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I'm not dead yet!!!!

~Varwen — Sat, 14 Mar 2009 10:32:21 PDT

Hey guys! Bet y'all thought I'd gone and died on you! I'm doing well, just very busy. Unfortunately, I lack a computer at home and work blocks dA and basically everything except my e-mail. I'm borrowing my sister's computer to do this right now. But I did want to let y'all know I've not forgotten about you and I'm doing well. Hopefully things will smooth out soon and I'll be able to come on more often. We'll wait and see. In the mean time, hope all is going well for y'all and I'll be talking at you later! Thanks for everything!

Howdy All!!

~Varwen — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 09:50:21 PST

I just wanted to come on here and thank all of you personally for the love and prayers that you showed me after the passing of my Dad.

With that said, I'll say this as well. My family is doing better, but we're still trying to get things straightened out. My Momma is moving to another place and I still don't have a computer at my apartment where I moved. So when I'm at home on the weekends, my time is occupied helping her. So bear with my absence a while longer, if you please. Don't give up on me yet! I've not abandoned you, I promise! And, hopefully, when I get a chance, I'll be able to devote time back to my art and be able to share it with you. I certainly hope so, at any rate.

I love you guys very much! Thanks for everything!

Jerry Allen Moxley: April 24, 1952-August 3, 2008

~Varwen — Thu, 07 Aug 2008 17:07:47 PDT

The reason for my absence as of late has been simple, my friends.

#1 - I recently moved out of the house and into an apartment, meaning that I had no internet access.

#2 - When I have been at home, my time had been dedicated to trying to take care of my Grandma, who has been diagnosed with Alzheimers.

But the biggest reason as of late has been this: as of Sunday, my Daddy had a massive heart attack and died because of it. So everyone please forgive me for not commenting on your work or for catching up. I usually try to do so but I'm just not able to at this time. I ask for your forgiveness and also for your prayers. My family really needs them at this time.

Google Says...

~Varwen — Thu, 08 May 2008 17:17:07 PDT

Quiz stolen from .

Rule: Go to Google and search the phrase. Tag 3 friends. Please be mature and use you REAL 1st name...

Use the first thing that comes up that makes sense.

Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:
A: "Ann Marie needs a family who can provide a great deal of structure and individual attention, and who will not take the fluctuations in her moods personally..." I know thats right!!

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:
A: "Ann Marie looks like a heroin addict." o_0;;; Gosh, I hope not!!!

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search:
A: "Ann Marie says her chest will be a big factor on becoming a trainer." 0_0 That would be a negative...

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search:
A: "Ann Marie wants to marry a cop or a firefighter" XDDD Actually, Ann Marie doesn't know who she wants to marry.

Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:
A: "Ann Marie does The Little Mermaid" Erm...I'm not red headed and I have legs...that would make it hard for me to be a mermaid... -is not /even/ going with another connotation with that right now-

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:
A: "Ann Marie Hates People Who Capilatize Each Word In A Sentence." Actually, that does peeve me off. Along with chatspeak, poor grammar, and abysmal punctuation.

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search:
A: "So if you've got a soap making question, you've come to the right place. Just Ask Ann Marie!" I dunno how to make soap...

Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search:
A: "Ann Marie goes right to the point of the matter, you don't have to tell her a whole lot!" Well, I am horribly blunt...

Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search:
A: "AnnMarie likes biographies, West Hyland Terriers and laughing with friends." Depends on the type of biography and I have no idea what a West Hyland Terrier even looks like. I prefer beagles.

Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search:
A: Nothing turned up for this one that made any sense. I might have done better to just put in my first name, so we'll try that and see what happens...

And we turn up with "Ann eats Guinea Pig" x3

Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search:
A: "Anne-Marie wears black or white underwear, but sometimes also skin-coloured underwear..." -sweatdrop- Erm...yeah, no comment...

Missing my Little Man

~Varwen — Mon, 28 Apr 2008 17:54:46 PDT

Updating a journal now is hard. There has been a lot going on in my life as of late, between work and National Guard.

But as of April 26, I have one less person to share it with. Many people don't consider pets people, but my beagle Shiloh was one of my best friends.

There are many types of love that a person can experience. But the love of a person and their dog is a special bond. Shiloh was prematurely taken from me and there is a void in my life right now that can't be filled. I'm not saying in the future that I won't love another dog, but that other dog will not be my Little Man. There is no replacement for him. And, in all honesty, I wouldn't want there to be. That would belittle what he meant to me in the 2 years that he was in my life.

Rest in peace, my baby boy. You were a fine companion and friend and I love and miss you dearly.

Close Call

~Varwen — Mon, 24 Mar 2008 13:46:36 PDT

Well y'all, this past week, something momentous happened. Well, it was momentous for me, at any rate.

