http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:VanthMithra&section=today deviantART RSS for by:VanthMithra en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 28 Dec 2009 04:35:28 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/16692672/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/16692672/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 15:08:28 PST The fruit of idleness, will lead to a fall
For empty tomes, writ in my home
Days in alone, will ache for a soul

I should've known, when it has grown
The point of illness, the need to wall
For empty tomes, writ in my home
Where I disown, mirth to woe

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something i wrote a while back.. I kinda started feeling this way again.. being empty and alone

it'll pass..

I was also affected by Poe a lil' bit.. been reading his poetry..
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]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/16489197/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/16489197/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 11:37:12 PST "Nah. Just generally despise him."
"…"
"…"
"But it's pretty much the same thing."
"…No. Hate is…You know, hate is like love. Love makes people, do things out of character, it's like, like, euphoria. I don't believe just anyone has met hate before, you know? Dislike, yes, that is common, makes you bias, know what I mean? But hate. No, it's a different story, it takes a lot to hate. It's just an easy word on the lips."
"So despise, huh?"
"Yeah, worthless."
"Blows over?"
"Sure, time's a doll when it comes to scar tissue, will leave a lil' mark, but you learn."
"Wish I could say the same."
"Go ahead, saying's for free. Lie to yourself. You'll believe it in a while."
"They tell you to be honest, most importantly to yourself…"
"In nursery rhymes? They also tell you the war on terrorism, for some, is not a campaign to dominate the world. See? It's real easy, fill your head with a few fables and you'll eat up your own words… Just a couple of cows flying over the moon."
"Thought and emotion, separate elements, I say then I feel the contrary."
"Emotion's in your mind, you know. I think, therefore I am. Isn't that what he said? Anyway, they throw around the word casualties like they're some spare parts that exhausted their pipelines…"
"Who?" exasperatingly.
"Campaign fuckers."
"Do you hate them?" playfully.
"Not really. Though, I would if I was the one dying for no goddamn reason. But they believe in "fight fire with fire". I'm starting to miss Saddam. You know what's funny?"
"what?" plainly.
"nothing." Simply.
"what?" confusingly.
"That's it, nothing. Nothing's funny. It's hilariously unfunny. It's amusingly grim. It's beautifully corrupted. Just put any two opposite words and you'll describe the world."
"I feel like I'm talking to Lewis Caroll."
"who?"
"Never mind. So did you see the winter sale.."
……


no point. imaginary conversation.

]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/16325460/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/16325460/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 05:40:20 PST
By my belief, we all come from one womb.

It's my fault. I'm sorry. When a war comes. I'll be the first one to kiss ass.

]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/12828338/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/12828338/ Thu, 03 May 2007 13:46:08 PDT [link]

Will be submitting my old stuff + future writings..

plz watch that account as well..

]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/12497938/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/12497938/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 14:44:45 PDT Life is short. Learn to live it. And live it with virtue.

A close friend of mine's father died. I wrote this poem. Wondering if i cried when someone close to me dies..

a week after i wrote it. A friend of mine died...my question was answered...

A funeral:

I can't be involved in a crowd of people
The murder of crow.
Feeding on the sorrow.
I'd surely hate what I can't express
I'd surely hate the faked remorse
I don't have tears for the dead
I don't have tears for the living
Selfish, but unpretentious

My Higher Ego would give me conscience
And It dissolves my conceptions
Leaving me to bite my nails
Leaving me hating
Leaving me in shame

The real funeral is the one that walks into the mourning hearts of loved ones.


My question was answered. I can't believe he's gone. Sherif...is gone...he's...gone...

allah yer7amak ye sherif. We all loved you so much. Ya gam3a el moslemeen out there plz pray for him...

he was so young..

Rest In Peace

]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/12258974/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/12258974/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 13:54:03 PDT To idle thoughts and buried minds
To hidden nights and hidden days
I close my eyes and slip away

It seems my sleep you have one ail?
You see hollow brains, walking corpreal
You see them giving the idle speech, the tiresome wail
It seems my sleep, you have but one ail...



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in case you're wondering. I just had a re-occurring nightmare.

]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/12102120/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/12102120/ Thu, 08 Mar 2007 05:46:12 PST and um i wasnt insulting who i was talking to...just letting something out...

no

no?

i'll show u wat no does

ok ?

yes ok

you will see

you all will see

will see the end

the end of your life

of your life that I take


with a simple cut of a knife from the butcher's table

from the butcher's table full of blood

full of blood of his victims

from his victims like cattle

like cattle i'll slaughter you all

you all...will die

f u

f u?

wat the fuck is f u?

yes

Fuck u

just say fuck

it looks better

and feels better

ok FUCK !

atta girl

will die in my hands

my hands that are rough

are rough from the sands

the sands of time

of time that i consume

consume to betray

to betray the ones i love

The ones i love that stabbed me

that stabbed me and tore off my wings

My wings like a fly

A fly on their walls

their walls that they create

they create a world

A world of hate


Of hate and pain

Pain like a paper cut

Like a paper cut so small

So small and worthless

And worthless like you

You are my papercut

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Still copywrite my deviations with the name "Cerebral Creation"
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check out this artist she's my role model in Digital Art...

