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And even better, I have learned the ways of the Art of inking said drawing and then erasing the bad nasty pencil to make it look beautiful <3

And I have re-inked several of my Drawings and can't wait to re-submit them and all, as well as some new drawings as Well

Vash the Stampede
Alucard...twice really just never scanned either.
And Wolverine

I also Inked my Deadpool Drawings, they turned out pretty good, and I am looking to colour them, etc etc.

One problem, I do not have a scanner which makes me a sad panda, even worse, I don't have any money to buy one

AND to top things off my Girlfriend lost my Camera so don't expect even simple photo's from me because I can't even do that. She said she will either buy me a camera or a new PSP with lots of Goodies so Im tempted for the latter of the two

Fuck lol Well I think my school has a scanner...I will try to scan something in and submit

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/27385364/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/27385364/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 00:43:10 PDT Lets start with my apparently very common new friend, Cancer.

Now before you jump the gun no I am not talking about myself, though my family was hit with a form of Cancer known as a brain tumor, my uncle survived and is fully recovered with no sign of the tumor returning.

But as of a couple days ago, I officially have known personally 4 people to die from a brain tumor, his name was Herman, and he was happily married to my mothers good friend and an aunt to me, Deborah Lynn Shaw. Herman, was given only a year to live if I recall correctly, and even though he fought with all his heart, and soul, on September 21'st he lost his fight.

I can't express how numb I feel to this growing death dealer of whom has claimed the life of even a small baby boy, 5 year old Pierce. Who after two years, lost his battle to the disease that paralyzed half his face. I think back on how shocked I was when I first heard he was diagnosed with this cancer, 3 years old, can this be true? But it was true, and the realities were harsh and unforgiving, as I spent some of the final days he was with us baby sitting him with his mom. Telling him everything would be okay, now that Aunty kim and Josh were here to make them happy. Even though Pierce passed away 5 days from his 5th birthday, almost all of my hometown had been affected by this young boys story, and he has changed the hearts of hundreds of thousands of people, and brought that support to the door of Denise Love and John Gordon.

Debbie and Herman were there for Denise and John, and when Herman took ill, I believe it was vice versa. I hope even though the age difference is a larger then 5 years old, that Debbie will get the same support, from her friends and family that she rightfully deserves now in her hour of need. I will be flying back this weekend to see her because Aunt Debbie is just like family to me and my mother,I hope I can cheer her up.

I love you Aunt Debbie.

I guess I have one finally thing to say about this Cancer business before I move on, more of a statement really.

This note goes to show that no matter your age, your physical condition, your gender, or your diet, we can all fall victim to anything at anytime.

As many people know, I do not have a religion, I plan to keep it that way, but the more that stuff like this happens the more I continue to think, god giveth and god taketh away. We take advantage of our daily lives that everything that we do, our work, our homes, our cars, our loved ones become routine. And its not until something or someone takes this away from us.

I am one of those people who used think of life as routine, but I see now that it is far more then that, there is a much broader spectrum at work and we just chose to close our eyes told to live our lives quietly and peacefully by corporations that only care to have a bigger bank account then the other.

I believe we have let love slip out of humanity and I think it should be about now that we take it back.

If you can give support, by saying to someone you haven't talked to in awhile, that you miss them, or even love them and it was nice to say hi, do it,

Lets stop living for ourselves but for one another...

I'm losing a train of thought here, and I quite can't keep the tears from forming in my eyes at the thought of lost life, so on my final note, a message to Debbie,

Herman fought long and hard, and I know you loved him very much, and he loved you, and I know its not easy to say he is in a better place when he has left you so recently, and its not easy to hold back the tears of sorrow that break fear from the failing damn that is your pain, but I just want you to know, that in my believe,

that if there is a god...he has certainly earned his place in heaven.

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/24139971/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/24139971/ Thu, 09 Apr 2009 01:51:36 PDT
And if the Llama was being attacked by the 9 foot tall albino black sheep,who had eaten a grape fruit 4 hours previous to the encounter, how would this affect the midgets decision on what pineapple to pick.

