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I'm switching to ~tsuxx. o-o Kind of done on a whim. Explanations are there. Not important though.

SO YEAH BYE FROM HERE AND WATCH ME THERE. BYEBYEBYEBYE-

*hyper twitching*

]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14664326/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14664326/ Sun, 16 Sep 2007 18:25:22 PDT I already know it's going to look bleak for me.
*wipes away tears* ;;


~*~
The more [x]'s, the dumber you are.
Be completely honest!

18 or lower means you're not stupid.


[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.

[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door. (TRY MY MOM'S FRIEND'S WEDDING. 8D)

[ ] You have jumped out/off of a moving vehicle.

[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed out loud, then people gave you weird looks.

[x] You have run into a tree.

[x] It Is possible to lick your elbow.

[x]You just tried to lick your elbow.

[ ] You never knew that the 'Alphabet' and 'Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star' have the same rhythm.

[x] You just tried to sing them.

[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.

[x] You have choked on your own spit.

[ ] You have seen the the Matrix and still don't get it.

[x] You didn't notice that in the last question "the" was spelled twice.

[x] You just looked at it.

[ ] Your hair is blonde/dirty blonde.

[x] People have called you slow.

[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire. (SHOEZ)

[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.

[ ] You have caught yourself drooling.

[x] You've fallen asleep in class.

[x] If someone says "fart" you laugh.

[ ] Sometimes you just stop thinking.

[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about.

[x] People shake their heads and walk away from you.

[x] You are often told to use your "inside voice".

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math.

[x] You have eaten a bug. (unintentionally inhaled)

[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something important.

[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.

[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand, hair or pocket.

[ ] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't even when you know it won't happen to you. (...WHATTT? o-o)

[ ] You break a lot of things.

[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.

[x] You sometimes tilt your head when you're confused.

[x] You have fallen out of your chair before.

[x] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling. (it gets creepy. :{)

[x] The word "Umm" is used many times a day.
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LMAO. OH WOW.
... *sob*


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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14479663/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14479663/ Mon, 03 Sep 2007 22:13:22 PDT I figure.. WHY NOT SPAM MY HAPPY HERE, TOO?
Better than that last journal entry.

I PRE-ORDERED TSUBASA OVA DVD #1 TODAY. (If you don't know what I'm taking about.. FOR SHAME!)
It's for pre-order at Amazon.jp. :'D I could wet my pants with explosive happiness right about now.

Didja think I was gonna put diarrhea or something? lol

..Good.


ANYHOW. I worked my ass off for that DVD. And once #2 and #3 of the OVA come out with volume's 22 and 23, I shall have them all, and I shall be happily obsessed in love~~~ ♥ ♥ ♥

(if you honestly care, though, go [link] for info and [link] for pre-ordering!)


And that is all.

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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14383738/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14383738/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 16:43:51 PDT Because it's so fun to be oppressed~!

I bloody hate this house right now. Someone shoot me, or something.


Tsubasa 164. Holy shit.
That's all I have to say.


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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14368243/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14368243/ Mon, 27 Aug 2007 16:43:30 PDT NOEFFINGWAY.

Chapter 129 of D.Gray-man has officially ripped my brains out.

...Lavi. ;_;

...AND GUESS WHAT LIVEJOURNAL IS BEING A PRICK AND NOT UPDATING FOR ME SO YOU GET MY DWEEB COMMENTS.

Honestly, if I had the energy, you would get a rant on all the stupid annoying shit attacking my life right now, too. BUT I AM TOO SPAZZY TO THINK ABOUT THOSE THINGS. D.GRAY. OHMYGOD.

;___;

*sob*



And that is all.


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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14261721/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14261721/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 18:59:49 PDT Why the hell do I hear a music box playing that so-very-familiar tune? Am I going crazyyy? o___o

*twitchtwitch*


Hey look, for there is more spam to be had!


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1) Full Name: Chantelle Marie Murphy.

2) Male/Female: Female!

3) Were you named after anyone?: Nope. Completely sporadic, I guess.

4) Does your name mean anything?: It roughly means 'to sing' in French, but otherwise I think it's just a name.

5) Nick Name(s): Tsu-chan, Tsu, Tsuka, Chan-chan, Chantelley

6) What do you think you look like... name wise: Uh. Meee? I've been told I look like Arwen from LotR (yeahright, so not seeing it), and a few other random people like that, but I don't think I look like anyone.

7) Date Of Birth: May 6th, 1990.

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Edmonton, Alberta || St. Albert, Alberta. Canada~.

9) Nationality: Canadian. As for what the mix is, it includes Dutch, Irish, and Cree.

10) Astrology Sign: Taurus.

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Horse.

12) Religion: I believe in myself~ ♥

13) Whats your favorite smell?: Pina colada, roses, and rain.

14) Political Position?: I do not care. But if I had to care... Liberal.

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: Water. :} Although I really want mom to buy ice java. Yeahnotgonnahappen.

16) Hair + Eye color: Brown with natural highlights + blue. You can never really give one sole color to an eye, though, but the main color in there is da bloo.

17) Do you look like anyone famous?: Eh, refer to question #6. I don't think I do.

18) What do you look like?: Like a.. 17-year-old girlie?

19) Any unusual talents?: I have double-jointed hips, but so do other people.

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: Ambidextrous to a point, but mostly left-handed.

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: Gayyy~.

22) What do you do for a living?: Sit on my ass. It's great living!

23) What do you do for fun?: Blast my music/sing along with my music.. Be crazy? Whatever the day brings.

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: Mm, these days I've not found a reason to draw much. I get the urge, but it's small and not inspirational enough. :{ But good ol' pencil and paper always did the trick. I have a tablet, though.

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: Tablet. And some amazing skills that can come out of nowhere AANYTIME NOW.

26) Have you met your grandparents?: I got to meet both my grandma's, but both my grandpa's were dead before I was born or old enough to interact.

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Nope.

28) Crush: Eh, it's quite waning. Not really.

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: Bleh.

30) Current worries?: The future, this coming year, ... cosplay... xD

31) Favorite online guy/girl(s): Tooo difficult. I have a few that I really do love. ♥

32) Favorite place to be?: Anywhere with friends, and usually outside at the same time.

33) Least favorite place to be?: Here, although it really isn't that bad when I'm not lonely.

34) Do you burn or tan?: Burn, which then turns into a tan. Tans are sick. ;;

35) Ever break a bone?: Not that I know of. I may have broken my toes at random times, but the worst I've gotten was a loonie stuck in my throat and a chipped shinbone. o-o

36) What is your favorite cereal?: I go through phases. I really like Corn Flakes, Special K and Fruit Loops, though.

37) Person you cry with: No one, really. xD I've never been sad enough around another to cry. Not for a looong time, now.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: Nope.

39) Any brothers: Nope.

40) Any pets: Dog, cat and bird.

41) An Illness: No?

42) A Pager: Lol.

43) A Personal phone line: Loool I hate phones mostly.

44) A Cell phone: Yes!

45) A visible birthmark: Nope.

46) A Pool or hot tub: I wish~.

47) A Car: I want my scootah. :{

Describe Your...

48) Personality: Eccentric? I dunno. x) Outgoing, sensitive, happy, random, smart, caring.. Could go on.

49) Driving: No idea. Have yet to try it.

50) Your clothing style: I'd love to make it completely decora, FRUiTs and/or lolita, but I haven't the money. :{ For now, it's how it's been since grade 10 brought me out of my stupid adolescence and into self-confidence and intelligence; I wear what I like.

51) Room: Got my personality, but DAMN is it too small and cluttered..

52)... ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14169927/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14169927/ Tue, 14 Aug 2007 19:05:14 PDT Don't you just love how my journal titles for entries since the day of my birthday have all-- more or less --been sound effects?
ISN'T THAT JUST LOVELY?!

I think so.

I'm going to do a long-overdue miniquiz thing now.. Not because I was tagged recently (I ignore old tags. I didn't want to ever do it so I didn't do it) but because I actually have stuff to say now about myself. So please enjoy. (But don't worry if you don't, I could care less~. (I'm also very hyper right now. Can't you tell?))


