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deviantART: by:Usiku http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Usiku&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Usiku en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 23:47:57 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Wow, it's been a while. http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/19612362/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/19612362/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 19:22:38 PDT Who knows, maybe I'll stay this time.

Quick updates: I'm 20, have a new job, I'm moving to Albany at the end of August to live with my boyfriend, and I now have 2 absolutely wonderful cats.
Also, I moved out a year ago. I also got a tattoo a year ago, and will be getting a new one next Saturday.
Speaking of tattoos, this has become my newest interest art-wise.

so, here's the scoop.

I'm going to be designing Tattoos. I'm going to just be drawing some random ones up to give you a general idea of what to expect from me.
If I feel like it, I'll design you a Tattoo for free.

After that, all of my designs will be done by commission. I'll probably be starting them off around 30 bucks. Quite possibly less. It'll all depend on what you're looking for from me.

Well, sorry for disappearing for so long. As soon as I get my scanner working I'll be updating once again.

<3

]]> ~Usiku bonjour http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/8865664/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/8865664/ Wed, 24 May 2006 16:07:39 PDT

Sorry for my lack of activity lately, I've been feeling really crappy. Got really sick a week ago and I'm still not feeling my all.

Well I really don't feel like writing in this, so adieu. ]]> ~Usiku i'm leaving http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/6111752/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/6111752/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 11:24:35 PDT
and ah...how can you fire °jark? How can you fire a founder of this site, and expect it to live? i'm sorry DA, but you can go f off.

i love you jark!!

And so, this is my goodbye. I will most likely no longer upload any art to this site. DA can go to hell right now as far as i'm concerned. But of course i'll check back here from time to time...answer some comments if you're lucky. If I see DA started to become the community it once was, perhaps i'll upload a thing or two. but no. I'm done for now.

I don't plan to remove the art that i have already uploaded. For as we all know, I'm a clingy person. Anything that has memories attached to them i will never let go.

In a little update for my life... My birthday (the 23 of july) went ok. I'm doing a lot better now than i ever have, except my heart is a little broken at the moment. My life has changed for the better, and recently, i just had my wisdom teeth removed. lotta pain with that, but it's better now. I passed 11th grade, scored a 96 on my history final and i never paid attention in that class once.
I'm saving up now (right now) for a Wacom Intuos drawing tablet, and Corel painter or Adobe Photoshop. I was going to get a bass guitar, but decided to focus more on building my career. So i'm going to really start getting into animation, digital art, going to refine my cartoon style, etc etc. After I get the tablet and art program, I'm going to get a digital camera, and start getting into photography more. (i'm taking fine art photograpy next year).

Perhaps if I even make an art site, I'll post the link here for you all to visit.

But I'm gone for now. Thankyou all for the love and support you've showed me in the past. Thankyou for watching me, and even taking the time to read my journals.

if you want to keep in touch with me, my email is Echoes27@gmail.com

~ Usiku ]]> ~Usiku Summer!! http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/5810937/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/5810937/ Fri, 01 Jul 2005 10:55:31 PDT I will finally be back and commenting on Deviations, answering your comments, and all! because, i actually have the time now, lol. Even though I have a job

So i'm working on finishing a few comissions, and as soon as i finish the one i'm working on currently, i'm gonna go to town with the comments, and deviations...cause right now, i have 4,392 messages. 908 are journals...and sorry, but i'm just going to mark those as read.

But things have been alright with me basically. I'm not as stressed out anymore, thankfully, but i still have the stress of finishing these comissions in time. And, when I get the money for them, I'm either going to get a Bass guitar, professional Digiatal Camera, or save it towards a drawing tablet and either adobe photoshop or corel painter or some other awesome digital art program. wee

My birthday is coming up too!! the 23 of july! I'm trying to sound optimistic about it... because i haven't been the past few years...
for a reason most of you should know.
But anyway, I really wanna go see a movie with someone, but, i dunno if we're going to ): i just think that he doesn't want to. but oi *sigh* I think too much really, when it comes down to it. But i'm not going to dwell on it. or rather, i'm going to try not to.
Ha, i'm gonna be 17 and i still dont want to learn to drive. i dunno why really, i should have had my permit by now. but bleh, i dunno. i just don't want to
on a lighter note:
The Live 8 concert is tomorrow!!!! And that means PINK FLOYD will be reuniting to play for the concer in Britian!!! WITH ROGER!! haha, i knew about this months ago from someone connected to someone with pink floyd. but i didn't beleive it....and omg IT'S TRUE. the upside is: they're televising it. the downside is: I'm going to be working from 10-4....i better not miss the floyd ;__;
but yeah...
i should get back to drawing now ]]> ~Usiku alrigities guys http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/5525261/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/5525261/ Wed, 01 Jun 2005 20:08:37 PDT the intaglio print i did is awesome, i've been making tons of prints with it. so i'll pick out the favorite among my prints, and upload that soon. i've fallen in love with printing now....so whenever i have the materials (basically a press) at hand, which is only at school really, i'll be making prints lol. intaglio printing is just awesome, i love it.
i'm feeling a little down right now...but i'll be fine.
sorry that i don't keep updated here at all. if you wanna find out how i'm doing and whatnot, check out my myspace page. i try to update that daily. here's the link:

[link]

i can't wait till summer...to have all this school work off my back....
ahahaha ]]> ~Usiku ok so this is cool http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/5430238/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/5430238/ Sun, 22 May 2005 14:13:05 PDT and i just got back from montreal!

so yeah, great trip, very relaxing. i really wish i could have stayed. i feel a lot better though.
and man, i've been acting so stupid and weird over the past week or so. sorry for those who had to go through it with me, lol. let's just pretend that the past week or two didn't happen

so yeah, i'm buckling down with school right now, so i dont have time to do much drawing wise. i'll be online tho, doing much research for these stupid papers that i have due.
i got an ipod!! haha XD it's so sweet! i got "manders" and "the beatles" engraved on the back!!! it's awesome!!
but yeah, i only have 2000 songs on there right now. i have at least 500 more to add tho!
and montreal is so awesome! i just went there on a trip with my orchestra for a competition, and we just got back today. and man, it's so amazing! and i'm glad i can speak french kinda decently XP cause they speak a lot of french up there.
but yeah, my friend john wants me to watch the last samurai, because apparently it's the best movie ever. and he made me borrow it. so, after i'm done listening to my lovely beatles, i shall go watch it.
and i finally saw star wars!! (the phantom menace lol) and it's so god damn awesome!!! i seriously think i have a new favorite move. i just have to see all the others now lol.
but yeah, i love canada!! i got a british flag up there!!

hahaha

]]> ~Usiku Woo...here are my plans: http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/5281497/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/5281497/ Fri, 06 May 2005 04:51:15 PDT i gotta find a new admin to help me out with the george harrison fanclub too.
you guys gotta let me know if i'm forgetting to do something for you. and, if i ever tick you off by ignoring something, let me know.
things have been going good lately, until very recently. so yeah, my awesome mood has now went away...and now, i'm left to deal with reality
i'm gonna go to homeroom...and sleep now. i'm so sick of school right now, i litterally don't care if i pass or fail
but yeah, farewell ]]> ~Usiku soooooooo... http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/5241942/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/5241942/ Sun, 01 May 2005 20:35:17 PDT and i don't know.
I really wanna appologize for not being around much, at all over the past two months. i'll try to keep this updated though. so many comments i've missed...i'm sorry. i don't hate any of you, i'm just an idiot i guess. so, if i didn't reply to something, it's not because i'm ignoring you...but rather, i never found the time. as if that makes it any better....but yeah, i really am sorry. i'll try to be around more.
Things in my life are pretty much rough right now too. i'm not really gonna get into that though...even though i probably need to.
so yeah. i'm sorry, i'm back, and i'll try to be around more... <3

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~>THE CLUBS I HAVE CREATED!<~ so go see them!!

- a club dedicated to the former beatle, george harrison.

- a club dedicated to the who

~>My Groups!!!<~ these are the groups that i'm a part of. CHECK THEM OUT!

http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4969432/ Fri, 01 Apr 2005 10:45:22 PST
Anyway

Sorry I haven't been around much lately, i've been pretty busy. I have a job now at FYE, and school work...i rarely find time to get anything much done online. I have drawings that i've done, i'll try to upload them at some point. Tonight I'm working from 5 to 9...so I won't be on...but i'll try to answer your comments asap.

I'm at school right now...so i kinda gotta go before i get caught. later all

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~>THE CLUBS I HAVE CREATED!<~ so go see them!!

- a club dedicated to the former beatle, george harrison.

- a club dedicated to the who

~>My Groups!!!<~ these are the groups that i'm a part of. CHECK THEM OUT!

http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4763478/ Tue, 08 Mar 2005 19:11:17 PST

Definatly go check out their gallery...it's very well worth it ^^
i take too many of these things...

