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From now on I'll be known as Akisame-yume here. [link]

Akisame means Autumn Rain [I'm born in Autumn for those of you who don't know]
Yume means dream [Always been a daydreamer]

I also love the japanese language so it suits me fine.
Akisame is my username on a few sites now (Voice acting alliance forum, iScribble and some asian art site which I can't recall the name of)

I'll also be changing my accounts on a few other sites and changing my email so stay tuned.

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/28282216/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/28282216/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 23:04:10 PST
OMG
I FUCKING DID IT!
FUCK YES!
WIN! EPIC FUCKING WIN!
HAHAHA TAKE THAT HSC!
DAMN THE BOARD OF STUDIES ARE SOME SICK FUCKS! D=
BUT IT'S FINALLY FUCKING OVER! YES!
I FUCKING WIN!
BOSS BATTLE FUCKING OVER!
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY!
^^I totally sang that the entire way home and skipped....
Though my hyper seems to have died down just a tad and now I feel tired!
Two 2 hour exams on my last day but dammit it's finally fucking over!
I'm so happy there is no fucking words to describe the joy I feel right now.
PS. is the bestest friend ever and I'm going over to house on friday to celebrate the awesome that is my life at the moment. (aka this achievement)

That is enough hyper happy spazzasm from me for now
I love you guys!!!
~ Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/28069368/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/28069368/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 15:26:55 PDT My first cosplay shoot ever and it was sooooooooo much fun. Even if I was the worst Misa there...We had 3. To make things more confusing two of them both had the same name so we just got numbered. I was number 3 xD

We took some really bad photos with my camera a lot of them came out blurry which was sad, I'm sorry for my shitty camera.

I had lots of fun being crushed in one of the group shots, I can't wait till the photo is uploaded lol. I should upload all the photos from my camera here to.

It was really nice meeting fellow otakus and cosplayers. They were all so funny, crazy and awesome x3. Though this is my first cosplay xD. Next cosplay on the list is Tifa (FF7 Version) I actually don't have a list. I mean besides Tifa, Roxas, Hinamori Amu and Merle I haven't thought about it enough to make a list. I should do that in the future.

Tim was so cute xD He reminded me of my brother. L was so freaking hyper >.> like OMG GUISE COSPLAY LIST NOA! Misa number 1 was perverted beyond all belief. "From the right angle it looks like a..." I'm not even gonna SAY what she said xD

Also Julian: Lick it
Misa Number 2: WHAT?!
xD
Best photographer ever xD

I'm still sore from yesterday and I got an exam on the 3rd which I should/need to study for ugh. I'm still glad I went though.

Oh yeah at the moment I have been playing FF8. I swear the drawing system can kiss my ass xD.

Eh that's all until next times guys
~Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/27764952/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/27764952/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 15:07:40 PDT Done a bit of drawing too, probably part of my procrastination I guess
Oh yeah I'm on Disc 3 of Final Fantasy 7 now. So proud.
Stopped playing for now though cause I gotta study.

As you can see I've been doing more digital art, and improving I think.
Starting to get used my tablet. Hopefully you'll see more from me in the future.
I want photoshop badly D= Until I get photoshop I'll keep using my crappy free program.

btw I love each and every single one of the favs I get, the support from DA is what keeps me drawing and writing. Your love inspires me so ! Love you guys! And of course my supportive friends who make this life so wonderful!

Oh excited for Death Note Photoshoot on Halloween...which I hope to go to xD
Anyway until the next journal update
Love you guys!
~Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/27027180/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/27027180/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 02:00:58 PDT [link]

Libble: My life scribbled

Essentially it's based off my life, online and offline xD
It's just really an excuse for me to practice drawing with my tablet and digital art.
It's not meant to be serious at all.
The art isn't spectacular either. Don't expect regular updates as I still have HSC.
I was mostly just starting it now xD

I also might be doing a comic collab with after HSC is over.
We've already started discussing storyline and swapping character designs.
I will be the writer and she'll be the artist. I can't wait!

I finished all my Japanese speaking HSC exams so NO MORE SPEAKING FOR JAPANESE EVER AGAIN!
Yay! I think I did okay in both continuers and extension

Oh and I'm going to Animania tomorrow! Excited!
So much to look forward to!

Well until I can next be bothered to update my journal
later DA!
~Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/26725699/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/26725699/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 01:26:44 PDT Also got addicted to facebook and Mabinogi > [link]

Mabinogi is a cute little game where you play anime-ish characters and have dungeon raids of killing things. Quite fun xD

I'm Violyn, the elf on server Alexina if any of you play or are interested in playing.
I got one more Trial left, Society and Culture xD on Monday than back to normal school...booooooooo.

Anyways I haven't been drawing much....inbetween cramming procrastination and Mab....not enough time to draw or be artistic. Wrote a few fail poems but that's it. I might get back on iScribble later....

Just to let you guys know I'm not dead
Until next time
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/26248364/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/26248364/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 06:04:01 PDT as described here: [link]

whoever caught her 4k won a free feature in her journal.

Here's the 4k:
[link]

Here's the feature:
[link]

YAY I ACTUALLY WON SOMETHING!


]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/26144090/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/26144090/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 05:06:44 PDT
I hope I'll improve my digital art a bit more...
Also does anyone use iScribble?

I'm Akisame (Twilight Flames was taken xD)
on there. I now officially love iScribble. So much fun. I was scribbling for hours with (my online lil sis xD)
and (Her friend who I met on iScribble today)

Anyways I had an okay-ish day.

Hopefully when I get more time I'll be more active on here xD Sorry if I haven't posted much art and only poetry. I miss drawing I do! Poetry is fun but damn after hours of drawing today I forget how satisfying it is to draw until your arm hurts. I miss art. I might persue some kinda art class after highschool is over and done with. Did I mention I hate year 12? It's like killing me. Can't wait till it's over, then MORE ART, MORE POETRY, MORE FREEDOM!

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/25863067/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/25863067/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 15:13:24 PDT
OKAY SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY!

I had a fucking nightmare which left me waking up way too early and also left me waking with the feelings from in the dream lingering so now I'm angry! My emotions have been stirred up and I'm tired and confused as to why I had the stupid dream in the first place.

Also my msn has decided it wants to piss me off this morning too and not send my messages so I've decided to vent here to make myself feel better.

Okay I'm done

KKTHXBAI!

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/25153613/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/25153613/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 00:09:27 PDT
Oh my gosh so much fun, my small group was fun. Joey, Tom, Laura and James. They are all so nice, I already got on pretty well with Laura, Joey and James. Tom I did like but didn't know nearly as well it was really good to get to know him better. Taking photos on the last day was fun too. One thing I missed was my online friends and of course friends and family outside of school. Oh and HOT SHOWERS.

Though all the crazy dancing inbetween the dorms, and the boys running in and attacking us with foam darts was fun. Joey's shuffle was epic, Blair got it on her Camera. Oh the farm was such a calm and beautiful place. Me and Blair sat outside and talked for ages. Plus when we went up stairs looking down at the fog in the morning was errie and creepy yet beautiful. Same at night with the storm clouds looming, though one night we could see the moon through the clouds and the clouds looked like glass shattered by it's light. Tried to get a picture of it but the crappy camera's didn't do it's beauty justice.

Tom and Me got on like a house on fire during our small group talks, we both like to talk as much as each other so we pretty much bounced off one another, he stirred me up too. Nice to have a new friend xD. Joey is a lot more quiet than I thought he was. Laura and James were their usual selves, they make a cute couple. Laura is so loud and fun. James is such a gentleman, helped me down the stairs, Laura is lucky to have him.

Jesse was pigging out on all the crappy food, well not crappy but not home made stuff, mass produced by a limited staff for 50 plus kids = bad food. Also the ride home was fun, me and Blair were singing songs like Ur So Gay by Katy Perry, I Kissed A Boy by Cobra Starship. It was good fun. So much to say I can't possibly sum it all up here. And quite a few inside jokes.

Just know this:
Study hard and you shall become a Panda, young grasshopper.
The answer to everything is "Titanic"

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/24952514/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/24952514/ Mon, 25 May 2009 22:33:29 PDT Not to mention other problems...

I've been sick with the flu and yeah I still don't feel much better now anyways...
But school calls so I went back.
Though I am not really handling school at all.
I don't even know why I'm still there anyways.
I was thinking of quiting in year 10 but I stayed
I think cause my friends were...
or cause I didn't know what I would do with myself if I didn't stay at school.
I'm starting to wonder if there's a point or am I just there cause of the expectations.
I'm starting to think I should look at other options to get into things I want to do.
I don't even know.

I don't think the surgeries I've had to go through have helped.
Not to mention my procrastinating nature.
I'm lazy and I know a lot of it is my own fault.
But dammit I feel like I just need this to stop

I'm just...absolutely exhausted with life in general.
I literally broke down in tears over this last night...
I just can't keep it up.
No one has any idea how exhausting each day is for me.
I feel like so many of my friends depend on me.
To smile and help them feel better.
To talk and entertain.
Then I gotta get through school.
All the walking around
And the faking of smiles.
And the deep down loneliness...
It's just so damn exhausting...
I don't want to do it anymore...
I'm sick of pretending I'm okay
for everyone else's sake
I'm not happy
and I haven't been for awhile now.

I got other things on my mind, mostly social stuff, I'm kinda feeling lonely right now.
It's not you guys fault it's just I feel like the only real friends I have are either half way across the globe or too busy to see me...

My lack of motivation and work ethic plus feeling lonely...
It all stacks up to me feeling like shit
Now I'm exhausted and I have a headache...
and a Japanese Extension Test to study for

Wish me luck, I will probably need it.

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/24713810/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/24713810/ Tue, 12 May 2009 01:09:36 PDT
Okay Rant Start NOW:

Love is simple. Relationships are hard. Is now what I tell anyone when they are having relationship problems and start going emo on me saying "love sucks". Love doesn't "suck", love is only bad when it goes wrong. Devastated love causes the bad emotions. Love however is the cause of most of the joy in the world. It is worth the risk. Rarely is it the case that the first person you fall for is the one you will be with for the rest of your life, and even if that is so, the road you travel with them will not always be easy but it's worth it in the end for what joy it does give you.

