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EDIT;

I got this screen-capture thingy, and I'm gonna do a bunch of screen-capture doodles now! Here are the first sucky two, all in one video with some awesome music.
CLICK IT!

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I have put things in bold for your convenience.

You have no idea how happy this 5-day weekend is making me.
Yet, apparently, I'm way more irritable to my family (and not just because I'm on the rag...)
Whenever I get a long break (yes, 5 days is long to me considering how much I hate school work) I am happy that... well, I get a break! My mind goes, "WOOHOO! Now I have time to go on the computer excessively, take a shower and eat whenever I want, watch TV and movies, see friends, draw and write to my liking, and play video games till I inevitably crash and faint from lack of sleep!" But despite that happiness, I get irritable because if ANY of that is not happening, I will want to stab something :C And since I'm always around my family, it's THEM I want to stab. If anyone in my family says hi to me, I want to ignore them. If anyone wants to get on the computer, I groan and whine. If anyone wants to do ANYTHING that would strip me from what I'm doing, I am not a happy cookie! > <;;
Oh well. All I can do is hope no one tries to interfere. And if they do.... -sharpens knife-

No, I'm not really that cruel. I've just been watching a lot of Youtube.
Gah! There are so many things I want to do! And my mind is ripe for inspiration. Almost anything gets me inspired. There is a painting I want to do; a story from a dream I want to start writing. I want to research on beauty products because despite how ungirly I am, I am still a femmy. There are songs I want to get on iTunes, and artists I want to hear more music of.
And most of all.....
I WANT TO MAKE FUNNY VIDEOS!!
Quite some time ago, there was a comedy show that me and my friends all thought up together. We already made a Youtube account for it in preparation so that no one else could take that name if they just happened to also think it up. We have loads of scripts, ideas and plans.... But there are a few things that are standing in our ways.
Numba' one, money. Money, money, money, money, money.... We need money for props and costumes, and sadly, Swordfish (:devbeastiemaker) is in poverty, my family is poor, Tama (devtamakari-chan) is unsure, and we don't know what the heck is going on with Franchesca or Lydia (devcarebearexplosion).
Numba' two, time and locations. We don't really have much time to be able to do anything (yet this break is a wonderful thing for such! ...However, it's a break because of a Holiday... People will probably not be available -sigh-), and locations are a big problem. Where to film? And not just a place in general, but we need proper settings for different sketches!
Numba' three, technical problems. Video editing? Whassat? ....No, I know what it is durrhurr but I don't know how we'll pull it off. And also I am technology illiterate when it comes to the camera I own! It's a good video camera, I can assure you... I just don't know how to use it!
Numba' four, planning in general. I am the "Lil' Lady" of the show (says Franchesca), and thus the planner. Nothing goes without my say-so (yet there is always compromise, lest I be shunned and then crucified on a later date by the rest of the team), and nothing can be done unless I am in on it, am supervising, or know exactly what's going on. How can we all keep in touch?
And numba' five, my self-esteem issues.

I know, horrible. But I have a problem with being seen on camera, and being heard on audio = ____ = Graaarrrgh. Oh well. That should be the last to fix, and in fact should be fixed whilst everything else is being fixed because it truthfully doesn't matter in comparison to everything else.

Well, that's my journal.
.....But you probably won't read it : D How lovely!

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)</sup>
~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/28418163/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/28418163/ Tue, 17 Nov 2009 16:40:09 PST <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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....Wait, that counts as a title, doesn't it?

WELL, I JUST THOUGHT I NEEDED A JOURNAL UPDATE.

Not really much going on lately.
A big science project thingy is over with, though. THAT THING WAS STEALING MY LIFE. I got near brain damage over stress and frustration with that thing ; _ ; (...Don't ask.... Let's just say I have... severe mental problems... Which you probably already knew...)
BUT NOW IT'S DOOONE. My group and I are so pleased that it's a fricken' B+! Before it was 75/200 points ; _ ;

School stuff is still haunting me and sipping away at my soul, and I am procrastinating with Subeta commissions. I also have a bunch of things I want to do, but not enough time to do them! AARGH!!
Buuuut, at least my self-esteem was boosted a bit with that last painting I did, + Afternoon Tree Climb + ^ u ^

Sooooo, there was my crappy out-of-no-where journal! Enjooyyyy!

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)</sup>




]]> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/27836391/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/27836391/ Sun, 18 Oct 2009 13:36:18 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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Sorry I've been so inactive ; _ ;
Too busy with school, social implications and, um.... Subeta.
-hides behind couch-

So yeah. Ugghh, I had over 200 messages when I checked today, and over 600 deviations @ __ @;
So sorry, I just... deleted them all > >; ...Well except for a few new messages. Because I wuv messages ' v ' -blinkblink-

Most of my works are going to be Subeta commissions for a while now... XD; Just sayin'.

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In other news...

GRAAAW! I want that new tablet! You know, the one where you can see the screen? That's somewhere around $1,000?
I WANT IT.
Meg's computer costed $2,000, and hey! This thing would give me the same thing I loved about Meg's laptop but for $1,000 less!
So, I MUST GET SOME SORT OF JOB, SAVE UP, AND GET ONE Q(* - *Q) -determination-
My Mom says I should try to get a job as a typist. Coool : D I'm pretty wicked fast at typing. Last time I checked my WPM, it was an average of 105. And that was in... 7th grade XD;

...Oh schiesse, my parents still owe me $64 and then $20 for my birthday money... > <; Grrrr!

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)</sup>




]]> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/27559281/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/27559281/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 13:24:18 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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[link]

My sister made it, and I love it! ^ u ^
And I think that other people will love it too!
But sadly, meine schwester doesn't get many pageviews.
So! I'm here to advertise her, because she deserves more recognition.

......OH MY GOD NOW I WANT TO GET A GUINEA PIG FOR PET WHEN I'M GROWN UP AND HAVE MY OWN PLACE THEN GET A LEASH FOR IT SO I CAN WALK IT AROUND.

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In other news...
Feelin' a bit melancholic lately.
I've been having loads of fun, but sadly I've been having trouble with having fun. I dunno, but whenever I'm uber happy, I tend to immediately switch over to depressed and worried :I Eh, my therapist will deal with that though, so no fear for me XD

Also, I've been doing a lot of traditional art. Well... not really 'art'. I've been in a horrible art slump (and you would know that if you read my last journal), so I've decided to start practicing. I noticed I was not really good with face angles, or character consistency (it's easy with anime, but since I've got a different style now it's difficult!). I decided, "Fuck special fun details, I'll just do those for when I'm actually making an art piece." And thusly, I just started sketching out faces. I used my journal at school; In three lines I made an oval, then spaced out two more at the same level. Then I put the lines for eyes, nose and mouth placement. Thusly, I used those to create a person. By doing this, I practiced both character consistency and face angles all at the same time. And within three days I dramatically improved! Woohoooo!
I'll post up those sketches sometime. But not now (because I'm at the library).

(If you read this all the way through, post "Did you know my soul is in a ketchup bottle in the back of my frigde?" Feel free to copy and paste that.)

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/27356921/ Tue, 22 Sep 2009 13:12:07 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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I have put the important points in bold for your convenience.

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Ugh...

So, we're moved in. And yet I'm going through a major moody phase. I'm just getting so angry all the time.
And my social life is sucking. I'm on the brink of identity crisis again, and people aren't even listening to me anymore.
I wish to start conversations with random bits of information such as, "It's weird that there is no set 'Yes' or 'No' in Chinese. It's all contextual.", and, "Did you know there are actually definitions to the nonsense words in Jabberwocky? They're talked about in Through The Looking Glass." But no one cares.
I learn people's names so I can say hello to them later if I had a nice single-serving conversation with them in the past. And if I say hello to them ever, they look at me blankly and walk away.
I feel just like I did last year: Awkward, out of place, and that my good points are invisible.

(Sorry to drop the emo-bomb on you.)

Now, I started off this school year with a new out-look on things. I told myself, "If I can't get anywhere socially this year, I'll just go quietly about my work and hone my art skills."
And of course, right now, I'm in a HUGE art-block (all except for little chibi-Pokemon because I'm a major nerd). So, what am I to do?
It's like elementary school. I started art at about age 1, and continued through preschool and kindergarten being entirely anti-social, only focusing on art and being completely oblivious of everything else. Then, in elementary I had no social skills, and only art. I continued art because that was my only way to make the teasing stop; the moments that they saw whatever I had drawn.
Now, I'm again socially awkward, and guess what? I even feel inadequate with my art now. If somebody sees my work at school, they say in a monotone voice, "Oh, cool." And then turn away with absolutely no interest whatsoever. No social comfort, no art comfort. I am vulnerable to my own disease now. Yaaay.

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"I'm Sorry Guys..."

I'm not going to be able to do those free sketches... I just can't sketch on this stupid tablet like how I did with the last one. And I'm not going to sketch them traditionally, sorry... With my low self-esteem in art, I would just scrap one after another.
But hey, at least they were free, right? It's not like you had to pay and then not get them...

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)</sup>

~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/26894293/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/26894293/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 08:45:39 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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I have put key-points in bold for your convenience.

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EDIT!!

IT'S MY BIRTHDAAAAAY!!

....But I'm not happy ; ___ ;
I'm doing more manual labor today. This sucks ass.

But anyway, by 8:00 PM tonight (Hehe, the same time I take my meds XD) I'll be 15.

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OH. MY. GAWD.

For the past... long time, my family has been moving. We now have our new house almost completely set up, and our old house almost completely empty. It's been a bumpy road though.... Well, more like a road that was so tarnished and smeared with aged tar that it looked close to crumbling. We had to move everything on our own with a rented truck. Yes, all of our furniture, and all of our boxes. And we're not that strong either. We now have bruises, scrapes, bizmillions of bug-bites, and strained muscles comin' out the Yin-Yang. We've had laughs and jokes, exhausted flops onto chairs, nearly-fractured skulls, and the inevitable furious, sob-inducing family feud all within these few days. It's been crazy.

Also, our car is sucky as usual. We have the most suck-tastic car. No, it's not a giant frame of rust, nor does it have duct-tape holding the windows in place, but it sucks because it has a new problem pretty much every week -sigh-

And GRAAAGH. MY BIRTHDAY IS ON TUESDAY. WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN IF WE DON'T HAVE A CAR? I no gets special dinner ; _ ; (And don't say, "Have a special dinner at home", because we only have basic food at our new house anyway.)

Aaaaaaaand, WTFSALDFJALSKJDFLAKJSDFLJASFD! The tablet is still DEAD! There's been so much going on that we haven't been able to tend to it! And who knows when we'll get it working? School starts up soon! Oh woe is me.... Y __ Y

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But, there have been good things. I've had friends over all the time for helping, and everyday we've got to go swimming in an epic 90-degree pool because there's a community one right in our neighborhood. In fact, my friend ~</sup>SorrowfulDragon has practically been LIVING with us. She's been here since day one helping us, and having sleepovers because her mom has been at the hospital and home is not really a cheerful place right now ( she went home yesterday though, and all is well... I, in fact, spent the night |D; )
We haven't had internet until just now, so I have been entertaining myself with Pokemon Diamond. WOOH! I LOVE this game! And now I feel all bubbly inside that we have internet again (even though it's just wired.)

So. That is what has been up with me and not being active. Sorreh guys!