Song That Describes Life Right Now:
just one? um... "Nobody Home" - Pink Floyd
Favourite Song Right Now:
too many..."sunday bloody sunday" - u2, "nights in white satin" - moody blues, everything by pink floyd XD
Cool Musician/Band Right Now:
Pink Floyd
Movie You Should Watch:
The Wall or Yellow Submarine
Newest Fetish:
conductors :3 as in, musical conductors you fool
Sexiest Guy Right Now:
Syd Barrett
You Should Listen To...:
yourself...
Favourite Show Right Now:
i kinda don't watch tv...but i guess anything involving the paranormal or music.
I Desperately Need...:
a paino
Quote:
"I'm not going to change the way I look or the way I feel to conform to anything. I've always been a freak. So I've been a freak all my life and I have to live with that, you know. I'm one of those people. "
- John Lennon

_________________________________

these things get me every time XD

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Amanda
2. Pyro
3. Schroeder

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD
1. LionsHawk58
2. Schroeder527
3. Usiku

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. um...my hands. without them, i wouldnt be able to create music...to draw and paint...i wouldn't have my life if i didn't have them
2. My ears...they enable me to hear. another essential tool to me and my music
3. my eyes...i coudln't draw and paint without em. or sight-read music for that matter.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. *snorts laughter* everything
2. *points up*
3. *points up*

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. German
2. British
3. Native American

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. i have an AWFUL phobia of loud sudden bangs, especially gun shots. and, i don't know why. but every single time i hear a loud unexpected bang i get so upset...i jump like 10 feet, kinda duck, and just freak out...
2. being alone, and not being able to see. i hate not being able to see when i'm alone...i hate to close my eyes...
3. hurting my friends or anyone for that matter...if i ever hurt them in any way, i'd die.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Music
2. sketchpad and a pencil at least
3. my instruments

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. My Yellow Submarine shirt
2. hawk talon necklace (a replica)
3. school ring

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/MUSICAL ARTISTS
1. Pink Floyd
2. The Beatles
3. The Who, and many classical composers...

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS
1. "comfortably numb" Pink Floyd
2. "Hey Bulldog" the Beatles
3. "Atom Heart Mother" Pink FLoyd

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. hmm...playing the cello
2. to actually be myself in front of people
3. to really try to tear down my "wall"

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. To be understood
2. lol, an artist or musician
3. i'm a hopeless romantic... love

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I'm an atheist
2. i've had experiences with ghosts...D:
3. I'm secretly working for the FBI mwahahahahaha XP

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. Their eyes
2. if they're an artist or musician ^^
3. who they are...if they;re not afraid to go against the crowd and be themselves

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. Drawing
2. listening to / playing / writing music
3. star gazing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Get a piano
2. Get out of here
3. i dunno

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING
1. Art Teacher
2. Illustrator
3. Musician

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. New York City
2. England
3. France (since i can speak french ok-ish) or Germany

THREE KID'S NAMES
1. Adrian
2. Aidan
3. Audrey

THREE THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. Inspire someone, anyone, to be something more, something great
2. Make as many people as I can smile, give drawings to every person who has left a mark on my life in a good way
3. try to acheive peace...

THREE WAYS I'M A STEREOTYPICAL GIRL
1.... ]]> ~Usiku Update: New Priorities http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4753173/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4753173/ Mon, 07 Mar 2005 16:15:30 PST
1. Contest Entry for ~PinkFloydClub08. an awesome contest

2. A realistic Akino for ~Meiyaku (boy, i've put this off long enough, eh, mei? o_o;; )
3. A dog for ~LWMusicoftheNight
4. Portrait of a musician

I'm probably forgetting something o_0;
Any suggestions or requests on something i should draw (preferably realism, kinda gave up on cartoons for now) , leave a comment. If i feel like it, and if i ever get around to it, it'll be drawn and uplaoded. Still have to get the painting and scratchboard back...my commission is finished too so i will upload that soon.
School is going ok now...i've almost gotten my act back together. And, the winter carnival for my school was this last weekend, and i had the greatest time

I won an octopus magnet! I left it at a booth that i was working at for a while tho, but i'm gonna get it back

but lol, it's the most awesome magnet ever XD i'm probably gonna draw it :3 and, if i draw it, i'll probably give it to Mr Richter

cause, i won it from his booth after all XD but yea, i also won some playdough :3 but, i let a little kid keep that .
and grargh....we're playing Armenian Rhapsody no 3 in orchestra right now....and for the first time, it ticks me off that i'm a second violinist (i love playing second violin, mrs galassi wants to put me as a 1st violinist but i refuse to go lol) and grr...we have a 42...no, like a 47 measure rest. D: But no, not only that, for the time that we rest it's in 4/4 and friggen Adagio TT.TT so i end up sitting there for hours it seems D: when we do finally come in tho...we play pizzacoto...it gets better tho :3
So yea, things are going good for now. I have nothing else to say really, so, peace.

COMMISSION INFORMATION: [link]

~>THE CLUBS I HAVE CREATED!<~ so go see them!!

- a club dedicated to the former beatle, george harrison.

- a club dedicated to the who

~>My Groups!!!<~ these are the groups that i'm a part of. CHECK THEM OUT!

http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4713868/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 18:18:31 PST Almost done with a dog that i got comission to do, so that will be up pretty soon. And, i've got more stuff to work on. i drew madoc from the gorillaz, but i don't feel like uploading that. maybe i'll put it in my scraps
but, wooo, looks like I'm going to be getting a job at FYE :3 well, hopefully. i'm gonna save up to get an electric keyboard, i wanna start learning the paino seriously now...because well, i've fallen in love with the instrument. I want to save up to get a bass guitar too.
but anyway, that's enough for now. i'll update later.

COMMISSION INFORMATION: [link]

~>THE CLUBS I HAVE CREATED!<~ so go see them!!

- a club dedicated to the former beatle, george harrison.

- a club dedicated to the who

~>My Groups!!!<~ these are the groups that i'm a part of. CHECK THEM OUT!

http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4605066/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 08:50:23 PST .>;
I got comissioned to draw my dad's friend's dog, so i'm working on that. As soon as i finish it, i'll scan it in and upload it here. but gah...
in chem for artists, we're doing a photogrpahy unit, so maybe i'll scan in some of that stuff and put in in my scraps.
please, don't be offended if i haven't responded to something yet. i'm doing my best D:

but yea. valentines day, no matter how much i hate it (cause it's so darn commercial now) was pretty fun :3 my friends reggie and jim both got me flowers <3 and i got candy from many people, mwahahahahaha

now, i go back to my beloved reeses pieces, because you all know that peanutbutter is awesome >:3

~>Schroeder<~ ]]> ~Usiku My Art Schedule http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4463302/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4463302/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 15:20:03 PST
-Request from a friend (her and her bf as wolves)
-A portrait of the lovely Ringo Starr
-A portrait of the amazing Pete Townshend
-A portrait of the mastermind Roger Waters
-A portrait of the amusing actor Michael Ian Black
-A drawing of a realistic wolf for a friend

Here's the things that i have done, but need to upload.

-Colab i did with my friend Nicole. (she drew a horse, i inked and colored it)
-Scratchboard of a hawk
-Painting of Syd Barrett

kk, that should be it for now. and, since i'm currently obsessed with Demolition Lovers by My Cemical Romace, i'll post the lyrics. This is actually my current favorite song =O and it's modern rock o0; listen to it :3

Demolition Lovers"

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and

I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running

But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...

All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this
[x4]

As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms
Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning
Forever, and ever
Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun

And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down
I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever ]]> ~Usiku psssssssst http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4451664/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4451664/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 09:01:59 PST
mwahahahaha

anyway, just updating. i'll be uploading some art later, so be on the lookout XD
i'm doing a trade on SA with someone, and i'm drawing their fursona, a sea green wolf. yes, i tried to make it cartoony, but it looks realistic. i tell you, i'm diseased. i can't draw anything in a cartoon style D:
I'm in a better mood. kinda happy, but apathetic to everything except my friends. once again, i've thrown my emotions out the window. so yay, i pretty much like no one.
ok, that's kinda a lie. but i muted the feelings a lot.

But, now, this will probably be my last journal like this, ever. i've decided to stop writing about my life in this. the only thing i'll use it for is updates.
My Chemical Romance is awesome < 333333333333333
that was random...
andddddd...me and jim are friends again :3
i also own the eifle tower. (:<
oh, and i own your soul....with love XD
later guys XD

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~>THE CLUBS I HAVE CREATED!<~ so go see them!!

- a club dedicated to the former beatle, george harrison.

- a club dedicated to the who

~>My Groups!!!<~ these are the groups that i'm a part of. CHECK THEM OUT!

~Usiku i'm changing my name to Adrian! http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4369086/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4369086/ Thu, 20 Jan 2005 13:34:44 PST k, anyway.

mwahahahaha, i'm officially out of math class

You have no clue how happy this makes me

i don't hafta take math

And, i've replaced it with Animal Behavior Biology

so that'll be fun. i'm also gonna take astronomy now!!! *spazz* see, i like science, but only when it has nothing to do with Chem or physics :3 cause those deal with lots o stoopid stuff

hmm...and what else.

my art teacher, Mrs G, is making me submit stuff to reason and rhyme

; reason and rhyme is our school's Art and Literary magazine. I already submitted my Syd Barrett drawing to it, but she's making me submit more >.>;;; so now i'm going through my stuff, looking for somethin good :3 i gave her the drawing i did of myself playing guitar, and the scratchboard i did of a hawk (not submitted yet) today. but she wants more D:

and...um...i think i'm gonna draw Pete Townshend next

that's it. i wanna go play guitar or something

ooo, wait. one more thing. I broke up with my boyfriend recently, for many reasons (none of which he grasps >.> ). and he won't stop fucking whining about it >: | Any tips on how i can get him to hate me, or shut up?

i love you all XD <33333333 hahaha, feel teh luff

COMMISSION INFORMATION: [link]

~>THE CLUBS I HAVE CREATED!<~ so go see them!!

- a club dedicated to the former beatle, george harrison.