I'm a hopeless romantic, and if anything I believe in love more than anything else. I believe all relationships (except enemies) require some form or level of love. However, love is not constant, nothing in life is. Love, like life, is constantly changing. Even if you love someone your whole life the feeling is never exactly the same, it can grow and change in many ways. You can even have a moment where you doubt your love or have a fight and the feeling seems to disappear. Love itself is easy, it's the relationship that's hard.

Love is easy and simple. It just happens, you either love someone or you don't. Relationships, however are difficult to maintain. It requires effort and commitment. All relationships do. If you start losing interest or not paying attention or communicating properly shit can happen. If you end up realising you love someone else more you hurt the person you were with. It's all a matter of circumstances but overall it's never easy all the time.

There are moments of perfection when in love, but they aren't constant. Love makes things easier, it means you have someone you can come to, who cares, who you can count on, someone to share things with. Love however requires a relationship, which makes it hard to maintain. People want to be happy and in love, but things change, people change, circumstances change. Love can't be constant, because life isn't constant. You can say you'll always love someone and no matter how much you mean it at the time, you can't see the future and predict what life will throw at you. Love has to change with life.

Love can't be forced, no true, pure, real emotion is. When love is not returned it also hurts but essentially it's just another failed attempt at trying to change a relationship or start one. Nothing worth having comes easy. If love was easy, if the person you loved automatically loved you back it wouldn't be worth it. That's why you gotta fight to earn love, keep it and maintain it. I have had a lot of failed relationships, but I believe they have helped me learn, grow and mature as a person. There is a song that goes "God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you". If one relationship doesn't work out, well it just means that maybe you were not meant to be and if they never broke your heart you might not have found the one you're meant to be with.

Though there is also another side of the coin, wanting someone just for your own happiness is not really love, in a sense it is selfishness. If you want them to be happy, that is true love. Love is all about two people, making each other happy, that's what it boils down to. It's not worth forcing love or trying to. It's worth waiting, searching and fighting for the right person. Love is easy, relationships are hard.
________________________________________________________________

Hope you enjoyed reading my rant. If not, that's your problem

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/24421841/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/24421841/ Sat, 25 Apr 2009 04:57:04 PDT

I also got 2 CDs (with my bday money)
Secondhand Serenade's second album called "A Twist In My Story"
and 30 Seconds to Mars' first self entitled album.
<3 Now I have both the 30STM albums
Oh I also got Lucky Star on DVD (my Dad promised me he'd get it cause he's awesome)

I'm excited about having a mobile phone though
I know who I first plan to txt =3
Which is a secret btw

I finished watching The Vision of an Escaflowne, which I own on DVD. Awesome Anime, officially my favourite series, shame it's hard to find on the net though but I recommend everyone watch it cause it is just epic. I am willing to lend it to my friends since I own it on DVD. I got it for my bday and only just got around to watching it

Sigh school is going back soon...
That sucks
oh well
apart from that life is okay I guess.

Until next journal update
bye bye my DA friends.

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/24337673/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/24337673/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 05:08:22 PDT and partly due to laziness
I suppose I should have time to come on here since it's currently holidays
but I am kinda being lazy cause I don't feel like doing much of anything since exams
I got school work I gotta do before I go back next week too.

I've been playing a bit of video games (God of War, FF7 etc)
I also have ideas for things to draw but been too lazy to do so
I need photoshop! As I now have a tablet but it's rather useless without photoshop >.<

Anyways, I'll see you DA people later when I can be bothered to update

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/24086953/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/24086953/ Mon, 06 Apr 2009 03:24:58 PDT
So um if anyone wants to make any plans I've got 3 weeks to fill.
Quite frankly for the moment I'm bored outta my mind...
I only really updated cause I got nothing else to do and I felt like this needed an update. So far being 18 is the same as being 17.Since I'm still not drinking don't intend to.Also I haven't gone clubbing or anything like that. I'm not much of an adult am I?

Oh well...
Until the next update
bye bye.

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/23780351/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/23780351/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 13:27:43 PDT
On the plus side I'm going to the movies with a few friends, you know who you are. Most of which I haven't seen in far too long, can't wait to see you guys it's gonna be awesome. Could care less for the movie though, sadly Ghost Town wasn't showing sigh...

Also I can't stop thinking about this guy I've started crushing on...I started liking him then shortly after he got a gf so now I'm kicking myself for not saying how I felt before that happened >.<

I hate being single...blah

Year 12 will be the death of me xD
This cold isn't helping

Oh yeah, began reading A Series of Unfortunate Events, reading the second one, The Reptile Room, I loooooooove it x3

For a "sad" story it sure makes me happy

Anyways I just can't wait till this arvo xD
See you there!

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/23506749/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/23506749/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 12:45:12 PST I'm single
HURRAH >.>


okay...if you didn't spot the sarcasm you are clearly stupid.
Well...plenty of fish in the sea
and I got studies and stuff to focus on anyways...
and it's a chance for a new start
So hopefully I don't fuck it up this time.
Even though I still love him
couldn't do it anymore...it's complicated

Cya'll guys later
love you guys.

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/23481089/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/23481089/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 00:09:08 PST I saw He's Just Not That Into You on the weekend
With my friend Blair and special guest Joel (aka the sexy friend of mine I bumped into and shouted a movie ticket)
Glad I did though, we had fun and shared a 1.5 litre bottle of ice tea.
Great movie I recommend it to everyone.

Anyways, you know when you're in a relationship with this amazing person and everything seems so perfect and you think it must be too good to be true? Well guess what, it was too good to be true, for me.

Well today, I'm gonna talk to them and sort some things out...
At least I'll get some kinda closure anyways

I'm just typing this as I procrastinate from Japanese study
Got a speaking test tomorrow, wish me luck!

Love you guys
I hope everything works out for me and my Vampire
Until then, I'll cya guys later.
~Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/23424074/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/23424074/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 20:56:43 PST boo for Year 12 killing my social life
however I am going to see He's Just Not That Into You tomorrow with my friend Blair, so I'm looking forward to that =3

Sorry DA for neglecting you D=
My life...is okay
Had some not so pleasant moments today but I feel better now after talking to a friend
Wub ya Cy, you are awesome.

So glad it's Friday, I love weekends
I'm gonna enjoy mine thoroughly =3
hope you do too

Cya'll next time I have the chance to update
~Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/22924570/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/22924570/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 14:10:24 PST

British
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] It's football...not soccer.
Total: 3

Australian
[ ] You wear flip flops all year.
[x] You call flipflops thongs, not flip flops.
[x] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach. in the evening, or if it's secluded
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[x] You have an australian something.
Total: 6

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''
[ ] You know what a Italian horn is.
[ ] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total: 3

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of Remember.
[x] You speak spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[x] You are dark skinned.
[ ] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total: 5

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[ ] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[ ] You don't get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[ ] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 2

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[x] You have a bad temper.
[x] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[x] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[x] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have hair everywhere. (err...what kinda question is that?)
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[ ] Your family get-togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 5

African American
[ ] You say ni#*a/nukka casually.
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] You know how to shoot a gun.
[x] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[x] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can dance.
[ ] You refer to people as 'dawg' or 'homie'.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 3

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[ ] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[x] You play/have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 2

German
[x] You like bread.
[ ] You think German Chocolate is good.
[x] You speak some German.
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[x] You went to pre-school.
[ ] You're over 5'2.
[ ] You like Limburger cheese.
Total: 4

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[x] You say eh. A lot.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[x] You speak some French. (err I know some?)
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[x] You watch/watched degrassi.
Total: 3

American
[ ] You hate foriegners.
[ ] You hate non-Christians.
[x] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[ ] You hate abortion.
[ ] But love the penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[ ] You shop at walmart.
[x] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 2

Recap:

British: 3
Australian: 6
Italian: 3
Spanish: 5
Russian: 2
Irish: 5
African American: 3 (lol I'm more black American than white American...)
Asian: 2
German: 4
Canadian: 3
American: 2

So I'm like Austrailian/Irish/Spanish? LOL. I get the Irish thing (My Grandparents are Irish) but SPANISH? Random much....

Sigh
I'm bored
and missing someone who usually is on msn at this time...
I REALLY wanna talk... ]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/22570954/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/22570954/ Wed, 14 Jan 2009 01:43:53 PST
IT SUCKED! SUCKED SUCKED SUCKED OMG!

OH MY GOD! IT WAS SO LOOOOOOOOOONG WHY?! Is it just me or did that movie have the most awkward dialogue in the history of everything >.> So many awkward pauses and long silences and so much fading out....and no actually good effects...

It's like...
"I'M A VAMPIRE AND I'M DANGEROUS YOU SHOULD STAY AWAY CAUSE I LOVE YOU"
"I LOVE YOU TOO LET'S BE TOGETHER FOREVER"
"OKAY!"
....what?!
xD

I don't sleep, I watch you while you sleep O_o...I dunno about you but that just creeps me out, I literally said "STALKER!" When that scene was on.

lol "I'm on a special diet" and these guys in front of us were like "BLOOD!"
before she said Vampire I was like "HE'S A VAMPIRE TADA BIG SURPRISE!"
and LOL it DOES look like someone just poured glitter on him BAHAHA "VAMPIRES DON'T SPARKLE!" >.> Is what I said....(Friend dared me to LOL!)

It doesn't even make him look pretty or attractive or alluring it's just kinda weird...I mean what else do you do? Glow in the dark. Oh I'm so scared! BITE ME! >.> wtf? That's just pathetic it makes Vampires less scary and terrifying it's just...stupid. Vampires are meant to like...smoke in the heat and then turn to ash or scream like a demon if sunlight shines on them and scamper away and shake like a terrified child who thinks someone is about to stab them to death.

and Alice is all "WE'RE GONNA BE GREAT FRIENDS"...um...err...please stay away..
I was like "They are all freaks!" XD

She is pretty and kinda quirky I like how she draws her visions she is way cooler than Bella xD.

I feel like the silences/awkward silences were there in the movie just to give me time to laugh and make fun of how bad it was though >.>

Jasper is cuter than Edward. EVEN THOUGH HE DOES NOTHING! HE DOESN'T SAY ANYTHING IT'S AWKWARD, HE JUST STANDS THERE! IT'S LIKE A EXTRA PLAYING A MAIN CHARACTER!

