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deviantART: by:VampireOrchid http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:VampireOrchid&section=today deviantART RSS for by:VampireOrchid en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 02:57:15 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Oh, who would ever want to be king (update too) http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/28721724/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/28721724/ Thu, 03 Dec 2009 02:41:06 PST I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt, and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a-ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
~Viva la Vida by Coldplay

So, hi.

Finals stuff this week and next. Obviously, since I'm posting a journal entry at 5:30 in the morning. It's really not that bad... you know, once you get over the 6 lesson unit, a pointless class to study for, 5+ pots to glaze and 3 clay figures to paint, and the fact that my computer blue-screened earlier this week. But honestly, I'm up because I really don't feel like sleeping sometimes.

Some good news though... I'm no longer treasurer of ASA, which is a huge load off my shoulders-- heck, since I'll be student teaching next semester, I won't even be directly involved with the sorority anymore (also not paying the dues). Speaking of, I know where I'll be placed for student teaching (nowhere around Columbus because apparently that's like asking to student teach on the moon), and I think I'll like both places and have a great experience next semester. Next semester is also when my senior art show will be-- I'll let everyone know when that date approaches, so if you really want to see my work, you can make a trip out here and check it out.

Once I'm finished with this semester, and I get my computer working again, I will be uploading lots of art up here, so keep a lookout for that.

Man I can't wait until Christmas break... the distraction of WoW, catching up with projects that actually matter, preparing for next semester... and friends. Lots of friends. I hope things get better, I really do.

For now... I guess I'll go to sleep.

]]> ~VampireOrchid I can't stop listening http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/28424612/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/28424612/ Tue, 17 Nov 2009 23:01:42 PST I drink good coffee
every morning
Comes from a place
that's far away
And when I'm done
I feel like talking
Without you here
there is less to say

I don't want you thinking I'm unhappy
What is closer to the truth
That if I lived 'till I was a hundred and two
I just don't think I'll ever get over you

Your face it dances
and it haunts me
Your laughter's still ringing in my ears
I still find pieces
of your presence
here
Even after all these years

~*~

I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again

Been walking my mind to an easy time
my back turned towards the sun
Lord knows when the cold wind blows it'll turn your head around
Well, there's hours of time on the telephone line
to talk about things to come
Sweet dreams and flying machines
in pieces on the ground

~*~

She's taking her time making up the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows from the smiles and the look in their eyes
Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one

But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come

She can't remember a time when she felt needed
If love was red then she was color blind
All her friends, well they've been trialed for treason
And crimes that were never defined

She's saying, "Love is like a barren place
And reaching out for human faith
It's like a journey I just don't have a map for"
So baby's gonna take a dive and
Push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that she's hanging
All her hopes on the stars
What a pleasant dream

~*~

Love and other moments are just
chemical reactions in your brain
And feelings of aggression are the
absence of the love drug in your veins

Love come quickly
'Cause I feel my self-esteem is caving in
it's on the brink

Love come quickly,
'Cause I don't think I can keep this monster in
It's in my skin

Love and other socially acceptable
emotions are morphine
Cleverly concealing primal urges
often felt but rarely seen

I'm gunning down romance
it never did a thing for me
but heartache and misery
it ain't nothing but a tragedy

~*~

You got to leave me now, you got to go alone
You got to chase a dream, one that's all your own
Before it slips away
When you're flyin' high, take my heart along
I'll be the harmony to every lonely song
That you will learn to play

I'll keep lookin' up, awaitin' your return
My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire
I'll be the other hand that always holds the line
Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire

~*~

It was a beautiful let down
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone
unknown
and hurt
It was a beautiful let down
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do

In a world full of bitter pain
and bitter doubt
I was trying so hard to fit in,
to fit in,
Until I found out

That I don't belong here
No I don't belong here
I will carry a cross and a song
where I don't belong

We're still chasin' our tails
and the rising sun
And our dark water planet's
Still spinning in a race
Where no one wins and no one's won

We are a beautiful let down,
Painfully uncool,
The church of the dropouts
The losers
the sinners
the failures
and the fools...
Oh what a beautiful let down
Are we salt in the wound?
Let us sing one true tune

]]> ~VampireOrchid Fanart is sexy http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/28360066/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/28360066/ Sat, 14 Nov 2009 18:26:27 PST [link]

She is cool, check her out

I love what she did with Mace! *huggles her*

]]> ~VampireOrchid Ich schenk dir mein Leben... http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/28257526/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/28257526/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 22:04:08 PST Und der Haifisch, der hat TrÃ¤nen
And the shark, he has tears
Und die laufen vom Gesicht,
And they run from his face,
doch der Haifisch lebt im Wasser -
But the shark lives in water
so die TrÃ¤nen sieht man nicht.
So no one sees the tears.

In der Tiefe ist es einsam
In the deep it is lonely
und so manche ZÃ¤hre fliesst
And many tears are shed
und so kommt es, dass das Wasser
And so it happens that the water
in den Meeren salzig ist.
In the sea is salty.

~*~

Die Liebe ist ein wildes Tier
The love is a wild animal
Sie atmet dich sie sucht nach dir
It breathes you, it looks for you
Nistet auf gebrochenen Herzen
It nests upon broken hearts
Geht auf Jagd bei Kuss und Kerzen
And hunts when there are kisses and candles
Saugt sich fest an deinen Lippen
It sucks tightly on your lips
GrÃ¤bt sich GÃ¤nge durch die Rippen
And digs tunnels through your ribs

LÃ¤sst sich fallen weich wie Schnee
It falls gently like snow
Erst wird es heiÃ dann kalt am Ende tut es weh
First it's hot, then cold, in the end it hurts.

Amour Amour
Love, love
Alle wollen nur dich zÃ¤hmen
Everyone just wants to tame you
Amour Amour am Ende
Love, love, in the end
gefangen zwischen deinen ZÃ¤hnen
Caught between your teeth.

~*~

Komm in mein Boot
Come in my boat
ein Sturm kommt auf
A storm is coming
und es wird Nacht
And night is falling

Wo willst du hin
Where do you want to go
so ganz allein
So very alone
treibst du davon
You are drifting away

Wer hÃ¤lt deine Hand
Who will hold your hand
wenn es dich
When it pulls
nach unten zieht
you under

Wo willst du hin
Where do you want to go
so uferlos
so boundless
die kalte See
the cold sea

Jetzt stehst du da an der Laterne
Now you stand by the lantern
mit TrÃ¤nen im Gesicht
With tears on your face
das Tageslicht fÃ¤llt auf die Seite
The daylight falls to the side
der Herbstwind fegt die StraÃe leer
The autumn wind sweeps the streets clear

~*~

Sie stehen eng umschlungen
They stand with their arms tightly around each other
ein Fleischgemisch so reich an Tagen
A mixture of flesh, so rich in days
wo das Meer das Land berÃ¼hrt
Where the sea meets the land
will sie ihm die Wahrheit sagen
She wants to tell him the truth

Doch ihre Worte frisst der Wind
But her words are eaten by the wind
wo das Meer zu Ende ist
Where the sea ends
hÃ¤lt sie zitternd seine Hand
She holds his hand, trembling
und hat ihn auf die Stirn gekÃ¼sst
And kissed him on the forehead

sie trÃ¤gt den Abend in der Brust
She carries the evening in her chest
und weiÃ dass sie verleben muss
And knows she must wither away
sie legt den Kopf in seinen SchoÃ
She lays her head in his lap
und bittet einen letzten Kuss
And asks him for a last kiss

und dann hat er sie gekÃ¼sst
And then he kissed her
wo das Meer zu Ende ist
Where the sea ends
ihre Lippen schwach und blass
Her lips, delicate and pale
und seine Augen werden nass
And his eyes tear up

Der letzte Kuss ist so lang her
The last kiss was so long ago
der letzte Kuss
The last kiss
er erinnert sich nicht mehr
He doesn't remember it anymore

...at least I translated them, amirite

]]> ~VampireOrchid Acquainted with the Night http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/28112852/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/28112852/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 18:23:41 PST Acquainted with the Night. The script is coming along, lots of editing of course, but I have a solid idea of what to do with it.

Here's a peek at the script (Jeremy is also the narrator btw):

JEREMY: "This-- this isn't right...!"
MACE: (Drops the dead man to the bloodied pavement.) "Right... right, left, right, wrong... It doesn't make sense, not anymore, not ever... because nothing has ever, ever, been right."

(Jeremy stares at him, silent, stricken.)

NARR: The wind whistled against the mouth of the alleyway, smearing the scent of blood, garbage and dirt across the city's face. Gradually, it seemed his outline softened, blurred, the red draining from his eyes. Then he turned--

JEREMY: (Putting a hand out as if to halt Mace.) "Wait!" (He takes a few steps forward, catching up to Mace, who had paused to pick up his top hat.) "I'm-- I'm Jeremy." (He holds out his hand to shake-- Mace doesn't react.) "Uh. What's your name?"
MACE: (Settling the top hat on his head.) "...Mace."

~*~

I plan to have the script written before I begin drawing anything... so this will probably be a fairly lengthy process. At least the comic is finite-- it has an end.

Funny thing, characters... they're not afraid to say things we think. Writing has been... cathartic.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Holding on http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/27781153/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/27781153/ Thu, 15 Oct 2009 13:53:10 PDT Sometimes it rains inside my head
All the words run dry

I've been thinking a lot about Mace recently. And Rask... there will be comics for both of them, someday. They say things I can't, like maybe about how sad it is that we need other people so much, yet we can never know what it's like in their heads, with all their experiences, emotions, and perceptions. How sometimes we come across people we would give everything for, and how some of them are worth it, and some of them aren't.

I want it to be sunny again...

]]> ~VampireOrchid Tension http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/27650919/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/27650919/ Thu, 08 Oct 2009 13:39:30 PDT I'm so sick of the tension
Sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest

I've always said that I could count my closest friends on one hand, but in past years that number barely fit on one hand, and those that did were solid friends. Last night I realized that that number is now three. There are three people I can trust with any information about my opinions, feelings, experiences, and thoughts, without the fear of them misunderstanding, judging, or ridiculing me. These people fall within the following criteria:

*Two are girls; one is a boy.
*Two are NOT on campus.
*One is not in Ohio.
*All three are interested in art.
*One has his or her own online comic.
*One has blonde hair.
*One can speak another language.
*Two of them like wolves a lot.
*All three are on deviantart.
*Two have played and story told for Dungeons and Dragons.
*Two are at least 3 years older than me.
*I have known one since high school, the other two I met in college.

You three probably know who you are from this list. I want to say to you three, thank you. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for being caring, sensible people who support me and my decisions. I love you all.

Of course not every friend I have can be as entirely supportive and close as these three; this journal isn't to diss those people, because they are still friends that would stick up for me, that would be concerned if something wasn't going well. This is for the people who I thought I could trust, who I wanted to trust, and who ended up not really giving two shits. The fakers, the energy-suckers, the self-absorbed. I'm sick of you, and I'm going to focus on the people in my life that really matter.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Art Dump http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/27237137/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/27237137/ Tue, 15 Sep 2009 22:05:00 PDT
It's a big blue watery road

A few days ago (Thursday maybe?) my Wacom pen decided, for whatever reason, to stop working. It had no pressure sensitivity, making it impossible to do pretty much anything with it aside from dragging it around the screen highlighting stuff. So, after calling tech support and getting a copy of the receipt from my dad (the tablet was a gift from my dad), I've got a new and, best of all, free, pen coming in the mail

Hopefully it'll be in soon-- I've got Scog to catch up on, as well as various other projects that require Photoshop and my tablet!

***

So while I've been waiting for that, I've been occupying myself (in the creative venue) with other projects:

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My tabard for the Renfest is coming along! It's going to lace up the sides with suede string (red or black, not sure yet!). It's rather form-fitting, on purpose.

I'm making 2 WoW figures in ceramics-- my character, Jath, and Chazi's character Celune. I'll have actual pictures soon-- I wish I'd taken pics since the beginning, but oh well! Right now they're missing heads and, in Celune's case, hands and clothing details. Here's some sketches-- though already the designs have changed. Their arm positions are switched due to stability (I was afraid of stretching Jath out that much-- Celune, with her skirt, is much more stable. She's also shorter, which helps).

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My next figure in clay: Rask!

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Angels killing Lucifer (based on an etching by Albrecht Durer-- looks suspiciously like something someone wanted for Christmas, eh? (Sorry for the poor quality of the pic)

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Rask undead, with brown/yellow sorta... drawing pencil things...

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I just like drawing Rask, okay? Quick doodle (poor quality again, blegh)

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]]> ~VampireOrchid My head is going to explode http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26966915/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26966915/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 20:51:19 PDT
Boom

He says
Green is the color that everyone sees all around me
Gray is the color I see around her
She's just a blur

I can't stop listening to "Green and Grey" by Nickel Creek... [link] (just listen to the song) Somehow it just fits.

Won't lie. This weekend was the shittiest in a long time... I feel like I've been through the wringer as far as emotions and stress go. I've learned a lot, I guess. I still don't feel very triumphant... maybe I will soon.

Today was better, which is why I'm bothering to write a journal-- anything I would have said then would be the whimpering laments of some young foolish person that everyone wishes would just keep it to herself. I'm not happy, right now, but it's as Robert Frost said: "In three words, I can sum up everything I've learned of life: It Goes On."

So in moving on...
Classes are going well. I've started projects in almost all of my art classes that I'm excited for, and am trying to complete them all as quickly as possible in addition to all the extra-cirriculars I have going on, my education classes (and the observation hours necessary for them), exercising, ASA fun, Scog, and a boyfriend. I have a schedule, sorta. I still like to be flexible.

Exciting news from those fronts though:
*Scog is now only updating once a week (maybe not exciting, but important), on Mondays, so please be sure to check it out and keep up with it! [link]

*I figured out the budget for ASA and put it up on the billing site we use all by myself-- well, I had help, but still. It barely got up on time, but you know, that's good enough for me. Being the treasurer for an organization that's national, by the way, is a huge responsibility.

*Ultimate Frisbee is still awesome.

*I am making WoW figurines in Ceramics! One of which is for Chazi! Sketches will be thrown up soon. FIGURES IN CLAY OMG I AM ALREADY REGRETTING MY DECISION

*I'm canceling my WoW subscription... again! Hurrrr

*I am working on... comics! of my own! Sort of! We'll see how this goes-- I have IDEAS, man.

That's pretty much it. Hope ya'll are doing better than me.

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]]> ~VampireOrchid Important things of Interest! http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26652313/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26652313/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 14:42:12 PDT
you're welcome

First and foremost, the webcomic

and I launched last summer, Scog, is updating again (finally!). I AM SO VERY EXCITED. The quality of the pages has gone WAY up due to our lengthy hiatus (about 6 months... yipe), and I can't wait to continue working on them.

