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My friend David and I've been bonding a bit the last few days but our friendship fucked up a year ago and every time we have fixed things it fucks up again. Now everything has been on the mend for a couple of months! I'm feeling positive about things! If we don't try what then?
David is in a relationship with another good friend of mine, who I actually met because they two were having problems but the two of us really bonded and have become really good friends.

The fact that David and I always seem to work through the problems is astonishing to me as to be honest, we've called each other the worst names and said the worst things. Which is sad as I really do care for him and love. He really has a place in my heart and it's hard to deny that I've probably given him more chances then I should, but I don't regret giving him those chances.

I am seeing both him and Louise when I go over to England next week! That is also really making my bubble burst! I AM GOING TO LONDON! I can't wait to see my friends. I miss them so!

I better get you of the hook now but expect more as it closes up on my flight!

Care, V.

]]> ~Viska http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/22528311/ http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/22528311/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 15:33:58 PST
Two weeks ago the guy I'd been with for close to 11 months and I split up. Partially my 'fault' he lives in England and I in Iceland, I am the one that moved away from England because I wanted to be closer to my family and do some college.
I am almost okay by now but I am just really lost, I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know who to talk to about what I am thinking any more, my ex has been that person for over a year and now I don't really feel overly comfortable talking to him about my thoughts... especially not about him and my feelings.
We are going to try be friends, I am all for that but sometimes I am not sure if it will work out that way. It might but then again it might not.
I don't want to be in a relationship with someone that clearly doesn't understand my need to do what I am doing. But it is hard when you've put SO much effort into something to have it blowing up in your face.

I don't want to fall in love again, at least not for a while, I want to concentrate on myself before I loose my heart again. I've only REALLY fallen in love three times and my ex was the third.

I don't fall in love easily. For me it's something that has to build. I don't believe in love at first sight, I however believe in lust at first sight. Love is something that happens over some span of time. Before falling in love with the ones I've been in love with I've had a very good friendship with them and I trusted them with nearly everything or everything.

I've thrown myself into photography and studying now. I want to become something, or somebody. Perhaps that's just wishful thinking.

And for now rant is over.

V.

]]> ~Viska http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/22456036/ http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/22456036/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 16:25:44 PST
I've got a trip to London coming up on the 19th February and today I decided that I am going to Canada this summer! I need to do something for myself and this is what I am going to do!

I love travelling... and it's going to be nice to bring my camera with me and just enjoying taking lots of picture and spending time in good company!

V. xxx

]]> ~Viska http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/21561751/ http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/21561751/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 06:08:39 PST
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It's just hard to remember that I've got two places to put this on! Will add them on here soon though, promise!

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Care, V.

]]> ~Viska http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/20599549/ http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/20599549/ Sun, 21 Sep 2008 10:17:45 PDT
I am a deviant. I am a masochist. I am a sadist. I am a dominant. I am a submissive. I am someone that doesn't have much to worry about but that worries others around me because I just don't give a damn.

I am just not interested in all the small talk and all the silly words. I am selfcentered. I don't care if there isn't world peace, there is NEVER going to be world peace so beautyqueens start singing another song!

There are things that matter to me. They just aren't something that I discuss everyday.

]]> ~Viska http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/15873006/ http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/15873006/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 06:44:53 PST
I've let so many into my life lately and I've allowed myself to love and to care. I've fallen in and out of love, I care for so many and the fact that I understand now that I will always have someone standing by me even if it feels like I am standing alone.

One of my best friends is who is a constant reminder of that I am not alone, I find it calming to hear his voice when we chat and to get a hug of him once in a while makes things better. Friends and the hugs that they have to offer are the best way of feeling a bit better when you're all out of energy.

Just recently I moved to Carshalton, I am living with two lad there that I had never met in my life till I went to see the flat, and even then I only met one of them, Josh. Then a couple of days after saying that I'd love to live there I also met Neil, they are both great lads and they make me smile. Josh even makes me take a break from the real world once in a while, it's just calming having them there when I get home, even if I don't talk to them or anything I can just hear them around, it makes me feel safe. This is the flaw of having grown up in a big family... you get use to always hearing something around you.

I am going to Iceland in a few days time, I am going to be spending time with my family, even when I've been asked to work the first day I'm in Iceland to do a little work which isn't too bad, getting paid for one day that I spend in Iceland. I can even take my brother with me doing those things.

Anyways... I better keep working!

Love. V

]]> ~Viska http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/13649320/ http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/13649320/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 17:19:58 PDT
I never knew how much effect it would have on me when I would finally get a move on things and get through things my way... I've been rather lost in this department but believe me it's getting better.

At this moment I'm back west at my folks, they are working on the new house and I'm trying to be helpful the best way I can... I've never liked being here for long but I've been here for almost ten days and most of it has been good... Friday was best because I went riding on Taran... I rather enjoyed that... Taran is my horse by the way...

I can't wait to get to England... I should REALLY be blogging on my real blog...

]]> ~Viska http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/13069121/ http://Viska.deviantart.com/journal/13069121/ Wed, 23 May 2007 21:13:08 PDT
I miss David, I need Him to be around me and tell me that everything will be okay even if I am scared shitless of the future and present, I've faced the past so now I can't hide among the shadows that were there so now I've got to make up my mind about the future... I've got to find my bravery and face what's ahead.

I'm moving to England in 57 days and 3 hours and 35 minutes... well that's just how long it is till the plane leaves...

Packing soon.

Love. Sveina

]]> ~Viska