Now I bet your wondering what this has to do with Physics, and the answer lies under a cheese grater on Uranus, because Uranus has been plotting to eat the moon for centuries but has been biding his time, and under this cheese grater lived an ancient and mischievous Plargton, who has lost many friends to the evil and benzine Clobtrops, how would this affect your rational answer on why you know me?

If you can make sense of it, I'll believe you

Enjoy

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/24049813/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/24049813/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 22:52:36 PDT
"Shh...my common sense is tingling"

"This Is like shooting Fish point blank in the face"

"Either someone had an unauthorized kool-aid indecent or my job just got scooped"



]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/15597642/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/15597642/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 22:07:27 PST
The 10 reasons I love my Camera.

I will post them in order of which ones I feel are awesome.

One a week, every Thursday, I will try for early morning, but late will have to suffice for you impatient ones. I already have a few pictures just need the rest.

So get ready, I'm finally coming back and hopefully will make it onto some peoples watch pages with my pictures.

Yay photography!

VashWolf

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13398856/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13398856/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 20:01:51 PDT
Now for those of you who don't know who played who.

Shaw is played by John Lithgow and Willard by Christopher Penn. Chuck I don't care for, his character was an asshole, which is why I think my teacher didn't make me audition for him out of the three. I play an amazing asshole, but Im tired of it and want something more then anger.

The Auditions were brutal they lasted 4 hours of singing and dancing and reading lines. Im the only one who was given multiple stage directions...which worried me Im not going to lie, but when I was told to do it that way I did it and there was no complaints, but I didn't think about it like that.

And so I fretted...

Well after the auditions me and another Josh (4 Josh's in total Auditioned) cracked Jokes about how the other got Lyle or Travis or a cowboy with no lines...kinda funny he did get Travis haha.

Well the list went up today, and wouldn't you know I got Reverend Shaw, the Second main Character, this is the biggest Role I have yet to come by and Im really psyched about it. It won't happen till next year. We are starting a year in advance, but this is the biggest thing to happen to me in my High school career and does it ever make me happy.

Boy am I happy....

Well Im going to go read my book now, its very entertaining. I can't wait to start reading the 7th and 8th, I will read those well Im in Calgary to keep me entertained before and after work...I guess thats all I will have to do down there since Im leaving my PS3 here cause my moms tv sucks lol. Im picky leave me alone.

Well this is VashWolf signing off.

And let me remind you, rock and roll is out rageous, Jesus wouldn't tolerate it, and neither will I!

Love ya All

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/12923497/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/12923497/ Sat, 12 May 2007 01:17:06 PDT
Honestly this one piece of paper, holds all of my pride and pain and emotion in it from all the build up of stupid events.

Now for the description till I get my scanner working.

I drew a picture of Spike Spiegel, from Cowboy Bebop, this man is my sarcastic hero. Amazing voice actor and a very random anime that doesn't even set up to have a sad ending. But its just that cool.

There is a scene in the last episode where Spike walks down the stairs facing an army of people who want to kill him, and he just looks at them smiles and makes his hand like a gun and simply says bang. True greatness. I looked on Deviant Art and I didn't find much to none of that episode of him being in that condition of critically wounded like he has been numerous times in the anime.

I highly recommend this show, it has made me really happy the past few days and kept my spirits high in times of low, and the movie is great to, I recommend it to. Hopefully I will have the picture up tomorrow when or if I find the cable to scan the pic.

Now, on to great great news!

I'm going to ask a girl out, she has made a big impact on me the last few weeks and god have I been happy, all because of her, and you know what I figured I would return the favor, now I was going to do this on Monday, but now we can hang tomorrow, so my nerve just got shot to tomorrow, go in guns blazing, shot at random and hope for the best lol.

And the last update on my life, I'm going to learn to play two, two instruments soon, one simply hard and the other hardly simple. The first instrument of choice, (Because of Cowboy Bebop) is the Harmonica, just because I love the music style Bebop.