]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/11309281/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/11309281/ Thu, 04 Jan 2007 03:44:27 PST
]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/10763663/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/10763663/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 06:56:30 PST
The Preface Of Oscar Wilde's:

The artist is the creator of beautiful things.

To reveal art and conceal the artist is art's aim.

The critic is he who can translate into another manner or a new material his impression of beautiful things.

The highest, as the lowest, form of criticism is a mode of autobiography.

Those who find ugly meanings in beautiful things are corrupt without being charming. This is a fault.

Those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are the cultivated. For these there is hope.

They are the elect to whom beautiful things mean only Beauty.

There is no such thing as a moral or an immoral book. Books are well written, or badly written. That is all.

The nineteenth century dislike of Realism is the rage of Caliban seeing his own face in a glass.

The nineteenth century dislike of Romanticism is the rage of Caliban not seeing his own face in a glass.

The moral life of man forms part of the subject-matter of the artist, but the morality of art consists in the perfect use of an imperfect medium.

No artist desires to prove anything. Even things that are true can be proved.

No artist has ethical sympathies. An ethical sympathy in an artist is an unpardonable mannerism of style.

No artist is ever morbid. The artist can express everything.

Thought and language are to the artist instruments of an art.

Vice and virtue are to the artist materials for an art.

From the point of view of form, the type of all the arts is the art of the musician. From the point of view of feeling, the actor's craft is the type.

All art is at once surface and symbol.

Those who go beneath the surface do so at their peril.

Those who read the symbol do so at their peril.

It is the spectator, and not life, that art really mirrors.

Diversity of opinion about a work of art shows that the work is new, complex, and vital.

When critics disagree, the artist is in accord with himself.

We can forgive a man for making a useful thing as long as he does not admire it. The only excuse for making a useless thing is that one admires it intensely.

All art is quite useless


Features!!!

*Traditional Art: Can't Turn Back Time By -This guy is an ILLUSIONIST his art is so unique..Another theme of Time in a very individual technique. A MUST to see!-

*Romantic Fixed Poetry: Journeyman By -I love how the rythem of the poem goes, tho it looks pretty prose-like, but it is under the poetry category. And as one of the commentors said "it has an internal rythem to it"...

*General Poetry: The Closest Thing By -I would consider it experimental, becoz it's written in an usual form. The concept behind it can be looked from various aspects and the emtion behind it is definite..suming it up...it's a pretty good piece. way to go bro!-

Well there's alot more I can put here...but I don't have time now and i gotta go...So next time maybe...enjoy

]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/10487436/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/10487436/ Mon, 23 Oct 2006 13:30:01 PDT anyway...

Off the days of emotional stress and being rejected then lacking complete confidence...
I'm starting to concentrate on myself...Knowing what i want..blah blah blah good for me..

so starting to feature people here...here are some submissions i found interesting..:

*photography* Louvre by I've seen many pictures of the louvre or around the louvre..but this one's got an extremely well taken angle for it...very impressive...and the atmosphere as well is beautifuly adjusted

*Sketches* What Lies Beneath by very perceptive of the emotions behind the eyes

*Digital Art* Summer's Minuet by it somehow has a shakesperean feel to it..i dunno why..

*photography* Pain And Living by I thought it was very conceptual and extremely expressing, she bends like a dancer who dances along the tunes of pain...

*photography* What A Wonderful World by irony...i like the irony of it...

*Digital Art* Time by good theme, quite a different approach to the cliched topic of time

Well that's it for now...enjoy...

]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/10091687/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/10091687/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 13:50:59 PDT I thought I'd share this piece of poetry with the rest of you. I really loved it..


Dreamers by Seigfried Sassoon:

Soldiers are citizens of death's gray land,
Drawing no dividend from time's to-morrows.
In the great hour of destiny they stand,
Each with his feuds, and jealousies, and sorrows.
Soldiers are sworn to action; they must win
Some flaming, fatal climax with their lives.
Soldiers are dreamers; when the guns begin
They think of firelit homes, clean beds, and wives.

I see them in foul dug-outs, gnawed by rats,
And in the ruined trenches, lashed with rain,
Dreaming of things they did with balls and bats,
And mocked by hopeless longing to regain
Bank-holidays, and picture shows, and spats,
And going to the office in the train.


I somehow not only relate this to the men who die in war, but to people who live their lives with every second of struggle and trying to embody their visions and dreams. This is for the true dreamers. For the people who fight, even without a gun. ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/9893170/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/9893170/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 06:53:36 PDT Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do? (do, do)

Come break me down
marry me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do? (do, do)
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you (from you)

Come break me down
marry me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come break me down
marry me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break...?
What if I...
What if I...

