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so last sunday i came out to my mom! i feel a lot better about it too. i was worried about it for a long time. but you know the funny thing? she said she knew!!! well it turns out one of the main reasons she knew was really because of a rumor, but hey, if it made it easier for me so what! lol. she said she wasnt really ok with it but she accepts it. lol i told her about my girlfriend too. have i mentioned i got a girlfriend on here? i dont remember. oh well.

so all this last week ive been in oklahoma with my dads family. it was so fun!!! but being on the back side of a mountain we had NO signal so it drove me nuts. but im back now. sadly. but it was so much fun, all my family was there, and it was a hoot! i already miss them, but a week with them was almost too much if you know what i mean, lol.

so i finally got a computer. and its old as garbage!!!!it still runs windows 98 and boots up with a blue screen (not blue screen of death thank god, lol) but sad thing is, as old as it is, it still works better than the other one. but that ones getting fixed. hopefully it will return soon. i miss my pictures and stuff.

well as i said before, im really sleepy. and ive got a terrible headache youd think id be used to them, as often as i get them, but no. i wonder what causes them? it could be a bad thing...ok well im rambling now, so i really gotta get! but ill be around (now that i have my snazzy new old computer!

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/28497994/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/28497994/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 21:52:49 PST
Well, the past (insert time ive not been on here) has been really crazy. We finally finished marching band, which was sad but releiving at the same time. My dual enrollment class has been going well, except for the six page paper im supposed to write thats due on tuesday ugh...i applied to college, only to wait to weeks to find out that im supposed to send in my trasncript. i didnt know! no one told me that! but oh well, maybe ill know soon...

oh! and in other news, i finally got a girlfriend!!! ^_^ im so happy. ive liked her for a while, but things were finally right to ask and so viola! lol, but shes making me go see new moon with her. usually i gag at the whole twilight thing, but one, im going to be with her, and two, this one doesnt seem as bad. they got a new producer or something, plus, out of all of them, i think new moon had the most potential to be good, but the good parts were rushed and the crappy ones were dwelled on. and three, the guy who is jacob is hot. plus, i actually liked jacob. not to mention the fact that i simply love werewolves and well sit through the lamest ofthings for a good werewolf transformation and battle lol.

Ive started drawing again, now that things have slowed down and started to settle. the things ive drawn are mainly for a story ive started to write. wanna know something cool? everyones names are going to be emotes (or at least im going to try) like the main characters name is Ewe (yooweh) and his sister Ene (Eeneh) theres also a big player named Tat, or Tatta and several others. lol, but its pretty centered around internet stuff. if you have any ideas youd think are cool, lemme know!

pretty much the only things im having problems with are all inner struggles. but ill fight through those too and things will be alright soon enough. i hope.

well thats all the major things i can think of right now. ive really missed all my dA friends! i hope to be on soon! until then, later!!!

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/26262168/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/26262168/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 19:07:28 PDT
so anyway updates. my mom is in the hospital (she had knee replacement surgery) but shes in a day longer than wed originally thought. so im at my dads house and am going to miss band tomorrow. which i dont quite mind. there was a meeting yesterday about being sevtion leader, but i wasnt able to go so now im a little worried that i wont get to be. this is the first year that ive actualyl been my own section! for the last three years ive been the only mellophone (french horn) but this year theres another girl too but i dont want to be stuck in the saxes again!and theres jsut lots of other stuff tahts stressin me out.

but on a good note, i got my hair cut. its the way ive wanted forever. its shorter in the back (very short) and longer in the front. i plan on posting pictures hopefully.

oh, another bad thing, my ps2 suddenly decided to stop working. its like it wont spin to read the disk or whatever and i have no idea what caused it or how to fix it...sad face but oh well. idk what to do

im really excited for my senior year but the closer it gets the more i get stressed out about it. and my parents keep putting more and more pressure on me for different things. for one thing, they are both wanting me to drive, which i think im ready to do, but im still kinda nervous and dont even like driving but my dad wants me to gain experience in the little town i live in now so that im better at it when i go to college. but my mom goets home after the dep of transportation closes and besides i need to find a good car to even take the test! grrr, do not want...

