who had been telling everyone " STFU. She's fine " Her only reasoning being " because she's big sister" ( never calls me by name.It's cute, really)

Seriously fucking morons! *grumble rant grumble*

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/27979217/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/27979217/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 14:38:27 PDT
And the answer was a compltely asinine bitch fight over whether Renji or ichgio is morei important to her. I was honestly hoping they all kill each other

I saw it last night --

At first she couldn't remember either of them. After much yelling and preaching she does
( Renj first of coarse) BUT when she turns into a crazy monster she forgets again and tries to kill them both.

Then Byakuya shows up and she immediately recognizes him ( without anyone yelling at her) as "Nii-sama" and can't attack him.

You gahs, I LOL'D SOO Mother fucking hard. Stupid fucking fangirls.

On that note- The chapter last week-it was so beautiful that I nearly fell to my knees and cried. It were as though some benovolent force was telling me that there was no reason to be afraid anymore.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/27857584/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/27857584/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 16:20:49 PDT
First of all, anyone who even begins to think so does not me well enough to be called a 'friend".
Why the fuck would I WANT to be a total LOSER? I have this thing called "pride" quite a bit, really. I know that it's a foreign concept to most ( especially when it's V free money) and I can forgive people for that.
What I won't forgive is these people who assume that because THEY don't understand it, it must be a lie.
If you can't understand then just accept me for who I fucking-am and don't you dare insult me by assuming I'[m no better than your pitiful selves.

I WANT to have a full time job. I want to make my OWN money with my OWN skills without having the god damned government looking over my shoulder, telling me how much I'm allowed to have and what I can spend it on.

Now here's the simple truth- I'm GOING to run myself into the ground, eventually. That has always been the plan, but I'd like that to be later than sooner. IF I do in fact attempt a full time job I'm going to shatter myself into pieces much, much quicker. ( Why the fuck do you think I'm as messed up as I am?)
Hell, as much as it hurts to admit it, I break myself doing NOTHING.

To anyone who doubts my motives all I have to say is-I hope that you seriously injure yourself on the job and everyone tells you that there's nothing wrong with you, except when it comes when to doing what you WANT to do like sports/martial art's ect.

That is all-thank you.

Edit: Yumi, since you were concerned about my LJ post;I want you to know you are NOT guilty of this. You may do some things that annoy me, but you have always been so understanding on this issue that I ..kind of see you as a little sister and will be around no matter what else you may do to annoy me. There. I said it. That wasn't so hard.. ;>_>

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/26287863/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/26287863/ Thu, 30 Jul 2009 23:48:17 PDT
This was fun:

RULES
? You must fill out EVERY question! No skipping!
? Tag five people afterward.
? Leave a message on their page telling them they're tagged.

ARE YOU?
1. Perfect? Nope
2. Tall? No
3. In your pajamas? Tch, Im still weaing shoes..why the hell AM I??
4. Left handed? Mostly right

LAST:
1. Friend you saw? Adrian
2. Talked to on the phone? Grandparents
3. Person to text you: Kris (In missouri
4. Was today better than yesterday? Hm..yes

FAVORITES:
1. Number: 6 and 12
2. Color(s): White
3. Fruit: Banana
4. Place: Wherever I go there I am

EIGHT EMOTIONS:
1. Are you missing someone right now? ..nope
2. Are you happy? Yes
3. Are you sad? No
4. Are you bored? I wouldnt be doing this otehrwise
6. Are you nervous? No
8. Are you tired? Vodka tends to have that effect

ABOUT YOU:
1. Real name? Not telling
2. Nick names? Kaze, kazi ( mispronouciation that stuck)
3. Eye color? Green
4. Zodiac sign? Gemini
5. Male or female? Female
6. Slut? AHAHAHA closer to the 40 year old virgin
7. Smart? Yes
8. Hair color? Black
9. Long or short? Long
10. Sweats or Jeans? Both are harldey classy but sweats I will not be caught DEAD in
11. Phone or Camera? Phone
12. Drink or Smoke? Oh, hallo thar Vodka slurpee
14. Righty or lefty? Already asked thus genius

FIRSTS:
1. First best friend? Paul
2. first crush? Like I can remember
3. First pet? Casiopia German Shepard
4. First big vacation? Pff...Disney land I think?? Yes.

CURRENTLY:
1. Eating? Nothing
2. Drinking? Vodka slurpee
3. I'm about to: Answer teh next question
4. Listening to? Ulquiorra song
5. Plans for today? a bit late

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
1. Shorter or taller? than what?
2. Romantic or spontaneous? No
3. Sensitive or loud? Both suck
4. Hook-up or relationship? If I HAD to chose..hookup

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Drank bubbles? Yah
2. Lost glasses/contacts? Broken
3. Ran away from home? Nope
4. Broken someone's heart? More like crushed. I hope it hurt.
5. Been arrested? Nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
1. Miracles? No
2. Yourself? I cant be certain there is anything else
3. Heaven? No, Id like to though
4. Santa Claus? The idea, or his phsyical existance?
5. Love? as in a generic feeling for soemone/soemthing yes.
6. Do you like someone? I like a lot of people
7. Do you believe in God? I belive in me
8. Answered the truth on all questions? Yes

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: Put on clothes

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: Yes

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A: harry fucking potter. Paul refused to change teh channell. I hoenstly CANNOT see why its so popular.

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: 7-11

Q. Do you smile a lot?
A: Only if im laugh, but i do laugh a lot

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: No. One day it will cease to exist, Then what?

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Dunno

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: My 'bed' giant fluffy mat

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Hmm..cant remember

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A:..it was probabaly about porn

Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great?
A: 4
Q: What do you hear right now?
A: Music.
Q: Does anything hurt right now reason.
A: My head, my neck,my knee. Because I 'oorly constructed'.

Q: What's your favorite month?
A: This one-its the hottest

Q: What did you do last night?
A: Watched Bleach, drew soem stuff

Tag five people after you.
No AHAAHAH I broke the rules. is the meme fairy going to come after me?

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/25929208/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/25929208/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 20:12:21 PDT
1) First list all your OC’s by first name so we can see your list of all your wonderful OC’s

Ayra
Reise
Riku ( ironically hee came BEFORE KH 'Riku'. He was named to annoy a firend who hates FFX 'Rikku" )
Ren/Kaze- not OCs but constantly occuring 'dream people. 'Kaze' being an awesome version of me and Ren...best described as a..Zanpakutoh-esq thing)


2) Who is your favorite OC?
Cant chose

3) Who is your least favorite?
Ren-Jerk


4) Who is your most developed?
Kaze, I wish I could be like her in RL

5) Which OC would you want to date if they magically came to life?
Ayra- Cleric possesed by evil god..
Riese- 12
Riku- 15 and so not trustworthy ...Ayra it is


6) How many girl OCs do you have? Boy OCs? It OCs?
1- female, technically me- doesnt count.
4 males


7) If you were stuck in a burning building what do you think the third OC on your list would do?
He probabaly started it


8) Name one thing you regret about one of your OCs.
Kaze-that I will never be like her

9) Which of your OCs do you think would make the best father/mother/it parent out of all your OCs and why??
Oh god the kid owuld be better off dead

Best mother figure -Kaze by default

Best IT parent -By default, Ren

10) Which of your OCs do you think will most likely be put in jail?
Riku has a summer home there

11) The fifth of your OCs was put into the future! What will their job be?!?
Overlord

12) Name the first OCs catch phrase! (if they don’t have one just make one up)
" You lose if you think about it"

13) Do all your OCs live together or are they separated?
Kaze and Ren are ALWAYS together - in a separeat world for mthe other three

14) Are there any pairings that are in your OC list?
No there is no stup[id 'love' in teh worldi n my head

15) Your third OC switched bodies with you for a day! How will they react at the end of the day?
Annoyed becuase it would 'slow down his looting"


16) Your last OC just became a fifteen year old. What do they do?
shes older than that...so..going back in time I guess shed enjoy the lack of responsilty and enjoy herself


17) Now randomly select a person on your OC list. Who was it?
Reise-has not come up...at all


18) That OC you just chose? Yeah they think they are superman (even if they are a girl) and are on the roof about to jump off.
Typical hes a 'dragoon' of sorts

19) Are any of your OCs bored of this meme?
All of them

20) Would your second OC prefer the beach or the mountains?
Mountains. he cant swim

21) Would your tenth OC battle a shark?
If she had to


22) Which OCs hate each other?
Riku has Reise, and Riese hates everyone

23) Which OC did you create first? And last?
Ayra and Riese

25) And if those two were fighting, who would win?
Ayra would accedenatly win when hes taken over by the evil god after being KOd by Riese


26) Are your OCs fat or skinny?
Ren is very thin-made of air and all

27) What are your first 2 OC's favorite foods?
Ayra-raw fish
Riese-Candy

28) If your listed OCs were in a fight to the death, who would emerge victorious?
Ren

29) There's a zombie attack and your OCs are stranded. Who do they elect to be their leader?
Reise would make himself leader


30) During said zombie attack, who's the first to die?
Riese

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/25653692/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/25653692/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 14:32:22 PDT
I went with Paul to see his hair dresser-friend and decided to have my bangs trimmed.

I was contemplating exactly how-
" I like leaving my hair down, but its so oily it looks dirty after an hour"
" No dont cut it at an angle cuz I dont always part it that way"

After over 5 minutes of this waffling she said
" Screw it. Were doin it my way"

I was very afraid so I closed my eyes. When I opened them, I could SEE with no giant curtain of hair obstructing my view.

I looked down and saw a pile of 5-inch strands on my lap. I jumped down and found the closest mirror... OH GOD SHORT BANGS ARE SHORT!!

It will take much getting used to. I still feel compelled to brush hair out of my face.

I can see but..a what cost?? WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/25473643/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/25473643/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 12:35:20 PDT
I was very unhappy. I was wearing one of my fancier short-skirt suit type things and did want to get it dirty.

We walked down the river and I pointed out the Lilly Pads adding that 'there are no such thing as Lotus. ( I truly believed that)

He asked " than what are those 'white things?"
"An illusion. I cant see them so they dont exist"
"No, YOUR Blind"

So I went to go find a bridge to the other side. I did not, however there were some lily pads on my side-just on the other side of a fence through mud, blackberry bushes, dead trees and a slight cliff-but goddammit I wanted to see a real lotus.

So, in my suit that I had not wanted to ruin I jumped the fence ( right where it said "No trespassing)through a forest of blackberry thorns and the mud, down the cliff and after one again getting 'cut the fuck up, and losing my favorite hair tie I found ONE- one lotus about 15 feet out.

//Ya know, I come this far...// so I t6took off my shoes and jumped in. Oh god it was sooo slimy, but I got the Lotus.

Holy shit their pretty..all perfect and geometric..smell like anti-bacterial soap BTW.

I crawled back to the park, the yuppies thought I was attacked by a dog XD

Ran into Paul who just STARED at me
" Your outfit is trashed...and your head is bleeding...and your legs. WTF did you DO?"
"Oh, that. Yah itll heal." I held out the flower "Look they DO exist." I said rather happily.

He just continued to stare " What teh fuck is WRONG with you?"

Funny because one of my more epic dreams ended EXACTLY like that.

...more than a week late and on my patio, amongst many dead, dried flowers is the same lotus, a little wilted but otherwise fine.
I need to find some of that..rooting soil..or whatever.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/25193919/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/25193919/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 08:55:36 PDT
As horrible an idea as it was, I escaped with only one or two scratches ( amazing since I was wearing 3/4 pants.

Later I was lying on the floor and felt somehtign kind of pokey in my leg.

Thinking "Goddamned blackberry stickers" I carelessy slammed my leg against the groung to get rid of it.

It only hurt more. I looked at my my leg to find that was not a sticker, noo, it was a fucking "Safety" pin!! A SAFETY PIN!! A cheap chinese one!! They arent even supposed to be that sharp!!
...aslo I had an allergic reaction. My leg, it itches soo hard!

