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Desperation wells up, overwhelming dignity
Devastation paralyzing
Rain begins to pour, doesn't register
Lying there, dazed
Blank, empty
Promised it would be like it never existed
But I need to know it did
It's like a huge hole has been punched in my chest
But the pain is the only reminder that it was real
Time passes
Every tick that goes by....aches
Like the pulse of blood behind a bruise

....My final Good-bye....

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]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/9078862/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/9078862/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 15:58:44 PDT How many people think it's right to kick someone out of the Library just because their baby gets a little loud? I mean its a public library where families go. If they didn't want babies "disturbing" them then why not just go some where else. I was told yesturday by one of my mom's co-wokers that I would have to leave for the rest of the day if my baby had another "out burst". I mean if he's screaming or crying uncontrolably I'd understand. But my son is energetic and if he's playing and having a good time he'll let you know. He'll laugh so loud sometimes it ekos through the whole library. Other times he'll laugh normally but at the very end he'll have this little high picked sound to it. I just don't think its right for "pedestrians" to go to a public library where there's families with kids and babies and threaten to kick me out for the rest of the day just because he's a little nosiy when he's having a good time. ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/8673726/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/8673726/ Thu, 04 May 2006 16:06:08 PDT ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/8247069/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/8247069/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 14:49:37 PST ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/7240108/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/7240108/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 16:32:12 PST
December 9 is my friend Dusty's b-day and if I'm correct he'll be 22.

Anyways, on his b-day I;m supose to go to S.A. and I can't wait. I'll be getting and all night long. ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/7063319/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/7063319/ Wed, 16 Nov 2005 12:15:11 PST 1. a movie
2. an artist
3. a musical artist, song, or album

B.) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. No kidding, ANYTHING, I'll give you the absolute honest truth, to the best of my ability.

C.) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything. ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/6574851/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/6574851/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 16:50:52 PDT [link] ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/6502813/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/6502813/ Wed, 14 Sep 2005 12:11:01 PDT [link] to see a picture of him. Just click on nursery lane and then new arrivals then you have to put month day and year. Put September 10, 2005 then click on the name Ezekiel. I'll update more when I can find the time. ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/6243549/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/6243549/ Tue, 16 Aug 2005 13:11:03 PDT
--Goth--
Do you wear black eyeliner?
Do you own any black clothing?
Do you think about death often?
Do you want to die?
Are you a social outcast?
Are you pale?
Do you like Hot Topic?
Total "Yes":

--Skater/Punk--
Can you skateborad?
Do you wear vans?
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
Do you get in trouble?
Do you listen to punk bands?
Do you have any piercings?
Do you like/wear mohawks?
Total "Yes":

--Prep--
Do you say the word "like"?
Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?
Are the A&F models hot?
Rock music is bad, right?
Do you want to be in a sorority/fraternity?
Into Jocks?
Are/were you a cheerleader?
Total "Yes":

--Hippie--
Is your hair long?
Are you a vegetarian?
Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
Do you want peace?
Do you want to save the animals?
Do you think the war is unneccesary?
Total "Yes":

--Gangsta--
Are you from the ghetto?
Do you own "bling bling"?
Do you wear do-rags?
Do you like hip-hop?
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
Do you like afros?
Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?
Total "Yes":

--Emo--
Do you cry often?
Do you have an acoustic guitar?
Are you emotional?
Do you like soft music?
Do people understand you?
Do you write your own songs?
Is your hair dyed dark?
Do you cut?
Total "Yes":

--Jock--
Do you play sports?
Are they important to you?
Do you pick on the geeky kids?
Do you like football?
Were you considered a bully by anyone?
Was the person you bullied a total dork?
Total "Yes":

--Surf Bum--
Do you surf?
Do you wear flip flops year-round?
Is your hair shaggy?
Do you wake up at 6 or before every morning?
Do you own any pair of shorts?
Are you tan?
Total "Yes":

--Geek--
Do you wear glasses?
Do you get good grades?
Do you use an inhaler?
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?
Does your mom pick out your clothes?
Are you on the computer often?
Total "Yes":

--Greaser/Car Guy--
Do you drive an old car or bike?
Do you listen to rockabilly?
Does Hawleywood cut your hair?
Are you on the H.A.M.B.?
Are you in Vegas every Easter for Viva?
Have you made it in to Ol' Skool Rods magazine or CKD?
Total "Yes":

Whichever you got the most "yes" on is what you are. When you re-post this bulletin, put your new label in the subject box. With your own answers of course. ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/5978155/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/5978155/ Tue, 19 Jul 2005 14:04:01 PDT ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/4709782/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/4709782/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 09:41:22 PST
[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/4646565/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/4646565/ Tue, 22 Feb 2005 16:25:00 PST
I found out that I was pregnat and had to break the news to everyone. I just now started coping with it since it wasn't planed or expected. I almost died; I was in the "hood" as some people call it walking over to a friends house when 4 black guys in a silver car stopped in front of us and one pulled a gun on me and a knife on my boyfriend all because my friend we were walking with was wearing a "red" bandana. Now that's what I call stupid. Anyways, we got home okay but they tried coming after my friend a few times which I think is really gay. I had to spend Valentines week in the Hospital only for them to tell me my grandma was dying. Then this weekend we had her funeral. So far I hate this month more than anything. The only bright side about was that I finally got to talk to my friend Joshua who had moved to Abiliene in early November and got to hang out with my friend Dusty which I haven't done in forever. Anyways, that's all the update I have time for. Commits are always appricated. ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/4359527/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/4359527/ Wed, 19 Jan 2005 11:14:06 PST
Overall, her deviations received 963 comments and were added to deviants' favourites 78 times, while she commented 1,033 times, making about 2.48 comments per day since she joined DA. This means that she gave 11 comments for every 10 that she received.

