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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

It's been, like, a week and I haven't updated? D: Now we all know something's wrong with that... I shall explain everything that you missed. Well... Not everything... But you know what I mean. (:

Tuesday: I don't even remember this day except for the fact that it was crazy and the choir/band concert was that night. I actually stayed to watch the band after the choir finished like we were supposed to. Unlike the rest of the choir kids that left. I love how the song I liked best was their Hannukah song. xD

Wednesday: It was a half day at school. And that was the day that Sakura-chan and I gave our underpriviledged child her gift. (: She was freaking cute. Although, she didn't say much. And she was thrilled with our gift. So, that's good. We then went to the mall for lunch. And I ate a chicken sandwich, although that's really not important... Although, I miss the Chick-fil-a... =/

Sakura-chan came home with me that day. But then I had to go to the post office to get my passport picture taken. I look like crap in it. lol. But then we had to go all the way to where I was born to fix something with my birth certificate. And we used the bathroom in the courthouse place thing... And Sakura-chan got all excited because the extra rolls of toilet paper said her name on it. xD She must have told me 6 times that she just couldn't believe it (wasn't butter).

So then we finally did a lot of Christmas/Hannukah shopping at the mall. I bought a couple things for myself, though. x3 My mom bought me a Boys Like Girls bracelet, a We the Kings bracelet, and panda armwarmers. And then I bought Harry Potter pins. :3 I also bought Sakura-chan a harmonica. Haha.

Thursday: Christmas Eve, of course. I mostly chilled with Katelyn. I beat her in scattegories. She beat me in foozeball. The food was surprisingly good. Sakura-chan may temporarily dislike me because I ate some crab meat. D: *pats Yusei's head* And, my cousin Sandy is freaking amazing<3 She's the artist in the family, of course. But our conversations ranged from Spongebob to anime. We're cool. And I love my family. Randomly, 3 people just started going... "Potato, potato. Tomato, tomato". lol. I don't know either.

Friday: Christmas, naturally. I got:
-Beauty and the Beast snowglobe
-Beauty and the Beast tiny doll
-Belle and Beast dolls
-Beauty and the Beast figurines
-Webcam (have skype? mine's XxItamiAixX)
-playboy snuggie xD (because a friend of mine is on the box)
-chocolate turtles
-lava lamp
-Alice in Wonderland dvd
-monies
and some other stuff.

The rest of the days are not important. But today Ino-chan came over for Twilight game day. We plated Twilight Scene It and the played my New Moon board game. Yep. It was fun.

And the rest of my day was fucking shit.

Some damn good 2 months with Cody.

Talking to Sam on webcam now. Never thought that would happen. But... Yeah... I will just go now... Good night everyone...

An adorable panda --->

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*TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/29083328/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/29083328/ Mon, 21 Dec 2009 12:37:47 PST 12:47 October 28, 2009 <333

Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Happy first day of winter everyone! It's a snow day here. (: We have, like, 25 inches of snow or something ridiculous like that. I'm glad, because I did not feel like going to school today. Haha.

Yesterday was pretty epic. Ino-chan came over and we played in the snow. We made snow angels and climbed candy mountain and jumped off of it. And then we found PINK snow. It was epic. And, really? Only at my house would there be naturally pink snow. It was an exploded berry. Then we came inside for hot chocolate, apple jacks, We the Kings, and mario party. (: We're cool. It's simply tradition now. And there was a bit of would you rather thrown in there too.

And today I am also alive with the glow of winter. I smell of snow and cold, and there's an aura about me that's excited once again for Christmas. I have consumed 4 cups of hot chocolate in the last 3 days. And I am just... Rawr.

Have a splendid day.

An adorable panda --->

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*TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/29045692/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/29045692/ Sat, 19 Dec 2009 17:39:52 PST 12:47 October 28, 2009 <333

Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Well, if you haven't seen the movie... It was pretty good. Haha. I watched it a long time ago. And now Imma post a list of some things I want to do. And some of the things on the list, I've actually already done since I made the list. And those will be crossed off. here goes:

1. Kayak in a bioluminescent bay
2. Vist the South pole
3. Vist the North pole
4. See Halley's comet
5. Deliver a baby animal
6. visit the Hiroshima Peace Memorial Museum
7. Inhale helium
8. Make liquid nitrogen ice cream
9. Snorkel off the Great Barrier Reef
10. See a sprite at Yucca Ridge
11. Find a fossil.
12. See anglar fish from a submarine
13. experience weightlessness
14. kiss a girl
15. find love
16. skydive
17. learn to ride a horse
18. swim with dolphins
19. Pet a red panda.
20. Make mexican twilight (or another movie xD)
21.go to tokyo
22. help a complete stranger for the common good
23. Get a poem/story published
24. See the Eifel Tower
25. See the pyramids in Egypt
26. get over my stage fright
27. attend an anime convention
28. Find out how the Naruto series ends
29. kiss someone in the rain
30. kiss someone in the snow
31. feel beautiful without a guy being the cause of it
32. get a beagle
33. attend the concert of my favorite band
34. do nothing but snowboard/surf for an entire week
35. hold a monkey
36. eat all forms of pocky
37. write an entire book
38. create an amv
39. create a website
40. grow strawberries
41. grow roses
42. break a world record
43. slow dance in the moonlight
44. get 100k deviantart pageviews
45. collect all 50 state quarters
46. attend a professional football game
47. cosplay
48. record an original song
49. see the Great Wall of China
50. see Niagra Falls
51. spiderman kiss (:
52. stand in clear ocean water
53. go parasailing
54. witness an errupting volcano
55. see the aurora borealis
56. be an extra in a major movie or music video
57. make my own wine
58. learn to ballroom dance
59. see a ghost
60. see a lunar eclipse
61. see a solar eclipse
62. vist all 50 states
63. see the grand canyon
64. go up in a hot air balloon
65. spend an entire night in Atlantic City's casinos
66. see lemurs in madagascar
67. ride horses on the beach
68. bathe in a waterfall
69. save a life
70. learn to play guitar
71. meet Travis Clark<3
72. have a bonfire with friends
73. dye my hair
74. make cookies with my grandma
75. go bungee jumping
76. storm chase a tornado
77. see the amazon rainforest

An adorable panda --->

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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Ahhhhh, Relient K, you get me through these days.

Here's my Saturday.

I awoke to the snow. I then decided to watch Home Alone 2. Went out unto the snow and played for about an hour, then came home to talk to Cody<3 I decorated one of my Christmas trees, and watched the ending of Happy Feet with my parents. And then decided to watch one of my old Winnie the Pooh Christmas movie. It was cute. haha. And so here I am, about to get a second cup of hot chocolate (since the box my mom bought has two different mixes in one box) and finish with the gaia Christmas event. I'm an exciting person. Also have my Christmas playlist playing music, and am wearing a Christmas sweater and snowman socks. I'm cool.

And now to continue talking to my friends about interesting subjects.

An adorable panda --->

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/29026402/ Fri, 18 Dec 2009 19:14:07 PST 12:47 October 28, 2009 <333

Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

So... I must say that miss days when I had time to journal every day. I have been ignoring some things around here because of Cody. But no one really reads these daily anyway, so I suppose I am only hurting my future self.

I must also say that, after her duet with We The Kings, I respect Demi Lovato a bit more. Simply because I like the song a lot. Haha. I still don't like her, though.

You've missed a couple good days and a couple bad days. Days when I cried for no reason, and day when I woke up feeling beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. And this is love, and I am out of my mind crazy for every minute.

At the moment, I am thinking about how much I'd like to scream that I love him... I have been wanting more than anything to convince him that he's the most amazing thing that I have ever seen.

I'd also like to tell about a dream I had. Since most of what's been in my sleep lately has been a horrible, horrible nightmares. I haven't slept well... At all...

In this particular dream, I was just with these two girls who go to my friend's school. We were in an empty parking lot with an old car in it. There was a lake thing there, and we were taking pictures. Apparently, there used to be a school on the lot or something, but it was torn down. And I was simply with those girls because I was waiting for my best friend to be there. I just had a feeling I'd find him there. So, idk how... but there he was. And, since I was in his town and not my own, he offered to walk me home. Haha. And so he did. And when I got home, there was a party going on at my house. It was... nice. But I have this image of him standing there on my porch saying bye to me. It's weird.

I must also say TRENCHFOOT! Best day of History class everrr. lol. Gotta love Mr. B and the way he interacts with Mr. S and all.

And now for just today.

English: Media center, due to researching our book report. I was bored. And I spent more time talking to Sakura-chan than actually reading.

Spanish: Vocab worksheet, then I won at bingo and got a twix.

History: Just a vocab quiz. I aced it, I am sure.

Health: Just did current events. I forgot to bring one, along with over half my class... Failure.

Chem: Kabuto-niisan helps me though that class SO much. Yesterday he gave me two cookies. Today there was this yellow dummy on the youtube clip we were watching, and he said some funny stuff. Then we talked about the thing he did is psych today. And then for class we just went over homework.

Choir: With ding a ding a ding finished, we know all of our songs. w00t.

Lunch: We talked about the story I wrote and posted here. And then just the normal conversation. Sara gave me a Christmas card. It had pandas on it.

Math: Got the 64 I got turned into a 76... woo... Stupid fail quiz. But, oh well. I should have had an 85. I am not disappointed in my ability to be smart. And then we took notes.

Diversity club: Kankuro-kun made cupcakes. They had gummy bears on them. And there was a special Hannukah one for Sakura-chan. Today is the last night of it. D: And then we talked about the enviornment. And now I apparently have to take 3 damn quizzes at the next meeting, simply because people don't participate in the club. IRKED, I AM. It's one thing to ask us to research the topic. It's another thing to quiz us on it. I'd like the club to still be fun. Not more work.

Home: Cody = pretty awesome. I was sad, then happy. And now I am just TIRED. I could sleep for days. It's supposed to snow tomorrow. yayyyy. And, now... Good night everyone.

An adorable panda --->

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28928083/ Sun, 13 Dec 2009 17:22:31 PST 12:47 October 28, 2009 <333

Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Well... Here's my weekend.

Yesterday: Spent all day being sick. Went to the Christmas parade for chorus anyway. Got to see Pat and Kaitlin. I miss themmm. Also saw Enkun in a santa suit... He said hi to me. I'm usually embarrassed to know him, but never more so than at that moment. My fingers and toes were freezing. But me, Tobi, and Ino sang the That 70's Show theme in the middle of the street. Ha. We're cool.

Today: Went to the mall with Sara and Sakura-chan. We bought a dollhouse, a dolphin plushie, and 2 barbies for the little girl we're supposed to bring gifts for. I have to bring a dollhouse to school tomorrow... Not fun. But I bought:
-We the Kings t-shirt
-We the Kings new album, Smile Kid
-Japanese candy
-panda change purse

Sara and I bought best friend necklaces. (:

But borders AND suncoast are closing. And Hall of Heroes is already gone. It's like the world wants to cut me off from anime. I need a new mall. Srsly.

And that was my boring weekend. I hope yours was more interesting...

An adorable panda --->

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28873102/ Thu, 10 Dec 2009 20:32:55 PST 12:47 October 28, 2009 <333

Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Hello, everyone. I must update this now.

YESTERDAY: There's this boy named Cody, and he sent me the most amazing package. It contained a panda stuffed animal, a sand art bracelet, and a ring. He's incredible to me<3 Just so you all know. Then Ino-chan came over. (: She brought her webcam, and we talked to Cody. And then we watched Glee. Haha. We're cool. But Cody told me over and over how beautiful I was. He's crazy, but he makes me happy.

And guess what, guys? I got into NHS. I know you're all thinking... how did that happen? And... I don't know either. lol. But I assume I'll kicked out if they keep an eye on my grades. haha. B's aren't good for them.

Today:

English: Talked more about the pilgrims in Canterbury Tales. Boringgg.

Spanish: I hate por and para. It's an annoying lesson, haha. But oh well.

History: Was annoyed by my teacher, as always. But we're starting our WWI unit. Not as boring as progressivism, so that's cool.

Health: More of this movie called Dying to Belong. It's not bad. About sororities and stuff.

Chem: Made the dough for our cookies. It was kinda gross, because of the cookware we used. But, oh well. Needless to say that I ate some cookie dough... haha. And I got covered in flour. I'm cool.

Choir: More ding dongs and other annoying noises for that one song. haha.

Lunch: I drew Hime-chan a panda. Other than that... nothing. Lunches without my Sara are boring.

Math: I copied Neji's packet, because my group was USELESS. Srsly.

Diversity Club: We talked about some random articles. And a lot about gay people. Yay for them. And Tobi gave me some of his banana bread. It was good.

After School: There was a lot of the usual. Things that always manage to seem like rape and/or look strange to other people. And then, of course, the drama.

Battle of the Bands: Squirtle Squad took home the $200 prize. They were alright, but there wasn't a vocalist, so I was a tad disappointed. I liked Sam's band. She's awesome. And I feel accomplished because I took a pic of Neji and Poptart, and it's now his aim icon. lol. Also, my friends and I totally screamed our hearts out tonight. We were by far the loudest section. Between squawking for Jake-bird (who was there to be in one of the bands), having people scream that they wanted certain band members to bear their children, to just screaming... We were the people most into it. And then, as we were waiting for the judges to decide who had won, we started singing songs. We sang the pokemon theme and people from all over the auditorium (and backstage) got into it. We also sang I Want it That Way... And then got rickrolled... but screamed the lyrics to the song anyway. bahaha. After the show, we also went in the hallway and screamed/sung the pokemon theme again. It was epic, and the awkward stares were sooo worth it.