The next instrument of choice is the drums, because I found a pair of electronic drums online for 500 bucks and thats a good deal when your broke and don't have sound proof rooms lol.

Well sleep is needed, 4am in the morning and I'm tired.

So I leave you with a quote, from Cowboy Bebop to make you interested,

"She was like an angel from the underworld, or a devil from paradise."

Goodnight to all,

Josh Wolf

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/12808364/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/12808364/ Tue, 01 May 2007 20:01:42 PDT
No camera still.

Never found the fucker!

But I can pretend I'm happy!

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/12656416/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/12656416/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 15:04:06 PDT
Well don't expect....anything from me, cause you won't get shit all, I can't really draw, and I don't want to, and I really like taking pictures and I really want to.

One fucking problem

Some fucker from my class stole my camera so its bye bye. Gone. And from what my VP has told me, I can kiss it good bye...and to top it off, this has not been a good two weeks.

So yeah I need a new camera...

Problem mother fucking number 2!

I don't have a job, no job equals no money, no money equals no camera, no camera equals no deviations. So if I haven't painted a pretty enough fucking picture for you. I'm basically done with Deviant for a long fucking time.

FUCK FUCK FUCK

I hate living in this stupid world.

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/12368568/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/12368568/ Wed, 28 Mar 2007 20:42:18 PDT
Horror

Comedy

Drama

I have always excelled at the drama part but I'm a funny man myself so I like a bit of laughter.

I'm thinking of making it one of those no dialog films, just the actions so, like deep eyes, and very epic movements, but before I do anything drastic I want some opinions so advice would be nice, I only have two days to make something drastic so if you don't read this by...today, then its just words of virtual paper yet again.

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]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10719746/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10719746/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 05:29:12 PST
So yeah December 17 I go to Calgary until the 28, which means I don't get to spend christmas with none of my lovely friends, but meh, I'll be in a different part of Canada when yuo guys bitch so no worries lol!

I've been restiching my life together again and Im happy about it, I love finishing something that can hurt you know more once its finished and over with...someone who still checks up on me will know what Im talking about...must of you will not, and you don't need to know, it just has something to do with recent events...and if you do read this, I think you should talk to her, all she ever does is say she is a fuck up and I feel bad that she feels that way, please give her another chance...

Ok thats over and done with now back to the games, Im also going to get WarHawks and Ridge Racer 7 because it has the awsome tilt abilitie's, After the market calms down Im also going to pick up a Wii cause Im also a Nintendo Fanboy...even though there last commercial made them look like sluts...oh Im cheap and easy buy me, give me a break lol. Well Im off to school thought I would blog since i have a new found ability to write again, god bless drama class!

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10673636/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10673636/ Thu, 09 Nov 2006 20:59:36 PST One pull of the triger, and I lay dead.
Hopelessly bleeding through
People scream but oh not you
You words burned me like hell's fire
Your love is what I desired
You are a fool of love and lust
Now IM dead, worn and bust

I am Josh, Deal with it.....

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10562502/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10562502/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 17:43:31 PST
Also thankfully the Playstation 3 comes out in 17 days and that is the only thing that I can talk about that is making me happy...though I will be down 800 dollars I do know what makes me happy, and Technology makes me happy...

Well this headach I have and stomach flu is killing me I need to watch another movie as I lay in bed sick...hopefully I will feel better tomorrow, for Halloween so I can trick or Treat with Jessica and Josh..I'll talk to everyone later!

]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10214525/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10214525/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 12:07:47 PDT
Okay, lets talk why I am Thrilled! Kelly, and I broke up, and I know many of you will be like yeah no suprise, well heres the shocker I broke up with her because she didn't have a spine to even answer me. Like hounestly you don't like me state it. Don't sit around and make me suffer because you can't take reality. ok well that was fun. I truely have no regrets about how I handled the situation, you know what, heres the convo to prove Im not an immature bastard and had my reasons!