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|| Rules:

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 Weird Habits/Things About Yourself", and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 Weird Habits/Things, as well as state this rule clearly.
In the end, you need to choose the next people to be tagged and list their names. ||

1. I'm constantly worrying about my future. It's a bit frightening when you don't know WHERE and WHAT the hell to begin with your life/where to go/what you want to do with it/where you'll be & MANY various related questions I'm sure many people have and continue to ask themselves. I just get a bit too.. Scared, sometimes.
2. I think I'm extremely rare when it comes to our generation of kids. I'm not very stereotypical, and I think I'm a bit proud of that. I don't feel above anyone, not at all, but I definitely feel like I have a more refreshing, wise grasp on life than a lot of people my age have. I feel smart and happy to have my brain, more or less.
3. I have a HORRIBLE habit of biting my nails. It'll change, but not anytime soon. It's an off-and-on love-hate relationship. ): If you see me doing this (biting my nails or chewing the skin around) slap me!
4. I absolutely fucking love music. Everything on my Winamp is amazingly beautiful and loved by me in all sorts of different ways, and I love music sharing, and usually like the songs sent to me 90% of the time. Feel free to engage me in a discussion about a cool band you want to show me, or if you need music or want any music suggestions from me; I love the feeling of spreading a band or artist's wonderful songs to other people, as I think music is absolutely an amazing form of expression and is brilliant. It WILL crush me if you absolutely hate my music and bash me for it, though, because I'm in love with my music taste and bashing it really does make me feel personally offended. So be open. Open-minded people can go places faster and higher than the close-minded, and a great way to connect to me is if you like music or share an interest in a band I like and bring it up to me.
5. I developed a very bad habit, this year, of often saying things like "I think this is going to make my cry/I'm going to cry!" over stuff like music, fanfiction/manga/stories I'm reading, art, or a situation that hits me in a way that is emotional-- tragic, beautiful, or otherwise. I think this is because I keep things inside too much, and I do not get the chance to cry openly or let myself be brought to tears over my own life happenings, anymore; I don't express myself properly or feel free to depend on someone else with my problems. I don't like talking about my problems to any single soul, because I feel like I'm burdening them, I'm not being understood well enough, I feel unfulfilled and afraid after telling someone something about myself, or any variation of those things.. Therefore, I tend to escape into my fantasies and neglect myself in reality. You'll likely find me doing this a lot, but I swear it's not meant to be dramatic or call attention too much to myself. I'm just a very emotional and quirky person, and you have to read between the lines with me if you ever want to be closer to me. It's unfortunate.
6. I cannot stand to watch TV for very long. It's one of the most boring things I have ever indulged in, and I only like watching movies or choice shows on the TV. For some reason I really hate TV. XDDD I don't know why. I go through stages. Not much can bring me to the TV these days, though, and I find it a rather large waste of time that could be better spent enjoying the outdoors or other things more worthwhile than a technicolor screen. I'm a hypocrite, however, in the way that I practically LIVE and THRIVE off of my computer. It won't change, though. :B I love this machine.
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YAY? I think people who read this will know more about me than I've ever said about myself in a few years or more, now. XD Maybe I'll regret this and take it down later. BUT WHATEVER I HAD FUN. Sorry for the mob of information, though. PARAGRAPHS EACHU?

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~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14075919/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/14075919/ Wed, 08 Aug 2007 13:44:56 PDT Omg so bored.

Just wanted to knock the quiz off front page. XD It got annoying or something.


Nothing new with me; going to Animethon this year and actually dressing up. Yay.

Aand.. school August 31st. ee; Bye-bye summer.


Yep.

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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/13764386/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/13764386/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 00:41:12 PDT I SHAMELESSLY STOLE THIS FROM !
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1* First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Idon'tremembernomoreZ.
2* Last word you said: "WE'TWO HOOKEHS'N AN EIGHT BAAAALLLL, YAH!" *dances*
3* Last song you sang: Two Hookers And An 8 Ball - - MSI~.
4* Last person you hugged: Don't know, it's been a long time..
5* Last thing you laughed at: TV news bloopers. Oh fuck. So great.
6* Last time you said 'I don't remember': At grammy's.
7* Last time you cried: OotP. D: So, Thursday.
8* What is your dream car: I WANT MY BLUE SCOOTER THANKS. :]
9* What color socks are you wearing: My green/yellow/lime-patterned fuzzy ones.
10* What's under your bed: Under-the-bed boxes!
11* What time did you wake up today: 11 AM.
12* Current taste: Cereal, and blood. o o;
13* Current hair: Slightly wavy?
15* Current annoyance: My slightly wavy hair. XDD And how crappy tomorrow morning might be. ):
16* Current longing: Friends, and cookies and cream ice-cream.
17* Current desktop background: My WeiB Kreuz one.
19* Current hate: How mom cut back our holidays yet again.
20* Current favorite article of clothing: None. Maybe my slip-on shoes, though.
21* Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: Eyes and face.
22* Last song that you listened to: Two Hookers And An 8 Ball.
23* Favorite place to be: With friends, or outdoors somewhere pretty.
24* Least favorite place: Schoolll.
25* Time you wake up in the morning: Usually anywhere between 11 AM and 3 PM. o o;
26* If you could play an instrument, what would you play: Piano and cello.
27* Favorite color: Blue/purple/silver.
28* Do you believe in an afterlife: Mhm. And reincarnation.
29* How tall are you: 5'7"? I forget.
30* Current favorite person: Nobody.
32* Favorite season: You jumped a question. Ok. Spring.
33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Dunno.
35* Where do you want to go for university?: Red Deer, maybe... or just MacEwan.
36* What is your career going to be like: Fuck if I know!
37* How many kids do you want: None, and if I do want any, they'll be adopted. The world's got enough little bastards running around. :0
39* Ever said "I love you" and meant it: Yeah.
40* Gotten in a fight with your pet?: No. XD
41* Been to New York: Nope.
42* Been to Florida: No.
43* Been to California: No. ):
44* Been to Hawaii: ^
45* Been to Europe: Non.
46* Been to Canada: I live in Canada. (:
48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Once or twice, probably.
52* Do you have a crush on someone: Yep.
53* What book are you reading now?: I'm going to cram HP 5 and 6 into my brains so I can be all uber-prepared for the 7th.
54* Worst feeling in the world: Loneliness.
55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: Squeak! Or so I've been told I make that sound every morning, every time mom wakes me up. XDD Wtf I dunno.
56* How many rings before you answer: Three.
57* Future daughter's name: Boop.
58* Future son's name: Beep.
59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: I have a life-sized siberian husky sitting by my bedside, but I only cuddle it when it storms loudly outside.
61* (Who do you) Wish was here: Eh, no one. I can think of too many I'd want here right now.
62* College plans: Bah.
63* Piercings: Lobes.
64* Do you smoke weed: Ew.
65* Do you drink: Socially, and even then it's light, and usually just coolers or rum with Coke.
67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: Aussie for softness and SHINE.
68* What are you most scared of: Rape, being alone, never finding love... clowns.
69* What clothes do you sleep in: Underwear these days. It's way too hot for anything else.. Otherwise, it's usually a really thin, baggy t-shirt, or bra and panties.
70. Who was the last person who called you?: Uuuuuuh... T.J. I think.
71* Where do you want to get married: In your mom.
72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: LOTS.
73* Who do you really hate: Noobody.
74* Been In Love: Yes.
75* Are you timely or always late: I dunno. Depends.
76* Do you have a job: No. *bawls*
77* Do you like being around people: If I know them.
78* Best feeling in the world: Being free of worry!
79* Are you for world peace: Fuck yeah.
80* Are you a health freak: A biit.
81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after?: Wh... ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/13698565/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/13698565/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 17:25:58 PDT [link]

'Cause I'm pretty in love with that song, and I'm sorta kinda back on a Naruto kick. Shippuuden, at least. The last episode I watched must've been... what ...episode 6? 7? I really, REALLY need to catch up on Shippuuden. A friend of mine spoiled me on later manga chapters, and I AM EXCITED AND HAPPY with Sasuke again. *grins* I knew it would turn out~. I hope he kiiills Itachi dead. And I hope everything's sorted out between him and Konoha, too. And of course, with Naruto. :3 ... *facepalm* I'm such a dork.

Anyhow. Yay. Wadachi + Naruto AMV = insta-adore. I got that vibe for Naruto when I first heard Wadachi, and it looks like this person agrees and felt it too. x] Always fun to discover things like that.


Beeesides that. I'm oh-so-frustrated with myself for still being jobless, and worse, still whining about it all. It's a bit discouraging when everywhere you've applied has yet to call you back, though. Just a bit. I think I'll call Chapters soon, and bug them, if they don't call me. (or so I keep saying. x10. and do I follow through? haha, nope) Nnnh.. hate phones.

Oh well. I know I can't get any money for Animethon this year anyhow. Animethon's August 10-12. And it's, mm...July 11th today? Ha. Good luck, me. xD It'll be miracle if I get a job in time to get any money whatsoever.

Bye-bye Vincent wallscroll and countless plans to buy M/M and Kuro/Fai doujinshi. ._.;


Bah. Life is so boring right now.
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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/13676209/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/13676209/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 20:12:54 PDT Wooow this next year is going to be hella easy.


Semester 1:
- Japanese 20
- Social Studies 33

Semester 2:
- Math 33
- English 20-2
- Choral Music 10/20/30


I'm hoping to add Fashions 10, Cosmetology 10, Band 10/20/30 and Japanese 30 (after school) in there, and switch English 20-2 to 20-1 (because I am NOT stupid in English), but still. I have SO many spares. It's insanely awesome. Maybe I'll break my art block and actually advance in art skill! *excitement excitement* I really, really want to draw anime/manga style. And I want to improve on athros.

Besides that, nothing new. I really never use this journal, besides the odd rant that needs to be ranted, or stupid quizzes/surveys I love to spam all over, so maybe add [link] if you really want to know what I'm doing.

Although, I wouldn't suggest it . . . 70% full of spam/anime or manga-related ranting, 30% whining and 20% actual in-depth updates pretty much makes up the whole thing. xD But I love it anyhow, and it is updated like whoa. Since it's my summer break, however, it will be 90% the random spam. Twice to five times a day. ;D!