Well... Off to sleep... Half day of school tomorrow.

An adorable panda --->

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28834551/ Tue, 08 Dec 2009 20:32:13 PST 12:47 October 28, 2009 <333

Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

And all the maps in the world couldn't help me find the way to your heart...

My Christmas playlist has been able to keep me in line lately. It's a serious stress reliever. I am addicted to I Hate Christmas Parties by Relient K. (:

Not much to note about my day...

English: Sakura-chan and I did our skit with the figurines about our ballad. It was short and to the point. But the teacher seemed to like it. ha.

Spanish: Kankuro-kun is allowed to sit behind me now. That class is so much better now. We spent the whole period on uses of por and para, though. which is boring.

History: Could have killed my teacher for being a jerk, telling us all we should drop the course, and taking off points for an answer that no one had. Talked to Ella-chan about how we felt about teachers. Then took some notes.

Health: Did a packet, then sat around and did nothing. I was half asleep. But I didn't take a nap because I was waiting on text messages... that I don't think ever came.

Chem: Failed a test epicly. But know I got the last two questions right. Yay failure.

Chorus: Same as always. But we started ding-a-ding-a-ding. That's going to be a train wreck and a half. haha. But, oh well.

Lunch: Nothing of note that I really remember. More awkward conversations with Roxanne and Sara. We talked about food. And sex. Surprise. We then texted my best friend with a series of questions. I was amused.

Math: Not much here either. Just problems, and getting stuck with a group today and tomorrow who will do absolutely nothing.

And I really missed Cody... I had a choir gig at the restaurant down the street from me. And that went pretty darn well, if I do say so myself. And a piano lesson too. Then I had to read 20 pages and take notes for English class. It was stupid. But, because of all of that, Cody went to sleep and we didn't talk for more than 10 minutes and hardly talked all day... It gave me this horribly empty feeling... Love is the most amazing awful thing. I think I'd have been okay but my best friend was absent tonight as well, lost in his game with some nice young girls. Oh well. Now a survey for the holidays.

1. Egg nog or hot chocolate?
Hot cho-to-late. Haha. (: Love those choir jokes.

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree?
"Santa" wraps most of the presents.

3. Colored lights on tree/house or white?
I liked the colored ones for the tree, but white ones for houses. Haha. That was so racist.

4. Do you hang mistletoe?
Nope. Thank goodness.

5. When do you put your decorations up?
Whenever we can. Last year we decorated the tree Christmas Eve. xD

6. What is your favorite holiday dish?
Um, idk. Food is food. lol.

7. Favorite holiday memory as a child?
Hmm... Probably singing the Hess truck songs with my cousins, then having my grandma make brown jello and spill wine in the meatballs.

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa?
Hiding under the dining room table when I was a kid. haha.

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve?
Sometimes.

10. How do you decorate your Christmas tree?
We put a bunch of crap on it. How else?

11. Snow, love it or hate it?
Let it snow!

12. Can you ice skate?
Not well. haha.

14. What’s the most important thing about the holidays for you?
Getting to spend time with all the people I don't usually see. And time to just relax and not worry about school and stuff.

15. What is your favorite holiday dessert?
Jello and pumpkin pie.

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition?
Crawling out of bed, meeting up with my brother, and waking up my mom then waking up my dad and fighting over who gets to open presents first. haha.

17. What tops your tree?
An angel on one tree, a star on the other two. (We have 3 trees.)

18. Which do you prefer, giving or receiving?
I hope you mean presents of the Christmas variety. (: And, either is fine with me, as long as I know that what I'm giving is good. That didn't sound sexually awkward or anything.

19. What is your favorite Christmas song?
Currently, it has to be something be Relient K. I can't choose. But I'm addicted to the Let It Snow, Baby... Let it Reindeer album. *TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28795726/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28795726/ Sun, 06 Dec 2009 20:37:09 PST 12:47 October 28, 2009 <333

Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

I had a beautiful jounrnal here before deviantart went and ruined it. Blame the goat.

Friday:
-tree lighting
-shared hot chocolate with Dontai
-burnt the hell out of my tongue
-spilled my heart out to Laura about my best friend
-saw a radioactive puddle of green
-sang creepers watching over me with Melissa, Anthony, Laura, Nick, and Haku because this lady in her window was being a total creeper.
-discovered that my high school football team members are now state champions (:

Saturday:
-watched a lot of harry potter thanks to abc family
-did not much else
-cried a lot for things I don't really remember because I tried so hard to forget them
-wrote about my muse
-watched Stranger than Fiction
-saw the FIRST SNOWFALL of the year
-played in the snow in my pajamas

Sunday (today):
-woke up simply because I wanted to hear about a dream my friend had
-watched more harry potter
-woke up feeling like it was finally december
-did a LOT of cleaning
-made a christmas playlist with 44 songs
-made a wish
-thought about kissing
-thought about cuddling
-got tired, wrote this journal, and decided to sign out for the night

An adorable panda --->

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28718503/ Wed, 02 Dec 2009 20:24:17 PST 12:47 October 28, 2009 <333

Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

This will begin a rant.

I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.

Here's my day.

English: I usually try to forget what happens in this class. The Meehanasaurus is crazy and made Sakura-chan go to the nurse for no good reason. I do like that she said the words "I have a blood thing, you know". Meaning that she hated it. But, still... I laughed.

Spanish: Sub. The teacher gave us a worksheet. I'm pretty sure that it stressed that she didn't like tight clothing. lol. Kankuro-kun and I did it together. Was epic. And I totally made one of my sentences say, "I am bothered by the muffins".

History: My teacher was pretty awkward today. He made fun of Steve and Harry and Kevin's water. And he said he wanted to spear Harry through a desk. And we all thought SPEAR?! like a weapon. But he manet like a tackle, apparently. I asked him if he was going to spear his kids if he ever had any. I'm cool.

Health: Finally finished that movie. The ending, of course, did not satisfy me.

Chem: Worksheet. Worst class ever, srsly.

Chorus: Recorded Winter Wonderland and Angels. Not the most fun thing, but oh well.

Lunch: Sara was there today. (: Yay. And so was Roxanne. Double yay. We talked about multiple orgasms. That's what we talk about while we eat. Just so you know.

Math: Quiz, which I so failed. Oh well. And then study guide review.

Photo Club: I screw up this stupid magnet on the stupid homecomeing favors. So, I swtich jobs with Hime-chan. But, the teacher isn't satisfied with the job I am doing there either. I wonder why I am going back tomorrow. Seriously. Everyone just has a complaint. Fine motor skill disability. Sorry that my hands slip up sometimes.

I am also just sick and tired of people bitching at me for being inadequate with everything. I give up. Really, I do.

An adorable panda --->

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*TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28680186/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28680186/ Mon, 30 Nov 2009 20:06:55 PST 12:47 October 28, 2009 <333

Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

If you and I are a story
That never gets told
If what you are is a daydream
I'll never get to hold, at least you'll know

You're beautiful, every little piece, love
Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone
Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my front door
Oh, but if it don't
Stay beautiful
--Taylor Swift

Saturday was fun. I went to the mall with Sara<3 I bought:
-Red Panda sketch pad
-Stroke a Martian book
-New Moon shirt
-foodz
-panda backpack

Today was also fun. I went to Philly for the Spanish club trip. The dance show thing was pretty cool. The one guy totally looked like Jose. The other guy totally looked like Taylor Lautner.

I swear to Kira I think that my wall just squeaked. *mental panic* Mice?

Anyway... Nothing tastes better when in Philly than a good Philly Cheesesteak<3 Kimberly and I both had one. And then we wandered around the Reading Market until we had to leave. Get this guys, I did something nice for my brother. I bought him a shot glass. And I bought my mom a little ceramic cat thing. w00t. But I bought myself some chocolate caramel/cashew turtles. They're delicious.

You know what else is delicious?

Oh, you know.

So, my mother approves of Cody. That's a first for her. She offered to let him sleep under my roof. Wow. Probably never going to happen, but... Was worth a shot.

If only everyone could approve of who I date. Or of me dating anyone in general.

I'd like to drink myself stupid and/or drown myself in chocolate, which I don't even like.

But sleep calls me.

An adorable panda --->

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<... ]]> *TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28619563/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28619563/ Fri, 27 Nov 2009 21:30:55 PST 12:47 October 28, 2009 <333

Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Thanksgiving was good. Lots of food, got to be on national television. Pretty good day.

And of course... PUMPKIN PIE!!! <3

Tomorrow (today) I am most likely going to the mall with my bestie, Sara. (: It's about time we got a chance to hang out. It should be a good time.

At 12:47pm, 1 whole month with Cody<333 It seems like it was only yesterday that I met him. But at the same time it's like I have known him my whole life. I am so out of my mind in love.

Por otro lado, me encanta mi amigo mejor. He gives me this super awesome fuzzy feeling deep down in my heart that just makes me realize "Oh. This is why he's my best friend".

But I hate when people don't see that they're amazing. And I know that's super hypocritical of me, because I have had people trying to convince me of that all the time. But I have my reasons to not believe it.

I just have to say that, right now, I am figuring out who the people most important to me are. And it's funny how they all came from the most unlikely places. And I just hope that they care about me like I care about them.

That is all. <3

An adorable panda --->

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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Have I ever mentioned to you that I absolutely hate funerals?

Services for my uncle were today. I guess that his death didn't really hit me like it should have until I saw him there.

And I couldn't even cry. Just... nothing.

But there was cake at the reception, which lifted my spirits a tad. And my cousin Caitlyn and I managed to find a cat. She was adorable.

I then came home and slept most of my Saturday away. But, you know, I should have been reading my book report book. I just... Can't bring myself to do it. Today has awakened in me a deep sense of tiredness.

I shall now take a quiz.

How does the world see you?
Broken-Seether ft. Amy Lee. Thanks, world.

Will I have a happy life?
Straitjacket Feeling-All American Rejects. Um... I guess I'll have a happy insane life. They're coming to take me away!

What do my friends really think of me?
Jamie All Over-Mayday Parade. Um, alright. I'm all over?

What do people secretly think of me?
Let Go-RED. Well then... That's not good.

How can I be happy?
The Best Thing-Relient K. Well, duh.

What should I do with my life?,
This is The End-The Maine. I should end it? I don't like your tone, quiz.

What is some good advice for me?
Dance Inside-All American Rejects. Good advice.

How will I be remembered?
Hide-RED. I assume that means no one will remember me? Aww.

What is my signature dancing song?
Perfect World-Simple Plan. How do you dance to that? lol.

What do I think my current theme song is?
Josey-Hey Monday. This quiz is inaccurate today.

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Some Like You-Boys Like Girls.

What song will play at my funeral?
Thriller-Fall Out Boy. Alright then. Haha.

What type of men/women do you like?
Smooth Sailing-The Morning Of. Sure.

What is my day going to be like?
American Idiot-Green Day. Yeah... Might have been stupid today.

ANOTHER QUIZ!
IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Emergency-Paramore. Wow. So, I'm a mess.

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
High of 75-Relient K. Yeah, I have been pretty happy lately, despite everything.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Miracle-Paramore. That's Cody alright. lol.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Date Line (I Am Gone)-Yellowcard. I am, however, not the one who is gone.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Give it All-Rise Against. True story.

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
xo-Fall Out Boy. Hugs and kisses? Not a bad motto. lol.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
This is Your Life-Switchfoot. So... They don't care, I guess.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I'm Waiting-All American Rejects. For what, mom?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
I Hate This Song-Secondhand Serenade. Haha, every day in chorus.

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
You're Crashing, But You're No Wave-Fall Out Boy. Haha, alright.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Chicago is So Two Years Ago-Fall Out Boy. Wtf is up with all the FOB? And, wth does that mean?

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Sweet Disposition-The Temper Trap. Sounds about right. Haha.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
1000 Time A Day-The Early November. I want to be... a stripper? Idk. lmao.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hallelujah-Paramore. I AGREE! x3

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Apology-Ashley Parker Angel. Uh oh. Haha.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Sunrise, Sunset-New Years Day. The title makes sense. The song does not.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Ohio is for Lovers-Hawthorne Heights. Love is my interest. Ohio is not.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Part Time Lover-New Years Day. Being cheated on?

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
A Place in this World-Taylor Swift. Yeah... I need one of those.

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Innocence-Avril Lavigne. Hahaha. Wow.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Too Far Gone-All American Rejects. Kinda... =/

the end.

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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

For lack of a better title...

Apparently, my boyfriend saves puppies from being hit by cars and then take them to their owners. (:

Anyway... Here is my day.

English: Vocab test, AP practice. I epic failed. Hard.

Spanish: Spanish quiz. I did not fail that one.

History: More notes, as always.

Health: Current events. Boring, but easy.

Chem: Another quiz I did not fail. Don't you all just love Fridays?

Choir: Candles. It smelled like Christmas. And then more HSM choreography. It's awful. Writing prompt on Monday. fml.

Lunch: Thank goodness for Sara. <3 We had another one of our conversations that went in a really awkward direction. haha.

Math: Second part of IDMS testing. I don't even know how I did on it.

Home: Good times. (:

Football game: It was freezing. But I went so Sara could go and not be alone. We left early. No one had scored after, like, 2 hours. But we talked about just how proud we were of our band because they play video game theme songs.