SAFETY pin my ass! >_<

( BTW Fanime pics go up ..later as if anyone gives a flying fuck)



A fucking NOT-SAFETY PIN!! Those things arent even THAT sharp! How teh hell do I MANAGE thin

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/24718722/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/24718722/ Tue, 12 May 2009 10:58:41 PDT
By accident, as most things are. I asked the prof a 'quick question' on 'sleep apralyssi" ( its what is most often mistaken for 'alien obduction") it ended up not being such a 'quick and simple' question. As she told me that it is a topic of great debate between science and paranormal activity for which there is MUCH information.
Lo and behold-a topic.

Oh good GOD There is SOOO Much to read. *Bangs head on desk*

Worst? ( Or best) of all is that what I have read only is only further proof of the idea that I may posisbly be just a bit out of my mind.

My prof finds it interesting and was talking to me about it ( because I get it often which is uncommon)

Most people experiancee it many different ways. One of the most common is the 'old hag" which is used to describe the feeling of tightness in ones chest as an 'old hag" sitting on thier chest.
Another, floating out of body ex ect.

Nope, never had any of that. For me its like being completley constricted all over and unable to move or breath and the fear that if I dont Im going to die. Occasionaly the idea of the 'intruder' the feeling of a malevelent presence, even though there is clealry no one around.


I also explained that at one point I WAS asleep and dreaming, and that this 'sleep paralysis' had actually invaded my dream.

She told this is impossible and asked to explain more. She doesnt think Im lying but has no other expalnation.

Mine is of coasre that I was very sick and probabaly dying but that would not explain the fact that it had the very same charastics of sleep paralysis but not 'crazy death=dreams".

So now I am even more interested. Hooray for doing a paper Im not bored to tears to by.

...still the reading. THE READING!!!

..and the Japanese homework and the cleaning and Fanime and the GLAAAVIN.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/24634040/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/24634040/ Thu, 07 May 2009 11:55:58 PDT ( I would HOPE hes found something better to do)

Not as though anyone gives a shit.

Id be lying to say I wasnt bothered that NO ONE said a thing when I posted about my Birthday on LJ.

I do ramble a lot, but c'mon my F-ing birthday. Yay 'friends'.

Ive also been doing a lot of drawing and had more crazy-dreams tha tneed writing before I forget.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/20520507/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/20520507/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 11:57:21 PDT
No Videogames, no anime, no freakin manga! AND I didn't even get to work the fair long enough to make much money!

I have no fucking clue what happened. The bitch just walekd upto me saying " I ofund soemone else. Your obviously unhappy here"

Apparently, that is what happens whne you work the hardest.
Since I didn't have time to stand around and BS like the rest of those lazy fucks, I was obviously 'unhappy'.

Ah well, I still made around $400 and I don't have to stay here in maximum security hell for another week.

Just till tomorrow. And my grandma is even giving me one of her comfy chairs. ( I have NO place to sit at home)

and then it's back to school! This queater won't be nearly as fun as summer was. ;_;

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19864127/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19864127/ Sat, 09 Aug 2008 14:52:00 PDT
My computer, asside from being slow as shit has always worked fine.

It sill performs normal tasks sufficiantly, it just refuses to go online.
It says it's connected with excellent strength, yet it will not DL, open ANY windows, log in to Yahoo, or do anything requiring communication with the intarhighway.
This can mean onlything; it's afraid.

I don't blame it. I would be too.

However it seems to be down right traumatized. I TOLD it the bad..man(?) Is gone but it still refuses.

I shall have to ask my instructor if I can sue Kubo for breaking my intermets. >_<


On an unrelated note;

I was putting my clothes away while simultaniously bitching that I have no Kanda costume when I realze that I have several work blouses and chinese shoe..things.
(if only I could my hair to cooperate.)

Hooray for closet cosplay!
If anyone has complaints, I will direct them to Paul and strongly encourag them to kick his lazy ass.
I think it's only fair.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19728247/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19728247/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 00:02:26 PDT LORD KNOWS IT'S GREASY ENOUGH YOU'LL BURN LIKE A BLOODY TIRE!!
...WHICH IS NOT AS BADLY AS MY EYES AT THE MOMENT.

...your next Kubo -_-

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19688215/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19688215/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 20:19:42 PDT
I realize that it's still weeks away but..but... I DON'T WANNA GO!

For the first time EVAR I am the most popular student in class, with the students, and my instructor.
Not sure if the latter is a good thing. She has decided that I get to all the work she doesn't want to do.

One of which was collecting and delivering surveys to the division office. On the fifth floor, at the other side of the building, where there are no stairs >_<

As I'm waiting for everyone to finish there paperwork, some girl I have never met runs up to my desk " Hey Nichole! Will you help me?!"
My first reaction was 'Aaa! How do you know my name!? "
Second was " Uuh..ask instructor Klotz"

Apparently this girl did and Klotz pawned her off on me. So I ended up staying late to help a bunch of students with their homework.

It was kind of awesome, she must trust that I know what I'm talking about to send students to me.

Anyway, I'm planning to go out with my friends in class after finals. Too bad they are at 8am. Nothing will be open.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19547605/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19547605/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 01:15:30 PDT _< and I'm very tired.

So I took a few Benadryl so I could sleep. Apparently being really tired + Sleep aid is not good. ( Who'd have thunk it?)

And I kind of started to hallucinate that my blanket was a monster and eating everything ( Thank you Grunt-pig)

Unlike last time ( yes, lat time) i could NOT shake it. Not even my Byakuya plushy could do anything.

So.. I finally picked up my Shuriken and jabbed my self in the arm. it worked, but damn I did not expect it bleed that much! Now I have a mess to clean up and no mop. >_<

Okay, so the first time was not a freak occurrence. Very tired + Benadryl is NOT a good combination. I'll keep that in mind.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19454932/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19454932/ Thu, 17 Jul 2008 22:04:31 PDT
Sunday: Cosplay/seafair parade.

Now until monday: Midterm from hell.

I got my mid-term today.

It is SEVEN scenarios. Not cases, scenarios. I have to MAKE the cases, then solve them with NO help.
In this case 'solve' does not mean. "they did it, it's illegal give em the chair ( to be honest, that's all I thought there was to the law. Oh dear god was I WRONG)

Oh no. We need to figure out which laws are in question and IF they are in being broken.
Jurisdiction (personal, in-forum and in-rem)
Look over complaints, replies, producer, prosecution, defense, mitigating circumstances, statues vs Fedural law and every other damned thing.
Then list all possible solutions as well as cite any precedence and THEN come up with the CORRECT conclusion.

I don't mind. It's fun, just bad timing.

Gasukan is skipable. It is every month and I've obviously not been in the best of moods lately. I wouldn't want to ruin everyone else s fun too.

However doing things I like tends to fix all of that.
So I may show up for a bit, if I have time. I do like being mini Byakun.

The parade I am NOT missing. I'm going ad Renji again. I'll just have to use crappy temporary hair 'aint'. It's just a parade, no one will care.

Unfortunately, everyone wants me to bring Zabimaru with me there is no way in hell I am carrying him with me. Paul suggests I bring him along and just take pictures before hand. I'll probably go with that.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19401393/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/19401393/ Tue, 15 Jul 2008 00:33:59 PDT
Now I have taken up a new belief; that is in the most wise words of Scrubs' Dr Kelso " ..that's bull. People are all bastard coated bastards with bastard filling".

Hehehehe..that WOULD be funny, if it weren't true.

To be honest I have no fucking clue why I'm even writing this. The only people who are going to read/reply are just going comment with stupid and unrelated shit.

I guess it's my own fault though. It's stupid to think that I should about post anything relevant, or that I enjoy in hope to further convince myself that I am in fact happy.
It's even stupider to think that anyone would even pretend to give two shits and thus assist me in solidifying this illusion just a tiny bit more.

I guess I should be grateful. I'm always saying how ' the subject at hand isn't the problem, it's the dishonesty" At least I've been saved from any false hope. I'd rather have none really.

The only real problem I have with this, is that as long as it takes me to finally to get inexplicably pissed off at ..,everything, people are SO surprised.

And then, THEN they pay attention " OMG what a bitch what the hell is your problem?"

Or they don't.

So either way, I'm no better or worse off.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/18296015/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/18296015/ Mon, 12 May 2008 19:47:36 PDT
The second; people who break the rules, for no other reason then to get away with it.. Which only results in MORE rules hindering people form enjoying they're lives.

Obviously this presents a problem.

It makes me look like a an evil, rule-loving kill joy.
I am so very not, but on the other hand;
no, no, I wont break any rules, or simply look the other way when someone else does.

I'm always the one saying " ..because it's against the law. usually followed by " ..and as long I have any say, your not going to break on it"

Of coarse every time I say this I think I die a little inside each time, because, well honestly my first job choice was 'Vigil anty' but since thats out of the of the question I've decided all I can do is turn into 'the bad guy' in attempt to eliminate the need for MORE rules.

Sooo...ugh! My head hurts!! I know I'm not 'wrong' but ..don't want people to misunderstand either.

Uum..I guess there was no point to this other than to ramble..so..yea. That's all.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/17804094/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/17804094/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 22:51:49 PDT
Today I had to get my blood drawn at the hospital. No big damned deal, I do it all the time right?

NO. Hell no.

This blood test; it's supposed to show my cystine levels' or whatever. ie that stuff that is apparently going to kill me eventually.
So says my nan..every god damned day of my life. " Dont be so reckless who knows how much time you have!" " you dont understand your own situation." Are you trying to kill yourself?" " Your getting worse and your going to die!"
I don't even know WHY Nan tries anymore. Shes been saying this for twenty four damned years and the fact I could even be mortal at all is a concept that escapes me. Save. Your. Breath. Woman.

Crazy woman aside, I don't see the point of this blood test at all. I know when they're getting high because i feel bad, and IF they do get dangerously high to the point that nothing can be done, well then all thats going to change is Ill be nagged forthe rest of my life.

Even the doctors tell her " Dont worry about it. IM starting to believe Nichole is immortal." " No one even believes she HAS cystanosis" and on the more serious note; "That blood test does not to be done very often"

What does my Nan do? Throw a fit and tell them all theyre wrong. The doctors..ARE WRONG..

She spent all day arguing with them all and once again trying to pound it into my head that Im going to die early. (

After a while I simply replied to everything she said to me with
" Ore wa shinanai" A phrase I so conveniently picked up just last night. She thought I was insulting her of coarse. XD

Oh, it gets better. We ran into a girl who also has cystanosis. Mind you,she has OBVIOUS deformities, like EVERYONE with Cystanosis..except me.

My Nan started bitching to her about how those stupid doctors had the guts to tell her that blood test was not needed every three months and that they were incompetent and did not understand the severity of situation.

The girl looked at me, then her, with this "WTF expression and said "I get my blood test every four years."
I tried SO hard not to smirk.
Then my Nan replied but YOU take you Cystagon ( Im convinced the reason this blood test is SO Important is only so my nan can keep tabs on how often I take my meds and keep reminding me of this so called 'mortality' on a regular basis.) "but Nicholes levels were 1.6! "
In other words, she was trying to tell this frail, deformed woman who could barley speck that I was worse off than her.
The girl replied " Mine were 3" Of coarse nan had nothing to say to that. I on the other hand, knew exactly what to say.

I smirked openly " Ore wa hanashite..shijanaiyo!" (oh yea, you dont know what that means) I told you, I WONT die.

I really wanted to thank that girl, she saved me a lot of trouble. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to get anytime to speak with her without my grandparents around.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/17779338/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/17779338/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 12:41:46 PDT
The bizarre thing, is this one went backwards. Two nights ago, I had a dream that my dream-friends and I were trying to cross this frozen wasteland. I didn't want to because I HATE the cold. Of coarse, I did anyway.

Once in the middle of the snow storm, I realized it wasn't snow at all; but shards of broken glass, as well as the ground. There I was being cut up by glass-hail, with a smirk on my face saying
" Not so bad, see?"
I held out my hand letting a glass shard pierce right through, then picked itout and flicked it away
" It isnt cold at all, just sharp"


The night after I had a dream that the world was slowly disappearing, no one knew about it but us, nor did we know why. we just knew that everything was going to be destroyed within a short amount of time.

