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Hell it's almost over!

One week left of classes, then exams, then FREEDOM...
Until March..
Just made up my mind.. and I can't wait to start! Law and Political Science in UP. Then maybe a major in Psychology, and then International relations, and then when I have money I'll head up somewhere REAL COOL to get a major on photography! Yeah I'll be a college student forever

So I'm hoping I'll have more time soon, to start again. Yes I miss so much taking pictures. And, thank god, I still got my Pentax with me

See you in the comics

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]]> ~Toxique-Bella http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/18009143/ http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/18009143/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 15:06:35 PDT . Situation resolved.
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I haven't been around much lately, I know. Last time I actually attempted to write up something here was about my big disappointment with a person because of it's tremendous lacking of professionalism in work. Not getting into details on that, maybe the poor guy is even in here and tracks me or something (facebook stalking complex, all over again). So I'll be brief and say I'm getting my hands dirty again with work that being on my school's yearbook pictures (hell! HELL! It's really tiring when its all about you controlling groups of 40 crazed up school girls.. it gets pretty annoying (and low-spiriting too), when they say things like "YOU COULDN'T AFFORD MEMO, RIGHT?"). But then again, I'm not gonna let anyone come to me with that shit on their mouths . Just for that I think I'll be printing a VERY BIG "CRISTINA DR" watermark on their picture. On my personal work, I got a couple people still waiting to confirm, so.. maybe in a week or two things might come to a change XD.
<3.

Other than business, I must mention my big disappointment with American Idol (not really, just on the mistake the US just made) right now.
CARLY SMITHSON IS THE SUPERSTAR!
I'm craaaazy on that girl, she is the idol

xoxo, cristina

]]> ~Toxique-Bella http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/17293175/ http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/17293175/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 20:25:16 PDT As a second detail I might just mention that I hated the sad fact that my birthday was the day before I started...
Anyway I had moooore than enough to drink that day, it's my last year
And it will be kinda fun

Amen I've waited for this year to come all my lifeeee!
Hopefully I'll keep taking photographs just as much ;D even if my plans are to get straight grades all the year!

Actually, I'll be asking an actual model I know this week to work with me, I need more diverse and exotic models I'm just so happy I'm working this much!

On other news I'm missing the most important book in the list: my Politic Sciences book. Apparently the author recently died and never left anything written about the printing of his book, and if I'm planning to use it from here to when I graduate from college.. well.. I'm screwed! :S Damn career I'm picking! I think his name was Bernardo Quintero or Something Quintero. Any help?

Just needed to write that

Anyway.. my life signs are shown

]]> ~Toxique-Bella http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/16895378/ http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/16895378/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 08:18:08 PST it's been a while since the last time I wrote anything in here.. besides wishing you all had a better valentine's than my own, I'd like to record some things.

First, probably the least important, as you will see pretty soon I've been working on pictures of couples (oh yeah, love for everyone) which is something I've always wanted to do since I started. I think it's beautiful.. two people and all<3. New models too, which is very rewarding. This is my way of celebrating my own lonely valentines since my own boyfriend isn't here with me for the dates.

Second, shorter but maybe more important, I'm pretty mad at this goddamn government. I hope fellow panamanians can understand why.

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My deviation, This will all Fade 1, was featured in:
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Thanks a lot to

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Xmas Update:
Well first of all, I wish you all a Merry Christmas (and a Happy New Year, when it comes)
Soon I hope I'll introduce you all to my new kid, my Canon
Of which I totally dreamed for, for years... specially this year because I found out how expensive my Pentax was turning out to be.

]]> ~Toxique-Bella http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/15367399/ http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/15367399/ Sun, 04 Nov 2007 18:59:26 PST dudoso honor de estar frente al señor presidente, y aun así me planté mi sonrisa y mi gracia. Juré a Dios y a la Patria todos los lunes por doce años de mi vida sin realmente ver un significado que no realizo hasta ahora.