I'm so bored. .-.
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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/13201365/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/13201365/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 11:16:02 PDT
This sucks.


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So, I downloaded Maximum the Hormone's "What's up, people??" Death Note single, and it's actually really fucking goood. I really like 'Zetsubou Billy', because it changes tempo and progression so often. The moments he goes into a high voice reminds me of Coheed & Cambria's lead singer. Only better. It's hilarious.

Anyhow, it's a good listen, and I'd like to buy it sometime if I get unlazy and get moneys to do so. I like Maximum the Hormone. And of course, 'What's up, people??' will always be kickass to sing. It's great~.


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In other news, I'm trying my hardest to get my ass to California for the end of June. . . so far, plane is out of the question-- I don't have my passport yet and wouldn't have it in time anyhow --and it's like $500 US there and back. Which isn't a lot, but it is for me, since I've only got $200-some in my bank account. Canadian.

I'm trying to get to Long Beach, Cali for Gackt's superfantasmical debut with his new superband, SKIN! It consists of Yoshiki (X-Japan), Sugizo (LUNA SEA), Miyavi, and of course, Gackt. They're performing at Anime Expo this year ...you know what? Here, if you're interested;

[link]

There's a few articles in japanese and such that branch from that, but that's the main article.

Any ideas? I know it costs at least $400-some to return from California to Canada (which is where I am), and I can't afford that YET. I don't know if getting a job now would get me much at all, and since it seems I CAN'T get a job (fucking picky places..), I don't know if that's a good plan to fall back on.

Mom says it depends on 'how well she does in June', so it's still a maybe... but I need something to fall back on.

Should I just hitch-hike? xD;;; Lmao. I'd be scared to, though.

DAMN IT. WHY'S HE GOTTA BE SO CLOSE BUT TOO FAR FOR ME?!

I need my damn driver's licence. -----


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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/13173937/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/13173937/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 08:13:55 PDT

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The best thing:

Finding skirts and other neat clothing in mom's closet.

さいこです～！

And about SKIN (Yoshiki's uberband [Gackt, Miyavi, Sugizo, Yoshiki]). . .

I WILL GET THERE SOMEHOW. *puffs chest out* o-o



I had a dream I got up and got ready for school that I thought was real.

So here I am. xD; I get a ride at 10 AM. *sigh* Part of me wanted to be there earliiier. Fucking dream-self. *slap*


KAY DONE.
And this'll probably go on LJ sooner or later.
I dunno WHAT'S wrong with LJ, lately. :\

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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/12868700/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/12868700/ Sun, 06 May 2007 20:35:35 PDT

ANYWAYS, life's good, and that sort of stuff..


I GOT 'HERO'S COME BACK!!'-- THE FULL VERSION --FINALLY. OH MY FUKAWK, YAY. ;-;


I have money. ;D ;D ;D This makes me a happy Tsu.

AND I GOT these things called 'biker shorts' that are basically pantyhose that cut off just above the knee so it looks hardcore. *yaright* They should enable me to wear my shorter skirts without fear of the wind flipping it, or boys pantsing me-- because it tends to almost happen. :[ So, fix'd!


I'M SO HYPERERWEdsggRTWEegads. Sorry! x)



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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/12757545/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/12757545/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 17:31:37 PDT Zwei... songs are 'Dragon' and 'Tsumi to Batsu'. Anyways, NOT THE POINT.

THE POINT IS, they're not LimeWire-able, and eMule fails too. Tried bittorents, and I have their discography going now, but it's not seeded enough, and it's not going anywhere anytime soon (if at all..). They seem really rare. I like it. But... hard to get equals eh. ):


SO HELP. If you know Zwei, and you have their music, PLEASE - ANYTHING will do. 'Specially the aforementioned songs, and/or their album 'Z'. Megaupload, sendspace, sendfile, etc. ... I'll take anything. MUST. HAVE. ZWEEEI.



EDIT: I'll throw this in so you people who can't help me can still at least HEAR this stuff; it's SEXY.

[link]

Kind of a boring PV, so watch this instead: [link]

Much more interesting to Kingdom Hearts. x) <3





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Other than that, hi. :] Life's good, I'm bored, wanna DDR, might get off my ass sometime soon, but not now. xDD *ZOOOM*
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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/12586504/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/12586504/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 21:20:20 PDT

I HAVE. Figured out my most beloved, supported OTPs. 8) Finally. I have 5: 2 of them are equal in love and also from the same series so I consider it 4 really.. But shut.


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1). Axel/Roxas [AkuRoku], from Kingdom Hearts: II/CoM.
Sdfsghdfsdfdshfggd;;;sdsd probably my obsession right now. If anyone wants to recc some awesome fanfics to me, DOIT. DOITNOW. DOOOO it. Yes.

2). Yami/Yugi [puzzleshipping], and Yami/Bakura [darkshipping], from Yu-Gi-Oh!.
Those two are absolutely matched. I just can't seem to love one more than the other. They both consume me~.

3). Fye(Fai(Fay))/Kurogane, from Tsubasa: RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE.
Plzthanksomfg. IT'S OFFICIALLY A COUPLE TOO. THAT'S RIGHT. YOU HEARD ME. I HAVE HEARD SO FROM STRONG SOURCES. SO HA IN YOUR PANTS. D: !!1/11!!/~

4). Sasuke/Naruto, from Naruto.
Do I need to elaborate for this one? Nuuuh.
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Yep. (:


Other then that, I now have a cellphone and have comformed to the cellphone fad of effing evilism. However, not quite yet, since I don't have a plan/pay-as-you-go set up on it yet. So I just own one now. XDDD Go me. I'm cool. I know it.




Over an' byebye now~!

]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/12040675/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/12040675/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 13:35:35 PST
Life got betterish. :]


I need a life outside of this computer and school, though. Badly.


WITHIN TEMPTATION ROCKS.


*cough* Kbye.



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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/11901651/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/11901651/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 21:45:50 PST
I seem to be able to write better than I can draw, these days.

And sometimes I can do neither.


... ..Shitty.



What a gloreous entry.

Urgh.
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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/11760941/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/11760941/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 13:43:57 PST
Lovely.


This song is terribly catchy. *blasts*


I need yaoi fanfic recs for Naruto and YGO. ):

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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/11510239/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/11510239/ Sat, 20 Jan 2007 20:20:07 PST
...Hi.


Um, yay I've been doing portraits a lot lately, huh? Yeah. I dunno. I didn't think I could, but then I thought maybe I could try again, and well, hey... lookie lookie. They're not thaat good though... but I've been thinking about doing commissions. But I don't know, again, if I can take someone's idea and put it on paper. o_o; So ...I haven't opened any commissions!


I've been obsessively sketching Yami Bakura, too. Yeeaahh.. you have no idea.


I like cassaroooleees no I don't.



I need to find Photoshop CS for download so I can have sex on this machine. ):


Pop!



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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/11262664/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/11262664/ Sun, 31 Dec 2006 17:59:54 PST

OMG --

...HAPPY NEW YEARZ PEOPLE OF THE WORLD!.




P.S. SEX!!//1oneonefuk!1/1/@!!!

]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/11188790/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/11188790/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 13:43:07 PST
YAY.

~


Maybe I'll get around to doing a little Christmas art. :]

EDIT:


[link]

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~ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/10779071/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 14:40:48 PST
* = most wanted.
The rest is self-explanitory? o:


.
- *any jewelry that has anything Egyptian to do with it; [Ankhs, Eye of Horus, bangles/bracelets, etc. . .] [link] <-- OMG!!/1
- *any/all Cirque du Soleil soundtracks
- any/all Cirque du Soleil DVDs
- CDs
- Belts and pendants and jewelry in general
- *Hoodies. DJ Tiesto; Within Temptation; Infected Mushroom; Daft Punk; Iron Maiden; Blind Guardian. . .
- bow and arrow/sword[s]/weaponthings
- DDR Extreme 1, Max 1, or Konamix [PS1] for PS2
- Final Fantasy 12
- Okami
- Final Fantasy 7
- Final Fantasy 8
- DVD+Rs [Note the "+" symbol. MUST be +.]
- Manga --> Fullmetal Alchemist :: Naruto :: DNAngel :: Wolf's Rain :: YU-GI-OH OMG. (:
.

Yay. Shameless plug!


EDIT:

On second thought, all I reaally want is some money. So I can buy my things online. I'm desperate. ):



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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/10553730/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/10553730/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 22:02:06 PST .
1.YOUR PORN STAR NAME
[[name of first pet + street you live on]]:
Sugar Walnut.

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME
[[grandmother's/father's first name + favorite snack]]:
Declan Pocky. [LOL.]

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME
[[first word you see on your left + favorite restaurant]]:
Jazz Tim Horton's.

4. YOUR SOCIALITE NAME
[[silliest childhood nickname + first town where you partied]]:
Chantella Gorilla Edmonton. [LOL. YOU MEAN ANTI-SOCIALITE NAME.]

5. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME
[[first initial + first three letters of your last name]]:
C-Mur.

6. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME
[[favorite animal + name of high school]]:
Wolf Paul Kane.

7. YOUR BARFLY NAME
[[last snack food you ate + your favorite drink]]:
Tortilla Pepsi Jazz.

8. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME
[[middle name + city where you were born]]:
Marie Edmonton.

9. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME
[[favorite candy + favorite musician's last name]]:
Pocky McCuaig. [SWEET.]

10. YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME
[[name of [opposite sex] friend + cell phone company you use]]:
TJ Moto. [LOL. I just picked a random cellphone company.]

11. YOUR STAR WARS NAME
[[first 3 letters of your last name + last 3 letters of mother's maiden name]]:
Mureli.

Stolez fromage . :B

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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/10552539/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/10552539/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 19:31:10 PST .
So.

...
Do you know how damn obsessed I am with darkshipping and puzzleshipping and angstshipping and tendershipping and thiefshipping I am?!

It's just bloody brill'. ): And. ... damn them. xD


LOL most people reading this are probably like "WTFC IS THEIFSHIPGUDHDF?! YOU CRAKKA WAK. GO BACK TO UR LITTL REWM. WE DON NEED UR CRAZY CRAZY!1/"

ButIdon'tCAAAARE. Helpme EEEEE--

... MUST. FIND. MORE. STORIES. AND. ART. TO. SATISFY. NEEDS.


YES, NEEEEDS. RECCOMENDATIONS PLEASE?1/1/ WFDS.


Eeeeeeeeheheeheheeeeeeeeew-- *blowupBEWM*

n___n


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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/10113188/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/10113188/ Mon, 18 Sep 2006 15:31:55 PDT
I AM UPDATING TO YOU... FROM THE most sexay PC evr. Wellprobablynot,butit'snotMAC!

SAY HELLO TO HERMAN. !!!!


...
I should take pictures.




P.S. I HAVE A FREAKING SUBWOOFER!!!!1/1

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAAHAAAaaaaaaaaa~~~


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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9963679/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9963679/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 11:25:23 PDT
May you continue to tackle those Crocs down and chase those snakes in the afterlife. <3
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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9958664/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9958664/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 02:05:22 PDT ... Tsu scares children with her Vincent obsession. xDDD Yay. A conversation about what it would be like if some of the sexy Final Fantasy boyz existededed in real life. xD Isn't it something EVERYONE dreams of? 8)

Don't be offended. Eat brownies.

(P.S. I changed the SN of my friend, for the sake of privacy. Lolololaquala.)


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OMG SOMEONE ON MY CONTACT LEEEST says:
XDD

•Tsu*--≥ ;" R.I.P Crocodile Hunter! ;-; ilumaan... ilu. D; "; ≤--*• says:
Vinceeent... *croons* .. xD

OMG SOMEONE ON MY CONTACT LEEEST says:
Nuh, I'd be asking too many questions.. Like.. uhh.. how Cloud's hair defys gravity and not mine D:

•Tsu*--≥ ;" R.I.P Crocodile Hunter! ;-; ilumaan... ilu. D; "; ≤--*• says:
Oh my god. For deviantART, I TOTALLY -NEED- to make a pissed-Vincent-holding-a-fangirl-Tsu-in-his-arms sorta journal header thing... XDDDD DAMN if only I could draw anime. ...And had a dA subscription.

•Tsu*--≥ ;" R.I.P Crocodile Hunter! ;-; ilumaan... ilu. D; "; ≤--*• says:
I KNOW! XD

OMG SOMEONE ON MY CONTACT LEEEST says:
XD

•Tsu*--≥ ;" R.I.P Crocodile Hunter! ;-; ilumaan... ilu. D; "; ≤--*• says:
I'd be like "Vincent omgomgomg can I pet your hair omg how do you get such smooth locks omg is your cape burgundy or stained with your enemy's blood do you like fudge? Hey can you cook would you ever sex Sephiroth or Cloud do you love Yuffie who gave you your last name OMG sex please what's Cloud's cellphone number I love you!?"

•Tsu*--≥ ;" R.I.P Crocodile Hunter! ;-; ilumaan... ilu. D; "; ≤--*• says:
xDDDDDD

•Tsu*--≥ ;" R.I.P Crocodile Hunter! ;-; ilumaan... ilu. D; "; ≤--*• says:
Half-way through it, he'd be kicking my ass.. xD

OMG SOMEONE ON MY CONTACT LEEEST says:
OMG I thought you said "Hey can you cock would you ever sex Sephiroth or Cloud". XD

•Tsu*--≥ ;" R.I.P Crocodile Hunter! ;-; ilumaan... ilu. D; "; ≤--*• says:
LMAO.

•Tsu*--≥ ;" R.I.P Crocodile Hunter! ;-; ilumaan... ilu. D; "; ≤--*• says:
Can you cock your cock OMG wat?!
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... I'll end it there. For your sanity. Trust me, we got worse by the minute. We're still going... and gooing.. xD

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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9878177/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9878177/ Sun, 27 Aug 2006 21:03:08 PDT

-sleep-

-linethingshere-

-star allmygoodfriends STAAAR-
-heart INSU hearttt!!1/-

k. ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9852840/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9852840/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 16:16:06 PDT


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Ahm totly outta this shit joiiiint.

XD I'm going to a lake. For 2 dai. B bak Sundai.

Kbyebyeee.


IiLAVyou!

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]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9838995/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9838995/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 12:34:30 PDT
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ANOREXIA
[x] you have dry skin.
[ ] you're very weak.
[ ] you hate your body.
[ ] you starve yourself.
[x] you have low self esteem.
[ ] you need to be skinnier.
[ ] people always say you're skinny, but you think fat.
[x] People think you are way too skinny. [For the LAST time, it's fast metabolism. Yes, I am lucky. Stop complaining and go die. ee;]
total: 3

ADHD (attention deficit/hyperactivity disorder)
[x] you are hyper most of the time.
[ ] you barely pay attention to anything.
[ ] you cannot cooperate with people well.
[x] you seem to never sit still.
[ ] you talk all the time.
[ ] you need attention 24/7.
total: 2

BIPOLAR DISORDER
[x] you can act wild at times then the next you are severely depressed.
[x] you are very irritable.
[x] you barely get any or no sleep.
[ ] you are anti-social.
[ ] you have very high self esteem at times.
[ ] you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[ ] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
total: 3

BULIMIA NERVOSA
[ ] you throw up all of your food.
[ ] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] you have no control over how you eat.
[x] you eat fast.
[ ] you have overly excercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[ ] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[x] people think you are way too skinny.
total: 2

CONDUCT DISORDER
[ ] you are a bully.
[ ] you threaten other people.
[ ] you often find yourself in fights.
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others. (ex: knife, bat, etc.)
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] you have raped/molested someone.
[x] you have destroyed property on purpose.
[ ] you always lie.
[x] you stay out all night.
[x] you have ran away from home.
total: 3

DEPRESSION
[ ] you are always sad.
[ ] you always are crying.
[x] you find no hope in your future.
[ ] you find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[x] you often find yourself around the house or in bed all day.
[x] you can be/are anti-social.
[x] you have low self esteem.
[ ] everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[x] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[ ] you are failing school.
[ ] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
[x] you have ran away from home.
[] hope is no longer there for you.
total: 6

OCD (obsession compulsive disorder)
[ ] you have daily rituals.
[x] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[ ] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[ ] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[x] you have harmed yourself.
[ ] you are afraid you will get a std, aids, or any kind of germs.
[ ] you have to check some stuff over again. (ex: checking door repeatly)
total: 2

PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder)
[x] you repeatly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[x] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[x] you feel highly uncomfortable when remembered/remembering the event.
[x] you can be anti-social.
[ ] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[x] you have not had alot of sleep lately.
[x] you worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
[x] you can have angry outbursts.
[ ] you act younger than your age. (ex: thumbsucking, etc.)
total: 7 o_o;

SCHIZOPHRENIA
[ ] you often have hallucinations (seeing things or hearing things that aren't there).
[x] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[ ] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[ ] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[ ] you have extreme anxiety or fearfullness.
[ ] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[ ] you do not take care of your hygeine like you should.
[ ] you are very shy.
[x] you often talk to yourself.
total: 2
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Lawl. ... I had to.
Turned out pointless anyways.

GOD I'm hungry, wtf. And there's no cereal. And my pineapple is STILL not ripe.
FRRRGH.
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http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9679799/ Mon, 14 Aug 2006 18:55:04 PDT Edit:
Thanks for everyone's help with the sketch. I'm finally satisfied with it, so take a look. x3

[link]


Now I just have to color it... xD; -sighh- The markings are also subject to change. It depends. On stuff. o: Ohmy.

P.S. Sorry for the same journal being spammed at you all. x3 It's done now.