After much adventuring I found, at the bottom of a lake this small statue. It was of two rows of many small hour glasses, none of which were synchronized or could be reset.

Long story short, we found out that it was a tiny replica of 'god' ( for lack of a better term) we didnt know it existed because it's size was inconceivable to the human mind.
Somehow, we had reached this colossus which seemed to exist in it's realm.

At the top we found a single person, who was controlling the hourglasses with a replica similar to mine.
No one in my group would go anywhere near her. Being the reckless person I am, confronted her anyway. She demanded that i return the one that I had saying " Humans should never hold that kind of power in their hands"
Obviously, I refused. She made some sort of typical speech about it futile because she held everyone lives in her hand and turned a few of the hour glasses so they were almost empty and everyone started dying and yell at em to stop as mine was running out much faster. I didnt stop at all. I just stood there, glaring at her challengingly. Finally it ran out. I collapsed for a minute. Then got up with a grin. By now everyone else was near death.

The woman insisted that it was impossible for me to still be alive, and even so I was a horrible person because my friends were still going to die along with everything and that I could do nothing.

I simply smirked saying " What if..I just deny it all? What I refuse to believe this 'one universal truth"

She just stared at me saying " You..your..insane"

" Maybe but in any case..I reject your idea of 'reality' and replace it without my own!"

She seemed amazed " and what is that?"

" That Ill stop breathing only when I'm damned tired of it!" I threw the miniature statue to the ground, shattering it to dust while my stared at me in horror.

Suddenly, we were back on the ground, unharmed, and it was snowing glass; the remnants of the enormous hourglass.


( Gah! Too long and badly written will edit later class time now!)

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/17341023/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/17341023/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 02:46:58 PDT
Soo Iv run into a bit of a..setback in my future plans.

Nan called with an option that you she knew I would refuse:, a group that will help me get all I can form the government for having a 'rare illness" I know she was only trying to help...

She kept saying " Youve got nothing left to lose". I felt differently, but i couldnt explain it.

Later I told my very wise net- friend " People think Im strong because 'no matter how hard I fall, I always get up', but that isnt strength at all, after so long, its just pathetic. I dont even know why I 'keep getting up anymore"

She said simply that I must have something worth fighting for or Id have quit by now

That night I had a dream ( One of those dreams that you forget until insignificant makes it resurface) I still only recall only the end vividly.

I had fought an enemy army and lost horribly. The ity I was defending burned down I was the only one in my group alive, and just barely.

I could only see the blood on the ground under my feet, the blood dripping from my head, shoulders, chest, and arm which was holding the remnants of a weapon mangled beyond recognition.
You cant physically feel pain in dreams, but I could feel it in every other way ( if that makes sense)
Every time I tried to breathe I only chocked on more blood ( not te mint flavored kind either) I was REALLY fucked up.

I couldnt lift my head but could hear someone talking right in front of me.

"Why are you still standing? Give up. You have nothing left to fight for."

I was stabbed again. I somehow spoke up..

" Cut me as many times as you like... youll never see me fall.."

The other person asked

" and what makes you so sure?"

" . because ...wounded pride is th most painful of all"

Then everything went black heh I was STILL on my feet, against a tree.

As horrible as that dream was, it made me feel better because it had answered my own question.

Also, my head hurts possibly because there are stitches in t. They look cool, Ill miss them when theyre gone.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/17185071/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/17185071/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 18:33:22 PST
Paul needed an excuse to leave work, so he came over and we went down to the waterfront for lunch.

He told me that " Lisa ( some bitch at work) has never been to an anime convention before and shes considering going to SC." So Paul being the bastard that he is, invited her to come with us. Im quite sure I had not formerly approved of this.

I dont know what pissed me off more, the subject at hand or the fact that the subject at hand was pissing me off.

After that I tuned him out thinking " So what? I dotn give a shit..let the dumb bitch come to the con. Why should I care?"
Right at that point I caught a few words from the song playing over head. I knew Id heard it before.

" Jealousy" was the title of the song. ..I am SO above this shit.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/17157740/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/17157740/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 23:54:42 PST
So Iv been spending the past 20 minutes screaming " I Love soba. I love it so hard. It hurts, it hurts bad!! Mmm..sobaaa OWW FUCKING CHRIST! IT BUUURNS! WHY?! DO YOU DO THIS TO MEE!! I LOVE YOU SOBA!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!..oooow"

To top that off, last night I fell asleep in front of the heater. I forgot I was wearing a metal bracelet. Now its time to play 'name that scar'. I say it looks like a backwards 'ka'.
(or a stick man with a really big arm..scyth thing..)
Paul says its 'divine punishment' and when I see it in the mirror will remember that 'fire bad'. Do I care? Fuck no.

On a more epic note. Cosplay chess positions and plans are up. Im a rook! A fucking epic rook! XD who gets I killed by byakuya.
Iv decided how I will play this too. There are about 6 turns where I just kind of stand there before something compels Taichou to come kill me. I know exactly what Im going to do..

Renji: Taichou.
Baykuya: * ignoring*
Renji: Taiiichoou..
Byakuya: * Still ignoring*
Renji: TAAIICHOOU!!!
Byakuya: What Renji? What IS IT?!
Renji: I achieved bankai last night..WITH YOUR SISTER!
Byakuya: * Trademark angry wide-eyes. Runs over kills Renji, only to be taken out by freakin Roxas*

Hehe, see that was all part of my plan * Nods* Get Byakuya to lose his temper and run into battle without thinking ( a difficult task but if anyone could do it, its Renji) XD I knew Roxas had my back yo.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/16639141/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/16639141/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 05:59:20 PST I DONT stay sick for more than 3-4 days EVAR. * Kicks invinci-shield* You work now lazy piece of shit!

Well that killed a whole two minutes.

I think Im going to call my boss and see if he needs me to come in today. I REALLY dont want to waste another day doing nothing.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/16560111/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/16560111/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 00:45:57 PST
Its weird I havent even played PW in a loong time.

Anyway the best and weirdest part o this dream; I was the defendant AND prosecutor. BUT two different people.

Not uncommon actually, there are two 'dream mes'. They act much different and one is really irritated by the other.
*Sigh* Thats probably not normal.

Anyway it was epic in the way that it was exactly like PW ( Breaking your own psych locks is more difficult than you would think) with all the dramatic animations, music and sprites.

Eventually, I wll draw these sprites and uum make them into sprites and it will be awesome. Yes.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/16554634/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/16554634/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 16:41:52 PST
Busy as all hell. Ful time job and 10 credit-classes a week will do that. Especially when your
instructions are sadistic bastards who make sure they all give you homework at the same time. Three essays due by next mon and tues. ( So what they hell am I doing online? >_<

Aaanyway for those who are having issues with my LJ ( cuz I dont like having to post in two different journals. Here: [link]

If that doesnt work I dunno whats up. Now Im off to class Ill write something interesting later.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/16294482/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/16294482/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 23:06:25 PST _<

But Paul can go as either Byakuya or Yuu Kanda.

Now, since the battles are predetermined for maximum epic-ness its upto me whom I get to fight.

While my first instinct say " beat the crap out of Byakuya", Im also thinking that Renji vs Yuu Kanda would be hilarious.

I dont think need I explain this ( Not to anyone whos seen both D grey man and Bleach)

So, what do you guys think?

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/16116832/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/16116832/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 23:11:05 PST
Anyway, I really hate emotional shit but this really just amazed the hell out of me.

Iv always thought that my mother hated me.she does so much and puts herself out for the rest of my family but shes never helped me at all and would get so mad at my grandparents for doing so


Whenever I needed something Shed just tell me 'you can do it yourself" It made me really mad and well Id think " these people are all causing theyre own problems! ( addicts, most of them..or my sister ) and I just want to get somewhere with my life"

Christmas eve my sister was going through this book of Oscar Wilde quotes. There was one I really liked " we are all in the gutter, but some can see the stars.

"Mom replied " and some will reach them...without help form the rest of us"
( and lately shes been helping me out with finances saying things like " I shell out money to the rest of the family and they just waste it"

So I guess mom doesnt hate me at all. Shes refused to help me because she knew I didnt need it.
I guess.. since she helped everyone else that means Im the ONLY person shes believed in. Huh..well this certainly puts a whole new spin on things, doesnt it?

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/15273381/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/15273381/ Mon, 29 Oct 2007 14:06:08 PDT
WHY am I posting this here where maybe two people reply? Cuz LJ has pulled some faggotry and banned my IP address for trying to login too many times. I forget there was a bloody number involved. They MADE me do it!

Here I am in DC.
I hate this place. Its full of the stereotypical loud and very rude black people, NO ONE here can cook worth shit and well theres the whole being here..thing.
Most if not all of you know the total bullshit story. Its fucked up, I dont have to like it and Im gonna bitch about it.

Actually wouldnt be NEARLY as bad without my grandparents.

Anyway we were there a good 5 hours ( my appointment was about 30 minutes)

Wouldnt have been so bad since I braught my DS and Pheonix right game ( My new addiction) except ofcoarse those bastards put those goddamned " Cant she shit' eye drops in my eyes. That was HOURS ago and I can finally see/play game again.

All that was left to do was go to the pharmacy and get some eyedrops. No problem right?
This was the biggest problem of all.

My doc had called them a good half hour in advance. I still had to take a number. "aight , fine, whatever" Till I see they are calling maybe one number every ten minutes.

Id been patient ALL day but this was the straw that stabbed the camel. OFCOARSE my grandma got all pissed off and gave the typical
"your not the only one speech' This speech only infuriates me FURTHER. I HATE being told that. NO ONE should be treated like that"

By now I wanted to jump behind the counter and take my shit.
Then what does that aggrivating old woman do? Starts making kissy baby faces at me. Goddamn did I want to knock her on the fucking ground.
Dont mock me when Im that angry. I put up with a lot of bullshit and I have the right to get REALLY pissed once in a while.

Then the dumbass finally saw that I had really had it and tells me " Theres nothing you can do. Your at the bottom of the barrel.

At this I smirk " ..and they wont ever consider anyone below them ..untill you make a sudden move and send them crashing down to your level. "

To my suprise she actually laughed and said that I never could 'stay still" but assured me itd do no good.

It so did. I went upto the window and well, got my eyedrops.


Now im back at the ugh..childrens inn" you can stay here for free until your 25. Naturally I dont expect my grandparents to pay for a hotel when this is available but its like living in a perpetual after school special..for mormons.

Also, I detest most others with 'health issues' specifically the SAME illness. " Hi! We should be friends cuz we both have cystanosis! We can talk 24-7 about cystanosis becuase Iv MADE it my life but thank god that my family and jeebus are here becuase I have no strength of my own and would shrivel and die without them"

Ehem.. I have issues, I know.
Aside from that.. I like it here cuz they have Wi-Fiand and a big ass TV. Also the Mormons are ..somewhere having theyre 'family night.

At least I get to go home tomaro. I just hope I dont beat 'heonix Wright" or Ill get bored on the plane.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/14905554/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/14905554/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 21:01:38 PDT
I knew i couldnt bring it up to her at ALL. I KNEW it. But I had to. All I said was " Im just going to take bag of the stuff I REALLY need to work with me and stay the night Fri then get the rest on Sat"

Nan: ...Are you going to take care of your cystanosis or have you just decided to give up?

First of all * Bitch slaps the living fuck out of moron*
.. BITCH! Stupid mother fucking bitch! When the fucking hell have I EVER given up? Never!..Not even when I probly should >_>

Then, ofcoarse she goes on.. " You GOING to die if you move out. Because you just dont care. You dont read up on your desiese you refuse to meet anyone else who has it and I dont want to see you get sick! I CANT watch you do that to yourself!"



Muther fucking IDIOT! 24 years and STILL she does NOT get it!?