At the moment my MSN name was You talk to me I block you! so she spelt it wrong cause yeah, she's smart like that.

Kelly: so if i talk to u ur gonna black me?

Josh: no I need to talk to you

Kelly: ok about what?

Josh: about us and your last survey

Kelly: shit.... u read that?

Kelly: ill brb

Josh: I always frigen read them you know that

Kelly: ok im back

Josh: Im listening

Kelly: to what?

Josh: To why you put that

Kelly: to why i put what?

Josh: Your last survey

Josh: the reason you said

Josh: OH shit you read that

Kelly: i dunno

Josh: that hurt you know that

Kelly: im srry

Josh: are you

Kelly: i dunno am I?

Josh: frankly I don't what your thinking Kelly

Kelly: well gee golly my.... neither do i

Josh: and your being sarcastic in this conversation

Josh: how do you feel about us right now because frankly, when I talk to yeah Im happy, but you go away with out saying it, then I sit there and wait and you all of a sudden change your name that your gone

Kelly: i dunno... sumtimes i have other things to do so i wonder away fromt the computer... i am known for doing that

Josh: yeah but you still don't even say good bye when you perminantly leave

Kelly: srry.... i do that alot too

Josh: you never before

Josh: not to me

Kelly: well things change

Josh: aparently

Josh: Im sick of these feelings right now...I have to much on my plate right now and its killing me

Kelly: yeah thats what everyone says

Josh: Does everyone have there mother leaving them, there girlfriend seemingly lossing interest

Kelly: well i dunno my mother has cancer and may not be here at all in the near future so basically my mother is leaving me

Josh: not own her own free will

Kelly: yeah well there is a big difference here.... u have the option of going with ur mother and u are choosing not to go so that is not total abandonment. and my mother on the other hand may very well be dying. so she can never come back thus meaning i will never be able to see her once she does go

Josh: then they are on different playing levels

Josh: so they arn't the same situation

Josh: but its not the fact I don't want to go, I would love to, but reality is forcing me to stay

Josh: I have my own life in which I can't just totally abandon to follow someone elses dream

Kelly: well again its ur own decision

Josh: were getting off topic, Im not talking with you to find out how tragic both our lives our I want to talk about us

Kelly: ok talk about what

Josh: why do you think we are at this point

Kelly: what point?

Josh: this conversation

Josh: what happened touas

Kelly: we never get to talk anymore and lets face it we'll never get to see eachother either so i dunno

Josh: you look at us wih no hope

Josh: I see

Kelly: i dont have hope for many things because nothing ever comes true so there is no point in hoping for anything cuz once u get ur hopes up and then things crash then u are left more broken hearted then if u dont gope for anything

Josh: things don't come true unless you make them come true, thats why you should hope

Kelly: yea,.....

Josh: but it doesn't no matter what I say and how I say it, you won't change your self because change is... ]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10111325/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10111325/ Mon, 18 Sep 2006 12:35:35 PDT
Well anyway I get to live with my grandfather untill I move out, which won't be long by the look of things living with him...I'll be angry all the time and just a bastard to everyone I know cause he will get on my nerves with everything must be done when he says it must be...I also feel sorry for my cats and hoppy my Rabit, Rocky my cat loves my mother and goes into a depression evertime she goes away, hopefully he will get over it, and Hoppy, I don't like him but you love things like that so I can't get rid of him...and I know my grandfather won't clean the cage so I will be stuck with it so yeah for bunnies...I still don't know how I feel about the whole situation...I think IM kinda of stunned about it all...because of mother son relations, I should probally go with her, but I can't just pack up and leave everything I have started, I guess this is the whole leaving home feeling with out leaving home....I guess I have finally reached that point in which I have to make a lot more decisions on my own...but I must look toward the good in my life so IM thinking if I can I will go down to see Kelly sometime soon and hopefully that will lighten my spirit...but when your depressed your depressed....but hey, I'll just write and make everything look fine on the outside...Im good at that...