Check out the newest page here

[link]

~*~*~*~

Aside from that EXCITEMENT,, I am also preparing to move back to college in just a few days (Wednesday, to be precise). I am FREAKING OUT about packing, particularly since I'm working up to Wednesday, and am seeing some friends before I leave. So much to dooo. Again, I'm moving in early because my sorority helps freshman move in this Friday, as community service and a way to get ourselves out there with freshman (of course, all frats and sororities do this, but we're the best sooo yeah). Classes start the 24th.

ALSO, as you may remember, I was very recently on vacation with my family and friends. We had a BLAST in Frankfort, Michigan-- the weather was perfect, save a few cloudy days, and we didn't run out of ways to amuse ourselves, what with being within walking distance to the beach of Lake Michigan and a small town that had gift shops and resturaunts-- not to mention being about a 20 minute drive to the Sleeping Bear Dunes. Overall it was a very fun, relaxing expirience. I hope to someday vacation up there again, with friends/significant others-- there are houses to rent, which is what we did when we vacationed there for the first time 7 years ago. Suffice to say, I think I'll keep going back up there; the weather is a great reprieve in the summer months, and Michigan is far more beautiful and lush than Ohio (or at least, up by Frankfort is).

When we got home I had a pleasant surprise waiting for me-- an E Nomine CD I bought off of Amazon before we left for vacation. The CD is Finsternis (which means Darkness), and features songs I already loved, including Wolfen (Das Tier in Mir), Mitternacht, and Exitus, in additon to a bunch of songs I hadn't heard of, and the small 'introductions'. I AM IN LOVE and I can't stop listening to it. What's even cooler (to me) is that it was shipped from Berlin, Germany... and the CD is still in good quality, with the cover booklet and everything, despite being used. AUGHHH I am sooo buying more of their stuff!

If you've never heard of/listened to E Nomine, check 'em out. This vid has the english translation so you won't be totally in the dark (or should I say, IN DIE FINSTERNIS? HURRRR)
Wolfen (Das Tier in Mir) aka Wolves (the animal in me) [link]

That's really about it from my end.

Check out the comic yo!

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]]> ~VampireOrchid Count the nicknames http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26575893/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26575893/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 18:42:45 PDT
Maybe

Seriously I challenged myself to use different nicknames b/c I mention Bean so much always >.>

ONE Â Spell your name without vowels: Chls >.>

TWO - Are you single?: Nope!

THREE - Whats your favorite number?: 12? 3? I don't know

FOUR - What color do you wear most?: Red, probably.

FIVE - Least favorite color?: Umm. Orange.

SIX - Favorite candy?: Skittles fo sho

SEVEN - Are you gay?: ACH NEIN

EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now?: JA ES IST GUT

NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity?: No

TEN - What is your favorite class in school?: Usually art, or if not that, something that is taught well and actually interesting.

ELEVEN - Do you shop at hollister/DC/Bluenotes?: IF I DID I'D LOSE ALL MY STREET CRED OH GOSH THAT WOULD BE AWFUL

TWELVE - How do you make money?: I have a job, and when I'm not doing that, I steal from those poor people with Styrofoam cups

THIRTEEN - Who is your best friend?: Bean

FOURTEEN - Where do you go to school?: Muskingum College

FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing?: I try to be, it's not my usual setting, but I do try.

SIXTEEN - One word to describe you?: Creative?

SEVENTEEN - Favorite pair of shoes?: OMG SHOES. Probably my white moccasin looking things with red and black beads that my Aunt Jerry got me for my b-day

EIGHTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses?: No, first of all, sunglasses are hard to wear with regular glasses, second, vomit.

NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now?: I'm pretty content with where I'm at, but it'd be even better if Beaninator were here.

TWENTY - What should you be doing right now?: Drawing Scog probably

TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now?: Beanie-weanie maybe

HONEST SECTION:

Honestly, what's on your mind right now?: Singing "Shimmer" in the car with Bean, that may have something to do with the fact that that song just came on my laptop

Honestly, what are you doing right now?: Typing this and eating skittles that Erin keeps placing on my keyboard FOR SOME REASON *stares at her*

Honestly, have you done something bad today?: Cursed? I guess?

Honestly, do you watch Disney Channel?: Not anymore, blech

Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?: Beanie-baby

Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?: Ignorant people

Honestly, do you bite your nails?: All the time X( I'm trying to stop by painting them.

Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?: Bean-face

Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?: Ummm I'm probably keeping a secret or two from each person individually, you know?

Honestly, do you have a friend you donÂt actually like?: So many

THE CANS:

Can you blow a bubble?: yah

I can blow a bubble inside a bubble (with bubble gum)

Can you dance?: Not well.

Can you do a cart wheel?: No, I just fall over and laugh at myself.

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: Nope :3

Can you whistle?: Yarr

Can you wiggle your ears?: yes, up and down, not like flapping (I don't know if anyone can do that though)

Can you wiggle your nose?: *tries* ...no?

Can you roll your tongue?: Yarr matey

Can you make a clover with your tongue?: Nope

ANGER SECTION:

What do you do when youÂre mad?: My face gets red, and more often than not I tear up (I try not to, but hey). And I cuss like a sailor.

WhatÂs the worst thing youÂve done when you were mad?: Probably hit someone (read, my brother)

Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: I doubt it. I'm usually the one crying because I am a PANSY

CRYING SECTION:

Ever really cried your heart out?: Oh yeah, who hasn't?

Ever cried yourself to sleep?: I think so.

Ever cried on your friendÂs shoulder?: BAWWWW

Ever cried over the opposite sex?: When people were being dicks... not like a BOO HOOO HE BROKE MY HEART I CANNOT GO ON sort of thing.

Ever cried over the same sex?: yeah, girls can be bitches

Do you cry when you get an injury?: Actually, not since I was younger... I think I'm more afraid of the idea of being inju... ]]> ~VampireOrchid Especially in Michigan http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26511916/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26511916/ Mon, 10 Aug 2009 18:18:32 PDT
If you couldn't tell

So I'm in Michigan with my family on vacation, for a week. Currently it's thunder storming, but I swear it's fun. We're right by a lake, it's pretty sweet. Later this week I'll be kayaking like I did the last time we vacationed here, and we'll be visiting the Sleeping Bear Dunes again.

Other than that it's pretty cool, I've been working on Scog a lot, it's sort of killing my brain.

...that's... it, really. After I get back on the 16th, I'll have a few more hours of work and then bam, I move in to college (the 19th). Classes start back up on the 24th. The reason I'm moving in so early is because my sorority helps freshman move in that Friday. I'm not complaining-- I'm eager to go back to school (sinnnngleeee roooooom), as this is the last semester of college I have that's not, well, student teaching. And I get to see Bean all the time, which is great.

What I'm not looking forward to is being absurdly busy, but I'm really hoping that won't happen. At least not to the extent it did last semester. The fact that I'm not an officer (read: Treasurer) of like 4 clubs anymore will really help. Being treasurer of ASA will probably still kick my ass, but... overall I just hope I stay on top of everything and that it doesn't kill me.

*loses interest and goes back to Scog*

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]]> ~VampireOrchid I am really not productive ever http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26238677/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26238677/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 17:24:35 PDT
Contents May Vary

But at least I'm awesome.

C-c-c-check it. Remember the bag I said I got for my b-day? Well, turns out Think Geek encourages people to submit pictures of the product being used, and every month they choose the best of these submitted pictures, and give whoever took it a $100 gift certificate. DAMN, said I. I MUST ENTER. So I set up this shot, and hey, it made it onto the website! That's a good sign, right? [link]

Here's to hoping I win! $100 to Think Geek would be AMAZING.

FFFF I am such a geek. Also yes, that's the Master Sword and the Ocarina, I own both, thanks to mumsie and good friends.

...and I guess I did do something productive today, I drew for Scog, that counts right ._.

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]]> ~VampireOrchid Is Great Success http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26056284/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/26056284/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 00:32:31 PDT
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So if you missed it, my 21st birthday and my party was on Saturday. Not as many people showed as I was expecting, but it was a blast-- if you're reading this and you came, thank you! You made my night

I got a lot of sweet stuff, including this [link] from my parents that I was really hoping for. It is sweet, let me tell you!

And yes, I drank. No, I didn't get completely smashed. I don't need to, I'm too awesome.

Well I thought I had something more thoughtful to say but I kind of don't... other than that I'm pretty content with life right now. And I took about 60 photos of myself dressed up as a character of mine tonight. Life is good.

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]]> ~VampireOrchid On the Cusp http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25965209/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25965209/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 13:47:00 PDT
Eeeeee! My 21st birthday is four days away! I'm so eager to have my party, see my boyfriend, hang out with friends, and just cut loose and relax! Tomorrow I'm going to go out shopping (I just got another paycheck today, and I feel wealthy), see if I can figure out what I'm going to wear for the party-- the ULTIMATE girly question-- and I am determined to take a bath with some of the Lush products Maddie got me in the winter which have sadly been neglected. AUGH I SO CANNOT WAIT.

My eagerness may be interpreted as due to the fact that I've been working a lot, but really that's not true-- not as true as it was in June. The reason for this is a lengthy and ultimately RETARDED one-- basically, right after I quit Handels, I find out that the manager of the concession stand at the pool took me off the schedule for the entire month. Why? Well, I (ALLEGEDLY) didn't call asking for my hours the first week of July. Of course I'd asked her at the end of June when she was going to get the schedule up (she should have had it at least a week earlier than she did), and beacuse the front desk schedule was basically being fucked up the ass, I called numerous times to figure out when I was working at both locations and generally what the fuckery was even GOING ON. Buuut no-- apparently she hadn't heard from me personally, and the ONE person who also works there she decided to ask said he hadn't heard from me either.

Of course, I wasn't aware of the 'rule', call in for your schedule or suffer. And OF COURSE, despite having both my home AND cell phone number, she decided that OBVIOUSLY I didn't want to keep working there, and was just going to do the front desk instead.

I was livid. I still am-- not at the rules or at the guy that said he hadn't heard I'd called, but at the general IDIOCY and INCOMPETENCE that the whole ordeal displayed. Of course there's nothing I can do about it now-- after this shitfest I hardly even want to talk to her again, much less take orders from her. And honestly, the concession stand was the most inane, annoying, and frustrating job of all three I undertook this summer, because she's an awful manager. So I'm kind of glad I'm not going to be working there anymore.

I just wish that I hadn't quit Handels. If all of this had become revealed to me beforehand, I would have never quit. At least I worked a ton for a month, so even if I have scattered hours in July (all next week I'm not working because people have taken up the spaces already-- such a backass way of writing a schedule, but whatever), and I'll hardly be working in August, at least I have about $500-$600 from June.

And you know, the front desk is EASY AS CRAP. Dealing with stupid people and all their inane questions is the worst part about it. In fact I'm at work RIGHT NOW. I surf facebook and read or draw all the time. And I'm getting paid to do it! Hah!

AND THAT IS MY RANT. Onto other things. I have a blog. NO I AM NOT JOKING THIS IS SRS BSNS. [link] , check it out yo. I can almost garuntee that it won't be over the same topics as this little journal, though I can also garuntee more ramblings. Which is why it's called Rask's Ramblings.

I made a To Do/Goal list last night for things to do with the rest of this summer, both large and small, and HOLY SHIT there's a lot. At least a few things are like, art-related, but GEEZE. I'd better get crackin'.

But first, PARTY TIME!

]]> ~VampireOrchid Linkage http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25805775/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25805775/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 21:02:37 PDT
I quit Handels because my other job (really "jobs") were sucking up so much of my time. So now I just work at the pool, juggling schedules between two different sections, one of which was 'stolen' and they've been fumbling with ever since. It's Wednesday and I still don't know when I'm working this week, so that's awesome.

This past week I got quite a lot of time off work, two days of which I spent with Bean-- though I feel I was tired most of the time. Don't know what was up with that, but hopefully I'll be more awake when I see him next. I used the rest of my free time to jump around between projects; it feels good to make something by myself, for myself, again. I'm re-making my "guild tabard" that I'll wear to the Renaissance Festival this fall, and it's coming along fairly well. It'll be of a much higher quality than the ill-fitting cotton one last year...

Last year's:
[link]
This year's (WIP):
[link]
[link]

I'm also looking into wigs for the outfit, since I'd like to have short hair for it... [link]

And I've begun plotting my outfit for next year. Never satisfied, it seems...

Other than that, Kristin and I have been tackling Scog again; we've already made some improvements to the website ( [link] ), with more to come, and new updates starting in August. Yeah, almost a year later, but at least the artwork has improved (see: [link] ).

Continuing with the randomness, I'm thinking about getting a devart subscription. Thoughts?

EDIT: Chazi got me a subscription for my b-day!

<333 you Chazi!!!

]]> ~VampireOrchid Work work work http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25293740/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25293740/ Sat, 13 Jun 2009 15:41:10 PDT
May Term is done, and I'm working 2 jobs this summer; one is the pool (both front desk and concession stand), and the other is Handels (again). Essentially I'm juggling 3 different schedules, and still trying to find time to actually do summer things, like I don't know, relaxing, or hanging with friends, and so on. I have discovered that at work (particularly the front desk), I have a LOT of free time, so I've started bringing a small sketchpad to work, where I've begun drawing panels for Scog. Whiiiichh is soo far behind schedule and needs to be updated really badly, it's kind of sad really.

If you ever want to know my schedule or when I'm working, whether it be for the week or the month, ask me over Facebook, text me, call me, etc.

Lets see. Started playing WoW again for the summer, yaay. My 21st b-day is coming up in July, which is exciting-- there's an event on facebook for all of you who want to come to C-bus and hang. I'm planning a yard sale with all the stuff that I weeded out between unpacking from college (clothes mostly, but also stuff like posters). I still have some stuff to fully unpack/organize, but at least my room is livable now.

Blarg 8 hour shifts suck. I'm gonna do something mind-numbing now until I feel more awake.

]]> ~VampireOrchid I was forced to do this at gunpoint http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25098989/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25098989/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 23:35:24 PDT

Wrote this meme and demanded I fill it out, so here we are.

Choose five original characters--preferably YOUR original characters! (Let's see if I can't get some variety in here...)

1. Ellen: A nineteen year old sorority girl by day, hunter of the supernatural by night, or you know, whenever the supernatural needs to be taken out. She has two spirit-infused swords (one of which talks to her in her mind), pigtails, and a sharp tongue.

2. Shade: A blind and mild-mannered werewolf, the only thing Shade is able to see are pockets of energy that appear in the form of spirits. He is almost always calm and collected.

3. Rask: A human-turned-demon rogue who flips from being noble and kind to mischievous and thieving at the drop of a hat. Loyal and infused with a sense of honor, he makes a good companion-- just keep an eye on your coin pouch.

4. Vlade: A stoic damphyr (half-vampire) vampire hunter. He is driven by a desire for vengeance against his father, Dracula. Wields two guns and god knows what else.