Y sabes algo, Panamá? Me tienes enamorada. Con locura.

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May I invite you to visit me at -----> _{My Carbonmade Photo Resume;; Updated almost Daily!}

Note the beautiful part where it says "Available for Freelance"


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Cool. I feel like I've paid all the pending things I had to do. I raised horribly my grades (and this freaking thing doesn't end yet!) and as you see, I've been pretty inactive since the last photoshoot I did (Ana Melissa's Black/White) which was pretty succesfull thanks to some good folks . This last four weeks have been just CRAZY for me.

School has kept me so busy! But in the end it pays, I'm all full of 40's and 50's (A's and B's) in my report cards. And I also got very well known in my school for the photographs I'm taking. When this bymestral tests week (it starts tomorrow) ends, your inboxes will be flooded, I swear

Yes, I have around 6 girls with a pending request of a photoshoot. And I'll be charging a little, so it will be easier and will give more to the cause. Still I can foresee that planning something GOOD for them will be all about tough cookies! And I want to do something for my boyfriend.. something really luring!

Besides the photoshoot things, I'll sintethize some of the reasons my life has been so twisted and busy. Right now I'm very into my band activities and I got accepted in a Project-Activity done for eleventh graders, which consists in like creating a small enterprise and make it really succesful. I hope to be remembered as someone whose opinions count and a big ideas' carrier. Ideas pop out from my head all the time! I'll get even busier with that in not so much time, when the big phase of production starts. I know I'll have fun. Also comparsas are coming, that's another crap I'll be dealing with.

Yes, sometimes I do feel like I have no time to sleep. But you see, I've found some good 10 minutes to write something in this space and tell you that I'm perfectly alive, better than ever and soon returning from this little break with all my forces



And this freaking next bymester I'll throw the damn stone even farther!

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Clubs and Chats I'm into...
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May I invite you to visit me at -----> My Carbonmade Photo Resume;; Updated almost Daily!

Note the beautiful part where it says "Available for Freelance"


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Yeah, you just read the title. Thanks for the 7000 pageviews Quoting the moon landing, it's a small step for a deviant, but a big step for.. me?

This is the chance to say Thank You to those who have been there. No matter who you were or who you are. You made it different for me.




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Clubs and Chats I'm into...


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May I invite you to visit me at -----> _{My Carbonmade Photo Resumé; Updated almost Daily!}

Note the beautiful part where it says "Available for Freelance"

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OH MY LORD.

I got the pictures. I got the pictures. I GOT THE DAMN PICTURES !
Black and White.

Be prepared

Prof. Johnson this is a remark for you, que le exhorta a que las chequee ! Don't pass this by... !

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Clubs and Chats I'm into...


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May I invite you to visit me at -----> _{My Carbonmade Photo Resumé}

Noten la hermosa parte donde dice "Available for Freelance"
Note the beautiful part where it says "Available for Freelance"


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Bien! Básicamente estoy escribiendo aqui a las 12:44 de la noche cuando debería estudiar química xD So, what's coming up next? After two of the nicest photoshoots I've ever made [here the parenthesis starts..

(Stairway Photoshoot: you know, it's pretty curious when a couple cops see you taking pictures of a girl making weird poses in the just inaugurated Multiplaza Stairway, and come around and say they want you to take a picture of them ! )

(Rooftop Photoshoot: I was astounded! I swear I'll never make a photoshoot again when I know there are so many rude people around! I protected the damn girl but.. the person who could be seen was me -_- . )

...here the parentheses end] What's coming up next?

Good, I think it's just about time to try black and white.. hmm.. I wonder how will that turn out.

]]> ~Toxique-Bella http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/12402871/ http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/12402871/ Sat, 31 Mar 2007 13:49:04 PDT .