Well Im tired of typing Im going to go meditate and think about a lot of things that I have put off to the side...see ya.

Josh ]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10101690/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/10101690/ Sun, 17 Sep 2006 13:26:46 PDT
I have a lot to blog about, but I hate telling people why I am meh when they are a part of it...a lot of shit has been running through my head and I feel like a total ditz for thinking shit like it but I have been given the incentive. Im going to drop this subject before I get angry.

Last thing is Im making an animation of a snake character, he is a bitch to draw, and a lot of scales, so I better get some appreciation for throwing my life out the window to get this done. lol.

Well yeah thats my life, a little happy, a little sad, and little weird, but hey its my life not yours so don't concern yuorself to much!

Over and out!

Josh Wolf ]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/9633817/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/9633817/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 20:34:33 PDT
for once I blog with a happy ending!

Love Josh ]]> ~VashWolf http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/9476638/ http://VashWolf.deviantart.com/journal/9476638/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 08:40:46 PDT


Now for the main attraction, the man who's hearts lies pierced and wounded on the wood floor as people walk by with out care or notice. Yesterday I finally got someone who was avoiding me to give me the reason why, this is relativly a good thing but let me explain the whole story...Boy meets girl, boy and girl connect, boy and girl happy. Girl and Boy meet, boy and girl have amazing day together, boy and girl kiss, boy and girl are satisfied with life...Boy and girl continue to talk...girl no longer talks...Boy begs, but gets no answers....Boy finally gets to girl and she gives him nothing but sorrow. The whole you deserve better, I don't care what I deserve, I don't care at the moment how many girls are out there....it not to me what I deserve to have my hopes raised high and then being pushed back in the big vastness of lonelyness. Again I deserve what I deserve and something I deserve is something I want...and god damnit I wanted her...and the fact that I know so many people who give this reason, I a reason I now HATE beyond all fucking believe even more then I ever did, is the ex who comes back...the rat bastard left you twice and you love him, because you want something you can't have...thats just shitty. Oh and I forgot he smoothed talked you with he just broke up and was happy you found someone, but what the fuck lets have another spin, fuck the kid "Josh", he won't mind being stabbed in the back and bitch slapped by someone he trusted dearly... Last night was harder then talking to you, I had to try and sleep, I went to bed at 2:30am and it was pretty warm in my room, but I was oh so cold, my chest and stomach ached, and as I tosed and turned begging to be able to cry but I have forgotten how, I wanted to so badly to relieve the chemical off balance in my system so that I could finally have some suttle peace, but NO, Josh isn't allowed to have anything...I fucking sat there tossing and turning thinking of that day we had and how happy I felt and how I couldn't feel it anymore, it had left me...thats when it happened, I started to twitch and convulse. It was to much for me to take....reality was fucking eating me alive and all I could do was convulse, I wanted to be sick and have it be done with but again I can't do anything the easyway...nothing is easy, Im not even allowed to cry, I didn't even sleep till an hour ago pretty much, dozed in and out of some sort of sleep but thats not enought,not even close...... Fuck life and everyone who lives life....I don't like it anymore...I know this may sound a bit pathetic, oh you didn't know her that long, I connected to her better then I connect to then my best friends, she was......different...and her low self of steam towards herself is going to drive me insane...I want to remain friends and all, hey its not like my heart is broken, all I had from it was a technical minor seizsure...but still thats just a chemical off balance in my system... Im so sick of this shit that happens, because nothing goes right these days, society is crumbling toward destruction...And if one person tells me, oh don't worry there is more fish in the sea, you got your whole life to chosse from them, I'm going to fucking slit your goddamned throat, I know god damn well that there is more then one girl in the world, but this is how I feel now, so shut up...my stomach is and lungs are hurting now, so Im going to post this and make sure EVERYONE I know reads it, I hope you read it...I still wanna be friends but thats just how I feel about it....3 times is bullshit and you know it....



Signed in blood from my dying heart

Joshua Wilcox ]]> ~VashWolf