Her deviation with the most comments is Me this previous summer with 34 comments, receiving an average of 2.42 per day in the first 2 weeks, while her most favourited one is The Haunting, with 5 favourites, averaging 0 per day in the first 2 weeks. Her most viewed deviation is Me this previous summer with 60 views.

1 favourite was given for every 10 comments.

Every 3 days she uploads a new deviation, and it's usually on a Tuesday, with 35 (25%) of her deviations.

Her busiest month was March 2004 with 49 (36%) of her deviations.

The majority of her deviations are uploaded to the Poetry gallery (113), while her favourite category was General Poetry > Open with 47 deviations.

Comments per deviation: 6.97
Favourites per deviation: 0.56
Views per deviation: 16.68
Comments per day: 2.31
Favourites per day: 0.18
Views per day: 5.52
Pageviews per day: 7.93 ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/4235854/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/4235854/ Tue, 04 Jan 2005 08:13:31 PST ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/4169229/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/4169229/ Mon, 27 Dec 2004 12:14:23 PST Christmas was rather enjoyable this year one out of a few from my past. There was however some arguement :blahhblahh: but it wasn't anything major. I felt like shit from time to time but it soon got better when darkness beckoned and I once again left my parents house on my own with no one holding me back and no one able to tell me shit. I did however, tell my dad off once or twice because he pissed me off and just wouldn't shut up. Other than that I had a good and fun Christmas. One of my best friends called me from out-of-town and we talked a good 2-3 hours about nothing in preticular. Well that's all I really have to say for now, bye. Have a good and Happy New Year! ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3942734/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3942734/ Sun, 28 Nov 2004 20:06:48 PST ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3892751/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3892751/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 12:17:44 PST ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3732155/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3732155/ Tue, 02 Nov 2004 09:05:34 PST Somethings just aint right.
For the leaves are not yet gone
And the snow has not yet came.
The rain has poured so many times
And the winds have blew so hard it felt like a hurricane.
The days are grey and cloudy
The sun is burried underneath.
The leaves have blown so many ways
Trying to be set free.
The snow is getting ready to come
As the weather begins to freeze.
Somethings just aint right
I wonder what it is.
I can't seem to figure it out
I wonder what it could be. ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3635796/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3635796/ Wed, 20 Oct 2004 15:44:12 PDT ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3602424/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3602424/ Sat, 16 Oct 2004 09:48:07 PDT
overbearing panic attack entrenching my veins
in an hour i'll be ok
i pray this pain will go away permanently someday
I'VE seen more than...
I should have to...
I'VE seen this on my own

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...

reoccurring drowning effect entrenching my brain,
i hope you'll be ok someday,
so i can say that you moved on in the right way...
WE'VE seen this and
WE'VE breathed this and
WE'VE lived this on our own...

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...
your own...

BREAK...

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own... ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3599974/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3599974/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 22:09:14 PDT larafairie, feel free to steal..


IN ONE TRY..TYPE YOUR NAME WITH YOUR:

FINGERS: Deanne
CHIN: cdsaz n ne (I can't do it!)
ONE FINGER WITH EYES CLOSED: deabbe (I can't do it!)
CHEEK: dfedajhj 3 (I can't do it!)
ELBOW: cddezanned (I can't do it!)
LIPS: dsedaqhnhd3 (I can't do it!)
PALM: deaanhe (I can't do it!)
BACK OF HAND: deanne (WooHoo!)
NOSE: deanne (WooHoo!)
TONGUE: deanne (WooHoo!)

-----------------DESCRIBE--------------- ---

-- YOUR HERITAGE: English.
-- THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY: Black Vans
-- YOUR EYES: Blue (Green when moody)
-- YOUR WEAKNESS: emotions
-- YOUR FEARS: loneliness
-- ONE THING YOU'D LIKE TO ACHIEVE: To be happy

-----------------WHAT IS------------------

-- YOUR THOUGHTS FIRST WAKING UP: Where's Joshua?
-- THE FIRST FEATURE YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: eyes and hair.
-- YOUR BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE: I don't think I have one
-- YOUR BEDTIME: when ever I fall asleep
-- YOUR GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT: nothing
-- YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY: Memories of dead boyfriend.