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In other news! We do have Photoshop still, even though the IBM is ka-put. My sister installed it on the Dell (which I am on right now), and she even ordered a Bamboo. I hate it with a firey passion of a thousand suns, but until the IBM is FINALLY fixed (in a few months? -sobsob-) I'll have to get used to it.
I hate it not only because I can't see what I'm doing on it, like on the IBM, but because we have yet to figure out how to make it pressure-sensitive!
All I have been able to do with it so far is a sketchy painting of an eye (the one thing I'm ALWAYS good at; eyes). So, for now even with Photoshop and a tablet, there will be no free sketches, no commission-present for my buddy ~tamakari-chan, no finishing of my paintings, and no DS-Adventure comic series (something you will find out about in the future when I can work on them. Right now only ~tamakari-chan and ~SorrowfulDragon know about it...)
HOWEVER. I have some pixel ideas, and I can do those. Yippee! Also, I have some traditional sketches which I can take pictures of and edit with Photoshop, so that will be good!

And now, if you have actually survived the text-avalanche, please write, "Making fiends, making fiends, Vendetta's always making fiends. Making fiends, while Charlotte makes friends" in a comment. ('Tis from my new favourite TV show, 'Making Fiends'. Feel free to simply copy and paste that.)

This is Koi, signing off.

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10 Free Sketches
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1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link] ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/26636923/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/26636923/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 20:04:38 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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She made the account a while ago just to watch my sister, but just today I got her to go and take pictures of all of her works!
She doesn't have all of them up. Far from it, actually. I need to help her with it, and also we need to retake a lot of photos that are blurry. And when we get Photoshop back, we're editing them so the ones that are yellow from the stupid lighting won't be anymore.

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Here's why I said 'argh';

GRAW, I'M MISSING ONE OF MY MEDS. Thusly, I am going crazy ; _ ; It really sucks being off of meds. I'm getting all organization-obsessed, and it literally hurts.
Well, mentally. But I also hurt physically! I just went to the awesomest birthday party yesterday for my best friend, but it left me with sunburns and sore shoulders... > <;;

Also, it's been about two weeks and the friggin' computer place hasn't contacted us! They said it would take a few days for them to call us! > < Grrrr. I want that computer back.
And I can't use the other laptop right now either. We've just converted it from Vista to XP, and now the internet doesn't work, and the C drive still has Vista on it and it won't let us delete it. So my mom's gonna have to take that in... -sigh-

And we're moving on Monday!
PANIC TIME!! -fear-

Waaaah.... This sucks.

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On another note, for all of you with free sketches, even when we get the computer back up, you'll have to wait. And it's not because of my business either. My friend that had the birthday (~tamakari-chan) party gets to cut to the top of my commission list for her present |D; Sorreh.

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10 Free Sketches
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1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link]
4. RainbowFever [link]
5. PurpleWolfStar
6. daises-and-vervain
7. psychoartist1101
8. Buneary
9. AngelCat-1339
10. mickey098

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/26519436/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 04:04:40 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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I feel... I feel...
The whole spectrum.
I'm elated, relaxed, tense, dizzy, grieving, shocked, amused, awe-stricken. I have a feeling of pure longing, yet experience a static shock of relief whenever I remember why.
I feel the need to laugh, scream, squeal and cry gnaw at the back of my throat, but I can't yield to the burning urges due to the volumes they would be emitted at.
I'm trembling, giggling, and feel like I'm about to faint.

It's feels great, but also foreign and surreal, to finally put my bookmark down on the desk.



Ladies and gentlemen...
I have finished reading the 7th Harry Potter book.

-fireworks and confetti-

Yaaaay!
Now I can ravage my way through Harry Potter fanart without fear!
And, ASDFLKAJSDLFJASDFLJALSKDJF I told my friends what I thought the last Horcrux was, and they said, "Nooooo, just read the book already!" And I was RIGHT. GO ME!! I feel so clever! -dancey dance dance-

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Aaaaaanyway, the computer is still not fixed.
And my family, including me, have been very busy as of late. We're moving to a new house, so, you know, packing and the like must be done. Even if we get the computer up and running by tomorrow, don't expect any new works or new Free Sketches... Sorry guys :C

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10 Free Sketches
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1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link]
4. RainbowFever [link]
5. PurpleWolfStar
6. daises-and-vervain
7. psychoartist1101
8. Buneary
9. AngelCat-1339
10. mickey098

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)


http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/26405679/ Mon, 10 Aug 2009 17:01:32 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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Awww ; _ ; Sorry guys, I accidentally deleted all of my messages.
I'm not EXACTLY sure how it happened...
But, here's the most logical reason: I tried to delete one, then the computer froze, and in a fit of agitation I clicked on it again repeatedly, and I'm guessing while the screen was frozen, the processes weren't, and once my first click deleted the first (without my knowing), all the others came up and were deleted accordingly because all of the delete buttons are in alignment... > <;

So sorreh to those that I meant to reply to D:

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Happy birthday deviantART!

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BUT WHY?!

This is such a convinient time for the IBM ThinkPad to be OUT OF COMMISSION
Q ___ Q -sobsob-

Apparently the chord works fine. My Dad tested out the voltage.
There's something wrong with the computer.
He says it's gotta be either something with the jack, the softswitch, the power supply, inner-circuitry, etc., and the harddrive is not affected by this.
That's a relief, but if the computer doesn't work, then what am I to do? ; _ ;
That thing costs 2,000 frickin' dollars. I DOESN'T HAS DAT KINDA' MONIES!
'Dat compy is like my behbeh ; _ ; ...And seriously, it's like it's not even my sister's anymore. She never uses it. Even when she had the ability to, she went on my Dad's computer.
Well, the computer's being checked out to have the problem identified as I type this...
When I can use it again I'll guess I'll make a really late birthday deviation > > -sigh-

And I've got some really great ideas for deviations in my head right now > < It sucks that I can't get going on them!

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10 Free Sketches
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1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link]
4. RainbowFever [link]
5. PurpleWolfStar
6. daises-and-vervain
7. psychoartist1101
8. Buneary
9. AngelCat-1339
10. mickey098

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/26308734/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 23:07:14 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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(The mood says 'Tearful'. Well, the journal begins out happy! Then later you'll see why the mood is set as such.)

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Congradulations to those who are!
You get a cookie

Anyway...

ARRRGGH. The chord to Meg's compy is completely broken now D:
I'm gonna have to pay about $67 to get a new one. So, until then, no art... > >

Sorry for all those that I still owe free sketches! It's not my fault this happened D':

In other news...
I have been occupying myself with writing music on Finale, writing my story, organizing my thumbdrive (I actually think it's fun), solving identitiy crisese that keep on coming up (> <; God I have so many problems...), sketching the characters from my story (I might post them up in my scraps sometime), aaaaand reviewing my Chinese. BOOYAH.

...Also, I've been crying. But it's not the reason that I had before on my journal,
'Warning: Possibly Goodbye'. No, it's this song that I've been listening to. It's one my mom wrote on Finale, using a viola (or violin, or cello... I don't remember) and piano. And she added lyrics to the document.
It's such a somber tune, very addictive to listen to because it's so beautiful, but the lyrics... They tear me apart.
She wrote about how my dad, her husband, is (now 'was', since he recently got out of it) in a deep depression for 8 years. Detaching from the rest of us, not being there for us, wanting to kill himself almost every week I assume...
Here are some of the lyrics:
"Living my life with my eyes closed, sleeping my life away, I don't want to see how my family is growing away from me"
"Somebody please live for me, do everything for me. Pull my strings, kick me back, speak for me, I'm inert and I don't exist."
"Living my life with my eyes closed, guilty for everything. I'm not willing to change, it's out of my range, my only escape is sleep."

Those are most of the lyrics, actually.
But here's the bit that really gets to me...
"Sleep walking while my kids grow up and away"

There are so many times in a person's life when they want to grow up faster... But listening to this... I don't want to grow up. And I don't want to grow up and away. I don't want to lose my family. My Mom, my Dad, my sister, my dog Belle... I don't want to lose any of them. I didn't notice through those 8 years of his absense. I was in my own little world of being upset due to my social life. But the people at partial said that that might be a deep-rooted subconcious thing that affected how deeply I got depressed. And now I know what they meant.
I mean, I'm going into 10th grade! Such a big part of my life has been empty for so many years! And I was too oblivious to know! So much wasted...
And oh god, now my keyboard is splattered with tears...

Well, the good thing is that whenever I am feeling bad and I need to cry, but just can't seem to do it, all I need to do is listen to this song.

I hope you're all having good days.
Enjoy your cookie

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10 Free Sketches
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1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link]
4. RainbowFever [link]
5. PurpleWolfStar
6. daises-and-vervain
7. psychoartist1101
8. Buneary
9. AngelCat-1339
10. mickey098

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)
http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/26224368/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 01:35:19 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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THE SUN IS MADE OF CHOCOLATE BUTTER AND UNICORNS ARE ALIIIIVE.

Did that get your attention?

Anyway, there are two basic things that I am doing right now.
Procrastinating, and indulging.

The indulgences are what causes the procrastination.

I am procrastinating from...
1) The 10 Free Sketches (> >; Sorry guys...)
2) Reading the 7th Harry Potter book
3) Sleeping
4) Eating
5) Basic hygiene

Bad, I know D:

Here's what I am indulging in...
1) Writing my story
2) Writing poetry
3) Singing
4) Reading...... things < . < > . >
5) Talking to my buddy Tama about writing
6) Editing photos

Argh, I'm pretty sure eventually I'll stop most of those for a bit. Number 1, 2, 4-6 (5 does vary) require me to use my sister's computer. But, the fucking chord is corroded, and it turns off if the chord is unplugged, or stops working. I need to place the computer at one area, in one place, and can't move it. If I move it, even slightly, I risk the computer turning off, and then an arduous and frustrating 20 minutes trying to get it back up and running. So, instead of adjusting the computer with myself to get comfortable, I've been needing to adjust myself AROUND the computer. And over hours and hours of being in very straining positions, my back and AAALLLLL of my joints hurt. Not a single one is left un-achy.
So, soon the pain should get so unbearable that I force myself to break away, and then I shall get back on my feet for Procrastination numbers 2-5, yay!
And for the people waiting for sketches, I'm sorry ; ; Been very sucked into my other things... Being out of partial and rid of my paperroute is like.... getting out of prison D: I just want to do what I want to do with my new free time! But eventually (and probably after I buy a new fucking chord for this computer), I shall get going on them again! So do not fret!







..............BANANAS PREVAIL! -salutes-

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10 Free Sketches
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1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link]
4. RainbowFever [link]
5. PurpleWolfStar
6. daises-and-vervain
7. psychoartist1101
8. Buneary
9. AngelCat-1339
10. mickey098

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/26010751/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 16:43:23 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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If you couldn't guess from the spontaneity of the title, I am happeh!
The old quirky Koi you know and (might) love, is back!
And hopefully shall stay~ :'D

After what happened I believe that if I've fought through that, I shall be able to fight through whatever turmoil happens through the next few years! Huzzah!
Buuuut, let's just see how it goes. You never know. But, I'll try to stay optimistic! d( > 3 < )b

I'm gonna be discharged from partial soon, and then I shall commence ULTRA-HEAVY-DUTY-ART-PRODUCTION! ...To the best of my abilities ^ . ^;

I have decided to clear up my To-Do list, sorreh! I want everything to be a surprise from now on. Besides, I doubt anybody actually looked at it anyway.

I haven't worked on the next sketch yet... > >; *guilt*
Too busy with partial, and....... a strange Harvest Moon addiction.
I JUST DON'T WHO TO MARRY!! D'8 Should it be Vaughn, or Shea? Denny, or Pierre? IT'S JUST TOO HARD TO CHOOOOSE!

I'll get going on the next soon enough.
But remember guys, I WILL be posting up other things before the sketches are done with.
Also, these sketches aren't just... well, your average few minute sketches. These 'sketches' tend to take a half-hour to an hour. Keep that in mind, o' patient ones!