5: Lee: A quiet, shy blood elf who has been outcast by his race and has had his ears shorn off as a result. He recently fell to the Scourge and became one of Arthas's Death Knights, though he has broken free of the Lich King. He is nearly attached to the hip of an undead mage named Shiro.

6. Jeremy: A green-eyed vampire whose strength lies in his mental abilities. Well-dressed, handsome, and polite, many mistake him as harmless.

1) 3 (Rask) and 5 (Lee) star in their own romance novel. What would it be called, what parts would each play, and how would it end?

(This is what I get for having minimal girl characters)
Rask would be the player, love-'em-and-leave-'em type, that always seems to trump Lee in everything, until Lee finds love with a girl Rask can't seem to seduce. Deception, heartache, and seduction would abound!

2) 4 (Vlade) and 6 (Jeremy) open a corner bistro. What would they call it, and what would be the special, signature dish?

"The Silver Bullet", the signature dish is swift death, less popular is the slow, agonizing death (half off on Tuesday's!)

3) 1 (Ellen) and 2 (Shade) go camping and meet an angry bear. Who gets eaten and who gets away?

I can't see either of them succumbing to something as trivial as a bear XD

4: 3 (Rask) asks 1 (Ellen) for fashion advice. What does 1 (Bran) suggest?

"Pigtails. Definitely pigtails. Here, let me help!" She'd then grab Rask's hair and spend at least an hour putting his hair up into ridiculous fashions.

5) 4 (Vlade) and 2 (Shade) and 6 (Jeremy) end up on a desert island. Who do they eat first, and why?

Well, I think Shade and Jeremy would be eyeing Vlade first, but he'd make it very clear that if they so much as licked their lips he'd put a bullet through their eyes. And since vampire flesh probably tastes like a mummified corpse, it seems Shade is SOL.

6) 5 (Lee), 1 (Ellen), 3 (Rask) and 2 (Shade) get stuck making an act for the school talent show. What do they choose to do?

I could see them doing some sort of acrobatic routine. Shade would either stand in one place or just hold the sign...

7) What would make 6 (Jeremy) squeal like a girl? (If 6 IS a girl, what would make her shriek?)

Mace, after he's broken Jeremy half to hell. He'd make him squeal if he's incensed enough >.>

8) 2 (Shade) wants to rob 4 (Vlade)'s house. How does he/she go about it?

The poor guy could try, but Vlade is a formidable opponent even if you have use of all your senses. Most likely Shade wouldn't even bother...

9) 1 (Ellen) confesses his/her undying devotion to 5 (Lee). What is 5 (Lee)'s reaction? (Because every meme needs a question like that)

Lee: "....?!"
Ellen: "...Lee? What, you alright? Shit, are you choking?!"

10) 3 (Rask) and 4 (Vlade) are mortal enemies. How do they get rid of each other in the end?

That would be an epic battle. They would both take heavy damage, and it'd probably be one of those movies where both opponents die at the end.

11) 2 (Shade), 5 (Lee) and 6 (Jeremy) are fighting over an object. What is it?

A magical item that will grant the user a wish of their choice.

]]> ~VampireOrchid I should be working http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25087048/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25087048/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 11:26:42 PDT Mace: A 500+ year old vampire with multiple personalities. Hobbies include muttering to himself and crushing faces. He's physically a veritable tank, and very protective of the few people he actually cares for.

2.) Rask: A human rogue with a noble side. He wears many masks.

3.) Lee: A shy blood elf who has been outcast by his people before being turned into a Death Knight. His best friend is an undead mage named Shiro, and he'd be in far worse condition without her.

4.) Jath: A blood elf warlock, former mage of Quel'thelas. Shrewd and calculating with a thirst for powerful magic, whoever gets in his way has good reason to be pitied. The only people Jath seems to truly care for are his wife, Celune, and their children.

1.) 1 (Mace) invites 3 (Lee) to a party, but doesn't invite 4 (Jath). How will 4 (Jath) react?

Mace's house inexplicably goes up in flames.

2.) OH NO!!! A robber just stole a precious gem! What will 2 (Rask) do to save the day?

Are you kidding? Rask is the robber. And he'd get away with it too XD

3.) 4 (Jath) is asking 2 (Rask) to go out with them. How will 2 react?

"...you hit yer head or somethin' there, Jath? Mebbe you should lie down fer a bit."

4.) 1 (Mace) is about to eat an old cake. What will 2 (Rask) say.

"Vampires can't eat cake! Jath is hittin' on his wife's brother! Tha whole damn world's gone mad!"

5.) 3 (Lee) is challenged to a battle.

He'd sigh and ready his runed axe, frost cracking off his armor... and wait.

6.) 3 (Lee) gets beaten up. What do they say?

Nothing. He'd just lie there and wait for them to go away. He's very used to being beaten up.

7.) 2 (Rask) gets to go on a vacation of a lifetime.

Probably somewhere with a beach so he could lay out, whistle obnoxiously at all the women in swimsuits, and make some wallets and cameras disappear. And after all of that, he'd totally let some kids bury him in the sand.

8.) 1 (Mace) is taking 4 (Jath) somewhere for their birthday. Where will 1 (Mace) take him?

He'd blindfold him saying the location was a surprise, and then he'd punch him in the face and yell "YOU BURNT DOWN MY HOUSE!"

9.) 3 (Lee) gets to be ruler for a day. What will she do?

He'd totally kick Arthas's ass, cease all of the Forsaken's production of the plauge, and remove the blood elves from the Horde alliance and see how they like being abandoned.

And then he would kick Arthas's ass again.

10.) 1, 2, 3, and 4 decide who will get tagged. who will it be?

Mace looks at

and cracks his knuckles threateningly.
Rask hits

and runs away yelling "Yer it, throw a fit!"
Lee nods shyly toward

.
Jath sets

on fire.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Whoa http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25007050/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/25007050/ Thu, 28 May 2009 23:04:51 PDT [link]

It beckons to me

]]> ~VampireOrchid Rask's Quiz http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/24727116/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/24727116/ Tue, 12 May 2009 19:10:46 PDT 2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!

1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
Rodion Romanovich Raskolnikov, but you can call me Rask... or Rodion... or more recently Romand. Or you can invent a stupid nickname like, lesse... Rasky, Raskol, Rasky-poo, an' prob'ly a few others I'm forgettin', fer good reason.

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
I became a demon at thirty-four, soo... 's been a few years now, I think. Don't age, though-- that's nice.

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
Eh, I'll eat jus' about anythin'. In fact, I have.

4. And your favorite drink?
Heheh, ale. Always ale...

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
Sange, pretty much. *scratches behind an ear* Fer... a while.

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
Heheh, more 'n kissed, if ya know what 'm sayin'.

7. Classic question! What's your favorite colour?
I've got a leanin' toward red.

8. Who's your favorite author?
I've heard this guy named Dostoevsky 's pretty good...

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
Hmm. Losin' Sange, and/or Altsin, my adopted son. Bein' worthless or useless.

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
Hmph... technically Celune's my sister, an' Sange used ta be my brother-- seriously, don't ask. I had a biological sister, Donya, but she's gone now.

11. Almost, it's only twenty questions. Who's your hero?
That's a good question... don't know that I got one, really. I've always been pretty self-reliant...

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
Kieldaz, an' that damn parasite that took him over, Ackerith.

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
Even if I had a hero, he'd be hard pressed ta overcome that damn abomination.

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
Ah, I dunno. We'd talk a lot, I'd reckon. Possibly about knives.

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
I been grown up fer longer 'n you've been alive, most likely! 'm a rogue by trade, though I've also been a Revolutionary... an' now I'm a demon. Funny where life takes ya.

16. What's your worst nightmare?
Bein' forced ta kill Sange or my son... I've had a few like that.

17. What's your lifelong dream?
Ah, I dunno. Do what I can ta make people's lives easier, I suppose... hopefully change somethin' fer tha better.

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
Well that's easy! Celebrate with some ale!

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
I've got a lot by this point, but tha Pig 'n Whistle inn in Old Town is still my favorite. That place holds a lot 'a memories... lot 'a memories.

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Bein' with Sange, nowadays, or helpin' out tha Alliance-- an' Horde, come ta that-- when I can. It's good ta stay in shape.

**

Silly memes aside, May Term (a month of classes) has started up, and though I only have one class, it's a semester's amount of work in a month, so it's likely going to take up a fair amount of my time. Also taking up my time is Bean-face, and I can hardly complain about that. I have stuff to finish and update, including fricking COMMISSIONS, but that'll come in time.

]]> ~VampireOrchid He likes flowers http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/24351384/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/24351384/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 20:43:44 PDT
Girly gushing aside, I have been working on quite a few artistic projects between writing lesson plans, acting in a play, and so on... here are a few examples.

[link] Hex, Bean's character from his comic My Pet Demon (read it here [link] ). Bean and I have decided that Hex likes flowers, like any other demon lord...

[link] Mace with shorter hair, kind of a new version of this [link]

And then there's my double-picture of Ellen, my character from World of Darkness, which my drawing teacher will not stop complimenting me on. Haven't scanned or photographed those yet, when I do they'll be posted. She's pretty badass.

Of course there's Scog, I suppose, and a few other comic ideas I have which primarily revolve around Mace and Jeremy. In the meantime, there's finals coming up really soon, a sorority budget to figure out, and a play to finish.

Hope everything's going well for everyone else, just wanted to give a quick update of general goings-ons.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Happiness... is a loaded gun http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/23992625/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/23992625/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 19:13:28 PDT
Sooo hello everyone. Hard to really go into detail with all that's happening since there's so much of it. Overall I am happy and satisfied and just busy, sooo busy.

I'm registered for classes (except for my directed study, but I can register for that anytime). I am quite pleased with the few projects in sculpture I have going, and hopefully will find the motivation and the time (oh the time) to begin bigger projects for drawing. And painting! I may actually paint something this semester! I should, at least, considering I'm in that class.

I am dating someone, and I very much like him, and I am very much excited. Yes. I played Ultimate Frisbee with him. In the rain and wind. I had a good time, and I didn't suck horribly (bonus!).

The play I have a minor role in is in full swing, it's called "Two Precious Maidens Ridiculed", and it's coming along very nicely.

I have a lot of emails to send out... my phone's inner screen won't light up... among other things, but overall things are going pretty well, even when I'm busy it's not that bad. At least it's mostly stuff I want to do.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Fine. http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/23736982/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/23736982/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 20:06:12 PDT
As a quick update... I met with my education adviser today, and we figured out that I will, in fact, graduate on time. I've been worried since before Winter Break about this, since I felt I still had a ton of classes to take, and was irritated that the education department requires me to take more/different art classes to get my teaching license than the art department requires for an art major. But it turns out taking 17+ credit hours did pay off, and I'm going to (hopefully) have only student teaching next Spring. I do need to stay on campus for our May term (basically a month of a few classes you pay extra for), because the Graphic Design I need is only offered in the spring term each year... but oh well. It's a small price to pay, I suppose.

Right now I'm hoping to get out of taking Painting II-- my transcript says I've taken Painting I and am currently in Painting III-- figure that out. I need both Painting II and III to graduate, but you'd think that since my prof put me in Painting III (and doesn't seem to care either way) that I'd be exempt from Painting II. Unfortunately that official decision has to go through the art department head... who I hope won't fight that too much. If I don't have to take Painting next semester, that frees up enough time to take my Art Seminar, which would be awesome and free up my time next spring immensely.

I also hope to convince him to allow me take what's called "Creative Problems", and is basically an independent art class, where we just create stuff on our own and have a professor review it once in a while. It's what I've been wanting to do this whole year.

On that note, my art classes are still irritating me, but there's really nothing I can do but stick it out and try to make the best of them. We're at least drawing real people in my drawing class (a few of these sketches have been put up here).

Other than all of my classes, I also have other fun things like my sorority's chapter finances (which have been really fucked over thanks to the previous exec board) to deal with, which is awesome. Not to mention doing all of the grunt work for Muskie Players (buying and ordering and picking up things). Pretty soon I get to plan an event-- a Masquerade Ball-- and I'll be damned if I'm buying the food for that. Someone else needs to learn how to do that stuff.

What's probably the most irritating of all of this is the lack of time I have to pursue my own projects. I can handle everything, and keep on top of all of it (mostly), and it's not nearly as much as some people are handling, but-- I like having time to just chill or do whatever I want. I don't think I've gotten more than 5 or 6 hours of sleep a night since Spring Break, mostly because I use my time at night to just relax.

Anyway I will stop ranting now... this turned out rather negative, actually. There are positive things going on, I promise... I'm just frustrated with people and things right now. I hope it'll slow down soon... relatively soon? Maybe?

]]> ~VampireOrchid NO I will not do anything else http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/23652412/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/23652412/ Wed, 11 Mar 2009 22:34:54 PDT
1- Jath (WoW: Blood elf warlock, former mage, with a hot temper)
2- Angel (Mostly vampire, some human; her outward innocence belies how dangerous she is)
3- Jeremy (Thoughtful and reserved vampire who specializes in mental powers)
4- Dracula (Âking of vampires, enough said)
5- Shade (A blind werewolf who sees spirits)
6- Eylsie (JeremyÂs brother, kind and nurturing)
7- Mace (Old and physically strong vampire who has multiple personalities)
8- Keelian (WoW: Undead mage, JathÂs former rival)
9- Ray (A junkie werewolf)
10- LeeÂrho (WoW: Blood elf death knight who, before dying, was outcast by his people, his ears shorn)
11- Rask (WoW: Once human, now demon rogue)
12- Ellen (WoD: Smartass sorority girl turned hunter of the supernatural, prefers a gun and a sledgehammer to kill things with)
13- Vlade (DraculaÂs son, powerful and apparently emotionless vampire hunter)
14- MiÂrhi (LeeÂrhoÂs sister, blood elf tailor)

1. 9(Ray), 3(Jeremy), 12(Ellen), and 5(Shade) are going to fight a dragon. Who gets eaten, who runs away, who steals the treasure while everyone else is fighting, and who slays the dragon?

Shade would probably get eaten considering heÂs blindÂ Ray would steal the treasure, Jeremy would of all of them be the most likely to run, and Ellen would totally slay the dragon. With her gun, curses, and insults.

2. If 13(Vlade) could strap any of the other characters to a chair and torture them, who would it be, what methods would they use, and why would they do it?

Dracula, without a doubt. Lots of silver, crosses, ancient runes of power, damn near everything he could get his hands on. As for whyÂhe hates his father with an unbridled passion.

3. If 4(Dracula) were to employ a mad scientist, what would 4(Dracula) have them create, destroy, ect...?

A super vampire that could go out in sunlight and be generally even more powerful than they already are.