-----------------YOU PREFER------------------

-- PEPSI OR COKE: neither
-- MCDONALD'S OR BURGER KING: Mcdonalds.
-- SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: Single
-- ADIDAS OR NIKE: neither
-- CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Chocolate
-- CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: Cappuccino

-----------------DO YOU------------------

-- SMOKE: yes
-- CUSS: yes
-- TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: every other day
-- HAVE A CRUSH(ES): yes
-- WHO ARE THEY: I rather not say
-- DO YOU THINK YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE?: Oh Yeah.............
-- WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE: no
-- LIKE HIGH SCHOOL: no
-- WANT TO GET MARRIED: yes one day....
-- TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS: yes
-- GET MOTION SICKNESS: sometimes
-- THINK YOU'RE ATTRACTIVE: not really
-- THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: Hell No!
-- GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: that's a big NO!
-- LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: no
-- PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: no

------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU--------------

-- DRANK ALCOHOL: yes
-- SMOKE(D): yes
-- DONE A DRUG: yes
-- HAVE SEX: Hell Yeah...
-- MADE OUT: no
-- GO ON A DATE: no
-- GO TO THE MALL: no
-- BEEN ON STAGE: no
-- BEEN DUMPED: no (I'm not dating)
-- GONE SKATING: no
-- MADE HOMEMADE COOKIES: no
-- BEEN IN LOVE: yes (maybe it could be only lust or just a little more)
-- DYED YOUR HAIR: no
-- STOLEN ANYTHING: no

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------

-- FLOWN ON A PLANE: yes
-- MISSED SCHOOL BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING?: yes
-- TOLD A GUY/GIRL THAT YOU LIKED THEM?: yes
-- CRIED DURING A MOVIE?: yes
-- EVER THOUGHT AN ANIMATED CHARACTER WAS HOT?: yes
-- HAD AN IMAGINARY FRIEND: yes
-- BEEN ON STAGE?: yes
-- CUT YOUR HAIR: yes
-- HAD CRUSH ON A TEACHER?: no
-- PLAYED A GAME THAT REQUIRED REMOVAL OF CLOTHING? yes
-- BEEN TRASHED OR EXTREMELY INTOXICATED: yes
-- BEEN CAUGHT "DOING SOMETHING": yes
-- BEEN CALLED A TEASE: yes
-- GOTTEN BEATEN UP?: yes
-- BEEN IN A FIGHT: yes
-- SHOPLIFTED: yes

-----------------THE FUTURE------------------

-- AGE YOU HOPE TO BE MARRIED: 30+
-- NUMBERS AND NAMES OF CHILDREN: 2, a girl named Ezra and a boy named Ezekial
-- DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING: never really thought of it
-- HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE?: don't care as long as I rot 6 ft under
-- WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?: don't know
--WHAT COUNTRY WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT?: ireland

-----------------OPPOSITE/SAME SEX------------------

-- BEST EYE COLOR: blue/brown
-- BEST HAIR COLOR: brown/blonde
-- SHORT OR LONG HAIR: Long/short
-- BEST HEIGHT: tallish/average
-- BEST WEIGHT: not to chubby/not to skinny
-- BEST FIRST DATE LOCATION: whatever
-- BEST FIRST KISS LOCATION: whatever


-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------

-- NUMBER OF BOYFRIENDS/GIRLFRIENDS YOU'VE HAD: 5
-- NUMBER OF KISSES YOU'VE GIVEN: who counts that shit?
-- NUMBER OF DRUGS TAKEN ILLEGALLY: 2 weed and cocanie
-- NUMBER OF PEOPLE I COULD TRUST WITH MY LIFE: 1
-- NUMBER OF PIERCINGS: none
-- NUMBER OF TATTOOS: 1
-- NUMBER OF TIMES MY NAME HAS APPEARED IN THE NEWSPAPER?: none
-- NUMBER OF SCARS ON MY BODY: too many to count
-- NUMBE... ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3597348/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3597348/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 15:42:35 PDT
I've been waiting all day for ya babe
So won't cha come and sit and talk to me
And tell me how we're gonna be together always
Hope you know that when it's late at night
I Hold on to my pillow tight
And think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone)
Could make me feel this way
(Now that you're here boy all I want)
Is just a chance to say

[Chorus]
Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Tell me why you're looking so confused
When I'm the one who didn't know the truth
How could you ever be so cold
To go behind my back and call my friend
Boy you must have gone and bumped your head
Because you left her number on your phone
(So now after all is said and done)
Maybe I'm the one to blame but
(To think that you could be the one)
Well it didn't work out that way

[Chorus]

I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you've gotta leave
Because my heart is breakin'
With every word I'm sayin'
I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn't last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from these
Eyeee-eeee-eeees
Ooooh, ooooh
Get out

[Chorus x2]

Get out (leave)
You and me
It's too late (too late)
You ohh
Bout her move why
You said that you would treat me right (noooo)
but it was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Ohhhh oh oh oh hoh oh ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3597333/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3597333/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 15:40:42 PDT
You know the story
You read the books
Boy meets girl
Then they fall forever in love
But I know better
So here goes a tale
Of the realest of the real
Listen