Thankyou for your time! I now must away to find myself that vat of chocolate

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10 Free Sketches
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1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link]
4. RainbowFever [link]
5. PurpleWolfStar
6. daises-and-vervain
7. psychoartist1101
8. Buneary
9. AngelCat-1339
10. mickey098

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)


http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/25866502/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 18:34:48 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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All you who commented on my last journal have helped me regain my will to live.
Partial and my friends have helped me begin heal my wounds.
Art has helped provide salvation from my pain.

Thankyou to all.

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10 Free Sketches
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1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link]
4. RainbowFever [link]
5. PurpleWolfStar
6. daises-and-vervain
7. psychoartist1101
8. Buneary
9. AngelCat-1339
10. mickey098

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
***Major Practice Dumps ; Will never be done with! * O *
*Resketching OCs ;
*Water Market Painting ;
*Naga Painting ;
*Expressions Meme ;
*Fourth-Entry-In-Series Painting ;
Acryllic Trillium Painting;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ; http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/25800953/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 16:39:29 PDT ...I... I know I shouldn't make a journal like this.
My sister will probably be angry at me,
and it might scare some of you...
Also, someone once flamed me saying I shouldn't put my problems on a dA journal...
But in the state that I am in right now,
I need to get this out, and I've decided to do it here.

Well, my personal situations have gotten... incredibly worse...
I ended partial hospitalization, adolescent group therapy, but I now have to go back.
I am losing my will to live.
I've recently had the worst panic attacks of my life.
I was crying for five hours straight last night.
I lost control of my body, and was having muscle spasms that made it so I kept on hitting myself in the head. And if they had gotten any worse, I would've gotten whiplash.
Eventually, I ran to the kitchen and took out a sharp knife. I held it in my hand, but then broke down crying. At that point, I wasn't brave enough to kill myself.

....But things are getting worse. And I'm not sure if partial hospitalization will help this time.

I hope you have enjoyed my art. You won't ever see any new ones if this gets even worse.
I have a few works in progress... But if I die, I'm sure my sister will post them up for you to see.

So, if I don't get better, goodbye.</sup>

]]> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/25671181/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/25671181/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 10:32:43 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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I've been in a big sketching mood lately~ : D

So, time to offer free sketches again!

The first ten people to ask for one, get one!

1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link]
4. RainbowFever [link]
5. PurpleWolfStar
6. daises-and-vervain
7. psychoartist1101
8. Buneary
9. AngelCat-1339
10. mickey098

Let's hope I finish all of these... > >;

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
***Major Practice Dumps ; Will never be done with! * O *
*Naga Painting;
*Expressions Meme ;
*Fourth-Entry-In-Series Painting ;
Acryllic Trillium Painting;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ; http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/25232513/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 09:38:59 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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This is a continuation of this journal! >> [link]
Whereas I have a good 378 bits of talented proof~

If you want to know what this is all about, read the journal in the link!

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Since the previous journal had too many icons on it to be updated anymore, more talents of dA will be displayed here instead!




http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/25109822/ Wed, 03 Jun 2009 15:28:31 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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Well! I haven't updated in a while!
For two reasons. One, I've been busy, and two, I wanted to keep up my last journal on my profile for quite a while.
I am still going to be adding people to that list, and then eventually onto another journal if it gets to be too many icons.
Now, I doubt ANYBODY cares about my life, since I am just some strange internet person.
But, if anyone's bored and has nothing better to do, here's my recent events!

I am not going to my school for the rest of the school year. I am going to partial hospitalization group therapy for dangerously high anxiety and depression, and strange hindering social problems.

I have a boyfriend, but my anxiety is making it difficult for me to cope with the fact that he's moving to Colorado for two years at the end of the summer. Sure, I'll be able to see him once a month, but it's really really hard right now because I'm not medicated yet.

Art-wise, I have finally realized that... I have no style! ; A ; And I can't draw things except for really limited faces without referencing the hell out of everything! And, I really really want to create some actually interesting OCs! SO! After major inspiration from , I am off on a quest to practice the hell out of everything! * - * There was a recent scare of my sister's computer (that of which is the tablet I use and holds Photoshop and all of my precious irreplacable, un-backed-up files) being completely dead, because the hard-drive failed, but! It's all fixed up now! And I'm getting to work with it tomorrow~ So practicing shall commence then! ( I don't like working traditionally... > _ > )

But, despite that I don't like working traditionally, I actually have been! Around the end of last week, I had a major breakdown and was extremely depressed. When in that state, I cannot be left alone. My family ended up leaving me completely alone at home for a few hours, and I had a dangerous panic attack. Soooo, to not be alone, I needed to cling to my mom one morning (in fact, I actually had to sleep in her bed for two nights). But, she was gonna be busy with painting with one of her friends that morning, so in desperation I decided to paint with them. I have never done a big acryllic painting before, but now I can claim to have experience! : D I am doing a painting of a trillium~ And when it's finished, I'll take a picture of it and post it up~

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
***Major Practice Dumps ; Will never be done with! * O *
*Expressions Meme ;
*Fourth-Entry-In-Series Painting ;
Acryllic Trillium Painting;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ; http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/24053811/ Sat, 04 Apr 2009 07:50:21 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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[link]

AAAAAARGH!!

I am sick of people thinking that deviantART is just some big colony of LOLZ-whores with fetishes for disproportional anime chicks!

Sure, some people are like that on here, but it's just the same with everywhere else on the internet!
People need to realize the great points of this website.
First off, journals. Your canvas for all of the useless shit and/or important updates you can think of!
A wonderfully thorough Help/FAQ section, and a forum for all sorts of things.
The Prints option, to help artists gain a bit of extra income.
Thorough organizing/searching systems.
And it's a place for creativity and expression of all sorts.

And, for all those who think the artists on here fit the description as stated on my first sentence, well! Here's quite a few astounding artists to prove you wrong!



http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/23821567/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 20:57:19 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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This is so awesome! After a few weeks of utter despair, I have a FREAKY AWESOME DAY!!! >8D

I got up and got a lot of excersize on my paperroute; then I had to make my bed for house-showing and it's good so now when I go to bed I'll be all comfy!; I finished my picture! WOOOHOOOO! I AM SO PROUD OF IT!!! >8D; My doggy Belle got a haircut and is SO ADORABLE AND ENERGETIC NOW!; I made some nummy scrambled eggs and cleaned out the pan early so I don't have to be haunted by it later; I got to go to this Battle of the Bands thing where my cousin performed!; I took some Ibuprofen before I went so I wasn't in menstrual pain during it (Heheheheee..); I got six Oreos; We stopped and ate at Big Boy on the way home (I luff that restaurant!); The big computer's fixed so I can start my webshow soon! >8D; And I have a bunch of new favourite songs! >8D

Also, it's quite interesting. Through the whole week I've been upset, hating life, hating people and hating myself. I kept on saying to myself, 'No one will ever like me, because I'm a terrible, ugly person...' and then, just yesterday, one of my friends told me that I have an admirer that wants to meet me. And just today, one of my friends said to me he has a crush on me.
THAT IS SUCH CRAZY TIMING!

And also yesterday my friend Remy helped me with some of my life problems~ ^ u ^

So ladida~ I am feelin' great for ONCE in a very long time~ 8D

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
*Umby-Brolly Pixel Animation ;
*Comfortable Chair Animation ;
Extremely Late Xmas Presents For Meh Buddehs ;
Winter Comic ;
Handwriting Meme ;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ; ~ToxicOxygen</sup> http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/23749054/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/23749054/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 17:04:29 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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AAAAGGS. My sis and her friend came downstairs where I was and, after searching OnDemand Free Movies for a while, came upon something that seemed like a comedy by the description.

It was a horror movie.
And I ended up going upstairs, nearly crying.
WHEN SOMEONE HAS TERRIBLE PANIC-ATTACK-INDUCING FEARS OF BODY PARTS BEING TAMPERED WITH, IT'S REALLY BAD FOR ANYONE TO WATCH SOMETHING LIKE THAT AROUND THAT PERSON.

So, my mom suggested I listen to music to calm my nerves and get the images out of my head. AND I KNEW THE PERFECT SONG TO LISTEN TO!

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ในวันที่เราต้องไกลห่าง <sup>(Nai Wan Têe Rao Dtông Glai Hàang) by Lula!
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GODLY THAI SONG!! It's bound to make anybody happy by its cute little tune! GO LOOK IT UP AND LISTEN TO IT, YOU NAPKIN!!!

That is all.

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Well, I went to the doctor and I'm feeling better about things; Apparently I have a bladder infection thingy, which is a lot better then what we thought (if it is the only problem)... However, I might also have a.... uh.. cyst on ummm....... my internal girlie-parts.. > __ > But, since my symptoms happen at certain times, any other causes are sort of inconclusive as of the moment.

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( Yes, I have been reading the Georgia Nicolson books. If you haven't, 'aggers' means 'agony' )

Well, I started a new trimester in school today.
I didn't get into Graphic Novels because the only hour-slot it's open is 2nd hour, and I have Algebra then. And 'Core classes will not be moved to accomadate electives' *GRRR*
And I have Business Fundamentals 4th hour. Whoo-pee. I thought it would be teaching basic things like going to the bank and stuff that would actually be HELPFUL to me. But nope. Juuust narrowed down to strict businessy stuff. And it's a fucking huge class filled with people I HATE, a.k.a., delinquent ghetto idiots and a know-it-all TARD-face who I'm pretty sure is miserably insane (seeing as he yells all the time and believes there is a man named Tom sitting in the clearly empty left corner of the room). And we have to do presentations in the front of the class there! I am VERY anti-social! I cannot DEAL with that! AAARGGH!!!

Oh, and tomorrow I have to go to the doctor to make sure, a) I do not have appendicitis, and b) that my lower abdominal muscles are not going to rupture.

Yuppers. A day of crying and sadness.
The water-works mainly started at the end of the day in Choir. On Thursday we have to go to Festival which is this incredibly important choir event that we have been practicing for FOREVER. And those most-likely-caused-by-anxiety pains I was talking about in recent journals have gotten WORSE. No, it's not menstrual-cycle-related. It's like I'm sore everywhere, and it sucks because on certain notes in Choir (sadly enough, the ones that I have to hold for the longest) stress is put directly on the part where it hurts most in order to make the sound come out. This makes it so I have a lot of trouble singing. And my Choir teacher constantly tells us that we need to add more energy into our singing! And she's getting more and more stern about it because of Festival! And time after time I've been needing to give excuses! I can't do that anymore! I feel so terrible... I'm hurting all the time in that class (it starts about three hours earlier on average) and I can't tell anybody because they'll think I'm lying! Then, I start crying. Then, I start crying MORE because I'm sick of always CRYING. Yes, I know; a viscious cycle. I have become a cry-baby again! I fear that everyone is thinking I'm a stupid drama-queen at my school... *sigh*
And I'm also getting more bothered because of my weight. But, I am trying to do stuff about that... You know, excersize and eating mainly bananas.

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On the arty side of my life, I have started a new digital painting. The face is pretty good, but I can't do anymore on it *sigh* So! I have resorted to just sketching, sketching, SKETCHING. Sketching helps artists, so that's all I can do now. I've been practicing chibis, dogs, hands, human poses and digital painting flowers. I might upload some sketch colleges sometimes...

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
Easter ; http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/23513771/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 19:00:26 PST ^These are made of WIN^

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Eeeh, I'm fairly happy.
Some incredibly good news that made me phone all of my friends screaming "I LOVE YOOOUU!!", was revealed to me today. It made me dance with joy~ However I don't really feel like announcing it publicly on here, but if you care enough to know, then note me.