Other: I must say that I love Cody. It's just needed.

An adorable panda --->

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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

So... You've missed a lot.

I am sorry my lack of updates, journal and art wise.

In the past few days, there has been a lot of drama, even within my own family.

I got 2 Bs on my report card. I am pissed about this. History and Chem. 91.73 and 90. something.

I lost my New Moon bracelets... =/

Had my uncle die... =[ Pretty upset over that... It's taken its toll on everyone. Services are Saturday morning.

I did a bunch of good things today, though. Here's a list:
-Printed out a periodic table for Kabuto-niisan
-Got a current event article for Tayuya-chan
-Listened to Tobi's problems
-Attempted to help Mike with his (failed)
-Listened to Cody being angry about something

All in all... A productive day. Here's a breakdown.

English: Took notes. Eww. And I got an 86 on my Anglo-Saxon test...

Spanish: <3 Review day, of course. My side beasted, as always.

History: More notes, of course. A good period, though, because of all the impressions.

Health: Yup... I started health. Got a good for it, I think. And, of course, I don't have to get dressed for gym. (: Pretest today and current events due tomorrow.

Chem: Went over a worksheet. Boring. Quiz tomorrow. Failure.

Chorus: More of the choreography for the Thanksgiving day parade. Woot. Stupid High School Medley... But, still. Most hysterical choreography ever.

Lunch: Boring, as always without Sara.

Math: Open ended question part of the quarterly test. I think I did... Not too bad? But not so great either.

Diversity club: Talked about gender and stuff. Kinda went into my own little New Moon world with Sara and Roxanne, though. Haha. We're cool.

To all those at the midnight showing of New Moon... Well... You suck. (:

And I totally almost just lost this whole journal. *relief that I didn't*

New 5D's Kiryu is hot. Not gonna lie. Just had to make note of that for all of you.

I love Cody so much that it's ridiculous. <333 He's seriously amazing.

I am off to sleep now. Even though I slept for 2 and half hours this afternoon, I am still tired. I never get to sleep anymore.

And I must make a note of this for myself... Perfect timing. (((:

An adorable panda --->

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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Apparently, I "throw love around like a fucking frisbee". Not sure how to feel about people who tell me things like that. *shrugs* Cody's caught the love frisbee and doesn't seem to be giving it up anytime soon. So, I think we're good.

Well... I must say that cd recording was super amazing today. I think this is my 6th year recording with Rich. He's quite a character. I can't wait to see how stay turned out because we sorta double tracked it. And, of course, I feel like I'm on top of the world after each time I record. Haha. And let me say that I also met an interesting cat named Pumpkin (and she will never know what you've done to her).

And then after recording, we went to the mall for lunch. And I bought 2 pins, Ino-chan's birthday present (part 2), a keychain, and a book.

I also got a chance to talk to some people that I haven't been able to talk to for a while. A nice thank you to the state of massachusetts.

Cody makes me realize more and more every day how amazing he is. I like this.

I am now amazingly tired. Night, world.

An adorable panda --->

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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

School yesterday.

English: Vocab test, ap practice. Oh, what fun.

Spanish: Quiz. I was, like, falling asleep though.

History: My debate went pretty well, but my class decided that they were all going to support the death penalty and ask me 800,000 questions trying to help out Brad because I was against it. Well... They can move to Texas. They love to execute people there.

Gym: Walking with Brian... He was the most awkward child ever.

Chem: So much work. That class is ridiculous. >_<

Chorus: Same as it's been every day.

Lunch: No one there ever talks to me unless Sara's there. So, I am glad that Sara was there.

Math: Solving systems of equations by graphing. I hate graphing.

I'd like to let you all know that I am in love and it is amazing, even at 7am. (:

Now for the real reason I made this journal... To take a useless quiz.

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Tripping while coming out of a pool. (:

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Posters and such.

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Not that I know of.

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
I've got a little bit of everything. Except for rap.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
I think 4 in the afternoon.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
For him to be here.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
When I used to be really close with a certain 18 year old boy.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
My camera, this computer.

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
Short.

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Not really.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Only in my upstairs hallway and in the woods.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
It was a mix of things that made me cry.

13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Losing the people that I love.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
It all depends on the person. But I am a sucker for light eyes.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
My boyfriend can propose, thanks. I don't need to worry about proposing. haha.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
I'm not a fan of either. But I'd settle for a monster. Or a cherry amp.

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
I've come to like sasuage.

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Chinese food. Simply because I just has it and that was what I thought of first.

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
Hot pink.

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
The baked snack, yes.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
That one 22 thing from Naruto.

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
Sure.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Doubtful. Unless there's something I don't know about.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Don't even have one.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
11.

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes. (:

32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
I don't even have one. Fail.

33. FAVORITE PLACE?
The hill behind my house.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Not yet.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Love.

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Yeah. The bassist of All Time Low. <3 And, Ace Enders if he counts.

37. FIRST JOB?
Ha. You're funny.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Of course. Hahaha, wawa.

39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
I think I have one. (:

40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Watching a movie.

41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY
Yup. But I don't remember it.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
My eyes, my singing voice.

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
Yeah, I have.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
That's a long way off.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
If I ever have a daughter, I am naming her Autumn Rose.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nah.

47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
*shrugs*

48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKED ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?|
All the friends I made.

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

The second day of Zenkaikon: It was pretty fun. Ran into a bunch of the awesome cosplayers from the day before. Saw a Tobi with a Burger King crown, which just amused me. Had a cheeseburger thrown at me by America duing the Hetalia picnic. I ate it. x3 Then was left alone on the stairs for a bit while Sakura-chan and Yumie-chan went to take pictures of themselves. But I called Cody, so it was all good. (:

School honorable mentions: Making posters for Veteran's Day and then getting distracted and drawing the powder blue pants I will never get to see my history teacher wear and then showing him the drawing. He folded over the fuzzy pink handcuffs that Sakura-chan drew. Speaking...

Got a visit from an "anglo-saxon warrior". Aka my teacher went and put on a helmet and came back to class. Fail. But, you know... At least she was able to make me laugh because Sai totally said "Omg, the warrior was wearing the same vest as you today! ...did you... fight him?". Epic.

Cody was upset today... I felt bad... But then I cheered him up some. Oh, how I love him<333 He's seriously the sweetest guy ever. Imma shoot myself in the face if he leaves. I feel like the luckiest girl on the face of the earth. (:

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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Hello, men and women of the world. How are you? I hope that you are well. I hope that you still have all the pieces of your heart. I hope that you are not breaking down at night.I hope that you have friends that love you, a family that supports you. I hope you don't have to worry about spending so much money on all those things you know you don't need. I hope you don't have a disease that will slowly eat away at you from the inside. I hope you can close your eyes and sleep peacefully.

But most importantly, I am hoping that you are not like me.

I am retreating. You win, ladies and gentlemen. You have dueled me into submission and I will just float here until you command me to wither and die.

But you wouldn't miss me anyway.

I have been screaming behind closed doors for years. You have been wanting to scream back at my face but have instead been screaming behind my back.

Word gets around, you know.

My brain is sloshing around my head echoing sobs from earlier tonight. And I am overtired and need sleep.

My journal about the second day of Zenkaikon and everything will up some time tomorrow.

I just don't want to talk anymore.

An adorable panda --->

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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Longgggg day.

Lines. Were. Terrible. We got lucky and ran into Hime-chan and Hanabi-chan when we first got there, so we were pretty close to the front.

Interesting things to note:
-Found 2 other Bakura cosplayers and 1 theif Bakura cosplayer. We also found a Marik, and a Yugi. (: And, of course, we found Aki (Knari-chan) and Louis later on.
-Started off the day by going to artist's alley and then standing in the really long line to get into the dealer's room.
-During the course of the day, I bought:
~a bunch of buttons
~a haku plushie
~a shippuden neji plushie
~a panda hat
~ritsuka keychain
~5 naruto figurines (which I bought them out... so I got to keep the box!)
-Vampire Knight Guilty soundtrack
~Hinata keychain
~3 vampire knight posters
~a vampire knight necklace
~a few small prints
~anime stickers
~tobi and deidara keychains
~some other stuff that I am too tired to remember

-Memorable cosplayers include:
~Reno (who helped us find artist's alley)
~Bakura, Marik, and Link (who were my favorites x3)
-Mello and Matt (the one with the scar on their face)
-That guy from bleach (which was really well done)
-Tobi! (and some other akatsuki members)
-Itachi and Sasuke that had a reunion (it was touching)
-The Matt and Near who had a very touching moment also
-Bandit Keith who saw me and then yelled IN AMERICA! (: Made my life.
-Toph, Katara, and Aang. Yay.
-Haku and Zabuza
-the axel and roxas who got married
-003 from Cyborg 009
-and... DEIDARA!!!! (: (: (:

-I didn't really go to any panels or anything... But, you know. Didn't really want to. x3
-I was madd happy when people came up to me to give me hugs and such. It... made me feel like... maybe I could be a main character.
-There was A WEDDING going on. Yeahhh. Wow.
-Hotel/staff kept yelling at as us for stupid stuff. Whores.
-Creepy Indian guy was being all drunk and was, like, "So... This is a Halloween party?"
-Talked to some cool guy whose name I think was Matt for, like, a good hour.

So tired now. Good night everyone.

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Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Hello, deviantart community. It's been a while.

Let's start with Wednesday. The only interesting thing that happened was going to the pep rally at the end of the day. Epic. There was a Kanye West interruption by Mr. Josey to the team we are playing the homecoming game against (who is apparently filled with people who are extremely gay for each other x3). Then there was a dance to the song Single Ladies. I thought of Joe Jonas. lol. However, it kinda just declined from there. haha.

Homecoming dance: IT. WAS. EPIC. Highlights are as follows:
-Two of the history teachers at our school keep doing things that make them seem awkward with each other. It's highly amusing. And we have pictures to prove it. x333
-Best fast paced dance was Every Time We Touch by Cascada. Seriously. It was just a crazy mess of me and all my friends.
-Sara (my "date" lol) and I requested Just Dance. And so Laura just came and found us when it played. (:
-Hid behind a curtain with Sakura-chan. (:
-At the end of the night had an epic sort of group slow dance with My Favorite Nick, Sara, and Tobi. With all possible pairings. Everyone else knows they were jealous of our pimp-ness. lol.

Thursday: Did absolutely nothing. I slept until, like, 2. Soooo tired.

Today: Oh, you know. Woke up, messed around on the computer, ate lunch, and went to Sakura-chan's house. Yumie-chan should be here in a couple hours. I was attempting to do History vocab, but we got distracted by youtube. However, the most distracting thing was these two little boys. They jumped in the leaves Sakura-chan had piled by the street. One boy spit at the other kid, then proceeded to jump in the leaves (football in hand) and like... fuck the football. I laughed. So hard. Thought I was going to cry. Really. Then we ate some dinner and watched and episode of The Mentalist. :3 Satisfying day? Probably. BUT my brother turned 21 today. Pray he doesn't kill himself out partying tonight. And, of course... My uncle is dying. =[ Couple weeks at best. But other than that... I'm pretty good, you guys. How are you?

Cody update: Yes, yes. Because there has to be one. He's really freaking adorable. (: Like a panda. And, omg you guys. It's been over a week and I'm still happy? That's, like, a record guys. I'm proud of us. x3

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28114654/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 19:50:58 PST Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Yesterday I went to the mall with Yumie-chan and Sakura-chan. Didn't really get much of a word in. But here's what I bought:
-New Moon Soundtrack
-magazine
-mushroom pin
-New Moon Team Jacob bracelets
-New Moon cards (lmao)
-wig cap
-Bakura Cosplay shirt
-candy x3

I think that's it.

School today.

English: Talked more about the Anglo-Saxons. Nice. Let me just tell you that I hate taking notes on senseless crap.

Spanish: Me encanta.<3 Played bingo again, though. And some word game that was not fun. And then pictionary. Productive 45 minutes? I think so.

History: Took a test. Not sure how I did. But I do know that I beasted the one open ended question. Yay for farmers and bimetallism.

Gym: Substitute in the weight room. Sat around for 45 minutes wishing I had my phone so I could text Cody.

Chem: Got in trouble for arguing with Ashley about which is better, team edward or team jacob. Did not do any work. Got a D on my test. =/ I suck at life.

Choir: Talked with Dontai and Haku-niisan. About Cody. Ignored the movie we were supposed to be watching, because we had a sub.

Lunch: Talked with Sara. About Cody. Again. I should stop with that. x3

Math: Group work involving food. How lovely. lol.

After school: Made up a math quiz that I think I definitely aced. Then had a really good conversation with Loreen. (:

Other: This is the part where I talk about Cody. He is 100% fabulous to me. I'm not used to this. But, guys... He's not the leaving kind. If this is love, I've been wrong about things my whole life. But whatever this is... It's amazing. I swear it's amazing.

Night, everyone. <333

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<... ]]> *TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28074560/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28074560/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 21:09:40 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

I reallyyyyy need to start sleeping.

So, yesterday. I'll start there.

English: Got to skip this class and got to the perfect attendance breakfast and... EAT A BAGEL! There were, like, 10 kids there. I felt pretty awesome.

Spanish: Took a quiz, then played bingo. I didn't win, of course.

History: Study guide. I hate Monday tests.