- a club dedicated to the who

~>My Groups!!!<~ these are the groups that i'm a part of. CHECK THEM OUT!

http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4332850/ Sun, 16 Jan 2005 17:24:57 PST out of my journal. wtf?

yes, i am back

sorry for being away for...months >.>;;; yea. i now have 3,139 messages, 2,000 of them being deviations by you guys. there's no way i can get through them all D: sorry D: so i'll go through them randomly.

Anyway, i will be uploading a lot more soon. :3 I have a lot of stuff from my Advanced Drawing class to upload. i'm so sad, btw, too, because i can't take the 2nd semester of advanced drawing D: why? well, the first half was 8th period, and the second half of it is going to be 6th period for some f-ed up reason >

and 6th period i have Electric keyboarding, aka Piano class. D: and i can't drop that to take art D:
ooo...speeking of dropping stuff...i droped math

it's made me so happy

I was failing horibly, even with doing my HW and getting help from my overly mathly talented friends, so i decided to just drop it. Algebra II is just way too hard >.>;; for me anyway. i hate math...and i suck in it. So when i'm a senior next year, i'm gonna take an easier math course :3 and now since i dropped the ugly subject, i will hopefully be taking an art course in its place

but yea, i'm back :3 And i'm drawing a picture of elvis >.>;;;; i hate him...but my dad loves him >.>;;; and, my dad's been bugging me to draw him...so i gave in o_0;;;;

I shall go now ^^

COMMISSION INFORMATION: [link]

~>THE CLUBS I HAVE CREATED!<~ so go see them!!

- a club dedicated to the former beatle, george harrison.

- a club dedicated to the who

~>My Groups!!!<~ these are the groups that i'm a part of. CHECK THEM OUT!

<... ]]> ~Usiku NYC http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4028401/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/4028401/ Thu, 09 Dec 2004 17:53:52 PST
something is drawing me there. i don't know, but it's like a damn calling, like i'm meant to be there. when i was in friggen nyc, i pretty much felt complete...being here i feel like something is missing. in nyc i feel so much at home. i don't get it at all. but i need to be in new york city........even tho i've never lived there, even tho i've only visited it like 5 times total, it feels like my home.
i swear it has to be a past life connection or something. because the feeling is too strong, and that's the only thing that can really explain it...
but damn.........

well, tower records is awesome XDXD they have so many cds...it's so great. i ended up getting Pink Floyd's "Atom Heart Mother" and "Devision Bell." I also got U2's new cd "how to dismantle an atomic bomb", and they all kick so much ass. (pink floyd is my favorite band ^^ and right now Devision Bell is my favorite album...tho it's lacking without waters)
but nyc....i need to be in nyc. my soul belongs there >.>

but yea...on a different note, yesterday sucked, and always will suck....december 8th. it was the 24th anniversary of John Lennon;s assination. i always cry on that day...and the world will always weep for him... i so wanted to go to strawberry feilds today ;___; just go there, and leave some flowers... For all you who don;t know, lennon lived and was assinated in NYC...and he should still be alive.
so....lemme try to not think of that, cause i don't want to cry...
on the way back home, i listened to the new cds i got ^^ i kinda watched shrek 2, also. but yea...
i had such a great time down there with my friends danielle, kelly, and christine XDXD lmao, we're all insane, and i laughed my ass off so many times XD
that's all i'm going to say ^^ and when i graduate from high school or college, i;m going to nyc, and then i'll find out why i'm supposed to be there

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~>THE CLUBS I HAVE CREATED!<~ so go see them!!

- a club dedicated to the former beatle, george harrison.

- a club dedicated to the who

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http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3958561/ Tue, 30 Nov 2004 18:04:56 PST ...and yea....i may not be coming back on here for a while, or i may just not upload anything. i don't feel like drawing...
I'm going through a nervous breakdown right now, and i don't feel like doing anything at all. it's just everything...and....it's...i don't know. but i am snapping, i'm sick of everything. it's kinda like a mid life crisis too, i guess. but yea...you get the point...
there's been so much stress, so much crap, and i don't want to write about it. i can't really draw, i can't write, i can't play any instrument like i used to. all my inspiration, all my life as been sucked out of me. yet i still somehow put on the happiness mask for my friends everyday >.>;
i don't feel like waking up, i don't feel like going to sleep. i don't feel like doing anything...and not that i could sleep, anyway. it takes like 2 hours for me to fall asleep, and i'm getting like 2-4 hours of sleep a night. i've tried everything, and i can't fall asleep ;__;
but yea, i'm sorry everyone. i love you guys ^^ and i'll be back asap

~>Amanda<~

ps...i am the walrus

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http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3916851/ Thu, 25 Nov 2004 12:30:48 PST
and thanks to all who commented, faved, and loved my Syd Barrett drawing :3 you guys make me feel so special ^_-

And omfg, I SAW A BLUE MEANIE IN THE THANKSGIVING DAY PARADE!!!!! *spazzes* Yes, i swear saw it on TV. The Parade in NYC, in case you're wondering. And i SWEAR i saw one...please tell me someone else did too >.>;;
And for the confused non-beatle fans, blue meanies are from the movie Yellow Submarine

...what if the blue meanies are taking over?!?!?!?!!!?! 0_0;

anyway, i'll upload some stuff that i drew in art class later. i have my portfolio home, so i can take pics ^^ they're too big to scan >.>;;

There was a Blue Meanie in the parade damnit!! he like jumped out in front of the camera i think, when it was focused on people retardedly dressed as stars and flopping their arms around >.>;;;;
c'mon, someone else had to have seen him!!

no, i'm not going to shut up about this :3

Anyway, i'm listening to led zeppelin right now XD it ish great. I've been over indulging on Pink Floyd for the past couple of days, so it's Zepp's turn ^^

i think i'll shut up now. And i hope you all have a great thanksgiving :3

...before you eat that turkey...remember, it had a face. sorry...yea...but *is a vegiterian*

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http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3787418/ Mon, 08 Nov 2004 17:31:02 PST
2. Were you named after anyone: no

3. Do you wish on stars? yes

4. When did you last cry: yesterday

5. Do you like your handwriting: lol, i love it. and in the famous words of ~ HopelessBohemian: my handwriting is cool.

6. What is your favorite lunch meat: ummmmm...(since i'm not a vegiterian anymore) turkey

7. What is your birthday: July 23

8. What is your most embarrassing CD/Tape: um...why should i be embarrassed about any of the music i have? it's part of who i was in the past, and their are good memories attached to it. being ashamed of it would be like being ashamed of myself

9. If you were another person would YOU be friends with yourself? yea, i amuse myself XD

10. Are you a daredevil: >:3 ahahahahahaha, yesh. i used to kick so much damn ASS in truth or dare, too

11. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell: no, never. i couldn't ever do that either.

12. Do looks matter: not at all

13. How do you release anger: i tend to just freak out for a few minutes, or yell.

14. Where is your second home: in my spleen

15. Do you trust others too easily: no...i have a real hard time trusting people

16. What was your favorite toy as a child: aww, my Shamu (he's an orca) stuffed animal :3 i still have him XD

17. What class at high school do you think was totally useless: -_- math

18. Do you have a journal: no

19. Do you use sarcasm a lot: yes...too much

20. Favorite movie(s): interview with the vampire, yellow submarine, help!, dogma, tlk 1 and 2, matrix (i still have to see the last one!), and uh...i dunno
21. What are your (acceptable) nicknames: Pyro, Manders, manda, mandy, jimmy page, tulacz

23. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no

24. Do you think that you are strong? i don't realize my own strength sometimes

; but no, i'm not like really incredibly strong

25. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?

black raspberry

26. Shoe size: 8 1/2 womans, 5 1/2 mens

27. What are your favorite colors? black, charcoal grey

28. What is your least favorite thing about yourself: how untrusting i am, and how attached i get to people.

29. Who do you miss most? Noodlez ;_; he's not online right now

30. Do you want everyone you send this to send it back? haha, its not in an email

31. What color pants are you wearing? my kinda faded jeans

32. What are you listening to right now? "shine on you crazy diamond" by pink floyd. Waters wrote that for Syd Barrett...i love Syd...it's so sad what happened to him too ;_; but XD i took two quizzes that my friend sent me, about which great guitarist you'd be and the other which great singer/musician from the 60's/70's you'd be, and both times i got Syd

*feels so proud* :3

33. What is the last thing you ate? i dunno

34. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? i'd wanna be black or a dark charcoal like grey

35. What is the weather like right now? night *nods*

36. Last person you talked to on the phone:

;; i haven't talked to someone on the phone in a while

37. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex: their eyes

38. Do you like the person who sent this to you? of course, how could i not like kyle?? *hits him on the head with a stick*

39. How are you today? pretty good

40. Favorite drink? mrr....i love kahlua and milk (together, silly, not seperate), white russians, and mudslides. alcohol is great *nods* i like orange soda too ^^ and caffine...ahh, caffine...

41. Favorite sport: not too fond of sports...i used to play hockey tho, and kicked ass, so i;ll go with that

42. Hair col... ]]> ~Usiku OMfookingG!! she's back! (edit) http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3768045/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3768045/ Sun, 07 Nov 2004 13:25:50 PST Congrats to ~osbourne for getting my 5,555th page view. i shall now draw him a pic

w00t! yup, bet you all missed me

so what happened to me over the past like week? i died :3 yup. this is my ghost talking right now ¬¬

meh, anyway, a bunch of stoof has happened over the past days. for instance, college night. ^^ i went and played with some other members of my orchestra to entertain the representitives while they ate dinner. so that was fun ^^ i was in a bad mood before that, and when i went it cheered me up XD cause playing the violin relieves stress ^^ until you start thinking again ._.; but the next day, one of the APs stopped me in the hall, (mr. mijan) and was complementing me and stoof. he said we sounded great and that i seemed really into it

;; yea. that made me feel special *feels all special*
and other stuff happened..........some really fookin super great stuff, and some bad.

woo!! and i got my school pics. and they actually look like me o_0; if you wanna see them, click the link: [link]

that's enough for now, i gotta do some other stuff

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~Usiku National Mock Election http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3697458/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3697458/ Thu, 28 Oct 2004 20:31:04 PDT woo...don't really wanna go into political stuff tho. But i am a liberal and a liberterian... 'nuff said.