-30 Seconds To Mars "The Kill" ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/9549661/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/9549661/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 02:34:20 PDT POLITICAL!!!

If you're not aware that there's an actual war going on...then you should be ashamed..

I'm late at my usual political commentary. But when I knew, i was overcome with anger, helplessness and sorrow.
Lebanon is at war. And again..the american media chooses what to show and what not to show. God..they were buried under tons of concrete..The paramedics dug under to get the bodies out...most were children from 4 to 12

Is this how Israel chooses to resolve political problems? Shooting civilians. Innocents. Hiding behind false reasons and alot of crap.

Next it'll be Iran..then syria...then the middle east will turn into one big pit full of bloodshed. Ah, kill the bloody terrorists...when did our names become linked to the word? I just want people who talk alot of shit to go back a few years in history...You call people who blow up "military bases" to defend their own grounds.. terrorists?..people who capture "military" officials with no intention of killing them just to exchange a few lives..terrorists?...a man who watched his son die between his arms..a terrorist?
What about the ones who slowly creeped into palestine then commited a masacre to scare the shit out of it's people? What about the ones who bomb raided homes in Iraq? and many more...

The egyptian president decided against intervening with egyptian forces...he doesn't want any more blood to be spilt...lives should be spared...
personally i have a couple of reasons to why he really doesn't want that..
Besides..if we intervene..then other countries will...and soon..it'll be a world war 3...so at last something logical and reasonable the man said through out his 27 years on that chair...

...........

I haven't slept since yesterday...i feel drained.

I'm in love...so i feel more drained...

People are inspired by other's pain...But i'm too disgusted to do anything right now...

I don't even know what today is.

People will ignore this journal.

The end. ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/9259299/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/9259299/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 10:02:19 PDT Work: Satis is still left on my desk..abandonned. Summer's taking up much of my time. I hope I can post anything soon
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Life: Is catching up with me. Things are happening. Things are progressing. Others are left unraveled and untainted.

I can't sleep well anymore. I feel tired all the time. It's like I've reached the climax of my brain power the last month. Now i'm just enduring the slope downards to my closure...Hope it's soon coz I need to get back on track with my side activities..er.. or the ones that i'm planning to do in the future...

I hope everyone's enjoying their summer. Keep up the work, the inspiration. ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/9014931/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/9014931/ Fri, 09 Jun 2006 03:20:33 PDT Work: I won't be posting any work soon. But I will try to visit frequently. Just till this agonzing month is over.
Satis. Like a myth that I made up. I hope you guys like it. It has a bit of poetry in between the story so It might get very boring. So i'll post a shorter version too. But that'll be as soon as it's done. It'll take sometime since I'm not working on it...

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Politics: err...i was too busy looking at the horiscopes to notice the front page...

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Personal Life: What what? What life? Hasn't studying consumed all aspects of my social life? I hardly see the street! or the children -awful annoying brats- running around playfuly! or the light, ah the light on my skin, the sound of morning birds -which I never do hear, since i live on the 15th floor and on a main street...so morning car honks- the morning birds chirping with their sweet songs! ok, I'll shut up now...

The point is, I hate educational systems. And if it hadn't consumed much of my time, I could've learned far more than what I take from them. lemee see...about 8 hours at skool. go home, sleep 2 hours, wake up, study for 4 hours a syllabus that I remeber clearly my grandfather looked over and commented on "ah...And till my age we havent used any of these equations for anything. I still don't kno why we took 'em"

so 14 hours of wasting my time. And I could've done better things instead....thank you. I know you're preparing us to be the next generation of Einstiens....I wonder what will we take in college? ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8907610/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8907610/ Mon, 29 May 2006 02:02:27 PDT
Crap. In. Pants. From. Finals.

Too. Too. Bored.

Sorry. About. This. Stupid. Journal.

One. Has. To. Have. One. Once. In. A. While.

Don't. Forget. Need. New. Avatar

sycho: Peace. Out.

(it's only a crazy phase...i'll get over it, i promise.) ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8602065/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8602065/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 13:20:12 PDT Yes, my ass. It's been 10 years and i'm wondering what the hell happened. Rumors has it that it failed and Egypt lost alotta money. And our income (which has been decreasing with the increasing terrorist bomb ratings) goes right into the bastards' pockets and out into their swiss banks. Beautiful.

Fundemantilists' main goal these days is to bomb public places. I have no clue how they got the idea that Islam urges these acts, which by the way, if they really understood what it's all about, they wouldn't crave the mutilation of the arabian society. Oh and "Islam" which means "Submission, Peace, Salvation" and no not "fight non-muslims and slay their asses"...(I won't go deep into the subject..But i wish people wouldn't blindly follow the mass mania)

I hate the dilemma, I hate politics, I hate the hatered. And I'm in love with the world...and falling into it's whirlwind...

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I dont think any of this will be finished soon. Maybe after a few months...