idk, it just seems like sometimes, everyything ticks me off and annoys me and others, i dont really feel anyhting.

well im bored and cant think of anything. you know what, i think i end every journal like this. well, im just gonna stop now. laterzzzz

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/26016155/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/26016155/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 22:16:15 PDT
im really bored, and felt like changing my journal.

im so tired of absolutely nothing. im also rather angry at my dad...its a long story, and im too tired to type it.

ok so this was pointless. i forgot like everything i was going to say. oh well.

later 8D















































































































oh, and ive recently rediscovered peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. i forgot how much i love them. especially with strawberry jelly, yum XP

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/25075714/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/25075714/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 18:08:21 PDT
um, well i also said i was back but not really. im at a different place right now and the computer sucks and is going to go be fixed by one of my much more computer savvy friends. in fct as i type its already stuck...but the good news is i go back to my dads on thurdsday! (which is where i was all week haha) i might get on on the laptop (which is supposed to be just for school, shh) but it makes chatting buggy. so i might not lol.

anyway, thats all for now!

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/22472028/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/22472028/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 15:01:10 PST dont come visit just yet though, lol. i have to transfer stuff over haha.

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/22444262/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/22444262/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 23:42:19 PST got it. if this goes well i might continue others haha, but ive never done one before. plus, my pageveiws go by very slowly...

lol, so random thingy time haha. and maybe an update or two at the end... we shall see

so, i got this from 's journal. i love ad libs haha, this was fun and kinda stupid, like always haha. so one is mine, the other is my friends. read away...

Scarlett and Jericho
by William Shakespeare

Enter Scarlett

Jericho appears above at a window

Scarlett:
But, soft! what light through yonder window breaks?
It is the crayon, and Jericho is the wolf.
Arise, boring wolf, and poke the inebriated desk.
See, how he leans his arm upon his face!
O, that I were a glove upon that face,
That I might touch that arm!

Jericho:
O Scarlett, Scarlett! wherefore art thou Scarlett?
What's in a name? That which we call a butt
By any other name would smell as funny
Dost thou love me? I know thou wilt say "like the winter winds that sweep through the frozen countryside"
And I will take thy word; yet if thou swear'st,
Thou mayst prove fancy.

Scarlett:
Swain, by yonder inebriated desk I swear
That tips in a tree the caring potato--

Jericho:
O, swear not by the desk, the loveable desk,
That quickly changes in its colorful orb,
Lest that thy love prove likewise colorful.
Sweet, weird night! A thousand times weird night!
Parting is such crespo sorrow,
That I shall say weird night till it be morrow.

Exit above

Scarlett:
Sleep dwell upon thine arm, peace in thy face!
Would I were sleep and peace, so naughtily to rest!
passivly will I to my boring butt's cell,
Its help to poke, and my funny butt to tell.

oh look, i still have time for an update!!! lol, so anyway the new year has started and im elated with the classes i have this year. especially the visual communications class! its gonna freakin rock haha. um, ive neot been on the computer as much (and nor do i plan to) ofr the simple reason that is flippin cold! my computer is in the renovated garage that is not insulated, like, at all, so it STAYS cold, but now its freakin freezing. plus, im really mad at my computer cuz it kept lockin up. except it wasnt really the computer, it was the internet, so ireally shouldnt blame it...but im going to anyway haha.

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/22313904/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/22313904/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 20:47:00 PST

i hope everyone has a happy new years and has a good time tonight. i for one am babysitting again, but this time its a four year old whos so adorable

i hope you have fun tonight, and for those of you (you know who you are ) dont get too drunk tonight, lol. but a little bit is ok haha.

um, i got nothin new except to say that i absolutely love my friend amber, she is the best person in the world! i cant give yopu all the details as to why, but heres one! [link] she wanted to make a boy character and after telling her about mine she got interested in it and viola! i have a companion, lol.

so, random p.s...i hate the old 2004 ffr. its all digitalness and crap and gives me a MAJOR headache! lol, but it shall end soon haha. i think its being put up as a speak...type..w/e..thankg god! =_= lulz