Please...those of you who can vote, vote bush OUT of office

anyway, today was spiffy. equal amounts of crappness and joy. and i haven't drawn anything at all in like the past 5 days (cause i've been so damn busy. i'm acutally doing hw while i'm online talking to people)

i gotta find some time to finish some drawings...cause i have so many to friggen finish
and today in art...i had to model while people drew me -_-;;; i had to sit in this weird annoying stool...and with the pose i chose my leg went numb

; but oh well XD
...don't you hate it when you fall asleep on your arm or something, and when you wake up, it's all numb and dead and you like can't move it? or does this only happen to me...?
i dunno...i'm weird. wonderful, it is.
and in other news, i have homework to do. so i will now, much to your saddness, leave you all to go on with your lives dispite how much i know you want to hear about my absolutely stunning life.
Sarcasam and wit are my best traits

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~Usiku yaaar http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3687546/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3687546/ Wed, 27 Oct 2004 15:32:34 PDT
well, my life has been ok...equal amounts of suckyness and awesomeness. but yea. that's life o_0;
anyway, i'm going to go play guitar with my favorite teacher again tomorrow, so that'll be fun. and.......um.......i dunno. i have nothing to say, really. nothing too drastic has happened in my life over the past like week.
poof. hahahaha. poof is a funny word.
..... >_> <_<
poof

yea, i'm in a weird mood...so deal with it ^^
but ahh!! omg!! go visit ~osbourne now!!!

he asked me out today, and i said yes, and i love him, and he's awesome, and and and....i'm a dork

hehehe.
and my ex is still taunting me.

it really amuses me, their stupidity
ohhh...yay, i finally remembered something worth writing about thats happened this week
I'm getting closer to finding out who i was in my past life. it's hard to explain how and everything, but there;s these things that i now know. and yes, i'm like 99.9% sure that i'm reincarnated. when i was young, i'd have these constant memories and like flash backs of stuff... it confused me then...and sadly, i don't have them anymore. but now i know that it had to have been stuff from a past life. i have more proof, but i shall not go into detail.'
anyway, let me just tell you the stuff i do know: i'm pretty sure that in my past life i was male

and i'm also pretty sure that i died by a gun shot. i think i died in a war or something...i dunno. all i know is that i died by a gun. which if i did, that would definately explain my extream phobia of bangs. if there's any loud sudden bang, i'll get really upset, jump, and like duck...
yea... o_0;
shut up now, i think i will

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http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3655053/ Sat, 23 Oct 2004 10:47:28 PDT but yes...comissions are now open, and after i'm done typing this i shall type up the list at the bottom

if there;s something in my gallery that you'd like to buy, let me know and i'll discuss it with you

for commissions, i do prefer to do realism over cartoons (seeing as i'm still working on cartooning and tweaking my style constantly). And if you have a photograph you want me to draw, or any particular picture, i'll definately do that.

If you want me to draw a character of yours, you must give me a description and a reference. also tell me what you'd like your character to be doing, and i'll let you know if i'm able to draw it (yes, i'm sorry, but my cartoon style has limits)
I will draw a picture of yourself as a cartoon, like i did to myself playing guitar (many people in school have been asking me to draw them as cartoons, so i figure i'd put this here). but if you want yourself as a cartoon, you really have to give me a pic of yourself that you want done, because lets face it, i have no clue what you look like XD
i'll work in various medias, so if you want something done in a particular one, ask and find out if i have the resources to do it. i haven't painted anything in a long time, so it's unlikely that i'll do any paintings (partially because i haven't had the money to go out and get new paints). but i do work in acrylics, oils, and watercolors, tho i haven't used watercolors in a real long time. if you want me to do a painting, ask, and i'll let you know if i can (you'd have to give me a canvas size you;d like too. also, shipping and handling would be added to the cost)

PRICELISTS

For Cartoons:
-Quick sketch (no real detail, if cartoon inked if you'd like) - $5
-Sketch with background - $7
-Full Pencil Drawing, shaded, detail and all: $15 and up (depending on size, and how difficult it is for me. (it will not go over $20))
-Drawing done in color, with no background - $20 and up, depending on size and difficulty (will not go above $30)
-Color drawing, with simple background - $25 to $30
-Full fledged color drawing (full background, detailed, and to the best of my ability with cartoons) - $40 and up

Medias i mainly use: prismacolor markers and prismacolor color pencils. if you'd like me to try something else, let me know

For Realism

-Quick Sketch - $5
-Quick Sketch with detail added: $7
-Small Drawing with minor detail (on an 8 1/2 by 11 inch sheet of paper) - $15
---With a background - $17
-Large Drawing (bigger than 8 1/2 by 11 inches) with minor detail - $20 - $30
---with a background - $25 to $40
-Small drawing, full detail, no background - $45- $60
-Large drawing, full detail, no background - $50 - $85
-Small Drawing, full detail, background, and to the best of my ability - $60 to $80
-Large Drawing, full detail, background, to the best of my ability - $80 to $150 (depending on size, may cost more)

depending on how large a drawing is, shipping and handling may be added to the cost

Media i prefer to use: pencil
Medias that i will use: charcoal, prismacolor markers (using marker will cost more, since it would be in color), prismacolor pencils (in color so would cost more, and keep in mind that i don't like using colored pencil in my realism drawings)

I WILL NOT DRAW ANY YIFF, PORN, OR THE LIKE! I ALSO WILL NOT DRAW IN ANIME STYLE

And for the reaistic pictures, if the price seems high to you, keep in mind i pour my heart and soul into those drawings. a lot of effort goes into it.

There will be price breaks if something ends up being easier for me.

I'd prefer to be sent a note with what you'd like done. i'll only take check or money order. and before i start any drawing, i will need a $10 deposit (if it;s more than a sketch) so i know that you are serious about paying me. and after i finish the drawing, i will not send it to you until i recieve full payment.
I will draw pictures of people for you, like musicians, actors, whoever. but i'd need a link to the picture.

whew, thanks for reading all of this. ]]> ~Usiku wooo today sucked arse but it got so much better ^ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3649904/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3649904/ Fri, 22 Oct 2004 15:54:31 PDT yea, i was uber depressed and stuff....over a buncha crap. and then, i started to be a dick to the person i love, and we were both being kinda mean...and he got all sad too...so i got even worse...and then all of a sudden the doorbell rings, and it's my friend liz (here's her art site: ~ Meiyaku) XDXDXD hehehe, that was awesome. so she stayed over here for a few hours and that cheered me up instantly XD and omg we talked about our elementary school days...and that was great

i really miss those days ^^ she also drew a very awesome pic of a painting i have in my house. it looks so great XD but she left it here so i'm gonna give it back to her in school ^^
yesterday was awesome tho ^^ i stayed with my old teacher and played guitar, and it was great. he's gonna have me play with him for this thing (not gonna explain it here, cause no one would really care). so he taught me "turn turn turn" by the byrds. and it was weird tho, cause i thought that i would freak out completely (you know, get really nervous) and not be able to play anything on my guitar. (cause i always get that way when i really care about what someone thinks) But i was fine. well, a little nervous, but not really at all. it was friggen weird and not like me o_O; cause i'm fine with audiences and infront of someone who i really dont, you know, like care about. but i never am in front of someone who i care about what they think (sorry, yes that was confusing, but i'm lazy and not gonna reword it...cause i wanna go draw ^^). like in front of judges...i'll break down completely. hence why i hate doing NYSMA solos on my violin o_O; but then he tried to get me to sing...and i'm so afraid to sing in front of people. he asked if he was scaring me ;_; which he wasn't at all, i'm just really afraid to sing in front of people ;_; but yea...i eventually sang very quietly...and he's gonna have me sing for the thing...nothing major tho, just like backing stuff. now i have to get over my fear of singing infront of people... any tips???

but yea, it was great. and i really respect and admire mr wende ^^
and wooooo...i'm listening to pink floyd right now XD just got done with dark side of the moon...and now i'm listening to the wall

but yea, i'm doing better now...the only thing is that i miss bobby ;_;
and...i'm probably forgetting to say something...but oh well oO

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http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3635666/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 13:33:32 PDT and now i leave you all to go play guitar

"One Of My Turns" - Pink Floyd

Day after day, love turns grey
Like the skin of a dying man
Night after night, we pretend it's all right
But I have grown older and
You have grown colder and
Nothing is very much fun any more.