4. What does 8(Keelian) think of true love?

A pastime for the living. He didnÂt find it in his life, and now heÂs much to enamored with his trinkets and books to really care. Sure, heÂll flirt with some blood elf girls in his free time, but thatÂs mostly to laugh at their reactions.

5. 2(Angel), 14(MiÂrhi) and 10(LeeÂrho) just learned that 1(Jath) was kidnapped by a band of pirates and is being held for ransom. Who would help pay the ransom, who would try to save 1(Jath) by themselves, and who wouldn't do anything?

MiÂrhi would try and pay, LeeÂrho would probably try and do it himself because heÂs got that dead-between-the-ears death knight tank mentality, and Angel would just sit back and watch. She doesnÂt really know Jath, so she may not care.

6. 6(Eylsie) begins to stalk 7(Mace). Why and does anything happen?

I think the end result would be a very uncomfortable, hulking Mace sitting in a vanity chair as Eylsie brushed his hair. (ItÂs long

)

7. 11(Rask), 8(Keelian), and 5(Shade) audition for a play. Who gets the lead part, who is the villain, and who gets stuck as the stage prop?

Rask would totally be the lead, Lord knows heÂs got the charisma for it. Keelian would be the villan, being undead and quite villainous himself at timesÂand Shade, the poor blind pup, would just be a prop, like, ÂHere, just stand there and try not to knock anything over.Â

8. 2(Angel) decides to go BASE jumping with 13(Vlade). Before 2(Angle) jumps off the designated cliff 13(Vlade) takes 2(Angel)Âs only parachute. Does 13(Vlade) have an explanation?

ÂShe took me base jumping when I could have been killing vampires.Â

9. 9(Ray) has been given a love potion. If they had to choose 1(Jath), 14(MiÂrhi), 7(Mace), or 10(LeeÂrho) who would they use it on?

ÂMan, I dunno, IÂm kinda torn, know what IÂm sayinÂ? These are some pretty girlsÂÂ

Mace, Lee, and Jath: ÂIÂM A MAN!Â

10. 11(Rask) steals 12(Ellen)'s most prized possession. Does 12(Ellen) forgive 11(Rask) or, will 12(Ellen) hold an everlasting grudge against 11(Rask)?

This could go one of two ways.
1. Rask steals EllenÂs sledgehammer. She promptly shoots him in the face and curses about demons.
2. Rask steals EllenÂs gunÂshe comes after him, but his charisma, good looks, and knowledge in the way of fighting would be useful to her, and theyÂd at least tolerate each other, if not become friends.

11. While on an innocent walk through the... ]]> ~VampireOrchid Another Meme http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/23507689/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/23507689/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 13:38:19 PST

I. Mace
II. Jath
III. Dracula
IV. Jeremy
V. Shade
VI. Lee'rho
VII. Vlade
VIII. Rask
IX. Keelian
X. Ray

I. Seven (Vlade) and Eight (Rask) plan a heist. What sort of heist might that be?
Some sort of religious artifact that Vlade would want to use to kill vampires. Rask would be along for the kicks.

II. Four (Jeremy) gets kidnapped! Is One (Mace) or Nine (Keelian) the more likely culprit?
Bah ha ha. I would say Mace (before they came friends-ish) for the simple fact that he could probably beat Jeremy up... but Keelian is crafy and has magic. He has PLANS.

III. Six (Lee'rho) challenges Five (Shade) to a chess game. What happens?
Awkward silence mostly... Shade wouldn't be able to see the chess board. (He's blind)

IV. Who doesn't like to play Pokemon? I bet Ten (Ray) has some great Pokemon! What are they?
Ray may have collected Pokemon at one time, but he sold them all when he was older for drug money. >.> but for hilarity's sake... ZAPDOOOOSSS

V. How does Three (Dracula) like to gussy up for a date?
...the idea of Dracula... going on a 'date'... kind of hurts my brain. We'll say he dresses like Marilyn Manson and douses himself in blood.

VI. Five (Shade) and Two (Jath) take a leisurely vacation together. Where do they go?
Jath would probably pick somewhere like a city with lots of museums and libraries, and tire quickly of the fact that Shade couldn't see any of the glorious information before them.

VII. Nine (Keelian) prepares dinner for Six (Lee'rho)! What do they make?
Keelian would try and make something, but would grow frustrated because the maggots that like to reside in him would keep falling into whatever he was making. So Lee would probably end up with maggot bread, and when he tried to protest Keelian would just be like, "You're dead now, you'd better get used to maggots sooner or later!" And storm off in frustration.

VIII. Ten (Ray) and Three (Dracula) team up. What happens?
Horrible, horrible things... and lots of cursing.

IX. Seven (Vlade), Ten (Ray), Eight (Rask), and One (Mace) all have a sitcom together. What is it called?
Team Awesome

X. Is One (Mace) more accustomed to tangoing, waltzing, or freestyling?
BAH HAH HAH. Freestyling... and by freestyling I mean dancing in a ridiculously crazy fashion for no apparent reason, to music no one else hears...

XI. Seven (Vlade) hits on Four (Jeremy). Result?
Some petty awful fanfiction.

XII. Two (Jath) is offered an elephant ride or a balloon ride. He/she takes...
Balloon ride, 1. Because it involves fire and 2. Because he can chuck fireballs down on anyone below that pisses him off.

XIII. What is Ten's (Ray) greatest burden?
Too many drugs to try and ignore too many problems...

XIV. Eight (Rask), Three (Dracula), Five (Shade), and One (Mace) go out boozing. What happens?
Shade would be bartending, first of all... Dracula would be flirting with everyone in the bar (yes, everyone), Mace would be in a corner muttering about filth and pigs, and Rask would be singing karaoke. Not much of a group activity, that.

XV. And finally, would Six (Lee'rho) save Four (Jeremy) or Nine (Keelian), if they were both in great danger and he/she could only save one?
Jeremy was probably nicer to Lee, but Shiro might get mad at him if he doesn't save Keelian... Nah, going with the nicer one. He has a family, anyway.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Restless http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/23370987/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/23370987/ Mon, 23 Feb 2009 19:31:34 PST
Spring Break to do list
* Color the kid's book pages
* Scog pages
* Commissions
* Sketch down some recurring ideas for paintings/larger projects
* Buy canvas
* RP with Kristin!
* Make stuff for my ASA little
* Make ASA new member signs
* Catch up on any school work
* Do observation hours
* Melissa's b-day deal

I don't have enough words to complete this, help me out plox. [link]

**
Looking over old sketchbooks and stuff I wrote when I was younger made me miss the time when relaxing and creative loafing was perfectly alright-- indeed, expected. As I've grown, I've been (as is typical for this society) closed into classrooms and expected to learn facts, to listen to the perspectives and sciences of people who have come before me. I have grown so busy with activities that only call on the most basic knowledge functioning (memory recall and effectively crunching numbers) that by the time I sit down to do something creative, I feel exhausted.

I was asked earlier tonight what my biggest fear was, and thinking back I should have answered that it was falling into a rut; to do only things that have been done before; to be uncreative, uninspiring, listless. I have good ideas that occur to me between walking to class or driving to run errands, but have no opportunity to act on them.

My college has one of the best education programs in the country, or at very least the state, but all I have done is listened to lectures, read textbooks, and observed a teacher in a classroom. All of these things are important, but what about practical experience? Simply teaching my fellow classmates is not the same as teaching a bunch of actual students, is not the same as having a classroom as your own. I'm worried that I'll feel unprepared in the 'real world', no matter how many observation hours I log. I'm worried I won't be able to actually teach students the important things about art, or that I'll teach them wrong.

I'm sure student teaching in a year will help with that, but I can't help but worry about it now. I feel I've hardly progressed in my art in months, perhaps even a year. Looking at my gallery here speaks loudly of just how little I've accomplished. I wish my art classes here were worthwhile, that my teachers didn't simply waste my time and doubt my abilities (creatively and functionally) every step of the way. I'm an art ed major that hardly spends any time in the art buildings because I feel that I'm not advancing either because I'm not being taught, or because I'm not being allowed to teach myself.

The point I think I'm driving at is the struggle, or the balance, between structured, traditional learning (i.e, lectures, the principles of art, etc) and individual experimentation and creation, in both the art and education fields. Both are equally important, and to have a professor that encourages one while ignoring the other is terribly frustrating and discouraging.

On a more positive note, I feel I've taken on a lot of responsibility so far this semester, and am doing well with it; I'm staying on top of things (mostly-- the problem I've been rambling about leads to dreadful apathy), and generally have more self-discipline as far as actually getting up and getting things done goes. I hope this carries over to the creative field-- you know, when the concrete realm gives me a freaking break.

]]> ~VampireOrchid 10 Doodle Exercise http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/22963598/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/22963598/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 18:41:16 PST
ANYWAY THIS THING WAS NEAT. It's 's idea, the template is here [link]

First ten people! Reply with ONE word. Something you want me to doodle. Just one word. Not hyphenated-to-be-funny-and-include-more-words, not allruntogether. Just one word, like "tree" or "red."

I will draw a doodle for each of the words given in the squares on the template. Should be fun!

GIVE ME WORDS NOW KTHXBAI.

(OH ALSO I HIT 80 YAAAAAAYYYYY)

Edit: I still need 5 more words!!!! D:

]]> ~VampireOrchid Real Journal (as promised) http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/22756724/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/22756724/ Fri, 23 Jan 2009 10:12:49 PST
Tonight is the final party of Formal Recruitment for my sorority (AKA Rush). If you've never been in Greek life or heard of this week, it's basically a week where everyone's running around freaking out over little things. A bunch of independent girls go through Rush, which is a week of (formal) parties held by each sorority. As the week goes on, the girls narrow down where they want to go back to, which is further narrowed by which groups accept them back. By the fourth night (tonight), you have the girls that are highly interested in your sorority but are probably torn between yours and another, so you basically do everything within your power to convince them to join here, if you feel they would fit there.

BUT BASICALLY it's all very hectic. I never went through Rush myself, I was invited into the sorority separately, and I'm kind of glad for that. A lot of the sororities put on a fake front (not mine-- we just dress up nice), or ignore some people at their parties altogether.

Anyway. Also happening this week-- tomorrow, actually-- is Kristin leaving for Japan She's leaving on the same day as when we get our new members (Bid Day) so I'm going to have conflicting emotions. I'M GOING TO MISS YOU KRISTIN D:

And I also have a growing mountain of homework to keep me busy through this weekend. My classes are intense, but... it's actually stuff I'm interested in, so I guess that's nice. Hopefully I'll get a lot of projects done in my painting, sculpture, and drawing classes that I can post up here.

That's the plan... rule the world... you and me, any day.

That reminds me, Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog [link] is the best thing ever and I can't stop watching it. I've watched it like at least 30 times by now, and bought the soundtrack a few weeks ago. YES I AM LATE ON THIS INTERNET FAD BUT IT'S STILL AWESOME LEAVE ME ALONE. I really can't get over it... I keep pestering my friends at college, asking if they've seen it yet. I've already asked a few people twice. I suspect I will keep asking until they see it.

ANYWAY. Comissions. I know, I owe people commissions. I'm working on it, I SWEAR... Most of them have already been started. Right now, other than all the other crap I've already mentioned, I'm trying to bust my ass on Scog pages [link] so we can start updating again. Yes, it's not dead. And I have like NOT NEARLY ENOUGH time to draw... RRGHGHH. I swear, Rush... I will get you back. I will stab you dead.

(Good news is that next semester I won't have to deal with Rush, I'll be on special status doing my student teaching oh wait that'll probably be way more work)

THE END

]]> ~VampireOrchid Character Meme http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/22472793/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/22472793/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 15:40:03 PST
Name 12 of your original characters.

I. Rask
II. Vlade
III. Jath
IV. Zeta (eh heh heh)
V. Mace
VI. Eylsie
VII. Jeremy
VIII. Nituna
IX. Clay
X. Tora (bweh heh heh)
XI. Lee'rho
XII. Dracula

I. I (Rask), VI (Eylsie), and XI (Lee'rho) are all told to wait in a room together until someone comes in to get them. Let's say no one does. Who would leave the room first?

Rask would totally be like "Feck this shit" way before Eylsie or Lee. He's used to diabolical (though perhaps lame) plots to end his life, so usually whatever someone tells him to do, he does the opposite of.

II. If II (Vlade) had to do one nice thing for VIII (Nituna), what would it be?

I didn't even plan this either. Well. Nituna has a humongous crush on the emotional void that is Vlade; all he'd have to do was smile at her and the poor girl would melt.

III. If IV (Zeta) and VII (Jeremy) co-starred in a movie, what genre would it most likely fall under?

LOL. Action, probably. Oh man, I would so see that movie. They'd just kick ass all the time, except for when they were womanizing.

IX. If III (Jath) was made into a toy, who would be more likely to buy it? IX (Clay) or X (Tora)?

I think Tora would see one and be all, "ohh, it's so cute!" *cuddles toy*

...*really wants a Jath plushie now*

V. Would V (Mace) be likely to consider stalking XII (Dracula) or vise versa?

Ummm I'm pretty sure Dracula would be the one stalking Mace, probably just for the hell of it. Dracula himself is un-stalkable, being the ultimate creeper.

VI. What would VI (Eylsie) make the better star of? An anime or a newspaper comic strip?

Hard to say. I could imagine her in a "Tina's Groove" kind of strip, as the quirky and highly fashionable main character who is great at making witty comments and solutions for other people's problems.

VII. VIII (Nituna) wants to buy a car but can't decide who offers a better bargain. Should (s)he buy from II (Vlade) or XI (Lee'rho)?

She'd buy from Vlade, because buying from him means more time to stare at his muscles.

VIII. If V (Mace) wanted to dye his or her hair but could not decide on the color, would (s)he rely on I's (Rask's) opinion or IV's (Zeta's)?

Here's how I imagine this conversation would break down.
Mace: "Guys what color should I dye my hair, oh my god." (because he is totally effeminite and everything. Yeah.)
Rask: "Eh... I dunno... black maybe?"
Zeta: "You can't dye it black, damn it, my hair is black. Dye it purple or something."
Mace: "But--"
Zeta: *glare*
Mace: "...kay."

IX. Whose babies would be cuter? XII (Dracula) and III's (Jath) or IX (Clay) and II's (Vlade)? (If it is impossible for them to breed because of gender or species, just go with it and pretend that it was possible, please.)

I think my brain just melted.

Dracula and Jath's babies would be possibly the most dangerous and evil things ever. They would, however, be adorable. ...and evil.

Clay and Vlade... Man, those kids would be messed up.

X. Who would have a DeviantArt account; and if not, what would their reason be?

Dracula totally would. To look at pictures people draw of him.
Mace doesn't know how to work a computer, so...
And as for everyone else, I doubt they care at all.

I tag whoever wants to do this. The End!