As of March 17, I was in the National Guard for 6 years. Thats right; the past 6 years of my life have been dedicated to God and Country. Granted, my family and friends are a big reason I feel the responsibility toward my country that I do, but when you join the military, you have literally signed your life away. My life belongs to the Governor of the state of North Carolina and to the President of the US of A. Its not a responsibility to be taken lightly by any means. These people that join for "college money" are fools, in my opinion. There are a lot easier ways to get money then to sell your life. And these same fools cry foul when they are called upon to defend their country. Idiots.

But I digress. So, back to my original point. March 17th; 6 years of my life. Meaning that as of March 18th, I fulfilled my original contract to the United States of America and the US Army. I officially became a PFC- a Private Freakin Civilian.

The problem with this? I wasn't yet ready to give it up. The contract that bares the signature of my then 17 year old self said that I would serve for 6 years. I would show up to Drill every month and two weeks during the summer I would go to Annual Training (AT), that I would also report for any hurricane duties etc. that the National Guard often gets called up for, and that I would ship anywhere that my government sent me. Now after this 6 year period, I would go onto the inactive reserve list. That means that I would go off the record as a regular soldier, but for the next two years, they could call me back up if needed. Sounds simple, right. Well, I misunderstood my contract. I thought that those final two years I could still do my regular drill and act like I always had before; I just didn't have to if I didn't want to. Nope, I was wrong.

Therefore, as my ETS (Estimated Time in Service. I.E. The day you get out) drew nearer and the Retention NCO didn't approach me, I continued to hold that illusion. I thought I was still a soldier. Thats not how it worked. Had I not brought it up to SGT Alvarado, I would be typing to you now as a civilian. (Due to a computer glitch, my ETS showed up as being sometime in 2020, so no one caught that I was getting ready to get out.)

Luckily, though, we did catch it in time. My retention NCO drove to where I worked in Statesville on Thurs and I signed my 1 year re-enlistment papers. So for another year, at least, Uncle Sam owns my body.

It was very nearly a close call. I was called an idiot by my sister for re-uping. After 3 knee surgeries, one might think that I should give it up. Truth is, that would probably be the smart thing to do. But I'm not ready to give it up yet. 6 years of fighting to stay in and do the best that I can, well, thats not something you can just give up at the drop of a hat. At least, I can't. I may be an idiot, but at least I'm a happy idiot. Lord willing, as long as my body holds out and this continues to be one of my loves, I will continue to do it.

So there you have it. My near ejection from the military. But they didn't get rid of me that easily! Thanks for listening, y'all!

Clubs I am involved in:

iPod Quiz

~Varwen — Thu, 20 Mar 2008 17:04:19 PDT

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 ppl to ask them to do this!
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

1. How are you feeling today?

"Pop a Top" by Alan Jackson. LOL!! I'm actually doing fairly well. This is rather funny, especially once you consider that I don't drink. But it suits in that it talks about someone being lonely.

2. Will you get far in life?

"You and Me." by Lifehouse. Don't know what exactly that means.

3. How do your friends see you?
"Little Man" by Alan Jackson. Hey, I'm not that short!!!!

4. Will you get married?

"Gone" by Daughtry. Well, I guess that answers that question...

5. What is your best friends theme song?

((Sorry Fox)) "I am a Man of Constant Sorrow" by Alison Krauss and Union Station. Bless your heart, bud. Things will get better!!

6. What is the story of your life?

"Ironic" by Alanis Morissette. And that is all to true.

7. What was high school like?

"All-American Girl" by Carrie Underwood. Although nothing could be further from the truth on this one. I was definitely not a cheerleader and I didn't go for any football stars. The football stars were the ones who made my HS life miserable.

8. How can you get ahead in life?

"Breakdown" by Daughtry. Well, it does tell you that this is "not a time to breakdown." So I reckon this means to keep your cool and do the best you can.

9. What is the best thing about your friends?

"Not the Doctor" by Alanis Morissette. Yup, they definitely don't coddle me and thats a good thing!

10. What is in store for this weekend?

"Deeper than the Holler" by Randy Travis. You know, I seriously doubt that love in the cards.

11. What song describes you?

"I'm Outta Here" by Shania Twain. LOL!! Well, I have been accused of being out of my mind more than once.

12. To describe your grandparents?

"Where you Are" by Rascal Flatts. I don't think that really describes them, but whatever chance wants to throw up here.

13. How is your life going?

"This Side" by Nickel Creek. I reckon thats about right. "One day you'll see her and you'll know what I mean/Take her or leave her, she will still be the same." Yup, thats me.

14. What song will they play at your funeral?

"Yee Haw" by Jake Owen. ROFL!!! Oh, thats priceless...