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/22234333/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/22234333/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 21:59:18 PST
right now im stuck between a rock and a hard place in my life, im not gonna into specifics sorry, but it seems like the more i try to pull out of it, the further i sink in. and when i reach to someone to help me out, i just get pushed further in. im so tired of other people comin to me and me having to care for their every emotional neeed, butthen when i start to mention that im havin problems i gt shut down and left. im talkin about one specific person but she doesnt come on here, so its kinda useless to talk about it here. actually, this is my favorite place to talk about stuff because i get feedback from people here. sad thing s i dont actually know any of them, but it does help a little...

it seems like im in one of those times when its raining so hard its about to flood and you think it cant get any worse but then suddenly your poncho and umbrella breaks and you get saked and then someone comes and takes your puppy. i know that makes no sense but it does to me so nyah! anyway, its just too much. no one close to me can help because one of the main reasons i am sad and lonely is cuz of this big 'secret' i have but i cant tell any of them because i dont want to lose them or have them change their relationship with me. well actually, their is one person who knows it who i DO want it to chnge, but it looks to be far off the horizon if you know what i mena. you probably dont. heck, i dont even know what i mean enymore...

idk, im just sick of shit. im so deep in this muck that im losin sight of day. theres this internal battle waging within me, but i have no idea really between who or what, and even less clue as to whos winning. this all really sucks. its almost like ive developed two of me, and they each have their own characteristics and habits. one goes to a certain situation for the most part. well, except around one group of my friends, who see both, and wuite frankly i think they enjoy it even if i dont. it really confuses me and i feel like im losing control

sorry about the emo moment if you read this far. it was really kind of...whatever. but i had to ger it out at least once...

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]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21906455/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21906455/ Tue, 09 Dec 2008 21:05:06 PST
[x] You have yelled at an inanimate object for 'hurting' you. (sorta sometimes...)
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door. (nearly broke one doing that once, lol)
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle. (it was an accident T_T)
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks. (all the freakin time baby!)
[x] You have ran into a tree/bush. (WOOT )
[x] You have been called a blond. (sad thing is ima brunette with an abnormally high IQ, but im still dumb, haha)
[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow. (is not...)
[x] You just tried to lick your elbow. (tried many years ago. it hurt...)
[x]You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm. (ive known this since...ya...)
[ ] You sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen. (my favorite way to fall! XD)
[x] You have choked on your own spit. (I NEARLY DIED! lol, jk.)

So far: 10

[ ]You have seen the Matrix/Star Wars and still don't get it
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[X] You have accidentally caught something on fire. (and some not on accident! lol, jk)
[x] You have caught yourself drooling. (worse, it was in class)

So far: 12

[x]You have fallen asleep in class.
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking. (in the middle of a sentence...XD)
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you were talking about. (yup, see above)
[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from you. (ive actually had that happen before. then i went and kicked there butts. take that julia! )
[x] You are often told to use your "inside voice."

So far: 17 D:

[x]You use your fingers to do simple math.
[ ] You have eaten a bug by accident.
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important. (>> spanish notes...)
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.(i didnt know till someone told me...)
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.

So far: 21

[ ] You re-post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't.
[x] You break/lose a lot of things.
[x] You tilt you're head when you're confused. (OH YA!)
[x]You have fallen out of your chair before. (almost every day at least once, lol)
[x] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling. (so far ive got 314 mapped out. jk, i dont really)
[x] The word "um" is used many times a day.
[ ] You don't know what "um" means.
[x]You say "what" and "huh" a lot.
[x]You used a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin. (>_>...yur point?)

Total: 28

Multiply this by three and it is your percent!

84%...this is really depressing...

im not tagging anyone this time...i learned my lesson (looks hard at those who shall remain nameless...)

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21801596/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21801596/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 15:13:05 PST
ANYWAY!
RULES
You must fill out EVERY question! No skipping!
Tag five people afterward.
Leave a message on their page telling them their tagged.


ARE YOU?