-SATIS: A myth about how the night sky came to be

-"Untitled": still haven't picked a name for this one. But it generally talks about autism.

-Ad "Ghandi Jeans": Another idea by Robin W.

-Ad "Compassion by mother tereasa": By Robin W. as well


I want to thank and for the support ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8541675/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8541675/ Fri, 21 Apr 2006 13:53:36 PDT
I won't be able to finish my Ideas.

I'm going away for a few days. I might do something with the "autism" story.

I wish i could leave you guys with something, but like i said i haven't finished anything.

I'll guess I'll see everybody later ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8497403/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8497403/ Mon, 17 Apr 2006 08:08:15 PDT
I'm addicted to looking at headlines when I spot a newspaper. And it always drowns my joy.

I woke up and my eyes laid on a man picking out food from a pile of garbage and throwing what he can find uself on his cart.

I don't kno how that woman with a burnt face can stand walking her 7-year old daughter to skool everyday.

And all I was thinking was....I needed to freeze all that in a picture. Then I felt shame.



There's no progress in my work. My final examinations' in about a month and a half. So if I had time i'll finish the following:

-SATIS: A myth about how the night sky came to be

-"Untitled": still haven't picked a name for this one. But it generally talks about autism.

-Ad "Ghandi Jeans": Another idea by Robin W.

-Ad "Compassion by mother tereasa": By Robin W. as well





So few will read my journal as usual...but i guess i'm too depressed to care... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8370539/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8370539/ Wed, 05 Apr 2006 05:15:28 PDT

Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6(or as many as you know xD ) people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

OOOk lemme see....here goes:

1- i seem to wake up half an hour b4 my alarm sets..which is annoying becoz i really want the half hour sleep..

2-While i'm listening to a song I almost always click next b4 the first song ends

3-I open a pepsi bottle THEN get a cup...my mom goes insane "you're wasting the soda!"

4-I like Mcdoanlds' french fries when it's cold and not crispy

5-I hate people talking to me while i'm in a car

6-I hate the stupid label instructions, like the following:

On Sears hair dryer:
Do not use while sleeping.

On a bag of Fritos:
You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside.

On a bar of Dial soap:
Directions: Use like regular soap.

On some Swanson frozen dinners:
Serving suggestions: Defrost.

Printed on the bottom of Tesco Tiramisu dessert:
Do not turn upside down.

On Marks and Spencer Bread Pudding:
Product will be hot after heating.

On packaging for a Rowenta iron:
Do not iron clothes on body.

On Boot's Children's Cough Medicine:
Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking this medication.

On Nytol Sleep Aid:
Warning: May cause drowsiness.

On most brands of Christmas lights:
For indoor or outdoor use only.

On a Japanese food processor:
Not to be used for the other use.

On Sainsbury's peanuts:
Warning: Contains nuts.

On an American Airlines packet of nuts:
Instructions: open packet, eat nuts.

On a child's Superman costume:
Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly.

On a Swedish chain saw:
Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands or genitals.

On a toboggan:
Beware: Sledge may develop high speed under certain snow conditions.

On a knife sharpener:
Caution: knives are sharp.

On shin pads for cyclists:
Shin guards cannot protect any part of the body they do not cover.

On a take away coffee cup:
Caution: Hot beverages are hot.

Emergency safety procedures at a US summer camp:
In case of flood, proceed uphill. In case of flash flood proceed uphill quickly.

In a microwave oven manual:
Do not use for drying pets.

On the back of a pilot's seat in a Nato aircraft:
Seat must be facing forward for take-off and landing.

On the bottom of a cola bottle:
Do not open here.

On a Harry Potter wizards broom:
This broom does not actually fly.

On a box of aspirin:
Do not take if allergic to aspirin.

On a bottle of laundry detergent:
Remove clothing before distributing in washing machine.

On a muffin packet:
Remove wrapper, open mouth, insert muffin, eat.

In a kettle instruction manual:
The appliance is switched on by setting the 'ON/OFF' button to the 'ON' position.

On a ketchup bottle:
Instructions: Put on food.

On a bottle of rum:
Open bottle before drinking.

A car park sign:
Entrance only. Do not enter.

A sign in a street in Hong Kong:
Beware of people.

Rules on a tram in Prague:
Beware! To touch these wires is instant death. Anyone found doing so will be persecuted.

Sign on newly-renovated ramp entrance, USA:
Take care: new non-slip surface.

On a can of air freshener:
For use by trained personnel only.

On a bottle of baby lotion:
Keep away from children.

On a pair of socks bought in egypt:
Do not wash.

On a 500-piece jigsaw puzzle:
Some assembly required.

On a can of pepper spray used for self defense:
May irritate eyes.

On a Frisbee:
Warning: may contain small parts.

In a car handbook:
In order to get out of car, open door, get out lock doors, and then close doors.