And I can feel one of my turns coming on.
I feel cold as razor blade
Tight as a tourniquet
Dry as a funeral drum,
Run to the bedroom, in the suitcase on the left
You'll find my favourite axe
Don't look so frightened
This is just a passing phase
Just one of my bad days
Would you like to watch T. V.?
Or get between the sheets?
Or contemplate the silent freeway?
Would you like something to eat?
Would you like to learn to fly?
Would you like to see me try?
Would you like call the cops?
Do you think it's time I stopped?
Why are you running away?... ]]> ~Usiku ...a pink floyd concert? http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3622413/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3622413/ Mon, 18 Oct 2004 20:15:57 PDT ok, yes, i love pink floyd muchly.
and woo! i just set my computer back up...i had to pack it away cause we got new carpet put in the room...and had to move everything out. so...yea. monkey.
i was hoping bobby would be on...cause i miss him. i'm pathetic, alright?!?!?!?!!? suck my ass.
i'm in a weird mood right now, so deal with it o_o
and hey!!! ~QuiGonJin!!!! guess what XD i'm coloring in the piccy of professor quelyan now XD so that'll be done soon, depending on how much hw i get

he looks pretty good in my style too ^^ i can't wait for you to see it mwahahaha. and when i'm done, i'll mail it to you if ya want

and, in other news...
i stayed for math today. yes, the horror. i haven't stayed for math in like 2 years, but i actually plan to pass this year, with a grade above a 65

(i passed math with a 65 last year XD i rock). plus, i missed some stuff cause of the oss which i did not deserve (everyone's telling me that, even stouty XD) stouty's awesome (he's the ap for the senior class...and his real last name is stoutenberg)
Well...tomorrow i'm gonna stay for math again to make up a test that i missed. and then wednesday i might stay for chem for artists to finish up some stuff i'm behind on, thursday mr wende wants me to go play guitar with him

, and friday...it depends on weather or not i'm missing any more work o_o;

yup

isn't my life FASCINATING?!

again, i'm sorry, but i'm in a weird mood. so deal with my oddness

yea. i'm done

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http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3610525/ Sun, 17 Oct 2004 11:49:00 PDT

now, you must all go visit it

[link]

mwahahahaha

and if you have a SA account too, lemme know, cause i'll watch ya there as well

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http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3602494/ Sat, 16 Oct 2004 10:22:47 PDT and then i came home...to find my dad was on the computer blasting elvis >.O *twitch* mhm...so i ran upstairs and listened to pink floyd...and fell asleep because i was and still am so damn tired...i finally fell asleep at 3 last night after playing my guitar for and hour and something minutes, and then listening to music...and then getting the urge to play across the universe by the beatles so i got my guitar and played that.......yea.
and uh...what happened over the past few days?? ... i got back from oss. yea, lol. people were bugging me all day about what happened...they didn't really miss me, but were more concerned about hearing the story of my fight. i'm unloved ;_;
but lol, i didn't really expect any different anyway. oh!! and mwahahaha, my friend noodles has now gotten me into the band, Black Sabbath XD they kick ass...and they sing a bunch of songs that i love and never realized that they sang them

and uh...what else.
...you know what, who cares. instead i shall leave you with a list of my current projects (drawings) that i'm working on (some more than others

Current Projects

's request of drawing his character, professor quelyan

's request for me to draw a pic involving our fursonas

i'm loving this pic btw, nightfox

(ok...i'm getting tired of using icons now...so i will use the names)
~osbourne's pic of a dragon that i was doing for his b-day, and another pic cause he got my 5000th pageview
The pic i'm doing of myself playing guitar
And a surprise pic for someone ^_^

Woo, well, that;s it. i think i'll go now

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~Usiku 'nother survey to ease my boredom http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3589893/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3589893/ Thu, 14 Oct 2004 15:30:51 PDT
1. RAN AWAY: yup

2. DYED YOUR HAIR: yea, blonde chunks

3. KISSED A GIRL: yea

4. ATE A WHOLE BAG OF CHIPS: lmfao no, i don't like chips...unless you have onion dip...then that's a different story but i could still never eat a whole bag

5. BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART: probably ryo's, but they deserved it. fucking asshole

6. BEEN IN LOVE: yea, and everytime it hurts. because when i love someone, i really friggen love them; it's really deep...and i almost always get crushed.

7. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: of course....especially when my uncle died last year 5 days before my birthday...i miss him so damn much...but he still does things to let me know that he's around...

8. WANTED SOMEONE YOU KNEW YOU COULDN'T HAVE: um...i guess.

9. BROKEN A BONE: not yet...with my lifestyle i probably will...i'm surprised that i haven't yet.

10. DRANK ALCOHOL: yup

11. LIED: ok, of course, i mean, who hasn't lied? i friggen hate lying more than anything in the world tho.

12. CRIED IN SCHOOL: ...yea........

Which do you prefer..

13. COKE OR PEPSI: pepsi

14. SPRITE OR 7UP: neither...i hate them both

15. GIRLS OR GUYS: guys, i seem to get along better with them than girls usually. probably because when i was growing up, my only friends were guys until i started school. so i was practically raised by guys, lmfao. and yes, i am a tom boy.

16. FLOWERS OR CANDY: ummm...flowers. i dunno, i'm not a fan of candy, and flowers are something i can draw XD

17. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN: hmm...well, scruff can be awesome. and i actually don't care

18. QUIET OR LOUD: me??? i'm usually pretty quiet.

19. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: brunettes

20. BITCHY OR SLUTTY: lmfao, neither

21. TALL OR SHORT: i don't care. i'm usually intimidated by really tall people tho

22. PANTS OR SHORTS: pants damnit. i hate shorts with a passion.

The Last Time You..

26. SHOWERED: this morning

27. HAD SEX: with your mom

28. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: um...i dunno

29. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: ^^ my good luck charm is my uncle's (the one that died...) Meatloaf (meatloaf is a classic rock band) tape. it was the last thing he listened to before he got in his pick-up truck...

30. PERSON YOU HATE MOST: TWO OF THEM god, i can't hate people. sometimes i wish i could...but hate isn;t in me...no matter how hard i try

31. THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY: ^^ i gotta say when bobby put his arm around me, and then took my hand when i put it up to like have angey calm down ^__^

32. COLOR: black

33. MOVIE: "yellow submarine!!" "help!" and "interview with the vampire"

34. BOOK: "the vampire chronicals" by anne rice, and "the sight" by david clements-davies

35. SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: art, orchestra, and electric keyboarding (piano)

36. JUICE: ...well, lemme say i hate orange juice. it's friggen disgusting and reminds me of vomit...
i dont have a favorite juice

37. CARS: i don't like cars...i LOVE pick up trucks tho...especially red ones for some reason XD

38. ICE CREAM: black raspberry

39. HOLIDAY: halloween!

40. SEASONS: autumn ^^

41. BREAKFAST FOOD: corn flakes!!!

42. PLACE TO GO WITH YOUR HONEY: lmfao, i'd drag them to some rock concert or something

who

43. MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: bobby and liz XD

44. MAKES YOU SMILE: everyone ^^

45. GIVES YOU A GOOD FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM: ^^ bobby

47. YOU HAVE A SECRET CRUSH ON: um...it's not really a secret

48. CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER NO MATTER WHAT: bobby, liz, danielle

49. EASIER GUYS OR GIRLS: what is with this thing? lol

Do You Ever?

50. SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A PHONE CALL ALL NIGHT: um...no...i hate the phone o_O;

51. SAVE AOL CONVERSATIONS: omg yes, i do, when they're really friggen funny...cause i can be such a weirdo. and then i use them to cheer me up ^^

52. SAVE E-MAILS: depends

53. WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE: dispite how much i hate myself, i wouldn;t ever want to be someone other than me

54. WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: lmao! i think it would be fun as hell, just to be a guy f... ]]> ~Usiku oss sucks http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3572171/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3572171/ Tue, 12 Oct 2004 10:13:28 PDT i feel so alone...
and i really miss bobby too...i wrote a poem for him, but i'm not going to post it...cause i'm a wimp
speaking of writing stuff, i;m working on a new song too. lmao, it was inspired by seeing an army helicopter...yea, so the song's about war. ive got the chorus figured out, i;m working on the verse, and also working on puting it a guitar part. i'm working on an intro for it too
yea...
and today, i went to go look for a job...found nothing really...so i think i'm just going to wait until barnes and nobles opens, and try to get a job there. and when i get a job, i'm opening up a bank account and saving up for bobby's guitar, and an appartment for when i go to college...yea, i don't want to be in a dorm...especially with people i don't know. i'm just solitary and i don't really like being with strangers, i can't open up to people. i trust a select few, and the person i trust the most is my friend, bobby. i also kinda trust d and jess, but that's it.
^^ i got something for my friend when i went out today too XD they've been going through a pretty hard time too, and i can't wait to give it to them on thursday

i also got a trenchcoat

i dunno, lmao. i like trenchcoats, so i finally decided to get one...and it's pretty lmao...i think i might make a new id with me wearing it.
i have friggen 990 messages that i have to go through. do you know how much this sucks?!?!
...and it's too bad that no one claimed my 5000th page view...cause i was planning on drawing something for whoever got it. oh well...just be on the look out for my 5555th.
soooo, i think i'm gonna go draw now. yea, and finish writing my song...
...and be lonely...
and to think that i used to love being alone...

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http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3563484/ Mon, 11 Oct 2004 08:38:35 PDT right now i' listening to the song "god" by john lennon. damn i love that song, it'd definately my favorite song by him...you should really hear it. and you know what, i'll post the lyrics at the end of this journal
first lemme just say this to you all: thanks for caring about me when i'm down

don't mind me, i'm just excited

but lmao, it's great. he shocked the hell out of my mom. he pulled one of those things where he called here on his cell phone, and while on the phone with my mom he rings the doorbell, she comes to the door, and who else is there but my bro?? lmao she started to flip, and once i heard it was mike i came running out too. lmfao, i've missed him ^^ and he's doing pretty good in college.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee, i am in such a great mood now, this is just what i needed to pick me up and make me happy and stuff XD hehehehehehe, the duck has returned

(fyi, for all you confused people, he calls me a oppossum and i call him a duck. we're weird, ok?!!?!?!?!?!!! but he started it

)

omg this is awesome, now i'm gonna like bug him and play what i've learned on guitar for him

then i gotta show him my recent drawings and stuff

yay
well, i'm gonna go now XDXDXDXDXDXDXD so i shall see you all later ^^

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- a club dedicated to the former beatle, george harrison.