However, for the past few weeks, about three times per week, at around 9am-2pm I have been having unbearably painful aches around my lower abdominals, coupled with complete loss of energy and problems standing. And sadly enough, my mom says it's most likely caused by anxiety.
Yaaaaay, whoopee. That really makes me happy.
Buuuut, she's offering me the oppurtunity to meet with a therapist, so I guess that's good.

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Sadly for any of my still-loyal watchers, art-slumpiness still keeps me captive.
I have turned to writing right now, and I'm improving fast and well.
It's good for me because I've had the aspiration of becoming an author for six years, and this is one step closer, but it may be bad for you since no new art will be released for some time.. Maybe an animation here or there, or a sketch, but that would pretty much be it..

Sorry ; _ ; I didn't choose this, it just happened.

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
*Comfortable Chair Animation ;
Extremely Late Xmas Presents For Meh Buddehs ;
Winter Comic ;
Handwriting Meme ;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ; ~ToxicOxygen</sup> http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/23324278/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/23324278/ Sat, 21 Feb 2009 12:43:53 PST <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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Eh, my social life continues to fluctuate mainly due to one human.
Right now I'm pretty good, but still rather sad.

My webshow's gonna be started soon, but sadly, I will not be announcing the name of it here. You know.. I don't want people hearing my voice and whatnot. You may come across it by shear chance though (but not knowing it's mine, of course).

Well, artistically, as always I'm not really sticking to my To-Do list at all.
Just doing whatever the hell I want. Sadly, most of the things I do get scrapped quickly.

Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
*Comfortable Chair Animation ;
Extremely Late Xmas Presents For Meh Buddehs ;
Winter Comic ;
Handwriting Meme ;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ; http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/23210100/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/23210100/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 06:09:17 PST ^These are made of WIN^

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Lets see! What updates do I have for you today?

Well, things are going much better!

I'm making a webshow, and getting the camera situation worked out for freeee 8'D
My social life is doing better~ And same with school :3
Our big computer is being fixed for free by my buddy Lydia's awesome dad! XD

OOH! And he ALSO fixed our wireless internet! So now you know what I'm gonna do?
GO ON PCHAT! >8D (I couldn't before because I couldn't access the internet on my sis's IBM Thinkpad)

So yay! Forget my To-Do list, I'm just gonna doodle to my hearts content!



Week of Memes
Pinya
Daikuro
Kuroko
Aiko
Sara
Gasaku/Moth
Emusku
(^Still working on Pinya's. These might take me a year to
do, so don't hold your breath... You know how procrastination kills you inside.... )

Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
Xmas Presents For Meh Buddehs ;
Winter Comic ;
Raccoon Painting ;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends</sup>
http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/22702744/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 19:54:56 PST <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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Let's see here. Updates, updates..

Well, school is eating my life. Social problems are eating my happiness. And procrastination is eating my..... work ethic D8

So yeah, your little Koi here has not been doing so good.

The art slump is still going on. Though, I've recently drawn something that I'm actually pretty proud of, but it's gonna be a while till I post it.

I don't really have a set style anymore... I'm loosing my touch with anime, having trouble with digital painting, and am trying a more realistic style, yet am not skilled enough yet to execute most pictures correctly. I've recently been inspired by the art of a certain Allen Lee, who has illustrated books such as 'Faeries'. But the style is so strange and realism-based that I'm having trouble.

Also, I'm sort of getting absorbed into writing at the moment. So art will be lacking in general due to that, too.

But here's my little list of To-Do stuffs!

Week of Memes
Pinya
Daikuro
Kuroko
Aiko
Sara
Gasaku/Moth
Emusku
(^Still working on Pinya's. These might take me a year to
do, so don't hold your breath... You know how procrastination kills you inside.... As well as other aspects of life. )

Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
*Xmas Presents For Meh Buddehs ;
Winter Comic ;
Raccoon Painting ;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ;</sup> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/22488233/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/22488233/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 13:45:52 PST <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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OOOOOOH ME GAAAAAWD!! This has been the most TERRIBLE WEEK!

It began out with my cold getting worse, then me getting behind in my class and homework. THEN, on Thursday, I lost my bag!

Now, let me tell you about 'my bag'..
So, my Aunt Joice, the kind soul, made me a special bag out of an old pair of jeans I didn't fit into anymore. That was a year ago or even longer than that, and I've been using it ever since. And I put very important things into it, and normally things that I will take to school.

But so, on Thursday, when the bag's contents were my hairbush, two sticks of eyeliner, chapstick and my iPod, I FUCKING LOST IT AT LUNCH! I started freaking out, going around to different lost and founds, but I couldn't find it. Then, came the panicking. I started crying my eyes out, which lasted over three hours.

However, at GSA (Gay Straight Alliance club), around the end of it, one of our school counselors Mr. Fear ( hehe ) came up and I asked him if he had seen my bag, and he said that people were talking about a bag that fit my description downstairs in the Commons area. But going down there, I didn't see anything and the custodians were being uncommunicative bastards. So yeah, I gave myself a dehydration migrain and my eyes were stinging like hell.

Today on Friday, I came to school and went to go see Mr. Fear in the office at first priority to see if he could help me since all the stupid staff yesterday couldn't. But Mr. Fear wasn't there. A lady told me to have one of the other staff people, Mr. Brown, to escort me downstairs to find it.

HOWEVER, apparently, they though my bag was a fucking LUNCH BOX! Uh, HELLOOOOO? It's obviously a purse type bag! NOT A LUNCH BOX! But what they do with lunch boxes is put them smack-dab in the middle of the fucking Common's area ( pretty much the cafeteria ) on top of trashcans for people to come back and get them. But since it WASN'T a fucking lunch box, apparently students noticed and decided to look through it. You know how I figure that? Because when I finally found my bag and looked inside, everything was in it EXCEPT MY FUCKING IPOD!!! Some dumbass mother-banging flying-FUCKTARD stole my iPod!
Crying my eyes out, I began being suicidal around the next two hours. But no, not just because of that. Since my grades have been slipping, and I've been in constant pain and I have other emotional problems right now, I was really really considering killing myself when I got home.

But nope, still here. Not gonna kill myself. One of my buddies Kaitlynn talked me out of it.. And now I'm not depressed anymore. Upset, yes, pissed off beyond reason, HELL YES, buuuut....
Recently I successfully got a paper route and am starting on Monday. It pays about $100 a month, so in just about two months or so I'll have enough to buy another iPod Nano. So I'm not soooo depressed anymore...

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IN ANOTHER NEWS!

Art slump time~ D8

I am still working on the Week of Memes, on Pinya's.

However, I also have a few other works in progress.

One is a digital painting, where I am freaking stuck... > _ >
And the other is an anime picture with an outline that I'd LIKE to colour, but I can't find a suitable colouring style to use yet!

WOE IS MEEEEEEEEE~ D8

Week of Memes
Pinya
Daikuro
Kuroko
Aiko
Sara
Gasaku/Moth
Emusku

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
*Xmas Presents For Meh Buddehs ;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ;</sup> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/22341029/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/22341029/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 19:49:18 PST <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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What do I mean by this?

Well!</sup>

[link]

OwlGems's new OC meme!!

I'm going to do it SEVEN TIMES! XD

A week for my OCs! Since I'm not paying enough attention to them!

Soooo~

Week of Memes
Pinya
Daikuro
Kuroko
Aiko
Sara
Gasaku/Moth
Emusku

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
*Xmas Presents For Meh Buddehs ;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/22166565/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 12:52:47 PST <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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I finally did it! XD

I made a craptastic little video about the jist of how I digitally colour fur! XD Sure, no one has asked me how I do it, but I decided to show you people anyway! XD

Here you go! Watch it, fools!</sup>
[link]

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Oh, also, good news!

In regards to my emo-tastic 'Fucking Shit' journal, every day stuff is going better with our house, so in turn stuff is getting better with our Xmas-turnout~ :3 And it's Xmas Eve, so we're gonna have a Xmas afterall! XD It won't be as great as any of our previous ones, but we'll still have one~

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
*Xmas Presents For Meh Buddehs ;

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/22034144/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 14:46:36 PST <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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Fevers gone~ |D But sadly I'm still plagued with a cold.. > u >;;

Ah well, it comes with the season~ Q(> n
Also, we're getting closer to selling our house! XD
And I saw YESMAN today! >8D

Besides one uber-disturbing part having to do with an old lady, it was WONDERFUL! XD

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Oh yay, today I found out I have a fever of 100.9*F~ D'8
And I had to live through school with it.. > __ >;

But on the bright side, I found I have been
featured 9 times in the past! XD

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You're probably wondering, 'What does wavering needle mean?', well I'll tell you what it means!

So, if you see on a compass or something of that nature, where there is a little needle inside that points to a certain something labeled on the device. And when it 'wavers' it slides around and fidgets, seeming to not really be sure of what part to land on.

WELL, that's how I am right now! On a compass of art! o 3 o ( Bad example, I know.. ) But it's so weird! Right now I'm at that wavering needle phase where I'm just trying out everything, but right at this very moment I have so many things I want to try out, my mind has just gone blank! Every single awesome picture that I see makes me want to draw a certain kind of picture. I call it, 'Inspirations on the Runs'~ > __ >;

And it's all just crazy! D8

However, in two days I'll have a two week break and I'll finally have some time to maybe get down one of those ideas! And if I don't finish it, it'll go into the new unfinished collage I'm planning on making! XD

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In other news, I'm sick~ D8

AAAAAAND I've decided that I'm dropping the gaia biz.

Again.

Aren't I such a terrible person?
I do this all the time. I'll make a shop, get a load of orders, and only do a few until I completely loose interest.. > ____ >;

And that happens with my To-Do list too ( minus the orders part ) as you probably have all seen~

OH, and I'm now obsessed with listening to Sa Dingding music~ 8'D

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
--NOTHIN' 8D

Art MIGHT-Do List
Cake Animation ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends</sup>
http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21870078/ Sun, 07 Dec 2008 17:38:52 PST <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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Okay, so it's been a bit since I last updated.

Yeah, our internet is displaying clear bitchiness as it's having lots of trouble working, for NO REASON.

It will say that our internet provider is working top notch, the connection is strong and fast, but the internet will be unavailable~ D8

But while the internet is working for at least a bit again, I'd like to give you some updates.

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Well, since we're gonna go into foreclosure soon, where we won't have to pay for our house for half a year, we'll have a bit more money than I thought, and we'll get some stuff for Christmas after all~ ^ . ^

It won't be nearly as great as past Christmases,
but we won't have nothing, which is nice~ > u >;

Oh, and you might be thinking, 'Christmas is more than just about presents!' weeeelllll, the reason I, personally, celebrate Christmas, is to give this trecherous month of frigid wastelandish outdoors something good about it, the holidays. And presents is one of the things that brightens up this terrible month. I really hate Winter~ D8
So there... > . >;

Anyway, also, I'm SOOOOOO BUUUUUSY! X ___ X;
With art, that is! I have a bit of homework, but all in all that's perfectly fine and dandy, but my art To-Do list is PAACKED~ D8

Recently I got into animation from that flying fox DD ( that of which, is now on my iPod Nano thanks to it's popularity on Youtube! XD ) and have been doing various projects regarding lipsyncing characters and songs. I was doing an animation to a cat singing Sakura from Ikimono Gakari, and am now doing a project of two random characters featured with the song Candyman from Aqua.

Now! Let's take a look at my insane To-Do list!

Art To-Do List
( in order of importance )
( ones that I actually want to do will
have an asterisk next to them )
Gaia Commissions 1-7 ;
*Candyman Animation ;</sup> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21749358/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21749358/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 13:30:30 PST You might be wondering why I'm saying that.