Thats right, it MUST be that I just dont care.
It MUST be that I just have a bad additude and refuse to admit that Im just some weak thing who owes her VERY existance to some goddamned loathsome medication and that rather than be greatful Im just a resentful, unnapreciative little bitch.

TWENTY FOUR years..and the stubborn ass has not figured out that I being, well, ME; someone who LOATHES the idea of being weak, just MIGHT be resentful to not the desiese itself but the very fact that for these 24 years have been told on an almost daily basis that I
" Dont understand that I have a VERY dangerous desiese and am going to die if I dont resign myself to a life of sitting in my room staring at my pills lest in the quest for a having a LIFE I forget to take them. "
( Obviously not theyre exact words just a synopsis.)

WHY dont i talk to anyone on that fucking support group? Because I hate those whiny bastards, firstly.
Secondly, I DONT NEED SUPPORT.

Yes, I have an illness and yes it can be fatal.
Well fuck, better make the most of it while Im here..which will be quite a while thank you.
( As far as Cystanosis goes anyway. I may die doing some stupid shit-how much wanna bet?-but I will NOT die of some fucking illness. )

Pop quiz!: Whats the differance between dying of a desiese and letting it destroy you before you live at all?

Answer: Not a fucking thing! Except that anyone who believes otherwise is a little pussy who should just curl up and die in a puddle of theyre own self pity.

You know, she had a lot to do with my kidneys failing in the first place.

Dont tell someone like me that 'the only reason your alive is because of some goddamned pills"

What am I going do?
What is 'bow with a polite 'yes ma'm and every day pay homage to the all creator' the pills'?
( Ooh thats offensive to the pill worshipers. Im going to hell)
Oh Im sorry, the answer we were looking for was ' Not take them at all to prove your ass your wrong.

Thats really all therye was to it. " yea, Im a worthless pile of shit who owes her very existance to some medicine. Ill show you" And yea, my kidneys did fail, and yea I did damned near die.

But, here I am, just as strong as ever. I can tell you right now, that when I was in the hospital with kidney failure, all of the cystagon in the world couldnt have saved me if I had CHOSEN to give up. That was all me muther fuckers.

Yes, I realize that what I have is dangerous, yes I do realize that I need to take care of myself. or I could become seriously fucked up if

HOWEVER, I also realize (unlike HER) that 'taking care of myself' includes The followeing:
- taking my meds ( which I admit I need to a LITTLE better)
- see my doc every few months
- keep mental health in check ( yea I believe that actually DOES exist)

'taking care of myself" does NOT include:
- Thinking of NOTHING but meds and doctors
-talking to those whiny bastards on the support lists
- particpaiting in every function/study
- deciding that I am simply a weak little piece of trash who should just give up and move into a hospital
-eat breath live 'Cystanosis'

In closing; holy fucking hell I cant wait to move out..then its just surviving the inevitable bitching/nagging on my trip to DC and it should be smooth sailing.

Oi, another long rant. But it felt good.


Must finish packing nao. Night mah homies.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/14780448/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/14780448/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 00:04:44 PDT
Hopefully one of my last DeviantART entries since I want to switch over to LJ. For anyone who wants to read my boring ass shit; hea' my LJ is vicecapnrenji

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I remember not so long ago watching ..something..that made me think " I wonder what its like to have someone say theyre proud of me. I bet its awesome, not like Ill ever know"

Back to present day; work, as much as I love my job, was crazy.

I got to work and John John appolagized for not being able to give me a ride to work Saterday.

I told him it was rediculous for him to appolagize. I was the one who dogged him and that if I expected to be taken seriously, or thought of as a reliable person, I should have found my own ride come hell or high water.

He assured me that it was alright because the only thing he couldnt figure out was the paper work which he left for me.
So I had dbl the amount. Fair enough.

Part of my job is hauling 4-6 buckets of ice to the recruit dining room. The ice machine broken, strike that; dead. It was DEAD.
Fuck.

I call the boss to bring me some ice and while waiting on him learn were out of most things I NEED.
No one to blame but byself, I should have dbl checked before hand.

I set up what I could and my boss returned with some ice.

The bottom of one of the bags of ice spilt open and got ice all over the floor.
The lighter for the sturnos( which I also did not have enough of) was out of fluid.
I burnt myself a good three times and had about five minutes before i was late.

No time to clean up the ice AND finish getting ready for the day so after much deliberation and cursing myself for not being able to handle such a simple job on my own I..called the boss for *Wince* help.

He came in and swept up the floor then proceeded to yell at me. Hes NEVER yelled at me before it was something like:

" Your WAY to fucking critical of yourself. You didnt fail today and you never have. No one here thinks your stupid or incable..except you.
This place makes more money then the rest of the cafes put together. Would I give the job to someone i didnt trust?"

That made me feel a little better.
What he didnt get was that Im just SICK of people running to save MY ass like some ..little princess ( Im not a fucking princess!)

When have I EVER saved someone elses? Not once that I can think of. There were a few occasions when i had the chance, but they refused my help.
Assholes, woulda made me feel just a little less useless...

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Back to my first point about wanting someone to be proud fo me...

I got home and my nan said it..she finally said " Im so proud of you" The one thing iv been dying to hear as long as I can remember, and how did i respond? " Why? Any idiot with a quater of a brain could do what I have done." and walked away.

Not nearly as epic as I imanged I guess. *Shrug*

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/14186557/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/14186557/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 20:25:27 PDT Im posting it here since.. this is where I post my journals.


It all started when my Zabimaru keychain broke and took my hair tie with it ( I dont have anywhere else to put a keychain)
The rest of the days events were my own fault for not seeing the former as a hint to ' GTFO before things get worse'

I had to train a' newb. I left him alone for two minutes and he had put a fucking PLATE on the grill. I ran over just in time get hit with hot greese-covered plate shrapnel. My wrist is now one giant blister.

Finally, my cousin picked me up and we went to moms for poker night. Everything was fine until my cousin took me out driving, it was dark I couldnt see, and drove over a bloody curb.

I was just SLIGHTLY aggitated so we went for a walk in the park to calm my spaztic nerves.
I was enjoying the nice cool night until I tripped on a stone, spilling my soda all over me.
I scrapped the living fuck out of my knee which immeditaly swelled up and turned purple.
Id also shredded my fave pair of pants across the knee..and OFCOARSE.. there went my second hair tie. 2 in one day, my personal best..or worst.


I just sat there on my knees where I landed for a while. My cousin kept insisting I get up, but I really didnt want to.

After I explained my injuries to my grandparents my grandma gave me a hug and started coddling me and all that crap. God that was humiliating. Do I really come off as that weak? Tell me now so I can shoot myself.


When I thought it couldnt get any worse, Iris called today see if I was 'alright'.
Damn. Theyve foudn out Im human. Im done for.
really, theyre all convinced Im made of solid stone.
Now therye all going to be sorley dissapointed, but not as much as I am >_<

That was yesterday, today Im very sore and horribly dissapointed with myself..and pissed that my keychain is broken.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/14083433/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/14083433/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 00:28:48 PDT
Serious health issues =
Good reason for absense.
In which case a simple " sorry I was away '____ ' happened and I am/will be better now/whenever" Is perfectly acceptable.

Random health issue that I wont go into and has slightly affected me physically yet left me 'mentally exauhsted' =
An inconvieniance that I so DO want to go disscuss in FULL but am going to trick people into asking me about cuz I think Im clever like that.

If you want to be a little pussy, Ill even accept; not used to dealing and really NEED to get it out. Okay. But be fucking HONEST about it.

Dont say its 'stress' and continue to whien until people into asking cuz ya knwowhat? No one freakin CARES!


The svery pharses " I cant " I havent" " mental' " Stress' and 'exaughstion' in any order together in a sentance make me twitch.
Dead people would be more than happy to accept your load of what we call 'life'?

I dunno, maybe a bit of that 'ice queen' that I thought Id destroyed in HS has stuck with me, but I really dont think its too much to ask that people simply go out with firends, have a drink, buy something nice and tell themselves " Gee, I could be dead but Im here able to experiance all this wonderderful bullshit " and then SHUT THE FUCK UP!
..is it?

*Gets off a soap box* Havent doen that in a while. It felt good yo.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13993572/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13993572/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 22:17:59 PDT
1. Hi my name is - Kaze/spaz monkey/ Renji/ ... Thats all you get.

2. Never in my life have I - Ah..died? Wait..never STAYED dead..yea >_>

3. The one person who can drive me insane is - Already there. I blame Paul

4. High school -was a long time ago

5. When I'm nervous - Its obvious, Ill get aggrivated by eveyrhting

6. The last time I cried was - i dun remember, not that I never do it, I just move on and forget about it


7. If I were to get married right now my wedding party would be - Shinigami partah cuz ya know, marraige/funeral same thing

8. My hair is - Very red. And nice and soft for ONCE ..and too short *Cries*

9. When I was 5 - i was..five.

10. Last Christmas - Was called a pretencious snot by the rest of my faimly. ( specifically 'rincess'..just cuz THEY have no fucking class..) Typical. ..and I got a Wii

11. I should be - Doing he same thing I do every nice hot day; sit outside by the pond until I fall asleep, then wake up 2 hours later cursing at myself for wasting time

12. When I look down I see - My fave mother of pearl necklace

13. The craziest recent event was - My ninja excersion through the blackberry bushes I STILL have cuts and bruises

14. If I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be - Never seen it but im gonna go with 'the awesome one' XD

15. By this time next year - Maybe I wont be here. Maybe none of us will be here..Maybe ill have taken over the bloody world. Who can say, yo?

16.I have a hard time understanding - Certain types of people. Not everyone, just ..certain types.


18. There's this girl I know who - Is REALLY ditzy and complains constantly.

19. You know I like you when - I actually LISTEN to what you have to say. Usually Ill be rolling my eyes and then tell ya to go fuck yourself, but still listening.

20. If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be - Paul. To rub it in his face. And hed be like " I won three of those years ago. Try again "

21. Take my advice - Die young, stay pretty.. Id hate to die, but dyng ugly would be double suck

22. My most wanted item is - A monkey

23. If you visited the place I was born - Eh..its hot and there is a big aqarium I guess.

24. I plan to visit - Everywhwere

25. If you spend the night at my house - You wouldnt get much sleep

26. I'd stop my wedding if - Someone slapped me and asked " Whats are you thinking man?!"

27. The world could do without - Pathetic little people who are willing to give up freedom for security. Who have the additude of " Oh well, thats the way things are" and arent willing to fight, and get a few scratches, missing limbs, for what they want/ believe in.


28. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than - be bored.

29. Most recent thing I've bought myself - Some really good Vanilla creme soda

30. Most recent thing someone else bought me - Renji CD XD

31. My favorite dirty blonde is - Ah do I know any?? ..oh Paul.. So I guess he wins by default.
( Im such a bitch .Hell up and leave me one day..not that Id care.. >_>..I so would <_<

32. My favorite brunette is - Yumi ..or does she have black hair? I dunno

33. My favorite black haired person is - Luree
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34. My middle name is-- 'danger' okay Michelle >_<

35. This morning I - Went to work

36. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are - Tiger ..or a monkey..or a flying monkey-tiger!

37. Once, at a bar--- I owned the hell out of some bitch trying to pick a fight with me

38. Last night I - Fell asleep outiside around 9 and didnt wake up till 1130..I was an angry little monkey

39. There's these guys I know -- Who are really, really perverted and immature. What do I call them?? Oh yea, co-workers.

40. Would you rather die in a car accident or plane - Uuh..No

41. A better name for me would be - *shrug* I dunno. I do hate my real name tho.

42. Tomorrow I am - Going to work where everyone loves me and then figure out what Ima do this weekend

43. My birthday is - May 30th


Eh..it was this or fall asleep outside again.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13948869/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13948869/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 22:51:27 PDT

( Ironic the only person likley to read this was theyre for most of it >_<

I found a secret ninja path into the niehbors yard. Through some blackberries.

Ofocarse I had to take it. Fortunatly I took my in-progress sword with me.