Also Edward's arms are really hairy it was all I could think of during the time they had him lying in bed next to Bella....I was like "eeeeeeeew it makes him look so OLD omg his arms are as bad as my Dad's...OMG...EW OMG WTF?" He isn't romantic he's just...quiet...and emo and angst and annoying and I don't get it...I mean yeah he has a nice build I guess and his hair is stupid...I mean I guess I can kinda understand why girls find him so cute but he sure as hell wasn't a real believable character...the whole mystery thing is I suppose the only attraction but he's a vampire, that's it? After that...why care? He's not...interesting. He doesn't talk about anything...it's just like "...your my drug...I want to bite you..." errr...kay..."But I'm not going to cause...I don't want to hurt you"....kay....not impressed...
"I'm gonna protect you" YAY! MY HERO...WAIT...isn't it your fault I like NEARLY DIED!

What's with the whole "let's lie in silence next to each other for some kinda romantic scene which is just....epic fail"

Seriously it just DRAGGED ON AND ON AND ON I WAS LIKE PLEAAAAAAAAASE MAKE IT STOP.

All her school friends were just awkward...everyone was so awkward. Jacob was so ugly.

She was popular but she didn't care nor talked or did anything apart from be pretty O.o I can't see why she was popular
other than the guys who were really awkward who liked her for some bizarre reason beyond me. Not to mention they all ended up with some other girl anyways which is totally unrealistic XD

lol Edward's Dad was like a blond Dracula LOL only nice...

I think the most believeable character was James...who died which was sad...

He was cool it was like "I'm gonna film you squirming in pain and throw you into glass till your blood covers every inch of this dark mirrored room" Now THAT is a REAL vampire and cool. Without darkness and blood, vampires are no longer cool >.>.

And she should of turned into a vampire, what the hell? What's the point of it ending with her as a human? So what they can have a crappy sequel? >.>

Wow that was the longest, worst, 2 hours of my holidays....

meh...it's harder to find reasons to like the movie than hate it XD

I mean I was kinda hoping maybe just maybe the movie would be good but no...it had to be horrible and crap and annoying and a cliche try to be romantic teenage movie. I mean it's almost as bad as highschool musical...ALMOST.

Blair beat me up after the movie pretty much cause I was making fun of it and laughing the entire time XD there was hardly any people in the cinema too...hehee...heh. ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/22500535/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/22500535/ Sat, 10 Jan 2009 06:23:17 PST so um Happy New Year and Xmas everyone. Sorry I haven't been here in ages. Between school and everything else I kinda put DA on hiatus without notice xD

I have plenty of drawings lying around though, so I may get around to scanning them. For no I just leave you with a crappy pen scribble.

So yeah, I may update again later not sure....

Cya around guys.

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21825145/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21825145/ Fri, 05 Dec 2008 01:26:11 PST > some help spell check is) rubber is....sooooooo I couldn't rub it and fix it up as I was drawing it now it looks bad, despite a lot of a lot of the things I am happy with...

I need a new rubber! D=

I am thinking of scanning a few random sketches I've done over the past few months and putting a sketch dump since I need some art on here xD

HOLIDAYS ABOUT TO START AND FIRST XMAS SINCE SURGERY W00T
Last Xmas kinda sucked, still recovering, I was just happy to be at home and not at hospital at the time.

I also seriously need to come on here more, I had like 1000+ deviations I had to delete sadly...

Anyways hopefully I'll get to meet up with everyone over the holidays, and get all the things I need to get done.

Only one more assignment and then a few more days of school...and FINISH YAY! xD

signing off
~Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21689179/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21689179/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 21:33:39 PST is a friend of mine, we have been friends for years now. She currently is doing commissions cause she needs the money. Go check out her gallery, and if you have the money request something from her please.

I am probably gonna end up requesting something from her myself soon. As soon as I get round to fix up the paypal or whatever lol.

Oh, highschool is meh right now...going to the library later to look for another belonging book xD

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21598174/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21598174/ Fri, 21 Nov 2008 13:54:39 PST I LOOOOOOOOVE STUDYING SPIRITED AWAY
Though I'm starting to hate down town tokyo dialect and old man speak in Japanese, confusing....xD

Kamajii talks like in old man speak, which makes everything sound rude and harsh, like WASHAAAAA instead of watashi >.>
and Rin is like "down town tokyo dialect just to confuse you"

But overall it's quite fun...we like eat in class and translate Japanese and make jokes. Since there is like 3 people in the class...if you include sensei that is.

Sigh, Japanese would be so much easier if I didn't have to worry about a million other things, I really hate year 12...ALREADY

ahem....

I wanna go out to the city or something soon or I'm gonna go insane...

I wish I had money and a job...
I could totally just go on a spree of manga shopping to read after the HSC...

Oh, we're doing belonging instead of journeys
Which is kinda okay...
I just need to find another book to read for "belonging"
When we already got the simple gift...and I haven't bothered finishing that. It's short I just need to make the time lol.

Eh, whatever. I'm just kinda updating so everyone knows I'm not dead lol.

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21412481/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21412481/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 21:02:38 PST I'm back posting on a forum I used to go to [link]

though honestly there is nothing like the spam forums The Talk Talk Thread....seriously you won't believe half of what happened over the weekend.....

There's a constant walking on the line of "Not Safe For Work" >.>

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21330773/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21330773/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 22:37:44 PST
WTF I WON A FREE PHOTOSHOOT?!

O_O WHAT WILL I WEAR? >.> I DUNNO WHEN IT WILL BE YET I GOTTA MAKE THE APPOINTMENT AND STUFF BUT OMG WHAT THE HELL?

Make up and fashion and stuff is so not me...they really should give this to someone who would be all OMG SQUEE! Why me? I DUNNO WHAT TO WEAR AH!

Oh I can take a friend too...
So um anyone interested?

This is mega weird I never win anything...

OH yeah, congrats to Obama winning the election, w00t!

I can't believe I won this! This is insane!
>.< I won a photoshoot from these guys> [link]
THE PHOTOS LOOK AWESOME.
THEY ARE WORTH SOOO MUCH MONEY TOO @_@

I'm just like in complete shock really xD

I'll leave you guys alone now until next journal where I hopefully sound more composed than just now

-Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21195573/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21195573/ Tue, 28 Oct 2008 00:03:16 PDT Jessica (Not getting the rest you stalkers)

2 . YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Jesizzle (lol that doesn't sound so bad)

3 . YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Purple Panther (LOL)

4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Mcije (WTF)

5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink}
Black Ice Tea (LOL WTF)

6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Einocaeen

7.YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)
Jane Brett

8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Snowy (was my pet D= was put down)

Stole this from on the command of as you command my queen

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21119575/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21119575/ Thu, 23 Oct 2008 01:15:15 PDT
FOUR MOVIES YOU´LL WATCH OVER AND OVER:
1. 10 Things I Hate About You (own this movie =3)
2. Transformers ( I watched that 4 times in the cinemas xD)
3. Howl's Moving Castle (My fav Studio Ghibli Film)
4. Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children (You know it's awesome)

FOUR PLACES I´VE LIVED:
1. Castle Hill (where I live now)
2. Dundas Valley (my home town gah I miss it!)
3. Australia? (Eh...running out of ideas)
4. 7 Carson Street (sigh...still my home town I say!)

FOUR CURRENT FAVORITE VIDEOS (LINKS):
1. [link] (Brainless Violence FTW!)
2. [link] (Konata's Gourmet Race LOLZ)
3. [link] (Super Konata's World XD SO FUNNY)
4. [link] (Boomdiada, boomdiada!)

TV PROGRAMS I WATCH:
1. NCIS
2. House
3. Dexter
4. Rove

FOUR FAVORITE CHARACTERS OF ALL TIME (in no particular order):
1. Roxas
2. Riku
3. Axel
4. Demyx

FOUR PLACES I´VE BEEN:
1. The City
2. Canberra
3. Brisbane
4. Melbourne

FOUR PEOPLE WHO REGULARLY SEND ME MAILS:
1. Youtube
2. Tarot.com (lol horoscopes)
3. Madman Enterntainment
4. Newgrounds (I never look at them either O_o)


FOUR OF MY FAVORITE DISHES:
1. Pork and apple sauce
2. Spaghetti Bolognese (I can't spell >.> )
3. Tempura
4. Lasagne

FOUR PLACES I WISH I WERE RIGHT NOW:
1. At an anime convention
2. Sweden to meet a certain close friend of mine
3. Japan
4. In New Jersey to meet a sweet couple who are also friends of mine.

FOUR INSANE THINGS I´LL LIKE TO DO:
1. become a voice actor (...it would be fun xD)
2. create my own manga
3. write a novel
4. become a singer (in my dreams)

FOUR SONGS I LIKE:
1. Almost Happy by K's Choice
2. A Story To Tell Your Friends by Every Avenue
3. Face To Face by Siouxsie And The Banshees
4. The Last Something That Meant Anything by Mayday Parade

FOUR REASONS TO KEEP ON LIVING:
1. The beauty of the world.
2. Music
3. Friends/Family
4. Someone you love...

FOUR THINGS I´LL NEVER DO:
1. Drugs
2. Smoke (I would never PAY to die slowly and painfully)
3. Drink Alcohol (straight edge, known fact, alcohol is so freaking pointless argh don't get me started)
4. Sell myself

FOUR UNFORGETTABLE DATES:
1. The day my Grandpa died
2. When Eddie Guerrero died...sigh
3. When my brother came out
4. When I got the call that Blair's Grandma was on life support.

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Ice tea
2. Green Tea
3. Lemon Soda
4. Vanilla Coke

FOUR WISHES:
1. That I fall in love
2. To get closer to my already awesome friends
3. To get through year 12 ALIVE xD
4. To have more fun =3

FOUR THINGS I´LL DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. Go to Japan
2. Meet Vic in person..wub ya xD
3. Finish FF7
4. Beat Sephiroth in KH2 xD

I HOPE THIS YEAR (2008) I CAN:
1. Get through this term of limbo aka year 11/12 seriously MAKE UP YOUR MIND TEACHERS GAH
2. Get a job, SERIOUSLY I WANTS MONEY
3. Learn how to cook...
4. Get better at drawing...

FOUR TRAUMAS IN MY LIFE:
1. My first highschool
2. My first operation
3. My SECOND operation
4. When my grandpa died...