]]> ~VampireOrchid I'm so fricking tired http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/22335211/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/22335211/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 14:54:31 PST
Spent last night table-topping with a bunch of friends from college... about a 2 hour drive to get there. Annnd come 5:30 we were wide awake so Kristin and I decided to drive back without sleeping. Mind, I was falling asleep in the car on the way there, so by the time I got home I felt like just passing out-- which I basically did, and my mom just woke me up at about oh, 5pm. Yeah.

All in all it was a great New Years... I'm just too tired to seem excited, lol.

I also don't make resolutions. I may have tried once but by March I'd forgotten what it was. I figure I'll just go with constantly trying to better myself to be safe. Maybe not as much procrastinating.

Sooo commissions, yeah. Still working on those, I've started on a few but Christmas really bogged me down on that front. Christmas bogged me down on a lot of fronts actually. I figured that I'd do like all this stuff over break and now I almost feel more behind; oh well. It's been fun anyway, and I still have a little more than a week. I did get my Christmas presents done, save one, but I -am- working on it, whether you care or not, Tim.

Now... I need to hit 77 and try and think of some extension for the Vampire the Masquerade plot for tomorrow... nughh...

*passes out on laptop*

]]> ~VampireOrchid Projects and Home http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21955842/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21955842/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 22:53:23 PST
I did forget my wallet at college though, because I'm awesome like that. It's lurking in the pocket of a jacket I decided not to take home with me. /sigh

So! Now that I'm home, I plan on focusing on drawing, WoW, getting presents and commissions done, hanging with friends, more WoW, and even more drawing ^_^

LISTS...

Current Commissions
Rachel: 11 small drawings of a Project QoA avatar through its different phases. Markers. $20. STARTED
Tim: Thor fighting Cthulhu. 11 x 14, pencil, $15-20
Sean: Himself as Captain Marvel, poster size, pencil? ~$30. ROUGH SKETCH
Erin: Cartoon portraits of our friends. Pencil (possibly tablet?). 11x14. $10-15
Chazi: Art trade: Lee/Shiro

Christmas Presents
Drawn
Adam DONE [link]
Tim (sketched)
Chazi DONE [link]
Kris DONE [link]
Tereanna
Other
Dad (done)
Mom (done)
Melissa (done)
ASA sisters (done)
Kristin (done)
Erin (just waiting for it to arrive... still...)
Bean/Zach/John/gaming crew (cookies! and stuff...)

If I missed anyone that reads this or if you, I don't know, expect a present from me, please let me know ; I feel so unorganized around the holidays... and if you're one of those people, please also tell me things you want, or if you'd like a drawing, what you'd like. I'm trying not to overload myself on drawings this year though.

Anyway. There it is.

Hope everyone has and had a great Christmas!

]]> ~VampireOrchid Insert Title Here http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21761854/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21761854/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 19:25:36 PST

For previous comission info visit [link]

What I've found with pricing so far is that pencil, pen or tablet drawings of reasonable size (9x12-11x14) are at the $15-25 range, with anything larger or of another medium will go up from there.

The main reason for this is time; I originally wanted to kind of have a fixed rate of, say, $6/hour, but I understand that people want to know the price before they agree to commission something, not to mention it may be hard to trust someone's word on how long they took to complete something. So, until I find a better way of doing things, I figure I'll guesstimate how long it would take me to do something and calculate that at $6/hour. It may be imperfect, but it should work for now. I'm just happy people have responded XD Thank you, guys!

Which leads me to this list... if you think something is missing or want to change any part of your commission, please let me know.

Current Comissions
Rachel: 11 small drawings of a Project QoA avatar through its different phases. Markers. $20
Tim: Thor fighting Cthulhu. 11 x 14, pencil, $15-20
Sean: Himself as Captain Marvel, poster size, pencil? ~$30
Erin: Cartoon portraits of our friends. Pencil (possibly tablet?). 11x14. $10-15
Chazi: Art trade: Lee/Shiro

EDIT: So this is awesome
Last night my laptop suddenly switched to using the battery, though it was plugged into the wall. I've tried starting it up without the battery, plugged into different outlets, making sure it was plugged in, etc. Nothing seems to work. After 2 years I guess it just finally died... and now I need a new one. My college supports Gateway so I should be able to get a new one, but until then I really have no way to charge my laptop battery or get power into it, soo... if I was working on a commission or project on my laptop, I have to put that on hold until I get a new power cord. Incidentally, if something like this has happened to you, let me know how you maybe fixed it? Any info is useful. I'm going to go bother the campus computer guys when I get a free moment. Soo, just thought I'd let you all know. And of course this had to happen just before finals week. Way to go, technology.

EDIT EDIT: My Big is awesome. Unlike technology.
I told my big (ASA sister) Maxine about my problem and she said that sometimes dust gets trapped in the plug parts, so she blew on the places where it plugs in and-- a miracle! It works now so, no need to fear anymore. I <3 my Big and her blowing skills, lol.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Comissions http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21443778/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21443778/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 18:13:41 PST
COMMISSIONS... I AM OPEN FOR THEM.
Got a character you'd like to see drawn, or some fanart, or really about anything? PLEASE don't hesitate to send me a note about any ideas you may have for me to draw!

Right now I have a feeling that such commissions will be cheap, unless for some reason it takes a lot more time/resources to do. Payment will be discussed privately-- I'm not to the point of marking my stuff publicly yet.

Medium that I can easily do include:
Pencil
[link]
[link]
Ink
[link]
[link]
Digital (photoshop + tablet)
[link]
Markers
[link]
Colored Pencils
[link]
Any combination thereof!

Colored items will most likely be more expensive, but again, I'm trying to keep everything cheap until I have a reason to raise the prices.

I have particular familiarity with World of Warcraft and Hellsing, and mostly anything including vampires, faeries, elves, dragons, or fantasy creatures. I can do realistic or cartoonish; again, just note me with what you're thinking and we'll work something out!

]]> ~VampireOrchid So Anyway http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21364349/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21364349/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 20:23:33 PST
Speaking of God, the One Act play I'm in (which premiers on Wednesday-- oh god) is quite humorous, though it has quite a few flaws. The one acts are all part of a directing class, where each student has to direct their own One Act play, and basically do everything for it. As you may recall, Kristin and I wrote and directed a One Act back in high school, so I sympathize with these guys. And criticize them a bit, but hey. It's a tough job. I also found it tough at first to get back into the motions of acting; in improv, you don't have to remember lines or blocking or cues. I'm doing alright though, and I do really like the play and the character I was cast as; again, it's a comedy/satire, so it's really right up my alley.

Another thing I'd forgotten about being involved in theater is how fricking TIME CONSUMING it is. Yesterday I packed myself a sandwich because I literally didn't have time for dinner between rehearsal and some other stuff, and tonight I went right from a two hour rehearsal to an improv show. IT'S CRAZY. Theater involved activities are taking over my life-- as are tests, apparently. I have three this week. Shoot me in the face.

Buuuut this is all rather trivial things... onto more stuff you may actually care about. The webcomic, Scog, that Kristin and I do is in fact not dead, but has hit a bit of a block, not only because of the overall hecticness of our lives but also because of shit generally going down the past few weeks. It's the end of the chapter, which actually came up on us a lot quicker than expected, so it's a kind of easy point to stop and re-evaluate how things are going so far. But it's still going, I promise.

And though this may seem a lofty topic after just spewing out how busy I've been, I've really been considering attempting a comic of my own, probably a short one, involving one of my characters. I don't know exactly what yet (feel free to give me some input!), but I do know it'd be quite different from Scog. There's absolutely nothing wrong with Scog, and don't think that's why I'm considering this; I just feel I should be exploring boundaries and figuring out what works and what doesn't, not only in art but in storytelling.

Sooo that may or may not be something I start in the near future, we'll have to see. But there's another subject I've been meaning to breech for a time, and that is of commissions. Yes, commissions. I could really use some extra cash, and I really don't like the idea of heaping a day job onto my schedule, but I figure if I'm going into art I should be drawing more, and being paid to do that would just be awesome. So. If there's something-- anything-- you'd like to see me do, please contact me through a note here on devart. For now prices are open to negotiation, as are mediums, size, number of characters, etc-- I don't feel in any condition to try and determine that all now.

This has turned out to be quite the sizable entry, but... if nothing else, take from it that I am open to commissions of any kind within my ability, PLEASE contact me with any inquiries or requests you may have.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Yes http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21328888/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21328888/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 21:10:58 PST
]]> ~VampireOrchid Another Long and Tedious Journal http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21218531/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21218531/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 14:46:00 PDT
At first it seems really callous, and against what I've been told or been telling myself my whole life. "Yeah, this is all really stressful, but at least I have shelter, food, etc, etc; some people don't! Why am I focusing on all of these relatively meaningless things?!". In the end I don't think that kind of attitude really helps; it's good to put things in perspective, yes. To realize that not everyone is upper middle class, has privileges you have, etc-- but that doesn't mean that I should feel like my physics test or a fight I had with a friend isn't important, or doesn't matter.

I have been far from content this past, oh... week? Two weeks? I mentioned in my last journal that I tend to bottle things in, to not clue other people in on how I feel, and part of it has been what this friend of mine was going off about. I don't feel that it's important. And it is. It's terribly important; I hope I never hold myself back again. I've been so afraid of complaining, but the truth is that I need to strike a balance (as with all things in life). To not complain about anything seems like a very noble goal, but in truth I believe it ends up hurting more than it helps. Maybe you won't complain, but that doesn't mean you won't still be a bitter person. Perhaps the trick is to work on how and when we complain, not if we do or not.

Switching topics a bit... I've been having the issue of what makes a friend a friend for a while now. We've all had those 'fair-weather friends', the ones who are there in the good times but can't be found to help in the bad ones. Those I consider more acquaintances than true friends. True friends are people who know you better than you know yourself, and who accept you no matter who 'yourself' may be; real friends are a positive influence, not a negative one. They support you, not tear you down to make themselves higher. Real friends are concerned-- really concerned-- about how you feel, what you're doing, what you're interested in. They don't judge. They don't demean. They try their best to relieve stress, not add it.

A year or even a few months ago, if you asked me about any tiffs or fights I'd had with any of the friends I have, I would probably mostly relate the cause of those struggles, at least in part, back to myself, while still standing by the definition of a friend above, and claiming that the friends I had struggled with still matched those qualities. The fault was mine, no way was the cause of the argument due to the fact that they weren't good friends.

But over the past months, it's become more and more apparent that some friends I would defend-- freverently defend, even to myself-- do not, in fact, match those qualities, whether in part or whole. A few times this week it's felt like my whole sense of the world has flip-flopped; people I considered more acquaintances have proven themselves better friends than those I held closest to me. My own definition of what a friend should be has trailed me, forcing me to question if I really believe in it, or if I'm just fooling myself.

Of course it's always good to have a second opinion, and by my count I have a fourth. It's been eye-opening to be explaining to people what's been stressing me out in my life and them reacting the way they have been; like friends. Like people who actually care.

A lot of things have been disjointed and out of whack these last few weeks... in some ways it feels like things have fallen apart. I've hurt and felt sadder and more alone than I think I have been since the height of my adolescent years (where I would feel depressed for no reason). So apologies for the really long, tiresome journals; I don't know if they're going to go back to nonsensical jokes and fleeting details of my life or not, but if you have been one of those people that have stuck by my side, you have my eternal gratitude, because you have proven to fit my definition of a true friend, and I couldn't be happier for it. Thank you.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Philosophies http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21144186/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21144186/ Fri, 24 Oct 2008 17:34:45 PDT
I wish I wasn't right about that. Or at least, I wish there was more than a few exceptions where that was wrong. And even though I can count those people on one hand, thank god for them... because just having someone to talk to is half the battle. You know, talking (fancy that).

So in this week of (more or less) isolation, I've been thinking a lot. There's a painting we studied in Art History by Gaughin called "Where did we come from? What are we? Where are we going?", and that pretty much sums up the questions that have been running through my mind recently. How does my past weigh with my present? How will my present influence my future? This isn't the first time I've addressed these questions, of course, but this may very well be one of the most meaningful times I will, because it wasn't a reassurance of what I already knew, a lot has changed (and yet nothing seems to have)... And I understand if ya'll don't read this, I really don't care. I'm not looking for responses...

I have a problem articulating my thoughts verbally unless I think them through (or not censoring things at all, like in improv). I remember having speech lessons as a kid... I still mix up words, switch them around, and struggle to say what I want to. I wish there was some sort of brain-frequency people could tune their heads into, so I could communicate what I was thinking without having to speak it. I feel stupid when I do that kind of stuff; I feel slow, or at least, I think others think me as slow, and therefore I just become reduced to this airheaded, slow person that allows herself to be made fun of (self-fulfilling prophecy). I can deal with verbal words, I just don't believe I can sometimes.

Probably why I'd rather sit at a computer and communicate through that. Probably why I enjoyed-- loved-- running a guild in World of Warcraft for so long. I could be carrying on multiple conversations at once, with differing tones. I could stop, take a breath, and then diffuse an argument. I could express what I wanted to say clearly. And if I got upset, no one had to see it, because if there's something I hate, it's being physically upset and having people know it. No one had to know... and of course, at the end of the night, I could log off, and those people couldn't touch me anymore.

And maybe that sounds cowardly, but sometimes it's better than having people who can find you and perpetuate something when you just want to think. Plus, I have never, ever, logged off in the middle of some sort of conflict. I am not -that- kind of coward. I at least allow the other person a voice to debate with-- and I try and see what they're talking about just as much as I try to get them to see what I'm talking about. It's called listening, and I do it very well...

So well, I may not talk much at all at times. I guess I figure if the person doesn't have the common decency to let me speak, they won't listen to what I have to say anyway.

And I admit when I'm wrong. I apologize when I'm wrong, or even if I'm right. I take responsibility for it-- I don't push my bad behavior on other people.

Where did we come from... I have secret words and pictures and memories that no one has bothered to listen to yet... I said a few journals back that I didn't want to date, and the truth of the matter is... if the right person came along, I think I would want to spend all of my time with him. I suppose I meant I don't want to waste my time... when it's right, I think I'll know. And I'll be so, so happy.

As for where I'm going, the best answer I can conclude is that I'm simply going forward. Scheduling for next semester is coming up soon... I talked to my art professor about what I need to graduate, and after I graduate, I know I want to teach. And maybe after I've got some experience, I'll go back and teach in college. Teach about teaching. I'm going to continue stretching myself as an artist, not just someone who doodles pretty pictures of elves.

And most of all, I'm not going to hold onto things that aren't important to me anymore. I'm not going to wait around for things that aren't healthy for me anymore. I'm going forward-- every else will just have to keep up.

]]> ~VampireOrchid I don't really know anymore http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21063844/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/21063844/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 13:10:18 PDT
Homecoming went well, I danced, and I was proud of myself and of my sorority, because I really did have fun with it. I'm glad I joined ASA, even if it's for stupid reasons.