Now once upon a time in a small world
It was everything that I dreamed of
He was my gem and I was his pearl
Nothing could come between us
A prince charming to call my own
Until the day that he broke my heart
And left me wonderin all alone
Pickin my mind and soul apart

Used to believe in love (I used to believe in love)
Used to believe in fairy tales (In fairy tales)
Since my heart's been crushed (It's been crushed)
I don't believe in much, I need help (No no no no no)
Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself
I've just started to learn (La da da dee, oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales

Is a good story supposed to end
Unhappily ever after
Just as wonderful as it begins
And carry on for a few chapters
Baby how come each time I open up
I can't seem to get past stage one
I guess it's time for me to close up
And go back on the shelf because I'm done

Used to believe in love (I used to believe in love)
Used to believe in fairy tales (In fairy tales)
Since my heart's been crushed (Since my heart's been crushed)
I don't believe in much, I need help
Don't know which way to turn (I don't know which way to turn)
Figure it out for myself
I've just started to learn (La da da dee oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales

Twinkle twinkle little star
Why do my dreams seem so far (Why they seem so far)
Up above the world so high
Won't somebody tell me why (Can you help me)
Can you help me out
Can you tell me what love is all about
Cause I never known it for myself (Don't believe in fairy tales)
That's why I don't believe in fairy tales no more

Used to believe in love (No more)
Used to believe in fairy tales (I used to believe, I used to believe, I used to believe)
Since my heart's been crushed
I don't believe in much, I need help (I don't believe in much)
Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself (Oh no no no no no)
I've just started to learn (Just started to learn)
There's no such thing as fairy tales (There's no such thing as fairy tales)

Used to believe in love
Used to believe fairy tales (La da da da)
Since my heart's been crushed
I don't believe in much, I need help
Don't know which way to turn (I don't know which way)
Figure it out for myself
I've just started to learn
There's no such thing as fairy tales ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3597286/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3597286/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 15:34:07 PDT
On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care

When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy it's your mission
And you won't stop til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can dream

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me... ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3597274/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3597274/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 15:33:15 PDT
You think you know me
Word on the street is that you do
You want my history
What others tell you won't be true

I walked a thousand miles while everyone was asleep
Nobody's really seen my million subtleties

Got stains on my t-shirt and I'm the biggest flirt
Right now I'm solo, but that will be changing eventually, oh
Got bruises on my heart and sometimes I get dark
If you want my auto, want my autobiography
Baby, just ask me

I hear you talking
Well, it's my turn now
I'm talking back
Look in my eyes
So you can see just where I'm at

I walked a thousand miles to find one river of peace
I walked a million more to find out what this shit means

Got stains on my t-shirt and I'm the biggest flirt
Right now I'm solo, but that will be changing eventually, oh
Got bruises on my heart and sometimes I get dark
If you want my auto, want my autobiography
Baby, just ask me

I'm a bad ass girl in this messed up world
I'm the sexy girl in this crazy world
I'm a simple girl in a complex world
A nasty girl, you wanna get with me?
You wanna mess with me?

Got stains on my t-shirt and I'm the biggest flirt
Right now I'm solo, but that will be changing eventually, oh
I laugh more than I cry
You piss me off, good-bye
Got bruises on my heart and sometimes I get dark
If you want my auto, want my autobiography
Baby, just ask me ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3597264/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3597264/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 15:31:58 PDT
I was six years old
When my parents went away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door

Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me

All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity

So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry for me-

Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past is in the past

I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me

Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3427870/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3427870/ Thu, 23 Sep 2004 10:23:21 PDT ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3427720/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3427720/ Thu, 23 Sep 2004 09:50:10 PDT
Try to tell me what I shouldn't do
You should know by now,
I won't listen to you
Walk around with my hands up in the air
Cause I don't care

Cause I'm alright, I'm fine

Just freak out, let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compramise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go
Just freak out, let it go

You don't always have to do everything right
Stand up for yourself
And put up a fight
walk around with your hands up in the air
Like you don't care

Cause I'm alright, I'm fine

Just freak out, let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compramise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go

On my own
Let it go
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Just let me live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compramise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go