- a club dedicated to the who

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~Usiku umm....yea http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3548710/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3548710/ Sat, 09 Oct 2004 20:14:42 PDT
forget what i said, k?

and i guess i'll leave now with some lyrics to a song that it feels like i wrote. something that's perfect for me, i swear it's like i wrote it

"Comfortably Numb" - pink floyd

Hello,
Is there anybody in there
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone at home
Come on now
I hear you're feeling down
I can ease your pain
And get you on your feet again
Relax
I'll need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts

There is no pain, you are receding
A distant ship smoke on the horizon
You are coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying
When I was a child I had a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons
Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am
I have become comfortably numb

O.K.
Just a little pin prick
There'll be no more aaaaaaaah!
But you may feel a little sick
Can you stand up?
I do believe it's working, good
That'll keep you going through the show
Come on it's time to go.

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown
The dream is gone
And I have become
Comfortably numb. ]]> ~Usiku Random survey cause i'm bored and procrastinating http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3538221/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3538221/ Thu, 07 Oct 2004 21:15:21 PDT i took this from a survey i did like a year ago or something. it was really long...and i'm kinda tired so i'm only doing this part. some of the answers i'll keep cause they haven't changed

44) Do you enjoy living in your town?: kinda
145) Do you smoke?: ...
146) Do you drink?: ...
147) How often do you shower?: twice a day
148 ) Do people you live with complain about the water bill because of the lengths of your showers?: um...sometimes *innocent smile*
149) Do you trust others easily?: no...hell no. i can't trust people.
150) Have you ever lied to a friend?: yes, and i never will again
151) Are you trustworthy?: yea
152) Are you anyone's secret-keeper?: a lot of people's. everyone usually comes to me for support and stuff...
153) Are you a daredevil?: definately XD
154) Have/would you skydive?: yea!!
155) Have/would you bungee jump?: definately!
156) Have/would you play "Chicken"?: uh?? wait....wha?
157) If granted one wish, what would it be?: i would wish for my friends to never experience pain again
158 ) Do you like to dance?: ...no -_-
159) Which do you prefer -- slow or fast dancing?: neither
160) Do you like to swim?: yes XD
161) Do you make friends easily?: no, because i can't trust or open up to people
162) If so, where do you most often make friends?: i tend to keep away from people
163) Do you color your hair?: no, but i'd like to ^_-
164) Do you wear makeup?: no
165) Are you a person who lies a lot?: no
166) What religion do you practice, if any?: i'm atheist
167) Do you like high heels?: hell no
168 ) Are you homophobic?: no...i can't stand homophobes
169) Do you like to travel?: yes
170) Granted you are American, have you ever been out
of the state?: yes
171) Do you own any pets?: no *sighs* i wish i did
172) Do you have a cell phone/pager?: no, i am friggen against cell phones
173) Do like amusement parks?: definately
174) If so, what is your favorite park/ride?: roller coasters
175) Do you collect anything?: um...dragon statue thingys. and red tailed hawk stuff. i love my dragons...
176) Do you enjoy having your picture taken?: NO
177) Do you keep your room/apartment/dorm clean?: lmao, definately not
178 ) Do you get annoyed easily?: sometimes
179) Would you consider yourself a depressed person?: ...i guess
180) Have you ever been to a concert?: yea, i've also played in one
181) If so, who/what did you see?: beatles tribute band, and when on stage i see bright glaring lights that friggen blind me
182) Have you ever performed in public?: yea, i love it now
183) Do you have any piercings?: yes
184) Do you have any tattoos?: not yet
185) Do you dream often?: every night
186) Do you frequently daydream?: oh yea
187) Do you have a job?: no
188 ) What was your first job?: babysitting...and i HATE kids...
189) Do you have any health problems?: um...i have a high risk for lukemia...i think that's a problem...
190) Are you a vegetarian?: yes, and proud of it
191) Have you ever been in a crash?: almost...
192) Have you ever had a near-death experience?: many...
193) Have you ever won anything?: um....i won a pen once, lmao. but yea, i've won art and music awards. aren't i special?
194) Do you play a musical instrument?: of course, guitar, violin, and the keyboard/piano
195) Have you ever had someone close to you die?: damnit...stop reminding me........yes, yes i have...
196) Have you ever broken a bone?: not yet
197) Have you ever had stitches?: not yet
198 ) Do you have any scars?: ....many
199) Have you ever had major surgery?: i've never even had surgery
200) What is your earliest memory?: falling down a flight of stairs when i was like 2 or younger
201) Have you ever gotten in a physical fight?: yes
202) What is your dream job?: to be a guitarist in a band, and if i can't be that, i want to be a teacher...an art teacher (NOT in elementary or middle school tho...because i'll end up killing them all...i hate kids...)
203) Do you plan on having kids?: hell fucking no
204) What phrase do you use the most?: i dunno, you tell me
205) Have you meet/do you know anyone famous?: yes
206) Do you carry a wallet/purse?: yea, a wallet
207) Have you ever baby-sat?: yes.......never will again...
208 ) In what position do you sleep?: on my side, kinda curled up. but i dunno, i fall asleep on my stomach sometimes
209) Have you ever fallen asleep on someone else's bed?: yea
210) Have you ever fallen asleep on someone else?: yea, on someone's shoulder
... ]]> ~Usiku school SUCKED omg update http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3518959/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3518959/ Tue, 05 Oct 2004 14:20:51 PDT
OMG INAlI YOU'RE SO AWESOME!!!

DREW ME A PIC OF MY NEW FURSONA, KASIMIR!!! AND IT'S SO AWESOME!!! OMG GO SEE IT NOW!!

inali, thankyou so so so so so so so so so much!

here's the url to the piccy

[link]

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"i know what died that night...it can never be brought back to life once again, i know. I know I died that night, and i'll never be brought back to life, once again i know..."

-From Bleed Black by AFI

yes, sucked very damn much damnit. (i like being repetitive...deal with it). I got called down to the vice principal's office today -_-; and was forced to talk to my ex, the one who cheated on me and lied to me. the stupid son of a bitch. i'm not going into detail here. but if your a good friend of mine, and want to know, then ask and i shall tell. but let's just say that ruined my day, where i couldn't even really draw in art class. i died. and then after art (which i have 8th period), heading to where i go to stay 9th, i find out that the person i needed the most, to talk to especially, wasn't going to be there. which figures, cause whenever i really need someone, they're never there. it always happens to me somehow. so 9th i just kinda sat and cried, tho i couldn't really cry too much. but it's weird, i was just sitting there, feeling dead to the world, (as in not feeling any pain, not feeling anything at all) and i felt a tear slide down my cheek. i didn't even know that i was crying. maybe i'm just that far gone out there. maybe i am snapping, becoming nothing but a worthless...thing, in this realm of existance.
and then, at the bus turnaround, people decide to TORTURE me you sons of a bitches. i friggen snapped at the bus turnaround because of it, and started to laugh like a maniac...and i don't remember. but then liz came to save me

she took me away, down to the other end, and lmfao then my day was good cause i had a damn great time

hehehehe, let's just say we're all insane. so that made me happier, so i haven't done any damage to myself. i was planning to, tho, but my friends have saved me

i love you all!

but...i'm talking to ~Meiyaku and ~ FoxOfTheNight right now. so yay. but i miss bobby *cries* lol, i'm so used to talking to him... ;_;
i am really starting to not like the freshman. o.O;;; *twitch* they're starting to get veeeeeerrry annoying.
But yes, my brain is alive today, woo. so i actaully can be myselfffffff. me and all my smart powers, mwahahahahaha.
Yes, i'm wierd. But let's face it - all good artists are weird. i mean, think of every good artist you know. are any of them normal?!?!?!?!?!?! so seeeeeeeeee, i have a reason to be insane

http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3357830/ Tue, 14 Sep 2004 16:37:01 PDT
I liked reading what you had to say, ~ ShadowedWolf13 it really made me think