Un journal en el que plasmo algo personal, y a la vez perfecto para dA. Lo escribí para mi LJ pero he decidido compartirlo aqui.-

-Excussez moi, I seriously thought I had written this in English -


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Pasado poco mas de un año desde que empece a tomar fotos, y alrededor de un mes desde que comence con película, creo que por fin he visto la luz en cuanto a mi problema

Siempre hay algo en mis fotos, que al verlas una segunda vez me hacen pensar... caDrajo! (con D) pudo ser mucho mejor. Tambien siempre hay un pequeño sentimiento de culpa, con mi sobre-improvisación en cada foto que tomo. No es malo, sin embargo, por que asi he aprendido a controlar diversas situaciones (no todas pero bastantes ) y a sacarle provecho a cualquier infortunio (como que toque el timbre del recreo o me vea una profesora y tenga que echarle un cuento para que no me quite la cámara ;D). Con la película siempre he sido preparada, contando con mi buen rollo de repuesto, de lo cual no puedo decir lo mismo con la digital (si se me acababa la batería en medio de la sesion... uy!).

El punto es que aunque empece bien en el super road de la fotografía, habia un pequeño espacio vacío. Y yo supe siempre que era, aunque era tannn borroso ... por fin veo suficiente luz para enfocarme. El problema que siempre vi fue mi excesiva improvisacion, no demasiados planes y.. por que no.. algo de miedo. Hace un año siempre tenia en la cabeza que nunca podria tomar fotos decentes (entiendase: como una memita!) xD. Con esto quería decir que no tenia las mismas ideas locas y retorcidas que al final terminaban por dejame con la baba afuera, ni los elementos ni las modelos que realmente me resultaran multifacéticas para hacer esto (uy, encontre mi fab four... despues de mucha busqueda). No planeo echarle la culpa a las modelos de mi propia falta xD pero es parte de mi ansiedad (si, MIAAA. Nada con ustedes, es mia). Tengo planes, tengo ideas, pero siempre algun infortunio viene y se presenta... estoy un poco harta de eso .

No voy a negar que mis fotos han causado satisfaccion, saltitos all over the place, gritos de emoción y "un pequeño ataque al corazón" como diria Bree Hodge, al abrir mi primer sobre con fotos reveladas -Por cierto, coño eso si que sale carooo !-. Creo que esto es por algo que creo que mencione arriba, he podido controlar y sacar alguito de provecho de mi propia espontaneidad semi-escondida. Es siempre interesante escuchar como se plasman sentimientos, señales y demas signos (inserte aqui: ______) en una foto. Tambien estan esas que se que fueron un exito, que siguen recibiendo faves y comentarios, pero.. no me siento realmente orgullosa. Fotos que si aun conservo en deviantArt es por que siguen siendo mi trabajo, mi esfuerzo y me causaron felicidad en algun momento de mi vida.

Saben algo, estoy diciendo paja! Aunque no puedo evitar sentirme asi, a cada persona que he tenido en mi lente la he llegado a conocer -al menos brevemente- y ha tenido al menos algo de impacto en mi vida. Y todos son impactos buenos, sin excepcion. Eso creo que le da un poquito de mi toque a las fotos. Me han dicho cosas muy what the phuck en este lapso de tiempo ("Tu solo tienes un estilo" , "No haces nada nuevo" , inserte aqui: ______") que son bienvenidas y mal-largadas, por que, aunque ya las deje atras, estoy por hacer Reversa y pasarles encima de nuevo .

Voy a ponerme un buen casco y equiparme. Y trazare mis mapas para lanzarme. Despues de inspirarme con mis idolos xD y drogarme un poco con los Beatles -"I use Beatles as an excuse to go mad "-, despues de conocer un poco... ]]> ~Toxique-Bella http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/12145105/ http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/12145105/ Sun, 11 Mar 2007 14:32:09 PDT
Brad Delp
June 12, 1951 - March 9, 2007

Praise him forever.



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Current Wishlist:
- A "real looking" (or real, I don't mind) gun.. (creo que pasare por alguna juguetería haha)
- Models (ver lo que dije arriba, un par mas no me haría daño )
- A subscription
- New Lens for the beba.