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Okay, so, now that my scraps is a little more filled out [wish I could say the same for my actual gallery... x)]

... I need some constructive crit. on this here sketchy:
[link]

Plz help. D: A simple 'It sucks' isn't gonna cure the suckiness. xDD;


<333333

*runs off singiiing*
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~~ ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9666520/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9666520/ Wed, 09 Aug 2006 15:49:37 PDT Kay. So. Iiii just wanted to waarn you all…

In the next few hours to come, I'm going to be submitting a freakload of snapshots to dA in my scraps; snapshots of places I went over the summer, and snapshots of the school Band tour I went on last year. <3

Anyone who does not wish to be flooded can go to their devWATCH and make sure that, under my name, you have Scraps unchecked. Then you won't be spamminator'd. :3 Sound dandy? I thought so. Yeh.

Ah think I've given you all fair warning, hn? 0:


Besides that shizinga, I'm doing well..er than I was yesterday. xD No more angst poopies.

WANGBRDZ.
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~~ ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9657150/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9657150/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 23:29:53 PDT -+=/Quizquizquizquizquizquizquiz\=+-


IN ONE TRY..TYPE YOUR NAME WITH YOUR:

FINGERS: Chantelle
CHIN: Catee
ONE FINGER WITH EYES CLOSED: Chna64lle
ELBOW: C hazn tgedlle
PALM: Chantelle
BACK OF HAND: Dgamnrwelol3e
NOSE: hantell

-----------------DESCRIBE--------------- ---

-- YOUR HERITAGE: Uuuh. Dutch and Irish, and, recently, due to tracing our roots back, we've discovered some Cree blood in our family. D
-- THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY: Blue and black Gallaz skate shoes.
-- YOUR EYES: Blue; sometimes hazel-like: sometimes a navy. ..
-- YOUR WEAKNESS: Pressure.
-- YOUR FEARS: Disappearing after death ; being alone ; drowning ; losing friends/loved ones to substance abuse or death.
-- ONE THING YOU'D LIKE TO ACHIEVE: True happiness? [How cliché. x)]

-----------------STATISTICS------------- -----

-- NAME: Chantelle Marie Murphy. [That Marie. ... pft. Shall be EVERWIND. SOME DAY. Wahaa. ... x3]
-- ALIAS: Tsukasaru; Tsu.
-- BIRTH-DATE: May 6th 1990.
-- BIRTHPLACE: Edmonton, Alberta, Canada.
-- BIRTH-TIME: Uuh dunno.
-- GENDER: Female.
-- BIRTHSTONE: Emerald.
-- ZODIAC: Astrological: Taurus / Chinese: Horse.
-- PET CATS: Willow and Mr. Mew. :3
-- PET DOGS: Sugar; lab cross.
-- OTHER: I want a siberian husky. If it's a girlie, I wanna call her Nahani. If male, then Kåvik.
ACREAGE OF YARD: Uuuh. Acreage of yard? xD Acres, y'mean. Uhm. Big, and very downhill. (:
-- BEDROOMS: Three.
-- BATHROOMS: Three.
-- CITY: St. Albert.
-- STATE: Province?

-----------------WHAT IS------------------

-- YOUR THOUGHTS FIRST WAKING UP: Uh... ... moresleep.. -flop-
-- THE FIRST FEATURE YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: Personality. Then it's eyes or hair.
-- YOUR BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE: I like my hair. .. Or, I will, once it's cut nicely and dyed. :B But uhm. I like my eyes and my hair. And .. my boobs. Yes. Boobs.
-- BEDTIME: Never.
-- YOUR GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT: ... Butt-ox.
--YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY: Stuff n' fluff.
-----------------YOU PREFER------------------

-- PEPSI OR COKE: COKEEE.
-- MCDONALD'S OR BURGER KING: Ew to both. D:
-- SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: Wtc? .. Single. I think. o_o;
-- CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Chocolate choocolaaate, vanilla Coke and yoguuurt!
-- CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: Cappuccino plz.
-- ADIDAS OR NIKE: Neither. 0:

-----------------DO YOU------------------

-- SMOKE: Hell friction' no.
-- CUSS: Like a trucker. xD
-- TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: Every second or third day.
-- HAVE A CRUSH(ES): Yeah.
-- WHO ARE THEY: DO YOU ALWAYS SPEAK IN CAPS-LOCK, I WONDER?!
-- DO YOU THINK YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE?: OMG WATZ LUV. LOL
-- WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE: Not particularly. xD
-- LIKE HIGH SCHOOL: Yeeah. Better than junior high, maan.
-- WANT TO GET MARRIED: Probably not.
-- TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS: Noo. I cherry-pick more often than anything else.
-- GET MOTION SICKNESS: Sometimes, when I'm in vehicles.
-- THINK YOU'RE ATTRACTIVE: I don't know. I don't tend to care much anymore. o:
-- THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: I think I need to be more of a health freak than I am. -nodnod-
-- GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: I'd like to ..
-- LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: YES. I DANCE IN THEM. !
-- PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: Flute, and I sing. o-o I wish to learn piano, though. Badly. And .. there's probably about 6 other things I want to play in this lifetime.

------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID/HAVE YOU--------------

-- DRANK ALCOHOL: I don't think so. Not that I recall.
-- SMOKE(D): Nope.
-- DONE A DRUG: No ew.
-- HAVE SEX: YA WITH THE AIR.
-- MADE OUT: Haaaaaahaha.
-- GO ON A DATE: No.
-- GO TO THE MALL: Noo-- yes. o-o
-- BEEN ON STAGE: Nope.
-- BEEN DUMPED: I dunno. .. xD
-- GONE SKATING: YEUH! Summer-school biitches.
-- MADE HOMEMADE COOKIES: Nuh I can't make shit all. ):
-- DYED YOUR HAIR: Yeeuuuh.
-- STOLEN ANYTHING: Don't think so. o-o


-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------

-- FLOWN ON A PLANE: NO. I almost did this summer. .. But I didn't.
-- MISSED SCHOOL BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING?: NO I don't even need an excuse. I just miss it. xD
-- TOLD A GUY/GIRL THAT YOU LIKED THEM?: Yah.
-- CRIED DURING A MOVIE?: Yeppp.
-- EVER... ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9656263/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9656263/ Wed, 09 Aug 2006 00:11:49 PDT Ftw. Like. Some people are all, "I think dA is fuck-ugly now! ): <<<<"

I think it looks better than it did before. o-o Really.


.. Uuuh. I'm going through one of those 'I think I'm getting better with my art, but as soon as I see something one of my friends did, or something well-done by other artists on dA, I realize I really wish my art was as up to snuff as theirs seems to be' transitions. It's taking its toll. ): I don't know if I've improved, or if I'm still stuck in a rut. I have this giant spark of creativity coursing through me right now, but I can't seem to get it on the paper and have it turn out right at all. I'm frustrated. .-. Can y'tell?

But all in all, life is alright right now. It has its confusing points, but... nnh. Blah. I've been really into my Disney movies as of late. Gyehehehe... Brother Bear/Lion King [2]/Jungle Book arrrrr~~!@/


.... -siiiigh- xD Yeah. Tsuuuu isss in a lethargic unhappy rut righ' nah. :\ Yeeeuhmm..
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<3 ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9139136/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9139136/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 15:50:48 PDT
-- ...shupped.


I LIKE DDR MUSIC. (:


... Pointless, once more. xD ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9104321/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9104321/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 10:26:23 PDT Tunez of the Ninja: David Arkenstone - Equos Fair
Filmz of the Ninja: Dead Man Walking
Good reads for the Ninja: Woman Between The Wind
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.. SO. This song pretty much owns your father.
FATHER'S DAIIII in this playc known as Canadaaah.
HAVE A GOOD ONE, DADS OF THE WORLD.
<3<3<3;


SUMMERTIME WAAAOO. SCHOOL'S DONE. OOB OOB. Stayin' up late 'n' being a biiitch.
What.
Ong I cannot wait for holidays in B.C. and Zem's hizzle faroffinyonder and OMG holidays. AND THEN, animethon at Grant MacEwan college, as well as Edmonton Folk Festival, and, lastly, the celebration goin' down at the Remada Inn for National Aboriginal Dayyy!/
IT'S ALL RIGHT HERE, FELLOW PEOPLE. ALL. RIGHT. HERE.


Can you feeeeellll my insanity? I can. It creeps up on me from time to time ergregg sounds like oogooo;;c.

My dad has a gig today at Valley Zoo. Wish I could goooo but I'm still nakieish in jammypants and momshirt. Blecheroo.

BLASTIN OFF IN TH'NINJA CAPSULE OF ... NINJA. HAHAHA. .. ha.

..
HEEEEH?


-- -- -- -- -TOTLY RAD CHUMZ- -- -- -- --

. ..alright, already/we'll all float o n.. . ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9081054/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9081054/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 20:12:56 PDT
I'm doing it ninja style t'morrow. Bitches.

WITH MY CAPE. BITCHES.