Yes, you could say that peace-activists "fight" for peace. Because in a way, we certainly do. But mostly we do it in ways to avoid violence. Take john lennon for example. his songs, the "war is over (if you want it)" flyers, the bed-ins. He and his wife yoko protested for peace, but they in no way started a conflict. all they did was try to prove a point; open people's minds to stop and think about some things. but never did they diss a single person. again, our goal is to open people's minds and to make them think. not force them into anything.
I'm sorry for calling the bible "the book of lies." It is just my opinion, and my belief. and i'll respect yours if you respect mine. but i'm sorry, i was also upset at the time because my parents are forcing me to believe in something that i see too far beyond to believe. I want to find the answers myself, and i don't want to be forced into something i want no part of. so i was angry when i called it "the book of lies." And i never ment to diss god, whatever he/she/it is. i just don't like the bible, seeing as most of it was written by priests and such. and i really don't believe in religions period...and there's an old journal entry i have explaining why i don;t.
This is one of the things that get me down so much...when people say "There will never be peace." Because there is a loss of all hope beind it. It's just like saying "I will never find love," "there will never be happiness," or "i will never pass school." People just don't care enough anymore...and it hurts me so much to see that, because at one time i didn;t care either, and now i know how wrong i was. how deadly wrong. We need to stop the apathy, people need to stop losing hope. Because everything in this world has a chance? How can you be so certain about one thing? We have the power to shape our future, and i have a feeling that it's about time for a Revolution. And it may be for the better. But people are getting smarter by the day. Even now discrimination and prejudice are going down. There is still hope as long as people still care.
Yes, it is in our nature to fight, and we will always fight. But if we could just listen to each other for once and try to see their point of view, things would be better. people are very closed-minded today, and they usually don't see beyond their own thoughts. but if we can incourage them to listen, to think, then we have a chance. if instead of "arguing" when two different points of view are discussed, we should instead listen, and try to learn more ourselves. We should use common-sense instead of stubborness and being opinionated. because there are always two sides two every story, and there will always be different points of view. but if we could accept this, there would be a chance.
And if people cared the slightest bit, we could do all this.
To gain peace we don't need to give up opinions, free-will, and everything that makes us unique. We just need to learn to accept and live with each other. But as long as people don't care...
And yes, we disagree about what i said about the bible. but don't you see? just because we disagree doesn't mean that there can't be peace. if you could try to understand why i see things that way and accept it, and likewise for me, then there would be peace. just because we disagree, it doesn't mean that there isn't any hope for peace. If you just give it a chance, try to understand others, then it will be fine.
But i ask this of the bible: if being gay and such is so wrong, then why did god create gay people? And i don't want to hear that it's because he gave us free will, because most of the gay people are born that way. it was never really their choice.
Yes, to gain peace it'll be a hard fight. but that isn;t going to make me stop trying. i care, and i always will. and i have hope. And i believe that one day human beings will be able to live in harmony. Because you see, it has always been possible. we just haven;'t let it happen.
I'm not meaning to fight either, i'm just speaking of what i know and what i think. there's a lot more, but i could never put it all here.
We have to learn to understand one another, and that's all it will take. All you need is love.
And i shall leave you all with the lyrics from "Imagine." Read the lyrics, and listen to the song if you can. but think about what is said here...really think

Imagine - John Lennon

Imagine There's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky

Imagine all the people living for today

Imagine there's no countries
... ]]> ~Usiku Y'all Misunderstood Me (edit) http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3345771/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3345771/ Sun, 12 Sep 2004 11:05:12 PDT And i'm surprised that i'm going to have to explain some of this again.
But i'm also going to put here something i wrote in reply to what my good friend ~Meiyaku said in response to the entry yesterday, k? And just change around the wording, maybe say a few more things too. I understood what you all said, and i agree. Now let me explain myself

I'm a peace activist, and i'm pretty much against war no matter what. yes, we needed to get back on the attack on the world trade center...but have we found bin laden yet? no, it's been years and you think that people would just realize that he's hiding in another country under the protection of someone else. Why else couldn't we have found him yet?
The war on Iraq shouldn't have been either. I mean, it's clear now that there were no weapons of mass destruction at all in the country. But given, I know the Bush was told false information, so he made the best decision based on what he was told. And no one should blame or hate him for that. Because i mean, if someone does, i'd love to see them put in his shoes, handed that information, and been told to make a decision. And he did make a good one based on what he knew, so people have to understand that. I can't take a definate side on the Iraq thing. I can't take a definate side on either issue because each side has a strong reason behind it. I understand Bush's decision, but so many young and innocent soldiers have died.
No, i don't hate Bush at all. I can't hate anyone or anything tangible. The only thing iv'e ever hated have been racist beliefs and the like. Bush is a good man, no matter what people want to believe. Yes, he may not be the brightest, but who can blame him. And personally, i don't like Kerry at all. He seems so sly...and such a liar. I wouldn't vote for either of them. But you know who i love to death? Bill Maher. I dunno if you guys know who he is, but i saw him on some show one night that my dad was watching. And i was amazed because everything he said i had already thought and said myself. He thinks exactly like me and he is a very smart man...and if he was in the running, i would so vote for him. He would do our country so much good.
But no, i'm not one of those angsty "i hate the president so much" people.

Those people tick me off a little, because they have to look at the facts and use their brains before the go jumping to conclusions and hating someone. Use common sense, don't just only look at one side of the story.
And if someone here wants to yell at me like "OMG YOU'RE STUPID, BUSH IS A DUMB FUCKER WHO NEEDS TO DIE!!" Then i suggest you need to get a life. Go learn something maybe before you jump to some conclusion. He is not a bad person, but i don't agree with some of his views. But you cannot judge him based on that. You really have to look on both sides of the story. And if you are one of those people that i've just mentioned, then don't reply because i don't want to hear it. I also don't want to explain myself all over again. So save your breath, unless you have something intelligent to say.
Sorry if i sound bitter, but i'm just speaking my mind. And let me say one more thing. Seeing as i'm atheist, and i don't believe in "God" or anything, I do not agree with Bush's half-witted decision about outlawing gay marriages. He is basing his opinion on what some book called the Bible (i myself call it The Book of Lies) says. And seeing as this is supposed to be a free country and all, there is no right for it. Much like i don't agree with the "god" thing in the pledge of alligence. Not all of us believe in god. I mean, i don't even say or stand for the pledge in the morning. I'm sorry...but it's my view on that. But answer me this: Is it right to outlaw gay marriages just because some "holy" book says it's wrong? Gay people have rights just like everyone else. This decision is stupid i think, because it's the equivilent to outlawing marriages among african americans or chinese people. It just isn't right.
Ok, i'm done. And if you want to yell at me for my views, make sure you have something to back it up. I don't want to hear "liek, OMG!! Gay people are stupid they should die!!!" Because if you do, i won't write an angry reply. But expect something really long with a lot of thought and explanation put into it.
I'm done, and i hope you see my point
And if there;s any spelling mistakes or typos...sorry. i'm too focused on drawing right now to go back and fix it

EDIT

Now for you all, don't get me wrong, because i don't like bus... ]]> ~Usiku schoooooooool...and a RANT http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3325970/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/3325970/ Thu, 09 Sep 2004 15:31:58 PDT I'M AN ARTIST AND A MUSICIAN DAMNIT, I DON'T NEED TO KNOW ALL THIS FORMULA CRAP!!!! I WILL NEVER USE IT!!! EVER!!! I HATE math!!! math is ruining my life and it isn't right damnit. I mean, no matter what i do, i'll never take a job involving frikken math. never, i swear. If i go to disney to be an animator...when will i ever need math?? if i design logos and stuff for bands....when will i need math? if i'm a guitarist, when will i need math?? if i become like a violin teacher or something, when will i need math???? huh??? i'm NEVER gonna wanna figure out the slope of my fuckin pencil or find out its damn MASS or VOLUME or whatever. i will NEVER find out how many minutes it will take an ant to travel the distance of my guitar. i will NEVER want to know the radius of a circle i draw. i am the artist, i am the musician, i am a visionary. i see deeper than most people i've met of any age do...WHEN AM I EVER GOING TO NEED MATH?!?!!?!??!?!!!!?!?! ...
i wish there was a way i could rebel against the school for this. i mean, the entire way that it's set up. math shouldn;t dictate everyone's future like it does. if someone wants to go into a profession involving that kind of math, then let them take the course. Don't force me to, i have different plans for my life. I really wish i could form some kind of protest against this...but i've been through this before. no one will ever listen to you, because you're just some dumb kid. I'm sick of adults looking down on me because of my age. i'm sick of them ignoring everything i say when everything i do say usually has more thought and reason put behind it than them. but they won';t listen...and if you do speak out against something, the suspend you and put all kinds of stuff on your record. and i wanna go to college...either a school to learn to become a music/art teacher or a conductor, or to an art school. and i can't sacrifice that on my quest to solve this idiotic problem.
but oh....you just wait until i'm out of school for good. the government is going to really hate me. i have a good talent if i want to show it...because if i truly believe in something i can rally people together. And if i do become a strong activist....oh, that'd be intersting.
Anyway, i'm not going to spill all my ideas and such onto this page.
But yea....you guys get my point, right? And don't get me even started on chemistry.....
mwahahhaa, i am so friken glad that my school introduced the class "chemistry for artists" this year. because of it, i'm gonna pass it. i don';t care about science, but involve art and you've got me interested.
And yea...
Keyboarding class was good today, we got to play the instruments. i've already started to figure out one of my violin songs on it. that's how i started with the guitar too, easilly figuring out how to play violin music on it. people have told me that i have an ear for music. sometimes i can just listen to something and play it. i dunno, i'm odd. and i love it. but that skill just grows stronger throughout the months too. like now i hear something played on guitar, and i single out notes i hear, and play them on the violin along with it. i'm still trying to get used to doing that actually on my guitar.
When i go to class tomorrow, i am going to figure out how to play "kashmir" by led zeppelin. i love the strings mode

i figured out a lot of that song on my violin as well. i could single out every note easilly. sometimes, i don't even think about it and my figer just somehow hits the right spot. it;s almost like an instinct.
but yea, i'm gonna shut up now.

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http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/2965159/ Sun, 25 Jul 2004 15:12:29 PDT

she's a very very awesome artist, i highly suggest you go check her gallery out!!
i really enjoyed reading what she had to say in response to these questions ^^ and there are some things i couldn't have said better myself, so i'll quote some of what she said. BUT GO SEE HER GALLERY OR YOU SHALL PERRISH!! MWAHAHHA!!