On a packet of cashew nut pieces:
Warning: This product may contain resid... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8360982/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8360982/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 06:32:12 PDT


10 Firsts...
-First Best Friend: does it matter?
-First Imaginary Friend: Tweety...what?
-First Piercing: that would be a misplaced needle near my butt...0 days old
-First Crush: i really can't remember
-First CD: i think it was a disney soundtrack
-First Car: nah i only use jets....car? i'm 15!
-First School: the same one as always MLS
-First Kiss: Ken doll

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9 Lasts...
-Last Time You Smoked: coupla months ago
-Last Food You Ate: eggs
-Last Car Ride: taxi cab, yesterday
-Last Movie You Watched: Lord Of The Rings
-Last Phone Call: a friend
-Last CD You listened to: I use my I-Pod all the time now
-Last Bubble Bath You took: did i ever take one?
-Last Song You listened to: Music from Da Vinci Code
-Last Fight: with the bed sheets yeterday

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8 Have You Ever...
-Have You Ever Dated a Best Friend: yea...totally regret it
-Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: hehe...no...
-Have You Ever Been on TV: Hmm...oh yea once, i was in a bookstore...that bastard camera man told me i had nothing to worry about...next day i'm on T.V....
-Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Regretted It: no
-Have You Ever Cheated on Your bf/gf: no
-Have You Ever Been on a Blind Date: no
-Have You Ever Been out of the Country?: yea

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7 Things You are Wearing...
wait i'll go put on 7 more....kidding....

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6 Things You've Done Today...
-woke up
-uhh...ate
-did some math probs
-scowled at the maid
-watched my mother cook
-peed

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5 Favorite Things (no specific order)...
-books
-music
-bed
-dA
-sarcasm

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4 People You Most Trust (no specific order)...
-God
-Me
-Me
-Me


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3 Choices...
-gun
-I-Pod
-uhh pancakes

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2 Things You Want to do Before You Die...
-fall in love
-purge my sins
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1 Person You Want to see...
-Prophet Yussef (they say half of the worlds beauty can't be compared to him)




most of the answers might be different if i was in another mood...so don't take it seriously...



nah i'm not gonna tag anyone ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8324261/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8324261/ Fri, 31 Mar 2006 14:26:38 PST
Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song titles that come up to answer each question.
NO CHEATING. lyric sample or comment in brackets

How does the world see me?:
Hide and Seek-Imogen Heap
"When busy streets and mess with people would stop to hold"

Will I have a happy life?:
Sunday Morning-Maroon five
(ok i seriously hate that song...)

What do people really think of me?:
I Am Hated-Slipknot
( that's depressing)

Do people secretly lust after me?:
Signs-Creed
(yea right)

How can I make myself happy?
Get this-Slipknot
(ok this is so funny)
"You f**king cunts, get off of my back
I don't wanna do a show with your shitty
f**kin' band - You suck, they suck, guess what, get f**ked
I can't think of any other words to say but f**k"

What should I do with my life?
Here In My Room-Incubus
(ok the title hints that my life's gonna be boring but look at the lyrics)
"You enter and close the door behind you, now show me the world as seen from the stars, if only the eyes would dima little, i'm wary of eyes upon my scars"

Will I ever have children?:
Pluck-system of a down
"Took all the children and then we died"
"Revolution, the only solution,
The armed response of an entire nation," (heh, i'm gonna BREED an army people)


What is some good advice for me?:
Stupify-Disturbed
"I get stupified
It's all the same you say
Live with it" (i'm not sure i get ya David)

What do I think my current theme song is?:
Come out and play-The Offspring
(no way? that?)

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
Skin ticket-Slipknot
(y people y?)

What song will play at my funeral?:
Brena-A perfect Circle
(woa...that's beautiful)
"my reflection
wraps and pulls me under
healing waters to be
bathed in Breña.
guides me safely in
worlds i’ve never been to
heal me, heal me,
my dear Breña.
vulnerable
it’s all right.
heal me, heal me,
my dear Breña.
show me lonely
and show me openings
to lead me closer to you,
my dear Breña.
vulnerable
but it’s all right.
opening to heal...
opening to heal..."

What type of men/women do you like?:
Glycerin-Bush
(wha-?)
"Must be your skin, I'm sinkin' in
must be fire real, cause' now I can feel
and I didn't mind, it's not my kind,
not my time, to wonder why"

What is my day going to be like?
Muscle museum-Muse
"She had something to confess to
But you don’t have the time so
Look the other way
You will wait until it’s over
To reveal what you’d never shown her"
(well that's a detailed discription of my day)

Why am I here?
New Disease-Disturbed
(yes yes, i think so too)


What will people remember me for?
Mouth-Bush
"all your mental armor drags me down
We can't breathe when we come around"
(i'm that cruel?)