FOUR THINGS I´LL SAY TO THE ONE WHO SENT ME THIS:

1. You're a pervert
2. You're a fangirl
3. You're a yaoi addict
4. You're an awesome friend xD (saved the best for last)

I CRY WHEN:
1. I listen to sad songs
2. I think too much about some things
3. School stresses me out...lol I'm pathetic
4. before I go to sleep sometimes

FOUR WORDS THAT DESCRIBE YOU:
1. Otaku
2. Loud
3. Obsessive
4. Fangirl

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21104592/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21104592/ Wed, 22 Oct 2008 02:25:53 PDT Step 2: Post the first line from the first 13 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Cross out the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game post your own!

1.We had fire in our eyes, in the beginning [Let It Die by 3 Days Grace] Guessed by CletusJackson
2.Our contraction it contains a deadly flaw
3.You have broken me all the way down [Hint: from a movie]
4.Now I will tell you what I've done for you
5.Part of me has died
6.Now I'm of consenting age to be forgetting you in a cabaret
7.On those Saturdays, when kids go out and play, yo I was VP in my room I let the stereo blaze [Click Click Boom by Saliva] Guessed by CletusJackson
8.I feel guilty my words are empty
9.I will forgive but I won't forget and I hope you know you've lost my respect
10.Now it seems I'm fading
11.Turn it up I never want to go home I only wanna be part of your break down [When Your Heart Stops Beating by +44] Guessed by CletusJackson
12.Toby, where are you, now? (oh my god xD) [Hint: from a movie]
13. Yo, peep the style and the kids checking for it

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21072564/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21072564/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 00:02:00 PDT
HE WAS HAPPY WITH ME. Apart from a few small things, mostly things he said in weird medical terms I don't understand but NO MORE SURGERY. No more afos! (leg braces, you could call them, plastic moulds on the back of my legs, to hold my feet in to proper position, to stretch etc. I only wear them to school, feels like part of my uniform really)

I am so HAPPY and relieved xD I was nervous this morning about it but YAY. lol man we had to wait for ages, it was a long wait, like he must of been behind in appointments we only go in about 4pm or something when our appointment was a 3 but at least I got to read my Inuyasha Manga in the waiting room...so bored when I was finished though.

I also got a before and after video of my walking. Seeing the video from before makes me realise how much I've improved. I really am so happy with how I walk now, and nothing can take that away from me. I've achieved so much and gone through so much.

Also, now we're getting cake tomorrow to celebrate, even though it started off as a joke in the car.

"They're happy with me, does that mean I get a cake"
"You get red rooster"
"Not exactly what I had in mind but okay, damn I went through surgery and I don't even get a lousy cake"
"I'll get you one tomorrow then"
"Yay cake!" xD

Yeah xD weird shit happens in my car...
Anyways, happily signing off until next time
-Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21049786/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/21049786/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 15:40:30 PDT 1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player etc on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

I.IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Say (All I Need) by OneRepublic (wow that actually kinda fits xD)

2.WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Your Star by Evanescence (...what?)

3.WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Meikyuu Butterfly by Mizuki Nana (I think that means lost butterfly lol, not sure...hmmm reading the translation it KINDA fits...not really cause it's about love but not about what I like about them >.> weird)

4.HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Renai Jaki by Danger Gang (w00t all girl visual kei band...no idea what the song means)

5.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Hey Leonardo (She Likes Me For Me) by Third Eye Blind (LOL WTF? Good song though...)

6.WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Tears Don't Fall by Bullet For My Valentine (um, kay, cool motto and all but it doesn't make sense)

7.WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Into The Night by Santana feat. Chad Kroeger (...is one of my friends in love with me? Or do people see me as a dancer...WTF? XD this makes no sense lolz)

8.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Speeding Cars by Imogen Heap (...this actually kinda fits lolz “There, there baby, it's just textbook stuff, it's in the ABC of growing up” Though, I don't think of my parents that way....xD)

9.WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Hello By Evanescence (...well that is depressing)

10.WHAT IS 2+2?
sEpia memory by Tommy February6

11.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
Into My Web by The Used (lol...well she'd probably like this song...though I'm not in love with my bestie xD)

12WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Poor Thing by Helena Bonham & Johnny Depp (...lol good song)

13.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Class Clown by George Carlin (err...stand up comedy anyone?)

14.WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Klondike Bar by Ryuu/Vexen (LOL HAHAHAH OH GOD)

15.WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Give 'Em Hell Kid by My Chemical Romance (fitting somewhat...)

16.WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
1000 Words by Kuda Kumi (...NO NOOO they will play Kill All Your Friends by My Chemical Romance!)

17.WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Post Blue by Placebo (....no comment xD)

18.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Mafuyu no DANCE by Asian Kung Fu Generation (...um...kay xD)

19.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
je t'aime je t'aime Tommy February6 (....a japanese song with a french title, it couldn't be much more confusing)

20.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Running Out Of Pain by 12 Stones (That is screwed up >.> )

21.WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
One Step Closer by Linkin Park (w00t love this song)

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20994337/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20994337/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 22:16:32 PDT [ ] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[ ] my favorite toys as a child were barbies (Hell no)
[x] my favorite colour is pink or purple (I still don't think Purple is anywhere near on the same level as pink for girly but whatever)
[x] I did Gymnastics (guilty as charged, how does this make me girly exactly? I thought it would good for my health to do sport, it was fun, I've done Karate, Kendo and T-Ball too at other times)
[ ] I love skirts (Don't wear them, except for school, in other words, I hate skirts, love pants)
[ ] hollister is one of my favorite places to shop (I don't even know what Hollister is...)
[ ] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear(baggy jeans ftw, baggy clothes are so comfy)
[x] I love chocolate (Chocolate is orgasm in food form)
[x] I've never had a real job (May actually be getting a job soon)
TOTAL: 4

[ ] my hair is almost always straightened (Lucky for me, my hair is straight naturally...just how I have it cut makes it slightly wavy xD)
[ ] I have at least 8 myspace pictures(Deleted my myspace not to long ago, cause I don't use it)
[ ] I usually go shopping once a week
[x] I love to hang out at the mall with friends (Yeah, hanging out with friends, regardless of where is awesome)
[ ] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earings
[ ] I've gone to a tanning salon
[ ] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[ ] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes(I usually only have only 2 pairs that fit me at a time, one pair for school, one for casual...I see more than that as unnecessary, though I did get these awesome boots recently....hehehe)
[ ] I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach (If you watch those shows, you disgust me, they are boring trash)
[x] I change my icon weekly (I can barely keep the same icon for a day xD not to mention a week, on msn anyways)
[ ] I wear a shower cap
TOTAL: 6

[x] I don't shop at Hot Topic (but I want to, so badly)
[ ] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[ ] I wear mascara (almost) everyday (I don't wear make up, period)
[ ] I've been or am on a diet (If you want to lose weight, change your lifestyle, temporary diets DON'T work)
[ ] bathing suits are adorable (Ugh, just no)
[ ] I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat (Um, that just makes you stupid)
[ ] big sunglasses are hott
[ ] I have gotten my nails done before
[ ] MTV is one of my favourite channels (Don't have cable)
TOTAL: 7

[ ] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[ ] I love to have gurls do my hair( ...why would I?)
[x] I give and recieve hugs from all my friends (on rare occassions...doing it more now)
[x] I hate bugs
[x] carnivals are so fun! (How does this make me girly? It's FUN, I know guys who like them too...)
[x] Summer is THE best season(love warmth =3)
[ ] my swimsuit has 2 pieces (I hate bikinis...it's just like waterproof underwear...I feel so naked)
[ ] I'm waiting for my knight in shining armor
[ ] musicians are so hot
[ ] you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours
TOTAL: 11

[x] I am self-conscious (of course I am, it's natural)
[ ] I cry often
[ ] my car smells like vanilla or cherry
[x] my dishes get washed more than once a week (not by me though...)
[x] I don't do sports (Not recently...no...sigh I want to do Kendo again)
[ ] I HATE to run
[ ] I squeal when i am surprised or angry (Um....when I'm happy or excited, yes...otherwise, no)
[x] I eat dried fruit as a snack (mmmmmmmm dried apple/apricots)
[ ] I love romance novels
[ ] Drew Barrymore is so cute

TOTAL: 15

[x] I dance a lot
[ ] usually spend an hour or over to get ready to leave my house
[ ] I only have like 5 billion hair products
[ ] I love to get dressed up.(Eh, I want to cosplay but I can't say I love it yet, since I haven't really done it...)
[x] every part of my outfit needs to match
[ ] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[ ] I would love to have a photo shoot
[ ] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day
[ ] I wish I were a model

TOTAL: 17

[ ] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton (I wish I could KILL her)
[ ] I have been something that was semi
[ ] I own Uggs
[ ] Hip Hop is the best music (irritating music)
[ ] I pop my collar
[ ] I like to be the center of attention
[ ] guys with Mohawks are crazy (They can be sexy hehe...)
[ ] horses are beautiful
[ ] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] Cats are adorable (but most hate me)
TOTAL: 18

[ ] I write my own music
[ ] I would love to visit Hawaii ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20944806/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20944806/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 22:10:38 PDT
I Fear…

[ ] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 4

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[x] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 7

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[x] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
Total so far: 10

[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
Total so far: 15

[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing your dreams and goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets
Final Total: 17

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend
some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

Hehe...17...wow...hmmm I don't really know if I can say I'd be scared of crossing a hanging bridge, cause I never have...O_o that's an odd question...what the hell is with this list.
I'm normal? Since when?

AND How can you be SCARED of dinosaurs...they're extinct...

Also I would like to add that I can't afford to be afraid of doctors, the amount of times I've been into hospital etc. They're not so much scary as they are my friends...which is odd, honestly I'm more scared of catching some TERRIBLE disease while at hospital than I am of the doctors. Also there was this one SCARY bitchy nurse who thought I was addicted to pain killers, well you would have a lot of pain killers too if you had your legs cut up and muscles cut, stretched and rearranged, among other things.

I have two great doctors to thank for my wonderful walking at the moment...some people I have to inform that I'm disabled now cause they can't tell hehe...which is kinda nice...I blend in for once.

Wow I blabber on >_>

This is what happens when I'm bored.

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20852379/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20852379/ Mon, 06 Oct 2008 04:07:51 PDT I was pretty much just sitting around fangirling and shiz while he played.

"You're sad"
"I blame Jenna"
"It's still sad"

I blame Jenna for a lot of things, I treat her like a lot of people treat God, "I BLAME YOU FOR MY LIFE BEING SO CRAP GOD, yet I still love you cause I know you love me too"

...I can't believe I just compared my friendship with her to the stereotypical relationship with God...I shouldn't be allowed to type my thoughts.