... BIIIITCH. Bitchbitch! Eeen.










o_O; ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9055033/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9055033/ Tue, 13 Jun 2006 09:02:16 PDT
places to go :
-+- Stonehenge (Dude. The websites are calling it Stonehenge. I always thought it was Stonehedge. o-o Ghahaanh... weird. Maybe I'm just retarded.)
-+- Red Rock
-+- Joshua Tree
-+- Auschwitz
-+- wherever Avalon is rumored to be around . ..
-+- Place they filmed Harry Potter . ..
- Germany
- England
- Seattle (hahaha fulfilled this SUMMER wiaaa)
- Newfoundland (NEXT YEAR wiaaa aha. ..)


concerts to see :
-+- Jimmy Eat World
-+- KMFDM
-+- Rammstein
-+- Within Temptation
-+- Nightwish (HO SHIT yeah i wish)
-+- tATu
-+- Theatre of Tragedy
-+- Peal Jam
-+- Dave Matthew's Band
-+- Patty Griffin
-+- Our Lady Peace ( wish I could go ;x )
-+- Metric (wish I WENT)
-+- Arcade Fire

The ones at the top of that list are the ones I want to see the most.

That was random. I'm satisfied now.

BACK TO BOREDOM SLAAAVEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSery.


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groooob. <33b.n,.


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salutes you. ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9016125/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/9016125/ Fri, 09 Jun 2006 07:36:15 PDT

o_o



I liive. On this here site. Thingajigger. Jiggly.


I like DDR.
Uhm.


Your mam.


Kay. oo;; .. ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8902776/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8902776/ Sun, 28 May 2006 14:21:41 PDT
Okay, so, the subscription was some random one-day thing. How retarded. -deadpan stare-

Uuh. I'm bored. And icky-feeling. Yaay.

... -watches episode after episode of Naruto on animeepisodes.net- (: Thx.

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. .. i dream of the sun ./ and my butterf l y .. . ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8895418/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8895418/ Sat, 27 May 2006 18:15:01 PDT
Woe seriously. Did someone spoil me...? Or is it just a random reallyeffedomg glitch?? o_o; WELL THEN. EITHER WAY. UHH. THANK YOU SOMEONE?!?!!?! x12321312!!!!!/1! o:

... Well, now that I'm CONSIDERABLY happier.. xD

I went to my aunt's today. To claim some of her stuffs, since she's.. well. .. getting rid of some things. So she wanted to give us some of her things. Anyway, so, we got a gaZILLION of her books, and I got QUITE alot of art supplies. OhyesIdid. And yeah. Thought that was cool. I might be allowed to have the two kitties, as well! CATS! I MEAN. COME ON. I haven't had a cat in so long. I miss my cats. I've been reaally wanting an animal that can curl up at night with me, and just be a companion. I have Sugar, but she's a little too big for my bed.. xD So yeah. CAAATSEZ. EEEN.

... Aaaand, life has been okay. More than a liittle stressful, lately, but I have escapes. <3 And I know there's people to care for me, so I'm doin' okay. I think I might be teetering on depression a little too close for my liking, what with my antisocial behavior and the sudden tired spells that have been hitting me since Friday... but I think I'll pull out of it soon. Maybe I'm just in need of catching up on sleep or something. Don't know.

One thing's for sure; I cannot wait for the summertime. *Wiggles impatiently..* I'm getting bored of routine. I wanna go out and get active, and go to the ranch, and B.C. and Seattle and stuff. I'm sick of school. But hey, isn't that how all kids feel? Yuh, yuh it is. It happens. n.n

And omg. I had this weird dream last night... really weird. And it makes me feel this weird tug, like I need to see the end of something. And-- kay well, first, the dream. xDDD All I know is, it was a Wolf's Rain dream, and I was Toboe (I think I'm either always Kiba, or Toboe, in these dreams of mine... hn). And (for those weird reasons that only your dreams can make logic out of), Blue, Kiba, Tsume, and Hige were played by my friends, I think... maybe. Either that, or they were just random dream friends of mine. ANYWAY, so I was Toboe, and we were oddly stuck in human form. Or at least, I never got to 'see' the wolf forms... but uh. It was odd. The part that's still vivid in my mind is this part where the 'enemy' tricked me (if you've seen Wolf's Rain, you know Toboe's kind of meek, shy, gullible, etc... hum anyway) into thinking there was food in this forest a ways away from the houses (yes... also just as odd, we were hiding out in a rundown house thing), and that this was my big chance to prove myself wise and courageous for my friends. They were all sleeping, or something, so when the 'enemy' came to the window in a pirate ship (O_o), I ran off without further ado. I came to the tree-line, and then suddenly, I got this sense that I had been lured, and I was to die. I felt my heart speed up and race crazily, and I turned around and looked around, all paranoid, feeling that the 'enemy' was watching me intently, and, at anytime, they would spring. So I started to run back the way I had come, but then the houses disappeared (or got further.. I can't recall), and I was hyperventilating and stuff, and I couldn't run. It was like everything was in slow motion; or, at least, I was. I sure wasn't going anywhere. Then, suddenly, my friends were there, and my point of view took on the perspective of watching myself and my friends (it does that alot in my dreams), and I watched them suddenly jump on me, and basically pin me viciously to the grassy ground. By vicious, I mean they had spears or some shit. All I know is, there was blood, and it looked like they were crucifying me to the ground. Anyway, I watched myself shriek and start crying, and I was all "Why?!? What are you doing to me!? Wh-" and they DID explain, and at that point, my dream self found it a logical reason, but I can't remember it now. XD Anyways. They then suddenly decided to let me up, and we all started running, as though they knew the enemy was coming now (o-o). AND, THEN....

I woke up. x)

Isn't that retarded? Think it means something?!?!/1/ I dunno! Shocker. But yeah. I often have Wolf's Rain dreams. I had this really cool/depressing one, where I was Kiba, and we again had to flee because the humans were going to slaughter every single wolf left on earth or some crap like that. Odd. But I DO know that I need to watch the rest of that anime series. Yes. And the funny thing is, I COULD watch it. I have episodes 10 - 15 or something (and episod... ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8753914/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8753914/ Fri, 12 May 2006 21:27:18 PDT
I could handle living here. There's no mountains, but there's rolling foothills, and it just reminds me of Ireland. Even though I've never been to Ireland. Haaaah. ;D

WHEEE I love this place.

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. ..whenever i'm alone with you- you make me feel free again.. . ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8679411/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8679411/ Fri, 05 May 2006 07:25:07 PDT
Eh. I'm keeping the volume in the middle. That way, MAYBE I won't be deaf before the age of 50. Hyaha.

Oh well. I could always learn to feel vibrations. Lmao. xD No. I value my hearing too much. And yet, and yet...


On a different note, go download some McCuaig. ... If you like irish rock, live and/or on album, doit. Doitdoit. They rock hard. (: I know the band!

I reccommend Feel Like Gettin' High, She, Ten Penny Bit, Take my Hand, Pieces, and Paddy's Leather Britches.

Doit. Geeeee.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


. ..ease.on.down.the.road-easin'.on.down.. . ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8624358/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8624358/ Sat, 29 Apr 2006 19:11:16 PDT


. .. . . too bad I wanna be in Saskatchewan, still.


NYEHAH.

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. ..my-fall-will-be.for.y o u.. . ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8585725/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8585725/ Tue, 25 Apr 2006 20:01:17 PDT
See you on the bonny banks o' Saskatchewan arrrrr...

Be back in four days. XD Sometime Saturday eve.

ilu!



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. ..oh..all.i.know-i.know.love.will.save.the.day.. . ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8563224/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8563224/ Sun, 23 Apr 2006 16:53:46 PDT


Omg Animals I Sawded
• Coyote (x2)
• Swift fox
• Osprey pair! <3 In their nesty. xB
• Rocky mountain sheepies
• Numerous hawks; Red-tail. And probably Swaynson's.

I had to. xD

'kay anywaaayyee.
I had fun. Went shopping and stayed in this hotel suite thing my family bought a timeshare for. It was grrrreaat!

I went shopping, I bought candy, I ate good food (spaghetti on Friday, my dad's basil pasta of yumminess on Saturday <3 .. aaand iunno about tonight), aaand chillaxed in a reallynice hot tuuub... ALL IN THE MOUNTAINS. Mountaaaainsmountains. <333!

OH AND.
Emma (ma frendee) and I found this sweet-ass shop called Heartstrings, aaand they had swords and crystal things and wishing stones and dream-catchers ... everything. You name it. It was like a new age kind of deal. I loved it. I could handle living there. :3

Anyway, the main muse for this entry is the fact that I got a KATANA (!!!) at that shop, and it's sexy and awesome. I talked my parents into getting it for an early sixteenth birthday present fo' moi. x) It worked. It was only about $35.00. The tag said $45.00, but since the lady there accidentally read the price tag wrong the first time I asked about its price, she said that it was fine to give it to me for 10 dollars cheaper, that she 'promised' it as $35.00. xDD What a nice lady. When I went to buy it, we switched the blades around because the one on the sword I was originally going to buy was kinda stained and icky, and I preferred the other blade more, and the sheath for it. So, yeah.

