They talk all day and whisper all night
Is that anyway to live or die
Say goodbye
Accept this fate without any anger
Say goodnight
Turn out the light and close the door on your way out

"There have been times throughout my life
When I fell so far
I thought I'd never stand again
I watched my dreams depart

These aberrations had their place
In the grand design
But it's unnatural to feel
So bitter and resigned

Forgive me my mistakes
I'm only human
I bleed just like you
From time to time
So why can't I convince you
I'll be fine?

Ignore the writing on the wall
It just decorates
A place that I have lived so long:
Delusion's vast estates
There's nothing sinister at all
Gnawing at my soul
But these confessions that I give
Help me feel in control

Forgive me my mistakes
I'm only human
I bleed just like you
From time to time
So why can't I convince you
I'll be fine?

No absolution comes for free
And it never will
And those among us without sin
Are even rarer still

If imperfection is the lens
That you see me through
Don't be surprised if someday soon
That lens stares back at you

Forgive me my mistakes
I'm only human
I bleed just like you
From time to time
So why can't I convince you
I'll be fine?"

i waited for you
i died inside my own head
and i'd die again for you

i'm faded and tired
completely uninspired
and i'd die again for you

so kill me with the love that you won't give to me
and pack the wound with salt i want to feel it bleed

i'm searching for reasons
to keep away the demons
and i'd die again for you
i wish you were near me
could feel it when you hear me say
i'd die again for you

so kill me with the love that you won't give to me
and pack the wound with salt i want to feel it bleed
you wanted me to crawl so now i'm on my knees

why's it always have to be me
that's always left out to burn and
i'll never learn

I'll Keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know

"High in the sky, I see you falling

Why do you think that I will catch you?

Past the clouds a burning fire

Hear it sing like a choir

You gave much more than you should have

My first words are your last rites

Deep within my vacant mind

Sits the thought,

"Maybe there is hope..."

Rays of light pour from my eyes and

Baptize all that lay beneath me

Everything that I have gained is

Nothing next to all I've lost

I surrender to the blackness

Hoping, praying for acceptance

Deep within my vacant mind

Sits the thought,

"Maybe there is hope..."

No sins, yet forsaken

When will I awaken...

This truth I won't swallow:

I have become hollow

I'll wait for tomorrow

Where there is no sorrow

I see a light in the darkness

I weep as that light goes out

Neverending pain

Driving me insane

No more, I can't take it

Silent cries

Bloodshot eyes

I'll defy you til I fall

Final living breath

Welcomed into death

Mercy please, I'll beg for mercy

Now alone

On my own

All I wanted was salvation

Lost and staring at the ground I
Realize: "I am nothing"

Tears are streaming down my face and

Seeping deep into my wounds

I am beaten, I am battered

Dripping blood, my wings are tattered

Broken, I fall to my knees and

Cry to the sky,

"Heaven, take me home" "

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone..."
Easier To Run- Linkin Park

Deviant: ~anarchyboy (#179358215)
Date: Oct 11, 2005, 6:42:18 PM
hello im the guy... yes the "typical horn dog " as you put it. well all i really have to say is that your perception of me could not be more off. I'm defenatly not in this just for sex ... i love sam more than anything she is the single most important person in my life and always wll be. i would rather die than see her upset, for short i love her. though you were wrong im not going to hold it agianst you i mean you don't know me. so really thats all just wanted to state the fact that im not just some horny guy looking for sex i plan to stay with sam forever.

--
not emo but feeling lower that lowest of the low
"this just in NASA send probe to Uranus people everywhere giggle"
"when life's got you down you shank that mo-fo"
"jill swallows another 4000 seamen ... the hurricane rages on"
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Deviant: =AiShindou (#179360590)
Date: Oct 11, 2005, 6:51:10 PM
we all say that now, and i hate the way this generation is so naive to give a forever. a real mature puerson understands that there is no such thing, nothing lasts forever. I admire your dedication behind staying committed, however I would rather not you contradict yourself. when forever happens, do tell me so I'll believe it.

Are you sure I'm particularly wrong? If not, why else would she feel this way, because we dont just have these thougts without a certain conviction, and knowing Sam for the time that I have...the point is, she didn't feel this for no reason, and if you are to say that you know what you or anyone truly wants, then you'd be lying.
To put it bluntly, she wouldn't say this if you didn't do something to make her feel that way. Am I wrong?

There are a lot of psychological questions you must ask yourself, and you must assess your behaivor and how it directly affects you and others.

--
We are two, we are one...

Wanna see two hot guys? he he he..

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you
I find hard to take
When people run in circles
It a very very
Mad world
Mad world