Anyways, I found out that my brother is a supporter of Hayner and Roxas a pairing...D= He said "OTP" and then I was like "NOOOOOOOOO AKUROKU FOREVER!" /fangirl

Also, I laughed because I just realised DiZ actually calls Roxas a TOOL!

Roxas: Who are you?
DiZ: I'm a servant of the world,(laughs) and if I'm a servant you should consider yourself a tool at best.

hehehe...I'm so immature

In other news:
I'm sad I can't go meet OrgLIX at Anime USA but I'm pretty sure SOMEONE will record the panels and put it up on youtube. I'm holding onto the hope.

I'm also annoyed that I forgot to save my fanfic I was writing the other day /sigh. I'm gonna have to write the stupid intro again xD Though I really should do something more productive, like study Japanese...but I'm not in the mood...

Anyways, cya'll later
-Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20812400/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20812400/ Fri, 03 Oct 2008 16:57:27 PDT
I have enjoyed seeing all my friends but damn it's hard to keep up with you ppl lolz. okay, brief overview (or as brief as I can be...knowing me)

Beck is still awesome, her friends are awesome, we have convos of pure insanity and awesome funny fluff. I blame her for not answering her phone, silly girl...she could of gone to the city with us IT WAS JULIAN NOT JOSH D=

Also how in the world can we get lost while trying to find china town? Seriously Julian, did we circle it like 3 times or something? xD I wub you. We must go to the city again asap lol.

Blair has revived my weird obsession with wrestling...only to make me feel annoyed at the fact I don't have cable and can't watch it so I have to suppress it again.

Oh my Dad brought home a chess set from a garage sale and as the nerd I am I got all excited...must play chess with Dad sometime muhaha...ha...I WILL DEFEAT THE WORLD WITH CHESS PIECES. Damn, I sense another weird anime coming...about chess, it's as bad as wizard chess.

I'm gonna stop talking now before this gets any more insane.
Cya'll next journal update

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20787997/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20787997/ Thu, 02 Oct 2008 04:56:23 PDT
At least it seemed so. I feel like reality has come crashing down. I found out that my friend Blair's Grandma is on life support not too long ago. When her Mum called and explained the situation asking if I would be willing to come over to give Blair some friendly company.

I'm so shocked right now...I really am. As much fun as I've been having...as happy and hyper and excited as I have been the past few days. Just woah, everything has come to a grinding halt. I shouldn't let this upset me but it has.

Blair is one of my closest friends. Like every close friend, she isn't perfect, she can get on my nerves but I LOVE her all the same. I will be out all day tomorrow at her place, hopefully having fun and making Blair smile and laugh. Honestly, she is one of those people that when she is happy it's a beautiful thing. Sadly it seems like a rare occasion but it's a beautiful thing.

I am mostly typing this because I just need to vent out the emotion right now. I don't know. I could tell you how awesome a time I've had with some of my friends yet...I feel like this isn't the time for to brag and say how much fun I've been having knowing how Blair feels. I just wish I could hug her right now.

I know I shouldn't let this get in the way of my happiness, but I am a very sympathetic person, possibly to a fault.

I'm gonna stop being emo right now...
I'll cya'll later, hopefully in a better mood than right now...
-Jess

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20715723/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20715723/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 01:56:35 PDT While I'm waiting for dinner to cook and to take a break since I've pratically been running around cleaning up my room all arvo..

tagged by with the letter N~ Comment here and I will assign you a letter of the alphabet. You have to list ten things you LOVE that start with that letter...

Now in no particular order

1. Night, the best things happen in the dark muhahaha...err...I mean...I'm a good girl

2. Nomura-san, you are a bloody legendary character designer, I don't know what I'd obsess over without you...NO ORGY D=

3.Nightwish, awesome band =3 sings: I wish I had an angel for my moment of looooooooove
(lol that makes me think one winged angel...which makes me think Sephiroth...oh god XD)

4. Nobou Uematsu, best video game music EVER, nuff said

5. Nobodies, because they turn into the best villains =3

6. NCIS. ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SHOWS EVER!

7. Naruto, because I'm a Narutard

8. Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For Snacks by Panic At The Disco
That song has special meaning for me, and it's a great song <3

9. Namine, because her power uses DRAWINGS. Anyone with powers that uses art is cool =3

10. Nemo (NOT THE FISH) by Nightwish, the first Nightwish song I heard and it's BEAUTIFUL

wow...I totally fluked that...xD

Also stole funny story quiz from

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm in love with your sister. I think I realized it, when your dwarf bit me at the mental hospital and I saw you drive out the crazy monk. I'm sure you're man enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning your old lottery coupons to you, but I'll keep the results of your blood-sample as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about a new life as a clone.

Go Burn,
-Jessica-

lol I got a lot of the same answers as you

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My pen pal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One T... ]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20714004/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20714004/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 22:20:27 PDT
I'm so not ready for this, I feel like that anyways. I'm a crammer >.> I need to stop doing that. BAD HABIT

So I'm purposely trying to keep myself busy with things and get things done. Whatever they are. Tried to get Japanese installed on the com again, didn't work

I will probably study Japanese after I finish cleaning out my room. Saw On friday arvo. I love her to death xD seriously, I've only known her a short time but I feel like I've known her forever. She is one of the few people who make me feel comfortable to be who I am. Which means the world to me. =3

Went to Grandma's yesterday and had a photography spazz at Manly with the camera on the phone. Grandma lost the chicken, it was hilarious. Uncle Glen and Moira went to get a new chicken and we found it before they got back...xD

Seeing Beck on Tuesday, she'll be sleeping over which means I won't sleep till 2am. We hope to go to the movies and/or city, whatever happens. I'll organise stuff tomorrow. Oh I went to Game Traders in castle towers which was awesome, seriously OLD SCHOOL NINTENDO. They had like one of my FIRST video games there. Nostalgia. They are gonna get back to me with FF8...=3

Well, I'm terrified yet excited about year 12. It's really happening, you never think it will happen to you but it DOES. It's like WOAH am I on drugs? No, I'm not high, I'm not sleeping, ITS REAL AH!

But I'll get through it, like everything else, just take things as they come and hope for the best.

Cya'll next journal
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20563957/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20563957/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 06:26:36 PDT 2 weeks of nothing but days off, studying, hours of exams.
Mostly hours of waiting for them to finish
Sure being able to type exams helps a lot.
Considering there is no way I could write fast enough to finish exams. I had to use my extra time for Japanese cause I had to write that. 5 minutes per half hour.

I actually wrote IPT, and I didn't use my special provisions cause it was easy, I left out two questions and made up most of my answers pretending I was 100% sure I knew what I was talking about...hope I pass. I blame the teacher cause no one knew what we needed to know for the exam, cause our stupid teacher never said nothing about it cause he had to give us an assessment right before the exams...idiot.

Surprisingly English and Religion are the exams I'm most confident about. I'm more surprised about Religion seeing as I did almost NONE of the work all year, I hate religion, in general, as a subject and I'm not going to go on a rant. I studied the most for Religion, making notes from the study guide. Which took HOURS. English, I didn't really study for at all, it was just over texts we'd studied this year which was easy enough to do essays for. I am pretty confident in my creative writing I did for English. Which was quite fun to type.

The Essay on Handmaid's Tale, I dunno if it was long enough but I tried my best and it sounded good, I mentioned all the themes and context stuff we were told about, which I really don't want to go through. As much as a valid point the book had to express I still don't think it saves the book from being as boring as all hell and too descriptive over things that are unimportant such as the random table in the random room, in the random paragraph, in the random page, of random boring annoyance. [I don't care if that didn't make sense, you get my point]

I still think that book could of been done in about 5 pages rather than 300, and honestly I haven't finished reading it, I have about 50 or so pages left. I have to do an English Speech Monday on two annotated pages from the book. I have an idea of what pages I'm choosing. So I will do that this weekend and then LAST WEEK OF YEAR 11 HUZZAH!

Considering my other exams, I read over quite a few things for Society, and I think I did okay, not fabulous but okay. Earth and Environmental Science was a fluke, I read through a few pages in the text book and it just so happens nothing I studied was in the test. So I just pretended I knew the answers and wrote whatever I thought sounded "Sciencey" I need Vexen's help...oh well I plan to drop that class anyways. I had used it as an art class mostly...hehehe I don't have scribbles in my science book what are you talking about? >.>

For modern, I read over some sheets and notes, not nearly enough to be completely honest but by that point I was so sick of exams. I got through the exam easily enough though I could of done better. The main Japanese study I did was making notes for my lazy friends who wanted my help, okay not really. Daniel had lost his book so I did him a favour, I was more annoyed when Blair and Damien who had their own damn book to study asked for me to send them a copy, they didn't NEED them, they should of had the notes in their books.

IPT was my last exam, I didn't exactly do this in chronological order, which is part of the reason I think I'm going to lose a few marks in History. I can't remember the dates of things for the life of me, I just know the general order of events.

OKAY sorry for extremely long journal.
I'm like so addicted to ORGlix atm...[link]
oh and fanfiction. In fact I randomly started writing a Akuroku/SoRiku fanfic a few days ago. I don't know if I will finish it. I think I may change it. I get a lot of random fandom ideas so it might just be a spontaneous thing. I mean I also had an idea for Axel's somebody fanfic...

Anyways, I really would like to go out with some friends sometime soon. I just want to do something fun, maybe not this weekend cause of damn English but definitely next weekend. So if anyone has any plans I'm sooooo in.Seriously I just need something to unwind after all of this.

Oh I may be entering a MCR art comp held by a friend of mine go check out her gallery>

I'm not a 100% sure though, but I would really like to draw something and I have a few ideas =3

Also Jenna, I blame you for getting me into these crazy crack pairings, seriously D< /guilty pleasure.
Speaking of which this song makes me think of Zemyx...
hehe...Zemyx

AND DON'T YOU DARE BRING UP THAT THING I TOLD YO... ]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20015578/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/20015578/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 03:08:35 PDT
I've been busy though with assignments, hosting a Japanese student and finally year 11 Retreat, which was awesome. I hope to be on here more and posting more as I've been practicing. My hands are getting better. Hands are such a pain to draw ;;>>

Anyways great to be back. I'll be back to my usual faving/commenting soon. Hopefully uploading more of my own work too.