Anyway after my excursion I stumble out, covered in scratches, and bloody ( My sword hilt was coveredi n blood asI still ahd thorns stuck in my hands, epic) with my hair all in my face as my hair tie was caught on a thorn.

Brandon our Kenpachi was sititng on the steps. I just blinked up at him for at minute and suddanely yelled " OOW!"
and Brandon says " No, your spossed to yell 'RUKKIIIIAAAAAAAA!!"

I nearly died of laughter and then stumbled inside ( msotly cuz i was laughing so hard I couldnt walk straight..and it did sting like a bitch.

But the most horryfing part was probably that diabolical grin on Yumis face realizing that my wounds needed cleaning.

And thus was created our new fan-quote ( er whatever) " Not fourth squad! Dont freakin touch me!!"

Se'iously healed by an elevanth squad member? Ill take my chances with death!!"

But I must say ah..I did infact survive, with minamal trauma even. Thank you, Yumi. XD

Still stings like a mo-fo. >_<

While waiting for yumi to get her stuff from her appartment Paul looks at me and says " Damn! You got cut up"

Apparently after all that and even finding the fucking bactine for my scratches, he had no idea what had happened.

He explaend that " I just ignore you anymore. Iv learned that your going to do whatever stupid shit your going to do reguardless of what I say."

Huh. He IS a genius. Hes quit possibly the only friend I have who has learned this about me. XD


As for my own obliviousness, after the 'ointy hurty incident' Brandon yelled' Paul your girlfriend is an idiot!"
Girlfriend? Uum.. I didnt get the memo.

And apaprently Paul and I are 'Silly' and "cute' and make the best 'sixth squad'..eh if ya understand the venacluar .

BUT I did own the hell out of him during yet another argument

Paul: I havent accomplished antthing my life has been a waste.

Me: Oh shuttup! Youve lived in how many differant countries? Got a degree in chemistry and god knows what else, have done everything from lived in hotels, to yuppy mansions, gone from no job to $80+ a year and all before your 35 WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT!!?

For once Paul had NO comment.
Just dead silence. I was bragging to my friend about this and she got mad. Saying Im ' Dense, really dense and pretty much went off on how stupid I am.
( But then, shes also a Cancer, and they always defend eachother and theyre ..wierd..crabby ways)

So like..WTF?? RAAAWR

But whatever he got OWNED and thats what matters.

Ah..'sall I got to rant about for the moment I guess >_>

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13853485/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13853485/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 00:14:08 PDT
It turned out being more fun than any convention Iv been to!

We were supposed to meet at Oasis but everyone was late. We thought they ditched us cuz WE were late. So ah just I got a strawberry milk tea. Which I presented to all other Bleach cosplayers as " Ichigo milk tea, I blended him myself!"


On the way to the parade , some girls walked by with a cam-corder; couldnt have had better timing as they caught me spitting a piece of tapioca at Taichou and getting it stuck to his coat.
They also got me laughing my ass off while he threatened me with bodily harm.

Naturally all the way theyre Paul was bitching about how we were going to be late. Chya, right. Parade was an hour and half late. Not that i cared.

We hung out and took pictures.
Our Kenpachi hadnt got a picture of me sitting on his shoulder yet.

That was scary!!
Hes very tall and I thoght Id fall off.

Renji Aaah!!
Kenpachi: Wel, quit squirming!
Renji : . Aak! I cant..Im gonna..Aah!
Kenpachi: Not if youd just relax! Calm down! Your making it harder..
Renji: *Still squirming* but..aah! Shit!
Kanpachi: I said RELAX dammit..


Then it suddanly hit me that it probably wasnt sounding good but I was still afraid of falling so I just kinda sat there stone still like a deer in the headlights. Im sure THAT turned out well.

Got some more pictures, waited around and FINALLY the parade started.

You would THINK people cosplaying as characters in a military like setting coudl ay know, walk in straight lines. Oh hell no.

I went from being somehwere in the middle of the group between Zaraki Taicho and Shu, to the first line behind the banner next to Taichou, Hitsugaya Taichou and Yumichika.

Haha Hitsugaya was dancing with myself and some FMA cosplayers, Taichou was giving me REALLY dirty looks for dancing in formation, while Yumichika kept follwing me around trying to fix my costume.
" I m a vice cpatain, I can dress myself!"

Then the COOLEST thing happened. A couple bystanders saw all the cosplayers and said
"Hey Bleach..RENJI!! WHERES RENJI!!?"
In a tone that just barley reigned in what Im quite sure was annoyance and ooh jelousy?? Taichou points to me ( Cuz Im too busy spazin out to hear them) and I got a great big hug!

HA! The ONE thing that Renji owns the hell out of Byakuya at; POPULARITY!!
Yea, Byakuya has some fangirls but guys and girls love the hell outta Renji!

Ahahaha!! Bring it taichou, kick my ass if itll make ya feel better but theyll only love me more!
No matter how much 'better' you are than me, you CANT win this one! Hows it feel bitch!!? BWAHAHAHA!!

Ehem..anyway after the parade everything was closed. Hooray for the genius who made the parade sunday night.

Fortunatly Sasuke walked by telling me ( Cuz Im renji yo) "Were going to Dennys, on 4tth, in the industrial aread.'

As usual Taichou never listens to me and did not know this until another cosplayer came up and told everyone " Dennys. 4th"

He insisted there was no Dennys on 4th and after driving around for a while Yumi says " maybe its on the other end of 4th? ya know by the industrial area?" I then decided to tell him. " Yea, sasuke said its in 'the industrial area"

Ofcoasre I get " Why the fuck didnt you TELL me that?!"
Naturally, 'because he didnt ask.'
We then went on the entire way about how
" i didnt tell you because you dissmiss everything i say as stupid and 'costantly wrong' "'
'but thats KIND of important '
" no it isnt because youd just assume I didnt know what the fuck I was talking about and just tell me to shuttup"

I think at this point Yumi and Hitsugaya quite entertained. Yumi yelling " 6th sqaud! Stopit, for TWO seconds!"
And once Paul had left also commented
"You two will either murder, or marry each other"
Im guessing both, in no particular order.

Aight, I guess you really cant get a much better 6th squad a than us.

Aaanyway we went to Dennys, I shared some fangirly porn and then we sat there..and sat there. Till we finally yelled for our check around 1245. Paul and I had to work in the morning >_<

I was pretty damned tired, but too sore to sleep. So didnt get ANY sleep last night and kept falling asleep at work everytime I sat down.

Fortunatly, Im a genius and know that i only feel tired once I stop moving and spazing out.
So I just ..havent.
Ehe..Im probly pretty damn... ]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13701450/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13701450/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 22:09:57 PDT
I cant stand how pissy he is. I rather enjoyed his company at the con because he didnt have to deal with work and people he hates so was his mellow self. Which is quite pleasant, but the second he got home he turned into a moody bitch again.

I even got him one of those origional, and really expensive Chocobo plushies for his birthday. He obviously appreciated it but still, that damned attitude.

Oi, maybe ill just have to beat it out of him. A compelte ass kicking should get him to straighten up, no? XD

*************

Generally speacking; Id like to beat the fuck out of the majority of my friends right now.

Jaime; as usual has gone back on pretty much EVERYTHING shes said.
" Sure Ill bring backyour ATM card"-Forgot ( Until today, that was last week)
"Yea Id love to go siwmming and hang out!"- Too hot I doesnt feel well.
" I want to do something im bored.-" BF has the car.
" Okay really, Im sick of everyones drama. I just want to hang out with you and forget the drama!" - Drama came up that needed taken care of.

It isnt that Im stupid enough to actually believe her when she says shes going to do something. I leanred otherwise LONG ago. It doesnt make it any less frustrating however.

Paul doesnt want to do anything..but hell get bored without me to put some color and well needed chaos into his boring ass life, so Im not too concered about that

Kris Ne-sama; if she were anyone else I could say I were 'furious' with.
I love her to death ( NO one else gets 'sama' from me) but she FINALLY got internet a few weeks ago so we could talk and write.

She emailed me ONCE when she first got her internet. She says shes busy, which she tends to be.
But she finds time to post on our Werewolves game twice a day. It doesnt take long, I know, but it doesnt take much longer to drop me a note while shes at it.
I swear if I hadnt given my word not to kill her this time, ( In Werewolves i mean ) Id do it out of spite.

Worst fo all, its finally reached into the 90s. I have no energy when its cold, but can spaz out for days in the heat and here I am trapped inside because my friends are LAME.
**************

Now, onto to the porn bit

Since Iv been bored out of my mind and unable to find nay decent Bleach fanfics I atcually gave in and went to AFF.net...the place i swore Id never visit. For it is the land of the fangirls *shivers*
Also, I find that most writers take themselves FAR too seriously.

Ne, anyone hya' have an accounty thea'? Then I wont have to feel so .dirty and god forbid..fangirly.

Im surpised, theyre isnt much Bleach Yaoi..not the kind I like anyway >_>

I did find one author Im quite fond of. Iv actually read all of her stories ( cept the ones with Isshin. *Rocking in fetal position*.) In the past few evenings.

She also taught me a valuable lesson; dont read Bleach porn right before bed.
Se'iousnya?
Why GIN of all characters WHY Gin?? And just how the fuck am I gonna explain twisting my own arm in my freakin sleep!

Oi..i need to lay off the porn and oh, I dont know GTF outside?!
*Cranky*

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13687923/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13687923/ Tue, 10 Jul 2007 20:50:53 PDT
Se'iousnya this is pissin me off.

My poor shins and knees are giant bruises from kneeling for SOO many hundreds of pictures and I have NONE. NOT ONE FUCKING PICTURE!!

Sunday evening we were just sitting around in costume, and even then we got like 30 pictures.

Atleast; I do take pride knowng that even tho theyre were hundreds of Bleach cosplayers, we couldnt go two ft without a picture. Hehe our poor Yumichika was getting so pissed off.

Im mainly pissed that I did that for NOTHING.

Also, there was another Bankai Renji cosplayer for the masquerade and theyre costume owned mine. Which is fine, I congradualted them but theyre complete DICKS.

They were like " the only thing that coulda beat ours woulda been a Mayuri Bankai." Or " You shouldnt do a one person Bankai Zabimaru" and basically said mine was crap and that it was stupid for me to try. I hope they get cock cancer!

Hmm anyway highlights of the con, really just screwin around in character.

One was when I jumped in the fountain, and Paul called me a 'wet dog' so I gave him a great big soaking wet bear hug..and drenched his silk kimono and captains coat. Thatll learn him, bastard. XD
Well not really cuz he called me a dog again..so I bit him. Hell probly get raibies now.

Eh what else Well Zabimaru broke, kind of expected that.

Ooh! I laos out 'inuednod' soem fanboys. The yshould really learn not to 'go there' with fangirls.
Thy started making fun of renjis Bankai saying " hes compensating" " Ew its all segmented and boney!!"
For this I simple stood quietly to the side with my arms folded until they shut up for a second. Then said, perfectly stone-faced and matter of factly " Zabimaru also has red hair. So you know it isnt fake" ( Renjis hair for those slower readers)
At that point the fanboys ran off screaming, Shiro chan and Byakuya both gaping at me I simply said " I believe I have won that round" and walked off.

Ooh andI ran into the most ishida ever!

Me: Quinshy! I wnat a hug!!
Ishida: *pushes up glasses* Shinigami...I guess your alright for a shinigami * gives me a hug*
Thus I was happy.

i was VERY dissapointed tho, that i didnt knwo Jonny Yong Bosch was there and I missed him. *Rolls eyes* I guess he got a LOT of shit becuase hes kind of outspoken and people dont udnerstand 'sarcasm' or "script' and now he refuses to come back.

I also missed the ONLY cosplayer Iv been really desperate to hunt down' Killer form Shadow hearts 3

Ooh! How coudl i forgot, starting a mob against Urahara!