Gonna freak out, let it go
Gonna freak out, let it go ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3279330/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3279330/ Fri, 03 Sep 2004 16:49:18 PDT and wonder where you are
and if you think of me on lonely nights
or dream about me when there's nothing left to dream
I don't expect you to miss me
and I know the phone will never ring
with your voice hanging on the other line
but I have to know
if I'm in your thoughts
or if you forgot about me
like you promised you never would
I can't bear the thought
of what we shared
being nothing than a footnote
in a forgotten chapter of your life
and even though I only think of you
during the loneliest hours of the night
Part of me is still hoping
that you're thinking of me
when I'm busy not thinking of you
So shed not a tear for what we lost
nor heave a sigh for what could have been
Just let me grace your thoughts
when the night hangs long and low
and everything will be right when we awake
in the worlds we've created
in the many years we've been apart ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3279312/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3279312/ Fri, 03 Sep 2004 16:47:15 PDT let the heartache flow again
watch me turn to my addictions
and let temptation be my guide
I'll quell the pain with thoughts of lust
drown the tears in temporary joys
as I'm tripping up the stairs of life
falling on every step I climb
It's a blind charge through endless repetition
running into doors I've closed
with a history of lies
I can't do the things I love anymore
I only love one thing now
and it calls to me
at times like these
like a lover lost in the night
it finds me with open arms
and pulls me aside
Am I strong enough to win this fight?
Can I do this all again?
As my strength cracks and breaks
I see how I've lied to myself
about the twisted merry-go-round I'm riding
and how long I can hold on
before I'm hurled aside for good
Because even though there's determination
lurking within my eyes
I can still feel myself fading
disappearing within my mind
There is no exit from this place
There is no victory to be found
Just another day of trials
another day to watch myself grow weak
It's just my fate
and the cross I bear
watching life turn around
spinning with the hands of the clock
opening up everything that was old
memories I tried to forget
become new again
and I'm sliding
as I’m racing to the end
holding on as strong
as my shattered will allows
waiting until I finally slip
and drift into nothingness
losing myself for good
and forever ending
this senseless repetition ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3268972/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3268972/ Thu, 02 Sep 2004 08:43:21 PDT
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet

Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get

Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walking through this world all alone

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're loosin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3268946/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/3268946/ Thu, 02 Sep 2004 08:37:48 PDT A
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L
I
N
G

I
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T
O

M
Y

O
W
N

D
A
R
K

A
B
Y
S
S ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2980898/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2980898/ Tue, 27 Jul 2004 15:21:13 PDT I got asked that question. Don't know when I'll be on again or when I'll have new stuff. What I do know is that its very hard to give up.

Vampriss17 ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2842395/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2842395/ Fri, 09 Jul 2004 15:21:44 PDT
Broken Hearted - MXPX

I’m broken hearted, broken hearted for you
So don’t get me started on repairs
I know what you’re gonna do
You’ll break it again
I know I can’t win
You’ll just break my heart again

You chose the words you knew would make me cry
You prolly done it to a hundred guys
I’m not cryin’, I got somethin’ in my eyes
You said you never really felt a thing
You said you didn’t like the way I sing
I’m not cryin’, but my eyes they really sting

I’m broken hearted, broken hearted for you
So don’t get me started on repairs
I know what you’re gonna do
You’ll break it again
I know I can’t win
You’ll just break my heart again

You slapped my face before you said goodbye
Called me a loser, hopin’ I would die
I’m not cryin’, I got somethin’ in my eye
You said you never really felt a thing
You said you didn’t like the way I sing
I’m not cryin’, but my eyes they really sting

I’m broken hearted, broken hearted for you
So don’t get me started on repairs
I know what you’re gonna do
You’ll break it again
I know I can’t win
You’ll just break my heart again ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2824084/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2824084/ Wed, 07 Jul 2004 09:28:55 PDT 1) Spent long hours at summer school but passed with enough coffee to go around a room 5 times.
2) Droped drugs and alchol and am now going to support groups called AA (Alcholics Anomyous) and CA (Cocaine Anomyous) also for other drugs. I've been clean for a month and a half. Its been HELL! Next week on the 15th I will be sober and clean for 2 months and it isn't easy either. Actually, its probably the most stressful thing in my life at the moment.
3) Recently I've been living where ever I fall asleep at and at first it was a month and a half since I've been home, but now I've been going a little more often because of work and all. For the past 2 months my bed time has ranged from anywhere between 3 am to 6 am and I'm dead tired sometimes (THANK GOD FOR COFFEE). I've been getting home around that time too and sometimes it freaks me out because I'm afraid to wake up my parents. Not because I'll get in trouble, because once you wake my parents up in the middle of the night they can't get back to sleep so I been trying to do my best not to disturb them.
4) My old friends and I are talking again, prefering to my friends Tony and Dusty. My new friends and I are going to "Hell in a hand basket" prefering to my friends Anthony and Kerry. I HATE friends sometimes they're so complicated, dramatic, and cause way too much problems and stress. That's one of the main reason why I don't really like people period.
5) My ex-boyfriend Charles is getting married and is having a baby. We don't talk anymore but that's okay because I'm over him. Every now and then the memories and pain will come in on a big tidal wave and wipe me out, but hey nothing goes away in a day. I do feel more happy about myself I guess you could say.
6) If you all read "Being sick is easy" then here's a little update on that. My friend Dusty took me to Taco Casa and got me something to eat. With temptation and hunger rising I ate it. Then the next morning I . Later I try eating some chips and a candy bar but it decided now to stay down and I that up too. Last night my friend Tony took me home and decided to buy me a sandwich and a frappiccino. Well the frappiccino is coffee so it was quite satisfying. The sandwich on the other hand....well for 1. It tasted like rubber and for 2. If you haven't guessed it already, I that up as well. My conclusion of the past few days. Being sick is easy, fighting temptation is harder, sucks ass, and not eating a damn thing doesn't bother me at all.