Well how would you feel if you were so used to having Christmas, then realized that your family only had $30 to last the next two weeks? How would you feel if three and a half weeks BEFORE Christmas, you found out that you're going to loose your house? How would you feel if you had all of this information given to you right after you had started feeling normal after having a fucking terrible night of vomitting everywhere and everything was supposed to be better?

Tell me.

Well, no, I'll just tell you. You'd feel like FUCKING SHIT.

]]> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21691997/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21691997/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 03:43:37 PST <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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EDIT;

Not sad n'more! 8D

We have our wireless internet BACK IN ACTION!! XD

And we lots of ramen, chocolate milk,
turkey, biscuits and DELICIOUSNESS!! 8D

And also I took some coolio pictures on facebook
that I'm very proud of! ^ o ^

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Neeeh......

My subby's gone..

And I just had a dream that my dog died
by my doing.. accidentally, mind you...

And I am not a happy camper.. 8'C

..........
But Happy Thanksgiving, everyone
(who celebrates it)...

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Labyrinth Fanart; :star-emtpy::star-emtpy::star-emtpy::star-emtpy:
Cruel Trick ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends</sup>




Real Lifers ~ a.k.a I Know Them In Real Life


http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21648829/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 14:17:57 PST ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
<sup>^These are made of WIN^

~~</sup> SIGN THE LIST TO SAVE DA!! ~~

:: 100 Piece Challenge ::

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ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
<sup>^These are made of WIN^

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For one, my science project was eating my life~ D8

Also, our internet has been dead for a while
for some stupid glitchy reason~ D8

And now it's fixed on my dad's PC, so now I
can get on it sometimes, but all in all I'm
gonna be sort of inactive... > . >;

But I have a few art pieces that I'm working
on so soon I'll put up some new stuff! XD

But I'm very busy on Gaia, so eh.... o . o;

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Labyrinth Fanart; :star-emtpy::star-emtpy::star-emtpy::star-emtpy:
Cruel Trick ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends




Real Lifers ~ a.k.a I Know Them In Real Life

~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21410872/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21410872/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 19:02:39 PST ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
^These are made of WIN^

~~ SIGN THE LIST TO SAVE DA!! ~~

:: 100 Piece Challenge ::

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<sup>OH.

MAI.

GAWD!!!!



I just saw Miss Saigon at my sis's highschool today!

'TWAS FRUCKIN' AMAZING!

Okay, so, last year we had this choir advent, called
Choral Cavalcade, at the same school, and I saw this
guy from her highschool that I grew a huge crush on
immediately when I saw him! * 3 * Then, it turns out,
he played Chris from the play! D8 OMG!!!! >////<

Soooo many sexy guys! 8'D Wonderous acting, and GREEAAAT singing!

It was so great! Definitely worth the $10 per person to get in! ;D</sup>

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.:: HONORARY ARTIST!! ::.

~purplewolfstar!!!! ^ o ^
This is one of my buddies from school, and I'm happy
to say that she has beautiful photography!
She is very creative with her many works with
water and food colouring. I say go and look at her work! XD


Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Halloween Pumpkin Kitty Pixel Animation of WONDEROCITY!! ;
Cake Film ;
Sky Goddess - Colouring ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends
~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21333216/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21333216/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 04:01:48 PST ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
^These are made of WIN^

~~ SIGN THE LIST TO SAVE DA!! ~~

:: 100 Piece Challenge ::

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<sup>.....

OKAY! I've got speech again!!

OOOOOOOH MAAAAAI GAAAAAAWD!!! 8'D



He won! He won! He FUCKIN' won!
I don't have to move to Canada!! XD
Well, I do love Canada.. But I'd be leaving all my
friends so FUCK NO to that idea!

But it doesn't matter!!

HEEEEEEE WOOOOOOOOON!!!!

...

Obama that is~ :3</sup>

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.:: HONORARY ARTIST!! ::.

~purplewolfstar!!!! ^ o ^
This is one of my buddies from school, and I'm happy
to say that she has beautiful photography!
She is very creative with her many works with
water and food colouring. I say go and look at her work! XD


Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Halloween Pumpkin Kitty Pixel Animation of WONDEROCITY!! ;
Cake Film ;
Sky Goddess - Colouring ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends
~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21189962/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21189962/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 16:32:07 PDT ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
^These are made of WIN^

~~ SIGN THE LIST TO SAVE DA!! ~~

:: 100 Piece Challenge ::

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<sup>^^^OMG!!!!! CLICK, FOOLS!^^^

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I'll get working on your commish right now, lovely! 8'D

......Then it's time to splurge on stamps! XD</sup>

<sup>... ]]> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21152965/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21152965/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 05:44:39 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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Okay, on Cartoon Network I saw a commercial for the premier of '6Teen'..... Well, I'm happy it's back, but hey, it's BACK. This is NOT a premier!! XD; It was on a few years ago on Nickelodeon! Then it went away D'8

But these people are WEIRD! XD

....Just saying that.. :3

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Would anybody like the paintchat a bit? ^ . ^;

I'm kinda bored... x ___ x;

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ZOMG-ALMIGHTY!! O ∆ O;

GREAT PHOTOGRAPHER ALERT!

Go to her account now, fools! XD



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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Halloween Pumpkin Kitty Pixel Animation of WONDEROCITY!! ;
Cake Film ;
Sky Goddess - Colouring ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends




Real Lifers... ]]> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21065938/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/21065938/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 12:58:28 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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ZOMG-ALMIGHTY!! O ∆ O;

GREAT PHOTOGRAPHER ALERT!

Go to her account now, fools! XD



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But I love taking photos~!! ^ o ^

Hmm.... I don't really know what to write now.. ^ u ^;

Umm...Oh, I went on a date on Friiiiday~ |D;

'Twas interesting XD; Went well o u o

Then yesterday I went to this thing called 'Zooboo' as a pre-halloween exhibit thingy! I went as a kitty, and it was all aaawesome~ My friends and I were screaming things like 'HEY HOT STUFF!', 'You owe me MONAAAY!!', and 'Get a job!' at the actors! XD We be hooligans~ |3

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ;
Tempura Tantrum ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20928452/ Fri, 10 Oct 2008 21:35:00 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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Well, I'm not going to go on a detailed rant like I normally do, but let me just say this.... I LOOOVE MY FUCKING LIIIIIIIIIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 8'D *cries of joy*

You see, these days are the kind of days that make me want to continue LIVING! That's GOOD! XD

Anyway, a fucking awesome teacher bought me my $15 homecoming ticket, and I went tonight, and broke pretty much all of my major social barriers that have been KILLING my life since uuhh.... FIRST GRADE! And on of my friends was playing match maker and ended up getting me this adorable guy to dance with me! So I got to slow dance, then I was actually outgoing enough to tell him he was cute and hug him a lot!

However, the weird thing is that he was the one that my friend Sonja was going with originally! However, she was in a fight with her mother and couldn't go, and they weren't in a relationship or anything. It was just a little 'oh, I'm going to ask you out of a whim and I have nobody else' kind of thing |D; SO FWEEEEHH!!! GOD DAMNIT HE'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUUUUUUUUUUUTE!!!!! XD

Okay, I'm done now~ :3

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ;
Tempura Tantrum ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20727207/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 15:55:54 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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Okay, at the top of the page if you ever see the 'What Naruto Female Are You?' quiz, DO NOT DO IT!

Okay, I was doing it, but at the end, it asked for these things; age, first and last name, e-mail, STREET ADRESS, and freaking zipcode!! D'8 Why the hell would they need all that information to give you your freaking test results?!

You know what I think it is? Well, there's probably a guy that is so freaking obsessed with a female character from Naruto, either Ino, Sakura, Hinata or Tenten, and made that quiz so that for any girl that gets the results of his target of obsession, he'll track them down through the information and rape them! D'8 And I mean, it even asked 'Male or Female?' that's probably just to make sure that they don't end up tracking down a guy....Or they could kill them if it's a crazy guy/girl that absolutely hates them.

It's FREAKY! >8C

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10 Free Sketches
I'll get them done eventually!! XD; *dies of procrastination*

[1] Shikkysfranzy
[2] Wolf-Queen
[3] ShiroiKai
[4] TheSealedVoid
[5] Silurian
[6] FlamesOfTheSun
[7] Flock-of-doves
[8] Antipathy00
[9] Celestetheburninator
[10] SL-1900

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ;
Tempura Tantrum ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20672720/ Thu, 25 Sep 2008 16:43:09 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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Yup. I'm in an art-slump. The worst one in my life. All I seem to be able to do right now is traditional sketches and shitty digital sketches done half-assedly. I just don't seem to hve the attention span to do anything GOOD anymore. Also, I'm sad that okay, I've now turned 14, and I doubt that I'll be getting any better because of this fucking art slump-block-THING.

Also, I really really want to find a good colouring tutorial, but I just can't seem to find one. *sigh* .....I am so depressed......

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10 Free Sketches
I'll get them done eventually!! XD; *dies of procrastination*

[1] Shikkysfranzy
[2] Wolf-Queen
[3] ShiroiKai
[4] TheSealedVoid
[5] Silurian
[6] FlamesOfTheSun
[7] Flock-of-doves
[8] Antipathy00
[9] Celestetheburninator
[10] SL-1900

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ;
Tempura Tantrum ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20574196/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 19:16:49 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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I HAVE A COLD~ D'8 *COUGH COUGH COUGH*

And it ain't fun... Especially since I have choir everyday in school! And each class takes FOREVER!

But other than that, school is fun...

But I'm starting to go back into that self-loathing state. Oh, how sad I am.. *coughHACKcoughitycough*

So, just thought I'd give you that update.

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10 Free Sketches
I'll get them done eventually!! XD; *dies of procrastination*

[1] Shikkysfranzy
[2] Wolf-Queen
[3] ShiroiKai
[4] TheSealedVoid
[5] Silurian
[6] FlamesOfTheSun
[7] Flock-of-doves
[8] Antipathy00
[9] Celestetheburninator
[10] SL-1900

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ;
Tempura Tantrum ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends

~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20472225/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20472225/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 12:58:20 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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I stolez this from Hoyzar256~ D8



--What A Kiss Means--

+Kiss on the stomach = "I'm ready."
+Kiss on the Forehead = "I hope we're together forever."
+Kiss on the Ear = "You're my everything."
+Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends."
+Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you."
+Kiss on the Neck = "We belong together."
+Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you."
+Kiss on the Lips = "I love you."


--What Which Gesture Means--

+Holding Hands = "We definitely love each other."
+Slap on the Butt = "That's mine."
+Holding on tight = "I don't want to let go."
+Looking into each other's Eyes = "I just plain love you."
+Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love me."
+Arms around the Waist = "I love you too much to let go."
+Laughing while Kissing = "I am completely comfortable with you."
+Picking someone up off their feet = "I love them fully and would do anything for them."


--Advice--

+Dont ask for a kiss, take one.
+If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in Love.


--Requirements--

+Post this again after reading!!
Or you will have a bad year of Relationships.
(( I'm not superstitious.. D8 Just.. MYEH!! > . <;; ))

If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone right now
and can't get them out of your head then re-post this within one minute and hoever you are missing will surprise you.