Gym: Pilates. It was less fun without Laura-chan there. But just as painful. x3

Chem: Test. Ugh. Not even sure how I did.

Choir: Played that duck game in hysterical ways for a good 20 minites of the period since we didn't have to sing.

Lunch: Nothing too important comes to mind. haha. fail.

Math: Notes and such. But I got a package of skittles at the end of the period, so I was content.

And now onto today...

Happy Halloween, everyone. (:

Went to Haku-niisan's house. It was pretty epic. And went out trick or treating as well. I love the house that gave me a can of orange soda. And the one that gave me a juice box. And the one that gave me the little light up mouse thing. x3 And we got some serious candy. The, like, 13 of us made a pretty awesome group. Although there was an all out war of throwing/stealing candy after we got back to Haku-niisan's. And, of course, we managed to get locked out of the house and sat outside under the tent thing on the deck for, like, an hour. And it rained. But all in all, a very good day.

I have to type my NHS essay tomorrow... ugh.

But I am most likely going to the mall with Sakura-chan and Yumie-chan.

And, oh yeah. I love Cody. (: He's amazing to me. For real.

Night everyone.

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<... ]]> *TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28021645/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/28021645/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 23:09:42 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

School. I can't even remember yesterday other than the velocity training thing in gym, which sucked. x3 So, onto today.

English: Went over vocab, turned in the report I think I failed. Yeah.

Spanish: More group work, as always. So mundane. vocab word. lol.

Activity Period: Went to Spanish club. Attempted to vote on t-shirts. Has My Favorite Nick try to pull put pieces on my hair. awkward.

History: More notes, of course. I want the Phillies to win the World Series so that my teacher has to come into school with the powder blue pants on. lmao. Win.

Gym: Colony ball. My friends and I did nothing. What else is new? I hate gym. I am the least athletic person ever. srsly.

Chem: We were supposed to be working on a review worksheet... I talked with Ashley, Menma, and Neji in the back of the room. haha. We're cool.

Chorus: Cold and Fuge Season. I hate it.

Lunch: Not much of anything there. Couldn't even force myself to eat. Nerves were just getting to me, I think. Kinda a stressful day. haha. But soooo worth it. <3 Also: stealing fires from Kevin is not fun when he lets you do it.

Math: Skipped this class to go eat pizza in the cafeteria. x3 Missed a quiz, also. lol.

Pizza party: Straight As from 4th marking period of last year. Perfect attendance breakfast is Friday, and I am going to miss it because I have stupid tests in English class. Ugh. Kinda just talked. Made a penis out of the runts candy, you know how we do.

Art Club: Carved pumpkins, it was beast. Haku-niisan let me keep his. It says "rawr!". haha.

Other: So... Magically, I have a boyfriend. I've heard some good things and some bad things. I'd prefer if people didn't comment on the fact, because I need no drama. So, just letting you know. But I can tell you right now that he's fantastic. And I owe Caroline. And he's probably reading this. Hi Cody. (:

I need serious sleep. Night, everyone. Or rather, good morning.

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*TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27985996/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27985996/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 20:40:58 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Me encanta espanol. What else is new?

English: Teacher decided to discriminate against me again due to notecards. Sakura-chan then decided that she was going to gasp again during the firedrill. Love her. And for some reason, the boxes on the side of the screen are overlapping the journal box and iI can't see half of what I'm typing. Please forgive for spelling errors and such. Thank you.

Spanish: Actually participated in conversation. We talked about Sara. x3 Then we just did grammar stuff all period.

History: Nothing of much importance. Talked with Brad and Caitlin during the checking of vocab. I don't like the way my teacher was eyeing my work... I have a feeling I lost a few points.

Gym: Weight room. Threw the medicine ball. Felt completely invisable while April, Chelsea, and Kirstyn talked with each other.

Chem: My lab partner is useless. Enough said. My mole day shirt was epic. Husband of my teacher said it should be worth 7 out of 5 points. x3 I named my mole Cedric. And while handing in my mole day picture, I hit my head on a metal cabinet door. I laughed. But it was epic failure. Maybe that's why I was so awkward today. A head injury could do that to a girl.

Chorus: Did that singing thing.

Lunch: Just talked with Sara. Best friend? I think so.

Math: More trig functions. Easy. My calculator is boss. But it does not eat a bagel. lol.

After school: My grandpa, Mickey, and I went on an autumn adventure. I got some awesome shots with my camera, but I'm going to put them up tomorrow because it's madd late. And I am just really tired. But we drove all around and wasted a good 2 hours. My grandpa is kick ass. No lie.

Tonight: Finally got something off my chest that just needed to be said. I don't care what he says, I am not going to just forget about the "arguement" no matter how hard I try. All I can say is that sometimes I have the best friends in the world. I really do. <333

Ending with song lyrics.

If I said I was truly over you, my heart would say amen. But I'd give into the cold caress of 2am. If I admit I can't get used to this, will my heart break again?: As I fall into the waiting arms of 2am.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27949823/ Sat, 24 Oct 2009 21:41:52 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Yesterdayyy.

The only interesting thing that happened was that diversity club yesterday was epic. Dontai became tarzan, we had a meeting in the wrestling room, we talked about addictions while sitting in a giant circle, I got to be the first one to sign the ally week pledge, and it was also mole day, although that had nothing to do with diversity club. Oh. And it was picture day. But no one cares about that.

Today:

-awoke due to a text from Tobi
-read some of my book
-dealt with a lot of drama
-Saw a sign that said "bring on the next victim!" in front of a chairopractors office
-went to the movies with Tobi and Melody-chan <3
-snuck in an insane amount of contraband x3
-Saw Where The Wild Things Are
-discovered awkward furry references
-laughed, cried, and was scared at the same time
-sat in the front of the theatre and got a headache
-noticed there was a darkish liquid that was creeping down the steps and towards our feet
-realized it was water because of the storm outside
-stood in the rain for ten minutes while talking with Tobi and his mom
-went to friendlys with Melody-chan
-had an epic meal, made by ice cream
-had Melody-chan drive me home, where we realized that we have deep converations in the car lol
-ran to my computer to tell my best friend he had to make an 11:11 wish. (: he did.
-I now need sleep. <3

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27913571/ Thu, 22 Oct 2009 20:28:50 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

So tired. Can't type anymore.

it's been an interesting few days since I last typed a journal. I feel like I've been missing a large part of my life by not typing every day like I used to. But, of course, in the end everything is always just empty words anyway.

Last night: Was on the phone with Dontai and Tobi. There was a bit of crying, a few nasty words, some laughs, and some bitterness. But mostly... There was just confusion. I grow a bit irritated with them sometimes. But I know that, in Tobi's case, my love will forever be unconditional. And no one else seems to understand that. And it's true. I don't need him. But he has been better since I told him to treat me like a friend and not just use me.

And you're not going to believe this, but I shall type it anyway. The other night I was writing a story in my room when I saw this weird blue sort of light in my mirror that disappeared after about 2 seconds. I thought maybe my eyes were playing tricks on me, but... I couldn't make myself do it again or anything. I was kinda freaked out, especially because pretty much everything in my room is pink. So, idk where any sort of reflection could have come from... I told my mom and sh said that apparently only people with psychic ability can see orbs or something. hahaha, that would make total sense if you know me well enough.

Now for my day.

English: Library research for our book report. I was late putting stuff back. So, I stayed to get a pass and got to see Dontai (because he has that teacher the period after me). It was a nice start to my day.

Spanish: Me gusta espanol. <3 I can't say that enough. haha. Pictionary and a youtube video. Yet, I am still learning somehow. lol.

History: Notes. I seemed a bit smart because I was, like, the only one in my class to know where the idea of Uncle Sam originated. Little does my history know the real reason that I know so much on the subject... Ellen also came to class with me for a few seconds. Twas fun.

Gym: Weight room again. Boringgg. We still just throw the medicine ball around and get an A.

Chem: Took a quiz. Eww.

Chorus: Not much today because our class was being observed. Angels Watchin' Over Me. New favorite chorus song? I think so. (:

Lunch: heard an awkward conversation in the lunch line about 2 girls at a concert. Talked with Cody about what he should get for lunch. haha. Talked with Kevin about what it would be like if Knari-chan and I had sex? xD I don't even know. Had a small arguement with Dan about things being gross. Like my mom, according to him. Because he'd know. And then had the girl I like (yes, girl ) kinda just mess with me again. >_> Meh. Such is life. And, hello dA friends. I am telling you who I am with that statement. Take it or leave it, and we'll see how many of you read close enough to have questions. Because if I was you, I'd be like "wait, what?" right about now.

Math: Notes. Trig functions. Review. Yay.

After school: Searched for the teacher I needed to give my Spanish Club trip premission slip to. Then came across Tayuya-chan, Haku-niisan, and Orochimara-chan. We then nagged Boyd for gum and such. He's the man. Srsly.

Came home, started typing my essays.

Then Third-niisan called. I helped him with his history essay (kinda) and then we talked for 20 minites about crap. lol.

Then had Peter ask me about the english essay.

Then saw Mike's facebook status said he was in need of help with the English essay. Now, we don't get along... At all... But I was, like, ah what the heck. And I told him what he needed to know and wished him luck on the essay. He then changed his status to say that I was god. (Omg, Kira!?). Good deed for the day done.

So tired now. Need sleep.

I miss my best frienddd. He needs to get his phone/internet back.

And I didn't get to make an 11:11 wish. =/

Good night, world.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27861727/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 19:42:52 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Or not.

Anyway... It's been a while. Let me just say that I've just been lazy. Lot on my mind and such.

Over the weekend, I finished the book Tricks by Ellen Hopkins. All the characters had a semi-happy ending except for Seth, the gay one from Indiana. That sucks. He was my favorite.

I also told Tobi that he needs to treat me like a friend, or I'm leaving. He thanked me for the second chance (even though we all know it's really the millionth) and has been, like, kissing my ass since then. It's actually quite amusing. But if he thinks I'm letting him off the hook so easy, he's very much mistaken.

Here's my day today.

English: AP practice test. Had my old camp counselor as a sub. (: It's funny she remembers me. Other than that, nothing. But I do have a test tomorrow on... well, there's the problem. My teacher didn't tell us what it's on. I hate her.

Spanish: Absolutely nothing important. We just talked about grammar.

Assembly: Sat next to Tobi. Tried to study for a test. Couldn't because the lights were off. Didn't care about the governer presentation.

History: Took a test.

Gym: Went to weight room. Played catch with the medicine ball with April.

Chem: Worksheets. Long and tedious. Didn't care. Worked with Ashley. Had that same camp counselor for a sub.

Choir: A do nothing period. (: I just did my thing and talked. I missed Laura, though.

Lunch: Nothing much of importance here either. Just the usual. Although, Kevin did try to, like, look up Sara's skirt.

Math: More square roots. Fun.

Home: Nothing important until my mom screamed at me for, like, 20-30 minutes because of my friend's sexuality. >_> She just... She's the only one who refuses to accept my friends for who they are. And, you know what? Fuck her. She always does this. And, just... I wonder...

SADNESS: I have this amazing fantastic friend, and I might not get to talk to him for a while. This. Blows. =/

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27768329/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 18:04:56 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Suckish day. You have no idea.

Home: Woke up miserable because Gaara was stalking me, my house was empty without my cats, and Tobi upset me the night before.

Bus: Stupid bus evacuation is stupid. Took me forever to get to homeroom. Didn't feel like jumping out the side of a bus this morning either.

English: Teacher was a bitch. I didn't know the answer to the question that she asked. I couldn't even make up an answer, it was so ridiculous. And so she apparently gave me a zero. And then at the end of the class she said that if we didn't understnad the concpets and didn't want to participate, then maybe some of us should drop down to honors. That was fucking directed at me. And you don't fucking make a kid look bad like that. I have good grades in that damn class. Fuck. Her.

Spanish: <3 <3 <3 Oh, class. How I love thee. Even though Jack had to be an ass and say some shit to me about English class...

Assembly: Same prison tales. Point? Don't do drugs. The end.

History: Nothing too important, I suppose.

Gym: Did NOT want to do pilates. My leg now feels like jello from that. And stupid Gaara made it 10 times more uncomfortable.

Chem: Lab partner? Useless. Figures.

Chorus: Same old. Bernard fell and broke the table... which was hysterical and I think the only time I laughed all day, really.

Lunch: Ashley made me sit with her today. So, the kids around us left. And then moved to a new table. Adam asked Ashley to follow... And she made me go too. They then returned to the original table. I knew they weren't going to like having me there. But... To get up and leave? Ouch. And it made me completely and utterly miserable. They're kids I don't even talk to, honestly. Never again... Hopefully, I can redeem myself this weekend at Ashley's house. If my mom lets me go, that is.

Math: Nothing much. Firedrill. Review. Mad at Jess for switching out.

Art club: Kinda fun. Didn't do much since it was the first meeting. Next meeting is pumpkins, woo. And got to see little Bryan. He grew. x3 It's been SO long.

After Skool: Sasori had the nerve to say that maybe what the English teacher said about dropping the class was true. I just glared at him and he got all nervous and said, "I was just kidding, you know English is your thing and all and...". That's what I though, asshole. >_> Tried to mediate a fight between Dontai and Tobi. Didn't go so well. Broke it down to second grade. No interruptions, one side of the story at a time. Sadly, even that doesn't work with those two. How great best friends they are.