The asian guy also showed me the standard stance for holding the sword and using it. xDD I was thinking, "Oh god, what, he thinkin' I wanna use it on people? xD" But really, learning the technique for a katana doesn't sound like a bad idea at all. n.n So I am. I'll be taking Aikido from one of two of the uncles I have that practice it, or else I'm going to go join the sword academy they have in Edmonton. Either way it's exciting. Ah alwayz wanted t'be a ninja. xD;;; HYAAA. Nnyeah. Good times. -bounces around-

When I'm eighteen, I'll probably go back there and get the bigger katana and the stand that goes with my sword. And then I'll rock hard. xD


After that, I came hooome. Here I am. Surprisingly, I didn't have too tough a time away from the beloved Macintosh machine. Just a little. x3 Meh. The computer is boring more often than not, now, anyway. And they had 3 TVs in our suite, so it's not like I was deprived of electricity. Not at all. I stayed up late, watched movies and shows, and ate allllll the junk food and pop I wanted. And I STILL have left overs. ~


Thaaat's about it. I have Band tour to Saskatchewan on Wednesday, and I'm pumped. For more that just going there.. ;

.. OH AND. I guess I could update this entry with the pictures mom took of the Ospreys and the other aminalz and stuff, when we develop the film. :3 You can see me giving the finger to my mom! ... You'd like that, wouldn't you. xD Yes you would.


BEWMI'mgone.



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. .. .still.my.heart.this.moment-or.it.might.burst. .. . ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8530127/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8530127/ Thu, 20 Apr 2006 10:00:28 PDT
Guilty and lonely and hyper and insane and nervous and cracked and the list goes on.

... I just thought you should know that. HAHAH... I know, I know. Shup. Kayyyyeee..

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<33<3 ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8346502/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8346502/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 18:27:17 PDT
Tagged by 1!1/1~!!!!!11¡¡¡11


!!!The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly.!!!

1. I tend to overreact alot, which causes trouble. I've been getting way better, though!
2. I like to stay up late with good friends to talk with and I like to talk about stuff, random or deep.
3. I absolutely HATE destruction of forests by the hand of man, and I like to imagine sticking my nose in the way to protect them all. ToobadIcannn't.
4. I’m very moody, and current things almost always effect my moods.
5. I would like to spend more time with my parents, and be brave enough to tell them about me.
6. I LIKE ALL SORTS OF MUSIC. I jump around the genre chart.

What Last/Is/Are/Was...
[Right next to you]: CDS I AM MAKING FOR DIONNE.
[On your mouse pad]: SILVER COLOR. AND A LOGO.. THAT SAYS...! WACOM. ARE YOU JEALOUS?
[Your bedtime]: Weekdays, it's anywhere from 9 to 11. WeekENDS, it's 5 a.m. maybe?!/
[Under your bed]: Under-the-bed boxes. :B
[Your bad time of the day]: Info Pro class, usually.
[Your worst fear(s)]: Being alooone.
[The time?]: 7:15 PM BITCH.
[The date?]: April 2nd! 2006.
[The hardest thing about growing up]: Losing the ones you love, whether caused by death or simply growing apart.
[Your funniest experience]: Hmmmm. I dunno. I have quite a few, all thanks to friends current and past. (=
[Your scariest moment]: ... Prefernottodiscloseplz.
[The worst feeling in the world]: Feeling alone and hated.
[The best feeling in the world]: Being loved and remembered.

LOVE AND RELATIONSHIPS AND WTF RANDOMSTUFF
[If you're single... why are you single?]: IYAM NAHT SINGLE!
[How long was your longest relationship]: Uuuuhhh 2 years.
[How long was your shortest relationship]: A week.
[What is the biggest mistake you’ve made in your life]: Don’t wanna talk about it.
[What is the last thing you said?]: Heheh, no.
[Last person you saw?]: MAM.
[Who is the last person you hugged?]: Kailyn.
[Who is the last person you fought with?]: Zem.
[Who is the last person you were on the phone with?]: Tima!
[What are you wearing?]: Nokial's old yummy baggy black pants, black knee-high socks, mypinkandblacktie undies, red and black bra, my pink and black sweater, and my red funky black velvety designs shirt. ...
[What are you doing?]: TALKING TO MY LOVE AND TYPING AND HUMMING SINGING.
[Who are you talking to?]: ISAIDMYLOVE.
[What song are you listening to?]: Vicinity of Obscenity - System of a Down.
[Where are you?]: In ma basement.
[How are you feeling?]:Tired, but oh-so-happygrand.
[Are you in a chat room?]: Uuh.
[What day is it tomorrow?]: APRIL 3RD TWOTHOUSANDANDSIXXX.sex.
[What are you going to do after this?]: Work on thoze CDs 'n my homework and continue to procrastinate both and talk to Di. YAY!1/
[How old will you be when you graduate?]: .. Eighteen? oo;
[What do you want to be?]: I don't know. ;;

HAVE YOU EVER...
[Drank?]: Mmm coolers.
[Smoked?]: Wtfno.
[Had sex?]: Nope.
[Stolen?]: Yuh.
[Done anything illegal?]: Mmmhm.
[Wanted to die?]: No!!!!!!!
[Hit someone?]: Yah.
[What do you most like about your body?]: Eyes, hair (sometimes..), and .. feet? oo;
[How many fillings do you have?]: Nonnnne.
[Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?]: Sometimes. Not so much anymore.

[w][h][a][t] [h][a][v][e] [y][o][u] [d][o][n][e] WITH MY CHILD/1!??!
[what’s the craziest thing you have ever done]: Streaked and ur mum.
[Gotten high]: Fuck noo.
[Ran away from home]: Yeah. More like. Escape to the libraree. x)
[Ran away from the cops]: No. xDD
[Held a gun]: Nooo.
[Committed a crime]: Nu.
[Gone skinny dipping]: I want to.
[Played strip poker]: Yep.
[Mooned anybody]: Yes. xDDDD
[Broken a bone]: Yuh.
[Had to go to ER]: Yep.
[Do you have a crush on anyone]: NO WELL MAYBE A LITTLE ALOT I LIKE SOMEONE HEHE -giggleblush- ;o

I TAG EVERYONE WHO READS THIS AND WANTS TO DO IT! 8DDD



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http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8334454/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 13:37:42 PST Yeah. Yeah I do.


. . .
HAHAHA I DON'T CARE THO' 'COS. I'm happy, and today is pretty, and I like life, etcetera.

MSN keeps eating me. ):

... DANNNCE...

e_e; -stabbydead-

HURRY UP MOM WITH THE VAN I WANNA GO TO WATERPARK MAN. ): <<<
x)

ITHINKI'MccrrrrraaaAAAAAZEEEeeeee. Idododod.

KBYE SEATTLW!!/1/eeeeeeeeeeee.


P.S. Don't read this. ;3 ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8206336/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8206336/ Sun, 19 Mar 2006 11:09:36 PST


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Ehhh. . . it seems all I do here is comment and watch people. I lost the drive to become a good artist.

To be truthful, I'm a procrastinator all the way; I say I'm going to do art for here, or just in general, but it's rare. I mean. . . sad as it is, all my art consists of right now are the little doodles that turned out somewhat alright that I chose not to erase on the paper in my binder, and in actual art class.

My creativity level's been so low, lately. I have a few good muses, but my hand just can't create what my mind can out on a piece of paper. It really, really sucks.

To be honest, I spend alot of time wishing I was as good as so-and-so, or I could have a style like this or that person. Alot of the time, that's how I think. And I get jealous. But I realize- hey: if you want to get ANY better, you have to keep practicing and trying. Because I won't just gain magical owning coloring skills from brooding and hoping, will I? I won't just. . . magically pull talent from my heart and convey emotion and strong like for something just because I have a tablet, and one that I rarely use.

I need to find my drive again. Frankly, I get sick of thinking I'm a less experienced and talented artist than some of the people I see uploading on here. And I get sick of putting myself down. So what I need is to be active, to be motivated, and fight those typical teen stereotypes. *Nods briskly.*

Thank Gods I have someone who supports me, and other friends who do, too. Even my parents. And I mean, I think I give myself not enough credit; and it takes a toll on how much I want to try, and how good I think my drawings are.

I'm pretty good with Photoshop, and I have to realize I don't need to major in one art style, or a whole whack; I need to develop my own.

I wish I could do that, and I wish I had more drive to draw. I don't do so daily, and I know I'd like to again. I need to feel good about myself and about how I'm developing in order to do this.

So, note to self :
GET UP AND OUT OF YOURSELF, AND DO IT!!!

'kayIfeelbetter. Now that I ranted. x) Yay self rant.
I have to promise myself to look back here, later.

Too bad gone are the days where hormones were nonexistent. d:




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. ..the.muse.of.my.heart.. . ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8201875/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8201875/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 21:32:18 PST


- - - Omg quiz for the iPod, or iTune people. OR ANY MUSIC PLAYER shupping. - - -

You know how it works. Put iTunes on shuffle, and the song titles are the answers!
--
1. How does the world see you? Ghost Love Score - Nightwish
2. Will I have a happy life? Torn - Natalie Imbruglia
3. What do my friends think of me? Silver Wheels - Heart
4. Do people secretly lust after me? Broken Progression - Project C
5. How can I make myself happy? San And Ashitaka - Princess Mononoke
6. What should I do with my life? Show Me - Moya Brennan
7. Will I ever have children? Fear Of Dying - Jack Off Jill
8. What is some good advice for me? Goodbye - SR-71
9. How will I be remembered? Before The Dawn - Evanescence
10. What's my signature dancing song? Streamline - Newton
11. What's my current themesong? Mitternacht - E Nomine
12. What do others think is my current themesong? Veins Of Glass - Lacuna Coil
13. What shall they play at my funeral? Vicinity of Obscenity - System Of A Down
14. What type of men do I like? Ameno - Era
15. How's my love life? Sacrifice - tATu
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Lmao. xD I thought 15, 6, 11, and 10 were awesome. x) The rest ah like. ... Wot tha fook. xP How very odd indeed.