Well hope everyone enjoys my little update and until I decided to update it again so long. ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2816048/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2816048/ Tue, 06 Jul 2004 09:42:19 PDT
Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back) - Eamon

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No

[Verse 1:]
See, I dont know why I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel

[Chorus:]
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

[Verse 2:]
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another act, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah

Ya questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone, I even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.
It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
[Until the end] ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2761925/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2761925/ Tue, 29 Jun 2004 08:44:28 PDT
You held my hand and walked me home, I know
While you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go ooh ohh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl?
The one who gives it all away

[Chorus:]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
You're better off that way

Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head get off of my bed yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl, the one who, throws it all away

[Chorus]

This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

[Chorus]

Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2682568/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2682568/ Thu, 17 Jun 2004 13:00:25 PDT
It ticks just like a Timex
It never lets up on you
Who said life was easy
The job is never through
It'll run us 'til we're ragged
It'll harden our hearts
And love could use a day of rest
Before we both start falling apart

I Pray that it's raining on Sunday
Stormin' like crazy
We'll hide under the covers all afternoon
Baby whatever comes Monday
Can take care of itself
'Cause we've got better things that we can do
When it's raining on Sunday

Your love is like religion
A cross in Mexico
And your kiss is like the innocence
Of a prayer nailed to a door
Oh surrender is much sweeter
When we both let it go
Let the water wash our bodies clean
And love wash our souls

And pray that it's raining on Sunday
Stormin' like crazy
And we'll hide under the covers all afternoon
And baby whatever comes Monday
Can take care of itself
'Cause we've got better things that we can do
When it's raining on Sunday
Ooh, oh oh

I Pray that it's raining on Sunday
Stormin' like crazy
We'll hide under the covers all afternoon
And baby whatever comes Monday
Can take care of itself
'Cause we've got better things that we can do
When it's raining on Sunday
Ooh, oh oh
When it's raining on Sunday
When it's raining on Sunday
Let it rain
Whoo, ooh ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2673266/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2673266/ Wed, 16 Jun 2004 09:28:52 PDT
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of mine

I look at you, lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine

Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine

What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I lost all hope, you showed me love (Boy you showed me love)
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time (Right on Time)
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine)

I never knew I could feel each moment
As if it were new,
Every breath that I take, the love that we make
I only share it with you (you, you, you,you)
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine

You came into my life sent from above (Came into my life, yeah yeah yeah)
When I lost all hope you showed me love (Boy You showed me love, uh huh)
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time (But boy your right on time)
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine, oh mine)

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow

I look at you lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2627399/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2627399/ Thu, 10 Jun 2004 08:36:00 PDT Autumnminion she's new to deviantart and needs some people to talk too.

Pretty Boy - M2M

I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall

You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

[BRIDGE]
Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2512324/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2512324/ Wed, 26 May 2004 09:57:36 PDT Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me

Why don't I like the girl I see
The one who's standing right in front of me
Why don't I think before I speak
I should have listened to that voice inside me
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see

Why did I let you walk away
When all I had to do was say I'm sorry
I let my pride get in the way
And in the heat of the moment I was to blame
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
Now in the cold light of the day I realize

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

If only wishes could be dreams
And know my dreams could come true
There would be two us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be
Bring back my baby, my baby to me

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2358117/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2358117/ Tue, 04 May 2004 12:17:01 PDT DarkAndForsakenless who stole it from ~ bleedingice

LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Deanne Marie Miller
--Birthplace: Corona, California
-- Gender: Female
-- Eye Color: Blue
-- Hair Colour: Brown
-- Height: 5’9”
-- Righty or Lefty: Right
-- Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius

LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: No Clue
-- The shoes you wore today: Boots
-- Your fears: Loneliness
-- Your perfect meal: Pancakes with French toast, coffee, milk, tea, and a cigarette
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: To become an architect

LAYER THREE:
-- Your thoughts first waking up: Same day, different shit
-- Your best physical feature: My mind
-- Your bedtime: Whenever I fall asleep
-- Your most missed memory: Its missed because it hurts too much to think about it.

LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: Neither
-- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald’s
-- Single or group dates: Single
-- Adidas or Nike: I favor boots
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea Ice Tea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Both are good

LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: Yes, trying to cut down
-- Cuss: Every other word
-- Sing: Yes
--Take a shower: Everyday
-- Have a crush: Crushes are childish. You either date them or you don’t.
-- Do you think you've been in love: Yes, 3 times and I am now
-- Want to go to college: Yes
-- Liked high school: I’m still in high school but I hate it
-- Want to get married: Yes
-- Get motion sickness: No
-- Think you're attractive: Sometimes
-- Think you're a health freak: No
-- Get along with your parents: My mom yes, my dad can go to hell
-- Like thunderstorms: If I’m not alone
-- Play an instrument: No

LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: Yes
-- Smoked: Yes
-- Done a drug: Yes
-- Had Sex: Yes
-- Made Out: Yes
-- Gone on a date: Yes
-- Gone to the mall? : Yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No, I hate Oreos
-- Eaten sushi: No, I hate fish
-- Been on stage: No
-- Been dumped?: Yes
-- Made homemade cookies: No
-- Gone skinny dipping: No
-- Dyed your hair: No
-- Stolen anything: Yes