Home: Parents suck. And the second I leave, they fucking talk about me. And I heard that, grandpa. >_>

Good night to all.

Fuck the world.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27751931/ Tue, 13 Oct 2009 19:26:36 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Title is from a Mayday Parade song. I love them. <333

Skool today.

English: Nothing too important. Talked about the Rockinghorse Winner.

Spanish: Worked in groups, as always. That class is never a surprise.

Assembly: It was boring. The lady who wrote Swallowing Stones was there. And it turns out that her books are really just true events exemplified. >_> Ruins it for me, quite a bit.

History: Notes, than a seriously easy worksheet. I also did my math homework. lol.

Gym: Kickboxing. xD It was kinda epic fail. My back kick is more like a leg twitch, because 4th period is way to early for me to be having gym, and I am seriously lazy in that class. lmao.

Chem: I got this kid Kevin as my lab partner. He's a senior... But at least he does some work. Glad I'm not Ashley. She got Darwin and Tom. But, like I told her, two heads are better than one. rotfl.

Chorus: Same old. Got candle stuff. The christmas cookie one smells really good. (:

Lunch: Sara nagged at me for making her get me a pretzel. xD But then something amazing happened. I'm happeh.

Math: Worked with Jess S on some problems involving pythagorean (sp?) theorm. Eww. It's all reviewww.

Home: I miss my cats. =/ Quiz time.

1. I've come to realize that my hair:
is amazing because it's purple.

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
I say the word like too much and I can't shut my mouth.

4. I've come to realize that all I really need:
is love.

5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
everything that used to matter to me.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
they skip questions in these things (like 3).

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
I don't care about anything else.

8. I've come to realize that money:
can't make me happy anymore.

9. I've come to realize that when I get old:
I will probably be a completely different person.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
awkward, loving, complicated, and scared.

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
someone. (:

12. I've come to realize that the last time I smiled was:
during lunch today.

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
is kick ass, because it never fails me.

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
I am still tired from the night before.

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
am always thinking about someone.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
how bittersweet this whole thing is.

17. I've come to realize that my life:
is lacking.

18. I've come to realize that my favourite drink is:
orange soda.

19. I've come to realize that today I will have:
learned something new.

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
write until my soul bleeds.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
have to act like I'm not so very excited.

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
tell everyone my secret. But I can't.

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is:
Someone really bored.

24. I've come to realize relationships are:
not my strong point.

25. I've come to realize that love:
is the most beautifully complicated thing in the world.

26. I've come to realize my best guy friend:
is probably Jesse.

27. I've come to realize my best girl friend:
is unidentifiable.

28. I've come to realize food is:
good.

29: I've come to realize that this summer:
was a good one.

30. I've come to realize heartbreak:
fucking sucks.

31. I've come to realize that the person I like:
is wayyy out of my league.

32.I've come to realize that my brother:
has a really messy room.

33. I've come to realize that crying:
cleanses the soul.

34. I've come to realize that death:
is hard to... ]]> *TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27734340/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27734340/ Mon, 12 Oct 2009 20:02:23 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Saturday: Went to Wal-Mart, then the dollar store, than the mall. Bought:
-Secret Window dvd
-National Treasure 1 and 2 dvds
-Rush Hour dvd
-All Dogs Go to Heaven dvd
-Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix dvd
-That 70's Show season 2 boxed set
-New Moon movie guide
-bio book on Taylor Lautner :3
-Twilight cast bookmark
-The new Ellen Hopkins book "tricks"
-A Mayday Parade cd and t-shirt
-vanilla yan-yans
-belle kalidescope (spell fail?)
-belle stickers
-Stranger Than Fiction dvd
-and I think that's it?

Saturday night... I saw some things that made me go 0///0 a lot. lol. Might just be a whore.

Sunday brought nothing exciting.

Skool today, unlike everyone else.

English: Stupid finishing of the naming of parts, stupid quiz about a boy who rode his rockinghorse until his mom caught him and he died.

Spanish: Wrote sentences about my now purple hair. xD My spanish teahcer then proceeded to play with my hair. I love that class. xD Guess who is seriously considering taking Spanish 4?

History: Vocab quiz, notes. Not much accomplished. At all. Talked a lot with Nikky and Shikamrau-kun.

Gym: Zumba. New songs. Still boring.

Chem: Not much time to talk with Ashley, and Neji was absent. We watched this hysterical video on lab saftey, though. xD Wookie.

Chorus: Music. Duh. End.

Lunch: They didn't have pretzels. fml. And I wrote a story for Sara. (:

Math: I texted the whole time. lol. Win.

And then I came home and ran all around town looking for a b-day cake for my grandma. What did we un up with? Dunkin Donuts. Lol. We're cool.

Not only that, but my grandma let me have a piece of cake from the cake tommy and maggie gave them.

This could be why my stomach now hurts, but it was worth it.

Also, I am freezing.

Going to bundle up. Night to all.

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*TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27676157/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27676157/ Fri, 09 Oct 2009 20:24:18 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

My (half) day.

English: Vocab quiz. AP practice.

Spanish: Quiz. Conversation.

History: Shikamaru-kun and Paul's Immigration debate. Shikamaru-kun definietly won.

Gym: Zumba again. We didn't do the dance I like.

Chem: Took a quiz, it was easy.

Choir: Finished Oklahoma.

Lunch: Not much, again.

Math: Midpoint. Ugh.

I then went to my grandparent's house and my grandpa wanted me to take pics of the bar top that they're building. It's pretty cool looking. I then proceeded to play with Wheaton, and then play a game of scrabble with my grandma. I lost, of course.

Had some pizza, like a boss.

Was convinced by Ashley to go to the football game.

Ashley was late meeting me there, but the game was epic. We won 40 something to 7 against OC. I got to see Kyle C and Matt D accidently kiss each other. I spent some time with Orochimara-chan and Josh S. (: It was just nice. And I got to see a crapload of other people. And at least it was something to do to get me out of the house. And despite some fucktardness from Enkun, it was quite epic win.

And I am getting my hair redone tomorrow. (:

Much love, everyone.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27658422/ Thu, 08 Oct 2009 20:24:15 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

My day.

Homeroom: Had my friends eat nearly the entire bag of gummy bears that I bought to school today. xD Fail.

English: Got a C on my paragraph rewrite. Fuck that class, the teacher is a bitch. Seriously. Today we did nothing of importance again. Talked about the parody in naming of parts that she didn't think we saw. Even after, like, explaining it to us the 50th time. >_> Does she think we're stupid?

Spanish: Nothing too important. Review games. We won the grammar, the other side one the pictionary. It's a rivalry.

History: Got a fucking 77 on a test I thought I did well on. Teacher took off all the possible points he could on the damn open ended questions. Fuck thattt. Shikamaru-kun then got mad because he asked me what I got and I gave him a "death glare".

Gym: Zumba today. Less enthusiasm than there usually is. Some of the stuff they want us to do is, like, something you might only do alone in your room in the dark with all the doors and windows closed.

Chem: Went over a worksheet. Then I worked with Ashley-chan on the new worksheet. (: I must say, that girl is pretty kick ass.

Choir: Might have a quiz on Oklahoma. Just keeps getting weirder anyway... Oh well. The whore girl did have a pretty dress, though.

Lunch: Nothing much happened. No one was really there. Should have taken Ashley-chan up on her offer to sit at her table. And I might have done that if her table didn't include Todd. xD

Math: Worked in groups on a slope packet. Me, Colton, Tom, and Gianna. We had to draw cards in order to figure out who we'd work with. We were the aces. Yay, cards. xD

Home: Managed to talk to my friend about why I was so mad at him... He lied to me... Flat out lied. He made it so obvious. Wish I could have talked to Sneaky about it. Of course, Jake thinks I'm stupid and believed him. I wasn't born yesterday. I know what he really said to Sneaky that day was no where near what he tried to tell me said. Nothing could have been that close to what I wanted to hear. He then got all fucking pissed at me because it isn't his fault he's too busy for me. Pretty much exactly that. So... Idk... I feel bad that I did flip out on him before hearing all he had to say. But he lied, and I know it. Men. *sigh* So many of them fall into the same pattern. And women... Well, they're exactly the same. There's just no way to win.

But, as usual, talking to Greatea made me calm down a bit.

And, of that wasn't enough, my grandma accidently bought Disney princess spaghettios, and I ate them for dinner. (: I have never been so thrilled. Yayyyyy. Although, I noticed there were a lot more Belle pieces than Ariel. Even more yay. I wish everything could come in fun shapes like that. It made me happy, like, all day. xDDD I fail at life.

I now want to sleep.

Go to myspace, if you have one. Look at my photography album. It's beastin.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27640625/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 19:44:32 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

For lack of a better title. Haha.

My day. My longggg day.

English: I don't even care enough to do this. xD It was boring poem stuff. Naming of parts.

Spanish: <333 We didn't do much. Reviewed questions, filled in some blanks, did a crossword.

History: Wrote an essay on the Did You Know video from yesterday. Blegh.

Gym: Weight room, medicine ball, game of catch.

Chem: A few demonstrations. Didn't set anything on fire, though. So, I was a bit disappointed.

Choir: Watched more of the movie in the pac.

Lunch: Nothing too interesting. Saw a former camp counselor who smiled at me and asked how I was. That seems to happen to me often. xD

Math: Took a quiz, did a word search.

World Affairs Club: (aka history club). Walked in with Gina. Found Tobi and Sakura-chan. (: Filled out a form, and talked about some stuff we want to do. History related fundraising ideas, anyone?

Photo club: Went to that after. Was fun, it seemed. Wish I had brought photos to share.

Hallway: Spent some awkward time with Tobi and Dontai while Zabuza and Sai looked on awkwardly. Lol.

And then when Dontai left, Tobi was upset about something and literally cried on my shoulder. Got me all wet, it was kinda gross. But all I could do was hug him, even though he's said that my hugs only help a tiny bit. I try, though. Honestly, I do.

Grandma's: Killed an hour until dinner, then had chicken and rice. Although... My grandma put the breadcrumbs on the rise instead of the vegetables like she wanted to... Funniest thing since brown jello and wine in the meatballs.

Lessons: Dad drove me to voice lessons. Win. And then I did that thing where I sing and such.

Then I came home. I have been here since.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27622772/ Tue, 06 Oct 2009 19:39:09 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Updates.

Yesterday I told my history teacher that I thought fuzzy pink handcuffs were the best invention. It was epicly funny. Sadly, I think some of the kids in my class thought I was really being serious.

Today:

English: Talked about some stupid poem. And frickatives. xD Gassssssssssss. And: , the title is something Zabuza said.

Spanish:
We worked in groups. Talked with Nicole. Normal.

History: Notes. I moved up. He told me the desk was probably infected and he hoped I didn't get sick. I stayed there anyway. He was also wearing a pink shirt today. Secretly, he gets what I mean about the handcuffs.

Gym: Played "colony ball". Epic fail game. I then failed to kick the ball. Tayuya-chan laughed at me. She then did the same thing about 30 seconds later. Karma.

Chem: Hate that class. Like talking to Ashley, Kabuto, Neji, and Kelly, though. (: Today we did learn how to make a gun, though. xD Shot a ping pong ball across the room, set a table on fire, and made some stuff explode. Good day.

Chorus: We watched Oklahoma in the pac. I sat next to Haku-niisan. And so I put my arm around him and said "yawn". He pulled my hand around to the front of him and let it rest on his chest, awkwardly positioned. And then Dontai leaned on Ino-chan, who leaned on me, so I leaned on Haku-niisan. We're cool.

Lunch: Onion ring said hi to me. That was weird. Sara and I then practiced being slutty school girls. B-Jesus, Ichigo, and I all took a bite out of an ice cream thing and it then looked like yoshi. Weird.

Math: Review for the quiz tomorrow. I love how half the stuff that we do in class isn't homework if we don't finish. It's win.

After school: Stayed after with Third-niisan and Ino-chan, mostly. That was interesting, although we kinda just sat in a corner and chilled for a while.

Home: I took a nap. Then Third-niisan called me and told me his mom unintentionally killed his geckos. He was mad at her anyway. I felt really bad.

Piano: I did that thing, in which I play the piano.

Home: Dinner was gross, so I melted cheese on it. It was a lot better after that. I want to sleep again. MLIA. The end.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27575083/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 09:55:55 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

THE RULES:
1. Put Your [media player of choice] on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments after the song name.
5. Tag [as many or few friends as you want]
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And here we…. Go! *presses play*
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What do your friends think of you?
Zydrate Anatomy-Repo! The Genetic Opera.
I'm like a drug? xDDD

If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
Friday Night-The Click 5.
Hahahahaha. Gotta love those friday nights.

How would you describe yourself?
Saying Goodbye-New Years Day.
I'm leaving myself? Haha, what?

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Silver Bullet-Hawthorne Heights.
Why, yes. There are some men I would like to shoot. xD

How do you feel today?
Words I Couln't Say-Rascal Flatts.
It's true. I'm not sure how I feel.

What is your life’s purpose?
A Beautiful Lie-30 Seconds to Mars.
Idk what that's supposed to mean. haha.

What is your motto?
Champagne's for Celebrating (I'll have a martini)-Mayday Parade.
Alright then. Guess that means don't party too hard? xD

What do you think about very often?
Pieces-Rascal Flatts.
Pieces of cake, maybe.

What is 2 + 2?
Come Back to Me-Plain White T's.