1. Perfect?
psh, i wish!

2. Tall?
5'10!

3. In your pajamas?
i dont own any pajamas actually...

4. Left handed?
yup! im a proud south-paw, lol


LAST:

1. Friend you saw
Lauren

2. Talked to on the phone :
me mom ^^

3. Person to text you:
my friend seth ^^ he texts me all the time

4. Was today better than yesterday?
much actually!


FAVORITES:
1. Number
5, 9, 12, 17, 462

2. Color(s)
it changes regurlarly. right now...orange!

3. Fruit
Strawberry, yum!

4. Place
freezing computer room


EIGHT EMOTIONS:

1. Are you missing someone right now?
yes, my best friend

2. Are you happy?
very! though i usually am, lol

3. Are you sad?
currently? No

4. Are you bored?
mmm...getting there actually. but not for long!

6. Are you nervous?
yes! midstate tryouts saturday! T_T im not ready!!!

8. Are you tired?
very very


ABOUT YOU:

1. Real name?
Sydnee, like austrailia, lol

2. Nick names?
besides Aussie? Giggles, shug, and another that i refuse to name cuz i hate it >_<

3. Eye color?
usually some form of blue. it changes with my mood

4. Zodiac sign?
pisces!

5. Male or female?
Female

6. Slut?
eew no!!!

Slow?
mebbe

7. Smart?
verah!

8. Hair color?
brown...booooring...

9. Long or short?
kinda medium. its shoulder lenght

10. Sweats or Jeans?
Jeans. i abhor sweats...

11. Phone or Camera?
Phone (can't live without my cell )

12. Drink or Smoke?
never.

14. Righty or lefty?
i thought i answered this already...lefty if i didnt!

FIRSTS:
1. First best friend?
Keri! and were still goin strong!

2. First crush?
Jake McQuarter, from way back in the, like, second grade...

3. First pet?
i dont remember avtually...

4. First big vacation?
oklahoma to see family ^^


CURRENTLY:

1. Eating?
nuthin

2. Drinking?
Diet coke

3. I'm about to:
go celebrate my mms birthday

4. Listening to?
the thunder rolled. idk who its by

5. Plans for today?
early christmas, ftw!!! my granma is here.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

1. Shorter or taller?
Taller

2. Romantic or spontaneous?
hmm, im not sure. i dont like surprises, so romance i guess

3. Sensitive or loud?
sensitive is smexy, lol

4. Hook-up or relationship?
Relationship


HAVE YOU EVER:

1. Drank bubbles?
eew yes. it was on accident and it was soooo nasty!!!

2. Lost glasses/contacts?
Several times OTL

3. Ran away from home?
thought about it before. but im lazy, so id rather wait it out...

4. Broken someone's heart?
not that i know of, but most likely not...

5. Been arres... ]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21680240/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21680240/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 12:05:20 PST

+...WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I...+
I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking(already a smoker):
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

+...WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY...+
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Family:

+...WOULD YOU...+
Be my friend?:
Keep a secret if I told you one?:
Hold my hand?:
Take a bullet for me?:
Keep in touch?:
Try and solve my problems?:
Love me?:
Date me?:

+...HAVE YOU EVER...+
Lied to make me feel better?:
Wanted to kiss me?:
Wanted to kill me?:
Broke my heart?:
Kept something important from me?:
Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

+...AND MORE...+
1. Who are you?:
2. Are we friends?:
3. When and how did we meet?:
6. Describe me in one word.:
7. What was your first impression?:
8. Do you still think that way about me now?:
9. What reminds you of me?:
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
11. How well do you know me?:
12. When's the last time you saw me?:
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
14. Are you gonna paste this to your journal see what I say about you?:

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21474935/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21474935/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 18:41:50 PST
so the friend i thought was pregnant and then turned out to not be...well, it turns out shes pregnant and the guy who pretty much did it against her will isnt going to do anything to help which is really predictable. i thought he was a good guy a long time ago before all this crap started, but now i want to punch his fucking face in (sorry, normally im never this violent, but im really defensive when it comes to my friends. and if you hurt them or take advantage of them, you better b prepared for a whole lotta ugly comin at you from all sides of hell.) but she now has to go to counseling for cutting herself and stuff...

and remember the friend who was on the verge of a breakdown before that guy came and helped her? well, he fucking cheated on her! and come to find out, IT WAS THE SECOND TIME HED DONE THAT!!! AND SHE STILL WENT BACK TO HIM!!! i understand second chances and everything but jeez!