What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?
If you want me to stay- Red hot chilli peppers
(no way)

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
Attitude-Metallica
"Just let me kill you for a while
Just let me kill you for a smile
Just let me kill you once for me
I'm bored to death"
(er-i'm not stepping outside)



What will this year be all about?
Star wars PARODY(sung with American pie's music)-Wierd Al
(so, i'm gonna spend it a long long time ago in a galaxy far far away)





well that was fun....but damn do i have to change that playlist (tho secretly i think it knows how i feel ) ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8223763/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8223763/ Tue, 21 Mar 2006 04:43:59 PST
So today's mother's day.....i'm broke....well hehe...i got a seventy hidden somewhere...anyho i don't know what to get her?....gee mothers these days are so difficult to please....

So...i'm trying to study hard....but i really can't with my lil' cuzin's tiny voice stuck in my head "humpty dumpty widy wide woo"

My best friend called me....told her i was pissed off because of what she did the last coupla days....she started making up excuses and i forgave her just to make her shut up.....nah, i just can't stay mad at her that's all...(her boyfriend gave her this beautiful stone from somwhere called "el gabal"...he cut it off from there...and carved her name in it....when am I going to get one of those? -meaning him not the stone-)

A friend of mine is totally driving me insane....you see....she likes this guy....and whatver move he does she thinks that it means that he likes her as well....the thing is...i heard that he said something really awful about her......now whenever she talks about him i feel hurt....i can't tell her what i heard...it's impossible...she'll hate me for it...and i'll jeopardize the person who told me too...so...i'm just trying my best to make her understand that he's not worth it...and she should just forget about him....

So....I have a headache now so...i have to go...and thanks alot all of you for the help...u kno info on the subscription or watever...really....

In the end you walk alone...
God's loved slave you'll always be
Never enslaved never free... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8198026/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8198026/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 13:19:30 PST YAY

so if anyone knows cool stuff you can do as a subscriber please tell me...reallly want to make use of this!!

on and lol....really sorry again...it's not like i forced them to give the subscription...

so....better luck next time....

anyho....went to the concert...it wasn't that goood...but watever...met some new people...


so....g2g people!....

]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8194296/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8194296/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 03:27:01 PST
so i'm mad at her...coz she didn't even care...watever...

i just feel like ranting but...i dunno...when i'm a lil' hurt i start feeling a bit weak...so...can't press much..

..i on thursday...had a fight wid da "rents"...yea and my ex saw me...so he cheered me up by talking about poop................ahem...

nyho....i'm goin to the concert....joy.....so thank you for the ride...

well...that's it...

oh yea...i got the I-pod finally...and here's a lil' clue on how i feel ""till death do us part"' ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8156760/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8156760/ Tue, 14 Mar 2006 07:42:36 PST ....if i pick up something serious to work with i get zero focus...it's not like i have somethin on my mind, it's just that my brain loves seeking something else to be distracted with, whether it's watching this fly on the wall cleaning it wings off..or the coffee's steem looks so mesmerizing...or even world issues that i kno my mind doesn't hold the capacity to resolve...

Anyho...my bestfriend's b-day's coming up...and i'm broke coz i bought an I-pod ..so she can forget getting a present this year...(not like i got her any presents any year...that i remember..)

I really would love to go to a concert this saturday..so if my bro was kind enough to drive me there...it'd be gr8...

So...there's nothing that i'm up to these days but just...downloading some southpark episodes to watch(i soo want a southpark avatar)...and um...studying...and..well...i think i like someone...

This someone...well i've known him for a long time...but i only started to notice him this year...but i don't think we'd ever have anything between us...so i'm not occupying my mind with him right now...



hug: these hugs are for everyone on dA....tho i kno that so few read my journal so...few will notice... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8110046/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8110046/ Thu, 09 Mar 2006 07:28:17 PST
well, called my ex yesterday...yeesh..this guy's got issues....still he's one of the funniest guys i've known all my life....he was like questioning this guy that wanted to rent one of his family's apartment...and he was like so wierded out(is that a word?) by the questions..."what are you doing here? are you married? umm could you like varify the marriage with a certificate..?" and so on...u kno..first time...kinda awkward..

skools a bitch...i still hate everyone there...so no new...tho i made quite an impression on my maths teacher..he now thinks i'm a genius...*rolling my eyes*

so anyho....just wanted to ask if there's anyone...ANYONE...out there who could help with a new avatar...that'll mean alot

if anyone's wondering who's Bob.....i got no idea... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8090910/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8090910/ Tue, 07 Mar 2006 06:49:55 PST
Listening to: Nickelback-So far away...
Currently Reading: Cry To Heavan-Ann Rice (i hate it)
Mood: feels like cotton in my head (not exactly the mood..)

obviously tho i didn't like Da Vinci Code, it made quite an impact on me. So i gotta give Dan a little credit for being a good -yet so mistaken with his resources- writer.