Urahara: I have ONE piece of soul candy left. Do I hear 5? 15?
Me: Oh fuck this!! *Tackles him and starts pouding on him utnil a handful of other shinigmi joined in. To his credit, urahra didnt dro pthe candy once. Even when we were prying our nailsi nto his palm ( "not the claws!! Not teh claws!!" HA! XD)
He finally gave it to Yumi. He then stood and declared " Not ONE of you said please"
Eh, I dont think please isi n Renjis small vocabulary.

Eh, I dont think im going to bring Zabimaru to Kumoricon. Maybe for a day, but as I was warned SEVERAL times; Zabimaru is too big and akward to carry around.
Im just going to tear the sleeve off of my kimono and make a shawl with black sakura blososms. He wears that once he busts out of prison and until he runs into Byakuya and goes Bankai.


Eh thats all for now I suppose. HOPEFULLY Ill find some goddamned pictures to share later.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13345524/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13345524/ Thu, 14 Jun 2007 16:50:13 PDT
I was lost in the woods with my friend who was a big ass wolf.
We were on our way to some village to join our friends in some huge battle and had been caught up by something else. So were in a real hurry to get out.

It was damned cool.very relastic, dark, cool and quiet.
( I love walking around at night)

We finally found the bridge that was the way forward but the bridge turned into a huge ass bear.

I said " I need to get through"

It replied " no. I wont let you.

I reapeted "Im getting by"

The bear just shook his head.

I drew my sword ( that seemed to appeared magically as I wasnt holding it before) and said " No way around..then well tear THROUGH!"

Tho why I said 'we' I dont know. Lazy ass wolf dissapeared before I drew my sword.
As ALWAYS I got my ass handed to me, I thought I was gonna die but after everything went black, I woke up and found myself on the wolves back.

He was pretty bloody and messed up too but had somehow managed to carry me all the way onto the village

I slowly pulled myself and looked around for someone I knew.

I found a guy whom I seemed to know really well quite well in the dream. I said that I was really sorry for being late but was there to help none the less.

He took one look at me ( I was pretty bloody and torn up.) and first muttered something about how only I could get my ass kicked on the WAY to a battle.

Then yelled at me " In your condition? and without a weapon?! ( I dunno where my sword went) Please, for ONCE in your life listen to me when I tell you to RUN AWAY"

My wolf obeyed and took off through the back. Until I tugged on his fur and told him to turn back.
He growled. " We arent turning back, are we?"
I nodded " I couldnt live with myself."

My wolf rolled his eyes, sighing deeply but nodded. He dissapeared again and i had my swordi n my hand again and continued to run arund through the back.

I surpised them all by coming up around the back and flanking them. I took out everyone I ran into/

After a while I found myself feeling bad for them, like I shouldnt have been fighting them. The last two were backed into a corner.

I thought to myself : Just these two..then it will over" I went to swing my sword but it dissapeared on its own.

My wolf was at my side again and gave me this annoyed yet kind of sad look.
I sighed, grew some wierd smallish wing and just pickedu p the last two enemies and took them far away from the fight.

Then returned to take stock of things. When i saw that a about half of us were left, and the village was trashed, but in no danger of causing any further incedents
(collapsing, exploding ect) I sighed " It looksl ike things are okay. I guess I can go back now"
Then I woke up. But I was sad that I didnt stick around long enough to see if my friend had survived. ;_;

Damn my dreams are made of awesome..and crack.
But why a wolf? Im not especially fond of them *shrug*

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13323678/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13323678/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 00:07:31 PDT
About a week ago I found out I got some virus and have no white blood cells. Thats obviously bad. Its bad enough having no immune system. I HATE being week.

Now Iv got to watch out for the fucking infection too.

Also, i was really glad that I was finally gonna get this stupid ass cyst behind my ear taken care of ( Gross, I know but Im not a gross person dammit! just more shit that comes with cystanosis I guess)

Then my Dr says " No you cant get that removed because any sort of even minor surgery could give you and infection. Well guess what? That fucking cyst..got infected! Dumbass Dr!

So now Iv got TWO infections.

Iv tried to deny it for the past few weeks but I do feel like crap. Im always tired and shit. So it may be getting worse which ofcoarse could mean no AX for me this year.

WORST of all, Im pretty damned sure that I reinjured my back badly. It hurts so goddamn much I cant sleep. pain killers help but I get yelled at if I take em.
I cant keep missing work either but if I keep going and pushing it all of the above are just going to get worse. If my back goes out for good and I end up in a wheel chair i will probabaly kill myself.

Iv dealt with a lot of shit but being in a wheel chair? My life would be OVER.Not only because then I really would never get out on my own, but because of the way people treat you if your in a wheel chair. No 'off sense of humor', no fun. The second you enter a room all the laughter and shenanagins stop..god I couldnt live like that.

So Iv got all of that shit to worry about. More than ever I NEED a vacation and it looks like I may miss the biggest one of the year.

*Sigh* I dont know what to do. I really dont. Im so tired, if they put me in the hospital for a couple days to take care of that infection Id be greatful so I could get some goddamn rest.

Damn that was just one long as bitch fest..i dont give a shit Iv read MUCH more petty emo bitching.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13233456/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13233456/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 21:11:51 PDT
I shall have to draw them at some point

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Meh Imkinda bored so what the hell. Not that I expect anyone to read this.


Rules
1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions
3. Then tag three people.

Characters Chosen:

Meh..my three ( technically four) D&D characters cuz ahma dork

Riku ( Half elf thief/black mage/alchemist)
Ayra ( Water...thing Cleric/black magic spirit)
Riese ( Final Fantasy-based RPG dog-boy black mage/lanceer)



1)How Old Are You?

Riku: 14..ish?? its hard to keep track of time in the underdark

Ayra: 126
Xion : I AM the forbidden magick; as old as time itself...i lost count a few million years ago

Riese: 12..and far more accomplished than you could ever hope to be



2)Height?

Riku: small enough to get into places I shouldnt! =3

Ayra: 6'2 Xion: I lack the constraints of a pathetic physical form..except Ayras

Riese: Size only matters to those who have much to compensate for


3)You Got Any Bad Habits??

Riku: * pick-pocketing and stabing someone in head simaltainiously* Nothing you feel like doing is bad!'

Ayra: *Rolls eyes* Thats our little sociopath. Not knowing when to stop I suppose Xion: Keh! Is THAT what you call it?

Riese: I am offended you would even suggest such a thing.


4)You a virgin?

Riku: *balls up into fetal position* I dun wanna saaay

Ayra: Yes. High priest and all.. Xion: Im so going to ruin you >D

Riese: How dare you even ask such vile questions. I should have you killed for that.



5)Who's your Mate/Spouse?

Riku: *tilts head* Huh?

Ayra: none..anymore Xion: Are you STILL sore about that? It was your own fault

Riese: I have far more important things to worry about


6)Have Any Kids?

Riku: uh no

Ayra: no Xion: Not until I take over and use your soul to mold some for myself. Dont worry, ill name one after you.

Riese: No. And I never will. This house ends with me.


7)Favourite Food?

Riku: anything i can get my hands on

Ayra: You wouldbnt know it its only found at the bottom of the ocean. Xion: Tainted souls, mainly his. For dessert, that Riese. Arrogant pup doesnt is easy prey to the likes of me.

Riese: Taiyaki *grabs wagging tail to stop it* Theyre alright



8)Favourite Ice Cream flavour?

Riku: chocolate chip mint!

Ayra: Sea salt =3 Xion: People?

Riese: you think just because Im a child I eat such garbage?


9) Killed anyone?

Riku: almost daily
i
Ayra: Only if i have to. Xion: That is my business, and business is good.

Riese: Many. They didnt know theyre place.





11) Hate anyone?Any Secrets?

Riku: Slavery tends to have that effect..but Im strong enough to kill them now. As for secrets, you have NO idea.

Ayra: Xion, i hate him. And I owuld say he is a very big secret. Xion: Im hurt. My existance is a secret

Riese: Why waste energy hating what I can simply dispose of? As if I would tell you of any secrets.




12) Love Anyone?

Riku: Not really.

Ayra: Yes, always Xion: Ayra! If not for him, I would still be sealed away in the bitter cold.

Riese: I have no use for such trivial things


13)TACOS?


Riku: Ta-cos?? Is it valuable?

Ayra: no thanks.

Riese: *rolls eyes* grow up



14)Ever slept in All day?

Riku: Yea, not much else to do in jail =3

Ayra: No, cant give him the opertunity..

Riese: A waste of life, as are the insignificant souls guitly of this.


15)Favourite Show?

Riku: Watching the other party members is quite entetaining

Ayra: *nods in agreement with Riku*

Riese: If I wanted to destroy braincells, I would spend a day with my family.

Eye color:

Riku: Red

Ayra: One light blue one gold and black ) Xion: The color of whatever soul I happen to be devouring at the time

Riese: purple?grey


19)Skin?

Riku: tan, very tan. Unlike that sickly puppy.

A... ]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13145184/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13145184/ Tue, 29 May 2007 23:13:32 PDT
I should be happy, Im the obnoxious immature type who is all excited about birthdays..usually.

Tonight Im just bummed the fuck out.

Not cuz I think Im getting old or anything, but partially because I share my birthday with the bane of my existance; my Nan ( my grandama)

Its not like the typical 'rawr i hates my parents! I dont want want to have anything in common cuz theyre teh sux!!"

Its because every year she pulls the smae martyr bullshit. " Oh I dont wnat anything fro myou for my birthday" "you didnt get me naything! You didnt even think of me! All you care about is your own birthday after all the stress I deal with for you!"

Even worse because I have always been under that wenches shadow. Hearing how much she sacrifices for me. ( Whatever lets her sleep at night) how becuase we share a birthday we share some fucking special bond when I want nothing to do with her.

Sharing a birthday with her is just some cruel mocking joke. The fucking nail in the coffin.

Emo, I know. Im entitled to that once in a blue moon..which is..oh yea! The night RIGHT after my birthday. Thats me for ya, always just short of the extraordinery.

Heh but if it WERE on my birthday Id only have to share the specialness with her so I guess its just as well.

Im also bummed out becuase I didnt plan anything. Its difficult when I have 12 differant groups of friends/family/misc who dont get along.
Also it tends to sneack up on me.

There is one thing that makes me happy. Its supposed to be eighty-five degrees tomaro!
For the past few months Iv been repeating what seems to be my mantra " Were never getting summer this year! Seventy isnt hot enough! I want eighty-five thats PERFECT weather!"

First time this year it will be that hot. Its also the first time ( I remember) that its been so nice on my birthday.

Tho I do wish Id known about the weather ahead of time. Then Id have simply had a BBQ on the lake/beach whateva.

My mom is taking me to dinner tomaro. Thatll be nice hopefully Ill feel better than.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13135331/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13135331/ Tue, 29 May 2007 08:00:43 PDT
There were three parties on the same day so theyre werent as many people as Id thought theyre would be.

Also, we didnt go to the zoo.

We just wandered around the park for a few hours.

I met quite possibly the craziest Renji fangirl ..EVER. I feel soo violated.

She even started dry humping poor Paul!! I had to pry her off.

Heehee but that would have been hilairous had he been in costume.

Renji: OMFG!! What do you think your doing to Taicho!!?! *Trying to pry off fangirls death grip*

Then we finally sent some people to the store to get BBQ stuffs.

I shouldnt have let Paul go alone because somehow, THIS was too difficult a task for everyone else. He just ended up irritated and paying for most of it. Including the alcohol which he never drinks.

The BBQ was a lot of fun. I found some neat drift wood. It was cracked in three places but not broken so I could swing it around like a whip. I named it 'Stickimaru' ^^..then it broke. ( typical of Stickimaru)


Someone brought a couple LARPing weapons ( someone needs to come up with a less dorky name) I just HAD to grab one and fight all the guys.

Important lesson #1
Do NOT fight in a Renji costume!!
Thats like a Jew walking into a Neo-Nazi con; your NOT gonna come out of it for the better.
Even tho I did win most of the time ^^V

Fangirl: Renji!! Are you okay?
Me: fuck yea! I wanna play summore!
Fangirl: but your panting..tho it is hot..
Me: its called excerscie yo!