and now shes with some guy who so far as i know 1)isnt a pornhead, 2)isnt a lying scumbag, 3) isnt abusive, etc etc etc. so he seems pretty good, but lately ive seem to be a rather shitty judge of character...but anyway, she tells me yesterday "i might not be in school tomorrow" and like the dumbass i am i assume she meant shes moving cuz theres been some problems hree and blahblahblah. so i asked her that and she said no, so i asked he what she meant and she said she wanted to run away. well, i somehow managed to talk her out of it, because i know that could end up REALLY badly, ya know? but i really wonder if that was right. i mean on one hand, theres all kind of pedos and kidnappers and rapists and all that stuff out there, or she could get hurt or so many other things that would be horrible if it happenend to her. but on the other hand, her mother is borederline abusive, her moms boyfried..well, i dont have time to go into that, and her brother is obnoxious and her mothers obvious favorite, even though her mom doesnt think so. plus, she was going to run away with the new boyfriend because the people he live with were trying to break him p for some reason.

i just really worry about her because she doesnt think, and gets too emotional, but she moves on really quickly. i think she told me once that shes been pregnant before but the guy who did it beat her till she miscarried or something but i dont really remember and im really afraid that that will happen again because i know shes been guilted into sex before! but when i try to help i get yelled at, but then when it ends badly she comes to me for help and goes on about how much i help her and blahblahblah.

and i found out that my mom used to be this punk daredevil girl back in high school. MY MOM!!! my god-lovin, bible-thumpin, paranoid, hypocritic, manitpulating, holier-than-thou-even-ehough-im-not, law abiding, play by the rules, do as i say not as i do cuz youll end up an evil conniving...anyway. can you tell i dont really like my mother? anyway, she wont let me wear what i want, eat whee i want, go where i want, hang out with who i want, listen to what i want or anything! the stuff i want to wear isnt bad, some of it is black, but a lot of it isnt. there was an acdc shirt i wanted and she looked at it like it was the scourge of the earth and if i wore it id burst into flame. i cant listen to pretty much anyhting but country cuz thats what she listens to and heaven forbid she change the station! lets see, just pretty much everything along those lines. i wanted to go to the park once and she asked me with who and i told her. she doesnt even know them and she said now. same thing with the movies once. just stupid litte stuff. i said one foul word once on accident, and i got busted big time for it, but she cusses so much its ridiculous! she says she does this because she doesnt want me to turn into what she was like in high school except, lo and behold, i am anyway, just from trying to distance myself from her because shes pushing me to be something i dont want! if she knew half the stuff i did, which isnt a whole lot by the way, shed lock me in a dungeon. im not allowed to be who i want to be because of here. i dont even know what that is though! there isnt really a real me. theres different sides of me for almost everyone, and i dont think anyones ever seen them all. well, maybe one person...but theres no way my freakin mom will...theres so much she doesnt know about me...

no one ever fuckin listens to me! and no matter what it always ends up that i get left out and forgotten! im so tired of it. i really have thought about just making it stop, but im not gonna run away (reasons stated previously) killing myself isnt worth it (though i wont say i havent considered it before) and i only have a year or so left til i graduate. once im out of this place most of my problems... ]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21380443/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21380443/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 22:15:51 PST
well, i am really glad that my friend who we thought was pregnant turned out no to be. and my friend who was basically being stalked by her ex and who was on the verge of a breakdown now has a boyfriend who is actually a good guy and who is basically helping ease her out of her depression she was in, so im overjoyed for her. but it makes me sad that i cant seem to get a boyfriend or a girlfriend...

um...well, theres this girl who is basically going psyco and i want to fucking kill her. but thats not unusual.

oh, im also doing mediocre in school. it seems im doomed to mediocrity as of this point. but im not pregnant, in juvie, a pothead, or a whore in training, so im doin much better than most of the pople in my school, lol.

im aslo drowning in this artist/writers block that ive been struggling with for months. so for right now, i am taking any reasonable idea from pretty much anyone. but i may get to spend the weekend soon with a friend who is like a muse for me, lol. so thats cool. pus, i miss her alot