Ann Rice...i think the woman has a "homosexual" obsession between men, i dunno y she can't just make her character straight. In my opinion, Ann likes writing about the oddities of life (that explains her interest in Vampires-with male protagonists that are into men as well- and Witches)

Anyho...i tried drawing the viturvian man...but i'll need a ruler and patience for that...so i gave up the idea...(oh and i forgot..i'll need the talent of Da Vinci himself...)...this man, i wish i knew him...he drew the "vitruvian man" in a way that combined 16 different poses all with the right proportions...with the golden no. or PHI: 1.618 ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8016641/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/8016641/ Mon, 27 Feb 2006 09:57:01 PST
anyho, so, my ex hinted that he wanted us to get back together...or maybe i got it all wrong...either way, it doesn't really matter....we have a seriously easy-going wierd relationship ...it's gr8...dont wanna mess it up u kno?

my best friend still really depressed...her boyfriend kinda failed the [link] again...god the guy's 19 and he's still not in college ...he's taking over his father's buis. i suppose...

remembered that i saw a man mutilated in the street-car accident-a month ago.....stil not having nightmares about it....i guess stuff like that don't bother me much...just make me think...

...he was married...then divorced....then he came and confessed ....wat is he thinking??? the guy was "married"...and divorced the girl a month later...can he say "commitment" ?....nyway...he knows how i feel...like nothing

dreamed that i was in my room...and there was this guy...he wasn't exactly human...he told me to "go" ...watever that means..i understood it then...but now i don't get it....there was another man, wearing an overcoat, i sat beside him and poured everything i felt...although he seemed to already kno almost every detail of my life...it felt relieving actually...


well that's it...hope everyone's lives are way more exciting than mine -most prob. is... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7960354/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7960354/ Tue, 21 Feb 2006 08:37:03 PST Da Vinci Code...i think it's one big Hoax...first of all..Venus doesn't symbolize the olympic flag(in the book he says it was at first the pentacle then they changed it two five rings...right...Venus does appear every 8 years and they halfed the years to 4 blah blah blah, but guess wat olympic games was just honoring the gods, not just Venus)...The idea came to Pierre of Coubertin when he was in charge of the USFSA: The emblem of the union was two interlaced rings (like the typical interlaced marriage rings) and originally the idea of Austrian psychiatrist Carl Jung because for him the ring meant continuity and the human being...
Second...jesus marrying Marry? yes he got it from St. phillipe in the bible where he mentions the word "companion" or according to Dan he translated it to "Spouse" from Aramaic to english...very ironic since St. Phillipe wrote in Coptic...and the words doesn't mean "spouse"

Well there are other errors but i won't get too deep into that...

hmm...nothing else to say...i kno i've been neglectin to write about my personal life...but i don't really feel like saying anything right now...(no no, it's not one useless, empty life....just straighten things out in my mind...then see wat i'll say...) ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7844215/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7844215/ Thu, 09 Feb 2006 07:04:27 PST ideas, like um, letsee, rasing our voices with our own democratic views...as in logical thinking...
The media is a concentrated pill containing doses of synthetic hormones...on a daily basis, the television package gives you 7 placebo pills(the real "truthful" news)-or instructions for not taking this does at all(CNN)- and 21 active pills(Shakira nude)...ofcourse many types of the -i'm gonna fuck with your head- Pill exist, with only a slightly different satellite...

anyho....seems i've been neglecting to write about ME...tho i hardly see that my life is more important than trying to point out what i think of this global corruption...but here goes..
ahem...away goes friendship...my dear friend seems preoccupied with her boyfriend...occasional headaches...studying...and trying to talk sense into people...whew..that's it...oh and i'm trying to keep up with the constant catastrophes...
have fun everyone...while you can... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7807923/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7807923/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 10:36:24 PST Soldiers and knights recruited because they were oppressed...by their political system ofcourse..
Trading cities like venice, prohibited the usage of their ships...all for trading aims...
Villagers first unorganised crusade..1091..failed...but the reason was becuase of the same difficulties the army recruites were facing..

so...politicians still having a go? take a little piece here...and this one...yes this one too please...oh hello Sharon..buddy...u want a piece too? here have it all...but give me some financial share in it...oh well...hello bin laden, gimme the oil deals...and then i'll shoot u in the head...yes i kno america's been dealing since daddy was here...but i'm really sorry..

Heck, wat do i kno? I'm a 15 year-old with no ID... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7787653/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7787653/ Fri, 03 Feb 2006 06:33:07 PST
And...stupid Souadians fighting over who's to take the presidency....stupid fuckers...hello, you already got a prince...just let him have it..you'll assisinate him later anyway...that's how everything should go by the way...i'm wondering when someone here will have the guts to wack the old fart...

Hmm...wat else...oh yea..the "insider"...wat's up wid dat Kojo guy? i swear my mother sat a whole evening tryin to determine whether he's a woman or a man...oh well...transacts or takin over the world...i wonder how long will it take to have a president who's a transexual faggot?