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I posted this because I said I would.. 8'D

...So there! D8

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10 Free Sketches
I'll get them done eventually!! XD; *dies of procrastination*

[1] Shikkysfranzy
[2] Wolf-Queen
[3] ShiroiKai
[4] TheSealedVoid
[5] Silurian
[6] FlamesOfTheSun
[7] Flock-of-doves
[8] Antipathy00
[9] Celestetheburninator
[10] SL-1900

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Swamp Naga Redo;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ;
Tempura Tantrum ; http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20342557/ Sat, 06 Sep 2008 19:35:26 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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OOH! And I dub Bill Kaulitz of Tokio Hotel to be an Ultimate Sex Monster of Amazingness~ HE IS LIVING PROOF THAT ANIME MEN AREN'T THE ONLY ONES WHO ARE SEXY~~ * ∆ * <3

....Sumimasen, Bill Kaulitz suki.. >//u//<; RAAAWR!! AISHITERU BOUGI BAKEMONO!! > ∆ <

..And that was some Japanese for you!! XD And I did that without looking up anything from a translator at all!! ^ O ^ I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF AND MY ULTIMATE MEMORY OF GREATNESS!! 8'D

Yeah, I still do favor Japanese over Chinese, and I understand much more of it, but Chinese is still useful to learn! ^ u ^

......Sorry, I'm kind of endorphin-high since I excersized so much today.. XD; *slap'd*

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Nĭ hăo! ^ u ^

I'M A'LEARNING MANDARIN CHINESYESE!!!! XD

So now I know about the four tones, how to count to 10 from 0, and various sentences, such as 'Nĭ jiào shénme míngzi?' WOOOH!! XD

But I sure hope the class gets moving along faster.. D'8 I only have Líu Lao Shī for two trimesters! ( We have three 'semesters' in my highschool for more class opportunities ) The other students aren't learning as fast as I am, so Líu Lao Shī takes everything pretty slow to get everyone to understand it. Why don't people practice?! I practice a WHOOOLE lot so that I can remember what I learn!


BUT IN GENERAL, I LOVE HIGHSCHOOOOL!!! XD It's the best school I've ever been to! And it's cool, because I can say that and it's only been the first week! And there are SOOO many ponies!! XD ( As in, cute boys! ...Sorry, it's an inside joke with a friend of mine! If you want to know the meaning of 'ony', note me! XD )

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10 Free Sketches
I'll get them done eventually!! XD; *dies of procrastination*

[1] Shikkysfranzy
[2] Wolf-Queen
[3] ShiroiKai
[4] TheSealedVoid
[5] Silurian
[6] FlamesOfTheSun
[7] Flock-of-doves
[8] Antipathy00
[9] Celestetheburninator
[10] SL-1900

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Swamp Naga Redo;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ;
Tempura Tantrum ; ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20264778/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20264778/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 04:36:37 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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GUESS WHAT?! IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!

HEEELLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 14 YEARS!!

Finally, I'm as old as all my friends! 8'D

So cha'man!

We were going to Detroit today to see Obama, but we decided against it. And soon we're going to go to breakfast, then I'm going to this lake with two of my bestest buddies with a big Oreo-pudding-creamy DIRT CAKE! XD THEEEEN, after all that, I live my leisure day and then my familia goes to dinner at this awesome place called Macaroni Grill ( if the frellin' ATMs will work! D8 ) and then I get macaroni and bread and cheese and chicken and tiramisu for dessert! XD

BETCHIN'!!!!!

So how's your day gonna be? 8D

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Swamp Naga Redo;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ;
Tempura Tantrum ;

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends

http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20219803/ Fri, 29 Aug 2008 14:01:20 PDT I got this from ShiroiKai~

The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a free sketch. However, in return, you must offer 10 free sketches in your own journal.
( ^You don't NEED to do it! I just decided to follow this because I'm in a creative slump! XD Stupid artblocks.. > . >; )

RULES;
1. NO PR0N PLEASE.
2. Leave reference pictures for me, whether it's an OC or fanart. And only one character per person.
3. And be patient, fools!

[1] Shikkysfranzy
[2] Wolf-Queen
[3] ShiroiKai
[4] TheSealedVoid
[5] Silurian
[6] FlamesOfTheSun
[7] Flock-of-doves
[8] Antipathy00
[9] Celestetheburninator
[10] SL-1900</sup>

]]> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20155366/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20155366/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 19:28:25 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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I'm feeling a bit better now.. > . >;

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I have the feeling I'm giving people the impression that I'm very egotistical.. *sadness*

So what if I'm proud about being 13 at the moment?

Yeah. I just think I'm going to take away all of my notifications of me being 13 and crawl under a rock. Would people be happier then?

....Sorry, I'm just upset.

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....*insert egotistical rant here that no one needs to see anymore*

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I'm so excited for school! 8'D

It's going to be so cool!

And it's going to be my birthday in only a few days!

.....However, right now I'm a bit unhappy besides the excitement.. > . >;

My summer depression is somehow returning. I thought I was rid of it this summer.. Well, okay, every summer before this, I have always been really depressed, mostly around middle and close to the end. But right now, I'm getting depressed again.. Well, okay one thing has to do with the movies me and my friends watched. The movie The Messengers, despite how awesome it was, really scared me. It didn't scare me as much as The Grudge did ( OH MAI GAWD, THAT MOVIE IS TERRIBLE~ D'8 I couldn't go anywhere in my house past 3 PM by myself without crying for about a week afterwards because I was so scared.. ), and directly afterward I felt no fear at all, but it's slowly taking it's toll on my mind when I'm walking past dark rooms.. And the two other things that are contributing to my current 'unhappiness' is that the computer, YET AGAIN, deleted a pic I had been working on! I saved it SO MUCH, and yet! FUCK IT! It deleted my picture!! D8< I FEEL LIKE STABBING SOMETHING!! Last time these things have happened, I have thrown a tantrum.. This wasn't THAT important of a picture, but I still worked fucking hard on it! And I am PISSED!!! And I have a fucking headache~ T n T

*sigh* I just have to remember how school is going to be awesome.. Must think about friends, and learning Mandarin Chinese, and cute boys.. > u <

HELP ME FEEL HAPPY, FRIENDLY WATCHERS!! D'8 You may not actually know me, but please help to reassure me to keep the summer depression from coming back!

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Swamp Naga Redo;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ;
Tempura Tantrum ; http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/20065574/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 18:24:52 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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MY LIFE JUST KEEPS ON GETTING BETTER! First, my dad doesn't get the job. THEN, a terrible panic attack over the boyfriend thing.

BUT NOW, I AM SOOOOO HAAAAPPYY!!!!!!! 8'D *joygasm*

I won the manga contest 1st place, I'm doing an awesome colab manga with my friends, I got a new hat, I got an awesome new HAIRCUT, I love ramen and it's cheap and quick to make, my Naruto obsession is back which causes for MORE girlish shrieks and terminal happiness, I got up that video of Belle finally, I'm drawing a cool Naruto doujin that makes me GLEEFUL, AAAAAAAAANNNNNNNDD............ MORE FUCKING AMAZING HAPPINESS TODAY! 8'D

WELL. Here's the story! Okay, there is a place called the Neutral Zone which is an amazing very artsy teenage hangout spot that is unique to the area in which I live. But, this woman named Michelle recently started up this clothing line and company thing, which is called "Consciously Hip". It has positive phrases such as 'Be Deep', 'Be Happy', 'Be Cause', 'Be Angelic', 'Be Together', 'Be One', and so on, with awesome designs, in black and white, AND..... you can't read it! Okay, the thing is that it's printed backwards, so that you can only see it in the mirror. It's all about boosting self-esteem! PRETTY AWESOME, HUH?! SOOO, she wanted to do a little comercial thing for it, also promoting the Neutral Zone because she thinks that it'd be wonderful if it was in other places, because it's a great program. SOOOO, my sis brought me and me buddeh Tama there, we each got one of the shirts to wear, and we all got filmed ( along with a bunch of teen boys that also go to the Neutral Zone ) on this little hand-held by my sis's buddy Adam, and it's all going to be put to music for this little comercial! It's going to be posted on Youtube, and it'll be awesome! And we got to keep the shirts! And I even got to keep TWO!

NOW, ABOUT THE OPRAH THING! Don't worry, it wasn't just something to get your attention! So, the lady Michelle actually got some comissions for custom shirts for people like Oprah, and Ellen DeGeneres!! SOOOOOO, she's going to mail over the clip to them, and it might get shown on Oprah and stuff!!!!! 8'D ....Sorry if that was disappointing.. |D OH! And it's cool, because one of the shirts I got ( which is the one I'll be wearing in the video ) that says 'Be Peace', is going to be the one that's customized for Ellen DeGeneres! It's the same design, just instead it says, 'Be Ellen'! XD

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!!!!!!!!! And I fucking SCREAMED at the top of my lungs in joy when this news came to be! As SOON as we got home, my mom had bought groceries, AAAAAAAAAND.......... WE GOT THE CHORDS FOR MY SIS'S LAPTOP!!! *SSSSHHHHHRRRRRIIIIIIEEEEEKKKKKK* DIGITAL ART, HERE I FUCKING COME!! 8'D *cries with joy*

......Now I'm off to watch Naruto episodes on Youtube like a crazy woman! >8D *skeedaddles*

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Swamp Naga Redo;
Pixel ID ; http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19986372/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 07:42:03 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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ULTIMATE JOYGASM~!!!! >8D

I just uploaded my FIRST EVER Youtube video! It's a mute clip of my adorable dowgy.... EATING! XD Yes! JUST eating! BUT IT'S ADORABLE! I was feeding her bit by bit, so she thought of it just as a big treat! She starts pawing at my hand, swiping at the air trying to do 'shake' for the food, and she tries to EAT my hand! XD

WATCH IT, FOOL! >8D</sup>

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JESUS EFFING CHRIST!! D8

Well, yesterday, my friend Tama came over. Eventually she got hungry, as living things tend to get. SO. We went downstairs. And, she looked around, and was like, "OOOH~ O 3 O Ramen~" So she made some instant ramen. THEN. I looked at it. And was like, "I hate ramen.. But that looks kinda' good.." so I just had a bit. And HATED it. Apparently it was shrimp ramen. But, for some reason, I just went back and looked into the lazy-susan cupboard because I knew we had a shit load of instant ramen there because my mom bought these CRATES of it once a long time ago. But stopped after a while.. So, I looked around, and found some beef ramen. I just decided to make some, just for the heck of it. SOOOOO~ I tried it. And hated it. But for some reason.. I couldn't stop eating... I ate it all, till there was nothing left at the bottom of the bowl accept some peas and bits of carrot ( I dun' like vegetables~ > 3 <; ) Then today, I was like, ".....Why the hell am I craving ramen?" so I went and made myself some.. But I kept on wanting MORE.. Even though I friggin' hated it! But by now, I've had three friggin' cups of the stuff! And guess what? NOW I'M HOOKED!

OH THE SPECIALNESS OF IT ALL! First, my obsession with Naruto returns ( mainly focused on Kakashiii~<3 > u > ), and then I start craving beef ramen! WHAT? Am I turning INTO Naruto?! What's next? An annoying catch phrase?! Hmm.. Maybe, "Believe THAT!" o 3 o *shot'd*

.........

Ooh, and I got registered for highschool today~ 8'D Apparently, my mother and sis think that my school photo turned out AWESOME. I hope they're right! My ID photo turned out TERRIBLE~ D8 But I'm guessing it's just because it was printed out on the card WIDELY, as all of the pictures were printed out.. BUT WHATEV'! As long as my yearbook photo turns out good!

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EVEN MOAR NEWS!

Well, yeah, I'm now convinced that my obsessions go in cycles.

YOU KNOW WAAAIII? Well, it appears my Naruto obsession is RETURNING!! >8D

........I have no life XD

But NYEH!! I just started drawing a doujinshi manga page for this one scene in Naruto.. XD; If you want to know what part it's off of, NOOOTE MEEEEE!!! >8D MUAUAHAA~

...Because I'm NEVER posting it > u <;; *cough*yaoi*cough* > u >

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I JUST GOT A FRELLIN' NEW HAIRCUT!! 8'D

It's been growing out for about a year and a half, and was just SOOOOOOOOO DUUUUUUUUUUUULLL. I had been wanting to do something with it for the longest time.