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21009062/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/21009062/ Wed, 15 Oct 2008 21:22:47 PDT

okay, remember how excited for fall break i was? well, now im so extrememly bored. yes my computer does work but it lieks to all the sudden not work and kick me off of whatever im doing.

im also very upset. a lot of it has to do with my mom. shes being...well, anyone who knows her can fill in that sentence.

theres just too much dramam going on. i really hate it. i thought that, being on break, id be able to get away from it, but it follows me apparently. i dont know what to do anymore. im tired of being the go to person, but im not able to really share myself with anyone else. im actually surprised ive put this much here. but im prety sure no one reads this so i guess i dont mind. i dont know. theres just so much going on with me right now, its overwhelming. i really dont know what to do and am at a loss here. i really do have some great friends, but im not able to tell one specific friends everthing. I had started keeping a journal in rl in a notebook, but im a slow writer, plus i never have time. slow+busy=never gets to fill in journal. which really sucks...well, im gonna stop this pity party thing (which this is how i usually stop myself from actually feeling too much) and go...do something else. idk.

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/20891446/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/20891446/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 14:49:10 PDT
im also excited becuase fall break starts this friday and were off fr a whole week!!!

um, i dont really have any other big news. or if i do, im too tired to remember.

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/20227474/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/20227474/ Fri, 29 Aug 2008 22:37:15 PDT
idk, theres not really much going on though. im so bored right now.

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anyway, sorry for not bein on in, like, forever. my comp is messed up again, and i have no idea when itll be fixed. i will be on tonight and tomorrow and next week. other than that, no clue.

im excited, school is right around the corner. i cant wait to see my friends. im also gonna be in some cool classses (i hope, its not excactly certain what ill get until the firts day of school)

im aslo really worried. not too long ago, some guys i know were in a bad car accident. two of them were okay, but one of them died, and another is still in a coma in critical condition. there was only a 35% chance he would live last time i checked. im really worried about chase (the guy) and also how his condition and the other guys death will efffect my friends. one of them is almost suicidal, and i am worried abut her too. there is just so much goin on right now.

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/19234837/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/19234837/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 12:08:04 PDT yes!!! maybe!!! im gona see anyway...

2. Which state/country do you live in?
U.S.A. (i almost misarranged the letters T_T)

3. What is your favourite thing you got for Christmas?
my mp3 player ^^

4. What was the last thing you did in 2007?
dude, that was too long ago for me to remember, lol.

5. How tall are you?
5"10'

6. Are you new on dA? How long have you been a member?
no. ive been here longer than the thing says though. i switched names.

7. Are you male or female?
i ist a girly! ^^

8. Which program do you use to chat?
myspace, yahoo, and dAmn. da the most though, lol

9. What was the first thing you did this morning?
tripped over something

10. Do you own a website or forum?
no

11. Is the computer you're using your own computer?
nope. family comp.

12. What is your favourite type of food?
mmm, lots of different kinds. its hard to say

13. How many brothers and sisters do you have?
one brother, one sister, both younger

14. Do you have an account on myspace?
yesh

15. What is your favorite video game or anime character?
O_o ummmmmm *mind implodes from trying to pick just one*

16. What is your favorite color?
it changes almost weekly. right now its red.

17. Everyone loves candy, right?
yup! ^^

18. Have you ever gotten a gift art from a friend or someone?
no. T)T

19. Do you have the Wii?
want one T_T JUST FOR BRAWL! *dies*

21. If you could have one wish, what would it be?
idk. id have to think about that

22. How long do you sleep?
almost all day, except i wake up every few minutes

23. What is your favorite part of day?
sunset. hence the name!

24. What kind of creature/person is your character?
dragoness/shapeshifter

25. What is the first letter of your name?
S

26. Do you cuss/swear/curse?
everynow and then

27. Are you happy, excited, angry, or sad at the moment?
not really anything

28. What is your favorite video game?
hmmm, zelda, guitar hero, mario games, lost kingdoms,

29. Do you think Nintendo is an amazing company?
YUS!!! NINTENDO IS TEH BEST!!!!!

30. What is your favorite video game company?
O_o seriously? see above answer

31. Do you like doing quizzes?
yes, cuz i have nothing better to do, lol

32. Do you have a lot of good friends?
i have a few

33. What color eyes do you have?
mostly blue, but they change with my mood

34. What is your favorite Pokémon?
hmmm, nine tials or eevee (sp?)

35. Have you ever seen a house on fire?
yes.

36. What is your favorite book?
magicians guild or little princess or...ahhh!! dont ask a bibliophile to choose a favorite book!!!! *head re-implodes)