Oh, and the Twilight series-- there are no words... it's like this author just took all of the ideas I've ever had and made a book, but she made my ideas better, and wrote it better than I ever ever could. Everything was planned from the beginning-- nothing is there for no reason-- and it's not just about the romance or the thrill of vampires or whatever else people have been saying. It's just a story, and I like it because it demands I lose myself in it, and that's all one can ask of a story anymore.

I want to say something important, maybe something real and bitter, but I don't know how to say things very well anymore so I'm just going to shut up and paint, because at least I understand things there.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Artist Q&A http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/20892113/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/20892113/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 15:26:07 PDT
1] What is your pen name?
VampireOrchid, but I like/use Rask more.

2] How did you get the name?
Crime and Punishment by Dostoyevsky is one of my favorite books, and to prove it I made a character in World of Warcraft named Raskolnikov. Started rping with him and two years later heÂs now my very own Rask, more a reflection of myself than I like to admit. ItÂs short, to the point, and itÂs stuck, so.

As for VampireOrchid, uhhhÂ I like vampiresÂ and orchidsÂ I distinctly recall the inspiration for the orchid part coming from a Nirvana song (meat eating orchids forgive no one just yet). I chose it during high school, so it was bound to be stupid.

3] Do you use PC or Mac?
Primarily PCÂs, but my first experience with computers was with the Mac genre. I hear theyÂre way spiffier now than when I was a kid, and in the future I may end up buying one.

4] What software you use most often?
Photoshop CS3 and IllustratorÂ still working on the digital media.

5] Do you use mouse, or tablet?
Tablet, I have no idea how one would draw even remotely well with a mouse. My tablet is a Wacom Bamboo Fun, itÂs shiney.

6] The color you use most often is?
UhmÂ hmÂ red?

7] What area of the pictures do you put most effort into?
It really depends with the picture, but the initial sketching takes a lot more thought and effort. Granted, coloring is often time consuming, but the hardest part I find about coloring things is choosing the color scheme.

8] How long does it take you do draw a picture?
Drawing? Like half an hour. Finishing? Anywhere from a day to a week to like five months.

9] Do you keep your rough drafts?
IÂve kept all of my sketchbooks from the time I started using them, along with a lot of loose-leaf drawings. If itÂs digital (which not a lot is) then I try and keep it either on my hard drive or on the interwebs.

10] What kind of font do you use most often?
Helvetica? Arial? Times New Roman? I donÂt know. I used to really like Comic Sans, but have since stopped caring. Unless itÂs for some kind of design, as long as people can read it, IÂm good.

11] What's the dpi when you scan?
Around 300, I think.

12] Do you do anything else when you're drawing pictures?
Listening to music is a mustÂ but thatÂs it for the external distractions. Music, while it can inspire or set the mood I want, is mostly just background noise; put TV or a person into that mix and I really canÂt focus on what IÂm doing. I prefer to be alone in my room when I draw.

13] How many pictures do you draw in a month?
No ideaÂ maybe likeÂ 6-10?

14] What kind of paper do you draw your pictures on?
*looks* premium recycled is usually what I pick upÂ Bristol is also nice, but I canÂt stand the newspaper-y stuff.

15] What kind of paper do you use for sketches and drafts?
ThatÂd beÂ what I just saidÂ

16] How long does it take to ink something?
Depends on the level of detail, but itÂs usually a fairly quick process.

17] Do you do doujinshi or original manga?
No.

18] Do you like doujinshi? Is it fun making it?
*had to look this up* According to wikipedia (which hasnÂt steered me wrong yet), doujinshi is/are Âself-published Japanese works, usually manga or novelsÂ. Seeing as IÂm not Japanese, IÂve never made anyÂ but I suppose theyÂre alright?

19] Ever submitted anything to a magazine?
UmmÂ some art to the high school paper. ThatÂs it.

20] Did it get published?
Yup.

21] Who are your favorite artists?
James OÂBarr (The Crow), Wendy Pini (Elfquest), and Bill Watterson (Calvin and Hobbes)Â old-school wise, IÂd have to say Michelangelo, David, Goya, probably lots of others. As for here on deviant art... , , / (yes, I know, I knowÂbut I love her style), http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/20784467/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 20:27:11 PDT
*falls over* Where to even start with a journal...

The past few weeks have been packed. School, gaming, drawing WoW, hanging with friends. and came to visit from the 17th through the 21st, mainly to hang out and go with Kristin and I to renfest that Saturday, which was really fun. Good times were had. I drew them pictures, you should go look.

Oh yeah, and people keep expressing interest in me on the relationship level, it really needs to stop. It makes me want to hit my head into a wall. Repeatedly. Of course it's also making me question when I'll get into a relationship, or who I'm waiting for, or whatever (also a valid reason for the head smashing). My plan is to hold off on dating until I can find someone I'm really comfortable with and attracted to, or else it's just going to be messed up. Hopefully when that guy comes around I won't mess it up, but we'll see I guess.

Also can I just say that I'm sick and tired of emo kids. Like really, no one cares about your multitude of problems if you bitch incessently about them. No one respects the tribulations of your life and your personal beliefs/sexuality/faith/etc if you spill your 'guts' to ANYONE WHO LISTENS FOR LONG ENOUGH. Also, the myth that people like you and think you're cool if you're completely negative all the time is just that-- a myth. No one likes a Debbie Downer, sucking the joy out of everything. Man, I'm growing to hate talking to those people, because you can never win with them. Whatever positive thing you may say, they absolutely must immediately point out something that could go wrong, is going wrong, or if they're reaching, something depressing that's totally irrelevant. I'm really getting tired of it...

And going along with that, people who don't try. They don't try to have fun, or be positive, or to better themselves in any way. They just sit there and let everyone know that they aren't having fun or that they're in a bad mood, and of course if they aren't having a good day, heaven forbid someone else is.

I have my problems, and I have my bad days, but I don't go around shouting them out to everyone. Honestly I couldn't, because half the time I can't get a word in edgewise around how shitty everyone else's life is.

Sometimes people just need to go away and leave me the hell alone.

So now that that's done... I'm working on more drawings, and trying to get better at painting. I'm thinking of opening commissions... what do you all think?

]]> ~VampireOrchid ...did he think we were gay?! http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/20374298/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/20374298/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 12:00:27 PDT
Aside from classes, I also have Muskie Players, our theater group, and Fish Out of Water, the improv troupe, to participate in, as well as Art Club and of course my sorority. Not to mention I need to get 2 Scog comics a week to Kristin, preferably a few good days before they go up. -And- I have a lot of drawing I personally want to do... of course my paintings for Painting class go with that. AND I'm still figuring out how to use my tablet (efficiently) in photoshop. IT IS AN EXCITING TIME, YES.

So, suffice to say, I'm busy.

But, I still have time to do stupid stuff, like hang out with a group of guys and Kristin and tabletop role play until 3am or later both nights this weekend... which leads to the title of the journal that I'm sure you're all wondering about. Suffice to say, we were playing Vampire the Masqurade, and to gather information about someone, my character (Mace) and Kristin's had to give off that 'we're a gay couple that just moved next door' vibe. Mace, being himself, was a tad slow to pick up on this fact.

On a side note, I've noticed I'm way more outgoing for some reason... I'm not hesitant to speak up to class or introduce myself to people or to scream like a small child at an improv demonstration at the activities fair. Go me!

ALSO RENFEST LAST WEEKEND WAS AWESOME. I totally have a rad faery costume, half of which I bought at Walmart. Random people actually asked Kristin and I if they could take our picture. It made me smile.

and oh my god the mood thingie is working here again. I CANNOT CONTAIN MY ELATION.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Update + Thoughts http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/19960366/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/19960366/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 21:16:35 PDT
I'm going back to college on the 20th, which is this coming Wednesday. I'm no where near ready... not packed, and what's worse, I still don't have my laptop back. I'm really worried about getting everything back on it before school starts, but... I do have 5 days before classes. Reason I'm going back so early is because I'm moving into the ASA house, and the sorority is helping the freshman move in... of course freshman get there early... you get the idea. Saturday is my last day of work, so I will have a few days to get my shit together too.

In other news, I'm working on the webcomic Scog [link] with Kristin, and it's going pretty smoothly. We're getting a hang of it, and I really do enjoy it.

Boring stuff done... now I can rant a bit... about artists, oddly enough.

Well, first off, I'm lazy. So whenever I watch an artist on deviantart, I usually don't check off their journals, and so I get to browse through all these artist's journals in addition to their work. And I've noticed a trend in the more popular artists I watch, which is simply, to QQ hard. About their art. "Ohhh, I have so many people who watch me on deviant art, but I don't want to draw, I have a drawing block, I think my art sucks", and on and on and on. One deviant recently put up a journal telling everyone to stop watching her because she didn't think her art was worth it. And I'm not talking artists who just do anime crap and get a lot of views... I watch deviants that are actually inventive and creative and all that jazz. So to see this kind of crap from them really irritates me.

First of all, there's no such thing as an 'art block'. Sure, we all have our days where nothing seems to be coming out right, but I've never had to stop for like, weeks at a time or something... nor have I ever completely lacked the motivation to draw. There's simply -so much- to express and communicate... and so many different ways to do so. There's so much to learn, and it never ends! What I do when I have an 'art block' is draw until something comes out right... until I get the kinks out, so to speak. Now, I don't even display 75% of what I draw up here, because it's mostly half-finished sketches and whatever... but that doesn't mean I whine about how I can't draw or something. There's a lot of stuff I don't think I'm the best at, or even that good at, of course not. But that doesn't mean I -stop-. It means I keep at it until it -is- worthwhile.

I just really hate artists who reinforce the steryotype that artists are a bunch of fickle, whiney, conceited pussies. I can't imagine what it must be to have your head so far up your ass that you complain when you get over 1000 pageviews a day or whatever. Chances are people like your work because it's clever, interesting, inspiring, etc... they don't want you floundering for compliments or your emotional problems along with it. If you don't have enough self esteem after getting that many hits a day, that's your own damn problem. Don't come to me as an appreciater and an artist myself and bother me with that crap.

And as far as the artist that told everyone to stop watching her goes-- I wrote her a nice response on that journal, but looking back I should have just replied with 'okay' and unwatched her. Damn.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Journal of Evil http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/19847318/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/19847318/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 14:43:49 PDT "Whooooooooooooo!" (lol)

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
That was fun?

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
I watched some Kathy Griffen stand up earlier before work.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
5:30ish

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
5:31 fuck

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Brother watching TV in the other room and the sound of... outside.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Maybe 20 minutes ago when I walked from my car to my house.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Devart messages, big suprise

9. What are you wearing?
White tank and the pants I worked in

10. Did you dream last night?
Yeah... something with Rask and PVPing, actually. Kind of. I remember insulting Enteris in my dream too, not to his face, just as an aside.

11. When did you last laugh?
At work, I served this really cool, friendly couple and they made me smile.

12. What are on the walls you are in?
*looks around* it's my dad's office, so... calender, framed album art, poster of the space shuttle in a frame, and a bunch of family pictures.

13. Seen anything weird lately
I saw your mom

14. What do you think of this quiz?
waffles

15. What is the last film you saw?
THE DARK KNIGHT OMG

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy
A really nice computer and a house in the middle of a woods somewhere.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
I'm wearing underpants. Don't say you knew, because you didn't, you simply assumed.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Probably unite everyone under one banner, instead of having everyone divided and feeling alliegence to one country or another. We're all of one race, and once we realize and accept that, we'll be able to accomplish so much more.

19. Do you like to dance?
Not where people can see me

20. George Bush:
Hate. So much hate. The man can't even speak English, people. How is he president again? Oh right, daddy's money. If he wants to be in Iraq so badly he should go there himself and leave us all the fuck alone.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what will you call her?
No clue

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
No clue

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I don't know. It'd be cool and a good expirience, but I would be way homesick.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"Yeah, you're in the right place."

25.Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal.

Don't care

]]> ~VampireOrchid That's just awesome http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/19558392/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/19558392/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 15:56:12 PDT
In other news, my laptop died. It for some reason froze up and bluescreens every time I try to restart it. So, a friend of my parents who does this stuff for a living has it and plans to try and figure out why it decided to throw a pissy fit. With any luck I'll have my laptop by the end of the week, and until then, the family computer it is.

Also, thank you again to everyone that came to my b-day party or otherwise made notice that it was my birthday I love you guyz lots, for srs. I had a great 20th.

Still working at Handels, no longer complaining about hours because I need money and it's just an easy job for me now. I'm also drawing a lot, not only for Scog (www.scog-comic.com) but also just for fun... coloring takes me a bit but I hope to have some stuff to throw up here soon.

Also, my mood thing still isn't working for some reason. Guess I'm stuck feeling noble for the rest of my life (and lol Robbie).

And then I vomited everywhere.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Strawberry Fields Forever http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/19294026/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/19294026/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 14:28:38 PDT
I'm back from vacation, have been for a few days. July is filling up pretty quickly with stuff to do, what with Kristin filming, my birthday, Scog, and other summer projects that I should at least get started on, considering it's July. And of course work.

Oh and Texas was pretty fun, until the end, but that's neither here nor there. I'm home now and happy

If you are interested in coming and celebrating my day of birth, there will be a party on Friday, July 18th (my actual birthday), sometime in the evening (see facebook for details). Location is my house, expect the usual-- hanging out, food, sundaes, video games, possibly a campfire to sit around.

I promise you'll see more stuff from me on here, though the coloring process is slow and I have at least a few pics I'm in the process of coloring... but if you just can't get enough of my art or something, I recommend you head over to [link], where every Monday and Friday you'll get a face full of awesome, in comic form.

Also, I am not feeling particularly noble, but devart is feeling rather FAIL.

]]> ~VampireOrchid I cooked you a delicious bass http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/19048164/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/19048164/ Wed, 25 Jun 2008 22:53:01 PDT
Sooo I'm off to Texas for about 9 days, visiting my aunt, uncle and cousins near Houston for a vacation I'll be home the 5th, but until then, I'll probably not have internet access, sooo if you wonder why I'm not replying to your comments or returning your emails, that's why. DEAL WITH IT.

Also go here [link] It's Kristin and my new webcomic that just recently got launched. DO IT. I draw the lineart and she colors it and IT WILL BE AWESOME. Well, it's already awesome, but as we get better at this stuff IT WILL BE EVEN AWESOMER.

That's about it. I'm tired and need to be up in, oh, 7 hours. Peace out!

]]> ~VampireOrchid Insomnia at it's finest http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/18777328/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/18777328/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 02:48:37 PDT
Well. Summer. Pretty much the week school left out I got myself over to Handels and was like, "So, I want a job here again" and Tammy was like, "I can schedule you for next week". Didn't train or anything... and I still remember how to make pretty much everything, which is kind of disconcerting, but I roll with it. As of now I have yet to work during the day, working around 5 of 7 days of the week in the last 5-3 hours of the day, so I'm pretty much constantly closing. It's kind of annoying, and it's lead to a bizzare sleep schedule which consists of me going to sleep around 5 or 6am and waking up anywhere from 2 to 4pm.