Until next time
Cya'll later
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/18455193/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/18455193/ Thu, 22 May 2008 21:39:35 PDT I have managed to draw a few things but I haven't had a chance to post them up.
I still got quite a few things coming up for school. So I'm just kind of focusing on school and other things rather than DA. Gomenasai.

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/18135591/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/18135591/ Fri, 02 May 2008 15:40:33 PDT I got a lot going on at school and stuff coming up such as assignments and stuff. Such is the life of a year 11 student I suppose.

Yesterday was Gilroy Day. Our school is Gilroy College, I refuse to call it Gilroy Catholic College because we only added that last year and it makes the school name annoyingly long. It celebrates our school's 29th anniversary with mass and other things which are a lot more fun. It was held at Fagan Park. Overall the day was awesome despite the mass.

Which wasn't too bad. I wouldn't of minded it if we didn't have to sit in the sun during it or if we didn't have to wait so long for it to get started, it was meant to start at 9:30 and didn't start till 10:30. I actually started drawing Naruto before it started. I have to finish it later since it's my first decent drawing of Naruto. It went for at least an hour. First time I had a mass with an actual priest, which was interesting. He was a funny guy. Though I may not be Christian and I don't like religious ceremonies much at all it was still somewhat funny.

The park itself was HUGE and I mean HUUUUUUUGE. There were all these mini gardens within it each with different themes. Blair and Damien dragged me around, okay well I went willing to the Japanese and Chinese gardens. Then we had to rush back for lunch. I was so slow. I dunno what was wrong with me I was limping all day. Oh well I'm technically still in recovery from surgery. Free lunch was a bonus.

I brought a heap of stuff in case I got bored. My figurines of Yoru and Sasuke, very tiny but cute I love them. Got 'em at Animania. My Axel plushie, also from Animania. My Panda plushie which I named Squee! A book and my pencil case so I could draw. Two Rozen Maiden Manga. I only ended up showing the figurine things of Yoru and Sasuke to Blair. Getting a photo of me holding my Axel plushie which I may upload here later. I did end up drawing but Squee and the manga got left alone all day since I was busy with other things Why did I pack them you ask? Well I had the room in my bag, I was bored and I was like oh what to pack! So I packed whatever I could think too...I'm an odd one

We were there all day. There were activities such as twister, skipping and tug a war. Bands were playing on the truck that was being used like a stage. I spent most of the afternoon listening to the rock bands. I liked the year 11 bands the best. The year 9s sucked but the crow went wild for some reason. I think cause more year 9s were there watching I loved when Jake was singing screamo to metal that a mini mosh broke out it was so amusing.

So I got home, had a bath to sooth my sore legs which by this point had pretty much had it Got changed, had some soup. Cleared out DA since I was behind in that. Then I had to leave to help out with debating. Though I may of signed up for it I didn't realize I'd be so tired after Gilroy Day nor that the park was THAT big. I didn't think I'd be walking that much

I only did it cause as part of year 11 we have to do 10 hours "community service". So I'll be helping out every Friday for another 3 weeks. Then all my hours will be done. It's not really hard just confusing especially on your first time helping out with a debate ever I screwed up a lot I looked like an idiot. The debate itself was boring but beforehand and after was interesting

Well before the debate I got some free food since all the people who came brought food. I talked with all the other year 11s who were helping out, it was cool cause I talked to people I didn't normally talk to. After the awkwardness of the debate was over I talked to the two year 9s who were helping me clear up the room and Anne who was timekeeper. They were really funny Got to get their emails next I see them.

Overa... ]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/18046618/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/18046618/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 23:20:04 PDT . We yelled at Corn! Why? Cause we can? Cause corn needs to be reminded it is corn cause it goes through an identity crisis. Kizza told us too. Got the idea from a show apparently. I dunno. I'm now addicted to Lipton's Green Tea (Cirtrus kind was the one I had, must try other flavors). Also udon is awesome, love Udon, brought them both at Midori in Castle Towers, which I love, yay for Japanese food! Midori means green in Japanese, a little random information for ya, your Japanese lesson for today if you like.

Beck ended up sleeping over. It was decided like the morning before she came over on like msn lol. We watched Jackass 2 and 10 Things I Hate About You. I love that movie, I had the money on me which was really for lunch but it was only $10 and I thought why not? I happened to come across it when Beck went shopping for CDs, she has like an epic list on her mobile. It was funny because I happened to pick up the exact CD on her list when she picked it randomly and started looking for it! Oh she brought me some Nightwish posters that she didn't want! So now my room is pretty I love walking into it now and looking at the walls...yes I stare at them. I also like waking up and looking straight at them first thing in the morning. I'm weird like that.

She also got herself some posters despite her efforts to try and resist she couldn't I said she was sad. We ended up having a conversation with the guys at the music store while they were getting her the LAST of one of the posters that she wanted out of the glass box...thing. It was funny cause we were saying how much we would like to work there and he was like "No you don't, its too hard to get in since we get so many resumes" "But you get to listen to music all day" "You think this is kinda stuff I like?" "Good point if it was rock I could probably handle it" "Sadly this is good stuff" xD Then we had to hide from to protect THE POSTERS! NOT THE POSTERS! ...hehe...Jenna...he's not responding to the power of my POSTERS...oh god my brain really is broken. Ignore me if I say anything odd. AWKWARD TURTLE!

Jackass 2 was awesome btw, I love Bam, he's so cute especially when he's dying of laughter or getting scared by snakes...etc...mostly snakes. Don't worry Bam, I'm scared of Snakes too. Anyways when we finally got the mattresses out, Kizza fell to sleep shortly after they were out and ready in the back room. I was still on the com, Beck was txting Josh. Hehehe when we were making hedgehog slices she told him we were making cake he txtd back "stripper cake" Me: Tell him, no, not stripper cake, stripper hedgehog cake. The hedgehog was deviously delightfully devilishly delicious...I think I ran out of D words...hahaha....

So when I finally went to my mattress and Beck got Josh to stop txting cause I wanted to sleep...we ended up talking for liek another hour, when we finally accidentally ;;>.> woke up Kizza we decided to try and sleep, I got woken up by Amy txting Beck at like 7.
When we were all finally up we all watched George Carlin (Awesome Comedian) on youtube. Sooooo funny.

At Jenna's well we had a lot of "in character" and out of character convos. Some somewhere in between. Some OrgLIX jokes. Skittle fights while watching Emperors New Groove. Played Guitar Hero. Well actually I mostly watched, I tried to play once and failed epically We watched a little bit of TV. Mostly music channels. Tiny bit of anime, one two cute to function, then today we made fun of one piece and yugioh GX . Oh when I was trying to sleep all I could hear was Riku and Sora whispering some odd...yaoi...roleplay which I would of approved at any other time but I needed my sleep I'm such a yaoi freak. Seriously. Oh I can't explain all the jokes. Most of them are you had to be there kinda thing.

I learned a lot of new music and found some old songs I knew from forever ago thanks to Jenna and co. I feel kinda bad cause I can't remember everyone's names cause half the time I was referring to them by their character name lol. I'm sorry don't kill me! <... ]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17993880/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17993880/ Wed, 23 Apr 2008 15:42:21 PDT I was wondering why she wasn't on msn for so long! Apparently she lives closer to us now

She's still gonna go to the same school. As much as I would love for her to be at my school cause that would be awesome, she'd probably get expelled in a day, on purpose, or just being herself. She wouldn't be able to take all my schools rules She's show up hair died, pants instead of the school skirt. Oh god I could draw it! I don't think she's that close....I forgot she gave me the address and not I'm not telling you where STALKERS!

Oh and on Saturday I'm going to a "cosplay" sleepover at Jenna's. I finally got an excuse to get new pjs which I needed anyways lol. Anyways we gotta show up in "casual" version of our character or at least something about us that indicates our character and act in character all night. At the end we guess who is who

I'm really happy wow I have a social life now So very busy busy busy. Now I've got to finish Princess Ai before Saturday so I can return it to Jenna. Oh I hope we are making the sea salt ice creams cause I found a recipe

I'm so stoked!
Anyways later DA friends!
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17949760/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17949760/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 18:38:12 PDT You love wonderfully creative journal title and you know it

Well I'm going to Magsy's house soon. Which shall be fun/interesting. Never been to her house before cause of school and her being busy. So anyways finally got myself somewhat up to date with DA. Which when I think about it probably one of the few sites I have that I actually check most of the time. Myspace, Bebo and Facebook often get ignored lol.

Makes me wonder why I still have them but if I delete them certain friends of mine will complain. So meeeeeh. I haven't really drawn anything worthy of posting I'm sorry. I did a few scribbles/practices of Sasuke after watching 50-55 of Shippuuden. I would go into the detail of the awesome but Jenna will kill me if I spoil the tiniest detail soooooooo my lips are sealed

I read a tiny bit of Princess Ai that Jenna lent me. It was very cute/funny...I need to finish. That and everything else I plan to read, I think I might read through all of Rozen Maiden I have so far again since it's been awhile since I read the first lot I got cause it took awhile before I got volume 5.

I'm really sleepy cause I stayed up too late, my own fault I've screwed up my sleeping pattern royally. But I'm having too much fun talking to my online friends over seas that only come on late to go to bed

Trying to drink more water/eat less sweets. If that seems insane or weird to you well stfu because I hate having acne and hopefully this will work to make it better. Cause I've tried a few creams before and it never works. I really need to clean up my room and get organized for next term of school...must force myself to read more.

I maybe asking school if there's anyway for me to do Extension Japanese even though we don't have an official course as far as I know but it scales well apparently in HSC. Which is good also it may give me the chance to drop earth and environmental science which I'm not enjoying at all and only doing it cause I need that many subjects.

Oh my parents agreed to let me host a Japanese student this year! Yay! but only a girl, dammit, I was hoping to get a guy who's into gaming and anime. Maybe if I'm lucky she'll be a gamer girl lol. Speaking of games I watched Dead Fantasy II yesterday. Seriously watch it's an awesome fanmade movie. [link] it's by of DA.

Okay enough blabbering on
bye bye my DA Friends
until I can be stuffed to type another journal
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17877204/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17877204/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 08:33:02 PDT
Oh and I went out with Julian and Jenna to the City, went to like 3 manga, stores, I got volume 5 of Rozen Maiden, can't wait to read! Also got my new plushie panda which decided to call SQUEE! for not real reason except that it's an adorable name and the first sound that comes out of my mouth when I think of plushie panda!