The next morning, my head hurt, my left side, including my arm and hand, was one ginormous bruise, and my right leg still does not want move. I REALLY dont remember taking that many hits *shrug* but I still say it was good excersize.
I also thiink I reinjured my back.. but ATLEAST I hurt it doing somethign fun. Rather than just being a lame ass with crappy bones

Important lesson #2

Jaime REALLY can ruin a party. Paul said he didnt want go if she was and I told him to quite being a baby because she cant possibly ruin the party. He was...that word..thats the opposite of wrong.
Someone started a fire on the beach. She and the other pregnant girl ( when your dumb enough to get knocked up you have no name your 'regnant girl' started ( and didnt stop) bitching about the smoke and how they needed to put the fire out cuz theyre pregnant and its bad for them

1# Not our faul they got knocked up.
2# Put it out your damned self. ( they wouldnt get off therye asses)
3# And most of all, if therye going to nitpick about EVERY fucking thing. Then DONT GO TO A PARTY!! A party is where people go to have fun and possibly do random and bizzarre things. Dont go expecting everyone to accomidate your whiny ass, and in doing so ruin everyone elses fun.

When the fire was put out, they found soemthing ELSE to bitch about!!

That time it was " I dont think people who didnt pitch in any money should get to have any alcohol." By that reasoning no one except Paul should have any. Jaime herself put in like ten bucks. I gave twenty and got one pice of chicken and a soda. But I dont care. Its a party, I dont mind giving up a little for everyone to have some fun.


But I did have fun. Iv never had a BBQ, on the beach, with friends rather than family. There is a HUGE differance

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13032582/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/13032582/ Mon, 21 May 2007 00:31:52 PDT
Work is more awesome since Thurs. I get to work with the people I like also i got a promotion,,apparntly. >_>

Im now .." The leads bitch"Im serious.
Yea, I thought being the lead cooks bitch would just mean im still a cook, but no, according to my boss it IS a promotion (and no there is no other title) I DO get paid a few $ more so whatever..Iv learned to its better to not ask questions. -_-;

However, I did get my headphones ( the ones Paul gave me) stuck in the tomato slicer..and was repeatedly burnt while cleaning the grill Its so gross! I htought I was gonna die!) Im really too short ..and girly, for that job.

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Today there was going to be a huge ass cosplay photoshoot in this REALLY nice park..too bad the weather fucking SUCKED. I HATE the rain..it really needs to go. I went anyway cuz I promised I would. I dont breack my promises..repeatedly..like SOME people I know << not bitter..really!

It was wet and miserable my warji were falling apart and my Tabi were soaked. Aslo only ONE other person actually had a costume.

I also didnt feel too well sicne I was a dumbfuck and had only eaten Taiyaki all day ( nothing but sugar, only fun for a while) and Paul wouldnt stop so I could get some real food cuz " it was my own damned fault." fair enough I 'sposse.

On the plus side, i did get to borrow a real sword..it was actually sharp..which I found out after I slid it through my hand...dont do that.

Hopefully the few pictures will turn out alright and I can post em here.
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I got my Bleach game for the Wii!!! Now i cant so much as lift my right arm. Thats gonna hurt in the morning

Ya think " I cant go to work because I hurt arm playing videogames" will hold up??

As for the game, its DAMNED fun!! Renji and Yoruichi are the hardest to beat!
Renji just has crazy fucking range, and his attacks are relentlessand
Yoruichi well..shes Yoruichi.
Playing as Byakuya and being owned by Renji was pretty fucking hilairous..for like the first 3 times. Then it just got irriatating.

Only took me about 7 times to take out Yoruichi. >_<
But really, Byakuya got jewed on his Bankai. It hardley has ANY range.


Its ofcoarse in Japanese tho so I can only pick out a few phrases.
When you beat Renji as Byakuya he walks away and says " your fangs will never reach me..ever"
I thought that was cool that they atleats kept some lines from the anime. It was the only line i recognized but Im sure theyre are more.
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Speacking of bleach...after Sat episodes.. I hope my friend the fangirl will STFU about how Byakuya actually likes Renji.
Fine for fanon (or whetever) but she SERIOUSLY thinks this) looks more to me ( and everyone with half brain) that hes trying to kill him off.

I find it funny. He just can get rid of him! xD

Byakuya: Good. Ichigo took care of him for me. Huh? hes not dead..well damn.. just dont heal him. Thatll take care of him. Eh? STILL not dead? How about if I just fire him? No? Damn..Oh! Hes disobeying the rules! Thats justifiable murder!..*in Monty Python King Arthor voice* WHY WONT YOU DIE?!

I can see him in his office shaking his fist next time Renji! Next tiiiime!

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12894101/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12894101/ Tue, 08 May 2007 23:09:28 PDT
I dont have to go dialysis anymore, there is no fucking excuse for me not go or atleast do SOMETHING with myself.



So tell Nan I want to go to collage and she gets REALLY pissy and says I cant.

Nan: You know, theyre are other people with Cystanosis (Thats the ..."ailment" that i have) go to collage and have great jobs.

Me: So then that means theres no reason I cant.

Nan: No Nichole, you cant.

WTF??! MOST parents/grandparents would be extatic to hear that theyre kid wants to do soemthing other than sit on tehyre ass and mooch forever.

I told her " I can and I am"

This threw her into one of her, childish, tyranical temper tantrams in which she will no doubt treat me like shit for DAYS.


First it was " You cant just do things you have to plan" uh DUH.
Hence why i was looking up coarses online rather than simply going to a random school and saying " SIGN ME UP!!"

Then after I tell her my doc called and said I had an app She got all pissy again saying : No its for next Fri.

I tell her "No its once a week" that set her the fuck OFF, saying how " You wanna do things yourself then take care of your appointment yourself and pay for your own dinner. ( Which is fine, but seriously what is she fucking 12?)

Honestly I think shes just pissed because I AM taking care of my own shit and need her less and less ( Shes got a SERIOUS marytr complex.

Now its the passive agrresive and oh so childish routine of EVERYTIME I ask for the littlest thing shell reply with "Do it yourself if you wanna be independant!" ( ie asking for a phone# she had that i needed)

Sooo basically she is pissed off that now that Im almost 24 and taking care of my own shit and want go to school, so I wont be worthless forever, and shes PISSED OFF about it!!

What sort of, crazy, vindictive, selfish woman wants to see theyre grandchild fail at everything??

I AM going to school.

I made a promise to myself and Jay ( My cousin whos kidney has given me the time to do so) Im just not going to listen to her defeatist shit.
Paul will help me find a collage and Ill do it without her knowing.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12882589/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12882589/ Mon, 07 May 2007 23:40:05 PDT
So I decided to try my hand at doing REAL fanart.

Im really fucking proud of the lineart. The fact that Renji looksl ike Renji, AND that i drew a human hand is nothing short of a mriacle.

Coloring it tho? Chya! Shadows + reflections on water.. Nu uh aint happening...EVER.

I looked through my gallery and see that my most serious drawing is dead last in popularity.Which is okay..until I see the MOST popular a drawing of a fox girl (that isnt even ya know..good)
I know people here love theere furries but goddamn!!

*end rant*
************
*Begin knew and irony-filled mini rant*

For the life of me I couldnt figure out how to draw a reflection.
So I went to the pond in the garden to figure it out myself and to suprise suprise I SOMEHOW manage to fall in...(and now Iv just spilt soda all over me >_<

It did get some good irony + hilarity pts.
Which are good ..unless they require me ending up colld and wet...and slimy. >_<.


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GOOD-ish NEWS EVERYONE!!

This morning my phone rang at like 8am. I wasnt getting my ass out of bed to answer it

Once I decided to get off my ass I find an 'urgent message' from...my freackin boss!!
First thought " Oh shit"

Turns out he actually fired someone!

and now really needs me to return to work.

At the Gates foundation and will gimme a raise and I dont have to be there that early. I only have to start out at 4 four hours a day ( I may get fulltime later, the best thing about no Dialysis!)


Guess that means no more laying in the sun all day..or drawing. I wasj ust getting back in mah zone too. ;_;

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12780244/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12780244/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 15:48:55 PDT
Apparently, I was the head of a family of a very powerful mofia..made entirley of ninjas.

Then I fell asleep watching Bleach..nothing good could come of this.

I had a dream where I was my Ninja-mafia leader self and visiting my friends in Soul Society for the holidays. ( Apparently I worked for the Kuchikis ( god thats a stupid fucking name) covering up all the bad shit they did
Prostition/drug rings, midget fighting, gambling, they even had a hand in funding "Napoleon Dynomite"

Anyway..

I find Renji and Hitsugaya sitting the garden behind Byakuyas house.

Renji is very upset about something and Hitsugaya look irritated as usual.

I walk upto to them and ask " What the hell did you do now?"

And Renji replies " Hitsugaya told me theres no such thing as Santa Claus!!! Its not true!!!"

Right then Byakuya steps outside, probly to tell everyone to shut the fuck up.

I ignore him and reply " Oh, its true. Santa claus is dead. Shot down when he made the mistake of flying over Affgahnistan"

Renji looks horryfied and asks ' Then, why isnt he here in Seireitei?"

Byakuya decides to step in " Because he became a hallow and I had to kill him. 4th squad took the diced peices of fat and made a giant fruit cake."
Then he walked back inside before even he couldnt keep a straight face anymore.

Hitsugaya and I were cracking up and I think a small part of Renji died (again) that day. Poor Renji..so dumb.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12539096/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12539096/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 12:25:15 PDT
However Im REALLY pissed at myself for not finishing my costume. I would have had THE best Renji costume there. Instead it sucked, and this other Renji who really wasnt that good but had a big ass sword got all the attention.

Tho according to everyone else it didnt matter if I didnt look that great becuase apparently Paul and i make a VERY good Byakuya and Renji.

Hightlite of the con, actually of any con i ever been to; was the cosplay Chess.

Although I was the lamest charactor there since I told them not to actually kill me ( I was afraid Id pull a stittch if I fell. Which totally sucked cuz theres nothing i love more than dying dramatically. Especially as Renji. I swear to god hes the black Knight. ' Its just a flesh wound! i can still fight!!"

I have to admit Paul made one badass Byakuya. He didnt die once ..and I died all four times.

Then at the end he did the most badass thing ever. I only saw it on video asI was dead when it actually happened.

I REALLY wish someone would have recorded the whole game but all I could find was this clip [link]

Then we went outside and took some pictures..mainly of some hot Renji/Byakuya/Shuhie action.I have no idea when Ill get them back but Ill post them when I do.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12460629/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12460629/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 18:00:54 PDT
It turned out to be a perfect match (pretty amazing considering that I can only have type O blood and no one else in my family could gimme one for several varrying reasons.)

The doctor here says that in all his 21 years hes never seen anything like this happen before

I was really worried about having to take steriods. Im already self conscious enough,
I said that if I had to take steroids Id probly never go to a convention again (They can make you grow a mustache, and gain A LOT of wieght ) but it was such a great match that I wont have to take enough for them to effect me .

Everyone says Ill have a lot more energy ( Much to Pauls dismay, he always thought I had more than enough.

I do feel kinda bad. Everyone said 'Jay died for a reason' but that isnt fair. Jay had far more too look forward too, and to offer everyone then I did.

My grandma says that I kept ' Taking hits but no matter hard I fall I always get back up and maybe this was fates way of saying "okay, you win

Not that.. I think Im THAT awesome or anything..

Id by lying my ass off i said I wasnt inexplicably upset that I have to missthe con. It was starting to sound it was gonna be the best con ever. Not only that but my hospital room window is on the top floor over looking the convention center. My friends ay theyre gonna bring me a white robe and take pictures of me sitting at my 'brooding window' and it will be like Im at the con, cosplaying as Rukia.