SO I DID.

My mom cut my hair so now I have ADORABLE-LICIOUS bangs that I can sweep out to sidebangs if they get too much in the way, AAAAAANNNNDD, now my hair is short-a-rific!! 8'D

TODAY IS HAPPY DAY!! CHEER WITH ME, FOOL! 8'D

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MY UNCLE JACK IS AMAZING!!!!!

Well, he was looking at the old chord for my sis's comp, and tried to fix it. But, sadly, it was just broken.. He said he would take it home and do a more extensive repair on it, then send it back if it worked.

But instead, he just went and bought TWO new chords from eBay for us! And he'll STILL try to repair the old one! If that works out, we'll HAVE THREE! In only a matter of time, WE'LL HAVE THE TABLET AGAIN!! XD

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!! ^ o ^

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As the cheerfulness of the title should show, I have gotten over my sadness. I will still sigh slightly occasionally, but in general I am happy as could freaking be! 8'D

Why? NO ONE KNOWS! Maybe because the colab I'm doing with my friends is really getting somewhere, I can get new stuff on my iPod, I'm really looking forward to school, and my sister gave me this AWESOME HAT! XD

Ooh! But I have yet to go to Wizzywig and use my $35 I got from winning that contest! I don't know where it is, since it was relocated here.. But I'll go there eventually! ^ u ^

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ; ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19909806/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19909806/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 00:19:40 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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Well, that didn't last long...

After some abrupt, horrible news, I burst into two terrible hyperventilating panic-attack-crying-fits, mixed with uncontrollable twitching, mumbling rapidly to myself, and walking around in circles compulsively.. ( I have problems that my family refuses to even TRY to understand or help.. ) my relationship died. Now apparently we're just friends.. And NO, I can not tell you what happened. That's top secret.

..I felt like vomitting for the first hour afterwards. But now I'm feeling a bit better.. Besides, we'll be talking to eachother anyway, even if we're not dating.

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I'm sorry about the last journal, I was just upset..

But I'm doing better now! 8D

ANYWAY, onto the main topic of the journal.

SO, about that character of mine, Daikuro. I made him a long time ago, and really had no info about him besides that he's quiet, what he looks like, and that he loves owls, especially white ones. But at one point in time, my friends, and were going to make a manga together. Vivian's ( otherwise known as Sidney ) characters would be this girl Ane, and another girl yet to be named. Kylah's characters would be the made-of-amazing, Fubuki and Bouji! And my character was to be Daikuro, because that was my main OC at the time. But eventually we didn't talk about it. When Kylah would tell me about her characters, she never mentioned that they'd be in the story, so I just thought that that idea was thrown off to the side officially. So I didn't really do anything with Daikuro after that. I was thinking of putting him in another story, but I never did. THEN, just a few days ago, Vivy called me. She told me that her and Kylah-bear were getting to work on the story again. I was kind of weary at first because I didn't know if Daikuro should be in it or not.. But eventually we came up with something interesting, and now Daikuro's back in! And now he should be coming back!

HOWEVER. I'm thinking of changing him a bit.... For those who remember my Daikuro Colouring Contest, ShiroiKai won and coloured him with red hair and blue eyes. Then I changed it to red hair and silver eyes. WELL. I'm thinking of changing it to white hair and icy blue eyes..... But I don't know! ShiroiKai did win the contest.. ShiirroooiiiKaaii? Can I chaaangge it? o 3 o;

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Pixel ID ;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ; http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19900047/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 15:18:29 PDT Why does the world hate us?

Why is it that when every sign says yes, the answer is no?

Why can't my dad get a job?

What has he done wrong?

NOTHING.

He has epilepsy, and now his adrenal glands are gone. That was a mistake by the doctors.
Then we moved into this fucking house. That was a mistake on our part.

Hoping.

That was my mistake.

Being hopeful does nothing for me.

I hoped that my dad would get this job. I hoped that he would finally be able to get his dream job while getting $40 an hour.

I hoped, and hoped that life would start getting better.

That our budget problems would cease being a problem.

But hoping does nothing.

I'll just ask this; Why?</sup>

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FEATURE;


Another anime artist for your viewing pleasure! ^ u ^
She's a wonder with a pencil and has a great style~

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EDITEDIT;

I forgot to tell you all! In the manga contest at my local downtown library, I WON FUCKING FIRST PLACE!! 8'D

First place in the Highschool age group, because I'm GOING into 9th grade and I'm GOING to be 14!! So that means I beat any 14-18 year-olds that might've entered, even when I'm just 13! HOW FUCKING AWESOME IS THAT?! 8D

..............Oh, and apparently Ben got an account here.. <|D Hiiiii, Beeeennn...... _{Oh shit.. <|D;}


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EDIT;

I FUCKING LOVE BEN~ D8

That is all.

//Had an early date; lots of hugging.

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Yuppers! My 14th birthday is coming up after this month! On Sept. 1st, I shall be older! However, I'm kind of sad because I feel that people won't think I'm special when I reach that age~ D'8

Egotistical fear, I know..

But neh.. I dunno.

HOWEVER, I can't wait to go to my birthday dinner and get PRESENTS!! XD The only things I have on my wishlist are Manga Studio v. 3.0 Debut, and a new charger for my sis's laptop so that I can use it again!

Oh, and hopefully, by the time it reaches my birthday, I'll already have a boyfriend! ^ u ^ Ben says he can't wait until we have our date~ *blushblush* And neither can I! And that is the reason for my journal mood~ XD;

Also, my sunburn's almost gone! So I'm happy about that! ^ o ^

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Art To-Do List
( in order of importance and wanting to-do-it-ness )

Cake Film ;
Pixel ID ;
Do Not Disturb - 100 Piece Challeng ;
Waffle Doggy Chibi ;
Blood - 100 Piece Challenge ;
Ama Pic ; http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19730527/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 05:26:29 PDT ^These are made of WIN^

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FEATURE;


Another anime artist for your viewing pleasure! ^ u ^
She's a wonder with a pencil and has a great style~

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You must be wondering how I can be fucking miserable, but happy at the same time. WELL. I'll tell you the stories, one at a time.....

So, Tama invited me and Lydia to go swimming with her and her dad, brother, and her brother's friend Gavin, at this place called Rolling Hills. I haven't been anywhere swimming this whole summer, and I thought, 'Hey! This'll be FUUCCCKIIING AAAAAWWWEEESSOOOOOMMMEEE!!!' so I went. HOWEVER, despite the fact that it's awesome because it has a Lazy River, two big water slides, an awesome full-for-all-ages watery play structure that dumps and sprays water all over you ( with a squishy floor 8D ), and MOST importantly, a fricken awesome wave pool...... EVERYTHING THERE. IS WHITE. Even the inside of the pools are WHITE! Not blue, WHITE! Which causes light to reflect more! Soooo....... Despite that I put on sunscreen, I guess I need to reapply it more.... BECAUSE FOR THE LAST THREE DAYS I'VE BEEN HAVING THE WORST FUCKING SUNBURN OF MY WHOLE FREAKING LIFE!! ; A ; Day 1, burning and flaming arms, day 2, aching shoulder blades and a stinging face where if you touch my nose it feels like your shoving millions of little bits of jagged glass into it! And Day 3, today, so far, my back HAS BEEN STINGING AND BURNING LIKE NEVER BEFORE! Worse than my arms were on day 1! I feel like dying.. I WANT to die if it'll stop the pain! But no...... I won't kill myself. For one, I told myself many a' year ago that I would never, for two, I ALSO told myself that I would make sure I stayed alive AT LEAST long enough to get out a published book of one of my stories. And three...... the reason why I'm happy.

WELL, I'm happy because.. Well, let me go from the beginning again.. So, you should now that I'm really shy, and that I don't talk to people, but if popular people talk to me, I often act sort of bitchy in my scoffing responses because I always feel that people are making fun of me. So good stuff doesn't normally happen to me, like boyfriend stuff! STOP RIGHT THERE! No one needs to read this! This has been FUTURE-SELF EDITED! I HAVE had one boyfriend, but it was a short, pudgy, gun-loving weirdo named Spyder! Yes, SPYDER! And my pseudo-crush only started when I found out he liked me. It was like a desperate thing, because I wanted a boyfriend so bad. But that was in sixth grade. I don't even count that anymore because I was just desperate then. So I still say that I've never dated!
But ANYWAY, so in 8th grade ( that I'm now out of and going into 9th grade! >8D ) at the end of the year there was this kid named Ben. He was a mousey-looking goth that wore hoodies and chain pants. And also, apparently he was a satanist and liked to talk about disgusting things and he screamed at teachers..... But still I found myself attracted to him! I never wrote about that little obsession in my journals, because his friend Corey ( who is ThePottyDance's (( Cara's )) boyfriend, and him and Ben are NOT friends anymore ever since a fight that made Ben leave the school.. BUT ANYWAY! ) apparently has an account here, but won't tell me the user and I didn't want him seeing it and telling people, and also that I was supposed to not like him, because I acted that way.. Because one day in advisory, sitting in front of him, while he was on the counter in the back and I was in a desk next to this really tall guy Erik who would always be nice and help me with my math ( and apparently still has a huge crush on me.. But I'm not interested in the LEAST anymore.. but was in sixth grade.. ), Ben would continue to poke me, until he found out.... that I squeak. Yup. I squeak. I sound, as Corey puts it, like a 'little chihuahua who's owner got home and was a pissed off drunkard who kicked me' because I yip and squeal if I get surprised and if I get poked in the sides or stomach, or if I'm tickled. And Ben just LOOOVED that. He called me a squeak toy and would constantly say, 'Get over here squeak toy!' and I have to run away so he couldn't poke me! But the thing was, I liked the attention from him.. If Ben wasn't at school that day, I would be really sad. So yeah. And then, he left after that fight with Corey. And my crush sor... ]]> ~ToxicOxygen</sup> http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19676248/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19676248/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 18:46:05 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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FEATURE;


Another anime artist for your viewing pleasure! ^ u ^
She's a wonder with a pencil and has a great style~

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Well, this is just fucky-fuck PERFECT! ( And yes, I know that German.. ) Okay, I just started on such art pieces as a big animation project I've been meaning to do, a pixel ID, a waffle-headed chibi, a girl and a bloody wolf, and another picture of Ama. These are the most works in progress I have ever had all at once!

And now, the fucking FUCKED up cord for my sis's computer, IS DEAD. And suckily, her computer's battery thing died so now it'll only turn on and work if it's plugged in. But anyway, after her first cord died via frayed wires from mouse bites, we waited FOREVER for a "new" one from eBay to arrive. When it did, it worked perfectly for a few days, then apparently if you moved the cord at all, it would turn off! IT HAD A FREAKING SHORT IN IT AFTER JUST A FEW FUCKING DAYS!!! It was very difficult to do art, but I still did Suta Usagi with it, because at least it turned ON! Just last night, it just stopped working all together! It turned off just because I was scratching an itch on my leg, and it just wouldn't turn back on! Now we're going to half to wait another five million years to get a new one! Or have my dad fix the old one, like he SAID he was going to do! ( My dad was a prodigy in wiring and technology.. o n o Seriously~ He was reading circuitry books when he was two and could wire the whole house by age SIX. SIX I say! D8 )

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Anyway, but off of the drama-anger-drama, onto the career part.