I have 2 books which I really wanna get around to reading sometime during the holidays. Partly because I'm in advanced English so I should get back into my reading habits. Which seemly disappeared after my obsession with Harry Potter disappeared Twilight by Stephanie Meyer cause Cassandra begged me to, it's good so far and Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury since I was too lazy to finish it for English but after reading quotes off wikipedia to study for the test on it I really wanna read the rest lol!

If all goes to plan I should be starting my Roxas cosplay sometime soon, I haven't had a chance to really shop for materials which I should of done on the weekend cause now my Dad is too busy with work to take me...he never gets school holidays off, damn Australia Post! He's an accountant for them NOT a post man if that's what you're thinking, he used to be a Maths teacher but he got sick of teaching brats.

Also today (...yesterday technically now lol!) I watched 2 episodes of Night Wizard which my dear Nii-san recommended to me, I like it a lot so far, kinda reminds me of Hack...though I've never watched the anime of Hack only played the //infection game which I borrowed from a friend.

I also watched over KH2 cutscenes to try and figure out how to "act" like Roxas...I wanna be in character....lol all I got from it was to act "emo, angst, somewhat...confused?" I dunno if I can nail the voice but I'm gonna try my best! I wish my Axel was on...or my Sora...been having lots of fun with them lately. We have to get milk when we cosplay, oh and dance to Thriller...don't ask me why or how it came about....it just happened.

Oh my god you know you're an anime nerd when you discuss the symbolism in animes like Rozen Maiden and....SHUGO CHARA!...to your Dad...cause you're bored... Also why does my Axel know you can find 8 crotch shots in a Yugioh Manga? I have no idea, I don't really wanna know...but now you know too MUHAHAHA FEAR TEH EMOTIONAL SCARRING POWER!

I'm in a really good mood atm in case you haven't noticed. Had a few funny chat convos, watched some anime, M*A*S*H, House, Numb3rs and had a fun chat with my Dad who I love so much. lol My Mum isn't impressed that I plan to cut up an old dress to use the material for cosplay....not like it fits me anymore...I don't wear dresses anymore anyways...I haven't since my parents used to buy my clothes...

Okay I'm gonna go I've ranted enough
Cya'll later
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17707455/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17707455/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 23:22:13 PDT so err yeah here it goes

Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

1. My favourite home cooked meal is Pork and Apple sauce
2. I made a song about pork and apple sauce when I was younger (and it went like this: I like apples and I like pork but most of all I like pork and apple sauce...wow I was a lame kid lol!)
3. I don't really care that Panic At The Disco removed the "!" from their name, I Just have to get used to typing it without the "!"
4. My dog Sarah is an attention whore, I'm not even joking, she will come before Snowy does, when we call for Snowy, just because she wants the attention
5. I go to sleep with my Axel plushie, I have ever since I got it at Animania
6. I had a rival when I was a kid, his name was Jackson, but then we moved...damn...he actually gave me motivation to DO things...instead of being lazy lol
7. I hate LXLight and vice versa because Light's an asshole and it makes him completely unattractive to me, plus the couple is just utterly IMPOSSIBLE he is trying to kill L for f*ck sake v.v
8. I have been listening to Fake It by Seether for about 2 to 3 days straight, the play count on my iTunes now is 257 it is the most listened to song on my iTunes now.

Tag yourselfz bitches, I'm too lazy lol

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17707242/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17707242/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 22:56:43 PDT who I have been watching for some time but never bothered to read their comic, but I did, and now I love it! It's so funny and sweet. I love RikuXSora so much. I also got linked by a friend to an awesome fanfic which if you're interested is here>[link]

But err...please don't read if graphic yaoi disturbs you...I'm serious DON'T!
Oh I love it though it's so sweet, the way Riku describes/expresses love to Sora is just adorable! I could read over it a million times, well, cause it's only 5 chapters but very good despite it's short length...

God I blame KH for my yaoi fangirlness, I would never have got into if it weren't for 's awesome fanfic Ikurx which can be found here >[link] I really need to catch up in reading it...since I've been lazy, great story though. Really interesting, takes place after KH2.

Though I've been so bored...I wrote my own fanfic for RikuXSora/RoxasXAxel...I feel like I've reached a new epic level of sad...oh well if you're interesting here's the link>[link]
I've had fun writing and it has given me something to do...other than school work lol.
I've been trying to post it here but I have no idea how to post written stuff can someone help me with that? Please?

But yeah this is HOW bored I am....I'm writing a yaoi fanfic...dear god, what have I become? *shudders* I scare myself sometimes, I REALLY do...

Anyways hopefully you'll be less creeped out by my next journal entry, lord knows I will...
Cya'll later
~Jessy-Chan

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I wish I had my download limit back again, should have it again soon. I really wanna watch Night Wizard and check out Air Gear (since I've seen a few fanarts/cosplays on DA and I wanna know what the fuss is about The opening song is kool lol)

I've thought up my own idea for a comic which kinda involves Chinese and Western Zodiac in some wierd magical girlness and violence...all I'm saying about the plot is Cat is the bad guy I dunno if I will end up drawing the comic soon or at all...I definitely need more practice before my weird idea goes to paper. I also need to finalize names/looks for the characters.

I wrote up a skit for my cosplay with and at Smash in August, hopefully it all goes as planned. I got bored and wrote a Death Note cosplay skit....maybe we can do a Death Note cosplay in future I'm in huge Death Note fan mode atm, looking up heaps of pics, finding some awesome cosplay! I love you cosplayers so much! I hope I can do a good job as a cosplayer =3

Not much left to say except I'm suffering anime withdrawal, curse my download limit!
So until I have something else to journal about
I'll cya'll later
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17581238/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17581238/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 22:14:42 PDT Sorry if I'm being annoying, anime cons are just the best thing, in the world, in the universe, just to best thing ever, period.

So yeah I went with (Julian) and (Jenna) lol I got her obsessed with Zombie Loan's Chika, she likes anyone with silver/white hair lolz
Anyways I'm thinking of taking a photo of my plushies, keychains and manga and posting them up here.

Also Jenna and me dicussed cosplaying, lol it sorta was decided she'll be Axel, I'll be Roxas and Julian will be Sora. So maybe for Smash? I dunno...we'll see, will be interesting.

Also about the photos taken at Animania I think the photos will be organized like this
Fai pic on 's account (cause she loves Fai and is in the pic)
L pic on 's account (cause he took the pic)
Inuyasha + Sessy pics, Rinoa pic on my account (cause I'm in the pic)

I'm not 100% sure about that either...they may all end up on Julian's account and me and Jenna will be like NO FAAAAAAAAAAAIR! anyways go visit their pages and give them some love, I will post the pics as soon as Julian gets his ass on msn and sends me them.

I'm sad cause I saw a Near cosplayer on the steps but they were too far away so I couldn't get a pic of them, Julian was gonna chase them but they entered another room me and Jenna was like "Come back Near you're too far away" lame pun *is shot*
Also I wish I could of gotten a pic with as Gaara, I love her the most as Gaara, she's an awesome Gaara, anyways enough of that, nothing much else to say except after clearing out 200+ deviations all at once I will try to next let myself get that far behind in checking DA again!

Bye
Until next time
~Jessy-Chan

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So afterwards I finally found Julian and his friend Jenna, who is awesome! We took some pics with some cosplayers the first picture we got was with Fai from Tsubasa if I remember correctly then we got a picture of this L cosplayer. Who was really kool we shoulda asked for his email

It was funny how we met him we were just talking about how many L cosplayers there were because it was so easy to cosplay but he just walked up and said "hey this took me an hour!" So we asked for a picture so he got out a lollipop stuck it in his mouth and I handed him my mobile phone it was awesome he was so in character! He even started saying how he got a sugar high at his last anime con and felt sick

We found this cosplay of a monster, which may have been some kinda heartless I dunno but it was funny cause I asked what they were and they just growled at me I was like "okaaaaay good job!" Oh I got dared to run across the road and sit near the Inuyasha cosplayer and get a pic. I did and they didn't even mind, Inuyasha even leaned near me to get the pic.

The girls behind us were like sit in the middle of Sessy and Inu so I did and got another picture. At this point I realized they were smoking and I said "I'm gonna get lung cancer" Sessy just laughed so afterwards I walked off and said "Thanks for the picture and the lung cancer" lol

I also got a picture with Rinoa which was kool, her cosplay was really good she was so pretty. I was sad cause there was no Axel cosplayer lol there was at the last animania I was at. Oh and Jenna was lucky when we got a pic with Faye she got a hug I just got to stand there v.v

Anyways my Dad offered Jenna a lift home and we talked like we had known each other for years it was kool but funny. We get along like a house on fire, she has to be the koolest year 12 person I know lol. Oh Alex is kool too I bumped into her at animania, she goes to my school she's in the year 12 Japanese class.

So anyways after all that I finally got home after finding out where Jenna lives so I can stalk her >.> was there for about 20 minutes chatting to Vic and Jezza. Then straight off to Blair's party which was equally as awesome. I met a bunch of her friends that aren't from our school they are really kool. We got our tickets for the movie Drillbit Taylor given out at random so whoever you sat next to was your seat buddy The movie was hilarious and Blair's friends made it even more awesome.

So afterwards we got to eat at GPK (Gourmet Pizza Kitchen) and the food was good but I wasn't really hungry, we also got an awesome chocolate cake. So yeah I was dicussing with one of Blair's friends who does German, which was kool I said something in Japanese so she'd say something in German. I thought it was kool cause I like some German bands, she likes Rammstein I told her a few other bands to look up.

We took some awesome and funny random pictures before everyone had to start heading home it was funny somehow we ended up in the same elevator even though we got on at the same floor the elevator went up and down again lol as soon as I got home I showed Kizza my keychains, he had already noticed the plushie. He also got me a Naruto plushie from China town which is where he was with his friends while I was at animania.

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-EDIT-
Time to make this a decent length.

Well I just finished my IPT (Information Processes Technology, aka computer stuff) assignment, which was so lame, just me blabbering on for 1484 words, even though I'm supposed to have 2000 I talked about everything the assignment asked and I couldn't think of anything else to type...so whatever lol

Anyways between now and Friday I gotta do my society and culture assignment even though I don't even have the sheet and the school site is being an ass and won't let me download it from there...I'll have to get it somehow, I was away when it was handed out soooooooo yeah.