And as long as I'm going to ramble, let me say that I have always actually enjoyed sleeping, or at least the moments when I drift off to sleep. I like to daydream, and I'm a horrible bed slug... but ever since school let out I've put off going to sleep, and when I sleep in I wish I hadn't. I feel like I'm wasting time-- probably because I simply don't have a very fixed schedule like I do at school. Plus I keep thinking of all the stuff I want to do as I lie in bed, and inevitably (like tonight) I get up again to do them.

Which leads to my original point of this journal entry gone ramble, which was to list out everything I plan to get done this summer. Similar to what Kristin has already done, but way less ogranized and probably way less ambitious.

*Get the webcomic up and started by June 20th
*Read Crime and Punishment again
*Read some other books that I haven't read three times already
*Paint... something... on the big canvas sitting in my closet
*Finish hanging up all the posters and organizing the crap in my closet
*Design and produce Revo attire, or at least a sweatshirt
*Make a ren fest outfit (oh lawd)
*Make some ASA apparel that actually fits me
*Get Jath (warlock) to level 70
*Exercise
*Draw lots
*Maybe get a little better at MTG?

*flops around helplessly* That's about it for now I guess. As you can see I'm pretty much free whenever, so give me a call if you want to hang out or whatnot... and if you have something planned already, please tell me at least a week ahead of time-- the schedule at work is made every Wednesday for the following week (which is Mon-Sun). So just... make sure you tell me way before, so I can request off.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Two Worlds Reprise http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/18414388/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/18414388/ Tue, 20 May 2008 12:14:07 PDT 1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5.Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Play Dead Â H.I.M.
((I play dead and hide my true feelings apparently oO))

2. How would you describe yourself?
She Has No Time Â Keane
((I go my own way and tell people I donÂt have time for them anymore I guess))

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Reasons Why Â Nickel Creek
((I really like this songÂ itÂs about re-finding love and faith in someone. Maybe I just like someone I can trust.))

4. How do you feel today?
The Fight Song Â Marilyn Manson
((el oh el. IÂm a rebel thatÂs looking for a fight it seems))

5. What is your life's purpose?
Violet Â Savage Garden
((IÂm gonna take you, IÂll do my best to break you, IÂm gonna take you higher, and thatÂs no lie. XD this is a funky beat, I always liked this song, itÂs about letting go and finding what you really want from life.))

6. What is your motto?
Around the World Â Red Hot Chili Peppers
((oh HELL yeah. I know, I know for sure, that life is beautiful around the worldÂ I looove this song. Good choice iTunes.))

7. What do your friends think of you?
Ghostrider Â Rollins Band (from the Crow soundtrack)
((They think IÂm Ghostrider! IÂm a motorcycle hero with my head on fire))

8. What do you think of your parents?
The Seeker Â The Who
((Hah, this is my dadÂs musicÂ interesting song. I donÂt know that it says much about my parents thoughÂ at allÂ ))

9. What do you think about very often?
A Million Ways Â OK GO
((ItÂs a song about a girl that apparently knows a million ways to be cruel. So this one confuses me.))

10. What is 2 + 2?
Under the Bridge Â Red Hot Chili Peppers
((A number that sometimes feels like he doesnÂt have a partner, and that his only friend is the city he lives in, the city of angels, as lonely as he is, together they cry.))

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?
My LoverÂs Box Â Garbage
((What?))

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Soldiers Â James Taylor
((ÂitÂs a song about soldiers coming back from a fight, where only 9 out of 20 survivedÂ this has nothing to do w/ the question))

13. What is your life story?
Murder! Murder! -- Jekyll and Hyde soundtrack
((LOL. MURDERS.))

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Where do I Hide Â Nickelback
((A convict apparently.))

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Too Much Rain Â Paul McCartney
((Sadness apparently. Âthis is a good song for Rask thoughÂ >.> ))

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Die Like This Â Fuel
((More a sad song than aÂ wedding songÂ or a song to dance toÂ ))

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Pig Â Seether
((*snort*))

18. What is your hobby/interest?
The Gift Â Seether
((More about feeling down on yourself than a real hobby or interest... ))

19. What is your biggest fear?
DonÂt Let it Bring you Down Â Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young
((Despair.))

20. What is your biggest secret?
Let You Down Â Three Days Grace
((When you finally trust me, finally believe in me, I will let you down. v.v))

21. What do you think of your friends?
Ironforge (City Theme) Â World of Warcraft soundtrack
((..YOUÂRE ALL DWARVES))

22. What will you post this as?
Two Worlds Reprise Â Phil Collins (Tarzan Soundtrack)
((hah.))

]]> ~VampireOrchid I see what you did thar http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/18258339/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/18258339/ Sat, 10 May 2008 13:52:03 PDT
I am officially on summer break now, as of this past Thursday Of course I had exams all week, all at 8:30 in the morning, except for my last one which, combined with a few very hectic hours of packing, kept me from escaping Muskingum until 7:00 that night. And of course it was raining. Beautiful all week except on the day I go home... go figure XD

Oh, and finals were easy easy easy. I really and truly studied for like, two. Of six. One was open note, another one let us have a cheat sheet-- they all took about 30 minutes for me to finish. I was boggled, but I ain't complaining.

Buuuut I'm home, and SO HAPPY. RAWR. I went out to Handels today too, I'm on call Tuesday, lawl. I don't even have to go through training, though I will probably show up a bit early when I'm called in to kind of get used to things again.

So, if you want to know when I'm working or whatever, just check my facebook, I should update my status with what I'm doing. If you want to do something with me this summer, just tell me ahead of time; I have to have requests off in by the Saturday -before- whatever it is happens. Granted I will have days off and times where I don't work, but if you want to be assured I'll be free for whatever, you gotta let me know.

OH. SPEAKING OF COMMUNICATION. During my last laundry load of college, I washed a pair of pants that have very baggy pockets which unfortunately, at the time of their washing, contained my cell phone. So don't try to reach me on my phone, your efforts will be fruitless. I'm letting it air dry for about a week, because I had someone tell me that the same thing happened to theirs and it ended up working again. At the moment, when I press the power button it lights up with the Verizon Wireless screen, which I count as an improvement from it just being black. So we'll see. I'll keep ya'll updated on that.

Other than all of that... geesh... I have a lot of plans this summer, a lot of creative and fun stuff to do, in addition to working and even exercise. I have high hopes that this summer will be awesomesauce

]]> ~VampireOrchid Disjointed http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/17877897/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/17877897/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 09:33:23 PDT
"There's a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. But it's not giving up. It's realizing that you don't need certain people and their crap."

Works for me. Life is still kind of monotonous, and I've found the past two weeks that I'm slacking off in terms of going above expectations; I've kind of just been doing the minimum amount of work to get by and kind of not trying beyond that. That, or the class is so easy that my minimum effort is more than enough to look like I spent a lot of time on it.

I still have a few end of the year projects to do and I hope that I'll sit down and -do- them instead of waiting till the last minute or something. Despite making the Dean's List and everything I feel like I haven't really done much. But when I think about most, if not all of my classes, I feel like I've enjoyed them and learned a lot from them. So it's kinda confusing.

To ramble on a bit more, one thing I am sure of is that I don't want to be dating anyone for a while. Like, at least 3 more years. At this point it feels just as hollow as seeing my name on the Dean's List.

I'm really looking forward to the summer... just a few more weeks of school. I'm going to be working at Handel's again, and honestly I'm not dreading it or looking forward to it with dissapointment. Compared to other friends' plans for the summer, it's quite unglamorous, but I'm okay with that. As an Art Ed major I don't need to do any internships or anything. I know Handel's, I know the people, I know how to do the job. In between work I have a lot of more creative projects that I'm really excited about... I don't want to just sit around this summer. I want to paint, and sew, and exercise. Yeah, exercise. I've been thinking a lot about my physical health recently, like what I eat and how fit I am. I'm thin, yeah, but that doesn't mean I'm healthy. I need to stop drinking as much soda as I do, too... it's way too much.

Sooo there's my rambling entry about my life. It's a bit mixed up right now but whatever. I'm cool.

]]> ~VampireOrchid Rawr http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/17535980/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/17535980/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 05:06:08 PDT
I also won't really get another break from this, at least not one like Easter break, until the end of the year. There -might- be a weekend where I'll be able to head back home, but I'm not counting on it. This is a rather depressing thought, considering that means 5+ weeks of continuously eating the shitty dorm food.

Anywho. Between everything I'm doing I'm still fitting in time to draw at least somewhat... "Maestro" (renamed finally to Felidae), will be happening sometime soon, probably around the time we get out of school. I'm reworking a lot of what I've already drawn, which is really a good thing since some of it was pretty bad. Other than that I'm trying to either draw new things or make other things more spiffy to sell for the annual student art sale at the beginning of May this year.

I'm also learning a bit more about photoshop, and have discovered the smudge tool to be great fun. So bear with me if I keep uploading stuff where I just went nuts with some of the tools.

Aside from that, there's still Graphic Design projects and sketches I make while sitting bored in Art History to look forward to. I'd like to actually finish something before I scan it, though...

]]> ~VampireOrchid Devious Journal Entry http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/17305536/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/17305536/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 17:39:30 PDT [] I am shorter than 5'4.
[] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[]I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercing.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[X] I'm in school.
[] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. I assume this counts as Dean's List as well...
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctorÂs office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[X] I've gotten lost in my city.
[X] I've seen a shooting star.
[X] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace. Not from myspace, but I have met someone in person from the internet, so same thing.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger. That guy was awesome.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed ou... ]]> ~VampireOrchid More iTunes fun http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/16756252/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/16756252/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 15:03:37 PST
The way it works: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song titles that come up to answer each question.
NO CHEATING.

1) How does the world see me?
Parallel Universe by the RHCP
ÂUnderwater where thoughts can breathe easily, far away you were made in a sea, just like me.Â ÂChrist IÂm a sidewinder, IÂm a California king, I swear itÂs everywhere, itÂs everything.Â ÂA solar system that fits in your eye, microcosm.Â

Obviously the world sees me as a funky cool person.

2) Will I have a happy life?
One Last Time by HIM
ÂIs it so hard to believe our hearts are made to be broken by love.Â ÂOh at least you could try, for this one last time, it could be alright, for this one last time.Â ÂMy darling won't you cherish the fear of life that keeps you and me so alive.Â

UmÂ seems this is saying itÂll end in heartache. Ah well.

3) What do people really think of me?
Something in the Way by Nirvana
ÂUnderneath the bridge , the tarp has sprung a leak, and the animals I've trapped have all become my pets, and I'm living off of grass, and the drippings from the ceiling. It's okay to eat fish, 'cause they don't have any feelings.Â

People think IÂm some mellow dude living under a bridge, it seems.

4) Do people secretly lust after me?
Movies by Alien Ant Farm
ÂAt slow speed we all seem focused, in motion we seem wrong.Â ÂI want you to be free, don't worry about me.Â ÂYou won't cry, I won't scream.Â

Yup.

5) How can I make myself happy?
Releasing the Demons by Godsmack
ÂItÂs taken me all my anger, and taken me all of my hate, to learn how my life came together, releasing the demons again.Â ÂThen everything starts to change, supposedly healing my pain.Â ÂNever thought IÂd feel this way, I never thought that IÂd see a day IÂd run away from anything or anywhere or anyone.Â ÂItÂs all these little things trapped inside of me.Â

Not letting the little things get to me?

6) What should I do with my life?
FaÃ§ade from the Jekyll and Hyde Soundtrack
ÂEveryday people in their own sweet way like to add a coat of paint and be what they ainÂt.Â ÂGettinÂ rich and gettinÂ laid, whoÂd want to trade?Â ÂAnd IÂm certain life is terribly hard when your lifeÂs a faÃ§ade.Â ÂIf you stay on your guard, theyÂll all say youÂre a card, people love the faÃ§ade.Â

Pretend IÂm someone IÂm not? Or donÂt pretend IÂm someone IÂm notÂ not sure XD

7) Will I ever have children?
Universe by Savage Garden
Oh dear, this is a sexing up song >.<

8) What is some good advice for me?
Sweet Dreams (are made of this) by Marilyn Manson
ÂTravel the world and the seven seas, everybody is lookinÂ for something.Â ÂSome of them want to use you, some of them want to get used by you, some of them want to abuse you, some of them want to be abused.Â

I donÂt think this one needs any explanation.

9) What do I think my current theme song is?
Charlie, the Methadone Man by Fastball
Â Patience, the name of the game.Â ÂWhen you're all alone, and you got nowhere to go, better take it slow, oh you get so tired of where you are.Â ÂKicking his lonely lit brain, drinking to try and stay saneÂ ÂCharlie the methadone man chases his tail just as fast as he can.Â

InterestingÂ never considered this for a theme song but itÂs not bad.

10) What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Right Here in My Arms by HIM
ÂAnd all her wishes have finally come true, and her heart is weeping. This happiness is killing her.Â ÂSo hard she's trying, but her heart won't turn to stone... oh no.Â ÂShe keeps on crying, but I won't leave her alone, she'll never be alone.Â ÂAnd she'll be right here in my arms, so in Love.Â ÂShe'll be right here in these arms, she can't let go.Â

Scary!

11) What type of men/women do you like?
Another Brick in the Wall by Korn
ÂDaddy's flown across the ocean, leaving just a memory, a snapshot in the family album. Daddy, what else did ya leave for me?Â ÂWe don't need no education, we don't need no thought control, no dark sarcasm in the classroom, teachers, leave them kids alone.Â ÂGoodbye, all you people, there's nothing you... ]]> ~VampireOrchid iTunes on shuffle http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/16707950/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/16707950/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 17:07:32 PST Step 2: Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Bold out the songs when someone guesses the song title correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

Good luck guys! When someone guesses it, I'll make it bold and put the song/artist in ()'s.

1. Auch auf den Wellen wird gefochten, wo Fisch und Fleisch zur See geflochten...

2. When the dream came, I held my breath, with my eyes closed, I went insane...

3. Must be something they're hiding, must be reasons that no one will dare to tell, must be something inside me, but I don't think so anymore...

4. I've got syphilitic hetro friends in every part of town, I don't hate them but I know them I don't want them hanging around...