What do you think of your best friend?
Chicago is So Two Years Ago-Fall Out Boy.
That doesn't sound good.

What do you think of the person you like?
Let The Flames Begin-Paramore.
Right. Maybe a good kind of flame?

What is your life story?
Come Back-Repo! The Genetic Opera.
True story.

What do you want to be when you grow up?
End-Seconhand Serenade.
That's lovely. I will amount to nothing.

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Which to Bury, Us or the Hatchet-Fall Out Boy.
Um.

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Scared to lose-The Early November.
Maybe? Haha.

What will they play at your funeral?
August is Over-We The Kings.

What is your hobby/interest?
Just Say You're Not Into It-Mayday Parade.
Um. Okay then?

What is your biggest fear?
The New Is In-The Morning Of.
I suppose I fear change?

What is your biggest secret?
Chemicals Collide-Boys Like Girls.
Awkward sounding.

What do you think of your friends?
I'm Getting Over You-The Click 5.
D: Noes.

What will you post this as?
Tidal Wave-Owl City.
Okay.

People I know:
http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27566161/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 20:20:01 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Happy October, everyone. And thanks for 33,000 pageviews. (:

Lots to update, so I'll stick to basics.

-Joined Spanish club. (:
-Went to the first diversity club meeting. (:
-Became addicted to Owl City again.
-HOSTED THAT 70's FEST!!! <333333333
-Bag of nerds: $2. Shot glasses: $7 each. the look on my brother's face when we asked to borrow those glasses: Priceless. Needless to say, the nerd shots were a good idea.
-4 episodes, a bunch of youtube episodes, and a million gummy worms later, Laura-chan and Sara-chan went home.
-Ino-chan spent the night. Oh, how we get thrown under the bus in our "drinking" games. lol.
-Mad at a certain someone for just being stupid today. I slept most of the day away, though.

This is 4 days worth of journal, and it's... so short. I am losing my touch, guys.

People I know:
*TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27494987/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27494987/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 20:56:45 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Today was one of those days that started off okay, but then turned into one of those times in which I am falling apart. Or so it seems like. And it's always the people who mean the most who let you down in the most complicated ways.

I am really considering cutting myself off. This is getting to be a bit too much for me. I should stick to few words and simple conversations. I should stop letting other people get so involved in my life that I can't force them out of my heart. I should stop hoping, because it really isn't getting me anywhere. I should stop posting these damn things because no one reads them anyway, and even I don't want to look at the shit I write anymore.

I think at one point I might have been beautiful. He used to bring out the best in me. Why am I not over this by now? Time after time after time he comes crawling back into my heart right when I have finally become numb. This has been going on for way to long. And I can't even do a damn thing.

I'm sorry that I treat every make figure in my life like shit lately. I don't mean to do the things I do. Honestly, I don't. I don't like to mess with your hearts. I can't stand fighting over the same things over and over again. I can't stand the conversations that end before they even have a chance to start.

I am sorry that all I ever do is bitch and complain about how much people are hurting me. Because we all know it probably really isn't true and I am only hurting myself by becoming attatched and trying to feel what it's like to finally be alive again. I didn't know what it was like to live before, and even after it all I still don't know.

And as much as I need to find myself right now, as much as I need the time alone... My lips ache for the kiss that could replace his. I don't want to think of him as the last person to press his lips to mine. Because no matter how hard I try to forget, I can't. I went too far, like I always do. But I don't think I ever felt as radiant as I did then.

And I want everyone else to forget about it too. Forget how much I tried to make things better for everyone, even though I never did a damn thing to help.

I don't know what I'm good for anymore, honestly. This is probably why I am still alone. I get worked up too easy, I worry too much, I have too many emotions.

I am sorry that I thought I knew what love was. I don't love any of you. It's not the right word. And I'll keep my complaints and my too overly repeated stories to myself from now on.

Greentea + Caroline: for people who technically don't know me, sometimes I think you do the most. You're the ones there every single day that are willing to simply just listen. And you don't care when I say the same things, like I am a broken record. You don't care that I complain so much. I tell you secrets that I know you'll keep, and not because you have no one else to tell. And I have been more myself with you than really anyone as of late. Because you don't seem the type to leave, and I am honestly just scared to be who I am anymore. I'm sorry for pouring my heart out to you so much, but I am so glad you take the time to listen.

My day.

English: More notes, woo. Got two grades back, also. An A and a 24/25. *relief* I have to write some stupid paragraph for Friday, though. =/

Spanish: Group work. Nicole, who was forced to work with me last time, came over to me and told me that I should sit next to her. And so we worked together. It was nice that someone actually cared enough to hold conversation with me. And I did my good deed of the day by putting a quarter in Nick's UNICEF box. lol.

History: More Iraq stuff. Watched campaign commercials from the Bush/Kerry election. I also told my teacher that I was a cancer, too. xD He did know immediately that I was talking about Ellen. It was funny.

Gym: Spent most of the time talking to coach with Dominique and Tayuya-chan rather than doing stupid weight room stuff. Apparently, he's dyslexic? Learn something new every day.

Chem: Factor label stuff. I asked the teacher if my answer was right, and she said it was and I should go do it on the board, because some people just weren't getting it. I felt kinda smart, then. I also converted a frog with a bowtie into a test tube sticker. xDDD

Choir: Nothing important. Learned more of Winter Wind. It's pretty.

Lunch: Nothing too much. Lots of talks about onion rings. And Loreen was bac... ]]> *TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27476393/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27476393/ Mon, 28 Sep 2009 20:16:51 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

First off: RIP Officer Lopez, more than just a cop that kept school hallways safe.

Today was a bit depressing in that aspect. However, here is my day.

English: Handout, notes, I got an A on my essay.

Spanish: 96 on my quiz. Still loving that class. I'd consider Spanish 4 if it wasn't for the fact that I know it's going to get harder, and I have so many electives I want to take.

History: Notes. Of course. Just talking about the war in Iraq. Which is epic fail, btw.

Gym: Weight room, as always. I stood around for a bit because nothing on my designated wall was full. This is getting old. But I love my coach. (:

Chem: Took a quiz. It wasn't as bad as I thought, I don't think. Didn't do anything else besides that. Staring factor label tomorrow?

Choir: Why do we have to take notes? Haha. I love my favorite Nick. We had to take notes on some movie about Beethoven. And my favorite Nick made his spell out why do we have to take notes on the side. Ears, they did not work! And things like that.

Lunch: Nothing too epic. Just discovered that I am the cheese curls and he is the onion rings. Not only do the make a sort of innuendo, but they have greater meaning. No. Don't ask me who "he" is. Haha.

Math: Review packet, firedrill. Simple.

Other: Friday night 3 of my friends and I are going to have an epicly awesome time. Yay for DVDs and junk food.

And Neji-niisan is super amazing, because he does so much for me. He also praised the crap out of three of my devs and might want to use one of them for something he's working on. Haha. I feel honored or something.

Life's not half bad, atm. I am finally starting to figure out who I am and where I belong and what I am meant to do.

People I know:
http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27455980/ Sun, 27 Sep 2009 19:07:15 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Had an epic dream last night. For serious. I moved out and took all the important stuff with me. I got to see my cousins and play with the four dogs they had. A cute boy (who I don't know irl) put my name up in neon lights because he loved me and it was my birthday. And then we saw a Boys Like Girls concert going on and I took pics with Martin. (: Epic.

Went to the mall for anime day today. Here we go:
Bought:
-Black Cat complete box set
-Would You Rather book
-vampire book
-english/japanese dictionary
-That 70's Show seasons 1 + 3 boxed sets. (and I am having a party with some friends for that)
-Deidara's headband
-2 things of candy
-the Owl City cd
-2 buttons
-A Boys Like Girls shirt!!!
-3 dice
-and other stuff I might forget

Nothing else really happened. *shrugs*

Then Tema-chan came back to my house and we watched some That 70's Show and she taught me how to use my itunes, finally.

Currently on the phone with my neechan!!!!

The end.

People I know:
http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27436195/ Sat, 26 Sep 2009 20:10:38 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

School yesterday.

English: The vocab quiz wasn't nearly as hard as I thought it would be, but it still wasn't easy. Then another AP practice test. 3 out of 5 right, woo.

Spanish: Quiz. Not too hard. Sort of different than I expected.

History: Watched yet another 9/11 based movie. It was trying to counter the accusations in loose change. Either way, this has been a really interesting sort of lesson. Talking about the war in Iraq monday, which should also be interesting. Good class.

Gym: Brian was in weight room with us for the day. We pretty much just stood around and talked all period.

Chem: I don't even care. lol.

Chorus: Singing. What else would you expect?

Lunch: Got my picture from Hime-chan. (: It's cute. Other than that, nothing.

Math: Notes and practice problems. Still hate that class.

Today: Played Mario Party. Unlocked Hammer Brother as a character. Then bought some figures.

Had a photo shoot. Got some decent shots.

That was what I did while I was waiting for Sneaky's sister to get off the phone. I had to get a hold of Jake today, so... Made Sneaky call him so it wouldn't be a long distance call. He did not, however, seem too thrilled to hear from me. =/ This is a bit upsetting.

And my mom also wants to get rid of my cats. She tried to sweeten the deal by saying that she might get us a dog. Might. And I don't even want a dog. My brother does. *sigh* He gets whatver he wants, seriously.

And that is my day.

People I know:
... ]]> *TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27399906/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27399906/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 20:13:45 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Not even sure anymore.

English: Talked about 20th Century British literature. Took some notes.

Spanish: That class is love. Nothing much today, though.

History: More notes. Such is routine. I am starting to like that class's style, too.

Gym: Weight room is kinda boring still. I'm glad I have Tayuya-chan there. I was really anxious to jump rope today, though. lol.

Hallway: Got to see Matt. He was all wearing... not black. I asked him about it. And he said something about talking with a recruiter. It's sad that I knew something was off just by the outfit.

Chem: Quiz today, not sure how I did. Then a bunch of practice problems. I really suck at Math and such, which is a big part of this.

Chorus: Finished Into the Night and started Winter Wind. Into the Night ends on an annoying note for us altos in the choir. >_> I miss being soprano and having awesome pretty notes.

Lunch: Nothing too important here, either. There never really is. We missed the fight in 6th period luch. Sad that it's only the second week of school and this is already happening.

Math: Learned the name of the kid with green hair, I think. lol. It's an accomplishment.

DIVERSITY CLUB: Today we made posters and brought back the apparent old slogan. Then after the meeting was over, I hung out with Tobi, Dontai, Ino-chan, and a bunch of other people in the hallway.

Other: I am still sick as anything. I still owe Neji-kun. But I am better than yesterday. <3

People I know:
http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27382665/ Wed, 23 Sep 2009 20:04:54 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Today was fucking shit.

English: media center, got a book to read for a report.

Spanish: got stuck working with some girl that didn't even want to be there. I wanted to just work by myself.

History: Video depressed me. =/

Gym: I hate weight room. And my leg still hurts. wtf is that?

Chem: Enough said.

Chorus: Nothing interesting.

Lunch: Loreen is, like, scared of me, Sara was gone as she will be two days a week all year, I don't know half of my table, and I usually don't even talk as much as I'd like to.

Math: Group work. Finally got to talk to Colton. I had been wondering for the longest time what his name was. Question was hard as fuck. It pissed me off. I hate the teacher.

Other:
I do fucking nothing right. I try to tell a couple of my friends a secret of mine. Because I am who I am, and you know what? I have to fucking be myself with someone. I don't want people to be "kinda annoyed" with the things I do. I don't cry out for attention with things like this. I don't shake all night long because I am lying. I apologize for my bitterness, but... I just don't know anymore.

Diversity club is tomorrow. I am excited about that. And I get to see Tobi. He's bringing Tom (the plastic turtle I bought him at sea world).

I got to play with Wheaton today. =] He was at my grandma's.

I am fucking SICK and I need sleep and such.

I have too much damn work already.

And I just have to thank a Mike of the Greentea variety for listening to me and being very helpful. And also to Neji-kun for just... letting me hug him today, not getting mad about me stealing his tasty cake (and not telling him that I took it for, like, 10 minutes), and helping me with a bunch of crap.

Good night everyone.

Fuck my life.

People I know:
http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27346301/ Mon, 21 Sep 2009 19:27:30 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Skool.

English: I hate my teacher. So fucking much. We have to write our essays in class and we can't change them when we type up the final draft. And so I didn't finish mine, because I was making sure my other 4 paragraphs were adequate. Fuck her for her stupid dumb ass rule that I now get points taken off.

Spanish: Quiz. It was easy.

History: My debate topic is against the death penalty. Not too bad. Especially considering that I was the 19th pic out of 28. Going against Brad. Should be fun.

Gym: Walked the mile. For some reason, my leg hurt really bad right when we started. =/ Fail. And Laura-chan walking 8 million miles an hour didn't help much.

Chem: Measurements. Not so bad.

Chorus: Same as always. Learned more of Into the Night. The song I so think is secretly about an orgy.

Lunch: It's pretty boring this year. We chat a bit, we eat, we leave. I miss the craziness.

Math: Notes, homework, hate the teacher. What else is new?

Lots of new devs.

And it's Andy's b-day. =]

People I know:
http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27327849/ Sun, 20 Sep 2009 19:44:43 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely, thinking love was fairytale and trouble was made only for me.