Well, so many people think that I'll be going into drawing for a career. But my dream career ever since I was in 3rd grade ( and I'm going to go into 9th grade in about a month.. ) is to be an author! But I've been seeing that a lot of adults on this website have been making money other ways! Doing lots of high-price commissions, selling T-shirts and books with art (not manga though) and all that! So I pondering the thought of actually having a little snippit career of art..

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Oh, and regarding 'GOD', I dub myself GOD OF COMMENTS! >8D
I've been thinking about this for a long time. But did you know that I have been known to give incredibly long comments? A lot of times, very maturely and almost even DD-worthy?

And I know you don't care! But I'm 'unna show you some of the comments I've given people! C:<

Well, my most DD-worthy comment is my latest long one;

Given to on his piece "Circus Princess"
Your angle and perspective is wonderful! I try, and I try, and I can never get these kind of outcomes with the anatomy and background!

And your colouring! Great use of gradients and everythings so vibrant and glowy! ^ o ^

I also quite like this character. Very interesting hair and I love the little quirks and details of her. Like, her harlequin costume, and her little collar which reads ' party ', her bag ( wonder what's in it? ), her ' crown ' ( I think it is.. ), and even her eyelashes! All of it, even the eyelashes, give her that playful, boisterous, but still mischievous personality. She's also quite beguiling, with that outstretched hand with the ball and that expression that just has that trace of, 'Come play with me.'

I also think it's very adorable that you used small, variously coloured chibi animals at the bottom! It was very cute and clever! And it was also clever to post on that admission ticket! It was a creative way to label your picture.

This picture is full of fantasy, colour and curiosity. That is why I must fave it! ^ u ^

( Yet again, sorry for the long comment... )

Here's my LONGEST one.

Given to on her piece "The Apprentice"
This picture is too astounding for words, but I will still do my best to describe my awe;

When I take a look at this amazing piece of work, a shiver races the length of my spine and spreads through my shoulders, spiking the base of my neck. It's such a sensation for the mind and eyecandy to see! Every small fleck of... ]]></sup> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19554980/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19554980/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 12:24:10 PDT Yup! I'm going to do commissions!

~Payment~
I request payment in subscriptions. You'll see the price ranges are seen below under the type of art.

~Rules~
* I won't do cheesecake drawings, pr0n, or anything like that.
* Be patient. I have to wait my turn on my sis's ThinkPad a lot.
* Payment must either happen before you get your piece, or up to five days after.
* I have full authority to reject requests, or ask you to dull down the complexity.

~Simple Sketches~
Full Lineart (Any) - 1 Month
Sketchy Scribbly-ish Lineart (Any) - Free

~Coloured Pieces~
Busts/Headshots (With Simple Colour Background) - 1 Month
Busts/Headshots (With Complex Background) - Two 1 Months
Full Body (With Simple Colour Background) - Two 1 Months
Full Body (With Complex Background) - 3 Months
Additional Characters (Bust/Headshot) - Free per char.
Additional Characters (Full Body) - 1 Month per char.

~Requesting~
Comment on this journal to request. Include as much information about your request as possible. After you post, I will look it over and decide the price.
Also, for coloured pieces, choose what kind of colouring you would like on your character, painty, or cell-shading. However, backgrounds will always be painty, and fur will be the style that I used in my + Light My Way.... + piece.

~Questions?~
If you have any questions, note me.

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Happy requesting! XD

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...On what to do.

Art-wise, that is.

Well, I know I'm sticking to anime as my main thing, but I still haven't settled on particular style of anime! I'm always wanting to change it in some small way! As well with my CGing! I just don't know where to settle.. But, I mean I like the CGing I've been doing recently, but it's a little hard, and I was just recently looking at some of 's stuff, and began thinking of other art pieces I could do..

So I just don't know.

And I also don't know whether to start asking about commissions again! I still want to try to see if someone would care for one, but I've already asked so much.. I fear I'm becoming annoying.. And I'm still fuzzy on how they work, too! I was thinking being payed in subscription money, if I ever did commissions at all....

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Art To-Do List
Light My Way... - Major Edit ; :star-emtpy::star-emtpy::star-emtpy::star-emtpy:
Tempura Tantrum ;
New Hamster OC - Clay n' Photo ;
New Hamster OC - Down The River ;
Psychoo OC Meme ;
Daikuro's Scarred Past ; Abandoned idea

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Awesome dA Peeps ~ a.k.a Awesome Friends</sup>

~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19380721/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19380721/ Thu, 17 Jul 2008 13:05:08 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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I'm not a real artist.

You know why?

Because I only do anime.
Sure, I do digital paintings, but that's only about under 10% of all the art that I do.

And I don't do cartoon characters, I don't sculpt, I don't do realism, besides some of my pictures from before. My art is anime, and that's all it'll ever be. I liked that fact about me, all until today.

And do you know why THAT is?

Because my dad says so. My whole family doesn't support that I do anime. I mean, sure, they like my art, but NONE of them like anime. My dad despises it, actually. He thinks that every character just has freaking huge eyes and doesn't see the subtleties in different styles or characters. He thinks I should have about 50% of my art being something different. He thinks I'm cheating myself because I'm not doing something else. But I love anime. It's what I'm good at.

But he doesn't think so.

I was near to crying because I realized none of my family will ever think my art is good enough because it's anime.

My mom likes my art, but once when I showed her an attempt at an anime profile that I did ( about a year ago, when I couldn't do profiles worth shit until that one that I drew ) and she said, beaming, "Oh! It's nice to see you're doing something other than anime!" but I just told her that it was, and she had a bit of disappointment in her voice afterwards.

And my sister just doesn't care for it.

But my dad, he thinks I should just drop anime. And I quote, "Just drop anime."

I'm really upset, and don't think I'm an actual artist.

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Art To-Do List
Tempura Tantrum ;
New Hamstar OC - Clay n' Photo ;
New Hamster OC - Down The River ;
Psychoo OC Meme ;
Daikuro's Scarred Past ;

^As you can see, I have a LOT of ideas, but barely any progress~ ; _ ;

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I just got back from the theater. And from the title, you should know that I went to see Hellboy 2....


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*squeals*

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH~!! <3 XD

OH MAI GAWD, it was wonderful!! * v *

So artsy, with great ideas and places.
All the characters are wonderful and well designed too!
And despite that they changed Abe's voice, he still sounds the same to me! He's still amazing! And has a much bi... ]]></sup> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19339181/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19339181/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 16:23:14 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

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So, it was like this...

Me and me sis wanted to watch a movie. But she couldn't think of what to watch. So I listed off a shit load of movies for consideration. And finally, I said to myself, "I haven't watched this in a while.." and said, "What about Harry Potter 5?"

And so we watched it.

And BOOM! I had a sudden interest in Harry Potter once again. So I picked up where I left off in the sixth book, and by now I'm to chapter sixteen ( I'm a slow reader! ^ . ^; ) And then after all that reading, I got in the mood to start writing again. But writing a specific story..... My AWBR story! And that stands for the title, 'A World Beyond Reflection'! I started it when I was eight, and left off somewhere in it a long time ago, after a few years of an avid writing obsession! So it was nice to pick up! Though I even had to dig up an older copy of my story to catch up because I had forgotten what happened next! XD;

Though, you'd think that since I've been working on it for about five years it would be freaking long by now. NOPE! I actually only have 42 pages.
But here's the difference.. When I began making the story, it was almost IDENTICAL to Harry Potter! It was so horribly written! D'8 And that's why watching or reading Harry Potter makes me want to write more! Because that was the very beginning of my inspiration! But anyway, I constantly rewrote it, renamed it, and thought of all of my sequals ( since it's a series ). But finally I came out with a copy that I was proud of. Something that worked, and worked well. So after rewriting parts of it for the balillionth time, it know has good writing. And I just started adding onto what I hope will be my final copy! ( Well, you know what I mean.. )

I also spent a lot of time working on my sequals too, as I said. And a LOOOOOT of time writing down notes about plot twists, different characters, a prolouges to parts of the stories.

I really wish I could post my writing here, or tell you guys about it, but I am WAAAAAAY too paranoid of my work being stolen by horrible people~ D'8

I've worked too hard and too long on my ideas, and I am NOT jeopardizing all of it because I posted it on the internet and some crazy jackass came by and saw it, stole it, printed it and got it published! > n <''

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In other news...

I lub da new dA!! >8D

Sure, a few tweaks to V6 would be appreciated... But it's SOOO improved!</sup>

]]> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19216511/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19216511/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 13:19:02 PDT <sup>^These are made of WIN^

Nevermind. I'll find a way to deal with my brain dyingness some other way than dishing out all of the info on my characters.

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Should my Lightning Belle be made into an OC? I'm considering it.. A LOT....

But I just wanna know about what you think first!

Also, if you think she'd be a good OC, have any name suggestions?

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EDIT;

Well, using the paper sucked.
It made the colours fade MAJORLY, and the varnish only helped that somewhat, AND curled the paper and made it floppier!

SO, we went to Staples and got some double-sided matte photo paper........ BA-BOOM!! It's amazing!!! 8'D The paper is sturdy, and the colours are so VIVID!! ^ o ^

I was literally dancing with joy~ T u T

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Well, my very good friend,</sup> , is entering this anime art contest. It's this big thing where a bunch of districts participate. She's entered before, and won second place! Sure, she's better than I am, but I think I might win SOMETHING! She says that digitally drawn anime pics that are printed in colour are allowed, so me and me muuther just spent the last two hours getting this coloured printer to work, so we could print off my Lightning Belle picture, and then we coated the paper in varnish and are baking it right now to get it to be glossy! Then, we might paste some cardboard on the back or frame it or something. But after all that's done, we'll go to the library where it's hosted and get all of our info and forms.

Wish me luck~! ^ u ^

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In other news, why do people keep on taking my icons? D8

To my knowledge, 3 people have already used my toast icon! Yes, the one that I am already USING! D8 One person who used a poor quality, non-animated version of it is now banned for whatever reason. Then, just yesterday someone who you'll see commented on my first page told me of someone using it. And then when I told THAT person to remove it, they said that they got it from somebody else! GAAAH!! And they don't even remember who it was!

THEN, I just caught somebody else using my tea icon without permission. They are NOT free icons, people! > 3 <;

Now my mood somewhat fits this part! >|C

]]> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19200226/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19200226/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 10:30:13 PDT The block is broken! 8'D

My last two pictures broke it in freaking HALF! Chopped it up and hid it under the floorboards! I am happy once again! I now have pride with my abilities~ T u T

But let's just see if I can keep it up..

And apparently all of my friends are getting better too! Tamakari-chan's last piece shows that she is improving greatly on her chibis, making them less geometrical, and ThePottyDance's photography is getting so beautiful!

( P.S. ~ Why is the stupid mood thing not working?!! D8 )

]]> ~ToxicOxygen http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19098294/ http://ToxicOxygen.deviantart.com/journal/19098294/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 19:25:13 PDT Eh, I just went into a artist's block. However, it's not because of lack of ideas. I have plenty of ideas, mind you. But it's just that I scrap most of my works in progress now. The pieces you recently saw, they were the lucky ones that got finished~ O n O

But I'm kind of at a low point in my mind. I am really depressed that I can't do any better than what I am right now. The two people I am faving over is messa, and Nanneh. Messa's CGing style is plainly GORGEOUS. How does she do it? If I try to do CGing like that, it turns out like shit. And Nanneh, she has the most adorable chibis in the UNIVERSE. I've never seen any chibis that were cuter, in no manga, no anime, and no art piece. And my trouble is that I simply am not good as them, no matter how hard I try. And it makes me sad.

However, with the messa thing, I guess I shouldn't be so worked up, considering that she is 20 and I'm still just 13.. When I get older, I should get better. It's just what happens.

*sigh*

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