15. How does the world see you?

"Some Hearts" by Carrie Underwood. Well, I have been rather hit or miss at times in my life. "I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky." Although its a positive song overall. "Some hearts have the stars on their side" and "Some hearts just get lucky sometimes." I'm still waiting for mine to be lucky.

16. Will you have a happy life?
"Wait for You" by Elliott Yamin. Well crap. That doesn't bod well for me, now does it? I'm not going to spend my life waiting for someone who doesn't want me.

17. What do your friends really think of you?

"You Ought to Know" by Alanis Morissette. (My shuffle is really liking her today.) But I seriously hope my friends don't think this of me! I mean, I have a vindictive streak in me and all, but I'm not that bad!

18. Do people secretly lust after you?

"Lovestoned" by Justin Timberlake. I don't know. Does that mean yes? (On a side note: I really can't stand that guy, and I was highly upset when I heard that he sang both this song and "SexyBack" because I really like those songs. Something in me just baulks at liking something performed by a boy-band member.)

19. How can I make myself happy?

"Flowers on the Wall" by The Statler Brothers. So I have to be heartbroken and stay by myself staring at the flowers on the wall. Well, I am happy by myself a lot of the time. But I'll skip the heart-broken part if its all the same to chance.

20. What should you do with your life?

"Sorry" by Daughtry. So I should spend my life apologizing to my ex-fiance? Fat chance. That ain't happening. I do hate that I caused him pain, but I'm not apologizing for doing what I had to do

In other news, I'm doing well with my knee surgery. I'm once again walking of my own power and I can bend it 135 degrees so far. I drove for the first time today and, hopefully, I'll be able to start doing that on my own again soon. I'm ready to get my independence back! I've still been unartistic as of l...

Life in General

~Varwen — Sat, 23 Feb 2008 16:30:05 PST

Well my lovely peoples. I know that I've been horrible about coming on here and about not going by to see my friends. First off, I apologize for that. I really do. Its not that I don't still love y'all, I just haven't had much time.

Number 2, some of you know by now that I have a new job! Same company, different location. I'm working much closer to home now, which is awesome, but I stay a whole heck of a lot busier doing this kind of work. But thats good, so don't worry about me. I don't mind working at work at all! x3

Number 3. The Saga of Willow's Knee continues. Come Tuesday, I will be having surgery #3 on my right knee. If y'all would, pray for me that this surgery will do the trick and that I won't have to do this ever again. Seriously. I'm sick of this mess! x3

Well, thats a quick update to whats been going on with me lately. Once again, I miss and love y'all still! Now that we are on High Speed Internet (LOVE!!!) with a wireless network, I hopefully will have time to come on here and catch up with things. (Providing that my wonderful older sister is willing to let me borrow her laptop while I'm laid up. And I'm sure she will, because she is nice like that. Most of the time...)

But, anywho, hopefully you'll hear more from me in the next few days, at least after Tues. Much love to my friends! Hugs to all!!

I hast been tagged...

~Varwen — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 19:14:36 PST

Tagged by the a wonderful writer,

Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person should post eight aleatory facts of themselves.
3. Tagged people should write a Journal about these facts.
4. At the end, tag and name eight more people.
5. Go to their dART pages and comment saying that they are tagged and hugged.

1. I fear only two things in this life; bees and needles. Well, I fear several things, actually, but those are my only two truly irrational fears

2. I have a freckle on the bottom of my right heel. No joke.

3. I have been in the military for what will be 6 years in March.

4. I are a country girl. If it involves mud and a vehicle with oversized tires, I will lubb it!

5. The best country singer out there now is Gary Allan.

6. I didn't get my first kiss until I was 19 years old.

7. I'm an adult, but I'm a sucker for a cute stuffed animal.

8. I'm double joined in all of my fingers.

And now I'm supposed to tag 8 people, but I don't think I will. I'm just not cool like that, I fear. Should you wish to be tagged, let me know and I'll put you up. Otherwise, just forget about it.

MIA

~Varwen — Wed, 05 Sep 2007 19:18:53 PDT

Hey y'all. I promise I've not died or did anything foolish like that. I've just not been able to get on lately. Due to family issues and dA being blocked at work, my online time here has been cut down to nil.

I just wanted to check in and let everyone know that I'm still here, I'm doing ok, and I've not forgotten you!

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~Varwen — Fri, 30 Mar 2007 12:48:16 PDT

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Need a new Journal entry

~Varwen — Sat, 13 Jan 2007 19:02:12 PST

Welp, not a whole lot to say. I just figured I needed something new to put up. My job is going well and keeping me busy. It seriously sucks having to get up at 5am in order to get to work on time but it sucks even more not having a job and, therefore, no money to spend. xD So, yeah, theres my random rambling for the day. (And this entry will probably remain here for a few months. Fear the rambling. Fear it)

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Doing Better

~Varwen — Thu, 12 Oct 2006 08:24:13 PDT

Well, its been almost two months since my break. Its still hard, sometimes, but I'm doing better. I reckon the worst part is missing the compainionship that a relationship gives you. All of my friends are at college or in other places, so I really have no one to hang out with. But it'll all be better later. I don't know how much later, but later it will be. Thanks to everyone who was concerned and expressed their well wishes.