Friday:
Went to Waterford Day (which is like a carnival). Here's how it happened.
-Went to Sakura-chan's house.
-Watched a crapload of Pokemon abridged.
-Ate some pizza.
-Discovered that I can't sit on a stool without knocking it over.
-Went to the raceway.
-Walked around and then bought light sabers.
-Had a light saber duel in which I fought Yumie-chan and she cut off my arm and leg before Sakura-chan came up behind me and killed me.
-I attacked Jake-bird with my saber.
-Wandered around and talked with random people.
-Found Tobi and Dontai (after looking for them forever because they refused to come to us).
-Discovered Tom: the asshole kid from last year was there.
-Did not let Tom play with my saber like he wanted.
-Got a hug from Sam-chan's little brother when he left.
-Bought cotton candy and fried oreos. (Yes, there really is such a thing as fried oreos.)
-Faced Tobi's mom, because Dontai refused to go with him to see her about food or something.
-Talked anxiously with Leah-chan's mom to make that fact less awkward.
-Watched the second half of HM's band's performance. They won the battle of the bands and got the studio time. =]
-While in the front of the crowd at the show, I ran into Matt-kun. <3 I miss him, and I then realized that it was the first time I had seen him outside of school. xD Fail.
-I then bought this bag of crap worth $5 and was thrilled. When we got home, I had $20 in my purse. I should have only had 5. Best $5 I ever spent.
-Went back to Sakura-chan's house.

Saturday:
-Woke up.
-Said bye to Yumie-chan.
-Slept on the floor.
-Woke up again and ate pancakes.
-Watched the hour and a half long 9/11 conspiracy video for history class.
-Walked to Roxanne's house.
-Saw the speeding ice cream man.
-Watched the 3rd and 5th land before time movies.
-I became Petrie.
-Watched Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog and then the commentary.
-Watched the ending of Jurasic Park. And then the first few minutes of Shrek.
-Played Taboo. Sara and I failed by, like, 5 points.
-Ate some cherry ice cream.
-Played this dating game that was epic win. It's a flash thing here on dA. But it's hard. D: And addicting.
-Ate blueberry crisp.
-Talked and such, then fell asleep around 2:30.

Today:
Homework.
Epic.
Good night.

People I know:
http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27270223/ Thu, 17 Sep 2009 19:42:45 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

I didn't know I'd love you so much, but I do.

No idea where the hell that journal title came from.

My day.

English: Test on The Jungle. Wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. *shrugs* Not wanting to do that essay on monday... >_>

Spanish: Went over verbs. Shino beat Rock Lee in a game. And it was funny. Quiz monday on conjugations.

History: More making fun of Bush. Then we watched some campaign videos and took some notes.

Gym: Walked a mile. Eww. And Tayuya-chan yelled at me for being loud. D: But April said she liked my hair. I've gotten that, like, once a day since we went back to school.

Chem: Passed the quiz I thought I was going to fail. =]

Chorus: More alma mater.

Lunch: Borrowed a calculator from Joel, because I forgot mine at home and was freaking out about my math quiz. Bought my first order of many pizza sticks to come. And tried not to scare Loreen, however... I think I did anyway. xD

Math: Passed the quiz, I think. lol. I was glad Jess was in class. Because I would have been so bored.

Bus: Fought with Brian, as always. Haha. He is the only one that I ever give up with. You know how stubborn I get. lol. But then I collapsed from just being tired and awkwardly made faces at him when he wasn't looking. I'm cool.

Came home and took a nap. Woke up and forgot and thought it was morning. lol. And now am sad that I am apparently incapable of handling myself. Whatever. Fuck this. I'm going to sleep.

People I know:
*TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27249856/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27249856/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 17:33:42 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

A moment, a love, a dream, a laugh, a kiss a cry, our rights, our wrongs

Skool.

English: First essay. Apparently, my teacher can't read. She told 4th period I created the word "poemism" or something like that. This makes me angry. Fuck her and her class. It's not my fault I have that motor skills thing and she grades papers with her glasses off... >_< Bitch. I don't need people thinking I'm the stupidest kid in all of AP. Even though I probably am. Since I make up words and shit apparently and put them in things that are going to be graded.

Spanish: Fire drill. I laughed at all the freshies who thought it was SO loud and were holding their ears and complaining. xD That's always fun. And then we decided that we should do a worksheet on verbs. It seems like we should have accomplished more in 45 minutes. But we didn't.

History: Started the class of by making fun of Geroge Bush in video form. I was quite happy. And then we talked about Clinton. He did have sexual relations with that woman.

Gym: Got squads and all. Getting dressed tomorrow. Greattt. But I got coach S. as my teacher. Love him. =]

Chem: Grr. I hate conversions. Hahaha. Quiz on them tomorrow. Not going to be fun. And Lauree and Poptart were wondering the hallways, like, all period. They passed by about 6 times. Wish I could have been there. It's going to be awkward when Kabuto switches out of that class. lol.

Chorus: No death metal jingle bells. However... We are still going to make fun of it. We then did a whole bunch of warm ups and attempted to learn the alma mater. Even though I already know it. But I did actually get to hear Dontai's voice today. It's so quiet without Frank there.

Lunch: Nothing much happened. Jake's little sister sat with us. I miss having him in my lunch. I also missed Sara today, because she was in stupid AP chem. =/ And they cut down on portion size now, lol. They gave me, like, 3 nachos. No lie. And Kevin apparently was jealous of my cheese curls.

Math: Absolutely nothing. We did, like, 5 problems on the board and then attempted to play a game. My group didn't even go. So, yeah. Oh well. The teacher can't teach for her life. So, I am going to epic fail. I can't do Math.

Bus: Didn't really talk to anyone. Haha. I was, like, half asleep.

I am so tired right now. Even though I took a 2 hour nap this afternoon. I should probably go to bed at a reasonable time, since I have all these tests and quizzes and stuff tomorrow. I hope I still remember The Jungle. lol.

People I know:
http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27235409/ Tue, 15 Sep 2009 19:54:57 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

School today. These journals are about to get longer, I do believe.

Homeroom- I ran into Tobi in the hallway. I miss him. It's sad.

English- Talked about The Jungle and the essay we are going to have to write on Monday... I hate the way she does this. You have to write the rough draft in class and then go home and type it, but you can't change your sentences. >_> What's the point in that?

Spanish- Yo me gusta. We spent the whole class just talking to each other en espanol. Seems like it should be easy enough and I should be fine.

History- My teacher still seems like an asshole. I noticed that Shikamaru is in this class too. Haha, didn't know that before. I sit ALL the way in the back, but I'm next to him, so I should be alright. Curious as to what debate topic I'm going to get, also.

Gym- Sat with Laura-chan. Felt kinda bad for Brian. He sat on the other side of the gym with his head down all period. I wonder who my gym coach is going to be and stuff.

Hallway- I said hi to my bio teacher from last year. He asked me if I had his wife for Chem and I said yes. He then got mad at me because I didn't take honors. Haha.

Chem-Took a pretest. It was boring. I guessed on everythinggg. What's a quantam number? And there's a new girl form Connecticut in my class, apparently. Wonder what she's like.

Chorus- We have to perform jingle bells in different styles of music tomorrow. I got reggae. How the fuck I am supposed to do that, I do not know. I am just going to lose points, I guess. I am helping Tayuya-chan with hers, though. She got Metal. WIN. We shall have much fun with this. And I plan to scare freshman but dementedly yelling jingle bells at them.

Hallway- I finally got to see Matt-kun. I hugged him and then walked with him halfway to his class. And I told him that if he didn't switch into one of my classes and he left to be a marine without coming and seeing me, I'd beat him. He has agreed to this, and how much that would suck, so... Yeah. Regardless, it was really, really good to see him. I missed people way too much this summer.

Lunch- Sara sucks and won't be there Wednesdays and Thursdays because of ap chem. =/ Oh well. Nothing really happened today. Matt-kun needs to switch in their. Or if Brian follows through with his plan. lol.

Math-Went over some of the summer Math. I did a problem on the board, because she is going to make us do that. I hate her already.

Bus- I rocked out to on a boat, due to my bus buddy. Brian let me play sonic on his ipod. And then I laid my head on his shoulder and we watched the laser collection. lol. We're cool. And because I sit with him every day, people are going to assume that he's my boyfriend. Just like they do every year. Oh well.

I had sasuage for dinner tonight. Could hardly eat it because my we had been talking about The Jungle in English today. And my grandma got lost taking me to piano lessons and I was 10 minutes late. lol.

And Third-niisan was being a jerk. And was trying to tell me things that would make me prettier. Fuck him.

People I know:
<... ]]> *TwilightHinata http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27216298/ http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27216298/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 19:05:38 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

The first day of school is always the worst. Parents get overly excited, all you do is go through rules, and you're always disappointed about someone that you don't get to see.

Homeroom today was funny. Orochimara-chan gave me candy corn. And, of course, they made my locker combination off by, like, 8 numbers. But I figured it out. It's all good. Even though my locker is down the hall and around the corner from my homeroom. Grr.

Here's my schedule-

Period one-AP Eng 3. Teacher is the eccentric crazy one. We got books today. I sit next to Jack. =/ LOL, Jack. I just realized that. This is going to be a fun year. And Sakura-chan is, of course, 2 rows over.

Period 2-Cp Span 3. The teacher's accent is so thick that I can barely understand her English. haha. Oh well. Kankuro-kun is in this class with me. And I also have Noelle-chan. However, Kakashi is also in this class. >_> And I sit in the back corner surrounded by stupid guys.

Period 3-Hon USHIS 2. Sakura-chan and Ella-chan are there with me. The teacher seems like a total asshole but I've heard good things about this class, so we'll see. Also not looking forward to the debate thing I am going to have to do. I hope I get, like, gay marriage or something that I have an actual opinion on. Or else Imma fail.

Period 4-Gym. I have Tayuya-chan there with me. That's good, at least. I also have Brian-kun. He's thrilled that he can annoy me. I spent the period today trying to convince Matt-kun that he should come into lunch with me. Because, apparently, 4th period lunch has so many kids that people couldn't even sit down.

Period 5-Cp Chem. The teacher is the wife of my bio teacher last year. He was my favorite teacher, but I have NOT heard good things about this class. Maybe my teacher from last year will put in a good word and she'll like me and I can pass. I don't really have friends in this class. =/ But I have Neji-kun. And I sit next to Kabuto-niisan. And Menma is there also.

Period 6- Sel Choir. Same as last year, just with some new kids. Got to see everyone that I missed and all. Doing the Thanksgiving parade again this year.

Period 7-Lunch. Fail. I hate having 7th lunch. Oh well. I'll just have to pass out in chorus again like freshman year. But I have B-Jesus, Orihime, Sara-chan, and Leah in my lunch. I also have Tayuya-chan, Taylor-chan, and Brionna-chan, but we don't sit together. It's all good. Either way, it's going to be pretty darn epic.

Period 8-Cp Alg 2- I hate Math. xD Not a single friend in this class. Unless you count Neji-kun. And I don't. But I sit to this sophomore girl named Jess, and she's pretty cool. We texted after class, and I am hoping to have made a friend that I can talk to in this class. And the teacher we are supposed to have just had a baby, so we're going to have someone different throughout the year. Fail. *sigh*

I had a serious headache at the end of the day today. D: Yup.

Bus- We have to pick up kids from the Catholic school on our busses now. We only have one girl. But I get home, like, half and hour later now. GRR. Brian-kun is just happy that now he can annoy me longer on the bus. Because he thinks he's king of the bus, and he has claimed me to be his buddy. We're cool.

And that was my day. I then came home, got upset about something someone said, wrote 2 devs about it, and here I am.

And, that's right, guys. Not a single class with Tobi. I didn't even see him in the hall. I don't know how to feel about this. Sad that I miss him, know he's near me, and yet I can't see him... Or glad that I will have a lot less drama this year due to this arrangement. =/

At least I have a pudding cup. =]

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27199432/ Sun, 13 Sep 2009 20:25:20 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

If the world's too big to rule then we'll stand on stools, overlook the fools...

So... Last day of summer was today. I'm pretty sad. This summer was pretty amazing. I got closer to some people, drifted from others, and all that. I'm really going to miss having at least one party to go to, like, every week. And there's a lot that I wanted to do, but I just couldn't.

Anyway, my day:
-Finished Swallowing Stones. THE ENDING RUINS EVERYTHING FOR ME. Everything I read watch... everything. >_<
-Habba babba?
-Went to Lowes, Target, and Staples with my mom.
-Bought: locker magnets, a notebook, MANGA STICKERS, and a corkboard.
-The guy at staples was awkward.
-That started because of the stickers. He was putting some of them on the shelves while I was looking at the book of manga stickers. He looks at me, smiles, and says "Those ones are cute". And I say, "Yeah, they are". He looks at me a couple more seconds then gets back to putting the stickers away. He then awkwardly reaches in front of me to put one back, and his hand brushed across my, like, shoulder. He says, "sorry". I tell him it's okay and then I leave. And then as I am wandering down random aisles, he is, like, always there. Smiling at me. And then as we were leaving, this girl said she'd check us out in a sec. The guy didn't hear and was all, I'll check you out. And so the girl got mad at him. He was the reluctant to check out the people who walked up behind us just then. Creeper, much? I think so.
-I also had a fun phone conversation with Ino-chan. Yay. OUR HOMEROOM IS GOING TO KILL EACH OTHER. We have: Ino-chan, Third-niisan, Mario, Paul, Joel, me, Hanabi-chan, Tayuya-chan, Orochimara-chan, and Kabuto-niisan.
-Taylor Swift. That incident there at the vmas was uncalled for.
-There is now a new holiday. It's called v-mas. Haha. I love my friends.
-Wish me luck. For, school is upon us!