37. Have you ever read a 100 paged book?
i usually read books far bigger than that, but yes

38. Are you a Christian?
yes

39. Who do you like better: Mario or Sonic the hedgehog?
mario, duh!

40. Do you like to do smilies?
lol, yes. im addicted to em

41. Do you like to be funny?
eh? yes. i like to make people smile

42. What time is it right now in your time zone?
2:02 but i dont know my time zone is called

43. Do you like to draw with a pencil or computer mouse/tablet?
pencil, cuz ive never used a tablet

44. What kind of desktop do you use?
msn at dads, windows i think at moms

45. Have you ever beaten a video game?
sadly, no. i love video game, but im horrible att em

46. Do you have an action replay for some system/game?
yeah, got one for the gamecube

47. What is your favourite holiday?
halloween

48. What is your favourite letter?
v

49. What is your favourite number?
5

50. Now tag 3 of your friends!
anyone want it?


btw, the mood thing isnt coming up, so ignore it...

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ps. im not lonely, i just cant get my thingy to come up so i can chane the mood setting thingy.

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/18884467/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/18884467/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 01:19:37 PDT
yep, im gonna be stuck on a mountain in east tenessee for a whole week. ugh, i hate camping. but this camp is usually pretty fun, and its so not, wel, outdoorsy. or at least the girls cabins arent, lol.

im gonna be goin through internet withdrawel, that much i know. opther than that, i think ill be fine! well, the last couple of times hasnt been so good. time before last, i was there six hours and broke my ankle! wasnt that wonderful! i spen the entire trip on crutches, and couldnt go home. the plus side is, i got to skip the mudpit obsacle course and ride in the golf cart with the counseler. the bad side, i couldnt go swimming, and hes a scary driver, lol. og well.

i will see you all in a weeek! pssh, as if anyone reads this, lol. whatever though. i felt like it, so there! take that, imaginary peoples. (i think ive officially lost it. maybe its a GOOD thing i take some time away, lol)

]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/18777001/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/18777001/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 01:50:35 PDT ( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex

SO FAR: 0

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 3

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
( ) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
( ) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 4

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 5

Level 5
( ) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone Through Internet
( ) Been in a mosh pit(what's that?)

SO FAR: 5

Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers (I hate pills...)
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel(I want to..)

SO FAR: 10

Level 7
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone mudding (gone mudding...is that like playing in the mud?)
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 15

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO far: 19

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake (i don't like them though)

SO FAR: 20

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 21

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest (A science and writing contest.)
( ) Been Suspended From School
( ) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 23

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night(i got such brainfreeze!!! lol)
(x) Danced in the moonlight (by my lonesome)

SO FAR : 25

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime (i used to live in a bad part of town, it was common)
( ) Pole Danced (eww, no)
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 29

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World(does the Carribean count?)
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 32

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins (my friends laughed at me, and the waitress was like O_o)

SO FAR: 37

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose (>3> it was an accident...)
( ) Kissed In The Rain ( i wish, how romantic would that be..and so cliche)

SO FAR: 40

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere

SO FAR: 43

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey (umm, no )

SO FAR: 45

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 46

Level 22
(x)Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube (lol,ice cube~ )
( ) Kicked A Fish (neva )
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 49

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x)Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about (almost every night)

SO FAR: 53

Level 24
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 57

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts (scary)
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 58

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A... ]]> ~Twighlight-Maiden http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/18596167/ http://Twighlight-Maiden.deviantart.com/journal/18596167/ Sat, 31 May 2008 15:50:14 PDT
right now im very bored, otherwise i would be rambling on about hyperness things. im rambling anyway, but that doesnt realyl matter, lol.

so before i get on anyones nervesas if anyone reads these things) im gonna go. im also *gasp* out of things to ramble aobut. lol.

so, i joined and

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