LAYER NINE:
In a guy/girl...
-- Best eye colour?: Blue or brown
-- Best hair colour?: Brown or dirty blonde
-- Short or long hair?: Long
-- Height: Around the same height as me if not a little shorter or taller
-- Best weight: Average build
-- Best articles of clothing: Clothing don’t matter

LAYER TEN:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 1, I only do weed
-- Number of piercings: None
-- Number of tattoos: None
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: None
-- Number of scars on my body: 35-40
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: Too many, too count or even care about

B A S I C . Q U E S T I O N S-

[in the morning i am]: Ready to go back to sleep and never wake up
[all i need is]: My one baby boy
[love is]: Pain and misery mixed with tenderness and caring
[if i could see one person right now]: My baby boy Charles
[i'm afraid of]: Loneliness
[i dream about]: Stuff I prefer not to say on-line.

-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or pepsi]: Neither
[flowers or candy]: Candy.
[tall or short]: Doesn’t matter
-W I T H . T H E . O P P O S I T E . S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: Eyes
[last person you slow danced with]: My baby boy Charles
[worst question to ask]: Do you think I’m pretty?

-W H O-
[makes you laugh the most?]: My baby boy Charles
[makes you smile]: My baby boy Charles and some of my friends
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: Charles
[do you have a crush on?]: Charles, not a crush but in love
[has a crush on you?]: Who knows
[easiest to talk to]: Charles
-D O . Y O U . E V E R-
[Stay on aim, waitin for someone special to IM you]: No
[save aol/aim conversations]: No
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]:Sometimes
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: I have
-H A V E . Y O U . E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: Yes, that’s how Charles and me met
[been rejected?]: Once by my friend Andrew
[rejected someone]: Yes alot
[used someone]: Yes
[been cheated on]: Yes
[cheated on someone]: No
[done something you regret]: Yes, who hasn’t
-W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N-... ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2267660/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2267660/ Wed, 21 Apr 2004 12:13:54 PDT That's where my soul is worn
Tattered and Torn
That's when I was born
Tattered and Torn
I broke away from me
Tattered and Torn
I knocked me to my knees
Tattered and Torn
I drink my own cells
Tattered and Torn
A decomposing well
Tattered and Torn
Roaches in my head
Tattered and Torn
I become the living dead
Tattered and Torn
Tearing myself apart from the
things that make me hurt


By: Slipknot ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2114360/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2114360/ Tue, 30 Mar 2004 08:23:20 PST
~Vampriss17

Friends:
Aaron: *PillMonkey or ~Paper-Cut-Suicide
Charlie: *phlezk
Charlotte: ~ladydicapolis
Chris: ~Onigaze
Claudia: ~ninnna
Dieter: ~Deosneos
Doug: ~djdouglas
Dusty: *dusty129
Emily: ~XxXbeautifulsinXxX
Fankie: ~frankienexus
Gaelen: ~graken
Jeremiah: ~UnwantedAddiktion
Kayla: ~peircedvampriss
Mark: ~the-true-beast
Nattie: ~TsutsuNat
Nicole: ~gonzosmonkey
Nikul: ~NikiP
Paul: ~fiveround
Rina: ~meichan-24
Than: ~katana42
Victor: ~Trole

Other Friends:
~bloodred
*pencillicious
~SombreRose
!SuicideMyLove
~xkillthisx

Family:
Darrin: ~insanerain ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2082033/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2082033/ Thu, 25 Mar 2004 12:01:22 PST Well, we got to talking and I saw that he was really troubled about something. I found out that he just go out of a abusive relationship which lasted for a year. "Not to be mean or anything", I said to him. "But if you add another year and a little more hate and sadness then thats exactly how I felt when you abused me." He just sat there dumbfoundedly and looked at me then he started crying and apologizing. I didn't know what to do so I told him that it was 2 years ago and its all in the past and theres nothing to fret about anymore. I did however find out that hes still in love with me and that he has never gotten over me and the only reason he kept his distance was because he was afraid to face what he had done to me.

Anyhow, my friends Victor ~Trole and Doug ~djdouglas need friends and supports for there work. Go visit them and everyone will get two 's

Friends:
Aaron: *PillMonkey or ~Paper-Cut-Suicide
Charlie: *phlezk
Charlotte: ~ladydicapolis
Chris: ~Onigaze
Claudia: ~ninnna
Dieter: ~Deosneos
Doug: ~djdouglas
Dusty: *dusty129
Emily: ~XxXbeautifulsinXxX
Fankie: ~frankienexus
Gaelen: ~graken
Jeremiah: ~UnwantedAddiktion
Kayla: ~peircedvampriss
Mark: ~the-true-beast
Nattie: ~TsutsuNat
Nicole: ~gonzosmonkey
Nikul: ~NikiP
Paul: ~fiveround
Rina: ~meichan-24
Than: ~katana42
Victor: ~Trole

Other Friends:
~bloodred
*pencillicious
~SombreRose
!SuicideMyLove
~xkillthisx

Family:
Darrin: ~insanerain ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2075316/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2075316/ Wed, 24 Mar 2004 11:38:14 PST to so go welcome him. Everyone who does this will get a
Victor---[link]

Friends:
Aaron: [link]
Charlie: [link]
Doug: [link]
Dusty: [link]
Than: [link]
Victor: [link]

Family:
Darrin: [link] ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2068204/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2068204/ Tue, 23 Mar 2004 09:35:45 PST First appearance of the word "upir" in a document referring to a Russian prince as "Upir Lichy", or wicked vampire.