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27180311/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 22:36:56 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

A special note to a Mike of the Greentea variety: Thank you for watching me, I will probably spam the shit out of your inbox. xD

Anyway... Tonight was funnn.

Haku-niisan ran up to me and hugged me when he saw me. Also, we really surprised Tema-chan. She stood in the same shocked position for, like, 2 minutes. Even though we had to sit in a dark corner and wait for, like, EVER. xD All in all, it was fun. We watched Repo. Sakura-chan was finally there for that. We discovered that we now ship Bakura x dark signer Carly. And I got to see a whole bunch of people that I haven't seen for a long time. =] Oh. And Tobi and I didn't kill each other. But I did miss Haku-niisan pulling his pants down and running around in a circle. lol. Maroon 5. And the cake was good. And I got to see a lot of people I hadn't seen for a while. So very much fun. The rest was all random crap.

In other news:
I don't see how Swallowing Stones was THAT bad, you guys. I read the first 160 pages. I just thought that Michael and Joe were gay together. I mean, Michael spent, like, a whole page talking about the way Joe slept in only his boxers and the way he just wanted to pull the covers up over him and such. And my favorite part so far? Page 98. Michael's fight with Josh.
Josh: So what? I like to see naked girls. So what?
And then in reference to Michael: What could he say? He liked to look at naked women too. He wasn't going to be a hypocrite about it.

Thank you school, for making me laugh for, like, 10 minutes. I still think Michael is gay, though. No matter what the book wants us to believe... xD

I am also glad that I wasn't here when the power went out. It's been cold and rainy lately. =/ I don't want it too be colddd. Rainy is okay, however.

And Andy and I ended up having a good conversation. I'm glad for the times when we don't fight, because they seem to always turn out with me in a better mood than I was before.

School Monday. Eww. Go to room 211. It's where all the cool kids will be.

The end.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27159621/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 21:28:45 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

I had another nightmare last night. This is getting ridiculous.

Ino-chan came over yesterday and we played Mario Party (bloop-de-do) and listened to the new Boys Like Girls cd.

Then I went to Sara's party later. It was win. We played Twister. I found out Ozwald cut his hair off, and so did Asuma. I found a carrot that looked like a finger. And I finally raided Sara'a fridge for the organic peanut butter. It was a good time.

There journals have been short lately.

I am finally starting on my Bakura cosplay. =]

Today I finished The Jungle and then cleaned, like, EVERYTHING. My desk, my dreser, my floor, my purses. Like, everything.

I am not in a good mood. Apparently, I am a whore who has no personal respect for people. Way to go, me. You've got a good reputation.

And everything I have written lately is crap. Sorry guys. I don't know what's wrong with me.

The end.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27124910/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 23:12:09 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

You could spend your whole life holding on.

My day:
Woke up, went on here, went to lunch, ate a donut, watched The Bold and the Beautiful, came home, spent more time here, cleaned out purses, practiced for lessons, went to dinner, went to a voice lesson, went to best buy where I bought: $25 gaia cash card that came with a cute ferret for my avatar, the soundtrack for 500 Days of Summer, and the new Boys Like Girls cd. Of course the old cd was better. But this one is still good. Came back home, talked to some people, and typed up my new devs. The end.

Now rant. Randomly depressed. And I am realizing just how fucked up I really am. My mom told me today that she doesn't understand how I get these concepts. The things I say to her, it took her until she was, like, 40 to realize. And then I look at myself and I realize just how childish I am. I don't know if I've mentally grown up too fast, which is why I do the things I do or what... All I know is that I don't know where I want to be and I haven't known for a really long time. I've sure as hell done some things I've not proud of recently. I don't appreciate people shoving it in my face. I don't appreciate trying so hard and getting nothing. And I don't really need any of this, atm. And you probably shouldn't believe anything that I say anymore. I lie, and I am wrong for doing so. I try to be so strong sometimes and then I collapse and it's usually on someone else's shoulder. Really, I don't blame you all for getting tired of me. I am sorry that I spam your inbox with these messages. I am sick and tired of people telling other people that they're perfect. NO ONE is fucking perfect. Get over it. Everyone is flawed and love shouldn't blind you to the point that you're so delusional you really believe what you say. I don't like people telling me about how so and so is the prettiest girl in the world. Happens all the time. And you know what? No human body is perfect. A girl could be really pretty but be missing all her teeth or something. I also don't appreciate people telling me things that they don't mean. You say you care. Well then, where are you? Where the hell have you been for the past 3 months? Why don't you have the decency to maybe call once, or maybe even just text? Why does every conversation we have to turn into a fight? Why am I typing questions to someone who won't read them? How foolish I was for falling in love, then. I am trying to change. I have the tendency to rush things. I want to run before I can stand. I spend these days trying to make the most of what I have, because it all disappears too easily. If there's one thing I've learned this summer, it's that. And I can't make myself change. I am so easily molded, but someone has to change me. And, really. I fucking hate myself.

End rant.

Lately, I have been having these awful nightmares. One or so every night.
One about me leaving behind Tobi's friendship because I liked Enkun.
One about Andy stabbing me.
One about my grandma dying.
One about missing the first day of school.
And one with the sound of a man yelling my name and me waking up abrubtly with my heart about ready to leap out of my chest.

I'm almost too scared to sleep. I have a feeling that, between these nightmares and the giant black bird that I saw land on my house today, something bad is going to happen. I'm not one to believe in superstition... But... In dreams... You guys might know just how accurate they are sometimes.

My God, I need a hug.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27100285/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 17:30:26 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

I nearly had a panic attack last night when the school's website took the summer math tab down. But it was back up today, and I made sure to print out what I needed. *relief*

I'm not sure if my mouse is even working or not. It's being insanely stupid.

I can't take anymore of The Jungle. Ugh. Only about 100 more pages to go. I wish I had the audio book thing. That would be soooo much easier. And, of course, I have all 245 pages of Swallowing Stones to read, too. Plus doing the summer Math. I am so lazy.

I found out some more news on the pregnant girl in my grade at school. Baby due in November. It's funny to think that these things really do happen to people I know. I'm just glad that they don't happen to me.

I am really, really hungry right now.

Piano lessons were alright today. I like talking to Elena, she's pretty cool. Now I see how she's friends with Deanna-chan too. I am, however, not prepared for voice lessons tomorrow. Wonderful.

I spend most of my hours here or playing Mario Party 8. I have no idea why.

My allergies are kicking in and I am kinda miserable.

With everyone else I know in school already, my lack of friends is kinda annoying me too. Haha.

I wish Amy's computer didn't have a virus.

I gained, like, 10 pounds this summer. EPIC FAIL.

I once saw a band in concert called Valencia, not know who they were, and now I am back into their music.

I also love Ally Heman. Her stuff is amazingly good, and I suggest you look her up.

I really love meeting new people.

I now dislike potato salad.

If HM tries to tell me he's batman one more time...

This guilt is pretty much destroying me. fml.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27063434/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 21:45:12 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life.

Today was uneventful. Tonight was amazing. I went with Laura-chan and her mom to go see 500 Days Of Summer. If you haven't seen it, go and see it, like, right now, It's fantastic. Haha. I have never seen so many old people laugh at the word penis before. Let me at least say that. And... super skank. lol. Although, my movie experience was kinda... blah. The popcorn had wayyy too much butter. The smell of it almost made me sick. And, of course, Laura had so much contraband... We're lucky she didn't get searched. hahaha. Yay for being way inconspicuous with our dr. peppers.

We then went back to Laura-chan's house and played DISNEY PRINCESS UNO. It was win.

I still have trouble beating disney 20Q. It's terrible. haha.

Cleverbot. It's hysterical.

My mom bought me gummy bears. Epic win.

And now to go kill some more time and focus on not reading The Jungle.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/27044537/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 22:31:12 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

News:

I hate The Jungle. Sooooo boring. Haha. I'm, like, halfway through it. Then on to Swallowing Stones.

I am single again. Note me for details, if you really want them. Here isn't the place to explain.

Ino-chan was over tonight. We played a lot of Mario Party. And then... Just... Epic-ness involving Samsam. xDDD And I am now the Fez to her Kelso. <3 Aww. (I love That 70's Show.)

Might go to the movies again with Laura-chan tomorrow. We'll see.

And... That's it, I think.

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/26987116/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 21:59:07 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

4:00am 07/15/09 <3

Title is from a song... xD

Yesterday was epicly fun. :3 Laura-chan picked me up and we went to the movies and saw The Time Traveler's Wife. It was kinda... lacking. Not bad, but some things were poorly explained and done and they ending was fail, like I always think. We then went back to her house. Now, Laura-chan's mom happens to be my seventh grade English teacher. So, walking into her house was weird. Lol. Her hair was messy and pulled up awkwardly, she was wearing shorts and a baggy t-shirt. It's like... You know that teacher's are real people, but it's still weird when you see it. And we then played Disney Scene It. But Bailey (Laura-chan's dog) kept laying on the board. xD I won twice. I then had to go home after the third game.

Today I did nothing important. Discovered that I am pissed at my mom.

And I am going to miss watching The Bold and the Beautiful with my grandma once school starts. haha. Fail.

Night, everyone.

Johnny --->

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/26913964/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 11:22:08 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

4:00am 07/15/09 <3

Updatesss.

The last two days of AP classes were boring, and I really don't like taking tests. And my grade in that class is a B so far. This is saddening to me. Thinking about class now made me want a bagel... lol. And I found out that I am going to have 1st period English. Which is good, and what I wanted. That class is right near my homeroom. :3

And now... Itachi-niisan's surprise party.

It. Was. Epic.

Sakura-chan and I were there an hour early, so we chilled and ate pasta. lol. Then we pretty much just chilled in the poolhouse and played rockband and stuff. Because Itachi-niisan was late. The party started at 6, and he wasn't there until around 7:30. He wasn't too surprised, because we kinda gave it away... Haha. Needless to say we were still hiding under tables in the dark. I took an insane amount of pictures, like always. There was a cake fight. And then we went into Tema-chan's poolhouse shower to wash it off... Pics are epicly funny. I had decided not to go swimming, so when Haku-niisan got out of the pool, he hugged me and got me completely soaked. Fun times, fun times. We then went to frolic in the field near Tema-chan's house. Haku-niisan put his foot behind his head, lol. And then Itachi-niisan tried and failed. We ended the game with a game of Fluxx that we never quite finished. And throughout the night we got to play with Tema-chan's 4 dogs. So cute. I want to take Sammy homeee. He's my favorite.

All in all... It was quite fun. :3

And that's all have to update, sadly.

Johnny --->

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/26844289/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 19:32:25 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

4:00am 07/15/09 <3

Today was... eh.

-Read 6 passages and wrote a 5 paragraph essay. Then did 25 questions based on two reading prompts. Ap class is so not fun.

-Sakura-chan shall be in my English class this year. Yay. Tema-chan will probably not be with me in anything... Noes.

-I gave Zabuza 50 cents so he could afford to pay for his slices of pizza. Yup. I'm nice. lol.

-We then went back to Sakura-chan's house. And then we went to Wal-Mart while Sakura-chan and her sister got their pictures taken. I bought a box of brownies and 3 boxes of candy for $5. xD I love candy. mmm. I am so going to get madd fat, though.

-We then returned to Sakura-chan's house, and her sister gave us a whole bunch of Japanese candy she didn't want. I got strawberry pocky. And mango mochi. And a fortune cookie. It was like Christmas. xDDD

-Andy's grandma died today. I want to fly down there and give him a hug and an edible arrangement. He said that was cute apparently. Haha. And then he became 800x cooler when we bonded over the new Sonata Arctica song. <3 It is epic win.

-Johnny was upset today, which made me upset. =/

-I shall now attempt to sleep.

Johnny --->

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http://TwilightHinata.deviantart.com/journal/26816188/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 12:25:56 PDT Fearless
07.10.09

4:00am 07/15/09 <3

I've realized just how scattered and such these journals have been all summer. That's weird fro me. Oh well. Things change.

And some things never do.

Rather... some people never do.

Well, Sunday my cousin Lynn was home from college for the weekend. She brought her new dog and had him at my grandma's house, so I got to chill with him for a while. His name is Wheaton. lol.

I've really wanted write more, but I have no inspiration anymore. Fail.

I really want to go to Zenkaicon, which is probably not going to happen because unlike everyone else's parents, my mother doesn't accept the fact that everyone I know is going and I just so happen to really like anime. Ugh. I hate her. And she won't take me, this I know for sure.

I have AP class tomorrow. DONOTWANT. I was hoping me, Tema-chan, and Sakura-chan could do something after class one day. We used to everything together. Idk if they do, but I miss that.

Neji + Poptart have been dating? Wtf?! No one tells me anythinggg.

Itachi's party is Saturday. Soooo much planning for that needs to be done. I feel like I should be more involved, since this was half my idea.

And Friday we're having friends from Washington state come and visit us. Should be an interesting day of me chilling with a kid named Michael.

Still a busy summer, right up until the end.

Piano lessons tonight. Should practice.

Johnny --->

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