-sigh-

~Varwen — Sat, 02 Sep 2006 21:23:14 PDT

Well, I've returned to dA after a slight hitaus. Sorry all for not replying to my usual friends in a timely manner. I've learned that the best way to help let go of pain is to talk about it somewhat. So heres the basic run down, without all the gorey details.

I was engaged to a wonderful man, but no more. I myself broke everything off back on Aug. 21. Why? Sometimes I'm not sure myself. I felt that I was lost within that relationship and I wanted to find and be sure of myself again. I feel that I did the right thing, but in the same breath, I'm also hurting. I miss the man that I love and I want nothing more than to ask him to take me back. But I can't do that just yet. I've got to do what I set out to do, otherwise this will all be for nothing. So if you don't see a lot of activity from me, then thats why. Just wanted to let y'all know.

-waves a flag- Go Journal

~Varwen — Wed, 25 Jan 2006 19:36:12 PST

Yay! I've uploaded the colored picture of Koshka and I've colored Taaki's picture! As I said on the commentary of Koshka (or was it Taaki? -ponders- Anywho, on one of 'em!) I made the comment upon like the B&W version better. And indeed, I do. For some reason, I like to leave that little bit to the imagination of the viewer. I mean, I describe Koshka with violet stripes and eyes, but my interpritation of "violet" might differ with yours. I mean, I like to give people some free reign on what they see. Perception is truth. Allow people to see the truth!

Ok, I'm done ranting now! ^_^

Need an update. xD

~Varwen — Thu, 05 Jan 2006 10:03:56 PST

I'm typing simply because updates are needed since Christmas is over and I'm no longer in the holiday spirit. xD

I actually got a picture of Smoke drawn...yay me! And its semi-colored! -gasp- xD Next on the agenda is coloring Khari and Taaki's picture. I've a colored picture of Koshka on Neopets, but I guess I need to get off my lazy behind and load it on here...one of these days. x3

xD

~Varwen — Fri, 09 Dec 2005 10:25:11 PST

Well, my old journal entry was all blah and me being depressed so I had to change it! Christmas is coming and I dun know how anyone can be depressed! The decorations are going up, the tree is all shiney and pretty! =3 -sigh- I lurve Christmas time! ^____^

-sigh-

~Varwen — Mon, 21 Nov 2005 20:09:21 PST

I really don't know why I continue to update these for I get no visitors and no one really seems to care that I'm on here, but anyway, I guess I just feel the need to rant and you poor people are my targets at this point in time. Lucky y'all.

I really don't know why I'm in this sort of mood. All is going well on the surface, anyway. My fiance and I are doing well, no arguments or anything of that nature. I got in a good anime session today. I've plenty of time to spend on Neopets and RP. So why should I be unhappy?

Well, I'm not really unhappy. I guess I'm just bored. I get home from having a full time job and now I have nothing to do all day but sit on my hind end. I guess I just need a hobby. I need to start going to the gym...I'm getting fat. --;

-sigh- Monotony...tis the enemy of us all.

Back again

~Varwen — Thu, 20 Oct 2005 15:45:41 PDT

Well, once again I find myself back at home after a tour of duty provided by the wonderful travelling agents known as the United States Army. Iowa wasn't so bad, but I'm much happier to be home again. I've actually been active and put two drawings on here. The fact that my family has FINALLY invested in a new scanner definatly makes my drawing life much easier. But, anywho, thats that for now. My life is dull, I have nothing further to report. Fin. Done. Finished. Etc, etc, etc.

Its me!

~Varwen — Tue, 10 May 2005 07:13:44 PDT

Well now, I've not done this in a very long time. Probably because I never could get any art on the computer and it was a bit depressing. Anywho, I finally got my first bit on with a picture of Koshka, but that will probably be the last for a little while. I uploaded her via my aunt's scanner, which I won't have access to in Iowa. Yes, I am getting deployed to Iowa for up to a year. Kind of sucks, but its not a big deal. I'll just be plying my mechanicing trade instead of doodling. Once again, its not that terrible. Heck it sure beats Iraq! xDD

Wow

~Varwen — Thu, 08 Jul 2004 11:00:51 PDT

Heck, I've finally returned from BCT and AIT and I find that, oddly enough, the world didn't stop for me!! *scowls* Stupid world! :-P Well, folks, its official, Varwen/Ashen/whatever you wish to call me so long as its nice, is back and in rare form!! *does the Snoopy Dance of Happiness and throws confetti* FWEE!!!!