1196
William of Newburgh's "Chronicles". It records several stories of vampire like revenants in England.

1428
Vlad Dracula, or Vlad the Impaler, is born.

1477
Vlad the Impaler is assassinated.

1484
The Malleus Maleficarium, known as the witch hunter's bible, is written by Heinrich Kramer and Jacob Sprenger. The topic of how to hunt and destroy a vampire is discussed.

1560
Erzsebet (Elizabeth) Bathory is born.

1610
Elizabeth Bathory is tried and convicted of killing several hundred girls. Her sentence is life imprisonment.

1614
Elizabeth Bathory dies.

1679
A German vampire text, "De Masticatione Mortuorum", is written by Phillip Rohr.

1727-1732
Arnold Paole unleashes his vampiric terror on the town of Meduegna.

1734
The word "vampyre" enters the English language. 1748 - The first modern vampyre poem, "Der Vampir", is published.

1813
A vampire appears in Lord Byron's The Giaour.

1819
John Polidori's "The Vampyre," is the first vampire story in English is published.

1847
Bram Stoker is born.

1872
In Italy, Vincenzo Verzeni is convicted of murdering two people and drinking their blood.

1897
"Dracula" by Bram Stoker is published in England.

1924
Fritz Haarmann the "Vampire of Hanover" is arrested, tried and convicted of killing more than 20 people in a vampiric crime spree.

1931
Dracula, starring Bela Lugosi, is released.

1932
The movie "Vampyr," directed by Carl Theodor Dreyer, is released.

1936
"Dracula's Daughter" is released.

1943
"Son of Dracula", stars Lon Chaney, Jr., as Dracula.

1962
The Count Dracula Society is founded in the United States by Donald Reed.

1964
"The Munsters" and "The Addams Family"; television shows with vampiric characters.

1965
Jeanne Youngson founds The Count Dracula Fan Club.

1970
Sean Manchester founds The Vampire Research Society."In Search of Dracula" by Raymond T. McNally and Radu Florescu is published.--Stephan Kaplan founds The Vampire Research Centre.

1976
The first of the Vampire Chronicles, "Interview With the Vampire", by Anne Rice is published.

1979
Frank Langella stars in the remake of Dracula.

1980
Richard Chase, the so-called Dracula Killer of Sacramento, California, commits suicide in prison.

1985
"The Vampire Lestat" by Anne Rice is published and reaches the best seller list.

1988
"The Queen of the Damned" is published by Anne Rice.

1991
Vampire: The Masquerade," the vampire role-playing game is released by White Wolf.

1992
"Bram Stoker's Dracula" directed by Francis Ford Coppola opens. --Andrei Chikatilo of Russia, is sentenced to death after killing and vampirizing 55 people.-"The Tale of the Body Thief" by Anne Rice is published.

1994
The film version of Anne Rice's "Interview with the Vampire" opens with Tom Cruise as the Vampire Lestat and Brad Pitt as Louis.

1998
Blade is released into theaters. Pandora by Anne Rice is published. The Vampire Armand by Anne Rice is published.

1999
Vittorio the Vampire by Anne Rice is published. ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2063516/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2063516/ Mon, 22 Mar 2004 15:41:40 PST
Friends:
Dusty: [link]
Aaron: [link]
Charlie: [link]
Than: [link]

Family:
Darrin: [link]
(my little bro) ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2061881/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2061881/ Mon, 22 Mar 2004 11:32:22 PST Well anyhow, I stuck in school once again. I'm just glad that theres only 2 more months of school left until summer. Oh yeah, I might move to Austin. Still its undecided. First it started out that I move in with my friend, then it turned into that I'll just live on my own, and now it might be that I'm movin to Austin. Don't know which one I'll do but I'll figure it out within the 2 months I have to decied.

Friends:
Dusty: [link]
Aaron: [link]
Charlie: [link]
Than: [link]

Family:
Darrin: [link]
(my little bro) ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2061863/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2061863/ Mon, 22 Mar 2004 11:28:39 PST Well anyhow, I stuck in school once again. I'm just glad that theres only 2 more months of school left until summer. Oh yeah, I might move to Austin. Still its undecided. First it started out that I move in with my friend, then it turned into that I'll just live on my own, and now it might be that I'm movin to Austin. Don't know which one I'll do but I'll figure it out within the 2 months I have to decied. ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2035537/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2035537/ Thu, 18 Mar 2004 08:28:15 PST [link] ]]> ~Vampriss17 http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2031161/ http://Vampriss17.deviantart.com/journal/2031161/ Wed, 17 Mar 2004 15:12:53 PST ~Vampriss17