(Found an old and abandoned Macro Lens hidden in my mom's closet )

That's all, folks.. have a nice day

--'Lil Update:
Goddamit! Having carnavales ahead my first purpose was to actually finish using my DAMN first film thing with Tisty and Monica.. but it seems the film had 36 exposes instead of 24...

Hell that kind of things are the ones that make me slow as a... slug thing.

So, today I think I'm going out and get it done
Film Photography comes out as a so stressingly fun thing to do

Makes ends meet, and Kickstarts my . Will write more later

]]> ~Toxique-Bella http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/11287119/ http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/11287119/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 11:09:04 PST My Reason of Happiness:

Tengo una nueva-vieja bebe!!!

New/Old Baby! Film SLR Pentax MZ-50!

New/Old.. because it had been my mom's Abandoned for years in a nowhere place... and oh phuck, I found it! Now it's mine



I'll have to say goodbye to my money.. gotta invest wisely from now on, for the film and getting it revealed. Dang, I'll also quest for a new lens... and darkroom knowledge would be fine too


But.. ---> SLR Camera..
I had not been so excited since... man I DON'T KNOW!



Only left to say: Happy 2007, everyone! I hope all of you are as happy as I am And thank you for all your support and feedback! I cannot believe I can now say I have a WHOLE YEAR on photography...

Feels like



- being excited is just too tiring!


]]> ~Toxique-Bella http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/10305294/ http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/10305294/ Fri, 06 Oct 2006 15:17:08 PDT Scary shit La bebe se divierte

//Edit: 4 Photoshoots !! haha..

I'm now caring a bit less about exposure. And much more about how much I like what I'm seeing through the lens.

This year will soon come to an end, and I'm pretty much realizing. How much we've all done on this time. And what is it.

And what we'll do later, of course. I'm getting some fame at school, for my photos, and about 7 classmates have told me "I kind of see you studying for that as a career..."

"If you didn't have a talent, I'd tell you you're gonna die and starve on the streets. But you do have a talent." ... I kind of feel flattered

And.. boy, I'm gonna stop making birthday gifts to people when their birthdays are coming! I'm gonna take pictures instead...!

Gad La bebe se divierte...

//Edit: 3000 Pageviews! In a month! You shall be loved, guys.. !

]]> ~Toxique-Bella http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/10041760/ http://Toxique-Bella.deviantart.com/journal/10041760/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 16:45:02 PDT
September 11th, 2006...

5 years have been past since the day the world trembled and tried hardly to contain their tears. 5 years have been past, and what I mostly remember was people just panicking. 5 years since a quite ironic tragedy occured.

Why do I call it Ironic?

"American history does not distinguish between civilians and military, and not even women and children. They are the ones who used the bombs against Nagasaki. Can these bombs distinguish between infants and military?" - Osama bin Laden

You tell me if this tragedy ever distinguished, as well, between civilians, military, children or woman?

Quoting Osama brings me to my biggest interogative in such moments.

How would it feel to be Osama?

To be someone who has made the world remember the day you suddenly "appeared". The day you spilled blood around the people you mostly hated, for a "moral" purpose.

To call an act of war and destruction as saint. To believe in revenge and to try to win and build your own stairway to heaven with it.

To be the cause of the tears of men. The cause of despair of woman. The cause of confusion of kids. The cause of shame of the wiser, and the cause of hatred of the masses.

To have your face spread into magazine covers all over the world, announcing their fear for you. And.. yes, why not? People who will kneel to your image, as their Prophet and role model in this world. (Para ustedes: Os Amará Bin Laden?)

How it is to be "Something" because I cannot call it human. A being that lives on complete hiding, to not being able to step into light because of an inminent risk of death. To have such a goal, to extermine all the non-muslim human ents in the world... to be admired for that, to be feared for that.

Yet not being able to do anything.

My question is: How could anybody ever live such a life? I don't get it. ]]> ~Toxique-Bella