1. Are you pro-choice or pro-life (in terms of abortion)?
pro-choice definately. first of all, what if the woman was raped? i'm pretty sure that i wouldn't want to carry someones child if i was raped, and i'd get rid of it no doubt. second, it's their life, they should be the ones to make the choice about the child they're carrying, not someone else. what if they're ill and having a baby will kill them? contraception doesn't always work. the world is getting way too over-populated, and if we have all these kids imagine the destruction that will be brought to this planet!! more woods would be cut down for homes. we'd kill off so many animal species. i have no doubt in my mind that we'd destroy it. plus, if the women were forced to have that child, they most likely wouldn't keep it. they'd put it up for adoption, and someone may not adopt them. if they keep the child, they very well may end up killing it. my point is, leave them with the choice. everyone has different beliefs. just because you don't like abortion doesn't mean you can stop someone else from it. it's their life, not yours.

2. Do you support the idea of premarital sex? Why or why not?
of course! the idea of marriage is something sprung from religion, and the only reason why people find it wrong to do it before marriage is because the bible says it. again, it's the person's life, we should let them make the decision. furthermore, there are plenty of couples who don't want to get married because they don't believe in any religion. what's the point of being "blessed by god as a couple" if you don't believe in him? premarital sex shouldn't be a problem. but since they put it in the religions, it is. it was a way of controling people and trying to control population i believe. but if two people love each other, it shouldn't be a problem. it's their life, back off.

3. "If music be the food of love, play on"- this was a quote in Shakespeare's play Twelfth Night. Do you believe that music can make a person feel a certain way? What does music do for YOU?
music certainly makes people feel a certain way! music is one of the arts, it's a reflection of self, emotion, and beliefs. it holds a message. certain tones, certain chords, certian notes evoke an emotion. major keys are usually an uplifting sound, and the minor key usually is a great way to express pain. through playing the violin i know this. a solo on the violin can be so gut wrenching it can bring a person to tears. music can influence in so many ways. music is truly beautiful, art couldn't get any better than that. For me, music, like art, insipres me to live on. music is everything to me, i'd be so empty without it.

4. Define the term "slut"). When is it 'fair' to call someone a slut? And what makes a girl sleeping around different than a guy sleeping around?
ok, dark delusion said this so well! so read what she wrote, and i'll add a little after.
"Slut is just a word to me - society and its labels! *snarl* Society is male dominated and no offence to the men who read my journal... but men on the who still see themselves as dominant, they expect woman to be a certain way. We are judged by what we do and how we do it. Our sexuality and aggressiveness is still seen as 'threatening' in the male world. It is why women are negatively labelled."
that is so true. there is absolutely NO differece from a woman sleeping around than a man sleeping around. men think they're so much better than us, and it's pretty sad. it's never fair to call someone a slut, and i'll admit that i have called a few people that when i've been really pissed at them. let's face it, if you piss me off i'll call you anything. And for the person here i called a slut, i'm very sorry. i know i was wrong when i said that.

5. What is your religious path/belief (if any) and what do you think of other people's religious paths/beliefs. Do you think that they are wrong for not believing in what you do?
i don't have a religion, i don't follow any path. all i do... ]]> ~Usiku my p.o.v on religion, god, and the like http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/2956521/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/2956521/ Sat, 24 Jul 2004 11:13:32 PDT

i thought it would also make a useful journal entry

the easy answer for "how did this all get here? Why are we here?" would be god. it's easy and rather simple to think that some devine being(s) created this all and gave us a purpose. but then this question arises for me: "then what created god?" if a god couldn't have been created and could have simply existed, could all of this and us not have simply existed too? Maybe there's a much deeper answer to all this that goes beyond the possibilty fo there being a god. maybe perhaps every single one of us are our own gods. and then again, maybe we just simply exist and there is no purpose or anything whatsoever. but it would be insane to imagine existance vanishing...having nothing at all, not even a black void. just there being nothing. so then why not have some kind of existance? it's all so confusing, and so many points of view can be brought up for this.
the reason i find religion to be so silly is this simple concept: why would some devine being(s) create us and give us complete free will, then try to take it from us by giving us rules to follow? why would they have us worship them? if god is so perfect, loving, and understanding, why does he supposedly punish us for doing wrong instread of understanding why we've done it? Why would they need us to go to a church or the like for us to worship them and take away from our precious lives? religion takes away from the freedom that the god(s) gives us, and it doesn't make sense. Why throw away everything just to follow something that my not even exist? And why is there the concept of good and evil with the gods? I think the good and evil were created through the minds of human beings. good and evil is nothing but a concept, the two cannot exist. evil to people is something that they don't like or that they find wrong. for instance, killing. isn't killing simply a part of nature and a way to control a population? yet we find it so evil, especially with murder. maybe perhaps it isn't evil but rather it';s a product of a person's choice, beliefs, will, and emotions. if someone is hurt or doesn't like another person, they may end up murdering them. is it evil rather than the decision of someone to put an end to something that may be bugging them? now don't get me wrong, i myself am again violence and all, i mean i'm a strong supporter of peace. evil to people is something that they don't like, something they believe to be wrong, something that holds them back or prevents what they want to happen from happening. everything that is allegedly evil is something that someone doesn't like. and good is what people want to happen, what they think is right. So is there really a devine existance of good and evil? isn't evil just a way for people to place the blame once again on something else? Maybe it's just the need for the human mind to have some explanation for everything. it's so impossible for humans to think that there could be no reason for everything. Human beings need to have a reason for everything, they can't live without an explanation. and perhaps religion is a way for them to do this. they can't accept on a whole that there may not be a reason for us being here, that there isn't some god that created this. Religion could very well have been created back in ancient times not only for the need of there being a reason, but for there being a need of order. wasn't religion a way to control people and a way to set rules? a way to stop crime and other "evil" things? it was a superb way of controling the people.
so, maybe there is some devine being or beings out there that created everything. but was there a need for religion by them? or was it a need for religion by humans? religion is mainly full of human beliefs, what people think and what was wrong to them. like how homosexuality is wrong in the bible. If it is so wrong, then tell me, why did "god" create homosexuals? if evil is so bad, why did god create evil? so many things do not make sense.
i could really go on forever on this subject
any thoughts? please share them, i'd love to hear them. if you see something differently than me, don't be afraid to say something. i'd love to see from both side of this issue to get a better understanding of it.

THE GROUP I CREATED! PLEASE JOIN!!

~http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/2793847/ Sat, 03 Jul 2004 10:56:11 PDT good good news. i'll post my grades that i got on my final exams here

English 10 - 89
Global History - 91
Math 2 - 69 (I HATE MATH, OK?!?!?!!?!)
Biology - 84
Health - 92
French - 92

my class grades were lower, due to not doing any homework assignments. but i got a 100 in orchestra (remember, i play violin), 90 in gym, and that's it.

HAHAHAHA!! I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, i finally created my own fursona last night

i'll upload the pic sometime. her name is Usiku, big surprise there. and she's a grey wolf. ^_^ the pic isn't colored in, because i don't wanna do it by hand. i gotta get the new adobe photoshop, as soon as i get enough money. ^^
people love my john lennon pic

yay. it makes me so happy ^^ it really does. especially on

i submitted it there too, and it's doing so friggen good on that site. it's insane.
well, i'll shut my mouth now ^^ laters

TO SEE MY FURSONA SO FAR, CLICK THE LINK!!! she's unfinished
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~>MY BUDS<~

OTHER PEOPLE WORTH CHECKING OUT!!!

http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/2472245/ Thu, 20 May 2004 18:44:34 PDT
tragedy of the week-i lost 5 pounds. SHUDDER IN FEAR OF THE COMPLETE HORROR OF IT!! NOW IF I JUMP ON SOMEONE IT DOES ONLY 120 POUNDS OF DAMNAGE!! GOD DAMNIT!! O_o yes, i am mantal. please forgive my mentalnessssssssss.
yesterday was great. my friend nick got mice, and they're SO friggen adorable. one's white, and one's brown. i'm going to steel them from you, nova. oo...he has an account on here. check him out!!

today was mehness. i brought my guitar to school today. that was pretty funish. AND I AM INCREDIBLY SICK OF PEOPLE PICKING ME UP. i have now developed a phobia of being lifted off the ground by another person. this is not good people. I AM GOING TO START CARRYING AN ANCHOR TO SCHOOL WITH ME!! O_o oooh, i will to. you just watch me
IT'S 10 O'CLOCK. DO YOU KNOW WHERE YOUR CHILDREN ARE?! ........................................ ......................
i am so mental riight now. this is one of my best moods where i just go completely crazy. haha, mental. that is such a stupid word.
well, i'll stop wasting your time. have fun. i'm going to go cover myself in katchup and run around the neighborhood screaming ]]> ~Usiku Devious Journal Entry http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/2435804/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/2435804/ Sat, 15 May 2004 17:04:35 PDT past? I don't see why people hold onto things that they've lost so long ago, and very well know that they can never have it back? Why dwell on the past, why even think of it? the past isn't want matter, and the future isn't what matters. Why do people scurry around, doing things to improve their future when they cna in fact could die tomorrow? In my world, the present is the only thing that matters. Everything else could go to hell. Live for today, not for tomorrow and not for yesterday. That's my piece of personal advice for the day. But really tho, there's no need to hang on to the past. the past isn't now, and you can't change the past. i wish people could give it up, and just set it all free. But eh, this is just the way i see things. everyone's different, right? so whatever floats your boat.
eh, i dunno. this was insipired by a special someone, my ex-best friend. i've been thinking a lot today, so...heh.
I'm bored. ]]> ~Usiku heya http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/2132220/ http://Usiku.deviantart.com/journal/2132220/ Thu, 01 Apr 2004 18:00:19 PST well, that's all i can write for now. i'll be uploading more later ]]> ~Usiku