I know it sounds selfish but..Im gonna cry..I dont want to sit at home and be bored and yelled at by my grandparents while I should be at th con

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12391683/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12391683/ Fri, 30 Mar 2007 16:49:41 PDT
So I work 8 hours a WEEK. My boss told me that if I can change my dialysis schedule ( HA) i can work 5-8 horus day which I REALLY need.

Naturally htep eopel at dialysis didnt give a shit and pretty gave me tehryre typical additude of 'nto our problem'

Whatever si Till got a good 29 hours this week..which SSI will just take away, but whatever.

I found out today, after having my grandpa drive me all the way there they tell me that they gave away my spot since I wanted a spot at 4. fucking idiots. As tempting as it is Im nto gonna skip dialysis all together until I can get a 4 oclock spot.

So now I have to go in tonight 9-12.

My sis just called me. She said our favoroite cousin, Jay is a vegatble and probably wotn make it.

It so fucking unfair. My grandma had diabetis and smokes packs a day, drinks two cases of coke in a week and is 65 she still has all her limbs, her sight, and doesnt even have to go to dialysis.
Jays mom, is and has always been a crack whore. Spends of her time in jail or leaving off differant guys. Everyone tries sooo hard to help her get clean, and she does but t never lasts.
My most hated cousin, a 16 year old crack whore who sells drugs and fucks black guys almost twice her age, and is GIVEN a nice apparnetment AND collage for free.

Jay..despite his horrible influences in life is a great person. Hes only 25 but he got himself a good, steady job, does not do any drugs, has two young kids and was going to get married and buy a house in May.

We all feel pretty guilty becuase while we WANTED to go to his wedding, none of us really have the means to go to Colorado, ( also my sister and moms jobs got outsourced so theyve all been laid off yesterday)

Jays sister is a total mess. She feels HORRIBLE cuz Jay kept trying to call her yesterday but she was busy and wouldnt answer.
Poor Jay. He said he wasnt feeling well and so his fiance went to get him some medicine and he died while she was gone. Since Iris ( His sister) didnt answer the phone, he must have been all alone. That sounds really scary and sad.

So, after all of that shit, my mom sister and iris want to go and get a drink or just sit for a while. The ywant me tehre too but geuss WHAT?! I CANT becuase fucking Davita screwed up my schedule!

I told mom that I would visit this weekend but its crunch tiem for my SC costume, not that it takes any precidence over this, but if Davita wouldnt have fucked up it wouldnt be an issue.

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12381018/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12381018/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 19:58:02 PDT 2. Consumed alcohol- yes
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex- No
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex- Yes
5. Kissed someone of the same sex- Yes
6. Had sex- non ofy or udamendb usinees
7. Had someone in your room other than family- yea
8. Watched porn- Yes
9. Bought porn- No
10. Done drugs- No
TOTAL: 6

1. Taken painkillers- yep
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine- yea
3. Lied to your parents- almost daily
4. Lied to a friend- no, never
5. Snuck out of the house- No
6. Done something illegal- yea
7. Cut yourself- No
8. Hurt someone- yea..they had it coming
9. Wished someone to die- yea
10. Seen someone die- yea but it was really uninteresting
TOTAL: 7

1. Missed curfew- yea
2. Stayed out all night- yea
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself- What size0.0? no
4. Been to a therapist- yes
5. Been to rehab- no
6. Dyed your hair- yea
7. Received a ticket– no
8. Been in an accident- Yes
9. Been to a club– yea
TOTAL: 6

1. Been to a wild party- yes
2. Seen the Mardi Gras– sadly, no
3. Drank more than four beers in a night– yea
4. Had a spring break in Florida– No
5. Sniffed anything– yea
6. Wore black nail polish- No
7. Wore arm bands- yea..but im not like 'that'just to cover the perminant scra on my
8. Wore t-shirts with band names- no
10. Own(ed) a 50 Cent CD– No, never, NEVER
TOTAL: 4

1. Dressed gothic– yea
2. Dressed prep– yea
3. Dressed punk– yea
4. Dressed grunge– yea and all at teh same time.
5. Stole something –yea
6. Been too drunk to remember anything- yea
7. Blacked out – yea
8. Fainted- yea
9. Had a crush on a neighbor– No
10. Had someone sneak into your room– Yea
TOTAL: 9

1. Snuck into someone else's room- yep
2. Had a crush on your best friend– No
3. Been to a concert- YES
4. Dry-humped someone– No
5. Been called a slut– No
6. Called someone a slut- does 'whore' count?
7. Installed speakers in your car - no
8. Broken a mirror- yea
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house– yea, what you wnat me to be smelly just cuza the contations? >_<
10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush- No
TOTAL: 4

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper– "favorite' and 'rapper' is a grammatical error in my case
2. Been an R-rated movie in theater– ano..dotn remember
3. Cruised the mall– yea
4. Skipped school- yea
5. Had surgery- yea
6. Had an injury- Yea
7. Gone to court- No
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying– no
9. Caught something on fire– yea
10. Lied about your age– yea..not cuz I care..cuz i could get discounts
TOTAL: 6

1. Owned/rented an apartment– No
2. Broke the law in the police's presence- yea..he was a tottal dick about it
3. Cheated on someone- Ya cant cheat if you have no reguard for the rules to begin with
4. Got in trouble with the police- yea..the affore mentioned dick
5. Talked to a stranger- Yes
6. Hugged a stranger– does glomping cosplayers count?
7. Kissed a stranger–No
8. Rode in the car with a stranger– Yes
9. Been harassed- yea
10. Been verbally harassed– yea
TOTAL: 6

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online– no
2. Stayed online for more than 12 hours- no
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight- no
4. Watched TV for 12 hours straight- no
5. Been to a fair- Yes
6. Been called a bad influence- yes
7. Drink and drive– No
8. Prank-called someone- yes
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex- Hmm..nope
10. Cheated on a test- yes
TOTAL: 4
Grand Total : 52

]]> ~ThiefKingsSuccesor http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12317301/ http://ThiefKingsSuccesor.deviantart.com/journal/12317301/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 01:22:22 PDT
We started talking about how we were gonna finish my costume. Ofcoarse this got me on a rant about how much cooler Renji is than Byakuya. Paul just said ' yea, you just keep laughing.."

Then the wind picked up and I got a bunch of cherry blossoms on me so I lightly shook my head to get them out and my hair fell all around my face.
( I had my hair up in a very tight pony tail with my FAVEORITE pony tail holder)
I think / WTH?. No way my ponytail could have gotten lose from that/
I reach behind my head to find my hair band and stop, wide eyed.
Paul turns around "Whats your problem?"
I hold out my pony tail holder and the rubber band had somehow been cut clear in half.
Not only that but it was raining and Id JUST had my hair dyed bright red so I had red hair dye running down my forehead.
I guess thatll learn me..who am I kidding. It soo wont. xD

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4. Your current relationship status?
*shrug* I 'unno. Really I dunno what youd call it

5. Honestly does your crush like you?
Dont have a crush

6. What is your current mood?
Eeh.. bad day..but in a strange and entertaning way


7. What/who do you love most?
Not being dead is cool. But specifially, Ne-sama

8. What makes you happy ?
Lotsa stuff

9. Are you musically challenged?
Tottaly

10. If you could go back in time, would you change something..?
Oh hell yea. I wouldnt have kept trying prove that Im immortal and taken my damned meds so I wouldnt have to deal with fucking Dialysis

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day what would you be?
A tiger..or a bunny

12. Ever have a near death experience?
I was in the hospital. I fell asleep.
I woke up in this pitch black..nothing. It was really warm and comfy and I was SO tired. I was tempted to stay but I knew I shouldnt.
I got up and wandered around. I saw my best friends far away and when i tried to catch em to em these two guys stopped me. One was like 'stay here with me forever"and the other " or go with me"
I said. " The hell Im stayin here...and I cant go with you I promised my friends I wouldnt"
They both laughed and were like " You obviously dont understand going back isnt an option" I yelled "Screw you guys, ahm going home!" Then I woke up. Tho somewhere in the back of my mind I heard " Next time..your coming with us"


13.Something you do a lot:
Eh...talk..too fucking much

14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
Houki Boshi

15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
PAWZ

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
My grandma >_<

17. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
Yea

18. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
Hair

19. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Iced tea

20. What's your favorite color?
Purple, pink ( sakura pink, not that nasty bright shit)

23. Do you speak any other language?
Some japanese

24. What's your favorite smell(s)?
Hyacinth and Cinnamin

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Nan: Turn off your stupid anime and come watch Jepordy with us, you might learn something!!

Jepordy: 'When a 1st Liutenant moves up one rank theyre ..

Grandpa: Now, if youd quit wasting time watching your cartoons you might know that its..

Me: Taicho..

Grandpa: Huh?

Me: Captain. First Liutentant then Captain. Now if youll excuse me, Im wasting time watching this crap when I could be learning something from my cartoons.

Total freackin' ownage XD

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And teh idiot nurse had teh balls to tell me " You think you have to deal with rules and bearocracy now, wiat till your old?"
Uum...could he be reffering to ya know dialysis and doctors offices, insurances and SSI..all that shit Iv been put up with as long as I can remember? What a douchebag.

After dealing with all the beautoratic bullshit, I FINNALY got an appointment to see a fucking dermotolagist.
Theyre a BITCH to get a hold of.
But I FINALLY get an appointment Thurs April 4. The day Im supposed to be leaving for the con.

I got mad and said that Im SICK of this shit (everyone scheduling my fucking life for me without me having ANY say in it. And Im not being emo, I mena its they always do this shit.

Wouldnt be so bad if my grandparents who are suppodley loving and understanding people, woulding fucking yell at me andi nsult me for feeling that way.

Im NEVER allowed to upset EVER. Im just supposed to be stronger than everyone else and deal with everything.

I swear they want me to be like those obnoxious little dumbass kids they always show you on TV " Im terminally ill but i mstill sickeningly sweet and haoppy ALL the time!! God gave me my illness for a reaso nand tahst to teach others!"

...and then made beaurocrats so that people who already have more than theyre share of problems can be treated like fucking cattle and turn into to angry bitter little people. ( I really dont to be that way) who are always given the lecture " well you should be greatful your alive"

ugh..now I must end this becuase once again Im being told that tI must leave NOW to go to someplace I dont want to be.

Thank you for putting up with my bitcing. I truly love you all.

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Right after I tell him this I get up to outside and ge tsome fresh air.
Apparently my arm hadnt finished healing started gushing blood. Seriously, liek torrents of it.

Its all over my arm, my shirt my white pants and somehow on my face ( NO ideah wo that happened)
Ofcoarse i dont see this is as bad Its an oppertunity.

I stumble inside, and say " No..ninjas huh? then.w..why did I just fight 50 of them? I..I tried to stop them..urk" and fell flat on my face right infront of the guy who insisted theyre no were no ninjas. The ungreatful jerk just looks around, and steps over me.

It then accures to me WHY he says there are no ninjas..hes ONE of them!!

i get up from my puddle of blood, pick up a piece of paper and write 'itaiken' on it in my own blood ( I didnt have a pen!) calling it a 'ninja scroll' and then throw it at his head. ( Seriously the shit I get away with there)

He just yells at me to clean the blood of my arm. So i suck off some of it and say " What? its just tastes like bloody rare cow..not that Im a co...awww I just burned MYSELF"

And then we all walked off laughing and bloody into the sunset.
I swear theyd die of boredom without me xD

oh and as if the wasnt enough hilarity I saw the FUNNIEST fucking thing EVAR on bleach today. Ichigo falling ontop of Renji shaking him and screaming " take it off!! Takei t all off!!" right outside the classroom. xD x 1000.

Yea, I know everyone else has already seen it and its old news. HUMOR ME and laugh damn you!

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Im going to spend it with the one i love most; myself.

Im gonna skip dialysis to do whatever the fuck I want maybe get my nails done, play some videogames, and then make myself a nice dinner.

I have to make it up to myself because last year I forgot it was V-day and didnt do anything for myself.
I know, Im such an insensitive bitch.
Im suprised myself is still with me. I dont deserve me.

Seriously, no dialysis no drama, dont get much better xD

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