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Liiiife is good. I went to this thing happening at my school on Thursday, called Challenge day. It was really freaking cool. And amazing, and emotional, and inspirational. Gives me a new outlook on people.

[link] - Think that's it.


Just got back from a family dinner. Pretty cool to see some of my family that I've not seen in a long while. They waz in Thailand. :33 I have another cousin. xD


Squeak.




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.and.she.was.beautiful-so.beautiful. ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8175620/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8175620/ Thu, 16 Mar 2006 06:48:29 PST
0:

HAVE A HAPPEE WUN. LAWLEEZ.

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Yep. (;

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


.i.will.help.you-hold.you. ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8150012/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8150012/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 14:01:05 PST Iyam bored & worried.
Iyam bored & worried.
Iyam bored & worried.
Iyam bored & worried.
Iyam bored & worried.Iyam bored & worried.Iyam bored & worried.Iyam bored & worried.Iyam bored & worried.Iyam bored & worried.Iyam bored & worried.Iyam bored & worried.Iyam bored & worried.Iyam bored & worried.Iyam bored & worried. uhm

I get to go the library soon. Soon as mum wakes up. WHICH SHOULD BE SOON. NOWNOWNOWNOWOWWOOWWE.W

So bored. I wanna draw something for someone, or a few somethings, but my sketchbook's at school getting marked. )= Siigh. Oh well. I can always use the paper sticking outta the printer. I couuuld... but I'm lazy.

Dad didn't take me to the post office. Again.
):< sgdfhgfhzgnzgxcbfjhnhfjr6sjynsrrtu746rsj sdyj

-Boots Furcadia up.-

OOH LOOK ITZ REB. <3333333333
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.my.little.butterfly. ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8012568/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8012568/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 20:09:04 PST
S'OKAI 'cause, I was out of line yesterday. I know I know. But I read allll my library books that whole night, and kind of calmed. So, I'm not gonna delete that previous entry, but know that some of the things I said were cruel and uncalled for. I still don't need that preaching shit.

But I don't regret hating that kid.. I still do. (= Sry iyam bitch who iz allowd to h8 heem. Period. Thank you.





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<33333 ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8000723/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8000723/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 15:44:32 PST . . .why you gotta judge everybody but yourself?



Rant mode: on.



Don't you just fucking hate it when people preach to you? Over the darnest things, too.
It all started when I said how I hated someone. Disliked, didn't appreciate, whatever.
And I was preached to, because it's 'immoral and wrong of me to hate somebody because you think they are gross, Tsu.'
You knoooow what? I'm not perfect, or a saint. I don't, at this point, give a little flying fuck about that, nor do I think it's humanly possible for me to be able to accept completely everyone. I'm human, I'm normal, and I tend to be a bitch sometimes. I'm sorry I hate people who pick their noses and whipe their snot and boogers on the bus seats, and I'm sorry that person's staggering gait and creepy stare grosses me out. I'm sorry, sorry sooooorry, but not really. Kay? I know. I'm a bitch to hate someone because they whipe their bodily access on shit, and stalk me. SORRYYYY. Jesus Christ, it's like I can't express my opinion anymore. I didn't even GO that detailed when I was expressing my dislike for the person.
Don't PREACH YOUR SHIT TO ME, when I know you hate and dislike 12311 people too, and are nowhere near perfect.

FUCKING DOUCUUUCDVGFS

Better now. Kbye. (: xDD

No flamez thnx.



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<3333 ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8000059/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/8000059/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 14:22:08 PST Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz.
Only, not mine. It's the library's.
THEY GOT A SHIPMENT OF SEXY BEAAASTS.
...
Mine plz? ):
I should ask them how much they costed.
Iwantonesobadly.
*Rubs against it.*


... I'm like. Carting around 15+ books right now.
In a green basket.
I FEEL WATCHED.
<< >>;;
BURN Mine plz. Mine plz. Mine plz.

OHYAYAHS

... Too late to warn you I'm incredibly hyper, right?

^___________________^





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YAY SURVEY OF LONGITUDE?
Sure. TUTE TUTE.
Stolez from . (=

(Note ; Actual entry follows after the quiz.)

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ABOUT YOU

Your full name: Chantelle Marie Murphy.
Age: Fifteen.
Height: Somewhere around 5'7"? Maybe shorter.
Natural hair color: Brown-auburn.
Eye color: Blue.
Number of siblings: One.
Glasses/contacts?: Neither, but I want non-prescription cat eye and wolf eye ones. x)
Piercings:: None.
Tattoos: Nope.
Braces?: Not yet. ..

FAVORITE

Color: Blue, silver, and gold.
Band: Uuuh. Hm. ... Too many to list in less than five minutes.
Song: Eh. Right now, I'm keen on:
• Song To Say Goodbye - Placebo
• I Can't Take It In - Imogen Heap
• Alegria - Cirque Du Soleil; Alegria
• Out Of Exile - Audioslave
• The River Sings, by Enya.
• Breathless, and Angel - The Corrs
Stuffed animal: The little husky pup one I named White Fang. xD
Video game: DDR.
TV show: CSI.
Movie: The Cat Returns, From Hell, Moulin Rouge, and a couple others.
Book: Annie on my Mind, and Kavik The Wolf Dog.
Food: Fooood. <3 Uhmn. I like spaghetti and chocolate.
Game on a cell phone: If onlyyyyyyy. .. *Dramaticsiiigh.*
CD cover: ... The Chronicles of Narnia.
Flower: Irises, oleanders, or any kind of wild flower.
Scent: Rain, ocean, and pina colada. :3
Animal: Wolf.
Comic book: Uuuuh. . . ... M.A.R.S., if we're talking manga.
Cereal: Corn Pops.
Website:: Oh, good question. Uhhh. A few. xD The sexiest is [link] (: Uh-huh.
Cartoon: Family Guy, Simpsons, or Futurama.

DO YOU

Play an instrument?: I do.
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: Eh. I think it's under 60 hours, but... meh. Probably.
Like to sing?: Oh yes.
Have a job?: No. ):
Have a cell phone?: Sooon.
Like to play sports?: It really depends. I enjoy the outdoors. If it's swimming, or running, I wouldn't mind too much. Nothing competitive. I like roller blading? xD
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Aye.
Have a crush on someone?: Geee.
Live somewhere NOT in the United States?: Yes, I live somewhere NOT in the United States. <333
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: Noo.
Have any special talents/skills?: Double-jointed fingers in the knuckles closest to the fingertips. o-o Uhhh. ... Singing, art, flutey? 8D I CAN TYPE MY NAME WITH MY TONGUE. (;
Exercise daily?: Well, I'm definitely getting somewhere, what with the walking talking and breathing. ... When summer rolls around, I plan to rollerblade home from school instead of taking the school bus, and I also want to get into doing Pilates and just walking and bussing around to places.
Like school?: Well, yeah. Sometimes, Band gets a little hectic and frustrating, as does art, but this semester has got to be the best I've ever had. x)

CAN YOU

Sing the alphabet backwards?: If I concentrated on it.
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: For about 0.006 seconds. ..
Speak any other languages?: I can sing in German and Gaelic? I wish to learn both, though. Otherwise, no, not fluently.
Go a day without food?: A school day, yes, a whole 24-hour time, no. I'd pass out.
Stay up for more than 24 hours?: Not as of yet?
Read music, not just tabs?: I do, when it comes to flute and choir. Otherwise, I can't play guitar or bass without tabs. ... xD
Roll your tongue?: Yep.
Eat a whole pizza?: If you starved me for 2 - 5 days.

HAVE YOU EVER

Snuck out of the house?: You know, I don't think I have. oo; Planned to many times, but, never followed through.
Cried to get out of trouble?: Probably.
Gotten lost in your city?: Not yet.
Seen a shooting star?: Yep.
Been to any other countries besides the united states?: Albeit Canada, nope.
Had a serious surgery?: Yes, when I got a loonie stuck in my esophagus. ... (:
Stolen something important to someone else?: Noo.
Solved a rubiks cube?: No, the damn things. xD
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: Yeeep.
Cried over a girl?: Never had to, and I hope things stay on the non-crying side. xD;;
Cried over a boy?: Once or twice.
Kissed a random stranger?: No. o-o
Hugged a random stranger?: Yes! xD
Been in a fist fight?: Y... ]]> ~Tsukasaru http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/7913973/ http://Tsukasaru.deviantart.com/journal/7913973/ Thu, 16 Feb 2006 08:00:45 PST
T'was only a matter of time before I got off my lazy ass and switched accounts. I used to be . Ohshocker. I swear I'm obsessed with this name.

YAYYYYY. So, now for tedious things. Like transferring all my art to this account. Hheheheee... joy. Bloob.

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