Currently listening to "overrated"-three days grace...god this song is so expressing...hehe..what i think of this world... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7740514/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7740514/ Sun, 29 Jan 2006 10:49:33 PST
it's empty..i swear it is...and they say it's good to concentrate on studying...but i can't help but feel the void.. ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7674804/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7674804/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 10:32:46 PST ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7665895/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7665895/ Sat, 21 Jan 2006 11:01:27 PST Bed. Sleeping. Ok, *deep breath* Definitly creepy. Empty room, except for the bed in the corner that was occupied by my grandmother(never dreamt about her before), I was doing something (can't remember wat), when I thought that i had seen something pass by the opened door. Ignoring it, i went back to whatever i was doing. Seconds passed, when from the corner of my eye, noticed the same thing passing. "Did you see anything crossin the hall right now?" I asked my grandma, who was supposed to be reading a book. She didn't answer. I looked up. Saw her sweet wrinkled face wide with horror. She nodded. I looked at the door. Like a broken record, a scene kept repeating itself. This boy, not older than i am(which was 20 in the dream) kept walking right infront the door. From the right side of the hall. And it just kept happening..it was impossible. de ja vu. like a million de ja vu. The silent footsteps with a single note of a flute. I began to pray furiously. Getting rid of the 'devil'...or so i thought. My grandmother went fanatic, "my hearts gonna stop." i held her tightly and whispered in her ear, "Nothing, there's nothing that can hurt you. Doesn't kill, never kills." -scene shift- Same room. Alot of other people. This guy(who i don't kno, but apperently know well in the dream) said, "i'm going. See what it is." (typical horror scene. The dumbest guy who decides to be a hero..but ends up a zombie meal) I ran after him and called out, "I'll fuck you if you don't leave!" (what the...?) He smiled and replyed, "I'll fuck you through a wall." (never heard the phrase, but it meant that i'm not tempting enough...thank you very much...) the dream grew more vague. -scene shift- another room, just as empty, two dead bodies, one with an axe through the head.(the suicidal guy lied there, his blond hair somehow black)
I woke up..no half asleep. I can feel a hand stroking my shoulder. Gentle voice of my father, spoke softly in consolation. but i knew he wasn't really there...or maybe..i dont know, i'll ask him anyway...
wierd thing is, i only read Adrian Mole's secret diary the night before, all about his feelings of puberty(what's scary about that?), they don't even relate, can't have triggered the horror.(though i remember, i had worse dreams...but somehow, this felt, unusual)
Well...no more avenging ghosty kids coming outta t.v.s or ones popping up from the side of your bed... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7545986/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7545986/ Sun, 08 Jan 2006 15:11:18 PST >On the wooden floor<<
*In a state of ponderous thoughts* I was content as I lay on the carpeted floor...i was listening to "until the last moment" on Yanni's "Acropolis" C.D...i didn't want any "HIM" or "Deftones" ringing in my ear..i just wanted somethin soft and comforting...
Anyway. the curtains drew across the wall sized windows..and only a few afternoon light seeped through the hems and the far edge...
I was thinking...about life..for the thousandth time...how people feel pain..how people feel sorrow...no matter how much you isolate yourself...no matter how much you want to play the role of a psychologist...emotions find a way to erupt a whirlwind in your heart...I love life...and i hate it so...it seems like an innocent flower to me...but soon it opens it's petals and reveal it's naked jaws...i find it fascinating..i find it...horrifying...but wat do you think?

(in case you were wondering "aerial's screw" is one of da vinci's brilliant creations...it's the sketch of the ancestor of a helicopter...choosing it as a headline...is merely because it's..a core of a modern invention...the way so many people try to express and define life..whereas it's the core, the one you already uncounciously live through it's inventions everyday..) ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7506123/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7506123/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 08:01:53 PST >>lying in bed<< retty cold there:
my face softly touched the pillow...wet..and it's already cold, so...i was freezing...i don't know y i was crying actually. But i was deep into thought...maybe becoz...he's married..maybe becoz he didn't tell me that it was final..just let me live in the illusion that i could stop him somehow...Maybe becoz..i'm such a failure...all i do is write and write and write....and not be appreciated...no one understands what i write anyway...i try to simplify the idea...but it gets so complicated...it seems clear in my mind...so obvious that i become confused at how obscured it is to other people...I dunno...

>>still in bed facing the ceiling<< :still cold but no wetness anymore:
i just started to laugh...like someone gone mad..it was kinda wierd...i remembered stuff people said..it was hilarious now, tho it wasn't that funny back then...then i got all quiet...then just drifted to sleep..

I had a nightmare...i can't remember it...and i don't kno y i'm havin alot of them these days... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7468901/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7468901/ Sat, 31 Dec 2005 16:05:07 PST ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7432145/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7432145/ Tue, 27 Dec 2005 14:29:14 PST i guess i pushed him away too much... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7432123/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7432123/ Tue, 27 Dec 2005 14:26:21 PST i guess i pushed him away too much... ]]> ~VanthMithra http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7391834/ http://VanthMithra.deviantart.com/journal/7391834/ Fri, 23 Dec 2005 11:53:36 PST ~VanthMithra