5. Come as you are, as you were, as I want you to be... (Nirvana: Come As You Are)

6. Gunfire in the street, where we used to meet, echoes that are beat, when the bass goes 'bomb'... (Nine Inch Nails: The Good Soldier)

7. I cannot take this anymore, I'm saying everything I've said before...

8. Good news! She's dead... (No One Mourns the Wicked from Wicked)

9. I'd listen to the words he'd say, but in his voice I heard decay...

10. Your eyes are burning holes through me, I'm gasoline, I'm burnin' clean...

11. If the world was on fire, no one could save me but you...

12. After tonight, my little love, you will never forget me...

13. Ich brauche Zeit, kein Heroin, kein Alkohol, kein Nikotin...

14. Your life, mislaid, spoon-fed, well raised, Hey you youre nodding out, Whats this all about...

15. Vamos vamos mi amor! Me gusta mucho tu sabor...

16. Shall I go? Shall I stay? 107 light years away...

17. A good night, the best in a long time...

18. Someone falls to pieces, sleeping all alone, someone kills the pain...

19. You're keeping in step, in the line, got your chin held high and you feel just fine...

20. Never want to fly, never wanna leave, never want to say what you mean to me...

21. Nothing suffocates you more than the passing of everyday human events, and isolation is the oxygen mask you're making children breath into to survive...

22. As he came into the window, it was the sound of a crescendo... (Smooth Criminal by Michael Jackson, covered by Alien Ant Farm)

23. There are things that I said I would never do, there are fears that I cannot believe have come true...

24. Someone take these dreams away, that point me to another day, a duel of personalities, that stretch all true reality...

25. The ants are in the sugar, the muscles atrophied, we're on the other side, the screen is us and we're t.v...

Still waiting on some of these Take another look?

]]> ~VampireOrchid lolwut http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/16666473/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/16666473/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 21:51:24 PST
First off, I've been sick for nearly a week. Head cold, coughing, sneezing, phlem, all that fun stuff. It's gotten better; this weekend I pretty much didn't do anything I didn't need to, and didn't have my usual energy or motivation at all.

One thing I did do despite my sickness was join a sorority. What?! Yes, you heard me correctly. A sorority, Alpha Sigma Alpha (ASA for short). Before you ask, no, they're not the typical blond beer-drinking giggling retarded clone kind of sorority. It's a group of really nice and unique girls that Open Bid me (invited me to join) knowing full well what manner of person I am, and I accepted because they appreciate individuality instead of trying to change you. There's also no kind of hazing involved, and so far I've felt very welcome in their group. I'm excited to do more stuff with them.

ASA is also doing a good job of throwing more stuff to do into my schedule, which isn't exactly bad, just makes my week pretty hectic. Good thing they're flexible about me missing meetings or whatnot.

Other than that, well, my grandfather on my mom's side died at the end of last week, and his funeral was Wednesday. I came home Wednesday evening to see the service of his urn near the gravesite on Thursday, and to visit a bit with family. Before you feel badly for me, I wasn't close to my grandfather. He's had alzheimer's for a few good years now and was just getting really bad, and even when he was completely lucid he didn't ever really extend the offer of closeness and was honestly a bit of a jerk at times. I was afraid of him as a kid. But of course he's still family, so I came up since I have no class on Thursday... it all worked out. And I, like the rest of my family, am glad that he went before it got any worse.

Depressing topic aside... I have been working on cleaning up my gallery, moving things to scraps and such, so if you have a problem finding something older and more crappy that I did, check the scraps. I'm planning on moving all the old crap there, or deleting it. I have about 5 pages before I'm looking at all of it thinking "bloody hell this is crap."

Also. It is COLD. FUCKING COLD.

]]> ~VampireOrchid One of those things again http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/16286688/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/16286688/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 13:09:23 PST A - Age: 19
A - Annoyance: When people don't listen.

B - Best Friends?: Kristin and Erin, I can tell you guys anything.
B - Bar: *vomits*
B - Birthday?: July 18, 1988

C - Crush: *smirks*
C - Car: 1995 Buick Regal
C - Cat: Cleo <3

D - Dead Pets Name(s): Mouser, Abbie, Max, Dart, Sebbi, Little, Sweetpea.
D - Dad's name: T.K.
D - Dog(s): Max died recently

E - Easiest person to talk to: It's a toss up between Kristin and Erin
E - Eggs: THEY'RE IN MEH OVERIES! <-- I'm keeping this from Timberwolf's answer
E - Email: I use it?

F - Favorite color?: Red
F - Food: Sugar most likely
F - Foreign Slang: Deine Mutter ist eine Dirne, ich habe mit ihre geschlafen. UND ES GEFALLT MICH.

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Worms are more fun.
G - God: He's a cool guy
G - Good Times: Too many to recount.

H - Hair Color: Brown
H - Height: 5'5 ish
H - Happy: Aye

I - Ice Cream: Oh, so hard to choose. Black Raspberry from Handel's, I think.
I - Instrument: Violin
I - Idol: Art Counts

J - Jewelry: Depends on the outfit dear XD
J - Job: College
J - Jokes: I've made some very bad ones

K - Kids: Eventually, I guess...
K - Karate: Moo
K - Kung Fu: Moooo

L - Love: Family, friends, drawing, reading, creating, laughing, dreaming.
L - Longest Car Ride: When I was getting my driver's lisence.
L - Lipstick or Chapstick: Chapstick.

M - Milk Flavor: Strawberry.
M - Mothers Name: Tammy
M - Movie Last Watched: Sweeny Todd (loved it btw)

N - Number of Siblings: 1
N - Northern or Southern: Northern
N - Name: Chelsea/Rask

O - One Wish: To be able to telepathically broadcast my thoughts/feelings to others.
O - One Phobia?: Heights
O - Otter Pop: ....what.

P - Parents, are they married or divorced: married
P - Part of your appearance you like best: Eyes.
P - Part of your Personality you like best: My patience.

Q - Quick or Slow?: Depends on what we're doing.
Q - Queer or Straight?: Straight.
Q - Queen or King?: I somehow sense that 'Queen' is the socially correct answer, but fuck society. King, bitches.

R - Reason to smile: When people I care about are smiling.
R - Reality TV Show: I Love New York (I love me my trash TV)
R - Right or Left: In what context? I'm right handed, but politically I'm more toward the left...

S - Song Last Heard: Mitternacht by E Nomine
S - Season: Summer.
S - Series: Death Note, Scrubs

T - Time you woke up: like 2pm >.>
T - Time Now: 4:05pm
T - Time for bed: Well, since I should be up by 11am... maybe 1am or 2

U - Unknown: Death
U - Unicorns: "Oh, that's not a unicorn. It's a horse with a sword on its head."
U - You are?: Myself.

V - Vegetable you hate: olives
V - Vegetable you love: carrots
V - View on Politics: Ugh, politics.

W- Worst Habit: My forgetfulness.
W- Where are you going to travel next: Hopefully Italy
W- What's up?: nm u lol

X - X-Rays: They were discovered by accident!
X - X-Rated: Bow chicka bow wow
X - XYZ: The hell? You could have least put "Xylaphones" or something vaugely more legitimate.

Y - Year you were born: 1988
Y - Year it is now: 2008
Y - Yellow?: Kristin.

Z - Zoo Animal: Flamingos.
Z - Zodiac: Cancer the Crab
Z - Zoolander?: Never seen it

]]> ~VampireOrchid Fat Loots, Fat Loots http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/16175464/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/16175464/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 00:27:42 PST

One of the awesome gifts was this; I'm in a WoW video! I know a girl who knows Nyhm, the maker of machinima warcraft movies, and he came onto our server to shoot some stuff. Word got out and by the end half of my guild was there. We got to go into an instance I'll never see the inside of again since it's so tough (Zul'Amman) and spread the "sit and spin" epedemic. My guild is at 0:42 to 0:50 (look to the lef to see Rask, lol), 1:02, and 2:29.
[link]

All that aside, I fail utterly at scanning things in. I got a few Christmas gifts done on time, but many are still unfinished or not yet scanned. Some I will finish... some I think I'm just going to let go, or ask them more specifically when/if I see them. As for everything that's finished, expect to see it up here soon.

Mom: Drawing of Max ~FINISHED
Dad: Cardinal/TWHS ~FINISHED
Adam: Guy from Halo ~50%

Kristin: Guardian angel ~60% drawn out it all, just need to refine and shade
Erin: She didn't specify ~FINISHED
Tim: St. Michael owning Lucifer ~20% done; it's sketched but needs to be transferred and detailed
Kendrah: Cartoon of her and her roommate in exaggerated supermodel bodies ~0%

Tyler: Dragon ~FINISHED
Brian Gilmartin: Psychadelic guitar ~0%
Ted Sharp: St. George slaying the dragon ~0%

Fred/Zytonis: WoW comic ~FINISHED
Yourukami: Her character Cotton ~90% done; started coloring but didn't finish
Andrew/Enteris: pic of Rask and Ent drunk ~FINISHED

~*People who might not get anything...*~
Robbie: guitar/Firefly or something?
Bryan: He didn't specify
Megan: didn't specify

~*And things not nessecarily for Christmas...*~
Lorelynn: Pic of Lore ~0%
Celune: Pic of Celune/Rask meeting ~0%
Dathel: Pic of Dathel 0%

]]> ~VampireOrchid Online http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/15994733/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/15994733/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 00:38:47 PST
I was talking to this person I know loosely through WoW and he/she was telling me about their relationship problems and how they like someone they met through WoW, but both are married, and it was a whole mess... until finally they both are breaking it off with their partners to eventually live with each other. Their partners were strangely okay with it, and it seems to be working out. Then I was talking to another person (unrelated to the first, mind you, except they both happen to play WoW), and they were talking about their struggles about having a relationship with someone they met online. A few weeks ago a member of my WoW guild left, deleted his/her character, and went to the other faction to play with someone they have never met before IRL and who is a few years older than him/her.

All of this was particularly interesting to me, because over the past months I have become interested in someone I met through WoW. And excuse the rant, I just feel like I have to talk about it, on the off chance that I can at least slightly alter your perspective on the matter if you have already passed judgement (and lets be honest with each other, I'm sure you have). This is my journal anyway, hence, this is my opinon... I'm not speaking to anyone in particular and if your ideas differ from mine, great, I don't really care...

First off, I've always believed that the intenet is a legitimate way of meeting someone, just as a bar or the mall could be. More efficient, even, since by playing in the online game or going into a certain chat, you've already selected something that you and another person will both be interested in. Now, I'm not an idiot. There are a lot of bad things and people on the internet, masking their identities in malicous intent, waiting for you to carelessly reveal information about yourself. Sure... but you have people like that offline too. Even if someone is sitting right in front of you, they can be completely lying about their personality with the aim of manipulating you.

But not everyone is. And while caution is nessecary, whether offline or on, it could be detremential to think that everyone you meet is out to steal your information or rape or murder you. It's considered perfectly acceptable to go to a bar or a club to meet people, and I believe that the internet is also acceptable. Look at all the matchmaking sites that have popped up. At least on the internet I don't have to subject myself to loud music I don't like to begin with, crowds, cigarette smoke, and people getting shitfaced near me. If that makes me a social reject, I don't think I want to be part of society.

Back to the point. I was immensely relieved when I found this other person I spoke of earlier who was essentially going through the same thing I was-- having feelings for someone I'd met over the internet, who lived a few states away, and meeting all the adversity from others and myself on the subject. When I first started to consider a relationship with someone I have not yet met face-to-face, my first thought was how my friends and family would react. Basically I'm sure you all think/thought that I'm nuts. That I'm going to run off and get myself into a shitload of trouble like my former guildmate might someday.

Think what you like, at this point. I'm not rushing into things, and I am still going to graduate from college and get a job before moving into anything serious. The guy has a facebook and a deviantart account. No, I haven't met him "IRL"... yet. My parents have been surprisingly (much to my relief) supportive, and he's going to be visiting in March while I'm home for spring break. So I'm pretty sure he's legitimate, and if not, I will be at home instead of college, and thus am much safer. I'm excited to get to know him better, just as I would be if I met someone at college or at a bar/club. And I hope this expirience will further the idea that the internet is an effective means of meeting new people, whether for a dating relationship or just friendship.

So there we go, I'm kind of tired of dancing around the subject. When you're interested in someone, you should be able to share your excitement and happiness with others instead of hiding it, ashamed, fearful of what they think.

~*Christmas is next Tuesday and I... AM NOT PREPARED *Illadin voice* Here's an update of how unprepared I am.*~

Mom: Drawing of Max ~FINISHED
Dad: Cardinal ~10% done; i've sketched out a few cardinals
Adam: Guy from Halo ~0%

Kristin: Guardian angel ~60% drawn out it all, just need to refine and shade
Erin: She didn't specify... ]]> ~VampireOrchid Journal entry FOR REALZ. http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/15794255/ http://VampireOrchid.deviantart.com/journal/15794255/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 14:07:56 PST
First off, I am so over classes at this point. So very over them. I WANT CHRISTMAS BREAK DAMN IT. Too bad I still have the rest of this week and then finals week to get through. We'll see how that goes.

Also wtflux up with, every time I'm on devart, my comp seems to mysteriously click on things on the internet? I'll be typing and suddenly it makes a clicky noise, something loads on the litte "loading" bar on internet explorer, then it will make the window go grey as if something had popped up in front of it-- BUT NOTHING HAS. I suspect pixies. Maybe I should just get firefox... but it only happens on devart. ODD.

I've been drawing and working through my Christmas drawing list, as well as working a bit on my own stuff (aka doodling in art history class with satisfactory results). It's not too late to clarify your idea or actually tell me one if you haven't given me anything to draw for you yet. If you don't express interest you won't get anything, sorry.

Here's my updated list, with approximately how far I am through each one:

Mom: Drawing of Max ~FINISHED
Dad: Cardinal ~10% done; i've sketched out a few cardinals
Adam: Guy from Halo ~0%

Kristin: Guardian angel ~0%
Erin: She didn't specify ~90% done
Tim: St. Michael owning Lucifer ~20% done; it's sketched but needs to be transferred and detailed
Robbie: guitar/Firefly or something? ~0%
Bryan: He didn't specify ~0%
Megan: didn't specify ~0%

Tyler: Dragon ~FINISHED
Brian Gilmartin: Psychadelic guitar ~0%
Ted Sharp: St. George slaying the dragon ~0%

Fred/Zytonis: WoW comic ~80% done, have started inking
Yourukami: Her character Cotton ~80% done; needs color
Andrew/Enteris: I guess he wants a pic of our chars drunk ~0%

As you can see, there's not really a trend of what I've gotten further in or not. My method is look down the list when I have free time and see what I feel like drawing. I do plan to have everything done by Christmas if not earlier, so I'll probably be uploading a ton of shit around Christmas. If you want your picture in the flesh before Christmas, or don't want to see it up on devart before you have it in the flesh, please tell me here!!!

Now, I must work on an education dealie thing that's due tomorrow. For those still in school, best of luck on your exams and such... for those who are already done,

I hope to see everyone I can over Winter Break too I have a whole month!

Also I will be returning home on Friday, December 14th, after my stupid 3:30 exam. Hopefully I'll be in by 6 or 7 that night.

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