When I hand both of those in I gotta do a English listening on the same day, though I'm not worried cause if I can do a Japanese listening and get 90 something I can do an English listening Then after that I gotta do my Modern History assignment which seems easy enough, we gotta write about Cuba and refer to these sources and stuff we research so it shouldn't be too hard. Not too long either, thank god, I don't wanna do 2000 words of anything again...or at least not something that stupid

Oh yeah on Saturday I'm going to Blair's Bday party, it's her bday today! So happy Birthday to Blair and merry Unbirthday to the rest of us! We're gonna see a movie (haven't decided which one yet cause the movie times just came out today) than go to the GPK (Gourmet Pizza Kitchen, good food) Oh well at least I can have fun this weekend and when school ends in 3 weeks I might finally have some real time to play around with my new video editor, Sony Vegas 8!

Until I have more time I'll cya'll later!

P.S.
Sorry for not checking my watch list
I might just check out everyone's gallery on the holidays lol
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17419960/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17419960/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 02:30:20 PDT It's nice to see dedication and appreciation from fans don't you think?
I watched a heap of awesome amvs lately

But I also found this really kool video which I love
It makes me wish it was an actual game v.v
[link]

I'm in a gaming mood suddenly, I feel like FFX-2 or FFX I dunno either is fine
Maybe too much DoTA I need to find a new hero cause Slayer isn't working for me plus it's apparently Tom's hero

I'm not sure who to pick...So many choices! If you're wondering what DoTA is it stands for Defense of The Ancients, basically you fight to protect your teams towers from the other team. You can pick different "heroes" with different abilities.

Oh and I can't wait for FFXIII and KH3...I want a Wii so bad too...
I want way too much I'm greedy and I lack money, bad combination
I hope Square Enix use the Dressphere system again though, it was a really good idea and if they had used it better I think it would be awesome =3

I dunno what else to talk about, my Birthday could of been better I guess but I got a year of Seventeen awesomeness anyways
Cya'll later :wav:
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17402792/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17402792/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 21:31:48 PDT it was rather amusing.

Scott said I did okay for my first time, despite the fact I died at least 5 times...
I really found the controls rather awkward...I was such a total n00b but the worst part is my font for my character name was pink the entire time...

I was some mage type character I think summoner something other other I wasn't really sure since Scott told me how to do everything...he said I should be a mage cause I told him I was used to being a red-mage from FFXI. Which is pretty much the only online game I have experience in and even then I didn't play it for that long.

So yeah I decided to play DoTA before I turned 17
It was funny though Scott nearly died while he was buying me stuff, I felt kinda bad.
I got exploded by who I think was Jason...he has a habit of being a suicide bomber in the game if you know what I mean.

It was an interesting lunch lol. I hope to play again sometime, I would like to pwn a few people instead of being pwned all the time.

Anyways see ya'll later when I'm 17
~Jessy-Chan

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Wait....nevermind...found out it's just raws but anyways

BTW I recommend Shugo Chara! to all it's an awesome show, seriously it is sooooo underrated D= needs more fans! It's so cute and funny from the creators of Rozen Maiden aka Peach Pit...all their work is so awesome I have yet to come across something of their's I hate...

lol my friend Damo is a Clamp maniac, it seems I'm a Peach Pit Maniac

I have officially decided that I prefer the couple Amuto to Tadamu cause I just saw an amv which was full of Amuto awesomeness =3 I'd go into more detail but it would spoil...well it kinda did for me too...;_; I wanna watch more Shugo Chara!

I also love the opening and ending theme songs so far, they are hyper crazy J-pop awesomeness that can only be listened to be believed Plus the video for the opening and endings so far have been awesome

1st Op>[link]

also funny blog about Shugo Chara>[link]

a few spoilers (well for only for people who haven't watched like 4 eps which doesn't include me lol) but oh god it made me laugh so hard

Ah I want some friends who are fans of Shugo Chara to talk too...no one I know watches it and it's one of my favourite shows plus the sexual innuendo is awesome considering it seems so kiddy at times it just makes you go WTF? But yay for Ikuto's catboy/innuendoness

Chara change adds over 9000! points of awesome, seriously you need to watch some of the chara change moments it's like wow they are all schizophrenic

Sigh I miss anime so much I wanna catch up on Naruto and Clannad too D=
Dammit I wish we had unlimited downloads on my internet connection then this wouldn't be a problem >.< I also wanna watch the rest of Cardcaptors and a few other shows too much anime not enough download power D=

Okay enough complaining...I'm still sick though...sigh I dunno what to do...I'm not really in the mood for MSN even which is odd for me...I just don't feel like talking to anyone right now

Anyways if you're interested in watching Shugo Chara! Or just having a look at it since I ranted about it so much may have just made you the slight bit curious, you can find it on youtube and veoh.

But I personally prefer watching it on crunchyroll>[link]

la la la I dunno what else to say
So I'll cya'll later
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17279552/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17279552/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 22:29:46 PDT
I feel gross, disgusting, diseased, sick, like I'm gonna vomit if I eat anything yet I'm starving, I've only had soup and toast today....blah. Sleepy too...did I mention that? Why is there no mood thing for "sick" on DA? Seriously? I want to know...it has just about everything else....

Anyways so yeah I joined a few clubs and I just thought I'd share that with everyone


and I'm adding more people to my watch list just to make things harder for myself as I can barely keep up with DA and all the messages/art

I was having a random thought about girls and make up last night...yeah I know very random I mean I understand why they wear it, to make themselves feel pretty but seriously doesn't that make them think they're devaluing themselves by saying "oh I'm not pretty enough without make up?" that's how I see it.

Girls who wear make up don't need to anyways they're all beautiful as they are and I just don't understand it, honestly don't they feel somewhat fake with it on? I do...which is why I never wear it. It feels gross on your skin too for those who have never worn it I can't stand wearing it I always have this urge to wipe it off...I also feel fake and uncomfortable with it on...cause everyone can see I'm using make up....to cover up...I feel fake...that's me personally.

Anyways enough of my random rant...I'm gonna attempt to eat and hope I don't throw it up (though I haven't thrown up anything so far so that's a good sign)

Hopefully next time we talk I'll have done my assignment and I won't feel so damn sick...it seems to be going around cause my friend Maggie was sick now me and my brother are both sick....sigh...

Anyways until next time and hopefully a happier time
Cya later!
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17263782/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17263782/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 21:58:42 PDT TOO MUCH!

I watch way too many people...kinda wish they would stop drawing for a week or something and leave me alone I mean this happened when I stopped clearing it out FOR A DAY! Imagine if I was away for a week >.> now that'd be scary

Sigh I want a break, I got 2 assignments, my religion one due later this week I think and my IPT assignmet due in 2 or 3 weeks or something, 2000 words on the library as a information system or some crap like that...I don't think I can even make up that many words on something that boring stupid and pointless

Though I'd rather do it then the stupid newspaper collecting for religion...I'm not gonna explain it so don't ask. If you do, I'll shot you ._.
So frustrating, I'm soooooo tired...walking around school is so tiring, I don't feel like doing anything...

Blah I'll journal later maybe about something a little more interesting and a little less "I hate my life" kinda bitching...

Cya later
~Jessy-Chan

]]> ~Twilight-Flames http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17247934/ http://Twilight-Flames.deviantart.com/journal/17247934/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 22:29:24 PST so yeah here it goes

Rules:
You must post these rules, it's a rule
Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
No tag-backs

1. I have a fear of heights, no secret really...but yeah

2. I once wondered if I could possibly be lesbian or bi...dismissed that now but still odd phrase of my life

3. Loves snow, even though I've only seen snow once

4. Secretly I wouldn't mind wearing gothic/frilly Victorian style dresses >.> don't tell anyone

5. Sometimes I can't stop thinking so I just lay awake for hours thinking.

6. I can't watch horror movies, I've only tried to once (The Ring) and I walked out after 5 minutes. I'm a huge scaredy cat lol

7. Most music I listen to is called "emo" by various people.

8. When I make a new friend I like to ask their starsign just to see if they are a starsign that I haven't made friends with yet....yeah I'm wierd, I like horoscopey stuffz

wow that was painfully annoying, mind numbing and boring....aaaaaaaaanyways

Okay I tag....errrrrrr










lol SOOOOOOOOOORRY to the people I've tagged, if you've already done it then don't bother

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I just finished my English assignment last night so I could shift focus to my religion assignment only to get another IPT assignment today! AND IT'S 2000 WORDS! >.<
Blah I'm sick of this I just wanna draw, chat and listen to music this isn't fun anymore!
I QUIT! LEAVE ME ALONE TEACHERS! I want my school holidays now!

I mean every year the work gets harder but this is the first year that I've really felt it so it's getting really annoying siiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.

lol though english today was funny cause we could either read or do our assignment since I was finished me and Daniel decided to talk to each other in Japanese it was funny cause Joseph was like "Speak English, please!" cause he doesn't do Japanese and was all "WTF"

Oh we got this new girl in our grade Alyssa who is half Japanese she joined our Japanese class, it's cool having someone new in our Japanese class. She's really nice too! Our class is so awesome we're such a tight bunch cause we've been in the same class for like 2 years! So we got all these inside jokes (even more so cause they are language based ) and we just all get along really well and it's so much fun going to Japanese class cause we can muck around, joke, have fun AND learn at the same time. Japanese is a labor of love! Learning a language is really rewarding and I recommend it to anyone!

Anyways I'm having a break from assignments today, I'm exhausted, not only that I've had a heap of assignments but I've started barely using the wheelchair at school, only for lunch and last period cause by then I'm really tired So walking around school is exhausting me too but it's so much easier and rewarding, it makes me feel better when I walk.

I realised that I'm talking to so many more people outside of my group of friends at lunch and recess now. It's awesome, I'm so much more comfortable around other people at school now, I used to be all nervous but now I've got used to people. I made friends with Michelle, Jordi and Sarah. (well I've already talked to Sarah and Jordi in year 9 but Michelle is really kool too)

Anyways enough blabbering for today, I wish I had more time to draw though....siiiiiigh, I have a heap of art ideas/projects I would like to get a start on, maybe in the holidays? I dunno...I'll probably be lazy on holidays

Until next time guys (Or until the next time I have enough time to write a journal)
Matta ne~!
Jessy-Chan

PS all this talk of time reminds me of how we are studying about the western society's obsession over time in society and culture

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